http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:disobedient-slave&section=today deviantART RSS for by:disobedient-slave en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 20:19:20 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/21050201/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/21050201/ Sat, 18 Oct 2008 16:11:32 PDT I am sick of the treachoury
I am sick of perpetual loneliness

I find something or someone new to care for, and as quickly as it appears, it is torn from me. Do the Gods relish in my suffering? Do the Fates laugh at my expense? In my short time on this forsaken rock, I have dealt with things no person should have to. I will not say I've endured more then another, there are those poor souls who have endured, and witnessed attrocities no being, no person, no Deity, should have to. Yet I can't help but ponder why I am plagued with a heart that feels nothing, and feels to much all at once. I once had a wall, it protected me from the outside, and protected the outside from my twisted self.
I find that I'm continually compelled to rip out my own heart, and spit on it. Forbidden from joy.

I am forsaken
I am lost
I am alone.

Must it always be so?

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He stays up for days on end.



You take a warm shower to help you wake up.

He goes days or weeks without running water.



You complain of a "headache", and call in sick.

He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.


You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends.

He still fights for your right to wear that shirt.



You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket.

He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags.



You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you.

He knows he may not see some of his buddies again.



You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.

He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.



You complain about how hot it is.

He wears his heavy gear, not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his brow.



You go out to lunch, and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong.

He doesn't get to eat today.



Your maid makes your bed and washes your clothes.

He wears the same things for weeks, but makes sure his weapons are clean.



You go to the mall and get your hair redone.

He doesn't have time to brush his teeth today.



You're angry because your class ran 5 minutes over.

He's told he will be held over an extra 2 months.



You call your girlfriend and set a date for tonight.

He waits for the mail to see if there is a letter from home.



You hug and kiss your girlfriend, like you do everyday.

He holds his letter close and smells his love's perfume.



You roll your eyes as a baby cries.

He gets a letter with pictures of his new child, and wonders if they'll ever meet.



You criticize your government, and say that war never solves anything.

He sees the innocent tortured and killed by their own people and remembers why he is fighting.



You hear the jokes about the war, and make fun of men like him.

He hears the gunfire, bombs and screams of the wounded.



You see only what the media wants you to see.

He sees the broken bodies lying around him.



You are asked to go to the store by your parents. You don't.

He does exactly what he is told even if it puts his life in danger.



You stay at home and watch TV.

He takes whatever time he is given to call, write home, sleep, and eat.



You crawl into your soft bed, with down pillows, and get comfortable.

He tries to sleep but gets woken by mortars and helicopters all night long.



If you support your troops, repost the bulliten.

If you don't support your troops well, then don't re-post. You won't die in 7 days, your love life won't be affected, and you won't have the worst day ever. You don't have to repost. It's not like you know the men and women that are dying to preserve your rights.

]]> ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/15824856/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/15824856/ Thu, 06 Dec 2007 17:37:04 PST I'm being patient, something new to me. For some reason, you seem worth it.
I feel alone, I feel scared.
I wonder if I'll be remembered, or if I'll die alone, and never be mentioned again. My greatest fear.
It brings tears to my eyes, something I'm not used to.
I fear for myself, I fear being alone. I fear being forgot.
Leave me to my thoughts, and I'll destroy myself. Be there, and I'll destroy you. An endless circle.
I hate me. I am alone. It is as it should be, I'll keep you safe. I'll die alone. I'll be forgot.

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Would you miss it if you died tomorrow? I'm not sure I would, and that doesn't bother me...

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]]> ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/13118616/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/13118616/ Sun, 27 May 2007 22:14:48 PDT [link] awesome guys, groovy tunes.

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]]> ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/12753532/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/12753532/ Fri, 27 Apr 2007 11:00:23 PDT 1:35, finish tying shoes.

A mere second in the grand scheme of things, but more than half an hour to tie my shoes, and it only seemed like 35 seconds. It's hard to decide whether I love, or despise a complete zone out like that. On one hand, it's 35 minutes of nothingness, a pure escape. Nothing to bother me, no worries, no pain, nothing. On the other, it's 35 minutes that illustrate what my life is like, 35 minutes that tell me that I have nothing, nothing but the air I breathe, and the blood that runs through my veins. I suppose I'll love it this time, it's given me something to think about for the last half hour, something that only I can be thinking. My very own 35 minutes.

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But what the fuck is it?

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]]> ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/10182874/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/10182874/ Mon, 25 Sep 2006 13:37:24 PDT [x] The shoes you wore today: Black lo-top chucks
[x] Your eyes: Blue-ish grey
[x] Your fears: Spiders
-----------------WHAT IS------------------
[x] Your most overused phrase on msn: lol
[x] Your thoughts when first waking up: Damnit...back to sleep.
[x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: Eyes
[x] Your bedtime: Anytime between now, and this time tomorrow.
[x] Your most missed memory: m-e-m-o-r-y?

-----------------YOU PREFER------------------
[x] Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: Neither.
[x] Single or group dates: Single.
[x] Adidas or Nike: Neither
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate.
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee.

-----------------DO YOU------------------
[x] Smoke: Trying to quit.
[x] Curse: All the time.
[x] Take a shower everyday: Yup.
[x] Have any crushes?: Not now.
[x] Who are they: ^
[x] Do you think you've been in love? True love? No.
[x] Want to go to college: There.
[x] Like high school: No.
[x] Want to get married: yupp.
[x] Type w/ your fingers on home keys: Occasionally.
[x] Believe in yourself: Not really.
[x] Get motion sickness: No.
[x] Think you're a health freak: No.
[x] Get along with your parents: With my mom.
[x] Like thunderstorms: Love 'em.

------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID / HAVE YOU--------------
[x] Gone to the mall: Yes.
[x] Eaten sushi: No.
[x] Been on stage: No.
[x] Been dumped: No.
[x] Gone skating: No.
[x] Made homemade cookies: No.
[x] Dyed your hair: No.
[x] Stolen anything: Nope.

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
[x] Flown on a plane: Yup.
[x] Missed school because it was raining? Yup.
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: A few times.
[x] Cried during a Movie?: Yes.
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot?: ...
[x] Had an imaginary friend: A few
[x] Cut your hair: Often.
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: No.
[x] Been caught "doing something": Once or twice.
[x] Been called a tease: Yes.
[x] Gotten beaten up?: Nope.
[x] Been in a fight: No.
[x] Shoplifted: No.
-----------------THE FUTURE------------------
[x] Age you hope to be married: Before I die.
[x] Numbers of Children: 1
[x] Descibe your Dream Wedding: So long as it's NOT in a church I don't care at the moment.
[x] How do you want to die?: In some horribly gorey way.
[x] What do you want to be when you grow up?: Alive.
[x] What country would you most like to visit?: Romania

-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------
[x] Number of Boyfriends/Girlfriends: 6
[x] Number of drugs taken illegally: 1
[x] Number of people I could trust with my life: 0
[x] Number of CDs that I own: 20
[x] Number of piercing: 5
[x] Number of tattoos: 0
[x] Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? 0
[x] Number of scars on my body: Not a bloody clue.

----------------FAVORITES------------------
[x] Shampoo: Down Under Naturals.
[x] Fav Colours: Crimson.
[x] Day/Night: Night.
[x] Summer/Winter: Summer.
[x] Lace or Satin: Satin.
[x] Fave Cartoon: Happy Tree Friends.
[x] Fave Food: Steak and veggies.
[x] Fave Movie: Gladiator.
[x] Fave sport: Soccer.

----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
[x] Right Now Wearing: Jeans and a t-shirt.
[x]drinking?: Nothing.
[x] Thinking about: 'Why is it so damn cold in here.'
[x] Listening to: Filthee - Otep

---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
[x] Cried: No.
[x] Worn jeans: Yup.
[x] Met someone new: No.
[x] Done laundry: No.
[x] Drove a car: Nope.

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
[x] Yourself: Rarely.
[x] Your friends: A few.
[x] Santa Claus: No.
[x] Tooth Fairy: No.
[x] Destiny/fate: No.
[x] Ghosts: That would require a page of explanation, but yes.
[x] UFO's: How can I if they're unidentified?
[x] God: God was created to explain things stupid people couldn't.

------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
[x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: Often.
[x] Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: No.
[x] Do you like anyone?: Not at the moment.
[x] Are you close to any family member?: My sister.
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: Ignorance.
[x] What's the worst feeling in the world?: Wakefulness.

]]> ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/10013779/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/10013779/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 21:11:26 PDT ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8637432/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8637432/ Mon, 01 May 2006 03:53:18 PDT ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8621879/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8621879/ Sat, 29 Apr 2006 13:47:51 PDT ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8598740/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8598740/ Thu, 27 Apr 2006 05:37:43 PDT
In other news, ONE FUCKING WEEK LEFT! GOODBYE FRENCHIES! Home to the best place...well best country, and to the best people in the universe, those who decide to put up with me! Miss you all so much, and you know I mean it. See you all soon!

Ciao ]]> ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8519898/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8519898/ Wed, 19 Apr 2006 10:51:19 PDT
Someone came up to me today and told me that I was an alcoholic. I didn't even know this frenchie, it was odd. So I proceded to explain the difference between an alcoholic and a drunk. They got very confused. I enjoyed it very much...so much so, that I felt like having a beer to celebrate...mind you, I'm always in the mood for a beer aren't I? Oh well, I can admit that I'm a drunk, and i have no problem with it. I enjoy booze-a-hol, and there ain't nothin' nobody can do 'bout it! lol Any who, in a surprisingly good mood, no clue why, it might be becasue I feel confident for once...I like this...anywho, I'm off to hunt down that elusive, good french beer. Ciao for now. ]]> ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8517823/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8517823/ Wed, 19 Apr 2006 06:11:58 PDT ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8484641/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8484641/ Sun, 16 Apr 2006 01:05:45 PDT ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8291618/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8291618/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 05:51:34 PST Punk: A joint, laced with special K...Why? Why would one lace a relaxing drug with a super relaxing halucinogen? WTF is wrong with these people?

In other news, our school was on strike today. No, not the teachers, the students. They baracaded the doors, and stayed outside all day, in the pouring rain. Ok a lil odd, but apparently for a good cause (which i didn't bother to find out), but this afternoon, the sun came out, and people got happier, and created hippy circles. Sitting around, smiling, pacing a joint around in one case, and singing songs. Fata, you would have gone berserk on these tree huggin lil bastards(and they are tree huggers, you can't go to any super market here and buy something that isn't a health food in one way or another, or talk to someone who isn't for all out saving of the environment). I dislike hippies. There was the plus side of me not having to go to class today though, and apparently they plan on doing it tomorrow too. NO CLASS! ]]> ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8270900/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8270900/ Sun, 26 Mar 2006 03:03:06 PST
In other news, i have a big ass bruise on my right hand, that hurts like a bitch. I was juggling with my rings yesterday, and one of them shmuked me, edge first on my right thumb. They're so much kooler than balls, but so much more painful. Oh and i think i'm gonna fail. Fail what, you ask? My online courses that i'm supposed to be doing to stay in france. You need to be registered as a student to take part in the program, but i honestly couldn't a flying rats ass. All the shit they're giving me is retarded, i swear, if this is what they're teaching country wide, we are one fucking dumb country. It's fucking insulting. I mean seriously, it's grade 12 english, and they're asking us to pick out the action words in sentences. WTF!!!!!! Ok, so that made me feel better. Still not gonna do the work tho...i mean seriously, would you? ]]> ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8136224/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8136224/ Sun, 12 Mar 2006 05:16:16 PST ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8024208/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8024208/ Tue, 28 Feb 2006 03:07:45 PST [link] . Or I'll have a thousand pirates come take a bath in your kitchen sink!

Yes I know, you're thinking I've lost my mind...and I'm thinking that you're a lil slow. But this is wonnerful stuff people, it made me squeel...I havn't squeeled since, the GTA episode of VGCats. So, if it's good enough to make me squeel, you know that there has got to be something good about it...SO DO IT!! Or...www.skary.net ]]> ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8007302/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/8007302/ Sun, 26 Feb 2006 10:14:01 PST ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/7939490/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/7939490/ Sun, 19 Feb 2006 02:01:46 PST
]]> ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/7873458/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/7873458/ Sun, 12 Feb 2006 12:11:30 PST ~disobedient-slave http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/7853228/ http://disobedient-slave.deviantart.com/journal/7853228/ Fri, 10 Feb 2006 05:59:23 PST ~disobedient-slave