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deviantART: by:divinshki http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:divinshki&section=today deviantART RSS for by:divinshki en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 10 Dec 2009 06:12:06 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png New Poems http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/28824560/ http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/28824560/ Tue, 08 Dec 2009 12:30:36 PST "This was for a school project. Mine was on abuse, and I had to put myself into someone else's mind to write this."
are from my senior project for high school. A lot are from court cases I saw.
Some of them have some bit of me hiding in them.
There are eleven of them because I had to make a book.
Should I submit all of them at once?

]]> ~divinshki Stolen art. :| http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/28746837/ http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/28746837/ Fri, 04 Dec 2009 13:43:24 PST
If you see it anywhere else please tell me or report it.

This is the first time this has happened.

]]> ~divinshki Mood disorder. o_O http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/28418874/ http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/28418874/ Tue, 17 Nov 2009 17:12:21 PST

I went to my counselor today and apparently I have a mood disorder. She's watching me for bipolar and I'm going on Abilify, a medicine that's an antipsychotic and a mood stabilizer.

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]]> ~divinshki o_O http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/28394741/ http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/28394741/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 13:17:59 PST

My grandparents now know that I'm gay. That was....interesting to say the least. Apparently being gay ain't a sin but acting on it is. Fine, then I sin.

you Kalie.

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]]> ~divinshki song of the moment http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/28240379/ http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/28240379/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 13:02:45 PST

I was listening to this song by Breaking Benjamin and it was like somebody slapped me or something. May I present: Dear Agony.

I have nothing left to give
I have found the perfect end
You were made to make it hurt
Disappear into the dirt
Carry me to heaven's arms
Light the way and let me go
Take the time to take my breath
I will end where I began

And I will find the enemy whithin
Because I can feel it crawl beneath my skin

Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Dear Agony

Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Don't bury me
Faceless enemy
I'm so sorry
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear Agony

Suddenly
The lights go out
Let forever
Drag me down
I will fight for one last breath
I will fight until the end

And I will find the enemy within
Because I can feel it crawl beneath my skin

Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Don't bury me
Faceless enemy
I'm so sorry
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear Agony

Leave me alone
God let me go
I'm blue and cold
Black sky will burn
Love pull me down
Hate lift me up
Just turn around
There's nothing left

Somewhere far beyond this world
I feel nothing anymore

Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Don't bury me
Faceless enemy
I'm so sorry
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear Agony

I feel nothing anymore.

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]]> ~divinshki testing testing http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/28239112/ http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/28239112/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 12:28:14 PST

testing new journal thing.

and I'm a moron and don't know how to change the featured thing, that came with the skin.

So.... new things.

I'm way behind on my school work because the mental thing keeps distracting me. That, and I think I'm getting sick, which I absolutely love. I have new videos of Rocket (The horse, the brown and white one in my picture "Famous") if anyone wants to see them. Warning: I have a lot, simply because I'm in love with that horse.

I have no clue what else to say here, so I'm shutting up.

This is why I've mostly stopped doing journals.
I have no clue what I'm supposed to say.

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]]> ~divinshki Feature http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/27098867/ http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/27098867/ Tue, 08 Sep 2009 16:27:41 PDT

It is absolutely amazing and if you don't read it you are MAJORLY missing out.

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]]> ~divinshki Update thing here http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/26713386/ http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/26713386/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 13:02:10 PDT
Sorry I haven't been more...social, It has been rude and I didn't want to explode on anyone.

The people that say everything but someone's mind can be taken are wrong.

Told my grandmother about It and the hallucinations. She's telling the counselor Tuesday.

(told counselor, counselor wants me to tell my neurologist, thinks maybe it might have something to do with my Epilepsy.

I don't think so. She thinks maybe he might also send me to a psychiatrist. I think she's giving up on me. Not that I'm surprised.)

]]> ~divinshki dA family o_O http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/25511275/ http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/25511275/ Wed, 24 Jun 2009 07:15:07 PDT XD

Comment here if you wanna join.

pet husky:

sister:

planet I live on:

little sister:

]]> ~divinshki Hadamar http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/24619736/ http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/24619736/ Wed, 06 May 2009 14:39:45 PDT The police/Nazis would take people out of hospitals or away from their homes and tell their families they were just going to another hospital where they could get better medical care. They put the handicapped people in buses with the windows painted over so no one could see out and no one could see in. They took them to a castle and 'disposed' of them.

I'm looking for a picture of a wheelchair I can photomanipulate because I just feel like Hadamar needs attention drawn to it.

"denn Gott kann nicht wollen, dab kranke und gieche lich in kranken und Giechen fortpflanzen."

Because God can not want the sick and ailing to reproduce. Direct Nazi propaganda quote. The best part? Goebelles, the Nazi propaganda creator, had a club foot.

]]> ~divinshki Don't know why I'm putting this here. http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/23473351/ http://divinshki.deviantart.com/journal/23473351/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 15:29:14 PST Today is National Self Injury Awareness Day
so this is my story.I know it's a pathetic one.Feel free to laugh,shake your head, virtually yell at me, whatever.

I started self injury when I was five years old. Headbanging and burning with water. It was controlled then. There was no need to do it, I just did it because I thought I had to have done something bad if my dad was mad at me.

Continued the same things until I was around 12. That's when I became addicted. Everything changed for me when I was twelve. My body changed. Cerebral Palsy got worse, Epilepsy got worse, scoliosis got worse. I started researching stuff, finding out what would work and what wouldn't. I refused to tell anyone that stuff hurt. To me, that was, and is, weakness. Even on the days I was having to hold onto the wall to be able to walk, I still maintained the illusion that I was perfectly fine. I've noticed I still do that. Sometimes I'd fall down at home and have to crawl to my room. But I got up as soon as I could.
Then we moved in the summer that I was twelve. Thanksgiving when I was 13, everything changed again. I'd been refusing to cut,ever. Sure, I choked myself with the cord on the blinds, I burned, I headbanged, but somehow cutting was worse than any of that stuff. I don't remember exactly what happened. I do remember that I ended up locking myself in my room, which I'm not supposed to do. I'm not allowed to lock the door because of my Epilepsy. I had a lot of knives then. I didn't use them for anything except opening CDs and stuff like that. I made a tiny cut about 2 inches long. Later that graduated to what I frequently refer to, the "DIE" scar. Almost all of it has faded except some parts of the E.
I stopped everything for about two years when I was 14/15. Then I started again when I was 16. My father can be thanked for that... Now it's an addiction, sometimes having to do it every 20- 30 minutes. I don't usually cut, though I do have one mark from my waist to my knee.
Yes, I've left a lot out. Thought I'd spare you if anyone decided to read this...sorry.

]]> ~divinshki