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                <title>;;;;,,,,,.....</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 23 Apr 2008 01:22:42 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ every time, <br />just like the last<br />on my ship, tied to the mast.<br />takes both my hands, from distant lands<br />never a frown <br />with golden brown.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>People</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 29 Feb 2008 21:31:13 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ who watch or fave me, expecting polished deviations<br /><br />are retarded.<br /><br />'cause that ain't how ah roll.<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>LOUDER louder</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 21 Jan 2008 21:53:00 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am totally confident and skilled?<br />
<br />
DUH.<br />
<br />
<br />
<i>mastapwn'd.</i><br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>louder LOUDER</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 09 Jan 2008 19:25:00 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ yeah<br />
<br />
<br />
i'm in the right groove.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>TAGASAURUS </title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 02 Dec 2007 18:43:32 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ THE RULES:<br />
1. Must answer all questions.<br />
2. Be honest.<br />
3. Tag 6 other people.<br />
<br />
NAME: Maduufff<br />
BIRTHPLACE: A L'HOPITAL. <br />
CURRENT LOCATION: LASJFLKSAFLSADFJSAD<br />
EYE COLOR: Blue<br />
HAIR COLOR: brown with lighter and darker patches<br />
HEIGHT: 5'3"<br />
L/R HANDED: Right<br />
THE SHOES YOU WORE TODAY: ma work shoez, lame white sneakz.<br />
YOUR WEAKNESS: music, zen, helping people<br />
YOUR PERFECT PIZZA:  the tasty kind.<br />
GOAL TO ACHIEVE THIS YEAR: to rock at life.<br />
MOST OVERUSED PHRASE ON AN INSTANT MESSENGER: yeah<br />
YOUR BEDTIME: anytime i want.<br />
YOUR MOST MISSED MEMORY: The good life...<br />
McDONALDS OR BURGER KING: BK <br />
LIPTON ICE TEA OR NESTEA: nestea. because lipton reminds me of tightwads<br />
CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: Vanilla<br />
CAPPUCCINO OR COFFEE: sure sure<br />
DO YOU SMOKE: TUMBLEWEED!<br />
DO YOU SWEAR: on the bible.<br />
DO YOU SING:  Yes.<br />
DO YOU SHOWER DAILY: I wish.<br />
HAVE YOU BEEN IN LOVE:  I'm pretty goddamn sure.<br />
DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED: Yes. Unless I can make a living on the streets pimpin the hos. =[<br />
DO YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF: in many ways yes, in many ways no.<br />
DO YOU GET MOTION SICKNESS: not really.<br />
ARE YOU A HEALTH FREAK: YES but not.<br />
DO YOU LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: HELLA.<br />
DO YOU PLAY AN INSTRUMENT: i do indeed.<br />
<br />
In the past month have you...<br />
<br />
1. DRANK ALCOHOL: I can't remember<br />
2. SMOKED: why would i?<br />
3. BEEN ON DRUGS: who isn't.<br />
4. GONE TO A MALL: nope.<br />
5. EATEN A BOX OF OREOS: NADA.<br />
6. EATEN SUSHI: yep<br />
7. BEEN ON STAGE: YEP x2<br />
8. BEEN DUMPED: no.<br />
<br />
DO YOU WORK: yeah. suck it.<br />
IS A BOY/GIRL: IS CAN HAS CHZBRGR<br />
FAVORITE EYE COLOR: don't have one <br />
FAVORITE HAIR COLOR: i know what I want... but i like a lot of different colors on others<br />
SHORT OR LONG HAIR: Any length is good as long as they have hair?<br />
BEST CLOTHING STYLE: whatevers tight. basically michas. XDD<br />
NUMBER OF CDS I OWN: tons. but very few are legit albums.<br />
NUMBER OF PIERCINGS: one in each ear. the second I turn 18, that will change.<br />
NUMBER OF TATTOOS: none.<br />
THINGS IN MY PAST I REGRET: WELL A LOT OF THINGS.<br />
<br />
I tag...<br />
<br />
<a href="http://9achild.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/9/a/9achild.jpg" width="50" height="50" alt=":icon9achild:" title="9achild"/></a>   <a href="http://elektra-requiem.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/e/l/elektra-requiem.jpg" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconelektra-requiem:" title="elektra-requiem"/></a>    <a href="http://thomasa.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/t/h/thomasa.jpg" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconthomasa:" title="thomasa"/></a>    <a href="http://brass-butterfly.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/b/r/brass-butterfly.jpg" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconbrass-butterfly:" title="brass-butterfly"/></a>  <a href="http://restlessyouth.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/r/e/restlessyouth.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconrestlessyouth:" title="restlessyouth"/></a><br />
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<br />
i give up. WHOEVER READS THIS IS F#CKING TAGGED.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>thanksgiving</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 22 Nov 2007 20:57:38 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ happy day, fuckers!<br />
<br />
<3 <3 <3<br />
<br />
i love you!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>why am i here?</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 12 Nov 2007 19:38:55 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i fucking hate this.  I DONT NEED TO BE HERE. but here i am. and all i am doing is pissing off my dad and micha, and doing my homework.  I HAVE NO PURPOSE HERE.<br />
<br />
<br />
WHAT THE HELL?<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>hah</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 21 Oct 2007 02:06:19 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i have such bad luck.... $54 gave me one week of a good camera.  <br />
whatevs.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>=)</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 08 Oct 2007 05:37:59 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ mmmmm. gotz mah own camera again.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>Growth</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 07 Oct 2007 01:33:48 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ everything is different<br />
everything is the same<br />
everything is planned<br />
everything is dependable<br />
everything is busy<br />
everything is unpredictable<br />
everything is fine!<br />
<br />
yet nothing is right<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>Having a bit of a retarded evening</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 01 Oct 2007 23:09:54 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Tonight I was a retarded child. <br />
<br />
I've done... one out of three assignments.<br />
<br />
<br />
... music is worth it to me right now D<<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
The figures stop moving<br />
And the subway dies<br />
The clock stops ticking and the traffic sighs<br />
I canÂt keep living these strange goodbyes<br />
I need you ( I need you)<br />
<br />
<br />
I donÂt wannaÂ feel love<br />
I donÂt wannaÂ feel naked<br />
I donÂt wannaÂ feel love<br />
Without you<br />
<br />
<br />
When the dawn breaks<br />
I can feel the heat of your sun rising<br />
Rising up inside me<br />
I can feel the crash of your heart breaking<br />
<br />
Oh when the dawn breaks<br />
I can feel the heat of your sun rising<br />
Rising up inside me<br />
I can feel the waves of your heart rushing<br />
Rushing over me<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>BITCH</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 02 Sep 2007 14:31:15 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ FAVE MAH SHIT.<br />
NAO.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
XDDDD like i actually care<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>camera</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 11 Aug 2007 11:51:03 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i can finally afford to fix my camera. it's been over six months since i've been able to take a picture with it. so hopefully i'll get it to the shop before school starts....<br />
<br />
i'm pretty psyched!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>MOTHERFUCKER.</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 02 Aug 2007 20:20:33 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ COCK<br />
<br />
SUCKER.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
COCK COCK COCK COCK FUCK FUCK SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHITS SOSGHPISAGHQPPHADPGHDPOIAFSADAWEFJ(EJAFGERIA<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
anger is healthy... shut up.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>feel good hit of the summer</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 06 Jul 2007 01:42:54 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ lately things have been great. got a job, got my friends, got the sun, got the music. <br />
<br />
there's really not much else i need right now. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>:)</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 03 Jul 2007 00:39:35 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ and to think:<br />
all i really needed to know was that someone was smiling.<br />
<br />
<br />
??<br />
<br />
summer's pimp.  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/letters/=p.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":P" title=":P (Lick)" /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>memories</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 25 Jun 2007 13:44:36 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ sometimes people are fuckin PRICKS.  <br />
<br />
never forget that.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>birds...</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 31 May 2007 05:14:33 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ it's 5:15 a.m.<br />
<br />
birds are chirping.<br />
<br />
<br />
the sky is now a faint blue.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
it's quite beautiful.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
i been up all night. <br />
XD<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>as of may twelfth</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 12 May 2007 14:42:33 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TjNNxnKVEpQ">[link]</a><br />
bitches aint shit ....<br />
<br />
<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fHP62PkHpc">[link]</a><br />
trippy. and i love morcheeba.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
i don't know how he does it, but he makes me happy. <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
i don't feel like i've got anything to worry about - even though i know its not true.  this feeling is the music, the weekend, and just being in a settled frame of mind.<br />
<br />
<br />
raaave time  XD<br />
or homework :\<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>april</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 22 Apr 2007 16:18:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Comment on this journal and I will do the following:<br />
<br />
1. I'll respond with something random about you.<br />
2. I'll challenge you to try something.<br />
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you.<br />
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.<br />
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.<br />
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.<br />
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.<br />
8. If I do this for you, you must post this in your journal<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>mathular</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 15 Mar 2007 03:39:20 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ this is the last late night<br />
 i must devote<br />
 to bullshit like math <br />
until after spring break......<br />
<br />
<br />
IM STILL NOT DONE WITH THIS FUCKING PROJECT<br />
<br />
<br />
BAH<br />
<br />
<br />
i'm sooooo tarded.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>dear mother:</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 11 Mar 2007 12:34:50 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ its so hard! it takes so much effort, just to pretend to smile. life doesn't have to be so complicated.  and stufff.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>fave song of the moment</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 06 Mar 2007 00:20:02 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <a href="http://youtube.com/watch?v=bwpW9oH9taw">[link]</a><br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>wasteland.</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 02 Mar 2007 23:30:38 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ this is going to be a huge rant<br />
<br />
just  heads up.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
its that time again... time for me to feel like the dumbest shit on the face of the earth. time for me to wonder WHY i'm here. also what i really need, and what i really want....<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
i hate science fair. i work my ass off to barely meet the requirements, but half the projects i see at my school are so over my head that i can't even pronounce the title. i hate my parents for getting their hopes up that i might win something or do well. they should know i'm not into science. winning anything science-related is not what i want out of life.<br />
<br />
i hate a lot of people at my school. i'm jealous that they understand more about science and math than i do. i'm bitter that they're able to pay attention in those classes and furthermore, excel. i feel out of place.. and helpless... <br />
<br />
i hate my math teacher. he's pompous and curt. he's self-centered and bratty. i've never done so horribly in math... i used to even think i was good at it.<br />
<br />
i hate being my age, because i'm depending on so many people and i wish i didn't have to. <br />
<br />
i hate feeling insecure about myself. i hate fooling myself. <br />
i hate building a fence around myself.<br />
<br />
i hate my parents for trying to control me, always failing, and never learning from it. i hate them for jumping in and trying to "help" all the time. it never helps, because they're never able to make a difference. <br />
<br />
i hate them for hiding their expectations and displaying their concern when their secret wishes aren't met.<br />
<br />
for always being unsure. for not trusting their own potential. for always needing my clarification. <br />
<br />
i hate myself for not knowing what i want or how to get it. i hate myself for being so intimidated by everyone and not helping myself become who i want to be. and i hate my parents for questioning me every second of the day. for once, i wish they would just ACCEPT everything that happened. <br />
<br />
I wish they would just let me out of the house without making sure i know what i'm doing. i cant go on a fucking walk without them worrying. i cant go on a fucking run. no wonder i sit around the house all the time. their questions imprison me.<br />
<br />
they're holding me back, more than anyone in the word.<br />
i hate them for being so confused about me. their insecurity only heightens my own.<br />
<br />
it makes me feel so isolated.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
i wonder how free i could be if i left oes.  i wonder if i could handle myself better, if i wouldn't be so bogged down.<br />
<br />
 i wonder if i could survive, socially. i've grown to love many of my schoolfriends..<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>sweeet sweet moon tang.</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 20 Feb 2007 17:48:00 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i feel...<br />
<br />
<br />
like sweeeeeeet sweeet moooonn tang.<br />
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i hate running.... but i feeeel sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oorgasmic right nowwwwwwwwwwwww <br />
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well mor elike just.. happy. no orgasm. TEHRE'S NO <i>GAY</i> ON THE MOON, ARNOLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br />
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hahahahaha woo im on such fucking crack right now !?!?!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>jelly</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 11 Jan 2007 18:02:31 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ things have been sweet these past couple dayzz <br />
and now they suck.<br />
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i hate restrictions!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>hoo.</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 08 Jan 2007 20:59:49 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Angst? Bewaaare!! This is called growing...<br />
I'm in a sort of apathetic stage. It's a funk. I'll get through it temporarily, but I know it'll reoccur whenever I'm not distracted from it.<br />
<br />
I should be acting more responsibly. I'm getting older, not younger. I'm tired of wasting time on nothing. I'm tired of worrying for nothing, and I'm tired of not seeing any clear path.  Decisions harass me, and my parents are clueless. (I'm not exaggerating about the 'rents, trust me.)<br />
<br />
I've been noticing the difference between my best friends and my school friends, and auras with each of them. At school, i feel only up to a certain level of closeness with everyone because I'm paranoid of unknown people overhearing what they shouldn't. I'm paranoid of unknown people watching me, hearing me, and judging me when they haven't the faintest idea what's going on inside my head.   It's a small place, and people are attracted to learning about other people with minimal contact.<br />
<br />
I've gotten over the people-watching thing, it doesn't get to me anymore. But it adds to the fact that there aren't many places to escape to when I'm with ma school friends. There aren't many things to talk about. And there isn't much time to bond.. not at all.<br />
<br />
Whereas when I'm with my besties.. outsida school.. my sis and you crazy acma lovers.. everything's open. We know each other well enough and we have our own space to do whatever the hell we please.  <br />
<br />
Sometimes I wish I could have more moments like that with the people from school that I care about.  Not as replacements of course, but it seems almost like a waste.... to not know them as well. To not have half as many memories with. For them to be there when I actually do have something to say. <br />
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<br />
Well, I got something out... this isn't what I intended to write about originally, but there ya have it.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>quotin' time</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 30 Dec 2006 10:47:20 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ this is from last week:<br />
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<br />
micha: cause i'm M-DIZZLE!<br />
me: ..what the fuck!?! I"M m-dizzle!!!<br />
micha: then, what am I?!?!?<br />
me: dude, you're M-Wizzle.<br />
micha: AAAHHHH<br />
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<br />
<br />
 wtf! she's too emo to understand the GAANGSTANESS of LIFE.<br />
 <br />
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 i guess that's okay though. there's more to life than pimpin' out.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>&amp; the wailers</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 24 Dec 2006 17:27:17 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ waiting for mother and sister to be ready. we're going to christmasy places i guess.. my dad's playing at the gay club so we'll hit up the free food thurr.. and then who knows what next?! <br />
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christmas is tomorrow which is pretty P.I.M.P. I must say...<br />
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ah! they're ready.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>always....</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 11 Dec 2006 17:07:46 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /><br />
<br />
why do my writing inspirations come to me when i need to be studying?<br />
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and i'm not even kidding. first final in less than 48 hr.  shiiista.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>JOUARNALE</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 03 Dec 2006 21:54:46 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ wow, november was one CRAAAAAZZZZYmotherfucked up month<br />
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<3 <3 JISAFEYAHHHHH O YAHHHHHhh<br />
<br />
hello kids?  i smell another WIIII PARTTYYY !<br />
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merf. i hate sunday nights.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>uhblehh</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 10 Nov 2006 00:17:51 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i want to feel spiffeh<br />
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s<br />
o<br />
o<br />
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i need to find my camera.<br />
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<br />
aand finish french, writing<br />
science, a bit of writing<br />
 health, writing<br />
 english, reading.<br />
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<br />
and wake up early tomorrow to play my band solo cus im too tired to play now.<br />
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hahaa. life is crap.<br />
<br />
<3<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>YAY! [tiny]edit!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 05 Nov 2006 16:24:48 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ oh, SNAP! I got sick again!  It's only been like, a month and a week since last time. hot damn. But it's aight. I got sick on Friday the day we went to Puget and after a millions glasses of water and juce, and tons of vitamins, i feel soo much better. I won't have to miss school... but that's probably for the betta..<br />
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mmmyep, le puget. my mom, my sis and i. it was fantastic. best thing to happen to me in awhile.<br />
 <br />
their volleyball CRUSHED lewis & clark... (yea, from p-town!) that was fun to watch. we went out for dinner, the next day we saw A Midsummer nights dream (INTENSE 80's STYLE... SO GREAT)  and the choir, which was beautiful. and then we had sushi and mom and i went home and got free coffee at the rest stop and talked to an old lady who's husband died last christmas eve and now she's trekkin in a motorhome. <br />
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<br />
ronnye won't shut up about his joke about how me + alex tally = hott orgasmic love <br />
and how i am going out with Tally so i can get First Alto part next year.<br />
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 it's funny, but NOT TRUE!! lol. i don't think he's ever gonna stop...<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>ah..?</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 01 Nov 2006 22:57:49 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ volleyball may well be over<br />
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but now everyone in the play is like "LETS DO PRACTICES EVERY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!" so .. next week is going to be ultra busy.<br />
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<br />
aahhh.<br />
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acma kidz, i want to visit on the 20th or the 21st! that's monday or tuesday! so check it out, aiiiight! AAIGHT G<br />
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this weekend i finally get to see my sister. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" /> thaat makes me feel fuzzy inside. <br />
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SUNDAY<br />
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M.N.M., we should see the 3D nightmare before christmas if it's still out then...<br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /><br />
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baaaahaaaaaaaaaaaaioghwoighwragjwiafwaej wlkagkaj<br />
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right now i just want to sleep.<br />
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<3<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>Mmmm....</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 26 Oct 2006 23:42:09 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ where are we?<br />
what the hell is going on?<br />
the dust has only just begun to fall...<br />
crop circles in the carpet<br />
sinking, feeling<br />
<br />
spin me 'round again<br />
and rub my eyes,<br />
this can't be happening<br />
when busy streets a mess with people<br />
would stop to hold their heads heavy<br />
<br />
hide and seek<br />
trains and sewing machines<br />
all those years<br />
they were here first<br />
<br />
oily marks appear on walls<br />
where pleasure moments hung before the take over,<br />
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life<br />
<br />
hide and seek<br />
trains and sewing machines (you won't catch me around here)<br />
blood and tears<br />
they were here first<br />
<br />
Mmmm what d'ya say,<br />
Mmmm that you only meant well?<br />
well of course you did<br />
Mmmm what d'ya say,<br />
Mmmm that's all for the best?<br />
of course it is<br />
Mmmm what d'ya say?<br />
Mmmm that it's just what we need<br />
you decided this<br />
Mmmm what d'ya say?<br />
Mmmm what did she say?<br />
<br />
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth<br />
midsweet talk, newspaper word cut outs<br />
speak no feeling<br />
no I don't believe you<br />
you don't care a bit, <br />
you don't care a bit<br />
<br />
(hide and seek)<br />
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth<br />
midsweet talk, newspaper word cut outs<br />
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volleyball<br />
<br />
is over<br />
<br />
<3<br />
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PWNED.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>la la la</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 13 Oct 2006 21:40:46 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=D" title="=D (Big Grin)" /> three day weekennndddd<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>heavy.</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 10 Oct 2006 00:53:21 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ever wonder what it's like on the other side of the fence...?<br />
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ever wonder if anyone else feels emotionally vulnerable right now?<br />
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ever wonder if the words you say AFFECT or OFFEND anyone?<br />
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ever think about your own fuck-ups, rather than everyone else's?<br />
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i'm still breathing. i'm still dealing. i'm behind so much, STILL. i don't know how i let myself just waste 2+ hours. i fucking hate the internet sometimes. i won't let myself sleep until i finish some work.<br />
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<br />
onto other things....<br />
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<br />
often it feels like some people are trying to pretend i don't exist. <br />
<br />
hmmm. maybe i'm the pretender...<br />
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<br />
i figured out why this year has been strange so far: <br />
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i have had no support.<br />
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no time for friends (or, not nearly enough to make a difference)<br />
no dad<br />
no sister<br />
no encouragement ... let alone a REMOTELY relaxed tone of voice from my mother<br />
no calls, even just to fucking say hi... (oh, i lied: one today, from alisha the jesbian. missed it though. v-ball.)<br />
not much sleep at all<br />
not much worth waking up for<br />
just another day chock-full of saxophone, schoolwork, regret, and volleyball<br />
<br />
and two days a week, play practice.<br />
<br />
<br />
let's see if i can pull through this week.<br />
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<br />
let's see if anyone notices how hard i crash when it's over.<br />
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<br />
let's see how many people will realize how much effort i've put out when it's over and done with...<br />
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<br />
what i'm trying to go through here is NOT easy.<br />
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it's fucking hard out here for a pimp.<br />
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not gonna lie.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>hraah...</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 06 Oct 2006 01:08:45 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ yay thursdays. yay homework. yay labs. yay elements. yay quizzes. yay ventricles. yay arteries. yay lungs. yay boobs. yay steph. yay JV. yay time-wasting-bitches. yay minutes. yay dad. yay fridays. yay starbucks. yay mother. yay no sleep.<br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" /><br />
yaaay.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>fuck fuck fuck.</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 02 Oct 2006 00:01:53 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ fuck fuck fuck.<br />
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FUCK fuck fuck.<br />
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fuck FUCK fuck.<br />
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fuck fuck FUCK,<br />
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Fuck Fuck Fuck<br />
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eff. you. see. fuckin'. kay.<br />
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i'm terrible at this... <br />
<br />
so why am i still here?<br />
<br />
why do i want to be part of it?<br />
<br />
why DO i want to put my brain to a better use, when i already know what i'd rather spend time and energy on?<br />
<br />
i feel like i'm two people with different desires.<br />
<br />
not schizo, just misplaced....<br />
<br />
<br />
i mean, is it really going to be worth it in the end?<br />
<br />
all that money<br />
<br />
just to pay more for college<br />
<br />
and endure it all over again?<br />
<br />
<br />
i had my doubts last year, but i knew i could improve because i wanted to so badly... if things are still this bad later in the year i just might consider a transfer<br />
<br />
i hope it doesnt end up that badly though. a change would be tight, but that would mean i'd have to suffer a very painful sophomore year<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
i'm not thinking straight. maybe a nap is in order. <br />
<br />
no no no. that'll ruin things.<br />
<br />
more tea?<br />
<br />
<br />
...excellent idea!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>wish i was a little bit taller, i wish i was a bal</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 01 Oct 2006 23:44:23 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ things are tense. my mom's social rule backfired...<br />
i had nothing to do yesterday and today so i wasted them. i also had a lot of energy since i had nothing to use it for so i got distracted.<br />
 and now its 11:40 pm and none of my hw is finished.<br />
<br />
<br />
i've done work, but not enough.<br />
<br />
i wish i had some sort of work ethic... or that i fixed up my room so that we could move diana's desk in.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
thats the only solution i can come up with.<br />
<br />
<br />
wow. <br />
<br />
my mom and i have issues.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>"Tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies..&amp;qu</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 30 Sep 2006 02:23:55 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ What a week, what  a fucking emotional rollercoaster. Since it's two A.M. and I have plenty of caffeine (and JELLYBEANS= SHIT) in my system, I'm just gonna lay it all on the line. Monday was my birthday and just about the beginning of the end. Crappiest day,  lasting from 4:30 AM to long after dark. I knew my fucking birthday was over from the minute I woke up.<br />
<br />
My dad and sister had already left. Hell, even my Aunts left, and they weren't even in town to see me.  It was my mom and I. And knowing her, she didn't have a surprise for me. I'd already opened my belt and my camera case, and the CD player that dad not quite so cunningly bought for me a month ago. She was so wrapped up in obsessing over me being sick that she didn't say the damn two words until I was getting my sax and volleyball stuff out of the back seat. <br />
<br />
So I didn't even hear it.<br />
<br />
Pessimistic all day, and friends kept hugging me and telling me to be happy. What wonderful souls... I'll bet I got most of them sick that day. W00t for germs. >:[ <br />
<br />
<br />
I conked out easily that night. <br />
<br />
Maybe because I'd gone nonstop for 18 hours (not the longest record, but roughly 2 1/2 of those hours were free)..<br />
<br />
Maybe because every class frustrated me to tears. <br />
<br />
Maybe it doesn't matter why that day sucked. Now for Tuesday.<br />
<br />
Turrresday, I woke up promptly at 8. Wobbled downstairs and talked to my mother. Sat around all day, downloaded muzick. No homework involved, though there were many attempts.<br />
<br />
Wednesday, I knew i couldn't handle a full day of school, and I needed to get at least SOME work done. 5 (easy) math assignments, four pages of french.... aand more downloading of muzick. <br />
<br />
Thursday, I was doin' okay.  But then there was Neah-Kah-Nie. <br />
<br />
Let's explainnn something now. Steph joined volleyball last year because somehow my mom convinced her to. She strives to be the BEST queen bee at any and everything she does, and that's always her downfall. So, everytime she<br />
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Fuck.<br />
<br />
I need to finish this but I just experienced a total-energy-wipeout.<br />
<br />
<br />
Expect more tomorrow, goddamnit!!!<br />
<br />
<br />
Probably at the same late-night-early-morning time. <br />
<br />
If the sun's shining, I'll probably be doing homework.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
Wow. I never do homework on Saturdays........<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
But you'll see...<br />
<br />
<br />
Heading off to bed... I'm way overdue.<br />
<br />
<br />
<3 hearts and stuff<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>SNAKES ON A PLIZZANE</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 27 Sep 2006 19:12:03 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ found a hilarious snakes on a plane rap-cracka video on youtuube.<br />
now i'm watching family guy... although i probably shouldn't be...<br />
<br />
ah. whatever.<br />
<br />
<br />
<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lKTDSj6jSiM">WATCH THIS!</a><br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>this scares me.....</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 27 Sep 2006 13:33:45 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ldFCBpTwEGI">click'nz, child</a><br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>ohh baby XD</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 06 Aug 2006 15:56:23 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ guess who found the digital cam in his fuckin' CAR???<br />
<br />
mi padre.<br />
<br />
<br />
**victory dance** ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>oi! fools.</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 18 Jul 2006 13:45:22 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ First five peeps to comment in this journal gets a sketch, you can even say what you want.<br />
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Only catch is that you have to post this in your journal as well, and do the same for 5 others.<br />
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1. ~Demonickitty666<br />
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5. ]]></description>
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                <title>lack of interest</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 18 Jun 2006 00:37:55 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ WHEN I GET A NEW CAMERA<br /><br />I CAN TAKE PICTURES OF INTERESTING THINGS<br /><br />RATHER THAN TURN MYSELF VARIOUS COLORS. ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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                <title>This My Shit</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 25 Jun 2005 21:58:25 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey, i'm wondering what I'm going to put in here. I want to start writing again. I'm thinking of drawing more as well, even though i'm really not good and most would be random patterny vortexes that you would find in a dream.  People are more interesting to look at sometimes. Who knows? I should go, i've been sitting on my ass all day. <3 ]]></description>
                <author>~duff-muffin</author>
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