deviantART: by:eNoLa-gAy-LIVES http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:eNoLa-gAy-LIVES&section=today deviantART RSS for by:eNoLa-gAy-LIVES en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 11 Dec 2009 15:26:18 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png mending a broken heart. http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/28214282/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/28214282/ Sun, 08 Nov 2009 09:25:36 PST
not sure if you guys are still following me, or even care to follow me anymore. i haven't posted anything in awhile, and to tell you the truth, it's bc i've had the worst creative slump i've ever experienced. i try to write, nothing comes out. i try to draw, i crumple it and toss it to the side. *sigh*

in personal news, after spending a beautiful halloween weekend together, my fiancé called me on friday to tell me he couldn't marry me. that he was in love with two girls, and i wasn't the one he loved more. this came as a shock, a very big, big, shock. the girl he's leaving me for is the type that only wants what she can't have, and only if she can't have it. i'm praying, along with all my close friends, that she rejects him. it's exactly what he deserves.

in light of that, i'm hoping this will help my slump. that i can feed off this pain and heartache, and finally light a fire under my creative self. that i can finally start my life again. something new, something fresh.

something strong.

]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES afo! http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/26413650/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/26413650/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 23:33:24 PDT
]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES life update. http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/19951116/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/19951116/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 11:18:29 PDT
well... i never made it to metrocon. which seriously sucked.

my digital camera decided to go completely haywire, so i now have no photography capabilities whatsoever. and considering the price of a getting a new one, i won't have these capabilities back any time soon.

my mum took my laptop away from me, so i haven't been on here in quite some time. and even though i'm on it now, i don't know when i'll "officially" have it back, so there's a lot of art that i have, but i won't be able to post anything for the next couple months, probably. (esp since classes start on monday. mah.)

afo is on saturday, and even though we were hardcore planning on going together, my ride there decided that she wasn't going after all, so i now have no way to get to the con. which SERIOUSLY sucks, bc it was like the one thing i was looking forward to before i got sucked into the hellhole that is bcc. not to mention the fact that i'd be able to actually MEET travis willingham if i went. which is a personal life goal, btw.

ugh.

oh, and since my mum also decided to take my cell away from me, i've been out of touch with everyone in my life.


so, alas, i apologize for not having any new deviations up, and for that fact that i prob won't have any up for at least the next month.

:<

]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES wooooooooo! http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/18434857/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/18434857/ Wed, 21 May 2008 16:55:09 PDT

and empty.



jacon was this past weekend, and it was AMAZING.

i ended up not finishing my jacket until like 10 am on friday, which was an annoyance in and of itself... you see, my sewing machine decided to CRAP OUT on me for about three hours, so i wasn't the happiest of campers... *sigh*

anyways, i shall be posting pictures of my cosplay (and the frivolities) as soon as i relocate that damn cord... *grumbles* stupid college boxes...


well, now that jacon is over, and my daisuke cosplay is finished, i need to start work on my hayner cosplay for metrocon... (not to mention start convincing a certain someone to cosplay seifer...)

but, alas! i have until july.

]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES sukoshi no shougai aru to, motto moeagaru mono http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/18282432/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/18282432/ Mon, 12 May 2008 00:19:13 PDT
so yeah.

enjoy.

:faint:

]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES TAAAAAASUKETEEEEE!!!!!!!! http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/18225320/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/18225320/ Thu, 08 May 2008 11:06:39 PDT

so, i just uploaded my villanelle i had to write for poetry workshop.

*soul cloud leaves body*


villanelle = poetic brainchild of satan


seriously.



i don't think i'll ever write one of those again. EVER.


*sigh*




i've been working on my costume for JAcon here of late, so i haven't really been able to write/draw anything worth posting. but once i get my costume done, there shall be pictures. glorious pictures.

so yeah, be on the lookout for those.

they'll prob be up over the weekend.

ummm... yeah.

]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES i'm hungry. and in dire need of a bath. http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/18096385/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/18096385/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 04:27:47 PDT

yeah. title says it all.

TT~TT


it's 7 am, and i just pulled an all-nighter.

and my back hurts.

and i'm out of caffeine.

and i got absolutely no work done that i needed to.


*twitch*



GRAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



*composes self*



sorry about that...

my week's been... long...

and to think, it's only hump day... *sniffle*


ah, well, life can't be great all the time.


: /


ok, i promise there's an actual point to this entry other than me babbling on all depressed like this...


*puts on serious hat*


so, i uploaded my story i had to write for comp lit, like i said i would. (yay, following through!) it's full of faustyness and gay boys. i enjoyed writing it, so i hope you enjoy reading it. and don't worry, i included a rather helpful (i hope) explanation about it, so if you haven't read faust yet, i think you'll be able to understand where it's coming from..


um... yeah.


well, as for me, i need to actually DO some work for my lecture i have in two hours. and did i mention i haven't actually BEEN to that lecture in like three weeks? X3



]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES écrire. http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/18062731/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/18062731/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 21:33:16 PDT

écrire, verbe transitif
-Sens 1 Tracer, former des signes d'écritures.
---Ex Ecrire une phrase.
---Anglais to write
-Sens 2 Orthographier.
---Ex Ce mot s'écrit avec un s.
---Synonyme orthographier
---Anglais to spell
-Sens 3 Noter, consigner par écrit.
---Ex Ecrire ses pensées.
---Synonyme jeter
---Anglais to write down
-Sens 4 Rédiger, composer.
---Ex Ecrire une histoire, écrire une lettre.
---Synonyme rédiger
---Anglais to write


---


i'm currently working on my faust project for comp lit. basically, we have to rewrite the faust legend in our own words, in our own style.

i've been listening to joy division for a couple hours now, and have realized that "disorder" is the perfect theme song for my story:


I've been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand.
Could these sensations make me feel the pleasures of a normal man.
New sensations bear the innocence, leave them for another day.
I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, take the shock away.

It's getting faster, moving faster now, it's getting out of hand.
On the tenth floor, down the backstairs into no man's land.
Lights are flashing, cars are crashing, getting frequent now.
I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, let it out somehow.

What means to you, what means to me, and we will meet again.
I'm watching you, I watch it all, I take no pity from your friends.
Who is right and who can tell and who gives a damn right now.
Until the spirit, new sensation takes hold, then you know.(3 times)
I've got the spirit, but lose the feeling.(2 times)
Feeling.(7 times)


basically, my version is taking elements from both the study scene (in the beg, when faust first meets mephistopheles) and from the walpurges night. delightful mix, eh? ;)

as a side note, i'd like to share something that i realized earlier. whenever i sit down and write a serious chunk of prose, my main chara is always, without fail, gay. and this said prose is more than likely a school assignment. and a major one, to boot. i mean, come on. snr proj anybody? benj and luce were gay. ESP luce. hahah yay for the devil making vamp sex slaves of his crushes. seriously. SERIOUSLY.

but, alas! i digress. :3

so really, the whole reason i wanted to post this was to share the tastytasty tidbit of writing i just did. bc i'm hella proud. like, HELLA proud:


He could feel the heavy music pulsing through his chest. Dark, melodic bass lines sugar-coated with synth overtones. Closing his eyes and tilting his head back, he breathed in the smoky coolness that floated above the sweating, grinding bodies. This is what he lived for.



so yeah. :heart:


ps - i'm prob gonna end up posting my proj on here when i'm through with it. it's becoming most pleasing, and it's reminding me why i even wanted to be a writer in the first place. i guess it's things like these that clear our thoughts and renew our hopes. but i should REALLY be getting back to it now...


]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES well, well, well.... what have we here? http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/17948517/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/17948517/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 17:22:30 PDT
it seems as though i'm ACTUALLY updating my profile on here, instead of being sketchy mcsketch sketch and lurking around corners, only to come into the light to fav someone's deviation, then quickly slink into the shadows again.

ah... well.

i knew it would happen...

eventually...



so, with THAT said...

hello again. after a two year (O.o) hiatus, i think i might actually make an effort to keep on top of this. LOL


so what have i been up to these past years, you may ask?

well, since we've last spoken, i've graduated high school, arrived at college, pitifully failed some rather easy courses *coughintrotocreativewritingcough*, gone through A LOT of drama, realized that i find joy in editing videos (PS check out my youtube account. it's bamf.), found EXTREME happiness^(infinity) in all that is kingdom hearts, been to my first anime con, hmmm... what else? oh yeah, and i basically have the most kickass roommate ever.


what else should i say?

i have a headache?

ugh.


so i think i'll go upload a few drawings for you guys now.

yay, actual ART!!!!! *dies*

]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES wow. i feel swell. http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/7684767/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/7684767/ Mon, 23 Jan 2006 12:01:51 PST
it's been awhile because the school is stupid and they've had the devart site blocked. but now it's all better, i guess.

i'm feeling rather aggressive, so i'll keep it short.

we went fabric shopping yesterday (me, linz [rozie-blue89] and sarah[scarletsearose]) for our english project, and i've been inspired to make purses.

i have ideas, and maybe i'll be able to at least make myself one.

i hope.

i feel depressed, and tired, and i need some water.

that pretty much sums everything up.

ooooooo i almost forgot!

i got a guitar for christmas, and my fingers hurt from the strings.

but im excited! ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES the shag van http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/7232235/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/7232235/ Mon, 05 Dec 2005 18:44:39 PST
and we conspired together and graffitti-ified her van...

which has been named the shag van...

but she does *not* like that name, so she calls it "the little van of big love"...

but it IS and WILL be the shag van. ^^

so hop on over there and check it out.

i'm proud 'cause that's my very FIRST time with a spraycan in hand.

^^ ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES "you have problems." http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/6980560/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/6980560/ Mon, 07 Nov 2005 12:10:49 PST
yay for all that is unholy in the world!

heehee

ya i kno i kno i STILL have'nt updated anything yet...

its gonna be going on almost two years and i STILL havent posted any deviations...

one day, my love, one day, i will.

alas, today is not that day.

its allllllllllllllllllllllllmost december, and december means presents and break from school and - and happiness! ^^

me and terry are still together... going on ...what... *since feb. ... soooooo* almost nine months...

anyhoo just wanted to update that tidbit for all of you out there even though undoubtedly NONE of you even give a fuck.

haha.

anyhoo...

i've started drawing again *insert depressed half-smile*

so sooner or later you will all know what my style is and what my art looks like...

eventually....

my goal is to post at least SOMETHING before the holidays... not including tofurky day... because GOD KNOWS that is SO not happening.

i have a headache.

and derek touched my head. i HATE derek. especially when he touches me.

but thas ok cuz he lets me call him derek... even though his name is really brandon. jk i really do hate him ^^

lol not really...

ok moving on now.

i've relocated my joy in manga and anime and jpop.

only these can make me truly happy.

i've finally seen evangelion. yay. its awesome, but i prefer the manga to the anime hands down. its just so much more personal. im currently on volume 7, so dont spoil it for me. (yes, the 4th died. and yes, i DID cry. it was so sad! he was one of my favorites. *tear*)

csi has been awesome and twisted lately, so im happy ^^

and greggy is as hot as ever... smokin'!

heehee

its currently french week, and we're watching Romeo et
Juliette, and my favorite is Montaigu, but my favorite dancer is a Capulet, the tall, lanky, blond guy that wears that little vestie thing and then the half jacket thingy (during the duel scene) with those REALLY low, low, LOW tight pants... *sigh* ...

ok i will leave yous guys (haha) back to ponder the existence of the universe.

o haha derek's sister is on devart too...

i must speak with her about him *evil grin* ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES so it begins... http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/6187862/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/6187862/ Wed, 10 Aug 2005 12:14:27 PDT
i feel so old with all of the little kids running around like ants after you step on their ant hill...

heehee

i got run over by some random underclassman today... it seriously pissed me off... i don't get WHY they have to be here...

they're so adorable! (well.... some anyways...)

they seriously only reach my chest...

so short...

so young...

so naïve...

so easy to manipulate...

well...

AP chemistry is fun so far... lots of fun....

lots of work... but soooooooooo worth it...

my homeroom teacher is just kind of droneing on...

not paying attention to it anyways...

becky's still in australia and new zealand, so she's not here in homeroom...

band is uneventful...

i MIGHT be getting a new oboe...

emphasis on might...

hopefully a Lorée or Fox...

definitely NOT going to be a Covey... too expensive...


sadly, my schedule did not allow for art this year... *copious tears*

i will hopefully get around to finally posting something on here...

i have too many pencil drawings...

a lot are REALLY REALLY old.... thus they aren't any good... but i've been do more...

i've been depressed and not in the creative mood....

i heart inuyasha...

i know that was random... but o well... screw you all...

and i have some poetry to post on here...

my birthday was two weeks ago... sweet sixteen and i was stuck in the back of the van for ALL day... driving to Boston... for Kera and her STUPID college orientation at Boston U. Darn her.



at least im going to be trying to get stuff on here now... instead of forgetting to... *innocent face*

bell's about to ring...

so...

sayonara! ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES *uncontrollable laughter ensues* http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/5800665/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/5800665/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 10:39:18 PDT
maybe im just so giddy to be back on here (insert blank face)

well... im still alive... sortof... maybe ill post more later...

kera's off to europe today... so im home babysitting my little sister...

well... ill post soon... maybe... *wink* ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES each day marks a new beginning...whether it be bri http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/5246603/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/5246603/ Mon, 02 May 2005 12:07:37 PDT
well, it's been a long time since I've posted, not like anyone really goes on here, anyways. maybe i'll post something soon...but i don't know if ill be able to...

well, my current oil painting is looking really good... my last one was ok, i dont know if i really like it... but this one im really happy with...

i havent done any photography in a while... or drawing for that matter...

school's almost out... and my sister will be graduating... *tear*
she's going to Boston U. sooooooo far away! *sniffle*

well... 3 more episodes of CSI left... can't wait til season finale^^... but them it's back to the reruns...

my life consists of school, homework, CSI, food, sleeping (very little of, mind you), and fighting w/ my parents...

just peachy, eh?

well, at least band is going awesome... but molly pisses me off so much... she doesn't even TRY to make an effort to do better... I mean, for god's sake! just because your 2nd chair doesn't mean you don't have to try!... ARRR! *procedes to rip out hair*... i wish she'd just ATTEMPT to make a difference in her playing... it's like now that she's in Wind Ensemble (top band here, fyi) she doesn't have to do anything!... she makes me so angry! (i'm 1st chair, if you were wondering...) i would liek some competion every once and a awhile, ya know! i know i've improved soooooooooo much since i got moved up, and she has too, but she isn't even trying to do anything anymore... ARG!... the little ones make more of an effort than she does!!!

i'll stop ranting now... sorry...

well... i guess i'll go now...
a tout a l'heure! ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES death is just the beginning... http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4819530/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4819530/ Tue, 15 Mar 2005 12:11:21 PST
don't ask, Becky did it for me....

homeroom is not fun... excpet for being on here... thine beloven devart...

anyhoo... better mood than last time...happier than normal... yet not...

song: Sheep by pink floyd...

wicked awesome band...

my hair smells good...

band festival tomorrow... and we are NOT ready!

yay for being first chair oboe...

im being shooed off so bye... ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES "to die would be an awfully big adventure&amp http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4768639/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4768639/ Wed, 09 Mar 2005 12:08:52 PST i really do feel dead...

wow... nothing really makes me happy anymore...

well... Terry makes me happy... we've been going out for about two weeks now... his presence is soothing...

anyhoo... i've become the biggest procrastinator... and the stress is killing me... as is my dyslexia...

i hate standardized tests...

i need to desperately post things...

i'm, begginning to become too distant... and my senses are dying away...

hopefully it'll go away...

Dracula was a hit...(the school play...last weekend)... Zeke was awesome as Renfield... the one thing that sucked was that it was completely different from the book... i hated how much the writer (of the play) changed it... there was no Quincey or Godalming, and it didn't even follow the same series of events... a couple of things lined up nicely though... yay for being a techie...

well... i have to pee...

so i'm gonna go now...

i'll try to post things... but i probably wont be able to anytime soon...

goodbye, for now... ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES in all my life... http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4553876/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4553876/ Fri, 11 Feb 2005 12:15:04 PST
tonight's the sadie hawkins dance, and im wearing a little black dress... yay for little black dresses...

im officially getting off of the crash wagon from the ritalin... i took 40mg last night at like 7 30 pm to stay focused... vs. the 20mg usuallity...

im rather indifferent today... gotta go...

o i found my awesome new fav devartist... Alex Casteels... check him out!

lata... ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES i hate the world today http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4461695/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4461695/ Mon, 31 Jan 2005 12:06:42 PST and numb...
that's all my life is anymore...

ah, well... that's life... and it sucks...

i should really stop ranting... and post...

i haven't yet been able to -or had the time to- post anything...
i need to horribly bad...

maybe i'll be able to sometime in the near future...

alas, "hope is a double edged sword"

my mouth tastes like blood... i don't know why... i havent drunken any in a while... i had a craving for some the other day... but no, sadly, my thirst has not been fulfilled... ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES Joyeux Janvier! eh... j'ai le cafard... http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4329739/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4329739/ Sat, 15 Jan 2005 20:02:34 PST
well, happy new year... even if its half way through january already... ^^

well... im over at T-bear's house, on her computer AND her lap... heh heh... best friends (what would you expect?)... well... i have to post somethihng; im such a lazy ass... ^^' dont hate me! Please! *desperately* i dont have any friends! well, not anymore... i killed them all...

im currently molesting her makeup... only me...

well, im missing all my friends...omg tanya's cordinating her makeup with her makeup brush... im sooooo ashamed... --'

im currently in an emo perky mood... doesnt happen often... |and believe me, she is, and it's sorta weird.(random Tanya moment.)|

sorry, she stole the keyboard...

so im gonna try to post as soon... darnit she just got out from underneath me to finish her "dramatic" makeover... o god... that sounded strange... "oh, now it looks like someone crapped on my eyelid" |she molested my makeup again and is now kissing and rubbing my arm. | and licking... she forgot to put licking... i love being affectionate ^^... o god her makeup makes her look like a whore... i just lipstick-ified my lips... |the makeup is being removed...| tanya again... i apologize for her inadequate knowledge and stupidity... arent i such an awesome friend? ^^

well kiddies, what did this post accomplish? ABSOLUTLY NOTHING!! ah, well.. at least there's later...

p.s. we're having our "First Annual Valentine's Day Sadie Hawkins Dance", and i asked Terry to go with me... this is a very important moment in my life because it's my FIRST male date to a dance EVER... i know... it's sad... *tear*... but all those girls were good dates... and dancers... ^^'
I LOVE YOU MARTHA! ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES xmas eve... http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4147525/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4147525/ Fri, 24 Dec 2004 16:29:51 PST
today sucks...

ill elaborate later...

blah...err...

bah humbug! ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES "...cause all my heroes are dead in hollywood http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4070962/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/4070962/ Wed, 15 Dec 2004 05:27:18 PST long time no post, eh?

well... today is the first "official" day of exams here at home sweet westshore jr/sr! (note: monday and tuesday were opt. first exams, and it went...um...not too brilliantly...damn precalc!) to make everything so much more wonderful, i got my period today... (like you guys really needed to now that, right?) well, the bell's 2 minutes and counting away from ringing, so wish me luck! blah!...well... on the bright side, there's only 2 days left 'til winter vaca, so thas exciting! yeah snow! (ive never seen snow...its so sad *tear*--i live in florida, the SUNSHINE state, heh heh) yeah skiing for the first time! yeah running into trees! yeah pain! lol

anyhoo... for all you strange ones out there like me... the title is a line from the murderdolls song "dead in hollywood", which is currently replaying itself over and over again in my brain... which i guess i don't mind too much... lol

with that said, i'm off to the wonderful (and wubbulus) world of exam testing... ehum... i mean midterms... ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES on wings of lead and tears of blood... http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/3670716/ http://eNoLa-gAy-LIVES.deviantart.com/journal/3670716/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 12:15:29 PDT
well...

im depressed again...

we had to get my pet rat Rosey euthanized on saturday... so today im in mourning...

unfortunately, i have to go... hopefully ill post some stuff soon... ]]> ~eNoLa-gAy-LIVES