http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:earthandshadows&section=today deviantART RSS for by:earthandshadows en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 16:12:49 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/28707389/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/28707389/ Wed, 02 Dec 2009 10:41:35 PST I've been thinking of taking all of my artwork down and re-doing it. I don't know. I just want better looking stuff on my dA page. It was a really rough November. Lost my job, (not for any big reason - it was under the 3 month period so he didn't really need an excuse) my Ginger babes was put down AND I had a really bad road block for the longest time about how to do my assignments in XSI. Now I have 6 assignments I need to start and finish before the Christmas break. I'm really starting to hate the look of this lab mainly because I've been in it for so long. I'm also starting to loose A LOT of passion (if not - all) for the independent project I'm doing - which is REALLY bad. I'm just so sick of looking at and working on the characters - lol it's horrible.

Christmas art work is working good for me. I've got 3/7 rough sketches done. I just hope they turn out the way I want them to. I definitely want a new icon for my name - any ideas? UGH I'm going to go home. I'm in dire need of a nap. I also have to defrost some bacon for tonight's dinner. Whee!

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/28409414/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/28409414/ Tue, 17 Nov 2009 07:41:15 PST Got my motivation back to do XSI work. I have some new art work that I'm going to upload this afternoon. BTW If anyone wants art work from me for Xmas let me know ASAP so I can start working on it now. I've got ladydragonreborn's sketch done and I'm still working on the design of YukeraYasha's. Been drawing a lot lately - it feels good Anyway, I should get back to doing school work. Laters

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/27796042/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/27796042/ Fri, 16 Oct 2009 11:31:26 PDT
Anyway, I have found a guitar player (his name is Julien) that wants to perform for open mic night in November and I've decided to sing. I'll be signing up for the event tonight because the 19th is the last day to sign up. Then there will be an audition process (of course) and then the real deal. I hope I make it to the real deal but I hope I don't screw up insanely b/c I'd be so nervous.

We have to perform 4 songs and so far we've chosen:

Sweet Dreams - (lyrics eurythmics style and guitar marilyn manson version style)
On The Bright Side - (by Nevershoutnever! really good song, cartoon video on youtube)
Chasing Cars - (another good slow song really)
????? - (still deciding the 4th song, I'm thinking either Broken by Seether ft. Amy Lee or Dophin's Cry by Live)

We also decided to go by a band name - hey why the hell not right? Julien thought of "The Last to Know" which I think sounds really cool so we're going with that. So technically that means I'm in a real rock band now XD lol. YAY

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/27214480/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/27214480/ Mon, 14 Sep 2009 17:43:10 PDT I feel pumped, motivated and eager to start the year. I have an awesome idea for my independent project and I'm going to work my ass off to achieve the best that I can give. I got a part time job (it's A&W but it's better than nothing - and it's WAAAAY better than Adecco) I'm not going to procrastinate this year, I can't afford to and neither can my future if I want to get anywhere successfully. A few people don't believe me, and that's understandable because of the reputation that I've given myself, but that's all going to change this year. I'm breaking that reputation and giving myself a new and better way to live (I guess lol).

I hope to get a placement where is working. It's in downtown Toronto but I'm sure I'll live, it would be a really good placement to get Then I hope after that I could get a job at Jellyfish Pictures in Central London, England. I've always loved England ever since I was really little and I think that working there would be awesome. So there's my plan for the end of the school year and it's going to be my main motivation I'm also going to improve on my art work (and 3D work) as much as I can this year. Wish me luck.

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/26676632/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/26676632/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 17:16:38 PDT
I can't believe you're gone. I didn't know you very well, but we still had memories. I hope you hear us crying for you. Knowing how much we miss you already. I love you cousin I hope you have fun riding all the four wheelers and dirt bikes in heaven.

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/26532239/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/26532239/ Tue, 11 Aug 2009 17:06:14 PDT
Also, I asked some writers on dA to critique my story and they liked it (as well as critiqued it) I'm so happy

These are the people who critiqued my story;



If you love poetry - read her poetry is awesome!!!

I'm currently reading a story on dA by if you wish to read it or look at it - her fan page on dA is here;

The World Hero Race

it's a pretty good story ^^

So yeah - feeling much MUCH better now Especially to these writers worldhero21, forbiddenhero and VampireVengeance. Thanks so much

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/26490002/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/26490002/ Sun, 09 Aug 2009 18:25:48 PDT
Speaking of moods, I've been doing this mind over mood book - and it kinda made me feel a little okay. I really am frustrated, disappointed and getting a bit mad at my drawing skills tho. *sigh* I just don't know how to improve - I look at book after book after book and I feel like I've gained nothing. I try to practice, but I can't seem to draw for hours and such every day. I can only draw when I feel motivated and inspired by something. Otherwise I don't enjoy it as much.

I love art and I love drawing but I don't know if I'm write for this Computer Animation stuff all the time because you have to keep doing it constantly. I'm thinking of going into the Special Effects aspect for a career, but I'm scared. I have no idea what I really want for a career and so I turn to others to get their opinion, but even that doesn't do any good.

I was thinking of doing another program (maybe at Kingston or even Sheridan) after college to further my studies or to have a back up plan if Computer Animation fails. However, I feel like I'd never be good for Sheridan. My work sucks too much that and my boyfriend thought that I wanted to take another program because he'll be in school for a couple more years and that really pissed me off. First, everyone thought I went into Computer Animation because YukeraYasha went into animation and now I'm taking another program because my boyfriend will still be in college for a couple years?!?! That really really REALLY pisses me off (sorry but I need to rant). It makes me feel like everybody thinks I need to follow someone that I can't lead my own damn life.

However, on the good side, I do feel very excited and pumped for 3rd year. I have a couple plans in mind for my independent project just in case one or two aren't approved. I'm so happy my boyfriend and I got an apartment together so I guess that's why I'm feeling odd. I feel frustrated and pissed, but also happy and excited.

August better not be slow - OR ELSE !!!! X|

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/26217297/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/26217297/ Mon, 27 Jul 2009 17:37:58 PDT
So his older brother has informed me that he just got approved for a loan to open up his own bell mobility store and he's really excited about it. He's also working at Boston Pizza as a manager. Plus, he's only 22. I really hope I'm THAT successful when I'm that age lol.

So yeah, it was a pretty awesome weekend. We toured down town Toronto and then I made him go to Hooters for dinner. What? I've never been in a Hooters before XD lol it really is no big deal.

So yeah, haven't really been working on art work lately. I guess I should do that. Been working on my novel now and then. I don't even know why I should bother updating my journal, only YukeraYasha reads and comments on them (and occasionally ladydragonreborn). I feel like I really suck at art work b/c I don't have very many watchers and stuff. O well, I guess I'll just have to try harder

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/26042730/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/26042730/ Sun, 19 Jul 2009 11:01:00 PDT
I was suppose to work today but my stomach and my head are really bothering me. However, I do work monday and tuesday night (8-8am). I saw a drafting table at wal-mart for only $50 and I would really like to get it with the next pay cheque (or two). It would be REALLY helpful and it's not too big.

So YukeraYasha, ladydragonreborn and I are planning on getting the Triforce from Zelda tattooed on us as a friendship thing. YukeraYasha will have Power in red, I'll have Courage in green and ladydragonreborn will have Wisdom in blue. However, there are some financial complications and we don't really have an idea of when we're going to get this done.

I can't wait for the first week of August Paul is going to come down for a week and we're going to go apartment hunting. I would like to visit some friends while we're down there. I miss them I'll be getting a bit from OSAP that'll cover my tuition and most of my rent and stuff. I'm gunna try and get a job again this year to help out with the finances. I'm really excited for 3rd year I've got my final project all thought up I just have to get it approved by the profs

SO yeah, I'm still working on my novels. I'm still adding and taking away stuff. So it might be a little while before it's back up again I don't really know. I'm going to be making a schedule that includes classes, going to the gym, if I'm working part-time AND doing homework. My goal is to NOT procrastinate. I NEED to get out of that damn habit and I really want to succeed this year. I don't want any grades that are a C+ or lower. I'm gunna try and work on some school work on XSI to improve my demo reel and such. I'm so proud of myself, I'm getting a lot better with money It's still not the best I want to be, but it's a hell of a lot better then when I was in high school. I can tell myself that I don't need something and that maybe I could get it next time or later or whatever and I'm really proud of myself I've lost a bit of weight too very happy about that!

My brother (TigerBoi03) is coming down from Halifax for a week for my dad's birthday. I'm so excited to see him XD I misses my brudder So if anyone wants to see him THEN would be the time I miss ladydragonreborn because she's working at a camp for the summer and I don't really get to see her much

Can't wait for September http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/25640080/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 22:09:54 PDT

I've unfortunately done little sketches, but hopefully that will change. However, I can't upload anything because my printer/scanner isn't connected to my computer.

I'm happier now that I've FINALLY been getting some shifts at work if I get AT LEAST 3 shifts per week, I'll be able to go back for 3rd year

To all my college buddies - I miss you guys

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/25516774/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/25516774/ Wed, 24 Jun 2009 12:22:36 PDT I'm starting to feel devastated. I've applied EVERYWHERE and nobody wants me or needs me. I applied for the call centre in town AGAIN, hopefully they'll give me something. If I can't get anything I'll be sitting here on my fucking ass all fucking school year. I DO NOT want that to happen. For a few obvious reasons...it's boring, this place drives me fucking nuts and I hate Brockville with a passion. I'm so pissed off right now it's not even funny. Stupid fucking recession.

I've been getting wicked headaches from not having my glasses, long story don't feel like telling it. I'm STILL waiting for the fucking optical place to call me and tell me that my glasses are ready.

Well, good news was Paul got to visit me on the weekend and that was wonderful. Except for the part when he had to leave of course. *Sigh* The honda is now broken and my mom got t-boned so her car is totaled. So Dad's going crazy about spending money on a new car and blah blah blah. I get so excited whenever Katie comes home, now I know how she felt when I was in school. I've been watching LotR for about 2 weeks now just to pass the fucking time. I can't draw b/c I can't see, even if I try the sketch is absolutely horrible, same reason I can't practice my guitar right now. I've been typing a little of my novel, but not much b/c of the headaches.

So, yeah really hating my fucking life right now...

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/24912206/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/24912206/ Sat, 23 May 2009 18:23:59 PDT
I'm afraid I won't make enough money or get enough OSAP and my Dad won't let me go to school this year. I can't get another student loan from the bank either. I don't know if I'll be able to get a job in Belleville for the next school year, so I'm going to go around and apply about the end of July.

I hope I passed my remedial and my placement classes. So far, my marks for all the other classes aren't that bad. I got a 54 in Game which is a MIRACLE! I can't find the cords for my printer scanner, so unless I bug YukeraYasha to use hers, I won't be updating any art any time soon. *sigh*

Writing my story on and off, thanks to ladydragonreborn and YukeraYasha for helping me edit it, because I really suck at grammar and stuff lol. Sometimes I wish I could be my sister's dog Tucker. The only bad thing that happens in my life is being smacked for doing something wrong, or being put out in the kennel for the day. I hope I win the lottery tonight...it seems like I've got more chances with that then getting a job...

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/24912200/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/24912200/ Sat, 23 May 2009 18:23:36 PDT
I'm afraid I won't make enough money or get enough OSAP and my Dad won't let me go to school this year. I can't get another student loan from the bank either. I don't know if I'll be able to get a job in Belleville for the next school year, so I'm going to go around and apply about the end of July.

I hope I passed my remedial and my placement classes. So far, my marks for all the other classes aren't that bad. I got a 54 in Game which is a MIRACLE! I can't find the cords for my printer scanner, so unless I bug YukeraYasha to use hers, I won't be updating any art any time soon. *sigh*

Writing my story on and off, thanks to ladydragonreborn and YukeraYasha for helping me edit it, because I really suck at grammar and stuff lol. Sometimes I wish I could be my sister's dog Tucker. The only bad thing that happens in my life is being smacked for doing something wrong, or being put out in the kennel for the day. I hope I win the lottery tonight...it seems like I've got more chances with that then getting a job...

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/24444377/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/24444377/ Sun, 26 Apr 2009 11:31:12 PDT
Anyway - so my landlord is bitching about the bills, and wants money by the end of the week or he's filing a law suit. I'm doing the best I can, and I'm going to send him a cheque when I get paid. The only problem is - this ONLY affects the people on the lease. My roomie was bitching about how other people should pay and blah blah blah, but they're not on the lease. If they paid their fare share, that's it they don't pay anything more. Then he bitches about ripping up their anime north tickets or some bull shit like that...problem is, I think he told the ones that moved out that everybody agrees with him - honestly i don't agree - i was arguing with him and then got soo sick of hearing him that i agreed so he'd stfu. So i hope they're not mad because we agree with him, because at least i don't...thank GOD i'm out of that house...and back into my parent's lol

ok, well I guess I'll rant about why I'm frustrated. I really really REALLY hate it when people write things and don't direct them to certain people...cuz then I think it's my fault and it bothers me until I find out or just forget about it. If you're mad at me, ranting about me, or w/e JUST SAY MY NAME. I HATE playing these damn guessing games about what I did wrong or even if I did anything. It annoys me. I'm not directing this to anyone because - I'M GETTING REVENGE!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA!! ok I'm done...

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/24340612/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/24340612/ Mon, 20 Apr 2009 10:07:42 PDT
pinguin_love might get drunk with me, but I don't know for sure. Plus Paul is leaving today and the other two roomies are like whatever. So I might be getting drunk by myself on my birthday. So, yeah this really really sucks At least I have cake from the little birthday party I had at home with my family...doesn't really matter...I just feel like crying right now...

That and I don't have a job. I MIGHT be able to work at Wal-Mart but that's only a maybe. I hate the summer...stupid allergies...stupid boringness...stupid everything...I don't know how much weight I've lost, so I'm depressed about that too...at least I'm one size smaller than I was in September...I want to work on art and 3D stuff, but I don't have any motivation...my art work sucks ass I'm just so low on confidence right now, I don't want to even bother trying...*sigh*

Well, at least I got SOME good news today. I got some final marks for the year. I got a 71 in Art Direction, 83 in Job Search and 89 in Web Authoring yay! I just hope that the rest of my marks are this good. But I know for a fact that Game is going to be in the 50s lol.

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/24154408/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/24154408/ Thu, 09 Apr 2009 20:26:57 PDT
I'll admit, I am pissed, but then I thought, why am I pissed? She's a stupid gangsta whore living in the ghetto and I'm actually doing something with my life. I guess it makes me mad because "she was the popular one and whatever she says goes and whatever I say doesn't matter because I'm lower" HA! Stupid fucking whore. Maybe that's another reason why I'm pissed...because she's soo STUPID.

yay, I can't wait for the reply in the morning.......

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/24056116/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/24056116/ Sat, 04 Apr 2009 10:40:23 PDT
Anywho, just felt like updating I guess. CranialRelease and sophieluv19 are moving out on the 15th and so is my internet. HOWEVER I'll probably be using the computers at the school and my phone will still work until the end of April. So it'll just be me, my boyfriend, pinguin-love, her boyfriend and a stinky stalker creepy british-lisp guy. Fuck he's annoying...he took my couch cushions to sleep on (without asking me) and on thursday I took them out of his room and they felt like somebody poored a bottle of grease or oil all over them. It was DISGUSTING! I aired them out, febreezed them all to hell and washed the cushion covers. Now they're locked in my room. Plus, he has more alone time with sophielov19's boyfriend than she does. And he stalks him and goes EVERYWHERE he does. If he does that to my boyfriend when they move out - he's going to be murdered.

I'll be going home for the summer and looking for a job, (and hopefully getting one). So hopefully I'll be doing some artwork then. I also want to get started on my 3rd year project. I have the idea and it's probably going to take a while to do and that's why I want to start it soon. So, I don't really know how free I'm going to be over the summer. All that and working and working out. Disturbed is coming to Ottawa in June - I WANTS TO GO!!! and I also heard that Metallica is coming to Ottawa in October - I WANTS TO GO THERE TOO!!! lol YAY mosh pit time! Well Tucker needs outside, so thus concludes dis journal

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/23922745/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/23922745/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 19:00:46 PDT
Anyway, I noticed that my character Skallius (SK-AL-EEE-US)looks a lot like odduckoasis's Dark Matter Boi (except for the weapon). [link]
So I wrote her a note asking about any copyright issues. She's and AWESOME anthro artist and when I saw this drawing I couldn't BELIEVE how well it was caputred and it was unintentional! I'm so jealous -_-

Well I've been working on the story here and there. I will be finding out if I've passed everything or not and I will be finding out if I get a job or not. Man this sucks. I'll be looking at an apartment in the same building as sophie_luv19 I'll be visiting her everyday just to see the Meow Meow. Her cat's real name is Aya, lol.

Wish me luck...

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/23753686/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/23753686/ Tue, 17 Mar 2009 19:46:32 PDT I'm trying to get my work done but I don't just don't fucking get it T_T. I'm doing an overnighter right now just to try and get something done, but it's not going too well. *sigh* I don't want to fail this class, I really really really REALLY don't.

Other than that, I've got a placement in Belleville at FASTEC - Fetal Alcohol Sydrome Treatment and Education Centre. They would like me and my assistant to do a commercial that they can put on the air. FAS and FASD (Fetal Alchohol Spectrum Disorder) are the only diseases that are 100% preventable. Sad really.

I might have an interview at Randy River in the Quinte mall XD if I get the job at least something will be going right for me...

I'm still working on my new dA ID - I think I'm going to change from butterfly wings to angel wings. I had an awesome dream last night that I was in a beautiful navy blue dress (not the one from prom) and I was an angel flying around collecting things that fell from the sky (oddly enough I collected some pencil crayons). AND I saved an innocent guy from almost being charged with rape and got the real guy in jail. Best dream EVAR!

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/23485991/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/23485991/ Mon, 02 Mar 2009 09:32:09 PST and well obviously nervous at the same time. I hope my T4 came in today so I can send in my taxes and get some money!! I need to purchase my passport, just in case I do happen to get the internship. If I don't, then o well I still have a passport I applied for a couple jobs in Belleville, so if I happen to get them I'll just rent an apartment and stay here. There's no point going back to Brockville, there's nothing there. If I can make enough money over the summer, I'm not going to apply for OSAP because I don't want or need any more debt. Holy crap it's March already?!?!




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]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/23372437/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/23372437/ Mon, 23 Feb 2009 21:06:50 PST
I've been kinda depressed about my art work lately. How nobody faves, hardly anybody compliments, (except for a few, you know who you are) and nobody really looks at my page. Sigh...I feel like I have been working at it but not hard enough. Everything is just stressing me out right now. My weight, my school work, not having a job, internship, finances and my art work...it just seems like everyone is better than me...*sigh*

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/22952056/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/22952056/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 19:58:29 PST
I was talking to a class mate and I told him that I wasn't exactly sure if I wanted to be in this course. He said, well you've gotten this far haven't you? and amazingly, I never thought of it that way before until he mentioned it. I don't HAVE to go into this career, and I'm sure my career will lead me to several different jobs, so I'll stay. I think I might go into video editing for my internship. I don't know yet, but I'll look it up anyway.

I had a major breakdown the other day. The last one I had that was this bad was in high school. I was just stressed out and under pressure and my Dad was yelling at me about finances and I just couldn't take it anymore. I was so stressed, I was crying for about 4 days and then my Dad calls me, because he found out about my insanely high utility bill. So he was yelling at me and I broke. I screamed at him and balled for a good couple hours. Not to mention I threw the phone against the door and punched some things. O well, phone still works

I hope February is better for me...

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/22710435/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/22710435/ Wed, 21 Jan 2009 09:51:52 PST
I'm a bit nervous, okay I lied, I'm VERY nervous about the internship thing. I'm also very unsure. I mean, do I have enough quality stuff for a good portfolio? NO lol and should I get a place that's close to home, or should I get a place where I would like to be in a real career? I can't really afford to go to an apartment for a month - i can't really afford anything right now. I hope that I can pick up a bunch of shifts at P&G, but...

1 - I'd rather shoot my own foot off
2 - I have dentist appts. during the spring break
3 - It's never a guaruntee that they have freaking shifts

I'm going to apply for some jobs once again to see if I get anything. I just hope I get to work at Randy River, the only place I think I would like to work. Nobody else is hiring, because it's after Christmas and they're all mother fucks. *sigh* The beginning of this year is starting to suck ass. I kinda wish I had a really really rich uncle and he loved me and he died and gave me all his money...lol

hope everyone else's year is going off to a good start.

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/22357570/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/22357570/ Fri, 02 Jan 2009 19:26:40 PST
HOWEVER, if I had to make a New Year's Resolution, it would be to not be afraid. I'm going to practice preforming again and so on and so forth...

I went to the doctor's today and found out I gained what I just lost. I've been balling for the past 10 minutes, I feel like fatty shit, well more like fatty-er shit. So now I feel like getting a knife and cutting it all off...painful, but it might be affective, lol.

So I'm going back to Belleville tomorrow, and I'm really excited to start a new semester. I unfortuantely failed programming, which sucks, but o well. I decided that if I get into a placement that I really enjoy and I get hired there for full time, I'm just gunna stay there.

One thing has been bugging me lately, I told some people that I was kissed on New Year's, (this paragraph is not towards, Shannon, Aj or Nancy) I didn't say who, but I was bothered by it and was wondering what I should say to my boyfriend, because he would know if I'm acting differently and I'm a really shitty liar. Anyway, before I even got to the point of asking them what should I say to my boyfriend, they immediately say, "was he drinking?" In a matter of fact he was, but this really made me mad. Not the fact that he was drinking, just the fact that they asked so quickly if he was drinking. Like he wouldn't have done it sober cuz I'm not good enough - well that's how I took it anyway. I was just so mad and sad at the same time, yea know, the kind of appauled look and feeling if you called the queen a bitchy whore lol. So now I feel like even more crap. This fucking sucks.

So, anyway, Happy 2009

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/22103218/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/22103218/ Sun, 21 Dec 2008 13:16:22 PST
I got a few marks, but I won't be surprised if i fail programming, or AV. I skipped a lot of AV. I'm nervous about placement, well because I've never done it before. I think it would be awesome to get a placement in Ottawa and work at Trivium lol. I've been told to get a placement in T.O. because they have "better places," but I think if you have the experience, it doesn't really matter which place you go or what place you get the experience from. However, that's my humble opinion...that and T.O. scares me lol.

I hope to get some art work done over the Christmas break, because I really need to improve. YukeraYasha gave me an awesome drawing book for Christmas, (as well as my favourite movie, Who Framed Roger Rabbit? on DVD!!!) thanks again so much!

Still working on my story. Hopefully I can get another part up on dA here for those that are interested.

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/21862751/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/21862751/ Sun, 07 Dec 2008 10:26:24 PST and i feel much happier - i got a bunch of assignments done and the Christmas party was pretty good. Still can't wait for the break tho - then i can see all my fwiends and family

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/21782531/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/21782531/ Tue, 02 Dec 2008 12:13:49 PST
I'm just tired of my room mates being all "well immature this and blah blah that" and yet they do nothing to fix it. Why not talk to each other or something? Instead of being all like grade nines and emailing and dropping the f bomb every two words. I'm just tired of hearing it. Christmas is coming, why not just be nice to each other for a change?

So that mixed in with the stress of school and my financial situation, I'm about ready to explode. I'm afraid to go home in case my dad starts pressing me to get shifts at work that I'm going to loose it. I really need a break.

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i should do some art work seeing as though i haven't done any lately...


end of journal YAY FOR LAZINESS!!!

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On facebook messenger thing, Brandon Knapp (I don't know if it was him or not) was saying how much he wants to fuck me and my fat arms and he'll give me KFC and mcdonalds if i do it and all that shit. I tried to exit the conversation many times but it didn't work. I finally shut my computer off and just started crying. Everyone in the house wanted to kick his ass lol, (but like I said, I don't know if it was him or not). So I waited for about 10 or so minutes before I went back on fb and luckily he wasn't online. So I wrote him a msg saying that someone is making an ass of him, or if it was him I really expected better, (translation: go fuck yourself you mother fucker if it was you).

Why does October suck for me?!?! What did I ever do to it?!?!

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/21158574/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/21158574/ Sat, 25 Oct 2008 16:29:56 PDT so i've been freaking out for a while - a day and a half balling and another half a day just being calm but my chest muscles are going nuts.

For those of you that don't know what the disease is, it's Alziemers and Parkinsons in one disease. That's why it scares me so much. I told Paul about it and he said he would never leave me - it was so sweet i cried lol

I can get a blood test for it, but if it was positive that would be devastating for me and my mom. So I've decided that if my mom has it and I want kids one day, I'll take the test.

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/21051023/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/21051023/ Sat, 18 Oct 2008 17:17:20 PDT
I'm in belleville again, because I have a ton of work to do and honestly I'm not sure where I should get started. I'll prolly head home around wednesday and work a few shifts and then I'll come back home again. Now that I think about it I have to:

Design logos for my year long project - late (by 1 day so far)
Animate something in flash - not started
Make an HDRI - probably late
Game Design - 20% started
Assignments for AV and DC - late b/c lms was down
Programming - not started
Rez buildings in XSI - 20% started but late
Art Direction Binder - not started

and i think that's it...but i'm not sure...i really hope that's it....T_T

btw i finished my Digital Compositing exam and i think i did really well

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]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/20738989/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/20738989/ Mon, 29 Sep 2008 10:15:52 PDT but technically it was over a year, because we made up the date cuz we couldn't remember what the date was and it's a leap year lol. I got him 2 movies (21 and Trailor Park Boys) and a deep fryer, (trying to decide griddle or fryer, and the fryer was the cheapest. I'll only use it when i want a fish fry ^^ lol) and he got me a necklace with a emerald and diamond heart pendant, (prolly not real diamonds, but just giving you a visual) from one of the jewellery stores in the mall. it was very beautiful and not too expensive ^^ he made me breakfast and got me flowers and then we went to montanas for dinner - i couldn't be happier XD

but then i forgot to do the flash homework for today - so that's why i skipped class this morning

love you paul

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/20504901/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/20504901/ Mon, 15 Sep 2008 12:15:25 PDT plus i'm going to sign up for ti-jitsu or something like martial arts. and if i get a part time job - i will have no extra time! hopefully it all works out...

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/20344152/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/20344152/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 17:08:57 PDT
this year is going to be awesome!!!! XD

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/20270647/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/20270647/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 11:35:37 PDT XD i don't know if it's a girl or a boy but i named it Rex anyway, it just seemed to suit.

lately my anxiety has been acting up - don't know whats wrong. nervous for 2nd year? maybe iunno...it's been a long week and i really can't wait to get settled into the course. i'm pretty sure i have an ear infection - also sucks - but i think i'll live

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So - yea i was definately creeped out! i don't know if it was for real or not (AJ thinks it was all Heidi) but after sum research i think it could be proven.

Anyway - I'm more focused on school, but I still can't help but think about it from time to time.

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/20126804/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/20126804/ Sun, 24 Aug 2008 08:55:57 PDT
X3 HURRAY FOR FREEDOM XD XD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/19776415/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/19776415/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 17:52:30 PDT lol i didn't want him to leave, but I just have to wait another couple weeks until we see eachother again...

on the other side of the table - 2 of my roomies moved out and now they aren't going to pay the 1 month rent in which they stayed...fuck me sideways - like holy shit - thanks a lot buddy...Grrrr....

i'm really hoping that the school year is nicer to me than the summer was...but so far i don't know what it's going to turn out to be like...*sigh*

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but so far - life has been shit, minus the 5 day stay at pauls i'm going to call my manager to see if i got fierd, and if i did i'm soooo fucked...art has been going ok - except for the fact that my dial up doesn't upload anything, so i used paul's high speed lol besides the job crap, everybody in my house is wanting out because of all the mice and mold crap, which pisses me off, b/c only 4 out of the 5 ppl signed the lease b/c my landlord is a lazy asshole plus if it is as bad as they say, i have no idea how to get out of a lease. However, heidi said that she and her parents might go down this weekend and see what they can fix up.

wat a great start to this month eh? lol

(btw i'm not lonely, the mood thing won't let me change it)

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/18615123/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/18615123/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 18:05:13 PDT My grandma thinks I lost weight and hopefully I have *crosses fingers* I still miss school and I really REALLY miss paul I him soo much

anyway, i've been working very hard on my story, i'm typing Part II but i'm writing Part VII lol I don't know if it'll fit on dA or not...o well i'll post it when i DON'T have dial up X| art work is very VERY slow, I haven't done much. I want to do a couple series like this special Friends thing, and i need to update my characters and make visuals for my new characters in my story. ugh...plus i have to not forget how to use all the software i just learned how to do in first year lol.

I met paul's immediate family and they're awesome XD his brother's are funny pretty-boys and his mom is so nice and sweet! i saw paul's baby photos and he was so ADORABLE!!!! lol and he still is he bought me a spiked collar ring and a gothic barbie doll thing. the city experience was awesome lol. he took me to see Iron Man which ROCKED!!! i'm so buying that movie XD lol i love you paulie

I leave you with CAN'T WAIT UNTIL SCHOOL STARTS!!!! lol

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/18257027/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/18257027/ Sat, 10 May 2008 12:22:05 PDT but i have friends here that i missed too, so it's nice to see them again. CAITIE i need to see you sometime!!

So far I have one mark for my course - a 50 in digital concepts lol - i passed thank God cuz i hated that class like fuck lol. yay networking...oi - i'd rather listen to Lisa talk about crap lol.

I got the job at Tim Horton's in Wal-Mart, and we get paid every week plus we get holidays off and I start next week, but i've got to get the uniform fitted on monday. I just hope i save enough for the year ahead!

Can't wait till victoria day weekend - i get to see my baby!!!! Paul's going to meet me at the train station in Oshawa then we're going to take the Go train to T.O. and he's going to take me for a little tour downtown (no buses tho, i've heard all about T.O. buses lol) then we're going on the Go to his house in Brampton i'm nervous but i'm really excited!! Maybe I'll finally be able to see IRON MAN!!!!! XD XD lol

anyways - i won't be on here very much unless we finally get high speed. so - don't be hasty when you want me to respond to a comment. I'll let u all know when i get high speed

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/17990485/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/17990485/ Wed, 23 Apr 2008 11:14:27 PDT and i have to wait until August 10th to go to the bar or something with one of my friends from home....lol DAMMITALL!!! X| but anyway, it was a good day. My room mate felt bad that nobody could afford cake - so she got her bf to by me one - it was nice and funny at the same time

Almost done for the year still have to hand in a bunch of stuff - not just final stuff either. i found out that i'm in the 30% area for web - because my prof is missing a few assignments besides the final, (but i already handed the final in THANK GOD IT'S DONE!!!!!) and now I'm praying that I get this animation done right wish me luck!!

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/17934863/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/17934863/ Sat, 19 Apr 2008 21:31:56 PDT ) from Nick and an electric guitar, amp, guitar picks and a black & green skull w/8 balls strap D the BEST bday EVER!!!!!!!!! if my family and friends were here it'd be better.....if i got a million $$$ it'd be HOLY FUCK THE BEST!!! lol

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/17761050/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/17761050/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 09:34:47 PDT still have a shit load of projects to do but luckily there's only a few projects due after my birthday it's so great that my bday is on a tuesday cuz that's when the free bus goes to the mall and i can (for the 1st time legally) buy BOOZE !!! XD

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CD/DVD game - 10% done - due in 2 days

Animation Character - 15% done - due tomorrow

Programming/Ecommerce/Web Authoring Website - 1% done - due ??

Ecommerce presentation - 0% done - due ??

Art Direction final - not assigned yet

Digital Concepts Windows 2000 and Linux Report - 0% done - due April.25th

All of this = no sleep for a while....


T_T - i know i shouldn't be complaining - but i'm doing it anyway

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/17446166/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/17446166/ Fri, 21 Mar 2008 16:54:19 PDT
Lately I feel as though I'm loosing all inspiration for drawing. I haven't exactly been improving - and my dad constantly nags at me for copying every time i pull out my sketch book. I don't have any time to practice either and we hardly do any drawing in my program...

That's another thing...I don't know why I'm even IN this program...I don't know what I want to do or even how to do it. I feel stuck. I just can't draw anymore...when I do, I feel like I'm repeating myself and getting nowhere.

All I'm achieving is - well - nothing. I'm loosing inspiration and just gaining envy. I don't feel a point in trying to get better, because I know I'm just going to fail. I don't want to bother Paul with this, or anybody else for that matter...I guess I could talk to Heidi - she's good to talk to I just feel useless and hopeless. I have no money and I feel as though I have no talent. Is there anything that can help my motivation?

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]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/17179983/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/17179983/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 13:11:16 PST but overall, it was good. There were some difficult parts as usual, but that's just life eh?

I'm still working on that story and so far i'm on part 4 ^_^ I'm thinking of what kind of avatar that i would like for this account. What sucks is that I've been on dA for almost 4 or something years and now that i begun a new account - it sets me back lol. o well... i'm thinking of starting a series of things, for example, elements, seasons stuff like that. Just drawing random stuff lately...

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/16819492/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/16819492/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 15:23:28 PST
srry - off in la-la-land...I made a facebook group for it if anybody wishes to join it. Joining it would be support for me and YukeraYasha if she still plans to help me with this or not. I'm prolly going to make a MySpace group - but that won't be until I know what I'm doing. I've been warned many MANY times not to start this business with a good friend, cuz we apparently won't be good friends if we try to do this together. Jerks....THEY DON'T KNOW ME AND MY KITTEH!!! lol...but yeah - I'd really like some tips or pointers or anything if anybody has any...

Thankies


and BTW - I might not have art up for a while...

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/16711775/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/16711775/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 17:45:51 PST i'm soo HAPPEH!!!!! XD we both hope that the situation never repeats itself - but hey - there are bumps everywhere you go in life eh? i have a good feeling that this will make our relationship stronger.



EEEEE HAPPY AND IN LOVE!!!!! XD XD

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/16691447/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/16691447/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 13:47:20 PST

I feel so scared......................and alone.........................................



..............again.................

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/16624684/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/16624684/ Tue, 29 Jan 2008 08:08:37 PST
As for other art - i'm still really shitty with digital art - so i'm going to stick with traditional for a while until my skills in PS get better...a LOT better.

and for a reminder - run2 is going to be closed - i'm going to delete all of the deviations from there - i'll prolly upload a few that i love from that account.

that's all for now!

]]> ~earthandshadows http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/16550282/ http://earthandshadows.deviantart.com/journal/16550282/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 11:44:54 PST

Thanks,

Emily

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