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deviantART: by:eclectic-fusion http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:eclectic-fusion&section=today deviantART RSS for by:eclectic-fusion en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 28 Dec 2009 23:49:45 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Sythisean & Djrehn Trahi Myspaces http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/21113304/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/21113304/ Wed, 22 Oct 2008 16:07:03 PDT

Sythisean [Sythisean myspace link HERE]

and

Djrehn Trahi [Djrehn Trahi myspace link HERE]

I have yet to fill out the information in the Djrehn Trahi song info section.... but I wrote down information for every song on the Djrehn Trahi album.

Also, check out my regular myspace music account

!!!!

Paul's music time! YYAYAYAYAYAYAYY!YY!Y!

Have fun, specialings!!!!!
AND FIND JOY, PEACE, AND BEAUTY IN ALL!!! and if you don't find it... CREATE IT! we're artists!

+PAUL

]]> ~eclectic-fusion 22 http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/20040054/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/20040054/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 11:25:54 PDT
...which is pretty darn old! I still feel like a teenager.

I got my first piercing on my birthday!!!
- the lower conch on my left ear -

It's AMAZING! I love it very much! This healing process is not fun though. Thankfully I have great patience.

I hope you're enjoying the new art that I've been uploading.

Thanks to my piercing I cannot wear headphones for 3 months. You don't know how much this devastates me!! I'm the person who ALWAYS has headphones on! Hehe It's also hindering my music production. I like to create the music through headphones, since that's how I intend it to be heard. But now I can't....maybe that'll force me to make more extroverted music. Perhaps I'll finally sing. I've been practicing and using my voice much more than I use to and I think I'm ready to take my music to that next level.

Music writing is very difficult, but so much fun!

School is almost underfoot and I'm excited for more art projects!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion oops i forgot to title this http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/19787523/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/19787523/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 10:00:36 PDT Makes me want to come post things again

! haha! I love the new message center SOOOO much! I saw this in *BigJimmyC's journal and decided to fill it out. I love surveys!

1. When was the last time you cried?
Saturday night...I was drunk. My friend tells me that I said, "Every decision I've made has been the wrong decision!!! :'(" HAHA! Totally NOT my outlook on life!

2. Have you ever faked sick?
Not since 7th grade probably. Since then I've learned to not even give an excuse...truth is best.

3. What was the last lie you said?
I'm not hungry.

4. Have you ever cried during a movie?
I cry for pretty much every movie. I cried at The Dark Knight just yesterday...and I'd already seen it twice before.

5. Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?
This waiter at Route 66 Diner! I've never seen eyes so beautiful in real life! And he'd stare back into mine when talking to me

! Very beautiful guy.

6. Have you ever danced in the rain?
Yes!

7. Have you ever been drunk?
Yes.

8. Have you ever seen your parents drunk?
My dad, once.

9. Do you smoke?
No.

10. What's the farthest you've ever gone on a dare?
I don't remember any.

11. What is your full name?
I'll give you my cats full name. Sir Captain Douglas T-Boz Perryweather Figuerez Sanchinez Nunez Vasquez Martinez (the last spanishy last names always change cuz I can never remember them...but it's definitely Sir Captain Douglas T-Boz Perryweather many-Z-lastnames)

12. What is your blood-type?
O, I think.

13. Have you ever been in a car accident?
A small one when I was 10ish. Both of my siblings have survived crazy roll-overs off of cliff-hills! I never want to drive,

.

14. How old were you when you had your first kiss?
7ish

15. Who was your first kiss?
His name was Jacob.

16. Do you snort when you laugh?
No...but I've got a few baby sounds in my laugh, haha

17. Have you ever waxed your eyebrows?
Nope...I barely have them in the first place

18. Have you ever been rejected by a crush?
Yes...damn the straighties.

19. What is your favourite sport to play?
I love to ski. Other than that I don't like sports.

20. Have you ever made a prank phone call?
Yeah... with ip-relay.com

21. When was the last time you screamed?
First let me say that I'm afraid of aliens. I was on a road trip with my parents last weekend and my dad comes across a field of corn. It's 2am...he decides to stop and take pictures like the leg scene in Signs. Haha....and I'm freaked out! But I've been very experimental and daring this past year. So I get out of the vehicle and walk towards the corn fields.... I'm trying to hurry up and take the shots so I can get back to safety; meanwhile, my sister gets in the driver's seat, turns off the lights and starts to drive away! Hahaha...I screamed with so much fear!!!!!! To demonstrate, here's The Four Fears

*audience goes wild

*

22. What's your favourite childhood memory?
Seeing an alie... ]]> ~eclectic-fusion DANCE!!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/16692733/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/16692733/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 15:13:51 PST
Soundscapes
Visual Ecstasy
Movement!

ESCAPISM!!!

I've always been fond of losing myself...so let me get others lost! ^-^!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion The Beautiful Servitude http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/12634465/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/12634465/ Tue, 17 Apr 2007 16:07:20 PDT filtered through snow, the light shown on them, for them
lightest, as the will'th permit
lightest, as it felt upon my face
upon me
foolishly shown
i am flown through delicate petals

force
keen was the force
keen became the faith
force became the vein
poison of another's position
forces untold
forces to be left kinder
sold to the north
left to the delicate scar
slip of poison's position
let it seep so
left it to sleep, snow

lifted up to him
we lost it
we lost us
pull forth and bring it back
follow with him
return for the moisture
flown becomes consequence
most becomes of the fears
for the host of it be you
love before the kind becomes flown
foster from the north
let him be free
keep me still before the moth
love and trust
through the fetus of me, find
find in me the fetus of the pearl
lift me
fly

this is it
this my service
there is my place
amongst those
amongst them
here is where i am
here i must live
love for it
love it for them
love them
this is where i love
under brick and foot
beneath you
i'm in my place
my beautiful servitude
my elegance
protection

]]> ~eclectic-fusion Another Case Of Perfect Random Music http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/12415074/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/12415074/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 11:10:40 PDT Sometimes I have to press skip a hundred times before I finally like something (literally...I test it).

This is a case of perfection (happens quite a bit though, hehe)
1. Muse- Knights Of Cydonia
2. Kylie Minogue- Promises
3. Phantom Planet- Big Brat
4. Britney Spears- Stronger
5. Nelly Furtado- Maneater
6. The Shins- Australia
7. Bjork- Storm
8. The Shins- Sea Legs

I don't know why...and it's just the sounds and feelings I get from the songs...not really the songs or their lyrics or anything. Weird mix, yeah...but it was awesome to just hear song after song and not want to skip anything! #9 didn't match and neither did any song after that. I also love when it plays a song and then it's remix right after...or a song and a live version of the song right after, hehe...out of all my music to choose from! It's fun!

I'm doing good!!! I'm creating some cool things...I'll take pictures and put them up sometime.....

SEEING AS I FINALLY HAVE INTERNET

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I miss you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion Fight For My Light http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/12037957/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/12037957/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 09:46:46 PST but I didn't know to what extent...
and I didn't know how deep it all ran

Last night was a huge...I don't know...
not really an eye opener...
Last night was more...one of the most life changing bout of thinking I've ever gone through.

I found deep rooted reasons for why I'm so sad...deep in chronology and deep in pain...and I've realized...
The reason I'm so the person I want to change...is that I'm afraid of feeling any pain I've felt again

Protecting myself...to keep from harm...
but that's where the problem comes...
I'm causing myself deeper harm by hiding away...by not letting anything close...anyone close...

TRUST....it's something I lost for all humanity
I have an eye fixed towards them...what do they want...how can they hurt me...how will they hurt me...and I base EVERYTHING on not getting hurt.

I'm trying to gain my trust back for people now...trying to be the good person I so want to be...trying to stay clear of the bad person inside of me that takes over sometimes...now that I know exactly who he is and what he wants/does....

I didn't know who that guy was...and why I would become him...I really didn't...
but after all of my thinking I figured him out...and I want him gone...that's not me...that's not who I want to be...that's the easy way out...

So I change all the time, right? Don't we all? This time though I don't have to experiment...I know what is what and things I should do! It's filled me with much hope...much needed hope.

Trust
Responsibility
Action
Kindness
Independence
Happiness
Generosity

Things things I hold dearly...things things I want to get a better grip on...to mold them over me and become who I want to be...don't just sit back and try to enjoy things as what I am now..........how can the person who I am now be me if I'm doing nothing to make myself this person?

The deep problems...address them and fix them...forgive them...forgive myself...
trust...
in everyone
in myself
without trust I cannot fully love

So how can I relearn to trust people?

]]> ~eclectic-fusion Alien +update: Celestial+ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/12015911/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/12015911/ Thu, 01 Mar 2007 15:58:21 PST that half of you is ready and able to float away from this planet...but your feet pull you and keep you down...

and I mean this both in an actual and metaphorical way

It feels like this for me both physically and mentally.

It also feels like my head is more to the right than it should be and that I'm compensating by tilting it in either direction.

Don't know what these feelings are or where they came from.

I have a lot of projects and ideas that I want to get to soon

Also, I have a lot of things to upload...like two years of artwork that I never put on deviantart...digital and traditional...most of which I don't consider "mine"...just assignments

I'd like to say I've closed the book on my two old album projects...but the truth is I never get the lyrics done...I just can't seem to grasp what I want to say. Perhaps it will help to do a creative writing every day...I was getting very good with those a few months ago, hehe

I'll post some proposed lyrics and such and ask for feedback...idk...hehe!

Hope you all are having a great time

! If not, do something about your life to change it for your good (of course thinking about whom it may affect as well...but weigh towards your way for a change (if you don't))

Wish me luck in fixing my life as well,

well....cleaning up the broken pieces and making something beautiful out of them

One more thing....if you haven't heard my music piece "Celestial" please do!

[link]

It's one of the most beautiful things I have ever created...there is a lot of info on my page about the music projects...and well...don't take everything I say there to heart...I wrote it all once and never reread it till like a month later...found a lot of errors...and have yet to fix them, hehe! Please excuse!

Hope you have a wonderful day!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion what's with the disrespect for electronic art?!!?! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/11040897/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/11040897/ Tue, 12 Dec 2006 14:26:35 PST
1/4th of the final could be anything of our choice....

I chose to use the electronic medium...I feel it's my strongest points, so I believed it would have been most impressive and I would have received most points.

I used photoshop.

I get a 40 out of 50 points.

20% of my grade was taken off....
because it was photoshopped...

because it was too "easy"

because my teacher was too lazy to notice the details...because she couldn't see the work involved...because she didn't know the background story and the experimentation...

because "i could do that"

I'm sure anyone can just go and do what I do....
I'm sure it's the easiest thing...
I'm not going to lie...it's rather easy for me...and tons of other people...

But what about the ones who draw?
IS IT NOT THEIR TALENT?!!
Is it not what they are good at?
How is my skill in photoshop different than any way in someone's skill in drawing or painting or any other form?!!

Fucking, 20%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHORE!!! That's so much!!! And for a final!! I wanted to slap her...
Or give her my computer...sit there...and watch her recreate what I did...
Ugh!!!

But you know the best part of it all..........
I fucking loved what I did in photoshop

I loved it more than all my projects in that class...I liked it more than any other project in that class from anyone else....
and in the end...it's myself that I want to impress most.

I just wish people were more open to electronic art...
ESPECIALLY ARTISTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
20%!!! twenty percent!!!!
Okay! Who cares

I'm still getting an A...with those 10 points I'd still be getting the same grade...so it's all good!!!

!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!! Thanks for reading my rant if you read it all!!

AND THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIEND

!!!!!!!!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion Oh yeah, I was featured at one of the BT & Tho http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/11020342/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/11020342/ Sun, 10 Dec 2006 17:30:52 PST For some reason I've really been on the upside of things!!!

ADD MY MYSPACES!!!
regular
[link]

music
[link]

BYE!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion almost done :D!!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/10976808/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/10976808/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 19:46:15 PST
Next semester I plan to take these:

...Whichever flamenco class I place into
...An interactive electronic arts class
...Music Theory (maybe)
...idk maybe some math, idk
...Idk...
...basically I just want to do flamenco dance and electronic arts...I want those two things to be my majors.

I know this journal sucks ass...but I just want to let the people who I told I was coming back to deviantart...that I will return shortly, hehe...with new works...tons of traditional stuff that I did this semester in my art classes...some electronic stuff...and idk how to upload it but i made a dvd (can't do just a video of it because the menus are videos and such!)...and printies!!! gotta take advantage of my prints account! hehe!

about me...I hate living in Albuquerque, New Mexico....mostly I hate this school and the experience I've had here. I'm so lonely and everything sucks and I'm sure my hand will stop working soon because of the overuse in my 2D-design class! hehe...I kinda want to go back to where I used to go to school and finish off my studies in Mathematics!! That was a tough school...this school I'm at now is just tedious and the people here are so freakin fake it's hard to be comfortable here!!!

I'm overworked and need someone to make art with me and music and everything but in a good creative way!!! I'll give this school another shot!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion these are suggestions; and we: the semantics http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/10877397/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/10877397/ Tue, 28 Nov 2006 09:27:08 PST the favorites
play favored/play followed
and we: the sufferers
we know it/we fight it
destroyers
the favored
pray tell us: the favors
play: lost to the flowers
grown lost: the survivors

these are suggestion; and we: the semantics
symmetric: play followers
pray/dream, play the flowers
grown lost, lay the faulters
with colors: divine

shouldn't there be more to this life than leaning towards nothing
bending loops around circles
touched, void if before

let it out, stop: the flowers
give it, not; stop the followers
let it lay; drop the faulters
should it be-marked/caught?: the survivors
the destroyers: the favorites
and we lay lost
and these are suggestions
and we: the semantics
become worn: the forgiving

]]> ~eclectic-fusion Should I Return? http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/10848645/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/10848645/ Sat, 25 Nov 2006 18:47:47 PST
]]> ~eclectic-fusion half of zero, you're familiar http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/10201140/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/10201140/ Wed, 27 Sep 2006 07:01:34 PDT

life has sucked major ass recently
my swings have been larger and more mind killing
i'm hiding it better
but there's no saying what i'm gonna feel minute to minute

i hate the motivation i have to do what i want most in life...
i have zero...
half of zero
my motivation sucks, where can i trade it for a new one?
maybe the dream just isn't exciting to me anymore...
maybe I should make a change there too...

i hate it! i hate where life has been taking me and how it's been treating me! i fucking hate certain things and i have no idea what to do or think anymore. what I want most is to leave, far away and be forced to make it on my own...otherwise i'll just keep doing what i'm doing best...nothing

tired of people
tired of interaction
tired of liars
tired of confusion
tired of holding back
tired of lonliness
tired of this journal

sorry for the one update to my page being so boring or down

]]> ~eclectic-fusion I'm 20!!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/9712361/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/9712361/ Sun, 13 Aug 2006 11:21:18 PDT

Mood:

I feel nice :)
Listening to: Roisin Murphy- Ramalama (Bang Bang)
Watching: 2046

I turned 20 today!!!!

I'm so happy! It's my favorite day of the year! I don't have much time to spend so I'll copy and paste something from a livejournal entry I wrote a few days ago that's a bit befitting.

Hope you are all having an awesome time!!!

______________________
LIVEJOURNAL segments

it's great to know that the day i've always looked forward to as a turning point will not have to be this year...it's weird....but it feels so good and amazing inside...
13th
of august
i've been there many times as a broken soul
i've been there the 12th
crying
knowing i can let it all out and forget about it...because the refresh date was near
happy and sad tears
they've always flowed out then
i wake up
and everything is okay
recharged and ready to face another year

but...as i've said...this year is different...
I don't have reasons to be sad...
I've gone through everything...and I've let it go...
I'm not one to hold onto little things...but I'm one to hold onto my pain...
...I guess I worked a bit early this year...
everything's out...
everything's done with...
and it's beautiful...

today I danced...
only for a few minutes...
but it was the most special i've felt dancing...
the most beautiful i've ever felt
and i know it's because i'm

*segment deleted! hehe...I gotta be careful on deviantart...if you want my livejournal just note me for it

*

playing with gum...stealing it...VIOLENTLY!!!
hehe...it was most fun!
racing up the down escalator with an injured knee!! haha...very painfully fun!
i don't want to hold back...
i don't want to shy away...
i don't want to be such an introvert when I can be living it up!
BUT...it has to be balanced...AND IT WILL...everything will...because ... (

)

this much closer to what i've always wanted in life
and it feels amazing...
no longer will i need my birth date as i have in the past

no longer will i drag things on and wait for the 12th of august...to let it all go...
i can do it anytime i want! i've known this before...but not the way i KNOW it now...my birthday has lost a bit of meaning to me...well no....it hasn't...it's spread out to every day of the year...EVERY DAY...is a day to let anything go and move on with a happy life. I can look forward to almost every day...something I've never done being such a sad boy in the past. So thank you August 13th...you haven't lost meaning...you've spread it about...and I will always look forward to you still...as THE DAY to let the past be past...you're still my favorite day of the year

I only hope you land on Fridays more, DAMMIT!! hehe!! But seriously...it's much mental fun!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion 13 going on 20 http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/9551755/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/9551755/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 08:31:00 PDT "OMG I'M ALMOST 13!!!!!!!!!!"

"OH WAIT! *LMAO* I MEANT 19!!!!!!!"

"*LMAO* DAMMIT!! I mean 20" *said with much less enthusiasm*

I thought it was a stupid way to start the day, LOL!
I can't believe I don't pay THAT much attention to my age. I totally believed the 19 thing for like 20 seconds...

So I pretty much write a private livejournal entry everyday...would anyone like me to start posting such things here? I hope to get more active in this community when I get high speed internet. I rarely do anything here thanks to the pain of dial-up, lol!

Hope you're doing awesome...and having an awesome time...and feeling awesome, as well!! Maybe some of that awesomeness can rub off on me! hehe...I haven't been feeling too awesome as of lately

but things change...I won't be in this funk for probably more than another HALF-HOUR!!! WOOOO!!!! Jk, hehe...I have no idea! BYE!!!! ]]> ~eclectic-fusion hey...life is starting...do something http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/9499474/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/9499474/ Wed, 26 Jul 2006 10:06:45 PDT
I haven't just been being lazy...I've been working on my artwork and my music. I've been using this summer and my slight time off to push things forward in that department. I want to be comfortable with myself before I turn 20 next month. And I'm very upset with myself and where I am in life.

I've been at a really, really amazing college for two years. I loved the people there and the classes I was taking. But I've realized that I do not want to do math for the rest of my life. No matter how good the pay is. It was my choice, I decided not to go back to that college. My parents were sad, I know. But they support me and my decisions. I only hope I can make them as proud in the field of arts as they were of me in the field of math and astro-physics. It was fun for them to brag that their son was going to be a "rocket scientist" and make all kindsa money for them. But I can't do it! It was driving me crazy! I'd rather push harder and try to make them as much money in the field of arts.

So anyways, besides that...life has been pretty good to me...well, not really. This summer totally blew!! I hated it and what it's done to me hehe...but at the same time I'm super thankful for it and glad that I experienced life a way that I never want to experience it again! It gives me the motivation to not half-ass things.

I want to be my own boss....and I want to support my family. I don't care about the money for me...except to buy new electronic equipment to further my abilities in the fields I want to go into.

I'm extremely excited...and exponentially terrified! It doesn't sound easy....

MATH sounded easy....I could always go back and do that...but I don't want to. My life would be dull and full of money...DULL...I'd hate that!

So art it is

Anyone else with a similar situation? Being pulled between two "passions" but realizing art was more of what you wanted? hehe...I bet most people on deviantart would choose art

I only hope to win this lottery and make enough money to live comfortably. I don't want to be a starving artist.

I'll be honest...I want millions ]]> ~eclectic-fusion Sythisean Under-Wraps (New Project Under-Works) http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/8363722/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/8363722/ Tue, 04 Apr 2006 13:00:29 PDT !!!

My next project is going to be very similar in that I'm going to continue to create the music in the same way...however this project will be very well produced, a little unlike Sythisean. The first song is in it's beginning stages and already it has a deeper quality than most of the 'Sythisean' pieces. Both albums are planned to have vocal parts for various tracks. Some pieces, however, will remain musical.

'Sythisean', for those of you who don't know, is the title of my first album. I think it sounds weird calling it my first album, since it's not going to be released or anything....so it's like my personal little song collection.

With my new project (tentatively titled '______ ____" (

! It's a secret! hehe...mostly because it's not a set title)) I plan to explore my love for space and science fiction even further than before. I want this album to make me believe that I AM in space. Sythisean just didn't do that for me.

The big drive for Sythisean was the story...a story was set on a planet, named Orhelicon. For this next project the setting is in space!! It doesn't necessarily take off from where Sythisean left us; a lot of time has passed since that story. However, it IS in a way a continuation of that story on a large scale. Everything in this 'world' IS because of the events durring the story used in Sythisean. As if the new project was the next book in a series.

There are plans for a more personal side project. I want my new project to strictly be science fiction, where as Sythisean bordered between my fantasy world and my own. The many lyrics I wrote for Sythisean were much more personal than fictional. But I don't want to NOT write personal songs. So I'm anticipating that I will write both types of songs, science fictional and personal, and create separate albums (most likely with similar sounds since they will be created at the same time).

Another idea I have is to use some of the tracks from Sythisean in the personal songs project. I will definitely tweak them a bit to match the album as a whole.

So I've just decided now that there will be TWO new projects under-way. Sythisean will definitely have it's role in these projects (more-so in the personal project) but will not actually BE the projects. As a music collection, I think Sythisean is complete. I believe if I add vocals to any of the tracks, the songs will fall into the personal side project album.

Of course all these songs are personal, but when I say personal I mean that the lyrics will actually refer to me and my life. The lyrics in the science fiction pieces will pertain to the characters and may even be written as if the character wrote them. It's very soundtrack-y.

That is all!!!
Life is good now that my music program is working again. Life is really good

Anything can happen (besides death of, or pain in, a loved one) and I couldn't care less

I'm very excited and very READY to work on new material

!!!!!!!!

Music is beautiful and the only thing I can truely indulge myself in

]]> ~eclectic-fusion isn't it beautiful? http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/8063475/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/8063475/ Sat, 04 Mar 2006 09:02:41 PST a sense of....
legacy

I haven't done much to leave one...
but I feel like I'll have stories to tell when I'm older...

like...idk.....it inspires me to create and live these stories so that i'll be able to write them lol...idk...
it's not making too much sense to me...yet at the same time it's making near-perfect sense

make your story...
live in it and write it...
bring in new characters...take some out...
anything...it's all going to be memories anyway
what's lived though is just that...lived through...
you can't go back....
so push things to suit what memories you'd want...
sure things will be way different and many unexpected things will occur...
but whatever...
write it and live it...
and remember it so when you're older...you can sit back...and smile...remembering all that's been...good and bad...all that you've done and become...

isn't it beautiful? ]]> ~eclectic-fusion I Feel Best http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/7440979/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/7440979/ Wed, 28 Dec 2005 15:02:13 PST

Mood:

:)
Listening to: I have it on random...I'm finding good music!

Idk....idk what happened. I was down more than I had been since my junior year in highschool....and what? what happens? BAM I'm refreshed!!!!

I'm feeling good!!! I'm feeling BEST!!!

Idk what happened...maybe I wore out all my supply of sadness

!

Or maybe it was putting these headphones back in my ears and taking myself on journeys afar! I love music, and I really think that it's saved my life many a times. Maybe not from dying...but from falling into a slump...falling into severe depression and such. Sometimes it pushes me there...but I'm taking a different outlook on it this time.

I'm a person who gets drawn into every song I hear. I feel what's to be felt...even more than I'm probably supposed to. But here's my new outlook: for the sad songs I'm not going to actually get sad anymore. I'll let the music affect me and move me the same way. But when the songs over I'll just pretend like I was acting in a movie...and the scene was finished...then I don't have to be sad anymore!

I haven't been active on deviantart in a LONG time...so I want to hear from you!!

Who are you? What are you up to? How are you feeling? Ready for the new year? ummmm idk tell me about you and stuff! I'm interested!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion Freaky!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/7195609/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/7195609/ Thu, 01 Dec 2005 15:00:33 PST

Mood: :)
Listening to: Camaron de la Isla

hehe I was searching for song lyrics for one of my favorite singers Camaron de la Isla....and I came across a page with downloadable clips of his songs. So I found one I had never heard of right...and in the background my iTunes library is on random. And OMG out of 4212 songs I have...the ONE SONG It picks just so happens to be the one I was downloading!!!! I hadn't even saved it yet! The window came up and while I was looking for a folder to put it in is when I heard the music hehe.

So I went to see what song was playing and woah!! it was that song!! hehe It just happened so I thought it was all freaky

!!

Don't you think? A song I've never heard of. I'm in the middle of trying to find a place to put the downloaded clip. And out of all my songs in my library my iTunes (on random) plays that exact song!!! I never even knew I had it!! hehe

that's all for now hehe *looks around suspiciously*

,
Paul

]]> ~eclectic-fusion Blank Journal!!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/7182788/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/7182788/ Wed, 30 Nov 2005 05:15:07 PST

Mood: hehe

OMG BLANK JOURNAL!!!!!!!!

LOOK AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!

For the blanknity of it all is blinding!!!!!!!!!!

just procrastinating as usual!

Bye bye!!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion To Live in My Worlds...Alone. http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/7117954/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/7117954/ Tue, 22 Nov 2005 20:11:38 PST

Mood: No mood can explain
Listening to: Lloran al lao mío by Montse Cortes
Reading: Time's Eye by Arthur C. Clarke and Stephen Baxter
Watching: waiting for Aeon Flux

The time has come for me to make a decision on a certain stance.
He was a best friend...but as of today it's over...I'm never speaking to him again.

You can say I don't even want to be friends with him anymore.
Just blew up at me today...whatever...his loss.

I'm ready to live on my own again...ready to FINALLY have privacy again.

Then I can create art again...meaningful art.
I have lots of photos I've taken...and a lot that impress me...but they're not enough...something's missing about them. And I feel it's because I haven't been able to be alone with my art...to vent...to let frustrations out. I miss art.

I want to come back to art.
Leave everything else...everyone else who doesn't care about me...and focus on art.
Music at the same time.
And math.
A beautiful balance of the 3...it's what I dream of.

My planned schedule for next semester of school...
General Physics (+Lab)
General Psychology
Music Composition
Glass Fusing
Basic Concepts of Math
Probability

Both math classes will be my first 300 level classes. Scary...but fun. I love math.

I cannot wait for the next semester...away from people...away from the burdens they bring...I'm not a fan of ordinary life. I love to dream...and make up worlds.

I'm not a fan of humans.
I am however a fan of family. I love my family.
I love my family...and they love me...unconditionaly.
No one else.
Time's come for me to go my way.

Paul Anglada.

(ps. I do, however, like people online...so don't get scared from this journal...I only don't like people in real life. people i can communicate with in real time...without words...these people scare me to no end.

I never want to go out into the world.)
(okay and I like some people in real life...I will joke around with you if I like you in real life.)

]]> ~eclectic-fusion Hi everyone http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6733845/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6733845/ Mon, 10 Oct 2005 19:37:28 PDT

hey everyone hti

Listening to: sleep still tongith
Watching: lord ot ehr ings

hehe just woke up from a nap and not too sure waht's going one hehe

OMG Soo sleepy so anyways I'm wanting to write to say that I'm doing good just sleepy and i'm doing good! umm oh yeah I have a new deviation!! i'm too sleepy to write but i'm working on a million new things and so much different things i hope you like them when i put online buwt wane i'm putitng it i ond know! but i hope uyou're ahving fun!! BYE BYE

]]>

~eclectic-fusion no| this chance}it's yours to keep>give http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6506091/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6506091/ Wed, 14 Sep 2005 18:56:36 PDT

I had a dream of the apocalypse...It was a good dream.
I had a dream after that about fear...it was nothing new to me...but nevertheless I was afraid.

I don't know what to do these days...idk...I'm cutting holes in my soul...I'm folding myself...and cutting holes. many holes when unfolded....it's not fun...I'm trying my best to have fun but things I want to leave alone wont be left alone. And things I should/shouldn't do I'm doing...and the effects are both positive and negative.

I'm not depressed...I'm not really that sad...I'm just tired and I feel bruised. I feel that my life is getting to be hard and what happens in the next few months could bring me even further down then I've ever been...and I've been close to bottom before...when I was 16 I pretty much had a nervous breakdown...I probably did...I couldn't talk (literally) for days....idk...what happened then was something stupid and I wouldn't react the same now as I did then.

I'm getting lost here...I'm lost in this world...and people are pushing me around. They mean no harm, but it's harmful nevertheless. They mean no harm to me.

People always mean so much good...at least the people I surround myself with...so why am I so afraid of them? Why does what they do to and for me hurt me? I guess what it comes down to is that I'm just messed up in the head...or something...idk

But I'm good...I'm doing good. I'm sorry for the lack of art recently...I'm still working on music if you want to hear it...

My Music

Farewell beauties!!!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion A "short" Update hehe http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6404191/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6404191/ Sat, 03 Sep 2005 09:50:33 PDT

Mood:

Sleepy
Listening to: one of mine
Reading: my linear algebra book
Watching: idk but I can't wait till HHGTTG (H2G2)

Hey everyone!! I'm sorry that I've been gone for so long in this community!! I've just been way busy with school....but it's fun! I love college and the classes I'm taking! I'm taking a digital photography course...it's pretty cool but I don't think I'm going to learn much from the class. I can learn from the teacher outside of class...but in the class I wont really learn much. Idk lol...I'm not a good photographer...but I want to learn mostly on my own. And I don't like all these "rules" that are presented to us. I even showed a photo that I thought was awesome and people were like "that's too contrasty...too much black....too bright" etc lol...and idk...I'm not here to please them or other people with my work (though that's an amazing plus that i would never want to lose). Idk it's just the class isn't as serious as I want it to be lol.

I'm also taking linear algebra (and the lab), claculus 3, world history and glass fusing! I love them...except I have my first test in world history coming up...or exam or whatever our professor calls them.

we've been getting rain over here...and I love rain!! So it's been fun...except the heat over here is unbearable for me!! I hate it so much!!

hehe I haven't done much artistically...I've taken a lot of photos...but none I want to share yet. I'm working on lyrics again to my music...I've been listening to it daily all the time!! And I feel so strong for the lyrics now...I think I can get this done soon

! Idk what else to write about. I guess I don't have that much to write about that's new.

My mental state is calm...Idk...I've learned not to panic...or stress...or make my life hard/sad/painful/bad/etc. I can just easily be happy no matter what bad things have and will come.

OHHHH I DYED MY HAIR!! that's cool news right? lol it's black (natural) with orange like....orange messy chunks/streaks/strands/etc. it looks awesome (at least i think so

) I'll take a picture of it sometime...or something lol. Okay time for me to go!! BYE BYE!!!!!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion OMG FAST INTERNET= I'M BACK!!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6300007/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6300007/ Mon, 22 Aug 2005 18:08:52 PDT

Mood:

OMG
Listening to: :D
Reading: OMG :D
Watching: :D OMG :D

OMG I Just tasted the taste of fast internet and I have to take advange of this time to browse deviantart!!! YAY!!!!!!! I'm so happy to go around...and not have to wait forever for images to load!! OMG I LOVE FAST INTERNET!!!!

I'm NOT taking that break anymore. Sorry for the scare...I was really going to take the break. But I clicked on a picture on deviantart...and OMG it just loaded in like 2 seconds!!!!!!! On dial up it took over an hour!!!!!! I know because I waited for it to load!

OMG FAST INTERNET IS THE FREAKIN BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!! *dies from fast internet*!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So send me links!! TONS OF LINKS!!! I need to look at things now that I have a fast connection

!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so happy!!

And I'm so glad to be back at school it's so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BYE!!!

Classes are tomorrow and I'll update on how they are!! BYE!!!!!!!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion hehe :p Whoops! Sudden break from DA?!! YEAH!!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6294066/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6294066/ Mon, 22 Aug 2005 04:43:28 PDT

Mood:

Sexy
Listening to: Sexy Ways for Sexy Days
Reading: 101 Ways to be Sexy on Sexy Days
Watching: Sexy Days

so this was kinda sudden and weird...but I'm gonna take a break from deviantart for a while. Just a month or 5

!

For those of you whom I've givin my yahoo ID for chatting as "eclectic-fusion" it's actually "Eclectic_Fusion" yeah UNDERSCORE!!

Eclectic_Fusion

And my msn isn't for gives unless I know you better from deviantart or from chatting on yahoo!! BTW I'm always invisible on yahoo so try buzzing me!

Why the break from deviantart? Idk...I'm just not feeling this website...and I feel when I get back from the break I'll be refeshed to see this place and post all the photographs I take.

Where's all my new art with my new camera? It's on my computer

I've taken some awesome photos so far...but haven't manipulated much. When the photos come out better right off the bat, then you don't feel the need to manipulate as much. But I want to manipulate...so I'm coming up w/ new ideas...and now that I head back to college I'd like to work on these ideas

!!

So thank you all for everything

And for all the support!!! I appreciate everything I get from all of you guys

]]> ~eclectic-fusion This time it's for itself, year!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6227780/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6227780/ Sun, 14 Aug 2005 19:01:36 PDT

Mood:

:p
Listening to: Rondo Brothers- Aquarium Dreams
Reading: The Year's Best SciFi (of 2001) lol

This last Saturday I turned 19

! I usually use my birthday as a new-years day. I usually say things like "okay i'm gonna change this, this, and this"...but this year was different! I didn't want to change anything! I didn't need to!! I'm happy with who I am and with where my life is going

My 18-year-old year was so far the most exciting year I've experienced yet!! I experienced so many things, and well...I had fun! Most of the fun came from meeting my college friends (some of the greatest people I've ever met)...and creating artwork! So far I've just been getting better and better (in my standards). My music project went EXTREMELY well!! It was great fun doing it...and I learned a heck of a lot!

What I've decided to do with my music project is shelve it for now...shelf...idk what word lol. But this certain music project will just be for myself...I'd love to share it...and I love the music...and I've worked on it enough to make it 100% me. It's just that I want to take somewhat of a different turn in music...and try a different process the next time around. My brother is getting a nice computer w/ protools on it (he's a musician too). So I feel I'll be visiting him a lot. What I want to do this next time around at creating music...is collaborate. And I want to work on one song at a time until it is finished. I want to write the lyrics and make them meaningful first (and throughtout the process). For this last project I did all the music right away...and tried to get the lyrics done after...but I just wasn't feeling it. I'd love to just leave what I've done so far w/ my last project as music...I no longer want to put vocal tracks on it. And if so, I want to use my voice as an instrument and maybe just adlib a few made up words but have the feel of what I was feeling when I wrote it.

I love foreign music...especially when an artist sings in a language that I do not understand. So on this next project I really want to work on making up a language for the vocals. I'm trying to train my voice more...and I need help on how to do some singing techniques... I want to get the emotion across through the sound of my voice...and not so much what's being said. I will write things however...and put them in the booklet (if I have a booklet lol...I'll probably just put them online or something idk). But it's what I feel right now. It's how I want it to go...I'm all about the music as an art form.

Along these lines, I want to start doing more artworks that are centered around my soul. Who I am, and where I want to take art. I'm already doing this...but only at about 11%capacity/ability. I know that I can do better. I want to do better. I'll push to create my artwork.

As for being 19? It's awesome!! My family treated me great (they ALWAYS do)! And I went to eat w/ my parents and my grandmother

!! My dad also let me purchase 3 CDs! (and he bought himself 4 of them hehe)...I was so shocked because we've NEVER purchased so many at one time! But the albums were great! I took the time to make sure I liked almost every song!! I wanted one more, but couldn't get it because I could only choose 3 of them. I wanted Sinead O'Conner's (idk if i spelled that right) Collaborations CD. the song 1000Mirrors (track2 if that's what it's called) is amazing!! The CDs I bough were Niyaz, Cirque Du Soleil- Tapis Rouge, and Kenna's New Sacred Cow. I think they're awesome!!!

I haven't been around deviantart too much lately...I've just been busy enjoying life and just going places! Today I biked with my dad to this lake and it was so beautiful there!! I'm going to take my camera tomorrow to take some beautiful photographs! Today would have been perfect for landscapes too because there was a cloudy overcast and just idk...the mood of the day was just beautiful too! But oh man the hill getting up to where we were was TOUGH!! It was hard for me to ride up lol...but I made it...and OMG coming down was freakin awesome!!! Except there's not much space on the side so we had to be careful for cars lol...and it's a curvy road so it's pre... ]]> ~eclectic-fusion Happy Bday DA (And I have a new camera :D!!!!!!!!) http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6158495/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6158495/ Sun, 07 Aug 2005 11:46:00 PDT

Mood:

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!
Listening to: NOTHING!!! Too excited to hear music!!
Reading: BOOO WHY READ WHEN I HAVE A NEW CAMERA?!!!
Watching: NO MOVIES EITHER!!! hehe

HEY EVERYONE!!!

Hope you're having an awesome time for deviantart's 5th birthday!!!! Go into the chatrooms!! They're giving away prizes like crazy!!! I almost one a few hehe...but I don't really need the prizes so I let everyone else participate!

In celebration of deviantart's 5th year I'm going to try to be more active in my devwatching hehe. I've already built up my inbox to 3,753 new messages ( 3683D, 2H, 18M, 33C, 3F, 12J, 2P )

so sorry to all the people I watch....slowly but surely I'm going to see your work!!

And if you want me to see something, just give me a link ANYTIME!!!! Always happy to view art, I am

!!

So to the best news EVER!!!

I HAVE A NEW CAMERA!!!! Not completely yet though hehe...it's paid for

!!! But I pick it up today!! In like an hour!!!

!! I'm sooooo freakin excited!! I'm all shakey and everything lol and all dancing in my seat and just groovin' to the sound of my fingers typing this journal haha! YAYAYAY I'll give you more specs on the camera later today

It's not the one I wanted...but hey it's pretty good and it's a damn good improvement from my sony cybershot 3.2megapixels hehe....

But I have to pay my respects to my camera

If it wasn't for it's crapy quality I would not have played around in photoshop as much as I have. The reason I always edit my images so much is because my camera takes pretty aweful pictures...so I have to "fix" them. And now, because of all of this, I would say I know a LOT about photoshop!! There are tons of works that I never even uploaded to deviantart where I experimented with everything like crazy!!

So I'm this much closer to being the artist I want to be

AND NOW THAT I HAVE A NEW CAMERA?!!!

http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6095965/ Mon, 01 Aug 2005 00:53:50 PDT

Mood:

:p I like you guys!!
Listening to: Coldplay- Square One

I have a new avatar!!! hehe...I liked my Jark one, but it wasn't who I was

...whatever here's a new one

!!

It say's ECFU (eclectic-fusion)

I don't have anything to say...so talk to me!! About anything!!! I'm very bored hehe...and man all I keep doing is creating art and not uploading it!!!! I have over 3 new gigs of space being used on my hard drive...just from july alone

So maybe I should give you a treat of TONS of new stuff!!!

!!!!

!!!!

(if you want to steal my jark avatar you can

I really don't mind...you don't even have to give me credit or anything. I just don't know if anyone else out there is afraid of aliens lol...woah sorry the best part of "Square One" came on and I totally forgot what was going on lol. BYE!)

]]> ~eclectic-fusion New (temp) Avatar (Supporting Jark and DA) http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6089265/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6089265/ Sun, 31 Jul 2005 13:32:21 PDT

Mood:

SHOCKED!!!
Listening to: Sarah Brightman (like the past 3 hours)

!!!!!

I didn't even know I was going to do it!!!!!!

(at first i was just gonna turn my blue avatar to yellow...but it didn't work...and I got this idea into mind hehe)

Lately I've been reading a lot of one-sided journals and I'm starting to agree with a lot of the people on issues of where this site is going and such.

I'm am supporting Jark not necessarily because of who he is and his role in deviantart, but moreso because of what Jark (Scott Jarkoff) stands for. Like Lance Armstrong, Scott Jarkoff stands for more than just the man he is. Lance Armstrong is indeed just a man, but he stands as a living testament to the human achievement. Scott Jarkoff, in similar ways, stands as the base of which this community was founded...a testament to how this community should "live"...I'm not sure how to explain it correctly.

To me, supporting Lance Armstrong is supporting human achievement (and cancer aid, etc.).
Likewise, supporting Jark (Scott) is supporting the community of deviantart

To me Jark stands for community...(and other things I can't think of yet? probably)

That's just my take on this whole Jark issue and the recent events on deviantart.

Notes:I am not doing this to be "cool". I am doing it to try to spread the support of "Jark" (the community)... ps... I actually AM afraid of aliens lol...hence the "I AM ACTUALLY AFRAID OF ALIENS" writing in my avatar I tried to make it humorous because I love to laugh and lately DA's been getting me kinda "eehhh" Sooooooo I'm trying to spread some humor around too...if you have taken offense to this...or are sick of all the recent Jark fever that's going around the site then I am sorry. I will change my avatar soon...to something completely new. And once again someday I will submit photography. But for now I'm just going to try to get back into this community which I've sorta fallen out of in the last year. So....please bear with me as I try to get more "involved" in deviantart

]]> ~eclectic-fusion OMG I figured out how to record vocal tracks into http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6058979/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6058979/ Thu, 28 Jul 2005 14:40:35 PDT

Mood:

OMG!!!!!!!!
Listening to: MINE!! MY SONGS!!! :slow:

OMG

!!!!!!!!! I JUST FIGURED OUT....TODAY....HOW TO RECORD VOCAL TRACKS INTO MY SONGS

!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've done things with my voice in songs...but it was through a totally long and soooo wrong process!! But I FIGURED IT OUT!!!! I worked on one song today...it came out bad lol...but the point is now I can move on to the next step in my songs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I also figured out some other cool tricks to manipulate tracks in my songs!!!!!!!!!!

I'm kinda sad though (not really lol) because my brother took his microphone back and I have to use my stupid laptop's built-in microphone. So the quality isn't gonna be too good. Anyways I'm gonna so work on lyrics and patterns today!!!! I kinda quit after a while cuz I figured I'd never afford to go into a studio to lay down vocal tracks...BUT I CAN DO IT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG I TOOK KITTEN PICTURES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6044918/ Wed, 27 Jul 2005 00:46:29 PDT

Mood:

happy bt w/ headache
Listening to: Shakira- La Tortura

i have no idea what the title means...it was the first thing that came to my head and I liked it

!

I'd like to thank you guys who helped me after I wrote that last journal! Just to let you know, I read everything, and I took everything in...and it meant a lot!

I overanalyzed myself and came up with a plan to set things on track.

I'm going to beg my dad as much as I can for a cheap used car.
I'm going to move to Albuqeurque, NM.
I'm going to learn to drive.
I'm going to try to start my own business.
I'm going to be as creative as I can in life.
I'm not going to worry about love...what's the use? hehe...I'm not much of a person one can love anyways hehe...I'd never give up my art time...or whatever.

My brother is going to buy a nice computer and pro-tools for the purpose of recording music. He will eventually get more equipment too...but I'm excited as hell to go over to his house and use his program!! I've learned a lot of things from using Fruity Loops music generator...but that program is seriously lacking for what I want. I've made some music from that program...but I don't like it. At one time I thought of it as cool music...with a lot to offer...and I thought I had put a lot into it. (and some songs I did...which I will cherish)...but that's not really what I want. I want my music to be real...to me lol.

I want music to be as much of...or more of my life than my digital artwork. Heck maybe I'll produce albums for people. whatever...as long as I make an awesome living from doing digital art and music. That is all I want....to do these things, and to be great and well liked/known. I want my things to sell a lot so that I can live easy and support my parents. I also want the money to buy new things...like a piano...and a djimbay...and eventually my own recording equipment. I want to buy a nice digital camera and everything.

I want to have a building...a place to work from...and a studio. I want to live this life...what do I have to do to get it? I have to do it!!! I feel like it's what I'm here on this planet for...

]]> ~eclectic-fusion Sometimes Idk why I do things http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6034102/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6034102/ Mon, 25 Jul 2005 20:47:15 PDT

Mood:

sad

Idk...Idk why I do things sometimes and just...idk. Idk I really hate life right now...and people...and my computer...and me...and the sun...and phones...and just. Everything's been getting me down lately. I'm a really strong person...and I love to be happy and have fun. But sometimes I can't even force a smile...like the past few days. I had actually written sad journals...but then I'd erase them and write some not so sad journals...just because I don't like people seeing me like this. I don't feel like I need a vacation or anything...I just feel like I need something fresh...something new. I need to get out of here...out of this country...no offense to America...but I'm bored here.

I don't mean to be so down and umm idk ___(insert adj. here)...but I am and I feel it's better to write a journal than to not do anything about it.

People make me sad...not things they do to me...but in things I see in them. Things I observe...things I shouldn't pay attention to. But I get hurt...I get pretty sad. I tried to write lyrics today in this mood...but I just couldn't listen to my music...I'm starting to hate it

I wish I had someone who cared about me...cared about what I did...someone I can care about. I hate sounding like a stupid emo kid...but I've always wanted to be in relationships. The more I think about it though...the more I don't want relationships...because no one is ever what I want in a person...especially everyone I know in real life.

So I guess there's no one for me...how much do you hear that from guys w/ long hair? lol...sorry if you think I'm like all the rest. I'm really not...but who cares right? I do...I care about myself and what other people think of me..is it wrong? I don't think so...and that's what matters right? yup. lol. Anyways this is probably THE STUPIDEST journal you've ever read and I'm sorry if you read it lol. I guess I'm better now that I'm finished..but I know I'm going to be like this for a while. *sigh* If only I had someone to hug me to sleep.

til next journal and deviation and everything
-Paul

]]> ~eclectic-fusion lol I crashed on my bike!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6025633/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6025633/ Sun, 24 Jul 2005 23:02:00 PDT

Mood:

idk

I was mountain biking w/ my dad and we went on these crazy trails lol...they're sooooo freakin awesome to ride on!!! But anyways there was a sharp turn around a tree and I underestimated it...and lost control of my bike and WHAM the front hit a dirt wall and twisted in on itself and flew me face first into the ground

!! It was so awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was a good thing I was wearing a helmet thought because I would have hit my forehead pretty hard. Anyways I didn't get hurt at all!!! I'm sore today though...like my neck and stuff...but I'm okay! We stayed outside for 3 hours!!!! So my skin got really dark!!! I'm not used to it lol...it's like having blonde hair and dying it brown lol

Cuz I'm hispanic so I didn't burn...I just got all dark. but not that dark. Anyways it's fine whatever.

I saw Hide & Seek...it saved itself from being on my worst movies ever list like haflways through. It wasn't bad...and it was pretty good....Idk I just didn't like the story and the layout and everything.

Like everyone of my cousins and aunts and uncles and everyone were in the parade in Taos, NM today haha...for the fiestas lol. It was cool!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAD TO GIVE 2 OF MY KITTY BABIES AWAY TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY BABIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But they went to people who I knew would spoil them like crazy (like I was doing lol)!!!
Awww they were so cute but sad

Aww and the two we gave were my favorite. But my mom wanted the boys. whatever I'm not even staying here that much longer.

Idk why but the internet has been really annoying me lately. I don't like to be on anymore. I really don't like it.

Anyways that's it for now BYE!!!!!!!!!!!

~eclectic-fusion In Celebration of My New Dev :D!!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6000229/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/6000229/ Thu, 21 Jul 2005 23:02:06 PDT

Mood:

Scaredly Excited

In celebration of my newest deviation

I've decided to bring back my music site!!! Now because I'm on dial-up it takes a few hours to upload songs hehe...so for now there's only one song up. Give it a listen!! It's about 80% complete because I really want to go in sometime and add vocals.

What I'm doing with my music is making up a language for the songs. I really want to slow down a lot of the songs and get them out of that beat world. My recent songs have become so boring and repetitive. But I'm working a lot more with just guitar now that I'm playing more. I'll upload a sketch of a song I did hehe....sometime idk when

ANYWAYS

LINK

MY MUSIC SITE!!!

I want my sound to be what I consider science fiction like. So that's what I aim for when thinking up music.

Here's another image in my latest science fiction crazy

And of course my sexy ID

And then here's two new scraps

And I have some kitten pictures coming up that people will KILL for!!!!!

ANYTHING HAPPEN TO ME?!!
Yeah! There was this freakin amazing lightning storm here the other day!!! Like 3 lightning bolts per second!!!!!! Really really!!! I got so many lightning pictures from that storm!!!
OHHHH And I'm getting a Samsung Digimax Pro815

http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5966360/ Mon, 18 Jul 2005 08:38:51 PDT

Mood:

In physical pain
Listening to: Potito y Diego del Morao- Llama me el Dotor

I had a death in the family, so I was away all weekend. It was sad to see everyone so devistated. I didn't know the man who died, but my older cousins grew up with him so it was hard for them to see him go. He was a great man...and he will be remembered forever by his loved ones. He was only 24.

I've said this before, and I will say it again. Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!! The woman who was driving the vehicle was drunk...and he wasn't wearing a seatbelt...

That's about all the news I have to write. The kitties are all doing great!!! They're more than ready to give away! In fact they're getting kinda too old to give away hehe...I'm gonna miss my babies!! We're keeping one of them...but it's not my favorite one

Wow I thought I had more to talk about...

-Until next journal
-Paul

PS...
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!
Do NOT drink and drive...and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt!!!!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion Eyes hurt, a hard day, a rough day http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5938097/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5938097/ Fri, 15 Jul 2005 00:00:23 PDT

Mood:

DEAD TIRED
Listening to: Bjork- Who Is It?

Warning: Sad story...do not read if you do not want to be sad...

One of the kittens almost died today

It was the saddest thing I've been through in probably ever. These kittens are like children to me...I've been raising them for a few days now and they look up to me like the mama. Well today I fed them like usual in the morning and then decided to come into my room to get on the internet. Then I went to the living room to listen to my music and work on lyrics. And the kitties (i'm gonna write cuties cuz that's what I call them) the cuties were all intrigued or something by my voice cuz they all came and fell asleep on me. Then Lando (the little black girl kitty) got on my shoulder as usual...but when i went to get up she wasn't moving. I thought she was in a deep deep sleep so I carefully...extremely carefully went to my room while holding her in my hands and i unplugged my camera and got it ready to take pictues all with my mouth lol...but i had trouble so i took out one hand and the kitten still wasn't moving. I still thought she was just sleepy...so I took a few pictues and then put her in her box to sleep while I photographed the other kittens. After the photoshoot I put them all in the box to sleep...and a few hours later I checked on them...they were all still pretty sleepy and the black one was still out of it. I thought maybe it was just resting really good...and I didn't want to disturb it or wake it from it's dream. So them my dad came home around 6 and the kitties woke up when we started talking...and then we looked in the box and Lando was still laying there. So I pet her and she wasn't moving.

I picked her up and she was extremely limp...and she wouldn't move for anything. her eyes wouldn't twitch her skin wouldn't cringe...her tail wouldn't even swing. She was still breathing though...I thought maybe she was running out of food so I tried feeding her but it was as if she was in a coma...she wouldn't move or anything. So I put some drops of milk in her mouth with a spoon and I'd rub her throat to help it go down but she'd start coughing...and Idk...she seemed 97%dead...with only minutes to live. So I started petting her and she started purring :tear:!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was the saddest thing I'd ever seen.

She started to move a little so she must have wanted to be alone. So I took her into my room and I put her on the floor and she tried crawling but she didn't have the strength. So I just layed down and put her by my face/chin/hands and I just pet her. She was purring so I knew she was happy...and I figured I'd stay with her there as long as I could. And I just prayed and prayed and prayed for a miracle that she would spring back to life like nothing. Every so often she would spaz out and run really fast into things (in a scared way)...but I'd bring her back to my face and she'd fall back asleep. So I slept with her there for about 3-4 hours...and then a miracle happened!!!!!!!!!!!!! She started spazzing out more...and I'd pet her and she'd fall asleep. But then she started meowing!!! :tear: Just a few scattered meows. But I knew I had to take her to go eat. So once I started talking to her and getting myself up she literally sprang back to life!!!! She jumped up and she scratched my eye!! hehe. But she didn't want to eat. My mom said that she needed help using the bathroom probably so I helped her and after she used it she was back to being hyper!! She was way more hyper than before!!! She was climbing things and jumping everything and attacking everything!!! I don't know if she was dillusional or not though...but It was the greatest releif to see her moving...especially after what she had just been like hours earlier...deathly limp and well...unconscious...I think only her heart and breathing functions were working at that time.

And all while I was resting with her I was petting her to keep her happy. My dad said that she was probably just so sad that her momma's gone that she just couldn't go on....and also because they need the mamma's tounge...to massage their organs and help them function.

She seemed to be doing okay...but she's still out of it...I think she's malnourished (sp?)...She wouldn't drink milk and she wouldn't eat the food I was trying to feed her...she'd lick it..but I don't think she knew that she had to eat it. She's much smaller than the other ones now...and tonight I worry about her :worried: I pray th... ]]> ~eclectic-fusion Random Updates (including some not so random updat http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5929431/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5929431/ Thu, 14 Jul 2005 03:36:25 PDT

Mood:

DEAD TIRED
Listening to: Stone Temple Pilots- Days of the Week

UPDATES!!!!!

SAD NEWS!!

~eclectic-fusion My Apologies hehe http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5849206/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5849206/ Tue, 05 Jul 2005 16:46:38 PDT

Mood:

:slow:
Listening to: Vicente Amigo- Tangos del Arco Bajo
Reading: Snow Crash- Neal Stephenson STILL lol..slow reader
Watching: Total Recal (First Time I'd Ever Seen It)

I'm so sorry that I keep forgetting to submit things!!!

I feel like such a bad deviant lol...but oh well

It'll come someday soon

As for updates I've just been relaxing and having fun and treating the past week as an actual vacation!!! It feels great!! I've been outside a lot

I hate the sun so much...but I need to ride my bike...and I needed to do the weeds at my house...and mind you I live in a desert full of nothing but weeds and big bush tree thingies lol. Also I went on a 28 mile bike ride

!!! with my dad!!!!!!!! and I couldn't keep up with him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he's so in shape

I look up to him so much for that hehe...he's in better shape than me!! Well I use to do this ride with him a lot last year...but I hadn't gone in a long time cuz I didn't feel like I had the power...and the other day I just said...heck with it I'm gonna go. So he waited for me...and I struggled along lol...but I made it

!!! And my legs don't even hurt now...probably cuz i do a lot with them....my neck was so sore though...idk why.

that's mostly the most exciting news hehe...

In other news I don't like most of my gallery and I'm wanting to switch it now to something more science fictiony...I have so many ideas in my head!!!

I can't wait!!!!!!! I hope you like science fiction!!!

Well I'm kinda out of it at the moment and just thinking about space lol...and a story idea I have in my head

I should go work on art

I haven't done much in the past few weeks lol

C-YA!!!

]]> ~eclectic-fusion All I want to do is write journals :D hehe http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5750055/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5750055/ Sat, 25 Jun 2005 01:41:25 PDT

Mood:

:D!!
Reading: Snow Crash by Neal Stephenson

hehe All I want to do is write journals

!!!

I BOUGHT A WEBCAM TODAY!!!! It was so fun to use...but OMG!!! I'm an extremely shy person lol....and it was just an experience I've never been through lol...so I covered the camera a lot today when I used it lol.

The baby kitties are crawling and opening their eyes and being so freakin amazingly CUTE!!!! OMG!!!!!!! *dies*

OMG they kill me everytime I see them!!! I just want to hug all of them. The boy siamese ones are kinda boring though...and they just hiss at me as if...idk they hiss lol. But I just kiss them when they hiss

so freakin cute I swear...

I went to the cd store today and I couldn't find ANYTHING that I even thought was remotely interesting....

I hope new albums come out soon. I was also going to buy and mp3 player when all of the sudden this amazing light of beauty falls down from heaven!!! It was a *forgets what brand and model it was lmao* but it was a media player with a big screen that played movies and mp3s!!! except it was $300 more than what I had one me...so I said "I'll save up for it" meaning "i'll give in and get the cheap one and then say I'll save up for the other one for so long that technology with dramatically change and the new one will be the cheap one" if that made any sense

I have spider bites all over my body

...lately a few people we know have died from spider bites

!! Maybe I'm next!!!! dun dun dunnnn!!!!! Or maybe I'll become super-human

!!!!!!!!!!!

ABOUT MY MUSIC
OMG I haven't worked on lyrics yet

I decided that I don't want to do my music...idk...the more I listen to it the more I realize that no one but me is going to really like my music. I played it today for my brother (who appreciates music lol) and he didn't want to hear it. And my mom doesn't really pay attention to it. My dad likes it (I think) and that's about it. OMG!!! Wait let me change the subject!!!

My brother and I went to a music store and he was playing guitar and I got one of those Djimbays (idk how to spell it lol...but it's a percussion drum thingie) and we were playing all kindsa AWESOME STUFF!!!!!!!!! and these two young guys walked in and were all impressed hehe...and I'd never even played one of those things before. They were cool guys! I want to buy one of those instruments so bad now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It sounded so amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And with my brother's skill at guitar

!!! He's gotten really really good....

!!!! He's teaching me some stuff too hehe.

A lot's happened in the past few days hehe...I've been really occupied

It's fun

!!!

Just one more thing to talk about...THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!! (the people who liked http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5727329/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 20:28:25 PDT

Mood:

:p
Reading: Snow Crash by Neal Stephenson

I got this from someone on myspace and anyways copy and paste it into a new journal

WAIT read mine first and then copy and past it hehe...or idk do something with it...copy and paste it into a new document and then close it without saving if you want. copy and paste it into an email to the white house or anything

But fill it out for fun

!!
k here's my answers!!

~*YOU*~
1.What Time is it now?
9:06PM

2.Single or taken?
Single

3.What does your name mean?
It means "you best back the F up fo I bust a cap in yo ass!!!!!" At least that's what my grandma told me when i was 7

ahhh those were easy days

4.Who picked out your name?
God!

5.whats your nickname?
hmm I have lots with lots of different people

The best are the ones that are nothing like my real name

(which is Paul if you didn't know)

6.What color are your eyes?
Brown...dark brown I think...I wish they were lighter...like light greyish white...that would be cool

7.Do you have an innie or an outie?
Innie but I can see it

8.What size are your shoes?
10.5

9.How tall (or short) are you?
I have no idea 5'5" I guess... idk

10.Honestly what do you like about yourself?
I like that I can do a complete back-hand double twist 780 backflip with a doble-pas to accent the tripple-dai-ton-siam-twist-flip-backswitch when I ice-skate professionally.

11.What do you always get complimented on?
My exaggeratedly beautiful love haikus
"you are so pretty
you love to hear love haikus
because I'm the greatest (love haiku writer ever known to man!!!)"

12.worst quality?
Probably this thing that I'm doing right now with being crazy...a LOT of people give me dirty looks in real life when I act this way lol....but it just makes me want to laugh so much when they do!!!

13.What are the last four digits of your phone Number?
3486 for my cell phone

14.Do you think you're cute?
Not really...although everyday I receive mail with flowers and chocolates saying how beautiful I am and how no one in the world is more beautiful ...I think I'm just okay lol.

15. Hair color?
brown...I dyed it and it was supposed to be a light greyish brown (keyword LIGHT)...but the dye didn't work (probably because my dad wanted me to try one of those all natural crazy ones that wont make my hair fall out

)...oh well it's a pretty cool color. Actually i think the dye washed out lmao...cuz I can see the half black half dark brown in my hair again

16.Do you wear contacts?
No

17.Living Arrangements?
I'm still at home w/ the parents...hoping to move SOON

18.Favourite drink?
Sprite w/ any sort of fruit flavoring add-ins. Like today I had a sprite with cherry, grape, orange, and blue coconut add-ins at Sonic. It was really good...except it burned my throat so bad!!

20.Favourite Month?
July probably

21.Favourite Food?
BREAD

22.Favourite Board Game?
Trivial Persuit!!!

23.Web Site?
DeviantART

24.Favorite Clothing Brand?
hmmm MINE!!!

25.Favourite day of the Year?
August 13th!!!

26.Favourite color?
BLUE

27. Favourite animal?
CAT

28.Do you have friends?
YES

29.Who's your best friends?
My brother is first and like 4 people tie for 2nd <... ]]> ~eclectic-fusion KITTENS :D!!!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5722403/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5722403/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 10:21:01 PDT

Mood:

*yawn*
Reading: Snow Crash by Neal Stephenson
Watching: Mr. and Mrs. Smith

!!!!!!!!

MY CAT BROUGHT HER BABY KITTENS INTO THE HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was so freakin awesome!!! Well she had them outside (which sucked ass)...but now she brought them inside

!!! I can't wait til they're old enough to play with!!! They haven't even opened their eyes yet. Two of them are siamese and one looks EXACTLY like the mother and then there's a black one w/ a few stripes of orange. They're so awesome!!!!!! I've never even seen a siamese cat in real life!!!!!!!!! We're keeping the girl stripped one (which I named sammy davis junior since the mom is Sammy lol) and we're also gonna keep a boy siamese

!!!

I'd keep all of them if I could!

I want to find a place where I can take one to live with me

!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so bored and ready to move out!!! I don't even know what country I want to live in....but I want to go!!! Vancouver, Canada; somewhere in Japan; Australia....anywhere really!! I just need to leave and go far away

!!!

Either to those places or Albuquerque, NM which is just like an hour and a half driving time from where I live

I CAN'T WAIT FOR WAR OF THE WORLDS!!! I'm a sci-fi fan and I LOVE COMPUTER GRAPHICS!!! So it's going to be an awesome movie for me to see

Except I have a big fear of aliens LMAO....so idk what I'm gonna do while watching it

I HAVE TO GO MADTV IS ON (my favorite show)

PEACE OUT MY HOMIES!!!!!

-Paul

]]> ~eclectic-fusion Crazy Week (WARNING) http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5666228/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5666228/ Thu, 16 Jun 2005 12:17:27 PDT

Mood:

Sleepy

This past week has been OMG WAIT BEFORE I GO ON

WARNING!!!: One of the stories I'm going to talk about is very graphic and deals with death...if you don't like the subject or don't want to hear the details you can skip past it. I will put that part in tiny text or whatever this is called

Everyone I know has been busy with a flamenco festival that's happening in Albuquerque, NM. I usually participate, but for several reasons I won't be taking classes this year. I'm not too sad about it though. I want to study with the flamenco company throughout the year instead

Anyways...we've been going to the flamenco shows about every night (except tuesday night) since last saturday and there's still shows through to this sunday. The flamenco competition this year was extremely tough!! I'm so glad I didn't compete!!! I would have looked like such a fool compared to everyone else who danced. It made me realize that I really want to get better at dancing flamenco...but at the same time it kinda discouraged me. OHHHH And everynight that we went to a show I wore shirts that I made...and OMG!!!!!! I've never had so many compliaments on clothing EVER!!!!! In fact I RARELY have compliaments on regular clothing!!! But when I wore my shirts everyone was like That's an awesome shirt!!! I was so proud of my stupid shirts lol...but I don't want people thinking I'm some crazy fashion designer...my stuff is terrible and idk I just don't want that label. I just fix up my clothes so that I'm comfortable wearing them and I try to give them a new twist that I've never seen. I like being different...but not the same "different" that all the other kids of our generation are trying to be.

ANYWAYS time for the weird weekend stuff.
WARNING...graphic story time.
My family and I were headed back home after the very long first night of the flamenco competition and it was already like 2am. Then we driving on the highway and the car in front of us started slowing down like crazy!!! So we were like "what's going on?" and right in front of him a car must have just flipped because it was smashed up and WARNING!!! There was a body on the road (right in front of the car in front of us* and a lady in the car. So they guys in front of us, some other guys that stopped from the other side of the road, and a lady that might have been a passenger, and my parents and I went to go help. My mom told me to get a blanket from the back of our vehicle and take it to them. And when I took it to the man on the ground he was trying to get up. But his back was torn up...bad...very bad. I guess he slid across the road when he was ejected from the vehicle. But what was worse is he had a big gash in his head...and he started bleeding like crazy. I had never seen so much blood in my life *in real life*. And he kept trying to get up. But the lady that might have been with him was trying to calm him down and make him lay down until the ambulance came. But OMG the blood was just pouring out...like someone tipped over a glass...that's how fast it was coming out and running down the road. It seemed like forever until the police showed up. And then it seemed like a freakin eternity for the ambulance to show up. The medics in the ambulance couldn't do much and they were working on him on the floor. Then a second ambulance came and I think a firetruck *i'm not too sure about that* and they tried to get the woman out of the car...but the door wouldn't open. So they had to use the jaws of life to open up the vehicle. by this time i was back in our vehicle with my mom just watching so that we wouldn't be in the way. And then two helicopters came in to airlift the people to the university hospital or something. Anyways it was just a type of experience that reminds you to cherish the time you have with everyone you know. You never know when they're going to die. The man ended up dying on his way to the hospital and it turns out he was only 18. My dad didn't say anything about the woman so I'd assume she was okay. But you need to understand this one thing...WEAR YOUR SEATBELT!!! If this man would have had his seatbelt on he would have most likely... ]]>~eclectic-fusionPREVIEWS (with Pictures) http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5592301/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5592301/ Wed, 08 Jun 2005 19:07:00 PDT Mood: Good Listening to: Coldplay- White ShadowsI Have to give you previews!!!!! I want to submit the pictures but coming up with words to go along with them are hard for me...so here's previews of the work...not the full images...just some sexy previews!!! (note: may be changed upon uploading to deviantart or whatever) Enough words here's the previews.. I couldn't help but make my name in the letters from the new Coldplay album X&Y (one of the best albums I've heard in a long time) Hehe...I also unpoaded quite a bit of scraps (with lots more to come)...here's what I've uploaded... Hope you like what you saw here today!!! Stay tuned!! As for the music...I want to shelf it in a way for now...I want to go in and record some real instruments instead of it being nothing but electronic music...I could perhaps use what I've done as a skelton to what I can do with real instruments...maybe I'll work on transfering it to real instruments (with electronic music btw...not just a complete change)...just a thought...i'm getting singing parts done but the lyrics are so hard for me because I should have written them when the songs were fresh in my head...now I have to wait til I'm in the same mood again to attempt it...I might as well start fresh and make new work and words. That would be something to consider. As for me? I'm good...working out quite a bit and am in much better shape than I was...and I'm much healthier too. My dad and I went to take out pulse rate thing at that thing that's inside wal-mart...and mine went down so much from what it used to be.... ]]> ~eclectic-fusion About What's Coming Up http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5517000/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5517000/ Tue, 31 May 2005 23:53:15 PDT Mood: I Love This Listening to: Paul41_2 b_4 b_2 I have a lot of new images to submit, and a lot that I'm working on, and a lot that I want to create, and a lot that I'm going to create. I've had the submission window open for a few hours now trying to write lyrics to the song "Paul41_2 b_4 b_2" (yes, one of my songs. I've grown to love this one so much now over the past few weeks. So much that I'm pretty set on having it as the first track of my album ...if all goes well it will be the first song with complete lyrics and vocal tracks added to it. I CAN'T WAIT!!! I'M SO FREAKIN EXCITED!!! I really want to accomplish a lot with my music and go really far.)...anyways back to the deviation I meant to upload. The working title is "The Wind Will Never Forget Us"...the song will be amazing!! The photo is breathtaking in it's original size (about 5000x6500???...idk for sure). Still beautiful in it's resized for the internet size...but it can't compare to the full size version. It's actually make up of about 8 photos and a lot of great photoshop skills went into this ...and, as with everything I do in photoshop, this image includes a lot of new skills which I learned in the process. Another image on the way is another awesomely crazy digital manipulation...I'm tempted to show the before images of my works, but I don't want to show off what I can do...I want to show off the final result of what I've done. I also have a beautiful photo of my cat with minimal touch-ups. I really love cats, and I think cat lovers will like this picture But I can never be too sure of people There are some other works coming up too ...but I can't give everything away Also, take a look at my newest deviation . I was supposed to upload it the day after "Beaty", but I've been so distracted by everything I'm doing I wanted to submit it as a wallpaper, but I'm afraid of rippers...idk though..I still might Anyways there's a print of it available I might buy a prints account soon....so that way I can take out the gross prints and put up some better ones. And I can focus more on getting an image ready for the amazingness of being a print (if that makes sense) ! SCRAPS!!! I will also be uploading a LOT of work to my scraps!!! There are a lot of things I've been working on that I feel are great, but can't be compared to my gallery. AS FOR MUSIC... It's going GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!! I'm giving myself a deadline of June 28th to finish up the lyrics and the singing patterns. I'm going insane trying to get everything right...and keep it true to me. THEN It will be time to do something scarier than I can ever anticipate....going to a studio to record my vocal parts and add them into the tracks I've done (I don't have the right equipment to do it at home as I wished). I HAVE TOO MANY SONGS TO CHOOSE FROM!!! I'm going to have to really sit and think which ones are best, and which I can put off for the future. Idk...I feel really happy with what I've don... ]]> ~eclectic-fusion about my music http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5307042/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5307042/ Sun, 08 May 2005 23:40:46 PDT I'm trying hard...everything's working good. but it's not at the level i want it yet. my goal this summer is to get a microphone and record other things into songs as well. i have so much music in me. today I did the most awesome thing I have ever done! i just started little finger clicks as if they were a song and then i just went with the flow and it turned into an awesome flow...and i started thinking of singing parts and it was the most awesome thing i've ever "heard'!!! i can't remember clearly how it went...but it was...alive. alive...where i want my music to be. as with my music i want my art to take the turn to the level i want it to be... when i'm free this summer i will be able to do everything....my creativities had been blocked thus far...but in a few more days i'll be back at home...where i have the peace of creativity...and the distance away from people to sing my best...to put all i can into my art and music. because this is the summer where i turn my life to the arts. i plan not to go back to study the sciences...my life is in my hands now... my heart is in the music ]]> ~eclectic-fusion New SONGS Up!!!!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5284176/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5284176/ Fri, 06 May 2005 11:57:12 PDT Mood: I'm like a Zombie Listening to: Paul 23 3 !!!!!! I've traded off 3 songs with three new ones!!! Go check them out !!! MY MUSIC!!!! ENJOY!!!!!!! ________________________________________ _____ As a short update I'm almost done with the final draft of my research paper !!!!!! And I got a 79 on my calc2 exam (a pretty awesome grade....class average was like low-60s) !!!!!!! If you ever wanna chat my msn messenger is Anglada_Superman@msn.com just remind me who you are all the time hehehe (I always forget and feel so bad/awkward talking to some people ) Anyways hope you're having an awesome day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~eclectic-fusion |ll|l|l||l|time to write: |-think+|-rest+||l|ll|l| http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5246597/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5246597/ Mon, 02 May 2005 12:06:44 PDT Mood: I'm like a Zombie Listening to: Vicente Amigo- Rocamador Reading: Chemistry book lol (test in a few hours) The feeling which surrounds me isn't well I'm happy But my body isn't...my spirit isn't The days with little to no sleep pass by I eat maybe a small snack a day I can feel myself decaying But it's almost over! This suffering both mental and physical It's something to look forward to with such enthusiasm I just wish my body could show the excitement Tired, my bones are Strained, my eyes feel If it weren't for these vitamins I don't know what state I'd be in hehe....but anyways I'm not sad at all I'm in a very good mood...I just feel so dead But it's a great day and I'm having fun My eyes are killing me So what do I write about? I don't know. I don't know what to share I hope you're having an awesome day!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay some info? I finished the 1st draft of my research paper It's not that great...but I'm sure I can tweak it a bit. My friend told me a lot of the major errors that he found. This is the mistake I make far too often in my reports and essays. My ideas are well loved, but are extremely independant and can't always be backed up with evidence. In a scientific community everything has to be backed up with evidence. You can't say something without having to cite someone who has said it before you. I don't like it much at all. And in the papers we have to write here we have to blatently write out our thesis and actually say "in this paper, I will...._____" I hate that so much!! I wish it was like in some cultures where the thesis and focus of the paper is learned thoughout the document. More of an organic structure to things. I don't like formal structure, or any structure. BUT WAIT!! Let me give writing credit. It is an extremely useful skill to have. The art of persuasion through writing is one of the most crafty things I've heard of!!! You can really change a lot through writing. And you can really hurt yourself and your image with bad writing. I just don't think that it's for me. I'd much rather do public speaking or something like that. I have to go study now for my chem final Thanks for reading my journals if you do !!!! BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -Paul Anglada ]]> ~eclectic-fusion whoops quick update g2g!!!! hehe http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5241161/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5241161/ Sun, 01 May 2005 18:55:59 PDT Mood: :D HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Quick updates on my life or something!!! NEW DEVIATION COMING SOON (maybe even later tonight? who knows) I bought a print and two mugs and they came out AWESOME!!!!! !!!!!!!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5153805/ Sat, 23 Apr 2005 09:23:56 PDT Mood: :D !!!! I've finally uploaded my songs to the internet !!! I know some people have been waiting a long time to hear them !! Some of you may be hearing of this for the first time Either way I'm excited!! Okay okay you want the link, you got it ! Paul Anglada I just have to tell you before you listen to the songs. I don't know what to say my music sounds like. I don't really know if it sounds like anything already So don't go to the site expecting anything Anyways I hope you like it !! I'm so excited!!! Please tell me what you think of them !!! THANKS!! !!!! !! I'm so happy to share my music with you finally -Paul Anglada ~eclectic-fusion The joys of altering clothes :) http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5137607/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/5137607/ Wed, 20 Apr 2005 09:29:54 PDT Mood: :slow: Listening to: Mariah Carey- Say Something I've been altering my clothes and it's so much fun!!!!!!! I have no idea what I'm doing, but who cares!! They look so awesome!! I can't wait to alter ALL OF THEM!!! !!! I got the Mariah Carey cd and it's surprisingly awesome!! You just can't deny that she has a freakin awesome voice!!! Especially when she layers it over her own voice again...such as in Track8 if you guys have the cd. Idk...it's not really my type of music lol...but I love talent and she is very talented....so I respect her A few of the songs are terrible, but I like the cd...and DAMN the cd art is fucking awesome!!!!!! I wish my art could be that good!!! *is extremely imressed by the photos in the cd jacket* Also I've done these new works since my last journal There isn't much to explain to this one. I love this one IMO this is one of my best works in a long time...looks much better in a very large format And I guess I appreciate it much more because I know what the photo originally looked like !!! This picture leaves me breathless!! I know it's my own picture, but I love it! I'd fav it if I could. I FINALLY finished my second project in my stained glass class!! It came out so cool in real life...the picture isn't the best But oh well it gets the point out !! Anyways I'm doing good...just a few weeks of school left!!! Then I have to make a decision....DEVIANT SUMMIT -or- FLAMENCO FESTIVAL Hard decision for me since I've been going to the flamenco festival for years...idk yet lol. And then I have one more decision...this time life chang... ]]> ~eclectic-fusion Finding Treasure (new devs) http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4898832/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4898832/ Thu, 24 Mar 2005 14:32:51 PST Mood: :D Listening to: Bjork- Scatterheart Finding Treasure in the Depth of My Creations I've been going through all my old art folders, and I've found really amazing images that I've done. Now is a good time to clean them up, since I don't have a camera !! So be ready for some new art!! I have over 20GB of things to sift through, so I doubt I'll run out of artwork before I get my new camera. I hope you enjoy !!!! , Paul (*eclectic-fusion) Here are the first three I've uploaded ]]> ~eclectic-fusion MY SPACE http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4895339/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4895339/ Wed, 23 Mar 2005 21:35:27 PST Listening to: Bjork- Scatterheart ME !!!!!!!!! Hey everyone!!! If you have a myspace account you should go check out mine !!!! BYE BYE!!!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~eclectic-fusion R.I.P. Camera Buddy http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4855273/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4855273/ Sat, 19 Mar 2005 14:58:23 PST Well...my camera finally died Actually I was laughing when it broke...and I wasn't sad . But today is not a good day and I can't be happy about it. I'm not really going through a good time right now in my life. I just feel so lonely sometimes. Everyone feels it every-now-and-then, I know...but I feel it almost all the time. Anyways I don't want to bore you with that :sigh:. I can't take pictures because my camera is dead, and it doesn't look like I'll be getting that new camera anytime soon (for reasons I can't explain). And well...I think I'm gonna get a job on the side...but *shhhh* don't tell my parent's....they don't want me to have a job in school...but I have a few hours everyday where I can do something. I might as well. I want that camera...and I'm willing to get a job at smiths (I'd go to wal-mart if it wasn't across the street lol. I don't have a car, so I ride my bike). I've actually been on spring break this last week and I was hoping to FINALLY get some art done...but my camera went and died. But maybe it was a good thing. I finally got around to using this other program I have...my first few images made with it are kinda ugly...but cool. But very ugly. I'll work on it a bit. It just takes a very long time to render the images. Well Idk what I'm talking about or doing...so umm what's new with you? ]]> ~eclectic-fusion Do you want gmail? And umm...news? Almost done wit http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4676865/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4676865/ Sat, 26 Feb 2005 10:48:40 PST Mood: hehe Listening to: La Susi- Agua de Mayo So I've been waiting and waiting and waiting to get some gmail invites so I could send one to my cousin lol...and then today I noticed this little tiny window thingie in the gmail page and it said I had all kindsa invites lmao. I don't know how long that thing's been there...I was expecting the invites to come in through email lol. So I've probably had them for like forever lol. So I ask... Do YOU want a gmail account? I'm not gonna tell you all the features or whatever, if you want to know them you can look them up online . But yeah!!! If you want one give me your email address (IN A NOTE) and tell me that you want one. I have 50 invites and I know 50 people wont even read this so there's like no competition or anything. If you want to even just have one to say you have one or to have ANOTHER one if you already have one...just ask me for one I have like 50 lol. Other news...other news...uhhhhhh....OH YEAH I'm doing good in school. Gotta write a research paper this weekend !!! I'm not a big fan of english, but my professor this semester makes it so much fun. So far it's my second fav class...well actually 4th fav. My fav is math, 2ndhotography, 3-stained glass, 4-english, 5-chem lab, 6-chem. I think that's all the classes I have. if not oh well. I'm sorry I haven't been creating as much...well I'm more apologizing to myself. It's tough finding time to create when you go to college and live with your friends. If I had my own room I'm be creating like crazy. But I don't so it's slowed down for now. I'll try to scan the photos I've taken in photography and fix and upload them LUMA LIGHT THEATER!!! Last night I went with some friends to this light theater thingie...it was so freakin awesome!!!! One of the coolest things I've ever seen in a long long time!!! I've made even MORE music (which I'm sure no one cares since I never upload it anywhere hehe). But I love it so That's it, that's all my brain feels like thinking of cuz it's concentrating on my calc hmwk hehe. BYE!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !! ]]> ~eclectic-fusion MINI MOOSE!!!!!!!! http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4566696/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4566696/ Sun, 13 Feb 2005 00:09:25 PST Mood: YAYAYAYAYAY Listening to: Bjork-Where is the line Just wanted to express my love for MINI MOOSE!!!! [link] GO!!!! CLICK IT NOW!!!! ]]> ~eclectic-fusion Super secret mysterious update http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4562856/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4562856/ Sat, 12 Feb 2005 14:39:07 PST Mood: hehe Listening to: Bjork-Where is the line Watching: TLOTR-ROTK Well A lot has happened since I last updated anything . A big thing is I dyed my hair It was supposed to have bright red streaks...but since I had already dyed it black it came out wrong. Just like a dull red black...kinda boring So I'll probably dye it blue black again...hopefully it doesn't fall out. I HOPE BJORK WINS!!!!! She's nominated for grammys so lets all hope I've been developing and printing pictures in my photography class...it's so much fun It's just B&W though...so not nearly as difficult. But man...after experiencing what photographers had to do before digital cameras OMG So much money and work I can't wait to get my digital camera. I finished my first simple project in my stained arts class...it's just a rose. My next project is a Marilyn Monroe that's about 18-20 inches big lol. Then I want to do a 3-D sword. School's okay...I like things...I don't. I realize now that I never want to live anywhere where I don't have my own room. It sucks ass. I mean I like spending time w/ my friends...but not my whole life. I don't even want to create because I like to do it when i'm on my own and away from everyone. I look around me now and there's 6 other people...there's usually more I really hate it. And well idk what else to talk about...all I can think of is doing my homework lol...I swear there's never a break from homework. BYE BYE!!! ]]> ~eclectic-fusion I knew college would keep me busy, but... http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4424953/ http://eclectic-fusion.deviantart.com/journal/4424953/ Wed, 26 Jan 2005 23:30:55 PST Mood: YAY!!!!!!!!! Listening to: Lauryn Hill but not this busy !!! I'm drowning in homework But it's so much fun!!!! Our calc2 class is so awesome!!! lol...call me crazy but I love stretching my brain!!! And also I haven't done ANY digital artwork....however I'm taking photographs!!! I will develop my first B&W roll tomorrow !!!! I can't wait!! THE WALMART HERE JUST OPENED TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was so exciting!! I found this piano that I'm gonna go buy tomorrow lol...it's only 10 bucks! And you can play more than one note at the same time!!!! (something most cheap kids keyboards don't usually do)!!! So I'm gonna get the piano...develop my film....do my calc work....OOOHHH YEAH!!!!!!! I've been DEATHLY sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cought a nasty cold/cough which was SICKENINGLY accompanied by PINK EYE!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!! And I pretty much live with like 10 people lol...cuz all our friends are always over So I have to CONSTANTLY wash my hands and not touch my eyes and stuff....so annoying. I can't wait to get better!! Once I heal I shall have LASER EYES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The only drawback is that people think I'm high because my eyes are bloodshot all the time. I got medicated drops so it should go away in like a few days. Lauryn Hill Unplugged 2.0 I've never heard anything so truthful and personal....ever. Very powerful album...and I'm glad I heard it now instead of purchasing it when it came out. This whole time I've been like "I WISH LAURYN HILL WOULD COME BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" And now I understand who she is, why she's away, why I should respect that, etc. It's an amazing album! She's still one of my favorite singer/songwriters. So talented A++++++++ This is all I can say for now I'm sorry I haven't done anything for you to see yet hehe. I would show pictures of myself...but my hair is so short and weird :S In like a month or two it'll be awesome again!!! hehe BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~eclectic-fusion