http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ecru&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ecru en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 19 Dec 2009 22:44:04 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/22280911/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/22280911/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 13:46:23 PST X-posted on my LJ

Okay: is it just me, or is anybody else sick of see James Jean draw/paint nothing except children with no faces?

Don't get me wrong, I idolize the guy. His painting technique is incredible and his life drawings are the ultimate that I aspire to. But seriously... For the love of God, draw something else! His child paintings are my least favorite. I feel like a lot of his older work (before he got into this blank-faced youth phase) is a lot better than what he's producing now.

Yes? No? I am very curious to know what other people think about this matter, so let me know!

]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/18545459/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/18545459/ Wed, 28 May 2008 14:51:00 PDT
The year went well, despite the fact that I was really busy (as always). Engineering is... ehhhhh yeah. Takes up a lot of time.

Anyway, I was in Beijing, China for two weeks in May. It was an awesome trip and I learned so much about the people and culture there. It changed my perception on things in a way that I don't even think I fully realize yet. I've posted a large chunk of the photos I took online here: [link] , a few of which I've submitted as deviations here.

I'm taking a figure drawing class this summer, so expect some sketches uploaded here or in my scraps section. I'm really excited, I've always wanted to draw nude models!

]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/17027469/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/17027469/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 15:03:27 PST I'm only going to heaven if it tastes like caramel

]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/12709980/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/12709980/ Fri, 04 May 2007 19:31:22 PDT
THE PYRAMIDS OF GIZA ARE NO LONGER ONE OF THE SEVEN WONDERS OF THE WORLD?! They were the only one of the original 7 left!

[link]

This totally bamboozles me. The Colosseum is on there, but not the Pyramids of Giza?! Totally ridiculous. Look at what tourism and popular voting has done.

EDIT: Oh, okay, they designated it an "Honorary New7Wonders Candidate" that you couldn't even vote for. Mostly just because Egypt got totally miffed and complained in regards to why the pyramids even had to run in the competition considering their status.

Meme thing:

- DONE
- DONE
- something based on "I Like Birds" by the Eels
- DONE
- DONE
- DONE
- DONE
- A specific thing that is hard to describe in one sentence.

]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/12545689/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/12545689/ Tue, 10 Apr 2007 20:47:56 PDT
Thanks for the positive feedback on Laconic Petals! I really appreciated it... I haven't heard much from people in terms of comments for a while, so I was happy to know that I've still got a few people cracking open an eye for my work every once in while.

Since it seemed that a lot of people were interested in how my submission went, I thought I'd mention it here. Unforunately, I didn't win. Actually, I was eliminated from the running pretty early in the beginning, much to my dismay. But hey, that's art, what can you do. I was hoping that the staff of the literary magazine would choose a more mellow/sombre cover because they had done some really bright/contrasty/photomanip stuff for the past few years, but alas! That is not the case. Photomanipulation won once again over traditional media.

I was a little depressed at first, but now I'm over it. What can you do? I really like how it came out, so that's enough.


In other news, I am almost done with IB! Freedom is close at hand, and that means more artwork. I feel that I haven't gotten any better since December 2005 and I'm really hoping to change that. Soon. We shall see, we shall see!

Meme thing:

- DONE
- DONE
- something based on "I Like Birds" by the Eels
- DONE
- DONE
- DONE
- DONE

]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/11592708/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/11592708/ Sat, 27 Jan 2007 21:01:50 PST
- DONE
- DONE
- something based on "I Like Birds" by the Eels
- DONE
- DONE
- DONE
- DONE

]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/11306786/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/11306786/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 20:56:42 PST Ten Art Facts about me. I was tagged by . RASCAL!

1. For the life of me, I can NOT draw consistently. This is one of the reasons I never really got into drawing comics (even though I love them). I'll sketch something and think: "WELL HEY, that looks swell!" And then I'll try to draw the same person again and they look like a 'tard. I think this is good and bad in some ways... Bad, because it makes so I can't ever really illustrate a story, but good because I think in a way it keeps my style in a constant state of change and never really lets in stagnate.

2. More and more and more, I am just... so... fucking against Digital art. Of any kind. Well, not so much "against it" (except for photography) as in I really don't like it that much. Sorry if that is your honey and butter, guys. The only exception to this would be cheap oekaki's and MSPaint drawings where you can SEE the pixelly goodness. But anything else really just... does not excite me, and sort of seems like a cop-out. Ctrl+z does not exist in real life. I HATTTEEE Digital photography. Give me analog all the way, bitches. (Why do I have to be living now when it's dying out? Suckage.)

3. I've gotten better at it, but I used to have a really weird habit of smearing my watercolor paints all over my hands instead of a tissue when I was in a hurry. Like... I'd be all: "OHSHITSON I GOTTA HURRY GOTTA HURRY!!" and then I would dab my brush on my hand before blending out colors or something.

4. My answers to this thing are really long.

5. I am a precocious little shit. When I was younger, I used to be praised quite a bit for my artwork. I guess it grew on me. When I saw other people who were good (mostly online) I used to be all like: "But they're 19! I'm only 14! Hahahaaahooey-phooey!" But now I will be turning 18 in April and I really don't have any excuses anymore. But I'm not really like that anymore, I think/hope. I've basically stopped caring about anything related to art-cred or petty unspoken rivalries.

6. I am really unsure about my style right now. I think I am definitely tending more towards realism, but I don't have the resources I'd like to develop it more. (i.e. live figure drawing, pref. nudes. Hopefully that will change in college.) At the same time, I feel so frustrated when I try to draw in a more illustration style and can't... fucking make my drawings look decent or consistent (see #1).

7. I used to always use white acrylic, and think: "Dude what is all this jazz about Gesso?" But then I finally used it this year, and... JESUS. That stuff is just incredible. It's so much more fluid than acrylic and has just... millions more advantages. ACRYLIC GOT PWNT. But Acrylic always gets defeated, the stupidly-stubborn medium that it is.

8. I can't watercolor inked illustrations. I've tried. I suck. I am stuck with markers forever for those.

9. India ink will rule my soul forever and forever. Just when I think I have adopted watercolor as my new fav, I do something in ink and I about go comatose from fits of pleasure. It's just that damn good. Well, not ink and dip pen. I'm not such a big fan of that. But ink and brush?? HOLY TOLEDOS! Try it! Seriously, I think everyone should try inking something with ink and brush someday. It is the best feeling ever.

10. Okay, watercolor now. I get a lot of comments on my watercolor style, but honestly, I think it's really elementary and doesn't show much skill at all. If I were REALLY, TRULY, good at watercolor, I would know how to interact with the paper and make my waterfringes/etc perfect. I would know how to create minimal shapes and let the few bits of paint and paper texture speak for themselves. Less is definitely more in watercolor. Instead, I just overwork everything and blend the colors together so much that you can't even distinguish the personality of the paint.


Wow. That was more like bitchy confessions that I have wanted to get off my chest than 10 art facts about me. Sorry if this changes your opinion of me for the worse.

PSSSS - I updated my website with a new layout and whatnot. ENGARDE-REGARD.

Meme thing:

- DONE
- DONE
http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/10402992/ Sun, 22 Oct 2006 19:21:33 PDT
- DONE
- DONE
- something based on "I Like Birds" by the Eels
- DONE
- DONE
- DONE
- birdman



YEAH KIDS, I'M PSYCHED!!

]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/9591422/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/9591422/ Thu, 03 Aug 2006 20:11:43 PDT
I know I'm not very active and consequently no one really asks me questions, but regardless...

If I were ever to do a tutorial, is there anything specific you guys would want me to focus on?

I've always sort of wanted to make one. They seem like good fun.


So if you've ever been interested in a certain technique of mine, hit me up with ideas!

Or, vv., if you think I should never attempt a tutorial and stay proverbially mute, let me know that as well! ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/9399149/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/9399149/ Sun, 16 Jul 2006 21:10:13 PDT
A few more things need to be tweaked, but for the most part it is entirely up.

Thus, if you are so inclined:

[link]




Let me know what you think if you check it out. Thanks! ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/8931510/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/8931510/ Fri, 09 Jun 2006 13:34:24 PDT
I'm thinking blues and greens? Cool colors? Any colors? That is what I need to do. Cool color paint, ink, white acrylic. That is all I need if I can just do it!?


Give me some interesting color combos you value, guys. (ps ps - they can be more than one color, so think beyond pairs if you want, if you please.) Any and all, suggest them to me, I will not discriminate.


[EDIT]
I got a Flickr account and have posted quite a few pics. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/7998868/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/7998868/ Sat, 25 Feb 2006 12:00:23 PST Half-past three,
The lamp sputtered,
The lamp muttered in the dark.
The lamp hummed:
“Regard the moon,
La lune ne garde aucune rancune,
She winks a feeble eye,
She smiles into corners.
She smooths the hair of the grass.
The moon has lost her memory.
A washed-out smallpox cracks her face,
Her hand twists a paper rose,
That smells of dust and eau de Cologne,
She is alone
With all the old nocturnal smells
That cross and cross across her brain.”
.....

~T.S. Eliot, Rhapsody on a Windy Night ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/7595359/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/7595359/ Fri, 13 Jan 2006 18:23:58 PST
[link]

And that's really about it. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/7220372/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/7220372/ Fri, 23 Dec 2005 22:24:28 PST ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/7205190/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/7205190/ Fri, 02 Dec 2005 16:21:58 PST

How is everyone doing? Are we feeling okay? O YEA that's what I like to hear!


THIS WEEKEND, AND THIS WEEKEND ONLY

I GET

TO RAP

THESE LYRICS AT MY OPPONENTS IN DEBATE:

I be bombastic
With my terror tactics
Why you actin' plastic
Treatin' your fans like fanatics
We be the upper pair comin' air-tight like Tupperware
Fuck a fear, press ya luck and beware the brigadier


Thank you Jurassic 5 for actually writing terrible lyrics that have Tupperware in them!!


IT WILL BE AMAZING!!! ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/7109099/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/7109099/ Mon, 21 Nov 2005 20:03:20 PST I know you and I have been on unsteady terms
But with that test tomorrow
I feel
I feel
I feel that we can do it YES YES
And we can beat that sonuvabitch Noah's scooorreee
YES YES WE CAN

Just bless me with your holy physic's powers so that it actually makes sense to me, OH YES YES YES, WE CAN DO IT WITH STYLE YES!

And while you're at it, bless me with calculus and french skills as well. KTHXBYE.


EDIT: OH OH OH, BITCHES AND HOS, GUESS WHO JUST FOUND OUT THAT SHE WHIPPED THE PROVERBIAL ASS OF PHYSICS INTO THE GROUND WITH ENOUGH MIGHT TO PUT THE COSMOS IN A STATE OF UTTER FRIGHT!

My rhymes have got to stop. The make one bleed in the area of the eyeballs so delicately. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/6983074/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/6983074/ Mon, 07 Nov 2005 16:46:46 PST
EDIT - I just realized most of my last few submitted works have been of shirtless people. What is this trend, Laura? I didn't even notice it. I'm getting a little risque. Let's just say "shirts are for the weak" and make everything better. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/6840046/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/6840046/ Sat, 22 Oct 2005 20:07:06 PDT
For those of you that have watched me for a while (and not for a while), how do you feel about my general shift towards the more painted pieces/ones with a lot of color?

Are you more a fan of the contrasted b&w work I used to do, or do you like my recent more developed work more?

I'll probably continue to do both, but I may upload more of one style here on DA depending on what people like.

PLLLEEEEEEEEEEEZZZZ THE MASSES. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/6593786/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/6593786/ Sat, 24 Sep 2005 21:15:53 PDT
With that said, painntt painnnttt paiinnnttt!

You know what I've just realized? I've never painted a guy. That should be my next order of business.

And I'm still going to promote these people:
]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/6515125/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/6515125/ Thu, 15 Sep 2005 19:37:51 PDT
Isn't it funny how you never feel like you're progressing, and then you look back and go : "HOLY F$#%^CK!"

I should redo some of my old stuff, just to see what the differences would be. Ho hum.

And these are all artists here that I really respect and admire, so go check them out. For christ sakes, I only do one plug post a year. Just run with it, people.

]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/6273563/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/6273563/ Sun, 21 Aug 2005 20:15:23 PDT
[EDIT] - I am currently ready to start smashing faces in.

Ahahaha....! ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/6168832/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/6168832/ Mon, 08 Aug 2005 12:54:31 PDT
Hopefully putting all my works back in display didn't mess with anyone's message center. If it went and uploaded ALL of the goddamn things on your watch page, I'm really really sorry. Just delete them and get rid of the mess; there's nothing new in there.

BLAAAHHHHHGGHHHHUURRRGGGHHHHHHH! ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/5957508/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/5957508/ Sun, 17 Jul 2005 09:14:20 PDT
I thought Harry Potter: Half-Blood prince was a downright dissapointment. Rowling's worst book to date, and I can't say I enjoyed reading it at all. I did a big review about why I think so on my LJ, so if you're really interested in reading it, (Or just want to attack me, which I would love to respond to since I'm bored) take a look here --> [link]

Everyone is raving about how wonderful it was and how they laughed, cried, and shouted... I didn't do any of that. Definitely the worst installment yet.

Alright, get your knives ready, I'm all ready to be bitched out about how I don't know a thing about literature and this was the most painfully beautiful heartwrenchingly enthralling significant book ever. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/5893051/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/5893051/ Sun, 10 Jul 2005 08:17:22 PDT
What I find silly is that I know I can create something better than what I have been if I just put more effort into it. It's not like I'm limited by my current skill level; I have tons of ideas that could be implemented that would come out quite striking and interesting. (If I did them I'd probably get sick of them in a few months too though. sigh....) If I were to just spend more time on my art and treat each peice as a finished, professional work, I think my "art" would turn out a lot better. Just doodling, liking the sketch, and inking/coloring it isn't good enough for me.

And then the question comes - if I were to put more effort into a peice of artwork and really get it to a point where it actually shows some resembelance of skill, would it still get passed by in favor of another work where anime style and digital colouring were used?

Yes, everyone here sometime in their life has heard the style rant. I do take influence from anime, but I'd like to think that I've managed to branch out of that and now have a style that is "different" (for good or worse.) What I get tired of is seeing hundreds/thousands of artists on DA getting multitudes of praise when they all have the exact same goddamn style. They all color the same way, all the body shapes/facial features/settings look the same, and yet... people really like that. I can't stand that style... it's one of my least favorites. Not because I'm jealous of the acclaim they get, I just think it's a way of drawing that shows little to no originality and simply on a base level does not appeal to me.

Alright. I could go on, but the bitching is over for now. I'll probably delete this tomorrow after re-reading what I wrote and being thuroughly disgusted with myself.


ONE LAST THING - In your opinion, is it worth buying a domain/site? I'm not popular enough to generate much traffic to a site in the first place, it's $60 a year, and I'm wondering if I should bother having one in the first place. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/5452485/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/5452485/ Tue, 24 May 2005 21:26:24 PDT
Wow, DA, I hate you. I hate the way I actually uploaded something decent and it doesn't show up on my page. Technically it is now lost in limbo and I'll never know how the hell to find it. Thanks.

Have a wonderful summer, everyone. Give a wild whooping viking yell in public sometime during the summer, just for kicks. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/5151431/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/5151431/ Thu, 21 Apr 2005 17:52:04 PDT
So is there method to this madness? I can't see any articles about it on the main page, and it's really bothering me that I have NO idea whats going on.

On what criteria was I picked, anyway? This is biiizzaaarrreee.

So if any of you other guys had this happen, let me know.

]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/5113853/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/5113853/ Sun, 17 Apr 2005 17:07:16 PDT
I posted all my paintings that I did over spring break last month... I wasn't originally planning too, but I felt really bad about not posting something for months. ;___;

Next weekend is my birthday, and I'll be getting a tablet then, so hopefully I'll be drawing/posting more. HAVE NO FEAR: traditional media will always be my one true love, but it takes me a ton of time to complete anything. I'm hoping that the tablet will motivate me to draw more often.... I'll probably post some junk in the scraps section once I start drawing with it.

I'm sorry for being so inactive... I don't like or dislike DA, I just completely lost interest in it. (that still stands) To all my friends here, I'm REALLY REALLY sorry I haven't been around much. I miss you guys a ton.

Hope everyone is doing well! Take it easy and enjoy spring while its here, okay? <3 ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/4835027/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/4835027/ Thu, 17 Mar 2005 07:48:02 PST
As such, it would make my day if you people randomly AIMed or e-mailed me. If you do, I'll love you forever. I'd promise you rewards of baked goods or something for doing that, but I can't. My cookies would probably kill you on the spot anyway though.

SO!
AIM: Saa0423
E-mail: ecru006@yahoo.com

Even if you want to tell me you hate me or just want to say: "Do you sell cracker pudding?!?!" I'll be happy. I'm not hard to please. Honest.

<3
]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/4256316/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/4256316/ Thu, 06 Jan 2005 17:46:10 PST ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/4061056/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/4061056/ Mon, 13 Dec 2004 19:41:38 PST
Life is good. I have decided that baked potatoes are the best meal out there.

Worst pick-up line ever: "Will you be my monkey of love?"

I have had the displeasure of being called this and seeing someone else being called this multiple times. Luckily, I claimed that I've already been claimed someone else's "pleasure monkey" (Thank you Braden, for calling everyone random phrases that mean absolutely nothing) so I escaped unscathed. Whoo-hoo! ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3903184/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3903184/ Tue, 23 Nov 2004 17:41:17 PST
Anyhoo, I finally gots meself a site. It works really well considering it's a free account, so I would say that I'm quite happy with it. The layout is complete and utter cheese, but my obsession with yellows and oranges made me do it, I swear.

There isn't much on it... all the artwork is up, but there's only one image up there that I didn't post here at DA. Hmm hmm. Oh, some links are up too and... that's about it. XDDD

And because I am way too lazy to actually write out the .html tag that would make this link look all cool, here you go: [link]

Toodles my friends, and happy turkey day to all! ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3851366/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3851366/ Tue, 16 Nov 2004 16:45:56 PST
Well, I hate to say it, but the computer situation is exactly the same as it always was. Being able to simply type this journal is a wonder of nature, so it must be one of my computer's better days. Howevah, it seems that I will be getting myself a brand spankin' new computer for x-mas, and along with it a faster internet connection. INSERT MANY EXCLAMATION POINTS AND SHOUTS OF JOY HERE.

So if all goes well, I should be back up to speed with everything by x-mas... if not, then... basically nothing out of me again for half a year.

What's even more sad is that I haven't finished a single piece of artwork since my gift for ~synb... Well, I suppose I'm in painting class and I've finished a few things there, but as for finished drawings that I do in my spare time... zip. nadda.

Believe me, I'd love to back in and involved with DA. I miss talking to all of you guys and commenting on your works... ;___; I know I've missed some really great things here just by leaving for two months, so... I don't really want to do it all over again.

On a side note, I'm doing well. The school year has been amazingly busy, aided in that regard by the fact that I'm in the forensics (debate) club this year and am working my ass off just so I can argue with other people. (haha, it's actually quite fun.... *waits for the insults of "you geek!" and whatnot* XD )

And that's about all I have to say. Many thanks to those of you who have commented or devwatched me in my absense... I'll be back soon hopefully, so just sit tight until then!

Oh, and my livejournal -> [link] ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3558599/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3558599/ Sun, 10 Oct 2004 16:00:42 PDT
In short, something is extremely wrong with my internet connection (I'm using a different computer just to write and post this), and in no way, shape, or form can I get on DA to comment or post.

There's a slightly longer explanation at my livejournal, so if you're really terribly interested (ha) go check that out.

Otherwise, I'm doing well. Nothing is new. I have produced no new art. I had a cold this weeked. And lastly, there's 8 days, 3 hours, and 40 seconds until the PJ Harvey concert. <333 ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3503576/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3503576/ Sun, 03 Oct 2004 14:12:14 PDT
This means I can actually load decent programs onto my computer! (You won't believe me, but my comp right now has a C drive with only a 4GB capacity.) This means Adobe 7.0! This means... all those other programs I always wanted to put on but didn't!!!

And it'll give me a CD burner. Ooohhh god, yessss. *moans with joy at the thought*

The only question is my scanner that only operates on older OSs. And it's such a good scanner that I really don't want to move it away from my room/comp setup, but I may have to. ;___;

SO!

This is where you guys come in!

I know that some of you have to be technology-savvy, so I would appreciate if you would give suggestions about brands and/or specific system configurations that you would reccomend. (Or even something like: "I have a Dell. It works good." would help.)

And...yeah. I haven't forgotten to comment on everyone's deviations, I just... haven't gotten there yet. >___>

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ecru's livejournal ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3424812/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3424812/ Wed, 22 Sep 2004 20:20:41 PDT
Goodbye for a while until I finally get some free time and can actually draw and reply to people and their works.

THE END. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3356691/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3356691/ Mon, 13 Sep 2004 17:27:37 PDT
(Everytime I see this I think of Fiddler on the Roof and "If I were a Rich Man"... Oh man, I'm a dork.)

If I were a month I would be: March

If I were a day of the week I would be: Wednesday

If I were a time of day I would be: 8:30 PM

If I were a planet I would be: Mercury

If I were a sea animal I would be: a squid

If I were a direction I would be: West

If I were a piece of furniture I would be: a bench-swing

If I were a historical figure I would be : Jesus's imaginary brother...sister...person in the fake tomb

If I were a liquid I would be: tea

If I were a tree I would be: maple

If I were a flower/plant I would be: iris

If I were a kind of weather I would be: heavy heavy rain

If I were a musical instrument I would be: a violin

If I were an animal I would be: a great blue heron

If I were a color I would be: dark umber

If I were a vegetable I would be: an onion

If I were a sound I would be: the folding of paper

If I were an element I would be: earth

If I were a food I would be: cous-cous

If I were a place I would be: a clear coast with a forest behind me and nothing but the ocean for miles

If I were a taste I would be: pears and jasmine

If I were a scent I would be: the scent of old paper

If I were a word I would be: androgenous

If I were an object I would be: an instrument

If I were a body part I would be: the spinal cord

If I were a facial expression I would be : deep in thought and emotionless

If I were a cartoon/animé character I would be: Juri Arisuguwa

If I were a shape I would be a: spade

If I were a number I would be: 6 ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3310371/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3310371/ Tue, 07 Sep 2004 17:19:15 PDT
I finally went through all my messages which I have been neglecting here at DA and proceeded to comment on as many deviations as I could, so I'm sorry if anyone was confused about me commenting on their works a week after they posted them.

And most importantly!
My super-vegas-lover deserves some attention. She's incredibly sweet to me, and her artwork is flippin' fantastic. Go visit, now, and understand the love which I have for ma belle copine. J'aime tu, ~synb! JE T'AIME, TU COMPREHEND?!?? <333

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ecru's livejournal ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3196983/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3196983/ Mon, 23 Aug 2004 16:43:01 PDT "-1 new messages"
Is this even possible?!? DA has been giving me some crazy shit ever since the site remodeling. *laughs* It's okay though.

Well, second week of school. First day that actually ended on a decent note, so the year is starting to look up. My morning is great (I love all my classes), but my afternoon really starts to get to be a bear sometimes.

I haven't had to climb any pine trees yet to stick people's stuff up there as revenge, but I'm sure I will sometime soon. Oh, yesshh, sometime soon... *cackles evilly*

I get so bored in history that I steal Nel's cellphone and send threatening text messages to people I don't even know. So far they've all involved harming the eyeballs, but I'm running out of ideas. I've used arsenic, rusty nails, and clavicle digging out-age, and I'm somewhat stumped. XDDD I love it, because every single person I've sent one to goes up to Nel and says: "...did I do something wrong? Are you mad with me?" And then she has to explain that she didn't even write it, and that it's all the work of her crazy friend.

Man, oh man. School can actually be fun sometimes. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3093349/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3093349/ Wed, 11 Aug 2004 17:19:08 PDT EDIT
ALSO. I just noticed, it'll be one year to the day tomorrow since I joined Deviantart. My, how time flies. Or not. Anyway.

It's been a lot of fun, I've really enjoyed the community. I've met so many great people/artists, and also made some friends. This is good.

For all of you out there that even look, let alone comment (I must admit I do like you guys that comment more) I want to thank you. I appreciate that you thought my artwork is actually good enough to consider being notified of everytime I make an update. Well, I didn't break 5,000 in one year with pageviews, but I'm within 500, and that's good enough for me. Thanks you guys, you really do rock.



AND! Mariya, being the tricky devil that she is, has gotten a DA account. She's a friend of mine in RL, and we've had many a good time discussing random crap... mainly consisting of things regarding FF8... but heeeyyy. She's actually the one that I did that birthday collage for. <333

So take that, Mo!!! I'm plugging you and you can't do anything about it!!!! *mad insane laughter*

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I'm in Oregon! Whooooo!

So! I responded to some of your guy's comments, but not all of them. I'll try getting through all the deviations and journals when I get home.

The trip has been going rather nicely, and I actually have drawn a few things that I need to make all fancy before I post them here. I should be home sometime on the weekend, so expect for news from me then.

I think... I had more to say. But I forgot it. huuuhuuu....

<3 Laura is happy and content.

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ecru's livejournal ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3010064/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/3010064/ Sat, 31 Jul 2004 09:45:05 PDT
That means no comments, deviations, journals, etc. from me. (duh) Think you can manage that? (no shit you can manange that. Somehow I don't think it'll be an issue for you guys.)

Hmm. If I sound kinda down, it's because I am. I'm a cranky and angsty child at the moment, and boy do I hate being that, but sometimes it just comes around. DA is a great place, but... sometimes I hate it. My most wild and impossible fantasy is that the drawings I work hard on, and the drawings that I actually like, are the ones that get the most attention. Don't you hate it when you produce utter crap and everyone loves it? And then you do something you spent forever on and you get hardly any feedback? I know I do. Oh, and for the about 5/100 people that devwatch me that actually comment on almost all of my submitted works, (Yes, this is the reason why I'm cranky at this place right now) I can't tell you how much that means to me. You get tons of love, kids. Consider yourselves saturated with it from me.

Wouldn't it be nice if people could be recognized for what they love to do and feel good about? Man... the world sucks that way.

GAH. ANGST. I'll probably hate this journal when I get back and delete it immediately.

HAHAHA, you can't stop me!!! I'll keep creating art that practically only I like!!! Take that!!!111one

Ciao, my darlings.

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ecru's livejournal ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2982307/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2982307/ Tue, 27 Jul 2004 18:43:30 PDT check it out if you want to know more. (please tell me the .html formatting worked)

I'll be heading to sunny CA in a few days for two weeks, so I won't be around to comment on things or post artwork. Just thinking about my messages when I get back is a little intimidating...

Other than that, not much is going on. Sorry for wasting you're guy's time with such a short entry. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2940248/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2940248/ Thu, 22 Jul 2004 20:05:17 PDT EDIT
Oh holy mother-fjucking god. I think I just fixed my jaw problem. O_______O I didn't even realized I had until I started opening it repeatedly and it didn't pop... this is a goooood day. (in the past, the right side of my jaw bone has given a resounding crack each time I open it, which is realllyyy not very good.) And... and... I think it's gone. I'm afrais to open my mouth for fear of it suddenly wacking out on me again.
Sorry, this is just... very very exciting for me. (dork I am, yes)

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Ho hum, using paint is quite a learning experience for me. I'm finally tackling my fears of acrylic and trying to learn how to work with it. The results are... interesting. Since I'm taking a painting class first semester at the start of the new school year, I thought it would be a good idea to at least get some experience with paints so I can make something other than pure crap. I'm being spoiled by using decent acrylics though. All they have in the school art rooms are Crayola acrylics. Ouch. We'll see how it goes in a month or two.

I'm thinking about actually paying for a domain site. I can't stand ads, and I want to be able to hotlink/direct-link my images to my livejournal/etc. Rydia sounds like a good host, but I can't decide whether to pay 5$ or 10$ for one of the two types of accounts. I mainly want my own doman name/www address, but that's part of the one that's more expensive. I'm so incredibly cheap on my costs that I'll probably go with the 5$ if I do buy some webspace.

The other problem is what to call it. I had one that I was really looking forward to using until I figure out some stupid idiot had already registered it. Damn. So now I'm back to square one and I can't think of anything.

And this was a completely pointless journal entry. Urgh. Sorry for wasting your guy's time. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2856384/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2856384/ Sun, 11 Jul 2004 13:26:17 PDT
If you wondering why it took me so long, it's thanks to my IMMENSELY crappy keyboard. For about three days straight it was giving me nothing but garble when I type. It does this every once in a while, but it usually doesn't last as long as it did this time. (it's probably a virus or something... damn.)

"See Jane Run" becomes "/See XJanve XRunv"/

And while I can go back and delete things ONLY with the delete button (the backspace button inserts "m" into the sentence) I can never write much at a time and it's a pain to anyway.

I have art on the brain but I'm a lazy bum and currently despising my style and thinking I suck. I'll get out of "self-depreciating" mode soon, it's just something that happens once in a while to me. (most artists in general, actually.)

Also~
I am a lonely person as of late people. This means you need to AIM me!!!!111one Work and being stuck at home is boring and I'm missing my friends during the summer. So, if you want, just say hi to me at Saa0423 on AIM. I won't bite, I promise. ;__; *panders for attention*

And go see Spider-Man 2 if you already haven't. That movie majorly kicks arse. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2684390/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2684390/ Thu, 17 Jun 2004 17:35:02 PDT
I thought I was right at the time, but... nuh. I'm actually posting a LOT of sketches and whatnot of mine in the scraps section. I said that not much more would show up from me, even though I got my own scanner, but... I couldn't resist. It's too tempting.

Photos of me being a goat stalker is the newest thing in my scraps section, along with a few other pics, so if you want to see me chasing after a goat with FSKING AWESOME horns go check it out. yeah. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2668495/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2668495/ Tue, 15 Jun 2004 17:30:29 PDT
IgotmyownscannerIgotmyownscannerIgotmyow nscannerIgotmyownscannerIgotmyownscanner .

YES! This is... one of the best days ever. ;__; It's used, but only like 2 years old, and scans pretty darn nicely from the few times I've tested it. I can't get it to work through other programs, but it's basic simple program works, so I'll just use that.

I'm... just... so happy. So very happy. *tears of joy* This doesn't mean I'll be posting more artwork neccesarily... maybe more sketches and photos though... All the more reason I need to go out and pay for decent webspace.

<3333 ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2598275/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2598275/ Sat, 12 Jun 2004 15:31:24 PDT
I love my developing sense of apathy towards this issue.

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ugh I had to take this ball of angst journal down.

Thanks for all the people that commented worrying about me, I really appreciate it. <3

Everything is fine now (I think), the fire that was about 1-2 miles from my house is out, and for now there isn't any danger... only 5 more months until November when the fire danger pretty much ends! whooo! Summer of paranoia, here I come! ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2537261/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2537261/ Mon, 31 May 2004 18:59:54 PDT Update
Alright, I decided what to do. I already kinda planned to do this before, and having your guy's opinions just helped reaffirm that decision.

So, the plan is as follows:
I post my sketches under my scraps account here. ~skeletonfingers will just be closed down until I find a use for it, or if somebody else wants to use it. (If you do, send me a private message or something, and I can hand the account over to you.)

Thanks for all the input, and remember: You have to manually go into your friends list and check "scraps" to actually be notified of the sketches someone is doing. Some of you may already have done this for my account, and if you did, great! Those who haven't, if you don't want to, don't worry about it. No problem for me.

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Alright, this is regarding my other account ~skeletonfingers and some issues that have come up for me regarding the new scraps section of DA.

Technically, almost all of the work I submit at ~skeletonfingers belongs in the scraps section. However, for a devwatcher to actually see what someone is posting in the scrap section, they have to either go there via the person's main DA page, or they have to go into their friends list and checkmark the scraps category. My other account is really very small, and as such I severly doubt anyone will want to go in and take the time to check out the scraps on that account when it already is a scraps account.

So, here's some ideas:

1) I close down ~skeletonfingers and just post my scraps on this account, and that way you guys can choose if you want to see those or not.

2) I keep doing what I'm doing ()

3) I use ~skeletonfingers for something COMPLETELY different, or something to do with drawing at all. (Problem is, I can't think of anything else I would use it for)

4) Post my sketches in the "scraps" section at ~skeletonfingers (But thats about the same thing as using the scrap section on this account... and less people will see them, this way)

Any other suggestions, you guys? I want to get your opinions on this, so please say anything that comes to mind.

You see, at first I thought it wouldn't be a problem... but the way it's going, I'm clogging up the deviation category with things that really are just unfinished works, but on the other hand, I do want people to see them and that's more likely to happen if I post them as scraps here.

Gah.

Life sucks. Hope that all made sense. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2483367/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2483367/ Sat, 22 May 2004 11:28:59 PDT
I have one week of school left, and school has literally been insane. As a result of being assigned a huge art project to do in one week, attending my sister's graduation, and praticing for my separate piano and violin recitals tomorrow, I haven't had time for anything at all lately. I've been pulling several late-nighters recently, and I haven't even gotten to my finals studying... not a good thing.

As such, this weekend is going to be jam-packed with nothing but studying and practicing. I'm sorry my gallery hasn't been updated in such a long time, but I haven't produced an iota of personal creative art in what seems like two to three weeks. However, once the first day of summer comes, and for a few weeks after that, there should be a big outpour of creative work from me. For those of you expecting images, thats about the time when they should appear.

So, if you were wondering where I was and what I'm doing... that's it, really.

Ciao. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2366942/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2366942/ Wed, 05 May 2004 16:22:02 PDT skeletonfingers. HA. Take that, conformism... (I think. )

Today it was great seeing everyones expressions when they saw me... half of them didn't even recognize me at first with my haircut. A bunch of people thought I looked asian, and some even thought I looked like an anime character... it was great.

Hope everything is going well for you guys!

Laura

+sketch account+
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Alright, now to explain myself. I just set up a new account from which to post sketches/incomplete/sloppy works, so if any of you are interested in my design process, I reccomend taking a look at it. My final, more "professional" art will continue to be submitted here, so don't worry. I won't visit the other account as much as I do this one, so comments/notes may take a while to reply to if you do decide to say something.

The new account is at ~skeletonfingers, so go check it out if you wanted to. (Haha, the name was random, but I had this font I wanted to use, and then combined with the obvious fact that you draw with your hands, well, you get the picture.)

I'll start to provide a link to my sketch account in the rest of my journals from now on.

Ciao

+sketch account+
]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2344650/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2344650/ Sun, 02 May 2004 15:01:19 PDT
Okay, so recently I've been entertaining the idea of having a separate account here to post sketches/quick images in. Sometimes, I'll draw something I really like, but I won't feel that it's good/cleaned up enough to post here, onto this main account. So, easy way to solve that problem is to set up another account, but!

I tried that, and after I had inputed my information and pressed continue, a screen came up saying "you do not have access to this part of deviantart because you are banned" or something along those lines. WTF. I wasn't even logged in. That really freaked me out there for a second. I was able to get back into my ~ecru account fine, but for some reason it decided I was banned.

Than I went and saw if there was already a deviant that had the penname I was considering using. If so, I thought they might be banned or something. Well, there wasn't, so now I have no clue what the deal is.

I was under the implication that you can have 2-3 accounts here for the same e-mail address, but was I mistaken in that?

Any help you guys could provide would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!

EDIT Aahahaha omg I can't believe I completely forgot to close the italic tag correctly last time. DD Sorry about that! ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2287810/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2287810/ Sat, 24 Apr 2004 09:24:12 PDT
I was gone all of last weekend, so my DA messeges really piled up. Getting through them was something that would've taken up too much of time, so I deleted all the notifications about deviations and journals. If there was something one of you really wanted me to look/comment on, then please provide a link here or send me a note.

I have a lot of artwork to do right now, so updates may be a bit slow... or a bit faster, depending on how you look at it.

My birthday came recently, and I got some neat stuff... the best present of all was from one of my friends... she gave me this stress-ball in the shape of a heart, and then glued on a picture of Craig Nichols (...I tend to never be a fangirl, but for craig nichols... I make an exception) and wroite "heartthrob" and "Laura's main squeeze" on it... It was so great! I laughed my ass off but cried from happiness at the same time... I keep randomly picking it ub and giving it a squeeze while trying to mimic the actual beats of a normal heart... It's all good fun. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2198234/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2198234/ Sun, 11 Apr 2004 08:46:58 PDT
So please, don't feel any hesitation in pointing out my mistakes. I won't spontaneously combust, I swear.

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In other news, I posted 5 sketches up at my LJ. You do not have to be a member of LJ to comment on them, if you so choose. And even if you don't want to say anything, you can just check them out. I just wanted to mention that incase anyone was actually curious as to what my doodles look like.

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Hmm... My birthday is coming up soon. I suddenly looked at the calenday and realized it was two weeks or so away. Huh, I don't know... it doesn't seem like a big deal at all, and I'm not all that excited... it's just another year, I suppose... Haha, is apathy towards your own birthday a healthy thing? ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2188739/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2188739/ Fri, 09 Apr 2004 20:22:51 PDT
They start off by weighing you and figuring out your height, right? So the first time the nurse weighs me I come in at 100 pounds, and then she takes my height, which turned out to be 5'6". (I thought I was WAY shorter than that... oh well.) And apparently, I'm REALLY light for my height. So she weighs me again, and I come in at about 103. I'm slowly losing weight without even trying... kind of frightening.

Annnd then they take my blood pressure yada yada... and the doctor comes in and asks me tons of questions, which I answer in detail. And after all this, he tells me that I have low blood pressure. It's not caused by anything that could be potentially threatening or life-concerning, it's just honest to goodness low blood pressure. (I might have inherited it from my grandfather...) Just to be sure, they went and took an ECG/EKG/WHATEVER IT IS to make sure it wasn't a heart problem... and it wasn't. So now, I have been told to:

A) gain weight (Dude, I eat like a horse and have never dieted)
B) add more salt to my diet
C) stay hydrated

Pretty easy, if you ask me... except for the "gaining weight" part. I hate forcing down food, but thats the only way I'll put on some more pounds. I'm just sticking to the "add salt" part for now...

But, yeah. In case anyone was still wondering about that whole deal.

Oh, and I got two more hermit crabs today. My first guy immediately started attacking them and trying to get their shells as soon as I put them in the tank... lol, he didn't suceed, so he just burrowed himself a hole and has been sitting there for hours... and hours... and hours. I bought them new shells, but they look like they're too big... oh well. Survival instincts will kick in... someday. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2144807/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2144807/ Sat, 03 Apr 2004 14:47:48 PST
So I looked up hermit crab care. WOW. There is a TON of info for what beginners should do to take care of their crabs... I'm afraid it's too cold for my little crab right now, and I have no idea how to tell if he's eating something.

He worries me very much. I feel like a mother or something. ;__; He's small, but he was SO much more energetic than the other crabs at the store... I think I'm going to call him Jacques, but "crabbie" keeps slipping out... (Don't ask me why, I have no idea)

Anyway! I'm happy because of that, and we actually got 2/10 of an inch of rain yesterday! Thats the most rain... heck, thats the only rain we've gotten all year where I live... T__T

Anyway, here are some stats. Everyone's doing it, so Laura once again jumped on the bandwagon:

Stats for ~ecru

I have 3,089 pageviews total and my 36 deviations were viewed 1,732 times, with 1,401 fullviews, for a grand total of 3,133 views.

Overall, people left 593 comments and added my deviations to their favourites 65 times, while I commented 899 times, averaging 3.95 comments per day, which means that I gave 15 comments for every 10 that I received.

My most commented deviation was She Would Do Anything with 35 comments, receiving an average of 2.5 per day in the first 2 weeks, while my most favourited one was Somewhere we will meet..., with 9 favourites, averaging 0.28 per day in the first 2 weeks. My most viewed photo was My Embrace with 206 views.

1 Favourites were given for every 10 Comments.

Every 6.3 days I upload a new deviation, and it's usually on a Saturday, with 39%/14 of my deviations.

My favorite time of the day to upload is at 20pm with 5 deviations and my busiest month was August 2003 with 10/ 28% of my deviations.

The majority of my deviations are uploaded to the Digitalart gallery (31 ), while my favorite category in it was Misc with 33 deviations

Comments per deviation: 16.47
Favourites per deviation: 1.8
Views per deviation: 87.02
Comments per day: 2.61
Favourites per day: 0.28
Views per day: 13.79
Pageviews per day: 13.6


Stats provided by *micahgoulart @ Ingenial.com / GalleryStats ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2110425/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2110425/ Tue, 30 Mar 2004 16:56:45 PST insert crappy drumroll noises
Thanks for the enthusiasm from all of you, I really appreciate it!

Actually, two people got my 3K... ~ blix-it and ~floating-cars Which just means... *dun dun dun* I'll draw you both something! Any requests from you two?

Blixxxiieeee, you are teh awesome. Dude, she even sent me this whole deal with the screenshot as a word bubble for Sun Child and the whole nine yards. It was mighty fine, I tell you.

So, sorry to those that didn't get it, there's always the 5K or 10K hit! I really, really, appreciate the support, and know that I always appreciate what you guys have to say!


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3K is getting reallllyyy close people. 19 page views and then it's gone! I didn't see much enthusiasm when I posted the idea in a previous journal, so I just hope that someone thought about but was too lazy to comment.

Um yeah, I can assure you I'll make it look nice. It'll be good, I swear... ;____; So somebody please try and get my 3K (or close to) so that I don't feel completely inadequete. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2071183/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2071183/ Thu, 25 Mar 2004 18:53:34 PST Update

The fire is out! Luckily, the wind died down and they were able to contain it by the next day... WOW. Big relief there, folks.

And wow, many thanks to all of you that sent me supportive comments! You have no idea what that means to me. It's wonderful, really!

So now that it's out, what time does that mean?!? You guessed it! Time to unload every single thing we packed into our cars and get all back into place! (Uuuuggghhh, we have so many paintings in my house... those will take forever to get back up, and my room is in shambles from where I was throwing stuff around... )

And wouldn't you know it, it wasn't the fire that prevented me from getting online, it was my stupid phone line that unplugged. But, it's now fixed! So, here I am, once again! Art on the way, hopefully.


Laura

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I'll make this incredibly brief.

I might not be on DA for days, weeks, or even a month or so. The reason?

There's a forest fire about a mile away from where I live. And thanks to the good ol' dry state I live in, dry brush catches and burns insanely fast.

Some people may be saying, "what's the big deal? It's a mile away." First, let me tell you something - a mile is NOTHING. With the wind blowing in your direction, that can mean minutes, or even just an hour. Also...

My house has already burned down. (And I mean COMPLETELY down) It happened when I was 8, and it's something I DO NOT wish to ever experience again.

And this, my friends, is why I'm moving to a place where it always rains. Always.

I'll let you guys know the situation (if I can) as the fire continues.

Ciao, my lovlies. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2033319/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/2033319/ Wed, 17 Mar 2004 20:53:48 PST
Whoever gets my 3,000 (wow... that sounds kinda sad compared to some other people, doesn't it? ) hit will get a picture drawn by yours truly.

I would prefer if you took a screenshot, but y'know, I trust you guys to if you don't remember right away or whatever just post a comment on my page. Oh, also, if I don't get any claims for 3K, I'll take whoever claims to have the next closest hit!

Should be fun, I'm looking forward to drawing one of you guys something! (Ahh, don't hurt me morore! I'm working on it, I'm working on it! *gets pelted by onions*)

In other news! I'm not dead. *hears collective sigh of dissapointment* Right now, I'm just busting my tail on this storybook for biology. *cough* Um, yeah. Biology. And it's strange, let me tell you. X3

However, I have art in the progress-o, so expect something... well, someday.

And yay! My mother comes home from Austria tomorrow! *boogies*

Hope everyone's lifes are going well! :3

Laura ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/1965250/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/1965250/ Sat, 06 Mar 2004 22:32:17 PST
It was my turn to make dinner today, and if you know me, then you know I'm horrible at cooking. Well, usually that's because I never do it, and why? I often develop dizzy spells or my vision goes black for a while when I'm standing up cooking/cutting something etc. So, anyway, I've gotten something like what happened today before, where my stomach starts to constrict, and that happens a few times, and then my vision starts to go black.

You know how sometimes when you stand up/move too quickly your vision goes a little dark? Today it just got blacker and blacker as I was walking around the kitchen, but I didn't want to sit down because I was supposed to be making food. Luckily my dad was helping me out, and suddenly I felt so bad I went to go sit down at the dinner table, mumbling something like "I'm going to go sit down..." to my dad.

I stagger over there, loose my balance and fall, and boom. I just blacked out and I didn't even realize it. I thought I was still at the stove cooking chicken, and yet I was on the ground. Everything was is such a haze, and then I suddenly very, VERY faintly felt my dad touching me. I could barely tell he was near me.

Suddenly I'm coming to, and he's asking me if I'm alright. I was starting to feel better by that time, more like I was going to puke. So my dad, being the smart person he is, keeps telling me to talk to him and let me know that I'm concious. I was okay, nothing happened after that.

Later, he told me my face was pale and green, and I was sweating like crazy. I almost smashed my head into the table when I fell... And that would not have been fun.

SO. I ate an orange. And then I finished dinner, although I was a bit worn-out.

I've had symptoms like that before, but I didn't actually black-out. It was really creepy that I couldn't even recall what I was doing when I passed out.

And it's weird, because it didn't deal with lack of food, and I got enough sleep, so... I don't know, but it was the first time something like that happened, so yeah. Piqued my interest!

So thanks for listening. Sorry if this sounds like a drama or something, I just wanted to tell what happened... it was... odd, to say the least. ]]> ~ecru http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/1923598/ http://ecru.deviantart.com/journal/1923598/ Sat, 28 Feb 2004 20:52:22 PST
Really, I don't like the changes. At all. Even if there was some confusion, now everything has been shoved into the " miscellaneous" gallery under different subtitles. I don't know exactly what to say, I just know that it pisses me off. Quite a bit, actually.

ANYWAY. On to something else.

I'm currently addicted to the movie Millennium Actress. If you haven't seen it, go. Right now. I'm so getting the DVD and OST for my birthday.

In other news, my honor orchestra concert is this tuesday. Wish me luck!

Oh, and one of art pieces is at our largest theater in town... how neat. And I didn't even know it. *laughs* I think I'll be posting more about that on my LJ. Maybe.

Annnnddd...... I'm working on a new ID. It's almost done, except (much to my dismay) there is no "rar-ing" violin this time, but it's looking pretty good. My hair style/etc. has changed so much that I really needed to update the pic here.

Ciao ]]> ~ecru