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]]> *einsicht Deployment http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/26760067/ http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/26760067/ Sat, 22 Aug 2009 18:08:11 PDT
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So yeah. For those of you who don't know and might care I made it safely to Cherry Point, NC on the 21st. It's relaxed here and everyone is nice. Someone at the airport drove us to base and showed us around some. We checked in and that night our sergeant came and talked to us. Turns out that we deploy to Afghan in March. I'm looking forward to it but I'm scared shitless. Well our sergeant came back this morning and showed us where we would be working. He showed us around the base and around town so we could get to know where everything was. Everyone here seems to be kind for the most part. Minus a few drunken assholes I met at like 1am last night. Not fun.

]]> *einsicht Renovation Of Deviant Art Accounts http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/26535922/ http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/26535922/ Tue, 11 Aug 2009 20:27:58 PDT [link] . Whereas my poems are going to be moved to VackerVargunge [link] . I'm sorry if this is an inconveniance to you but for me this will aid in organization.

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A SMALL LITTLE FEATURE






Yeah so I passed my test. I'm currently getting rid of stuff and packing. Seems I have orders to Cherry Point, North Carolina on August 20th. If you live out that way give me a shout. I'd like to know what there is to do out there. Oh well at least it's closer to home.

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So it's finally Sunday. I've finished unpacking all my stuff and everything is organized. The room for the most part is clean. Not much left to do other than stock up on food. Even my snakes have adjusted to the change. The shower only has hot water and the water in the sink is wired wrong so that the hot is on the right and the cold on the left. It's a long walk up and a long walk down. We got moved to the third floor and its aggravating at the best of times. Anyways, not much else really going on..

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]]> *einsicht *Sighs* http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/26033089/ http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/26033089/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 20:16:16 PDT
A SMALL LITTLE FEATURE






What do you do when it seems everyone hates you? What do you do when your so down and depressed that nothing seems worth living for? Can you find not one person that matters enough that you can keep moving on? Is life really as bad as it seems? What would running away accomplish anyways? So what? Life ain't always perfect. Deal with it. See the knives? Turn away.. don't listen to the assholes who encourage you to do it. Throw them away. They're just temptation anyways. The pills? Well don't look at them and you won't know what you can do. Someone cares. Even if you don't realize it they care. Trust me. Someone would be hurt if you left the world. Grow up. The world doesn't revolve around you anymore. It never did. You were just too little to understand. I know. Life is cruel. It's reality. It's what you were given so deal with it. Quit all you whiny ass bitchiness. I don't need anymore drama. I've walked that path and learned the hard way. You can trust few people. And the ones you trust end up hurting you the most. I'm not going to cry if you walk away and forget who I am. Forget that I was your friend. Forget that you loved me. I don't care anymore. I won't wake up crying at night anymore or fall asleep wishing you were here. This is what love accomplishes. Nothing but pain and bitterness. I'm not going to lash out how I always did. That's over. I've changed and it's because of you. I love you and that wont change. Kind of funny. I know you realize it. Even if you say you won't watch me I know you do. I still watch you. Warily. I listen to everything you say. Your hurt. Nothing you say or do can hide that. I walk around like a zombie. A part of me is missing. I know I've tried to move on but it's hard. I couldn't have imagined how hard it would be. Why do I rant. Half the shit I say I aim at myself anyways. It's not like arguing with yourself really helps. People just think your insane.

]]> *einsicht Daydreams http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/25951576/ http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/25951576/ Tue, 14 Jul 2009 20:41:55 PDT Watch meNote meJournal Instructions

Daydreams...they're nightmares now. I don't know how much more I can take. I can hear death laughing. He holds a sword like mine but the colors are reversed. I watch them change. The blue of the sword fades into black and the purple of the dragon drips like blood turning red. Blue for life. Black for death. I don't want to be the key. Behind him is a wall, a door. I see the wind crying. A second door , I see the one who holds the magic at bay. I take a step forward and flames erupt. They're hungry, promised a feast. I run. I can't save the world here. I close my eyes and call the wind. I'm desperate, a crack, and a door appears in my mind. I can save the wind but ill be vulnerable. I'm the key. I crack the door and let the wind in. Laughter. He let me take it. You're brave he says. But can the wind help you save the world by yourself?

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]]> *einsicht Bored http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/25898667/ http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/25898667/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 12:26:56 PDT


Yeah so I'm beyond bored at this point. I went dancing this weekend and that was fun. So yeah there really isn't much to do in the barracks other than watch movies. Currently on my list to watch is Kate&Leopold, In America, Jersey Girl, and The Journey. I'm also looking forward to watching TrueBlood and MoonLight. I'm on a website we call KGS ( [link] ) playing a game called Go. I love it. Not to mention I'm studying swedish. I can't think of anything to write. I guess doing the same thing everyday becomes routine.

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]]> *einsicht OMG whoever made this is nuts -.- http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/25170558/ http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/25170558/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 23:05:13 PDT -available:no
-age:19
-annoyance:people who are rude for no reason
-animal:wolves, tigers, and big cats
-actor:uuh
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-beer:gross
-birthday/birthplace:09/22 maine
-best friends:puckpup duchess-of-dooom darknight1213 demonsareourfriends joshinu-panther and a few others
-body part on the opposite sex:cant i have the whole body D:
-best feeling in the world:knowing you can make someone happy
-blind or death:neither
-been on stage:yes
-been beaten up:you wish
-believe in yourself:no
-believe in life on other plants:maybe
-believe in miracles:yes
-believe in magic:one can always hope
-believe in god:yes
-believe in satan:yes
-believe in santa:no
-believe in ghosts/spirits:fuck yeah
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-car:16th anniversary corvette
-color:red and black
-cried in school:duuuh
-chocolate/vanilla:chocolate of course
-chinese/mexican:chinese
-cake or pie:depends on what type of icing the cake flaunts
-country to visit:sweden germany norway turkey finland
-comedian:uhm?
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-day or night:night
-dream vehicle:wait didnt you already ask that o.o
-danced:only line dancing
-dance in the rain:hell yeah
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-eggs:ham and cheese omelet
-eyes:green/hazel
-everyone has:a dream
-ever failed a class:only on purpose
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-first thoughts waking up:is my baby on
-food:chinese
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-greatest fear:needles
-goals:to make my baby happy
-gum:if you can chew it
-get along with your parents:mom/yes dad/no
-good luck charm:uuh..
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-hair color:dirty blond
-height:5'8"
-happy:when i make my baby happy
-holiday:christmas get to see my family
-how do you want to die:painlessly
-health freak:no
-hate:strong word.. just dislike
-heartbroken/when/who:yes and none of your business
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-ice cream:mint chocolate chip
-instrument:i have a lap harp and an antique acoustic guitar??
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-jewerly:earrings and rings.. oh and a watch i think?
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-kids:want a daughter
-keep a ournal:sometimes
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-love:my baby girl. shes amazing
-laughed so hard you cried:yes
-love at first sight:erm.. maybe first time speaking to them
-last person who:
1.slept in bed beside you:uhm.. my roomate. it gets cold D:
2.saw you cry:my sergeant
3.went to the movies with you:wait..i dont watch movies D:
4.you went to the mall with:kemp schaffer and adams
5.you went to dinner with:as a date?
6.you talked to on the phone:my momma
7.made you laugh:my mom
8.made you cry:my baby brother
9.broke your heart:jeesh must you pry
10.you vented to about a girl:me
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-milk flavor:chocolate
-movie:twilight but im not obsessed -.-
-mooned anyone:no
-marriage:thats legal?
-motion sickness:not really
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-number of siblings:2
-number of piercings:2 1 in each ear XD
-number:5
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-overused phrases:fuck you
-odd phobia:climbing ropes
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-place you'd like to live:wherever my baby wants to be but sweden wouldnt be bad
-pizza:cheese/pepperoni
-pepsi/coke:coke duh
-person you miss:mom
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-quail:its edible? D:
-quiet music or loud:depends on my mood
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-reason to cry:death of a loved one
-reality tv:dont watch tv >.<
-roll your tongue in a circle:no?
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-song:my wish for you and like suicide
-shoe size:8
-salad dressing:groooss
-sushi:depends
-skipped class:momma worked at the damn school
-slept outside:who wouldnt
-seen a dead body:unfortantly :(
-smoked:yes
-skinny dipped:no
-shower daily:duuuuuh
-sing well:depends
-in the shower:sometimes
-stuffed animal:of course D:
-single/group dates:single
-strawberries/blueberries:strawberries with sugar
-scientists need to invent:a cure for cancer
-sport:soccer?
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-time for bed:never
-thunderstorms:i worship
-tv:whats that?
-... ]]> *einsicht 1st half of a 100 things abot meh challenge http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/25168619/ http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/25168619/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 20:37:54 PDT

1) birthplace - Bangor,me
2)birthday - September 22,1989
3)raised - Navarre,fl
4)favorite color - red and black
5)least favorite color - yellow
6)music - country and grunge
7)band - seether
8)favorite song - my wish and like suicide
9)favorite author - charleine harris
10)hobbies - writing and reading
11)favorite book - nightworld
12)likes - climbing trees and boarding (ripstick)
13)have kids - no
14)want kids - yes
15)how many - at least 1
16)girl or boy - girl
17)favorite animal - wolf
18)religion - pantheistic animism
19)dance - line dancing
20)favorite food - porkchops
21)comfort food - fries and chocolate
22)dogs - 4
23)cats - 7
24)turtle - 1
25)lizards - 1
26)fish - a gazillion
27)least favorite food - pasta
28)raccoons - 3
29)siblings - 2 younger half brothers
30)ages - 15 and 17
31)parents - divorced
32)mom - has a girlfriend
33)dad - has a boyfriend
34)regrets - cutting
35)fears - climbing ropes, needles, and most guys
36)favorite ice cream - mint chocolate chip
37)tattoos - 1 (wolf pups)
38)piercings - ears
39)makeup - black eyeliner
40)dress - guys clothes or all black
41)shoes - vans or DC's
42)sing - choir
43)dreams - want a daughter
44)sports - none
45)collect - horses, wolves, and porcelain dolls (grandma)
47)write - poems
48)fetishes - biting, hair, and bondage
49)occupation - military
50)stationed - 29 palms,ca

]]> *einsicht *sighs* http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/25042788/ http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/25042788/ Sun, 31 May 2009 00:17:41 PDT
a persons soul is reflected
in the quality of their work
what they write say or do
reflects the inner being

so when im happy my writing.. is happy
when im down it becomes emo and depressing

not everything that goes into my depressed works is true but it usually tends to reflect what one views at the time. its an outlet.. one of the few things that takes my mind off things. i just recently stopped cutting. no i wasnt emo and cutting for attention.. im ashamed of what i did and i shouldnt have started. but im proud of quitting. i found a most amazing girl whom i love.. seems i hurt her. id give anything to see her happy yet i brought her pain.i know its fucked up. all my happy poems about love and falling asleep on the keyboard.. "really did fall asleep on the damn keyboard" are because of her. she makes me so happy. i hate hurting her. i ust want to protect her from everything. she gives me a reason to be. a reason to right. a reason to try when i was ready to quit.

]]> *einsicht GayBiWorlds http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/24959284/ http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/24959284/ Tue, 26 May 2009 11:27:35 PDT
]]> *einsicht GayBiWorlds http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/24941499/ http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/24941499/ Mon, 25 May 2009 11:38:22 PDT
The Note:
look.. i really am sorry. all i was trying to do was help. and all i did was tell them to tell you there sexuality and that you would place them. i wasnt trying to be a mod. and the caps was an accident <.> i wasnt paying attention to the comp i was looking at my roommate. yeah i got out of hand cussing you and shit.. but you pissed me off. i apologized and you didnt even acknowledge it. and i apologized more than once. it takes a damn lot for me to apologize.. im a marine dammit.. we got in trouble for 3 months every time we said sorry.. hollered at punished... really tho.. if i wanted to be a mod id make my own room. i have my own website i moderate on and am working on translating. do you think i need to mod your room. hun i joined ur room because i thought people were different and might listen for once... i loved the idea.. the originality.... and your room helped me tell my friends who i was =.= .. im sorry.. can i please come back?

Well since that note Ive been kicked out of a few rooms hes in. Ive had threats to be banned from other rooms hes in. And he called me a stalker. Not my fault hes in every single room basically.I didnt want to cause trouble but when a room owner goes on a power trip what can you do.I was in a bad enough mood to begin with. Its memorial day. Im military so I kinda get touchy on memorial day. Especially when some of my best friends are over in Afghan right now.

But yeah.Figured I would let everyone know what was up and why Im part of death on GayBiWorlds. If your tired of the power trip I do believe duchess-of-DOOOM said that she and a few others are making a room that has 6 room owners. Great idea for keeping other room owners in line. You should join. Plus journals really are a good way to vent ^_^ .

]]> *einsicht SHE SAID YES :D http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/24933932/ http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/24933932/ Sun, 24 May 2009 23:24:42 PDT so yeeaaah.. I got the courage up and asked her to out. I thought she was gonna say no cause maybe it was you know too fast D: But I was so happy. She said yes. Shes so amazing.

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]]> *einsicht Devious Journal Entry http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/24909911/ http://einsicht.deviantart.com/journal/24909911/ Sat, 23 May 2009 15:34:31 PDT :icongaybiworld:

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