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My latest is a kind of representation of how I'm currently feeling. I also thought it'd be kinda cool to see how other people view it. So if anyone wants to do any doodles, you are more than welcome to do so. I have my idea about it, but I'd like to see how others see it.

I will return to fanfiction sometime soon, but it's gonna be so hard. I have pressure coming from all of my subjects for coursework and I have exams coming up starting May, so I don't know how muchy writing I'll get done.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23661738/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23661738/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 15:15:22 PDT
I'm thankful to my close friends who have supported me throughout my period of being unwell (which hasn't ended). Unfortunately, even the doctor at the hospital can't put his finger on it.

I would also like to thank them for supporting me in my depression too after my relationship break up.

Now... I really want to write a nice shiny Nightwish fanfic that's all happy and stuffs but I haven't got any ideas... Any one have any ideas? I'll return to writing fics for people

I will get back to Blood Crosses at some point... lol...

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23267631/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23267631/ Wed, 18 Feb 2009 08:37:26 PST

Went to speak to my asthma nurse today who keeps tabs on my asthma... The doctors here have tried all that they can for me to get better, so I have to see a consultant to determine whether it's severe asthma or something else. Fingers crossed that it's nothing severe.

Wyrd Sisters takes place on April 23rd and 24th- The costume changes will be hilarious- from guard to robber to witch to an actor in the role of a duchess. Quite looking forward to it

Unfortunately I've caught my sister's cold, so I'm really feeling unwell. How appropriate when my university interview is tomorrow and I have an hour long fitness test lol.

Anyway, luffs you all very much

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23221145/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23221145/ Sun, 15 Feb 2009 17:42:43 PST
It was Valentine's Day on Saturday.

I longed to see a Valentine's card behind my front door when I got home from work. But I didn't. There was nothing but a cold floor.

I longed to have someone whisper in my ear 'I love you' while holding me tight in their arms.

But a girl can only dream...

I came home to nothingness...

Reduced to little more than a lonely girl with a single red rose, waiting for someone to love her...

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23137491/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23137491/ Wed, 11 Feb 2009 11:45:54 PST I'm trying to rub my shinyness off on people!

I've had in depth talks with my mom... Things are looking better... I hope...

He still won't talk with me, which I'll soon change that.

Um... Total writer's block...

Uh... What to say? Hmm...

18 next Tuesday!!!

Thanks to everyone who has been there for me when I've needed them most

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23077307/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23077307/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 08:21:19 PST
Jezebel is a typical college student. However, things begin to happen that make her question her own sanity. She is already unwell with out of control asthma, and convinced that she is going crazy, but when her long-term boyfriend ends the relationship, everything spirals out of her control and she sinks deeper and deeper into depression...

The only thing scaring her, is the monstrous side to her that may come out and hurt someone...

That's the storyline


Also, I'm very sorry about this stupid hacker message I keep getting. I got no idea what's going on but I changed my password twice... So sorry if you guys keep getting it...

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23024796/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23024796/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 16:45:15 PST
WHY DID I FALL IN FUCKING LOVE????????

I feel like little more than foetus waiting to crawl back into the womb where no fucker can hurt me anymore...

I can't stop crying... It hurts too much...

My sanity has been broken.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23004106/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/23004106/ Wed, 04 Feb 2009 14:33:51 PST
Um... Two more asthma attacks this week so new meds again...

New favourite song: Anastacia feat. Ben Moody- Everything Burns.

Um... What else do I say? Uh, hope things get better for you Fercy.

Here's the Everything Burns lyrics 'cause me luvs them.

"Everything Burns"
(feat. Ben Moody)

She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
She no longer cries to herself
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages
Feelings gone a stray
But she will sing

Til everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns

Ooh, oh

Walking through life unnoticed
Knowing that no one cares
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there
And still she sings

Til everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns

Til everything burns
Everything burns
(Everything burns)
Everything burns
Watching it all fade away
(All fade away)
Everyone screams
Everyone screams
(Watching it all fade away)
Oooh, ooh
(While everyone screams)
Burning down lies
Burning my dreams
(All of this hate)
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away
(Oooh, ooh)
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22967298/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22967298/ Mon, 02 Feb 2009 15:44:37 PST 1) I have no idea how to continue them and
2) I am in the midst of writing a play.

I'm trying to make this play a biggie(ish).

It's all demons and shizz. I'm not gonna upload it for the simple fact it's like a piece I've already got uploaded, but gimme a shout if you wanna read it or whatever

I've also decided that bacon sucks in the way that it makes you incredibly thirsty


Anyhoo, take care guys!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22891073/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22891073/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 18:00:45 PST
A human's hair contains gold particles...

Now that's a dazzling fact....

Also on the discovery of how much writer's block sucks....

Sorry for the bad joke...

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22883215/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22883215/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 10:49:46 PST
NEVER SAY GOOD LUCK TO SOMEONE BEFORE A PLAY.

It's extremely bad luck to say 'good luck' to someone in theatre before they go on stage...

'Break a leg' is the term used in theatre.

There we go... We learn something new everyday


Fave song of the minute
SHINEDOWN- Sound of Madness

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22824047/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22824047/ Mon, 26 Jan 2009 13:30:01 PST
However... There's always a glitch...

One of my painkillers is giving me breathing difficulties, something my doctor clearly didn't take note of how it should be taken with caution in asthmatics.

Bad, eh?

So, anyway, I gotta see a physiotherapist for exercises for my neck and to see if my knee problem requires further investigation...

Oh, and yeah... I am listening to music and watching TV at the same time...

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22796607/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22796607/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 06:21:29 PST
Yesterday morning I stretched and when I did, the bones in my neck scraped together, and a pain shot straight through my neck. Now I can't move it, and it's swollen.

So I gotta miss college tomorrow and go to the hospital first thing in the morning.

Walking disaster or what??? Haha.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22739571/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22739571/ Thu, 22 Jan 2009 15:59:04 PST
So if I do end up in hospital, this is the reason why.

The pain is still bad now. I can't laugh, because laughing before nearly started it off again. I certainly can't stress out...

But, I am alive. I didn't go to hospital like I should have, but I'm here and fully conscious.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22649573/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22649573/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 09:48:22 PST
Since Monday, I have been extremely ill with my chest. It’s beginning to concern me. Breathing isn’t an easy task. Coughing hurts and makes me nauseous. I feel weak all of the time. Then on Thursday, I lost my mind At first it was nothing- a little playful fun with Alex. But it was if something in me snapped. I burst out into tears for no reason whatsoever. And I couldn’t stop. Alex tried to reassure me. I could hear him but couldn’t control myself. I sat on the bed and called myself ‘stupid’ and ‘idiot’. I apologised over and over. I convinced myself that I was crazy, even though Alex told me I wasn’t.

And then I grew angry. My hands shut into tight fists, burning with internal anger. My whole body became rigid in his arms. I gritted my teeth and my face twitched. Alex tried to get me to hit him to release it… But I could NEVER do that to him. And then it felt as if someone had bound my arms. I couldn’t move. I stared cold and hard into his eyes. And then I told him that something was happening, that I wouldn’t tell them what they wanted to know, that I wanted them to let me go. He tried to get me to tell him where I was, and who ‘they’ were and what ‘they’ wanted to know. But I couldn’t answer. He wanted to be in, but I told him that ‘they’ wouldn’t let him in. He reassured me that my name is Taryn, and that I was at his house, on his bed. I cried some more.

Another night I destroyed through my foolishness. I’m too sensitive. I can’t apologise enough for scaring Alex in the way that I did, or for spoiling the night. She may have been saved that night, but my mind wasn’t.

On Friday, when having to explain to Emma what had happened the night before, my hands shook. They shook so bad I had to tightly hold something as comfort. And as I told her, I gave a manic sort of laugh, completely out of character for me. Even today, I began shaking. The girls at work told me that I need to see a doctor. Joanne told me that I looked really unwell, and they even asked me if I was fit to work. I shook so bad, I struggled to fill the dosette boxes. I’m struggling to cope with this. I even cry while I write this. I feel so incredibly ill. Nothing is taking effect. Since Thursday, I’ve been getting headaches.

I don’t feel like I deserve Alex. He saved me on Monday, and he was there to reassure me and bring me around to my senses on Thursday. I don't deserve someone like him. EVER. Even my friends don’t know how to act around me at the minute. Lauren Davison is possibly the only friend beside Alex who really understands my pain. She feels it. Except for the loss of my mind, she feels my pain. She shook when I shook. She is me.

I just need a lifeline. This year is extremely important to me. I couldn’t bear to lose Alex. I couldn’t bear to lose my friends. My whole future depends on this year. I feel like I am going to lose everything.

I need help…

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22561170/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22561170/ Tue, 13 Jan 2009 12:51:42 PST
I keep unintentionally hurting people, and it's beginning to hurt me.

Last night could have proved fatal for me- an asthma attack that had me fighting to stay conscious. And my mum doesn't even know.

The stress is constantly building... Exams are pressurising me... People are pressurising me...

I'm struggling to remain sane... I am waiting to be taken in a strait jacket...

But I suppose that the reply I recieved from the ambulance service was enough to redeem my mood tonight. Things could be looking hopeful for my future without needing to go to university. I'm excited for the huge leap in my life. 35 days I think it is until my 18th birthday.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22416685/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22416685/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 14:53:36 PST
With approaching exams, and a server that's down at college, I could be looking stuck for continuing.

Anyway hope you all had a good Christmas and New Year

PS: To iluvAtem- keep up with the good work on Seventh Symphony- I it!

To Fercy- Just thank you for everything in general

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22286393/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22286393/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 18:42:45 PST
1) Did you kiss anyone?
Yeah

2) Did you date anyone?
No... that's one for 2009

3) Are you going to kiss someone when the ball drops?
When the ball drops?

4) Did you lose any friends?
I did, but they weren't real friends.

5) Did you gain any friends?
Yes, and they couldn't have been better.

6) Did you do something new?
Not really.

7) Did anyone important to you die?
No, but someone I knew did.

8) Did you change?
Yes,

9) Are you happy with the year overall?
Some aspects. The friendships I have made...

10) Are you happy the year is almost over?
I don't really mind.

11) Are you going to change something about yourself next year?
Yes... I'm going to get fit.

12) Do you think 2009 will be a better year than 2008?
It'll be a huge step for me.

13) Did you go on a summer vacation?
In August I went to Loch Ness for a couple of days.

14) Did you lie to your parents?
No... I just don't tell them.

15) Did you get into a fight?
No.

16) Did you leave the country?
No.

17) Did you have a good birthday?
It was a nice quiet birthday

18) Did anyone in your family get married?
My cousin Julie did.

19) Do you think you grew?
In some aspects, yes.

20) Did you dye your hair?
Yeah but that was earlier in the year.

21) Who do you think you were on the phone with the most?
My mam.

22) Did anyone sing to you?
No.

23) Did you sing to anyone?
Dunno.

24) Did anyone tell you they loved you?
Yeah.... and it was bullshit.

25) Did you go to the hospital?
Yes.

26) What did you drink and eat the most?
Coffee.... damn I drank loads!

27) Did you get a tattoo?
No

28) Did you vote?
eh...no

29) Are you going to make a new years resolution?
Yeah.

30) Did you stick to your new years resolution from last year?
No- I didn't make one.

31) Think you'll date someone in 2009?
Yeah,

32) Where will you be when the ball drops?
The ball drops?

33) Do you think you'll make new friends in 2009?
Yeah

34) Are you hoping to meet someone special in 2009?
I think so.

[PLACES]
Moved:
No

New school:
no

[You]
Have you changed:
yes

[SEASONS]
Favorite season:
Autumn & Winter

Least favorite season:
Spring

[FINAL QUESTIONS]
Got arrested:
nop

Kissed a boy:
yes

Lost a family member:
no

Got bad grades:
yup

Kept a secret:
so many...

Told a secret:
yes

Done something you totally regret:
MANY things

Lied:
who doesn't?

Went behind your parents back?
I never do that its for cowards

Disappointed someone close:
Probably

Someone close disappoint you:
yes

Hid a secret:
mmmm

Kissed in the rain:
NOT YET!

Slept under the stars:
No

Met someone who changed my life:
One of my new friends, Fercy... She has helped me through so much this year.

Met one of your idols:
wish I had, though seing Tuomas in person was enough

Sat home all day doing nothing:
no I always do things when Im at home

Almost died:
No

Given up something important to you:
no

Lost something expensive:
no, fortunately not...

Learned something new about yourself:
that I'm very stupid for some things

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22127551/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/22127551/ Mon, 22 Dec 2008 18:01:02 PST
All my love for 2009!!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21878082/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21878082/ Mon, 08 Dec 2008 08:21:56 PST
The guys are a bundle of fun, and much hotter in person!

Plus, I got smiles off Eicca, Perttu and Paavo!


" It's a good thing playing cello for you guys, but it's even better when you have a boner at the same time."- Perttu Kivilaakso, Newcastle Carling Academy, 7/12/08

I'll post my photographs soon!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21768984/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21768984/ Mon, 01 Dec 2008 15:31:05 PST
But to be fair, I've been quite random in my music tastes lately...

I found some fantastic pictures of Tuomas!!!

Anyway, I'm writing my Apocalyptica/Nightwish fanfic and a story named 'The Cellist' at the same time as needing to start several essays for English Literature.

Take care of yourselves guys!!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21664567/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21664567/ Tue, 25 Nov 2008 13:44:10 PST
However, the happiness seems to have been short-lived- I had what I believe to be a nervous breakdown on Saturday at work. Perhaps this past month has finally gotten to me.

I've also taken a love to William Wordsworth lately. 'The Thorn', 'Tintern Abbey' and 'Harry Gill and Goody Blake' are my favourites. 'The Thorn' is quite disturbing, but is still a great poem.

I'm continuing with my 'Blood Crosses' fanfiction.

APOCALYPTICA DEFINITELY IN 2 WEEKS!!!!
(I got my dates wrong last week... Sorry my bad...)

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21520037/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21520037/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 14:20:07 PST
I twisted my neck when brushing my hair (to be fair, it's down to my arse and it had been wind blasted the day before), and in doing so, something went pop between my shoulder and neck. Let's just say I couldn't move for a while. Then I barely slept last night, trying to accommodate it. Then when the painkillers wear off, it comes back again.

Hopefully I'll get to the hospital tomorrow if it's no better.

On a good note though.... APOCALYPTICA IN 2 WEEKS!!!!!!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21469469/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21469469/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 13:12:34 PST
I'm feeling nice

Besides, I'm feeling happy

So, here it is:

“ Me? Snoring? You must be jesting!” he cried, a false posh accent on his words.
“ I do not jest. You sound like a fog horn.”
“ A fog horn? You exaggerate!”
“ I do not!” They began slapping hands in a play fight, their faces turned away from each other.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21436907/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21436907/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 11:32:27 PST
But then I am told something that has sent me crashing down, deep down...

I cannot write. It is impossible to come up with anything...

The lyrics that mean so much to my state of mind:

" I don't wanna be nothing,
Time is ticking, I feel stranded,
I don't wanna be nothing,
Hate is growing inside of me,
I don't wanna be nothing,
I'm taking back what used to be mine."

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21408149/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21408149/ Sun, 09 Nov 2008 16:08:47 PST
It may be my madness, I cannot know.

I have attempted to return to my fanfiction but it seems the events of the past week have blocked me.

I will have a Christmas Nightwish fanfic by Christmas... It will be done...

Pain's new song featuring Anette Olzon is absolutely fantastic!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21303835/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21303835/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 16:26:28 PST
I swear. It's just sailing away from me. It's waving me goodbye. My sanity, that is.

No self-confidence, no matter what you say. I'm scared that my friends all hate me. I don't trust anyone. I am in fear of intimacy.

I'm finding it hard to stay sane. I have to. But right now, with the exception of a few people (Fercy, thank you so much, my Tuomas-loving amiga, for being there!) I feel more alone than ever. It's becoming hard to talk to my best friend. But it seems my emotions are causing serious problems....

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21234777/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21234777/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 15:45:16 PDT
Like a knife.

Straight into the heart.

My soul and body are numb.

My heart is cold. Stone cold.

A heart of ice.

Ice maiden.

I love him, yet I hate him.

His words will be a broken record in my head.

Cryptic, I know.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21170285/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21170285/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 11:37:59 PDT
Why must one person's love be shattered by another?

Why must one person's heart be shattered by another?

I am madly in love, and we haven't even been together a week and his family are driving a huge wedge between us. I cannot help but feel scared that he will do something stupid.

Now, if I get shit at school from one person's argument that I had nothing to do with, then that's gonna seriously start some shit...

Shiny is gone. Shiny is no more for today. Because shiny has turned mirky. Shiny has a serious amount of anger that needs to be freed. Shiny is going to put up adamantium barriers that cannot be passed.

I have a hole in my arm from giving a pint of my blood this morning. And rather red skin from the plaster.

I hope that all is better for everyone else.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21015332/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/21015332/ Thu, 16 Oct 2008 11:26:31 PDT
I mean like super smiley awesome.

I've had loads of work on, but I'm happy.

I'm babysitting as I write this, but I'm happy.

I'm also preparing myself for the St John Ambulance ball tomorrow night, while I write this.

I- AM- HAPPY

I hope 'Taming Love', my new Nightwish fanfiction is okay for you. I really enjoyed writing it. I like mushy things.

You can also get a giggle out of the fact I am going to play a MAN in my play at Christmas, wahey!! It's always fun

Anyhoo, hope all feels as shiny for you guys!!!

PS: New favourite lyrics:

"Devour, devour,
Suffocate your own empire,
Devour, devour,
This is your final hour."
- Shinedown- 'Devour'

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20904017/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20904017/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 10:56:57 PDT
Going to bury a time capsule for Blyth Valley Council tomorrow... Oh joy! Haha.

Kip Gamblin joining All Saints (the TV show, not cheesy pop band) as Dr Adam Rossi woo hoo can't wait!

No more bad Chemistry lessons... yay!!

UCAS application underway- Sheffield Hallam, here I come! Hehe.

Was on duty on Sunday at the Great North Run and nearly got a face full of Vaseline (for the runner's legs ¬¬ and a faceful of a man's butt (how pleasant!). Still awesome day.

7 weeks and 3 days until Apocalyptica woooo!!!! Ross Noble on April 28th yay!!!

Provisional license came this morning so I start my first driving lesson soon... I'm scared!!!

Hope all is good for you all. Hoping to do some more Nightwish fanficcy stuffs...

Love Love!!!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20620731/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20620731/ Mon, 22 Sep 2008 14:17:06 PDT
I'm hardly surprised he found someone else... I mean, look at me: 5'4'', lovehandles, Goth, always sick and not willing to dive into bed. Are you hardly surprised he found someone else??

Oh well, I am increasingly sick now. I now have a full blown cold or flu... Whatever t is...

But life goes on. One must fight for what their heart truly desires. And so I shall. For the heart is a fragile piece, and once it is broken, it takesa lot of mending.

I hope you'll enjoy the upcoming pieces that I'm in the process of writing.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20493196/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20493196/ Sun, 14 Sep 2008 16:43:13 PDT
I wrote another fanfiction- a Lord of the Rings/Nightwish crossover and I hope that you like it!

The piece I really would like your response on is 'The Touch of Your Hand'. It's a play I'm putting on at Christmas so I would love to know what you think of it! Kiitos!!

Just saw The Dark Knight and it's amazing!! I hope Heath Ledger gets that Oscar.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20373724/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20373724/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 11:29:16 PDT
None of you haven't by any chance seen an advert with Kip Gamblin on, have you? My Mam, best friend, best friend's mam, brother and sister have all seen it, but can't remember what it is for. I can't find it anywhere!

I've been told something about a car crash involving a motorbike, Kip in front of a white background saying something like: " What's your choice? You had better think now." in hunky paramedic getup, then some text at the end.

Any help is much appreciated!!

As you all may have noticed, I have uploaded some photographs from my couple of days in Loch Ness. I hope you like them!!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20256426/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20256426/ Sun, 31 Aug 2008 16:35:53 PDT
It doesn't help that the atmosphere here in the North East of England is very, very close, meaning that a thunderstorm must be on its way (again!). Despite having the windows open, I find it very clammy.

I've started writing a Nightwish/LOTR crossover fanfic.

Here's my crisis:
I've been told that Kip Gamblin is an advert. I've been told that he stands in front a white background and talks. Apparently he says something like:
" What's your choice? You had better think now." And points, and apparently there's something about a car crash. And then writing at the end. But my brother and sister didn't find out what the advert was for, and I can't it anywhere!!!
Could one of you very lovely people help me out, please?

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20196945/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20196945/ Thu, 28 Aug 2008 06:39:40 PDT
I'm really struggling to write fanfiction at the minute. I have one to finish but can't think of anything.

So if you have any ideas at all, be it puppies, pink kittens, whatever, I don't mind, please feel free to share them with me and I'll write the fanfix for you and dedicate them to you. It is my absolute pleasure, and this is my way of thanking you all for you wonderful comments!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20004118/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/20004118/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 12:27:58 PDT
You also may have noticed that I have uploaded the final chapter of 'Family Apart'. I'm trying to steer away from death as much as possible. I will finish 'I'd Die For you'. I also realised that I forgot about the rest of 'Feel the Music' haha.

Must press on and try to finish 'Blind Hatred', my LOTR fanfic for fanfiction.net. Feel free to ask for the link.

I will try to go on and do some more Nightwish fanfiction. If anyone has any ideas, please share them with me!!! I'll write a special fanfiction for people who give me ideas!!!

Anyways, hope you are all well!!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/19788198/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/19788198/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 10:42:34 PDT

I've gone really Lord of the Rings mad but don't worry, Mr Holopainen will forever be in my heart!

Got a portrait of Aragorn to upload, so hopefully I'll get back into thre swing of things. I've been writing some LOTR fanfiction for Fanfiction.net. If you want to read it just ask for the address 'cause I can't remember it offhand haha.

I will get back to I'd Die For You and Family Apart eventually. Have no fear, only patience!!

Love you guys (in a non-obsessive friendly way) and take care!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/19451322/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/19451322/ Thu, 17 Jul 2008 17:59:01 PDT
It has been long since I have felt such a sweet tingling of love. I barely even know the man, but my heart wishes for him.

Yes, my speech has changed.

Having spent the majority of my night reading one of the most gracious and beautifully written Lord of the Rings fanfictions, and am studying Hamlet at school, it seems such language hast reigned over me.

But have not any fear, for it is merely a phase that will soon pass. I will be as I am knownst to you.

I hope that you have enjoyed what I have written so far of 'Family Apart', and the reaction to my comic hast been immense. More of 'Family Apart' will come in due course.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/19233318/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/19233318/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 10:32:21 PDT
Went to the hospital and.... *drum roll* I have one leg longer than the other so my right leg (the longest) has to make up for the fact that the other one's shorter. That's permanent but I get some groovy inserts for my shoes to make normal lol.

Plus, my signed piccie comes this week (hopefully!! *fingers crossed*) Whoop whoop.

Love to you all!!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18893125/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18893125/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 13:08:58 PDT
So finally I'll get better!

Unfortunately my friend Emma forgot that she had a small feather cushion tucked down the side of her bed that I slept in last night... Well, I nearly go into anaphylactic shock around feather pillows, so I'm rather ill today lol.

I won't be on for a week from the 29th of June until the 5th of July. So there won't be any posts until then unfortunately! I'm on a 5 day residential trip in Durham. But it won't stop me writing as I have to write a piece for a local author who visits tomorrow and on the 9th July... But I miss the 9th July to do a Chemistry presentation for Neil Armstrong at Merck Sharp and Dohme in Cramlington!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18857818/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18857818/ Sun, 15 Jun 2008 15:47:21 PDT
For a while, I have remained within myself, encased in a shell of self-torment. Now and again I will peek out of that shell to assist in friend troubles, and then I recoil again.

But perhaps now maybe the time for me to peek out, and fill pages of philosophical morale... or mumbo-jumbo to anyone else.

To Loz: Things will fare up for you. Just let it blow past you like a gentle North wind.

To Emz: Trust you to break a toe!! Hope it gets better soon... I'll be a crutch for you (literally haha!)

To Georgene: Your message touched me once again. Keep staying strong. Marc and Eric watch over you.

Strength and hope is what will get you all through life. I just hope that there will be morale for myself for getting better- looks like Tonsilitis is back after 6 weeks... How convenient that I havw to see the doc on Tuesday! Haha! No diagnosis for my legs yet unfortunately...

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18800125/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18800125/ Thu, 12 Jun 2008 10:40:29 PDT
But with the bright and shiny weather has came a bright and shiny mood. I was on a hype last night for no reason. I am loving Tuomas as ever. And I'm going to see Apocalyptica on December 7th at Newcastle Carling Academy!! Perttu Kivilaakso!!!

Just to warn you... Volume 3 of Night of the Wolf contains a scene of rape.. Just as a forewarnining before I post it.

Take care, and let the bright shiny weather make you all happy bunnies!!!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18676479/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18676479/ Thu, 05 Jun 2008 09:33:22 PDT
It's a four part collection, and so far I've posted Volumes 1 and 2.

I'd like opinions on whether I should post Volume 3 though as it involves a rape scene, please???

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18611131/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18611131/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 13:41:23 PDT

Did a St John's Ambulance enrollment ceremony at the Church of St Nicholas cathedral in Newcastle. Beautiful architecture, I must say. The most tedious 4 and a half hours I've ever had to sit, but never mind. Some really cute guy gave me his belt to borrow... He just whipped it off like something out of the Full Monty haha. XD

Some of you may have noticed the new story I'm in the process of working on. My favourite quote and it makes me laugh everytime I read it: " Even saying that I was shitting pink kittens was an understatement." Having or shitting pink kittens is a phrase used at home when someone is scared witless. So don't worry if you've never heard it before.

I'm trying to inject some humour into a horror story. My sense of humour may not amuse others, but hey, this is for my enjoyment as well as yours!

It's taking time however... Writer's block and nerves for my upcoming exams are stopping me. But have no fear, my good fellows! There will be more soon!

A big thank you to IluvAtem for that gorgeously cute pic! It certainly brought a smile to my face!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18539415/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18539415/ Wed, 28 May 2008 07:10:02 PDT
I'd like to just return to the person I was. Now I feel like a cold heartless bitch.

And so it is, that I become a lone wolf, the Lone Wanderer once again, and I will take *"a long walk in the cold rain". It is true that *"tomorrow and yesterday are always equally far away", but tomorrow is just going to be like yesterday- another day where I want to shed tears.

If the Lone Wanderer does not answer, then she has chosen a quiet path to lighten her load. And in a small mystical clearing, she will wait for her angel to come and release her from the bonds that restrains her.

* For My Pain- Tomorrow is a Closed Gate.
* Carpe Diem.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18416071/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18416071/ Tue, 20 May 2008 13:59:38 PDT
I'm still waiting nearly three weeks later...

Now, I wouldn't be so worked up about it normally, but I'm getting worse. My self-esteem (which was next to none) has plummetted. It takes me twice as long to get up the stairs, and it takes me a long time to get out of a chair. The pain spreads from my hip to my knee and my limp has worsened.

You can't tell me that this is right for a seventeen year-old.

Because I'm always in pain, I'm turning grouchy and snappy. So perhaps this next month I could be waiting for the hospital may not be the best time to tell me your problems, 'cause I might just snap.

To Emma Jacobs and Gemma Wilson. You always support me in the darkest of times, and for that I want to thank you both from the bottom of my heart.

To Patrick. You are my sweet angel and I will always be there for you.

To G. You're there for me too, I'd just like for us to enjoy times like we used to.

To Ana. You gave me a wonderful gift this year. You gave me a sense of happiness that I hadn't felt in a long time. And for that I want to thank you from the depths of my heart.

To Georgene Brueland. Your messages to me have given me a sense of accomplishment and honour. I gave you a piece of my heart when I sent you that video.

To Vicki. You have brought a humour to my life that shines.

And of course to my Mam and Dad. You help me through everything.

All of you have a piece of my heart in your hands, and that is a piece of my love. My love for each and every one of you. Please treasure it, 'cause only special people get my heart.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18317141/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18317141/ Wed, 14 May 2008 08:04:09 PDT
Ahem.

I so ecstatically said last week about the message I got via Youtube from Marc Brueland's mother, Georgene.

Now in an amazing twist of events.

I posted a new video, a tribute to Marc Brueland. I am now officially overwhelmed by the response! I got a very emotional message from Georgene, a very sweet message from a friend by the name of MinnieCinammon. 161 views and 2 comments since last night!!

But here I get informed from MinnieCinammon, that there is an entire topic in the Nightwish forums on my video, and the response has been very moving and overwhelming. That was the point when I discovered that there are many very beautifully deep people out there.

Nightwish Topic:
[link]

The video link is on there too. Please feel free to check it out

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18208542/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18208542/ Wed, 07 May 2008 08:32:19 PDT
At the beginning of the week, I discover Tuomas autographed my comic. Here I've been sent a personal message via Youtube from Marc Brueland's mother, thanking me for keeping her son's memory alive. It brought a tear to my eye.

I've just sent an e-mail to Nightwish's manager, Ewo Pohjola, offering assistance in promoting and helping the band...

This week really has been quite an emotional week. I've almost cried tears of anger towards the death of Sophie Lancaster and the prejudice, and almost cried tears of happiness with the recognition I've gotten for my videos and drawings.

I don't want this to end.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18163682/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18163682/ Sun, 04 May 2008 11:39:34 PDT

THE ONE AND ONLY TUOMAS HOLOPAINEN SIGNED IT WITH 'FOR TARYN'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm getting it A.S.A.P. He loved it!!!

Please spread the word about S.O.P.H.I.E and raise awareness!!!!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18103407/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/18103407/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 14:51:24 PDT
Thanks to my good friend Lauren aka Kagekabuki, I have joined the S.O.P.H.I.E campaign alongside her and her boyfriend Graham aka Deviant-Guitarist.

Myself, my good friend G and some other people are going to make a trip in Whitby for the weekend in July, to pay our respects, and to enjoy the views of the Abbey ruins, and to venture the Goth shops.

Help to show your support for Sophie's family and her grieving boyfriend Robert Maltby.


Please feel free to checkl out 'Angels Fall First Parts 1 and 2'. Don't worry, they're nothing like 'Last Rites'!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/17867360/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/17867360/ Tue, 15 Apr 2008 15:55:06 PDT
The lyrics are very personal. I'm not going to tell you what they're about- you have to interpret. I'm following Tuomas' technique for controlling his emotions... But as my mother said to my English teacher:
" She's shy and quiet like me, but my God she will blow."
Let that be enough...

So if I refuse to talk about how I feel, it's cause I'm scrawling lyrics out of them to control my emotions.

A lot of my inspiration is coming from Nightwish's more angrier songs like 'Slaying the Dreamer', 'Master Passion Greed' and surprisingly 'Higher Than Hope'. Plus Pain's 'Nothing' is guiding me along the way too.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/17748069/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/17748069/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 13:15:55 PDT

But during such a time, I have begun to learn Sear MCMCMXCIII by My Dying Bride, and My Immortal by Evanescence on piano. And I have also begun a mini comic strip on Nightwish...

Plus I'm thinking of learning Finnish but I'm torn as to whether to get the book. Probably will in due course....

That should be uploaded ASAP. Just coloured pencils help a lot lol.

Anyway, keep yourselves healthy, and keep rocking hard!! Much love to Tuomas Holopainen and the rest of Nightwish. wub wub

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/17627225/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/17627225/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 09:31:12 PDT Nightwish were incredibly amazing!!! Tuomas is sooo sexy in real life. So I had a panic attack and nearly had my arm broken in 2 places, but my God it was well worth it!!

But now I have a recent tummy bug that has been affecting people so I'm very sleepy and very ill....

The songs for Nightwish were:

Bye Bye Beautiful
Dark Chest of Wonders
Amaranth
The Islander
Sahara
Nemo
Wish I Had An Angel
Slaying the Dreamer
Wishmaster
Poet and the Pendulum
Last of the Wilds

That's all I can remember.... Not quite in the order... PAIN rocked too!!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/17495189/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/17495189/ Mon, 24 Mar 2008 15:36:26 PDT
Maybe you've noticed that I've started to post fanfiction of Nightwish and Casualty. There will be more in time. My latest, 'Last Rites', I have come to realise is far nastier and more violent than I thought. :/ I apologise to all. I was inspired by BBC1's The Passion when I wrote it. Don't ask.

So I deeply apologise to all for that fanfic and the cruelty within it. Tuomas is very much alive and well, though I've heard the poor soul had flu the other week. Going to see NIGHTWISH IN 6 DAYS!!!

Again, apologies for the fanfic. It's just my very twisted imagination. I really adore Tuomas!!!!

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/17414756/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/17414756/ Wed, 19 Mar 2008 17:35:35 PDT ), but some Supernatural.

My English Lit teacher can't say I don't read then, can she?

I'm pretty grooveh atm, listening to random shizznit like Pink, and Clannad of course.

But you know what the awesome thing is? NIGHTWISH is in 11 days!! :wub:

Laters, guys and luv luv xxx

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/17210563/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/17210563/ Thu, 06 Mar 2008 14:04:34 PST :/

Anyway, on a happier note... 3 weeks and 2 days until NIGHTWISH!!!!!!!!! I'm fully prepared with a Nightwish t-shirt and I'm going to scrawl Nightwish all over my arms. Not to mention I'm gonna see if I can have a little flag with Tuomas written on it. Naturally...

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/16660357/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/16660357/ Thu, 31 Jan 2008 14:38:38 PST Fucking depressed

I need not say anymore.

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/14754831/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/14754831/ Sun, 23 Sep 2007 09:10:24 PDT
That's about all I have to say...

]]> ~elfbabe http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/14716631/ http://elfbabe.deviantart.com/journal/14716631/ Thu, 20 Sep 2007 15:14:24 PDT

2) My NIGHTWISH ticket came through the door today making me a very happy Goth girl indeed. So I can't wait for the gig, and seeing THE Tuomas Holopainen in person.

3) On that note, I bet you're sick of the Tuomas photos and shizz. Well, once I'm near a scanner, I will scan drawings and put them up.

4) Also on the note of work, school is going so badly, but I'll deal with it.

You all rock. Luv u all! xxx

]]> ~elfbabe