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In theory I should just get rid of my dA page, too. I don't use it anymore. I don't know.

]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/16798397/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/16798397/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 10:19:36 PST
Thanks for taking all my SMUT down.

If I don't have Elricest smut on my page for the fans, WHAT DO I HAVE?!



A$$hxles.

]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/13838902/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/13838902/ Sun, 22 Jul 2007 21:56:51 PDT
So Vic Mignogna, Aaron Dismuke, Caitlin Glass and two other VA's I don't know all get on stage and they're about to start. Aaron grabs his microphone and the very first thing that happens is he looks down at me ( I'm in my armor Al costume ) and he says, " Hi, Al! " OhmyGod. Not gonna' lie - it made my life. He was like, " What's it made out of? " and I told him it was Headliner foam. He's still looking at it and he's like, " Is it comfortable? " Yeah, I said, just hot. <3!! I was so excited for Otakon so I could meet him - I hadn't ever before and Al's my favorite so. That definitely made my weekend. Then later in the panel, someone asked something like if the actors could combine one of their characters with an animal, what would it be. Aaron was talking about putting cat ears and claws on Al and then he looks down at me and he's like, " You and me, in the Dealer's Room " ( they sell cat ears there ) like he wanted to test his theory out to see how Al would look as a cat and then we pointed to each other back and forth. Haha. It was silly. But it also made my life. <3

Sunday, we went to The Elric Brothers Q&A panel. We walked in and Kayleigh saw Vic and Aaron standing along the wall. Sunday I was a combination of Al & myself, lol. I wore the arms and legs but I wanted to look nice and not sweaty, so I looked all purty, wore the limbs and just carried Al's torso & helmet. I guess the point behind it all was so that when I saw Aaron, he would know I was a decent-looking girl and not some... creepy ugly nerd or something ( sorry everyone, but I pride myself on being a -normal- otaku, if there really is such a thing ). So we're standing a few feet away from them. I looked over, caught Aaron's eye and motioned for him to come to me. He walked over and I think he poked at Al's horn a little bit, lol. It took him a minute but he was like, " Are you the Al from the panel yesterday? " Yeeeaah. That was me. So we got our picture taken together ( cutest picture ever! It's my new fave ). I had Al's limbs on and I was holding the torso & helmet between us and Aaron had his arm around me. That kid's only 14 but he's like 2 feet taller than me. I was sooo happy I was able to get a picture with him! I would've liked to have gotten in the autograph line, but actually I think I like pictures better. And one or two people saw me and him standing there when Kayleigh was taking our pic and they took pics too, so maybe pics of me and Aaron will be floating around on the interwebz! And we're all still standing together and I turned to Aaron and I was like, " You wanna' put it on? " I was kidding but I think he actually thought about it for a hot second 'cause he was like, " Mm... I kinda' do. " <3!

Everyone still loves my Al. He got tons of love all weekend. We even went out to eat after leaving the con center on Sunday and I was carrying him and little kids were all like, " OooOOOOh. What's thaAaAAat? " Love my Al. He's like my child. <3

]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/13796765/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/13796765/ Thu, 19 Jul 2007 15:07:39 PDT so utterly wrong that the most horrendous Karma seeks me out. It just doesn't fail. Except I always have to wonder "why me?"

I will be utterly MISERABLE at Otakon ( assuming I'm going to actually wake up tomorrow and not want to die instead ). The trip will be abso-fucking-lutely nothing like the magical adventure I was expecting it would be. It's the most fucking worthless waste of time I'll ever experience, and if Kayleigh and Mike didn't want to go, I'd stay home and I don't know, try to knock myself unconscious or something.

I can not, CANNOT fucking believe this has happened. This is BEYOND ridiculous. BEYOND it. I'm done crying ( at least for now until I probably pop 'Conqueror of Shamballa' in, think of the person I probably won't EVER get to see in my entire fucking lifetime and bawl my eyes out until I have a massive headache ).

But here's a request: If you have bad news for me, it would really be a good fucking start to TELL ME, at least over the PHONE. You -know- I'm gonna' flip out anyway, so why pussyfoot the hell around? Thanks. Glad people had the decency to do something other than let me come online and READ the terrible news.

Number 2 - Never EVER in my entire life will I plan a trip. I keep telling myself this, and amazingly this is time #2 I've fucked up and planned something.

My heart is just crushed beyond belief. No one has ANY idea. At this point I probably should just stop typing because I feel the tears coming on.

]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/13796764/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/13796764/ Thu, 19 Jul 2007 15:07:37 PDT so utterly wrong that the most horrendous Karma seeks me out. It just doesn't fail. Except I always have to wonder "why me?"

I will be utterly MISERABLE at Otakon ( assuming I'm going to actually wake up tomorrow and not want to die instead ). The trip will be abso-fucking-lutely nothing like the magical adventure I was expecting it would be. It's the most fucking worthless waste of time I'll ever experience, and if Kayleigh and Mike didn't want to go, I'd stay home and I don't know, try to knock myself unconscious or something.

I can not, CANNOT fucking believe this has happened. This is BEYOND ridiculous. BEYOND it. I'm done crying ( at least for now until I probably pop 'Conqueror of Shamballa' in, think of the person I probably won't EVER get to see in my entire fucking lifetime and bawl my eyes out until I have a massive headache ).

But here's a request: If you have bad news for me, it would really be a good fucking start to TELL ME, at least over the PHONE. You -know- I'm gonna' flip out anyway, so why pussyfoot the hell around? Thanks. Glad people had the decency to do something other than let me come online and READ the terrible news.

Number 2 - Never EVER in my entire life will I plan a trip. I keep telling myself this, and amazingly this is time #2 I've fucked up and planned something.

My heart is just crushed beyond belief. No one has ANY idea. At this point I probably should just stop typing because I feel the tears coming on.

]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/13773474/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/13773474/ Tue, 17 Jul 2007 18:15:48 PDT
Anyone else going? It's going to be magical!

I can't wait to have my Ed there with me! (P.S. - We're going as Series!Ed & Armor!Al and then Movie!Ed & Movie!Al! ) Come say hi to us! <33

<3

]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/13137357/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/13137357/ Tue, 29 May 2007 11:31:36 PDT madly in love with Cutler Beckett from Pirates of the Caribbean 2 & 3.

He's HOT. I want him.

<3

]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/12244099/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/12244099/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 11:05:45 PDT
After a long hiatus of messages from Mike Mc, I finally got a reply - and boy was this one a doozy. --- I sent one when I got home from Katsucon, " Yadda yadda, glad we went out, blah blah, after I took a nice hot bath I watched the last FMA dvd commentary, yadda. " ... Long story short, he was like, " Yes, I totally thought of you in the bathtub, and I am once again, is that okay with you? " I DIED. Here I got all sad 'cause I thought after Katsucon and our little date, he didn't want anything to do with me anymore. Boy, do I love it when I'm horribly, horribly wrong.

THEN the other night I went to Kayleigh's and we were hanging out with Kyle and Josh ( they graduated a year after us ). I met Kyle before but not Josh. He's fucking hot. He drunkenly told me he wants to be an underwear model - he totally could do it. At the end of the night, I was half sitting against him and half dangling a leg over his lap, sharing a cigarette with him. It was pretty magical. He sent me a comment on Myspace and then found me on Facebook. Wheeee.

And in July, I get to spend a weekend with my absolute *favorite* (bad) boy! I'm so excited, no one even knows! ♥

]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/11872230/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/11872230/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 18:29:36 PST
We left Thursday around 4 for Washington DC. The car ride was fairly uneventful, but pleasant nonetheless.
We didn't do much on Thursday. Chilled in the room, got our pre-registration stuff, claimed bedspace. But we actually got sleep, which is really different 'cause everyone ends up being vampires at cons.

Me, Carly, Ruth, Mike, Bill, Sean and Tim went to Murphy's Pub Thursday ( er... I think ) so the 21-ers could drink and I had my " virgin water " as they so humorously called it. That night was hilarious. We all get along and have a good time when we're together. At the pub, this guy was up on a little stage singing and playing guitar and then he started taking requests, so we were singing along. And at one point, Ruth and Carly got up to dance. Lol. We had good fun with the waiter. He thought we all were hilarious.

I'm gonna' have to skip around here, because for some reason my memory is being fuzzy and I can't recall things in their chronological order. Oops.

Friday, I remember the rave the clearest. We were up in the room drinking a little ( well, everyone else was pretty far gone. I didn't really have that much ) before we went down to the rave. It's sort of our ritual. As you can imagine, it's good to ' loosen up ' before dancing wildly for hours on end in front of hundreds of people.
So we left the rave and I ran into Mike McFarland. We had been corresponding ( actually, we've been talking via Myspace for a year, him and I figured out later ) a few days before Katsucon, trying to arrange getting together ( yeah, the messages were flirty, I'm not gonna' lie ). So yeah, I ran into him outside the rave, fully -not- expecting to see him at 3 in the morning. So I introduced him to my friends and then we figured out what the best time was for us to go out. I had originally suggested dinner, but he had more free time in the afternoon, so we decided that after the Voice Actor panel, we would meet up to go to lunch.

~ So Saturday comes. I wake up before anyone else so I can shower and put make-up on so I could look perfect. Lol. I head down to our meeting place, the room where the Voice Actor panel was happening, at around 10:45am. I hang out there 'til 12 and then Mike Mc came down from the stage thing to meet me, and then we headed out. We talked some on the walk down, I slipped on the snow a little, yadda yadda. It took us a couple minute to decide what we wanted to eat 'cause there's like billions of food places right around the hotel, but we finally decided on this cute little place called something along the lines of Asia-Variety Cuisine.
~ We kept up good conversation. We talked about all kinds of things: what kind of music we liked, what we did in our spare time, and of course we talked about Fullmetal Alchemist. Just talked about all sorts of stuff. But it was nice. I'm not gonna' lie - usually I get flustered or nervous around guys, at least a little bit, but I wasn't at all with him. But I had to ask him if he did that sort of thing often ( going to lunch with young fans ). He said he didn't. He wanted to take me out, he said, because I was a good correspondant and had been talking to him every so often for about a year, so it wasn't like we were -complete- strangers. We talked and laughed a little about him giving me my nickname ( Hawt Winry ) and he wanted to know why I call him Mike McCharmer ( I said it was because he's flirty but in a smooth sorta' way ).
~ We eat our lunch, talked, chilled after we were done and then headed back to the hotel. He wanted to go to the Dealer's Room and invited me to join him. First, we stopped at his room. He wanted to shave 'cause his 5 o'clock shadow was coming, lol, so he shaved while we were up there. At one point he was like, " Ooh, all alone in this big room " and I'm so fucking RETARDED, I probably should have responded with more than a stupid giggle and initiated something ( later that night, I tried going to his room at like 3:30 in the morning to see if I could redeem myself, but to no avail ). I regret not... doing anything. He's a really good guy. MAN. Sorry. He's a man, not like the stupid little boys littering my life. So because I'm an idiot, I got into an intoxicated-depressive-slump Saturday night. Goddamnit.
~ So yeah, we walked through the Dealer's Room together. He was looking for a Nerima Daikon Brothers box set, but he didn't find one ( at least not when I was with him ). I was excited the day before 'cause I bought dvd 13 of FMA. So after the Dealer's Room, he said he was gonna' take a nap before he had to start going to his panels and what-not. We hugged, he kissed the top of my head and parted ways.
I'm really glad I got to hang out with him. Like I said, he's a really cool guy. I like him a lot.





Sa... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/11826511/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/11826511/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 08:07:52 PST
So we're leaving today for Katsucon! It snowed like it was PA's JOB this week, so hopefully there won't be delays. I skipped class today too. Bahaha. I've been hearing all day that the roads are absolutely horrible, so I didn't want to drive to class and die.

So wish me luck! Can't wait! Get ready for hugs and love and wrenches and kittens and fluff, Maddie!











Oh yeah. And I'm going to dinner with Mike McFarland on Friday.







]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/11733848/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/11733848/ Thu, 08 Feb 2007 11:07:46 PST Katsucon journal entry!

We're leaving Thursday the 15th sometime in the afternoon. I'm driving in Ruth's car with Alex and John.

I feel like I have so much to do before we go... but I don't think I do, haha. Just gotta' pack the immense amount of crap I'm taking with me. Alphonse might have to sit in my lap on the ride down.

My brain might explode from excitement before we get there, though. Last year was amazing, but I'm willing to bet this year will be a billion times MORE amazing! I'm better friends with people in Anime Club, I've got a spectacular costume, etc ! Oh yeah - and I get to hang out with MADDIE! I can't wait to see her!! We get to be all cute together as Al and Winry! ( Hope you're jealous, Aaron! )

And I definitely hope to... er... run into Mike McFarland. Our Myspace message conversation ended rather... up in the air, if you will. The last messages were the -most- flirty ones with... naughty undertones. But! - I don't know wth to do. Lol. So if I happen upon him, I guess everything will be spontaneous and we'll see what happens. Either way... he totally wants me.

I told Alex that if I came home from this and didn't make out with -anybody- that I'd become a lesbian. BAHAHAHA. But that's... not entirely true. I don't want to be a whore or anything. Lol.

OH! I'm so smart. Ever since Alphonse was done, I wanted to figure out a way to make that clunking sound he makes when he walks. WELL! I got a spiffy new phone that has a sound recorder, so when I'm done typing this, I'm gonna' pop in an FMA episode and record Al's clunking sound and then play it on my phone when I walk!

( Ooooh. I just found out when the FMA photoshoot is! ;] )

As always, I wish my Brother could be there! But hopefully that will happen for Otakon! Maddie is gonna' be my stand-in niisan. And as always, I'll take tons of pictures and I hope I get tons of pictures taken of me!

♥

]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/11528747/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/11528747/ Mon, 22 Jan 2007 10:53:19 PST He walks, you say sit down, it's just a talk.
He smiles politely back at you.
You stare politely right on through;
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came.

Where did I go wrong ?

I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life.

Let him know that you know best
'Cause after all you do know best.
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence.
Lay down a list of what is wrong;
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you.
And pray to God he hears you.

Where did I go wrong ?

I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness.

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life.

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice.
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed.
He will do one of two things:
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness and I would have stayed up with you all night had I known how to save a life.

]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/11324434/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/11324434/ Fri, 05 Jan 2007 12:34:01 PST Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you.
Excuse me, too busy - you're writing a tragedy.
These mishaps you bubble-wrap
When you've no idea what you're like.

So, let go

Jump in

Oh well, what you waiting for ?

It's alright

'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown.

So, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown.

It gains the more it gives
And then it rises with the fall.
So hand me that remote;
Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow?
Such boundless pleasure,
We've no time for later.
Now you can't wait-
Your own arrival;
We've twenty seconds to comply.

So, let go

Jump in

Oh well, what you waiting for ?

It's alright

'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown.

So, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown.

]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/10571101/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/10571101/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 13:09:59 PST And now that I'm stronger, I've figured out how this world turns cold and breaks through my soul.
I know I'll find, deep inside me, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to Heaven.

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to Heaven.

Because you're my...


My true love , my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Because I'm here for you;
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay.

Use me as you will;
Pull my strings just for a thrill.
And I know I'll be ok,
Though my skies are turning gray.

I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven.




( Ignore the mood button on this entry. It wouldn't change for some reason. I'm feeling... optomistic, I suppose - not hopeless. )

]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9803879/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9803879/ Mon, 21 Aug 2006 12:02:34 PDT
We don't need anything or anyone.

If I lay here,
if I just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world ?

I don't quite know... how to say how I feel...

Those three words are said too much - they're not enough.

If I lay here,
if I just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world ?

Forget what we're told before we get too old. Show me a garden that's bursting into life.

Let's waste time chasing cars around our heads.

I need your grace to remind me to find my own.

If I lay here,
if I just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world ?



All that I am , all that I ever was , is here in your perfect eyes - they're all I can see.



I don't know where; confused about how, as well. Just know that these things will never change for us at all.



If I lay here , if I just lay here , would you lie with me and just forget the world ? ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9743035/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9743035/ Tue, 15 Aug 2006 22:25:44 PDT
But anyway. So Alphonse Elric. He's my favorite character. He's sweet, gentle, loyal, dedicated ( even -more- so after his restoration to humanity ). There's just so much of him to love.

I love that he's so dedicated to his only family. Alphonse and Edward, they're just Hell-bent on remaining together. They would do everything, even die for the other, would die to -remain- together. Each would rather perish to remain with the other than live the remainder of their life without them.

The whole idea of it, it's so incredibly heartwarming and is the sweetest sentiment.

... That's what I want.

I want someone who I want to spend my waking hours with and then fall asleep next to. I want to be by their side through all their / our challenges; to help them when they fall, to lend support when the situation turns to impending failure. I want to smile with them and go through Hell with them.

When I think about these things too much and get entirely too sappy, I feel like that bit of Alphonse is coming from me.

Want to be someone's dedicated ' little brother. '

( That, and I wish my Alphonse armor wasn't so hot because I want to wear it -forever-. ) ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9648063/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9648063/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 12:49:36 PDT
Alphonse was a HUGE success! We got to the convention center on Friday at around 11. As soon as I walked in the door, I had people staring and wanting to take a picture. We headed to the second floor and stayed up there for a while ( there's a really long hallway where all the rooms are and you can look over the edge to the floor(s) below ). I was strolling slowly down the hallway ( the radius of my vision was only about five inches horizontal and two inches vertical, so most of the time I could only see peoples' feet unless I tipped my head back ) and I couldn't even walk -five- steps without someone asking for a picture. That made me feel so great and filled my with such pride because I had -so- much confirmation from others that I did a good job on Al.

A couple minutes after we started walking around, I needed a drink SO bad. My throat was dry and I certainly didn't want to dehydrate and pass out ( I think I would die in embaressment ). No one would let me get a drink!! Someone would ask for a picture, I'd say " sure! " in some semblance of a cute Alphonse voice, pose and try walking away. As soon as I said, " Okay! Drink! Let's go! " someone else would ask for another picture! I wasn't peeved about it, it was amazing to have that many pictures taken of Al... but geez, I really needed that drink.

We headed down to the Dealer's Room ( but not before the winding line made me tired and dizzy ). The Dealer's Room was enormous, but I couldn't really look at anything considering I couldn't -see-. I think my favorite part of being in the Dealer's Room was taking half-naps along the wall. I'd sit against the wall and almost fall asleep, so I was sitting really still. People would walk past and ask whoever was sitting next to me, " Is there anyone in there? " Well, whenever I heard someone ask that, I'd move a little bit which would surprise them and make them laugh, which I -loved.-
But so much for the naps there! Everytime I'd sit back down after a picture, I'd have to get back up again! I got more exercise there than I did naptime! But again, it was alright! I was flattered.

Along the way in the Dealer's Room, an Alex Louis Armstrong stopped me. He was so funny. We took a picture together grappling like Armstrong and Al do in the episode where Ed and Al return to Risembool, ' House of the Waiting Family. ' That was a really fun picture!

Even a couple people running tables in the Dealer's Room stopped me to say what a good job I did!

After that, we headed to sit down on one of the couches 'cause Tabytha wanted to read a manga she bought and I needed a rest. I got -so- many pictures by that damn couch. Like in the Dealer's Room, everytime I'd sit back down I'd have to get right back up again. I met DA's xXShoukoXx by that couch! She found me and came up and said hi. I was happy she found me.

At one point by the couch, I heard people yelling, " AL! AL! UP HERE! " I hadn't noticed, but the couch was right beneath the ledge of the floor above and people were looking -down- on me, wanting pictures. So I posed for a couple pictures for people high above me ( I think for those, I posed like I was trying to transmute something in the air ).

Saturday, I was Al, too. When we got there, I was sitting on a chair with Al's legs on and Al's body in the chair beside me. An Ed and two State Alchemists were walking past. They suddenly just -gaped-, literally their mouths were hanging open and in unison they yelled, " AAAAAALLLLLL! " That was sooo funny!

Down by the fountains, I hear this cute little voice yelling, " Aru! Aru! Over here! " I turn and I see Fletcher Tringham coming over! My God, the -cutest- Fletcher Tringham -ever-. So she was hanging around for a while. A couple people wanted our picture together. Soon after, we posed in a small group.

Then we headed to the Dealer's Room again. And who did I see and get another autograph from? --- Mike McFarland! <3 I lifted Al's helmet up and said, " Mike McCharmer. It's Hawt Winry! " He was like, " Hey, sweetie! How are ya'? " So that was fun to see him again. I was excited when he told me on Myspace he was going to be there in person.

And then, I saw it. The HUGE Alphonse statue I had seen in pictures so many times before. AND there was an Ed statue with him!!! I was soo excited to see that. It was incredible. So of course I got a few pictures of the statues, and then pictures of me as Al in front of them. Al also got some pictures standing in front of the really neat movie background ( it had Dietlinde Eckhart, Ed and Al ).

Back on th... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9537100/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9537100/ Sat, 29 Jul 2006 20:32:47 PDT I wish that I could turn back time and spare the pain that we both feel,

and how, with change, things will never be the same.

We were foolish then but our trials sought to make us strong.
The burdens are not yours alone; we've sought the answers for so long... but they're not free; cost you more than they cost me.

... My Brother...

I promise you there is nothing I won't give
to see this through; return the soul to where it lives.
I promise you I'd go everywhere I've been
to find a way to make atonement for my sin and see...
... see your smiling face again.

When we pay the price at last and we are whole once more,
life will be the way it was --- the way it was before the day she slipped away.

Together, we'll redeem that day.

And I promise you there is nothing I won't give
to see this through; return the soul to where it lives.
I promise you I'd go everywhere I've been
to find a way to make atonement for my sin and see...
... see your smiling face.


I promise. ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9526817/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9526817/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 19:59:14 PDT
The only things I have to do yet are prop the body up higher, add velcro to the pieces that aren't attached with glue and add some black fabric in places. A couple more hours worth of work and he's done!!!

Today, I attached the shoulders to the body. Now the spikey shoulder pads finally sit upright unstead of drooping down 'cause there was nothing to support them. And oh my God, no lie, Al is like THREE FEET -wide-. He is so utterly GIGANTIC. But it's AWESOME! Alphonse in the series -is- massive! I'll probably be the most enormous Alphonse at Otakon; HOORAY!

I'm sooo excited. I wish Otakon would just get here already. I have lots of people to meet and some people who said they'd keep an eye open for me! And I can't wait to hand out all the stickers I made ( I have close to 100, which I hope will be enough! ). I want some fanboys & fangirls!!! ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9460571/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9460571/ Sat, 22 Jul 2006 17:43:20 PDT
( I'm typing this slow, carefully, and without my right middle finger. There's a burn in the middle of it and a blister that's pulsating as I'm typing this on the tip of it. Oh, and another burn covered with a band-aid on my left ring finger. OW. )

Waaay earlier today, I ( OWOWOW. I accidentally hit the backspace key with the blistered finger. Ooow. ;__; ) ... anyway, earlier today I made the parts of Alphonse's abdomen that are covered by the loincloth. It kinda' looks like underwear, haha. I'm going to have to velcro the legs to that part of the abdomen, and velcro the abdomen shield-looking underwear part to the bottom of the torso. Al still has to be able to be transported and taken apart.

AND! Both of Al's arms are done now!!!! I encountered some issues with the left arm, but that's only because I had finished the right arm long before and I didn't remember the exact size of things ( I don't ever measure anything anyway, considering Alphonse is so much larger than I am ) but both arms look good together!

The only things I have to do yet are the shoulders and prop the body up higher. Good thing too, because Otakon is only 13 days away!

Last night I registered for Otakon online, because there were only 9000-some registration spots left. And then I signed up for the Hall Costume Contest on Saturday! I'm really excited for that, but also very nervous! I guess how that works is your costume is seen by a panel of judges ( you also are supposed to bring reference pictures of your costume and explain how exactly you went about making it ) and then everyone else at the convention sees your costume, too! And damnit if I don't wanna' show Al off!!! Not to brag or anything, but I went on cosplay.com the other day, and Alphonse costumes that didn't even look as good or polished as mine won awards, so! I'm not too worrie--- ACK! Hit. blister. again... not too worried! I'd love it if Al could come home with an award!

So, Alphonse is sooo incredibly close to being done. I've worked on him today from around 3 up 'til now and it's about 9, so I've spent a good amount of time on him. I'll pick up again tomorrow and probably do the shoulders and make sure everything velcros and connects alright. And maybe with luck, my burns will be gone by then. Ouch. ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9439183/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9439183/ Thu, 20 Jul 2006 15:35:42 PDT
~ Now, one thing you have to know about me is that I LIVE for anything supernatural. I do believe in a lot of supernatural phenomenon and I love all that stuff. ~

So she asked me if maybe I wanted to go with them if her friend was gonna' go that night. Of course I would! I've been bugging Chel to go ghost-hunting with me for -how- long. So we made arrangements, I ( with Steph along ) met Chel at her house and then we drove to her friend's house, 'cause he was the one that was gonna' drive us around to the different haunted areas.

Our first stop was a really dark covered bridge. There was a house a little in the distance, but for the most part if you turned the car lights off, you really couldn't see much.

So Chel's friend ( I think his name was Chris. I forget. But that's all besides the point. ) says when we park on this bridge, " Okay, now you're going to see four tall shadows at the other end of the bridge. "

~~ Okay, first off: when ghost-hunting, you do NOT -tell- people what they're "going" to see. For one, ghosts do not run on a damn schedule; they come and go as they please. Second, telling someone what they're -supposed- to see is just going to make their eyes play tricks on them and they might actually "see" something that isn't there. ~~

So he says that. And I'm squinting and squinting, trying to see -anything- but the giant shadow-blob that is the trees behind the other end of the tunnel, but that's the -only- shadow I saw. Him and Chel said they saw shadows.

-- Supposedly, Chel's friend claimed that there are four men haunting the bridge. The more prominant one is named Nathan, and he's a "Disciple of the Devil." When he told us that, I was just sitting in the back of the car like, " WTF does -that- mean? " Devil's Disciple? Is this guy like, a demon that popped out of Hell to say hello? ( Steph kept joking around, opening her window so the ghosts could shake her hand, hahaha. )
So then Chel's friend proceeded to tell us of a dream, a DREAM he had. This evil Nathan character had a scratch running from his eyebrow to the side of his mouth, and he had a 666 on his forehead. Did I mention it was a DREAM? And does anyone realize that DREAMS AREN'T REAL? But this kid made it frickin' seem like Nathan for SURE existed and that he WAS scarred and that he DID have a 666 imprinted on his forehead. IT WAS A FREAKING DREAM. Get over it. I wasn't any more convinced after that. That whole bridge, I didn't see one damn thing. We didn't get any good pictures, either.

Next bridge. We were once again -told- what we were supposed to feel. This time, we were supposed to feel alternating cold and hot spots... are you fucking kidding me? IT'S THE SUMMER. For one, of -course- there's gonna' be hot spots in the air. It's like fuckin' 90 degrees this week. Second, no there -were- no cold spots there. See, when a ghost in present in an area, to manifest themself they need to use the energy from the air around them --- they end up borrowing the energy which in turn makes the spot cold; ICE cold. There were NO icy spots. Chel's friend kept saying, " Feel that spot! There's one. " Hey! How 'bout you SHUT THE HELL UP?! There were no icy cold spots to be felt.

Then we were driving down the road that Chel lives on. Supposedly somewhere on that road, a man either hanged himself, got hanged, or died for some other reason on or near the road. So we stopped beside a patch of trees and Chel's friend took a picture. He freaking reviews the picture he does, sits and looks at it for like, 2 seconds and goes, " Mm hm! " as if he's spotted something. Well, Steph and I are in the backseat and we just look at each other and snort. There's NOTHING IN THE DAMN PICTURE. There's a few -dust- particles. THAT'S. IT.

~~ Orbs are small circles of light said to represent either spirits or angels, depending on what you choose to believe. They do move and they emit light and sometimes you can see them cast their own shadow.
DUST is most often mistaken for an orb. Dust particles on film are also circular, but they do not contain light particles. They usually look rather grainy and fuzzy. ~~

Our last stop was a cemetary that Chel had strange experiences in before. She caught a couple EVP's there once. We decided to walk around. Chel felt slightly uneasy. Meanwhile, Steph and I felt like our silly, retarded little selves. I snapped a couple photos.
I snapped a picture of this creepy statue of a woman. When we looked at the picture, one of her eyes was red. Chel's friend was like, " Oooh, look at that. Yep. Her eye's red. " ... IT WAS FREAKING DIRT. Looking at the picture, you can tell she... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9414669/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9414669/ Tue, 18 Jul 2006 09:45:28 PDT
At the moment, I'm listening to the Fullmetal songs I downloaded --- so far it's only ' Melissa ' and ' Rewrite '. ' UNDO ' is 81% complete. ( YES, I AM a music pirate. Shh. ) And of course I watched FMA last night. How could I -not?- I live and breathe for that damn show anymore. <3

I'm going to finish Alphonse this weekend, since I have some five days in a row or something like that, so it's overhaul for Al. And he -needs- to get done because Otakon is in like, EIGHTEEN days. Holy Hell. That's so -not- far away. And I want to register online today because there are only 9000-some slots left ( Yipes. Shouldn't have procrastinated on that one ).

Oh! And also I'm going to sign up for the Hall Costume Contest for Saturday!!! Not only do you show off your costume to a judges panel, but everyone else watching gets to see it, too! And then after the judging, you get to participate in the Hall Costume Fashion Show or something like that, I think. It said when the judges are looking at your costume, you explain to them how you made it, and you should bring reference pictures and stuff of the real character. SO EXCITING! I hope 1) that there's still slots left for the contest and 2) that Al wins something! People are usually impressed with Al a lot more after I tell them that I didn't use patterns for anything and that the whole thing just came from my head.

I had sent Cute!Alphonse a message on cosplay.com about nii-san not being able to go and that I was sad about it. That girl is -such- a sweetheart. She sent me a message back and was like, " I'm gonna' make it a top priority to make sure you're happy and have a great time! " I like, -melted-. S-s-so cute. *__*; That was really nice of her to say. I can't wait to see her and take pictures with her! Armor & Restored Al! Those pictures are gonna' be amazing!!!

I have to remember what I want to buy at Otakon. I know I want one of those little cell phone charms that lights up when you get a call. Don't know if I want an Ed one or an Al one. Eh, they're less than $10, might as well get both. Hahaha. Maybe I'll come home with something for nii-san, too! ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9383314/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9383314/ Sat, 15 Jul 2006 08:30:03 PDT
The morning began at midnight, when I was sitting online watching the clock to wish myself happy birthday when it struck 12. I was talking to Chel, Greg, and Aaron. Well, a little before 12, Greg decided he wanted to embaress me, so he called my cell and sang happy birthday to me.
And when it struck 12, I was talking to my nii-san. I was really glad I got to talk to him, not only because it made my birthday better, but because I was sad the day before and certain things needed to be said.

The rest of the day began with me waking up at around 9:30AM and walking downstairs so my parents knew I was awake. I got some " happy birthdays " and kisses and such. Then I went upstairs to take a shower.

Lo and behold, who -knocked- on the bathroom door when I was finishing putting curling creme stuff in my hair? Who did I have to -greet in my towel?- Steph! Haha. I should've known she'd pull a stunt like that. At one point, she made me bend over 'cause my dad told her to kick me in the head... for some reason. x__x;

So I hung out with Steph for a couple hours. I asked my dad to make hamburgers on the grill for us for lunch, and he did. So we ate that, and then we went over to Steph's house 'cause her mom was having a yard sale. The little neighbor girls ( Sam is 4 and Abby is 2, I think ) came over to hang with us. Steph and I are like their aunts, hehe. They love us.

So then Steph, Sam and I went swimming in Sam's pool. Oooh, it felt so nice. But just from being outside that day for like -three- hours I got nice and sunburned. Oy.

And then I went to work. At one point, Sebz and Chel left me to go to WalMart to get something to drink. When Chel came back and went to the backroom, she yelled up to me, " Your phone just went off! " so I walked back to check it... but it hadn't gone off. There was a little box sitting in my purse. Sebz and Chel got me the necklace I look at -every- time I go to WallyWorld; it's a small silver locket with a real 4-leaf clover in it. I always loved the idea of it, and I always look at it but never considered buying it for myself, so they beat me to it! But geez, they really didn't have to. No one has to get me presents. Just as long as I can be with my friends, that's all I ask.

So Sally's at night was fucking INSANE. At like, 7:45, everyone and their goddamn UNCLE came into Sally's. EVERYONE. There were like a million kajillion people in there. It had been just Kendra and I there, but then for some reason Chel decided to come back and help, and thank GOD she did! I would've been ripping my hair out ( since I was already running around like a chicken with its head cut off ).

And then amidst all the craziness, bitch-Kayleigh decides to drop by! She's carrying a square piece of cardboard and a cardboard box.... and it scares me for a few minutes, haha. She -told- me before she'd come in with a surprise, but I had no idea what she'd be cooking up. But cooking is what she did --- she baked me a cake!!! It said, " Happy Gijumbular Birthday " ( gijumbular is the word we made up in the one madlib we did --- we needed a word to describe the size of something, so Kayleigh just came out with, " um... gi---... gijumb... ular? HAHA. Good times ). And the cake also had little paper heartagrams on it! The cardboard square was a big card that had heartagrams and squiggles on it that said, " Happy Birthday bitch-Lindsay! " I loved it! I want to keep it forever.

Then finally we close, and after digging into my cake with spoons ( sitting on the -floor- eating out of a big cardboard box looking like a bunch of bums ) we leave Sally's at almost 9. And after some planning of things, Kayleigh and I decide to meet people at the AMC to see Pirates 2, which I actually saw 2 days before but I had NO problem seeing it again. So I met them at the theater and we saw Pirates 2! And I got home around 2AM.

And that was my birthday! And I went on Myspizzle this morning and had like, 10 new birthday comments. <3

So yeah, I'd say it was a good day. ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9358015/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9358015/ Wed, 12 Jul 2006 19:44:38 PDT
I don't think I'll go. ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9331003/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9331003/ Mon, 10 Jul 2006 10:09:59 PDT
So, let's see. Alphonse is almost done. Got the other arm to do and I have to make one shoulder and fix the other. And add the brown straps to the shoulders. And I actually think I figured out a way to suspend the body up higher! I think I'm gonna' attach a little length of fabric to the bottom of the helmet and attach it with velcro to the wrap-around piece that goes around his head. It think that will probably work. I'll have to be careful when turning my head to look at something so the velcro doesn't come unstuck, but, yeah.

Last night there was a big thunderstorm here and we lost power for a couple hours. I went up to my room, stuffed pillow in Al's chest and propped him against my wall, put my Winry wig on and took pictures with Al. >] It was fun, except 1) I couldn't see and 2) camera flash bulbs are EVIL. And my arm isn't long enough to reach around to get a good shot of myself -and- Al together, so I kinda' would need someone else to snap photos of us together. But it was fun. I usually treat Alphonse as if he weren't something -I- was inside of, and doing this, it really felt like Alphonse and I really were separate. Weird, I know, but yeah.

What else. Oh. I think and I -hope- that plans with nii-san will work out. As long as his family doesn't care that we kidnap him and as long as he tells me where he is, we can go get him. I really really hope it all works out. I worked so hard to figure out ways to get him here, and not only do I not want all my hard work to be in vain, but I really want to see him and I want him to be there with me, because we're the best Elric brothers ever. <3

My birthday's in... FOUR DAYS?! What?! Are you serious? I honestly didn't know it was THAT soon. WOW. I definitely have been off in a different world. Last time I checked, it was like, 9 days away or something like that. And my friends have been asking me I'm doing, party-wise and what-not. All I know is I have to -work- on my birthday. AND the day after. Tabytha's birthday and party is on the 15th and I can't even go see her 'cause I work that day, too. Apparently when you work at Sally Butt Supply, you aren't allowed to have a social life. - KILLS. -

Well, my stomach is eating itself 'cause I -forgot- to eat again last night. Later! ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9300377/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9300377/ Fri, 07 Jul 2006 09:58:57 PDT
Okay. So BOTH Al's legs are DONE. They came out wonderfully and they move beautifully. Last night, I was sitting on the computer ( which is next to SIX windows, all of which were open ) and I was freezing. So I went upstairs and put Al's legs on to keep me warm. Hahaha! And hey, it worked! I can walk perfectly in them ( except for the occasional -slip- on the wooden dining room floor .__.; )

All I have yet to do an Al is:

- The right shoulder

- The right arm

- Figure out how to -attach- the arms to the body

- Find a way to suspend the torso higher

- Make the brown straps that come down from his spikey shoulder pads.

- Make some kind of... -ass-. 'Cause right now, the body ends at my thighs with no way to attach the legs.

That's IT. Then Al's finished. And he's massive, looks incredibly and I'm so ungodly proud of him. Everytime I look at him I just want to cry, I'm so proud. He's my masterpiece.

And I'm so incredibly happy that -so- many people want to meet with me / take pictures with me at Otakon. I've started a list of people I'm supposed to meet up with, just so I don't forget anyone! I was on my cosplay.com account earlier and I did that... crying / squealing thing I do because so many people want to see my Alphonse. I'm so happy.

I'm so excited to see everyone! I can't wait to see Cute!Alphonse again! She wants to take a peek at my Al, and take pictures with me as Winry! Her as Alphonse, me as Winry and Aaron as Ed are... -impossibly- cute. I wish we could all like, travel the world cosplaying. Hahaha. Best Risembool trio EVER! <3

Let's see... Paul's been bugging me to hang out with his group as Winry for a while, so I have to make time for that; and his friend Dawn is going to be with him and I want to meet her, too. Gotta' meet up with Alex from Yahoo, who is going to be Mustang. Velox from cosplay.com whom I call Avril, 'cause she looks like Avril Lavigne, haha. Erin from KU who's rooming with Tabytha next semester. Lust-san from cosplay.com who wants pictures with me as Al. Izumi from Katsucon; such a great Teacher! --- The list keeps growing and growing! And I'm so happy! I've met so many great people at conventions. I'm all too happy to be around some familiar faces and also meet new people!

If all goes according to my detailed plotting, our group will go as follows:

- Me as Alphonse Elric & Winry Rockbell
- Aaron as Edward Elric
- Tabytha as Scieszka & a Prince of Tennis character
- Greg as Zolf Kimbley and FF Cloud
- and then there's Greg's friends, whom I don't know if they're cosplaying. And if Ruth's going, she'd be Furuba's Tohru Honda and I was trying to get her to be FMA's Rose Tomas, too.

I just am hoping right now that everything goes according to the way it's worked out in my -head-. Right now I just need to focus on getting my nii-san up here. Greg and I have a plan. We just need *Crosses out 'halfpint-beansprout-midget'* Aaron to give it the thumbs-up. My head is still spinning from all the planning for that. I had numerous panicky moments over it, just trying to make sure it was going to work. But I'm pretty sure our plan is good, so. I mean, you don't get anywhere by praying and wishing and hoping. You have to be determined and work hard for what you want, and that's what I'm trying to do.

Let's see, that takes care of cosplay updates. My birthday's in a week! Still can't believe I'll be -20-. Holy Hell. I bought my brother a really sappy card ( it's a tad -too- sappy for the kind of relationship, or more like lack thereof, we have ). I'm going to write a letter and put it inside. We've been twins for 20 years and over the years, our relationship has just spiraled downward from being inseparable best friends to practically enemies who never speak to each other. He needs to know how I feel about that, and that's why I'm writing the letter. I don't think he can help how he acts sometimes, but he's taking medication for it now, so hopefully in the long-run it will help. Because honestly, I'd -like- to be his sister -and- friend. I'd like to actually have conversations with him and know he's doing alright.

Speaking of cards, Steph bought THE- BEST card I've ever seen in my entire life. It's one of those cards where it looks like an old picture and most of it's black and white and then certain areas have just a touch of color. There's a little girl standing right in front of a little boy and they're both looking in the other's eyes. The inside says, " I love sharing forever with you. " ... @$%$#%^ We seriously almost broke down and cried in the aisle of WalMart. We were overcome with " AWWWW! THAT IS SOOO FREAKING CUTE / NICE / ADORABLE / SAPPY! " So Steph couldn... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9291312/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9291312/ Thu, 06 Jul 2006 11:13:28 PDT
Yesterday, I completed a whole leg. It looks incredible! I was initially worried about how the knee was going to work ( the joints worry me ). For the knee, I cut out almost an oval shape and stuffed it, then glued the three spikes on it. I wanted the top of the thigh to be really muscular like Al's, but the whole calf is moreso just straight up and down, though I did add stuffing just at the top to add that little bit of musculature. You can't really see it, but I can definitely feel it because it's tight around my leg.
Yesterday, I also glued the foam strips to Al's gloves.

I was wearing the leg around ( it's got the foot attached to it, too ) upstairs. I went into the one bedroom and stood on the bed to see the whole leg in the dresser mirror... and I almost cried, I was -so- incredibly proud of it. And then I walked out of the room and my mom said, " You're crazy, you know that? " Yes mother, I KNOW.

Just before posting this, I was working on little stickers I'm going to give to people when I'm Al. I have a whole assortment: the bloodseal, the human Transmutation Circle, the Ouroborous and the Flamel. I'm going to keep them in Al's little white box and give them out to people who come up to me and say hi or take a picture or whatever. Be a nice little Alphonse. ;]

So today, I have to glue on the brown patches on his sides and fix his loincloth 'cause it's too long. Maybe after that, I'll work on the other foot or leg. All I know is I don't have too much to do yet, but I still need to get cracking 'cause Otakon is -not- far behind!!

I can't wait 'til our little photoshoot. I wanna' get some really dramatic shots and stuff. SQUEE! So excited!

Watch for pictures coming soon! My friend is letting me borrow her digital camera so I can snap some. They'll be in my Scraps gallery, so keep an eye out! ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9280352/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9280352/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 10:45:23 PDT forgot my birthday was coming up. I was / still am so involved in other things ( building Alphonse, making arrangements for Otakon ) that it slipped my mind.

Today, there's 9 days until my birthday ( July 14th! ). I'll be TWENTY! Holy Hell, where does the time go?

When I think about it, it's not that I've really -accomplished- much, but I've done a lot before I turned 20.

--- I got to see H.I.M. in concert, my favorite band!

--- Met a lot of my favorite Voice Actors: Vic Mignogna, Mike McFarland, Caitlin Glass, Laura Bailey, Colleen Clinkenbeard, Richard Cox, Kirby Morrow and Mike Sinterniklaas!

Those are the two things that really stick out in my mind. Among that, I've made tons of new friends through the years that I cherish. I've gone to parties, met new people, met up with old friends, etc. Life's been pretty good when I look back on it.

So I'll finally be twenty. It seems like a big deal to me pretty much just because you don't have the 'teen' suffix at the end of your age. It's a whooole new beginning.

I'd like to have a party, but I have to work -on- my birthday ( how fucking fair is -that-? ) I think I'll just consider Otakon one HUGE birthday party. Hahahaha.

Oh yeah! And I drew a picture of Young Ed and Al sitting behind a birthday cake. Check it out! It's cute!

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! ( in 9 days! ) ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9273220/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9273220/ Tue, 04 Jul 2006 16:41:13 PDT
Let me start at the beginning.

Kayleigh left me a comment on Myspace at like, 7 in the morning. It said, " There's a party tonight. Call me for all the awesome details. " I had to work that day from 12:30 - 8:30, so I was just gonna' call her when I got home. But before I got out of work, Steph had called my cell and mentioned the same party, and I said I knew about it. She said it started at 10, which was grand because I got home around 9, so it's not like I would be missing anything.

So I ran to Walmart after we closed the store to get some material for Alphonse and then I ended up getting home around 9:30. So I called Steph, called Kayleigh, called Steph back, so on and so forth until we decided I'd drive me and Steph to Turkey Hill to meet Kayleigh so we could follow her to the party which was at Meaghan's dad's house, which I had -no- clue where that was.

So after -trying- to follow behind Kayleigh Speed Demon, we finally get there. We were greeted by an all-too enthusiastic Cody Brendlinger ( that kid's crazy, haha; the fun kind of crazy, though ). Hugs and hello's were given out to everyone...

... and it was funny, because like, HALF of my graduating class was there. Haha. And the one thing you have to know about the Class of 2004 is we were the coolest class EVER. There weren't really any cliques to speak of. I mean, there were slight social status differences, but nothing major. Everyone was cool with everyone else and everyone pretty much got along. We were just a really cool, chill class.

So at the party, there were some people I used to hang out with, some people I never hung out with, some people I started hanging out with -after- graduation, etc. But everyone was cool. It was a really good atmosphere. Tons of beer, haha ( everyone's in college now, what do you expect? )

After Cody got completely obliterated, he started trying to give all the girls hickeys, which was creepy but hilarious at the same time. He got Meaghan -really- good on the neck. Looked like someone punched her or something. Eventually I was picked as a victim. He -told- me he was gonna' give me a hickey, but I stopped him before he could get to my neck. I gave him permission for the arm, as I could easily get away with " someone pinched my arm real hard " as opposed to " Cody gave me a hickey. " So I stuck my arm out and he went to town. Thankfully there was nothing there but a red mark for a couple minutes. I escaped from Meaghan's calibur of hickey. - Dies. -

Kayleigh eventually got completely annihilated. It was funny. She kept coming up to me and saying, " I love this bitch! " Hahaha. She's my silly gijumbular. I love her, too.

Oh yeah, and about five different people came up to me and told me my brother got punched in the face the previous night at Aura's party. Apparently my brother owed this kid Jason some money. Well, Jason got drunk and seemingly belligerent because he up and punched my brother in the jaw.
So I was sitting on the computer this afternoon and my brother comes up the stairs from the basement ( his ' room ' is the basement ). When he walked past me to go upstairs, it looked like he was trying to crack his jaw. I said to him, " I heard you got punched in the face. " He said, " Yeah. " I said, " ... are you okay? " Like the tough guy he tries to be, he said, " I can take a punch. " I worry about that kid a lot. He somehow took the wrong turn in life and suffers from some sort of mental / anger issues ( I'm pretty sure he's on medication now ). But he gets in trouble and makes wrong decisions and we just don't get along anymore. Well, okay, it's not that we don't get along... well, we don't really, but anyway... he just wants nothing to do with me. I think he thinks I'm some sort of stuck-up bitch or something and I'm really not. But lately we -have- started watching FMA together. I'll have a DVD in and I'll be working on Alphonse and he'll come sit down and watch it, too. I always make sure to show him the latest progress on Alphonse. He doesn't get squealy and excited like I do, but he gives a nod of approval. That's all I can ask for, I guess. It's better than yelling, screaming and cursing at each other like before...

So yeah. Just a random social update. Enjoy. ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9243557/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9243557/ Sat, 01 Jul 2006 16:06:44 PDT
I attached the lower half of his body today, along with the smaller triangle on top of his abdomen. I started attaching the patterns along his back and front. So his actual -body- is finished, except for the circles on his sides, and the straps holding the spikey shoulder pads in place.

I just really wish I had about -eight- arms to work on him instead of two. The farther I delve into this project, the harder it gets for just -me- to have to hold things in place and glue them virtually at the same time. But I'm getting by alright.

So many, many hot glue burns later ( the other day hot glue got -directly- on my skin. After it had dried for a second, I went to pick it off... but the white stuff wasn't -all- glue. I actually ended up pulling some of my -skin- off with the glue. Let me just say $%&^%$&^ OW! Very painful. Now I have a very pretty red -hole- in my flesh ).

This is Al so far:

- Helmet

- Torso

- A shoulder

- Abdomen

- An arm

- A foot

I went to the Dollar Store today and picked up tan shower curtain rings which I will be using to attach the loincloth to. As we speak, the spraypaint I sprayed them with is drying in the garage ( when I bought them, they were off-white, but I spray painted them a light brown color ).

I also bought black gloves at the store. They're mostly black, but then the insides of the fingers had white stripes, so I spraypainted those, too. They're smaller gloves than what I wanted. I still might go on the search for gloves the size of the ones used for gardening, since those would make my hands look a little bigger.

Next step is a leg. I need to contruct at least one of the legs before I make the loincloth, to make sure I don't make the loincloth too long or short. I hope the fabric I got for the loincloth is a decent color. I'll have to look at it again to make sure. It might be a little more on the blue side than purple. But every image you see of Alphonse, the color varies a little, so. It should be alright.

I'm excited to do a leg! I'm going to have to attach the leg to the body with velcro. I can't make it all in one piece, or else Al will be impossible to transport. Even -now-, in a car full of people and a trunk full of suitcases, I don't know how I'm going to manage transporting him. Oy. My massive tincan.

Alphonse should be finished really soon! I've been working on him on my days off from work, so I have hours on end to build. I've been home alone all day today so I could work uninterrupted, and watch FMA at the same time!

I really wish my digital camera hadn't taken a crap on me. I'd love to show everyone pictures of Al! I'm so very proud of him. I think he looks incredible so far. Wish me luck on the rest!

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Nii-san, you will be by my side. ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9226026/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9226026/ Thu, 29 Jun 2006 21:40:56 PDT so exhausted.

I worked on Alphonse today from around 4 to about 11. Like I said in my last entry, a little bit of that time was spent erecting the hanger ( which I then destroyed )...

... but in that time-slot I also got one of Al's arms done! Now -this- I can't say is perfect. The rounded elbow really isn't round. It was extremely hard to figure out the dynamics of the arm being able to bend. It does bend, but not quite how I would like it to. I feel a little stiff in it.

I still have to work out how the arm attaches to the shoulder right, because I also still need to find a way to prop the torso higher so my head and face are covered. How I'm going to do that, I have no idea. I'll find a way.

But overall, the arm looks pretty good. I'm proud of it.

I also painted on the whites of Al's eyes. He has white in them in the anime, and it makes him look more alive, so.

I feel silly saying this, but I always treat Al's helmet as if it were... not inanimate. I set him on the ledge above my bed everynight when I sleep, and I always run my hand over where his cheek would be and say, " Goodnight, Al. " I really do this everynight. I guess it's because I put my whole heart and soul into it, it just means so very much to me that I can't help but show affection.

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On another note, I am -extremely- panicky over Otakon. It's only THIRTY-FIVE days away and I've done -nothing-. I have to finish Alphonse, find a way for Aaron Elric to get here, find out if people want to pre-reg or not, find somewhere to stay, etc. Holy Hell.

I was trying to find hotels with vacancies ( since I seem to be the only one panicking that there's virtually NO hotels left with vacancies ) and I couldn't find one. Which gave me a headache and made me panic even -more-. I emailed Greg asking if we could crash in his room, because he said before if worse came to worse, we could do that. As long as it's just a small amount of people going with me. We can't have like, 10 people cramming in one room ( although we -did- cram about 8 in the one at Katsucon ). I figure if we crash in Greg's room, we can all split the cost of the room and -we- don't have to sleep on the sidewalk.

I just need everyone to take a minute to talk to me about Otakon, or my brain is going to explode. ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9223355/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9223355/ Thu, 29 Jun 2006 16:40:19 PDT
Today I attached the left shoulder to the torso and glued the Flamel on it.

And half the time spent was spent erected a hanger to hang him on ( which ended up working as a hanger, but made the torso hang crooked so I couldn't figure out how to attach anything with everything hanging / bent weird ) ... so I ducked my head, walked in under Al's torso and un-ducttaped the hanger in my frustration.

It took me a long while to figure out how to build the shoulder. I did figure something out, but it still doesn't lay right. I think I just have to wait until I build the upper arm and probably once I attach the arm to the shoulder, it will lay alright.

I had to cut the Flamel symbol I made smaller so it would fit onto the shoulder. The Flamel on -my- Al is bigger than Series! Al's Flamel, but I love the symbol and wanted to make sure it would be seen.

I took a bit of black stretchy fabric and started working on the rest of the arm. I'm just worried the arms won't be as big around as I want them to. Al's torso is MASSIVE so I don't want him to have skinny little girl arms. - Chokes. -

I just really have to get myself motivated to work on it every chance I get, because Otakon is only a little over a month away!! Still, I can't wait to be Alphonse!

P.S. - I had the torso propped against the bottom of the sofa-chair thing in the living room and I had traveled to the garage to glue something together. I came back and my cat Joey was sitting inside the torso. I said, " Joeeeyyy! Do you wanna' be Alphonse? " ... He just looked at me. .___.; ... <3 @ kittens! ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9108303/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9108303/ Sun, 18 Jun 2006 18:30:49 PDT
First off, we woke up late. We wanted to wake up about 9 but ended up crawling out of bed at about 10:30. We got dressed in normal clothes and ran to Taco Bell and then to Dunkin Donuts. Then we headed back to the hotel and dressed in costume. It took us a long time to get ready because we wanted to be absolutely PERFECT for Saturday ( there wasn't a ton of people cosplaying on Friday, but Saturday was PACKED ).

Our first stop was the Artist Alley. Ruth and I were standing in front of a table and Ruth was talking to the one lady and while Ruth was browsing through their prints, the lady started drawing Ruth in her Tohru costume ( by the end of the day, Ruth's portrait was on display on the table, which was really cool ). Then we stopped by the Dealer's Hall 'cause Ruth needed something for Laura Bailey to sign. Then we stopped back at the hotel to pick up my Ed and Al print that I was gonna' get signed.

When we finally got back to the con to wait in the line for the signing, it was 6:30 ( the signing started at 7 ) and the line was already -loooong-, which was to be expected. So we waited in the line 'til about 8:30. While waiting in the line, I took a picture with an -amazing- group of State Alchemists ( there was Maes Hughes, Riza Hawkeye, Scieszka and a Winry ). My God, the Hughes was SO awesome ( he even walked around showing people Elycia's photo! ) So yeah, the Riza walked by us to talk to someone and then when she turned around, I asked for a picture, so she got the whole group together and I got in the photo, too. And even before that, I took a photo of -another- group of State Alchemists, all awesome as well. There was a Winry, Mustang, Riza, Armstrong, Hughes and Ed. Seeing all those awesome FMA'ers got me even MORE pumped to be Alphonse at Otakon!

Speaking of being a good cosplayer, I received the -ultimate- flattery this weekend. A group of Winrys approached me and the one was totally fangirl-ish. She was like, " OhmyGod, I saw you on Myspace! " I was like, " Oh yeah, heh heh, I'm The Hawt Winry. " She was like, " YES! You're one of my favorite Winrys! " I was -so- incredibly flattered. Not only had I been getting recognized this weekend, but I actually had a fangirl who had seen my Winry photos before and loved them. She was like, " I'm gonna' go home and add you on Myspace! " I smiled, said okay! and we parted ways.

Later on in the line, a Faye cosplayer wanted Ruth's picture and then mine. Of course we indulged ( I got asked a LOT this weekend for pictures, and I LOVE that. My favorite part of conventions is being accurate and true to character so that fans want / ask for pictures of you ).

When we were at the very front of the line and after the actors took a short break, Laura got off her cellphone, pointed to Ruth in her Tohru costume and gave the thumbs up!

Finally we get up to the table for signing! Colleen was first. I really didn't have too much to say to her, so I just said hi, opened up my print and I told her she could sign anywhere she liked.
Laura Bailey was next. While she was signing, I said, " Love ya' in those Sally Beauty videos." Okay, so Sally's --- we have to watch dvd's that come out monthly about new products and Laura Bailey happens to be acting as a sales associate in them. So I jokingly told her that and she threw her head back groaning, " Oooh, my Goood. Which one did you see? " I laughed, " All of them, 'cause I work at Sally's. " She groaned a little more in embaressment. But she said, " Hey, it's steady work and they pay me well. " I retorted, " At least they pay -one- of us well. " Sally's, FYI, doesn't pay jack SQUAT. So then she said about me seeing her in the videos, " Just don't tell anything. " I said, " Oh, it's our little secret, " and then we laughed. Haha. After she was done signing Ruth's tag, I took a picture of Ruth and Laura together.
Next was Caitlin. I said, " Hi, again! " since I saw her earlier and she remembered who I was. Didn't say -too- much to her really. So while she was signing my print, I looked over to Vic who was sitting next to her. When I looked at him, he gave back this... I don't even know, I just kept referring to it as " A Look." It was a look that suggested he was studying me, or thought I looked familiar or something. I'm not really sure what to say about it. So I noticed that, smiled really big and said hi ( What can I say? Vic is amazing, and super nice ). So Caitlin handed my print down the line to Vic, who signed it. I was standing there and he saw the Ed and Al plushies attached to my skirt and he touched the Ed one. " T... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9107276/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9107276/ Sun, 18 Jun 2006 16:23:37 PDT
I'll start my log off on Thursday night. I was commanded by Ruth to come over after I had packed my suitcase, so I ended up at the house in Lyons at about 7. Hung out there for a while, talked about driving arrangements and such. Ruth and I made a Walmart run and when we came back, one of the housemates Amy had come home. So Ruth, Amy, Jesse, Keith and I went to the Starlite Diner at around 10PM 'cause we were all starving. On the way back, Amy lead a most... er... -intruiging- conversation about "paperback smut." She explained that men are visually-oriented with intimacy so they watch porn, whereas woman are more mentally-stimulated by it so they just -read- porn. Quite... interesting.

So we ate and went back to the house, drank some Lionshead and solved the riddles they have on the caps. I ended up going to bed at around 1AM and Ruth came upstairs at around 3AM.

-How- I did this, I'll never know, but I actually woke up at 5:30 in the morning. We gathered all our stuff and left the house around 6:15... except that we drove off and had to come back -twice- because Ruth forgot stuff. When we were finally on the road, we had to make a run to WalMart and then I had to put gas in the car. When we started driving, it was about 7:30.

I guess it took us about 3 hours to get to the EconoLodge. And freaking A, check-in time ends up being 3PM, except we arrived there at about TEN. So we paid an extra $15 to check in earlier. So by the time we paid for the room, I had about $45 left. And let me tell you, I wasn't happy with that. I just wanted to make sure I had enough money to buy things from the Dealer's Room ( I REALLY wanted another Ed and Al print --- that was my mission ). So we get in the room, shower and stuff and start to get ready.

When we arrived at the convention center, we popped in on some AMV's. We watched a couple, some of which were really silly, some which were slightly boring. So we wandered around aimlessly just checking out where everything was, but not having anything specific to do. We were standing around some tables when I spotted Paul, who cosplays as Roy Mustang ( and a damn good one, at that! ) So we hug and say hello and I take a picture with him. We chat for a couple minutes about what one another's posse is doing / planning on doing and then part ways. We ended up running into Paul again while sitting in on the Sailor Moon fan panel that Ruth wanted to see --- Paul snuck in and sat behind us and said hello again.

After that, we checked out the Artist Alley. Ruth got a chibi portrait done ( It's almost -too- adorable ). Then we headed to the Dealer's Hall. I bought a cute little Armor! Alphonse pin. Then we headed back to the room to eat and chillax for a little while.

When we got back to the con center, we watched some Fruits Basket ( Ruth cosplayed as Tohru Honda, and might I add the BEST one ever!!! ) Then we went to the Funimation Actors panel and the panel was Caitlin Glass (Winry Rockbell), Vic Mignogna (Edward Elric), Laura Bailey (Lust), Colleen Clinkenbeard (Riza Hawkeye and Rose Tomas) and Mike Sinterniklaas (Leo the Ishbalan). So they talked and answered questions. It was good to see the actors in the same room and hear their perspective on things.

When we left the panel, I ended up meeting up with Caitlin Glass outside the room the panel was in. She was taking pictures with a handful of people and then she turned to me. I said hi and she was like, " Oh, you look so cute! " And then, much surprise to me, she said, " You're Lindsay, right? " I was like, " Yeah! " thinking how in the heck she could remember that. I mean, I do email her on occasion with pictures, but I'm sure sooo many more people email her as well. So she was like, " You're Lindsay, right? The Hawt Winry." !!!!!!! THE HAWT WINRY! At last, I'm actually getting recognized by the name Mike McFarland dubbed me at Katsucon. Hahaha. So Caitlin -adored- the Ed and Al plushies I had pinned to my skirt so she took a picture of them, and then I took a picture with her ( Vic said at the one FMA panel that " Caitlin is a fan of fans. " Haha. )

Then, be still my heart, we saw the Fullmetal Alchemist Supershow, which frankly could have been a LOT more super, but it was awesome nonetheless. It was pretty much just a regular panel with all the actors from FMA ( Vic, Caitlin, Colleen, Laura ) but at the end, they gave us a peek at the Hagaren Movie Trailer! Holy Hell, it looked -amazing-. Then at the -very- end, Vic showed an AMV his friend made to the song " Nothing I Won't Give." Oh... my God. First of all, that song is spectacular. Second, the AMV was amazing. I was -this- close to getting teary-eyed. I mean, Fullmetal Alchemist is without a doubt my favorite anime series ever, and the combinatio... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9078260/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/9078260/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 14:53:52 PDT
Everytime I think about arriving at AnimeNEXT, my stomach gets so many butterflies in it and I smile and just want to SCREAM! I'M SO EXCITED! Cons are the freakin' best ever. <3

I've been listening to Eiffel 65 ( the band that does that Blue song --- I'm blue, da ba dee da ba da. Yeah, it's oldschool ) for two days straight. It's like, party / club / dance / techno music so it's getting me pumped for the RAVE! ;D

For the rave, I'm bringing hot pink knee-high stockings to wear under my Winry boots ( I usually just end up raving as Winry, although last time I raved I just wore my Winry wig and changed into jeans. Ruth changes into regular clothes. That girl is so dedicated to being Tohru Honda that she doesn't do anything deemed " bad " -in- her Tohru costume. Ruth smokes & drinks, but NOT in her Tohru costume. She always says, " Tohru wouldn't smoke! Tohru wouldn't drink! " Haha. It's so cute. ) So I'm bringing light purple knee-highs for Ruth in case she decides to rave as Tohru. Hahaha. I call her Tohruth. xD ~~~ Linry and Tohruth! ~~~

I only wish I could find a nice brightly-colored boa to wear to the rave. But fxck going to some party store on the way. I've spent too much money recently.

Anyway, so FREAKING excited!! I'm going to have a blast! Can't wait to meet Vic Mignogna!!! <3

~~~ Linry. <3 ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8993660/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8993660/ Tue, 06 Jun 2006 21:19:17 PDT
So, back to my genius ideas. Originally I was going to have Al's helmet suspended above my head ( HOW, I don't know, but that was my plan ) just so I knew I would be taller than my normal height of 5'0". But NOW I got the absolutely GENIUS idea: I'm going to place the bucket on my head as far down as it will go ( it doesn't fit all the way over my face ). Even with the bottom of the bucket at my forehead, I'm still taller than usual!

Also, the grate below Al's chin falls right where my eyes are, so I'll be able to look through the slits in the grate! ( instead of having to cut eyeholes in the chestplate like I originally thought would have to happen ). So THAT works out perfectly!!!

And with the grate at my eyes, and the wrap-around piece just above my -real- shoulders, I'll be able to start the rest of the body (i.e. shoulders ) where my real shoulders are. It worked out PERFECTLY and it all sort of happened by accident! Thank goodness for my original plans going awry!!!

Next stop - torso & chest ahoy!!! ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8968230/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8968230/ Sun, 04 Jun 2006 11:54:51 PDT
On occasion, I'll be watching on the openings, whether it be Melissa or Undo, and I'll squeal so loud it'll hurt, like physically hurt my insides. Haha. I can't help it, though! I see how amazing my lovely little nii-san's Edward is and I see how my Alphonse is turning out, and then I look at the Ed and Al on the tv and I'm like, " Sweet Jesus! We're going to look -perfect!- " and that's just... very very exciting for me. I pride myself on doing accurate and well-done cosplay. And cosplay is something I absolutely LOVE doing, so I want everything to be the best it can possibly be.

And personally, I think we're going to knock everyone's socks off at Otakon. <3

Anyway. I'm planning on finishing the helmet today and if I have enough fabric left before the next 2 yards come, I'll do the big wrap-around piece above his shoulders. I even have the strip of white fabric ready to go in the top of Al's helmet. I can't wait to put that in. I love the way that strip flows.

Keep checking my scraps! Progress pictures will be posted every couple of hours! ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8903790/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8903790/ Sun, 28 May 2006 16:29:45 PDT finally ordered the material to build my Alphonse costume! Everytime I think about starting it, delving into it, becoming immersed in it, I want to SQUEAL AND SCREAM AND JUMP AROUND because I'm so excited!

The material, which is called Headliner Foam, is what I'll be making it out of. That way, it's soft and squishy so people can glomp / hug me without breaking me! So I ordered 8 yards of that which I hope will be enough.

I guess I'll have to wait a couple days or weeks or however long until that gets here, but in the meantime I've completed:

- The red Flamel on the left arm. I made that out of plain ol' felt. It's a bright red and it looks surprisingly good for drawing the pattern by hand and cutting it out with sufficiently crappy scissors.

- The strip of fabric flowing from Al's helmet. I had leftover white fabric, enough to make a long strip. It's really cool! It's really long and it flows very nicely. It should shift and move wonderfully!

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That's all so far! Can't do much else 'til the foam arrives!

I have thought about what other materials I'm going to need for various parts of it. I'm going to see if I can find red bicycle reflector stickers for Al's ' eyes ' so they are able to glint and glow.
I want to find vinyl or some other fake leather-ish material for the brown patches on his sides and the straps coming down from his shoulders.

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CAN'T WAIT! I'll be completely obsessed with making it perfect, so at least I'll have something else to occupy my time, aside from working and hanging out with friends.

What else can I say? This costume is my dream. I want it to be perfect and I want my nii-san to love it. ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8786624/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8786624/ Tue, 16 May 2006 08:57:04 PDT
So here I am - I'm trying.
So here I am - are you ready ?

Come on let me hold you


touch you


feel you


Always


Kiss you


taste you


all night


Always

I'll miss your laugh, your smile. I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me. I'm so sick of fights I hate them. Lets start this again for real.


Come on let me hold you


touch you


feel you


Always.


Kiss you


taste you


all night


Always~ ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8709087/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8709087/ Mon, 08 May 2006 10:03:17 PDT

Don't look back when you reach the new shore.

Don't forget what you're leaving me for.

Don't forget when you're missing me so.

Love must never hold, never hold tight, but let go.


Oh, the nights will be long when I'm not in your arms. But I'll be in this song that you sing to me across the sea. Somehow, someday you will be far away, so far from me and maybe one day I will follow you in all you do. 'Til then, send me a song.

When the sun sets the water on fire, when the wind swells the sails of your hire, let the call of the bird on the wind calm your sadness and loneliness and then start to sing to me.

I will sing to you -

If you promise to send me a song.

I walk by the shore and I hear;

Hear your song come so faint and so clear

And I catch it, a breath on the wind

And I smile and I sing you a song.

I will send you a song.
I will sing you a song.
I will sing to you
If you promise to send me a song. ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8616329/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8616329/ Fri, 28 Apr 2006 22:15:53 PDT

... but I know that it's just a lie.


So afraid to take a chance again.
So -afraid- of what I feel inside.


But I need to be next to you.
I need to share every breath with you.
I need to know I can see your smile each morning,
Look into your eyes each night for the rest of my life.
Here with you, near with you;
I need to be next to you.

~Need to be next to you~.

Right here with you is right where I belong. I lose my mind if I can't see you. Without you there is nothing in this life that would make life worth living for.

I can't make it if you're not there.
-I can't fight- what I feel any more.

'Cause I need to be next to you.
I need to share every breath with you.
I need to know I can see your smile each morning,
Look into your eyes each night for the rest of my life.
Here with you, near with you,
I need to be next to you.

I need to have your arms next to mine for all of time,
Holding you for all my life.
I need to feel you in my arms.


~I need to be next to you~. ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8563281/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8563281/ Sun, 23 Apr 2006 16:59:29 PDT
2. Hair Color? - Naturally, it's dirty blonde. It's been dyed almost every color of the spectrum. Right now it's a mixture of light / medium blonde.

3. Eye Color? - Blue-green.

4. Hieght? 5'0"... WHO ARE YOU CALLING SOMEONE TOO SMALL TO SEE EVEN WITH A MAGNIFYING GLASS?!?!

5. Wieght? - Er, no comment. I am pretty petite, though, and have been losing some lately.

6. Favorite Color? - Black, salmon, light gray, etc.

7. Mother and Father's full names? - Lawrence and Robyn.

8. Brothers/Sisters full names? - Derek.

9. If you could change your whole name, what would it be? Alphonse Elric! Hahahaha. <3

10. If you could change your hair color, what would it be? - Probably a really light blonde.

11. Your eye color? - Maybe a really light blue.

12. Would you like to have tan or fair skin? Fair skin is infinitely more beautiful.

13. Do you have tan or fair skin? Fair.

14. What do you look for in a guy? Oh, lots of things. A decent sense of humor, a nice mouth, kindness, sincerity, a sense of adventure. All that good stuff.

15. What's your favorite band or singer? HIM is one of my favorites, but I like waaay too many bands to name here.

16. If you could have one wish, what would it be? That I could know who my soulmate is and meet them.

17. Do you believe there is someone for everyone? I believe everyone has a soulmate they've shared their love with through time.

18. What religion are you? Er, not applicable.

19. Do you follow that religion? See above... !

20. Who is your best friend? Steph.

21. Who do you consider to be your "group" of friends? There's a couple different groups. I've got my Sally Butt Supply Crew which consists of Chel, Sebz and CA. Then there's the college crew of Ruth, Carly, Tabytha, John and Alex. Then there's random long-time friends like Steph.

22. Favorite food? Baked Ziti.

23. Favorite drink? Ice water!

24. Favorite alcohol? Er, ask me later.

25. Do you do drugs? No.

26. If so, which ones? ---

27. Do you get along with your family? Not really.

28. Who is your boyfriend right now? I don't have one.

29. If you don't have a boyfriend, who do you like? ... they know who they are.

30. What are your favorite TV shows? Fullmetal Alchemist, Inu-Yasha, Most Haunted, Charmed.

31. Movies? Pirates, Inu-Yasha movies, The Craft, Practical Magic, etc.

32. Do you like to read? I love to read.

33. What are your favorite books? Sherrilyn Kenyon's... er... Greek demi-god / half-vampire... romance novels. And Harry Potter.

34. If you had to give up one thing in your life, what would it be? Uuummm... hm. That's a tough one. If it can be intangible, my penchant for -procrastinating-.

35. Do you plan on going to college? Already there! 2 years to go!

36. If so, where and what will your major be? Studio Art.

37. Do you like school? Sometimes, if I actually have art courses.

38. Why or why not? This semester I got stuck with almost all Gen Ed's that have no purpose for me.

39. How many CD's do you own? Not a lot. Maybe about 40?

40. What kinds of music do you enjoy? Rock, '90's rock, alternative, punk, classic rock, sappy love songs.

41. Do you like children? Yes. They're cute as long as they're not mine.

42. Do you plan on having any? Nooot sure.

43. Where do you see yourself in 20 years? Married to a man who I can give my whole heart and soul to. I don't really know about anything else, but as long as I have love, s'all I need.

44. Do you like what you see? Huh? I see lots of things.

45. Do you think your smart? I don't think I'm smart; I know I'm smart.

46. Do you ever wish you were somene else? Alphon--- I mean! ... Suuuure! ;D

47. If so, who? Uuum... haha. Oh boy.

48. Who do you hate with all your heart? No one.

49. Why do you hate them? ----

50. Do you trust people? I generally do. It's just that sometimes I don't trust -myself-.

51. What's your favorite animal? KITTIES!

52. Do you have any pets? Yes!

53. If so, what are they and what are their names? Five cats. Harley, Sunni, Joey, Rini and Emmy. ;3

54. When is your birthday? July 14th.

55. Are you afraid of anything? Anyone? I'm afraid of growing old without love, music playing backwards and spiders.

56. If so, who and what? Don't make me type it again!!!


57. If you do have children later on,... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8530357/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8530357/ Thu, 20 Apr 2006 10:29:04 PDT
[Height?]: 5'0". Yes. I'm quite the shrimp.

[First thought when you wake up]: Gimme' five... ten... fifteen more minutes...

[All I need is]: Love. And some cosplay! ;]

[Love is]: The most amazing thing anyone can ever experience. I could write so much on what I think about love.


[If I could see one person right now]: There's a couple I would like to see. I would want to see people from my past that I haven't spoken to in a long time. Also, people from my present that I talk to but are far away.

[I’m afraid of]: Music playing backwards, spiders, and not finding love.

[I dream about]: Of the days of my youth in Resembo--- I mean, er... sheep?

-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R . .
[Been in love]: Yes.
[Cried when someone died]: None of my family has passed away. But I've cried when pets passed.
[Lied]: Little white lies, but I'm the world's most terrible liar.


-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[coke or pepsi]: Ice water.

[flowers or candy]: Flowers. My favorite flower smell is Lilac. And of course I'm inclined to like roses ( it's my middle name! )

[tall or short]: Er, depends?

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[What do you notice first?]: Mouth. My eyes always go to that first. Dunno'. I am a mouth person.

[last person you slow danced with]: My gosh. Er, must've been prom, senior year. And I danced with a bunch of people. Besides that, I probably randomly started dancing with Steph like, in an aisle at WalMart or something. Lol. I'm prone to spontaneous fits of waltzing in inappropriate places.

[worst question to ask]: Um... ?

-W H O-
[makes u laugh the most?]: Chel, Sebz, CA, Steph, Aaron, Amy, Tabytha, Ruth, Carly, John, Alex, etc. All my friends make me laugh a lot.

[makes you smile]: Um, see above?

[gives you a funny feeling when u see them]: Um, no comment?

[do you have a crush?]: Definitely no comment here!!!

[has a crush on u?]: GAH! STOP!

[is easier to talk to]: Steph, Chel and Sebz.

-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone
special to I.M. you?]: Ooooh, gosh. Yes, I have been known to do that.

[save aol/aim conversations]: If something special was said in them, yes. I have a couple from the past.

[wish you were a member of the opposite sex?]: YEAH! So I could be an amazing Alphonse Elric! ;]

[cried because of someone saying something to you]: Mm hm.

-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend]: Sorry, Steph. I love you, but it's the sisterly kind of love. Haha.

[been rejected?]: Of sorts.

[rejected someone]: Haven't really had the opportunity.

[used someone]: No.

[been cheated on]: No.

[done something you regret]: Definitely. Who hasn't?

[been drunk?]: Yes.

[done drugs?]: No.

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone]: April.

[hugged]: Probably Chel. She runs up behind me and squeezes the breath out of me. ;D

[u instant messaged]: Alex.

[that instant messaged you]: April.

[you laughed with]: Chel.

-D O .Y O U-
[color ur hair]: Oh God, yes. Too much to the point where I hardly have any left 'cause we had to cut all the fried pieces off, so I resorted to extensions.

[ever get off the damn computer]: I might as well NEVER. I'm always on this cursed contraption.

[habla espanol]: Nein!

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[smoke cigarettes]: On occasion, unfortunately. I need to... not... do that.

[obsessive]: About certain things.

[could u live without the computer?]: NO.

[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?]: Too many.

[what’s your favorite food?]: Baked Ziti.

[whats ur favorite fruit?]: Pears.

[drink alchohol?]: Sometimes.

[like watching sunrises or sunset]: Sunsets. We get the best view of them at work. I love them.

[what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?]: Emotional pain. Physical pain has the potential to heal, but sometimes emotional pain never does.

[trust others way too easily]: Yes, and I get hurt sometimes because of that. I usually let myself get attached to people.

[ Current Dress ] Rolled-up jeans, black flip-flops, a white tanktop with a... bright salmony... shirt thing over it that like... wraps. I can't describe that.

[ Current Makeup ] Plenty of Pinkee blush, nude lips, black mascara, subtle and shiny bronze eyeshadow. Pretty ' fresh-f... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8482163/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8482163/ Sat, 15 Apr 2006 19:14:10 PDT Steph's aunt's house, the New Year's Party House, hugging and kissing her family. Haha. They might as well be my family, anyway.

2.) How did you get the idea for your user name? - Ask Aaron. He gave it to me. Viva la Elricest!


3.) What song are you listening to right now? - If I had my music on, I'd be listening to T.A.T.U.'s version of " How Soon Is Now. " It's amazing.


4.) Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry? - Er, no. Sometimes I wish they'd all die off so we wouldn't pay so much attention to them.


5.) What color underwear are you wearing? - Wait, lemme' check. Okay, they have pink, purple and white stripes.


6.) Do you own an iPod? - Nope.

7.) What did you do this morning? - I woke up at about TWELVE in the afternoon ( I turned my alarm clock off ). Showered, was attacked by a stink bug while I got -out- of the shower, ate a bagel, watched " Hook, " wandered the house aimlessly, then went to work.


8.) What does your dad do for a living? - Does... something or other at Advanced Auto.


9.) Where do you work? - Only the best place EVER! Sally Beauty Supply! It's not even like work, 'cause we have so much fun. We're one big happy family.


10.) What ended your last relationship? - He refused to acknowledge my existance anymore.


11.) What are the last two digits of your phone number? - 65.


12.) What was the last concert you attended? - H.I.M.! Be still, my heart. <3 Ville Valo <3

13.) Who was with you? - KAYLEIGH! ;D


14.) What was the last movie you watched? - " Hook "


15.) What do you dislike at the moment? - That summer isn't coming fast enough!


16.) What food do you crave right now? - Hm, don't know. I just ate dinner, so I'm not really thinking about food right now.

17.) Did you dream last night? - If I did, I don't remember what I dreamed about.

18.) What was the last episode of a show you watched? - An episode of Aqua Teen Hunger Force. " YOU'S THE DRUNK ONE! " Haha.


19.) What is your favorite piece of jewelry? - My Fullmetal Alchemist necklace.


20.) Name those on your friends list who are like you. - Oh, there are too many. I tend to befriend lots of loud and silly people.


21.) What was the last thing you ate? - Meatloaf and some... sour cream and cheddar macaroni... things.


22.) Who is your best friend of the opposite sex? - Well, I don't really have a -best friend-, a BFF who is a guy. But there's Doughboy. There's Aaron Elric. Much love to both of them.


23.) Who last IMed you? - My gosh. Hell if I remember. I always end up talking to like, six people at once.

24.) Are you on any medication? - Nope.

25.) What side of the bed do you sleep on? - Any and every. I roll. A LOT. God help anyone sleeping in the same bed as me. I'd probably end up on top of them sideways.

26.) What color shirt are you wearing? - Lavender.

27) What color is your razor? - Pink.

28.) What is your favorite frozen treat? - Coldstone Ice Cream. Mmmm. So good.

29.) How many tattoos/piercings do you have? - One tattoo on my wrist, a cartilage piercing, and two lobe piercings in each ear.

30.) What's your favorite store? - Hm, I like a lot of stores. Bookstores are nice. I like Best Buy. Hot Topic. Random clothing stores.

31.) Are you thirsty right now? - Not really.

32) Can you imagine yourself getting married? - I sure hope so. I want to be in love so badly.

33.) Who's someone you haven't seen in a while and miss? - Joey.

34.) What did you do last night? - Played Flip Cup and King's Cup with Ruth, John, Alex, Ryan, Sarah and Alliyah.

35.) Do you care what people think about you? - I try to act like I don't, but I do. Not a whole lot. Just a little.

36.) Have you ever done something to instigate trouble? - Er, probably?

37.) Do you like your nose? - NO. I hate my nose. But at least I finally grew into my face.


38.) What color is your bedroom? - A boring shade of off-white, because my mother insisted on painting the whole damn house the same color. I'm hoping to one day paint it some interesting color. Maybe like Bam Margera's room; dark purple and red.

39.) When was the last time you worked out? - Hahahaha. I'm just gonna' leave it at that.

40.) What is your font color on aim? - Black.

41.) Have you ever kissed anyone? - Yeah.

42.) Where do you live? - Kutztown, Pennsylvania. Aka The Boonies Aka Bumblefuck Aka The... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8420285/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8420285/ Sun, 09 Apr 2006 17:55:51 PDT ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8388473/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8388473/ Thu, 06 Apr 2006 20:08:18 PDT
Well you've got your reasons and you've got your lies and you've got your manipulations, they cut me down to size. Seems the road less traveled shows happiness unraveled and you've got to take a little dirt to keep what you love.



... you're stretching out your arms to something that's just not there... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8306514/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8306514/ Wed, 29 Mar 2006 16:05:57 PST How can I expect you to forgive?
Clinging to the past, I shed our blood
and shattered your chance to live.

Though I knew the laws, I paid no heed.
How can I return your wasted breath?
What I did not know has cost you dear
for there is no cure for death.

Beautiful mother, soft and sweet,
Once you were gone, we were not complete.
Back through the years we reached for you;
Alas, was not meant to be.

And how can I make amends
For all that I took from you?
I lead you with hopeless dreams.
My brother, I was a fool.


Don't cry for the past now, brother mine.
Neither you nor I are free from blame.
Nothing can erase the things we did
For the path we took was the same.

Beautiful mother, soft and sweet.
Once you were gone, we were not complete.
Back through the years we reached for you;
Alas, was not meant to be.

My dreams made me blind and you.
I long to return to that time.
I follow without a word.
My brother, the fault is mine.

So where do we go from here
And how to forget and forgive?
What's gone is forever lost.
Now all we can do is live. ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8277893/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8277893/ Sun, 26 Mar 2006 18:50:47 PST
...

You never see the lonely me at all.

I... -fall-.

...

Without you, I'm nothing.

... without you, I'm nothing at all... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8162858/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/8162858/ Tue, 14 Mar 2006 19:41:14 PST ] ... Because I have nothing better to do.


What if:
[1] I committed....a crime against the fashion police: I'd just make you take everything off and put on LEATHER PANTS!!!

[2] I said I liked you....with ketchup and mustard: Just slap a bun on me, baybeh.

[3] I .... you: ADORE!

[4] I lived next door to....your mother: I love in the same house as my mom. So YAY!

[5] I started...poisoning your drinking water: I'd pour myself a glass, then switch them when you aren't looking.

[6] I stole....your younger sibling: PLEASE DO! You're more than welcome to! ( He's my twin, but I'm a minute older. )

[7] I was ....declared a criminal on 'America's most wanted': I'd capture you and take the reward. I -am- a starving artist, afterall. >]

[8] I ran away from ...you: - ... Sob. -

[9] I got into a fight.....with your fictional rp-character. Never! We don't fight, brother... we... <3

[10] I dropped off the face of...your face!!!: Um... haha?

[11] I...finally beat Graham in the 'rugged & manly' contest. Um, that would be fantastic?

What do you think about my:
[1] Personality: Shyyy.
[2] Sense of humour: Er... different from mine?
[3] Intelligence: - Thumbs up. -
[4] Drawings: Amahzing. ;]

Other:
[1] Who are you....planning on shipping me in a crate to? Myself. I'll just store you in a box in my room.

[2] Are we -fiends-? Yes. Alchemy fiends!

[3] When and how did we...eat the president? Mm. Cannibalism.

[4] How have I....mangled your psyche beyond repair? Oh, you mangle it everyday. All from the TORTURE!

[5] What do you think of me...? You know what I think of you. <3

[6] What's the fondest memory you have of...idolizing..me? Oh, there are too many. <333

[7] How long do you think...it will take for you to cease resisting my charms? I couldn't resist even for a second. - Swoons. -

[8] Do you love .....grapes? Yes, grapes. Grapes. Oh dear. Haha.

[9] Have I ever hurt you...with a chainsaw? You sawed off my arm and leg in Equivalent Excha---- oh wait.

[10] Would you hug...the air in the near vicinity of me? Awww. Certainly.

[11] Would you __ me? I -refuse- to leave that word in there. Because..it's ridiculous. ...Wait. That looks worse when there's a space instead. *twitches* ... *Fills the blank with 'shredded paper'.* .... *Lights it on fire* $%&^ Would you WHAT now?! Was it a swear word before you added the underscore... ? >D

[12] Would you marry .....feet? ... Noooo.

[13] Would you give me.....your soul? Aaron 0wnz my s0ul. <3

[14] Emotionally, I'm...? Fragile?

[15] Do you wish I....had a brain-transplant with a small house pet? Nooo.

[16] On a scale of 1-10, how worthy am I.... of you jumping on a plane and visiting? You're a one-million on the scale. 'CAUSE YOU'RE GONNA' JUMP ON A PLANE AND GO TO OTAKON WITH ME! <3

[17] Give/tell me... one of your deepest darkest secrets. Oh God, no.

[18] Am I someone you'd... sell your organs on the black market for? Well, the ones I didn't *need*, at least.

[19] How long have you... absolutely lusted over/worshiped/built shines for me? Much lust for my dear brother. <3

[20] Describe me in one.... (thousand) words. ... leather... pants... ?

[21] What was your first impression....of panty hose? Okay, now you're just being silly.

[22] Do you still think that way about men...in thongs... now? What?! Man-thongs?

[23] What do you think my weakness is? Writhing and stuttering. HAHAHA.

[24] Do you think I'll ..enslave you into my growing harem of....well..harem people, which sit around and gather dust on my shelves? I do believe I'm already a part of your harem. Haha.

[25] What about me makes you happy..in your pants? *Dies* #$%$%^$%^ LEATHER PANTS!! @$%4356

[26] What about me makes you sad..in your pants? Wait.. Er... hm.

[27] What reminds you of me..at? Certainly not -me-. But...raw flesh. That sounds completely normal. Haha, what the heck?

[28] What's something you would change about me...ets? Track meets. Umm.

[29] How well do you know my...dentist? Can't say I know the guy.

[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't....because the government was taping our conversations ? Oh yes.

[31] Do you think I would kill someone's.......house plant? If ya' really hated the thing, sure. Wait, do you have some kind of vendetta against my IVY PLANT?! I KNOW YOUR SCHEME!

[32] Are we close..... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/7952500/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/7952500/ Mon, 20 Feb 2006 12:16:51 PST
So, Friday started off late. One of the driver's car broke down so we had to switch cars and stuff, so we were behind schedule. But it was all good.

Then there was the 3 hour car ride in which I tried to sleep, but obviously couldn't because I was too EXCITED!

So we get a little lost before arriving in front of the monstrously huge hotel. We dragged our luggage up 4 flights of stairs ( those goddamn narrow stairs that we became so acquainted with because the wait for the elevator was ridiculous ) and headed to our room. We were all pretty amazed at how big the room was. There was one bed ( that we later discovered could fit about SIX people ) and a ton of floor space.

Then me and Tabytha changed into our costumes. Tabytha was Yura of the Hair from Inu-Yasha and I was Winry Rockbell from Fullmetal Alchemist ( the best Winry EVER, I might add! ) The first day, I carried my REAL wrench!

We had to stand in the pre-registration line. Within 10 minutes of standing there, some random guy with an expensive camera asks for a picture of me. I oblige, of course!

So then we went to the lobby to mingle. I tapped an Edward with my wrench to get a picture! I got some really great pictures of characters from Fullmetal Alchemist. I got a couple Edwards, an armor!Alphonse, an Izumi, a Roy Mustang!

Hm... what did we do that night? We watched some Fullmetal Alchemist... then... OH YEAH! Then we ran into Mike McFarland, who does the FMA voice of Jean Havoc. I don't think a lot of people recognized him ( he was actually working the projector for the Fullmetal Alchemist episodes ) but we went up to him after everyone left the room and he was standing outside the door. I had him sign my plastic nametag ( he signed it, " Winry is hawt. Mike McFarland. " Havoc. " <3 ". Haha. I LOVE it. And I took a picture with him. I saw him later, which I'll tell you about a couple paragraphs down.

That night, me and Ruth danced at the rave 'til like, 4 in the AM. It was crazy, but AMAHZING! Glowsticks everywhere. That's when we met up with Ville Valo lookalike boy. OhmyGOD, he reminded me of Ville Valo. Not so much looked like him, but made me think of him. So I took his picture. Then me and Ruth raved.

I got about 3 hours of sleep that night.

Me and Tabytha woke up early to go to Kirby Morrow's panel. That man is so silly, lemme' tell ya'. Everyone was laughing their asses off the whole time. But what a great guy. He's adorable. His regular voice sounds like his characters ( Miroku, Trowa Barton, etc. ). We stayed in the same room for Richard Cox's panel. He's pretty silly and random, too! But he was a lot more mellow than Kirby. His regular voice sounds like Inu-Yasha, but higher-pitched and not so raspy and gruff. At one point, I went to take a picture of him ( I was about 3 rows back ) and he saw my camera up and posed and said, " thanks. " Haha. I just nodded and smiled.

Then we waited in line for their autographs for almost 2 hours. We were standing along the wall in the area Richard and Kirby were and Mike McFarland went walking past in front of us. We saw each other; he winked at me, I waved and smiled. Yaaay. Maybe he recognized me from the day before when I saw him. I WAS the best Winry there, afterall. ;]

We went to the Merchant's Hall after that. I got a Fullmetal Alchemist print of Edward and Alphonse, a Fullmetal Alchemist keychain, a Fullmetal Alchemist necklace, a keychain of Inu-Yasha and Kagome kissing from movie 2 and a Maes Hughes figure.

And theeeen we hit the bottle. Hard. Ruth and Carly were my drinking buddies that night. I don't really even remember what all I drank. Parrot Bay, Smirnoff, Strawberry Daiquiri, some Vodka, Puckers, etc I'm sure. So by this time, I'm about FIVE sheets to the wind, not just three. I was going crosseyed. I couldn't walk to save my life. Everyone went outside for a cigarette. I can't remember if we hung out with Captain Jack Sparrow at that time... wait... well, we met him the night before, but... yeah. My memory's a tad fuzzy.

So yes, the night before we met Captain Jack Sparrow. What an AMAZING one he was. The costume was PERFECT. He was the best Jack Sparrow ever, next to Johnny Depp. After being at the rave, or mc chris concert ( I can't remember which one ) me and Carly went to go drink more. We went up to Jack Sparrow's room and he mixed us some drinks. I was faaar gone at this point ( I was rambling, laughing about nothing, telling Carly I loved her, etc. ) Then we went down to the rave. I was clinging to Jack Sparrow's middle for support because I couldn't walk real well. Ah, escorted by Jack Sparrow. Amazing!

So we raved some more. mc chris was the dj. mc chris, what a silly bitch. He's this short, sto... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/7535987/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/7535987/ Sat, 07 Jan 2006 13:37:44 PST
(001) Your gender: Female.
(002) Straight/gay/bi?: Straight.
(003) Single?: Perpetually!
(004) Want to be? Not anymore.
(005) Your birth day: July 14th, 1986.
(006) Age you wish you were: 21!
(009) The color of your eyes: Blue-green.
(010) Piercings? Two in each ear and one in my left cartilage.
(012) Tattoos: YES! The black heart on my wrist. ;D

DO YOU...

(013) Smoke: On occasion.
(014) Do drugs: No.
(015) Read the newspaper: Sometimes at school.
(017) Talk to strangers: Er, not really.
(018) Take walks in the rain: I love running around in the rain like an idiot.
(020) Like to drive fast?: I pretty much go only 5mph over the speed limit.
(021) Hurt yourself: I've punched things when angry.
(022) Been out of the country: Nope.
(023) Been in love: Yes.
(024) Done drugs: You already asked me this #$^#$^%!!
(025) Gone skinny dipping: Yesss. I always do in the summer. And I will ALWAYS do it, despite people thinking it's creepy! It's naughty of me, but it's a lot of fun. Especially at night. Everything's quiet and the water is still and DID YOUR HEAD EXPLODE YET?! Haha. Kidding. But yeah. I like swimming naked. <3
(026) Had a surgery: 5 Stitches for my Dollhouse Scar!
(027) Ran away from home: Nope.
(028) Played strip poker: No, but I HAVE played Strip Padiddle! Whenever you see a car with only one headlight, you yell PADIDDLE and the last person to yell it has to take off an article of clothing.
(029) Gotten beaten up: No.
(030) Been picked on: Did in elementary school. People used to call me Small Fry. Haha.
(031) Been on stage: Yes.
(032) Slept outdoors: Yep. Too many bugs.
(034) Pulled an all-nighter: I did the other day, actually! Stayed up 'til 5:30AM watching Hayao Miyazaki movies. Haha.
(036) Talked on the phone all night: Yeah.
(038) Slept all day: Not ALL day, but damn long enough.
(039) Killed someone: Well, um... don't tell anyone, but... -- haha. Just kidding. I've WANTED to a couple times.
(040) Made out with a stranger: No.
(041) Had sex with a stranger: No.
(042) Kissed the same sex: Only Steph, me sexy sis-a-roonie. Haha.
(043) Done anything sexual with the same sex: Nope.
(044) Been betrayed: Yeah, TONS. It sucks.
(045) Broken the law: Don't think I did.
(046) Met a famous person: Er, I was in the same room as Ville Valo and Bam! ;D
(047) Been on radio/tv: I used to be an anchor for our middle school's news thing. Haha.
(048) Been in a mosh-pit: I was unwillingly caught up in one.
(049) Had a nervous breakdown: No.
(050) been criticized about your sexual performance: Virgin!
(051) Had a dream that kept coming back: Oh yes.
(052) Shoe brand: CONVERSE! <3
(053) School: is a waste of my time. But yeah, I go to college.
(054) Wear hats: I'm wearing my FUCKIN' SEXY HIM HAT right now!!!
(055) Judged other people by their clothing: Not really.
(057) Favorite place to shop: Lots of places. Boscov's, Best Buy, The Attic, etc.
(058) Favorite article of clothing: Probably my HIM tee.
(059) Are you trendy: I try to be.

BELIEFS...

(060) Believe in life on other planets: Sure.
(061) Miracles: Don't really know.
(062) Astrology: YES. Omfg, my horoscopes are always dead-on. It's so weird.
(063) Magic: No.
(064) God: Not sure...
(066) Santa: Noooo.
(067) Ghosts: Definitely.
(068) birth: How would I have been a fucking fetus if I didn't believe in birth? Lay off the crack, question-asker.
(069) Love at first sight: No. What if the person you see is an asshole and you don't know it?
(070) Yin and Yang: Um... ?
(071) Witches: No.
(072) Easter bunny: Nope. But I love whoever's leavin' me chocolate!!!
(077) Do you remember your first love: Of course.
(078) Still love him/her: I'll always love him, but I haven't heard from him for a long time.
(079) Do you consider love a mistake: Love is never wrong.
(080) What do you find romantic: Candles, dates to McDonald's ( ROFL Kesh & Ahri ), ummm... what else... I can't think of anything.
(081) Turn-on: Five o'clock shadows, black eyeliner, the way a guy's like.. hips are constructed, sense of humor.
(082) Turn-off: Feet... um...
(083) Do you base your judgement on looks alone: No.
(085) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? Er... ?
(086) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? Some do, some don't. All a matter of opinion. I get compliments but no dates. Go fuckin' figure.
(087) What is best about the opposite sex: Sense of humor, eyes, etc.
(088) What's the last present someone gave you: My signed Ville photo!
... ]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/7519317/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/7519317/ Thu, 05 Jan 2006 16:29:43 PST
None of my friends call me to do anything fun anymore. I try to get in touch with people but they're all off doing their own fun stuff with other people. I've been sitting at home way too much when I would kill to just go out somewhere for a few hours and do something fun.

My one friend got a boyfriend ( now she's saying she's falling in LOVE with him after meeting him in NOVEMBER ) so I never hear from her anymore. I see on her myspace, her boyfriend leaving her comments about them having so much fun, baking cookies and what-not.


If I stay at home by myself doing nothing anymore, I'm going to slit my pretty little tattoo in half.


~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/7492124/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/7492124/ Mon, 02 Jan 2006 19:00:37 PST
Everytime the Wings of a Butterfly video comes on, I FREAK. OUT. I scoot really close to the tv and get this dreamy look in my eyes and just stare happily. And then I scream and giggle and shit and it's crazy. Hahaha.

But I LOVE THEM! I still can't believe I was seven feet away from Ville Valo, and that I actually got to see them live. Aaah, so amazing.

And now I have cd's and t-shirts and jewelry and cd holders and stuff from them. And my tattoo! - which is the ultimate display of my love for Ville. <3

When Ville sings the part, " for your sooooouuuuul~ " and it goes on awhile, I swear to God it's orgasm-turned-song. I bet that's what he sounds like everytime he has an orgasm. He sings like that and... the face he makes in the video when he does that... my God... <3

So yeah. Just felt like typing this pretty pointless entry since when I logged on, it told me the free subscription was almost over so.

~ From lashes to ashes, from lust to dust ~

~ It's not our fault if death's in love with us ~

~ For your soul, my love ~

~ Your pretty face is going to Hell ~

~ Your love is a razorblade kiss ~

~ It's our hearts' little grave and the salt in our wounds ~

~ I welcome your sweet six-six-six in my heart ~

~ Baby, join me in death ~

~ In joy and sorrow, my home's in your arms ~

~ Drunk on shadows and lost in a lie ~

~ Killing ourselves a kiss at a time ~

]]> ~elricest http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/7484279/ http://elricest.deviantart.com/journal/7484279/ Sun, 01 Jan 2006 23:28:35 PST [ ]I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[X] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[X] I wish my hair was a different color. ( Oh God, I'm never dying my hair AGAIN. I fried it way too much. )
[X] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[X] I have a tattoo. ( YEEEES! Y-E-S!!! My lovely Ville-wrist-heart that Aaron HATES and I LOVE! <3 )
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance. ( Some days. )
[X ] have/I've had braces.
[X] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free. ( To change my nose... )
[X] I've been told I'm 'cute' by a complete stranger.
[X] I have more than 2 piercings. ( 2 in each ear and my cartilage. )
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[X] I have freckles. ( Faint ones on my nose. )

Family/Home Life

[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house. ( No, but my brother's workin' on it. )
[X] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work

[X] I'm in school. ( Can't wait to be DONE. )
[X] I have a job. ( Sally Beauty Supply, with my sisters and mom! ;D )
[ ] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I always do my homework. ( Pft. Haha. )
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment

[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[X] Disney movies still make me cry.
[X] I've peed from laughing. ( Haha! )
[X] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something. ( My brother once stapled his thumbs together. ROFL! )
[X] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose. ( Mountain Dew, and boy did it BURN. )
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[X] I've gotten stitches. ( Oh, this is quite a tale. Well, a bunch of us were running around upstairs at Steph's aunt's house. I turned the corner into her cousin's room and I bashed my shin on her DOLLHOUSE, the corner of its roof, and got 5 stitches. So now I affectionately refer to it as ' My Dollhouse Scar. ' )
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[X] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend. ( With Steph. <3 And we laughed at everything in the waiting room. Lol. )
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] serious surgery.
[X] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling

[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[X] I've been on a plane. ( To Disneyworld! ;] )
[ ] I've been to Canada. ( My brother calls it ' America's Hat. ' )
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe. ( My mom has and she DIDN'T TAKE ME WITH HER #$%^%$ )
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences

[ ] I've gotten lost in my city. ( Can't remember anything specific, but I'm completely directionally-challenged. )
[X] I've seen a shooting star.
[X] I've wished on a shooting star.
[X] I've seen a meteor shower.
[X] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[X] I've gone skinny dipping. ( Aaron, you think this is creepy?! I do it all the time in the summer! Steph's aunt's pool, my neighbor's pool. It's a lot of fun. ;D )
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[X] I've been Skiing
[X] I've been in a play. ( I was in Drama Club all 4 years of H.S. )
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet. ( Maybe someday... )
[X] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[X] I've sat on a roof top at night. ( And watched fireworks. )
[ ] I've played chicken.
[X] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[X] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. ( That movie is seriously fucked up. Lol... )
[X] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Sexuality

[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[X... ]]> ~elricest