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New stuff, new stuff...


Me and Becca wanna start a new stock account...aanndd.....here's a nice neat little folder for the photoshoot I did with Joe- [link]
uum....My sister is pregnant.....I already posted a journal about that, but I'm still excited about it, lol

OH! XSM is doing a Twilight parody, and it's going to PWN all and I will link everyone who is cool and hates Twilight to that just as soon as we have it done. (Which should be fairly soon) And for all those lovely xsm fans out there that care, KC4 is aaaaalmost done. There were some technical and personnel difficulties, and so the release got set back a lot, but that happens all the time when you're working on something that's supercoolawesome.

I think that's about it...I am kinda having a boring life atm, lol. Which is just fine with me, because oh too soon it will be the start of a brand spankin' new quarter and my torture will re-ensue. Ok, so it isn't torture, cause Rob is an awesome teacher, but still.

Well what do you know, I do have news. My work has been broken into twice in the last...2..ish? weeks. And there were two places of business around here that were robbed at gun point.
yikes.


Later peoples!
[link]

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/28654919/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/28654919/ Sun, 29 Nov 2009 15:50:22 PST BandGeek9723
SO GO LOOK AT IT!




Oh, and COMMENT!!!! You can fave, too....but LEAVE COMMENTS PEOPLE!


sheesh.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/28596667/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/28596667/ Thu, 26 Nov 2009 18:27:15 PST
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!


i'm so happy i could explode.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/27565027/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/27565027/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 19:13:23 PDT
As soon as I make some prints in my photo class, there should be a couple pics up here. I can get my hands on a decent scanner, so yay!

umm...um um...

I still hate Twilight! I hate it with a passion and think it's honestly the stupidest thing in the entire world!


Anyway, now that that will get me lots of angry little fan girls telling me how wrong I am, I just figured I'd put something else up here cause I actually had a chance to get online.

Life has been pretty good for me lately. I am reconnecting with my family, going to school, and feeling just pretty darn good about life. I'm in photo 1 atm and I'm having uber amounts of fun with it, and I'm also in my advanced year of ASL. Intimidating, but awesome at the same time.
Oh! I have a new tattoo. or...2 new tattoos, depending on whether or not I mentioned the one on my foot, lol. I got some stars on my foot, and I got the triforce on the back of my neck. It's pretty awesome, and I must say that the tat on my foot was pretty much the most painful thing ever.
They are both courtesy of my friend Seth at B&B Mystery Inc


That's about it for now.


]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/27209339/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/27209339/ Mon, 14 Sep 2009 13:21:29 PDT
I'm not going to go into detail atm, but I just wanted to let people know that I am alive, and I'm sorry I seem to have just been ignoring this site...


ta for now.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/25097770/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/25097770/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 21:32:50 PDT Currently I am in finals week, which let me tell you, is ever so joyful. And by joyful I mean I want to stab someone's eyes out. (One guess as to whom I am referring, Becca)

OH! FantasticamazingIwannapeemyself news- Chris' dad is paying for a cruise for our honeymoon :3 That's right, hoes, I get to go to the Caribbean. Bam.


I'm really trying to think of infinitely clever things to say, and think of what else I need to update people about. I swear when I started this journal I had more on my mind. A cat has adopted me. I have named him Frodo. He is black and an utter sweetheart. I have massive rope-burn on my shoulder blades from wearing a harness yesterday for Chris' final photography project (he's doing crime scenes, and I was "hanged")
I sincerly want a tattoo, but won't even be able to think about getting one until after I have helped my mom all I can with wedding stuffs.
(which is five months away. my goodness i may faint)

Reading for my own personal pleasure is a thing of the past. It's only text books and ASL dictionaries for me at the moment, and it's making me very depressed. I cannot wait for my 6 day break inbetween Spring and Summer Quarter, cause oh man am I going to go to town on every book in sight.


I'm finally becoming ok with the changes that are going on around me(the last few years, especially), though I will admit I cry about them a lot more than I should still.
Most of the things that are there, no one even knows I still think about. But I do. Won't stop nagging at the back of my mind. Too many sad things to think about. Too many pissy arguments to dwell on. Personally, I don't think that life is too short to be in a fight(or pissed off at, or holding a grudge against..whatever) with someone, because I am of the belief that this life will last way too long. But I do think that it is so much more enjoyable when you don't have the weight of an on going feud on your heart.
I've tried recently to mend a broken fence, and it didn't work out too well...Didn't end bad..just nothing came of it. But I did try. And that's all any of us can do. You can't force your company or friendship on anyone. It's pointless to try.

A few things I have noticed lately that make me sad-
I can't listen to HIM anymore. Funeral of Hearts came on the other day on my iPod, and I burst into tears.
I don't like vampires as much as I used to.
It doesn't matter to me that I don't write anymore.
Cartoons aren't as interesting to me (unless they are Looney Tunes)


And so on and so forth.
My journals are so random at times.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/24488397/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/24488397/ Tue, 28 Apr 2009 20:53:09 PDT ttly got into brooke's pants





xD




yeah. figure that one out


<3

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/24473034/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/24473034/ Mon, 27 Apr 2009 23:30:00 PDT





_-cries-

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/24334772/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/24334772/ Sun, 19 Apr 2009 22:00:09 PDT btw, go check out a band called Ra, Ra, Riot. They opened for DCFC and they were AMAZING. All I have to say is how could they not be with an electric violin, and an electric cello. Honestly.

ANYWAY! I get to go see Paramore(eh) and No Doubt(YEAH!) on the 29th of June, which will bring my concert count up to 3 this year (the first being Ludo. Again. WEEEEEEEEEE)
As for the bands I've seen- Ludo, This Providence, Sing It Loud, The Morning Light, Ra, Ra, Riot, The Cold War Kids, and Death Cab For Cutie.

5 of those 7 bands were fantastic. And Nate from Sing It Loud, dood you are so cool! It was awesome talking to you. Keep up the being nice thing. It works for ya.

And yes, Tyler. Now This Providence knows you exsist

but...yeah...I think that's all I was saying for this journal. I also wanted to list my friends, cause I'm whoring out the ones that are new to dA.

Mah Freends/People who are way important to me(this list will keep updating itstelf, beeteadubs)



]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/24031672/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/24031672/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 21:09:49 PDT [link]

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/23500172/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/23500172/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 00:25:47 PST
1) I'm a Christian

2) In ASL I feel like I've finally found my calling. I find the language to be beautiful, and I think that the history and culture of the Deaf is absolutely fascinating.

3) Musicals mean a lot more to me than people know. Something about telling a story (literally) with music moves me in a way nothing else can. Sure songs tell a story...but musicals are different. They make me so happy.

4) I can be very laid back, and very stubborn.

5) At any given moment in time, I am having an internal argument that I usually can't resolve. It usually centers around past experiences and choices. I feel like I've always made the wrong ones, with a few exceptions.

6) My sympathy gets me in trouble often. It makes me want to believe everyone. Even my worst enemy could come up to me and tell me something horrible and sad, and I'd want to believe it and help.

7) I have a defense mechanism that saves me from myself for number 6. And even more so when I am being too trusting. I never want to believe that someone is telling a lie, even if the evidence is right in front of me that they are. My defenses make it possible to filter them, even though it goes against my nature.

8) I always connect little things to one another. I marvel over the small happenings in life that have resulted in something so life altering for me and my family. The little steps it took to get somewhere. Like the first time I heard of one of my best friends, I was told I'd hate her. (a bad example...but I'm tired)

9) My mind works in a bizarre way that makes no sense to anyone else. My logic doesn't work for anyone other than me.

10) I cry easily because there is a lot of heartbreak in this world that can't be fixed.

11) Feeling helpless is torture for me.

12) My comfort food is generally something spicy. Like fresh salsa with fresh jalapenos.

13) I would still sing if you pushed play.

14) I am forever grateful to my school and to my job even though I hate them both, because they gave me some of the best people in my life.

15) I haven't written in a long time, but I keep feeling like I should be, and every day that I don't, I'm wasting time in doing something important.

16) I can't live without cats. I've tried it, and it depresses me.

17) Whenever I can get the time and money, I will take ballet. My sister has always told me it would be a shame to not do anything with such nice legs (<3 seester)

18) College has taught me that I do not enjoy school. I like learning, but I'm a really unorganized person, and that isn't condusive to a good college career.

19) I've finally begun taking things that hurt me in the past and applying them in my life as learning tools and ways I can mature and grow.

20) I'm getting married in 8 months, and it's scary because I still feel like it isn't real, and I'm going to wake up and be an awkward 14 year old that hates herself.

21) Instead I just wake up and realize I'm an awkward 22 year old that hates herself.

22) Serial killers have always interested me in a very morbid way, and I have always studied them, and been intrigued by the psychology behind what they do. Jack the Ripper is my favorite. Because it is still unsolved.

23) I discovered growing up really sucks because that's when you are told all of your family's secrets.

24) I still keep in my heart the 'real' Atticus.

25) I forever appreciate the extra miles my friends have walked for me over the years. I love each and every one of you. For taking cracks out of the walls, for making me laugh when I need it, for giving me two when I say seven...and on and on. Thank you <3


Just 25 random things. I think they were supposed to be more about my personal thoughts or something...I unno. I'm really tired and I'm not even sure much of this made any sense.

So yep. TWL + NDPTs = Fun times at the C.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/23225996/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/23225996/ Sun, 15 Feb 2009 23:12:13 PST



That is all.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/22953986/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/22953986/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 22:04:33 PST

Jan. 31st, 2009.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/22823028/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/22823028/ Mon, 26 Jan 2009 12:39:58 PST Things I Like
TALLY HALL! My cat, Atticus (<3). My red iPod, and new orange phone (chrisandnatiloveyou). Gaming. Being a geek. Working with Sparrow. Living with Sparrow. My wedding dress design (it's custom! ). My fellow NDPT. Spicy food. Fantasy novels. Agatha Christie. Chuck Palahniuk. Being a few months away from being married to Chris. Chris (in general). Going to Deaf events. Texting. DDRing. (I'm addicted to both). Watching my nephew's sign vocab grow. Sleeves. Tongue piercings. Red headed boys (had a thing for them ever since I was a wee kid). Chris' eyes. Eternal Sunshine. Ludo, and Andrew Volpe (he is such a sweetie!). My knee-high Converse (oh they look so freakin sweet). Twirling dresses. High heels. Greytones. Threadless.com. Lord of the Rings (I haven't forgotten you, my love). MUSICALS (oh how they make my world bright). Hanging out with my sister (she is such a good one..) Watching crime shows with my mom. Stephen King. Anita Blake. Jean-Claude. Randomly breaking out into song with "Go-Getter Greg" so my sister will laugh. Making movies with XSM. Theatre. Singing until my throat hurts. Scary games that make me not want to move an inch (in the game). Platformers. RPGs. Vague stabs (lol, they're so funny). Playing Rock Band 2 with My Fancy Cakes (it looks good on ya). Being able to run at top speed at Adam, and getting caught by him everytime. Calling Matt "Mouse". Figuring out random connections amongst my friends (srsly. Evangel Emily??? lol so bizarre). My ASL teacher (he is so helpful, and is a genuinely great teacher)

Things I Dislike
Baby killings labled 'choice'. Dumb tattoos(stop getting your other half's name tatooed on you! it's dumb!). Thursday (who will forever be on this list for being untalented. Right Hat? Right.) Monroe piercings (don't be insulted. just not my thang). BOYS WHO SPARKLE(come on people! are you serious????? sparkling vampires?!! you disgust me). People who glare at my friends for no good reason. The movie Titanic (I want to stab it in the face). Neck tattoos (they look ok on some people, but most of the time, people get something stupid tattooed there). Racist people. People who want to argue with you about politics or religion just because they want to try and prove you wrong. Boys at work always walking around with their pants so low you can see their boxers (seriously, pull up your pants, or I'll ductape them to you). Star Wars(that's right. I said it). POT SMOKERS, DRUG USERS, AND DRINKERS (when did it stop being cool to be sober?). Excessive cussing. Cigarette smoke. The way TWL is acting. Having hats pulled off my head. Having shots in my eyes (no lie. it happened to me). Septum piercings. Blondes (I'm a blonde, so shush. I don't date blonde guys. ....cept Chris but that's diffrent. he's hot). Ninjas (sorry Broo ;-; I still love you!). Crack. Cold(stupid global warming). Dumb mushy nicknames (amongst couples). Blurry pictures (they aren't neat just cause of the angle, people!). Richard (lawl. I had to, Kae ).

Alright, alright. That's it. I'm done for now.
I decided against the angry post, because I'm not a very angry person. So maybe once I've calmed down about the issue, I'll just write about it then. That way it's less anger, more logic. (Oh, and just so no one thinks I'm talking about them, it's not about a person. It's about drugs/drinking. I also don't want my friends coming up to me and asking what's wrong, lol)

And now, to once again go smack Chris for attention.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/22006009/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/22006009/ Mon, 15 Dec 2008 20:58:59 PST [x] you love hoodies
[x] you love jeans
[ ] dogs are better then cats
[x] its hilarious when people get hurt
[x] you've played with/against boys on a team
[x] sometimes shopping is torture
[x] sad movies suck
[x] you own an XBOX (do 360s count? I think so. Yes.)
[x] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[x] at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter
[x] you own/owned a DS, PS2, or Sega
[ ] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[ ] sometimes you watch sports on TV
[x] gory movies are cool
[ ] you go to your dad for advice
[ ] you own like a trillion baseball hats
[ ] you used to/do collect football collector cards
[ ] baggy sweatpants are cool to wear
[x]its kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors
[ ] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[ ] sports are fun
[x] sometimes you talk with food in your mouth
[x] sometimes you sleep at night with your socks on
[x] you have fished at least once
TOTAL = 16



YOUR GIRL SIDE:
[ ] sometimes you love to shop
[x] you wear eyeliner, sometimes
[x] sometimes you go to your mom for advice
[ ] you consider cheer leading a sport
[ ] you hate wearing the color black
[x] you like going to the mall
[ ] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[x] you like wearing jewelry
[ ] you cried watching The Notebook
[x] skirts are a big part of your wardrobe
[ ] shopping is one of your hobbies
[x] you don't like the movie Star Wars (Don't think that's a girl thing. I think it's a 'good taste thing' ...I'm going to get hit for that)
[ ] you are/were in gymnastics
[ ] it takes you around one hour to shower
[ ] you smile a lot more than you should
[ ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[x] you care about what you look like
[x] you like wearing dresses when you can
[ ] you wear body spray/perfume
[x] you like high heel shoes
[x] you used to play with dolls as a kid
[ ] you like putting makeup on others
[ ] you like being the star of almost everything
[ ] pink is one of your favorite colors
TOTAL= 10

Boy side: 16
Girl side: 10

aww...ghey....XD

Btw, next journal is going to be super ranty, and is going to piss more than a few people off. YAY! Just wanted to get this out of the way first.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/21654689/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/21654689/ Mon, 24 Nov 2008 19:59:16 PST [link]

Spontaneity are go!

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/21431049/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/21431049/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 00:28:43 PST [link] Coming up with stupid schemes and plans with Chris. Planning for my wedding. My engagment ring. My 360. Running around and acting like a complete idiot with Tyler at work (go detective ninjas in training!). Spicy food. Fantasy novels. Agatha Christie. Chuck P. Jack and Sally wedding cakes. My cat, Atticus (who still acts like a kitten and is a big ol' brat, like me). DDRing until I can't stand up, and then DDRing some more. The nickname Sparrow gave me, that's become an inside joke in a lot of ways. Learning ASL. Eternal Sunshine. Ludo, and Andrew Volpe (he is such a sweetie!). Being outside and wrapped in a blanket weeth mah gurlfraind Broooke while the guys are being dumb. Twirling dresses. High heels. Sleeves on boys(mmmmmmmm). Greytones. Threadless.com. Lord of the Rings (I haven't forgotten you, my love). MUSICALS (oh how they make my world bright). Picking on Dustin with part two of Team Stephler (lol, the looks he gets on his face are priceless). Being one third of an elite top secret crime-fighting trio. Watching my nephew do sign language. Randomly breaking out into song with "Go-Getter Greg" so my sister will laugh.

Things I dislike- Baby killings labled 'choice'. People who think they know more about my beliefs than I do (I'm not saying they can't be well informed. I'm saying I hate it when they try to tell me what I'm thinking). Dumb tattoos. People who say they dislike someone even though they don't know them. The band, Thursday (I'm convinced none of them know how to play their instruments). Septum piercings (I know, I know. It's the newest thing. But I've never liked them, and I never will). The movie/books that go along with "Twilight" (I've never read them, or seen the movie. But I know I hate them). People who think that it's funny to be insulting (especially when the person is standing right in front of them and I just want to HIT THEM for making fun of my friend in a mean and NOT NICE WAY! -cough- sorry). The movie Titanic (I want to stab it in the face). People who start to hand something to you, and then snatch it away at the last second when you reach for it(repeatedly). Neck tattoos (they look ok on some people, but most of the time, people get something stupid tattooed there). Racist people. People who want to argue with you about politics or religion just because they want to try and prove you wrong.


Ok...I think that's enough of my...things. Lol. I'm just insanely bored, and I don't want to go to bed. Oh, I really need to get pictures up here of when I was a Silent Hill nurse. They'll prolly just go into scraps, but they'll be there for if people want to see them. Which they will, cause they're ttly awesome.

I think I'll go smack Chris and tell him to pay attention to me...

P.S. I'll be adding more onto this list for a while. Unless it's a really substanial change though, I won't have everyone notified each time I do it.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/21352550/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/21352550/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 06:02:22 PST I will not be above saying "I told you so".


And that's ALL (and I do mean ALL) I have to say about that.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/20686015/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/20686015/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 12:34:12 PDT Anyway, I just figured I'd update those who would like to know.. My eyedrops are almost not needed anymore, which excites me to no end. They've been weening them off me for a while now, and I'm almost done. Wee! That means that I can actually wear makeup soon! -gasp-
I never wore a lot anyway, but it sucks to not be able to.

For Halloween I'm going to be Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz...my sis is going to be Glinda. Lol, perfect for her. A floofy pink dress XD LOVE YOU NAT! Oh, and fun fact...I had to get a child-size costume, lol. It fits me perfectly! I'm such a very little person...

Next weekend is the sci-fi/fantasy convention, and I'm super excited. Three days without work or school. Yum. I'm gonna dress up as a Bubblehead Nurse from Silent Hill, and Kae is going to be Lisa. And Chris is going to be the Joker, of course, but really who could blame him since he pretty much has that makeup down flat, and he's got almost a full-on Joker costume (oh and he made himself latex scars which look sweet). (Also! Chris is going to dress up as Joker for Halloween, and Merrick is going to be Batman! SO CUTE!!!)
And speaking of Silent Hill, I've been watching "Let's Play"s on youtube, and I watched SH2, and now I'm watching SH. L0rdvega, thank you so much for the hours of entertainment you provide! You're freakin sweet.

I'm still going to school full-time, btw. Monday through Friday, and working Friday through Sunday. I've been freaking out about it a lot lately. I'm just so sick of the same routine, and never having a day off of any of it. I mean, I can request a day off from work once in a while, but then I miss a day from my paycheck, when I only get 3 days as it is, and so that just screws me over. I'm missing an entire paycheck to go to the con, but that's ok...I've saved up for it, and it'll be worth it to go be a gigantic geek for a weekend.

We're planning a trip to go to Renfest on Oct. 19th, btw. If anyone wants to go, lemme know. (Oh, you also have to live around me for that to apply, lol.) I'm mostly making that a hint toward Julie...and more like I mean, HEY JULIE, WANNA GO TO RENFEST WITH US? YOU'RE INVITED TOO, BROOFACE!

Alright, so this is a little longer than I thought it would be. I hate it when I do that...I never think I've talked about much, and then the journal is like, a hundred pages long.

Ok...I don't think there are any other updates. WAIT!

I've been going and doing bride stuff :3 like pickin out dresses for my bridesmaids (they're all wearing a diff one XD) and looking at stuff for my dress, and figuring out catering...and my reception hall... I AM SO EXCITED YOU GUYS! It's absolutely insane how girly this makes me feel. And I pretty much adore it. I'ma be soo sad when the wedding is actually done with...then I'll just have Chris! And who wants to live with an ucky boy? eeewww.

J/k, j/k! I love him and he knows it. I tell him he's a cootie infested ucky boy all the time and I hate him for taking me away from my mommy XD
Love you Chris, lots and lots! <3

Anyway...I'ma stop before I make this even longer! Ta!

P.S.
So, I'm a poor college stoodent, and if anyone wants to give me money, I wanna buy a wireless 360 controller(they have a blue one..and I neeeeeed it), and I'm saving up for a new tat. I could've gotten this stuff earlier, but I had to buy about 8 books for classes this quarter >.<

Lol, it's unlikely that anyone will pay attention to this, but I figure it won't hurt to ask, and if I didn't ask, I'd have even less of a chance to get stuff

P.P.S. Anyone wanna talk on AIM? I have like...maybe ten friends on there, and no one is ever on. If you wanna, let me know and I'll give you my name n.n

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/20644103/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/20644103/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 22:03:58 PDT
I put up a new deviation o.o


and it isn't an ID!

-faints-


I'm going to put an image to it, but I haven't decided what would go well with it.

Something chaotic and surreal, probably.


Anyway...just wanted to put that out there. I'm not actually a concieted person, lol...it's just, pictures of me are all I have atm!

Oh and I got over my cold!


Then I got another one..weeee..


Oh and two people I love very much ARE coming back to me. I guess my vague emo statement worked! yay!

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/20313448/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/20313448/ Wed, 03 Sep 2008 18:29:38 PDT
For those of you who missed my last journal, and are too lazy to go back to it- I'm engaged to Chris. He asked me on July 24th to marry him, and I said yes. You can see the most gorgeous ring in the world here-[link]

Ok. Now that I've said that. I've had a crappy summer. There was one week (starting on the 24th) that was super great awesome. Most of this was because of the high I had from just getting engaged. Most of it in equal parts was that Sparrow was around.
Here's my deal- I love Sparrow being here. I LOVE it. It makes me feel better, I love him to death, and seeing him makes the terrible things seem not so terrible. And if he has some things to wrap up before he can be with us again, I'm fine with that.

I deviated, but that was long overdue.
Anyway! School was terrible. I do not sugguest ever going to summer quarter. It sucks.
I have had an eye inflamtion for the past month, which gives me what I like to refer to as "The Monster Eye"
It makes my eye all red. Or, it did. It's getting a lot better, and now the only symptom of it is that my eye is blurry.

Lesse...I want to not work at Cassano's anymore. My favorite person is leaving, and it's going to make working there a lot less pleasant than before.
I'm actually building a rather nice collection of 360 games. Which I didn't think I'd get around to for a while. But I just can't resist it. Sure, most of them are used. Ok...all of them are. But I find nothing wrong with that. Bioshock is just as amazing even if it was loved by someone else first. I just got Condemned, and I haven't played it yet, but that's what I'm going to go do when I get done with this.

I should probably stop talking. The rest of the journal would probably just be me rambling about stuff I don't want to get into.


OH! For my vague statement of the week-
I wish you would come back to me.

Does it really have meaning? Do it bee my way of just making people squirm with curiosity?? OR IS IT ME MAKING FUN OF EMO KIDS?!!?
You decide :3
TA!

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/19581454/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/19581454/ Thu, 24 Jul 2008 22:19:56 PDT

I want to say something else about it, but the grin on my face is eating my brain.

So I'll just end with this- [link]

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/18659397/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/18659397/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 09:50:56 PDT [link]

I will love you forever! :3

Or...umm...I'll...give you an emote hug? EITHER WAY I NEED THAT SHIRT AND I HAVE NO MONEY TO SPEND ON ME!

;-;

Come on...you know you wanna...

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/18200078/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/18200078/ Tue, 06 May 2008 16:54:54 PDT [link] and buy stuff so I can earn points.

Shameless whoring ftw!
If you people buy something from there using that link, you will let me earn points! So therefore you would be effing sweet. Help me help you. You'd be helping me, and I'm helping you cause I'm giving you a link to a super sweet clothing site.
Not only that, but since all you lovely dA people out there are artists, you can post your own design and try to get it made into a tee!
Wouldn't that just be sweet? Yes. It would.
So go here [link]
And buy stuff!


That is all.


(btw, I'm 'hysterical' in mood, cause I think that emoticon is effing hillarious.)

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/18062562/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/18062562/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 21:17:39 PDT


Kinda sad.



Hiding from homework.



I really wish I knew why I had a certain person on my mind all the time. It's odd, because for about 4 years, it was only once in a while that I would wonder how he was doing since we stopped talking, and now it's almost constant. Especially since I had a dream that had him in it recently. It's an odd sort of feeling. A sort of curiosity about him that I didn't have for a long time.




I wish I knew what it meant. I've been praying about him everytime I think about him, and I don't know why, exactly. I can't even ask him how he's doing because I don't think he wants to talk to me.



ARG I HATE NOT HAVING MY CURIOSITY RELIEVED!!!!! -stomp stomp stomp-
lol, insert fit-throwing here.


(but at least all of YOU have to be tortured by curiosity too, bwahah. Cause you don't get to know who I'm talking about)

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/17839820/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/17839820/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 21:05:42 PDT You need to stop being so BLOODY dumb and figure out that when a child's well being is at stake, you need to put them first. I swear on everything good and holy that if you go after a MARRIED woman with a child of her own I will hunt you down and pummel the crap out of you.
Someone needs to make you step down a peg and it might as well be me, because no one else is going to.
You are not God's gift to women. You do not make girls swoon at your feet. You do not get to be treated like some special case just because you THINK you're good looking and charming. And you may believe that you're all awesome being an assistant manager at some tuxedo shop, but I've got news for you. A college drop-out who's given up on his dream and settled for something as low as that is about as sad as anything I've ever heard of.

You used to have potential. You used to have a future that didn't look bleak. Now you've once again made a really dumb choice that will not only affect you, it will affect your children. And that is what matters. Do you remember what your father did to you? You'd just better damn well keep it in mind. You're worse than I thought if you don't. I just want you to be aware of what divorce does to a child, because I doubt you gave them a second thought.

With all my heart,
Stephanie.

Oh and for all of you that don't know him, believe me. I'd be saying it to his face if I knew how to get a hold of him. But I haven't known that for about 3 years. I was informed he was being an idiot by someone, and I'm very mad at my ex-best friend. And I really wish that I could slap him around a little.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/17787685/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/17787685/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 21:53:01 PDT
1 . YOUR REAL NAME:
Stephanie O.

2 . YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Steizzle (wow...)

3 . YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Blue Cat (I LIKES IT!)

4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Osmst (I'ma flip that. Stosm...not much better, lol)

5. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
Red Tea (I'ma lame superhero)

6. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name)
Tmreieman (I'm a svedish candah bahr!)

7. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (both parents middle name)
Jo Keith (That's right. My mom's middle name is Keith. ..Lol, I kid. It's Jo)
8. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)
(THIS ONE IS GOING TO BE GOOD!) Black Atticus.
(MWHAHAHAH!!! That makes up for the other ones being suck)

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/17681638/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/17681638/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 11:12:25 PDT Lawl, that sounds gross.
Anyway, nothing big is happening other than that. I'm now saving up for the list of games I want for the 360 that I will have to get one at a time. My friend Ashley is giving me Condemned, and I've heard that it's really good, and Adrian told me if I ever wanted to borrow any games to just let him know.

But anyway...umm...That's about it. Really all that I'm doing now is avoiding assigned reading I'ma get back to that now...ta!

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/17424638/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/17424638/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 11:09:54 PDT
Oh, and I got myself a 360. Bought and paid for by me. At the moment I'm entertaining myself with Doom 3, and it'll be a while till I buy more games because I am currently reserving all of my money for when we go to SC in about 2 days. Btw, I'll be gone for a week in SC, lol. We're visiting Sparrow again. One last time before I have to go to school non-stop till around Thanksgiving or so.

School is going really well. I've gotten really good grades for this quarter (Yay for 309 out of 300 in ASL! XD) and I'm excited to start next quarter because I actually like going to school. It's a lot more fun than making food. Which I'm also still doing, but only on the weekends. So that basically means that I don't look forward to them anymore, and the only GOOD part about them is that I get to hang out with everyone at work. Cause I actually like the people I work with (even my boss. Good suck-up manuver, right Adrian? But I mean it! <3) Well, and that isn't exactly true. I like the weekends as well because I get to actually see my family on them. (I miss home a lot. And my kitty. -sigh-)
All in the name of higher education though. Bleh.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/16667524/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/16667524/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 00:34:07 PST
Yes, he did make it. From scratch. By himself. It's real, it's battle-ready, and it's awesome.

[link]

Look and be amazed :3

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/16159213/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/16159213/ Sat, 29 Dec 2007 22:10:37 PST
Oh well.

So my Christmas was good. My boyfriend made me the most amazing thing ever in the ENTIRE world. I will have him take a picture of me with it, and then post. But until then, I'm not telling what it is :3 This way, you have to come back to my page. hehe.

Sparrow is here! And I've spent a good deal of time with him, though I'd like to be spending more. I just need as much of a fix of him as I can get before he goes back. Little does he realize that I have an evil plan to keep him here though.
It involves glue and me.
Don't ask.

I miss hanging out with my friends. It just seems like that in the rush of Christmas and all that, I haven't seen hardly any of them lately. In this I include the following people-
Kae, Julie, Broo, and Alex. I feel very lonely sometimes. I suppose this is one of those times.
So I have to write incredibly random journals.

Chris got the Sweeney Todd soundtrack from his bro for Christmas, and it is SO GOOD. I am even more in love with Johnny now. All he has to do now to complete my fantasy of him is play a vampire. I think I'd die....

-pause-



yep. I would.

So, the ex that sent a message to me that started with "I never got over you" is a father. -sigh- He named his child Tayton. In the message he sent me about that, he told me he misses me. I kinda want to hit him and tell him to go play with his child that he obviously hates for naming it Tayton. (Lol, if anyone who reads this has that name-which I doubt-Don't hate me. You know it's ghey).
I have very mixed feelings about that entire thing. It doesn't shock me, I guess. But at the same time it does. I remember him back when we met at church. How close we were as friends before we even thought about dating. How much of a happy kid he was. He was so much fun! We would play the game of chicken where you slap the back of each others hands till one calls it quits. I never beat him, but that was only because we always called it a draw because neither of us wanted to admit defeat XD
He also used to be a Christian, and I'm not saying having a baby makes you not a Christian, but I'm pretty sure from what it says on his myspace page, he's decided he doesn't like God anymore. And I know, I know. A lot of people feel that way about God. But I don't. I like Him, and I'm a Christian and it still makes me sad when people I'm close to/people I used to be close to decide they hate Him (or that they don't believe in Him anymore).

Especially when they were my best friends.

This turned out to be longer than I meant it to be, but I think I needed to lament his friendship. The time that we dated was fun, but to be honest, it was seriously just like we were best friends that held hands.
So here's to the good times we used to have with Nat and Amy, Brian. May you and your child be happy. And may you stop being an idiot and cut the drugs out of your life.


Lesse...Other than that, my kitty is cute, and still poofs her tail up at the slightest thing. Making her look a lot like a raccoon.

And I got a new phone, but my number is still the same. So now, there's a good chance I'll actually GET the messages people send me WHEN they send them. The number is still the same, though. And by that I mean it's the number I had it changed to recently. Not the 469 one. If you don't have my newest number, you're probably just not meant to.

OH! One last thing. On DDR, I'm FINALLY moving up to some standard songs :3
I really never thought I'd accomplish that...But I did. So I'm proud. I can do quite a few without failing. Though I don't get good scores on them. That's next, I suppose.

SHE GONE!
<3

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/15685505/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/15685505/ Mon, 26 Nov 2007 20:01:40 PST This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

(Btw, if you wanna know what my subject line is about, you'll have to see The Mist. Which I don't suggest if you're feeling suicidal and just need one more thing to make you cry and depress you even more)


Anyways!! I'm just kinda bored, so I figured I'd put up some updates. Basically it's like this, I've actually gotten presents for most of the people on my list, and that makes me happy, because it's about a month before Christmas, lol. I'm a real big nerd about Christmas presents, and don't care if I don't get hardly any, because I just love buying things for people with the thought of, "Oh geez they are going to flip when they open this" in my mind.


Other than that, I'm really excited cause it's me and Chris' 6 month mark in a couple weeks.
I know, I know. It's all cheesy and stuff, but it makes me happy. We're gonna go to our fave food joint, and then go see August Rush, which I have been DYING to see. I'm kinda shocked it's been almost 6 months. It's been a good time, too. Still is.
It's fantastic, because my family is really adoring Chris, right down to Merrick lighting up, giggling a lot, and waving his arms excitedly when Chris walks into the room. He even fell asleep in Chris' arms the other day, too. It was about the cutest thing ever, and Chris was just dumbfounded that Merrick trusted him enough to do that.
lol, my dad has even labled the days that him and Chris went to King's Island as "Chris Day" :3
And I said all of this cause I'm having a girly moment, so you'll have to just excuse that.

Anyways, I think I'll stop making everyone barf and get on with talking to Spro.

Ta!

--
This is my love-
These are my best friends-
This is my stock-
This is my neglected club-

The more you know.
The less you'll be in the dark.
Which is obvious.
But needs to be stated. ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/15485429/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/15485429/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 20:31:05 PST This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

Okay.

Okay.
So.
I just found out that I got a scholarship for 1700 dollars PER QUARTER for school :3

And it lasts until I am 25.


Mmm....I am really happy at the moment.

--
This is my love-
These are my best friends-
This is my stock-
This is my neglected club-

The more you know.
The less you'll be in the dark.
Which is obvious.
But needs to be stated. ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/15384309/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/15384309/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 21:24:51 PST This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

Can someone please tell me what you're supposed to do when you've found an old ex that you haven't talked to in 3 years, and you say hi to him, and he opens his responding note with, "Never got over you."


...
_eff.

--
This is my love-
These are my best friends-
This is my stock-
This is my neglected club-

The more you know.
The less you'll be in the dark.
Which is obvious.
But needs to be stated. ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/15193426/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/15193426/ Tue, 23 Oct 2007 19:21:28 PDT This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

YAY!

I'm very happy. Why? Cause me and one of my best buds started to talk again, and we hung out today, and it's just super great to be around her again and rararar! I feel like I could just dance all over the place and still not convey how happy I am that we're talking again.

I think we're gonna try to hang out on Thursday, too, and that just makes me smile all over.


_{China Buffet + trying gross things +her = complete and utter happiness.}

Lol, it was completely awesome. I want to ramble about it a lot, but it would start to get really annoying and repetative if I did.
I'll just leave it at saying that it really means a whole whole lot to me that we're talking again, and that it seems like my friendship to her was just as important as hers was to me. (And believe me, dear, it was, and is, very important to me.)

Okay! I'm done now ^^ Time for me to go find the remote and catch the last episode of The Office!

--
This is my love-
These are my best friends-
This is my stock-
This is my neglected club-

The more you know.
The less you'll be in the dark.
Which is obvious.
But needs to be stated. ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/14906624/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/14906624/ Wed, 03 Oct 2007 23:20:16 PDT This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

So, I figured out recently that I was being very silly about a few issues. Vague, I know...but I'm not putting up details.

I just realized that there are some things that are better left not being angry about. It's okay to be angry about things that hurt you, or things that hurt those you love, but seriously...if you hold on to that anger, you're not doing anything but making it hard on you.

This is why I don't understand people who hold grudges. Why in the world someone would want to stay mad, and stay hateful is beyond me. What's the point of it? All it does is make you a bitter and resentful person (it can also make you REALLY unpleasent to be around).
If you're holding a grudge, stop and take a good look at what the problem is, then take a deep breath, and let it go. It's easier said than done sometimes, I know. Like if the offense was HUGE. And I can understand not being able to get over the big things so easily, but if it's something that's just petty and dumb...just...stop.
What if you're missing out on a good friend because of it? Or missing out on just being able to go to sleep at night without thinking of it? Because even though you might not think so, part of the reason a lot of people can't sleep at night are because they're thinking about things that people have done to them.
Do you even know what it feels like to go to sleep with a smile on your face? Stop plotting revenge, and enjoy what you have.

I've never been one to stay angry for a long time. Five minutes into an argument, I want it to be over and done with, because I just want to be laughing with the person again. I can't stay mad at anyone very long (and I do mean anyone).
People who harbor hate in their hearts confuse me to no end. It's so much easier to get along without the hate there. Believe me. I've hated someone. I hated them for good reasons, too. Because the person hurt someone I love very, very much. But I soon realized that, if she could let it go, I could too. And it's so much nicer to not have that burden on me anymore.


Okay...so all of that was completely random, and I have no idea where it came from. I actually started this journal with the intention of writing about how my internet is down again for a while... heh.
So no, it's not directed toward anyone.


--
This is my love-
These are my best friends-
This is my stock-
This is my neglected club-

The more you know.
The less you'll be in the dark.
Which is obvious.
But needs to be stated. ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/14530676/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/14530676/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 13:19:31 PDT This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

So, my first day of class was yesterday, and it was really neat.

Our teacher is really nice, and it's great to be in a class with Chris. I think I'm seriously going to enjoy learning about great works of art, and so I'm very psyched about it all.
Oh, and I'm only taking one class, because I payed for it myself, and it's all I could afford. Lol, it completely wiped out my savings XD
Ah well, it's all for the greater good, I suppose.

Oh, and I moved almost all of my deviations to my scraps. I now have 15 in my gallery, I think. I'm really going to start putting some effort into what I put up on here. At the moment, Chris is going to help me with some photoshoppin' skills, so hopefully with that, and a little luck, I'll have some stuff up soon!

Okay, that's all for now. Ta!

--
This is my love-
These are my best friends-
This is my stock-
This is my neglected club-

The more you know.
The less you'll be in the dark.
Which is obvious.
But needs to be stated. ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/14371940/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/14371940/ Mon, 27 Aug 2007 21:12:28 PDT This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

Okay.
So, I was going through my gallery the other day, and decided, I really hate most of the work that's there. What I'm going to do is just back everything up onto my computer, and then delete almost all of it from dA.

The things I'm for sure keeping are-

The Passion In a Doll's Eyes
Guitar
A Butterfly's Kiss
Think of Me
Frame of Mind
That Which We Call A Rose
A Rose
Wonderfullness
Guitar 2.
Step Right Up.


Everything else, I'm probably going to delete.
Basically, the reason for this journal is to ask if there was another picture or poem that someone would want me to keep. Just, something they really wouldn't want to see go.
If not, it's going bye-bye.
After that, I'm going to really make myself work on my photoshopping skills, and take some pictures because I haven't done either in forever.

Okay. That's all ^^ Ta!

--
This is my love-
These are my best friends-
This is my stock-
This is my neglected club-

The more you know.
The less you'll be in the dark.
Which is obvious.
But needs to be stated. ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/13963832/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/13963832/ Tue, 31 Jul 2007 22:54:43 PDT This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life.

I opened at work.


I was there two hours over what I was supposed to be because the shift manager who was supposed to come in and relieve me was two hours late.

This made my horrible day worse.

Why was my day so horrible?

I spent most of it sitting at the back desk with my head in my hands, just weeping. I don't mean, little crying fits. I mean, my gut hurt because I was crying so hard.

Why?


Chris' mom has around 6 months to live.
She has cancer of the lungs and liver, and she might not even have 6 months.
She doesn't want the treatments that are available, because she doesn't want to wreak that much havoc on her already frail body.

I honestly feel as if I'm losing my own mother, and I'm sure to hug Mom extra tight when I see her now.
The only way I can describe how I'm feeling now is just by going through some of the initial thoughts that are in my head-

She'll never see either of her sons married.
She doesn't get to see her youngest graduate.
It's doubtful that she'll see her oldest's next birthday.
It's doubtful she'll make it to Christmas.
Her husband is still so in love with her that it's like they're newly-weds (after 35 years of marriage).
This is going to kill him, as well.
-

This woman accepted me again, even after I broke her son's heart. She accepted me with open arms, and treats me like I am a part of her family. I've never had that happen before. Not this way. Other moms have been nice to me, but I've never had the feeling from them I get from her.
She's one of the toughest ladies I know, and still has a spark inside her that she refuses to let die, even though she's going to die herself soon.

I haven't been crying today, but I think that's because I didn't want to around her.

In my mind, I refuse to believe that she's actually going to be gone. She's too young. Too full of pep.

-sigh-

Anyway..that's about it for now.
Any prayers for the family are quite welcome.

Don't throw yourself like that,
in front of me...
I kissed your mouth, your back,
is that all you need?
Don't drag my love around.
Volcanoes melt me down... ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/13866467/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/13866467/ Tue, 24 Jul 2007 21:34:10 PDT This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

So...yeah.

I'm about to turn 21.


I can FINALLY buy alcohol.


Too bad I'm not going to...


See, I want to remember my 21st birthday. And I flat out refuse to get drunk. I just simply won't do it.


I know I have made a lot of dumb mistakes. I know I've given up on a lot of morales I used to have.

But I WILL NOT get drunk. The most I'm doing on my birthday is I'm going to taste a Bloody Mary, because I've always wondered what they taste like. I'll most likely take one drink, hate it, and then ask my mom to make me one with no alcohol.

A lot of people at my work are kinda scoffing at the fact that I don't want to get completely stupidly drunk.
I don't really know why, since I hear stories from them like,
"Man...I was so wasted the other night. It was insane. I looked in my car today and there was blood in the back seat."
"F*** I got SMASHED at that party. Yeah, I don't know where I was when I woke up though..."

(And my personal favorite)

A girl at my work got so drunk that she drove herself and another girl into a pole on the way home. She smashed her pelvis, and is lucky to be alive. As is the other girl.
The real tragedy here? She has a 2 year old son. Who wasn't in the car...but whom she's driven places while drunk.


Wooo yeah. Bring on the alcohol. That sounds like some FUUUUUN stuff.

Don't throw yourself like that,
in front of me...
I kissed your mouth, your back,
is that all you need?
Don't drag my love around.
Volcanoes melt me down... ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/13620518/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/13620518/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 11:46:51 PDT This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

Well..

I'm back in Ohio. How depressing.


But being in SC was great. We filmed two movies, recorded commentary for other movies, and recorded lines for "A Christmas Carl"

At the moment, I'm thinking of getting my lip pierced (if I do, it'll get done by Tuesday or Wednesday) and if you'd like to give me your opinion on that, please do so. Oh, and it'd be the side of the bottom lip. Just so we're all clear on that.

Let's see...what else...Oh! Chris cut my hair. And it's reeeeeally short.
Okay, not reeeeeeally short. But it's pretty dang short. I'll have pictures of that at some point on my myspace, I'm sure, so if you have the link to that, you'll be able to look at them. And if not, here- [link]
(You'll have to send me a friend request and get accepted first, though. My profile is private)

I think that that's about all there is to my life right now.


Questions?
Comments?
Gifts?

(speaking of gifts, I officially have 21 days until my 21st birthday :3)














You're hiding in your safe place,
hiding with your eyes shut tightly all the way to the hospital. ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/13407801/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/13407801/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 13:50:42 PDT This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

So, just to let everyone know, I broke up with Brian on the 23rd of April. I'm sorry, but questions like, "Oh my gosh! What happened?! Why??" will not be answered. I don't really feel like discussing it. The people that are in the know are allowed to be there, because I want them to be. But if you aren't, I just don't want to talk about it.
(And don't feel insulted. Very few people are in the know)

Again, to fill everyone in, I am now dating Chris (aka ~burning-shark) again.
No, I did not break up with Brian for Chris. So please, don't even think about asking.

I'm happy right now, and while that is good enough for some people, it's not for all (I'd name names, but it's kind of obvious as to who's not happy about it).
Yes, my family is okay with it. Yes, I know that things were crappy when we broke up before. Yes, I know all of this stuff.
But, unfortunately, it is my life, and not yours. Therefore, I am going to do with it what I will.

And I'm sorry if I sound bitter or mean to some. I'm just kind of tired of catching it from people. And the thing of it is, if these were people that were my friends, I probably wouldn't mind as much.
But they aren't. My friends are being supportive of me. The ones getting mad at me have no business in doing so.
There is only one person who has any right to be mad at me, or hurt by it, and I accept them being mad and hurt. No one else.


Anyway. There you have it. An update on my life as it stands at the moment.
On the 25th, I'll be leaving for South Carolina to see my bird, and will be gone for a week. I probably won't update again until I'm back.

Oh, and by the way...For those of you who are being supportive...I appreciate it.

When the sun shines
We’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
That I'll always be your friend
Took an oath Imma stick it out 'till the end. ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/13195827/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/13195827/ Sat, 02 Jun 2007 23:18:06 PDT This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

So...I hung out with my sister tonight. Which was nice, because we went to the Gathering Grounds and I haven't been there in FOREVER so it was cool to visit an old haunt.

What wasn't so nice was the ride home in which I found out even more crap that has been said about me. I'm kind of getting tired of that, to be really honest. I'm glad she told me, though. I'm glad me and my sister get along still. Glad I can trust her. (rumors are a bad thing, people. you really shouldn't spread them. that happens all the time at work and it's stupid)

She's one of my faves to be sure.

My little baby nephew is turning 1 today. At around 9 p.m. It's very odd to think of the fact that it's been a year...I mean, really, really odd.

In fact, I don't want to think about that anymore...it's too creepy.

Anyway. Just an updates for those that still reads these things.
Ta!

When you feel embarrassed, I'll be your pride. When you need directions, I'll be the guide.

For all time. ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/12748788/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/12748788/ Thu, 26 Apr 2007 22:11:40 PDT This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

P.S. I got my hair cut. [link]

I thought I loved you, but it was just another trick of the light. A teenage vow in a parking lot, "Till tonight do us part" ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/12288095/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/12288095/ Thu, 22 Mar 2007 18:24:58 PDT This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

Okay, so, I'm going to be buying Justin's 360 off of him, and then I'm getting a free computer. It's not fancy or anything, but it'll get me internet access, and PS7, and that's really all I want. In the mean time, I'll just be able to keep saving for my Mac. (and that's why he kicks ass...it's originally his computer)


Um... There's been a couple of changes to my appearance, and I promise half-heartedly I'll put up a scrap photo soon so all you crazay kats can see.


That's really about all there is to say. I'm so excited for May to be here because I'll get to see Sparrow and that makes my heart smile. I'll also be filming, attending two concerts, seeing an amazing movie, and lots of other cool stuff. It's turning out to be a pretty busy month, but that's alright. It'll make it go by faster so it can be June.


That's all for now, I'm afraid. I'm lazy and really don't feel like typing anything else out.

I thought I loved it, but it was just another trick of the light. A teenage vow in a parking lot, "Till tonight do us part" ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/11287384/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/11287384/ Tue, 02 Jan 2007 11:33:08 PST This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

Anybody interested in an out-of-work model?

I'm really hankerin for a creative photographer who actually has time on their hands that would like a model that doesn't complain if she has to stand in cold snow in just a dress, or doesn't mind if she's in complete pain posing in the shot as long as it's cool. I LOVE morbid art, and surreal art, and think there is a definate lack of creativity around here. So what do ya say? Anyone in the Ohio area available?


I'm bored.


(I'd like to enter in here that I believe my cousin and my boyfriend are both very creative, but are very busy, so I'm definitely not saying they aren't talented)
(I'd ALSO like to enter in here that if my cousin or boyfriend would be interested in using me as a model, I am totally up for it..they just haven't expressed interest lately, so they need to tell me if they are)

and suddenly, i become a part of your past...i'm becoming the part that don't last..

i'm losing you and it's effortless...... ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/11205638/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/11205638/ Tue, 26 Dec 2006 21:00:36 PST This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

Nothing else matters right now.



The 7th Harry Potter is titled. And it is called-


Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows


my life has meaning again.


I am such a loser.

and suddenly, i become a part of your past...i'm becoming the part that don't last..

i'm losing you and it's effortless...... ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/11205202/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/11205202/ Tue, 26 Dec 2006 20:19:53 PST This is the way the world ends...this is the way the world ends...


not with a bang...but with a whimper.

so brian(*Seifex) got me a year subscription for Christmas (among other awesome things like Twilight Princess for GC) and that's pretty darn awesome of him. thanks hon.


i am still alive, though i haven't been on here in about a month. i'm going to start playing with the settings of a subscribed person, but i figured i'd update this first.

i work 40+ hours a week at my new job, and make good money, so that makes me happy. i'll be saving that money to buy a computer, but as of right now, am broke because i spent all that money on presents for friends and family. that's alright though, because i love spending money on other people.


there's nothing else to report. or rather, nothing else i care to report.

hope all is well with everyone.

and suddenly, i become a part of your past...i'm becoming the part that don't last..

i'm losing you and it's effortless...... ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/10592353/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/10592353/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 11:21:18 PST
This is all a joke

And you're just a lousy fraud.

I'll leave you questioning my motives and will never care that you'll never get your answer.

I make you laugh? You make me cringe with your promises and idiotic gestures.



I cannot stand what you do to me any longer and will not stick around to find out when it's all going to end.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/10569446/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/10569446/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 10:17:43 PST
I LOVE YOU ALL!

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/10384820/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/10384820/ Fri, 13 Oct 2006 21:16:27 PDT [link] Go here to understan my story better.

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/10250309/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/10250309/ Sun, 01 Oct 2006 16:09:26 PDT guilty-pleasure and it is a stock shared between myself and ~burning-shark I forced him at knife-point to make it so that we could finally do something with all the gazillions of pictures of me that he has on his computer that he's never going to touch.


Okay...so I didn't actually force him at knife-point. But I did suggest it and badger him till he stopped getting distracted enough to make a new account (that kid has ADD, I swear...)

ANYWAY! We don't have a super cool icon yet, but we're gonna get one, but even though we don't, you should go there anyway cause I love you and you love me and you would certainly want to go there to make me happy :3

]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/10122006/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/10122006/ Tue, 19 Sep 2006 12:46:24 PDT I'll follow you, I'll lead you about a round,
Through bog, through bush, through brake, through brier:
Sometime a horse I'll be, sometime a hound,
A hog, a headless bear, sometime a fire;
And neigh, and bark, and grunt, and roar, and burn,
Like horse, hound, hog, bear, fire, at every turn.

Oh my dearest Puck...you express my feelings completely.


I...am just a wee bit confused by recent events... When I say recent I mean this happened within the last hour.

not exactly sure what to do..and I don't know if I'm gonna be sane at the end of the night.


The end! ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/10033938/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/10033938/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 22:24:46 PDT I love thee with the breath, smiles, tears, of all my life!-
And if God choose, I shall but love thee better after death...




Because I could not stop for death- He kindly stopped for me- The carriage held but just ourselves- and immortality. ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/9650577/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/9650577/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 15:22:12 PDT
-gasp- I put up my club listings so as to not get kicked out of anymore clubs! (ttthhbb.)

--
NEW STOCK!

Me and Maggie started a new stock cause...well, we were tired of the old one. It didn't really make sense anymore anyway, because Maggie doesn't have 'vampyre' in her name anymore. (She is now ~xyellow-blue-busx )

So anyway, our new stock is And thanks to ~burning-shark for making us our spelendid avatar <3

Go here---> Cause I said.

Lord of the Rings Clubs-

Nightmare Clubs-

Celebrity Clubs-

Character lovin type clubs-

Writing Clubs-

HIM Clubs-
~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/9483196/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/9483196/ Mon, 24 Jul 2006 20:18:09 PDT


i feel like a vampire.


mmm....de lioncourt..



-coughs-


I had turtle soup! THE END! ]]> ~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/9446887/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/9446887/ Fri, 21 Jul 2006 10:13:15 PDT

Just wish me luck, as my body doesn't do well in extremely hot climates (I'm telling you Maggie, Arizona=non-exsistent) and I'm going down there to do hard labor.


I love you all, and will try to get on soon after I get back! <3


--
NEW STOCK!

Me and Maggie started a new stock cause...well, we were tired of the old one. It didn't really make sense anymore anyway, because Maggie doesn't have 'vampyre' in her name anymore. (She is now ~xyellow-blue-busx )

So anyway, our new stock is And thanks to ~burning-shark for making us our spelendid avatar <3

Go here---> Cause I said.

Lord of the Rings Clubs-

Nightmare Clubs-

Celebrity Clubs-

Character lovin type clubs-
http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/9308177/ Sat, 08 Jul 2006 02:14:40 PDT
-dies a little inside- Sparrow left after the movie, and I sobbed on the way to drop Maggie off. I couldn't help it. I just cried.



-Raises her glass to the air-

To you, my dear Sparrow. I will miss you so much. We all will. For the first time since I've known him, I saw sadness on Jesse's face. He sat in Chris' room and mourned your leaving with us. And comforted me in the car when I was sobbing so hard that I was having a hard time catching a breath.
May you find whatever happiness that you can down there...and may you come back to us someday. Please...someday soon.

For what are we, without our Sparrow?

Those of you who "mourn" his leaving, and who I knew to treat him differently while he was here, can all rot. If I find out you are, just because you want to look compassionate and good in other's eyes, I'll cut you. Savvy?
Because you are nothing compared to Sparrow. You are nothing, and you are not worthy.


--
NEW STOCK!

Me and Maggie started a new stock cause...well, we were tired of the old one. It didn't really make sense anymore anyway, because Maggie doesn't have 'vampyre' in her name anymore. (She is now ~xyellow-blue-busx )

So anyway, our new stock is And thanks to ~burning-shark for making us our spelendid avatar <3

Go here---> Cause I said.

Lord of the Rings Clubs-

Nightmare Clubs-

Celebrity Clubs-

Character lovin type clubs-
http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/9205720/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 23:58:39 PDT
this isn't right. it's wrong. this isn't right. it isn't. it shouldn'tbehim.it'snotrighthiswrongwhyisn'tithimthisiswrongit'swrong.

A jumbling of those thoughts over and over while I had tears streaming down my face. Had I not had a hand to hold onto, both of my palms would've been sore. Only one was, though. When I am nervous/upset/angry/hurt I dig my nails into my palms without even really thinking about it. Something I've done since I was a kid. Just...flexing my nails in and out of the tiny grooves I've made for them.


It was the most depressing wedding I've ever attended.


--
NEW STOCK!

Me and Maggie started a new stock cause...well, we were tired of the old one. It didn't really make sense anymore anyway, because Maggie doesn't have 'vampyre' in her name anymore. (She is now ~xyellow-blue-busx )

So anyway, our new stock is And thanks to *burning-shark for making us our spelendid avatar <3

Go here---> Cause I said.

Lord of the Rings Clubs-

Nightmare Clubs-

Celebrity Clubs-

Character lovin type clubs-
~elvenvampire http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/9127140/ http://elvenvampire.deviantart.com/journal/9127140/ Tue, 20 Jun 2006 13:41:17 PDT
Testicles. That is all.




--
NEW STOCK!

Me and Maggie started a new stock cause...well, we were tired of the old one. It didn't really make sense anymore anyway, because Maggie doesn't have 'vampyre' in her name anymore. (She is now ~xyellow-blue-busx )

So anyway, our new stock is And thanks to *burning-shark for making us our spelendid avatar <3
--
Go here---> Cause I said.

Lord of the Rings Clubs-

Nightmare Clubs-

Celebrity Clubs-

Character lovin type clubs-

Writing Clubs-

HIM C... ]]> ~elvenvampire