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deviantART: by:emode http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:emode&section=today deviantART RSS for by:emode en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 30 Dec 2009 00:57:34 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png I'll get to it... http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/26522271/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/26522271/ Tue, 11 Aug 2009 08:15:53 PDT

Note Me

Watch Me

My Gallery

... eventually!

so right now I'm stealing someone's internet signal, but it's it weak and broken and I'm not even at my house so it'll be awhile before I get it again.

I have a lot of messages/deviations to work through, and I'll try to get to all of them, but give me a little time. We don't have internet and we'll be living out of a suitcase for the next month, so be kind please.

AND A HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ~emochick007! SHE'S HAVING A BIRTHDAY AND I'M NOT THEREEEEEEEEEE! (I'll send you and email pronto...)

And another (OVER A WEEK BELATED, I SUCK) happy birthday to =th3krimzon1 because he's awesome. (And I have something to put up for you to but I'm a loser so you'll have to wait a couple days... )

SORRY TO ALL FOR BEING BAD AT NOT SUCKING...

[~Hitomi-no-Envy:I know I'm lame and this is probably too late, so I'm sorry again...
I'm short (Just under 5' ) and I like to pretend that I'm skinny. My hair is also short and dirty blonde, but I have a blue streak down one side (No joke!) I like swords, but can it have blue fire on it plz?]

]]> ~emode Insomnia http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/26092181/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/26092181/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 17:08:23 PDT )

I don't know if I've talked about it with anyone on here, but let me outline a few things regarding this (Sorry... if I don't tell the whole story IÂll get upset [I have a good reason, trust me])

It started while back, during the period when things between my Mother and I were at their worst. It basically went like this: I'd go to sleep early, due to exhaustion, be VERY tired, but not fall asleep for a number of hours (Usually around 12o'clock M.) I would then wake up around 2-3, but generally be so tired that I could hardly do anything. Occasionally, I would get up and read or be on Da.

We tried medications. The issue that was that my body adjusts to pills fast. i.e., the pill would work for the first day brilliantly, half as well the second day, and not at all on the third day. (This happens with ANY medicine I take D: ) Eventually, we just couldn't find enough sleeping pills that worked.

Now, things at home kept getting worse, and I now believe it was this stress which tortured me at nighttime. I knew something had to give, but I didn't want everything to blow up so I tried to stop it early, and take things into my own hands. I scheduled an appointment with a psychiatrist (Without letting my Mother know) and outlined the issues at home to her. She said it would be best if we had a group meeting, which I easily agreed to (This being my intention)

After awhile, we poked holes through the problem and deflated a lot of the hot air. Obviously, things were not completely remedied, (We still have some MAJOR issues, but I think we both know that some of these are things that can't be fixed)

But it was enough for me to start sleeping again. I was relieved, after nearly a year of little to no sleep every night, that I could start getting it all back together. I started doing better in school, and I was happier.

Due to the stress in my life now, this pattern has started repeating itself. I'm a bit annoyed, because school is going to be tough enough without exhaustion hanging over my head ): )

But life moves on.

I think I'm going to start meditation again. I had meditated for a little while, but now I feel that it could help me out here. Because I know I need it.

Right now we're staying at Grandma's house, though, and she doesn't get the whole 'insomnia' thing. She says things like "Maybe it's the mattress" and the like. It's really annoying, because she knocks on my door in the middle of the night and demands to know why the light is on.

Anyway. Is there anyone else who knows that they'll be online a lot during the nighttime where I am? (EDT night-time, American East Cost, ect.) I'd love to chat or something

]]> ~emode Ten Days http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/25316380/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/25316380/ Sun, 14 Jun 2009 19:49:05 PDT
In my lifetime (My age is very close to the number above...) I have lived in:

3 Different continents&countries
5 different states (Including outside of U.S.)
8 different houses

and moved internationally four times.

I have fifteen days before I move from Australia (Our residence for the past two and a half years) back to Tennessee.

THIS BLOWS.

Moving internationally is the worst. It has literally taken two years for me to be accepted into this social group, and we're* leaving. I expected it, though. That's how it always happens.

Let me explain: We move for my Mother's job. Not my Father's, I don't live with him. *It's just me, my Mother, and my little sister.

I'm leaving halfway through the school year, which I get to start over again. But I do get one month of summer vacation, so I'll spend it with Grandma down in Oxford, MD (It's a sleepy little seaside town. I'll get a job.)

This is really dreadful, honestly. It seems like a week ago we had six months left. I actually think I went through the stages of grief (I might be oversataing there, but oh well.) oddly.

Normal Person:
Denial and Isolation.
Anger.
Bargaining.
Depression.
Acceptance.

Me
Acceptance.
Anger.
Denial.
Bargaining.
Acceptance again.
Depression. (For me, this always happens after the move.)

I realize that this might not classify as grief, but it's a very drastic thing. I've been numb for awhile now I'll let ya'll know when I fianally cry about it.

I spent the weekend cleaning out my closet (Three piles, Charity, Keep and a trashbag.) So far I have a trashbag full, a box for Charity two third's full, and a shoe box full of stuff I"m keeping. (Aren't you PROUD?! Mother ussualy has to go through and throw all my suff out for me

)

But the cleaning lady came today and she threw everything on my bed so she could vacuum D: It's all in a messy pile now, and I have to go back through and sort everything again. (But I'm not mad at her in the least. It's her job, after all. She didn't know. In fact, It was my responsibility to ask her not to vacuum in my room, and it's my fault.)

AND just so I don't get too whiney, here's a list of Pro's!

PRO'S
* We will be close to family again
* We are moving to a place we have lived before
* We visited during last break, and we picked out a house
* So we have a place to live, and it has gas/electric/heating/whathaveyou
* We have a bunch of furniture in storage
* We have FAMILY FRIENDS
* My sister is going to my old school

I'm still friends with the librarian
* I got into a smarty-pants school (I'm excited to actually learn)

I'll add more as I think of them. I was home from school for four days because of exams/weekend, and I've just had to get myself home again because I'm sick D:

But hey. I finished my book

(The Merlin Conspiracy by Diana Wyne Jones [Author of the book the Studio Ghibli movie Howl's Moving Castle was based off of.] They were both very, very good. I encourage you to go read her stuff!)

I'm going to start Moby Dick now

.

Check out this cool chick!!

[link]
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]]> ~emode Devious Journal Entry http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/23352953/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/23352953/ Sun, 22 Feb 2009 21:10:56 PST
I'm dead serious, I walked in and swung the door shut. then half an hour later, tried to leave the room, door won't open.

the I tried running up and slamming against the door, still won't open.

Oh shit.

But I stuck my mouth to the crack and yelled 'I'm stuck in here! Someone get the Maitinence guys!

So they eventually showed up. People are currently crowding outside, taking photos and making crude jokes. They're trying to take to door completely off the wall (the whole doorway came from the bolts...)

I still have no idea how I got stuck in here. It's so retarded....

]]> ~emode Taggies http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/22874646/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/22874646/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 20:21:09 PST 2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x

1. I'm a total praise-whore. I hate it, but it's true
2. My eyebrows point in different directions.
3. It surprises me every time I look in a mirror, because I look different than I think I do.
4. I get really patriotic about things when people insult them. More than is healthy, really.
5.I have a life plan for the next eight years, in detail. It probably will not go that way.
6. I have three major obsessions, ones that I have had for years and will not fade. I often cross them over and such. they are InuYasha, Naruto, and Inheritence.
7.I over analyze life, everything I say, and what is said to me. I wish I didn't because it brings more hurt than happiness knowing what lies are behind words
8. I sometimes feel unemotional, and unable to spark a response from something. I hate that.

x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x

uh........ not many of the other people who watch me come online a lot currently

]]> ~emode Devious Dump Of Informatin- Caring http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/22702187/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/22702187/ Thu, 22 Jan 2009 01:42:30 PST
Clearly. I mean, what other possible explanation is there? Honestly now.

I feel like those commercials for phone ringtones or whatever. Useless and bloated.

**EDIT**
Does anybody even read what I write?

]]> ~emode 12/30/** http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/22262542/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/22262542/ Mon, 29 Dec 2008 14:29:45 PST
we were due to go skydiving but the weather isn't too nice..... We can rescedule the trip.
I'm 1* today!

My birthdat wish is...... Beta me, ho's!

]]> ~emode Alpha? Beta? http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/22036715/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/22036715/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 17:11:45 PST emochick007) BUT If anyone's interested in just reading a few small things for me. Not alot really, just a few words on improvement. Though it's still really important. You'll be mentioned in A/C

ANY advice is appreciated.

]]> ~emode What Is Love http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/21366234/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/21366234/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 23:55:52 PST How Do You Like Me Now?! [That's a gender, right?]

Describe yourself!
SuperStar [Nice!]

What do people feel when they're around you?
The Bare Necessities [....*giggle*]

Describe your current relationship.
We Danced Anyway [Which is a very sweet love song....]

Where would you like to be now?
You Are The Moon

How do you feel about love?
Lov Is A Sweet Thing [...Epic Win]

What's your life like?
Can't Get Enough Of Your Love Babe [HACKIN'!]

What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
It Will Be Me [For the win]

Say something wise.
Make Me Believe

If someone says "is this okay?" you say...
Move Closer [OM*******G YES]

What do you like in a guy/girl?
I Love You [HA! I get all the good ones!]

How do you feel today?
Proud Of Your Boy

What is your life's purpose?
All Star [Fo 'Sho]

What is your motto?
Check Yes Or No

What do you think of your parents?
There Will Come A DAy [When I can leave]

What do you think about very often?
If I'm Not In Love [Good One]

What is 2 + 2?
Detroit City [Doesn't It?]

What do you think of your best friend?
I Couldn't Say Goodbye [

]

What do you think of the person you like?
Hallelujah

What is your life story?
Let's Make Love [*COUGH* It's really not a dirty song]

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Chapter 6c [No Kidding]

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Rock This Party

What will they play at your funeral?
Coming Back For More [lol]

What is your hobby/interest?
Sunshine And Summertime [Tough Enough]

What is your biggest fear?
Stolen Car [What Car]

What is your biggest secret?
My Love

What do you think of your friends?
Homeless [poor dears]

What will you post this as?
What Is Love [I sure do have lots of songs with 'love' in the title]

]]> ~emode Fake Friends http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/20662712/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/20662712/ Thu, 25 Sep 2008 04:18:16 PDT emochick007

No offense, but ... People are getting too fake on me . They only want posts, comments, or to see how many friends they can get. So let's see who will actually repost this. This is a test to see who's paying attention. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own bulletin. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are... Repost this if you are a friend...Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new bulletin as "Fake Friends'

True friends will read and repost this. Fake friends will just ignore it.

there are still spots left on-[link]

]]> ~emode Get Featured (7 Slots) http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/20629785/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/20629785/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 03:45:56 PDT [link]

So basically, the first 10 people to comment here get featured, with themselves and three of their deviations linked and on display. Originally, it's supposed to be 15 slots, but because I'm considerably less popular than the person I got this from, I'll just do 10. if (by a miralce) they all fill up, I'll do more

Edit: The twist is, you have have to do this yourself if you get featured......

Enjoy:

1-

~Hitomi-no-Envy
Choco Note Part 1:[link]
Modern "Yankee" coloured:[link]
NaruHina art trade:[link]
(Of which I swear to god I am still working on my return for. Honestly, ask ~emochick007.)
2-

~emochick007
Waiting:[link]
Do You remember:[link]
Island:[link]
3-

~TheNijaNinja
My Konata Drawing:[link]
Sasuke Uchiha Poster:[link]
Ouran Poster:[link]
4-
5-
6-
7-
8-
9-
10-

]]> ~emode I did something... http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/20071373/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/20071373/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 03:33:52 PDT

The Twilight Quiz...... written by me.

1.Your favorite Cullen (or Hale) besides Edward (one boy and one girl):
Carlisle or Alice

2. Two words (one Twilight related) that just don't belong in the same sentence:
Edward and Penis

3. You'd laugh if Carlisle:
Started refering to Edward as 'boy'

4. What kind of animal do you think Esme likes/hunts like? ~emode Q anybody? http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/19997696/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/19997696/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 01:50:40 PDT Neither, it depends on the person.

Do you hide your emotions?
I....... try not to unless I'll hurt anybody by saying something.

When was the last time you received flowers?
...
I got a Lai in Hawaii, a real one with real flowers (not dried) from my uncle, for my 13th.

Who have you texted today?
Lost my phone..and I don't text anyway

Who was the last person you had a proper conversation with on the phone?
Caitlin's mom

Who was last person you got in an argument with?
my mom

Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
Night

When was the last time you had pizza?
TODAY :0

When was the last time you got really anxious?
I do it alot, so I don't really remember

Who are you more like your mother or your father.
I dont' really know my dad, so I'm not at liberty to say that......

Who is the last person you added to your contacts list in your phone?
....

What was the last thing you cried about?
My mother

If you could either float on the moon, or snorkel the ocean, which?
float! I've ben snorkeling and it's crap! besides who would go snorkeling when that's free, and the moon is like........ jeez!

What are the last spoken words you heard?
I've been working for half an hour on this and you can't get off the phone for one minute to sign it?

Who was the last person that called you?
probably Caitlin, or her mom, or my mom.

Is anyone mad at you?
My mom ussually is.

You're really upset; who is the first girl you go to?
Caitlin!

Does it matter if your boyfriend smokes?
Yes.

Have you been to New York City?
Yup

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
I hope soÂ

Do you remember the name of your first school you ever went to?
Bryn marr (spelled wrongly, but thats how you pronounce it anyway.

Which year has been the best so far?
this one?

Last time you laughed really hard?
Yesterday probably. or today.

Do you know anyone addicted to anything?
Uh....nothing out of the ordinary anyhow.

Where is your phone?
no idea

Do you know anyone by the name of Lee?
Only in anime

Where is your pet(s) right now?
My sister has a fish on the counter

What color phone do you have?
navy

Have you ate popcorn in the past 48 hours?
Yes!

What happened at 10 AM?
I ate eggs from Caitlin!

What were you doing at 7AM?
Zzzzzzzzzzing.

How do you feel?
Miserable. (I'm sick and My mom won't let me stay home fomr school, because she never has and she never will)

What is bothering you right now?
MOM

When did your last kiss take place?
NEVER

Where are you?
My room

Have you ever injected a drug?
no. but when I'm old and dying, I plan to make cookies with weed in them. just for a little fun.

ANYONZES IS TAGGED, SPICE UP LIFE LIFE.

]]> ~emode Hm..... http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/19927544/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/19927544/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 03:23:54 PDT anyway.
I've been writing more, ~Hitomi-no-Envy, I've started writing your piece and I promise I will have it up soon. I'm sorry that I took so long with it......... yeah. sorry.

But, school has pressed me to work more on my writing. I'll be posting a piece soon, first the original, and then (because it was an assignment, and has a word limit) maybe the edited piece. But! the original is really a couple drafts into it, just without the pressure of limitations. Be prepared, and I want some Critique for them.. please.

People. I HAVE SLEEP ISSUES. seriously, because of my sleep patterns, I wake up about 2-3 am and literally can't get back to sleep again until about 6:30, which is right when I wake up. (I am NOT exagerating about this.....) Sometimes I take Melatonin, (which is a pill the supplements the hormone Melatonin, which helps you sleep. but it's not a sleep pill.) but with that if I take it more than one night in a row it does the opposite of what it's supposed t do for some reason.......... if anyone knows how to help me friggin' sleep, tell me please!

I might do my journals a bit more often, just so I remember the things that I want to say.........

for emochick007!

]]> ~emode I've Done 69 of the 120 stupidest things. http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/19469606/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/19469606/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 17:46:31 PDT
Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex

SO FAR: 0 (Just wait!)

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
( ) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 0 (Next one!)

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
( ) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 2 (See?)

Level 4
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantart / sheezyart Friends
( ) Been To Paris
(X) Been To Spain
(X) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 4 (Are planes a stupid thing to go on?)

Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 6 (Slowly getting there....)

Level 6
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 9 (more than 2 this time!!)

Level 7
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 13 (What's mudding?)

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO far: 18

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
(x) Killed A Snake -IT WAS AN ACCIDENT! (we were in a car, and I was NOT driving)

SO FAR: 20

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 23

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
( ) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 24

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR : 24 (I plan to do some of tese things soon......)

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
( ) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 27 (Hasn't everybody?)

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam in the ocean
(x) Felt like you where dying

SO FAR: 31 (I've LIVED there)

Level 16
(x) Cried to sleep
( ) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
( ) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 34

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 36

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
( ) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere

SO FAR: 39

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
( ) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 40 (Now i'm OLD DX)

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
( ) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
(x) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 42

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
(x) Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 44

Level 23
( ) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 44

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 47

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 48

Level 26
(x) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 51

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to... ]]> ~emode An Update + Vacation + Art Trade http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/18976547/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/18976547/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 02:39:43 PDT *EDIT-THINGS REMOVED*

Just My Luck- DONE/LOADED

Demon child- started

NaruXHina Art Trade with ~Hitomi-no-Envy- thought about

100 themes challenge- thought about\

(I have a picture to upload as well....)

I SHOULD have lots more of this done by the next two weeks.

By the way, I bought Eclipse for about oh...$7!!!!! it was in a 75% off pile because someone ripped the back cover, but thats fixable and the rest of the book is in perfect condition, AND it's a special edition. In the back is then exert from Breaking Dawn, and I discovered that this book includes a 'first chapter' three times as long as you might find online

anyone who wants to borrow it may, even though it's ripped it's still very readable.

]]> ~emode google http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/18456604/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/18456604/ Fri, 23 May 2008 00:58:55 PDT
But it's so funny XD

Q: type '[your name] needs' on google
A: There is no doubt in my mind that Coco needs these operations. I have been in contact with the breeder, who told me that if I returned the pup she would give me a full refund.

Operations?! And since when am I a Labrador retriever?

Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search:
A: Does anyone else think that Courteney Cox's daughter Coco looks like a SPOILED BRAT? ... Coco was part of a twin, meaning her twin died in the womb and that ...

OH NO YOU DIDNUHT

Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search:
A: Coco and Ice T are very interesting individuals. We crack a lot of jokes but CocoÂs actually alright in our book. She breaks down the secret of Ice TÂs lovemaking skills. She says its all in the stroke and that his

Stop right there.

Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search:
A: Coco wants to play; Manny arrives. With the complex mostly empty, Manny Ramirez took his first steps of Spring Training mid-Wednesday afternoon, ...

Yeah I always hated Manny.

Q: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search:
A: 22 Mar 2008 ... Coco Does Playboy.

No I don't! I swear

Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search:
A: Coco Hates Cheerleaders. This video is intended for mature ...

If you are a cheerleader and you happen to watch me its ok *snickers* but generally I do hate cheerleaders.

Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search:
A: Coco asks Bret to stay but Jemaine says that he doesn't want to. ... Murray asks jemaine if Coco is the Yoko type. Jemaine says that she does like art and ...

I want you all to know that bret is mean.an asshole.

Q: Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search:
A: 29 Apr 2007 ... Coco Goes All Gangsta Again. A while ago, Surviving Grady pointed out the badassery of Coco's face in a mid-brawl moment of aggression. ...

BADASS YA'LL

Q: Type in "[your name] likes" in Google search:
A: My baby Coco likes to play my DS too. She

It was a you tube... about a bird....

Q: Type in "[your name] eats" in Google search:
A: Coco eats éè by herself twice a day. A very good girl!

Another youtube, about a dog though, this time......

Q: Type in "[your name] wears" in Google search:
A: Coco wears Seafolly Girl's salsa bikini in hula hula

I WANT SALSA!!

Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search:
A: Colleen Coco Richardson Arrested. 0. points. A man was stabbed on Saturday night in Portland on Northeast 162nd Avenue. ...

He was asking for it.

and that concludes it. comment and steal.

]]> ~emode guess what? http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/18157745/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/18157745/ Sun, 04 May 2008 01:10:02 PDT
[link]

That's right! Yosh! Be sorted into a harry potter house.......... I'm in ravenclaw because I'm smart (apparently). I want to know what you guys are in. comment, please. even if you don't read the series I want to know. It's a necesity.

house stamps
slytherin: [link]
gryffindor: [link]
hufflepuff: [link]
ravenclaw: [link]

]]> ~emode Devious Journal Entry http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17725011/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17725011/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 01:20:51 PDT "But there's just something about plain black suits, sunglasses, and those little headsets that automaticly makes me twitchy"

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?
an unopened box of toothpaste and a pile of school stuff.

3.What is the last thing you watched on TV
the class of 3000

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
6:08

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
6:07 (Damn! How freaky)

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
birds and the television

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
at about 4:50 I went to my guitar lesson

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
DA homepage

9. What are you wearing?
Edward Elric T-shirt and jeans with a scull belt on.

10. Did you dream last night?
Yes. I dreamt my sister was going to die.

11.When did you last laugh?
After reading that question

12. What's on the walls of the room you're in?
A posterboard and a painting

13. Seen anything weird lately?
One of the teachers at my school walking down the road, with sneakers, a hat, and a briefcase

14. What do you think of this quiz?
Keeps me occupied

15. What is the last film you saw?
Drilbit Taylor

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
My own house in America.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
My eyebrows point different ways.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
There are lots of things but I won't post them here because I couldn't pick just one.

20. George Bush:
Obviously he has his faults.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Emily maybe.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Depends really.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
I do. Lots.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
I just want to be let in.

25. Who do you tag?
~Escapetomymind ~Mangopearl (of course there are other people but they mostly have been tagged already)

]]> ~emode calling all who've been Tagged (ever) http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17723960/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17723960/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 22:41:55 PDT
EDIT:: INFO TAGS ARE OK TO. I LIKE THEM AS WELL.

]]> ~emode Nightmares and Neji http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17688127/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17688127/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 18:26:24 PDT
1. (the set was excruciatingly similar to that on an episode of Hannah Montana i saw earlier that day)
i was behind stage with Hannah and she was talking too me but she was about to go on and for some reason i had to run across the stage (in front of cameras and the audiance) so my mom did and i had to as well but when i ran across i was fricken STOMPING. everyone in the theatre was laughing, and on the other side of backstage somelady was trying to get me to stop reading (well i was really crying) so she could sell me a pair of glasses. i woke up, and was scared shitless for some reason.

2. Neji died. no, seriously. i was at his funeral with tenten and everything. i woke up and was so freaked out i was about to cry and i had to tell myself it was just a dream, but it took awhile to fall back asleep. i think, though, this was the worst dream.

3. i, for some reason, had joined the diving club. there were like, 12 of us and one teacher. we all piled into a room filled with bunk beds. i think we were all about 15-16, for whatever reason. my friend ~emochick007 was there, and she had a top bunk which she coved with diving trophies. this whole time i had a sense of unease. it was only when the diving instructor told us to stand on top of the beds and practice a new dive (which she showed us) that i realized i didn't know how to dive. like, at all. then she told us to dive off of the top of the beds onto the floor. (don't worry, it didn't hurt at all) but i really just jumped off.
so i ran out and went to telk to my mother, asking her why she signed me up. but she wouldn't let me quit. so i was forced to pretend i knew how to dive and it was so awkward and i was so freaked out when i woke up.

4. i was a worker at a resort and this random asked me if a wanted a job at a modeling agency because obviously he could tell through my t-shirt that i had a very sexy body. after that, Rock Lee came up to me and told me i had to go out in the ocean to g get Neji who had been taken out to the breaking waves by a rip current. he wasn't in trouble, but Lee needed to get him so they could go home. so i swam out there but by the time i got there Lee had already told him (and somehow managed to swim by me without me noticing, even though i was swimming really fast) and so instead a floated in the water untill Lee decided to belly flop on top of me and when he was done, he said that he found it hard to swim in shallow water. this one was more freaky than scary, but left me feeling kinda shaky.

what the hell do they mean?!? seriously, haven't had a good dream in ages. i don't get any sleep either *dies* help meez!!!

]]> ~emode notice http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17562103/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17562103/ Fri, 28 Mar 2008 18:16:04 PDT
]]> ~emode if you watch me, you should read this http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17417213/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17417213/ Wed, 19 Mar 2008 20:27:11 PDT SimplyABlackFlower and the FAQ is here [link]

]]> ~emode growing up and growing older http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17403303/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17403303/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 22:28:37 PDT

The first day of school (college)our professor introduced himself and challenged us to get to know someone we didn't already know. I stood up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder.

I turned around to find a wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me with a smile that lit up her entire being.

She said, "Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I'm eighty-seven years old. Can I give you a hug?"

I laughed and enthusiastically responded, "Of course you may!" and she gave me a giant squeeze.

"Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?" I asked.

She jokingly replied, "I'm here to meet a rich husband, get married, and have a couple of kids..."

"No seriously," I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age.

"I always dreamed of having a college education and now I'm getting one!" she told me.

After class we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake.

We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this "time machine" as she shared her wisdom and experience with me.

Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up.

At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football banquet. I'll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her three by five cards on the floor.

Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the microphone and simply said, "I'm sorry I'm so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is killing me! I'll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know."

As we laughed she cleared her throat and began, "We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing.

There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success. You have to laugh and find humor every day. You've got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die.

We have so many people walking around who are dead and don't even know it!

There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up.

If you are nineteen years old and lie in bed for one full year and don't do one productive thing, you will turn twenty years old. If I am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything I will turn eighty-eight.

Anybody can grow older. That doesn't take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding opportunity in change. Have no regrets.

The elderly usually don't have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets."

She concluded her speech by courageously singing "The Rose."

She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in our daily lives. At the year's end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago.

One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in her sleep.

Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who taught by example that it's never too late to be all you can possibly be.

These words have been passed along in loving memory of ROSE.

REMEMBER, GROWING OLDER IS MANDATORY. GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL. We make a Living by what we get, We make a Life by what we give.

Pass this message to people except you and me.
If you choose not, then you refuse to bless someone else.

"Good friends are like stars.........You don't always see them, but you know they are always there."

the missing pieces are: 1. When you finish reading this, please send this peaceful word of advice to your friends and family, they'll really enjoy it! and 2. a miracle will happen to you tomorrow, if you don't believe it look out your window inn the morning and think about it!

]]> ~emode hah! http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17373342/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17373342/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 03:56:59 PDT
"Exaggerating light in the morning in order to reinforce the circadian signal of light to the brain is a very powerful tool," Emsellem says.

Sari Melzter wears a visor with two bright lights built into the brim for about 20 minutes every morning as she's getting ready for school. The visor, made by Physician Engineered Products, is called a "Feel Bright Light."

"My mind feels more awake after it," Sari says.

Then, in order to power-down after the school day is over, Emsellem has advised Sari to take an over-the-counter melatonin pill.

"I have an alarm on my watch, so it beeps and I take [the pill]," says Sari.

Melatonin, which signals the brain to turn off alertness, can be helpful, Emsellem says. But clinical research trials have turned out mixed results about its efficacy. There is some evidence to suggest that melatonin is effective in treating delayed sleep-phase syndrome with short-term use. Emsellem recommends a small dose six hours before bed.

in your face MOTHER!!!
she told me to stop taking melatonin because it was not helping my sleep *rolls eyes*

]]> ~emode read if you are feeling left out http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17307186/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17307186/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 19:22:43 PDT

]]> ~emode begin http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17275831/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17275831/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 17:47:46 PDT i currently have 59 deviatations and 44 messages. i will get through them soon as possible. also, i have finished both the prequel and chapter 1 of my new fanfiction. you dont actualy have to watch the anime, though it adds slightly to the story if you do. i hope you all read this, it is the first writing i've done that i have been motivated at all in doing. so please, show me your support.

dont be offended if it takes a while for me to reaspond to your comments; i'll get to them ASAP.

CAMP ISH OVAH!

]]> ~emode farewell (for a week) http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17104941/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17104941/ Thu, 28 Feb 2008 15:33:12 PST
]]> ~emode *extremely important info* http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17061560/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/17061560/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 17:03:57 PST is school, it's rather hard for me to get enough time alone with my lappy.

also, from modnay until friday i will be on school camp and its a surfing camp so i DONT want to bring my laptop along, so i will be gone from the 3rd until the 7th. {for those who actually read this, put 'chittychittybangbang' [yes without spaces] somewhere in your comment. if you have time}

otherwise, i will be on only in school for a few weeks, i will alert you when i get internet in the new house. (i also dont get television until we get internet, so i will miss out on all the shows i waitch

but i dont watch alot anyway so whatever.)

]]> ~emode a guys point of view http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16916983/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16916983/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 16:19:36 PST

***Guy's point of view***

This is very cute! And even written by a guy!

You might agree with it, but when it actually happens 99% of girls don't realize it 'til it is too late and that guy who did it is so frustrated that he has moved on to someone who will take notice.

From a guyÂs point of view:

We don't care if you talk to other guys.

We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till the morning...when the normal people are awake.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/stunning, we freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood IÂm in.

LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON'T 'FEEL BAD'

ÂWe enjoy doing it.

ÂIt's expected.

Just smile and say 'thank you.'

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.

Honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'?

I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!'

Âinstead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand IÂm not sayinÂ I wouldn't like it ether.

Girls: I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE. DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION BUTT, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT

Â

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..........AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!

*****Give the nice guys a chance*****

Holding Hands

Girls : If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.

Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.

Cuddling

Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold.

Guys : Automatically move closer to her.

Movies

Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder

Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

Loving each other

Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too...And mean it.

Laying below the stars

Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat

Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers. Now make a wish about something you would like to happen between you her....

The most important rule for guysÂ.

No grabbing!!!

******************************
******************************
Stop!! Stop!! Stop!! Stop!!

If you havenÂt stopedÂ.Seriously stop!

Guys repost this if you agree.

Girls repost this if you think it's cute.

Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost thisÂ..

]]> ~emode insurance company blues. *important too* http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16916961/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16916961/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 16:17:11 PST
the insurance company come to our house, they were really nice, considering we've only been paying them for a month..............
anyways, they said that they would replace everything. even the things that we ddnt have the recipts for

i dont know when we'll ge tour things, but my mother told them about her triathalon the following weekend.(this sunday) so they called her on friday and said '.......your new bike is at *randombikeshop*. she brought it home and was all excited because its nicer than her last one. aLOT nicer.

aslo, we've found a new house. its located near a bike trail and a park, but the park has no swings, only baby swings.

needless to say, i would prefer staying here. but its 'so horribly unsafe' so............

anyway. thanks if you care

]]> ~emode i've been robbed. please read this http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16806484/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16806484/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 19:52:57 PST

, came back and my house was robbed. looks like they kicked the door down, ransacked my room, the kitchen, and then left. they took-

a macBookPro,
my mothers work computer,
another (different kind of) mac,
two dvd players,
and ipod nano,
(my) ipod touch
(my) camera
(my) camera case
my mothers bicycle
a bycicle helmet
a mobile phone
my little sisters piggy banks
(my) school backpack to carry it all in.

no kidding. they took almost everything that we had that was valuable. the one thing that worries me is that my school computer and nintendo were sitting on my bed and they dint take them even though they were in plane site.

there have recently been two other robberies in our neighborhood in the past two days.

this morning the police came and fingerprinted the door, mom told them about her crazy theory that these people are targeting single mothers. lol. the police told her that these people simply knock on the door and if you're not home they rob you. thats completly true, i believe.

also, now my mother is so paranoid, thinking that these people have been watching us for weeks, so now she wont let anyone go anywhere. ugh!!! those

people who stole my ipod are such assho-

!!! i men it, my ipod is almost as important to me as manga and anime

im so sad!!!

thanks for reading this, it means alot to me, im not that stressed but my mom is and it really affects me. it means alot to have your support

]]> ~emode motivation. http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16763550/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16763550/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 01:20:37 PST i have this fanfiction that i need to write, and half of my time i'm think ing about it. it sounds so good in my head, but when i put my fingers to the keys it all stuffs up and nothing come out right. also,when ever i acttualy start to type i get this weird feeling that i'm being watched, and i get all paranoid and self-conscious and nothing ends up on my page.

besides that, my best friend is on camp and i am SO FRICKEN BORED.
seriously, its not funny.

btw, my school hates me, and high school does not agree with my digestive system.

how depressing is it that ive not been invited to any parties in over a year, (besides

's and that one never actualy happened) AND only one person came to MY party. (again,

. she came to EVERYTHING, isnt she great?) but this seccong one may have been due to my inevitebility to invite anyone..........

]]> ~emode i need your help http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16618099/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16618099/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 18:34:52 PST youtube does not have what im lookinf for
niether does veoh.com
dubbed if preferable
please help me!!!!1

]]> ~emode omg! gaara fans rejoice!!! http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16614587/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16614587/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 14:52:13 PST [link]
omg its the cutestsh thing ive ever ever seen ever ><

my friends:

<- my BEST friend (real life too, so dont any of you get offended.)

:

famousppl/ppl i stalk

<- is believed to be dead (lol just the account)

<- makes the BEST free icons

(she made mine)

<- isnt famous but is writes inu fanfic

clubs i'm in/pending in

<- inactive for 2 weeks (vacation?)

~emode how time flies http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16529582/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16529582/ Tue, 22 Jan 2008 22:00:16 PST time flies by so fast when you are sitting on your ass, no?

my first AMV turned out pretty good for a firsty. what do you think about it?

i was thinking about starting a sasusaku/ unreturned love-naruto story. (this means naruto takes a shot at it but fails.........itll only be a oneshot though. how about it?

my friends:

<- my BEST friend (real life too, so dont any of you get offended.)

:

famousppl/ppl i stalk

<- is believed to be dead (lol just the account)

<- makes the BEST free icons

(she made mine)

<- isnt famous but is writes inu fanfic

clubs i'm in

<- inactive for 2 weeks (vacation?)

http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16212131/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 18:24:06 PST

me

now.

family sucks. really bad. lookie a this video -> [link]
you dont have o watch the anime, but its a good song.

]]> ~emode why flame rising will flame you. http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16188763/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/16188763/ Mon, 31 Dec 2007 16:23:33 PST
"Why Flame Rising will flame you:

Firstly, you have my humblest apologies. This is not a story, or a poem, and I am well aware that as such I am breaking several of the Terms Of Service of this site. But, I beg of you, rather than simply disregard this document, or report it for abuse, read it. Learn from it. It contains important information that can help to make this site a better place; as melodramatic as that may sound. So please, have patience, and I will tell you why I am hereÂ

Flamers. You may have heard of them, you may not. If you have heard of them, then you have most likely either been a victim of one, or know someone who has. You may even be a flamer yourself. If you have not been the victim of one of these individuals, then you are a lucky person indeed.

For those who are not aware, a flamer is a bully. They write abusive, degrading comments or reviews to stories that they do not like. Whilst everyone has an opinion, and is entitled to such, these ÂflamersÂ go too far. All too often, these twisted individuals harass their victim to the point of distraction, often forcing them to leave this site just to make it all stop. This can not be allowed to continue, for reasons I should not have to state here. Does that then mean that every bad review is a ÂflameÂ? No. If someone genuinely does not like an authorÂs story, then they have a right to express that opinion. If we are only ever told about the good points about our writing, then we can never grow, or learn, or better ourselves. By hearing about the points that need work, the reviewer is pointing out something that we might not have noticed and need to work on.

Appreciate that honesty. Thank them where possible. Ask the reviewer what you can do to improve. If you canÂt do this, ask a friend. At the end of the day, no person is perfect. We all make mistakes. If you can not face that fact, then life, my friend, is going to be very sad for you.

A flame, however, is something else entirely. A flame is written in a deliberately abusive manner, using terminology ranging from ÂYou Suck!Â to swearing. The whole point of a flame is to put down the author for the gratification of the flamer. Like any bully, they get a kick out of putting other people down, because for a few brief moments, someone is more miserable than them. They donÂt want to help you to improve; they just want to have good laugh at your expense.

On the FanFiction site, there is a growing movement of flamers, who have started working their way through the various fandoms, attacking anyone who they view as an inferior author. There is even a forum named The Fireplace, run by an individual named Flame Rising, designed to be a meeting place for these bullies; a place where they can run down, deride and generally destroy whoever they choose.

Ironically, the majority of the flamers that frequent this forum have posted no stories of their own. This just reinforces the point that these people are not criticising your work because they are interested in furthering the talent on this site. They are doing it because they have nothing better to do than make peoples lives a misery. If the flamers would only attempt to write something creative themselves, they would find it a more challenging prospect than they currently believe it to be. Then they may not be so eager to judge.

Flame Rising is probably the worst culprit of this activity, even holding awards for the so-called ÂworstÂ authors he has chosen to be his latest victims. The reasons he has given for this, as listed on his own profile page, are as follows:
1: You canÂt f?!?!?g spell and / or you know less grammar than a six year old.
2: You try to blind your readers by bolding or italicising EVERY F?!?!?G WORD.
3: You are too f?!?!?g retarded to use the enter key.
4: Your story isnÂt fan fiction (usually instead about some f?!?!d up wet dream involving a boy band then posted in the ÂMusicalsÂ category or poet wannabes whoÂve never heard of FICTIONPRESS.
5: You Whore for reviews.
6: You enjoy letting your f?!?!d up OCÂs/inserts rape canon on a regular basis.
7: You have A/NÂs longer than the story, and they include conversations with your other f?!?!d-up personalities that no-one gives two s?!?s about anyway.
8: youÂre a/NÂs include some f?!?!tastic seizure you had over someone trying to leave you criticism.
9: Your pen-name lOoKsLiKeThIsXxxXxxXxX and/or includes ÂMrs.Â Canon Character name.
10: Someone associated with you caught me on a bad, bad day.... ]]> ~emode Devious Journal Entry http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/15979621/ http://emode.deviantart.com/journal/15979621/ Mon, 17 Dec 2007 21:10:50 PST Supporters: ~BarkingPup, ~Roxio41-50, ~Komiyo, ~emochick007, ~emode, (Your name here.)
Please, repost this in support of your friends and loved ones who are. Love is not defined by color, creed, preference, gender (or lack thereof) or anything else except your own mind. Feel free to add your own story to the end.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday

I am the kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am a warrior for my country serving proud, but can't be my true self because gays aren't allowed in the military.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends I'm a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.

I am the who isn't sure what she is. I am the who is rejected by her "best friends" because of a less-than-conventional crush.

I am the girl who is afraid to tell her parents she is bi because they believe homosexuality is unnatural and a choice

I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a y pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to "teach me a lesson."

This is the boy, Matthew Shepard. On October 7, 1998 Aaron McKinney and Russell Henderson lead him to a remote area east of Laramie where they demonstrated unimaginable acts of . Matthew was tied to a split-rail fence where he was beaten and left to die in the cold of the night. Almost 18 hours later he was found by a cyclist who initially mistook him for a scarecrow. Matthew died on October 12 at 12:53 am at a hospital in Fort Collins, Colorado. KILLED BECAUSE HE WAS GAY!!!

---IF YOU BELIEVE THAT HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG... REPOST THIS.

---IF YOU ARE IGNORANT... IGNORE

Please, repost this in support of your friends and loved ones who are. Love is not defined by color, creed, preference, gender (or lack thereof) or anything else except your own mind.

------my view on it------
That's depressing that people are discrimanated just because of who they are. Personally I am not bisexual, or homosexual, but the people who are have a lot of guts to admit that they are. I can't believe how cruel people are towards others.

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1) my eyebrows point different ways (one of the ends point up the other down,,,, like my great-grandma)

2) i recently found out that my grandma on my fathers side (i didnt know this because i dont see him alot, my parents are like a bananna split....actually they never married) well anyways my grandma had lung cancer and one of her lungs was entirely removed

3) i have lived in 7 different houses, 3 different continents, and 5 different states. all in 12 years.

4) i have home made holliweener ( secrest code-. holliweener) costumes out of boxes for the past three years..( spongebob, math test, ipod)

5) i was virtually friendless untill emochick007 came along, in real life not on the computer

6) i went to horse camp this summer and i was the only one that didnt go gaga over the horses, in fact there was 4 boys in that camp and they were my only friends, i even tried to sleep in the boys cabbin because they were so much fun and all of the girls were biotches. but it didnt work.

7) i know andrew dentons son ( andrew is a famous comedian) ...he was one of the boys at horse camp. (connor, andy's son, hes really funny and sorta cute i gess ^_^ but i like jake, his best friend, better. we hang out when we can.

8) i get writer block alot *

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