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deviantART: by:emoelefant http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:emoelefant&section=today deviantART RSS for by:emoelefant en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 15 Dec 2009 02:33:16 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png should i listen for a dress size? http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/27437714/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/27437714/ Sat, 26 Sep 2009 21:46:53 PDT rain.

]]> ~emoelefant ha. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/27225780/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/27225780/ Tue, 15 Sep 2009 11:32:36 PDT so, yes. i've been away for a looong time. i was just looking at everything i commented, posted, etc. it's really like one big time capsule, this website. i cringed a,lot, but man. those were better times.
and i also noticed how i'm always part of SOMEONE'S "favorite couple". whenever, wherever, that's what i am. no matter how secretly dysfunctional it is, it's always mine.
and yes, even the one with the twenty-year-old ex boyfriend who won't seem to give up.

that's so funny for some reason.

i'm hopped up on so much cough syrup i'm not thinking right.

nap time.

]]> ~emoelefant and i will take the chain from off the door. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/27191941/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/27191941/ Sun, 13 Sep 2009 13:45:20 PDT it's pretty insane. ha.

buuuut. i revived my myspace, meaning i got a new one. i haven't been on in four months, and that's a record. probably because i've been a facebook whore, but whatever.

anyways, you know my name. look me up.

frankie.

]]> ~emoelefant COOL IT. I'M TRYING TO BE MIMI. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/27150557/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/27150557/ Fri, 11 Sep 2009 13:27:29 PDT that's the story.

i woke up today at five am, and i went to school. it wasn't as bad, but it was still kinda suckish.
i miss colorado.

but, enough about me. how have you guys been? i miss my dA family :C
s'

ecially cause that was the only site i would go on for HOURS in eighth/ninth grade.

frankie.

]]> ~emoelefant let's see. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/27091454/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/27091454/ Tue, 08 Sep 2009 10:13:47 PDT alot has happened since january. and nothing comes to mind when i can finally get on. haha.
i'm in jersey now, hm. i got held back a year in school, as if some of you didn't see THAT coming. i grew up a bit, and...yeah. got into some things that i shouldn't have.

the end.

xo, frankie.

]]> ~emoelefant i'm here with you. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/22404367/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/22404367/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 21:53:13 PST sooooo...

my new phone is getting on my nerves a little bit. tiiiiny little keys, fat, abnormally shaped thumbs.
haha.

but, either way, i still love it. those of you who know my number... TEXT ME. i'm tired of being bored. haha.
those of you who don't, ask.

buuuuutt....
i have a really cute picture of robert pattinson as my background. and dark blue by jack's mannequin as my ringer.

xo

]]> ~emoelefant i can finally breathe. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/22374499/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/22374499/ Sat, 03 Jan 2009 13:20:10 PST GIRLS ONLY

-Do you sleep in your bra?: yeahhh
-Do you enjoy drama?: nope.
-Are you a girly girl?: eh.
-Last person you hugged?: mikey.
-Small or big purses?: big...i guess...
-Do you think youÂre conceited?: nope.
-Do you dress up on Halloween?: duh.
-Where is the weirdest place you have slept?: on the floor in a van. lol.
-Has anyone touched/smacked your butt?: have you met my friends?
-Last person who walked you somewhere?: i dont know.
-Do you call anybody by their last name?: no...sometimes. i call pugsley "pugsley"...because...well...he's pugsley.
-Do you wear makeup?: sometimes.
-Ever cried at a movie theater?: nope.
-Can you put mascara on without opening your mouth?: dont think so...haha.
-Do you think Ryan Sheckler is cute?: no thanks.
-Have you ever been called a bad influence?: no....

THIS OR THAT:

-Eyeliner or Mascara?: Eyeliner
-Louis vuitton or dooney?: neither.
-American Eagle or Hollister?: american eagle.
-Heels or flats?: flats.
-Skirts or pants?: pants!
-Hoodies or jackets?: hoodies. whatever the weather, i'm usually wearing one.
-Heels or sneakers?: socks.
-Straight or curly hair?: either.

RANDOM:

-What color is your bra that your wearing?: purple
-Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?: dark

-Are you currently frustrated with a guy?: kind of.
-Do you have a best friend?: yes.
-Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?: boob reduction. i'm tired of being groped.
-Do you like your life?: sure
-Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?: chyeahhh.
-Would you ever tell someone you loved them even though you didn't?: i have. but not many times.
sorry, zach.
well...that changed...so i guess not?
-Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?: yes

-Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?: yep.
-Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?: duh..
-Have you ever had a good feeling about something?: maybe.
-Are you currently missing someone?: yeah.

IN A BOY:

-Preppy or Punk/Goth?: indie. they're smarter, and most of the time, cuter.

-Well-educated or Dropout?: oh god.
well, i've been with a dropout.
but i'd prefer educated.
-Anything Cute or Abercrombie?: neither.
-Contacts or Glasses?: glasses :.
-Funny or Serious?: both?
-Long Hair or Short Hair?: doesn't matter.
-Curly Hair or Straight Hair?: curly hair is really cute

-Good Dancer or Good Singer?: singer.
-Basketball Player or Football Player?: soccer.

-Smoker or Non-smoker?: either.
-Drinker or Non-drinker?: either.

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now for the journallllllll.

we just got two new computers yesterday. one for my sister, and one for the family.
now i can finally have some peace and friggin quiet. nobody asking to take my laptop. lol.

and i got a new phone!!!
the rant. it's pretty : )))))))
and i can go on youtube, twitter, myspace, facebook WHENEVER. and i can listen to music on it. it's friggin sweet.

i've been killing myself over zach, and it's messing with my head.
right after we break up, he says these things that make me crazy. you know, it really sucks that all the guys who ask me out are at least two years older than me. the fact that he already graduated makes his case even worse.

DIEEEEE.

xoxo
frankie.

]]> ~emoelefant Devious Journal Entry http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/22218377/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/22218377/ Fri, 26 Dec 2008 22:57:42 PST well, here goes!

How Much I've Screwed Up my Teenage Life

[x] gotten kissed
[x] gotten a phone taken away in class
[x] gotten suspended
[x] gotten caught chewing gum
[ ] gotten caught cheating on a test
Total so far: 4 [geez...]

[x] arrived late to class more than 5 times
[x] didn't do homework over 5 times
[x] turned at least 3 projects in late.
[x] missed school just because you felt like it
[x!!!] laughed so loud you got kicked out of class
Total so far: 9

[x] got your mom, dad, etc to get you out of school
[x] text people during class
[x] passed notes
[x] threw stuff across the room
[x] laughed at the teacher
Total so far: 14

[ ] been in a fight at school, fist or verbal
[x] took pictures during school hours
[x] called someone during school hours
[x] listened to iPod, CD, etc during school hour
[x] skipped a class period
Total So Far: 18

[x] threw something at the teacher
[x] went outside the classroom without permission
[x] broke the dress code
[x] failed a class
[x] ate food during class
Total So Far: 23

[x] gotten a call from school
[ ] couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly
[x] didn't take your stuff to school
[x] given a teacher the finger when they weren't looking
[x] curse during class/school
total so far: 27

[ ] faked your parents signature
[x] slept in class
[ ] cursed at your teacher
[x] copied homework
[x] got in trouble with the principal/vice principal
total So Far: 31

~Multiply by 3~
Grand total: 93%
jesus christ!! not that much~!~

]]> ~emoelefant guess i should do one of these too... http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/22188285/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/22188285/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 10:55:27 PST merry christmas/other holiday

it sucks not having a subscription anymore, but hey-i'm never on here anyway. it's not as pretty, but it'll do. haha x]
so this is what i got for christmas!:

-my chem shirt from joey
-twilight sweatshirt from mom
-team jacob shirt from mom [yayyy]
-i heart guys who sparkle shirt from mom [yesss!]
-sunglasses from joey
-dark knight button from joey
-mama mia from mom [inside joke haha]
-umbrella academy issues from joey
-and ROCK BAND from my lesbian step-aunts.
i cant properly describe them without saying that. haha. they're freakin awesome, though. like, tina's the super uptight, high-pitched, chubby housewife, and marisa is the noisy, burping, sarcastic one. haha. it was so fun going there over thanksgiving. we got to play the super-old-school supernintendo :]

but anyway, rock band for the wii is not nearly as fun as it is on xbox 360. i want one so bad! you dont get to change your player, the graphics are SUCK, and...lol. haha. but i'm still grateful.

anyway, happy holidays and have a good break for those of you who have a long one. [i dont go back until january sixth

]

xoxo
frankie.

]]> ~emoelefant you see, i've got this disease that i can't shake; http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/21938455/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/21938455/ Thu, 11 Dec 2008 20:31:50 PST _{and i'm just rattling through life.

[modern leper - frightened rabbit]
haha, i'm breaking out the old school indie rock. it's not that old school....2007 at the latest. but i love it. haha.

so....okay. i got two entries, and they happen to be from cats that sit with our group at lunch under the stairs.
i really should get pictures of that. lmao.

but anyway, this is by my puffy-haired friend, onji:

and this one by my blue and black-haired friend summer:

this is where i will be featuring the contest enter-erers. x]

frankie

_{Thank you *bewarecalamity for this journal. Edit Entry}} ]]> ~emoelefant challenge. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/21911725/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/21911725/ Wed, 10 Dec 2008 09:18:20 PST _{for all you writers, music lovers, everyone.

i have a challenge for you.

task:

1. take a line from a song you like. can be one line, or up to three consecutive lines.
2. make a short story out of it, however you interpret it. it can be poetry, prose, song, or whichever. more than 50 words, but no more than 800.
3. the line of the song must be somewhere, be it in the piece itself or in the artist comments, along with the song title, artist, and album.
4. explain why you chose that one line, and what it means to you.

if you really want a prize, i'll think of something. i might donate a sub or something
but this is really just for fun. i've been doing it for a while, just because, and i think it's pretty cool.

[three winners, first and second place might just get a sub, if i get birthday money in visa form ]

xoxo, frankie.

_{Thank you *bewarecalamity for this journal. Edit Entry}} ]]> ~emoelefant i swear i didn't mean for it to feel like this; http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/21690939/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/21690939/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 00:36:54 PST like every inch of me is bruised.
_{so, yeah, figures. i screwed everything up, and he still forgives me. what the hell?
we're not together anymore, short-lived, yes, but it's a record. he still loves me, he still is my best friend, but we're not together.
hm.

anyways, haha.

i'm bored.

_{Thank you *bewarecalamity for this journal. Edit Entry}} ]]> ~emoelefant you will perish in flames! http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/21671545/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/21671545/ Tue, 25 Nov 2008 20:47:12 PST _{lol.
now, i'm only abbreviating some of my life in the past while in a little bit, because it's late and i'm emotionally exhausted. i'll delve into it a little more if you know my email or myspace, because i can get on those more regularly.

so:
i've been doing pretty awesome in school. i was in the musical, as you know, and it went really great. we sold out both nights! haha. i made alot of new friends, and became closer to my current friends. i saw twilight, and was a little disappointed in the fact that they left out things, but it wouldn't be a great movie if they followed it exactly. it was a wonderful movie, and would see it ten times over. there was a death in the family: my uncle. it hit me pretty hard, and it wasn't even my blood-related uncle. my stepdad took it pretty calmly, and that's one thing i love about richard. he's quiet. he doesn't say much, only what he needs to, and a different side of him was shown lately. he was calm. relaxed. just glad to be with his family. i'm getting my permit pretty soon, and i cant wait! ahhh! finally some sort of freedom. i have a boyfriend now. his name is zach. i'm pretty happy about it, but i'm a little apprehensive, too. there are alot of things wrong with it, and i dont know. it's just...idk. lol. haha. i sound a little weird, because i've done a little growing up in the past couple of months. not too much, but i definitely have. right now, i'm looking out into the wet cold that is kentucky this time of year, and i'm hating it. i'm only here for a couple more days, but it's killing me. i just want to be home, i want to call up a couple friends, and i want to chill out with them so they can distract me. i told zach everything about me, and he almost cried. i think it's pretty sad that my life is depressing to most people, but i've gotten alot happier since my last journal. people have told me they would have killed themselves by now. it's really easy to smile and forget the bad things every now and then. you should try it. i lost a little weight-whoopwhoop-and went down two pant sizes. yes! finally! haha. although, i'm sad for my sister, because now we wear the same size clothing. she's two years younger than me. haha. i'm finally getting to the point where i get stacks of papers from colleges, brochures, invitations to visit them, etc. i'm so excited for what the next two years will bring.
and another thing:
if you kids in NC already forgot about me, you better think again. cause i'm comin back for junior/senior year, baby
although, you probably moved on by now.
it's just weird; the thought of finally going home. but my uncles death sent a wake-up call to my stepdad. he realized he needed to be closer to his family, and he's retiring in a few months. we wont leave until sixty days after that, but that's just in time for my junior year. it might change, though. whatever. i'm still pretty psyched. but, at the same time, i love my friends in colorado!

it doesn't matter.
i go where i'm told to, and i'll make friends wherever i go.

_{Thank you *bewarecalamity for this journal. Edit Entry}} ]]> ~emoelefant lmao x] http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/21094266/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/21094266/ Tue, 21 Oct 2008 12:19:25 PDT 1 (Jan) - I ran naked with
2 (Feb) -I shot
3 (Mar) - I stabbed
4 (Apr) - I killed
5 (May) - I jumped
6 (June)- I smoked with
7 (July) - I ran shirtless with
8 (Aug) - I banged
9 (Sept) - I needed
10 (Oct) - I robbed
11 (Nov) -I slapped
12 (Dec) - I cuddled with

PICK THE DAY YOU WERE BORN ONÂ

01 Â Bunny Marie
02 Â Lyn Z
03 - Regret
04 Â Bob Bryar
05 Â Elena Lee
06 - Krista
07 Â Donald Way
08 Â Girl
09 Â Donna Way
10 Â Mikey Way
11 Â The Demolition Lovers
12 Â Lou
13 - Katmandu
14 - Fear
15 - Alicia
16 - Gerard Way
17 Â Pete
18 Â My Chemical Romance
19 Â Big Worm
20 Â The Patient
21 - Katlyn
22 Â The Black Parade
23 Â Ray Toro
24 Â Todd Price
25 Â Mother War
26 Â Matt Pelissier
27 - Jamia
28 Â Mark Webb
29 Â Matt Cortez
30 - Helena
31 Â Frank Iero

PICK THE COLOR SHIRT YOU ARE WEARINGÂ

White Â Because Mother War told me to
Black Â Because Frank got stepped on
Pink Â Because I kidnapped BobÂs cat
Red Â Because I wasnÂt supposed to touch RayÂs here
Brown- Because Gerard is mad at Bert
Polka Dots Â Because Mikey got Lasik surgery
Purple Â Because Frerard hypnotized me
Grey Â Because Fear & Regret told me to
Other Â Because I donÂt approve of RayÂs reading material
Green Â Because Bob gave me MikeyÂs phone number
Orange Â Because I unleashed the bats
Turquoise Â Because teenagers scare the living crap out of me
Blue Â Because Gerard canÂt make me stay
Tie dye- Because My Chemical Romance fell off a cliff
None- Because itÂs easy peasy, pumpkin peasy, pumpkin pie motherf*cker.

i cuddled with gerard way because bob gave me mikey's phone number.

xD

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]]> ~emoelefant something out of edgar allen poe. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/21009138/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/21009138/ Wed, 15 Oct 2008 21:28:57 PDT _{has happened
zam kazap,
dont it go to show you never knowwwwwww

i have a solo in the musical!
and it's hella long!
and it's freakin awesome!
and i'm good at it!

lol.

at least everyone says i am.

haha.

but things aren't so great in frankie-world. baaad things have happened lately, things i'm not allowed to say, and my life has been exhausting.

no bueno.

but, it's all worth it. because when our musical comes out the same weekend that mesa ridge's musical [which happens to be LSOH, surprise!], ours is gonna kick ass, and theirs is gonna kick the bucket. lol..

xo

_{Thank you *bewarecalamity for this journal. Edit Entry}} ]]> ~emoelefant and even broken hearts may have their doubts http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20823227/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20823227/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 10:26:28 PDT song of the day: if you wanted a song written about you, all you had to do was ask - mayday parade

sooo.

i've been watching the presidential debate on youtube, and so far i've gotten 30 minutes into it. ugh. mcain makes himself look like such an idiot.
and i think obama is absolutely right about the whole financial thing.
ugh.
and it makes me angry when mom looks over my shoulder and says, "mhm" at everything mcain says.
ugh.
but, it's alright. i'm probably going to the movies and seeing nick and norah's infinite playlist with someone today. i haven't figured out who yet, but i'll try calling lindsey. she has a new boyfriend, who is absolutely awesome, and although i approve of him, [LOL] she spends ALL her time with him. buuuut that's okay. i guess i'm just jealous people are stealing my friends away from me, lol. marina has a boyfriend, trish has a boyfriend, leah does, lindsey does, tori does, and....ack! lol.

so apparently everyone thinks i have a weird taste in music. ranging from bus driver to heavyheavylowlow, to every avenue and arsonists get all the girls, and even 50 cent and B.I.G.
lol.
i gave trish some of my music, and she wtf'd at everything. lol. but, i have a wide range, a little bit of everything, and that's always good.
THE BOUNCING SOULS IS COMING TO DENVER WITH LIKE, 150 OTHER BANDS!!!!!
ahhhhh!!!!!!!

lol.

bye.

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]]> ~emoelefant seems like they are never letting each other go. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20816348/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20816348/ Fri, 03 Oct 2008 21:21:37 PDT _{heyyyyyy all.

today was crazy hectic. first, i got cut a few times in metal shop, then, i started on my project, moved pianos, watched my friend's boyfriend play soccer, guarded doors, and then got home and ate korean.

it was pretty fun though.
cant wait to go to sleep.

lol!

i was supposed to sleep over at tori's house with mallory, but mom decided that i couldn't. kinda sucks, but i'll do it another time.

got my new AP mag!
GUESS WHO WAS ON IT.

forever the sickest kids!!!
ahhhhh!!!!

i got so excited, i squealed at the neighborhood mailbox as some guy was checking his mail. i dropped the rest of my mail, and it was hilarious!!

lol.

anyway, time to go play more guitar.

_{Thank you *bewarecalamity for this journal. Edit Entry}} ]]> ~emoelefant you always thought that i was stronger. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20688814/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20688814/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 15:05:40 PDT _{yayyy

i'm cleaning and earning a wolverine t-shirt.

fun!

anyway.

marina wasn't at school today. made me feel sad. cause in all my classes, it was a big, empty void. how melodramatic.

THAT REMINDS ME.

midnight sun [well the first 15 chapters, at least] IS AMAZING.
it's so cool to see everything from edward's eyes, and it's so sweet! all of his emotions, and all of the innerworkings of his family, the other people around him, and most of all, HIS MIND! it's so marvelous! i've been reading it all day, and i'm almost done.

:C

everyone seems happy now that i'm not moving.
everyone here, anyway.
guess that's pretty decent.
except that the two lives colliding in my head is not bubbly-making. [lol!]

_{Thank you *bewarecalamity for this journal. Edit Entry}} ]]> ~emoelefant poor. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20643436/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20643436/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 21:01:21 PDT _{all my life, i've always been POOR.
i keep asking god what i'm for.
and he tells me, "gee, i'm not sure..."
SWEEP THAT FLOOR, KID!
oh!

lol.

i love our musical. but i hate it all at the same time.
it's getting me confused; emotion-wise. also, it's making me...
kindawishiwasn'tmoving.
it's a big and complicated thing, and i hate it, but not for me. i love it for me, but i hate it for someone else, because they seem to have their mind made up and i dont and this is a run-on sentence and i am going out of my fucking mind!!!

it's fucking insane! i've been hanging out with all these people...and they introduce me to people...and i get alot of friends that way...and...
i want to graduate with these people!
i dont want to move to a place where ONE person is excited about seeing me!
when i walk into school, i say hello, hug, hi-five TONS of people, and i consider all of them my friends. i didnt have many friends back home.

sure, my sinuses are always clogged up, and sure, i have a headache almost 99% of the time, but i have so many friends, and possible....nevermind.
and i want to go to homecoming without being alone or feeling guilty.
i want to dance with someone who isn't my friend. i want to have someone there to hug me and hold my hand and not have me run back and forth for their date. i dont want to be the one in the "homecoming group" who doesn't have a date. no, it still counts as being lonely when ALL OF YOUR OTHER FRIENDS HAVE BOYFRIENDS AND GIRLFRIENDS.

now, not saying that i haven't felt a certain way about someone,
and not saying that i dont still,
but i want to feel for someone else now.
but it's really fucking hard.
i want to open up to someone who can actually offer me a physical shoulder to cry on when i need it, a hand to hold when i feel lonely, and a slap in the face when i'm hysterical [which happens alot nowadays. i'm beginning to think i have a problem.]

i've heard the "he likes you, you should go out with him!"

and "how come all your other friends have boyfriends? you're so pretty!"

and the "wanna go out?"

and i say, as always: "no thanks. things are a little complicated, but i'm tied."

i dont want to be tied.

my friend went through that.
it didn't turn out well.
as a matter of fact, things crashed and burned, from what i understand.
and now there's someone else who she likes,
and now it's all better.

i dont want to crash and burn.

i just want to land.

xo

_{Thank you *bewarecalamity for this journal. Edit Entry}} ]]> ~emoelefant with losers like i've been... http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20608537/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20608537/ Sun, 21 Sep 2008 19:20:47 PDT it's so hard to say..._{okay, so...guess it's about time i told you where i've been. i got a principle role in a musical, i have good grades, i dyed my hair, i made freshman friends, i've been asked out, i got sick, i made a candle holder, i rearranged my furniture, i got blocked from deviantart on my school computer, and i got better at guitar.

xo

_{Thank you *bewarecalamity for this journal. Edit Entry}} ]]> ~emoelefant Devious Journal Entry http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20592695/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20592695/ Sat, 20 Sep 2008 21:50:51 PDT
:]

hallo._{no, i'm not dead...yet...lol.
mom got a new computer, and now i'll be on more often.
might take me a while to get another deviation up, cause i have alot, but i have to find my camera, because my scanner's gay.

GAYYYY.

lolll.

not much more to say.

xo

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]]> ~emoelefant ROFL GEES NEW HAIR. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20339593/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20339593/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 12:29:03 PDT
:]

I ___ you. You have a nice ______. You make me _______. You should _______. Someday I will ______. You + me = ________.

If I saw you now I'd __________. I want to ________ you. I would build a _______ just for you. If I could sing you any song it would be _________. We could __________ under the stars. If I could take you anywhere in the world with me I would take you______________.

Life without you would be like________________________. If you died tomorrow my reaction would be____________________. I filled this out most of all because_______________________. So now for my final words,
____________________________.

Love,
_______________

(P.S. ______________.)

go look at =putrithewicked's new journal. hair = WTF.

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]]> ~emoelefant ROAR. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20202261/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/20202261/ Thu, 28 Aug 2008 13:32:06 PDT
:]

_{sorry guys!!!!!

i have like, five minutes to write this, so bear with me!

i will be getting on at least once a day. cause i have something marina wants. LOLOLOLOL.

leave me comments!
and a reason to be here!
lol

school is going great, made some new friends, caught up with some old ones, and even made up with some people.

good.

and october is coming.

BEWARE.

xo
f

_{Thank you *bewarecalamity for this journal. Edit Entry}} ]]> ~emoelefant put your chin up. you can do it, tiger. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19575280/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19575280/ Thu, 24 Jul 2008 15:13:20 PDT song of the day:

shoot down the stars - gym class heroes

Sick._{ever since i got back home i've been really sick. doesn't really help that i'm babysitting all day every day. i keep throwing up and it sucks.

BLEHHHH.}

School.

_{School starts in two weeks.

rawr.

cant wait.

haha.

thursday, i get my tablet and schedule.
the thursday after that, i go to school.

YES.

i was on the school website, just to see when orientation started, and they had this slideshow thingy, AND I WAS IN IT. the worst picture ever. my hair was a mess and you could only see the back of me. it was in drawing classs ><;;;;;

not cool.}

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]]> ~emoelefant "johnny test and ugly dog STAND DOWN." http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19552156/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19552156/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 09:28:50 PDT

LOL.

_{been watching cartoons all morning. haha. johnny test, i swear.}

Happy MCR Day!!!

_{unfortunately, i cant do much to celebrate. i'm babysitting in my pjs with awful bedhead...but at least i'm wearing my mcr shirt with my batman pj pants x]

but we all know that gerard, mikey, frank, ray, bob, and their music have affected many lives in various ways.
thank you.}

pretty much only for people who know what i'm talking about:

he never did call me. i gave him my number. but whatever. he's my past, and if he calls, he calls. if he doesn't, then that's his problem. he wanted to see me "soooo badly" uck.

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]]> ~emoelefant ...i love the way you call me 'baby'. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19531386/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19531386/ Tue, 22 Jul 2008 06:04:07 PDT

song of the day:_{the way i am - ingrid michaelson.}

Home._{i got home the night before last. my plane was supposed to take off at seven, and land at nine in colorado, meaning we would get home around ten and mom would have enough sleep for her first day of work in the morning.

nooo.

plane boarded at 7:15, and pulled out of the gate at eight. we sat on the runway for about four hours before taking off at 11:15. we got there at 1:15 and didn't get home until 3:45. that whole thing sucked big time.

but when we got home, i was just happy to see a full sized bed that i wasn't sharing with my sister.

and damn did i wake up early the next morning. haha. but, it's worth it for 100 bucks. !}

Love ya.

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]]> ~emoelefant some days i feel like...laughing. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19494427/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19494427/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 04:37:44 PDT

News_{well, on friday, as i told you, i saw dark knight! it was so fantastic, i'm not even sure that's the word for it. it was so well written, the actors were so great, even if the joker and harvey shone more than any other character. i still cant think of a better movie than this one.

i got a haircut, if you can call it that. uck. she just chopped an inch off [collectively.] with her eyes closed. the only difference is my layers are crappier looking. whatever. we're getting haircuts when we get back home, so that should fix it. either way, after that, we got manicures and pedicures-which we had to wait an hour and a half for. i got black, naturally, and it looks pretty nice.

i also went shopping!!!!! we went to the mall after going to this amazing pizza place in the bronx with slices the size of my torso, and walked around. we went to hot topic, this other place [which is like a store for fat scene kids lol. it's freakin cool, but i had a "slit my wrists" moment when i looked at the tag in my jeans.] and i got a new found glory shirt from hot topic, a pair of new skinnies and some bow clips from that one store, and then we went to dunkin donuts for iced coffee, then shortly after we went to barnes & noble. i read the newest emily the strange comic [OMGERARDWAY!! lol] and looked at some cool books in the "if you liked the twilight saga" section. it was cool.}

Weather._{it's freakin hot.

you would think, "hey, it's farther north, farther east, so it should be nicer, right?"

NO.

WRONG.

it's been 95+ for the past week and i cant stand it. i mean, it was fine for the while we stayed with my aunt and her boyfriend, jake, but when we get to grandma's apartment, since she has shit AC, we're dying. and she doesn't have an ice machine. gayyyyyy. it's even worse in the bedroom, because there is no window unit and the air doesn't circulate. this is creating problems.
problem 1: cant sleep
problem 2: sweating
problem 3: head aches.

thank god we're leaving tonight.

it's so much cooler a mile above sea level. lol.}

And Finally..._{today's to-do list:

-wait for everyone to wake up
-go to uncle ralph's barbecue
-reunite...gag.
-drive to the airport [hour and a half...uck.]
-fly home
-fucking sleep.

i cant waitto go home!!!!

MONEYYYYYYYY.

yep.

50 dollars plus.

i'ma goin shoppin.

xoxo
frankie}

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]]> ~emoelefant i felt like dying. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19465197/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19465197/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 13:06:12 PDT So, you like?

_{this is my new CSS!! i love it. it's sexxyyyyy.
:]

News.

_{good news:
going to see my uncle for the first time in years on sunday
seeing dark knight tonight
talked to ellie last night
watched harry potter again x]

bad news:
back ache
leaving new york
sleeping at grandma's tonight
school starts soon.

augh. school starting means we have to spend money. money that we dont have. and it sucks. i really want to wait until...after my birthday to go clothes shopping, because then both me and mom will have money, and we can meet halfway. i hope that dad sends money for clothes or SOMETHING.

eh.

whatever.

And as for my "Final Words"...
_{Have a wonderful day, a wonderful week, a wonderful rest of the summer. This is the only life you get, as far as I know, so you better make it good. Live, love, give, and let go.
It's all we've got, kiddies.
It's all we've got.}

journal by *bewarecalamity}} ]]> ~emoelefant quiz from bellaD. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19435017/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19435017/ Wed, 16 Jul 2008 20:16:16 PDT 1. Frankie.
2. Frankums.
3. Texas.

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. poop-face [on adobe xD]
2. emoelefant[on just about everything]
3. frankie.o [gmail...old.]

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. haircut
2. eye color
3. clear skin. [so far.]

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. TEETHHH.
2. weirdly proportions.
3. and i'm really fat.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. italian
2. spanish
3. irish

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. the way i act sometimes.
2. dying in my sleep.
3. some bugs.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. music
2. hygiene. yes.
3. sunglasses :]

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. 'not guilty' shirt [from when i saw chicago

]
2. sweatpants
3. nail polish. haha.

[CURRENT TOP] THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. my chemical romance
2. say anything
3. mayday parade

[CURRENT TOP] THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. when i get home, you're so dead - mayday parade
2. have it all - jeremy kay
3. roses - meg and dia

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Love
2. Close physical proximity to my significant other
3. well, said significant other should be kind, reasonably intelligent, and funny.
yeah cant argue with that.

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. i'm way more shy than i put myself out to be
2. My IQ is actually over 150.
3. lies fly out of my mouth sometimes. dont even know why. haha.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. doesn't matter.
2. doesn't matter.
3. it freakin doesn't matter.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. music
2. trying to draw
3. writing.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. move to north carolina. i'll live on the streets if i have to.
2. get skinny.
3. float.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. musician
2. manager!
3. idk.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. england
2. north carolina
3. anywhere.

THREE KIDS' NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. michael.
2. emeline
3. grigg [omgjaneaustenbookclub]

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. see ellie [;n;]
2. skydive.
3. drive across the country [any country, really.]

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i love accessories!
2. i love shoes lol.
3. eyeliner is a must.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. i dont cry. ever.
2. i dont care how my hair looks...most of the time.
3. my eyebrows...nail beds...split ends...dry elbows...not a big problem. haha.

_{ohmygosh ellie.
that cant be your favorite song!

cause i'm gonna cryyy.} ]]> ~emoelefant calling all cops and autobots! http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19396556/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19396556/ Mon, 14 Jul 2008 18:38:05 PDT sorry.

listening to motion city soundtrack.

haha.

come chat with mee!!

aim: xdrinkmercury

yahoo: xoxofrankie@rocketmail.com

msn: frankie_xo@live.com

gmail: xoxo.frankie@gmail.com

they're all a little redundant, i can see that. lol.

i'm usually on all three. if i dont answer, just email me. :]

xoxo
frankie

----- ]]> ~emoelefant so freakin weird. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19363053/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19363053/ Sat, 12 Jul 2008 22:16:07 PDT me and dakota were talking online, and...random conversation popped up

haha, read this:

Dakota (1:03 AM): dance dance
Dakota (1:03 AM): there
Dakota (1:03 AM): listen to that song mentally
Dakota (1:03 AM): xD
Frankie (1:03 AM): ?
Dakota (1:03 AM): fallout boy?
Frankie (1:03 AM): i hate fallout boy.
Frankie (1:03 AM): i was just wondering why you chose that song out of all the others lol
Dakota (1:04 AM): it's the only one i know >.>
Frankie (1:04 AM): gayyy
Dakota (1:04 AM): they are
Frankie (1:04 AM): i know
Dakota (1:05 AM): like MCR
Dakota (1:05 AM): xD
Frankie (1:05 AM): not funny
Dakota (1:05 AM): why?
Dakota (1:05 AM): you waiting for gerard to kick down your door
Frankie (1:05 AM): YES.
Frankie (1:05 AM): no...
Dakota (1:05 AM): and be like 'hey baby, lets go to the black parade'
Frankie (1:05 AM): more like frank
Frankie (1:05 AM): he's my favorite :]
Dakota (1:05 AM): and they you fly off
Frankie (1:05 AM): YESSSS
Dakota (1:06 AM): on a rainbow of tears
Frankie (1:06 AM): YESSSSS
Dakota (1:06 AM): and bloooood
Frankie (1:06 AM): YESSSS
Dakota (1:06 AM): and tampons
Frankie (1:06 AM): YESSSSS
Frankie (1:06 AM): no
Frankie (1:06 AM): no
Frankie (1:06 AM): no
Dakota (1:06 AM): LOL
Frankie (1:06 AM): nonono!

lol. :]

----- ]]> ~emoelefant sorry for the journals. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19302930/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19302930/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 01:27:32 PDT i've just gotta know.

this is based off of a conversation me and dakota had.

what would you change about me in these aspects:

name - if you could see me with a different name, what would it be?

looks - be specific now. none of that "you're pretty!" bullshit. that's a lie.

personality - be completely honest.

style - yeah, i'm poor, but i do what i can. if i had money, what would you tell me to do?

intelligence/maturity - you know you want to.

post this in your journal.
i'll answer.

:]

----- ]]> ~emoelefant another one! http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19301917/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19301917/ Wed, 09 Jul 2008 23:25:15 PDT Just answer the questions below in the comments.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. what was that something?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your DA and see what I say about you?

----- ]]> ~emoelefant oh, how you make it sparkle and glow. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19298694/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19298694/ Wed, 09 Jul 2008 19:28:12 PDT song of the day:

this is for real - motion city soundtrack

-----

Leave a comment and I will:
A) tell you why I befriended you.
B) associate you with something - fandom, a song, a color, a photo, etc..
C) tell you something I like about you.
D) tell you a memory I have of you.
E) ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
F) tell you my favorite picture of yours.
G) in return, you must post this in your journal.

today was an odd day...
alot of sweets.

we went to dylans candy bar shortly after going to serendipity 3 [a very famous trendy restaraunt in the city] and getting a huge sundae, and got a pound of candy...which was cool, and a pair of flip flops. then, we got home, and i finally started to read catcher in the rye and instead of eating dinner, we had more ice cream from cold stone.

very weird.

then we went to the bookstore. it was cute :]

xo
frankie

----- ]]> ~emoelefant devious journal entry...in your pants. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19200825/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19200825/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 11:06:53 PDT so.......

i'm bored.

people should really halt their exciting lives just to get online and talk to me. or...

TAKE A FREAKIN TRAIN TO SEE MEEEEEE.

lol.

jk.

----- ]]> ~emoelefant tattoo fades by the hour. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19193354/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19193354/ Thu, 03 Jul 2008 23:06:38 PDT song of the day:

ballad of paul k. - mcfly

-----

watched donnie darko for the sixth time in my life. caught alot of things i didnt catch the first five times. also recognized alot of things.

1. he's reading stephen king's 'it' in one of the scenes.

2. 'love will tear us apart' by joy division is playing at the huge party.

3. when frank is talking, almost everything around donnie stops, like when he finds jim cunninham's wallet in front of his house, frank says 'now you know where he lives' and the sprinkler stops and the dog stops moving. very strange.

lol.

well, goodnight.

xoxo
frankie

----- ]]> ~emoelefant blehhh. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19155319/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19155319/ Tue, 01 Jul 2008 21:33:35 PDT

so.

yeah.

saw hancock today.

was amazing.
ate an entire bag of sour patch kids before the movie actually started...then i bought another one...
then i almost cried.

yeah.

i have a video of me and my cousin and sister playing rock band. then i have another one of me singing, but most of them are me playing drums. i'll probably take more videos when i have batteries.

:]

dammittttttt.

i'm bored and hungry.
bleh.

night.

----- ]]> ~emoelefant it's getting closer now. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19143000/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19143000/ Tue, 01 Jul 2008 09:05:19 PDT song of the day:

pressure - paramore

-----

so....last night i saw a...

BROADWAY SHOW!!!

I saw Chicago at the 49th street broadway theatre, and it was so awesome. roxie was played by this really bubbly brunette girl, and it was so fun! we sat really close, too. then, me, my sister, and my cousin all got shirts that said 'NOT GUILTY'. so...yeah. then we went and walked through times square, got some gelato, and drove home.

yeah. we've been playing alot of Rock Band also. i've gotten really good at the drums, and i'm amazing at 'Welcome Home'. :]]]

well, i'm really hoping for something to happen [you know who you are....].

xoxo
frankie

----- ]]> ~emoelefant remember more than you'd like to forget.. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19090094/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19090094/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 09:41:48 PDT song of the day:

this photograph is proof [i know you know] - taking back sunday

-----

heyyyyyyy!!!

soo...tonight i'm leaving...on a midnight train to georgia....but not really....it's a midnight plane to new york.

cant wait!!

and we're going to denver today to go to this restaurant where the waiters are cliff-divers, and they come in from above you. sounds cool :]

alright, well i'll hopefully update when i get to my aunt's house.

xoxoxoxo
frankie

----- ]]> ~emoelefant look up to the sky. you long for something more. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19014937/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/19014937/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 06:49:01 PDT song of the day:

after tonight - justin nozuka

-----

NO SLEEP!!! WHOOO!!!

i "slept" at lindsey's house last night [yeah and i'm still here mooching off of her internet...since mine doesn't work] we played GOW, Halo, Mortal Kombat II and III, and we did that until about 3 or 4 in the morning, then we went in her room and tried to piece together a poem she wrote [which her ex-girlfriend ripped to shreds in her face...very sad..] so i could read it. it was really pretty. theeeennn....i PWND her at transformers monopoly. i mean, once you buy earth and the other one, then add some antimatter, she had to pay 2000 dollars when she passed through lol.

so....yeah.

lol.

now, she's getting ready, and then we're riding our bikes to the elementary school to see if we could work there.

MONEY.

lol.

well, i wont be back for a while, so...

xo

[it'll all be alright.]

----- ]]> ~emoelefant she makes angels. [edit] http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18906502/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18906502/ Wed, 18 Jun 2008 07:14:42 PDT thought i should bring back the song of the day:

angel - jack johnson

-----

how's everyone been?

anyway...
so telemarketers keep calling my house. they seriously are like, harassing me; since my mom is never home, it's me answering it. and it's always some middle-eastern guy saying "Hello. Cahn I speak to Reechard?" It's pissing me off. lol.

oh god. now i have ten rings stuck in my head. great. lol.

since i was gone:
i turned into a slightly emo hippie
started learning guitar from a tall bald french-canadian
became single
started to seriously get annoyed with dakota
made some really great friends
got a new mp3 player
got a thumb tack stuck all the way in the top of my foot
went to the pool
slept.

pretty eventful, huh?

my summer has turned out lame.

bah.

should i just keep chasing pavements?

xo

[edit]

stolen from

[ ] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] You have your own room.
[ ] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[ ] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
T 0 T A L: 2

[x] You dress how you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[ ] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[x] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.
T 0 T A L: 8

[x] You have a myspace.
[x] Your parents let you have a myspace.
[ ] You get allowance.
[ ] You collect something normal.
[ ] You look forward to going to school/college.
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[ ] You play a sport.
[ ] You do something after school/college.
T 0 T A L: 10

[ ] You own a car.
[ ] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[ ] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren't self-conscious at all.
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[X] You have friends.
T 0 T A L: 11

[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[ ] You care about so many people.
[ ] You are happy with your life.
[ ] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[ ] You don't have any enemies
[x] You are a generally nice person.
T O T A L: 16

multiply that by three and you are 48% happy.

surprise?

----- ]]> ~emoelefant CAMPCAMPCAMP http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18624745/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18624745/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 10:07:48 PDT
_{hey gaiiiiiisssss.

i'm leaving for camp.

leave me some love. but dont post alot of journals....it gets on my nerves. ugh. lol.}

I'M WEARING FIFTY JELLY BRACELETS. TWENTY FIVE ON EACH ARM.

i just found them in the depths of my closet.

_{byebyeeee

ilyguys.}

----- ]]> ~emoelefant please let me be. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18565031/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18565031/ Thu, 29 May 2008 18:01:43 PDT
_{song of the day:

sad story - plain white t's.

-----

so...i got to see my stepdad's face today
we went to this conference room where we got to talk to him over video screen. it was reeeeaaaally cool.

after that, we went to walmart, where we got the shark attack slip-n-slide!!! i cant wait to get on it. but...we have to get bathing suits first. that'll be fun...Â¬Â¬
anyway, we're going on a uber shopping spree tomorrow. i think at target...but whatever. we need a buncha shit for camp, like, this huge list, and we dont have any of it. soooo...payday = shopping. :]

so i was listening to a bunch of old cd's i had, and i came across justified by justin timberlake....
lemme tell you,

i fangirl'd.

C:

it was pretty funny, cause me and my sister had a dance to 'cry me a river' and everything!
lol.

oh, and i wont be on the computer for a week.
i know, suprising,
but yeah.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoforeverrrr.

[smile!]}

----- ]]> ~emoelefant colon d. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18481305/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18481305/ Sat, 24 May 2008 15:13:25 PDT
--

_{i had alot of fun today :]

first off, i woke up at six and went to graduation! it was total epic, because i doubled up on the macadamia nut coffee that reminds me of when i lived in hawaii, and ate a waffle. so i was super hyper, and i had my video camera with me, and i was taking videos of me saying "whatthefuckisthisshit!?" lol. i totally spazzed out on the colors and stuff, and scott [~sukottouma] was wearing kick ass sunglasses with his shiny grad gown. so when we sang, annie kept laughing next to me, and i was distracted. i didnt see any seniors cry, which made me mad. lol. then, the flags flew out of their stands, the hats attacked, and it was all around a good day, although i still have bits of astroturf in my shoes and underwear...lol. sitting on fake stadium grass is not a good idea. lol.

i still got a sunburn, not suprised.

then, i went to this festival called 'territory days' which has nothing to do with territories, but there was food, activities, and we even panned for gold. i just found enough pink rocks to make jeffree star proud. i have them in a little vile, and since they're dyed, the water's pink too! lol. it's just amazing. then, we went to this little ice cream place and i got cappuchino. AUUUUUUGGGHHH it was so good.

now i'm home, and i'm about to take a loooooooooooong nap. i'm sorry i'm not getting on as much, by the way, mom's being a bitch and hogging the computer. gayyyy.

xoxolaugh.}

----- ]]> ~emoelefant tonight, i was human. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18455596/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18455596/ Thu, 22 May 2008 22:22:44 PDT
--

_{i cried for an hour, letting all my human emotions show. i hugged my mother. i played wii with my brothers. tonight, i spent time with my sister. i wrote a song. i sat and reflected. i laid out on the grass. today, i was totally unlike myself.
tonight, my mother comforted me...and i have never felt more accepted.

in more important news...COME AS YOU ARE IS OVER. oh my gosh. i was like...WHAT/??!?!?!?!??!?!?!?ONE+SHIFT!? it ended. and i am sad. i check my email every day to see the 'mibba . com story update' email. lol.

xoxo}

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countdowns:
summer - it's here, baby. ]]> ~emoelefant but you'll never take the summer from me. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18447271/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18447271/ Thu, 22 May 2008 13:01:00 PDT
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_{song of the day:

the beach - all time low

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oh my goshhhhh. summer is finally here! and i started it off with a grilled cheese sandwich and a dr. pepper :]
it doesn't feel much like summer, though. more like...a long weekend. i guess it's because this year went by to fast. ten months seemed like four seconds, and now that it's over, what's next? what's coming up my sophomore year? who knows. but i cant wait for the crapload of homework i'll be getting...ugh. anyway, my summer wont really start until camp because my mom decided to be mean and ground me...mostly for no reason. but whatever.
hope i'll get to hang out with my friends tomorrow.

so i hope the weather on saturday is somewhat like today's, because it's freakin beautiful outside. like...i wish it was like this every day. although, i'm gonna turn orange. crap. lol.

dakota officially moved out of his house :C
he's living in a hotel now, and i'll barely get to see him. but i'll see him on saturday so....

well, off to download some music. >:}

xoxosummer.}

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countdowns:
summer - it's here, baby. ]]> ~emoelefant ;n; http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18442213/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18442213/ Thu, 22 May 2008 05:21:50 PDT
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i'm from the future.

pretzels...that's all i'm sayin.

_{i turn in my laptop today, much to my demise. i'll be sharing a computer with five people now! gay!

i'll still be logging on to things, but just not as much, especially with camp on the way.

well, off to my last day of school.
wish me luck

C=}

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countdowns:
summer - it's here, baby. ]]> ~emoelefant lay with me. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18437374/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18437374/ Wed, 21 May 2008 19:30:34 PDT i hope that you remain the same.
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_{song of the day:

take my hand - the cab

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ohmygosh.

so i really am going to camp.

gay.

it's this week long camp in the mountains, and lindsey said it was fun, but then again...she's a nature person. i'm not much of one. we have this list of things to pack for camp, and we're going shopping for them soon...so that'll be exciting. haha. probably at wal-mart or something...maybe target if we're lucky xD. but me and joey are NOT going to be in the same cabins or even age groups [silent rejoicing going on right now]. it'll be hard for her, but i'm okay at socializing...sometimes...maybe.

yep.

im turning in my laptop tomorrow ;n;
i'm gonna miss mikey VII. he was a trooper....sniff....

i c a m e h e r e t o m a k e y o u d a n c e t o n i g h t}

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countdowns:
summer - one more day of hell.

the freedom's all i care about anymore. ]]> ~emoelefant it's me who's got the demons to wrestle http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18429238/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18429238/ Wed, 21 May 2008 11:14:16 PDT dont blink, dont close your eyes.
most of all...

dont apologize.
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_{song of the day:

song in my head - sherwood.

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finals finals finals. i had three of 'em today. ughhhh. lol.

math went kinda okay. i know i did good, but how good, you know? i dunno, it just seems like my mind just kinda went fuzzy and blank today. not a good thing...haha. my drawing final was okay...but weird. i had to draw this cowboy...in a sexual like position. lol. english went normal. i'll probably miss one or two, being that i'm stupid, but i'll probably get a ninety-something.

graduation's this weekend!
c=

cant wait lol. i get to finally see what one looks like. cause...i dont know, being the oldest, the only one outside of this one i'll be able to watch is my own. i'm the oldest child in my immediate family. gay. lol. mr. w makes it sound so cool and awesome, i dont know. the weather's supposed to be nice, too. yayyyyy

we speak in different voices
when fighting with the ones we love
we speak in different voices
why cant we say what we're thinking of?

xoxospeak.}

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countdowns:
summer - one more day of hell.

the freedom's all i care about anymore. ]]> ~emoelefant this is my blood. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18411987/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18411987/ Tue, 20 May 2008 08:53:19 PDT god fucking dammit.

_{song of the day:

ladies and gentlemen, my brother: the failure. - thursday

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today was seriously a bummer. i totally bombed my science final [70...ugh.], i didn't have time to find socks this morning, so i'm wearing my brand new nike shoes...without socks. fuck. i'm pretty much acing algebra now, though, so...i guess i'm okay. i'm still feeling really depressed about last night and...certain events. but thursday's on it's way, and i'll finally be free.

on a lighter note, i'm finally finishing the uglies series! i only read the uglies, and since i didnt have money, i couldn't get the rest of them...but luckily joey's friend rachel had all of them. ....yesssss!!! lol.

i'm sure i'll hear all about stephanie meyer today on the bus...god i hate my mother.

i downloaded Iron Man on my computer
i've been watching it all block. lol.

if there was an operation to make me beautiful, i would take the risk of brain lesions.

xo}

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countdowns:
summer - two days.

the freedom's all i care about anymore. ]]> ~emoelefant would you say so long, farewell, and good luck? http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18406631/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18406631/ Mon, 19 May 2008 20:48:16 PDT god fucking dammit.

_{song of the day:

dust - augustana

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i believed in the lord, 
but he don't show up anymore.


jesus fucking christ. 
dammit. 

i dont think i've ever been this emotional ever. nothing's fun anymore. nothing makes me happy. well, things do, but barely. 
and just when i think things are turning up.
and i'm a fucking hypocrite if i think that this was all just a half-baked ploy to satisfy selfish needs. because it wasn't. and it wasn't selfish. it was all perfectly sane, and i guess my own selfish wants and dreams dont measure up to reality. i want everything to be okay, to be like it used to be when we would sit in study hall and mouth the words to queen songs as we sat on the desks, or when we would draw and write on the board and record our teacher making weird noises, or when i would sneak out of the science room to talk. things used to be so great, so simple, way before i was faced with things above my maturity level. way before all of this...all of this pretending i was something i'm not. i'm not mature, i'm not smart, i'm not capable, why am i dealing with this? what, now i'm recoiling like a hot-tempered seven year-old? 
it was stupid and ignorant to think that things would ever work out.

i'm just going to go back to my petty existence, with or without them, because i'm not going to be selfish anymore. 

goodnight. 
the one i really want to read this is probably not, being they de-friended me.
so...


xo}

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countdowns:
summer - 4 days

the freedom's all i care about anymore. ]]> ~emoelefant don't wake me up. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18391537/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18391537/ Sun, 18 May 2008 23:10:15 PDT why do things have to be so damn complicated?

_{warning: i'm about to go all emo on your ass.

old relationships catch up fast, eh?
i'd like to keep dreaming, pretending that the past doesn't matter anymore. it does. oh, it does so much. it's almost frightening how fast it slaps you in the face, too.
i'm doing things i wouldn't normally do, thinking things i never think, and actually feeling now. i just cried my fucking eyes out at something i never thought would make me cry.
i want to pretend everythings not gonna happen, like the world will stop just so i can watch everything fling past me as the gravity ceases to exist and then nothing will matter.
i wish, you know?

i want these last weeks to be good, but i dont know how good they can be. if all i can think about is...the past...then i can never be in the now, and that's what i've been striving for.
i want to take back all the shit that i've done.
i need to start to be myself.

is this what it feels like to break down?
you feel everything falling from under you, and when you take a big step and look away, you realize that it's too late. everything that you thought you wanted to say doesn't matter anymore, because the things you really needed to say...well, you lost the oppertunity to say them.
i dont want to need anybody, either. i just want to wallow in my own self-pity while i waste away to nothing, and all my friends and loved ones can go live their lives. i'm just ruining them, anyways. me and my self-harm thoughts.

it's not that i dont need this. my past and my emotions are rejecting it, though. violently, like a disease, it's just taking over slowly.

soon enough it'll go away, i tell myself.

i dont know that it will.

i'm sorry.}

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countdowns:
summer - 4 days

the freedom's all i care about anymore. ]]> ~emoelefant counting up the years. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18383962/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18383962/ Sun, 18 May 2008 13:47:20 PDT
_{quiz time :]

1. How old will you be in five years? 20

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today? mom....ugh.

3. How tall are you? 180 CM :]

4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks? finals, camp, opening of the pool, possibly new york, getting a paycheck, spending time with my friends.

5. What's the last movie you saw? Iron Man. beaaaast.

6. Who was the last person you called? i dont call people often...

7. Who was the last person to call you? richard :]

8. What was the last text message you received? none :[

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail? ...

10. Do you prefer to call or text? text. it's fun

11. What were you doing at 12am last night? sleeping :]]

12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? divorced.

13. When is the last time you saw your mom? two minutes ago.

14. What color are your eyes? green/hazel/greyish.

15. Do you own slippers? i have shoes without soles, and i use them as slippers

16. What are you wearing right now? sweats.

17. What is your favorite christmas song? i dunno.

18. Where is your favorite place to be? if i was skinny and good looking i would probably answer "the beach" but because i'm not...i'll probably say...my room with my guitar, my computer, cable television and some coke.

19. Africa-NewZealand-Japan? i wish i could go to new zealand. :]

20. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? that's too long in the future to think about really. hopefully, though, graduated from college.

21. Do you tan or burn? tan....which is a huge bummer.

22. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? freddy. i used to watch those movies all the time, and thought he was gonna get me. serious.

23. What was the last thing that really made you laugh? dakota running from me...as i was chasing him with a water gun

24. How many TVs do you have in your house? three.

25. When did you last get in a argument? i dont know.

26. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer? laptop...for now....wahhhhhh ;n;

27. Do you sleep with or without clothes on? with?

28. What color are your walls? grey.

29. How many pillows do you sleep with? two.

30. What is your favorite season? summer and winter...longest and shortest days. for reasons.

31. What do you like about fall? the temperature.

32. What do you like about winter? getting older...and closer to being free.

33. What do you like about the summer? warm weather, sun, freedom, laying on the grass, music playing loudly, just enjoying life. if only for two months.

34. What do you like about spring? RAIN.

35. How many states have you lived in? eight.

36. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet? shoes. haha.

37. Are you a social person? sometimes....

38. What was the last thing you ate? some biscuts with honey on them.

39. Have you tried escargo? it's spelled escargot, and no.

40. What is your favorite ice cream? sorbet. the ben & jerry's 'jamaican me crazy' flavor :]]]

41. What is your favorite dessert? fruit.

42. Have you drank a Shirley Temple? yesss :}

43. Do you like Chinese food? okay, i lived in new york for 6-7 years. DUH.

44. Do you like coffee? yesssssssssssssssssssssss.

45. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average? it depends.

46. What do you drink in the morning?water. or coffee :]

47. How often do you shower? every day.

48. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? i have a futon. it's currently folded so....

49. Do you know how to play poker? a little.

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so, i totally soaked everyone with water guns yesterday, no? dakota, admit it. you were scared like a little girl
>:}

it's you, it's you.
you make me sing.
you're every line...
you're every word...
you're everything.

sometimes, you cant help but sing along to michael buble.

xo}

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countdowns:
summer - 5 days
breaking dawn - too far away.
camp - not far enough.
twilight - AUUUGHHHH!!!!!!
stephanie meyer in denver - FREAKING NEXT MONDAY!.

lol.

_{diditellyouiwasdatingsomeonecauseiam
.ifeelfreakingawfulandiknowi... ]]>} ~emoelefant and dont you know i'm just a kid tonight? http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18371193/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18371193/ Sat, 17 May 2008 17:59:58 PDT song of the day:

can you keep a secret? - the cab

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so, today was ALOT of fun. first, i picked up lindsey at her house, and then we drove to dakota's party, which was all spent climbing on trees and playing in the dirt and drinking soday and doing fun stuff. then, we had to leave, and we all got ice cream on the way home, then we went to the park. i just came home, and lindsey's coming over later again, cause she doesn't want to do...certain things...haha.

. i m a l i t t l e b i t m o r e t h a n y o u c a n t a k e .

xodancewithmebaby.

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countdowns:
summer - 5 days
breaking dawn - too far away.
camp - not far enough.
twilight - AUUUGHHHH!!!!!!
stephanie meyer in denver - FREAKING NEXT TUESDAY.

lol.

_{diditellyouiwasdatingsomeonecauseiam.ifeelfreakingawfulandiknowimajerkbutitssomethingthatsgoodforme.} ]]> ~emoelefant from the rooftops i remember, there was snow. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18354672/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18354672/ Fri, 16 May 2008 16:33:34 PDT song of the day:

violet hill - coldplay

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let's dance to joy division.

[the wombats.]

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countdowns:
summer - 9 days
breaking dawn - too far away.
camp - not far enough.
twilight - AUUUGHHHH!!!!!!
stephanie meyer in denver - FREAKING NEXT TUESDAY.

lol. ]]> ~emoelefant i dont wanna go a day without you. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18349589/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18349589/ Fri, 16 May 2008 10:05:11 PDT song of the day:

warm me up - the audition

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sorry i'm not at school, guys. i'll be there later, but the house isn't clean yet, so i'm not allowed. i'm sure i'll be there by the yearbook signing...maybe...

dude, did anyone else see that article that ~Rabbit-Alex was talking about in her journal? duuuuuude. crazy. i literally bitched about it all morning. lol.

my lungs are dead and my limbs are cold. i must be close to losing someone.

xoxobitch.

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countdowns:
summer - 9 days
breaking dawn - too far away.
camp - not far enough.
twilight - AUUUGHHHH!!!!!!
stephanie meyer in denver - FREAKING NEXT TUESDAY.

lol. ]]> ~emoelefant i dont want to leave the comfort of this place. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18328634/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18328634/ Wed, 14 May 2008 21:57:07 PDT song of the day:

higher - creed

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feeling a little 90's today. they were the best years...like...ever.
i mean come on, the good power rangers were then. now we got this gay ass shit. haha.

THE RULES:
1. Post these rules, 'cause rules are AWESOME...*SHOT*
2. Write 11 random facts about thyself.
3. Post these thangs in your journal.
4. TAG 6 more people into doing the meme.
5. Go to the TAGGEDS' DA pages to let them know they're TAGGED

1. i actually love the colors yellow and pink, i have just built up such an emo reputation, nobody believes it. haha.
2. i have ALOT of friends with poofy hair.
3. i like simple plan -shot-
4. i'm pretty sure i could make it into trojanaires, i'm just to scared to try anything.
5. i've been to my teacher's house before. he was laughing really weird...haha.
6. i LOVE whole foods.
7. i kind of SUCK at guitar hero.
8. yes, all time low used to sound better, but i still love them.
9. i'm a scene kid in an overprotected kids body. ;n;
10. i dance and sing in the shower, and get yelled at. xD
11. mother superior jumped the gun. xDDDDDDD

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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countdowns:
summer - 9 days
breaking dawn - too far away.
camp - not far enough.
twilight - AUUUGHHHH!!!!!!
stephanie meyer in denver - FREAKING NEXT TUESDAY.

lol. ]]> ~emoelefant cause i'm hung up on you. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18323574/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18323574/ Wed, 14 May 2008 16:08:04 PDT song of the day:

disconnected - red jumpsuit apparatus

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oooohhhhh boy. all this talk of summer is getting me excited. you? i mean, come on, there are gonna be hella bunch of fights on friday, it being the last day for seniors, even more on the last day, and if that wasn't entertaining enough, i might just be going to new york afterall. first week of july. hell yeah.

mom's getting the job, but they want her for it so bad, they're letting her start in july. so, that means i get a paycheck for babysitting the boys, and a good vacation. yayyyyy :]

LULZ MR. WILSON CALLED ME FRANCES.

xoxosing.

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countdowns:
summer - 9 days
breaking dawn - too far away.
camp - not far enough.
twilight - AUUUGHHHH!!!!!!
stephanie meyer in denver - FREAKING NEXT TUESDAY.

lol. ]]> ~emoelefant i'm sleeping with my clothes on. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18301934/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18301934/ Tue, 13 May 2008 08:39:53 PDT song of the day:

my own worst enemy - lit

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so, i got an outfit for graduation/tomorrow. we have to sing at the valedictorian luncheon, and although we dont have to look nice, he said it would be good, so i'm taking the oppertunity to ask mr. wilson about it. lol. it's this knee-length white skirt, a maroonish pink shirt over an orange one, and yellow shoes :]]]]

it's pretty cute. oh, and my kick ass aviators will definitely be worn. oh yessss. i'll take pictures...when i can find my camera...haha.

i'm so freakin tired today, i cut myself [reeeeeaaaaally deep] shaving, i have a blister on my foot, this shirt is too low-cut, and it's freakin hot.

cant wait for summer :]

oh, and i love you all.

xoxodance.

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countdowns:
summer - 9 days
breaking dawn - too far away.
camp - not far enough.
twilight - AUUUGHHHH!!!!!!
stephanie meyer in denver - FREAKING NEXT TUESDAY.

lol. ]]> ~emoelefant the pam is still on my window. http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18286977/ http://emoelefant.deviantart.com/journal/18286977/ Mon, 12 May 2008 10:07:48 PDT no song today. i'm too tired and have no music. -die-

my computer crashed.

this is dinner's computer.

how weird is that?

i'm getting another one.

SIX FUCKING COMPUTERS.

damn.

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with summer so close, how am i dying inside? ]]> ~emoelefant