http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:emopanda202&section=today deviantART RSS for by:emopanda202 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 19 Dec 2009 18:49:38 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/20830903/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/20830903/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 19:13:27 PDT
So, I never get to see my parents anymore. Among school, homework, their work and them leaving every weekend, I hardly get to talk to them. I'm purely relying on my sister and my best friend, Amy. I ask them about stuff now and get pretty good advice, too. Ever since my parents started leaving, my sister and I seem to get along a lot better.

So, I hate being home alone at night. My sister came home really late last night, if it was even night. I know some people would take advantage of a quiet house, but I just get scared and paranoid. I automatically turn on all the lights and the television or crank the radio. I like to go into the smallest room in the house so I can feel like I'm not alone, there's just not enough room.

So, there's not much else to say. I've been so busy and, yeah...

]]> ~emopanda202 http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/20216557/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/20216557/ Fri, 29 Aug 2008 10:23:27 PDT
Well school means work, and work means even less doodles. *sigh*

My parents have been out of town every weekend since grandpa became ill. I miss them. I bonded with my dad yesterday. We went to the state fair and ate until we couldn't feel our stomachs any more. It was pretty fun. We discussed my future career as a possible doctor. I think it would be a good way to give back to the community.

]]> ~emopanda202 http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/19698077/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/19698077/ Thu, 31 Jul 2008 11:05:13 PDT
I'm thirteen, and am glad that I was mature enough to get to know him. I hope to live a long, complete life like his.

]]> ~emopanda202 http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/19524454/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/19524454/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 18:51:49 PDT
My family has been very stressed lately. Kim is always thinking about her job and college stuff (It's the last year for volunteer hours). Mom is stressed because of grandpa. She spends most of the time at the nursing home (3 hours away) or on business trips. I haven't seen her much this month, and when I do, we don't talk...at all. Dad doesn't give a shit about me (Never has, really). He's revolved around his work and bank account. It's a terrible environment to live in. I tend to get out of the house more often.

With everyone revolved around their own little lives, I'm all alone. I'm more sad than ever before, and no one seems to care. I cried, no one even glanced at me. I left the house for an hour, no one seemed to notice. I slept on the floor because not even the soft bed ,with all it's pillows, comforted me. I feel very useless and lonely, but no one seems to give a damn. No one is there.

I know things could always get worse, and I know there are people with such worse things going on. I'm just drowned in my own emotions at the moment, and it sickens me. It makes me feel needy.

I really just wish everything with grandpa would stop.

]]> ~emopanda202 http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/19408794/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/19408794/ Tue, 15 Jul 2008 11:53:07 PDT
I'm back to my drawing self, so be prepared for more uploads...(Yay?)

That's it for now...

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My uncle proposed to his girlfriend. I'm happy for him. He's like 41, I think, now. It was a July 7th. Exactly a year after the Pepsi race (Nascar).

Lately, I've been really down. My grandpa might not be here much longer. He's around 83, and he can't get out of bed or stand up. He had a surgery a while back, and he didn't heal correctly from it. He doesn't eat or drink anything usually, and he has to take laxatives because he never takes a dump. The laxatives interfere with his insulin which he definitely NEEDS, but sometimes doesn't take. And as if all THAT wasn't bad enough, they found a tumor on his liver. I doubt he's strong enough for surgery, and even if he was, he would heal slowly if at all. The liver is the thing in your body that heals you and fights for your health.
At the moment, he is in a hospital and he'll probably stay there for a week or so. I'm lucky 'cause I actually get to say goodbye. I'm going to miss him so much. Everybody is...

I really don't feel like drawing. Sorry.

]]> ~emopanda202 http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/18703576/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/18703576/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 19:39:30 PDT
Things I need to improve on and my plan C:

+Run faster
run five times a week until I can only crawl
+Change my drawing style
draw until my hand hurts three times a week
+Change my coloring style
color every drawing from above in a couple different style and attempts
+Better reading habits
read three to four books

Oh gawd...so much to do. oAo'

]]> ~emopanda202 http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17749292/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17749292/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 14:33:20 PDT
I don't even know if this is legal.....
I mean, state law says you have to have a front door, doesn't it? And why have that rule in place if the door didn't work?!!

/: Oh well. I hope we get it fixed soon.


Okay, so spring break ended yesterday *tear tear*
It was not a good day...
OBVIOUSLY


And, so today we were learnin' some new stuff in math...

Isn't "stuff" a great word?! The facs teacher said she hates it with a passion but I think it's pwnsome <3

...anyway, in math we were learning some more stuff about factoring binomials and trinomials and what not. And then I noticed that everything was abbreviated and I was like, "Wtf? What's up with that?"

There's, like, DOS, GCF, PST, and more. It's ridiculous!!

And it's damn confusing too. There's so much rules and guidelines Dx


/: Well, I better finish my dumb math homework..........

]]> ~emopanda202 http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17720353/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17720353/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 17:59:06 PDT
I want it that little "not cute" panda I drew a little bit ago

/: oh well


Oh, and thanks for the favs and pageviews everyone.

]]> ~emopanda202 http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17666292/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17666292/ Thu, 03 Apr 2008 11:58:47 PDT (Thank goodness)

And I got my internet fixed YAY!!!


I want to draw more, but I'm in a slump.
Rin should tell me five random things to draw........

Oh, and I was playing more video games and I think I'm readdy to battle Rin again :3

]]> ~emopanda202 http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17497534/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17497534/ Mon, 24 Mar 2008 17:57:27 PDT
*teartear* I actually have to do WORK?!!

Can you belive that?!!

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1. Make t-shirt designs

2. Scan my sketches

3. Brainstorm ideas of what I should do during my sister's college hopping (I'm being dragged along ToT)

4. Capture every Pokemon in the pokedex.

5. Get every extra Pokemon to level 40, every main/party Pokemon to level 80

6. See Horton Here's A Who

7. See 21

8. See Prom Night (Don't judge me!! It's a horror movie with lots of blood and creepy stalking!!)

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None completed yet D:

*sobsob*

]]> ~emopanda202 http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17473159/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17473159/ Sun, 23 Mar 2008 10:55:14 PDT
I really want to start working in Ms Paint again, so If you see a lot of Paint uploads that's why :3

Just.....be prepared.


Also, happy Easter. There's so much snow outside AND ITS SPRING!!! D: But snow is good :3

Also, also, One more week until spring break. YAY!!!

also, also, also, Byebye

]]> ~emopanda202 http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17255788/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17255788/ Sun, 09 Mar 2008 12:42:18 PDT
I'm procrastinating, like always
I have soooo much projects/homework/presentations to finish

..........So I want to make an ID and a new avatar....
I'll probably do that some time today
Maybe I'll do that now...

Also, I was thinking aboutmaking a t-shirt. I'll create a couple designs and when I'm finished with them I'll hold a poll. PLEASE VOTE WHEN THEY COME!!

Just to let you know...........

]]> ~emopanda202 http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17222436/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17222436/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 10:07:28 PST
Man > 3 < I'm so bored right now...I should be doing dishes and homework and stuff, but......... too lazy

My sister has been listening to this song and it's chorus goes something like this:
You and me baby
We're nothing but mammals
So lets just do it
Like discovery channel

x___x

I liked it better when she was listening to Lincoln Park...I miss those days TT^TT

So now I'm gong to browse through new deviations for a while....man I'm so bored.................................................................

]]> ~emopanda202 http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17166793/ http://emopanda202.deviantart.com/journal/17166793/ Mon, 03 Mar 2008 15:24:15 PST
Today the kids in the back of the bus were burning stuff. They started with hair, then went on to something that smelled so shitty that everyone opened their windows. A couple girl sprayed perfume too. It might've been drugs or something. I'm sick of their actions. They throw food, pencils, bottles of piss, and backpacks/hats/ect.

You could still smell whatever they were burning when you got back on the bus eight hours later.

All day people have been asking me, "Why are you so pissed? You have a disease, it's called 'Depressed'. Why are you so depressed?!"

My friends don't even TRY to cheer me up. They're just like, "Whatever." and start talking with each other again.



I just...can't deal with people right now.


Mondays sure are bad days.

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