http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:erimiris&section=today deviantART RSS for by:erimiris en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 20 Dec 2009 03:42:50 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/29048061/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/29048061/ Sat, 19 Dec 2009 19:52:24 PST
The next few days after that were a mess, a horrible blur. I was catatonic for the most part of the first day, then I went to Ash's house. Things improved there, for a while, but as soon as I got home again that same cold, empty feeling washed over me.

Working was hard. It meant I had to go out and face the world, and try not to cry when "Please don't leave me", "Who knew" and "I Don't Believe You" came on the radio. I had to deal with some really bad customers, and it took nearly everything I had in me not to slap the woman who corrected my pronunciation of the word Croissant.

I went home and got changed. Dave had decided that in an effort to make me feel better he was going to take me to Heaven's Door, a gay club in South Yarra. The whole way up there I was trying to lose myself in the loud music, the roaring bass... it worked for a while.

A drag queen gave me a hug. A cute little man and his best friend, a girl in red, danced close to me on the stage. I put all my feelings into kinetic energy and pumped them out in every direction. I danced so hard I lost myself in time and space. I couldn't feel anything but the adrenaline and the bassline. I sang louder than I ever had before.

Especially when the line "I'm better off without you" came on.

It's just the adjusting that's hard, really. Rolling into bed at 5am barely able to feel my feet because of the dancing, the rum, the exhaustion... it helps.

I just need to keep busy I suppose. Who cares? I'm a superstar. So Jay left me? So what? It was going to happen eventually anyway.

He was just one more thing holding me back. I need to go to University, and leave this hole behind.

Now, if only I could make myself believe any single word of that.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/28972635/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/28972635/ Wed, 16 Dec 2009 00:21:37 PST
It's over... that's all there is to it.

I don't want to be touched right now. Or even really looked at... all I want to do is sleep. Maybe walk around, but I'll wait until its dark for that.

I just can't believe it.

Jay left me today.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/28935408/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/28935408/ Mon, 14 Dec 2009 04:14:22 PST
Everything's kinda okay now. I'm just tired mostly. So Kasey and I have been putting the contents of my eco-bag, anything I don't need (receipts, gum wrappers, etc) into a tin bowl and burning it for fun in the caravan. Very stress relieving, very entertaining. Just fun.

So yeah. Life's just kinda chilling for now.

Working tomorrow, 11 - 6 then coming home and relaxing for the night.
Date with Jay on Wednesday. Meant to be a 49 degree celcius day. FUN.
Probably come back from Jay's house Thursday. Definitely stop into Wonthaggi that day, though, to get sushi from Kate's Shop.
Friday, working some more. Can't remember what time. Same Sat/Sun I think.

Aaaanyway, I'm gonna go get some sleeps. I'm tired. *snaw*

See you guys later. Have great nights. ^_^

Love you all.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/28866786/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/28866786/ Thu, 10 Dec 2009 15:13:45 PST
Shortly after I finished writing my journal on the day of my dinner party I recieved a letter from Victoria University. Three days ago, I enrolled and became a student, studying the Bachelor of Communications, Majoring in Professional Writing with a Minor in Public Relations and a few Psychology Classes as electives.

I'll be living on Student Residence come March, which is when first semester starts.

....Thank God.

I mean, really, finally. I have wasted so much time here, there's just... nothing left. I have my friends and I have my job, but really, my job was always just a stepping stone, and as lovely as these friends are and as much as I'm going to miss them, a lot of them have shown their true colours this year, and I've narrowed it down to maybe four or five I can actually trust.

And I've dried up every other possibility down here. It's just not worth staying here for five friends...

Of course, I wouldn't word it like that to them, but that's how I truly feel. Only Jay is taking it hard, which I'm actually getting a little annoyed about. I mean, fair enough he's going to miss me, but he's getting snipy at me because I'm going, and that's not fair. This is something I've been trying to do for years, and it's something I told him when we got back together. He can't gripe at me about it, it's just not fair.

It's actually really annoying. Jay's angry because I'm leaving, Grandma's back in hospital with Cancer (Third time, this time they can't even operate), Aunt D was rushed to the emergency room last night bleeding from the nose and mouth and we haven't heard anything back, and Mum and I have been fighting.

I'd really appreciate it if the world could just cool it for a few days and let me enjoy this. Something really good is finally happening, and I don't want to spend this time worrying about other people.

So for now, just for this morning, I'm going to be completely selfish and celebrate while I have the house to myself.

It's about time I made it into Vic Uni.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/28660551/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/28660551/ Sun, 29 Nov 2009 20:39:36 PST
Kiersten, Kate and Karmen will be in attendance, my housemate Kassey is of course going to be there... wow. Lots of friends who start with K. Anyway. I'm also cooking for Dylan and Mum, which is cool, because usually they don't eat anything I make.

>>

Anyway, I've got another date with Jay coming up on Wednesday. This is going to be nice, because I FINALLY got his birthday gift in order. ^^'

I know I usually update more than twice in a month, I'm sorry I've been so absent. Updates/Excuses:

I've been working a lot at the bakery.
I've been asked to book an audition at Deakin University.
Maggie has moved back to Cape Patterson, which means she's a half hour drive from here. ^_^

NOW.

Christmas is coming up. These are the things I have to do in the next non-specific time period:

Write a Christmas List.
Call Deakin and organise a time/date.
Give my room a complete overhaul.
Sort out the secondhand clothes that Jan just gave me. <3
Get Barb a Chris Kringle Gift by December 9.
Organise a Spa/R+R Party for December 11.
Begin getting my Christmas Shopping done. (EEP!)
Organise my Scary,Sexy,Sweet Party for New Years.

Soooooo yeah. I'm gonna be a busy little bumblebee in the next few weeks, forgive me if I don't post much. I guess I won't be completing my New Years' Resolution after all - THE YEAR WENT TOO FAST ><

For those who don't remember/don't know, I resolved to finish Venus by the end of the year. OOPS.

Anyway (I say Anyway WAY too much), that's me for today. I'm gonna go write my list and stick a twelve-inch christmas tree upside down from my bedroom roof! ^_^

Y'all have a great night/day/week/life.

<3

Xx Ciao!

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/28643357/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/28643357/ Sun, 29 Nov 2009 03:57:19 PST Hmm. Where /have/ I been. Who knows? Who cares. Not even sure myself, really.

I like my job at the bakery. Everyone there is nice. They all have their quirks, some more likable than others, but for the most part I love that job and the team there is great.

Jay turned 18 last week. His party was last night. It was a rather good night, actually; I'm glad I went, despite being quite ill. We played Ultimate Alliance today; I played as Storm, he played as Gambit. We kicked ass. I love Gambit. <3

Anyway. I'm gonna go vanish a bit more. I'll try to write some more soon, but this chapter of Venus is a pain in the ass. With Hellfire gone MIA it's hard to animate the other characters into looking for her. I mean, really, I hardly want to look for her. If she wasn't crucial for... eh. Not the ending, so much as the Epilogue. If she wasn't crucial for that, I'd just kill her off now. *shrugs*

Aaaaaaaaaaaanyhow, you guys have a great night. If your name is Alex you should give me a call or a text sometime. *nod nod*

By the way, my Facebook doesn't work. It sucks. Also, I'm not online much anymore. Can you tell?

Oh. And I got a letter from a little place called Deakin University, asking me to call and make a time/date for an Audition for their drama program. That was #2 on my selections list. Yay. ^_^

Xx Ciaoski.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/28133338/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/28133338/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 20:23:21 PST

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This is Green Star, a college for people with "special talents". These roleplays are always a lot of fun, so I thought I'd open another one. I like this atmosphere I've got going in this one.

So yeah. Check it out. Whatevers.

ANYWAY.

Long stories short, I've been working a lot lately. Jay and I have our two-month anniversary today; he didn't know that until I mentioned it, but whatever. I've left Foodworks now, and moved over to the bakery, where the workers (and the employers!) actually have souls; the only drawback is the heat. On the plus side, I don't have to buy bread anymore. Yays.

Today's my day off, so I'm taking the opportunity to just kinda sit around in my pajamas and ignore the world. It's nice.

Alrighty guys, have a great day/week/whatever. I'll see y'all around.

Xx Ciaoski.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27984856/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27984856/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 19:25:38 PDT
1. real name:
Ricky

2. like it:
Yeah

3. single or taken:
Taken.

4. zodiac sign:
Virgo

5. male or female:
Male

6. age:
19

7. height:
6'2"

8. lucky number:
142.5

9. eye color:
blue-green with yellow flecks

10. hair color:
mousy blonde

11. long or short:
shortish

12. marital status:
Not married

13. are you a health freak?
NO.

14. Weight:
Never check

15. do you have a crush on someone:
Heh prettymuch

16. do you like yourself:
Most of the time.

17. piercings:
None

18. tattoos:
None

19. righty or lefty:
Righty.

20. fav color:
Green / Brown

21. least fav color:
Purple

FIRSTS

22. first kiss:
With a guy 21 year old, I was 14, in my bedroom.

23. first piercing:
17, but it's gone now.

24. first best friend:
Sam

25. first award:
School English Prize

26. first sport:
Don't do sport.

27. first pet:
Paige, my dog.

28. first vacation:
Phillip Freakin' Island. Damn.

29. first car:
Laser. Eww.

30. first crush:
Lee

CURRENTLY

31. what time is it:
2:21

32. where are you:
Home.

33. wish:
I was better

34. about to:
Get an opinion on my sprites

35. listening to:
Hilltop Hoods

36. waiting for:
Halloween.

37. wearing:
monkey PJ pants, black shirt

38. annoyed about:
Illiteracy, Climate Change... you name it.

39. eating:
My fingernail

40. drinking:
Nothing

FUTURE

41. want kids?:
Not for a while.

42. want to get married?:
Yes.

43. careers in mind?:
Actor, Author, other than that I don't care.

44. dream car?:
1949 Valiant Chevrolet

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE (PREFERRED) SEX

45. lips or eyes?:
Eyes.

46. hugs or kisses:
Both.

47. shorter or taller:
Taller.

48. tan skinned or light:
Light.

49. romantic or spontaneous:
Romantic.

50. dark or light hair:
Either one.

51. built, fat, muscular, skinny, or normal:
Skinny

52. hook up or relationship:
Depends.

53. similar to you or different:
Depends.

54. trouble maker or hesitant:
Hesitant.

HAVE YOU EVER

55. kissed a stranger:
Yes.

56. drank bubbles:
Yes.

57. ate a crayon:
No.

58. lost glasses/contacts:
Not mine... hehe

59. climbed up a tree:
Lots

60. broken someone's heart:
Yes.

61. been arrested:
No.

62. turned someone down:
Yes.

63. cried when someone died:
Yeah...

64. liked a friend as more than a friend:
Story of my life, bucko.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

65. yourself:
Yes. More than anything else.

66. miracles:
Kind of.

67. ghosts:
I guess.

68. love at first sight:
No.

69. santa clause:
No.

70. heaven and hell:
Not in the traditional sense.

71. kissing on the first date:
Of course.

72. God:
Let's not go there, shall we?

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

73. Is there one person you want to be with right now?
Yes.

74. Who is it?
Jay.

75. Do you kiss on the first date?
How about someone takes me on a first date, first, huh?

76. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?
No...You can do that? That's allowed?

77. Last time you flossed?
Err... I don't floss.

78. Last time checked for STDs?
Er...

79. Fart in public?
Everyone does.

80. Flirt with your friends boyfriend or girlfriend?
Sometimes. For fun. But only when both parties are present.

81. Cheat on a partner?
No.

82. Whats under your bed?
Er...

83. Last time you cleaned your toilet?
Um...

84. Ever sprout hairs on your chin?
Only every fucking day.

85. Does the carpet match the curtains?
Err...yeah.

86. Last kiss?
Too long ago...

87. Last booty call?
A few months. Oh damn.

88. 7th text received?
Inbox = empty.

89. 4th missed call?
Aleesha.

90. Las... ]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27883529/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27883529/ Wed, 21 Oct 2009 05:11:14 PDT Brand spanking new University Student Courtney Strait moves to the inner city and is delighted when she lands her first job since leaving home and is able to move into her own apartment - right above the bar! It isn't until she meets the other staff that she realises that something might not be quite right...

"La Femme!" A Drag Musical about fitting in, falling out, and 'where to tuck Charlie'...

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That's right kids, I'm starting a new work. Now, it's hard to post up different sections when you're writing a play. With my novels it's easy enough because there are specific chapters that I can post up one after the other; easily marked milestones. With a play, not so much. Posting up a whole ACT at once is far too much, but each scene would get annoying. Any ideas on how I should put this one up?

Also, the stage directions in it are kinda over specific. There are a couple of contributing factors that led to this.
1 - I'm pedantic.
2 - I want to clearly establish the differences in character personalities and mannerisms
3 - It makes it a little more interesting to read on dA, since it will probably never make it to stage anyway hence none of you will see it


Ssooooo yeah. Anyway, look out for new pieces of that. If you have any ideas how I should post it up, please comment, it would be a huge help.

Anyway.

Bryan invited Jay and I to a toga party he's hosting. Jay's 18th happens to be the same day, so we had to regretfully decline. I actually kind of breathed a sigh of relief because of that, because as much as I love Bryan....... I love Bryan.

It's for the best for EVERYONE if I don't spend time with him, particularly if he's in a toga. Plus, I would probably wind up seeing him with his boyfriend and then I would have had one of my mental collapse periods where I keep up my social mask but just want desperately to leave and... well, yeah, make believe I'm fine and break down later. That is undesired.

Sooooo we said we couldn't go, since it's Jay's party that same night. I was glad... until Bryan and Jay decided that they would arrange something else. All of a sudden Bryan wants Jay and I to go up there and stay with him, IN HIS HOUSE for a few days, and chances are that Bryan's boyfriend will be there too.

I nearly had a heart attack. That's like... my worst nightmare. I mean, really, I do NOT want to be in a house alone with just Jay/Bryan/Sam, it would be torture. And it's really not fair on Jay that I feel this way.

I love Jay. I'm glad I'm with him, don't get me wrong. Every moment I'm with him I'm happy. But.
My feelings for Bryan are really special and... it's a completely unique feeling. It's going to be a long, long time before I can get over that, and I really don't want to have to see him with someone else. I'm happy for him, and he can talk to me about it - hell, I kinda counselled him through the initial process to help him get together with Sam because I wanted him to be happy... but I'd rather he's happy somewhere I don't have to see it.

I'm sure you all understand what I'm talking about there. Right?

I just want to spend time alone with Jay. Just the two of us, in his bed in the bungalo, watching Smallville and Heroes and talking about the potential for human beings to develop superpowers... writing parodies of popular songs to make them about Pokemon, debating our different beliefs on human nature, stuff like that.

That's when I'm happiest, and to be completely honest I feel like I'm burning right down to the wire at the moment. All I want is to be with him alone for a few days.

But not at Bryan's, and not with Bryan and Sam there. That sounds like torture.

Aaaaaanyway, I'm organising two special packages at the moment. One of them is for Alia. It's a very late birthday present (I'M SORRY!) which has some special significance for us. She'll understand when she gets it. The other one is something for Fiyero (Chin up honey, love you. *kiss on the forehead*) because he's feeling a bit down. So everybody give him some love, okay? I'm going to give him something particularly special, he just needs to get together the money to pay the Postal Recieving Tax... poor guy.

Besides that, Kasey and I are going to Ash's place tomorrow night. We're gonna go play in the spa and meet Ash's pet lambs, and then she's gonna drive me to work the next morning at the bakery. I'm working Friday/Saturday/Sunday from 11am until 6pm, then I have Monday off and work Tuesday 11am to 6pm again. After that, I'm not sure when I work.

And I'm fairly sure that I'm leaving Foodworks. I've just been reminded what it's like to work for someone who sees you as a human being, not a number. I don't care if the liquor department has air conditioning and a cool room, the bakery has a SOUL.<... ]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27828736/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27828736/ Sun, 18 Oct 2009 05:15:23 PDT
I've been there for people through thick and thin, through the most horrific of circumstances, and I've never let anyone down when they really needed me. I've walked in the dark at two in the morning through rain when I was so ill the doctors feared for my life, only caring to help a friend in need.

That's why I don't like being lied to.

When I have a friend who I've given tremendous amounts of effort to, who I have striven to help, and, especially recently, have spent a lot of time with, I want... no, I /expect/ them to be honest with me.

When someone lies to me, I will confront them.

Then... said person complained to their boyfriend about it, and he /threatened/ me. I will NOT be threatened.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I never made it to Dracula's this weekend. I feel awful for blowing off Emerald and the others like that. The simple explanation is this:

Tara offered me a place to stay.
Thursday before the night, she pulled out.
Amy offered me a place to stay.
Friday night at 11.30pm she too pulled out.
Joel couldn't offer me a place to stay.
The performance was Saturday.

Besides that, I've had a lot going on this week. By the end of it I was in such an emotional state that I felt I was starting to lose control. I've been hearing things again, and all I want to do is cry all the time. I couldn't bear the idea of staying with Cate's grandmother. She's a lovely person, but I didn't want to be a burden, and for some reason I just felt like I was going to drag everybody else down with me if I went, and not even enjoy the night myself.

So I just didn't go. I got on a bus and went to Jay's house, turned off my phone, and watched X-Men with him. In the morning I felt so much better, I can't even explain it. But then, as soon as I got home and turned my phone back on I got messages from a friend I previously trusted.

It's a long story, but it involves her doing something incredibly disrespectful to me, then lying about it, and eventually having her boyfriend threaten me. I refuse to tolerate this behaviour.

I've told her I am taking at least five days of personal time, away from other people, starting tonight. I've had quite enough of being stood up, locked out, lied to, and having people turn their backs on me. It's about time I turned my back on them for once. I've had enough.

Once again, I sound overly dramatic in my journals.

Yeah. I guess I am dramatic...

But why would anyone lie to me?

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27738656/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27738656/ Tue, 13 Oct 2009 04:40:44 PDT
Anyway, afterwards we went out together. Long story short... y'know when a couple of friends are sort of messing around and they pick on each other? Well, we were kinda doing that. But then Rachel and Yuhan kinda teamed up and it just felt like it was going a bit too far. Then Rachel said something she knows better than to say, and Yuhan built on it jokingly - I don't think he realised. It just kinda got out of hand, and I went into one of my defensive quiet moods where I just kinda drift off into thought.

But yeah... you know those moments when joking goes a little too far and one person winds up hurt? It was like that, only I don't think they realised I was upset and they just kept going until I was well and truly steeped in a state I wasn't coming out of until the next morning at the soonest. Seeing Alex later was good, though; he got me to smile.

The next day I went to a job interview at the Bakery where Kiersten, Panda and Luke work. That went really well; the woman who was interviewing me was 20 minutes late, and I was 20 minutes early, giving me 40 minutes in which to get acquainted with some of the staff and have a nice long conversation with Noelene. Noelene is lovely.

I finally did get to talk to Roberta though, and she said that I should come in for a Trial Shift on Tuesday (today). More on that later.

After that I went to work, worked my shift, then afterwards had the most brilliant spa with Felicity, Ash, and Ash's boyfriend Brad. Ash and Brad stayed at my place that night and we spent the next day playing, it was wonderful. Brad is really great, I'm glad that Ash wound up with him.

Saturday was my date with Jay. That was good, except that Aunt Kerri needed us to house-sit for us. The dinner was less romantic than I'd hoped, the walk home was bland, and we just wound up watching The Dark Knight on Aunt Kerri's couch, having a rather less-than-fun spa together because the spa jets sucked and Aunt Kerri's house was uncomfortable.... we even wound up sleeping on the couch, not even next to each other - on opposite ends, because it was a skinny L-shaped couch.

Okay... to be completely honest? Saturday sucked. It wasn't the date I was hoping for at all. I was quite disappointed...

Anyways. Sunday I got Lisa to take Kasey and I to Dandenong and we caught the train from Dandenong into the city, met up with Kasey and Shelagh. Now, previously, the group to go see Ecosexual was:

Alex, Yuhan, Kirra, Shelagh, Tara, Kasey, Big Rachel, Bryan, Bryan's boyfriend Sam and I.

By the time Tara/Shelagh/Kasey/I met up, it was just Tara, Kasey and I that were going - even Shelagh couldn't go! I called Joel to see if he wanted to go and he couldn't, and even Bryan couldn't meet up with us! So it turns out that only Tara, Kasey and I went, and it was SPECTACULAR.

There was a girl covered in black balloons.
There was an indoor trapeze swing.
There was a fire-twirler performing Poi with streamerballs instead of fire.

It was FANTASTIC.

Anyway. Afterwards, Kasey/Tara/I wandered the city for a bit, then we went back to Footscray where Tara lives. At the footscray train station we sort of witnessed what we believe to be a mugging - we got out of there and called the cops. It was quite scary.

Monday Kasey and I made our way home, and I mostly rested. Then, today, Tuesday, I had my trial day at the bakery. Within an hour I was familiar with all the computer and processing equipment and systems, then after that I memorised what all the different pie crusts mean and what's in what, what's where, what tongs to use with which products, etc. It was fairly easy. After that I went to Foodworks and told Russel I only want to work Night Fill from now on, except for my Thursday Shift which I'll keep not so much for my sake, but so that he doesn't have to find someone to replace me before Summer.

Anyways. After that I went to Cowes with Sasha, a new friend of mine, came home, hung out with Brooke and Panda at the park, and called Jay when I got home. After getting home, though, tonight has kind of dissipated into a semi-melancholy. I dunno... there's not much I can do about it.

Well. This Thursday I'm working, possibly Spa-ing with Felicity that night. Friday I'm working at the Bakehouse again, which will be good. Then Saturday, Dracula's for Emerald's birthday. I'm staying... ]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27591681/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27591681/ Mon, 05 Oct 2009 06:06:31 PDT
Monday - go to Clink, the bank, see Jay.
Tuesday - break
Wednesday - go see Bryan in hospital after his operation
Thursday - job interview at the bakery, work, Spa Night at Felicity's
Friday - I don't remember ><
Saturday - Date with Jay
Sunday - Fringe Festival
Monday - Find a way back to Phillip Island, possibly see Jessy
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Thursday - Work
Friday - Dracula's for Emerald's birthday


I've been asked by my friend Tara to go to the Melbourne Fringe Festival, which is essentially an Indie Art, Film and Drama Festival in Melbourne, to see something called "Ecosexual", basically a cabaret, burlesque commentary on global warming and deforestation. I can't wait!

I've invited Alex and Yuhan, Kasey's coming, and Tara's bringing her room-mate Kirra and our friend Shelagh. In total there's seven of us, which seems like a good group to me

We're crashing at Tara's place that night (Kasey and I), so that should be good. I've suggested that we go to A Wonderful Garden, a chinese take-away place, to get a bite to eat beforehand. It's pretty cheap there, Big R and I went there once.

Besides that, obviously, I've applied for a job at the bakery where Kiersten, Panda and Luke work, and I can't see myself NOT getting that job since two of their senior staff members just quit and I have a list of references as long as my right arm. I won't be starting until at LEAST next Tuesday, though, which is good.

Anyway. I'm not sick anymore, my dA seems to be working again, life is kinda just getting back on track for me I suppose. Can't wait to see Alex, Yuhan, Tara and Shelagh again. ^_^

OH! And I'm working on another chapter of Venus. I believe the reason I've kinda come to a temporary halt here is because it feels like an appropriate place for there to be some kind of a pause in the novel - that's why I've inserted a kind of Interval at this point, which is going to expose a little bit of the past of the Venus, from before they were Vampires. ^_^

Aaaaaaalrighty, well, I better go to bed. There's a bright new day waiting to be squandered come tomorrow! Perhaps I'll write some more, or get my crystals back from Cate. XD

Love, light, all that.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27545544/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27545544/ Fri, 02 Oct 2009 18:57:47 PDT
However, if you give me your landline number in an email to my msn address (Which we know is mca_ricky@hotmail.com, don't we kids?) then I can call you for free whatever time you want and we can have a proper chat.

After all, I miss you. And Yuhan. ><

And Sonya!

The others, I don't really miss so much as would like to see again...

Anyway, email me? Thanks honey. ^_^

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27533688/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27533688/ Fri, 02 Oct 2009 05:10:47 PDT
I made my way to the kitchen, threw up again in the sink. Then I made my way to the shower, where I spent the next twenty minutes vomiting, crying from the pain, and trying to breathe. I think I cleared most of it there, because after that I was mostly alright.

Walking around is giving me headspins, breathing is a little difficult, but it gave me a good excuse to spend the whole day at home watching my P!nk DVDs for the first time since I got them, while Mum and Kasey were at the Horse Auctions. Dylan was in his room, we didn't really see each other all day.

Jay and I have our one month anniversary tomorrow. I'm gonna be in a right state for it. I guess it's a good thing his mum pulled the plug on our date.

More info on that when I don't feel like my head is wrapped in cotton.

My computer is playing up again, it will load everything on the message screen except my messages.

Love y'all.

Xx Ciao.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27481781/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27481781/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 07:44:24 PDT Start with 100%. x everything you've done and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Then repost as you're __% pure.

1. Smoked (x)
2. Drank alcohol (x)
3. Cried when someone died (x)
4. Been drunk(x)
5. Had sex(x)
6. Been to a concert( )
7. Gotten/given a hand job (x)
8. Gotten/given a blow job (x)
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed (x)
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody (x)

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 91%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up (x)
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose. (x)
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before. ()
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend (x)
15. Been to prom. ( )
16. Cried at school (x)
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store. (x)
18. Went streaking ( )
19. Given or received a lap dance.(x)
20. Had someone of your preferred sex in your room (x)

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 84%

21. Had someone of your preferred sex sleep over (x)
22. Slept over at someone of the your preferred sex's house(x)
23. Kissed a stranger (x)
24. Hugged a stranger (x)
25. Went scuba diving ( )
26. Driven a car (x)
27. Gotten an x-ray (x)
28. Hit by a car (x)
29. Had a party (x)
30. Done serious drugs ( )

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 76%

31. Played strip poker/darts/basketball (x)
32. Got paid to strip for someone ( )
33. Run away from home. (x)
34. Broken a bone.(x)
35. Eaten sushi (x)
36. Bought porn (x)
37. Watched porn (x)
38. Made porn ( ) (Does webcam count?!)
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex (x)
40. Been in love (x)

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 58%

41. French kissed (x)
42. Laughed so hard you cried (x)
43. Cried yourself to sleep (x)
44. Laughed yourself to sleep (x)
45. Stabbed yourself ( )
46. Shot a gun ( )
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day (x) (Try the next MINUTE)
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours. (x)
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours. (x)
50. Watched an animal die. (x)

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 50%

51. Watched a person die ( )
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present. (x)
53. Pranked somebody. (x)
54. Put somebody in the hospital (x)
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out (x)
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex (x)
57. Dressed punk (x)
58. Dressed goth (x)
59. Dressed preppy(x)
60. Been to a motocross race (x)

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 41%

61. Avoided somebody (x)
62. Been stalked (x)
63. Stalked someone (x)
64. Met a celebrity. ( )
65. Played an instrument. (x)
66. Ridden a horse (x)
67. Cut yourself ( )
68. Bungee jumped.( )
69. Ding dong ditched somebody. (x)
70. Been to a wild party. (x)

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 34%

71. Got caught stealing something. (x)
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.(x)
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend. ( )
74. Gone out with your friend's crush. (x)
75. Got arrested.( )
76. Been pregnant. ( )
77. Babysat. (x)
78. Been to another country. ( )
79. Started your house on fire. (x)
80. Had an encounter with a ghost. (x)

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 28%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients. ( )
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by. (x)
83. Cried over a family member of your preferred sex. ( )
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for 3 months or more. ( )
85. Sat on your butt all day (x) (computerr <3)
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself. (x)
87. Had a job. (x)
88. Gotten cut from a sports team. ()
89. Been called a wh0re. (x)
90. Danced like a wh0re. (x)

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 23%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity. ( )
92. Been in a car accident. ( )
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes. (x)
94. Been told you have beautiful hair. (x)
95. Raped somebody. ( )
96. Danced in the rain. (x)
97. Been rejected. (x)
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying. ( )
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face. (x)
100. Been raped. ( )

FINAL PERCENTAGE: 18%



UUUUUUUHHHHMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.......shit. XD

Stolen from [link] whose BIRTHDAY IS IT TODAY, SO COMMENT HER!

Wow. I had no idea I was so...er...impure. XD

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27404854/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27404854/ Fri, 25 Sep 2009 06:42:00 PDT
So, consequently, I called Jay and asked if he wanted to come stay the night. Now he's sitting behind me watching Dylan playing Kingdom Hearts II, about to fight Xemnas. As if we haven't seen that a million times before

But I guess it's good for Dylan to feel kinda appreciated. I mean, truly, I could treat him ten different kinds of better... I just get annoyed. A lot.

Maybe if a few more people read this I wouldn't seem like such a whack job *realisation*

Anyways. I went to the used book store, hung out with Big R, then Jay turned up and we caught the bus back home. Since then I've introduced him to Zelda: A Link To The Past for the SNES, The Craft, The Covenant, and we enjoyed a power out together

Oh, get your minds out of the gutter

Sorry, no chapter of Venus today/yesterday, I've been a smidge busy, as you can probably tell. I got my ear re-pierced, Dan did it yesterday. "You'll feel a sharp pain followed by a loud 'whoops'."

Aaaanyways, I think Jay and I are just about to slink off to bed. Should be a good night, even if we do only have a single mattress. Oh, whatever

Y'all behave now. Have a good night kids.

Much love.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27329650/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27329650/ Sun, 20 Sep 2009 21:50:49 PDT
I'm writing lots more Venus, I hope you're all liking it! Remember to comment, or I won't feel loved. XD

I actually re-vamped (punnnnnn!) the Word Document of Venus, so there's going to be a few minor changes in the way things are written now. For instance, instead of " *** " as my Paragraph Breaker, I'm now using " ~V~ ", which is more Venus-relevant.

Also, in the document I intend to make Chapter One - The death of a Vampire into "Prologue - The Death of a Vampire", and then Chapter 2 will become Chapter 1, etc.

You've probably noticed Venus' chapters aren't very long. I don't really intend them to be too long anyway, they're more like...waiting for someone at a coffee shop, or on break at work sized chapters. Bus chapters, I like to call them, like they had in The Wicca Series by Cate Tiernan.

However, if the small chapters aren't working for you, say something ^_^

I love feedback.

Aaaaaanyway, I'll see you guys around. Have a great day. ^_^

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27237309/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27237309/ Tue, 15 Sep 2009 22:20:48 PDT
Also, characters on the site may even make very subtle appearances in the story itself! Anyway, if you feel like joining, the link is this:

[link]

Feel free to visit and check up on what's happening, but I'd prefer it if you or your friends joined! It would be greatly appreciated if you could spread the word about Venus, because it's one of my favorite works, and the bigger fanbase I can make the more likely I am to see it through to the end, not to mention the better sales could be if I get published one day.

Anyway, I'll see you guys around, k?

Love y'all.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27217730/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27217730/ Mon, 14 Sep 2009 20:26:20 PDT
Aunt Jenny arrived at around 8.45, and we began a major overhaul. For once somebody who thinks like me is in control, as I've never been in control of a complete overhaul before. This time things are actually getting done, the way they should be done and in great time!

Downside? Mum told Aunt Jenny about Jay and I. She also told Lisa, and God knows who else she's going to tell. I got pretty angry at her about it because we've had this conversation before; I don't want the family to know I'm gay, I don't want the family to know if I'm with someone, and I don't want her talking about me to her friends if it's about something like that.

She told a bunch of people when I came out, which really broke my trust in her since I'd told her not to. Now she's basically doing it again, and moreso she's not understanding why I'm getting upset. She keeps telling me to grow up and get over it, not to be uncomfortable with myself, etc.

The problem isn't /me/ IT'S YOU. It isn't that I'm not comfortable with myself, it's that I don't want to be in the spotlight again! I hate people knowing my personal business and you have NO RIGHT to be spreading it around. It's not some idol gossip, it's my life, and I'll tell who I want.

I know this sounds a little extreme, but I told her that if I hear even a whisper of Aunt Kerri, Grandpa or one of her daycare clients knowing I'm going to disappear for a week and she won't hear from me. And believe me, I swear to God I'll do it.

I can stay a day or three at Rachel's, one or two at Jay's, Kiersten's, Cate's, Panda's, wherever. That constitutes a week right there, not to mention the other places I could go if need be. Running away might seem immature, but I find it works with her. Few things do, but my absence without any way for her to check up on me really gets to her.

If that's what it takes to get the point across that I'm serious, so be it. Plus I'll be pretty angry, and it would just be very unpleasant for her to have me around for the next week regardless. It's better for both of us if I wasn't around.

ANYWAY.

Lisa commented on my new Regina Spektor CD.... she said that Regina Spektor is depressing. I asked "Have you listened to any lyrics at all?" and she said "No, it just sounds depressing".

I HATE ignorance like that. Before you open your mouth listen to the fucking lyrics, and give some proper thought to the song. Christ's sakes, it's not hard!

Then, shortly after, she started up about TWILIGHT!!!!

She started saying, quite innocently, that Twilight was in primary schools. I told her even ecstacy makes it into primary schools these days, and she said that Twilight is inappropriate for that age group. I asked her if she'd ever read it, and she said no. I continued to inform her that it's not as violent as you'd expect and that every child knows about Vampires. These books are no worse than Goosebumps.

She said "You always do this. Anything I comment on that you like you get all--" and I cut her off with a nice, loud, deep "I HATE TWILIGHT!"

This evoked confusion from all around me. "Are you kidding? It's tripe! It's twelve-year-old-level fan-fiction styled tripe written by a talentless two-bit hack!"

"Millions of people would disagree"

"Millions of people would be degenerate, illiterate, culturally inept and ignorant morons whose lives would be better spent incarcerated than poisoning our streets. The caliber of Twilight compared to the works of Virginia Woolf or, hell, even Hemmingway is laughable!"

And my whole family..... laughed at me. They /laughed/. They thought it was /funny/ that I hate Twilight with this much of a passion because they simply have /no/ culture among them.

None of them have ever touched a Virginia Woolf, Charles Dickens or even a Shakespeare.

Moreso, Lisa compared my work to Twilight. She said "But isn't it the same as yours?"

I was FURIOUS! Meyer's work is a simplistic, ridiculously overdramatised and improbable storyline, sheepskinned over a watered down inaccurate mythology that BARELY constitutes Vampires in a traditional sense. Meyer's work is a pathetic drooling story about young love which is SO BASE that I couldn't bare to read it. MINE IS ABOUT GENOCIDE, FOR CHRIST'S SAKE!

WHAT PART OF THAT IS SIMILAR AT ALL?

Anyway, I had to rant here or the world would never have heard the end of it. Because I'm going out to dinner tonight with Tanya (the real est... ]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27184715/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27184715/ Sun, 13 Sep 2009 07:00:11 PDT
Anyways.

Been hanging out with the boyfriend, gone out to pubs partying, etc, today was just a major wind-down day. I didn't get up til late and when I did I just vegged all day. Little R turned up around...I dunno...1? We watched The Craft and listened to music, turned her into a Stack Fan, then we went down to the corner store around....er....

5:30pm. Yeah. That's when I finally got up and changed, 5:30. Then we walked her home and it started raining, so I finally showered around 6ish. I've been lounging around ever since then in my black skinny jeans, a black sweater that is tan toward the top, and a pair of white thongs.

btw Thong in Australia is a type of shoe, like a sandal, not a G String. FYI I'm wearing black boxer-briefs with a squirrel on them, and no T-shirt under my sweater.

Aaaaanyway, working on a new Venus chapter, Bluejay is coming too, just be patient kiddies. Not that any of you are entirely hanging out for the chapters, but whatever.

Have a great night guys. I'll say hi to the boyfriend from the dA Community.

Love you all.

<3

Goodnight.
Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27063899/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27063899/ Sun, 06 Sep 2009 22:19:31 PDT 1 Atari
2 Sega Master System
2 Nintendo Entertainment System
2 Super Nintendo Entertainment System
1 Nintendo 64
1 Play Station
2 Play Station 2
1 Gamecube
1 Wii
2 GameBoy
2 GameBoy Colour
1 GameBoy Advance
1 GameBoy DS

We also possess a range of rare games, such as:
NES - The Legend Of Zelda (The original)
Sega - Echo the Dolphin
SNES - Terranigma (The Mystery of Gaia)
SNES - Lufia (Attack of the Sinistrals)
PS1 - The Jade Coccoon
PS2 - Shin Megami Tensei: Nocturne
PS2 - Final Fantasy - the Dirge of Ceberus
Gamecube - Eternal Darkness: Sanity's Requiem

And to add to that, we also have a limited edition "Pokemon" theme N64.

So yeah. I'm pretty proud of our little collection. I realised that we actually have all of the Zelda games except Oracle of Seasons and that other one that goes with that. Remind me to obtain and never play those, because they were more or less a joke.

Then again I've never been fond of the handheld consoles. It's great that they were going for mobility, but why is sacrifice of graphics a necessity here? There must be some way of having decent graphics, and with the screen that the DS have these days, don't you dare tell me they wouldn't be able to support it either.

Anyway, I'm about to go off and start a new game on Zelda: Ocarina of Time, because that game was fucking wicked. Don't deny it, you know I'm right.

Have a great day guys. ^_^

See y'all around.

Xx Ricky

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27028869/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/27028869/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 05:45:55 PDT
Because nobody else turned up, I had no ride home - I was going to have Sue drop me off on the way home, but it never happened. Anyway, by the time we got out of the spa it was almost 1.30 in the morning, so Felicity offered to put me up for the night.

When I woke up in the morning it was almost 11 and Mum had no idea where I was because my phone was flat and it never occured to me to use Felicity's...so I started to walk home. When I tried to call her from a payphone she didn't answer because she went to a horse auction.

By the time I made it home I had only 40 minutes before I had to leave again. Since the house was empty I took the liberty of showering with the door open so I could hear my music blaring. Afterwards, I caught the bus to Wonthaggi, where I hung out in town with Zoe for a little while, and then went to the florist's.

At the florist I bought a single white rose...now, I didn't mention this earlier, but on Tuesday I bought Jay a yellow rose as an apology. We've since had a lot of conversations, and he made me promise to stop apologising...

It's complicated.

Anyway, I promised that that yellow rose would be my last apology. So on the Friday I bought him a white one, for new beginnings. After school we had coffee in The Mezza Luna Café, which is quickly becoming my favorite little hang-out in Wonthaggi. He gave me a fiver to pay for his coffee, which I returned promptly with a smile...even though I'm flat broke I bought his coffee and we sat and talked for over an hour.

We caught a lift back to his place with his mother, where we watched Smallville and talked things over. We had miniature springrolls and sim sims for dinner...it was just a really nice night.

The next day we lazed about for most of the day, played Super Smash Brothers Brawl on the Wii and bought Heroes Season 3 and 4 on DVD.

I usually despise the Wii, but hell...SSBB is said to be good. And as it turns out, I'm great with Toon Link - from Zelda: Windwaker. At one point Jay was playing Traditional Link and I was Toon Link, and we were matched so perfectly it was just intense! We're both great gamers. ^_^

And...well...I took the plunge.

We're together again. I'm not sure what's going to happen, we're both nervous but...hell, we're happy. That's what matters, isn't it? I make him happy and he makes me happy. I don't know why I spent so much time being miserable when it would have been just that easy to say...yes.

The only problem is Joel, who I will talk to later tonight, or tomorrow. I do have feelings for Joel, but I chose to be with Jay...at least for now.

In other news, I haven't bitten my nails since Manifest - that's two weeks to the day. Tonight, one of them broke! *sadface*

As gay as it sounds, I broke a nail. It's really upsetting. XD

Aaaaanyways kids, I'm gonna go listen to P!nk and possibly play Windwaker. Have a great night kids. ^_^ <3

Xx Ricky

PS: By the way. To those of you who know Jay, or know anybody who knows him or....well. Let's just say that I only want the people who are reading this directly to know what's going on.

In short, could we please keep this sort of a secret? I mean, Jay and I aren't directly keeping it from anyone, but I'm not crazy about going around telling every person on earth either

Thanks guys. ^_^ <3

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26969231/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26969231/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 00:42:17 PDT
Uneventful? No. The past few days have not, at all, been uneventful. In fact, for the most part, they've been horrible - but that can wait until the problems are resolved, that way I can either speak about them in full without missing any details...or ignore them.

However, something good happened today. I found my old, broken MP3 Player....and all of the music on it was still in tact. I was able to upload it back onto my computer....along with a bunch of old files.

Like Bluejay.

So, I'm reading through Bluejay now and it's amusing me. I like it...and will probably start re-writing it from where I left off. So far I'm happy with the quality, humor and content.

So. Who here wants to see some more of Bluejay?

^_^

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26905631/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26905631/ Sat, 29 Aug 2009 22:48:54 PDT
So, Jessy didn't wind up coming. I got up, showered and such, and got another text - this one from Jay. "Happy birthday. Hope you're having a better day than I am."

When I asked him why, he told me that Ash, the guy he'd been seeing, had given him the "You're a great guy, but" speech that morning....and that Ash was still coming despite that.

Does anybody here think it is a wise idea to bring someone I don't know, who I believe to have hurt one of my babies into MY HOUSE, at night, in the dark, where we will be surrounded by both sharp things and blunt objects AND the consumption of alcohol?

I mean, really. Doesn't that just sound like the recipe for mutilation? Down to temperature.

Nevertheless, I got everyone together, decorated the room, etc, and people started turning up around 6ish. Not a whole lot happened until Jay and Ash got there - by that point I'd been sitting at the table with a glass of wine in hand, the table was done up as a demonic altar and we were all singing and laughing and being typical teenagers.

When Jay and Ash came in, I'll admit my heart sank a little. They were holding hands. I was jealous.

At first it was alrightish...I felt ridiculous in the make-up I had on; to be completely honest, I was, again, jealous of Ash. He wasn't dressed up...and he was prettier than me. I went and washed off the make-up because I felt that self conscious...

Then after another ten minutes standing in the same room as him I couldn't see myself making it through the night sober. I turned to India and, using my "I'm smiling through my hate" voice, I said "Well, dear, it appears glasses aren't going to cut it." and picked up the 11 standard drink bottle of wine I was drinking from...and skulled it all in one go.

After that, the night is mostly a blur. I remember being hideously jealous of Ash, knowing that he and Jay were in the bedroom together being...yeah. I was out in the caravan with Kiersten.

I know I have no right to be jealous. I'm not in love with Jay, I never was, we all know that - I only wish I could be. He's the perfect male, but no matter how hard I try I just can't fall for him...but I was jealous. Horrifically so.

By the end of the night I'd told Cate to stop talking about Cate all the time, I'd given Li'l Rachel the pep talk of the century and made her feel better about herself, I'd passed out in the kitchen sink and told Dan that I don't really hate him, I was just being protective of my little girls because of his history.

The next day I woke up at 4am (after 2 hours sleep) and showered, got the grease out of my hair (kitchen sink, frying pan), got dressed and ready to go up to Mornington to be with the family. They're catholic. 'Nuff said.

After a day with them I came home with Brooke and had her drop me off at Kiersten's house. It was a rather uneventful day up until then...when I texted Jay.

"Hey...I've treated both you and Ash very unfairly, and I'd like to make up for that. That's why I'd like to ask the two of you out for coffee this week, any time you're both free, to get to know him."

Jay then informed me that there was no he and Ash. Apparently as of the "You're a great guy but" speech they'd just not been together...I felt like writing back "Wow, really? You could have fooled me the way you were sucking face on my bed!", but I refrained and did the more mature thing.

"Well, in that case, would you like to go out for coffee with me this Tuesday? It's been a while since we hung out, just the two of us."

He accepted...I'm looking forward to it.

Things are gonna be different from now on. I'm going to stop messing up; it seems every time I talk to him I mess up again. I promised him I'd stop giving him reasons to think less of me...even though he never does think less of me. He's so forgiving...

I'm going to be a better person from now on.

----

In other news, I finished a spell I've been working on for months now. Now let me just re-iterate; I'm not some kind of demonic freak, I just believe that there is some kind of common power, like a universal life-force, which flows within every being on earth. I believe that through prayer, ritual, spells, whatever, human will can influence the world.

That's why I've been working a 'spell' or a prayer for a few months now. It's called "The Seeds Of Peace", a spell in which the caster takes up to fifteen small crystals...tiny, TINY ones, maybe double the size of orange seeds? That's how big mine are - I broke an amethyst... ]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26843354/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26843354/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 18:44:23 PDT
First we introduced her to Kingdom Hearts, which she immersed herself in happily. This was a good first step - I remember years ago I introduced her to Super Smash Bros, I think that experience helped her with the random sword-thwacking of little heartless beasties. At first, like any regular being would be, she was confused that Sora's sword was a key - but then we reminded her that it was Disney. All was well.

We introduced Kasey, Big Rachel and Dan to DEATHNOTE in a first-quarter-of-the-series marathon one night, which was good. After that they had some understanding of why my computer is slowly filling with DN goods.

Then we took Kasey to Manifest, where she thoroughly enjoyed herself chasing people in costumes of characters that she simply does not recognise. The tentacle jokes, however, were not lost on her. She did ask why manga girls were always drawn in such promiscuous ways...I responded with "N'aww...you're naive. ^_^"

After Manifest Kasey had quite an understanding of Death Note, and showed some curiousity towards Naruto - so I've let Dylan introduce her to it, and she's liking it so far. She shows a particular liking toward the character Hinata, which is a good thing. I, personally, love Hinata. Last night was the episode where we saw her performing her eight trigrams, thirty-seven palms (I think) Jutsu.

AAANYWAY, besides that we have also started her on Final Fantasy 10, Pucca, taught her CaramellDansen, shown her various clips from smaller animes such as Higurashi and Dokuro-Chan.

Next up I think I will try to find the series of Trinity Blood, because that was just fucking brilliant.

Ugh. My cup-a-soup is cold.

So yes, we're well and truly on the way to turning her into a raving geek. Hallelujah! ^_^

I'll see y'all around. Have a good one.

Xx Ricky

PS; argh, not looking forward to Friday ><
For a host of reasons...

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26822963/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26822963/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 18:28:58 PDT BEGIN RANTY SECTION. IF YOU WISH TO SKIP THIS, PLEASE SCROLL DOWN TO WHERE I HAVE WRITTEN 'END RANTY SECTION'.
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Fools shall be the end of this world.

A comic by Rimfrost today features the world as a giant dog, and Maria commenting that people are like fleas. This is accurate, and was portrayed in an adorable way. If you've not seen it, [link] the comic is called "Earth".

Somebody responded to this "Fuck off". BRILLIANT. I've never heard such words of wisdom! What the hell?

Human beings are parasites. Babies are, by definition, parasites; they feed from their host, their mother, using up resources and giving nothing back. They feed off the very lifeblood of their mother until born, and then they continue to suckle from her. This is the definition of a parasite - a being which lives upon the resources of another being.

Adult humans are just bigger parasites, feeding off the world's resources. It's ridiculous to respond to an artistic representation of scientific theory with the words "Fuck off". I mean, really, immaturity and stupidity are a dangerous mix, but with foul language as well?

It's just plain stupid. I mean, really.

Beyond that, a man contested the airlines last night on Border Security because he turned up 5 minutes after check-in time. He said that it was their fault and that he should not have to pay the surcharge on re-booking a flight the next day.

This is RIDICULOUS.

YOU, sir, intended to turn up EXACTLY at the END of check-in time. Any base moron with half a brain could see that turning up early is an obvious choice. It is not an appointed time, it is a cut-off time, therefore you must be there BEFORE that moment. Turning up at that moment, what did you think was going to happen?

You are a blatent idiot, and it's people like you who are the waste-of-sperm biological SEWERAGE which is overflowing into society and smothering those of us left who are worth the breastmilk we consumed as a child. Without people like you, perhaps the world would not be in such a state as it is now, the atmosphere deteriorating because of pollution and the earth itself withering away due to overpopulation.

If you truly love your earth, kill your children. That's my advice; keep the child until it's ten years of age and you can accurate guage its usefulness to the planet, and then, if it proves to be just one more wiggling, screaming waste of semen, please, by god's great will, do us all a favour and put the fucker out of its misery.

Yeah. I'm in an extreme kind of mood. Don't take these things to heart, particularly those of you who have ten year olds.

IIIIIIN OOOOOTHER NEEEEEEWS.


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Okay. So I had a dream last night that I was sent back in time to the age of ten and allowed to live my life over from that point. It was good, I saved my dog from being hit by a car, attended school more frequently, stayed friends with Terri...well worth it. I'd like to do it in real life if I could.

Besides that, Kasey has officially moved in with me. This is nice - we don't get on each other's nerves at all, both enjoy a bit of personal space, there's absolutely no conflict here whatsoever. Not the tiniest bit.

Zoe on the other hand is dense as ever, it appears. My ignoring her for months has actually caused her to ask Jay why I'm mad at her, as if I hadn't explained it a million times over. She cancelled on me the other night, saying she can't come to my birthday this weekend, to which I responded "That's okay. Almost everyone else has cancelled, it doesn't matter."

Today, after Jay told me that she has no idea what she's done wrong and that she is rather upset that we're "on bad terms", I wrote her the following message:

"I just want to explain why that text the other night was so snappy. I have been incredibly frustrated with you these past few months. Every plan we made you backed out of or left after 15 minutes. I got sick of putting in the effort when even our phone calls have gone from 2 hours to ten minutes. That is why I haven't been making an effort to see you. I hoped one day you might make an effort, but you never did. Please don't cheapen this with excuses like "I was busy", just try to learn something from it."

As of now, if she gets angry or doesn't respond, I wash my hands of her.
If she does respond or, best case scenario, learns something from this, then I will gladly go back to being friends with her....although I'm not sure I could do it in a completely honest way. I will always be angry at her for the way she's acted until I get a proper apology, and that's just plain not goi... ]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26767703/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26767703/ Sun, 23 Aug 2009 04:08:04 PDT
Kasey and I had a little bit of trouble with bus timetables and things, but we managed to get to the Melbourne Showgrounds by 11 o' clock. We only had to wait a mere half hour in the on-the-day Registration Line, during which I took a fair few photos with brilliant cosplayers. ^_^

Among my favorites for the day were Yuna, Ryuuk, Paine, Xiangua and a giant fluffy Akamaru. ^_^

Anyways. We spent the majority of the day galavanting around taking photos of cosplayers, hugging people I've never met, and taking in the sweet, sweet smell of merchandise. Joel faded in and out of the picture; he appeared, stuck around for a few minutes and then disappeared again.

Honestly...it was a little bit disappointing. I was really looking forward to spending some time with him.

But at the end of the day I had a FANTASTIC day at my first convention, and I got a limited edition Rem figurine with disc 6 of 9 of the Death Note Series on the back at half price. I'm not sure what the good of having disc 6 without any of the others is, but whatever.

ANYWAYS, we left Manifest and made our way back to Wonthaggi, where we walked with a friend of mine to Shelagh's house. The party there was fantastic! More laughs than one could fathom.

And to top it all off, I got to hang out with both Kiersten and li'l Rachel today.

It's just been an absolutely magical weekend.

Can't wait until Armageddon.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26727199/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26727199/ Fri, 21 Aug 2009 04:44:49 PDT
My ENTER was 66.8 - this means I can get into any Drama / Literature course in University anywhere in Victoria. This is brilliant. Besides that, I've finally gotten around to doing all those things I've been putting off. So that's all good.

In other news

MANIFEST IS TOMORROW!!!

It's currently 9.40pm. Casey is in the shower, I'm eating left-over rissoles from last night, and tomorrow morning we're getting up uber early to catch a bus into Dandenong, a train to Flinder's Street Station, and a tram to the Melbourne Showgrounds.

MANIFEST!!!

I'm gonna make it after all...all year I was hopeful until Shelagh put her 20th on the day. I figured there was no way to get there and get back in time for Shelagh's, but because Lauryn is going to be there Shelagh doesn't even expect me to rock up.

Not only am I definitely going to go, but I'm going to go to Manifest beforehand!

See, I was going to blow off the party altogether and just go from Manifest to Jessy's and go clubbing with her, but she said that she's too sick to go.

At any rate, tomorrow is all set to flow flawlessly.

Not much on earth could break this high.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26657897/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26657897/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 19:31:26 PDT
So. Last night I put my wig in my kitchen sink (I was going to use the laundry for privacy and so I didn't get wig-hair all over the place, but Mum insisted for some reason...) and washed it, sat it on its styrofoam head and combed it, cut it, combed it, cut it, sprayed it, styled it, cut it some more, sprayed it, combed it one last time, sprayed it and set it.

As you can see, I put up two photos. They're not great, and the wig is nowhere near complete, but that's the first stage. Next I have to dye the ends purple, cut where appropriate, obtain the bandage Rem wears around Its head and then I can paint my face and show you what it'll look like. I like progress pictures...

Anyway. Costume; Emerald suggested I use Gauze instead of Modrock to make the bone-suit. I'll think about it. In the meantime I'll try to get a sample of both and test them against each other...I might even wind up using a combination; Modrock for the more solid parts, Gauze for the complicated ones. I might even use bandages on wire for the parts that will need to move.

Debating whether or not to have wings. Wings can look gaudy, be difficult to move with, etc.

Also, my friend Theresa is going as Misa Misa. This could be a good thing, what with my Rem costume - I was even thinking of a little skit using the All American Rejects song "Dirty Little Secret" XD

Y'all see where I'm going with this? Good. ^_^

Anyway. While I'm here, I might as well say:
Any of my friends who can make it to Armageddon on October 17 or 18 PLEASE go! I'm definitely going to be there on the 17th, and quite likely to be there on the 18th. If I can enter the costume competition and find a place to stay then I'll be there on the 18th...but if you can go, PLEASE DO!

This means you, Alex. Yuhan too.

Aaaanyways, the last three episodes of DeathNote on Kiersten's DVD magically decided to work! I'm gonna go have some fun. ^_^

Xx Ciao!!!

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26638777/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26638777/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 21:57:26 PDT
I am definitely cosplaying; there's no doubt about this.
The list of possible cosplays is as follows:

Ryuk, of DeathNote.
I chose Ryuk because his costume would be rather easy - a black skivvy with feathers sewn into the shoulders, perhaps plated on the inside so I look like I have some kind of muscle. It would be great to pd it so that I get Ryuk's creepy thin waist in comparison to the rest of me, but that's not likely. Black pants, I can hand-make his skull belt with relative ease...shortboots, gloves, a few rings, and spiked hair. The make-up is relatively easy.

L, of DeathNote.
Again, because he's easy, and the fangirls love it. Black eyeliner, a white skivvy and a pair of faded bluejeans. Sandals in case the ground is nasty. I can, of course, make a DeathNote with relative ease.

Father Abel Nightroad, of Trinity Blood.
A complicated costume, but nothing I can't handle. I already have the wig and ribbon for his hair, can easily get a pair of $4 roundglasses, and with my birthday about to come up I can ask friends for money with the material for his clothes. It's not overly hard, but I'm new, so I'm thinking I might save this.

Agatsuma Soubi, of Loveless
Soubi is one of my favorite characters ever. His costume is uncomplicated, a green T-shirt, a white scarf, a brown jacket, jeans, brown leather shoes and a bandage around my neck. My white wig and possibly a pair of glasses if I like. In fact, I could just cut it down to wig, glasses, bandage, shirt, jeans and shoes if I really wanted to be slack. People who watch Loveless would get it just from the hair and the bandage. He was my original idea.

Rem, of DeathNote.
Now this is my favorite costume idea so far. The face make-up is easy, and I could bleach my hair and put in purple "Fudge" dye for the ends, or I could cut my white wig and dye the ends purple. No issue. The bandage around the head is easy; but the body is going to be LOTS of fun.
I'm going to ask Maree if she can source me some Modrock. For those who don't know this is Plaster in Fabric Form. It can be moulded around an object or, say, a body, to create a fitting, rugged looking rock-like substance. Much akin to bone.
If I were to spend a day naked in the back room with the curtains drawn, a tarp on the floor to catch dripping, I could quite easily make a fitted Bone Suit, and shape the bones to perfection.
Of course, being bone it's not one solid piece, so I'd need to find ways of attaching it without breaking it, and underneath it I would wear a black skivvy and black pants to avoid exposing myself, or getting cold.
This costume would be easy, effective, and of course - enterable! Because I will have comprised most of the costume myself I will be able to enter the Armageddon Cosplay Competition. While I don't think I have any chance of winning due to my lack of experience and the simplicity of my costume, it would still be cool just to enter. ^_^
Oh, and of course I'd love to have Rem's Death Note and creepy Bone Pen. I could make both.

So that's the plan!

Now...which costume would we like to see most? *grin*
A) Ryuk
B) L
C) Abel
D) Soubi
E) Rem

I'm pretty sure I know the answer. And of course I'll be posting up photos of the In-Progress and Completed costumes, don't you worry. ^_^

Aaah *sighs happily*

Nothing like the smell of determination at 2.57 in the afternoon. ^_^

~ Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26578756/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26578756/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 21:26:29 PDT
I intended to make a four day slam out of it; however, that was not to be. I had previously promised Shelagh I would attend her birthday party, having missed last year's. Fate, as it would seem, did not want me to attend Manifest, and Shelagh put her party on the evening of the 22nd - the same day as the Costume Competition I was somewhat eager to enter.

The past few months I've known I've been disappointed, yes, but not overall devastated by that. Now, with the convention only one week away, it's really starting to bug me.

I have my wig ready to cosplay Father Abel Nightroad from Trinity Blood, or Agatsuma Soubi from Loveless. The wig, however, has become knotty from being moved around the caravan to wherever the next convenient location is, and I can't see myself finding a use for it any time soon

Anyway.

I decided instead to go to Armageddon, and began to research that. In the mean time, Emerald booked us tickets at Dracula's Theater Restaraunt on the 17th of October. This, too, seemed the work of a cruel fate, as I discovered the following day that Armageddon spans over October 17 and 18.

Now, it might be possible to attend both Armageddon and Draculas chronologically, but as far as money goes, that could be a different story. I'm hoping against all hope that I can work it out, and if I can I'm gonna have to get cracking on making my Priest's Garb!

I mean, I already have a rough Soubi costume, but it's not great, and the wig doesn't exactly match Soubi's hair - I use my Father Abel wig for both cosplays, which is white, while Soubi is actually a soft blonde.

IN OTHER NEWS:

I've got a potential buyer for my car, she's willing to pay $800 for it. I also have heard that a friend's younger sister is selling her automatic panel van for $800, and from what I've heard, my car and hers are in similar states when it comes to how much repair is necessary before we can get them roadworthy.

Plus, Panel Vans are just damn cool. And I'd give all the toes from my left foot to not have to see that damn manual laser ever again in my life.

Also, I went into White Salt (which has newly re-opened) and asked if they need a morning Food Prep guy, or someone to help them get set up. They took my details, and apparently they've heard a lot about me from Mario, Jan and Leigh. They already have a good impression of me, and I've only spoken to them maybe four or five times. ^_^

So that's essentially my news. At the moment I'm hooked on Phoenix Wright, and, thanks to Corey, Phoenix Wrong. I'm also considering writing a stage-version of Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog - if you've not seen it, go find it, it's brilliant. Joss Whedon got bored during the writer's strike, called Neil Patrick Harris, and they wrote a musical about a mad scientist. GENIUS!!!

Aaaaanyway, you guys have a good night. More news as it comes, I suppose

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26562939/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26562939/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 06:19:53 PDT
I'm becoming quite the internet stalker. I don't mean that in a dangerous way, I just mean that I keep seeing people I want to get to know, and going to extreme lengths to track them down and become friends with them. It's nothing dangerous or bad, it's just a little strange.

For instance.

Last night I watched "World's Strictest Parents" with my mother, and saw this guy on it called Ross. He was really girly, really bitchy, and...despite all, cute. When the episode was over and I went to bed, I wondered if the show made a difference to his life. Recalling that they'd said he was a myspace addict, this morning I got up and went straight to work on Myspazz.

I searched through over 300 boys from the Uk named Ross before it occured to me to google search Ross and World's Strictest Parents. It wasn't long before I found his full name, and even the name of the town and street he lives in. I didn't intend to find all that out, it was just in one of the TV reviews.

Anyway, I searched his full name on Myspazz and Facebook and sent him a message on both, and sure thing, less than 12 hours later he replied and we're chatting on Facebook now. ^_^

He seems a lot more mature and intelligent now. I hope to make a friendship out of this. ^_^

Anyway. This is my current list of completed and successful stalkings:

1 - Kellyjane from Demyx Time - Spoken with
2 - Jenn from Demyx Time - Spoken with
3 - Laura from Demyx Time - Spoken with
4 - Danielle from Demyx Time - Frequently chat on MSN
5 - Dan from Demyx Time - Occasional chat on msn
6 - RJ, ex Demyx Time - Good friend <3
7 - Inonibird, comic artist on dA - Occasional chat on msn
8 - Zeki, stalked on roleplay site - We were friends once

This is a list of my current, in-progress stalkings:

1 - Natalie Tran, communitychannel on Youtube.com - 1 reply
2 - Hayley Hoover, hayleyghoover on Youtube.com - 3 replies
3 - Kristina Horner, italktosnakes on Youtube.com - Several comments
4 - KTShy on deviantART, comic artist - Page comment


That's all I can think of at the moment.

Y'know, it's so easy to just comment someone and say "Hey. I love [enter whatever they do here], and you seem like a really genuine person. Would you like to chat?"

Given, I don't just copy+paste, each message is written out of genuine interest....do you guys think this is creepy? I honestly don't. I just think it's genuine interest and that I'm meeting these new people because they're cool.

It's either they have a really great personality, or they're just THAT pretty. Or sometimes both!

Anyway, I'm gonna go play. Have a good night guys. ^_^

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26533707/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26533707/ Tue, 11 Aug 2009 18:27:54 PDT

The supermarket has cut down my shifts to 1 a week because I've had to swap a few shifts lately (for various reasons). This is bad because that brings my total income down to around $60 a week. Now, when Mum finishes repaying me (SOON), I'm gonna owe her $50 board a week, plus I have my phone to keep up with and...well, you can see the problem.

Besides that, I can't wait to sell this car. Mum has a friend who's interested in it, but she's taking her sweet-ass time making any offers and thinking about it. I want that piece of shit out of my driveway and out of my life AS SOON AS POSSIBLE and I want to get an automatic. When I do that, I can finally go driving with Lisa and whomever else, which will let me get my license, which will make it easier for me to get my Sales Reps License and become a real estate agent.

My computer doesn't have Microsoft Word. I asked for three things when I asked Mike to build me this computer, perhaps I should have been more specific. I asked for it to be able to handle the internet, I asked for it to have Windows Media Player, and I asked for Microsoft Word. So he gave me a computer with all three things, but it had Windows 2000, MSN 7.0 and Windows Media Player 4. Does anyone see a problem here?

It turns out the reason it busted is because he forgot to put in a vital component, so I gave it back to him for him to wipe it and return it to normal...he gave it back exactly as he'd given it to me the first time, but with one large difference.

NO MICROSOFT WORD. I'M A WRITER FOR FUCK'S SAKE, I NEED TO WRITE.

Besides that, Rob hasn't paid me for the help with that job yet. Now, he asked me to do ONE DAY'S work with him for $15 an hour. The first day I turned up on time, but the bin didn't, so he didn't pay me for the first HOUR that I was working. And I mean it, I was actually working that first hour; but because he wasn't, he's not paying me for it.

Anyway, he still hasn't paid me yet! And I don't think he's going to. I wound up working 2 days instead of 1, and the job STILL isn't finished because he VASTLY understated just how big the job was. "It should take us a day" was RIDICULOUS, this job could take a week!

And of course it doesn't end there. EIV - Employment Innovations Victoria - is on my case again. Now, when you stop receiving Centerlink Benefits, as I have ceased to do, they are meant to leave you alone. When you're on Centerlink they're meant to encourage you to get a job. Despite my working 13 hours a day at Burger Edge and Aztex over the summer they were STILL on my case because they only accept full time work, otherwise they won't leave you alone.

For fuck's sake dude, I worked more hours in one day than you do in three, leave me alone. There's NO WAY to get full time work on phillip island at my age, with my level of experience!!! All the work is seasonal, casual and unreliable! IT'S JUST NOT GOING TO HAPPEN.

Naturally I can't get in contact with Brendan either. He's so busy, I just can't track him down, and he doesn't reply to texts very often, so that doesn't look like it's going to be working out any time soon.

At the moment I have $55 on me and $12.50 in the bank. I owe mum $20 and I owe Rachel $20, leaving me with a total of $27.50 to my name until Tuesday. It is currently Wednesday.

I wandered around the streets aimlessly from 5.30pm until around 8.30 yesterday because Kiersten, Rachel, Cate J, Karmen and Brendan weren't answering their phones and I just couldn't be bothered going home, where I'd...well, feel like this. It was wet and everything except the corner store was closed, so I'm glad I left my wallet at home.

Alex was meant to be coming down. If he had, I'd be picking him up from the bus stop in two hours...however, he wasn't sure it was happening (I tried to call him all yesterday but got his voicemail every time) so when Good Games asked if he could work, he said yes. He's not coming.

I need a break from all this...and I know it's vain and silly, but I just wish I was rich. I hate being poor. I want to live that kind of carefree lifestyle, able to show up all the people who ever gave me shit, able to afford a house for my mother and one for my sister so they don't have to worry anymore...I know money won't make you happy, but it would make me stress so much less.

But for rich, I need famous, and for famous I need published, for which I need finished novels, for which I need word, for which I need a new computer or an update, for which I need money, for which I need a new job. If I want a really good job, I'll need my license, for which I'll need driving lessons and prac time, for which I'll need a car, for which I'll need money.

See my dilemma he... ]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26513562/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26513562/ Mon, 10 Aug 2009 19:44:09 PDT
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1- Post the rules.
2- Each tagged person must tell 8 things about themselves.
3- At the end you must tag 8 people and put their icon in your journal.
4- Then go to their page and leave a comment saying you tagged them.
5- No tag backs.

1) Sometimes I feel like all I do is complain, and I wonder if people get sick of that. I'm sure they do, and it makes me really nervous when I talk to people, in case I'm making a bad impression or putting them off being my friend. It really worries me sometimes.

2) The people I turn my back on have genuinely earned my distrust - I hate when people tell me to forgive and forget, because I have forgiven these people time and time again and eventually reached a point where I'm unwilling to do so anymore. This is my decision and I have more than earned the right to make it. ><

3) I have an extra bone in my right knee, my right wrist cracks (and sounds like gravel being crushed) when I twist it, and the bone and muscle in my chest are forming incorrectly on the inside, slowly doing damage to my lungs and heart.

4) I'm not going to hold myself back here, I am better than a lot of authors out there. I truly feel like I deserve to be published, and deserve to make something of myself. Call me arrogant or pig headed, but really, I've worked hard and think I've earned some kind of recognition.

5) Regardless of how I act on the outside, I take a lot of things that people say to heart. A person made a comment yesterday, just an off-hand comment, and it hit me quite hard. I'm actually thinking of leaving dA and signing up to fictionpress.net because of it. (among other things)

6) I am an avid horror movie fanatic. As a matter of fact, my 19th birthday party is going to be completely horror themed. I'm going as a possessed ventrilloquist's doll.

7) I hate chatspeak. I will only use chatspeak when I am very tired, or something is seriously wrong. If I start having a full on conversation with you in chatspeak you KNOW I'm in a really bad emotional state. In reality I hate it with a passion that burns like the fires of a thousand suns...yeah. I think that's about right.

8) I like Lady Gaga, Gwen Stefani, Lady Sovereign...I actually don't like many bands like Metallica, Silverchair, Nirvana or anything like that. To be honest, I'm a bit of a pop sellout...but I'm happy that way.

TAG:
Fiyero
Kitty
Fiona
RJ
Ash
Anyone else who reads this because I don't have 8 friends to tag XD

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26393940/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26393940/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 02:29:34 PDT
I finally, finally have the internet back. And there's SO much for you all to catch up on!!! ...That's if anybody's gonna read this

So. After the internet broke down, the following things happened:

1 - Jessy and Sarah had a massive falling out. I picked up Jessy's rabbit from Sarah's house, and we've managed to cut her out of our life completely now. I babysat the rabbit for a few days before we could get it to her.

2 - Alia, Dylan, Rachel and I went to the city and hung out with Sonya, Alex and Yuhan and all of their friends in their roleplay club. Rachel's friend Aiden was a jerk, but besides that the night was really fun.

3 - White Salt re-opened under new management! They're really friendly, and while the prices are a little high it's just as good as I remember.

4 - I've been commissioned by a real estate agent to clean a house in which a horse was living in the bedroom, there were several cats left to roam around wild...

5 - I've met a wonderful man. His name is Brendan, he's only a little bit older than me and he lives only a few blocks away from my street. I've heard a lot about him from Felicity and Tanya and some others, but I only met him about a week and a half ago in the supermarket. I went to help Taimak move out of her house the other day and it turns out he lived there too!
After Taimak left I stayed there with him for over an hour, just chatting, and then he drove me home so I didn't have to walk in the rain.
The next morning I woke up and wanted new deodorant, so I bought Playboy - Miami, which smells great. I also felt like a new haircut, so I'm making an appointment next week after Alia goes home.
...I've even started wearing watches and rings...it seems silly. I feel like a giddy schoolgirl with a crush, but...I really want to look better, and it makes me feel better about myself.

Anyways. Alia goes home on Tuesday, before then we have to go see the penguins...among other things. She's fallen in love with Kush Kush, she's drinking Rockstar now...all those good things. ^_^

She's so fun to have around...it feels natural. ^_^

Anyways, see y'all around. I miss you all (Yes, that means you Fi <3)

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26217082/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26217082/ Mon, 27 Jul 2009 17:26:35 PDT
After a little barbeque get together at Brooke's place last night, we got up at around 5.30 am and drove through the city to the airport. After little to no stress and effort we found Kitty waiting for us outside with her massive pink suitcase, and we made our way back to the car, which we'd parked an epic distance away from the airport at a nearby macdonald's.

The drive back to Brooke's place was a little bit uneventful, but we're all tired, particularly kitty who has been up since 3am here time (1am ours *shudder*)

Anyway, we're back at Brooke's place now, playing with her rat (Cheddah), her dog (Diva), and her birds (Tiki and....whatsitsname)

WELL I better get going. One last night, the computer should be fixed tomorrow afternoon, and I'll get back to writing Venus as soon as I can. Sorry about the massive delay guys!!!!

Xx <3

See y'all around.
~ Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26202278/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26202278/ Mon, 27 Jul 2009 00:39:35 PDT
So. Tomorrow is the big day, going to the airport to pick up Miss Kitty - for those who don't know, Alia, [link] is coming to stay with me for a little while. Tomorrow is the pick up day, 8.30am, I'm currently staying at Brooke's place in Cranbourne so that I can get there tomorrow with relative ease.

Anyways!!!! My computer is busted, which sucks, but it should be getting fixed Wednesday. Kiersten's Dad said he'd do it for free, which is absolutely great. Besides that, THE DEB.

I have to put up some photos of the deb ball, it went brilliantly, rachel has some self confidence now....god, there's just so much to say.

So I'll give you a hoooooj journal when I get my computer back.

In the meantime, yes, I am alive, I'm well, and I'm currently playing with my cousin's rat. His name is Cheddar, he's gorgeous, and uber friendly. YAY! lol

Alrighty. Well, I'll see you all around. Have a great time until I see you next!!!

Xx Ricky


PS: Alia, if you get a chance to read this tonight, you don't have to pack any sheets/bedding, we have plenty. I've already set up a bedroom and such for you, you have drawers, a mirror, a bed and a death note poster up in there. The caravan is free for you to use at will, and everything's more or less prepared. I've been trying to text you off other peoples' phones but it seems I can only reply, not send, and my own phone is out of credit. ><

SEE YOU SOON!!!!! <3

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26032250/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/26032250/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 19:22:58 PDT
I was kidnapped by gypsies. That's what they're saying.

Anyways, in the past two weeks prettymuch nothing has happened until this weekend. Friday I went to Jay's, of course, I do that a lot these days though. Saturday I spent the morning absolutely thrashing him on Dragonball Budokai and Lord of the Rings - Quest version. I later caught a lift to Piersdale with Glennys (God I love Glennys) and caught up with Jessy and Sarah there. We went to a club in Frankston the name of which I never really caught.

I'm told now it is called Crave.

It was great. Upstairs was a gay club that night, downstairs was...er...not. But even then, everybody was really accepting. It kind of tripped me out. Anyways.

I went up with the main intention of meeting and getting to know Cal, who I've heard much about but never actually met. As I was walking up the stairs I saw this absolutely stunning guy sitting near the door, smoking, and my first thought was "Out of my league. DEfinitely out of my league."

Turns out that was Cal. Yeah, wow.

Anyways, throughout the night he didn't really pay much attention to me, which was...well, to be honest, kind of depressing. But whatever, I had the time of my life. I chatted up queens, one of which bought me a tequila shot. Her name was Swish, she's absolutely fusking gorgeous. (Fusking is my new word. F U S K I N G.)

More on her later.

Anyway, the whole night was great. There was a christmas in july theme, and some of the guys there were absolutely flaming. I thought Sarah would be more comfortable there because it's sort of her element, since she's "bisexual" apparently, but she was really awkward and....well, flat out mean.

Jessy and I had the time of our lives, though, it was brilliant! We danced and sang and strutted our stuff, and even though they didn't have any milk for the kahlua I desperately wanted, we still had fun.

Towards the end of the night, though, Sarah cracked the shits and wanted to leave. Now, I'm gonna be completely honest - Sarah's a bitch sometimes. She's an absolute killjoy, sometimes I think she's just out to have a bad time. I mean, it sounds like a terrible thing to say, but when she's sitting in the corner all night just glaring at people because they're having a good time, that's pretty shitty. And where did she want to go when she left? Flannigans Irish Bar, which was not only $7 entry, but she ditched us the second we sat down, and then a fight broke out right in front of us, so Jessy and I went back and just left Sarah to her own devices.

We went back to Crave, but unfortunately most of the guys had left, and somebody had broken a Santa, a speaker and a reindeer. I got some photos with the Queens, hooked up with Swish, said goodnight to a couple of people, got a number and we were on our merry way back to Jessy's.

We've decided it's not really worth having Sarah around if she's just gonna be a bitch all the time, so...yeah. Whatever.

Anyway, I'll explain a little more in my next journal whenever I can commandeer another computer. For now I have to leave, because my bus is well and truly on its way. I'll see you all around, pray for me! haha I NEED my computer back....Dylan is SO gone.

Seriously. Death at'cha.

Anyways, Kitty, I'll try to call you tonight.
If I can't though, I'll steal someone else's computer and try to MSN you within the next few days. I only work Tuesday/Thursday/Saturday/Sunday this week, and the Deb is on Friday Night - can't wait!

Have a good time guys. I miss you all. Particularly Kitty, RJ and Joel - but I'm not playing favorites. You guys are just on my mind, k?

Love you all.

<3 Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25811992/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25811992/ Wed, 08 Jul 2009 07:18:25 PDT Dylan busted my fucking computer. Again. I go away for one day and this happens, every time. I mean, seriously, I can't access dA, myspace, facebook, anything, it's really pissing me off. I'm currently at Ash's new house in her new room on her laptop.

NOW FOR THE FUN PART

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Today there was a staff meeting at work, which sucked. Afterwards I'd arranged to meet up with Ash, which was good since I haven't seen her in aeons. By the time she got into San Remo it was almost 6.30, and we headed to the thai restaraunt that I used to work at. We both ordered a chicken pad thai, mine without nuts, and a pot of green tea to share; it was really good. If any of you are ever in the phillip island area, I strongly suggest Fai Thai in San Remo. Tell them Ricky sent you

Anyway, Ash met Felicity, which was a barrel of fun - they've got a lot in common, they're both total sweethearts. Love both of them - I was about to say "my girls" but Ash is one of my girls, Felicity is one of my ladies. They're a little different

Anywaaaaaays. We stocked up on junkables at the supermarket, which was great cause I can use my discount there. Junkables included:
Strawberries
Whipped cream in a can
Chocolate custard
Chocolate chips
Energy drink
Pepsi max
Strawberry Big M
and later added - Riccadonna Asti

This combination was FANTASTIC. When we got to Ash's new house she showed me around, then she played me a few songs on her piano. I may have mentioned in a previous journal that Ash is a massive pianist. *giggle*

She's a wonderful musician, really. She writes her own songs and plays piano, and it's one of my favorite past times sitting out in the little glass room at the back of her old house, with the pool and the spa outside, cats climbing every which way over everything and that lizard I SWEAR TO GOD WAS STARING AT ME THE WHOLE TIME while Ash played me her songs.

...Ash has just informed me that "stumpy" likes people, you just don't pick him up or he pees. I'm going to assume Stumpy is her lizard.. <<
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Anyways, we unpacked the Junkables and at first we were just eating them separately, except the strawberries and cream which is just common sense. I mean, really....but then something horrific happened.

*Ricky eyes whipped cream and chocolate custard*
...I wonder what you happen if you mixed them
*pause before Ash LEAPS at the whipped cream*

It was incredible. Then, naturally, we poured the chocolate chips into it, and called it HEAVEN FOR THE WICKED. It was creamy, chocolate-y, and evil. I mean, seriously, evil. We indulged in strawberries, chocolate, cream, wicked laughter, and corruption of a little girl - Ash's cousin, named Brittani, who is 11 years old. She didn't like custard before.

Now she does.

By the end of this we were on a MASSIVE sugar high. Ash, being a diabetic, worried me a little...but we're fine! haha more than fine, we were laughing our heads off. At one point I poured cream in my mouth, then pepsi max...then choked. I laughed, making it worse, and when finally I cleared my mouth and could breathe I professed:

"NOT ANTICIPATING EXPANSION, I LEFT NO ROOM AND CHOKED!"

After that we decided to include Riccadona Asti into our concoction - for those of you who don't know, this is a champagne, fairly sweet but not the sweetest in the Riccadona line. If you haven't tried it, I highly reccommend you do. However, as we announced this, Brittani stood up, stared at us in horror, and then ran out of the room screaming "no...NO!"

This caused hysterics, we laughed until we couldn't breathe...meanwhile Brittani removed every bottle of anything she could find from the refridgerator....did she really think that would stop us? Ash chased her like a randy ogre.

...that was a weird analogy...

Some of the best quotes from the night:
Brit: "Can I have another sip of Riccadona? It's really nice."
Ash: "It'll be even nicer when you're 18" *takes away bottle*
Ricky: "I was gonna say that!!!"

Sam: (ash's little brother) *pours whipped cream in his mouth* "Does this turn you on?"
Ricky: "A little" *shrugs*
Sam: *CHOKES*
Ricky + Ash: *hysterics*

Sam: *comes into the room shirtless and rubs nipples*
Ricky: "Seriously...six year olds these days."
Sam: "GET FUCKED" *leaves*
((He's actually sixteen, and he's very, very homaphobic. I indulge in this whenever possible.))

Sam: "You totally... ]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25724439/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25724439/ Fri, 03 Jul 2009 21:31:27 PDT Like Genocide?
Reading Venus?

[link]

I thought it might be about time.
Check it out, sign up if you want in. If you know anyone who you think would like it, show them. I don't like putting effort into making sites only to wind up with one or two people joining and nothing ever happening from it ><

Anyway, feel free to check it out, join it, whatever. Just remember, with roleplay, standards are expected. Those standards are literacy and at least /some/ understanding of how things work.

Have fun guys.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25641864/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25641864/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 00:37:32 PDT
But recently she's been very sick. She's been breathing heavily all the time, unable to walk far, not eating...we made her a roast dinner with gravy and she didn't even touch it...we knew something was really wrong, so we took her to the vets and he gave us medication for her; but she didn't improve.

We took her in this morning and he said it was most likely a tumor; but she was suffering. We couldn't let her go on in pain...so we had her put to sleep. I was on the floor kneeling beside her, crying uncontrollably...

Paige hasn't licked anyone in months...but she sat up through her pain and licked my face...as the vet shaved her paw and put the needle in she just lay there, while Mum and I stroked her fur and talked to her. I kissed her on the forehead, and then she looked up into my eyes...and suddenly she was gone.

She just collapsed...and I fell beside her. I couldn't control myself anymore, I cried my eyes out, I was shaking...I've had her for almost thirteen years, she's always just been there; I can't remember a time before she was here...

The vet offered to carry her out to the car for us, but I wouldn't let him; I wanted to carry her myself. We wrapped her in her shroud and I carried her out, holding her tight...then we drove home, and Lisa said she would call Brad and ask him to dig the grave. Again, I said I wanted to do it myself. She was my dog more than anyone else's, and I owed it to her to lay her to rest myself.

So when we got home Dylan went to Aunty Kerri's to get a shovel...I carried Paige out of the car, but her shroud came undone around her head and I saw her face; she was bleeding from her nose, and the blood trickled down the side of my jeans. I collapsed onto the porch steps and held her...I sat there for about an hour, crying into her fur, holding her, talking to her...her eyes were still open a little; I tried, but I couldn't close them.

Eventually I re-wrapped her and Dylan came home with the shovel. I started to dig, but the shovel - which was old - hit a root and broke. So I walked to Cate's, knowing Cate wasn't in town - neither was Kiersten, Rachel or anyone else for that matter - to borrow a shovel from her parents. They, too, weren't there.

So I called Kiersten's mum and asked to borrow her shovel; she only had a spade, but I said it would do and went to get it...it started to rain, heavily, as I walked up there. On the way back I saw Brooke at her dad's house, so I went there and broke the news to them.

Brooke came back to my house with me to help me dig the grave...I want around 3 feet, but there are so many roots there that it's hard. It was raining too hard, so we're leaving it until tomorrow at only a foot, maybe a foot and a half deep. Paige is wrapped in a tarp, I have to move her into the cubby house soon, but I wanted to write this first.

I've been getting lots of messages from friends today...it's nice. But to be completely honest I can't deal with advice right now. I hate advice for the most part anyway, but people telling me to look on the bright side and that I should remember the good times are just making me want to deck them. The bright side of my life at the moment is that I'm employed with a handful of decent friends; the dark side, sorry to say, outweighs that a little at the moment seeing as I've just lost someone really special to me, had a fight with someone else, and my mother potentially has liver disease. The doctors are very sure, but want to do some final testing - I'll wind up giving her part of my liver if she does have it, assuming we're compatible.

But for the most part right now...I want to just mourn. I want to grieve, and I'll do so how I see fit. If catatonic moping is the way I choose to do it, I have every right to that. I do appreciate the support, but I'd also appreciate a little bit of space.

So this is for Paige...I love you.

Rest in peace honey...

<3

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25593212/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25593212/ Sat, 27 Jun 2009 19:09:56 PDT
For the past week or so I've been getting up around 10 or 11, going to work or whatever else I'm doing that day, then coming home at night and doing my duties like feeding dogs and such. After that, when mum goes to bed (at around 9.30) I curl up in her chair and play Shin Megami Tensei until some ridiculous hour, like 3 or 4.

I was going to hang out with Graeme the other day, but he finished work late and couldn't come.

Speaking of my gay friends, I have one particular friend who I don't think I've mentioned here yet. He's taken, has been for a few years, but he keeps making moves on me. Now, I'm friends with both him and his boyfriend, and I don't want anything to come of it.

But I have to say, honestly, it feels nice to be wanted.

Did any of you Australians notice that on the day that Michael Jackson died, they still had a P!nk Marathon on Channel V for 6 hours? From 12 midday to 6pm, so it was well after we all knew that MJ was dead and all the channels put together impromptu MJ Marathons. I thought that was entertaining. P!nk is thoroughly unstoppable.

It's overcast today. It's nice.

Zoe's hair looks fantastic. Glennys did it for her, and now Zoe's one of those people who can shake their hair in the morning and look perfect. She's NEVER been like that - she always had a red afro in the mornings. She's never been this happy in her life, and it's nice to see.

I can't wait to go to England. If anything, just to meet up with Fiyero, RJ and Dani...but every time I think about that, I always think about Joey, who lived in Wales.

There's a bit of a hole in the heart there...

I love P!nk. I'm listening to some of her old stuff now. 'Stop Falling'

Kiersten gets people to make playlists for her on her computer. Usually they're just 10 or 12 songs. I made one last week, it was 72 songs, and they were all the ones I used to listen to when Sam and I were...Sam and I.

Damn it. The journal took a melancholy turn again.

I think I'm gonna go take a shower, get ready for work, and walk to San Remo. Since it's overcast and cold it'll be nice, and I can let my trench coat fly around in the wind behind me.

I'll see y'all around.

Xx Ciao.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25426241/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25426241/ Fri, 19 Jun 2009 23:52:07 PDT
People don't invite me out, never have, because I live on the island and they live in Wonthaggi - it's "too far". The other day Dan made a HORRIFIC generalization which offended me more than any insult anyone has ever said right to my face; he said something in passing that, considering how close we used to be, crushed my spirit.

Several weeks ago I was satisfied with this. I actually, truly believed that this was as good as it gets. THIS was all there was. Now I know differently.

I've found better people than this, who I could actually trust. I've found better places than this, where nobody's watching! I'm sick of being the center of attention, caught up in drama, always being judged...I want to go somewhere where nobody will even LOOK at me, and I finally found a place like that.

For the first time since I was a naive little fourteen year old with a flourishing romance and dreams for the future...I actually feel like I can make something of myself. After Paul left me I died inside, and a few times I've felt alive again, but for the first time since them I'm excited again.

I can get somewhere in this life. I really can.

These 'friends' who never have time for me, never call or text me, stand me up and wouldn't listen if I had a real problem...what kind of friends are they?

I've found better people, better places, and...hope.

Wish me luck guys. I'm alive again.

Xx Ricky.

P.S. PLEASE COMMENT. I've asked people to comment several times just so I can see who's actually reading my journals these days and I've got no replies from anybody but Kitty.
Then again, if nobody replies then nobody cares, and that entirely supports my point about having so few reliable friends, don't you think?

Also, my mood is stuck as "Relief". Believe me, I AM NOT RELIEVED.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25387576/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25387576/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 05:46:00 PDT
On Tuesday I went to Wonthaggi with the hopes of meeting up with Graeme and Jordy, but my phone died and I coincidentally bumped into Rachel in Leading Edge Music. We hung out for a while and eventually made plans to go to the City the next day (Wednesday).

Sure enough, the next morning we caught the 6am bus to Dandenong Station and caught a train from there into the city, where we went on an adventure. There wasn't really much event-age during the day, but we found this beautiful little chinese place that does a side each of Lemon Chicken and S+S Pork with rice, a home-made spring roll ball and a dim sim, all for $9.something, which is pretty impressive. It was a good meal.

Eventually we met up with Yuhan, which was great, and we went around looking at shops and the like. Finally we wound up going to Good Game, where we met Alex and I purchased a set of Munchkin (a tabletop game using cards). We proceeded to play that (Rachel/Yuhan/Alex/Myself) for a while until Alex knocked off work, at which point we wandered around and found ourselves at the Pancake Parlour.

We got dinner, sang, everybody got acquainted with each other (Except me, 'cause I knew them all), and then Alex went off to that place where he studies....cirus....yeah. Bad memory, can't remember exactly what it stands for, but it's NICA, which I guess stands for National Institute of Cirus Arts. I think that's it.

Alex help! ><

Anyway, after that Yuhan, Rachel and I went for walkies again and we let Yuhan catch a tram home, leaving us somewhere near Central Station. We found ourselves in a Nando's waiting for Rachel's friend Aiden to turn up...eventually he walked right past the Nando's, and we spotted him through the window (luckily) so we caught him before he wandered off in a daze.

We wound up going back to his place, where we shared a bottle of red cougar rum (which he had to use up, for some reason) with coke, and looked out of the highrise appartment view...I felt rather classy. XD

This whole time I was wearing a suit that I bought at an Op Shop the day before. I, personally, think it looks great - I didn't really mind what other people thought. Nobody looked at me funny, which is a sure sign that....I was in a city.

Anyway, Rachel and I caught a train to Dandenong Station and got there around 9.30. This is a bad time to be at Dandy Station; it's rather dangerous there, apparently, and I once got asked to leave a supermarket in Dandenong on the basis that I wasn't Indian.

Yeah. I know.

Anyway, the fog was so thick that you couldn't see the station from the road; I was nervous just to step out on the road in the taxi rank, just in case a taxi came out of the fog and hit me.

We were there for quite some time, waiting for Rachel's dad. It was kinda creepy, but I wasn't scared. This is progress. I am proud.

Anyway, today I was in San Remo, early for work as usual and I ran into Graeme, who was coming to the bottle shop after finishing work. We had a chat, nothing really special, and then he headed off.

Also, on another little note, it's my mother's birthday today. This is bad, because I thought her birthday was tomorrow. Luckily, however, I've had a Fairy Book on reserve at Kush Kush since Mother's Day - it's the next one in the set; I gave her the first for Mother's Day, obviously.

I also got her a bunch of flowers the name of which I've magically forgotten...oh well. They're nice. I think they start with G. She likes them. It was awkward, however, trying to explain to her that the reason I didn't say happy birthday this morning was because I accidentally marked the wrong day on my calendar...argh, what can I say? I have an atrocious memory.

Oh. Also, I've got a little pet project, called "Living in Styx" going. Obviously I'm putting it up on dA, but don't expect it to get too serious. After all, it's just little text-pieces stuck together in stick figure shapes, and it's trying to go serious WAAAAY before it should. Just ignore it, probably.

Alright. I think that's just about it for tonight...uh...yeah. Hopefully I'll speak to some of you soon - although not as many of you are reading my journals as there used to. I miss Fiona, and Mae and Eve and...yeah.

Hi Kitty.
At least I know /you/ read them

See y'all around. Much love.
Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25302830/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25302830/ Sun, 14 Jun 2009 04:52:05 PDT
Honestly, I should have started a while ago. If it weren't for fear I think I'd already be out of here...that isn't going to stop me anymore.

So I checked my older list of life goals, and wrote a new one of more immediate goals. I know, corny, whatever, but I think it might actually help, even if it just gets me more mentally under control. Here's a few.

UPPER PRIORITY GOALS
Save $X (later to be determined)
Get driving lessons
Implement a health and work-out plan
Finish editing RnR and writing Cry Witch
Contact a Publisher
Familiarize myself with the layout of the city
Fix and/or Sell my car
Get my Ps
Contact Tanya Powell Modelling Agency (make that re-contact)
Enroll in a University
Move out of here
Apply for a small acting role

LOWER PRIORITY GOALS
Restock wardrobe completely
Learn how to cook decently
Learn Dominion and othersuch
Get singing lessons
Go to Manifest


Now, obviously some of these things conflict. It'd be difficult to save X if I'm going to restock my wardrobe, so that's gonna wait. Driving lessons and saving X come at approximately even level of priority, even though saving obviously wins...but driving lessons cost money.

I'll work it all out, it'll be fine. The main purpose of this blog was to clear out this mental list and get it somewhere solid, where other people can see it.

In case you were interested...this is what I'm gonna be doing.

Wish me luck, guys! ^_^

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25284617/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25284617/ Sat, 13 Jun 2009 03:09:26 PDT
This was a big step for me. Sitting on the train I was getting nervous just looking at the other people, since all you hear about the city out in these parts is about dark alley kidnappings, stabbings, muggings and theft. Once I got to Sth Cross Station I was still as nervous, but Mum and I made our way to the DFO and I sat her at a nice li'l coffee place where she was happy, and I went to go look at clothes a few feet away.

When Aunt Lynn got there I let her go with Mum and they went off to go see Ceasar Milan live. For those who don't know, that's The Dog Whisperer, he's a dog trainer from TV.

I however went to meet up with my old friend Amy from Maffra who now lives in Maffra, and then Yuhan. Amy Yuhan and I hung out at Starbucks for a little while, and then Amy split away and Yuhan and I went off on our city adventure.

This consisted mostly of Yuhan taking me from one store to the next, us fauning over clothes and cute little items like they had in Dangerfields, YD, et cetera. At one point I saw a subway I recognised and instinctively bolted to Smoke Dreams near Flinder's Street Station, which is the only thing in the city I'm familiar with

For those of you unaware, Smoke Dreams is this beautiful little store that sells all those knick-knacks like Alien-In-A-Jar, metal gloves, band shirts, bondage pants and jewelry. It's fantastic, we had fun. In Episode, another little clothes store, Yuhan made me try on two particular shirts that were going to be mentioned throughout the whole rest of the night repeatedly. One was a blue long-sleeved dress shirt which I liked and bought, the other was a too-expensive-for-me-but-nice well-fitting checked polo shirt that Yuhan said was perfect, but I felt too self-conscious wearing it. It really was well fitting...*shudder*

...and although I'll never tell him, I actually think I should have bought it. It looked good.

Later on we met up with Alex. He was in a games store called Good Game, which is....oh my god. I walked in and saw row after row of tables covered in card-gamers, walls of merch and posters and...I was more or less in a sub-heaven. I do prefer video games....so far. Later, I'm hoping, they're going to turn me to card games.

We wound up going to a Jazz bar that night, which was great. This guy called Carl who competed in Australian Idol was playing and his voice was just incredible, although he seemed to be a little bit of an awkward performer. We sat up the back of a little aisle in a booth-thing.

Afterwards we went back to Yuhan's place where I stayed in his housemate's room. She's in another country, so there was no drama, and he assured me she wouldn't mind. When I got up in the morning I heard someone moving downstairs, so I went down to sit in the loungeroom and wait for Alex and Yuhan to get up. I gave their poor housemate, Shane, who didn't know I was coming, the fright of his life

He happened to turn the corner as I was coming around it, so we nearly ran into each other, and I had my scary bedhair going on XD. He's kinda cute. Taken, though, and I doubt I would've tried anything anyway.

He seems really nice though (on first impressions anyway), so I'm sure we'll get along in future. Anyway, we left and went out to do some more shopping, then I met up with Mum and we went back to the island.

I went the whole more than 24 hours without incident, which was really comforting...then I get back here, go to Kiersten's to see what happened while I was gone (apparently, drama)...and less than 2 minutes after I leave her house I get my first dosage of harrassment from a couple of hicks.

I've come to realise that there's probably less threat in the city than there is here. Up there people don't really seem to care unless you get in their face, which I'm not likely to do anyway...but down here people actively seek each other out just to do wrong by them for fun. I mean, really, that's just low and sad.

...don't get me wrong, I'm not stupid. I know there's bad s... ]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25155177/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25155177/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 03:56:08 PDT
However, I have several small irks. For instance, the complexity of the maps, which are, sometimes, ridiculously difficult to decipher, maneauver and remember. There's also the One-Hit-Kill spells which are just ridiculously effective; prettymuch if you don't buff yourself against them they do you in instantly, and if your main character dies it doesn't matter if you have 11 demons in Reserve, you're finished.

One thing, however, irritates me in ALL manner of games. If you're going to design a video game, PLEASE make believable obstacles! Don't block a hall by having an upturned couch covered in a few fallen lamps, especially if your protagonist has SUPERHUMAN STRENGTH due to his partial demonic form!

I mean, really, in reality my character, Koto, would smash the couch out of his way, push it, disassemble the blockade...but instead I have to travel a million miles out of my way to use some unnecessarily distant secret second entrance with uncharacteristically hard-to-fight demons waiting there.

Seriously. What the hell? If you're going to have a blockade make it a tunnel collapse that's left absolutely NO weak points through which you could move some stones and crawl, or a thick iron gate, or something. If you're REALLY desperate then put a hole in the floor, dangling electrical wires that are unavoidable and dangerous, even a jammed roller shutter from a security system. ANYTHING will do so long as it's not a fucking torn up ancient TACKY couch blocking my way to victory!!!

I know this is a bit over-reactive but I'm experimenting with a kind of Boredom, Loneliness and Melancholy Cocktail at the moment that I've found is MUCH more potent than my usual Misery on the rocks.

If you're reading this, give me a comment? It'd be nice to know how many of you still keep tabs on my life.

Oh. By the way, I didn't make it to Mitcham.
I'm missing Lauryn's Reunion.

Maybe that's the Melancholy in my Cocktail. I'm well acquainted with the Lonely, I take two shots of that as my friday Nightcap. As for the Boredom, I guess that's just to give it some body, so it's not too bitter.

Talk to you guys later.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25027069/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25027069/ Sat, 30 May 2009 04:44:54 PDT
Just like that we drove toward Melbourne to go see Avenue Q. The trip there was great, since we're all pretty good friends, and Jo and I bring out the best in each other. Geff also has this effect on both of us. Actually, we were all having that effect on each other, and madness ensued.

We got into town and went to Subway for lunch, but just before we got inside we got a call from a friend of Jo's who couldn't make it, which sucked. So we spent some time calling around to try to find someone to use the ticket. I'm not entirely sure what wound up happening with that.

Once at the Theater we looked around at all the Merch, and I had a good old fashioned Viewing (perv) of all the other people coming in. I wound up buying a set of badges, which was cool. Finally we went in.

People lined up for their seats and I gained a particular interest in someone who came to sit behind us. He was wearing a pinstripe suit, a maroon tie, a tie as a belt and had interesting hair. He sat down with a young asian man on one side and an attractive young girl with an awesome jacket on the other. I instinctively complimented his clothing, and we got to talking.

As it turns out this young man was named Alex, the asian boy was his boyfriend Yuhan, the girl was a friend of theirs, and they were all friends of Jo's! Moreso, after the show...

WHICH WAS INCREDIBLE

...we went out to dinner with them at a cute li'l restaraunt where they specialised in Parmagiana, one of my favorite foods. I sat up one end of the table between Geff and Alex, across the table from Yuhan and Jo, with Cate/Emerald at the end. There were more laughs had there than I could count, numerous anecdotes...it was fantastic!

Eventually Yuhan and Alex asked me if I absolutely HAD to go back to the island, and Alex turned (Very cutely) and asked "Can we take him with us?" - turns out that female friend of theirs was having a birthday party tonight, and they wanted to take me with them. They suggested I slept on Yuhan's couch and went home tomorrow.

It would have worked, too, since Geff was going back into Melbourne the next day anyway. In retrospect, I really REALLY should have. It would have been really fun, and besides, I keep wanting to do something a little bit out there and dangerous - that would have been a big step in the right direction.

Really, I should have stayed with them. I mean, really, I should have.

I know Jo would never introduce me to anyone I couldn't trust, and they were both really genuinely nice guys. It would have been nice to spend some more time with them. However, and I couldn't tell you why, I wound up coming back to the island with Jo and the rest anyway.

On the ride home we ran out of petrol, so we had to push the car off the side of the road and call the RACV - but we still managed to get back to the island before 9pm! hahaha

It was a brilliant night all around, and I gave my email address to Yuhan and Alex, so chances are I'll finally have some friends to go to the theater with a bit more frequently. Who knows? I might even get that independability and self reliance that most people have. I might even get over my fear of EVERYTHING if I start going to Melbourne on my own a bit more.

Anyway, I've had enough for tonight. I'm gonna go hit the hay, or something.

Xx Goodnight!

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25010004/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25010004/ Fri, 29 May 2009 06:01:42 PDT
Stolen from Amala (Tomoyo-hime), who was tagged by Jenn.

1. What is your DeviantArt name and what does it mean?
Erimiris, the two names of the goddess of death from Lufia, Erim in her Goddess form and Iris in her human form.

2. Why did you join this site?
Zeki made me do it

3. What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined?
Uhh...I can't remember ><

4. How many people are you currently watching now?
Dunno, cbf checking. Quite a few.

5. Your first gift ever was to?
Zeki? I think?

6. List five things you are a fan of?
1.) Kingdom Hearts
2.) Wicked
3.) Demyx Time
4.) Video Games
5.) Buffy The Vampire Slayer

7.) List four people you look up to the most?
1.) Mum
2.) Jay
3.) Kiersten
4.) Idina Menzel

9. How many pets do you own?
2 dogs 3 cats 17 horses

12. Name 3 aspects of your personality?
1.) Fluctuation
2.) A limitless capacity for caring
3.) Self Loathing

13. If you could have a power what would it be?
Telekinesis.

14. Who was the last person you talked to?
Rachel (Panda)

15. Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
Joel

16. Write the first five things that pop into your head?
1.) Spanner
2.) Screwdriver
3.) Pita Bread
4.) Orange Juice
5.) RJ

17. What are the things you wish you could do better?
Almost everything.

18. Do you like who you are?
Not always.

19. Summer or winter?
Winter

20. Rain or sun?
Whatever is dramatically more suited to the moment

21. List 2 odd things about yourself?
1) Extra knee-bone
2) Imaginary friends

22. Pop or Hip hop?
Pop, I'm sorry.

23. How many scars do you have?
Two iron burns, a school scar, a bike scar, a spider-bite scar and a piercing scar. Six, but the spiderbite is two seperate ones, so seven.

24. Do you wear spiked wristbands, collars & belts?
Belts, yes, but not really.

25. Do you own anything from Hot Topic?
No

27. Nyc Trpp or Lip Service?
What?

28. Steak or Chicken?
Chicken. I can't physically eat steak.

29. Favorite Color(s)?
Electric blue

30. Anime or Manga?
Both?

31. Beer or wine?
Wine

32. Goth or Emo?
Uhhh...do I have to?

33. How many pairs of shoes do you have?
5 pairs of vans, 4 pairs of sneakers, 1 pair of boots, 1 pair of work shoes

34. What is the most amount alcohol you ever drank in one day?
Oh god, do I have to? A bottle of high-strength wine, a four pack of woodstock and cola, four midori and lemonades mixed strong and a half a bottle of mudshake.

35. Cold or Hot?
Cold.

36. Favourite pair of pants?
Dark jeans, not grey.

37. Do you like your user name
Yes?

38. Have you tried any drugs?
Yes.

39. If you have? what drugs?
Just Weed.

40. Do you have a myspace/Facebook page?
Yeah.

41. Pizza or Kebabs?
Pizza

42. Are you a nice person?
Yeah I guess. But I'm pretty vengeful.

43. How old are you?
18

44. Spikes, studs or eyelets?
I like spikes.

45. Do you like your music loud?
Yes. I'm partially deaf.

46. Kind hearted?
Yeah.

47. Holden or Ford?
Aw. This is an Australian quiz.

48. Annoying?
A little.

49. Do you like PLZ accounts?
What?

50. Do you own a car or motor bike?
A car.

51. Do you like The Presets?
Yeah.

52. Do you keep secrets?
Mostly.

53. Should they release criminals from jail if they have killed someone?
Every crime is different.

54. Are you a liar?
Yes.

55. Have you tried to kill yourself before?
Nope. But I think it's normal for everyone to tink about it.

57. Have you ever thought about killing someone?
YES.

58. KFC, Subway, McDonalds, Red Lobster or Burger King?
What's a red lobster? And I dunno.

59. Do you love yourself?
Yes.

61. Do you get depressed?
Yes.

62. Do you have many friends in real life?
"friends" is a hard term to define. 'Friends', yes. Friends, no.

63. Hardcore or Darkcore?
Darkcore??

64. Should stalkers get a second chance?
Depends.

65. Imports or muscle cars?
What??

66. Gay, Bi or Straight?
I'm gay.

67. Do you get enough money each week?
Yeah

68. Fast or slow music?
Both

69. Do you like that Number
Hells yeah.

70. Do you use XD o... ]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25005874/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/25005874/ Thu, 28 May 2009 21:15:51 PDT
[link]

Dude.

I couldn't help it, the idea just...HAPPENED!

I BLAME KITTY!

One minute we're sitting there talking about Nachos, the next second...I summoned a great NACHOO DRAGON, and all of a sudden we were throwing out chibified food-pun monsters and characters at each other like nobody's business!!!!

The Lolita-Candy Nurse named "Nurse Lolly" who fights off her enemies with a red-licorice whip and a ridiculously fake moan of exhaustion, the happy-buddha shaped demon known as Jelleh Babeh, WE COULDN'T STOP!!!

So this is what happened. Take a look, join if you want, it's gonna be great. XD

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24973607/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24973607/ Wed, 27 May 2009 05:06:24 PDT I saw him the next day and we had a less-than-perfect goodbye at the service station, where the smell of petrol interfered, and his exchange father was hurrying him along.

I had a beautiful goodbye moment with Bryan the other night, because I believed him to be leaving the next day. Afterwards I told him I'd come around to help him pack his last things and see him off...when I went there that day he told me he was staying one more night.

Again, I said I'm come see him off the next day. That was today. I went there to see him off and again he told me he's staying another day; but it didn't matter tonight. I'll be working the next two days and then in the city the day after that. I wouldn't have a chance to see him again until Sunday, by which time he should be gone.

If he's not I told him to message me, but he said he probably won't want to hang out, Sunday being the last day after his show finishes. After that he moves, for good, to Mount Waverly.

But what irritates me is that we had the most beautiful goodbye moment, and when someone says goodbye it generally means somebody's leaving.

Doesn't it? Right?

The fact that he stuck around another few days and we just casually hung out like normal kind of ruins the preciousness of that moment. Do you know what I mean?

Anyway, I just felt I needed to get that out. Y'all know my plans for the next few days and such now. I'll see you all around.

Xx Ricky.

P.S., you lose the game.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24952136/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24952136/ Mon, 25 May 2009 21:55:53 PDT
I went there yesterday, and they told me that they were being evicted. Bryan's leaving today; tonight, actually. Moving to Mount Waverly; chances are I'll pretty much never see him. If he comes down he'll be in Wonthaggi seeing everybody else, we're very likely going to fade out of contact.

Rachel's moving back to Wonthaggi.

I didn't get to see Jonni.




...But I'm glad I didn't go. It's better that way.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24868233/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24868233/ Thu, 21 May 2009 05:06:39 PDT
I'll be back next Thursday. Until then, sorry, there will be no Cry Witch, no RnR...no anything. Sorry.

Xx Ciao peoples!
Gonna miss y'all.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24711292/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24711292/ Mon, 11 May 2009 20:33:00 PDT
Sonja loves Cry Witch, and at first she didn't know who I was. She shook my hand rather casually and said "Hello, I'm Sonja. Nice to meet you," to which I replied "Hi, I'm Ricky. Likewise."

Felicity leant over and said "This is the boy who's writing the novel", and Sonja jumped back, clasped my hand in both of hers and said "You're the author?!"

It was a real ego boost. She re-acted how I would if I met Idina Menzel (Elphaba). So that's been a real booster for me lately.

Besides that, not much has really been happening. My life consists virtually of Cry Witch, Work, Sleep and occasionally hanging out with friends.

Oh. One other little thing.

Mum does daycare, and there are these two kids she used to take care of, Zac and Fin. Their parents travel all over the world to really exotic places, or the really special ones, they go to Europe frequently. They're looking for a babysitter to travel with them to take care of Zac and Fin when they go out doing adult things all over Europe...and my aunt recommended me.

So with any luck, I might be going to France later this year...although I'm going to casually suggest going to London...

Wish me luck!

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24505128/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24505128/ Wed, 29 Apr 2009 20:51:37 PDT
I've decided to re-write RnR from scratch. See, the other day I was walking to work, very bored, and I decided that I might try that imaginary friend thing kids do so much...and the first imaginary friend to pop into my head was Nadine, who had some pretty interesting things to say. After that, I kind of missed writing as Nadine; she was so much fun to write with, and I didn't feel right writing a second novel when RnR was un-edited.

Sooooo I tried to edit it, and I just COULDN'T. It's that bad.

So I'm writing it again, and this time I'm working out all the kinks as I go. I've rallied up all the feedback and comments I've had over time and I'm making LOTS of changes to it, characters, storyline, everything. I'm up to Chapter Two, and for some reason it's taking AGES to write even small sections, but I promise you I will keep this going. This is my major project now.

I'm going to post up RnR Rewrite Chapter One now, and I'd really appreciate it if you guys read over it and tell me what you think. Chapter One isn't too vastly different from the original, but chapter Two DEFINITELY is.

Thanks for staying by me through all my little moments, and thanks for reading.

See y'all around.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24315727/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24315727/ Sat, 18 Apr 2009 21:27:03 PDT
Besides that, I'm really loving my new writing project, called Cry Witch. It's pretty satisfying to be writing again, it kills me when I can't. It all spawned from a little scene I would acting out in my caravan, complete with...haha, well, you'll have to wait and see.

I was sort of thinking of doing a little test here; comparing how many people read/comment my journal and how many people read/comment the first chapter of Cry Witch.

In the meantime, J'b J'b introduced me to a novella the name of which I believe is "I have no mouth, but I must scream". Anybody read it? It's about a sadistic computer called AM, which has been built to honeycomb over the world, and when it finally is completed it basically....kills everyone. Ends the world, and keeps 5 people alive to torture them. The novella is the story of those 5 people.

It's worth reading from what I've seen, I'm just not much in the mood for reading.

I'm in the mood for starting another game of HvZ though, and I think it's time!!!!

So MAY THIRTEENTH, THERE WILL BE A RAGE ZOMBIE OUTBREAK.
That's right, folks, rage zombies, not your regular ones. In this version, Zombies can open doors (except if they're "barricaded", by tying a bandanna to the doorknob on the outside), Stun-Time only lasts five minutes instead of ten, and during the "Rage Siren" state, which will occur every day at 5.30pm, Zombies will not be affected by bullets. Also, transformation from Zombie to Human will occur in ten minutes instead of an hour.

So any locals who want to play, go out and get a nerf gun and a bandanna, I'll send out the info e-mails in a few days.

See y'all around.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24195265/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24195265/ Sun, 12 Apr 2009 06:39:35 PDT

The Rules:
1. You must choose only ONE of your OCs. Do it again if you wanna use another OC.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OCs Quiz (your OCs name.Example:Kaiser's Quiz)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!!!
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1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?

My real name is Alex, but everybody calls me Takeshi because of my Grandfather; aparrently I look a lot like he did when he was young. Why we all know what he looked like, I have no idea...But I also respond to Keshi, Taki, and occasionally "hey bitch".

2. Interesting... what's your current age?

Nineteen now that RnR is over.

3. Uh huh. What's your favourite food?

Actually...Pad Thai. I love Thai food, and the chicken and tofu Pad Thai I get from that one thai restaraunt where I go to Uni...mmmm.

4. And your favourite drink?

Okay, easy, I LOVE Rockstar with Guava, or that new Energy Drink in a Tube with Dragonfruit...but milk. Milk is good, too.

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?

...That's a bit complicated...

6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?

Yeah...

7. Classic question! What's your favourite colour?

Green.

8. Who's your favourite author?

Tamora Pierce.

9. Now what's your biggest fear?

You know those really, really big spiders? Like, the kind you'd find if Nadine's punk friends brushed their hair? Yeah. Those...and Nadine's friends.

10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing*

Hehe...brushing their hair. That IS funny!

11. Awesome. Who's your hero?

Nadine, honestly. I look up to her.

12. Ok, who is your worst enemy?

I'm going to go with...Joan Rivers.

13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?

Nadine and Joan Rivers? Uh...Celebrate. I've obviously won a bet in which the loser has to date Joan Rivers. EPIC WIN!

14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?

Make out session.

15. Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?

I'm not sure anymore...

16. What's your worst nightmare?

Didn't we cover this with Fears? Well...I guess it would be going to University and not being able to keep up with it.

17. What's your lifelong dream?

To score a role in something as huge as Wicked.

18. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?

Practice the sense out of the script.

19. Ok, where's your favorite place to relax?

Those old deck-chairs in Kai's back yard.

20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?

Hanging out in the Rec Room, mostly.

21. We're done! Now tag whoever the hell you want.

Alright...I'll have Nadine pass a note on to Evvie.
And hell, why not pawn one of these quizzes on to some newbies?
Zoe and Cameron, if you read this, then highlight and copy this whole journal entry, click the little arrow next to your name in the top left, click "Update Journal", and do as one would on Myspazz or Failbook.

Have fun kids!



Much love,
Xx Takeshi.
P.S., Nadine just informed me that I lose.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24120464/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24120464/ Tue, 07 Apr 2009 21:22:30 PDT HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LIZZIE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HIP HIP
HOORAY
HIP HIP
HOORAY
HIP HIP
WHOOOOOOO! *picks up Liz and spins her around in the air*

My darling baby girl has her birthday today, at least, that's what my calandar tells me. It's probably not right, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY NONETHELESS *gives you a giant cheesecake*

I love you Evvehgirl. May all your dreams and wishes come true, unless they have something to do with zombie apocalypses, in which case NUUU! Bad evveh! XD

May Matt, and Ryan, and all those others rain down from the sky and land naked on your keyboard next time you sign on. ^_^

Love you baby girl.


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I also love Ricky.
I've been thinking about you all day baby, you're absolutely haunting me.

No offense to Cam, Fiyero, Joel, all the others...but Ricky's my boy of the day today. <3

Don't worry, there's enough rabid slutty mah-sweet-self to go around.

Xx love you all.
Xx Ciao.

PS, I lose the game.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24087574/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24087574/ Mon, 06 Apr 2009 04:52:07 PDT
She's making her profile right now, and will maybe, possibly upload some form of art or something in the future, but to be honest she's more of a youtube gal. Still, I think you should check out her page and comment her or something, she's pretty rad and you all probably remember her featuring in my previous journals.

This is her page:
[link]

She DOES NOT understand deviantart AT ALL and is currently freaking out on the phone to me, asking "WHAT IS A NESTED COMMENT" and "HOW DO I MAKE DEVIOUS INFO?!"

It's great.

So if y'all could give her a message, tell her who you are, etc, I'm sure she'd love to meet you all. By the way, she's the only profile I've ever seen on all of dA where her DevID is text instead of an image. I mean that, just typed text; not even an image of text, just text itself. It's tripping me the fuck out.

Anyway, I'm gonna go help her some more. I'll talk to you later.

Ciao guys. Love you all.

Xx Ricky.

]]> ~erimiris http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24069611/ http://erimiris.deviantart.com/journal/24069611/ Sun, 05 Apr 2009 05:26:58 PDT .
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So. I woke up this morning, cleaned the caravan, put in the new matress (so now I have a bed!) and did everything up. My caravan smells like wild rose, the incense actually captures that real rose fragrance. It clings to all my clothes, my sheets, my curtains, the whole caravan has this lovely subtle rose scent, and when I come out of it, so do I.

I have red curtains over my bedroom section, so that whatever is on the other side of them is a sillhouette. The only light in the caravan is either tea-light candles or the soft rosy glow of my lamp, which has a red bulb. Actually, it's a pretty romantic-feeling little caravan. Rachel says it reminds her of a psychic's office; the little waiting room lounge area, and the red curtains leading into the reading room/bedroom area.

I actually love my caravan. It's beautiful. And with the right music playing, it's probably the most romantic feeling place I've ever been.

Anyway, I went down to Kush Kush today to see Leigh, and see if there was anything I wanted. I want more crystals and candles and things, but the range is slightly limited in regards to what I want. Anyway, I spent probably three hours with her. We had green tea and talked about everything in the world, it was nice. Relaxing.

Then on the ride home, my bike died. I have named it Kurt, because on this day 15 years ago, Kurt Cobain died. I don't know what happened, the gear lever simply snapped clean off the bike! And I don't mean the switches to change the gears on the handlebars, I mean that odd lever thingy on the back wheel, where the chain comes off slightly. Eh it's hard to explain.

Anyway, it snapped clean off and I need to get the whole thing replaced, or get a new bike. Which sucks, because this one was borrowed from my aunt's boyfriend, Ken...

So I walked the rest of the way home, and watched The Craft - it's one of my favorite movies, and I have it on DVD. Two copies; one that works, one that doesn't. After that, I decided to go online, and also tried to write. You'll probably see the miniscule, not-yet-ripe fruits of this writing sooner or later, but I was distracted by that annoying guy from POF, Dylan playing Soul Calibur III two feet to my left, That Seventies Show playing loudly on the other side of the room, etc, etc, etc. If it weren't for talking to Kiersten and Joel, I would've given it up.

Anyway, I was in the middle of doing absolutely nothing when Dylan calls me from the kitchen (to see him, I would just have to look up from my screen) and says "Look what I found."

I looked up...
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There's my cat, Kimmy, who ran away four months ago. The cat I was sure was dead, and had come to terms with the fact that I was never seeing again. There's the companion from the last 11 years of my life, who I had accepted losing. She's fine; and she's home.

I can't put to words how happy I am.

I hope you're all doing well too.

Goodnight, kids.

Xx Ricky.

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