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deviantART: by:exeters-kiss http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:exeters-kiss&section=today deviantART RSS for by:exeters-kiss en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 29 Dec 2009 20:53:47 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png I think the cake is a lie..but I might be wrong http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/28816848/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/28816848/ Mon, 07 Dec 2009 23:28:12 PST btw, the title has nothing to do with anything, its just a random thought I had as i was starting this journal x3

So like, as some people may have noticed, I posted some doodles a while back (a month ago

) and well, that's about all I've done for art since the last time I posted art LOL I mean, I've had a few other doodles and unfinished pieces, but nothing amazing...Oh well, I came up with a OC last night, maybe I'll do something with her, shes pretty epic, Richelle Eyre(very old English name lol), shes part elf, tho she doesn't know yet...yea, I'm working on a story for her, a bit of a background, I'm lame, I'll never do anything with said oc, but I like the idea of having her...yeaaah x3 I think I feel the need to draw now!

So, one of my friends (whose name shall stay unknown) that I met online was(is) obsessed with me, its scareyy, I'm all starting to worry that he's going to come kidnap and rape me, tho I know that's very unlikely, I can't help myself...I'm not going to go into details, but lets just say, HUGE CREEPER!! All my other friends are worried, and well, some of the guys i know want to beat the hell out of him, but I would too if some guy was doing the stuff he was doing to me to one of my friends...I've blocked him and cut off all connections with him, but I'm worried that he will start talking to me again without me knowing if he gets all new accounts on stuff.

I'm doing good with Braden, very happy with him, he's an ass like always, but I love that about him lol and hes sweet when it counts, so alls good, he was gone all November, I missed him so much then, I almost drove Kassie crazy I think lol but he's back now, and I'm happy...tho I did have a huge depression for about two weeks after he was back, but he doesn't know about that x3 hopefully he wont know about it LOL cuz then he would annoy the hell out of me trying to find out why

Kassie has been sickk, I'm really worried about her, I'm not sure whats wrong with her, and neither is she, but I hope shes ok...I would die without that little dork to amuse me lol shes so sweet x3 She's got me hooked on 3Oh!3 too...I'ma shoot her maybe lol I'm singing it without thinking now, and that's not good..BAD KASS

I need to color some art that I made a while back for ~Iloveshaymin her Mango, hopefully I'll get that done soon *hasn't started yet

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Also, new Icon, I got it on gaia, someone made it for me for free...I hope she doesn't mind me using it on here lol She also made my profile on gaia if you want to swing by there and look

Well I'm rambling now, so I'll leave you with a lovely little piece of prose I didn't write LOL and some songs you must listen to

3Oh!3~I Can't Do It Alone
Avenged Sevenfold~Dear God
The New Cities~Dead End Countdown
Deathstars~Death Dies Hard

_{We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love...}

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~exeters-kiss Mwahahaha I am teh best...not lol http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/25846254/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/25846254/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 22:53:06 PDT hahaha, he said I couldn't love him for them, hes asexual right now LOL, meaning he has no interest in girls(or boys so I hear) anyways, he is amazing for those, if you want to see them tellz me lol, and I still love the ones you did for me too Braden <33 I miss DA, I'm still not on here much..tho I have been talking to some peoples here, I'm mainly on gaia (YAY Gaiatards lol)I'm free finally in a week, no more babies to watch X3 << Thats happiness...and wow I sounds different than I used to lol, I'm all, happyish hehe, I was all depressed sounding...Welps, I'm not now, tho some people can still make me go all...Captain Gloom Cloud on them XD and Kassie, I'm still not happy for you send me this song...I can't stop listening...my life is a strange mix of happiness and a blackhole, know what i mean peoples?

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~exeters-kiss So depressed....... http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/24899005/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/24899005/ Fri, 22 May 2009 22:32:07 PDT

Kirara 0% for ~MakoBlackShadow(line art [link])
Moomba 0% for ~MakoBlackShadow(line art [link])

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~exeters-kiss Been So Long... http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/23293135/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/23293135/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 17:05:55 PST So much has happened in my life, so many good and bad things, that I've fallen behind here. I've many devs to go through, but I've managed to keep up with the messages. I'm hoping that I can finish all my projects by the end of the month, but I've doubts on that. I've finally decided(coughbeingforcedcough) to get my drivers license...I think maybe I might like having it. Recently I've been on a Case Closed trip so I might start doing fanart of it, but I'm a bit afraid to do it, I may kill the art...I've truthfully been pretty depressed lately and have had no drive to do anything, the art I put up a few days ago it the first thing I've drawn in forever. I met a guy that was so nice and really liked me, but I only got to see him twice...he was moving when we met, and I'm going to miss him, even if it was only those few hours we knew each other. But I think I may be feeling a bit better now, I've started listening to stuff other than Diary of Dreams and I've started singing again, so I take that as a good sigh. I've wrote a few little poems I may post, though they are depressing, something about the lies being tormenting caverns where the world loses itself in the twists and turns...maybe not...I think I can get back on track soon, and start trying at art again, and beginning my writing but its probably a long time coming...

This is the most lovely, sweetest, sincere song I've ever heard
Monument [link]
I never wrote you a love song
somehow words could not express what I needed to say.
and so I never wrote you a love song
and now its much, much too late 'cause you've gone away
But I will build this monument
to remember all the love we once had
and I'll close my eyes and make it how it used to be
I swear I never stopped loving you with everything I am
and it hurts so much to think you stopped loving me
you stopped loving me...
So I wish I'd had written you a love song
and somehow you understood what it feels to be me
because the Angel loves the sprite forever
and does it unconditionally
But I will build this monument
to remember all the love we once had
and I'll close my eyes and make it how it used to be
I swear I never stopped loving you with everything I am
and it hurts so much to think you stopped loving me
you stopped loving me...

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http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/22016162/ Tue, 16 Dec 2008 15:12:40 PST EDITI was looking at the lyrics of some Cruxshadows song and found this, and thought it very amazing, and true, and it moved me today, even though I've heard the song a million times, it touched me today, reading , like it never has before...this is the best(and complete) song [link] even though it is to kingdom hearts....
Sophia

when life has slipped behind this isolation
cruelty & hatred have become
the cause of those whose eyes are full of wanting
the truth will still abandon none...
so you must carry this light into the darkness
you shall be a star unto the night
you will find hope alive among the hopeless
that is your purpose to this life

the lips draw words
and hands find actions
still there is more within one heart
and to the silence, will you answer?
before the chaos, will you come?

Do not injustice to another
defend the weak & innocent
may truth & honor always guide you
let courage find a life within
Stand up when no one else is willing
act not in anger or in spite
be to this world as a perfect knight
even if it means your life...

here I am,
alive among the injured and the dead
here I am
thy will be done
sancta Sophia
peace is born to your victory
Athena Sophia
how can I hope to live... what I cannot dream?

you cannot map the ways of divinity......
This much is known...
only unto God

and through these doubts
and through your confusion
know that you are chosen to this fight
look to find a soul filled with compassion
look to see see a living source of light

Do not injustice to another
defend the weak & innocent
let truth & honor always guide you
let courage find a life within
Stand up when no one else is willing
act not in hatred or in spite
be to this world as a perfect knight
even if it means your life...

here I am,
alive among the injured and the dead
here I am
thy will be done
sancta Sophia
peace is born to your victory
Athena Sophia
How can I hope to be... what I can't believe...

The human animal is a beautiful and terrible creature,
capable of limitless compassion and unfathomable cruelty.
If you wish to find that which becomes the dividing line between
mankind and other biological classifications, it rests not in
brain size, dominance, or even emotional capability. It lies within
the innate capacity for human beings to reflect on their actions,
and show regret. It is most certainly the ability to empathize that gives
them their position. All mammals understand love and affection, but
only man shows a propensity to place himself into the shoes of
another life-form. Losing this capability, among individuals of the species,
reduces them below their much heralded position,
and readies the climate for the likely fall of man.
A fall from grace.

Do not injustice to another
defend the weak & innocent
let truth & honor always guide you
let courage find a life within
Stand up when no one else is willing
act not in hatred or in spite
be to this world as a perfect knight
even if it means your life...

here I am,
alive among the injured and the dead
here I am
thy will be done
sancta Sophia
peace is born to your victory
Athena Sophia
how can I hope to find what I cannot see?
here I am,
alive among the injured and the dead
here I am
thy will be done
sancta Sophia
peace is born to your victory
Hagia Sophia
How can I hope be, what's inside of me?

I bought the first three of The House of Night Series and I think they're ok, not the best, but Chosen pissed me off, and I want to get Untamed soon so it can fix the horrible ending to the last one...I've bought Christmas for everyone but my Aunty...well I lie I did buy her A book, but I want to get her something else too, but I don't know what...everyone else is covered, even my buddy Pride-nee, I hope you like it...I'm looking forward to some cheesecake...yum...All the cooking is about to begin, fun, not, I hate how much we cook, but well a lot of people come, and it has to happen...I'm working on a pic for Pride, and two for my aunt makoblackshadow, I hope to get them done before x-mas, but I don't think I can, well prides will be done like tomorrow, but Makos I haven't even started...Anyways I hope everyone has a great Christmas! or whatever you celebrate! Happy Holidays!

Angel 100% For * ~exeters-kiss Whats up, and things to be done... http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/21542005/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/21542005/ Tue, 18 Nov 2008 11:30:43 PST :Edit:

My 3000 pageview is coming up, and normally I don't care to much about that kind of crap, but its three thousand and it amazes me that I have that many...I really don't think I deserve that much because there are people with so much better art than me...anyways I think that I need to do something for it so whoever catches it I'll do something really awesome for you, don't know what it'll be, so if there's something you really want tell me! and if no one catches it I'll just do a pic saying thank you...oh and I'm broke so it wont be a subscription or something like that...sorry, but I could give you like gaia gold or something like that on gaiaonline....

SO whats up people....I have a cold thing...it maybe scarlet fever, but it could not be...my older brother got scarlet fever and he came to stay with me....because of his kids. Or I could just have a cold thing...because I watched my nephew and he was sick with a cold...BUT it doesn't really matter were I got it, I just know I don't feel good...

Well lets think anything happen to me recently...oh yeah its a boy...haha bet someone thought I was having a kid for a second...no my aunt is prego and we just found out it was a boy! Gavan Nathaniel Lee is want they think they're going to name him, and I love it! Oh and like a week after they found out my uncle had to go to the hospital and they told him he was so sick it could kill him, and he almost went into surgery, but had to wait a few weeks because of something.....then he went to a doctor that specialized in it and she said it was common in men and could only become serious if he left it alone for along time...so really he is fine, but still needs the surgery....

We found out that what is wrong with my brother heart may be because of how much he has grown...he went from just over 5 feet to 6' 2" in about half a year....

I'm being forced to get my drivers license...I know this may sound odd but I don't wont one...

Still taking requests...

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Kei 100%(maybe, I may color it) for ~Cobyfrog, her OC

If you want to hear Nightwish~Tenth Man Down, here it is [link] One of my most favorite bands ever!

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... ]]> ~exeters-kiss Sorry for never being on here anymore... http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/21224309/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/21224309/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 20:46:08 PDT Hey it would be cool if you drew Darth Vader doing back flips with pancakes stuck all over him ok I probably couldn't draw THAT but you should get my point......so ask and I will try...

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]]> ~exeters-kiss I'm back... http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/21078095/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/21078095/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 11:31:52 PDT maybe one might find its way onto here so yeah, only if some one ask, and that does mean you kyn, someone else....

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]]> ~exeters-kiss Going on a trip... http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/20857687/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/20857687/ Fri, 10 Oct 2008 16:58:18 PDT :EDIT:
Bye loves, hope that I will be better by the end of my trip...I didn't finish the picture I'm doing...DATA CORRUPT Yep sucks...good thing I had just saved it without the layers because it was only my GIMP stuff...So yep, that's it, oh and I love my new poem thing...I wrote it a long time ago but never posted it...

Well I just thought that maybe I should tell you guys that I'm going to hell in a hand basket...ok not hell, but I am going on a trip, vacation thingy...for like a week or so starting the 12th....I'm not sure how its going to go but whatever, I'm going...sorry for not being very active recently, but I've had some very serious artist block, and writing block, and ugh..I've been really depressed too...yeah...I had to get rid of my cat, she was attacking all the little kids that come over so..yeah we couldn't keep her, I miss her so much, she was really a good cat, its just kids made her freak out..Its probably because there was always like 5 around when they came over..and the oldest was 6, so yep..just didn't go to well...my great grandmother went to the hospital, and that freaked me out to..because she's like 96...and I thought maybe she wasn't going to make it but she's fine...my cousin turned 4 September 20 and she had her B-day party at a chuckycheese like place, and my 2 year old nephew fell and ended up getting stitches...yeah all my nieces and nephews, and little cousins were there and all together there was 6 kids ranging from 1 to 6 in age, yes one for eve... ]]> ~exeters-kiss My.....birthday, arrived http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/20291201/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/20291201/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 11:26:28 PDT So my families luck has been doing what it does best today, screwing with us...my uncle is in the hospital, I just knew something was going to happen....and I wanted to put this song up by cruxshadows that is my theme today [link]

Cruxshadows - Birthday Lyrics

Roll out of bed, look in the mirror
And wonder who you are
Another year has come and gone
Today is your birthday
But it might be the last day of your life
What will you do if tomorrow it's all gone?
You won't be young forever
There's only a fraction to the sum
You won't be young forever
Nor will anyone
So...
Look at your life, who do you want to be before you die?
Look at your life, what do you want to do?
Look at your life, who do you want to be before you die?
Look at your life, you haven't got forever
And tell me what really matters
Is it the money and the fame?
Or how many people might eventually know your name?
But maybe you touch one life
And the world becomes a better place to be
Maybe you give their dreams another day
Another chance to be free
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
Look at your life, who do you want to be before you die?
Look at your, what do you want to do?
Look at your life, who do you want to be before you die?
Look at your life, it all comes back to you.

Today is now the dreaded day, though its like one thirtyish right now...but still its the DAY...and i am doing nothing today either...well I'm going to babysit...though it could be fun, its with my 3 year old cousin, and she is a doll in every sense of the word, and is so cute...but thats about it, no party, no cake, I'm going to have it some other time...

<....is the fifth, and I'm going to be 18....and its going to blow. Nothing is going right in my life right now....EVERYTHING possible that could go wrong has....everyone is dying, sick, at the hospital, houses burning down, jimmy stuck in the well kind of crap. My little brother passed out the other day and busted his head open, then we found out something was wrong with his heart, My aunt, not mako, the other one, is having a baby, my mom may be coming around again because of my lil' brothers heart problem, my older brother fell off a cliff, really...he is alive and well, but he broke his ankle, and torn some tendons, and my sister hurt her back, and my great aunt Pearls house burnt down today...so my life sucks, really really bad right now! I'm just waiting for something to happen to me, because that is just the last week and a half, not whats been happening for the last two months, which is filled with crap just like that...I've been the only one not to get it, so my time is soon, and I'm probably going to die or something with my families luck...>

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]]> ~exeters-kiss Need Inspiration !! http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/19941572/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/19941572/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 20:04:13 PDT
On a totally different note The Cruxshadows( [link] ) are starting they're American Tour soon!!! AND I WILL BE 18 SO I CAN GO!!!!!!!!! Yup thats right I will be 18, legal, VERY, very soon! 18 and can go in CLUBS!! So I am totally FREAKING out! So here are all the TEXAS dates for the tour:

OCT 23RD DALLAS, TX @ The Lizard Lounge
OCT 24TH AUSTIN, TX @ ELYSIUM
OCT 25TH HOUSTON, TX @ THE MERIDIAN
OCT 27TH COLLEGE STATION, TX @ SCHOTZI'S

If you have never heard them you should look them up, they are one of my most favorite bands of all time!! I love the song they did for the Where's Neil when you need him C.D.!! Wake the White Queen! It a cd from a lot of different bands and they added one to it and made the already amazing cd astounding!!

So seriously GO LISTEN!!! NOW!!!!

]]> ~exeters-kiss I think Averie is going to be... http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/19648708/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/19648708/ Mon, 28 Jul 2008 19:29:24 PDT

The doctors somehow got her kidneys working again, so I haven't cried in a few days....it seems that because she was throwing up so much, that her kidneys may have been affected by that, that she wasn't keeping food down, her kidneys didn't have a chance to start working again and when she stopped vomiting they were in shock, or at least that is how it was explained to me...but she finally is home though I'm a bit worried still, because they could stop again and because they didn't sew her up or staple her, it was just a glue to keep it closed...it looks like a C-section cut, if you have ever seen one, and really freaked me out when I saw it...She is with her mom and lil' sister now, and hopefully doing ok right now, I haven't had a chance to see her for a day now, so...I don't know how she is at this very moment but I have a feeling she is going to be as ok as she can be. The damage to her kidneys is pretty severe, and she will need to go to a Kidney specialist for the rest of her life...but she is so tough, really, I'm not just saying this because she is my niece, she is so amazing...I wish I got to see her more, but its ok, it just means what I see of her all the more precious!
So I ended up worrying over nothing, she's ok, I looked stupid for crying, the day ends with a stupid looking Steffanie, sitting at her computer, with no finger nails(seriously)! I swear Kyn you would have laughed at me, sitting at the computer, blubbering like a idiot, while I was talking to you, if you could have seen me...

]]> ~exeters-kiss I may be gone for awhile.... http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/19559323/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/19559323/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 17:01:13 PDT
]]> ~exeters-kiss What to do? http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/19501616/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/19501616/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 14:29:44 PDT SO I wanted to ask what to do to it, so what do you think. Should I just leave it, or cut it, and what to cut it like...If anyone sees anything kind of short and emo, and thinks it looks good could you show me it, or describe it? Or if I should leave it and why. I know this is kinda stupid since some of you don't know what I look like, but I'm torn, and MAYBE if I get it cut I'll put a pic of me up with it!! And I might dye it again, so you could recommend a color for my hair to do, natural is light brown, what it is now is a red-brown color, so yeah if you think of something, or see something, I would kind of like if you gave a opinion!
And I want to get another piercing!! On my ears, I have two, but I want a third and one in the cartilage!! but I think the cartilage one is going to wait, my second ones just got to were I can take them out. I really really want more, but I suck at keeping them cleaned...but I'm going to get them! I want a lip one but I have to wait for my birthday for that, just two months now!

]]> ~exeters-kiss There is something wrong with my avatar!! http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/19265165/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/19265165/ Tue, 08 Jul 2008 00:05:37 PDT
So I got this photoshop thing and am trying my hand at digital coloring for the first time, on Into the Infinite, line art here [link] , and I hope everyone likes it when I'm done, it should be up tomorrow or the next day...I really hope everyone likes it!

]]> ~exeters-kiss Does Anyone Know http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/18982415/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/18982415/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 11:54:14 PDT

Ok now that I'm done with that, does anyone think I should do a new Me? The reason I'm thinking of doing it is because I look so different and someone asked me to. I try to do want people ask, most the time but really what do you think?

Here's mine [link]

And here's the one did for me [link]
I'm really thinking of doing it but I want some impute...

]]> ~exeters-kiss Teh Crazy Bad Accidents http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/18768603/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/18768603/ Tue, 10 Jun 2008 14:44:30 PDT Ok, well, I have been thinking, which is a bad idea if you ask me, and I've been remembering all the crazy freaky accidents I've had in my family. Its a jacked up one anyway, but this is some crazy stuff. I can say nothing to messed up happened to me really, but what did happen is going up here.
First a little info on my family ages, I'm 17, I have 2 older siblings, and a little brother, the eldest is my sister, 26, next is older brother, 24, me,17, little brother, 14. Now most of you probably know this but Mako is my aunt, and she is closer to me than my sister is, she's 22, and I have a uncle 32, all of these people pertain to the following stories, and everyone of these stories are true...
When I was 7 I was on a trampoline with my little brother, and some friends, they were older and all boys, and very rowdy. They were tossing my brother around and somehow he was thrown into my face, my left eye to be exact, I screamed, my sister ran out and freaked, she thought I had been stab in the eye with a stick, one of the boys had thrown a stick off the trampoline as she came out, but it only turned into the worst black eye ever! I had a bruised eye, all of it, it was black, and all my left side of my face was bruised black, so bad that it swelled shut for like three days, and right under the eye it looked like it was scabbed up, it had broke every blood vessel in that side, and the worst part is that my brother only had a tiny bruise..
Ok end of that one, to the next, my fav, this happened right before I was born, and is freaking hilarious, not at the time...My aunt was 5, older brother 7, and uncle was 15,and this all started because of my uncle.
My uncle is a sword, martial arts, ninja nut, he has a black belt in Ty-Quan-Do, and owns more swords than should be legal. My brother copied him in the sword stuff, my mom bought him a samurai at the prime age of 7, SMART, anyways, he was outside one day with it at my grandparents house, hacking at flowers, Mako had been around swords her whole life, didn't think anything when she walked up behind him, then he swung his arms back, and I will say they've told me how he swung and it was more like a golf swing than a sword. The sword hit her in the throat/jaw. She said it felt like being hit in the face. She said she grabbed her face saw the blood and ran inside, past everyone, to the bathroom to get a towel, everyone was freaking out, blood everywhere, and she said it never hurt. She told me she remembered checking to see if it had gone through her cheek, blood was coming out of her mouth, she had bit her cheek. She says she doesnÂt really remember going to the hospital except when she saw it, she asked my Granny if she was going to die, because she was seeing black spots, my granny freaked, saying she wasnÂt going to die. Now take a moment to think of my poor older brother, 7, and heÂs stab his aunt in the neckÂWhen she got to the hospital they got the bleeding to stop, she says she remembers the towel, it had been white, and was dripping blood, asking granny to put her shoes on, that she was cold, and she never felt any pain, I think she was in shock. They stitched her up, told my granny she was luck, the blade had stopped within like 2 millimeters of her jugular. Now this is the best part, my uncle went outside to my brother, he had stayed in the car, still freaking out. My uncle did the meanest thing then, looked my brother in the eye and said,Â SheÂs deadÂ, and my brother almost fainted, face white, and almost throwing up, mortified, and IÂm sure his thoughts were, I killed her, I killed her, over and over. Then my uncle told him she was alive and said what if she had, and that he need to be careful, and all that kinda stuffÂ.Brother is still really careful around Mako to this day.
The next is older brother, lets call him Scott, tired of writing brother, he was about 17, he had gone on a graduation trip to this farm place to go ride four wheelers. He was out riding when his hat flew off, being the idiot the he is, turned to see were it had went, turning the wheel at the same time, driving it straight into a cow fence. Now if you donÂt know what a cow fence is, itÂs a large fence made of barbed wire, lots and lots of barbed wire. It nearly tore his left arm off at the elbow, on his right it cut straight down the middle, like a suicide cut. I will say one good thing about him though, heÂs tough, he was about 2 miles from the house he was staying in, and he walked all the way there, bleeding, arm, just ughÂthen when he got to the house they called a ambulance, when it arrived they wouldnÂt give him any anesthetic, because he was under 18. He had to wait for my dad to show up, and at the time we lived and 30minutes away, and I bet that 30 mins. Sucked for Scott. He still canÂt feel hot and cold in his left arm, and people often think that he has tried to kill himself, and watch him closely.
Now... ]]> ~exeters-kiss What I see.... http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/18352483/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/18352483/ Fri, 16 May 2008 14:04:04 PDT It fell away and nothing moved.
Everyone was gone, yet they wouldn't leave.
I saw myself die ,reaching the the fallen stars, and I just stood by... my soul left so, I remain empty.
I wish the dreams would stop, I can't bare them anymore, I need to sleep.
I want to stop but I keep seeing the world fall, ending every day, I wish to die.
I was lost so long ago that no one could find me, they walk past me everyday and never see me.
If I could stay I would leave and if I should leave I have to stay.
The circle of my ending will go on , and no one sees it.
Why the world doesn't see the end I will never know, I'm just trapped in the between...seeing the end and the now.

To any who read this know it is note a suicide note just me being angsty,like my mood says, I would not do that online if I ever had the urge to do so. I have just been in a rather depressing mood the last couple of days, and the cheerful mood on the last journal was pissing me off.
Ugh.. I really need to JUST sleep, I'm one of those people that don't dream really, but recently I have been and I'm so tried, and the worst part is that the dreams are awful! I keep dreaming people in my family are dieing, and people that know me, in person, will know how that makes me feel. In my family we some times know things, like stuff that will happen or days, and I know that sounds like a lie but it is true, I knew when my sister was having her baby and it was premature by like a month, I told my teacher that I was going to leave early that day cause my sister was going to have her baby. And the day passed out in class I knew something was bad was going to happen. Anyway I'm really freaking out and its making me sleep really bad...I'm so tired.

Any ideas on how to help me sleep is welcome...

]]> ~exeters-kiss Fruits Basket 19 http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/18061232/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/18061232/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 19:32:29 PDT I can not wait for the next one! I will bet money that Torhu and Kyo kiss, or at least admit they like each other!

Sorry to any one who hasn't read it for this just skip-
Can you believe what Kakeru said to Torhu at her Moms funeral! ' You make me sick'
I could have killed him at that moment, I mean it was her Moms funeral!
And Shigure... well wow he was weird this one. He was so mean to Torhu!
Then he said he should find some one like her. It was just weird.
And Momiji was so different! Really hot! He grew up so quick!
- end of spoilers!

I love FB so much it just made me happy, so happy I might draw Ayame, probably not he to hard but I'll try, but I'll draw some one from Fruits Baskets! Maybe Megumi..I love him!

needs lots of love for being awesome, but being sad cause of home and school.
Check her out!
And look for My aunt, she is the greatest CidxVin fanfic writer ever!

]]> ~exeters-kiss Things should just stop messing up!! http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/17798814/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/17798814/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 16:38:10 PDT The weirdest thing is I still feel 16, if that makes sense. I need to do so much stuff and I feel as if I'm floating, I watch the word around me and its moving as it wants but I'm stuck in a currant.
I need to study and I don't, I need to get my license and no one will take me, I need to go see my great grandmothers,and I don't. I just keep doing what other people want me to, I stay at home and watch my nephew, keep house, and read. The only thing that I should be doing that I can control is study and I never have the energy to, and its not because I do a lot either, I'm just mentally tired from everything else.
It seems, to me at least, that every time I'm to the point I want to do everything that I need to do, something bad happens! Some one goes to the hospital, the car brakes, someone is in jail, one of my Aunts or Cousins are sick and I have to help keep things going in general and my finding a job, studying, anything, goes in the corner to collect dust, and it tires me and makes me not care.
I know that sounds bad but its true, I just don't, and if things don't start to stop messing up all the time I could just melt down cause I can't take it.

And to think this all started because I started thinking I was going to be 18 in a few month's.......

]]> ~exeters-kiss Tell me what to draw or write!!! http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/17121405/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/17121405/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 17:34:28 PST
I want to write some Final Fantasy VII fan fiction, like Zack and Cloud, or Cid and Vincent! I'll do other pairs if you want me to, maybe. I don't like Loz, Yazoo, or Kadaj. Or Hojo, and some others. I'll write normal pairings, like girl/boy too, and it doesn't have to be FFVII it can be others or not final fantasy at all.

If you want a drawing you need to make sure I know who your talking about, I'm not all knowing! Also tell me what you want it to look like to! I'm not really good at drawing boys, but I'll try if you want one( they always look like girls dressed as guys or a bad drag queen!)

I'll try to do them all, but if there's a lot or they're hard, I can't promise anything,but that I'll try my hardest!!

]]> ~exeters-kiss I wish I could write! http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/16969959/ http://exeters-kiss.deviantart.com/journal/16969959/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 22:02:04 PST
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