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My mind won't stop
spinning spinning
Never ending ideas
tumbling tumbling
Red rimmed eyes
blinking blinking
Insomnia creeps
dreading dreading
Daylight peeks in
yawning yawning

CSS made by =BloodPromiser ]]> ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/28121940/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/28121940/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 09:36:20 PST
It sucks.

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I could go on and on about the crazy schedule we have as a family this year ... that would be boring.

Instead let me tell you that the trip to Mexico was amazing. Driving to destinations, prior to this occasion, unfamiliar was an enlightening experience. Weathering out an incredible storm with raging winds was one of the highlights. The tent was actually torn apart by the gusts produced by the 'New Zealander' that charged in off the Pacific. The surfers were very pleased with the resulting surf conditions. Our SUV almost got stuck on a salt flat. Quickly the tide had come in and the tidal road had been swamped. What an adventure that was! Thanks to prior conversations with my brother, I remembered how I should maneuver the vehicle to avoid sinking into the salty brine. An 'emo' cow tried to commit suicide on the highway by jumping in front of my car unexpectedly. Just our luck, no one else was on the road. Swerving to miss the depressed beast, we are pretty sure he gave us the finger (hoof) for not running him over. I wonder how many times he had to attempt this game of chicken before he was roadkill? (pause to sigh and remember the sun and warmth)

Now being home we have all had to get back into the swing of schedules. For the first time ever I am using a daytimer to keep track of everyone in the house. A great descriptive for me would be 'Soccer Mom' or maybe 'bus driver'. It is truly crazy.

My grandmother had to go into the hospital and have her heart shocked. The result was an even heart rhythm and her blood pressure falling. Now she doesn't feel lightheaded all the time. Helps to get blood to the brain you know?!?

Off to pretend to sleep. I am on another insomnia cycle. Maybe I will actually post some more of my photos. Who knows...

adios

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Baja Penninsula ... ready or not here I come.

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They have the silliest, stupidest, grossest, most useless stuff imaginable!! IT IS RAD!
I purchased a Royal Mail official uniform shirt, 3 funky rubber monster finger puppets, a couple new pez for my collection. My friend Phil purchased 2 Madlibs, and some insane 1930ish postcards that were made from the covers of "adult" novels. They were hysterical. I believe they have a webpage if you want to know more about them.

To Phil I send best wishes for continued sobriety in his life. I can not wait to see him again. Next time I think we are going to MEXICO! Much better than the rain here...

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I can not wait for him to return.
Exploring my favorite places with him was amazing.
Seeing my city thru his eyes.
Unbelievable.
Everytime I sit down to write about the experience
my head just goes in circles and my stomach does flips.
I feel like an elementary school girl that has discovered
boys don't have cooties.
My heart is always flitting about.
My mind can not focus except on him.
I love the way he kisses,
the way he touches me,
the way his skin smells.

I love him and everything about him

I miss you Silver ... come home soon.

]]> ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/14208369/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/14208369/ Fri, 17 Aug 2007 08:50:06 PDT "Heeey, buddy, pal, best friends of mine..." in a alternative voice you have never heard before?

You just know they are about to ask you for a favor,
A favor you won't want to accept,
A favor you know will consume all your time,
Or worse yet, your money.
You will say "YES" because they are your friend.
Or so you think.

Example:

I have a friend named Phil*. Phil is a charitable guy. He is generous with everything he owns. He will bend over backwards to assist his friends and strangers alike; no matter their needs. People ask, he gives. Phil is a true philanthropist. The trouble with that? Nothing, until a leech appears, and they always do. These parasites have drained Phil of everything he had including his vital principle, his life force. In other words, these greedy jerks have almost killed Phil. These parasites make me ill.

Learning to say no when your character is generous in nature can be very difficult. Denying your assistance to someone can leave you feeling guilty and unfulfilled. Well the hell with that!

I say, what are you gonna do for me in return? Go do it and come back, then I might do the favor you ask of me. I am not going to become Phil! I refuse.

As to Phil, he is currently in rehab recovering from Meth addiction. Those damn leeches aer the ones that brought this devil of a drug into his life. They knew that if he was high they could get more from him. A sad, sad situation. BUT, like I said Phil is now in rehab. He is selling his home. Everything attached to his past life style is being sold, donated, or trashed. He has help to fight a lawsuit being brought up against him (one of the leeches stole his rental car). Another lawsuit concerns a guy he only saw once. The man was supposedly helping instead he stole Phil's identity. See how bad it can get when you think you are helping others out??

Well, I am done ranting about this for the moment. Don't you dare ask me for a damn thing!

*name changed for privacy

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That is a recent conversation I had with a long time internet friend of mine. Everything is all very simple. That is what I told her. I got sick of technology. She was a bit miffed and asked if that included the telephone. My answer was YES. I currently hate my cell phone.

Technology has been ruling my life for the last 10 years. At one point, I would have even considered myself addicted to the internet. Don't get me wrong there are some really great things about technology. Technology has helped to shrink the space between us. Technology has also allowed for the exchange of ideas on a grand scale. The thing is, I am from a time when it could'nt even be imagined that we would be having intense relationships with people we had never met face to face. My brain went absolutly crazy with the constant humming of my processor and ringing of my cell. I had had enough.

I broke up with my computer. I threw my cell phone in a drawer. I even forgot to tell all those online friends of mine that I was leaving for awhile. Honestly, I really didn't care. To some of you this may sound selfish ... and it was. Boy did it feel good. To have an evening that didn't include the tapping of keys or the sudden appearance and headache of the "blue screen of death" was sublime. It was empowering to know that people were leaving me text messages and I didn't care to read them. The whole thing turned out to be one of the best things I have ever done for myself.

Why am I back, you ask? Well, I started to feel bad about ditching those online friends of mine. Selfishness is not one of my normal virtues and it began to make me fidgety .... alright I'll quit with the BS ... Honestly?? I got bored. I came back because I got bored. Sitting at home nothing to do ... so now what??

I broke up with my TV

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Is there a true purpose
Other than self indulgence?
A holiday upheld for centuries,
When taken away, the public
Placed a King back on the throne.
Don't you DARE to take away
Our celebration of greed!
Idealism, puritan pilgrams
Decided they would leave this
Foolishness behind them.
Over 60 years of no celebration.
The public had enough and they
Demanded a calendar be made,
One with HOLIDAYS!
We the people raised our voices,
DON'T FORGET CHRISTMAS!!!

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Well my friend Rowdy I spoke of is safe and sound. His home is gone. It was completely wiped off the planet. He is still missing a few of his close friends and they do not think they will ever find them. Rowdy's outlook on the whole thing is pretty spectacular considering the circumstances. He told me that although he lost his home, he still owned the land that is now under the water. To him that meant he owned the whole ocean. I do not think I will ever understand the great resolve of the southern spirit. It is something we can all learn from.

I miss my own love very much. We have not been able to spend much time together. His life has been going through alot of changes and that has made it tough to do things together. Hopefully we will get more time in the near future.

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My thoughts and prayers are with all those directly involved with this disaster. ]]> ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/6379841/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/6379841/ Wed, 31 Aug 2005 15:47:21 PDT
I am so worried about my friend. He has a home near Barataria Bay. That is where Hurricane Katrina came onland. The center of the eye literally would have passed over his head. I do not have full confidence that he would have evacuated. See they are shrimp fisherman there and care more about their boats then their homes. If they went out on the boats there is a chance they road in on the swell and are in the swamps. There is also a possibility that they went into the swamp and got far enough away from the surge that they were not effected too badly. I wait and pray it is all I can do.

I can not believe that when I went to Baja California Sur, Mexico we were all so excited we had a hurricane headed our way (it turned toward the pacific 300 miles away). See, it increases the swell and makes for fantastic surfing. The devistation on the Gulf Coast has sobered me. I do not think I will ever be excited about a hurricane again.

I suggested to another friend that they call Red Cross and have the mobile unit come to their work for a blood drive. If you are interested in helping out with the blood needs either go to this website RED CROSS BLOOD DONATION or call 1-800-GIVELIFE

My thoughts and prayers are with all those directly involved with this disaster. ]]> ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/6070674/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/6070674/ Fri, 29 Jul 2005 18:51:34 PDT

On Vacation FOREVER!!!!

Most people wouldn't complain, but my computer is down. Therefore, keeping in touch with friends and loved ones has been tough. I miss everyone very much.

I have another week here in California and then I am off to Cabo San Lucas for 2 weeks of surfing. I am looking forward to that. I have not done any surfing since my sister passed away last year. I miss her. I miss the ocean. I know it is the one place in the world I can go to commune with her spirit. Okay that sounded corny, but it is true. I am at total peace when I am out on my board. It allows for my mind to be free and open. I get my best writing ideas while I am surfing.

Hey, silver ... I miss you to death. Wish you were coming with. I would love to show you Cabo and teach you to surf.

Well, mom's calling me for dinner. Talk toyou all again soon.
Huggggggggggs

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I didn't mean to be away from for so long. It just kind of happened. I swear it must have been the . I suppose it is healthy that I have been out and about in the "real world". I turned on my program last night and almost didn't recognize it. Now that is scary. Summer is on it's way and then I will not be online much again. My entire family, from grandma to grandkids and everyone in between, is off to Disneyland for the huge 50th Birthday Bash. The only person not going is my baby sister. She is off to Japan(lucky lil brat).


COMING SOON TO A THEATER NEAR YOU ]]> ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/4649771/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/4649771/ Tue, 22 Feb 2005 23:01:32 PST
Mood: Blah

-sighs-

BLAH ]]> ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/4517349/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/4517349/ Mon, 07 Feb 2005 02:23:37 PST
Mood: Forever Hopeful

Racing around the yard their mouths wide open, heads tipped back. Fierce bursts of laughter heard now and again as someone has tripped and falls face first into a drift. The game in question? Catching snowflakes on your tongue, of course!

Oh to be young again and not feel the cold. ]]> ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3904733/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3904733/ Tue, 23 Nov 2004 21:04:55 PST
Wind blows cold and harsh
Snow threatens to fall
The sun sets
And the world still goes around

My life felt like it stopped
Tears falling again
Sitting alone
And the world still goes around

Be well Zoe ]]> ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3764319/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3764319/ Fri, 05 Nov 2004 22:05:10 PST
Mood: WOW....YAY

Well, I came online and found an awesome suprise. I got my Christmas present early. Now I guess I better start getting my act together and put more of my art up.

Thank you sooooo much Silver!!!! I love you!!!

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We ate lunch at a great pasta bar. The food was outstanding and the owner was really nice. We visited the original Starbucks location and the Fish Throwers in Pike Place Market (a couple local must-sees). We did a quick drive through town while I pointed out differnt sites. All in all it was a good time. ]]> ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3298013/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3298013/ Mon, 06 Sep 2004 06:16:08 PDT
The best way to describe it:
Imagine you have the worst flu ever. Your skin hurts to be touched,even by your clothing. Your muscles ache deeply. Your body can not control simple things like body temperature because of the stress the pain has placed on your system. The worst is not knowing when the pain will lessen, when the flare up will desist.

That is what I deal with daily. When it is at the worst I feel like I am fighting a losing battle. I can hardly even get up out of bed. Holding on to a cup or spoon is almost impossible due to the pain. Even on heavy pain meds (that I can not stand using) I still feel some pain.

Fighting a losing battle...

NO, I can not allow my mind to think that way. The pain takes over if i do. Closing my eyes and concentrating on the pain. Wrapping the pain into an imaginary ball. Throwing that ball out an imaginary window in my mind.

I WILL NOT LOSE THIS BATTLE!! ]]> ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3254216/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3254216/ Tue, 31 Aug 2004 10:23:16 PDT ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3217982/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3217982/ Thu, 26 Aug 2004 14:37:34 PDT
It is still raining. Gloomy and gray is how I would describe this week. Looking at the photos from Mexico makes me long for the sunshine desperatly. Yet when I was there I couldn't wait to return to the cooler temperatures of home. Silly, if you think about it. ]]> ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3203956/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3203956/ Tue, 24 Aug 2004 14:36:33 PDT
The waves were crappy this year. Of course as soon as we were scheduled to leave there was a hurricane off shore with high wave event warnings. PFFT!! That is the story of my life. Never enough time to stay and catch the waves everyone else will be talking about for the next few months. Oh well.

BUT

It wasnt all a bust....i did get a tan(kinda), danced on tabletops(okay just one tabletop), stode outside under the fullmoon in my underware(with clothes on over the top), umm and alotta other stuff too.

Mexico is awesome! ]]> ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3060737/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3060737/ Fri, 06 Aug 2004 20:18:25 PDT
"The water is coming from over there." DUHH!!

Anyone could see where the water was coming from. We had a 5 ft. wide foot and half deep river flowing through the back fence from the site behind us. If idiots just left wetlands alone then things like this wouldnt happen.

-sneezes- ]]> ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3049544/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3049544/ Thu, 05 Aug 2004 13:10:31 PDT ~eyesonstarshine http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3031723/ http://eyesonstarshine.deviantart.com/journal/3031723/ Tue, 03 Aug 2004 01:55:26 PDT
MY DAD WAS THE BEST DAD IN THE WHOLE WORLD!!! ]]> ~eyesonstarshine