http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:fadedjade27&section=today deviantART RSS for by:fadedjade27 en-us Copyright 2010, deviantART.com Fri, 01 Jan 2010 02:26:46 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/29031838/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/29031838/ Sat, 19 Dec 2009 02:47:32 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Have you ever been through something with someone that was so strange, and so unexpected, that you just assumed the person must be crazy? And then, years later, you find out the reasoning behind their actions and it all suddenly seems so obvious, that you're not sure how you missed it for so long?

It's a weird opening, I know, but hear me out.

James and I started dating in our sophomore year of high school. Actually, we kept our relationship a secret for several months because we weren't sure how our friends would handle two gay kids getting involved in a heterosexual relationship (it's called the Kinsey scale, yo), and wanted to make sure that we would be in for more than just a fling before we set off the drama-bomb that was sure to (and certainly did) ensue. One girl in particular who we were both close to took it especially hard, though neither of us had any idea why. Because, yes, we lied about being in a relationship, but that relates back to you how, exactly? Anyway. This girl sat us down one day, after ignoring us for a couple of weeks, and said that she would be "willing to forgive us", if and only if we stopped dating. No, actually, that's not how she worded it, exactly. She said that we could continue to date, but that if she saw us so much as holding hands around her she would "spray us with a squirt bottle" until we acted like just friends once more. If we followed these rules, we could be friends with her.

Um, what?

Needless to say, that was the end of our friendship with this chick. Our basic train of thought was sorry, sweetie, but you are not a member of our relationship, and therefore have no place to tell us how to behave around each other.

So, as you can imagine, I've kind of thought she was a crazy bitch since then. I knew she left high school before I did, though I'm not sure if she actually graduated or what happened, exactly, but other than that I hadn't heard anything about her since.

Until a few nights ago, when I was hanging out with James at Ian and AJ (who is legally changing his name to Emmit, so Emmit he shall now be)'s place during our weekly "the boys kill zombies (play LFD2) while Katy plays on the computer and laughs at them, and occasionally Gleeks out with Emmit" session. J and Emmit were playing Left For Dead 2, and Ian and I were talking about, well, I have no idea what. I don't know how she got brought up, and I had totally forgotten that Ian even KNEW this girl, though now that I think about it I have pictures of them together from the time. I mentioned how our friendship had ended abruptly once she found out that James and I were dating, and how I never really had figured out what her problem had been. To which Ian responded...

"You didn't know? She was totally in love with him! It was too hard for her to see you two together- she just couldn't handle it."

UM, WHAT?

It's like the light bulb suddenly turning on almost four years late. How obvious is that?! You'd better color me clueless, because I had no freaking idea.

Even more shocking was the news that she is now married, and "might have a kid". WHAT?

It amazes me that ANYONE we went to high school with could possibly be responsible enough to have a baby. Or be married. Because come on, now! Really?!

Anyway, I just felt the need to share that little revelation. I'm still a bit shocked.

Okay. Now, it's back to watching Glee (I'm obsessed, NEGL) and working on Emmit's super-special-super-secret birthday present. Which is going to be FREAKING AWESOME, by the way. I can't mention what it is on here because I don't know if Em still checks his dA at all (I really don't- I haven't been on since October, at least), but I'll definitely post a picture once it's finished. It's going to be AMAZING.

If he doesn't like it, I'll simultaneously cry and explode. I've spent over 20 hours just PLANNING the freaking thing.

I really, really like big super-special-super-secret projects, by the way. I just haven't thought of anything to do for James lately, and then Ian's mom told me that Emmit's birthday was coming up and I got the idea to... Well, you'll see.

I hope you're all doing well. I had a horrible fall term, resulting in my switching my major back to psychology, and so I'm excited about winter term because there is no way that it can't be a million times better. Love y'all to death!

Katy



=fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/28056400/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/28056400/ Sat, 31 Oct 2009 00:44:36 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Buenos noches! Haven't been around since I moved into my dorm- totally weird. Anyhow, I thought I'd pop by and see how things were going here...

Living in the dorms has been... How shall I put this... A FREAKING NIGHTMARE. It suuuuuuucks and I seriously can't believe I'll be stuck there for another 7+ months. I can't even tell you how bad it is. My window faces the football field, which would be cool if I enjoyed sports at all, but such is not the case. So, I'm woken up as early as 5 in the morning when football practice starts. And when there's no football practice, I'm woken up by 7 when they start construction directly below my 3rd story window. Something about putting in new steam pipes throughout campus. Lots of banging and screeching and yelling, and on more than one occasion I've woken up with the legitimate belief that we were being bombed. Then there's the bathroom situation. I never realized what a luxury it was not to have to get dressed to go to the bathroom. Not to mention not having to straddle the toilet to close the stall door, or not having pee leak out the bottom of the bowl and onto your shoes. And, for those of you who have your own bathrooms, please know how lucky you are not to have to wear flip-flops in the shower. What's even better is that PSU decided to install low-flow shower heads to "conserve water", which means that not only do I have to literally bend over backward to reach the shower head in the first place, but then I have to comb shampoo/conditioner out of my hair section by section because there is no more than a trickle of water coming out at any given time. Other exciting aspects to dorm life include not having hot water in my room (so I have to do my dishes in a sink that is not only a full foot shorter than I need to comfortably wash dishes- and I'm only 5'5, mind you- and is too small to actually fit my plates under the faucet, meaning that I have to swirl the water around in a skillful maneuver designed to rid the things of soap, but also has only water so cold that it numbs my hands), needing to make sure not ever to leave the fire escape window open or else the local homeless population will climb in and "harass us" (nobody will tell us exactly what that means), and getting to listen to the fire alarm in the empty room across the hall go off for a solid five hours before anyone finally goes in and turns it off.

Oh, and did I mention that last weekend, when I was coming back from work with my arms full of groceries (it's a two block walk from the parking garage, though admittedly that's generally not bad), I'd forgotten that they were turning my building into A HAUNTED HOUSE for the night, so I wouldn't have been able to actually get to my room without walking through the entire setup (after paying an entrance fee), arms full of aforementioned groceries, and then just hoping that nobody would claim that I wasn't allowed into the area of the building with my room? Needless to say, I went back to my car and slept at my mom's house that night.

Basically, I'm paying $600+ a month to live in a 118 sq foot room with no hot water and no bathroom to speak of, being woken up consistently before 7 AM, with no option of backing out.

And, I'm pretty sure that my radiator is haunted.

________________________________________ ____________________


Okay. I had to get that out.

Because, as shitty as the entire situation is, it's really nice that my longest commute is the 7 minute walk from my dorm room to my Spanish classroom. Seriously.

I've been staying at home on the weekends, at least on nights before I have to work. That's where I am now. It's nice to get away.

James has spent the night a couple of times, but the bed is so freaking small that we both wake up with cramping necks and arms in the morning from having to contort to fit on the bed. Actually, *I've* woken up with cramping arms and such (mainly neck/shoulder from sleeping on my side)- James really isn't able to sleep at all. Which is why he's only stayed over twice- once because we thought it would be fun and domestic and couple-y, and the second time because we were watching The Office way too late and I was too tired to drive him home.

I'm failing Chemistry miserably, and I'm not doing much better in Biology, either. I'm doing wonderfully in Spanish even though I feel like I'm constantly behind, and I'm the teacher's pet in Family Studies, if only because I'm the only one who will actually talk during discussions- which is really frustrating, because I don't like talking during discussions generally, but it just gets so freaking awkward with her standing there after having asked a question which nobody feels the need to even... ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/27156380/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/27156380/ Fri, 11 Sep 2009 18:25:28 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I made the mistake of neglecting dA for a couple of weeks and now I have several hundred deviations and way too many comments to sort through, haha. In addition to my addiction with Twitter, I've become addicted to GoogleReader, tracking the RSS feeds of my favorite blogs (180 of them total), and haven't been remembering to check other sites. I do have =ShiftingWaterz's photo stream linked to the reader, which has been pretty sweet, but otherwise I haven't been keeping up on dA artists' work.

In the midst of working a ton and moving (I move into the dorms into a week, if all goes as planned, and we're putting the house on the market around the same time so life has been CRAZY), I've decided that I finally want to start the blog I've always talked about and never actually set up. I already own the domain name, have paid for the webspace, have installed Wordpress, and have created a dummy banner for the time-being. Now I just need a name (because "Katy's Blog" is SO not going to cut it).

I've been inspired by the GoogleReader RSS feeds (I mainly follow local artists and craftsters), as well as the ADORABLE/HILARIOUS/FABULOUS book Julie and Julia by Julie Powell, and have decided to finally just DO IT.

Julie and Julia, by the way, is the book Julie Powell wrote after deciding to start a blog called the Julie/Julia Project, where over the course of one year she decided to cook her way through every recipe in Julia Child's "Mastering the Fine Art of French Cooking"... Julie is absolutely hilarious, and although the book IS about cooking, it's totally non-cook friendly. I don't cook, and neither did she, at the start of the project. I can't descibe how/why it's so good, but it is. Her sense of humor comes through in the pages, and her relationship with her husband is very similar to the relationship J and I have. It's like reading a letter from your best friend- very personable.

Anyway. I'm writing this because I need to come up with a name for my blog.

I'm going through some of my favorite books for ideas.

The list:

From The Realm of Possibility by David Levithan:
Words in the Margins
How Precarious

From ,Said The Shotgun to the Head by Saul Williams
Moon Marked and Sun Sparked
The Gradual Process of Crystallization
The Moon's Imagination
I've Made It Up (but it shall be, from now on)
Subject to Seasons
Extended Parentheses

From Oryx and Crake by Margaret Atwood
Hanging Onto the Words

Various Vintage Book Titles:
Word Attack
The Eskimos Knew
How To Make A Miniature Zoo


Other Odds and Ends:
Something To Do With Eskimos
Suspect Happenings
City Skies and Power Lines
Never Quite Like This
Tiny Interesting Choices (from XKCD.com)
Making Up the Future (from XKCD.com)


Random words I could possibly come up with a title from bc I love them:
Knit/Knitting/Knits
Stitching/Cross-Stitch(ing)
Craft/Crafting
Polaroid/Camera/Photography/Photo/Film
List(s)
Clothespins
Tea
Lavender/Lavandula
Herbs
Science
Cells
Clockwork
Vintage/Indie
Brains
Psychology
Astrology (Cancer/Libra Rising/Leo Moon)
Nerd/Geekiness
College/Youth




OH MY GOD THERE ARE SO MANY CHOICES. PLEASE HELP.


EDIT: I've started to strike things out as I decide against them.








-July 25th: Work @ Al's, 11-4
-July 26th: Work @ Al's, 10-6
-July 29th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-July 29th: Ditty Bops Concert
-July 25th: J and I have been together for 3.5 years <3
-Sept 19th: Move-In Day @ PSU

___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/26807209/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/26807209/ Mon, 24 Aug 2009 22:21:31 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Hey y'all! Just checking in briefly. Things are good, working a lot, excited about moving out in September. Kimber's visiting my grandmother in Missouri- has been gone 3 weeks and won't be back for another week yet. Mom and Kem's uber-messy divorce is certainly making life interesting. Things are going to be fine, though.

If you haven't seen District 9 yet, go see it. It's incredible. Funny people was decent, but not great. Can't wait to see The Time-Traveler's Wife (the book was incredible), 9 ([link]), and Surrogates ([link]). Movies have been really good this year!

I've been watching NCIS constantly lately. It's fun to have a new show to enjoy with so many episodes I haven't seen.

Next year's going to be crazy- going to school 5 days a week- taking 17 credits (spanish, chemistry, biology, multiple labs, and sophomore inquiry courses), and working most saturdays and sundays. It'll definitely be a new adventure.

Hope things are going well for all of you. Talk to you later, loves.








-July 25th: Work @ Al's, 11-4
-July 26th: Work @ Al's, 10-6
-July 29th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-July 29th: Ditty Bops Concert
-July 25th: J and I have been together for 3.5 years <3
-Sept 19th: Move-In Day @ PSU

___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/26089166/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/26089166/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 14:25:26 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Have y'all played with the portfolio builder yet? It's actually pretty cool!








-July 25th: Work @ Al's, 11-4
-July 26th: Work @ Al's, 10-6
-July 29th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-July 29th: Ditty Bops Concert
-July 25th: J and I have been together for 3.5 years <3
-Sept 19th: Move-In Day @ PSU

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]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/26035606/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/26035606/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 23:10:56 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Next year I'll be living in a 188 square foot (about 10.8 feet either direction) sleeper on the third floor of Montgomery. I'm excited and nervous and it is just not going to come soon enough. I'm making endless lists in order to fight off any sense of panic. I can't wait to go shopping!

Seriously, though. It's going to be fucking tiny.

But I can have J over for SLEEPOVERSSSSSSS.

3.5 years. It's about time he was able to spend the night. Damn.

PS, I owe the library $60 and I don't know why.








-June 13th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 14th: Work @ Al's, 10-6
-June 16th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 18th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 20th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 24th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 25th: J and I have been together for 41 months <3
-June 25th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 26th: I turn 19!
-June 27th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 28th: Work @ Al's, 6-9 (?)
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]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25642484/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25642484/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 01:44:53 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

When we first started dating, James would always dab some of his cologne- this delicious, androgynous stuff with a ridiculous name- onto a jacket or sweater before he let me borrow it. And because I was fifteen, and too young or too innocent or too smitten to realize, it didn't dawn on me that that was why anything from him smelled so good. And to this day, I occasionally find myself clinging to that oblivious, lovesick belief that my boyfriend just really does smell that good.


Today was a good day.








-June 13th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 14th: Work @ Al's, 10-6
-June 16th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 18th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 20th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 24th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 25th: J and I have been together for 41 months <3
-June 25th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 26th: I turn 19!
-June 27th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 28th: Work @ Al's, 6-9 (?)
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]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25476302/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25476302/ Mon, 22 Jun 2009 14:40:41 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

So, do you know what's REALLY frustrating? The fact that Mike (who shall be M from here on out) is telling J all of these wonderfully juicy tidbits about his time with the Smashing Pumpkins (he got back today from a 2-week excursion of sorts), and some of it is just SO GOOD that if I talked about it, NO ONE WOULD BELIEVE ME.



I'll have to try with at least one thing, though, because it made my day.



So, apparently one day M was showing Billy Corgan a youtube video- some spoof interview mocking the band Creed- and as M is going on about how awful Creed is, Billy calls over the band's manager, showing him the video as well. M continues to say, "GOD, Creed sucks," or something to that extent.

M did not know that the Pumpkins manager is also the manager for Creed. Billy, however, was kind enough to point this little fact out to him.

And as M is backpeddling, the manager sighs, and says, "God, Creed sucks."




I was delighted to hear that.


Anyhow, I'm finally managing to set up my website, though for now I'm focusing on the blog aspect-
www . katyreid . com / blog (link)


I've also made a google calender with all of the events I was talking about in the last post- (link)

I'm pretty excited about a lot of them. Especially the free rooftop movies showing on the top of a parking garage downtown. Sweet.

My mood thing still won't load.

Have anyone else's allergies been especially horrible these past few days? I feel like I'm going to die.








-June 13th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 14th: Work @ Al's, 10-6
-June 16th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 18th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 20th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 24th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 25th: J and I have been together for 41 months <3
-June 25th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 26th: I turn 19!
-June 27th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 28th: Work @ Al's, 6-9 (?)
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]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25445623/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25445623/ Sun, 21 Jun 2009 01:42:52 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

My wonderful boyfriend has spent the past few days ensuring that my breakdown will not happen. I'm shocked- I was pretty sure that tomorrow would be the end of my sanity, but after two wonderful and relaxing days, I think it's been diffused. He's the only person who's ever been able to bring me back from that edge, and I love him for it.

After explaining how uncomfortable I am in my own skin at this point, and how I'm itching for a change, wanting something different, something exciting, AND realizing that we are both broke, we've come up with a plan.

We're going to go on as many cheap dates around the Pacific NW as we can. I've done some research, and I'm shocked at how many free concerts there are, and cheap films on rooftops downtown, and all kinds of things that cost less than $10 a person and are all-ages.

If anyone has any suggestions regarding inexpensive but fun activities around PDX, let me know- I'd love to hear them.



PS- why hasn't the "mood" thing been loading lately? Is it just me? I'm feeling rather relaxed/content/loved- not at all uneasy.



EDIT: Have any of you ever gone to the Rocky Horror shows at the Clinton? I'd love to go, but it seems a little intimidating. Will probably drag J along and check it out, anyway.








-June 13th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 14th: Work @ Al's, 10-6
-June 16th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 18th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 20th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 24th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 25th: J and I have been together for 41 months <3
-June 25th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 26th: I turn 19!
-June 27th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 28th: Work @ Al's, 6-9 (?)
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]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25405550/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25405550/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 23:08:28 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I'm fairly certain that if I manage to push it back tonight, my nervous breakdown will occur in approximately t - 3 days.

I'm trying everything I can to avoid it. I can feel it creeping up on me. I swear to god, it's a physical sensation. I want to crawl out of my skin.

I'm telling myself that 11 PM is NOT the time to go for a walk or a drive. Especially not on winding country roads. Maybe tomorrow.




I just had a terrifying moment of clarity. One of those moments where you feel like someone dumped ice water all over you, and you realize, what if I don't want this to be forever? And now I'm shaking and trying so hard to push it back, to push it out of my thoughts, to stop being so fucking insane. It's a good situation. It's a wonderful situation. So why am I questioning it now?

I need to get out of my head.

I just need a fucking distraction.



I will not let this happen tonight.








-June 13th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 14th: Work @ Al's, 10-6
-June 16th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 18th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 20th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 24th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 25th: J and I have been together for 41 months <3
-June 25th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 26th: I turn 19!
-June 27th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 28th: Work @ Al's, 6-9 (?)
___________________________________

]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25317556/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25317556/ Sun, 14 Jun 2009 21:01:56 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Um, okay, I don't know if any of you know this, but I have horrible memory issues (if I were in a movie, about 10 years from now I would find out that as a small child I was kidnapped and horribly abused in some way and have split personalities and that's why everything is blocked out).

Anyway, I found a really, really old online journal from my freshman year in high school- on a website that I forgot even existed. And honestly, it's like reading something that happened to someone else. There are references to things that I don't remember, and people I don't think I ever knew.

So, if anyone who knew me back then knows anything about the following, please let me know. I'm trying to piece a few things together and it would be a great help.


1) Was I involved with someone in April, 2005? A boy? There's an entry where I've obviously been hurt by someone, and mention to how I should have listened to my friends' advice about staying away. Something about how I insisted that everyone is good on the inside, and how that bit me in the ass. I'm at a total loss, because as far as I know my first boyfriend wasn't around until the middle of sophomore year... And the reference was definitely about a male, which makes things more confusing...

2) Taylor, did you suffer some kind of head injury in April or May of 2005? There's mention of it, and it sounds familiar...



Those are pretty much it. I guess it goes back much farther than I originally thought, and in general it's just like, truly disturbing that I don't remember even a little bit about so many things... There are references to so many things, and I feel like I'm going to become the subject of some bad Lifetime movie in the years to come.

Anyway.








-June 13th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 14th: Work @ Al's, 10-6
-June 16th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 18th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 20th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 24th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 25th: J and I have been together for 41 months <3
-June 25th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 26th: I turn 19!
-June 27th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 28th: Work @ Al's, 6-9 (?)
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]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25281859/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25281859/ Fri, 12 Jun 2009 21:50:09 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

You'd think that by now I'd put two and two together, and realize that whenever I start to frequently update my journal on dA, it's pretty much a signal that a major and irrational bout of depression is on its way.

I'm not sure why, that's just what happens.

It just hit.

I'm trying to be all zen about it.

We'll see how that works.








-June 13th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 14th: Work @ Al's, 10-6
-June 16th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 18th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 20th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 24th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 25th: J and I have been together for 41 months <3
-June 25th: Work @ Al's, 11-7:30
-June 26th: I turn 19!
-June 27th: Work @ Al's, 9-5
-June 28th: Work @ Al's, 6-9 (?)
___________________________________

]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25280783/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25280783/ Fri, 12 Jun 2009 20:37:07 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

That, my dears, is the sound of 14-year-olds around the world who just found out that Adam Lambert is supposedly "Bi-Curious".

20/20 is nonstop amusement for me right now.

Because, you know, claiming to be "bicurious" on national television ONLY happens when you're REALLY SEROIUS about it, not when you're, you know, trying to keep a handle on your preteen fanbase.

It's the kind of thing you say, and then go home and laugh with your partner about. "Oh man, did you see? They ate that shit up!"


Basically, I was just directed toward the 20/20 website, and was met with all kinds of hilarity.

First, there's the picture of a serious looking young man, with the caption: "Neil Lambert: I knew Adam was gay "the moment I knew what the word gay was.""

When you play the video, he's laughing as he says it, but in the picture it is OH SO SERIOUS.


Then, next to this picture, there is a list of other clips that you can watch. Among them is a video with the following caption: "Lambert on Wild Rolling Stone Shoot; American Idol star discusses moment of fear: 'There's a python on my crotch.'"

Which, by the way, is my new favorite phrase. Ever. I can't wait to use it in casual conversation.

There are also various captions about "AI star dishes about fashion and being gay", because, you know, that's just totally something to dish about.

I'm going to start using the phrase "dish" when talking about really inappropriate subjects, by the way.



Honestly, what I find more interesting than anything else is the fact that everyone seems so caught up and interested in proclaiming to the world that they "already knew" he was gay. I mean, lord, I'd hope so! It's not like he's tried to hide it. He's lived as an openly gay man for years, and has quite the career performing at various caberets and gay bars around Cali, so it's not like this is some deep "personal hardship and self-discovery" bullshit.

So why, despite all this, is his sexuality so huge of a deal? I must admit, if American Idol wasn't such a homophobic show, the whole ordeal wouldn't be getting so much press now- people could move on and talk about things that really matter.



BTW- I'm not one of those "ZOMG HE LOST B/C OF THE HOMOPHOBES!!!!1!11!!" kids. I've watched all the clips, and I think Kris Allen has a much more mainstream appeal, and the kid has quite the voice on him as well, so I don't really think that Lambert's sexuality had anything to do with that portion of the show. I do, on the other hand, believe that it is incredibly homophobic for a show to state in its contract that you may not discuss your sexuality while you are a contestant. Unless, of course, you're straight. Then, go for it.

Lambert says that AI did not make him stay quiet about his sexuality, and I totally understand his reasoning behind keeping quiet. He's the only Idol star, though, that has made this claim. Several gay contestants from past seasons have all made claims that they were contractually bound to keep quiet. I guess we can always hope that this has changed, but still...


I know I've posted a lot on here the past few days. Let's just call it a phase.



PS- the 20/20 special comes on at 10 PM, if anyone is interested. From what I hear, their new favorite phrase seems to be "lone wolf".

And, go listen to Sometime Around Midnight by the Airborne Toxic Event.













http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25274962/ Fri, 12 Jun 2009 14:31:59 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

1) I've found a webhost, and will hopefully have my site up soon! Still playing around with ideas.

2) I'm loving the Airborne Toxic Event song "Sometime Around Midnight"

3) When did dA get rid of the desktop background section on userpages? Am I completely missing it?

4) Adam Lambert is going to be on 20/20 tonight. I'm more excited about that than I should be.

5) I'm pretty sure that my generally aweful taste in music is a form of rebellion against J, a self-proclaimed hipster and EXTREME music snob. There's just nothing better than the look on his face as I bounce around in the car singing along to Hot N Cold. Good times.

6) I'm forcing myself to start drinking tea, and it turns out that it's not that I've never liked tea itself, just that I haven't liked the weak-ass crap that I've always been served. Really strong tea is delicious. Still not sure if I like black teas, though. So far I'm drinking mixes of different green/herbal teas.

7) I definitely just downloaded the latest Britney Spears cd. Trust me, my shame is infinite. But that's not going to stop me from dancing around to Circus and If You Seek Amy when nobody is home. ...yeah.

8) I should be trying to make Gnocchi tonight, but I'm a little intimidated.





















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]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25261249/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25261249/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 19:23:53 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I just wrote out a whole entry, and decided to not go through with it.

Instead, I will just say this:

I currently have my first fangirlish obsession since Freshman year in high school, and for whatever reason, the subject is Adam Lambert.

I didn't watch a single episode of American Idol. For some reason, though, apparently all it takes for me to develop a crush on a guy is to know that he is gay.

Hmph.

Worked out as far as J is concerned, anyway <3

Anyway, for the first time in 4 (5?) years I find myself watching clips and "squee"ing.

Especially this one- ([link])

That is all.



OH and I've decided that I want an aquamarine wedding ring.





















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]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25239556/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25239556/ Wed, 10 Jun 2009 16:21:38 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

1) My toe hurts again. I've at least recognized that it's not the toe so much as the bones in the ball of my foot. Either way, ouch.

2) Mike's new gig has finally been announced at least semi-officially, with the result being that my boyfie's butt has a 9 second cameo on the Smashing Pumpkins website ([link]). I've been trying to get him to throw out those jeans for, oh, 14 months now?

3) Economics and Sociology finals are finished. Cyborg is almost done. Still working on the website. Here's the link, though it'll continue to be updated throughout the night as I don't actually have the text for spring term or the final reflection written/up yet: ([link])

4) Learning to use Dreamweaver makes me want to put KatyReid dot Com to good use. Currently it's just linked to my flickr. I love that I have the kind of father who thought to purchase and continue to pay for my own personal domain name when the whole "internet" thing started, haha.

5) Trying to decide if I should renew my dA subscription myself, or ask for it as a birthday present... I can't handle not having one, haha. I'm going to be 19 in 16 days! Not sure what (if anything) I'm doing yet. Probably the usual- going out to dinner and a movie with Jamie.

6) I totally want to go see Rent when it comes to town, but just found out about it last night, so everything is waaay past sold out.

7) I think there's a bee hive in a tree in our backyard. I can hear the buzzing.

8) I didn't watch any of American Idol, but watching some of the videos I'm developing a bit of a crush on Mr. Lambert.

9) Not to mention that I have a big ol' nerd crush on US budget director Peter Orszag. Don't know why.

10) Okay. Really should be working on my final.





















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]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25152369/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/25152369/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 22:04:01 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

In the past month I've sold 6 journals and 3 pinback buttons, for a total of $80. Minus shipping, but still. When you consider that I'd made all these items in my spare time and really didn't have to put much effort into them recently, it works out to be a pretty good deal.

Turned in my english final on Wednesday. 20+ photographs of a set I put together. A few are here on dA, though I think the ones posted here weren't edited to the fullest extent yet... I can't remember. Anyway, it was a hit, and I was glad that I printed them all out and bound them as a book instead of just showing the online versions. I always feel like photographs look different when you can hold them in your hands. My prof wants to put me in touch with the author who wrote the story that my clockwork man was inspired by. He's won all sorts of awards and whatnot, and so I was very surprised when she told me that he would love to see the photos and all that.

Have I mentioned that this is the same professor who tells us stories about partying with Chuck Palahniuk and Gus Van Sant? She's pretty awesome.

I'm just putting off working on my homework. There's a lot.

Apparently I made the Dean's list. Too bad it won't happen again this term, haha.

I watched He's Just Not That Into You tonight. Bleh. Wasn't fond of it at all. I thought it would be funny, but it was just... sad.

I've translated a lengthy XKCD quote to turn into another morse code necklace. I've been wearing the one I made last year a lot, and I'm worried that it's going to break soon. So, time to make another. I've already translated it into morse code, and then into letters that will correspond to the beads. I'll refrain from making some comment about transcription and translation here.

If I were an enzyme, I would be DNA helicase so I could unzip your genes.

Hoping and praying that I get into on-campus housing next year. No word yet.

So much to do.





















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]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/24993875/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/24993875/ Thu, 28 May 2009 08:53:25 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Monday
9:00-10:05 Chemistry
11:30-12:35 Biology
1:00-3:50 Biology Lab

Tuesday
8:00-9:50 Spanish
12:30-1:45 UNST - Family Studies
3:00-3:50 UNST - Mentor Session

Wednesday
9:00-10:05 Chemistry
11:30-12:35 Biology
2:00-4:50 Chemistry Lab

Thursday
8:00-9:50 Spanish
12:30-1:45 UNST - Family Studies

Friday
9:00-10:05 Chemistry
11:30-12:35 Biology




18 credits. Originally I had it planned out to be finished by 1:00 every day of the week, but the University Studies courses I wanted to take were full, and I had to move things around from there. Family Studies was like, 5th or 6th on the list of what I wanted to take, but everything else was full. It'll still be interesting, though, I'm sure.


The only way this schedule is not going to kill me = I'm going to be living on campus (on my own, w/o a roommate), and can just go back to my room and sleep during those hours-long breaks. Still though, hopefully I can keep it up.


Now, I'm going back to bed. I've been up since 6:30 trying to register every 10 minutes because I didn't know tha it opened at 8.





















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]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/24813854/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/24813854/ Sun, 17 May 2009 22:05:28 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

It's amazing how quickly things can all be turned upside down.

A week ago my mom saw a divorce lawyer for the first time, trying to check out her options. She realized that she didn't have the money to file.

Five days ago we realized that my stepdad had opened up a secret checking account and put all the money we have into it. He and my mom had a confrontation about it, and he left.

Three days ago my stepdad called one morning to let us know that he was on his way over with a moving van to "collect his things." He showed up with a U-Haul and took just about everything. All the furniture from our living room, dining room, kitchen area, my mom's bedroom, and our guest room. And then he was gone.

James came over and helped my mom and I try to pick up the pieces. We've collected enough mismatched furniture to fill in the spaces, but we don't know what happens next.

We don't know when the power will go out. We don't know when the house will go into foreclosure. We don't know anything, and it's terrifying.

Mom doesn't have a job. She's been looking for months, but with no luck. We have nothing but the child support checks that my dad gives us every couple of weeks, which is barely enough to pay for food, let alone the house payments.

When the divorce is finalized, my stepdad will have to pay alimony, but we don't even have enough to file at this point.

It needed to happen. I'm glad it's happened. We just didn't think it would be so sudden.

Wish me luck. It's going to be a rough couple of months.





















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]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/24611954/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/24611954/ Wed, 06 May 2009 02:19:22 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Posting to say I'm still alive.

And to avoid working on these dreadful midterm papers. Both due tomorrow (today). 3-4 pages each. Not even through writing the first page of the first one.

Topic 1:
Contrast the post-cyberpunk of William’s “Daddy’s World”, Sawyer’s “Shed Skin,” and/or Lavin’s “Reaching the Shore” with the cyberpunk of the earlier days such as Gibson’s Neuromancer. What about these global futures and mindscans potentially make them post or not? (Here feel free to concentrate on depicting the virtual of these worlds if you’d like.) In what ways are even cybercultural perceptions rewired and the shared obsession with “uploading consciousness” overturned or not, in your substantiated opinion? Select at least two stories to focus your analysis on.

Topic 2:
Jess Nevins argues that at least the first generation of steampunk writers were reacting against the "clean and simple worlds of Edisonades...a propagandist genre, beating its drums for America, geographical expansion, for manifest destiny, for the theft of other people's (single and plural) property. The boy inventor is no rebel or outsider; he is what capitalism approves of and validates, the robber baron in larval form." Select at least three stories in this collection to speak to this concern and analyze in what way or not they manage to "overgoe" the Edisonade dime novel.


I have to admit, if they weren't due tomorrow they'd be really fun to write. This term so far has been fascinating, with the first half focusing on Steampunk (a genre of science fiction writing that deals with technological advancement, set in the Victorian era), and several projects in the near future that will be fun. The first is a film essay dealing with film adaptations of comic books (hopefully I'll be able to write mine on Watchmen, but if not I'll write about Unbreakable), and the second is a catchall "Creative Project". Basically, we make any kind of artistic/creative piece that deals in some way with any of the topics we've covered throughout the year. One thing I'm thinking about is using a project that James and I have started into the piece for the class. We're both in love with the Steampunk aesthetic, and have decided that with my design ability / general creativity and his technical skills, we can turn his 1963 Gibson Melody Maker (guitar) into a Steampunk Masterpiece. I've already combined multiple images to create a basic representation of his exact guitar in Photoshop, and have been using different layers to play around with design options. We're both really excited about it.

For those of you who don't know what the hell I'm talking about when I mention the "steampunk aesthetic", here are some examples:



=fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23942201/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23942201/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 22:02:11 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I can't begin to express how fucking pissed off I get when people think they can post whatever they damn well please on this site. I'm not even talking about unfinished work, or things that don't suite my own personal taste, or even randomly naked women, for that matter. I'm talking specifically about GIF or other clips stolen from television shows or viral videos, and then posted as if it's the user's own work.

One user in particular has posted 14 stolen clips in the past 24 hours, one of which already has nearly 600 favorites and is on the front page. I've reported all of them to the admins- something I do every time I see a stolen clip on the site- so they probably won't be up for long. I do have to give the Powers That Be a round of applause for always responding so quickly (usually within an hour) to reports of stolen art.

But really people, use the site correctly, just once?



















___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23823846/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23823846/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 00:22:06 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Here is a copy of the email I just sent Frank Warren from PostSecret, regarding this (link) postcard.

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Frank, after years of reading PostSecret, this is the first time I have felt the need to write in about a secret posted this week.


Depression is the result of a chemical imbalance in the brain- an imbalance that can be readjusted in order for you to live a happier life with the proper medication. Antidepressants make me feel anything but emotionless, and they have improved my life in so many ways. I have been on antidepressants for more than five years, and can tell a remarkable difference in my mood and outlook on life between when I am on the medication and during brief periods I've stopped taking it.


Being on antidepressants has given me the desire and ability to follow my own dreams, and to love both myself and others. I still feel a very full range of emotions- in fact, I am quite an emotional person in both positive and negative ways. What antidepressants have done for me is help me see that positive aspects of life do exist, and that when I do have hard times I am not alone, and have the power to overcome them.



Antidepressants do not and should not make you happy all the time, or emotionless, but should instead allow you to have a better and more accurate perception of the world. However, finding the appropriate type of medication as well as the appropriate dosage for you is crucial to acheive this outcome.


Even on the PostSecret community chatboards, a number of people are writing in about how they too feel numb, emotionless, and miserable on antidepressants, and it breaks my heart. People see antidepressants as some miracle medication that will instantly have you on top of the world, from the first instant that you take it, but it is not as simple as that.


I would love for you to post all or part of this message, because people need to know that if they are on antidepressants and feel numb as a result, they need to talk to their doctors immediately. There are many medications that you can try, and some of them will not work the way they should- that is why it is crucial to communicate openly with your physician, in order to stay healthy and achieve the right type and dosage of medication. No one should have to live their lives without emotion, and the alternative does not have to be feeling depressed all the time.


Best Wishes,

Katy Reid

Portland, Oregon

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http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23581669/ Sat, 07 Mar 2009 20:24:26 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Guys, I have such issues. Seriously, I'm eighteen years old, and not only do I have almost constant back pain, but I have arthritis.

At first, it was just in my fingers. Started last year, and it was about six months before I finally went to the doctor and had it confirmed as being arthritis. I was told to come back instantly for blood work if it ever spread, because it could be rheumatoid arthritis (which is crippling). Originally it was in my right index finger, and I've worried about any pain in my other fingers since then. I just realized today, though, that it's spread. Not to my fingers, or wrists, but to my toe.

It sounds bizarre, and funny, and whatever else, but I really do think that it's spread to my right big toe. It's been severely painful to move it for the past month or so (which makes walking, and even driving SUCK), and it didn't occur to me until today that it could be arthritis- and sure enough, when I googled "arthritis in toe" I came up with a bazillion hits about how the joint where the big toe attaches to the rest of the foot is a very common site to develop arthritis.

So, it's time to go in for blood work. Which is a huge fear for me, and I'm totally not looking forward to it, but I'm going to try to act like a responsible adult and call and schedule it tomorrow anyway.

In other news, I signed up for Sociology 200, Economics 202 (macro), Calculus I, and my UNST classes. 17 credits total- I'm going to be busy, but I only still go 3 days a week- 10am to 6:30pm Mondays and Wednesdays, and 12:45-1:50 on Fridays. I'm already looking at which 3 SINQ courses I'll take next year. I'm definitely doing the Popular Culture course, the Sexualities course, and then I've narrowed it down to four choices for the last one: Archaeology, Science in the Liberal Arts, Family Studies, or Freedom Privacy and Technology. After taking the 3 courses in Sophomore year, you go into a cluster in your junior year that relates to the SINQ course you liked most, and take 3 courses within that cluster.

Cool things = english class focusing on Philip K Dick (from pop culture cluster), Cryptography (in freedom/privacy/technology cluster),and Pacific Northwest Prehistory (archaeology cluster).


Also, I have new hair! Well, the same hair, but in a different form, I suppose. I got about 6 inches cut off, got layers on all the rest, and then finally dyed it red (it was so dark that it looks like a medium brown more than anything else, but it's definitely red in certain lights, haha). I'll post pictures soon.

Still loving Twitter ([link]). Have a huge research paper due wednesday (and math homework), and a paper as well as a website that needs to be mostly finished by monday.

Work tomorrow. Homework for the rest of tonight.

Didn't there used to be a "busy" mood? I can't find it.

Love y'all!













http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23443754/ Sat, 28 Feb 2009 02:05:03 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Twitter has sufficiently occupied my time as of late, keeping me from my constant posts here. I love it- so much fun!


Last weekend James and I realized that WE ONLY LIVE AN HOUR FROM THE BEACH (hour and a half, whatever), and took a mini-road trip down to Seaside. It was awesome to just get in the car and go. We only stayed for a couple of hours, didn't actually touch the sand, but we had a great time shopping and walking along the boardwalk. We've decided to try to take trips like that at least once a month. Good times.


Had my second round of midterms this week. I thought I'd failed both of them (math and psych), as I didn't study even a little bit for Psych and couldn't keep any of the information straight for math. I'm pretty sure that I really did fail the math midterm, but I found out today that I got a 90% on my psych test. I guess that's the plus side of having learned all the information before, haha. Except, I just realized that I can't remember the psych teacher's name at BHS. And when I try to remember what she looked like, I just remember someone who looked vaguely like Sarah Palin. We didn't know who Sarah Palin was at the time, of course, but that's what I remember. Barrett! I had to look it up.


I got to my car today after I finished classes and realized that I'd forgotten to lock it. Everything was fine, but I had this overwhelming fear that someone had put a dead body in my trunk while I was gone. I found myself going over in my head what I would do when I opened my trunk and found it. Call the police, don't touch anything, remember when I left my car and when I got back to establish some sort of timeframe... It was all I could do not to pull over on the side of the road just to check.

Don't know what it was all about, but of course when I checked there was nothing. Seriously, though, it was bizarre.


Next term my schedule will probably be as follows:

10-10:50 Mentor (UNST)
11-12:15 Main (UNST)
12:45-1:50 Sociology 200
2-3:50 Macro Economics
4:40-6:30 Statistics 243

All of the classes except for Sociology are only on Mondays and Wednesdays. Sociology is M/W/F.

I'm planning on taking Stats 244 over the summer- it would be monday through thursday from 6 to 8:20 pm, but the entire course would only be 4 weeks long. It would basically mean that I could be through with the basic psychology pre-reqs by the beginning of Fall '09. Or I could try to catch up on taking a science course over the summer, but I would need to go for the whole summer, and I don't know that I could manage going EVERY DAY to the same classes, all of which are only offered in the mornings, in addition to trying to maintain a job. At least with the evening course for statistics I can still work all day at Al's.



Loving Dollhouse, by the way. First episode sucked, but the last two have been good.

Going to bed. Hope all is well. Love.

07/20-08/14 18:00-20:20 MTWR













=fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23271883/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23271883/ Wed, 18 Feb 2009 13:38:34 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I am in love with Twitter. As Ana Marie Cox said, "I find the 140-character limit of Twitter reassuringly confining."

It makes it difficult to rant. It's like a blog made up of Facebook's status lines. It's wonderful.

Everyone should have one.

(www.twitter.com/kmreid)



I also love that I can follow musicians, actors, politians, news correspondents, etc. I'm following Demitri Martin, Rainn Wilson, Colin Meloy, Ana Marie Cox, Felicia Day, as well as a number of crazy-assed republican politians and a number of people from "real life."


Enough with the twitter love.


I'm sitting in Psych 200, learning once again about classical and operant conditioning, positive and negative reinforcements and punishments, etc. I got an hour of sleep last night because I was working on a group project, and now I just want to go to sleep.

I have to stay after today though. I'm going to an info session because I'm thinking about applying to be an orientation leader next year. You get paid something like $1400 if you stick with the full program, which is pretty sweet.

Hope all is well with you guys.

Love!



















___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23205352/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23205352/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 21:19:00 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

So, I'm going through the index of a book on genetics and homosexuality for my research paper, when suddenly I see "Extraterrestrial perspectives on human sexuality, pg 63."


It's actually there. But instead of the exciting and exclusive martian tell-all I was expecting, all it is is the author saying "If extraterrestrials were to come to the earth, I bet they'd be wondering about the same things we are."

I was rather disappointed.



In other news, here are 3 videos that you should watch:


David After the Dentist ([link]) - I've watched this at least 10 times today, and it still makes me laugh so hard I cry. "And now I... I... I have two fingers."


Cats on a Treadmill ([link])


Waldo Caught On Tape! ([link])



The other two are nothing compared to David, but still.

Oh man. Good times.



















___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23165431/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23165431/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 22:16:13 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Can I just say that the new feature that lets us hide our header/footer when writing a new journal entry is AWESOME? Just noticed that... Now all we need is a spell-checker.

I should be working on my 10 page research paper on whether homosexuality has a genetic component, and what implications such a component would have for the gay community, but at this point the introduction to Genetic Secrets: Protecting Privacy and Confidentiality in the Genetic Era looked like a blur of DNA's, G's, T's, C's, A's and the like. I decided it was time for a break.

It's nearing my favorite part of the term: the time to choose next term's classes. I get so excited about it, it's a bit ridiculous. It was always my favorite part of high school, too- the possibilities seemed endless.

Anyway, since my math classes and psychology classes are both over (each were two-term courses), and I need to make sure I'm not signing up for part 1 of a course that will have to resume in the fall, I'm going to take things that I normally wouldn't think about taking. Either because they are fun, or are just not like me.

I'm thinking about the following:


Soc 200 - Introduction to Sociology
Sociological concepts and perspectives concerning human groups; includes attention to socialization, culture, institutions, stratification, and societies. Consideration of fundamental concepts and research methodology.

WS 101/399 - Introduction to Women’s Studies
A survey and critical analysis of the essential issues of feminism and their effects on women’s lives. Topics include: marriage, family, education, justice and reform, health care, sexuality, political and economic status. Focuses on present realities and future possibilities. An introduction to the interdisciplinary field of women’s studies.

Phl 201 - Introduction to Philosophy
General introduction to philosophy. While different instructors will use different materials, typically classical texts, attention will be given to what makes a question a philosophical question and the nature and methods of philosophical inquiry.

AJ 200 - Criminology and Criminal Justice
An introduction and overview of the criminology and criminal justice major designed to provide students with an understanding of law, crime, and the criminal justice system in America. Examines the law's proactive function in teaching people how to live peacefully within their communities and the law’s reactive function in sanctioning criminal behavior. Includes an introduction to various theories of crime causation and an overview of the criminal justice system and its response in processing those who transgress the law.

Ec 201 - Principles of Economics (Micro)
study of the market system, involving the essentials of demand and supply analysis; competition and monopoly; labor; public policy towards business; the distribution of income; international trade and commercial policy; comparative advantage, tariffs, and quotas.



I was also looking into Introduction to Archaeology and Intro to Communication Design for Non-Art Majors, but they only occur at the same time as my university studies class. It's also already looking like I'll have to go at least 4 days a week next term, which sucks as I've loved my 3 day a week schedule, both for the obvious reasons of not having to go to school as often, as well as the fact that it's saved me gas money and saved me a ton on parking.


Wait... No... If I take Intro to Sociology and either Intro to Philosophy or Intro to Women's Studies, I would only need to go on M/W/F... But the courses I really wanted to take were Economics and Criminology... BUT if I take the 8 AM mentor session instead of the 10 AM, I can still take Economics.

Decisions, decisions.


I have a first draft of a 10 page paper, plus a 4 page paper, plus a ton of math homework and possibly another 2 page paper due on Monday. I've already called and gotten out of work on Saturday to give myself more time, but I'm still freaked out. Wish me luck!











=fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23094581/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23094581/ Mon, 09 Feb 2009 01:02:44 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

First, let me just say that I'm a reality tv junkie. Just throwing it out there. So, I don't know if y'all get the science channel or not (I just realized today that we got it), but if you do you should definitely record "Searching for Sanity"- it's an hour long documentary that's really interesting, and I think it has great reality tv potential.


Basically: ten "volunteers" are chosen, five of which have known psychological conditions (OCD, depression, eating disorders, etc) and have been treated for such conditions, and five people who are healthy. A group of "specialists" observe them for one week while they take part in certain activities that are known to bring out symptoms of the diseases. Here's the catch: the specialists don't know who is healthy and who is not! There's this whole great bit where the announcer declares that "in less than 48 hours, these specialists will have to come face-to-face with two volunteers and tell them that they think they are mentally ill."


Take that concept, replace the terms "volunteers" with "contestants" and "specialists" with "judges", drag the process out for longer than a week and throw in some prize money for whoever keeps their secret the longest. I'd watch it! I imagine it being like a mix between Big Brother, Biggest Loser, and America's Next Top Model. All of the intensity of ten people being forced to live together with no outside connections, paired with the emotionality of Biggest Loser, and all the craziness of Tyra Banks, who of course would have to be involved in the show in some way. Personally, I'm thinking contestant.



The actual documentary is really interesting, though- it's all about where you draw the line between sanity and insanity, and how people can overcome their problems. Good stuff.


But I still think my version would be better.



















___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23086978/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23086978/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 16:29:27 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Hey guys, I need to get at least 5 more responses to this survey by tomorrow for my english class, and I would really appreciate your (and your roommate/sibling/significant other/imaginary friend's) help! If you'd please either respond as a comment or send me a message with your responses, it would help me out immensely.



NANOTECHNOLOGY SURVEY (UNST 182C)

Age:
Sex:


1) Do you believe that molecular manufacturing is inevitable?
a. Yes
b. No


2) Research has shown that nanoparticles, used in sunscreen and cosmetics, among other things, may be able to absorb into our skin. Because of the potential risks associated with this, should companies be required to label products containing nanoparticles?
a. Yes
b. No


3) Who should regulate the medical and health standards of nanotechnology and its production?
a. Government
b. Corporations
c. An International Organization
d. Other


4) The grey goo scenario proposes that the apocalypse will come when microscopic robots run rampant while self-replicating and consuming all matter on earth. To avoid this scenario, do you think that the creation of “free-foraging, self-replicating pseudo-organisms” should be banned, as is suggested by the Foresight Institute of Nanotechnology?
a. Yes
b. No


5) Who do you think should regulate environmental laws relating to nanotechnology’s production?
a. Government
b. Corporations
c. An International Organization
d. Other


6) The use of stem cells in the medical field is already providing health benefits. However, with another 10 to 15 years of development, nanotechnology could provide such benefits in a much more precise fashion. Which should we be investing more money researching?
a. Stem Cells
b. Nanotechnology


7) Should more money be invested in researching bottom-up nanotechnology (the construction of larger machines or devices using atoms and molecules) or top-down nanotechnology (building smaller materials using larger devices such as tools or lasers)?
a. Bottom-Up
b. Top-Down
c. Both





Thank you so much!
Katy



















___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23011646/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/23011646/ Wed, 04 Feb 2009 21:30:37 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Have y'all ever seen Deep Blue Sea? I watched two minutes of it today and it's my new favorite movie. Here's basically what it's about: super-intelligent sharks trying to take over the world. Or something like that.

Some crazy genius implanted human brain tissue into the brains of sharks, and because this makes all kinds of biological sense, the sharks become super-intelligent. The part I saw had a bunch of people in a room, and there's water up to their waists, and all of a sudden a door behind them opens (the door knob is above water level, mind you), and then closes. THE SHARKS KNOW HOW TO OPEN DOORS. WITH THEIR MINDS. So, all of these people are trying to figure out how to get out of this underwater sub thing, and who steps forward but SAMUEL L FREAKING JACKSON, and says, "Unless someone's got a better idea [UBER DRAMATIC PAUSE], we're going to have to swim out of here."

I just want him to say, at some point, "I have had it with these mother-fucking sharks in this mother-fucking submarine!" Or something like that.

I can't wait until I can see the whole thing. But I don't know that I want to ruin the perfect version of it that has been playing in my head all day.



I'm making brownies. They smell good.

I've taped over my webcam. Fringe freaked me out last week, and there is no way people are going to spy on me through my own computer, damnit.

Midterms were crazy. The psych one was one of those tests that are so intense that you walk away in a daze and begin questioning your existence. I'm still not sure how I did. I got an %85 on my math midterm, though, which was cool.


My dad spent 5 hours in the hospital yesterday. He had chest pains all day yesterday and finally called the advice nurse who told him to go straight to the emergency room. They gave him an EKG, x-rays (to see if his lung had collapsed- it's happened 3 or 4 times in his life already), blood tests to see if he had had a heart attack... Everything was negative, they sent him home with pain pills, and he's still not better today. I'm concerned, but think that things will be okay.


Hope all is well with you guys. Love y'all!



















___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22894248/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22894248/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 20:50:10 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I have two midterms tomorrow- math and psychology. I'm nervous because I rarely do well on math exams, but also because my psych one is really intimidating. Basically, I haven't been paying much attention in my class because it's stuff I've learned a million times before (in psych classes in high school and in my last term, which was actually a level above this term), but now I find out that this guy models his test questions after the SAT.

Here's a sample question that he gave us:

Which one of the following is NOT a true statement about Cartesian dualism?
A) Dualism is one solution to the mind-body problem.
B) Dualism theorizes that the body is a deterministic, organic machine.
C) Dualism theorizes that the mind is non-deterministic, and is seperate from the body.
D) Dualism theorizes that the mind is a subjective experience caused by the physical brain.
E) Dualism theorizes that the mind and body interact and influence each other.

The answer is D, so far as I can tell, but even though I've even written papers on Dualism I still had to read and re-read the section in the book on the subject, and even now I'm not positive.

Basically, unless you know the information in extreme detail, you will fail. He told us that the average score on one of his tests is a 60%. Now I'm really panicking. He claims to curve the scores, but I'm still freaking about it.


I think I'm going to head to school really early tomorrow and get a few hours of distraction-free studying done. The test isn't until 12:45, so hopefully that will help.



By the way, you should all watch Lost. Don't start with the newest season- watch it from the beginning. AMAZING.

<3



















___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22830205/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22830205/ Mon, 26 Jan 2009 18:11:35 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Yesterday was James and my three year anniversary, and it was wonderful. We're both broke, so it was going to be pretty small- I made him the star wars cross-stitch mentioned earlier, and he cooked me a fabulous dinner. Spicy mac and cheese (though he left out the jalapeño for me so it wasn't actually spicy, haha) and roasted veggies. My dad had sent us a card with $25 in it (how cute is that?), and we were planning on going out for dessert after dinner, but then I realized that we could go see a movie with it instead. So, we left his house just after 7, about ten minutes before the movie started (it was pretty last-minute), and went to see The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, which was INCREDIBLE. It was the perfect date movie, and was so sweet and so sad (but not too sad), and we both loved it. It let out around 10:30, and we had to go by winco to get some groceries and wound up buying a boston cream cake as well (less than $5, man!) and went back to my house to eat it. It wound up being frozen, but we tried to gnaw on it anyway while we watched a few Star Wars specials I had recorded for us. Unfortunately I've only seen Episodes IV and V, so there were a lot of spoilers being thrown around. At one point I just muted it and told him to tell me when the clip was over so everything wouldn't be ruined. It made me excited to see the rest of them, though. I took him home around 1:30 or so, knowing I had to be at class by 10. It was such a great night, there was no stress involved at all, and yeah. Good times.

Unfortunately, I slept through my first two classes, which were actually REALLY IMPORTANT today, so I'm kind of screwed in that regard, but oh well.

I'm having a really hard time writing my thesis statement for my analytical paper. It's about whether there is a genetic component to homosexuality, and if there is, what implications it could have for the gay community. I'm supposed to email it to my thesis to my professor, like, NOW, but it's giving me hell. That's why I needed to be at my first class- we were going to go over them and write them together. Anyway, it should be interesting. I have a feeling that I'm overthinking it.

I'm making awesome progress on my cross-stitched diagram of the brain. I made the pattern myself, and am hoping that it will help me learn the parts of the brain.

I have a math test and a psych test on Friday, so that should be interesting.

Okay, back to my thesis statement. I hope all is going well for y'all!

Katy



PS- why isn't there a "busy" option in the mood selection?

















http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22705658/ Wed, 21 Jan 2009 00:02:40 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!



My cross stitch is done! It took me two days of nonstop work, but it was totally worth it. This was just a picture taken with my webcam, so you can't see the best part, but basically the light sabers are made with shiny string so they glint and change color a bit in the light. It's freaking awesome. I'm going to head out and find a cool frame for it tomorrow, but for now I have a paper to write and a bunch of other homework I've not done that is due first thing in the morning. But again, totally worth it.

Love y'all, have a good night!




Aaaaand Happy Obama Day!



















-December 17th: Fall term grades posted online
-December 18th: Cashier @ Al's, 10-6
-December 19th: Cashier @ Al's, 10-6
-December 20th: Cashier @ Al's, 11-4 (Payday)
-December 21st: Cashier @ Al's, 12-4
-December 24th: Wisdom Teeth Extraction, 7 AM
-December 25th: 2 years, 11 months (<3 Jamie)
-January 5th: Winter Term Begins (Payday)
-January 25th: James and I have been together for 3 years.
___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22681824/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22681824/ Mon, 19 Jan 2009 19:51:05 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

My 3rd anniversary gift for James? (link)

I've never cross-stitched before, but my mom had all of the supplies lying around already. I had to run out to Michael's today to get some cloth, and while I was out I found thread that had iridescent/sparkle-filled strands woven into it. So, of course, I bought the appropriate colors to use for the light-saber beams.

I love the idea of making something that is so traditional into something so... awesome.

I come from a long line of cross-stitchers, and looking through my family's old work is a bit dull. Amazing that they have the patience for it, but still.

My next project will be to put together a pattern and cross-stitch a diagram of the brain. Or a traditional-looking piece with the name of James' band (Moses Smell the Roses) with some musical elements in the background. Or, like, a naked lady or something. I don't know. The possibilities are endless, haha.

Other awesome pieces I considered making:









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The Portal and Mario ones were other ideas for James' anniversary present, while the pacman and cell ones were things I thought were cool. The cell is what gave me the idea to do a brain.

So far on mine, I've completed both light sabers and "Hokey Rel". I can't wait to give it to him! It's the only thing in the course of our entire relationship I've managed to keep secret. All he knows is that it uses the star wars quote (I asked if he'd want something with it, and he was able to tell me not only who said it and in which scene from which movie, but also what was going on in the background and the angle of the camera at the time. Sheesh) and is something I've never done before, which in and of itself confuses the hell out of him as I've done pretty much everything craft-related so far as he knows.

I'm so excited!!! Okay. So, our 3rd anniversary is on Sunday, but I have to admit that I will probably give it to him the moment it is done. I'll post pictures here of it as well.

Okay. I'm going to keep working now. Love y'all!













http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22570861/ Wed, 14 Jan 2009 01:27:33 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I've developed a sudden love of Taylor Swift. Her music is generally the opposite of what I would enjoy, but after seeing her on SNL the other night (with Neil Patrick Harris <3 ), I downloaded both of her albums. I think part of it is my absolute fascination with the idea that someone only a few months older than me could be so successful. Plus, she has home videos where she has a two-way conversation with her cat. And blogs about said cat snoring.

Seeing as how I'm sitting here with Muffin laying on top of my homework right next to me, snoring his little head off, I find the whole thing rather endearing.

I don't know. It's nice to have a change in music, and it's also kind of nice to listen to something that just about everyone I know would turn their noses at.

My boyfriend is the ultimate music snob, and my sister is quickly becoming one in her own way.

Personally? I likes me some Taylor Swift.




It's weird not having Kimber here anymore, though...



















-December 17th: Fall term grades posted online
-December 18th: Cashier @ Al's, 10-6
-December 19th: Cashier @ Al's, 10-6
-December 20th: Cashier @ Al's, 11-4 (Payday)
-December 21st: Cashier @ Al's, 12-4
-December 24th: Wisdom Teeth Extraction, 7 AM
-December 25th: 2 years, 11 months (<3 Jamie)
-January 5th: Winter Term Begins (Payday)
-January 25th: James and I have been together for 3 years.
___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22463124/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22463124/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 01:07:56 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I love being downstairs in the middle of the night, when everyone else is asleep, and the only sounds to be heard are the tickings of various clocks, the rumbled groans of the wind, and the faint, almost inaudible tinks and clanks of the metal and wooden windchimes in the backyard. The stormy weather is incredibly peaceful.



















-December 17th: Fall term grades posted online
-December 18th: Cashier @ Al's, 10-6
-December 19th: Cashier @ Al's, 10-6
-December 20th: Cashier @ Al's, 11-4 (Payday)
-December 21st: Cashier @ Al's, 12-4
-December 24th: Wisdom Teeth Extraction, 7 AM
-December 25th: 2 years, 11 months (<3 Jamie)
-January 5th: Winter Term Begins (Payday)
-January 25th: James and I have been together for 3 years.
___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22199678/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22199678/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 20:50:03 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

If nothing else, the past few years have taught me not to put up with other people's garbage. I will not let other people talk down to me, I will not let them bully me, I will not let them sit on their high horses and berate me for things that they do themselves.

My family believes that because of this I am stubborn, I am impossible to deal with, I am unwilling to compromise. In fact, I am entirely willing to compromise and get along with others, so long as I am treated with decency and respect. But the moment you start making snide, immature remarks about me, I sure as hell will take you down. If that makes it seem like I will not listen to what you have to say, then so be it. But I will not take your shit, especially if you think you can intimidate me into submission.

I've finally learned that I don't have to be weak, be submissive, be afraid of anyone. And I swear to God, I will never be any of those things again.



















-December 17th: Fall term grades posted online
-December 18th: Cashier @ Al's, 10-6
-December 19th: Cashier @ Al's, 10-6
-December 20th: Cashier @ Al's, 11-4 (Payday)
-December 21st: Cashier @ Al's, 12-4
-December 24th: Wisdom Teeth Extraction, 7 AM
-December 25th: 2 years, 11 months (<3 Jamie)
-January 5th: Winter Term Begins (Payday)
-January 25th: James and I have been together for 3 years.
___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22094320/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/22094320/ Sat, 20 Dec 2008 23:38:21 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I've spent the past fifteen minutes reading up on what to expect after having my wisdom teeth out, what food I can eat and all that, and now I just want to cry. I'm freaking out, even though I've been trying really hard to tell myself that it's just a standard medical procedure and all that. But still, I'm a total wuss, so of course I'm scared out of my mind. I get all four out on Christmas Eve (four days from now)...


We got nearly a foot of snow today. It's been absolutely amazing. At one point I went out in my rain boots that come halfway up to my knee, and decided to just jump off from the front porch, definitely not expecting that the boots would totally disappear in the snow and I'd be left with cold, wet feet. It was still great fun, though. I'm tempted to go and build a snowman right now before all of the little kids wreck the snow in the morning, haha. Murphy decided to head out and run around for a bit, and the snow went up past his legs, so he was doing this weird antelope-esque hop all around the deck.


I've made two owls now. The first was a disaster, and looks like something a grandma would make as the stitches were all much too big, but the second was much smaller and much more fun. I still need to sew on the wings and mouth, but here she is with the parts just pinned on:



Her name is Ellie. I attached her eyes too low on the body, but it's too late to fix it as the body is already closed up. She's a Christmas present for my stepmom.

It's stopped snowing for the first time since I woke up this morning.


There's been all kinds of drama around here the past few days. On Wednesday night my stepdad started freaking out at my sister, while she was trying to clean out the catbox of all things, and when my mom stopped him (he's got a reputation of being a bully, so far as I'm concerned), he flipped out and started insulting her parenting. As he's an absentee parent to his own sons who live less than five minutes away, I jumped in to defend her, and things escalated from there. On thursday morning he packed a bag and left, without saying where he was going or when he would be back. This was after my mom had opened up to him two days before, telling him about her fear of abandonment and what it stemmed from and this and that. It was utter bullshit. But, the time that he was gone was the most peaceful the house has been in years. We all sat around watching movies and making cupcakes and crocheting for two days. He was back this morning, and now my sister and I are supposed to be friendly and nice and act like it didn't happen. Whatever. It was nice while it lasted.

I don't think he's a bad guy, really, it's just that he has a nasty habit of taking out his frustrations on the people around him, and in this situation that tends to be my mother, sister and myself. He also has this thing where he can't seem to relax unless everyone else is working. If he sits in front of the tv, he has to know that everyone else is cleaning. I don't know why, but it's really fucking annoying. Especially since he has the next week off, and so do my sister and I.

Oh god, I'm freaking out about my wisdom teeth. I feel like I should eat all the crunchy foods possible before then. I'm eating honey mustard pretzels right now, just for good measure.

Ooh, I love the snow. I took the dog out to go to the bathroom a minute ago, and had to carry her out to the yard, and when I put her down she was up to her neck in snow. She was just a little head floating along the top of the snow.

Okay, I'm going to end things here. I hope all is going well for all of you.











http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21983188/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 15:20:11 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Finals are over, and all is right with the world. Not really, as we're kind of going through a national crisis, but you know what I mean.

The only grade I know so far is for my psychology class- I only missed one question on the test, and got an A in the class overall. Thank god. That's pretty sweet.

I did get a couple of papers back from my english class, though. One was my film analysis of I Am Legend (I compared the themes of light and dark and wrote on how they related in the film with not only good and evil, but heaven and hell, and how Robert Neville (Will Smith) was a Christ-like character in the film. It was pretty sweet, if I do say so myself), and another analysis on a short story called The Byrds. The professor commented on the papers that I obviously knew what I was doing, and that both essays were truly "a pleasure to read". I was absolutley thrilled- I usually do horribly in english classes, have for years, and so to actually be succeeding at one is such a relief. I really do love college so far- I feel like I'm doing well, and I just hope I can keep things up.

So, today's been interesting. I'd heard that it would snow, but didn't expect much, and so I wasn't let down when I woke up at 8 and didn't see a single flake outside. I got ready for work and noticed around 8:22 that it had started to snow. I was out the door by 9:15 for work, not realizing how bad it was at all. I've only been driving for a few months, and have never driven in the snow before, at all. Well, about halfway to work (about a 40 minute drive, usually) things started to go wrong- there were times that I wanted to turn, and Lacey decided that she really would rather keep going straight. There were several red lights that I felt I should stop at, but Lacey felt otherwise. Oh, lord, it was frightening, but at the same time I was excited about it, and couldn't help but think that it was fun. I made it all the way from the Tanasbourne area where my dad lives to the end of Murray at Scholls Ferry, and made it further still off toward the garden center when all of a sudden Lacey decided that she had had enough. I couldn't even move off to the side of the road- she just stopped dead, wheels spinning like mad, and I had to sit there with my blinkers on for a good ten minutes before I was able to break free. Scholls is pretty wide at that point, and there weren't very many people on the road (except, of course, for the 4 other cars and a city bus that were also stuck up ahead of me, though I didn't realize that until after it was too late), so I was finally able to make a big U-turn and head back to Mom's house. I had called work originally to say that I would be late, and they were surprised that I was coming in at all (I really do need the money that much, haha), and then later when I called again they were great, telling me to just go home and stay safe. The head cashier apparently wasn't there yet either, and I called over an hour after she should have gotten there, so that makes me feel better. I got home just fine, and have spent most of the morning taking pictures.

I tried to get Jamie to come over, but he doesn't trust the city bus in the snow. I can't say I blame him- I wouldn't take it either- but still. I'm bored, damnit!

After taking pictures of every pet and plant we have, more or less, I brought out an old bag of random toys and misc. junk and started taking pictures of them, as well. I'd love to go back down to the Infinite Abyss, which is what I did last time we had snow like this, but it's 26 degrees outside and I'm just a bit too cold for that.


My biggest regret right now is that I left my laptop at Dad's house- I didn't want it to sit in my freezing car all day, and didn't trust taking it in with me. Now we don't know when he'll be able to bring Kimber home (he originally was going to bring her home about an hour after I got off work), so I don't know when I'll see my laptop again. I feel so lost without it, haha.

It's not stopped snowing since this morning. Frickin' ranaculus.

I think I'll snuggle in and watch a chick flick. I'm thinking either something with Meg Ryan/Tom Hanks, or something with John Cusak. I haven't seen High Fidelity in awhile...

I wish James lived closer so that we could hang out right now. I'm cold and feel like snuggling, darnit.


I just found out that an old friend of mine, TJ, has been in Iraq for around 3 weeks. I'm kind of horrified about that. I knew he was shipping out soon, but thought it wasn't until after Christmas. Goodness.


I'll never stop being amused at how fascinated the cats are with the snow. They just sit at the windows staring o... ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21841209/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21841209/ Sat, 06 Dec 2008 01:40:38 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I'm working on my final project for English. I've got about four more days to put together a website with reflections and work samples focusing around four areas:

Inquiry and Critical Thinking: "Students will learn various models of inquiry through interdisciplinary curricula- problem-posing, investigating, conceptualizing- in order to become active, self-motivated, and empowered learners."

Communication: "Students will enhance their capacity to communicate in various ways- writing, graphics, numeracy, and other visual and oral means- to collaborate effectively with others in group work, and to be competent in appropriate communication technologies."

The Diversity of Human Experience: "Students will enhance their appreciation for and understanding of the rich complexity of the human experience through the study of differences in ethnic and cultural perspectives, class, race, gender, sexual orientation, and ability."

Ethics and Social Responsibility: "Students will expand their understanding of the impact and value of individuals and their choices on society, both intellectually and socially, through group projects and collaboration in learning communities."


Along with each page (one page for each area, plus the homepage) I want to have some sort of photograph. I've decided to either go with polaroid or non-polaroid images (but not a mix of the two). I really wanted to use "That Thing About Love" ([link]) for the Diversity of Human Experience section, but I wasn't able to really find definite non-polaroid images for the other areas. I've thought about possibly borrowing one of the Alice and Wonderland images from =ShiftingWaterz for one section, but I really hesitate to use someone else's work if I'm going to use any of mine at all. Are you sensing a theme? I'm feeling kind of all-or-nothing with this project. All polaroid, or none. All my photographs, or none. Anyway.

Polaroid-wise. I'm thinking Juxtapose ([link]) for Diversity of Human Experience (socio-economic standing), Read This: Revisited ([link]) for Inquiry and Critical Thinking (okay, this is pretty obvious), Take Your Pick ([link]) for Communication (music being one form of communication we've looked at in the class), and Shell ([link]) for Ethics and Social Responsibility (we'll be looking at alternative forms of energy during our next term).

Comments? Suggestions? I don't know, really.

Oh, and for the opening/homepage image, I've looked through my hundreds (literally) of polaroids, searching for a fairly neutral image, and Farm Lands & Power Lines ([link]) really stands out to me.


I'll keep looking over the next few days. I'm really just not sure at this point.
For now, I'm off to bed. I'm working for the first time since November 1st tomorrow (and the second time since September), and it's probably a good idea for me to get some sleep.

Hope things are going well for all of you.

Love y'all.

Goodnight.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...

=fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21644397/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21644397/ Mon, 24 Nov 2008 09:20:42 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Apparently Portland State has Gender-Neutral Bathrooms, and apparently that's an issue.

Personally, I don't see why it matters if we have gender-neutral bathrooms or not, because when it all comes down to it it's a toilet. Come on. Really.

But, apparently it's an issue for Fred Phelps and his church of crazies. They're the ones who go around picketing the funerals of soldiers who have died at war. They're the ones who went around with signs that read "Thank God for Katrina", saying that God sent Katrina because everyone who lived there were "faggots". Or something along those lines.

Like I said, crazies.

And this morning, they came here. Is it bad that my first thought was "Photo-Op!"? Either way. It was.

They make their money by sueing people who try to attack them at protests. Nice.

Anyway. They came, and PSU had a counter-protest down the street. There were five of them, tops, and easily 100 of us. I didn't actually join the protest, I just walked around with all three of my cameras snapping pictures. I couldn't get any of Phelps' group, as they were facing the highway, but I got some great ones of the PSU kids.

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I'll post them as I edit.


Also this morning, I lost my glasses. They're gone. Nowhere to be found. And I don't have the mony to get new ones. I'm blind as a bat without them, and I feel like a little kid, because even though my mom told me we'd go today and get new ones, my main thought was "But I don't want new ones, I want those ones!" When I realized they were gone I went to my car and cried, haha. I know it's ridiculous, but I freaking LOVED those glasses. Anyway. I almost went home, but I really do just need to stay here. So, I transferred my pictures over to my laptop and now I'm going to start editing. Or maybe watch I Am Legend. I need to write a film analysis essay on it. 4 pages or something like that.

I finished reading A Scanner Darkly last night. That is seriously the weirdest book I've ever read. Trippy to the extreme. I recommend it to anyone and everyone. Classic Philip K Dick. Love him. Maybe now I'll finally finish Tale of the Body Thief. Really though, it's not that great compared to the first 3 in the series. It just drags on and on. Though, the bit where Lestat begs Louis to turn him into a vampire once more and Louis turning him away totally made me cry last night- the whole scene was heartbreaking.

Okay. I've got another hour and 45 minutes to kill before my class starts (my first class of the day was cancelled for the protest, so I've got some extra time), so I'm going to get working.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...


=fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21620675/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21620675/ Sat, 22 Nov 2008 20:03:08 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I was talking to =ShiftingWaterz and her boy Brandon the other day, and somehow we got onto the topic of B's extreme fear of snakes. Now, personally, I adore the things. They're slithery and fun and feel really cool when they're wrapping themselves around your arm and crawling up to your neck. I love them.

But that's not the point. Basically, it got me thinking about what irrational fears I might have. I mean, sure, there are things I'd prefer not to be around, but it doesn't stop me from interacting with them in one way or another. Two examples being that I'm not a huge fan of heights, but I'll still climb up to the top of a parking structure if it means I might get some cool pictures. I also really, really hate needles, but I've tried to give blood in the past because it seems like the right thing to do. I breathe through it, and move on with my day.

I was telling James about the whole snake thing, and initially he tried to get all macho on me, and say it was silly for anyone to be so afraid of anything. Then I reminded him of how he will literally faint at the sight of a needle. It's happened before, he tells the story often, whatever. He tried to defend it, saying that he fainted because of the needle, or something like that, but when it all comes down to it, a needle came into the picture, and he passed out. I mean, the kid won't even come with me to the doctor when I need to get a shot and am nervous, because he refuses to be in the same room as the needle, even if he isn't the target. I'd call that an irrational fear.

So, I kept on thinking, and realized that I didn't think I really had any irrational fears. I mean, I'm really terrified of being assaulted, but it doesn't keep me from parking in the dark basement of the parking garage if I need to, or from going out at night. It's a fear, but I recognize that it's not something that should control me, you know?

Anyway. I thought I was safe. And then I met IT.

Now, this is honestly something that I can say is above and beyond a fear of snakes or needles. Because at least they have some potential of causing you pain.

This monstrosity is the single most terrifying creature I have ever laid eyes on.

I took a picture for you.



It's embarrassing but oh-so-horrific for me. It's a fake bird that my sister came into possession of recently, and put it up on the top corner of her window. I have no idea what caused me to freak out over it, but I can't go into her room without my heartrate increasing and getting the overwhelming urge to cover my eyes and run away.

Let me start by saying that my eyes are bad. Especially in low-light situations, and her room is VERY low-light, I can't make out details of things even across the same room from me. Since the bird is black and is in a shadowy part of an already dark room, it honest-to-god looks real to me. Knowing that it's not makes it horrible. Because I have this HUGE fear that one day, it is going to turn its head and look at me. You know, Toy-Story Style, where all the little toys turn on the kid and come alive and beat the crap out of him or whatever. I'm not even afraid that it's going to fly at me. My only concern is that it will turn its head and just stare at me. Holy crap, it freaks me the hell out.

I'm not even afraid of real birds! I have no problem with them! And I don't think I'm afraid of any random fake bird, either. I think this one in particular is out to get me, damnit, and I don't know why.



Anyway. I just felt the need to share that. James has needles, B's (I even call him B in my head. I don't know why or how that's happened, but it seriously takes me a minute to think about it and remember that his name is Brandon. Weird.) got snakes... And I have a fake crow.

Good lord.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big... ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21574210/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21574210/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 22:09:39 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I'm short on cash, so I'm trying to think of things that I can either get for cheap or can make myself. This year, I'm definitely thinking DVDs- either ones that I buy or rent and then burn copies of, haha. I mean, what?

For James: Firefly- Season 1 (Amazon- $31), possibly along with one of the companion books.

For Dad: Degrassi: The Next Generation- Season 1 (Amazon- $17), along with a starbucks giftcard. Or, burn several seasons for him.


(Yes, my dad watches Degrassi: Next Gen. I'm not sure why, but he fell in love with it recently. The problem is that, though they play a billion episodes a day on tv, they don't play them in any sort of order. Probably due in part to his OCD, he has an episode list that he's printed out and every time he sees an episode, he marks it off the list. He's got it color-coded based on what is currently recorded, etc. I noticed that he hasn't seen any of the first season, soooo... PS- this is why I love my dad.)

For Kimber: I already bought her a Beatles calendar a few months back, and this year she's started a whole "I don't like the consumer-oriented holiday season" thing, so that's probably fine.

For Darlene: The Diving Bell and the Butterfly (Amazon- $19)

For Mom/Kem: I don't know. I never know.


I think that's about it. Darlene's gift is probably the one I'd most likely burn, because good lord that's expensive for one dvd, but I'm not sure. If I can get away with getting Dad and James' gifts for a combined price of under $50, that'd be amazing. But I usually spoil James like mad, mainly in the form of candy and cds and awesome t-shirts, so who knows.


Things are going well. I'm very proud of finishing all my papers on time, and am doing well in school overall. I've got a psych midterm tomorrow and I haven't studied OR done any of the readings, but I think I'll be okay. Our lectures in class go over everything in detail, and I attended a study session yesterday for it. I'll study a bit tonight and for a few hours tomorrow, and I think I'll be good.

Speaking of psychology, get this: Men have testosterone, right? Well, women have a horomone called Oxytocin, or "The Cuddle Horomone", that is released primarily during/after sex. My psych professor made a point to say that it is not the ladies' fault for wanting to cuddle after sex, because damnit, it's biological. I thought that was fanastic. Interestingly enough, just as women have low levels of testosterone, so do men have low levels of oxytocin, and it is released for them especially when watching a live childbirth, which is why it's good to have the daddy in the room when you give birth. It makes them bond with the child or something like that.

Cuddle Horomone... Ha...

Also related to that is the female version of Fight or Flight. I know, right? A female version? What? Well, women and men cope with stress in different ways, based on the testosterone vs oxytocin situation. Men want to either fight a problem or run away from it, whereas women have a tendancy to "Tend or Befriend". Women make social connections, and when under stress they will either reach out to others for help (befriend), or take care of others (tend). Personally, I can definitely see how true that is. I always love to take care of other people, mainly because it really does any stress that I have myself- if I can focus my energies on someone else, then I don't dwell on my own issues.

Anyway. Just thought that was interesting.

Fight or Flight vs Tend or Befriend are not specifically Men vs Women behaviors. As I said before, each of us have both horomones, and a lot of the time which mechanism we use depends on the situation we're in.

Hope all is well with you guys. Love you all.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,... ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21478380/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21478380/ Fri, 14 Nov 2008 00:07:31 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I just watched one of the most incredible movies I've ever seen.

The Diving Bell and the Butterfly.

I got it from Netflix in early September (yes, it's really been sitting around for that long, and I've been paying monthly for it), but never really got around to watching it until tonight.

It's French, subtitled in English, which is part of the reason I never watched it. I decided to turn it on tonight just for the hell of it, and within the first five minutes I was all, "Good lord, this is amazing..."

The movie is based on the autobiography of Elle magazine editor Jean-Dominique Bauby. You may have heard of his situation- he had a stroke, and consequently suffered from "Locked-In Syndrome": he was paralyzed and mute. He dictated the entire book by blinking.

While the story itself is very moving, it's the cinematography that sucked me in. It's filmed almost entirely from his perspective, which has been done before, except that in this movie they did it right. I had chills throughout the film.

The trailer doesn't do it justice ([link]), as it's not nearly as fast-paced as that, but surprisingly enough I didn't get bored at all (usually I CAN NOT sit still through a movie without doing something else, but I was hooked).

So, please try to see it, if you have any interest in filmmaking at all. It's worth it, if not for the story than for the artistic qualities.

I hope all is well.

James has a show on Sunday night at the Satyricon. 7 or 7:30 or something. If any of you want to go, let me know and I'll get you tickets. They're $7 a piece or something, but I think I remember him saying that that gets you a copy of their EP, too. I'm not sure, though.

Okay. Love y'all.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...







=fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21447401/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21447401/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 23:02:45 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

It's probably a bad sign that I start having a panic attack just thinking about my speech tomorrow.

Oh, good lord.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...















Photography:







-November 6th: Work @ Al's, 5 PM - 9 PM (Evening of Lights)

___________________________________ ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21438560/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21438560/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 13:12:37 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I've been going through my old entries (they date back to 2004) in hopes of finding a story to use for my class tomorrow, and I found a quiz that I had taken back in February of '05. I want to take it again so that I can see the differences, so here it goes:

6 Favorite Movies:
1. Across the Universe
2. The Prestige
3. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
4. Moulin Rouge
5. Say Anything
6. You've Got Mail

6 Favorite Bands:
1. The Decemberists
2. Death Cab for Cutie
3. The Dresden Dolls
4. The Barenaked Ladies
5. The Killers
6. Snow Patrol

6 Songs Off Your Current Playlist:
1. Me & Julio Down By the School Yard // Simon & Garfunkel
2. Shores of California // The Dresden Dolls
3. Snakes on a Plane (Acoustic) // Cobra Starship
4. Endless Dark // HIM
5. Devil's Elbow // Tarkio
6. My Alcoholic Friends // The Dresden Dolls

6 Dream Jobs:
1. Therapist
2. Librarian
3. Genetic Counsellor
4. Owner of an Indie Bookstore
5. Elementary School Math Teacher
6. High School Biology Teacher

6 Things Less Than an Arm's Length Away from You:
1. Laptop
2. Cell Phone
3. Diet Dr. Pepper
4. Glasses
5. Remote Control
6. Pen

6 Things You Can't Live Without:
1. Jamie (figuratively)
2. My Family
3. A Good Book
4. Music
5. My Car
6. Television (Yup.)

6 Things in Your Morning Routine
1. Hit the snooze button
2. Take a Shower
3. Go Back to Bed
4. Put On Makeup
5. Get Dressed in Something Clean
6. Run around the house looking for my shoes/scarf/glasses/keys

6 Things on Your Mind Right Now
1. I've got a doctor's appt in a few hours.
2. I want some more quiche.
3. I wish I could find the frog(s) making all that noise.
4. I hope T's doing better today.
5. What in the world is my story going to be?!
6. I really need to charge my iPod.

6 Random Words:
1. Ribbit
2. Muffin
3. Love
4. Empathy
5. Lust
6. Thirst


The original is here: ([link])
Looking over the results, all I can say is that I've mellowed down a LOT. Which is probably a good thing.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...





http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21429567/ Mon, 10 Nov 2008 21:33:54 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

(at the ARCO at 10975 SW Beaverton-Hillsdale Hwy & SW 110th Ave, FYI)

I am completely stuffed with Quiche. Damn, it's good. Y'all should try my quiche sometime- it's fantastic, if I do say so myself. Yum yum.

I've spent the night watching all of the episodes of Man and Wife (a fantastic MTV show- though that seems like a contradiction, I know) that are On Demand, and it's left me in a very good mood.

Mom left town today, to go visit Stacie in Washington. She thinks she'll be there through Friday. Honestly, I think it's for the best right now.

No school tomorrow. Whoo! I have to give an oral presentation on Wednesday, though, meaning that I have to get up and tell a story (between 5 and 10 minutes long) that has happened to me or someone close to me, that is humorous, moving, and related to Cyber Culture. What?! We weren't given any examples, and I don't think it necessarily has to involve cyber culture, but still. What?!

Any ideas? I'm at a loss.

I also have another two papers due next Monday, and some math homework that I have NOT been able to make any progress on. Does anyone know anything about dividing polynomials? Because it's kind of kicking my ass. Same with the Remainder Theorum. Ugh.

So, as you may know, I'm a bit of a web-surfing addict. I like to find new sites, and share them with others. For my own amusement, I went ahead and started a blog ([link]) about what I find. A new site each day. From webcomics to little-known search engines to where to find the cheapest gas in your area or clean any item in your home, I've got it all. I'm excited to get to share them, even it it's only once per day (and I am determined to stick with that). Check it out!

And, as always, my livejournal- ([link])


Anyway. I've somehow managed to figure out how to get all of my classes scheduled on Monday/Wednesday/Friday next term. Sign-ups aren't available yet, but the class schedules are posted so that you can figure it out ahead of time ([link]). I'd be taking my cyborg and its mentor session of course, plus math 112 (the follow-up to my current class), and psych 200 (Psychology as a Natural Science- I'm in Psychology as a Social Science right now). There's a photography class I was looking at, too, but apparently the instructor is very much "Your work has been done before and is horrible and boring!" without offering any kind of constructive criticism. Nope, not really my kind of thing. Plus, that would mean 17 credits. Again, nope.

I hope you're okay, T. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help.

Anyway, I think that's all I have for tonight. Off to watch more tv and get pissed off at my math homework.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...



http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21411168/ Sun, 09 Nov 2008 19:21:56 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I love unconditionally. It's part of why I can't hold grudges. If you mess up, I'm not going to hold it against you. If you make a bad decision, I will support you every step of the way, even if I don't necessarily agree with the choice.

It's hard to realize that hardly anyone else (if anyone else at all) is the same way.


I'm not talking about lovers. I believe that that's a whole different kind of relationship. I think it's easier to forgive a lover than to forgive a friend. I don't know if it should be this way, only that it is.



Honestly. I'm just ready to have someone who supports me.

Is it even possible to have someone- a friend, not a lover- who supports not only the choices you make but at the very least your freedom and ability to make those choices?

It really doesn't seem like it, which kind of kills me.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...















Photography:







-November... ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21403495/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21403495/ Sun, 09 Nov 2008 11:26:53 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Am I wrong for thinking that I would rather be in a relationship with someone who might not have a lot going for them, but who makes me immeasurably happy, than someone who's doing fine for themselves but makes me suicidal and miserable 90% of the time?

According to my mother, yes. Even if she's in the second relationship described.

This will be moved soon.




What gives me hope is that a few weeks ago, my dad told me basically the same thing out of the blue- that it's better to be with someone who treats you well, even if they don't have such a pre-defined future, than someone who knows exactly where they're going in life but is a complete asshole.


I need to get out of here. James has work (which is what started this whole thing), but I feel like going down to Sherwood or North Plains again and getting lost. I might call T and see if she has plans- I'd be a bit worried trying to find the Hideout again by myself, and she's mentioned wanting to go.

Or, I might just dye my hair and enjoy the fact that my door has a lock on it now (stay in here and sleep/play computer games/read/do homework/redecorate).

I'm ready to move out. I might see if it's too late to get a place on campus for winter term.

Anyway.

Am I wrong, though? About what was mentioned before?






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...







=fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21396718/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21396718/ Sat, 08 Nov 2008 22:58:21 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Craaaaaap. I just did something really, really, REALLY stupid.

And I can't talk about it here.

See, this is my problem. I would post on livejournal. BUT, there are two very different groups of friends who read this journal vs read my livejournal.

The people I would be willing to tell these things to are here.

The location I should be writing these things is there.

Ugh.

I'm freaking out. God, I can't believe it.


In other news.

I got turned around on my way home from Haggen tonight, and stumpled across this whole field that I didn't even know existed, so I immediately went and picked up James and brought him out, and we explored. Very awesome.

I still can't believe what an idiot I am. Or how I thought that could possibly end well. Craaaaaap.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...















Photography:







-November 6th: Work @ Al's, 5 PM - 9 PM (Eve... ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21334310/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21334310/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 05:59:58 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Obama won! Woot!

That already feels like it was a million years ago, though, because I haven't slept. At all. For even a second.

It's almost six in the morning, and I've officially pulled my first all-nighter in relation to college homework.

God.

At one point I took a webcam of Murphy, and something happens during the video, and I was showing Kimber and I was laughing so hard I had tears in my eyes before it even got to the point, and then when it happened I went off, and couldn't stop laughing even though it really wasn't that funny, and then when I realized I was crying I started feeling like I wanted to sob, and holy crap I'm losing my mind.

I would just skip classes, but my presentation that I've been up all night working on (and it looks like I spent an hour on it, period, which sucks) is due first thing, and then after that is my midterm, which I have to write right now. It's a four page paper, and I have about two and a half hours to write it. Craaaaaap.

I'm really worried about driving to school. I don't want to have a breakdown or fall asleep halfway there.

I'm definitely NOT one of those people who can just go without sleep. James is, and I envy him for it, but for me, I can barely function if I've had "only" five hours of sleep. I've had zero.

I'm tired. And the muscles in my stomach are sore from laughing so hard. I managed to hold in the crying, as I didn't want Kimber to think I was freaking insane, even though I kind of feel like I am right now.

It's just lack of sleep, though.

How am I going to give a presentation like this?

God.

And I don't have any clean clothes, so I'm going to have to wear a button down shirt that doesn't fit me right, and possibly the same sweater I wore yesterday. Almost definitely the same sweater I wore yesterday, actually. Crap.

I'm exhausted. And hoping that =ShiftingWaterz will come to my rescue and drive me this morning, haha. I'm kind of planning on her not being able to, though, just in case. Seeing as how it's 100% last minute.

Kimber's giving me crap about not taking her to the library yesterday or today. Whatever. I've got to work on my paper.

Love y'all.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...





=fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21307384/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21307384/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 19:37:04 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Yet another reason why I love James:

I somehow talked him into going to the mall with me tonight to pick out a "Business Casual" outfit for the special event at work on Thursday, and the entire time it wasn't even that I asked him to carry the clothes around for me as I shopped, it's that he would not let me carry them myself. At one point I think he had something like two sweaters, six pairs of dress pants, and four shirts, and still not a single freaking complaint.

At one point I said, "Oh man, I'm so freaking lucky to have a boy like you." His reply? "Damn skippy!"

Haha.

I wound up getting a really cute green sweater (for everyday use, not for work), a nice pair of pinstripe-ish slacks, and a blue shirt that's not the cutest thing, but will definitely do the job. The best part was that altogether it was like, $50. Of course, that's not great when you consider how much I'll actually be making that night, but when you consider that most of the other pairs of pants alone I'd looked at were over $80, it suddenly seems much better.

I'm so excited- I got my polaroid film in the mail today! Two packs of ten images each. It cost somewhere around $40 (on Amazon), but I had a $25 gift card so it wasn't that bad. I used my last roll of color film for the Diana+ today, and have another roll or two of black and white. I need to just start getting those developed one at a time. One of these days, haha.

It's amazing how many songs there are that I really don't like normally, but love acoustic versions of. Even the bands aren't my thing, but the acoustic versions are all nice. These include: Cobra Starship // Snakes on a Plane (I'm actually quite obsessed with the acoustic version right now, I LOVE it); Brand New // Jude Law and a Semester Abroad (this one's pretty good); Fall Out Boy // Grand Theft Autumn (another one that I really like); KT Turnstall // Suddenly I See (okay, I like the normal version, but this is fantastic); Panic at the Disco // I Write Sins, Not Tragedies (surprisingly good); The Used // All That I've Got (his voice is really scratchy, but I guess that's the point. I like it anyway.); and finally, possibly most surprising, Taking Back Sunday // Cute Without the 'E' (Cut from the Team)

That last one especially is something I don't think I could handle listening to the real version of, but the acoustic is really, really nice. Not great, but good enough that it's on my main playlist right now. Along with the others listed, of course, and some Kate Nash (the acoustic version of Foundations is much better than the original).

If anybody's interested in hearing any of those, let me know- it would only take about ten seconds to upload them, which is about 1/1000th of the time I'll spend looking for a homework distraction anyway.

I finally posted in my LiveJournal last night. It was weird. And a bit emotional.

Anyway.

I really want to bring my camera to school soon. The Sony, I mean. I might bring it tomorrow, but will most likely wind up bringing the polaroid instead. I don't know. I want to get through the rest of Diana+'s film, too.

Homework, homework, homework. I might try to get to school early tomorrow to work on homework away from distractions. We'll see how that turns out, (I don't have very high hopes, I must admit).

Okay. I should finish my work. Or, part of it.

Anyway. Love you all, hope things are going well, get your butts over to LJ and add me so that I have friends. ( [link] )

Let me know if anybody wants to hear those songs.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doe... ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21291011/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21291011/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 20:25:18 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I promise that one of these days I'll stop updating so much. I will. Really.

But there are two things that I just HAD to share with y'all.

The first involves Livejournal:



Oh man, that little blue box on the bottom cracks me up. "You've only made 1 friend." It's about as sad as the sticker I got when they wouldn't let me give blood- all it said was "I Tried." Complete with the period. It's like, "You're a failure, but just keep on tryin', little buddy!" And I'm not sure why I blurred out Katy S's username, either. It made sense at the time, I guess.

Okay. So now, the ultimate:



His name is Michael Marsh. He's running for Oregon State Treasurer.

Here's his description/statement:

"Occupation: Maintenance
Occupational Background: A variety of jobs
Educational Background: Some College
Prior Governmental Experience: None

America is in danger and Oregon is on the verge of collapse. Leaders of the Democrat and Republican parties with their Ivy League Educations are either incredibly stupid or are deliberately destroying us ... We have entered, voluntarily, into a slave relationship, with our government masters ... Government ... uses our money to hire police and bureaucrats to come into our home with warrants to kidnap our children, steal our property and deprive us of our liberty with no remedy-at-law. ... In 2007 the legislature ... voted to put a toll on every road, bridge, and bike path in Oregon with photo tracking devices."


Yeah, you tell 'em, Marshy! Stupid major-party assholes, what with their "Ivy League Educations" and all, trying to put tolls on bike paths.

I almost want to vote for him. He's like, an SNL skit, but real. I think I'm in love with him, actually. State Treasurer is my only bubble left to fill in, because I'm honestly seriously debating voting for him. Just to keep things interesting.

I'm mostly kidding about voting for him.

I'm also mostly kidding about loving him.

That's it for tonight, loves. I'm pretty sure that once I have... hmm... Four friends on LiveJournal ([link]), I'll stop constantly posting here. Maybe three. We'll see.

Have a good night! Go Marshy!






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...





=fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21285808/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21285808/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 14:58:37 PST Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I'm trying to do my homework, I really am, but instead I just wound up researching what I'm hearing outside of my bedroom window (and have been hearing for the past week or so).



I've found out that they are Pacific Tree Frogs, and that what I'm hearing is their dry-land call (go to this site - [link] - and scroll down to "Land Call" - that's the sound EXACTLY). We have one in our backyard, and the neighbor has one in theirs, and they seem to talk back and forth. Or so I thought, until I read that they are ventriloquists, meaning that they can throw their voices something like twenty feet beyond their actual location. Weird.

Do you see, guys? Do you see why I need a LiveJournal?

I made one ([link]), but as of now my only friend is an ex-bandmate of James'. Not that he's not a good guy, but... Yeah... So for now, I write here. And annoy you all. Sorry.

I love the idea of Kippleization. It's Philip K Dick's Sci-Fi concept from 'Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?' (later made into the movie 'Blade Runner' ).

"Kipple is useless objects, like junk mail or match folders after you use the last match or gum wrappers or yesterday's homeopape. When nobody's around, kipple reproduces itself. For instance, if you go to bed leaving any kipple around your apartment, when you wake up there is twice as much of it. It always gets more and more.

No one can win against kipple, except temporarily and maybe in one spot."

-- Philip K. Dick, Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?

It's like, the useless junk version of entropy. I definitely feel like that's what's happening in my bedroom. And in my purse, for that matter.

Okay. Back to homework.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...





<... ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21271889/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21271889/ Sat, 01 Nov 2008 19:59:15 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I hate leaving depressing journal entries on my main page.

Things are better now.

We drove all the way out to North Plains only to find that the maze was closed. We were both dressed in "it's okay if these get muddy clothes" and neither of us had showered because, well, we planned on getting muddy anyway, so we couldn't really go anywhere, so we just drove. And drove, and drove, and drove. All through the North Plains countryside. It was gorgeous, and I loved it. It was definitely a time when I wished James was into photography, because I kept wanting to pull over and explore (even though all I had was my Diana+), and he didn't like the idea at all. I pulled over once when this sign pointed down a dirt road and said "1800's Cemetary", and it was pretty amazing (but wound up freaking me out because James wouldn't get out of the car- he just locked himself in and shook his head- and then I was wandering around and my thing is that I don't mind cemetaries, but I DO NOT enjoy walking on top of where I know people are buried, so I usually try to be very careful, but not all of the graves were properly marked, as in, I'd look down and realize that I was standing on top of a crumbling marker, and so I wound up running back to the car. Literally. I need to go w/ somebody who'll get out with me next time, because that would make all the difference). Then we saw handmade signs for a place called "Horning's Hideout", that mentioned something about fishing and a rest stop, and almost passed it up before I did a U-Turn (VERY hard in my car) and zipped on down toward the place. We saw all sorts of crazy places that James didn't want to stop at along the way, and after driving for a good 20 minutes we thought we'd passed it, but I kept on going, telling James it was probably going to be someplace "Magical, like Wonderland." He thought I was crazy but I kept on driving anyway, even when we got to a place with only enough room for one car on the dirt path and drops off either side, and curves and such that I almost started having a panic attack. But I kept on going, and then...

Oh man guys, it was fantastic. We didn't ever get out of the car because there was somebody with a chainsaw that I didn't want to mess with, but the view was incredible. And guys, there were Peacocks. PEACOCKS. At LEAST thirty of them- the normal kind that you think of when you think of a peacock, plus the brown females, plus babies, plus GORGEOUS white ones. They were EVERYWHERE. I probably would have been brave enough to find a place to park and get out if I'd had a decent camera with me, but I didn't, and the road literally ended, and there were all these directions depending on what you were there for, so we just pulled over and idled the car for awhile before leaving. I just googled it, and apparently it's known as a great place for weddings, and has campgrounds and all that. I think it'd be a blast to go camping there, even though I've never been before and there was that guy with the chainsaw.

It was fantastic.

I asked James how we would ever get back if there wasn't a website, and he said "It's easy. Drive into North Plains, get lost, and it'll appear." That's kind of how I think of it, too- a place that forms out of nothing whenever you need it to.

I mean, come on guys, PEACOCKS. Everywhere. It was ridiculous. I want to go back.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to... ]]> =fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21264049/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21264049/ Sat, 01 Nov 2008 11:37:08 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I know I'm probably overreacting, but I don't care, because my feelings are just so damn hurt right now and I'm tired of it, I'm tired of always feeling like I'm his last priority, and it's just not right that he left me on my own on Halloween, when we'd had plans, even if he didn't remember, because damnit I never see him so shouldn't he care when we do get a chance? And it was fine, it was better, and then I found out that I'd been invited to the wedding as well, which would have fixed absolutely everything, and I would have jumped at the chance to go, but as usual it was just another "misunderstanding", a "miscommunication", a "mistake".

Maybe this whole thing is one big mistake.

No, I don't really feel that way. Not usually, anyway. But it doesn't make things better. It doesn't change the fact that late into last night I was still fooling myself, telling myself "Hey, if he gets back soon I'll just go pick him up and bring him back here, it's no big deal, it doesn't matter that it's so late, it's halloween, and there's still time to hang out, it's friday night, after all."

When did I become so dependent? When did it cross that line?

Again, I'm overreacting. I must be, right? I'm not that girl. I refuse to be that girl.



This is the kind of thing that I should be posting in my livejournal ([link]), but as of now I don't know anyone on that site, and even if it's not read here, at least I know that it's out there. I don't know. I'll probably end up moving it over later anyway. We'll see.

We're going to a corn maze today. The original plan was to go at night, but it's so rainy that I don't feel like dealing with dark AND mud- it's kind of a one or the other thing. So I'm throwing my hair up, grabbing my rain boots, and dressing in a fashion that will allow me to fall on my ass multiple times, as that's what will happen, I'm sure. I should be working on homework, but that's another story.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...







http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21251178/ Fri, 31 Oct 2008 15:05:45 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I know I updated just a few hours ago, but I'm bored and kind of lonely and here we are again.

I want to go on an adventure. It's halloween, and I've had so much homework lately, and I'm ready to take a break and go have fun.

However, James is going to a wedding today (congrats, Jennifer, we love you!), and has decided to go hang out with Ian or somebody afterward. Which is fine, I guess, but I don't know... I'm ready for him to spend some time with me, you know? I mean, I thought we had plans tonight, but I guess not.

And I don't feel like having an adventure by myself. Sometimes that's okay, but I just don't really feel up for it. And I don't really want to be home for all the little kids trick-or-treating, because it tends to just annoy me.

I'm just tired of seeing my boyfriend once a week, at most. And not really doing much of anything when I do see him.

I have seven pumpkins waiting to be carved, which we were supposed to do together, but it just hasn't happened.

Wow, am I actually going to start crying while I write this? I feel pretty pathetic right now, actually. I want to go and drive around, maybe explore the Sherwood countryside (I'm sure it must be pretty this time of year), and listen to the Dresden Dolls turned waaay up, and sing and yell and scream and yeah, maybe cry. But, I'll probably just go take a nap or something.

[link]






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...







http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21247447/ Fri, 31 Oct 2008 11:22:52 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

I'm still weirded out by that whole Narwhal thing. Seriously.

But anyway.

I think I'm going to start using LiveJournal. It'll probably be a slow transition, but I just feel like I should have somewhere that I'm not having to censor myself based on who sees my dA. I never know how often my parents visit the site, and I know that in the past they've given the link to my grandparents, etc, and it just makes me nervous.

So anyway, LiveJournal.

If any of you have one, my username is katymreid.

It's friends-only, but again, that's just to let me know that there are no relatives checking it out.

I haven't used that site in so long, I have no clue who still has one or what their names are, so I'm hoping people will just find me, haha.

I have a ton of papers due this next week, and I'm kind of freaking out. I was up until three in the morning the other night, writing a paper for my psych class that was due yesterday. I'd rather not have to do that again.

I hope things are going well for all of you, or that they will get better.

I love you all, and hope you have a nice Halloween!

Now it's time to shower up and get ready for school. God, I LOVE that I don't have to leave until noon if I don't want to. And yet, I'm still running late, haha.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...









=fadedjade27 http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21221174/ http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21221174/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 17:26:38 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

Okay guys, so I'm sitting here trying to work on this Psychology paper that's due tomorrow, and I simply can't focus because I keep thinking about... Narwhals.

I know, right?! How bizarre! But seriously, they are pretty freaking awesome.



Its name comes from the old norse word 'Nar' meaning 'Corpse' (referring to its skin tone), but in some places it is known as the Moon Whale, which I also love.

Here's what gets me: Its tusk is actually a tooth. A freaking TOOTH. It comes out from the left side of the upper jaw, and twists around to form a left-handed helix. On top of that, its tusk/tooth can get up to 10 feet long. Seriously, Narwhals! What's up with that?! I mean, they themselves only get to like, 15 feet long or something like that.

Best part: Nobody knows what the tusk is actually for, though males do carry out a behavior called "Tusking" (how great is that?) where they rub their tusks together.

Anyway.

Now that that's out of the way, I can keep working on my homework.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze..
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind,
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine-
Before you go, can you read my mind?


The Killers // When You Were Young (link)
You sit there in your heartache,
Waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness- Watch it now ... here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus,
But he talks like a gentleman,
Like you imagined when you were young...


The Killers // This River Is Wild (link)
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world, and watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go.
Or should I just get along with myself?
I never did get along with everybody else-
I've been trying hard to do what's right,
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky...













http://fadedjade27.deviantart.com/journal/21180001/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 23:51:55 PDT Thank you all for the s, I really appreciate it!

It's nice that even though I feel as though I've been completely unproductive today, I can look back and realize that I've read 27 textbook-sized pages of technical articles, as well as 81 pages of Philip K Dick's 'Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep'. In all, I've gone from having 286 pages to read in total down to 178 pages in one day. Of course, I have another 100 pages of articles to read by Wednesday (but I think they're actually stories for the most part, so it's easier), and another 78 pages of Androids to read by next Monday (easy), not to mention several papers to write and midterms to study for and psychology chapters to read and more papers to write and such, but still.

At least today hasn't been ENTIRELY unproductive.

I've been sitting on my bed all day with my papers spread out around me instead of hanging out with my boy, so I'd better have accomplished SOMETHING.

I really want to go down to North Plains on Friday or Saturday, because they have a huge corn maze that is open until 10 PM. A miles-long corn maze, in the dark. Sweet! Not the most daring thing, I know, but I'm too much of a chicken to go to a haunted house, even though I know they can't touch you. Plus, James is even more of a wimp than me, so I need to make sure I'm going to places where I can comfortably assume the role of protector, haha.

Also, on Tuesdays and Thursdays, Valley Lanes has "Buck and Quarter Night", where shoe rental and games are only $1.25 each from 9 to midnight. James and I might do that this week, too. Anybody want to come? He might bring the guys along- I'm not sure yet. I'm not even sure if he knows we're going, or if we're going at all. Heh.

James also wants to go play pool at that place up by Michael's, but I'm not sure about that. Personally, I think that Mini-Golf would be more fun, and especially after James' insistance on NOT going to mini-golf, I'm pretty sure we're definitely going. Is that mean? I don't think it is. I consider it trying to find a subject that I can kick his butt at, since he tends to beat me at anything else like that.


Anyway, I'm considering buying a cheap digital camera. The reason is this: At this point, James has been conditioned to think that whenever the camera comes out, it's to take artsy pictures that will eventually appear here. I can't convince him that I also just want to HAVE PICTURES OF US. You know, being a couple, and doing things together, and having pictures like everyone else does. Scrap-booky pictures and such. My thinking is that if I get an inexpensive, tiny little thing of a camera, maybe he won't be as freaked out as when I pull out the big guy. I would probably spend less than $100 (no more than $120, tops), and just have something with like, 3x optical zoom or something little like that.

I don't know if that would even work, but it's worth a try.


I've been listening to music today that I haven't listened to since, like, Freshman year. I had a sudden urge to listen to HIM (who I haven't heard since pre-Dark Light), and when I couldn't find any on my typical sites, I went to Pandora. They've had me listening to The Rasmus, The Used, Negative (who I'd never listened to, but are pretty good), and... Ashley Simpson? I don't know how she got thrown into the mix, but it was pretty awful, haha.

Very little HIM has been played, though. Psh. I'll have to try to keep looking.

I don't even know why I decided to try to listen to them. It was pretty random.

Anyhow.

I don't know where James is. Still at practice, maybe? God, I'm ready for that kid to have a working cell phone again. I can't go to bed until he gets back, because if I do he'll call me as soon as he gets home, and I really hate being woken up after I've gone to bed unless there's a reason (as in, I had a bad dream, or I'm not doing well, or something happened, etc, vs HI! I'M HOME!). But anyway. I love him anyway. Very much so, actually.

Ooh, good, he just called. I'm off to bed, then.

Love y'all.






I'd forgotten how much I really do love The Killers... Here are some good songs from the album Hot Fuss-


The Killers // Read My Mind (link)
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken... ]]> =fadedjade27