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sorry for the lack of comments/replies/submissions...
it seems my psychology classes are consuming what little free time i have... thus making it hard to do much of anything.

L-A-M-E.

but here i am...

ps. this is especially directed at a certain matt.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4345207/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4345207/ Mon, 17 Jan 2005 17:26:16 PST i had my first computer class... EVER (minus frosh year in hs when i learned the basics of the internet for a half hour ever 2 weeks...)
and we were told that this semester
we'd be focusing on

adobe illustrator.

eeep!!!

let's keep in mind
i've never really taken the time to learn photoshop...
so i'm extremely intimidated.

i ended up confessing to my prof. that i have extreme computer anxiety and feared for my grade.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4286447/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4286447/ Mon, 10 Jan 2005 13:56:15 PST gym class heroes - taxi driver

I took cutie for a ride in my death cab ,
she tipped me with a kiss I dropped her off at the meth lab.
Before she left, she made a dashboard confessional
and spilled her guts in cursive. But what's worse is
I can still see her bright eyes like sunny day real estate.
Oh my, and the funny way the ceiling tastes.
So high but no chance, my little chemical romance
left a bad taste in my mouth.
But I approached her like, 'Hey Mercedes , why the long face why you cryin?'
No need, just put on this coheed and fall out...
boy meets girl, jimmy eat world, but schlep eats pills 'til he's all out.
Not once, not twice, she was thrice times a lady,
acting all brand new but I had to bounce over to the postal services
to pick up these pills to take care of my nervousness.
And on the way I saw planes and mistook 'em for stars,
she played games but she took 'em too far.
At the drive in watching soft porn and you could tell by the trail of the dead that there was something in the popcorn.
Hopped in my cab destination midtown just to get up with some kids that like to get down.
I made my rounds and that was that,
in between the frowns and scraps and heart attacks.
And I remember, I seen her ass in early november
on a thursday, taking back sunday for a refund.
She shot a wink like 'No hard feelings'
then she jetted to Brazil. Man them pills had me spun.

let me know if i forgot any! <3

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4282327/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4282327/ Sun, 09 Jan 2005 23:40:40 PST
as i watch robin hood: men in tights, i'm reminded who i really am. i have no clue why... but i was.

i'm a bubbly little blonde who loves to laugh until i cry, slides down hills after it pours outside, writes poetry that no one will ever see, watches old 80s cartoons (thank you mom for taping those!) on a sat. morning in my pjs, takes walks with her daddy and has amazing conversations with him, adores cho. milk, loves to sit and listen to my friends play whatever instrument they play best, blushes when people compliment me, is a proud little mom with all of my "boys", ends up being everyone's little sister, enjoys cleaning, constantly hugs people, spends time doing nothing at all with friends, sings at the top of my lungs at poppunk concerts, takes road trips to unknown destinations, goes to support her friends at shows, not only love my friends but admire all of them on one level or another, could care less about what so and so said about me, takes beautiful pictures of beautiful people, loves to be spontaneous, is a coffee addict, feels a concert was only good if i walk away completely drenched in sweat and voiceless, tends to be perky in the mornings, maintain my morals, doesn't do drugs or have sex, plays frisby every chance i get, paint my roommate with bingo paint, cries at movies, lives in hoodies, tshirts, cargo khakies and new balance shoes, adores waking up early in the summer just to feel the cool breeze outside, sleeps with my window open, loves to run, never used to worry about if i do or don't ____ ___, and hates to be brought down by another person's negativity. i love life. i embrace it. and honestly, it really hurts me when i'm around others who can't seem to focus on anything but pessimistic thoughts. if you're that way, fine.

but that's who i am.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4273490/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4273490/ Sat, 08 Jan 2005 21:54:25 PST
in an attempt to catch up on all the comments and such i've been neglecting to answer due to the ridiculous amount of work expected of me at the end fo the semester, i've come to notice how kind, respectful and encouraging you all are (minus those spammers... *shakes fist*). anyway, i'd just like to thank you all for your continuous attempts to help me improve at something i hold so close to my heart, photography/art in general. knowing i'll most likely never meet the majority of you, i still want you to know i care about you and do appreciate you as both amazing, inspirational artists and people. thank you.

i'd also like to apologize for not posting more deviations. as mentioned before... i've recently finished my 5th semester at college and was increadibly overwhelmed at the end. and as of now... i'm currently at home without the use of my photos which are inconviniently tucked away at school. please be patient. more will come soon.

thank you so much!

iloveyouall.

- tarah

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4233678/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4233678/ Mon, 03 Jan 2005 22:22:29 PST
aaaaaaaand GO! - these are in no particular order...

- live my life for me. (this goes back to a long talk sean and i had in my car one night after a small towns show)
- keep in touch with friends - even if it's just an im every now and then or a call at least once every two weeks
- make the sunscreen song from 97 my motto.
- learn how to play my blue acoustic/keep learning how to play my piano
- keep all of my websites up to date...
- organize my room/mp3s/cds/computer/papers
- aim for a 3.3 gpa
- exercise for 20 min. a day 6 days a week
- regulate my fast food intake (this includes no more starbucks at 1am)
- pierce my cartilage and possibly my lip
- volunteer at the hospital or a local hs
- dance/sing to falloutboy in the shower more often because it obviously makes for a better start to my day.
- take 30 min. of me time every day
- read non-school related books
- try something new each week (this goes along with weekly resolutions i've been thinking about)
- pay off my credit card
- save up my money
- go on more adventures with friends
- see how long i can grow out my hair
- be honest with people instead of feeling a need to make excuses if i don't want to go out that night or whatever
- look for internships and start thinking about what to do after graduation... on second thought... live in the moment. yes. i like that one much better.
- less drinking... i know. odd since i'm finally legal. i kinda wanna go edge for a while again.
- go rockclimbing
- take ridiculous amounts of pictures
- relize when enough is enough
- take mental health days
- print out my whole lj in case something bad would happen
- write more
- try different mediums as far as art goes
- make new friends
- use my meal plan
- learn to cook AND sew
- whore out my good music
- have more psuedo-dates with friends
- do the amelie thing
- return other people's stuff/locate my own
- go to more shows (specifically ska, hardcore, and local shows)
- have more back to back to back sex and the city, stay on the couch all day in my pjs marathons (also known as mental health days)
- love life.

so yeah. those are a few of the main ones i've been thinking about. you're opinions are always welcome.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4207192/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4207192/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 22:20:43 PST a freshly showered girl meanders to open the bathroom door in her towel
before she could mutter a simple "yes?"
an attractive boy kisses her softly saying, "happy new year"
then quickly walks away
leaving the girl clutching her towel, blushing, smirking and feeling her heart race

that's how i started my new year. be jealous.

--------------------

welcome to 2005.
this is who you are but is this who you want to be?
if not...congrats. you have an excuse to put into action all the things you've started out saying... i wish...
be who you are. be happy.
welcome to the new year.

please keep your arms and legs in the ride at all times.
and enjoy the show.
it's gonna be a hella good time.

--------------------

ps. i know... i can't spell...

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4161701/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4161701/ Sun, 26 Dec 2004 12:50:29 PST
SEND ME PRETTY THINGS LIKE MIXTAPES AND DRAWINGS AND HOMEMADE CARDS OR JUST LITTLE BIRTHDAY GREETINGS. OR IF YOU FEEL SO INCLINED, SING ME SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL... SING ME THE BIRTHDAY SONG... SING IT OFF KEY... I LOVE EVERYTHING.

PLEASE AND THANK YOU MY LOVES!

<3

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4132428/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4132428/ Thu, 23 Dec 2004 00:07:25 PST
things are looking up... which is always a plus. God always seems to have a way of working things out to my benefit.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS MY LOVES!!

- the girl.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4099141/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/4099141/ Sat, 18 Dec 2004 22:53:18 PST
here's to what tomorrow brings.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3889499/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3889499/ Mon, 22 Nov 2004 01:47:37 PST if i make it past the judicator... the show will be dec. 3rd.
if you can make it (meaning you're in the milwaukee area) i'd love to see you there... even if i don't make it in.
there's some amazing pieces that others are entering so please support either way.

<3



ps. i'd like to thank everyone who's helped/supported/modeled for me thus far. you've made something i love and feel so passionate about absolutely increadible for me. thank you from the bottom of my heart.

speaking of support... thank you specifically to todd (alphaosiris) for always being so willing to help me out in anyway you can or simply just sitting in the darkroom with me for hours on end until i perfect whatever i'm trying to print. you're so patient and wonderful and just... yeah. i'm extremely blessed to have you in my life... someone that makes me smile as much as you do and so confident in my art. thank you babe.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3791757/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3791757/ Tue, 09 Nov 2004 08:02:12 PST i'm going to have the class listen to straylight run - existentialism on prom night and green day - good riddance (time of your life)
then i'm going to hand out lyrics and ask everyone to analyze these songs from a humanistic/existentialist perspective.

i.win.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3705477/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3705477/ Fri, 29 Oct 2004 23:45:25 PDT
when i grow up...

i want to be a wife and a mom... one that reads stories to her little ones before tucking them in and kissing them on the forehead. the same kind that makes homemade playdough, teaches them how to fly kites on a fall day, and collects leaves with them to press between 2 sheets of wax paper...

i also want to take promo pictures of boys in bands... preferably the emo/indie/punk kind... pictures that will acurately depict exactly what it means to be completely lost in/consumed by music...

when i'm not doing that, i'm going to write a children's book about a mouse named marvin. marvin will be one of those characters you'll remember when you're 37 and reading stories to your kids. either that or some kind of book composed primarily of short stories secretly based on my life and my perception of those around me. i've already started writing paragraphs about the people i meet...

after that, i'd be content doing voice overs for cartoons partime... this of course would be before my acoustic set at the local independant coffee shop...

someday i'd also like to run a half marathon... that one's just for me...

then i'll be a child psychologist, specializing in play therapy...

maybe

what do you want to be when you grow up?

ps. i've come to realize i like ... far too much for my own good... whatever ...'s are called

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3683263/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3683263/ Tue, 26 Oct 2004 22:41:08 PDT
so yes.

i'm back.

much love...

the little midwestern blonde.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3527480/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3527480/ Wed, 06 Oct 2004 14:56:04 PDT i finally found something i love
and feel passionate about
and can make completely my own.
i don't care about opinions anymore
just how i perceive things
if i like them
if they hold meaning.

and it's amazing.

i love photography.

i feel like i'm actually good at what i do
that i have potential
and that no one can take it away from me.
i'm finally proud of something i do
and feel like i'm worth something
simply because of what i see and how i can relay it to others...

it's just such a release
an outlet
something i can look at and smile
even if no one understands why
it's love for something in it's purest form
which is by far the best...

i'll always be a dreamer.
and now you can see the world through my eyes
feeling my emotions
submerging yourself in my thoughts.

it's increadible.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3427734/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3427734/ Thu, 23 Sep 2004 09:52:39 PDT
i'm really excited about actually taking pictures and figuring things out as far as how i want to set things up... mmm... inspiration.

care to be my muse?

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3421944/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3421944/ Wed, 22 Sep 2004 14:04:31 PDT i've now been by all of my roommates as well as several friends that i'm just like...
"that damn papperotzi"
i can't help but smirk
ever since i started taking photography i've noticed that i constantly look for the perfect shot.
the right lighting
the right subject matter
the right emotions
the right everything...
either by accident or actually trying to set it up.

i love it.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3413716/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3413716/ Tue, 21 Sep 2004 12:22:48 PDT so i was going to take these amazing shots of the really excentric people of milwaukee...
but as it turns out
there's an idiot who can't put film in her own camera.
to add insult to injury...
i didn't even buy the right film to begin with...

oh well.

i guess we'll chalk this one up to experience.

on a happier note... over the course of my camera excursion... i made new friends

ps. don't even tell me i can't spell... you'll just waste your breathe.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3385437/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3385437/ Fri, 17 Sep 2004 15:18:44 PDT the smell of your skin still lingers on my clothes.

<3

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3378921/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3378921/ Thu, 16 Sep 2004 17:04:12 PDT
i LOVE it.

- i feel horrible... *sigh* i think i'm really getting sick... i need more sleep...

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3366814/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3366814/ Wed, 15 Sep 2004 00:57:57 PDT after much anticipation
(and me being forced to reformat my computer... boo!! boo i say!!)
i'll be able to start posting pictures once again.

yay for me!!

much <3

ps. cross post!

after spending an amazing (and might i add much needed) day making new friends, looking at art, taking lots of pictures, and strolling down the streets of chicago...

i feel like i'm going to pass out
i'm extremely dizzy and kinda outta it...
and nothing is in focus...

eep.

i really don't want to spend another four hours at st. joe's - dehydration anyone?

i'm going over to josh's in a bit
he promised me food, water and a couch so i can recover for a half hour or so.
and then... jj offered to reformat my computer for me at 10
i'll admit... i'm a little nervous considering i risk losing 5000+ songs, numerous papers, and lots of pictures...

it's my own fault for not backing anything up.
i hate you 900 viruses!!
baah.

everytime i close my eyes, i expect to wake up from this beautiful dream

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3340123/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3340123/ Sat, 11 Sep 2004 13:49:37 PDT does anyone remember how to get to never never land?
it just seems such a nice place to run away to
to escape this growing up business...

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3319241/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3319241/ Wed, 08 Sep 2004 16:45:48 PDT
once again
my college decided to take it upon themselves to block livejournal.com

this wouldn't bother me except it's a main source of information for far away friends, holds a majority of my poetry, and is a place that i can feel free to write about anything and get feedback.

if anyone knows how to hack into it... i will kiss you.

//end rant//

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3297296/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3297296/ Mon, 06 Sep 2004 01:46:48 PDT
if you need any of the following books for your classes
please contact me by leaving a message. i'd be happy to give you a wondeful price.

aaaaaaaand go.

history
promises to keep
crazy horse and custer
citizen soldier
transformation and reaction: america 1921-1945

theology
life on the edge

theatre
the actor in you

thank you for your time.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3294537/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3294537/ Sun, 05 Sep 2004 17:40:17 PDT
[link]

his pictures are just so honest and beautiful.
almost vulnerable in a way... if pictures can be classified as that...
they just really touch my heart.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3287696/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3287696/ Sat, 04 Sep 2004 19:13:33 PDT
i was invited to see donnie darko - the director's cut
but i declined.
i was already doing laundry and homework and in my pjs.
and i'm feeling anti-social.
can you feel bored AND anti-social.
nonsense.

so here i sit
listening to harry potter
thinking about how much i could get done but don't feel motivated enough to.

and yes. i miss you very much

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3284423/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3284423/ Sat, 04 Sep 2004 10:19:44 PDT if you don't like it... why don't you just apply for something you'd enjoy?
-and yes, i understand this isn't taking into account income or hours-
but still... for those of us that don't have to support anyone but ourselves...
find something you love
even just a little bit.

and with that said...
i'm off to apply at a music store, a venue, a bookstore, and maybe something else fun i find.

take note.
this is one of 29i3429083509823 things to do today...
eep.

fin!

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3267021/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3267021/ Wed, 01 Sep 2004 23:34:56 PDT if you kids are anything like those on lj...
my massive amount of posts will cause you to send me messages (and by that i mean threats) saying how you're going to take me off your friends list.
let's hope it doesn't come down to that.

soooo i forgot to hand in my first psych assignment.
let's hope i don't get a zero.
way to start the school year off, eh?

ignore me. i'm just tired and a little crabby about this whole colllege business.

don't get me wrong.
i LOVE learning about both myself and things around me...
but iust a little overwhelmed right now
just give me a few days to adjust and i'll be fine.

maybe i'll play my guitar on the balcony.

yes. that sounds like a fine idea.

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3259424/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3259424/ Tue, 31 Aug 2004 23:23:08 PDT
in other news...

after i thought about my classes a little more
i realized that i've been given a ridiculous amount of freedom as far as creativity goes
at least this semester.
2 of my HUGE reports are going to be centered around harry potter
and my photography class is going to be something i adore.

stage makeup tomorrow!
that should be a trip.
i'm sure you'll see pictures eventually...

*devious smile*

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3255318/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3255318/ Tue, 31 Aug 2004 13:15:39 PDT
COULD I POSSIBLY FEEL ANY MORE VULNERABLE!?

baah.

thank you college for making me feel as if i've wasted the last 2 years simply by not retaining enough information...

words of encouragement are welcome
no really.
i need them.
i'm about to cry. ]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3249396/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3249396/ Mon, 30 Aug 2004 18:01:14 PDT quietly singing along to the familiar melodies

realizing that christmas break is only 3 months away
3 months never felt so long

psychology
psychology
psychology

you'd think i would remember more...

wishing you could be close
looking up and smiling at you for no other reason
then just because you're you.

<3 ]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3234168/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3234168/ Sat, 28 Aug 2004 19:06:20 PDT
they're almost romantic
like something from a movie

spending all day wrapped up in an oversized hoodie...
cuddled in my comforter
listening to the rain softly fall against the window...

beautiful.

the only thing that would make them better is falling asleep next to you ]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3227589/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3227589/ Fri, 27 Aug 2004 20:28:38 PDT thank you so much for making an avatar for me!!

thank you for your time,

the management. ]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3220579/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3220579/ Thu, 26 Aug 2004 20:22:05 PDT look at the picture
tell me a story about the people in the picture
you can make it as long or as short as you want
it doesn't even have to make sense
it can be anything.

i have a story in mind
but i'd like to hear yours first.

thank you in advance

the girl. ]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3218622/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3218622/ Thu, 26 Aug 2004 16:00:05 PDT drum roll please...

i'm *gasp* the girl.

hehehe.

fin! ]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3216701/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3216701/ Thu, 26 Aug 2004 11:44:31 PDT sooo
if anyone would like to offer ideas or suggestions about
ANYTHING
i would be greatly appreciative.

ps. THANK YOU SO MUCH to everyone for thier comments and hellos and welcomes.

aww... now you went and made me all sentimental...

]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3201549/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3201549/ Tue, 24 Aug 2004 08:41:27 PDT but her voice continued to quiver as quietly spoke
"the only thing i have to offer you is my own reality. i know... my perception is skewed, but i'm trying. i'm sorry if that's not enough..."

as he listened
he leaned back in his chair
placing his hands behind his head
smirking as if hiding a secret she'd never understand
the mannerism he always seemed to use when he disapproved of her decisions and her silly opinions.

and for the first time
she saw him for the condesending prick he was.

note: this is in NO WAY about the boy.
he's absolutely amazing ]]> ~faithhopelove http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3199242/ http://faithhopelove.deviantart.com/journal/3199242/ Tue, 24 Aug 2004 08:07:59 PDT
the recent purchase of a digital camera
as well as the addition of a photography class to my schedule next semester
has lead me here.

oh yeah, i guess the boy influenced me too...

here i am.
writing my first post
ready and willing to hear any comments you might have.

i admit it.
i'm a little intimidated seeing as my medium usually consists of writing whatever words seem to run through my mind like the intricate script of some elaborate, over-priced movie...
yes. i live my life as if it's a movie
if you know me
that's obvious.

aaand i'm spent.

sweet dreams kids.

Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you ]]> ~faithhopelove