deviantART: by:fallenconcreteangel http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:fallenconcreteangel&section=today deviantART RSS for by:fallenconcreteangel en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 16 Dec 2009 10:00:56 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Birshday http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/26753542/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/26753542/ Sat, 22 Aug 2009 11:53:29 PDT
]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Life is... http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/22196271/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/22196271/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 17:39:30 PST
I think I owe nearly everyone on here a very sincere apology. I have been sorely neglecting all of you over the last half year, and I have little proper excuse for it. I have missed my supportive online community for a long time.

First, I should catch people up to speed:
My parents decided to keep Alvin (if you read my last journal). I was very thankful for their change of heart. They realized just how much my baby meant to me, and how much it would hurt for him to be removed from my life. In the mean time, things aren't really going well with him. He has been having troubles with having little accidents, so we're working on a remedy for that. If anyone has any suggestions (other than diapers), I would love to hear them.

Secondly, I packed all my stuff (Every last movie, book, and article of clothing) up to move to Kamloops in September to start my fine arts degree at Thompson Rivers University. Upon arriving at my charming yet cramped apartment, my room mate and close friend informed me of a very unsettling decision. She had just arrived with her few boxes when she told me she was leaving in January for Europe with her sister. This sort of threw me for a loop, but my parents assured me that we'd be able to afford the apartment on my own for the last half of the school year till April.

However, disaster struck eventually when my dad was not reelected for his seat on the school board. Out of the thousands of people who voted, he lost by less than 90 votes. Ouch. So, it became evident that some severe sacrifices would need to happen in order for me to stick out another semester on my own in my apartment in Kamloops.

At that point, I was hating my classes, several of my teachers were frustrating, and I had yet to make close friends. Don't get me wrong, I adored all my classmates! They were great fun for talking to in class and chilling with during the breaks. But I had yet to make any friends I could hang out with. As much as I adored my few friends, it's not enough social interaction to live on!

After a great deal of weighing pros and cons, I realized it was time for me to come home. I finished my fall semester (and most likely failed several classes) and came home on the 18th of December. I suppose it just came down to the fact that if I were enjoying myself and was working towards a degree that would be acknowledged, I would definitely have no qualms about sacrificing to make ends meet. I'm not a completely spoiled princess. But it became apparent that the degree that made me miserable was simply not worth the effort at this time in my life.

I'm unsure of what I'll be doing for the next year or so, but at least it'll be much less expensive than Art school! $2000 tuition, $500 text books (at least one of which is still in its shrink wrap), $200 Art supplies, and a hella lot of suffering!

I haven't talked to my aunt about my plans yet, but she goes to New York fairly often, and I was thinking of tagging along next time. I would love to just go and see all the musicals Broadway has to offer! I would just die if I saw Clay Aiken in Spamalot!

I hope to keep in better touch with all my dA relations from now on! Do forgive my dreadful neglect!

I figured Christmas would be a wonderful time to start things over and fresh. The snow is white, and the tree is lit. *Gah* I'll always love it.

Merry Christmas dA!

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Some heart-aches even Paper Gundams can't hea http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/18585888/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/18585888/ Fri, 30 May 2008 23:48:55 PDT
Second, I shall now express the reason for my emo title. My douche-bag parents have promptly decided that I will no longer have full ownership over my own dog. My 11th birthday gift will be taken from me. My mother told me just as she was dropping me off for work today that if I don't find someone to take him in the next few months, she'll take him to either the SPCA or the Pound. Needless to say, I walked into Rogers bawling my eyes out. My manager had to take me to the back for about half an hour before I could start my shift. I will never forgive them.

I remembered telling Andrea, my coworker, about Alvin before, and she got so excited. Her daughter has always wanted a little black puppy, and even then I felt my heart break. She said she has a cat, so they might not get along, but her mother is moving here in July. Her mum used to have a little grey terrier about Alvin's height, and she never got over his passing. Andrea figures if things don't work out with her, then her mother would love to pamper my baby.

I feel bad because my dad just came home from Winnipeg today, and I didn't speak to him at all... Well, until I sat at my computer and muttered, "Andrea will take him. And if she won't, she said her mother would." He kinda stared at me and said, "On Sunday?" All I could do was shake my head and cry.

I fucking hate them and always will.

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Meme http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/18093532/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/18093532/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 20:58:19 PDT
For the first 10 people to comment in this journal I will go through their gallery and pick out 5 deviation that are my favs and feature them and they'll receive a free sketch. The catch? You have to do the same thing and post this in your journal. The deviations that I feature must be YOUR deviations, not someone else's.

1):icontsu-chan79:
Although she hasn't commented yet, I’ll put tsu-chan79 as my first because I used her meme.
I must admit, she is one of my favs on dA. Her wonderful deviations usually feature either a scantily-clad Edo neko, or a similarly cheeky-dressed Fai kitty, so I have an automatic draw to them to start with. Tsu-chan79 just has such an amazing style to her pieces. It's obvious who the character is, yet it's her own amazing charm that makes each finished work the brilliant piece it is. Although some ensembles she dresses my favorite characters in are scandalously inappropriate, I absolutely adore them with all my soul! She just does such an amazing job of making each finished product absolutely adorable!
i) [link]
This wonderful piece with Edward wrapped up all snug-like is definitely an instant fav. He has such a darling expression, and I would LOVE to have that handed to me this August for MY birthday!
ii) [link]
Just to prove that my favs aren't ALL Edo and Fai, I had to show off her deviation with an ever sexi Roy Mustang. She really did an amazing job of portraying his cocky attitude in this piece. He's a little less "innocent" looking than some of her other pics with Edo and Fai, because every once in a while, a girl needs a man with experience...
iii) [link]
Nekkid warning! Haha, sometimes I love her work even when they're not clothed! The poses she picks and sketches manage to hide the naughty bits, while still making it rather obvious the character is rather naughty and nekkid! I love it when she points out the character's "tush"! XP
iv) [link]
I would love for this little kitten to have a snuggle with me sometime! This Halloween piece really caught my eye the first time I saw it. I love it so much! Once again, the pose is just amazing and unique. Poses are definitely something I have issues with doing, so when I find an artist who can do it properly, I have nothing but respect for them. I love Fai's little kitty outfits!
v) [link]
This is my all time favorite deviation from tsu-chan79's gallery. I fangirled over it madly on her old account, and I can't help but do it now too. Fai's outfit is amazing. The short-shorts are darling, and the yellow/gold laceups are the perfect touch. He certainly knows how to strut down the catwalk! I am in love with the expression on his face! That cheeky little wink drives me mad! The snowflakes are a divine finishing touch to the background, and the chibbi Ashura is so perfect! The finishing part of this piece that made it my instant insane fav was Fai's boots. Those are so amazing. The fact that our favorite little mage has bare thighs, yet huge fuzzy boots makes me nose bleed. I love it with all my soul! ^^

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Scott McNeil http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/14509357/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/14509357/ Wed, 05 Sep 2007 20:50:50 PDT
I've been "molested" by Scott McNeil two years in a row now. It might seem like a grand excursion in theory, but I'm now completely terrified of him. Naturally he’s funny and remarkable in general, but up close and personal he’s just too much for my innocent soul to handle. It just had to be ME that he picked on, didn't it!?

The first time I went to Anime Evolution, I was too shy to ask Vic Mignogna for a hug and a picture, so my traveling partners made fun of me for it. When we got to the front of the line up for Scott, Christy, one of my dearest friends, decided to indulge herself in a moment of pure evil. With a satanic grin slowly spreading across her face, she gave me a shove in the general direction of Mr. Scott McNeil. As I staggered forward, Scott himself began to allow a cocky smirk to broaden itself over his angular jaw. It was as though he could smell fear in the air as he reached out to grasp my trembling wrist. In a slithery voice, he slurred out a dreadful greeting. “Come here girl,” he ordered, “step into my office!” I silently whimpered to myself as he dragged me behind his desk and chair till I was nearly sitting on him. He was having a fit by then laughing at his own wit and jokes.

By the time he asked me what my favourite show was, I was too petrified to move, let alone speak. Chris spoke up for me and gleefully shouted, “She loves Gundam Wing! She likes anything Gundam!” To be perfectly blunt and honest, I don’t much care for Wing and Chris was well aware. Seed is far more my style and I never was able to fully appreciate Wing. But due to Chris’ own evil antics, I now have a Duo quote on the back of my badge for my first year at AE.

Carrying on with my horrifying adventures, as my story does not end here, I was later walking throughout Artist’s Alley believing I was quite safe from harm. Alas, my naive senses mislead me once again. I was calmly browsing the tables of prints and bookmarks as I felt a soft scratching on my bare shoulder. At first I assumed it was simply Christy bothering me, but then I heard the voice. That slippery, queasy voice drifted dreamily to my exposed ears. The sound was so close I could feel his presence leering heavily over my unprotected shoulder. His scuzzy tone uttered the words that still make me shudder to this very day: “Compliments of Scott McNeil.”

My shriek echoed throughout the walk way, reverberating across the walls, and as I fell to the floor, I cast a look of pure terror and shock behind me. Sure enough, the cackling voice actor retreated serenely while making robot noises. Of the four close friends I was traveling with that year, only one of them witnessed this spectacle, and he continues to torture me nearly every time we see each other with a similar scritch across my shoulder and the familiar frightening words. Although no one can replicate the exact tone and situation surrounding the original scenario, the words alone are enough to pull my mind back to the tragic day that my intense fear of Scott McNeil was birthed.

Over the next year, my sickening phobia of this man increased, and I excitedly dreaded the day of the next con. As time wore on, I started thinking perhaps he wasn’t as appalling as I had remembered him, and I was simply making a fuss over nothing. My, how wrong I was.

This year, I thought I was safe. I was waiting in line with Matt, Nicole, Meg, and Mel. They all seemed either too nice or too indifferent to bother pestering me. Again, this was a severe miscalculation on my part. Nicole spent ages asking me if I thought Scott would remember me from the previous year. Naturally he wouldn’t, just as he doesn’t remember any fans in particular that don’t “stand out”. But I still had a dreadful feeling in my stomach with regards to the whole situation. I wanted him to sign my 07 badge, and hopefully get an autograph for my friend Bryson, who happens to be so in love with Gundam Wing that he doesn’t let his girl friends in his room because of all his posters.

Unfortunately, Scott McNeil was the first of the three voice actors to show up at that signing. As we waited outside in the line for the other two to show, he decided to chat it up with the fans. Just as he was leaving one group of giggling smutty fan girls, Nicole had an inspiringly evil idea. She gave me a shove. This was all it took to set into action, a series of events. As it occurred to me what was going through her mind, I tried to escape, but then Mel joined in, and I found myself flying quite nearly into Scott McNeil. My survival instincts suddenly kicked in, and I booked it around the corner and curled up behind a sign. That’s when I heard the heckling and prompting. Mel and Nicole, and several random cosplayers I ha... ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Work Bites http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/14004035/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/14004035/ Fri, 03 Aug 2007 16:01:48 PDT < Ack. So many icecaps! Anywho, here's my schedule for the next week!

4th Saturday
Skaha - 7-3
5th Sunday
Skaha - 6-2
6th Monday
86 - 6-2
7th Tuesday
Skaha - 3-11
8th Wednesday
Off
9th Thursday
Off
10th Friday
Skaha - 9-5
11th Saturday
313 - 8-4
12th Sunday
86 - 7-3
13th Monday
86 - 6-2
14th Tuesday
Skaha - 7-3
26th Sunday
313 - 7-3

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Circle http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/13786799/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/13786799/ Wed, 18 Jul 2007 20:07:09 PDT
]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Exams! http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/13432264/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/13432264/ Thu, 21 Jun 2007 11:46:04 PDT
]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Some things never fucking change. http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/12854493/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/12854493/ Sat, 05 May 2007 16:48:15 PDT
]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Why Don't You just Drop Dead. http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/12633345/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/12633345/ Tue, 17 Apr 2007 14:32:34 PDT
]]> ~fallenconcreteangel There's no place like home... http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/12397519/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/12397519/ Sat, 31 Mar 2007 04:37:28 PDT
Unfortunately, pink argile and ruby red are not interchangable...

So, I'm FINALLY HOME! The bus driver was really late, and he was the slowest driver I've ever encountered in my life. We were supposed to be home by 1:30, but ended up in the bus depot at 3am Canadian time. Longest trip of my life. >< I cried a few times on the way back just because of the built up frustration. I'm so glad to be home. First thing I did after greeting my Alvin was book it to the washroom to fix my eyebrows. Next time I'm gone for any more than 2 days, I'm bringing TWEEZERS. Anywho, came home, ate strawberries, listened to music, now I'm heading to bed.

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Britain! http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/12278791/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/12278791/ Thu, 22 Mar 2007 00:50:22 PDT
I got a pic with one of the guards (who wear GREY in winter) and he was actually kinda cute. XP I'm still on the hunt for a hottie with a vespa, but the search isn't going so well.

Anywho, I'm out for now, but I heart all of you! Hope you're all missing me! XP *huggles*

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Good day http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/12209588/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/12209588/ Fri, 16 Mar 2007 17:29:25 PDT
First off, last night I busied myself making Apple Crumble for Sam and Rebekah for today. So I had to pack that all up in a dish and bag so no one else would get too jealous. I also had to remember to bring my pink highlighter for Dueck. (Rivalry with the pink...) So I head off to school for my spare first block. I stash the Apple Crumble in my locker and chat it up with Rebekah before the bell. Just as the bell is going, I run into Dueck's classroom and present him with his gift. I inform him that he MUST make good use of the pink highlighter on my next test. He smiles sweetly as ever, thanks me for it, and then chucks it in the garbage. I act offended, and he picks it out as we both laugh. It was great fun.

Then I meet up with Bryson for our spare. Vic, Charlie, and Chris don't really hang out with us anymore. Vic is busy with Emily, Charlie is usually sick, and Chris prolly slept in for his spare. (the only smart one) So Bryson has to go to Home Hardware to get a bolt for the seat of his truck, so we go off on a grand adventure. We ended up stopping at my house on the way back to get my wallet, and make another stop at the mall (After tail gaiting my youthpastor to get his attention) I picked up a poutine for Tom (because Christy kept promising him one but never delivered) And Bryson kept trying to eat it. While we waited, Bryson kept making funny faces, and while attempting to contain my giggles I exclaimed that it was his "sexy face". The elderly woman in line with us asked innocently, "is he bringing sexy back?" Omg! I lol'ed! XP She then went on to say that her grandson was a year older than us and that he thought she was a "cool gramma". Omg, it was so funny! And then we continued our grand adventure as we purchased coffee for Gibby and Searcy. We argued a little over who would buy the coffees. Eventually we decided he would buy Gibby a Venti black coffee, and I'd buy Searcy a Venti Mocha with extra whipped cream. We then headed back to Bryson's truck.

We got back, and delivered Gibby's coffee. He was once again full of praise and thanks to us. For Searcy, she was in the middle of lecturing a class, so we waved the coffee where she could see it in the window. She looked like she was going to cry! She loves her coffee! The teachers in our school have been going through coffee withdrawl in our school because John Hudson (the best custodian EVER) just recently retired. He used to buy coffee along with cream and sugar for the staff room. There were always at least 2 pots on at all times when he was here. Now that he isn't, no one seems to be able to make it. XP So the way to suck up is to buy coffee. lol. In the case of Searcy, its not sucking up at all! She's too awesome to not have coffee, so its awesome to buy it for her! XP She's honestly my idol! lol.

Moving on! English Lit we had a test, and it was reasonably easy considering I didn't study at all. I didn't even read King Lear. (the play that the test was on.) Next was a second spare with Sam and Rebekah! Sam had to leave for an eye appointment, but Rebekah quite enjoyed the Apple Crumble, and when Sam returned for lunch she said she loved the rest. Rebekah and I concluded that there is indeed a wombat living in my boobs. (Thanks to SordxMaelstrom I ended up having many conversations about critters taking up residence in my clevage... ><;) So it was all good stuff.

Then at lunch, Alysha and I chilled around the school. As lunch was nearing an end, we decided to go for a drive. We went through the A&W drive thru and I got a teen burger. By then I was late for history, so, naturally, we went through the Timmy's drive thru. XP Tea time for Dueck! He doesn't drink coffee due to a bet he made throughout College which he continues as tradition. So I got green tea for him. Came in and snuck in as quietly as I could with my lack of skills. I left the tea on the desk he was sitting on while he lectured about antique shows and he told me I should be late more often. XP Nothing like good sucking up skills! ^^ I won the sucker in Heads or Tails too! Karissa snatched it, but I wrestled it from her. Yup, champion wrestler right here! XP

The day ended nicely with hugs from a handful of good friends (Beka and Sam!) And although I didn't appreciate Chris' taunts about getting Tom a poutine (considering he didn't say a word about buying drinks for half the staff or about me offering Bryson and Karissa poutines next time) it all ended alright. Today was a good day.

That was a decent day in the life of Jo. ^^ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/12070315/ Mon, 05 Mar 2007 16:11:01 PST
Ok, first off, you have to realize that Emerson Drive is the reason I love country music so much. Then you have to remember that I went to see them last night with Christy. It was awesome. The whole day was great. The plan was to meet at the mall at 11am to help Dave’s mum (Mar) sell tickets to a silent auction that was a Dry Grad fund raiser. Ironically, students can’t attend the fundraiser because it’s at the Barking Parrot. (bar) Anyways, we were only going to stay till 12, and then book it out to Kelowna, but it was so fun just hanging out with Mar! We stayed till around just after 2. We sold 8 tickets. To my dad, Dave’s dad, Nikita’s mum and Dave’s grandma. Before Christy and I left, Mar gave us both big hugs, and I even got a hug from his grandma! I love his family! Mar bought us coffee from Starbucks! She was just so sweet! Finally we headed out. We found the Community center pretty quickly, and from there we just chilled in Kelowna for the day. We went to the mall but became rather bored, and headed to Baskin Robin’s for lunch/supper. The food was good, and we ended up leaving about 4-5 dollars in change (like, quarters) for the poor waitress. XP I felt bad, but it was funny at the time.

We had no problems finding the center, but we got there at 6ish. The whole thing started at 8. Then I had to go to the bathroom really badly. We ended up finding a McDonald’s where we waited in line behind this group of guys who looked like they were going to either rape or stab us. >< We bought ice cream and I ran to the washroom while Christy ordered.

Finally got back to the community center at about 6:45ish, but the doors didn’t open till 7. We had to wait for even longer in the freezing cold! The doors finally opened, but we weren’t allowed in the auditorium. Christy and I stayed by the doors the whole time. The woman didn’t even look at our tickets and declared that we were on the right. When we went in, we double checked out tickets and found we were in the center. Where we were situated, it was perfect. We weren’t front row or anything, but where we were we didn’t have to crane our necks up or down and we were right smack dab in the middle. (Oh, I so just used that expression!) Anyways, we had awesome seats, and even though we weren’t sitting next to hot cowboys like we had fantasized about, we were pretty optimistic for the evening. That was shattered quickly for me when the opening act came out and I started taking pictures. I was discreet. I know that I can be obnoxious and flamboyant sometimes, but this time I was careful. I made sure I held my camera close so that the flash wouldn’t bother too many people, and when my camera started blinking the red light after pictures I’d cover it so I wouldn’t distract other people around me. There were other people there all taking photos, so I figured it wouldn’t be a big deal. I was trying to be polite about it. But the woman sitting next to me was so rude! She leaned over and snapped “are you going to be doing that for the rest of the night? I sure hope NOT”. I cried. I haven’t really cried for a long while lately, but that snippy tone made me shrink back and apologize and then I ended up crying. She was such a royal cunt. (Sorry, I know that word offends, but when someone makes me CRY at a HAPPY event, I reserve the right to call them whatever I damn well please.) Eventually, Christy and I switched spots, and all was good.

When I arrived at the place, I’m not sure what I was expecting, but it certainly wasn’t the same as what we got. It was amazing. I knew I’d have a blast, but this was simply amazing. I’ve always loved Emerson Drive since I heard November a few years ago, but this pushes me over it. I love them so much now. All my friends are well aware with my obsession with Clay Aiken. I’ve been to a Clay concert, and although I still like him more than most singers (including Emerson Drive) I would definitely rather see Emerson Drive perform again than Clay Aiken. They were so awesome. Brad (lead singer) has this thing where he tries to mess the other ones up. So he’ll randomly throw his towel at the drummer, or bite the guitarist on the arm. It was so cracked, but I loved it! He was jumping around like he was on something the whole night! It was so great! Even though they’re a country genre, what they did last night was ROCK. It was so great. I felt bad for the poor elderly man sitting in front of me. He had to cover his ears the whole time. XP But I’m in love with the lead singer now! He’s so great! Srsly! He looks like Ryan Seacrest, but taller and he has almost black hair. He’s gorgeous and amazing! XP Srsly!

For merch, I got 2 t-shirts (last brown one, but it was an extra large… the guy had to pry it off the manikin) a necklace (that is really tacky) and I already had their newes... ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Fangirl Overload! http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11964663/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11964663/ Sun, 25 Feb 2007 17:20:33 PST [link] and [link] and [link] I met him this last year at Anime Evolution ’06 in Vancouver, and he was so awesome! He calls everyone “sweetie”! It’s so ADORABLE! I got several hugs, and a few pics! He’s also the voice of Dark Mousy, who is the hottest anime character ever created! ^^ And I found out through reading Tsubasa-chan01’s latest journal entry [link] that he is being the voice in the English version of Tsubasa of Fai D. Flowright! The most adorable and wonderful character of ALL TIMES! [link] and [link] and [link] The website that this was all posted on is
[link] Needless to say, I’m completely psyched about this! I adore Tsubasa simply because Fai is the most brilliant thing to ever happen to CLAMP! And Vic is the sweetest voice actor in the world! I can’t wait to actually SEE IT! Hugs and kisses to all! ^^

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Prom! http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11901718/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11901718/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 21:53:59 PST

Ok, it all started last Thursday when I came up with a grand scheme! It was brilliant! I would phone up a guy, and talk to him about cooking. I can't cook worth a hoot, and he's rather pro, so I figured I'd phone him up and get him to give me some advice over the phone. I would then casually bring up the topic of grad, and eventually prom. Then it wouldn't be so awkward to ask him if he'd go with me. It would seem breezy and like a quick off hand comment. Well… things didn’t go according to my amazing plans. We talked about food for over an hour. After he explained how to cook noodles, sauce, broccoli, and ironically, CHICKEN, he had to leave for supper. I finally mustered up the courage a few hours later to phone back. The line was busy. After that, I debated about making one last attempt. I finally did, and he was playing a game of chess with his dad because both his Internet and cable were down. After a long awkward pause, I asked if I should leave him to his game. He said something along the lines of “I’m probably being really boring right now.” And because I’m totally unskilled, I didn’t answer! I was told the next day by Rebekah that this was the WORST thing I could have done! It was worse than telling him he was boring! How was I to know? After more awkward pauses, I said goodbye and that was that.

I spent the next few nights being completely emo. In the mean time, at group events, my “boob shirts” became quite the hit with several individuals. Between having wrappers thrown down there and many crude comments, I realized that the only individual who I wanted to notice my change in wardrobe was the only one who DIDN’T notice it. To add to my disgruntled disposition, I got molested more times than I can count by Mareika, Nikita, Bryson, Jazmine, Kristin, Karissa, etc.

Finally, it came to the point where I had to ask. I couldn’t think about much else. So I phoned him up on Sunday and had the most AWKWARD conversation of my life. When he answered, I was basically like, “Don’t worry, I won’t tie up your phone line for too long this time, I just had a quick question to ask you”. He said, “ya…?” Then there was a pause so long it felt like someone crammed about 20 million hours into the 5 seconds of a gap. At this point, I honestly debated about slamming down the phone and pretending I never phoned. I seriously wanted to die. Finally I stumbled forward with some gibberish about grad. After making a complete fool of myself, I managed to blurt out “but you already know what I’m going to ask, don’t you?” “Yup” was pretty much his answer for that. So I eventually just did it. Asked him. I can’t believe I was SUCH A DORK. But, after that disastrous proposal, he actually said YES. Can you believe it? I still can’t! But he definitely gave a positive response, and I still managed to become a bigger dork! “Really?!” Him = “ya.” lol. I wanted to die! So I stuttered out “So I guess I’ll see you tomorrow?” and ended the most awkward phone conversation of my life.

Needless to say that, despite my horrid skills (or lack there of) I am so beyond excited for prom now! I have no clue how I’ll bring up the topic of sharing limo prices and such, but for now I’m more than satisfied! I’m going to prom with the guy I’ve really wanted to for a while! I can’t wait to go dress shopping (in spite of my size 18 bust and my size 10 body!) I really am totally looking forward to this! He’s such a nice guy! I’ve always wanted to go to prom with a really good male friend, and I’m hoping he considers me a good enough friend to make it fun for him too.

In the mean time, my grad photos were quite the success! Check my last entry for details! My hair was so curly! I love it so immensely! There’s also a link to my pictures on the last journal entry. I was so happy with them! I’m going for 3 poses. The 1st one on the top, and the 2nd and 3rd on the bottom are my favorites.

As an addition to this lovely long post, I must put in at least one last thing! I do hope my friend doesn’t mind me adding this! I sent the link of my grad photos to him, and it was one of his first times seeing pictures of me. I was actually asking for advice with my eyebrows of all things! And he told me first off, “don’t be offended, but you look a lot like…” and then there was a long time where he didn’t finish his sentence… I waited on msn worrying about just about everything! I was convinced he was going to tell me I was a fat cow or totally ugly, but when he finally talked, he said the most amusing thing I’ve ever had said to me! He said that I looked like a “se... ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel My gorgeous hair http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11804168/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11804168/ Tue, 13 Feb 2007 19:26:07 PST
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Innocent Uke
Innocent Uke
Take Are you a Seme or an Uke? today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.
Cute and sweet, and most gentle of all uke. Whips and chains are not for you - you just want someone to love you. You are often spotted in candy shops wearing furry kitty ears, where you are sure to be noticed by the Romantic Seme whose protective instincts will kick in and will only want to take you home and love and protect you. And you of course will be more than happy to spend the rest of your life baking cookies for your seme.


]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Tagged http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11536431/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11536431/ Mon, 22 Jan 2007 23:22:16 PST
01) First name: Jo
02) Your nickname in dA: Jinx
03) Birthday: August 22nd
04) Horoscope sign: Leo
05) Birth town: Penticton
06) Religion: Christian
07) Nationality: Canadian
08) Parents: 2
09) Do you love them: I suppose. XP
10) Brothers or sisters: 3 way older half sisters
11) Do you like the place where you live: Meh. Its alright
13) Colour of your eyes: Brown
14) Height: 5'1-2ish
15) Weight: You ask that and I'll kill you
16) What school/grade are you going to: Grad year baby!
17) What marks do you have: I don't wanna talk about that. ><
18) Do you work anywhere: Timmy's hoe right here!
19) What do you want to be in your life: Dunno.
20) Your life: Is emo! woot! ><
21) Personal quote: I heart you!
22) Lucky number: 6
23) What are you interested in: Drawing, animals, William Beckett...
24) Good side of your character: Hahaha... I don't have a good side to my character.
25) Bad side of it: Loud, annoying, emo
26) Is your life happy: sometimes. I can either be extremely bouncy and happy, or really annoying and emo.
27) Do you think that you are crazy: Think? I know I am!
28) What is the time: 11.07pm
29) What is the date: January 22nd /07
30) What’s the weather like: Kinda cloudy.
31) Favourite day in a week: Friday. I work Saturdays, so those always suck. XP
32) Favourite music: Country, pop/rock...
33) Singer: Clay Aiken
34) Band: The Academy Is... and Head*First
35) Song: Skeptics and True Believers
36) Best concert you have been: Clay Aiken! I'm going to the Bare Naked Ladies on Feb 5th, and Emerson Drive on March 4th!
37) Actress: Sandra Bullock
38) Actor: Daniel Radcliffe! *giggles*
39) Film: Moulin Rouge
40) TV serial: FMA
41) Theatre play: Guys and Dolls! *when you see a guy reach for stars in the sky, you can bet that he's doing it for some DOLL!*
42) Film director: Christopher Columbus. I can't believe they replaced him for the 3rd and 4th movies! ><
43) Do you want to be famous: It would be nice
44) Do you want to be an actor/actress: If I were tallented
45) Do you want to be a singer:If I were tallented
46) Book: Peeps
47) Colors: Blue and pink
49) Food: BBQ Salmon and Pizza! (not together though...)
50) Drink: Ice Tea
51) Sweet: Bananas! Those little sugar ones! Yum!
52) Fruit: Strawberries!
53) The worst food: Pickled Artichoke.
54) The Worst drink: Rum
55) The worst Singer: Its a tie between Rhean and William HUNG
56) The worst Band: Stutterfly
57) The worst Actor: Tom Cruise... but he's so CUTE when he TRIES!
58) The worst Actress: Ema Watson. Only because I'm insanely jealous of her job
59) The worst Movie: SNAKES ON A FUCKING PLANE
60) The worst book: The Horse and his Boy. And Lovely Bones. And Brave New World
61) Do you drink alchocol: Nope
62) Do you smoke: Nope
63) Do you take some drugs (and what): Nope
64) What do you adore to wear: Hoodies and Jeans
65) Do you think you're pretty: lolz
66) What languages do you speak: English, and that's it.
67) The most beautiful person you have ever seen/male: WILLIAM BECKETT
68) The most beautiful person you have ever seen/female?: Shania Twain. I wish I looked like that
69) The most beautiful person on dA/male: What?
70) The most beautiful person on dA/female: What?
71) 5 your best friends on dA/male: I'm not gunna list ppl!
72) 5 your best friends on dA/female:I'm not gunna list ppl!
73) The ugliest person on dA/male:I'm not gunna list ppl!
74) The ugliest person on dA/female:I'm not gunna list ppl!
75) The person on dA who you love the most/female:I'm not gunna list ppl!
76) The person on dA who you love the most/male:I'm not gunna list ppl!
77) The person on dA who you don’t like at all/female:I'm not gunna list ppl!
78) The person on dA who you don’t like at all/male:I'm not gunna list ppl!
79) Are you in love?: Nope
80) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: Nope
81) How does he/she looks like:
82) Is he/she from dA(put avatar):
83) When was your Very First Kiss:ever? I'm not telling! *giggles*
84) How was it: it was my first kiss.It sucked. XP
87) E-mail addess: lolz!
88) Do you have something against gays: I'm against it, I have to admit, but I certainly don't persecute every homosexual I see. I have a few friends who are gay. XP
89) The best experience in your life: Anime Evolution
90) The worst experience in your life: The rest of my life. XP
91) When were you the happiest: Anime Evolution, and when I finally tracked down The Academy Is... CD on Sunday. ~fallenconcreteangel New Years http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11292130/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11292130/ Tue, 02 Jan 2007 17:55:55 PST

Ok, so here's my New Years!

I worked from 3-11:30. I worked with someone I don't really like working with, but I was in the back most of the time, so that was all good. Christy came a little early, so my coworker told me to just go. I am forever in her dept. XP Before I left, I grabbed about 6 dozen doughnuts, 2 dozen muffins, and any croisants, danishes, and cinnamon rolls to bring to Dave's house. When I got in the car with Christy, she told me that she didn't have enough gas to drive around till the countdown like we'd planned, so she took me home to shower and change before bringing me to the party. In the car, she told me that Dave was out at about 10pm. He ended up puking all over the stairs and bathroom and even cut his finger a little on a picture frame he broke.

I got there at about 11:58. No joke. Just in time for Bryson to glomp me and remind me that my boobs are the same size as Tifa's and that I should cosplay as her sometime because we're both brunettes. (he was rather wasted) I made my way over to the TV after disembarking Bryson from my body. On the way there, Vic bombarded me with his appologies for failing me. He wasn't drunk at that point, but had a big of rum earlier in the evening.

Rhean was slightly tipsy when I got there, but he holds his liquor fairly well. He asked if we could hug for the countdown. I graciously turned him down, and ended up hugging Charlie instead. XP He had apparently chugged a huge glass of rum earlier, but didn't seem to be too tipsy. After the countdown, I wipped out on the couch with Karissa. She sat on me for a while, but left pretty quickly. For the next hour, the drunk ppl made fools of themselves, and I found myself being rather amused by their antics. Nakita insisted she wasn't drunk, she was just on a "sugar high" from the cookies and the irish cream. She then concluded that cookies reproduce asexually and that they're all gay. Bryson continued plastering me with his comments about Tifa. He told everyone there that they were his best friend at least 5 times each. He planted himself between Tom and me, and I got him to grop Tom at least twice. Tom got me back however, when he placed Bryson's hand on my arse, and I got the unpleasent shock of a grab. >< Charlie and I had fun w/ Bryson as we tried to convince him that if he closed his eyes he could kiss *insert name here*. However, Charlie was on an opposing team as I tried to make Bryson kiss Tom, and he tried to make Bryson kiss me. ><

I believe it was at this point when Matt arrived, and he came just in time for me to make a jerk of myself. When Vic went to fetch himself some rum, I tried to snag it from him. Of course he made the natural assumption that I was trying to spare him the issues of dealing with being drunk. When he finally realized my intentions for reaching for his alcohol, he went and got me my own glass of rum. Being the unskilled shmuck that I am, half of it ended up down my shirt. At about the time I was asking Rhean for a sip of whatever concoction he had created, Matt walked in. The one person I wish hadn't seen me drink came right at that moment. I'd rather have my parents catch me wasted than have Matt see me take a sip. The look alone made me realize I'd lost any slight bit of respect I may have earned from him in the last few years. My mum I could negotiate with, and my dad I could ignore, but Matt's look of dissapointment was enough to make me feel asshamed.

Moving on to the night, Vic got completely smashed, and ended up making out with Nakita for about 3 hours straight. At this time, I was tending to Bryson by fetching him fresh water and holding his bucket in case of any mishaps. I abandoned this post only when Alysha came to take over. At this point, Kory attempted to phone Tiffany (his girlfriend). Considering it was about 4am, and Tiffany's parents are more conservative than mine, I disarmed him and hid his cell. He spent the next hour finding an ice pick and attempting to hunt me down while yelling, "Where's the Rum gone?" Alysha wrestled the ice pick away from him as I hid behind Christy. Vic and Nakita were separated when it was time for everyone to go to bed, and by this time Dave was sober enough to have decent conversations with.

Christy drove me home, and ended up having Tom, Alysha, and Charlie staying at her house. I was home around 5. It was an interesting way to ring in the new year. I learned a little from the experience, and I doubt I'll be wanting anything to do with alcohol for quite some time. The first hour was funny, but after that it got tiring.

On... ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel He's BAAAAAAACK... http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11229134/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11229134/ Fri, 29 Dec 2006 00:33:59 PST < Srsly! And the pic of Chris screaming at me is totally my fav. And this was supposedly BEFORE our "disagreement" XP It totally fits! And Leon! *glomps* I love Leon! *snickers* Anywho, a night filled with oogling over fantabulous pickies and attempting to watch Pirates of the Carribean over Rhean's yelling and Brett's playing w/ his new tablet. XP Man... things are going to go back to normal soon! ^^ I missed him! I think everyone has. Things just weren't the same w/out him! I hope he knows that. Missed you man! ^^

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Christmas http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11207281/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11207281/ Wed, 27 Dec 2006 00:54:03 PST
I got all that I asked for. This includes all kinds of things to pack and fold clothes really small (I got one of those zip locks that you put your clothes in and it flattens them to less than half the size they were before) A few compartments for rolling up shirts and such, a slightly tacky but very practical purse for on the plane, and so many types of mini shampoos/soaps/toothpastes/hand sanitizers/hand creams. On the plane, they only allow certain sizes of these products, and it is highly recomended that all the students have these things in case of misplaced luggage. Along with this, I got the crazy plug things for my appliances. In France and England, they have different plug ins and sockets than in North America. So I got a converter for both countries, and a special travel hair dryer. XP

I also got a few unexpected items. I got a crazy cooking pan/pot thing. I've recently been experimenting with easy and quick things like beef/burger, eggs, and chicken. (Not all together, but on different occations) I also got a crystal sleigh to match the reindeer I pleaded for last year. I got a new piece for my Christmas village. This time it was something I really liked. I won't get into details about my previous experiences with my village, but this year I got a really cute little church with fibre optics. (I know that sounds really tacky, but I've always wanted a little Christmas village) My mum also got me some weird stocking stuffers this year. The most bizzare perhaps consisted of hair curlers. I used to want long curly/wavy hair. So she got me these crazy curlers. They're actually kinda kewl. Of couse they didn't help much for Christmas. I didn't have time to blow dry, so my hair was too wet. >< lol. I also got some cute Tinkerbell stocking stuffers and a ton of chocolate.

The ring I lost on August 24th 2005 is sort of replaced now. My mum found a ring about the same size (although it doesn't resemble my Avon rose ring in ANY way at all) it fits the same, and therefore will help me get over my loss. XP Its been about a year and a half, and I still mourn for my poor favorite ring. lol.

More stuffers included socks (of course) make up, and a ton of CD Roms (because my mum wants my pics off the computer. She thinks its slowing down too much.) Speaking of which, we got a new keyboard (it was supposed to be for my dad, but I use the comp more than he does) and along with it a mouse. They're both plain, but kinda pretty. Wireless. Then, today my parents went out to get a new card for their camera, and came back with not only that, but a webcam. ^^ London Drugs ftw! 0_o Anywho, I thought that was kinda awesome.

My sister in Saskatchewan (Amy) and her family bought me a few things. A scarf and toque that I'd never really buy, but I think they're kinda cute. But they're out of the 3 colors I don't wear. Orange, yellow, and purple. I have a great brown shirt that'll do, and some earrings the same shade of purple, so its all good. She also got me a couple Christmas tree ornaments. They aren't the right colors, but they work. They're clear for the most part, so it all works out.

My sister in Peachland (April) with her family bought me an awesome binder with Raven on it! ^^ I was planning on getting that binder a few months ago until Jessica talked me out of it. Along with this they also got me a framed pic of Belle (Disney Princess all the way!)

My sister in Aldergove (Sheryl) and her family got me a gift card for Coles. Now I can preorder the 12th Volume of Tsubasa and order in the Character Guide. ^^

My Aunt (that lives here) bought me some more travel things, and also exchanged some money into Euros for my trip.

My Grandma is a Jehova's Witness. She isn't supossed to celebrate Christmas. This year however, she did the turkey dinner. ^^ It was awesome. She also gave me a necklace and a pretty wooden box. (I have a box fettish. I'll admit it.) And in that little box was $100. That was a shock to me! lol. She always surprizes me. To be honest, the thing I love most about it all was that she did the big dinner. She could be excommunicated from her "church" if anyone from the hall found out. I adore my Grandma! She's the sweetest old lady you'll ever meet! And before I left, she made sure to load me up with all kinds of squares and chocolate creations.

My Christmas in general was awesome. My boxing day was decent. At work, one of the first cars to come through put me into a panic mode. I had to hide in the back. He came through, and ordered a dozon doughnuts. Jenny took the order, and I got the doughnuts. I talked to him over the headset and he told me what ones he wanted. There was no bi... ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Disgruntled Female http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11093944/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11093944/ Sun, 17 Dec 2006 11:52:16 PST
Listening to some of my fav Prozzak music (which I've recently become openly hooked on thanks to Christy) I've always adored them, I've just been a bit closet. XP Anywho, here goes my latest rant! ^^

For the first time in so so long, my mum and I were going to hang out alone. Just the two of us. We were going to go to the movies, and watch Charolette's Web. We had seen the preview one night while watching Two and a Half Men (with my dad watching over our shoulders). So far, every time in the last few months that we try to do some kind of "girls night", my dad has managed to wreck it for me. When he was away in Vancouver, the first night my mum had to go to a meeting/party and the next night I had to work. So the day after that, my mum promised me that we'd decorate the downstairs Christmas Tree together. I woke up a few hours earlier than I had been planning, and was up and dressed at the time she requested. But then, she got a call. I think it was from the office, so she had to go. When she finally came back, she started doing house work. Why couldn't she have gotten me to do that while she was gone? Why couldn't she have waited till after the tree? Why couldn't she think out a different solution?! >< By the time we went to do the tree, my dad had gotten home. About 4 hours early. He came home 4 hours early, and managed to spoil the few hours I was SUPPOSED to have with my mum.

As he started having meetings throughout the week, my mum and I planned chick flicks and popcorn. He'd always come home right at the ending, the main part of the climax, and manage to destroy it for me. Half the time he'd be shuffling around asking what movie it was, and the other half the time he'd be requesting popcorn. Srsly, how hard is it for him to put the bag in the microwave UPSTAIRS on his OWN?! Toss the bag in for about 4 min, and when its done put it in the bowl. Presto. Popcorn. Without the aid of his wife. Even I'M not that disabled. Apparently he is.

Ok, so for the first time in what feels like decades my mum and I were going to go to the theatre while my dad was at the hockey game. I was working 4-8 (first 4 hour shift in a long while) and mum was supposed to pick me up, take me home to shower and change, and then we'd go to the theatre for the 9:10 showing. While at work, my sister stopped by. She asked what I was doing later, and I told her. Then, she said jokingly that we should take Beth (her 5-year-old daughter, and consequently, my neice.) My reaction said it all. When she asked just what was wrong with that notion, I informed her about my dad seemingly foiling any mother/daughter time I managed to snag. Then I jinxed it all. I told her, that I knew he'd find a way to come. I knew something would happen.

Well, I was right! >< The first thing my mum told me when I got into the van to pick me up was, "Oh, and Walt will be joining us at the theatre." Right away, she realized this was a mistake. She continued to point out that she thought I wanted it to be a "family thing". What was she THINKING?! Why did she think I only mentioned it when she was the only one there?! Didn't she pick up on it when I said WE should see it!? US. As in the TWO OF US. As in, JUST the two of us!!

He ended up coming home from the hockey game early, and we all drove together to the theatre. Oh joy. We were there about 20 min early, and the early show hadn't even gotten out yet. So I had to stand there like a complete idiot with both my parents waiting for the show. Great. I have nothing against being with my mum in public. My dad, on the other hand, has taught just about everyone in Penticton. I swear, its sick. He's taught half my friend's siblings and their PARENTS. I was incredibly bitter about him coming, and pretty much refused to talk to either of them the entire time.

My mum tried to make it up to me by asking if I wanted to watch "Happy Feet" sometime with just her, but by then the damage had been done. I don't think I want much to do with either of them anymore. And this time, it was her fault he came. It had nothing to do with him even wanting to come, but with her misunderstanding my intentions. This was supposed to be the one time I'd have my mum to myself. Thank you so much world. I'm just so sick of things never working out. I think I've learned not to have any expectations. Then they'll always be met.

In the mean time, I'm ending up spending a lot more than I wanted to on Christmas gifts. I was only going to buy about 2 or 3 of the guys in my group gifts (because they're all prats) but now it seems I'll be buying all of them something. I'm hardly friends with most of them, (Tom, Vic, etc) but I'd just feel bad if I didn't. Even though I hardly talk to them anymore, they're still part of the "group". I t... ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Psychology http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11034495/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/11034495/ Mon, 11 Dec 2006 22:35:52 PST
"Wear this for a week in your sleep and do NOT wash it. Bring them in next Tuesday, and we'll sniff them. Don't show anyone the number on the tag so that no one knows who's is who's."

So, here goes! I'm wearing it. >< And I discovered a red stain on it. Its from being folded up. There's a horse that looks like its on crack on the back, so when its folded up, the red and black rubs on the front. So there's a stain on mine. Goody. Its itchy and uncomfortable and icky. But we get to keep them afterwards! LAWL! Not that I really want this thing. So itchy. >< lol, so it'll be... interesting... and really gross. Not sure I'll make it all the way through. I've already decided I may just be "sick" the day we sniff. SRSLY. I don't want to sniff other ppl's shirts. And I'm not so keen on others sniffing mine. What kind of cracked assignment is this?! lol. I think our teacher finally snapped. And it goes to my knees. Wtf. I didn't know shirts CAME in this size. And I've worn guy's clothes in large. Srsly! lol. It'll be amusing if I stick it out. XP

So, I suppose I'm just about done this blog. Trés Amusent, non? I don't take French anymore. lol.

On a different note, Christy and I were craving Wendy's, and since ours is closed for renovations, we drove to the next closest one! Westbank! lol. Listened to Prozzak the whole way there and back of course! When we got there, their drive thru was closed... Christy almost cried. Just as I suggested Kelowna, she noticed that the inside was open. So we got our Junior Bacon Cheese Burgers and Spicy Chicken Fillets. All was right with the world. When we arrived safely back in Penticton (barely w/ Christy's driving! XP) We went and visited poor sick Bryson (and his awesome puppy Eddy! ^^ Springer Spaniel who is so ADORABLE!) Then went on to Vic's. Yoko Ono is so cute! (his Lasa Apso puppy! I love her! I'm going to kidnap her. I've already decided that) It was all grand. We would have visited a few others, but we ran out of time. >< *tear* But all was good and wonderful.

That is a quick update on the life of Jo.

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Devious Journal Entry http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10964314/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10964314/ Tue, 05 Dec 2006 18:31:07 PST < I'd have helped had I known! Then the actual play became a conflict for me helping out. I managed to get out of school on Thursday, although I missed a Biology test that I'll be doing tomorrow at lunch. That day I had to be there for Nakita. She had a scene change that took about 5 seconds. For that, Karemi and I had to strip her down, and put on her costume. On the Thursday matiné, Emi wasn't there, so I had to do it alone. I didn't make it to all the shows because my parents are currently in Arizona, so I had no ride. I managed to snag a ride with Emi a few times, so that was really good. ^^ On closing night poor Charlie got sick! >< So I took his place in the sound booth with sound effects. I was late on a few of them, but it wasn't my fault. >< When you push play, there's a 5 second delay. So I had already pushed the play button, and Mrs. Grant was freaking out saying that I was too late. Well, I hit it on the cue I was supposed to! It wasn't my fault! So from then on in, I pushed the stupid thing ahead of time. It all worked out I guess. The cake on closing night was the best! I didn't get to see the exploding one on Friday evening. (I think it was Friday) >< I was making eggs that night due to some helpful *cough* advice. XP Only after that individual chewed me out. lol. Anyways, the play was awesome! Boston Pizza was fun, and this year I bought a shirt. ^^ Red! I quite like it despite the fact that its about 3 sizes too big. lol. The last party was so fun! I left really early though... I was so upset about that! Mrs. Grant was in the middle of announcing the spirit of the show (which I believe was well deserved by both Vic and Suki! ^^) and my cell kept ringing. I tried turning down the volume, but it wouldn't work! I figured if I turned it off it would be too loud (and I didn't think the person would KEEP calling) Finally ppl were starting to get pissed off at me, so I took the rather unsubtle hint and left the room (altho several ppl said that no one cared) I phoned Christy, because I assumed it was her who phoned. (we were supposed to hang out that evening) And it turns out it was Sandi who was trying to reach Victor. Guess what she wanted? She wanted to know what his favorite Disney character is. At about midnight. During ppl's speeches. I have never been so embarassed, or so angry. >< I wanted to die. I left early, mostly because of that, and told Matt to give Chris my part in the Techie play. Aside from that lovely mishap, I had an awesome time! (At least I had the phone off during the play!) I got to write down quotes from the microphones! lol... Vic, "Lets be a penis!" Dave, "I'll be the TIP!" Kory, "What happens if a hot girl strokes you right here?" ROFL. OMFG. Bobby and I were cracking up in the sound booth! Srsly! It was so funny! Nakita had her random momments, "Fishy! Fishy! I drew a FISHY!" lol... Speaking of our dear Sharpay (Kita's character) Because I helped her with her costume changes, she bought me a thank you gift! Nakita is so nice! She got me a stuffed Unicorn (lol... it had pink on it! ^^) which I couldn't leave in my locker because Jula tends to squish my stuff (locker partners in Senior year BITES) and a My Little Pony coloring book! (complete with CRAYONS!) lol. Sometimes I adore Kita!

Anywho, just an update on all this. Its pretty awesome! I finally beat Elite Beat Agents a little while ago, and now I'm trying my hand at a harder difficulty. Been thinking of cooking lately. I suck, but I think its time I attempted such things. I was going to make a sort of taco type meat, but we didn't have any hamburger! *tear* Then I decided on a stir fry, and we have next to no vegies! (my parents are away, and they assumed I'd eat out most nights) Then I thought about just getting some prawns going with garlic butter. No chance there either. We have no garlic. >< I just suck. So I tried out the eggs I was given instructions for again, but those didn't fly either. Ended up giving it to my dog. lol. Oh well... maybe I'll go watch Hellsing or Princess Bride while I wait for my DS to charge! ^^

*Seacrest OUT!* LAWL! I miss that show... >< Anywho, Jo is now out! *FINALLY!* ^^

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Wewt! http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10907071/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10907071/ Thu, 30 Nov 2006 21:19:26 PST
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Alright, I'll make it simple. The first ten people who post in this journal entry will get featured, along with three of their deviations, which I will pick out. Why do this at all? It's more of an attention-getter than anything. Unfortunately, since nothing in life is free, you have to post this in YOUR journal, too! MUAHAHAHAHA... You'll be featured as soon as I see the entry.

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]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Chick Flicks http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10874056/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10874056/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 23:00:15 PST < Not only do I love all her movies (including the Lizzie Mcguire Movie!) She's really pretty, fairly decent at singing (and I love most of her songs) and she donates money (are you ready for this?) to several causes including the Wild Horse Foundation. Yup. She donates money to one of my passions. I've realized lately that my mind has slipped so far from my old main focuses. I miss loving horses. Of course I never stopped, but in the last few years, my goals and focuses have changed so much. lol, but enough ranting about horses... my point is, I think I might *gasp* actually LIKE Hilary Duff. In all her interviews that I've seen she seems pretty down to earth compared to a lot of my other heroes (although Reba still takes the cake in my eyes! XP) I'm thinking I have to get a few more of her movies. I've wanted The Lizzie movie since it first came out. >< And I still have yet to see Raise Your Voice! The Perfect Man was absolutely adorable! lol, I loved how she set up her mum! *snickers* The other guy was so fething CREEPY! lol. But the movie itself was awesome. I think the best part of this movie would have to be the rain at the end. So corny, but so adorable! lawl. Anywho, long enough rant about nothing as per usual.

Enjoy!

Bye bye! ^^

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel EB... doesn't suck? http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10839888/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10839888/ Fri, 24 Nov 2006 22:36:41 PST
^^ Guess this means EB doesn't suck as much as I thought it did... XP

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Spider Man is tacky, and the world should die http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10828852/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10828852/ Thu, 23 Nov 2006 22:36:30 PST
Just watched Spider Man 2. It is packed with corn and cheese. It hurts my feelings almost as much as the horrendous Disney movie known as High School Musical. However, it once again confirmed my addiction to Toby. XP I <3 him almost as much as Topher Grace as Pete from Win a Date W/ Tad Hamilton. (whats with the Peter's?! Gawd! *smacks head*) Anywho, as much as I love Spider Man, it is tacky as fuck. I must admit though, I can't wait for the third movie. ^^ Although I've always noticed that MJ has no emotion. Her eyes always look dead. Near the end of the second one she shows some feeling, but aside from that, all the way through the first and second, she looks lifeless. Her dress in the last one was gorgeous! But aside from the closing scene, it burns my soul (as so many things do)

As for the world dying... ya... not getting into specifics, but even though I'm looking forward to my numerous trips and exciting events, I believe the world should simply implode. I would greatly appreciate it. ^^

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel BNL!!! http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10814242/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10814242/ Wed, 22 Nov 2006 17:26:56 PST < Sorry if I forgot someone! ^^; Only so much I can do! lol. Anywho, I'm so excited about it! The whole time Rhean kept saying I was going to spoil the surprize for Vic cause I kept saying I couldn't wait for Feb, but when Vic said he knew what we were getting him, he said it was because of Rhean spoiling it! ^^ Mwahaha! See?! IT WASN'T ME! lol. I totally can't wait though! I think I'm more excited than Vic is! I love the BNL! My sister is so jealous! I feel bad, I wish I could get her tickets too. >< She loves them as much as I love Clay Aiken. (if thats posible!) She's seen them before (with BOX seats) so she's not too upset, but she is jealous. XP If I could afford it, I'd buy her and her b/f tickets. But right now, thats not rly an option for me. She wanted to go w/ me anyways, and thats RLY not an option. Sorry April, but I'm going w/ the HALLWAY! >< Gawd, what have I gotten myself into?! lol, I can't wait! ^^

In the mean time, there's 116 days until I'm in EUROPE! HELLS YA! I can't wait for that either! I even got new... you guessed it... LUGGAGE! rofl. Its dark red, and its the crazy kewl brand w/ the sea horse on it! Emi would be so insanely jealous! (she loves sea horses) and I got this crazy packing thing... it comes w/ a folding board thingy, and you can use it all to make stuff that would normally take up the whole suitcase only take up about 1/4-1/2 of the space! ^^ I can't wait! I know its so long till Spring Break, but I can't wait! Omg, this year is turning out so awesome already! ^^ Between the ending of summer w/ the whole AE thing (which was the most awesome time EVER!) and new bonding sessions (Becka!) not to mention the numerous trips ahead for me! Omg, I totally can't wait! ^^ Plus, Rhean is working on a killer slide show for the end of grade 12. Can you BELIEVE IT?! GRADE FRICKING 12! Its so exciting! I can't believe we're DOING THIS! lol. I'm so pathetic! lol. Ohs wells, it'll be so awesome! ^^

So, with that lovely rant, and a positive mood from me (prolly one of the first times in my LIFE... although... this time 4chan actually HELPED! rofl... ya... wheel of 4chan... don't ask) I will now sign off! ^^ w00t fricking wewt!

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel The hallway is going to kill me... http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10728738/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10728738/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 22:15:10 PST < I couldn't resist! It was so dirt cheap! $50 as opposed to about $150... and its new. From like, a store! XP I bought myself a DS. Its blue unfortunately, but thats all they had. And I got the last one. I went, and looked where Amber told me it would be, but couldn't find it. When I went around again after assuming they had sold out, I spotted the last one. It is pure beauty. I love it. I'm going to buy Nintendogs the first chance I get (the one w/ the dalmations!) and the crazy game Vic was playing today in Law... that looked so kewl! You pick songs, and you tap the screen on circles in time to the music. Kinda tarded, but I totally want it! XP Maybe Tetris, just so I can say I've attempted that blasted thing! So, when I show up someday at school, I'm sure the entire hallway will attack me about it. For me, since it was about a third, or maybe just half the price, I believe it was worth it. If all else fails, I'm sure I can find someone who wants a cheap DS. XP But for now, I'm charishing this new baby close to my heart. ^^ *Giggles*

:heart:

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Slumber Party! ^^ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10703958/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10703958/ Sun, 12 Nov 2006 17:36:12 PST
Ok, so at the mall... we managed to cram ourselves in one of those photo booths... Unfortunately, it wasn't all together! >< But that’s ok, Leash, Sandi, and Jocelyn K were together, then Joslynn D and I went together for the next set. It was so fun! ^^ I first had to wait in line for FOREVER for change from Save on (while buying gum) and I had to go through Jessica's checkout, so ya... huge line up. lol. After that, we all headed off and visited Christy, WHO FINALLY GOT HER N!!! I'm so proud! She beat Matt... he took 4 times, she only took 3! ^^ Anywho, so we visited her at work. After a while, we split off. Alysha and I went to the Bay, and the others went shopping. When Leash got a call on her cell, it was Sandi asking where we were. We had just made the lovely purchase of 100 suckers for 94 cents, and the cashier was so intent on our conversation over the phone that she couldn't figure out how much change she owed me back. XP It was so great! So, after explaining to our distraught friends who were searching for us where our location was, we moved! We saw them go into the Bay, and we booked it the other way. We made it to Coles when they phoned again. Once more, we relinquished our coordinates, only to race out of the store and down the long mall center. We made it outside, and headed for the cover of trees. As we passed a gray truck, Leash received a third phone call. She decided to give hints this time. So, it started with the truck. “We’re next to something gray” After that was “A man in a red and black coat just passed us.” Then, we headed to a corner jutting into the outside of the mall, and explained the walls as being textured. After a long time of maniacal giggling, we told them we were located outside. Then we dove for cover under some bushes behind a tree. I swear it took the other three girls a decade to get there. When they did, more giggling and crazy cackling ensued. It was awesome.

From there, we found Christy’s car in the far corner of the parking lot, and attacked it. We had bought wrapping paper (which we ended up having less than half of what we thought we had) and some bows and tape, and used these as great weapons. The car looked lovely after we had finished our quick decorating. Then we went to Starbucks to wait for her. I ordered a Snowman cookie, and a gingerbread latte. Well, I said a Tall. And when I got my lid… it didn’t fit. So Joslynn decided a great game would occur. She used the lid to act out a lovely scene of Mr. Snowman. He was a jovial little lad, who loved to pick on me! XP It was so funny. Then, Joslynn accidentally called him Mr. Sperm man (we know what SHE was thinking about!) and so he became a super hero! In his down time, he’s Mr. Snowman. On his “up” time, however, he transforms into a brave and daring superhero known as Mr. Sperm man! Saving infertile couples, one egg at a time! We were dying we were laughing so hard. Omg… Srsly! It was so funny! Finally, Christy came out, and she almost killed us when she read the note we left with the car that read, “I know where you live”. On the back was a message that she had received earlier from a creepy stalker who has been after her as a gf for years that said, “I’ll call you!” ROFL! She wanted us dead! It was great.

Moving on into the night, we finally headed back to Christy’s house. It was greatly amusing! XP Before we went there, we piled into 3 different cars, and headed to Block Buster. I was with Jocelyn, and she desperately had to go to the washroom. Between the massive amounts of caffeine and sugar, her anxiety became exaggerated, and Mr. Snowman and Mr. Sperm man had many appearances on the way to my house for the use of a bathroom. My house is about a block from the mall, and therefore was the quickest and easiest place to go for a toilet seeing as the mall was already closed. At Block Buster, we rented She’s the Man, and Bring it On. Unfortunately, we never ended up having time or the attention span to watch them.

Instead of watching the amusing movies that are generally turned to the audience of 12-year-old girls, we ended up playing a wondrous game of “I’ve Never”. Because none of us drink, we simply raised our hands when we were busted. Then the individual had to explain the circumstances they had been caught in. The first one, as I knew it would be, was from Christy. She loudly stated that she’d “never been locked in a bathroom.” For details of the background story, ask me in person, or check old blogs. It is quite painful. Long story short, I was locked in Chris and Josh’s bathroom for about15-20 min the first time I was in their house. After this, the usual bantering became apparent. Sandi used the ever so wonderful... ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel New adventure? http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10599201/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10599201/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 23:33:56 PST
Anywho, this was a long rant about the happenings of this evening, so, I bid thee all fare well! ^^

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Halloween! http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10575414/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10575414/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 19:51:56 PST
Second off, purdy sure my costume rocked! XP Maybe not perfection, but considering the day before I was going to be a cat, and I changed my mind that night. XP Tuxedo Mask... Female style! lol. Ya, complete w/ black corset! The mask was crappy... just felt tapped to my glasses, but from a distance it was hawt! And the hat was courtesy of my lovely friend Rebekah! ^^ I totally don't wanna give it back tomorrow! >< I love it so much! And the bow tie was thanx to my youth pastor, Aaron! I was at Wally World looking for a red rose, and ran into him. So he just out and out offered me the bow tie. And low and behold, when I got home, he was there to drop it off for me! ^^ It was so great! Jayne screamed and glomped me (almost sending me flying on my ass) when she saw who I was! XP The boots were painful, but they were worth it! ^^ Ya, Tux Mask didn't wear Stilettos, but gawd, they were HAWT! Ya, got several ppl after school who recognized me! (Even though Talen thought I was the phantom of the Opera!) And I didn't have an actual tux, so I wore a white button up shirt w/ a black corset over top then w/ a long black coat (that I'm in love with! Its a SMALL and it fits me! Well... I can't close the top... but I couldn't w/ the large either... and the rest fits me superbly!) lol, anywho, then w/ black pants that have a drawstring up the side, and my killer boots w/ the silver buckles! (pointed toe, with RLY thin, high heels... so high that Chris has stated that "a kitten could crawl under those!") Then, the white mask I made and stuck it on my glasses. I had a single red rose I carried w/ me between my two fingers, and had a lovely top hat that I'm too attached to! lol, all in all, I think it was awesome! Anyone who has watched Sailor Moon could figure it out. ^^ Unfortunately, the reason I was doing that was because Karissa was going to be Sailor Jupiter... but her costume didn't come on time! *tear* So, I dedicate this blog, as well as my costume to one of my greatest skronkers (and wives) Karissa! ^^ She was definately my inspiration! lol. To complete this, Chris told me I was "very attractive" as Tuxedo Mask. lol, made me giggle a tad! XP So, to conclude, happy Halloween, and I hope you all are out there having more fun than I seem to be atm! XP *huggles*

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Mmm... These doughnuts are GOOD! ^^ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10295979/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/10295979/ Thu, 05 Oct 2006 17:20:57 PDT
First off, my parents were kind enough to not only give me a ride down, but also decided that since they were going, they might as well drive Christy, Chris, Matt, and Brett down as well. So with a van packed with teenagers, we set out. I had shottied the middle right hand side long before, and Christy the left. Brett however, tends to get ill in the mornings so Christy was kind enough to relinquish her middle seat. She got stuck in the back. Between 2 rather sweaty guys. I laugh at her! XP So for most of the way down, we each had our own amusements. My new iPod became one of my best friends! haha... it was amusing to watch the wars going on behind me though! ROFL

First day was pretty exciting. Just picking up Christy’s, Matt’s, and my badges. Chris and Brett had to wait until the next day to register. All worked out wonderfully though. Chris bought light jeans the first day so that he could cosplay as L from Death Note. He ended up having to do his own eyeliner though. (sorry! ^^;) But ya, first day was more the build up of the greatness! XP In the mall, Christy and I found Sakura Media! We were completely overwhelmed! XP I bought 2 posters! One of Fai D. Flowright! I'm in love with it!! ^^ The other of Li and Sakura (Tsubasa style!) I had to refrain from spending a lot... So much wonderfulness! XP

Second day! w00t! MERCHANDICE! I totally pounced on all the good Tsubasa stuff! Got this rly RLY pretty necklace with the Tsubasa Wing on it! I love it so much! It’s so awesome! The chain is pretty too! I love it! Its one of my fav purchases of the trip! I also got the Tsubasa Sound track! AAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I also got an Edward Elric wallet (which I found out shortly after was a rip off for $25... found a Gundam Seed one w/ Kira and Lacus for $5 in the smaller dealers room... so I bought it TOO!!) I also got 2 wall scrolls (both group shots from Tsubasa... go figure!) Then bought a necklace w/ the symbol from the village of the leaves (w/ the slash through it, so I'm all REBEL NINJA!) Then these rly cute pencils! AII!! One is white and blue w/ Kakashi on it, and the other is white and pink w/ Sakura on it. Then one girl from sorta our group showed me a mini Cloud that she bought, and I was like, AAAAIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!! She paid $8 for it... Someone else showed me that they got the set of Cloud, Tifa, Kadaj, Yazoo, and Loz all for $15! So I got the set! XP I love my mini Cloud! (Another fav purchase! Cloud!!)

Next...

SIGNINGS!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIII IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

I love Vic! XP He's the voice of Edward Elric (FMA) as well as Dark (DN Angel) and I love him!! XP I was so excited getting his autograph!! But... I have a problem with celebrities. I can't talk to them. When I met a guy who had been on Canadian Idol (like... 12th place... not even top 10) I couldn't talk to him. Imagine that with someone who I believe to be one of the best characters of ALL time. Ya... I walk up to him. He says, "How are you?" I manage to stumble/stutter out "F-f-f-i-i-i-n-n-e..." (very high-pitched remember!) He then asks, "is this for you?" (pointing to Volume One of FMA) I nodded. He looks at me expectantly... I finally realize he's waiting for my NAME. "Oh! J-J-o-a-a-a-n-n-n-a!" I stumble. He smiles his ADORABLE smile, and signs it w/ a big heart. :heart: ^^ At this point in time... I'm too nervous to ask for a pic.

We then wait in line for Scott McNeil. And in the mean time, I feel retarded for not asking for a pic. My friends start bugging me about how I should have. Then they all laugh. They know something about this next voice actor. He's a talker. He talks to the fans. He will know with one look that I can't talk to ppl like that. He will pick on me. They all know it. And they tell me this. Not so helpful for the nerves. Sure enough, when we get to the front of the line, I offered to let Christy go first, but she gets this EVIL look on her face, and PUSHES me up front. So I'm already stumbling around. He takes one look at me and KNOWS that I'm too shy to do much talking. First thing he says... "Hello girl... Step into my OFFICE!" In the CREEPIEST VOICE I'VE EVER FETHING HEARD IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!! me=*whimper!* I got him to sign my badge. And he went by that name rather than my real name. He then asks me, "So, what’s your fav show?" And of course I'm too fright... ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel SHOPPING!! ^^ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9613279/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9613279/ Sun, 06 Aug 2006 00:34:51 PDT
First off...
SHOES... You need new shoes dude... you just do. XP I'm thinking 2 pairs... one black, one brown. Of course other colors might be permitted depending on how great they are. >< Blue and green are always nice... but not nuetral enough...

Second...
Some shirts. I'm thinking at least 5 more shirts. They can be discount, but they have to be NICE. ^^ Maybe that black one you tried on at Bootlegger... it didn't blow me away, but I think you could make it work. XP And you could wear the light jeans (cosplay jeans) with it. I do think that'd go well... Another great piece would be a black zipper hoodie. Much like the one you have in blue. I think it'd look nice with the white shirt (cosplay) that you're planning on buying. And keep in mind, you don't NEED the blue hoodie with the brown shirt... its absolutely AWESOME together, but its not completely necessary... if you MUST, you could go without. Or, you can put the blue hoodie with a simple looking black shirt. (NOT like the one from Bootlegger though...)

btw, some main things I'd never cut out of your wardrobe are: The green hoodie. I'm sorry, but its YOU! The shirts Christy got you... common... the pink!? Again... its just YOU! Same with the green shirt... same color as the hoodie... that color is Chris. *shrugs* it just is! ^^

Third...
More pants. Now that you have your one pair of expensive pants, you can get away with some more jeans that are a bit more reasonably priced... But we'll try to find a nice fit with them too. And since you will have the light ones for L, you'll only need about 2-3 more pairs. And common, you gotta cut down on the use of the old ones. XP With the hawt ones you have now?! Common! ^^

Forth...
WATCH!! Dude... your watch is fryed. XP Sorry man, but common! With that outfit, you need a hawt watch to match it! I'm thinking metal. There was that one at London Drugs... You said you liked it too, right? That pretty silver one? You said you don't like the plastic style, and I can see why. I don't care for most of them. But imo, you need that sleek look to it. Silver would look quite nice with the color palette I'm thinking of. ^^

Fifth...
Accessories!! ^^ I'm thinking maybe those jean chains you mentioned... I bet I can find some nice looking simple and medium sized chains. 2 at the max.
I also considered something like a plain simple chain (for wearing around the NECK), but I think that might be stretching it... no? XP
And as for the peircings... I would strongly suggest against another earring... I like the top part... In fact... I want it for me!! I think maybe another eyebrow ring... but the last one didn't end too well, did it? So if its that bad, you prolly shouldn't... but I liked it.

Colors!!
Ok, we got you the brown and blue... I luv it. ^^ Tottally love it!! I do think we should try to put in a small amount of pink. You can pull it off. We've already seen that. So... now how to incorperate it into the whole thing... I'm thinking with brown. Putting it with black is too emo poser. I'm thinking... brown button up shirt with a pink shirt under... *shrugs* Maybe not though... Ya... I dunno... Dunno till we look though... it might not look as great as I'm thinking... XP But there's hope. ^^ rofl.

I'm actually thinking more blue... I like the color of blue you just got... but lets experiment, shall we? I'm thinking a pretty brighter blue... XP Or a navy blue... that'd look nice with the darker hair... especially if you dye it... although... I like your natural color... I'm torn, the black looks good, but so did the brown... arg. XP Ohs wells, thats completely up to you! Its your hair man... same w/ the clothes though... but common! I did wonders! mwahaha! Even Rhean didn't pick out something better than me!! Although, next time, don't let Sandi touch your hair... ROFL! It looked good... but I'm sure the scortch marks wouldn't look too great with the "ensamble" LOL... (oh gawd... *shudders* Rob just talked... erk. I'm a gunna block him now... He's talking about his new tool belt... like... WTF...)

Another thing... green... you already have your bright green shirts, which like I said, just suit you. But I think we shoul... ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Fuck you world http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9593385/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9593385/ Fri, 04 Aug 2006 00:50:50 PDT < ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel I'm glad its different http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9566207/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9566207/ Tue, 01 Aug 2006 13:10:57 PDT < Mine are literally falling apart... the bottom looks like it'll just rip off sometime soon. Haha... I could picture that like, right in the middle of a rush in drive thru... Whoops! There go THOSE shoes! Rofl. Anywho, Thank you so much for the chats Kifter. I do appreciate them. And I'm glad you seem to. ^^ *hugs* ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel ARG... http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9560851/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9560851/ Tue, 01 Aug 2006 00:49:19 PDT < So confused... cause when I talk to him, it doesn't seem like I get any special treatment... But that friend also said that its prolly because he doesn't want me to know anything... ARG... Like I said... it was so much easier if I didn't have any hope at all... then I'd be able to let it go... but with this hope... the only way of ever knowing is by asking... or using the tips one of my friends gave me... they're stupid and childish... but also really cute and I know they'd work. XP

First of all... when he says something "funny"... laugh, and put my hand on him... preferably the chest.

Second... try to hold his hand... or at least place my hand on his. That would be so cute!! ^^ But I know I'd never have the courage to do it...

Third... A peck on the cheek. That would be the most adorable thing EVER!! >< But I couldn't... *tear*

Man... if HE did those things to ME... it would be set... ( well... minus the touching of the chest! ROFL )

Anywho... its driving me mental... to the point where I don't think of anything else... even at work... ARG... I wish I hadn't been given hope... it would be so much easier... XP But I want hope... I'm just so scared its all false hope. >< I hope not.

Anyways, enough of all that... I'm prolly gunna go reread some convos... see if there's anything else I can read into. XP

Man... I'm pathetic!! >< ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel I'm giving up... http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9536136/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9536136/ Sat, 29 Jul 2006 18:45:29 PDT < And yet... its still HIM... I can't help but want to hope... arg. It sucks, doesn't it?! vv ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Fething HELL http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9484672/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9484672/ Mon, 24 Jul 2006 23:10:40 PDT ~fallenconcreteangel It figures... http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9202552/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9202552/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 17:35:57 PDT
Anyways... this time... parts of it sucked... but I'm going to start with the parts that didn't suck. Ok... erm... Well, around Spring Break... I realized that I really had a crush on this one guy... and well... then the whole Josh thing happened, so I tried to not like him. (I wanted to give Josh a fair chance, so I basically stopped rly talking to the other guy, so that I wouldn't like him as much, and I could focus more on whether or not I liked Josh... well... if you've read my past blogs, you'll know that it didn't work out too well. lol.) Anyways, so now, after about 2 months of trying not to like him... well... I figured out that its just not how it works. So... ya... I kinda like him. lawl. And, I know I have no real shot with him. Not only has Karissa shown interest in him (Karissa ALWAYS gets who and what she wants), but I also couldn't really picture him dating anyone. Especially not someone as completely unskilled at life as me. vv. Ohs wells.

But ya, when we were floating, Karissa knocked me off my raft (cause thats as much of a bitch as she can be) and so I didn't rly feel like making an attempt at getting back on, so I just kinda floated along with it... and he kept trying to help me back on. *giggles* I know he was just being nice, but it just... I dunno... lol. He's so darn helpful! ^^

And ya... then, when I actually managed to get back on the damn float, (by my SELF!) I was just kinda floating along with the group, (kinda ignoring everyone, 'cause I a. didn't want to talk and b. I'm usually ignored anyways) and he'd randomly do things like get me wet (not rly splash, but just pour water on me) and I'd be like "what are you doing?!" (my usual response for such things) ...so of course, I had to attempt to get him back. *evil cackle* I'd wait till he was practically asleep, and then pour COLD water down his back. XP And mess his hair up more. (He hates having his head scratched) And then he'd also randomly kinda pull at my hair (I had it in a clip, which I never do. My hair is ALWAYS down) and he'd just kinda tug at the clip. lol. Like, how random? lawl. And then, when we were about an hour from the end, he looked at me and was like, "why didn't you take off your glasses?" and I explained that I didn't want to. And he was like, "well, you'd better take them off soon and find a place for them, cause you know I'm going to dunk you at the end" I was like... 0_o NO! lol. Then of course... the end came... and he held true to his promise. lol. I got dunked. XP.

The truth is, I didn't mind. (I know that its so childish of me, but I just liked having someone pay attention to me. Omg... I'm an attention whore. lol. Srsly, I don't usually try to get attention or anything, but I'm one of those ppl who doesn't care if its negative attention or not. lol. I feel so horrible about that) But really... it ment that even just for those few moments, he was thinking about me. lol. Gawd... I'm so pathetic. XP

Anyways, also, throughout the whole thing, most of the floats were tied together. Mine wasn't. But everytime my float would start separating from the group, he'd reach over and grab the handle, and say something like, "Don't worry Jo, I got ya!" like... omg! lol. I know that once again, he was just being friendly... but it was just like, "AWWWWW" lol. I really am pathetic! lawl.

Anywho... So, that was all the good things about that day... Now for some bad things. (Well, they might not be "bad" rly, but they pissed the HELL out of me!) Well, for starters, Karissa and Chris were flirting the whole time.... ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel I hate the world... http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9169469/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9169469/ Sat, 24 Jun 2006 13:35:40 PDT
Ok, lets start from the beginning, shall we?

Yesterday, after my AP Art History exam (which was rly easy - 40 Multiple choice, and one essay question - but it took FOREVER! Our essay question was basically, "Tell me what you've learned this year"... far too vague if you ask me! lol. I wrote 4 double sided large pages of paper. XP most ppl only did 3 double sided. lol) Anywho, after that luvly eyesore, Amber asked if I wanted to go to Boston Pizza for supper. They have a deal thats like $12 for all you can eat pizza, and non stop pop. She told me to invite a big group. So, as usual, I was the one planning things. With my group, planning things is SO hard. If you plan in advance, ppl forget, or we change it so many times (to fit with ppl's schedules) and then THEY DON'T EVEN SHOW! Anywho, so I phone up Christy, and she first of all said that she and Rhean would go. She said she wanted to phone ppl (She used to be the one to phone ppl up until I joined the group. She was sick of doing it... now I know why... after a year and a half of phoning and planning parties, get-togethers, dinners, movies, etc, I KNOW why she hates it. :S lol.)

So I finally gave in, and said she could phone ppl. I phoned her back after a while, and she said that she told me I could do it... like WTF? THEN she and Rhean said they didn't want to go. Did they think I WANTED TO?! Hells NO! So, she finally said she'd go IF I got a group to go. (Christy NEVER says that. She either comes or doesn't come... She never cares what others do or say. She's independent... or at least USED to be...) So... I had a problem. Now my one friend thats always been my support and backup might not be coming. Half the time when I attempt to plan things, I get so sick of the same responses, that it ends up just being Christy and me. lol. So, I was stuck phoning ppl again.

I talked to Tom first. His Aunt and Grandma were in town, so that was completely understandable. He couldn't make it. He usually ends up coming most of the time, so this one time I could let it slide. XP Well, you know what I mean. I wasn't offended at all. He had relitives there. He couldn't help that. So, next person. Chris. Chris said he'd go, but he'd have to go home early. Around 9-10. So I was fine with that. He was at least COMING! lol

Next... the person I dread phoning most of all... Brett. Oh GAWD! I hate phoning him. You have NO idea. "Hi, is Brett there please?" "Oh gawd... what do you WANT?!" "erm... did you want to hang out w/ the group today?" "I DON'T KNOW!" *click* ........ Thats the extent of our convos on the phone for the most part. Today was a bit different. At least he didn't bite my fething head off. lol. So, I ended up talking to him for about an hour practically BEGGING him to come. Telling him that Chris was coming, and that he usually has a good time when he comes. I tried EVERYTHING. I'm not kidding, I fething BEGGED. He finally told me that the reason he wanted to stay home was because he a) wanted to watch Full Metal Alchemist and Angel, and b) he wanted to sleep. Well, I wanted to watch FMA TOO! I HATE MISSING IT! YOU HAVE NO IDEA! And the sleep thing... he could go home early, he could sleep in tomorow. (well, today now. XP but you get the picture) LIKE OMG! ARE WE THAT BAD?! He eventually told me that he'd PROLLY be there. Thanx there bud... So w/e he's a maybe.

Next was Sandi and Mareika, Mareika said yes right away (I luv Mareika... I don't tell her that enough XP lol) And Sandi said she'd go if Christy went. (A typical Sandi response) So I phoned Christy back, and told her what I had heard so far. She says that she said she'd GO! WTF? NO she DIDN'T! lol. But w/e. So that adds Christy, Rhean, and Sandi for sure, to Chris, Mareika, and MAYBE Brett. I continue along my list. Victor has a practice with the SS show. So he said he'd come when its over at 7. Just an hour late. Now problem. Matt had to work, and he said he'd head over after work. Tyler said he'd come. JT said he'd come. Stin said she'd phone when her rents got home. (they apparently didn't come home... WTF?) Phoned Bryson, and he was at work. So I figured I'd phone him after we ate, and he could chill w/ us after. Karissa was in Peachland. So, there was a small group. I figured we could make it work.

In the mean time, I told Christy and Rhean to head over to my house. They said it was too far. A while later, they phoned me saying they were at the bank in the mall getting money. I live a fucking block away from the mall. I was so pissed. So beyond pissed. JT was on msn w... ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Planner Cover http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9110128/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9110128/ Sun, 18 Jun 2006 22:04:09 PDT
I took a picture of one of the horse statues in the front of our school. (There are two horses on top of a big thing of concrete :S and they look like skeletons. So I photoshoped it and just basically cleared out the background. Then, because our school colors are red, black, and white, I made the background red with black streaks (looks more like blobs to me, cause my comp at school kept freezing, and it wouldn't smudge all pretty-like) and then the school name (Princess Margaret Secondary School) in white lettering. Then, originally, it said "In pursuit of excellance" (school motto) but now its being changed to something else tomorow at school. So, once I finish touching things up tomorow at school, it'll be sent to the place where they print them. ^^ So next year, everyone will have my pic on their planner cover! ^^ w00t!

I personally don't care for it much. It was an assignment for photography, and it took about 10 min to do. I could do much better if I worked on it. But w/e. lol. I'm not going to complain. Along with the recognition, I also get a gift certificate for $50 anywhere I want. (Ya, not much, but I'm thinking Starbucks or Bootlegger) lol. Coffee or back to school shopping. Either way, its $50. lol. Works for me. And for about 10 min of work? SCORE! w00t!

Anywho, my dad is a prick sometimes (despite the fact that its father's day) and is kicking me off the comp... *tear*

Byes! :heart: ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel A Twinkle in the Night Sky Far Far Away... http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9082321/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9082321/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 23:02:31 PDT
Tonight, when I was taking my dog out, the sky was so clear. The first time its been like that in a while. So many pretty stars. It felt nice. It feels like its been years since I've seen the stars so clear. (even though its prolly only been a few days, it feels like years.) I think I missed that too.

There was a song that Madison sang in the series Card Captor Sakura.

A twinkle in the night sky far far away
A golden star I gaze upon in my dreams
On a summer's evening I sing alone
Tomorow I'll sing with you one the wings of a dream

Its sort of a light catchy type thing, that has no real deep meaning. (At least how I see it it doesn't) Its just simple, and out there. She likes to sing to the stars. And she hopes that the next day someone will join her. Soon the voices will grow. And I'm just ranting now... You'll have to excuse my insanity. ^^ Anyways, I'm getting sleepy... and I didn't have my dose of tea tonight. *tear* So 'night dear readers. ^^ ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Meh... some more Emo notes ^^ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9080413/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/9080413/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 19:01:31 PDT
So far, things in the hallway have been turning to crap. Oogakla has failed. Victopia is perhaps no more. (Although we ALL know it was JOtopia all along XP lol) Basically, let me sum some things up:

Last year recap
The world had fallen in love with one person. Lets call her Kagome for now, shall we? Everyone loved her. They all wanted her. Thats how it was. It was a long bitter year for ppl like myself (I shall refer to myself as Sango while telling this story XP lol) and someone I'll call Kikyou. We both really liked guys in the hallway. I'll call those two Miroku and Kouga. However, these two were unfortunately the two that were the most taken with dear Kagome.

It pissed the hell out of us. lol. It wouldn't have been as bad if I was at least truly friends with "Miroku"... but I don't think he ever really considered me his friend. I was there everyday, trying to make him realize I was there as a friend if he ever needed me, but all he EVER saw was "Kagome". It really hurt. Slowly, my bitterness took over, and now the friendship I could have had with "Miroku" is done. I don't like him anymore, but the anger is still there. Its getting better, but for the longest time, anytime we talked, we'd argue. XP It sucked. lol.

In the mean time, Shippo was completely in love with her. And he asked her out. She turned him down, telling him that she didn't like him that way. She then talked to Kikyou (no one else knew that she liked Shippo) and told Kikyou that she really did like Shippo. :S But she just told him that she didn't. So, Kikyou wanted Shippo to be happy. So she convinced him to ask Kagome out again. He did. She shot him down AGAIN. 0_o wtf... So, once again, he attempts to get over it, but Kikyou eventually convinces him to ask Kagome out just once more. He did. She finally accepted. They went out throughout the later part of the summer. And all the way into about January/February. Somewhere in there. Just before their 4 month anniversary, she starts being a real cow to him. She stopped liking him. It was as simple as that. The truth that came out around that time to Kikyou was that she never really liked him to begin with. She just wanted the attention. So, after a week or two of her avoiding him, yelling at him, using him, etc. she phoned him and broke it off.

Things should have been simple. But no. They weren't. A WEEK after they broke it off, Shippo asked Kikyou out. Kagome's BEST friend. Kikyou talked it out with Kagome, and was given permission/consent/blessings. After all, Kikyou had liked him since the start. So, they went out for a few weeks. Eventually, that too ended. They started during the first week of Spring Break. Just after it ended, they broke up. So it was over. At first it seemed that there were no hard feelings. That seemed to change. Tensions rose, and they are no longer the great friends they once were. It was strained... awkward... odd...

This is around the starting of the Josh incident. (read previous blog entries) So, I was stressed about my own problems, but still attemped to be there for Kikyou. I know I could have done better. (And that adds to my grievances I am still appologizing for. My point of this blog however, is not to add to the pitiful sorry's I've been shipping out lately.)

Now... I don't suppose I've fully explained the events that occured during the week of Guys and Dolls... allow me to elaborate. Guys and Dolls was the play that my school did. One of the main characters was played by Miroku. (Keep in mind I hadn't crushed on this guy since midterms) He, of course, was still hung up on Kagome. Even while his BEST friend dated her (Shippo) he never gave up on her. He continued showering her with attention, food, gifts, ect. During a cast party for Guys and Dolls, I got a call on my cell from Kagome. She told me to tell Miroku to step outside of the restaurant. (Boston Pizza which is, contrary to popular belief, a Canadian restaurant... oh HOH! lol) When he came back in, Kagome was hanging off his arm. They were official. It was later that night/early next morning, that Dave and Mareika hooked up. Then, the next day, Josh and I happened. (See details in blog. XP lol.)

However, the next day, Kagome was already expressing regrets to Kikyou. She wished she hadn't asked out Miroku. Later that week, one of her online flirts asked her if her character on a game wanted to be with his character. So she did. Their characters later became engaged. A few weeks later, she broke up with Miroku. He was crushed. There are no words to express how horible I felt for him. During this time, we had become slightly better f... ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel DDR Mario Style http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/8999883/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/8999883/ Wed, 07 Jun 2006 14:15:57 PDT

Anyways, aside from my wise and insane investment of about $215 of Mario DDR, I have even more great news!

Yesterday, I was giving my dog a bath at the groomer's. (She has these stations set up so that you can go there and pay to use her sinks and equipment to bathe your dog) So ya, I was washing Alvin, and she sorta watched me for a while, and when I was blow drying him, she came up to me and asked if I want a job for the summer. At first I thought she was kidding, but she asked how much Timmy's pays me, and I answered $8.50, and she said she'd start me at $9.00! Not a lot more, but enough to make it worth my while. :P So, she told me that she would want me there from mondays-fridays from 8:00-12:00. Now, to fully appriciate how I'm feeling about this, you must realize that I LOVE animals. ^^ Like, on Thursday last week, I went to Bryson's, and all I could say is OMG EDDY IS SO CUTE! (Eddy is his Spriner Spaniel puppy ^^) SO CUTE! teehee. Yes, I know that dogs are smelly and they can bite, but I think it would be a worthwhile experiance to try out. I'd have to work evening shifts at Tim Horton's, but I wouldn't mind that. I would prolly have to take about 3 showers a day though. That would completely fry my already dead hair. (Once in the mornings, once after grooming, and once after Timmy's) So, right now, I'm just considering it. I do think it would be a great experiance. I've always wanted a job working with animals. And this would be a good way to get my foot in the door. Up till now, I've had 4 cats, numerous fish, and one dog. (Alvin=my baby ^^) So, as much as I love animals, I don't have too much experience regarding them. I thought in the past that I might want to work with training dogs... well, this could be the first step! lol. Wow... its sad how happy I am about this. :S Ohs wells, it floats my boat. :P

Anywho, this lovely blog entry is quite long enough. Just wanted to jot down the happenings of my life currently. Be sure to check out my scraps and gallery! Luvs ya lots always. ^^

:heart: ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Gundam Wing http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/8961279/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/8961279/ Sat, 03 Jun 2006 16:52:19 PDT
ZOMGA! THATS HORRIBLE! (rewatching it now) I forgot about this part! *spoilers for those who haven't seen Gundam Wing!* THE LITTLE GIRL AND HER PUPPY! THATS SICK! THAT IS SO HORRIBLE! And my friends said that Seed had more pointless violence! Why would they SHOW the dead dog?! They could have done it w/out SHOWING the limp, cold, burnt, soft, DEAD body of the PUPPY! For the love of God! Thats SICK! Its so small... OMG. I think I'm cying. Poor Heero... that would be sick. (Although Seed is pretty sick too... Kira and Athrun, who were CHILDHOOD BEST FRIENDS have to attempt to KILL eachother... It gets so bad, that Athrun blows up his Gundam, the Aegis, to do away with Kira. It turns out, however, that Kira survives... but thats enough spoilers for now.) My point is, that is SICK! POOR LITTLE GIRL! POOR PUPPY! POOR HEERO! ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel My Mother http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/8856257/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/8856257/ Tue, 23 May 2006 16:54:37 PDT :heart:

]]> ~fallenconcreteangel Let me tell you a story about a little emo... http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/8744731/ http://fallenconcreteangel.deviantart.com/journal/8744731/ Thu, 11 May 2006 21:40:41 PDT
It all started one fine summer day. A close friend of mine decided we should get a group of friends together to see a movie. So I phoned up a couple and we had it all planned. We were going to see War of the Worlds. Unfortunately, one of them HAD to bring his brother. His brother was only about a year younger, but due to circumstances I was unaware of, he is unable to stay at home alone. (Something about killing the house…) So the group consisted of, Me, Christy (the first friend who suggested it), Brett, Matt O, Chris, and Chris' brother Josh. This is where the fun starts. The ENTIRE way there, our dear friend Josh mocked me. So I naturally believed he couldn't stand me. Holy crap was I wrong! The movie was great, and afterwards we had a lovely discussion about J.R.R. Tolkien and his lovely set of books, Lord of the Rings. All was as it should be. It was a group of crazy little 16-year-old nerds (with the exception of the younger one, Josh) I recall shortly after that, a conversation with Christy about this character Josh. I said, "He's great! He's a sarcastic little bastard, and I really don't think he likes me much, but he's a great guy!" Well... time went on, and my opinion of him didn't change much. We rarely hung out, but the few times we did, it was great. So, time wore on, and nothing much happened.

Side Story

Chris’ birthday is on January 13th. So, a big group of us went to his house to celebrate it with gifts, money, pizza, cake, pop, and video games. Seeing as I’m not much of a gamer, Christy, Sandi, Alysha and I stayed upstairs having a “drinking game” rather than chill downstairs with the video gaming guys. (We used soda instead of beer) It was a game of “I’ve never…” So, one person says something that they’ve never done before, and the people who have done it must take a sip of their drink. After going through about 3 cans of root beer, I had to use the facilities. So I asked Christy where they might be located. When I finally found the bathroom downstairs (through a maze of hallways) I had some trouble closing the door. It took a while for the stupid thing to close. When I tried to open it after wards… IT DIDN’T OPEN. I was locked in Chris and Josh’s bathroom. So for the first about five minutes I tried everything I could think of to open it, but to no avail. Finally I gave up on that and started knocking on the door LOUDLY calling, “HELLO? ANYONE! I’M LOCKED IN!” This continued for about 10 more minutes. Finally I managed to lift the door up and push it. (It was a sliding door) I came into the room where all the guys were playing some kind of Sonic the Hedgehog game and asked them, “Didn’t anyone hear me?!” They all looked at me like I was insane. I then related the story to them and they all LAUGHED THEIR BUTTS OFF! (I can totally see how it would be amusing, but STILL! I was so traumatized!) When I went upstairs, the girls all asked, WHAT HAPPENED?! Did you fall in?! So I once again told my story, and they all got quite the enjoyment out of it. When we resumed our game, it was Christy’s turn. She smirked at me and calmly said, “I’ve never locked myself in a bathroom.” I grudgingly took a sip of my pop.

Later on, Chris pulled me aside and apologized for the door. He then explained that in the first week of them living at that house, his old girlfriend and his brother, Josh, had a dispute. She pushed him through his closet door. To retaliate, he shoved her through the bathroom door and broke it. Chris had just put the door back on that day for his birthday bash. This side story is relevant simply because it proves that I can blame ANYTHING on Josh. ^^

So, time wore on, and nothing much happened.
However, spring break was on its way. The first day of spring break, we all decided to have a big get together (so this is with LOTS OF PPL!) the original people, Christy, Brett, Matt O, and Chris. Along with this, I also phoned David, Mareika, Victor, Karissa, Alysha, Matt J, Tom, Rhean, Bryson (and I've prolly forgotten a lot after all this time) so we had a large group planned. Then I came up with this "brilliant idea". Hey! We haven't seen Josh in such a LONG time! So I told Christy to give Chris a call and tell him to invite his younger brother. Well... after ALL THIS PLANNING! I ended up having to work all day. So I came about 3 hours late when almost everyone was gone. Josh was still there. Usually when we have group get-to-gethers, I sit and sulk in the corner with Christy (even though we're almost ALWAYS the ones that plan it!) but that night... I had a BLAST! Josh and I really hit it off! I left that night thinking, WOW! HE'S SO KEWL! I want him to hang with us more often! He's such a great guy! I totally want to be better friends with him! (Shortly before this was Chris' birthday, at which I h... ]]> ~fallenconcreteangel