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]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/26195186/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/26195186/ Sun, 26 Jul 2009 17:07:50 PDT
seems that no matter what I do around here, its not good enough for my roommate.. trouble is I'm dependent on her till I get out of school... and so I get to suffer while she rants and raves about anything and everything.... thing is I know shes just getting this way because shes not working, shes worrying about everything going on, worrying about bills and shit... but its getting rediculus... dealing with everything all at once.. and if I show the fact that I'm depressed, I'm in the wrong, and end up being made to feel worse, just like showing any emotions around the house, and then people wonder why I tend to break down when I'm out and about away from the house, away from her, away from everything... and people ask me why I'd want to kill myself... live my life, with my disorders, without any help, without any medications, and see how long it takes for the voice to sound pretty damn convincing...

if I could die and not make someone else have to clean up the mess... I probally would.. I'm tired of this life, tired of this exsistance, tired of dealing with all the bullshit, and mostly being tired of being told that I dont seem like I care, I dont seem to give a damn that we are having troubles, tired of getting screamed at for shit that I cant do a damn thing about...

apparently if I show concern I'm wrong, if I dont I'm wrong, if I have emotions I'm wrong, if I dont, I'm being callus. if I'm sick its my own fault, if I sleep I'm in the wrong, if I dont sleep I get sick, and end up getting screamed at even more.. pure and simple I'm tired of it all, I wish I could die... I just cant figure out how to end everything without leaving a mess for someone else to clean up...

]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/23211589/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/23211589/ Sun, 15 Feb 2009 08:20:40 PST
anyway update on school.. I'm still doing really good at it... got my scheduale done up for spring semister, got 2 electronic courses, an english course, and my first legit programming course... yay me...

]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/19900971/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/19900971/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 16:13:17 PDT starting with Math, and Psyc. figured they'd be a good start...

"Shadows of Eternity always seek each other, never knowing if the feelings are true, never knowing if the feelings are stable, but always feeling a draw to each other. Maybe thats why a Shadow of Time never fits in, but is always accepted. maybe thats why I stand out but still have more friends then I even realize I have till something makes them stand true, and show me just how wrong I truely am." ]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/19690698/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/19690698/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 23:17:18 PDT
Well its happened, me is going back to school soon... going for a BMET degree if I can do it, it means I'm not stupid.. but so far I havent even passed placement my algebra score was too low (34 out of 106 sorta sucks which is weird.. because Arithimatic, Reading Comp, and Writing were all way high .... so who knows. they are letting me retest next week to see how I do.. so here is hoping...

"Shadows of Eternity always seek each other, never knowing if the feelings are true, never knowing if the feelings are stable, but always feeling a draw to each other. Maybe thats why a Shadow of Time never fits in, but is always accepted. maybe thats why I stand out but still have more friends then I even realize I have till something makes them stand true, and show me just how wrong I truely am." ]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/18811708/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/18811708/ Thu, 12 Jun 2008 23:08:04 PDT
Hellos everyone... okies for those who actually read this.. I need some major information.. and it sucks that I cant figure out how to do this myself....


I want to do a charector Costume of a very well endowed Cat. how ever its not the one that Akira did for me... sucks.. but that one is too adult for what I want it for..

if anyone knows a good fursuit maker, that does good work, and doesnt charge ALOT.. please let me know how to get ahold of them. its sorta important. but the problem is that I need it before the end of july ya not alot of time.. but I didnt know I was going to be able to do this till just now

Huggles everyone

"Shadows of Eternity always seek each other, never knowing if the feelings are true, never knowing if the feelings are stable, but always feeling a draw to each other. Maybe thats why a Shadow of Time never fits in, but is always accepted. maybe thats why I stand out but still have more friends then I even realize I have till something makes them stand true, and show me just how wrong I truely am." ]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/18487040/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/18487040/ Sat, 24 May 2008 23:09:43 PDT and I dont know how to do it scholarships seem to all way "1500 word essays on why you think your better then everyone else" its no wonder why so many people come out of college with that sort of feeling...

"Shadows of Eternity always seek each other, never knowing if the feelings are true, never knowing if the feelings are stable, but always feeling a draw to each other. Maybe thats why a Shadow of Time never fits in, but is always accepted. maybe thats why I stand out but still have more friends then I even realize I have till something makes them stand true, and show me just how wrong I truely am." ]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/18281094/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/18281094/ Sun, 11 May 2008 21:16:28 PDT
hrm... mothers day... great day for someone like me... truely a lonely ordeal... it sucked.. I had to work, but that wasnt even the worst of it...

"Shadows of Eternity always seek each other, never knowing if the feelings are true, never knowing if the feelings are stable, but always feeling a draw to each other. Maybe thats why a Shadow of Time never fits in, but is always accepted. maybe thats why I stand out but still have more friends then I even realize I have till something makes them stand true, and show me just how wrong I truely am." ]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/17675819/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/17675819/ Thu, 03 Apr 2008 22:47:20 PDT
well another bday here and gone... one more reason not to look forward to early april.... for those wondering... as of april 2, I'm now as old as I feel... ok maybe not that old.. but might as well be... (for those who want to know.. take the first two digits of the year, add them together then put them infront of the last digit of the year.... yeah its a long way to say it.. but it works every year...)

"Shadows of Eternity always seek each other, never knowing if the feelings are true, never knowing if the feelings are stable, but always feeling a draw to each other. Maybe thats why a Shadow of Time never fits in, but is always accepted. maybe thats why I stand out but still have more friends then I even realize I have till something makes them stand true, and show me just how wrong I truely am." ]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/17049160/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/17049160/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 20:59:49 PST
apparently more wrong then I thought I would be since I finally made it upto needing to build industry... and unfortunately its all been by myself with the exception of a few folks who visited early on so now my city is upto industry... and its still slowly growing...

My City
[link]

My Industry
[link]

oh well, so much for the fun.. its still alot of fun to me....

here are some others

Akira's City "Rubberkitty"
[link]

Rubberkitty's Industry
[link]

Rubberkitty's Roadways
[link]

"Shadows of Eternity always seek each other, never knowing if the feelings are true, never knowing if the feelings are stable, but always feeling a draw to each other. Maybe thats why a Shadow of Time never fits in, but is always accepted. maybe thats why I stand out but still have more friends then I even realize I have till something makes them stand true, and show me just how wrong I truely am." ]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/16619288/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/16619288/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 19:49:55 PST
[link]

my little city... anyone who wants to help, just click the linkie you can help me get my population to grow I'll post more links to my city when it developes to the point that it needs help

"Shadows of Eternity always seek each other, never knowing if the feelings are true, never knowing if the feelings are stable, but always feeling a draw to each other. Maybe thats why a Shadow of Time never fits in, but is always accepted. maybe thats why I stand out but still have more friends then I even realize I have till something makes them stand true, and show me just how wrong I truely am." ]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/16518653/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/16518653/ Tue, 22 Jan 2008 09:53:22 PST
[ ] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[X] You have your own room.
[X] You own a cell phone.
[X] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[X] Your parents are still married. (strange ain't it)
[X] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
T 0 T A L: 5

[X] You dress how you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[X] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[X] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[X] Your room is big enough for you.
[X] People don't use you for something you have. (dont have anything for them to)
[X] You have been to a concert. (played in a few as well)
T 0 T A L:5

[X] You have over 50 friends on myspace/msn if you count both of them
[X] You have pictures on myspace/msn space.
[X] Your parents let you have a myspace/msn. (dont live with my parents, does this still count?)
[ ] You get allowance
[X] You collect something normal.
[X] You look foward to going to school.
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[ ] You play a sport.
[ ] You do something after school.
T 0 T A L: 5

[X] You own a car.(My baby that had her plates stolen )
[X] You usually don't fight with your parent(s).
[X] You are happy with your appearance
[ ] You aren't self-consious at all
[X] You have never got a failing grade in your life
[X] You have friends
T 0 T A L: 5

[ ] You know what is going on in the world.
[X] You care about so many people.
[X] You are happy with your life.
[X] You know more than one language.
[X] You have a screen name.
[X] You own a pet. (Two small furry ones, and 3 large human type ones *evil grin*)
[X] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[ ] You don't have any enemies.
[X] You are a generally nice person.
T O T A L: 7

Now count your numbers and multiply by three.
Then title this journal "MY LIFE IS _% HAPPY

Go Figure eh? just goes to show you can never count your chips before sitting down to eat them ... lol, yea I knw corny joke... go figure... maybe I'll decide on a better one some other time, and really screw with your heads

"Shadows of Eternity always seek each other, never knowing if the feelings are true, never knowing if the feelings are stable, but always feeling a draw to each other. Maybe thats why a Shadow of Time never fits in, but is always accepted. maybe thats why I stand out but still have more friends then I even realize I have till something makes them stand true, and show me just how wrong I truely am." ]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/16401946/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/16401946/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 12:08:59 PST
this is pissing me off to no end first some fucker breaks cheris windows and now the fucker stole my license plate I cant even drive my car to work anyfucking more (

"Darkness born, demoness, beast, woman... its all the same... its me, evil, and dangerous. why cant people accept that its all one package." ]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/16099396/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/16099396/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 19:15:19 PST
For those wondering, yes the photo uploaded today (december 25th, 2007) is me. it is new... it was taken in a studio.. I think it came out really really well and I love how it looks... so if you have complaints... take them up with me, because otherwise I'll have to get very upset...

Laters

Tina a.k.a. Fariskilynn the mostly asian tigress

P.S. yeah I already do realize I'm probally going to loose a few friends now that people can see what I really look like... who knows how many libidos I've already killed in the process....

"Darkness born, demoness, beast, woman... its all the same... its me, evil, and dangerous. why cant people accept that its all one package." ]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/15540764/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/15540764/ Fri, 16 Nov 2007 22:18:08 PST
For those of you who are wondering why its been so long since you heard anything here is what happened

for the last week or so, I've been extremly depresssed (gotta love bi-polar disorder and social anxiety disorder, combined with a minimal wage/maximal rage job... walmart for those wondering) and because of the depression, I have a tendency to become reclusive (means I avoid people when I get like this, because seeing smiles makes me feel worse when I cant at least fake it)

now, on top of that, I am basically living alone.. because my roommate/lover is unfortunately an OTR Driver (truck driver) so depression, combined with being alone makes things worse... now before you get worried, no I dont think about commiting suicide, because pure and simple, if I'm not worth the skin and space I take up, how could I be worth forcing someone else to clean up what ever is left... so suicide isnt an option....

then to add to the fun, the one damn day that my lover is home... some fuckstick smashes her rear window on her van... GREAT just what I need, more stress, more agrivation, more frustration, and more expenses

now tonight, the assholes went to break out more of the same window they already broke, and made the mistake of putting thier hand against the back of her van... so the police were out here again.... took more info... asked more questions.... took the fingerprints from the van.... now we hope that the print is good enough for them to be able to make an arrest... but my luck.... pure and simple says that it wont... it smeared or the asshole wont be on file....

so the one day I could have been cheered up... some asshole fucked up... so now my depression is at a total bottom of the line, and to make matters worse, I have to work all weekend, then my days off next week are all fucked up because of thanks giving (and for those who shop at walmart.... "blitz"... fuckers.... I want/need my days off, or I'm going to have a freakin panic attack...)

anyway thats why noones heard from me in so long

hope that explains...

Fari

"Darkness born, demoness, beast, woman... its all the same... its me, evil, and dangerous. why cant people accept that its all one package." ]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/15398041/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/15398041/ Tue, 06 Nov 2007 20:13:26 PST
I'm still working on getting it done.. LOL... its a slow process with all the details that I'm trying to work into it.. but honestly I wish I was at least half the artist that the people on my friends list are... ... LoL... maybe then I could actually get my work published in something other then a news paper, (they like little trinket crap they can put in that will keep people coming back for more tries and what not )

and yes for those of you who noticed I can NOT spell for what not for squat, and more so have a bad tendecy to let myself wander from one thought to another without alot of well anything... LOL

]]> ~fariskilynn http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/15078244/ http://fariskilynn.deviantart.com/journal/15078244/ Mon, 15 Oct 2007 18:32:01 PDT
Eventually I plan to get some of my crappy art uploaded... its nothing big.. nothing most folks would be interested in, but its mine.. and noone can make copies of it due to its complex nature

]]> ~fariskilynn