http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:feelinhungry&section=today deviantART RSS for by:feelinhungry en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 25 Nov 2009 04:40:36 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/13692398/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/13692398/ Wed, 11 Jul 2007 07:26:47 PDT
Wow, it really has been a long time. An incredibly long time.

I'm sorry for going away for so long and not really saying anything to anyone about it or posting up any new art. I have an excuse, I promise!

Basically, I just had the busiest year of my life. It was my senior year of high school and I pretty much gave myself a ridiculously full schedule. Unfortunately, it was the first year of my life -- ever -- that I didn't take an art class because I couldn't work anything in. So I was really very very busy and didn't have time for art. I really didn't have time for dA, either. I usually came home, did homework, and, if I had time, showered (okay, I usually showered, but it meant less sleep and I tried to avoid that whenever possible). In any case, I really didn't get a break to do much of anything artistic this entire year, and sadly, I don't even have anything new to post.

Now that school's over, I'm looking forward to doing more stuff (I just embarked on a painting for my Italian teacher of her dog, Santino) and I'm hoping that I can take more classes once I start college in the fall (I'm headed to Dickinson College in PA).

I'm also sorry to say that when I signed on there were over 800 new deviations and some 80 journals, and I really don't have the time to go through all that so I am sorry for not critiquing everyone's work and commenting on your journals.

Well, now that that's said, I think I'm off to read some more HP theory about the seventh book... I really am excited about it... but you should have already known that... hopefully, I'll be back soon with some more updates!

~Sharon

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Merry Christmas, and God bless.

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My most recent dream started long and winding and very strange, and I can't remember most of it to be honest. But I do remember the part where Caroline and I were in these trailers that were parked in my driveway end to end. In fact, the ends were open, so we could see each other quite well -- but we were each connected to ropes that secured us to a cable in the ceiling. We also had blunt spear-y things, which we were supposed to kill each other with. So we're stabbing at each other, but in opposite trailers, and really just jesting, you know. But suddenly we realize that the cable runs through both trailers, so even if we couldn't leave the trailers we could reach each other. So we make our way towards each other and grapple a bit more -- but all in good fun. It was strange beacuse I knew if I stabbed her I would kill her, and vice versa, but we were really just laughing and joking and having a jolly old time.

Suddenly I was in a hospital. Erika wanted to check on her babies [I think this stemmed from that fact that we're lab partners in AP Bio and our fruit flies are making babies right now] so she decided to call the baby ward. She dialed for the Z ward but nothing happened -- and suddenly I remembered!! On the hospital coordinate system, Z means E!! Duh! So we called the E ward, and I said I'd meet her there in a little bit.

Cut to baby ward, even though I wasn't there. The keeper of the baby ward is, of all things, the Grim Reaper, who decided it was great fun to die and grow up again, continuously and several times over. And if you stayed with the Grim Reaper too long, you turned into some sort of demon-thing.

So I mosey about, making my way to meet Erika in the baby ward. I get there and see that she is turning into a werewolf -- but only in appearances, of course. And it was quite funny, too. And we started acting out a little scene where I said, "Erika! I can't lose you!" And she said dramatically, "Run while you can.. I don't know who I will be when the transformation is complete!" And we were all laughing and joking, and the Grim Reaper allowed himself a chuckle in the corner, and there were no babies. And then I woke up.

]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/10236679/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/10236679/ Sat, 30 Sep 2006 12:26:47 PDT if I have time, I shower. Gross, I know. (Don't worry -- more often than not I do!!) The long, intense college search has also taken a toll on me, but my applications will be in soon enough, and I'm so excited for college that I really can't complain.

Despite the ridiculous amount of work, I have to say I've been pretty happy and lucky with the teachers and classes I've got this year. I spend about half my day in the bio room, where I take AP Bio, genetics, and work as a lab assistant for my teachers. They even have a little office in the back where they set up a little desk area for me to work in!! I'm starting to feel like that room is my second home, haha. I'm particularly excited because not only do we get to do cool things like fetal pig dissections, sequencing a part of my DNA and trying to trace my origins, and cloning African violets, we get to go on really interesting field trips. I can't wait to go to the Mudder Museum, Princeton for TIGER Talks, and the Coriell Institute, which I might look into getting an internship for next summer. I'm a big nerd, I know -- but I love it!!

Unfortunately this means something else -- I won't have much time for art. This is the first year of my entire life that I haven't taken an art class in school... and it's so strange. It just wouldn't fit in my schedule this year, and there wasn't much I could do about it. Every now and then I'll go hang out in the art room, but it's hard because I can't really be a part of it. I almost feel like art has become more of a hobby than a part of me, which isn't true. Perhaps I'll just have to take a year off and get used to occasional doodles and a painting or two. However, I definitely plan to continue art in college -- particularly ceramics. One of my dad's patients is a profesisonal potter and offered me time in his studio whenever I want -- maybe next summer I can spend time there and learn the wheel!! Ceramics is definitely my favorite, but I never had the time to perfect anything I learned. So please bear with me!! Thanks to all of you who continue to watch and comment on my work -- you are muchly appreciated. I'll try to keep in touch!

<3 Sharon

]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/9476160/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/9476160/ Mon, 24 Jul 2006 07:43:49 PDT

Wow.

Best. month. of. my. life. I cannot convey the sense of family that I had when I was there. Everyone was just... amazing. There wasn't once person that I didn't get along with. I knew all hundred people by the end of it. I will never, EVER, forget the experiences I had when I was there. Not only were the people closer friends to me than the ones I have at home, but the classes themselves were amazing. Physics, wow. It wasn't your every day physics class. It was studying Einstein's theories of relativity and gravity and the difference between that and quantum mechanics, but how string theory would make sense for both of them to get along.. I realllly wish we had more time to get into string theory... so when I have time I'm going to read The Elegant Universe... here are a few of the memories that I would like to remember and this is a place where I won't lose them:


:cat porn:"STOP! YO, CAAAAALM DOWN!":"They never think past the revolution":bathmats:the spider/joker/guy fawkes:apples:living with IT [link] cat porn.in a nudist colony.on a unicycle.with his twin:"Yeah, well you look like your mom!":getting craned, sliced, carded, toweled, etc:getting punched in the stomach when you have to poop really badly:it was like snowing snowing snowing:Rule #1 -- NO FLASHING. Wait, make that rules 1 + 2:Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!!!:"Man, her pits were silky smooth":hey homeslicepposite day in antiworld:hitlists:"oops I just punched you in the eye"iang jiao:BLOOOOOOCCCKKEEDD!!!!!!!:butts:crescendo:awokawokawokawoka:"Howdy, y'all!":Black Sock Assassin:malik=life:dead bird:"I'm blaaaack!!":baby don't hurt me no more:"I'm SOOOO tired! BUAH HA HA":Boom chica wah wahhhhh!!!!:ERS:the fateful game of war:epiphanies:supernovas:"Don't do it jennielle.. dooooon't do it!":mutual wall slams:"Don't... kill each other...":i wasn't born until two years ago:We are good for go:I'm in your head:superhugs:"Do you want some of my nips? Actually they're my grandma's nips"hysics guy's nips:Santa:I was just so hungry for that sandwich!:90s rock:mafia:battle scars:"You got me right in the clonker! the schnozz! the big one!":Sneaky snake!!:Fluffy:Skeletor:the little robot that couldn't:Kamakaze:corn is no place for a mighty warrior:your mom's face:you kicked me out of the zone!! you stole my zone!!:gelaaaatinous:fresh from the womb!:frozen banana:Sharonica + Jennicia = life:

Project group conclusions (compiled by Abby and I):
TES=good
Malik=dont know too much
Engineering=economics????
Break even=two years ago
Chiller=not a heater
Chiller=thriller
I didnt know this until yesterday=I dont think you guys are too smart
Im disappointed in you guys=I didnt do my f****** homework
Dans penis=runs on 10 MW
Im grumpy=get out of the comp lab
4:30=on time
We have a class here=Im a selfish dude
Demand=demand=demand=demand=demand=life
Malik = liiiiiife




Oh, the memories. And this is only what I could think of off the top of my head -- there are so many that I'm forgetting. Guys, we have to get together before school starts again because I can't wait until the reunion. I can't.

Got home Saturday, no voice (ask Sammi, I croaked the entire time we hung out yesterday), and now I'm leaving again on Wednesday for the Air Academy (gone til the 6th). It will have to be pretty intense to beat gov school, but I'm really looking forward to it. Don't know when 'll get up more art. Haven't had time for it or writing . (I'm enjoying life too much!!) I do have one sketch that I drew of my friend Pramod at the gov school "art show" that Titi help set up. I will post soon.

I've had a ton of scheduling problems this year so it looks like I'll have to drop Calc II in order to take AP bio, which, in my opinion, will be a much better class. It also looks like I'll have to take Italian four days a week and maybe not even get credit for it, but as long as I get the class that's cool. Also looks like I'll have to take level II cultures in order for things to fit. Grrr, it's so annoying!! Tons of meetings with my guidance counselor... at least he's a cool guy and will do whatever he can to help me get the classes I want to take!! Stupid budget cut an entire page of classes. I hate not having money for our school http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/9138223/ Wed, 21 Jun 2006 14:17:00 PDT
Actually, I DID get into Governor's School. They called me on June 1st, totally out of the blue, while I was at school and told my sister to ask me to check my email. So of course she takes my acceptance email and hides it, calls my mom, who calls my other sister and my brother and my dad, until everyone knows about it except for me, and my sister's acting all stupid when I get home, and my mom brought me flowers for "no apparent reason," and then she told me, and then I had an orthodontist appointment, and then it was the only time I've ever smiled on my way to the orthodontist. Okay, so gov school isn't really that big of a deal, but it was for me because of the drama, having it cancelled, going to see Corzine and protest, then having it back up, and then getting rejected on top of all that... and not only that, but I never get to travel or be away from home and it'll be such a GREAT college experience. So even though it's a month (June 25 - July 22), I'll still have my compy and, if I have time, I'll be able to keep up with all you amazing people.

That being a free institution, I also was accepted into a flight camp in Wisconsin, which my Pop-pops has offered to pay for, awesome guy that he is. So I'll also be at an air camp for a week from July 28 - August 6. (I'll be flying there by myself, for the first time!! Ha ha I am WAY psyched!!) And pretty much after that will be all my summer schoolwork, which I happen to have quite a load of this year. Stupid teachers assigned three books to read and an essay, and I've got outlining and assignments to do for AP Bio, and I want to get a head start on the outlines in the entire book because I'll be having to do them all year along with AP Physics, which, I believe, will not quite be a breeze of a class. Also, hopefully I'll have a tutoring job in Italian when I come back from the things I was finally allowed to do this summer.

I'll try to get up the rest of my art from the school year before I leave, because I actually DO have some things to post, and I haven't forgotten about my friend dA.

Miss you guys, hope you're having an awesome summer (or winter, if you're in the Southern hemisphere). ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/8603569/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/8603569/ Mon, 01 May 2006 19:14:14 PDT
I actually got rejected from gov school. So I'm feeling pretty down about the fact that I worked so hard to get it back, and I don't get it anyway. I don't feel entirely so bad knowing that the only reason I didn't get in was because Somil beat me out of it, because if anybody could beat me out of it, it would be him. I'm modest, too you know. Anyway, while I'm at it, SATs: 2240. Which feels pretty darn good. All right bragging rights end here.

But my main reason for this journal is because I am wholly and heartfuly sorry for the lack of activity and art production here on dA. I totally have a few things to get up, but I'll just take a while to getting around to it. Especially since the next two weeks are AP tests, and I've got calc, chem, and history to deal with. Aka, I will be dead until May 11th.

So, I shall be dormant for a few weeks my friends, and then return like a crazy, explosive volcano who shoots out art like lava only severely less dangerously. Unless it hits you in the head. I'm totally ranting again, sorry about that. Sometimes it just happens you know. I've been diagnosed with Babbling Syndrome, and I must say I have a quite serious case.

Wellllll I kinda sorta hafta end this here beeeeeeeeecauseIhaveabigessayduetomorrow thatIhaven'tstartedohjoy!

Spero che vi sentite bene! ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/8494177/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/8494177/ Sun, 16 Apr 2006 21:45:07 PDT
Second is that I have been in a writing block since, well, I wrote the poem "Block." I still can't get it out. So here I figured I'd try to explain some things that I would love to write about but just cannot. I'm not even asking you to read them. I just have to get it out of me.

1. As Guster so nicely put it in "Two Points for Honesty" -- I want to be where I've never been before. There is something about going somewhere new that just totally enthralls me. I get so sick of school and home because it is the same thing... day... after day... after day. I want to do something I've never done before, every second for the rest of my life. I need something new... because this is the only thing that can fuel me.. more on that later. PS all of these really tie together but I am attempting to separate them.

2. To take take that a step further, I want to do something no one's ever done before. I want to think a thought that no one has ever thought. Purple stars dive like liquid diamonds into a vast, empty sea. I want to see something that no one has ever seen. I cannot explain it any better than that.

3. I tend to befriend those with the most knowledge, the most intrigue. The more someone can teach me, the more I want to be with that person. When someone has taught me most everything they can/wish to, I lose interest and move on. And I hate that because I feel it is not for the person that I enjoy them.. it is for what I can get out of them. And I haven't really decided exactly how guilty I should feel about that. But oh, I think the greatest feeling in the world would be to know everything there is for knowing. And I don't mean this in a distrubed, suicidal way, but I have always imagined that at death, you are allowed to know everything. A supreme complex understanding of infinity. A concept that is too obscure for even the most genius human to ever conceive.

4. I am tired of working with my mind. I want to work with my hands. I want to do things, feel things, learn things, gain things, lose things. I can't say that you get any more... sheltered, priveleged, whatever, than in American suburbs. I mean I really want to feel things. I want to wake up and know that I have meant something to someone, and that someone has meant something to me. And be okay with it.

I am totally despaired and bummed out to know that I have another year at home, at high school, before I go to college. Because I have been ready to go since four years ago. And every now and then I reach a breaking point -- the last one being the week before Christmas -- and then it passes. I know it will pass. I try to keep my mind off it; school usually does a pretty good job. But it is always there and it will always be a part of me. And gosh, I am so ready to start living. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/8478995/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/8478995/ Sat, 15 Apr 2006 12:50:33 PDT
Pretty much it's just been schoolwork out the whazoo. 15 page term paper, Italian report, business report, 7 page essay, a few major calc tests, and chem is always just chem. I'm also getting besieged by college mail, working twice a week, tutoring once or twice a week, and trying to fit in other after school activities in between. Sadly, not much time for art. I did illustrate a story that my siters and I wrote for my dad for his birthday, so I may get them up in scraps -- they're nothing special. Also have to draw a picture for my dad for his "new office" announcements.

The only big thing in life right now is Governor's School... in December, I applied to the Governor's School of Engineering and Technology. For those of you who don't know what it is, it's a FREE state program for "gifted and talented kids." There are six schools -- the Arts, the Sciences, the Environment, Public Issues, International Studies, and Engineering and Technology. I also was nominated for the Arts, but I could only apply to one Governor's School. They take 625 students from the state. The application process is pretty long and annoying -- essays, tryouts, letters of rec, etc. etc. About ten people from my school applied, and we were suposed to get our letters of acceptance or rejection on April 4th. I'd been waiting to hear since freakin OCTOBER, right? So April 4th comes and goes, no letter, and one day my grandma calls me: Sharon, didn't you apply to gov school? Because here's an article in the paper that says it's cancelled...

So yeah, it's cancelled, no one even bothered to tell us, EVER, no call, no letter, no NOTHING of any kind to keep the applicants updated. I found out from a freakin NEWSPAPER article. I don't get mad often, for any of you who know me, but let me tell you, some things just piss me off.

For instance: governor's school is .1% of the educational budget; it's only 1.9 million. That is like NOTHING when it comes to state revenue. It's the only program for "gifted" kids (I hate that word, but, whatever) that the state offers, and stupid Corzine cut it just because.. [he also said he'd lower property taxes by 40% in 3 years.. he raised tham and also raised income tax and sales tax by a whole percent... he also stated sometime last year that he hoped students from the Governor's School could help make NJ more affordable...] And also, please DO NOT take this the wrong way, because I have absolutely nothing against disabled or impaired kids, and I really know how difficult it is for them and how much help and support that they need from the community. And I don't think that money should be taken away from them, not ever. What bothers me is that Corzine cut the only state program for gifted kids, only 1.9 million, and just signed a bill for over 15 million for disabled kids. As Mr. Jonathan Last put it nicely, "And as Corzine was eliminating the Governor's School with one hand, he was actually increasing the state's special-education budget by $19.5 million with the other. The message is obvious, and perfectly in line with America's culture of victimization: You're special only if you're disabled." Again, I do not mean to sound biased or jealous or whatnot. I just don't understand how the state can become "more affordable" or motivate it's young people if it cannot even invest in its students and future leaders.

So, still really pissed, my friend Justin and I went to see Corzine speak about the budget at BCC. There was another student there, Daria, who was lucky enough to get called on and explain our problem [I must confess, she said it much nicer than I would have]. And Corzine gave us a lot of hope -- he pretty much promised us gov school back! For this year too! The only problem is that he would not use state funding. Instead, he asked for private donations. So now it's really in limbo. See, the committee that decided who got in and who didn't disbanded when they learned it might be cancelled, and they still don't know who's in. Even worse, they won't get back together until they're SURE gov school has proper funding, even though they would send out letters to all applicants ANYWAY so they could use it in college applications and whatnot. In other words, doitassoonaspossibleI'mDYINGtoknowifIgotin!!! Plus, I gave up all my other summer plans for this, because if you get in, you pretty much HAVE to go. Well, what can you do. Wish me luck. Sorry if that bored the heck out of you.

Well, can't say I'll be on much until after May, because first week is AP tests, and... ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7895173/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7895173/ Tue, 14 Feb 2006 12:47:46 PST
I have to say that as much as chemistry is my favorite thing ever, Friday was the worst lab day ever. My lab partner and I ended up staying after school until 4, even though it was a double period class, and by the time we left we knew we had to redo it anyway. So we redid it yesterday, broke another test tube, and ended up just making up our values. Er, I mean... actually she sort of told us to ha ha. After that I went over to Karishma's to watch the OPENING CEREMONIES IN MY FAVORITE COUNTRY ITALIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TORINO 2006 BABY!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE FIRE OFF THE HELMETS THING WAS SOOOO COOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

Then Saturday was the big one, the whoopdie, the tournament of the year... KB BCAT [for all you non-nerds that's Knowledge Bowl Burlington County Academic Tournament]. I'm the only junior on the 'super-team' [the rest are seniors] and we won the first three rounds, went into semi-finals as second, won that, and it finally came down to being televised for our school cable station. It was intense, man. Very. Unfortunatelywelost. The team that did win was very deserving of it and I don't hate them or anything. But I wanted Nationals SO BAD this year. My entire team will be gone next year, and I wanted to make it happen, you know?? Well, at least I have another chance.. they don't. Ate a ginormous Italian hoagie [with prosciutto!!] and came home feeling sort of dejected. Did English homework for 4 hours because my teacher is insane.

We got the big Noreaster snowstorm with a good 14" or so, which, like, NEVER happens here in ML. I swear, during the last snow there was a big hole in the storm, and it was like only right over our town. Anyway, after doing another hour or so of English on Sunday morning [the roads were too bad to go to church ] I took a walk in the woods and took photos.. hopefully I'll get them up soon on my photo account. Then did homework and watched Olympics for the rest of the day.

OLYMPICS. OH. MY. GOODNESS.
COOLEST. THINGS. EVER. EVER.
.......EVER.
Dude I seriously think that Olympics are like the only good thing in this world.. countries come together to compete and to unite and to just .....be freakin awesome. Dude, okay well I'm definitely biased being an American, but, I love watching our boys go compete. Dude, Shaun White, dude, that kid... dude. So cool. Blew away the competition. I was hoping Bode Miller would get a medal, but, you know, he's still freakin awesome so it really doesn't matter. And oh man, if any of you saw the cross country skiing where that guy, oh gosh I forget his name, had a crash in the beginning of the race, raced witha broken ski, and still came up to get the silver medal... dude he is my hero. Hope you all are watching them as avidly as I am because I think it's the only time where this world shows a little love. Especially in times like these.

Oh yeah one more thing, "All the darkness int he world..." was selected as the best submitted photo for the Laureatte that my school publishes, and they gave me a free copy and $20 to AC Moore!! Also in the book is my poem "Block" which is odd because I was planning originally to scrap that and I still think my other poems are better.




P.S. SAT scores in yesterday... 2130 total of 2400, 800 math, 670 reading [how did I not break 700?!?!?] and 660 writing. I'm pretty happy about that math score ha ha. I could definitely have done better in writing. Def. So even though I did well I'm debating taking them again to do better on that and to beat Florina, my friend/enemy who received a 2230. Dude, that is just disgraceful to let her beat me by a whole 100 pts. So maybe I will take them again even though I don't need to. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7837983/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7837983/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 13:46:07 PST
Well, unfortunately, there's not really anything to update. Yes, my life is just that boring. But I do have to say that I am just itching for spring and I would give anything that have something that I could photograph or sculpt or whatever. It's the weirdest thing, I've only had calc homework this whole week really, and now I have all of this thing called "free time." Which of course makes me want to do art, but I'm too lazy.

Looking forward to a gov school letter and SAT scores. Probably won't be happy once they come though. If you've actually read my entire journal after that first sentence, well gee thanks for the loyalty





P.S. I hate Valentine's Day. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7732576/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7732576/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 14:12:49 PST
I'm also happy to say that I've been doing pretty well lately. Right before Christmas was a pretty depressing time for me, don't know why, but it's starting to get better. Usually it's the other way around. But I do miss the days where you can go outside without your shoes on and read all day and go biking and such. And I'm rambling now, but, you know, that's what I do.

I have a bunch of sketches to put up but my scanner has been quite uncooperative and I will need to find out how to fix it. Perhaps I'll do that tonight... so look out for my scraps! I'd like to put up the skull that I drew for my art exam... but unfortunately my teacher says he is forced to keep them all on file . Well, that's about it, nothing new really. Hope you're all well. I'm off to fold the clean laundry that's been sitting on my floor for two weeks now. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7670281/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7670281/ Sat, 21 Jan 2006 19:57:45 PST
Ha ha, on another note, this week is exams, I probably won't be around much, I'll be having way too much fun studying. Ha ha.. actually, knowing me, I probably will have fun studying. Wish me luck... be back in a week!

P.S. Thanks for all who responded to my Love and Love, Reprise. It wasn't a great piece of literature or anything but I just felt like it was something I had to write, ha ha. It was really quite fun and I might decide to do it again sometime. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7613070/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7613070/ Sun, 15 Jan 2006 17:20:33 PST

…I'm willing to bet love is almost non-existant in this world of ours.

…Just thought i'd contribute. I equate it with gravity. It's wholly misunderstood by everyone who encounters it, and it drives us some in circles and some askew and some not at all; and then there are some who are torn apart where it is too great and some who die cold and alone without it and yet having existed nevertheless.

…I personally think that if society didn't place all of these expectations of what love is in people then when (or if) we were ever to experience it, we would know and understand it unquestioningly.

…You know, I kind of agree with this. Love sometimes does seem foolish, but that's a hard thing to judge about, you know?

…Your little rant there reminds me of a line from The Devil's Advocate, where Keanu Reeve's character asks Satan, "What about love?" I got a kick out of Satan's response, "Overrated. Biochemically no different than eating large quantities of chocolate."


So you know, I've come to a few new conclusions from the feedback I've received. Just let me warn you that I'm also a bit biased right now because I just came back from church, and who isn't totally in love with everything when they get out of church? But I digress…

I realize that there are several kinds of love. But I do not think that love -- pure, unadulterated, altruistic love -- exists in this world. It is not possible to love like God loves. And I think that one is only fooling oneself to go looking for that kind of love in this life and in other people.

I also think that people often mistake love -- the kind that we do know -- for something else. If society didn't give us such an expectation of love, we'd actually know when we'd found it, instead of fooling ourselves as we so often do. And I think that's why so many people are unhappy -- they think that what they have is love, and therefore don't know what else it is that they need to be complete -- yet the one thing they don't have is the one thing they think they do.

In all, I guess it's not really our place to try to understand love, or analyze it, or try to figure out what makes it such a driving force in our world.

“In this one book are the two most interesting personalities in the whole world--God and yourself. The Bible is the story of God and man, a love story in which you and I must write our own ending, our unfinished autobiography of the creature and the Creator.” -Fulton Oursler ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7459901/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7459901/ Fri, 30 Dec 2005 19:16:01 PST
[By the way, I'm being very stupid at the moment because I should be doing my calculus and/or Italian and my winter break has been anything but a 'break,' but hey. Though I did have an awesome three days with my cousins. They are my favorite people in the world, I must say.]

I've decided I'm a very controversial person, particularly on the topic of love. I don't know why but I just feel like talking about it. So that's what I'm going to do.

Love

It is unexplainable yet accepted as daily fact. It is an every-day miracle. It is extraordinary. It is something that nothing, ever, could break; it is an indestructible bond.

Words are not adequate enough, not eloquent enough, nor worthy enough to describe ‘love.’ It would be an injustice to try to do so. I am guilty of my own accusation.

One of the most beautiful quotes of love comes straight from the Bible and there could not be a truer phrase uttered. "Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end."

There is nothing, nothing, more meaningful or purposeful than love. Love is life. Love is prayer. Love is the ecstacy of living. Love, really, is just... it's the amazingness of everything, of beauty and all the goodness out there.


On the other hand, however, is the more sensical, less romantic side of me. In a different mood, I can look back on what I just wrote and think: I'm an idiot.

Love is... just stupid.

All it is, really, is a chemical balance in your brain that makes you feel one way or the other for a person. It's an instinct, because the main purpose of every race, species, or living thing is reproduction. Love is nothing that you can control, so why the heck should you listen to it?? I hate romance novels and films. Oh gosh, they make me sick. STOP KISSING, YOU'VE GOT A FREAKING WAR TO FIGHT!!! In the whole scheme of the earth, it's survival that matters, not love. The body can survive without love. The mind might not, but what does the mind matter? I couldn't say. I don't know. I guess that's looking at it from a more atheist point of view, which I'm not, but, it's the instincts and the body that have such an effect on the mind that you can't really trust one over the other.

Yet there's still that little part inside of me that says, love could be nice. I'd be fooling myself, sure, but it could be nice. I wouldn't know.


...

I wouldn't know. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7178636/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7178636/ Tue, 29 Nov 2005 16:49:33 PST
The weather today was the lovliest, clousidest, windiest day we've had in a long time. It was like... if I had wings but could only fly for one day of my life, today would be it. That sky was so inviting... I can't explain it!! Ha ha and I probably sound really stupid right now!! But it was such a wonderful feeling!! No, I'm not high right now.

Don't know why I'm happy though, because my psycho [but awesome] English teacher is giving us three tests in a row, today was on 75 vocab words [luckily I know vocab so it was easy peasy], tomorrow is on the Elizabethan time period, and Thursday is everything you ever [didn't] want to know about Shakespeare.... actually I like Shakespeare... well most of his stuff anyway.. but anyway.. her tests are usually six pages long, all short answer, 42 minutes. It's pretty intense. Then our chem II test that was supposed to be today got switched because we had an evacuation drill, so that's tomorrow too, and I have to take a science league tryout test and tutor in Italian, then Friday I have a business test, which is really a joke anyway.. had a history test yesterday... and I have to work until 7 on Thursday, do my sketch, um, what else. I still have chem hw due soon that I haven't started.

So for my sketch I have to make a logo/symbol that defines me... can't think of a thing. If it were up to me I'd be a blank piece of paper but that's too emo/I think I'm cool -ish. So guys, who am I in a picture, eh?? ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7126495/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7126495/ Sun, 27 Nov 2005 08:15:22 PST I hope it's a happy, thankful, thoughtful, fun, caring, sharing, super duper, eccellente, out of this world, totally awesome possum day. Seriously though... I hope you all remember those who love you and have a truly blessed day.

P.S. If any of you want a laugh, take a look at [link]

--or maybe that's just my kind of humor...

.:EDIT:. I hope I fixed the link...

.:EDIT2:. 2000 pageviews guys!! Thanks! ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7091954/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7091954/ Sat, 19 Nov 2005 21:02:07 PST ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7033482/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/7033482/ Sun, 13 Nov 2005 07:33:03 PST
Three names you go by
1. Sharon
2. Shams [most common among the fam ]
3. Moosle

Three screen names you've had
1. sunsmile624
2. feelinhungry
3. shamoosle24

Three physical things you like about yourself
1. my hands
2. my hair on a good day (meaning twice a year)
3. my eyebrows [I don't know why..]

Three physical things you don't like about yourself
1. I've got a huge shnoze ha ha, seriously, that's why you nevvvver see any pictures of me online ha ha
2. I've got squirrelcheeks
3. bad skin
[wow I just made myself sound really ugly ha ha]

Three parts of your heritage
1. Italia babyyyy
2. America [yes we came over on the Mayflower]
3. England [to the days of Aethelwulf and Robert the Strong!!]

Three things that scare you
1. Spiders scare the living daylights out of me
2. living forever
3. ignorance

Three of your everyday essentials
1. book. can't do anything wihtout a book.
2. chapstick
3. nailclippers [I've found out the hard way that you never have them when you need them!!]

Three things you are wearing right now
1. Three rubberbands on my wrists because my hair is just that unpredictable
2. clothes, duh
3. a cool spinney ring that I've been spinning for the past half hour


Three of your favorite songs
1. can't even start. naming one would be an injustice to others.
2.
3.

Three new things you want to try in the next 12 months
1. To go to governor's school!
2. To go to Italy
3. meet someone that will change my life in some way, shape, or form

Three things you want in a relationship
1. equality
2. sincerity
3. something different every day

Truths and Lies (yes, I know this is a four)
(ahah, but which is which?)
1. I have a fake tooth
2. I have a boating license
3. I spent a summer in Canada
4. I love coconut

Three things about the opposite sex that appeal to me
1. His chin/jaw
2. His eyes
3. His voice and how he speaks to others besides myself

Three of your favorite hobbies
1. reading
2. any kind of art
3. math [don't laugh... calculus is awesome]

Three things you want to do really badly right now
1. read
2. not do my chem lab, take home history test, art essays, or calc hw.. wait i do want to do calc... but the rest no
3. eat homemade lasagna.

Three careers you're considering
1. English teacher in a foreign country
2. emergency surgeon
3. some kind of really cool inspirational public speaker
4. geologist
5. vulcanologist
6. meteorologist
7. army person who flies planes into hurricanes and takes recordings
8. astronaut
9. biomedical researcher
10. fantasy writer
11. interior designer
12. ambassador
13. peace corps
14. illustrator/painter [but probably just for fun]
15. -- oops... only 3??

Three places I want to go on vacation
1. Italy
2. Breat Britain
3. New Zealand
4. The moon, i mean doubtful, but that would be pretty freakin awesome...

Three things I want to do before I die
1. everything
2.
3. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/6899734/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/6899734/ Sat, 29 Oct 2005 17:23:40 PDT ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/6858671/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/6858671/ Mon, 24 Oct 2005 19:37:08 PDT ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/6751586/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/6751586/ Wed, 12 Oct 2005 19:02:22 PDT
I thought I was gonna die the first two weeks of school... seriously. Well, actually, I didn't really think that until later becase, quite honestly, I didn't really have time to think during those first two weeks. Here's my schedule this year:

Honors English III
Honors US History II (AP credit)
Art III (I couldn't take art major because it's a double period )
lunch (yes... at 10 in the morning)
Italian III
Intro to Business (biggest joke ever)
AP Calculus
Health
AP Chemistry

So that's pretty much what I do every day. Apparently most people have classes on and off every other day and stuff... I don't know... we don't.

My English teacher is a bit psycho but quite amazing. She knows absolutely everything there is to know about British lit and history, and quite honestly I'm fascinated... I could sit in her class for the other eight periods of the day. Unfortunately we don't do much creative work -- I haven't written an actual story since... eighth grade. I couldn't get creative writing/poetry AGAIN and I'm still really mad about it... it wouldn't fit in my schedule... [I've been writing music but I can't write lyrics for the life of me and was hoping this would help]. Anyway, the only class that fit in my schedule was Intro to Business, which, at least I can get my Italian homework done, etc. I had 13 pages worth of essays due yesterday -- 7 freakin essays -- but thankfully I'm better now..

My art class is cool, but no one's real serious about art because all the serious kids took art major. Haven't done anything interesting yet, and I haven't felt like posting... sorry. Besides, my scanner's a bit screwed up right now.

As an afternote I'm totally inspired right now but have nothing at all to write about or draw...so... uh... feeling kinda pissed because of it. Kind of empty like. Anyway. Hope you're all well and I'll try to keep in touch ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/6354147/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/6354147/ Sun, 28 Aug 2005 19:41:15 PDT
I hate to say this, but I won't be back... at least not for a while. I thought that after I came back from Moore I'd have tons to show you, new stuff that I'd learned... but it's just not going to work out. And I feel like a jerk that I lied and said I'd come comment on all your deviations and journals, so I'm really sorry about that. And I mean it, because a lot of you guys have become great friends to me here on dA.

Unfortunately dA also took a lot of time away from my schoolwork, and I'm determined to be more thorough and concentrate more on my work.

I'm still doing art, I just can't get back into the swing of dA. I'll miss all my close friends here -- feel free to email me anytime, I swear -- and I hope we can keep in touch. If you ever want a truly honest critique on something, I'll always be willing to provide one.

I hope you all enjoyed my brief stay and that perhaps some of my art or comments may have meant something to you... in the meantime, God bless and may your creative juices always flow

~Sharon ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/6218701/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/6218701/ Sat, 13 Aug 2005 18:18:40 PDT
I won't be going into Philly anymore, Moore is finished, and my vacation is over -- it such feels like the end of the summer!! Of course, I've only finished 900 of my 1600 pages of summer reading, and still have three chapters and fifty questions of chemistry to go through.... but, I digress.

Well I guess I owe a bit of an explanation of my absence, which will probably be very boring, but feel free to keep reading.

Ceramics was a bit of a let-down. I didn't actually come home with anything that I like, but I'll probably post some anyway. My teacher had this weird thing where you couldn't glaze the bottom half inch of your piece, so a bunch of my pieces look unfinished and sloppy. We could only do one figurative project, and I loved it -- she tried to get me to do something else, but I persisted, and I loved the result -- it was a beautiful woman sculpture, I was so impressed with myself, if I may say so, but, of course, it blew up in the kiln, why wouldn't something like that happen to me? But I did manage to save five pieces, which I might put in scraps. Her face, a bit of her hair, and arm, and a leg. And I also made a really lovely vase for my sister -- her birthday's in two weeks -- and I spent about ten hours making it as perfect and beautiful as I could, I spent so much f r e a k i n t i m e on that thing. And I only had one day left, and I came in on the last day, and it was gone. My teacher figured the maids broke it by accident, cleaned it up, and didn't bother to leave a note. So I still don't know what happened to it and I'm really upset and touchy that the only two things I was proud of are gone. And now I still need to get my sister a birthday present. And then my dad said, to make me feel better -- "I like that skinny little vessel thing you made." But that was the thing that my teacher gave me because she felt so bad about my stuff. So I'm still pretty touchy about the whole ceramics thing. I love sculpting and clay working, but I hate everything I've done with it.

Painting was a bit better. I didn't paint any type of thing that I'd hang on my wall or something, but I painted well enough. Keep in mind that this is my first time painting in anything other than watercolor, so please be gentle with critique! I thought I did all right for a first-timer, but when my grandma came, she was critisizing it. Well, not entirely, but she didn't compliment it either. Which upset me because she's why I wanted to paint in the first place, and she gave me all her materials. She said I need to choose colors that compliment my skin for the self-portrait, but personally I really like the background color. And she said I need to be more free -- when I was one of the freest painting kids in the class, and again, I've only been painting for five weeks.

So I've been feeling pretty down since I got home.

I'm also pretty mad at my brother right now, but I don't want to get into it.

Also, I've got tons of deviations and journals -- [yes, I still want to know very much about your lives] -- to go through, so I'll give it my best to get at it ASAP!! Sorry for the long wait, all, but I'll also try to get up a few of my things too.

Well, goodnight then, maybe I'll be feeling better in the morning. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5916501/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5916501/ Tue, 12 Jul 2005 18:11:28 PDT ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5884842/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5884842/ Sat, 09 Jul 2005 10:17:36 PDT ], soccer, basketball, and hockey, making movies, stargazing, having water balloon/supersoaker fights, mini golf, and our awesome improv games, ha ha.

Anyway, this means that my message center is pretty full and I will not be able to comment on all your deviations and journals -- sorry!! I will try to get around to them soon, but no promises. Also, my art school starts Monday, which will also take up most of my time.

Glad to be back ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5803373/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5803373/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 15:40:11 PDT
Cheers! ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5737228/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5737228/ Thu, 23 Jun 2005 18:49:32 PDT
I'm not sure if it's just me, but for the last month or so, when I submit a deviation, it doesn't come up on my general page for a few hours, but it sends out to all my watchers immediately. Has this happened to anyone else/does anyone know about it?? ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5723483/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5723483/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 12:28:53 PDT
Should I do a WIP??? ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5664974/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5664974/ Thu, 16 Jun 2005 10:03:57 PDT

FREEDOM!!!


I never thought the day would come... I can't even remember what it's like to not have something to be doing... well not yet at least... but school is over and that's all that matters to me... But I don't know whether to dance or cry -- and if I cry, is it because I'm happy or sad?? It's one of those weird confusing emotional mixes. All As and Bs on exams, all As for the year [modest, I know ]. As far as you're concerned though, this means I can be back to commenting and making art!

I've got a new obsession... any of you ever heard of "Wicked"? It's a Broadway musical based off the book by Gregory Maguire -- I actually haven't yet read the book, but my friend just burned me the soundtrack and I'm in LOVE with it!! The songs are amazing!! She's going to see it on Broadway this summer, and I am so jealous.. anyway, it's way awesome... must get book now...

Thank you all for your kind words and prayers about Zehra -- though I haven't been allowed to see her yet, she is getting steadily better and can see out of her right eye, and her left is healing!! She's talking again and seeing people and laughing, and your thoughts mean a lot to her. to you all.

Also, I'd like to say Happy Birthday to one of my special friends who is turning... how old are you now?? 17 I believe... Happy Brithday ~zephyrus7!!! What a wonderful person and an amazing poet. Go check out his gallery or wish him happy birthday because he's way cool. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5597100/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5597100/ Thu, 09 Jun 2005 09:17:59 PDT
Thanks. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5589239/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5589239/ Wed, 08 Jun 2005 12:55:54 PDT
My Schedule:
Thursday: Italian, History
Friday: Chemistry, Prob/Stat final assignment
Tuesday: Phys. Ed., English
Wednesday: Precal, Art

Wish me luck!! I may be absent for a bit within the next few days

I'm insanely happy at the moment because we just had a two-hour lightning storm the other night and that is the sort of thing that just sends adrenaline through me... I love storms more than almost anything... but I've always been a bit strange that way

Thank you also to the lovely Chelsea Rae at =g-l-o-v-e for making me June's Featured Artist and Glove and giving me all sorts of lovely praise, it's much appreciated!

I will try to have more art up soon... but no promises

]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5534009/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5534009/ Sun, 05 Jun 2005 06:19:54 PDT
Don't worry -- mood as 'hopeless' isn't as dramatic as it sounds, I'm just really really tired of school and can't wait til I graduate... which, sadly, is still two years away.

As to the point of this entry, there is one -- I haven't had anything new up in quite a while!! Well, that is about to change. I just got back three pieces of art from class, and I've taken a few photos. My pictures will probably be up this weekend -- I have the watercolor version of "Ocean View" [that won 1st place for my class in the art show!! ], a self portrait [which was actually done BEFORE the last self portrait in my gallery], and a little ad thing for my pottery, which is a bit lame and will probably go into scraps, along with a few after-test doodles. My photos will probably go up in my photo gallery [once I make it -- I still haven't ]

Speaking of my photo gallery, the only reason it isn't up yet is because it doesn't have a name -- the first thing that came into my head was Photolectric, but I can't decide if that sounds cool or absolutely ridiculous. Opinions are quite welcome, my dears [as well as new suggestions].

Well, I believe that's it for now... keep watch, I'll try to have things up this weekend!!


.:UPDATE:.
Good news everyone, the photo account is up and indeed it is ~Photolectric ! Though dA has been a bit off with letting me submit my deviations lately, and some of them aren't showing yet, it may take a bit. And I'll need to get up a new avatar, I have no ideas... and I haven't yet moved my scraps... but I will get to it!

]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5486247/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5486247/ Sat, 28 May 2005 14:40:30 PDT

Today was momunentous -- the first thunderstorm!! The weather here has been so cold and horrid, even in the middle of May, I thought spring would never come. But what a lovely storm!! Ahhh it just completely made my day!! Sorry to rant, but I had to throw that in.

Okay, now for some business -- I decided I need a photo account. I was looking through my gallery and it's all so disorganized, I have photos, paintings, sketches, sculptures, short stories and poems all jumbled together!! The least I can do is take my photos out. But first I need to come up with a name, ha ha, and then transfer all my photos, and I even have a few new ones -- so I don't know how long it will be to put up. I'll keep you all informed though, I'm sure you're all ansty with anticipation

If anyone's interested in a cool traditional art community, I just joined =g-l-o-v-e, which is run by Chelsea Rae, who is pretty cool. If you like that kind of stuff, check it out.

Well, I think that's all I have for now -- I don't know how much I'll be on this weekend because I've got loads of homework, and a history project -- but I hope to be back soon ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5451392/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5451392/ Tue, 24 May 2005 19:11:38 PDT for making me feel better and listening to my lousy complaints on a bad day!! Love ya, dear

Also, thanks to and for being great comment/critiquers, amazing artists, and all-around way cool people. Thanks so much, you make my dA experience worth the time!!

Thank you thank you!! You're lovely people and I hope you have a day that's just as awesome as you




P.S. No, I'm not drugged, ha ha, just in a strangely happy mood ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5383580/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5383580/ Tue, 17 May 2005 14:29:01 PDT
In fact it was a heck of a lot scarier than that.

My mom, dad, sister Marie, and brother Joey all had cancer, and there was a chance that my sister Katie and I had it too. They were all going to die. The only chance they had was one hospital, located sort of in the middle of nowhere and a bit sketchy. Katie and I went to visit the rest of my family to see if they were being cared for -- but the doctors were all insane. Every one of them was hopping mad. Their eyes held a maniac glint and they had sharp teeth and all sorts of creepy hospital equipment. The hospital itself was decrepit and dirty -- dirt everywhere, faded lights, paint peeling and walls cracking. As one man led us to Marie, we saw a man mixing spaghetti with green worms on the floor with a mop. We kept down the hallways, and saw Marie, unconscious, and the doctor laughed as he picked up her leg and dropped it dead, and there were a couple screams from far off.

Cut to Beauty and the Beast. "I'm going with you!!" said Belle. "It's too dangerous.. I can't let you risk it," said the Beast. And he climbed up the hospital gate [the mad doctors wouldn't let him in or us out] and somehow was suddenly climbing up a huge cliff face, and he saved us all. Which was really nice, because I didn't want to eat worms. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5329736/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5329736/ Wed, 11 May 2005 14:24:52 PDT

I was walking home from school today, and I thought, hm, my flip-flops are really slowing me down, and I'm really thirsty... why don't I just take my shoes off?? I'd done it before, and yes, my feet did burn, but I put some aloe on them and they were fine in three days.

Sooo I'm walking home and I'm thinking, hm, this is really hot. My feet hurt. But no, idiot that I am, I just kept on walking.. and I walk inside and I'm think, hm, I can't really feel my feet. An interesting sensation. And then I move from tile to rug, and it hits me -- this was no ordinary lazy day foot burning, this is an all out size-of-your-thumbprint blister festering foot burning, and now I look like a complete doof because I can't limp [I have blisters on both feet] yet I am lame enough to wince every time I step, ha ha, and I can't even feel bad for myself because it's my own stinking fault.

Hah.

On a lighter note, my art teacher picked me to give two demonstrations on coil pots and they went quite well!!

.:UPDATE:.
My neighbors just cut down their willow tree!! The tree that Carmen and I had always planned to build a tree house in!! The one we used to climb every day in the summer!! The one she got stuck in!! The one we buried letters to God under!! The one we'd sit and drink cheap lemonade under!! Ah, that tree is a symbol of my childhood!! A tribute, to times gone ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5256175/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5256175/ Tue, 03 May 2005 12:56:40 PDT
When you take a step back and look at it from a neutral point of view, the world just makes me so sad. There are so many people suffering; I find it bad enough around myself, here, in a modestly rich American community, and I can't even imagine what it is like in Africa, or the Middle-East, or Asia -- India, Nepal, Bangladesh -- wherever. I can't imagine what it's like to live poor, to have lost, to have loved deeply, to have pieces of your life ripped away chunks at a time. And it just makes me think, the lamest sounding, stupidest yet so simple question: Why can't we all just get along? Why? What do you gain by hurting someone, by torturing, what do you gain? Do you think you will feel better about yourself? Well obviously that is ridiculous, because you should feel selfish and ashamed. And it just makes me hurt to know that it's probably because the world is more selfish than it is ashamed, and I guess, wanting a rich life is human instinct.

Me? I've got everything, I've got the best life I could have asked for. I have a family that I love and that loves me, with cousins that are my best friends. I get good grades in school -- the only reason that I am not tied for valedictorian is because they don't offer a level 1 Italian class, only level 2, and the seven students tied for it take Spanish, which does offer level 1. I just got three awards today in school for the best Italian, art, and English students in my grade, which is 500 people. I have a fairly large house and a lovely backyard with woods and a creek [even though there's tons of poison ivy]. I'm well-liked by my teachers and I have caring friends. I don't do drugs or drink or anything like that, and I can hold my own. My parents have well-respected jobs and my sisters and brother are all geniuses. I love everything, I love living. Sure, I hate things about myself, but everyone does, and I don't really feel bad about it.

So what did I do to deserve this? Why do I have so much while others have so little?? I didn't do anything, all I did was live. I don't understand it, and strangely, I hate it. I feel like my surface is so shallow. I don't have that sort of worldly experience, I don't have any comprehension of what it is to have loved or lost -- and me, I want everything out of life. I want to experience everything... I want to see all there is to see, I really do. I want to travel, I want adventures, I want things to go wrong -- pretty much, I want life to present a challenge. I guess that's what it really is -- I've always been competitive in that way. I mean I'm not saying I want my friends to die just so I can experience the pain, because I know, then I would be crazy. But I want to go into the world and meet people and help people and maybe understand it a little better, and then I could be at peace with myself. It's an odd balance -- I'm at peace in my life but completely restless on the inside -- I want wild adventures and challenges, and if I had that, I could be at peace on the inside.

Is there any sense in this or am I talking in circles? ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5215228/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5215228/ Thu, 28 Apr 2005 17:56:13 PDT
I drew a real picture, for the first time since, well, probably since Practice Portrait, I guess, but really before that, because this picture has a background and everything... I hadn't realized how much I miss plain old... drawing...

At the moment it's only lineart in pencil sketch, I'll probably outline and post it tomorrow... It's strange, I'm quite please with the outcome... I usually can NEVER think of a background...

No need to respond, I just needed something new on my home.

Hm... I should really get a new dev ID. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5112718/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5112718/ Sun, 17 Apr 2005 14:45:28 PDT to all

]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5060595/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/5060595/ Mon, 11 Apr 2005 13:11:07 PDT

Yep... that pretty much sums it up.. I had two pics to post in scraps, loading them from my digital [which I got back, by the way] and I was like finally, something new, but every time I save the pictures they disappear.. I load the pictures to Kodak.. I click edit picture.. save as.. contourwc and somportrait.. saved.. open folder... no contourwc and somportrait.. and then I ate pie. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4979544/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4979544/ Sun, 03 Apr 2005 18:34:50 PDT
There's a cause I've been rather passionate about lately -- the genocide in Sudan and the fact that no one is doing anything to stop it. My best friend's school is holding a concert -- Emancipation Rocklamation -- to raise money for the American Anti-Slavery Foundation, which is non-profit. I'm trying to start something similar in my own school and raise awareness. If you'd like to know more, go to [link] or [link] . Though they're really both the same thing.

I have a new piece, but it's too big to scan, and it's also for school, and I STILL don't have batteries for my camera -- so at the end of the school year I'll have a bunch of things up . I think pastel is my favorite medium, really. Well anyway I've got to get back to work, 3 projects due Monday, UGH... way to spend a spring break huh...

.:UPDATE:.
I GOT RECHARGEABLE BATTERIES!!! AHH!! Never thought I'd live to see the day! Unfortunately, my dad is borrowing my camera for a week so I won't be able to put anything up anyway. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4900072/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4900072/ Thu, 24 Mar 2005 12:33:16 PST ]

Pretty much the last two months have been one assignment after another, and three at a time; I feel like I haven't had my own weekend since midterms! It's quite a brutal schedule, if I can have some sympathy for myself. But the good news -- SPRING BREAK!!! Today was the last day before spring break, and we have off of school until the fourth. This week was insane -- I've had five tests in the past two days, and seven, I think, this week. Today I had precal, prob/stat, and history. Not good, because yesterday was one of those days that every time I sat down to study I just sort of made a really loud grunt/sigh and then didn't... actually... study. And he didn't even give us notes in history -- he gave us a packet, told us to fill it in, and -- without review -- gave us a test on it. And yeah, I hadn't done the packet.
I ended up studying precal in art because I finished my Japanese ceramic pot early, and despite me forgetting the formulas, I actually figured them out on the test, and I was feeling pretty good about it. I studied prob/stat in chem, in between Nate quizzing me on history [which I didn't know any of]. Usually I study history in prob/stat, but I couldn't, cause the test, so I wrote as fast as I could and, amazingly, finished with thirteen minutes left -- don't think I've EVER done that before! And, I might have gotten 100 -- never done that before either, ha ha. So in the remaining time I studied up on the reform movements of the 1840s and I must say, I am feeling pretty good about that history test. So, being the luckiest idiot ever, I managed to not study and ace all my tests [well at least I think I did]. Anyway, that's enough of my bragging, please excuse it; now, back to something worth reading about:

I read Eden Avenue in English class today, and got a pretty good response, which I must say was nice to hear. Led to a fifteen minute discussion on tv dinners.

Break isn't filled with nearly as much work as I had expected, which is a ocmplete relief!! Because of all the tests, there were no extra little side-assignments given, so I can focus on the projects. I've got to write a paper in Italian and make manicotti [MMMMMMMMM] and for English we have to do some sort of self-interpretation, like Walt Whitman's Song of Myself. So I will most likely be trying a painting, which hopefully you will all get to see. Unless it stinks and I don't post it. And I have a chem lab, which shouldn't be too much trouble, and I have to make a banner for my church youth group.

Now, something exciting: I got a half-tuition scholarship to take summer classes at Moore College of the Arts!! AHHHHHH I am so happy! My teacher had three to offer to the 300 or so art students in my school, and she offered me one.. but it's only for one class, so now I am stuck between a few drawing classes, painting classes, ceramics, and metalworking and jewelry making.

And I can't wait until Saturday!!!!! My dad's 50th birthday is tomorrow, but it's Good Friday so we can't do anything, so we're having his party on Holy Saturday. This means my cousins are visiting from Virginia!!!!!!!! Even though they are a few years younger than me, we're close to best friends. I love them to death, but only see them a few times a year. I am giving my dad an abstract watercolor I did in my art class recently; hopefully I will get a chance to post that when I get some new camera batteries.

Anyway, sorry to bore you all with the long entry, about nothing that a watcher would care about, ha ha, but since I stopped keeping a diary this has become quite a nice place to vent.

I hope you all have a good Friday, a holy Saturday, and a very sunny Easter!! God bless. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4883832/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4883832/ Tue, 22 Mar 2005 17:30:31 PST ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4791891/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4791891/ Sat, 12 Mar 2005 19:54:06 PST
In the art world, I attended a teen arts festival on Thursday at a local college! Man, some people had AMAZING work. Very impressive. I'll not go into detail about some of the other work however -- colored in crayon, outlined in sketchy pencil, and pictures of hugely out of proportion anime people.. whatever makes them happy I guess.. I had a pencil self portrait in. The more I looked at it, the more I hated it. It was just definitely overdone because I'd had to erase so many times, according to my teacher's 'right' instructions. Eh. There were also musical performances -- I heard my friends Dan and Alexa sing and they were both quite wonderful. I must say -- I had more fun than I would have in classes all day.

Later, at Science League, my teacher put me into the Earth Science category, because we needed a team for that and I was an extra in Chem I. I've never actually taken earth science.. so I was a bit wary. However, I ended up beating the other kid from my school who was also on the team -- who is taking the class now, ha ha -- and I got 3rd place overall! Though I guess that's not much to be proud of.. I sort of just went for the cookies..

.:UPDATE:.
The watercolor is finished and I'm a bit happy with it. Of course it's overdone because I am constantly wanting to blend, but it's not all that bad. Except, I don't know if I can post it because it's too big for my scanner and my digital camera ran out of batteries. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4621205/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4621205/ Sat, 19 Feb 2005 10:13:29 PST
Apparently watercolors isn't my medium, but I am quite determined to get it right. They are so delicate! One mistake ruins the whole thing! First, I had trouble with the sky, because the paint was drying before I had time to salt it. To cover up the parts the didn't take the salt, I spattered it -- NOT a good idea. A completely different effect. For the grass, I did a wet-into-wet wash of two different greens, and filled in some grass with a watercolor pencil while it was still wet. Looked great in practice -- quite another story on the actual painting. I went on to the horse, doing the mane and tail -- which looked quite good, and I was happy that something was turning out right. But then I put fristkit over it so the bushes wouldn't ruin it, but when I took the friskit up, the paint came off too And then a drop of water got on my grass and completely messed it up!!! Overall, it doesn't look so bad, I guess... I'll post it when it's finished and then probably throw it away and start again. I REALLY want to do this right!! If anyone has some suggestions on painting grass, I would do anything to hear it..

*sigh* the only time when I want it to be perfect, everything goes wrong... ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4581127/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4581127/ Mon, 14 Feb 2005 15:06:16 PST

Undefined Love

When we are divided
There’s a difference in the air
My pain becomes acute
And the hurt is hard to bear

But when you return to me
There is a ray of light
It’s plane to see your love for me
No parallel in sight

My love for you is infinite
You complement my ways
You will be my other half
To the endpoint of our days

There is no point or reason
For corresponding attraction
But I have all the proof I need
In our equal interaction


Happy Valentine's Day!! I found myself four Valentine's throughout the day... basically asked all my friends because there is no special someone.. I think it's kind of a stupid holiday anyway... but it gives me a silly reason so be happy, so I'm going to go dance or something!! Even if ya hate love I hope you had a great day!! ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4514442/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4514442/ Sun, 06 Feb 2005 18:09:31 PST eagles' fight song, spelled out our
team's name loudly for all to hear, and
danced along with T.O. Others try to
rain on our parade, but we preach a
higher gospel --- one team. one city.
one dream.

alright Eagles, its time .... Superbowl XXXIX

Fly, Eagles fly
On the road to Victory
Fight, Eagles fight
Score a touchdown 1-2-3
Hit 'em low
Hit 'em high
And watch our Eagles fly
Fly, Eagles fly
On the road to Victory!!!!!!

E-A-G-L-E-S EAGLES!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, I am pumped. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4502806/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4502806/ Sat, 05 Feb 2005 10:57:44 PST is about time. That cold has finally caught up to the rest of me. Just a slight fever, slight cough, etc. So I will probably be drinking tea most of the day, and not be around. but feel free to entertain yourself with my new poem... If Ever... hee hee.

I'm out -- ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4499096/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4499096/ Fri, 04 Feb 2005 19:07:41 PST
Whoa there, going a bit dramatic. Sorry, I just get these urges every now and then. Anyway, it was beautiful snow, creating a fresh layer on the few inches still on the ground, and I wanted to photograph it, but I had school. And, of course, by the time I got home, it had melted.

Haven't exactly started the watercolor yet either. I need some brushes, and they're incredibly expensive, so I need to wait for the Michael's 40% off coupons.

Despite the amount of work I have to do, I'm pleasantly content, if that's not too redundant. Oh yeah, one more thing --

G O E A G L E S !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4437699/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4437699/ Fri, 28 Jan 2005 14:11:20 PST

Update on Girl and Unicorn: I am officially attempting a watercolor.. *gasp* I know... because I never finish anything! But it's for my friend so I have to! As of the moment it is lightly sketched on my watercolor paper and taped to a board. Hopefully I'll be able to go to Michael's or A.C.Moore tonight and pick up some of the right supplies -- friskit will def be needed. So, because this time I am attempting to be patient so my colors don't run as they have on all my other watercolors, it will probably be a while before I am finished. But I thought I should let ya know

Smell ya later ~ ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4418849/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4418849/ Wed, 26 Jan 2005 10:01:36 PST

I'm out -- ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4379798/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4379798/ Fri, 21 Jan 2005 19:09:06 PST
I'm moving into my sister's old room since she's out of college now, and today we took down the wallpaper. It was actually kinda fun -- like peeling giant gumwrappers, which, I hate gum, but I always peel the wrappers and stick it onto my chem binder. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4371906/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4371906/ Thu, 20 Jan 2005 19:00:30 PST

I am the rose of Sharon, and the lily of the valleys.
As the lily among thorns, so is my love among the daughters.
As the apple tree among the trees of the wood, so is my beloved among the sons.
I sat down under his shadow with great delight, and his fruit was sweet to my taste.
He brought me to the banqueting house, and his banner over me was love.
Stay me with flagons, comfort me with apples: for I am sick of love.
His left hand is under my head, and his right hand doth embrace me.
I charge you, O ye daughters of Jerusalem, by the roes,
and by the hinds of the field, that ye stir not up, nor wake my love, till he please. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4360311/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4360311/ Wed, 19 Jan 2005 13:07:52 PST
*languid happy sigh* ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4264766/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4264766/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 19:19:52 PST ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4262386/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4262386/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 13:52:57 PST



...needed to get that out. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4255453/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4255453/ Thu, 06 Jan 2005 15:38:16 PST
Yes, folks, I am in Science League, and I am a Varsity Nerd.. but I am so frustrated! Today was the pretest, to see who made the teams. A certain J., who I can't exactly write about on dA, made me feel completely stupid. There are 4 peaople on a team, and I am one of 3 people tied for fourth place on the team, so now we have to work it out.. but i am really frustrated for reasons on here that I cannot say. ]]> ~feelinhungry http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4223112/ http://feelinhungry.deviantart.com/journal/4223112/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 18:03:30 PST
Actually, scanner, printer, copier, and photoprinter all in one, awww yeah. Never thought I'd see the day. We don't even have cable TV. Anyway, I hope this means I will be able to post some of my newer works once I figure out how to use it... ]]> ~feelinhungry