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soooooooo.
im open for ideas.
LET ME KNOWWWW!

shit, ill start doing commissions...

p.s. val...tell me how those things work >.>

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/25878129/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/25878129/ Sat, 11 Jul 2009 11:00:46 PDT
]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/25091319/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/25091319/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 15:22:58 PDT
and yesterday i got my wisdom teeth out. so ive been pretty shitty, not trying to take my vic's only to save em for later >.>

and shits been nuts with working on graduation, finally took my final which should determine whether i get my diploma or not, but by the looks of it, ill have it (on the ninth baby!) but im done with finals so i dont have school until graduation, except for the practice ceromony on the eighth

and i have been working on getting my drivers license, i have had some issues, but im taking it again on the sixteenth, and then maybe i can get a job and get out of my fucking house, maybe move to a different city,

idk i guess its an explanaiton to why things have been hectic and i havent been on, i havent been on the internet too much except for maybe a quick check on things or looking something up youtube.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/23089204/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/23089204/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 18:18:59 PST i feel terrible i never update anymore or keep up with commenting people to let them know i still actually view their work >.<

but i hope to get some stuff up and some feedback.
im taking art classes, well drawing and ceramics, both which im terrible at so hopefully things turn out good and i get more artistic.

ALSO ALSO ALSO.
my boyfriend remembers his dreams like vividly right, and i was asking him about what he dreamt of the one day and it was some crazy cool story,
so me and him are planning on tweaking it and making it into a story, and hopefully a book, where there is complete openess for a sequel. im excited cause its something im totally into and get ideas and work with quite easily instead of pretty much having an infinite writers block.

its invigorating.

but ive been sick, and now im getting better, and i have senior interviews (needed to graduate) and im stressin, im kind of prepared, but idk. those are tuesday for my class so hopefully all goes well.

i never know what to put in these things really so i think im going to stop it here.

*waves* hope all is well with everyone, and i have been viewing everyones work, i just havent gotten around to commenting, and its all very good as usual. <3 and thank you to all who have commented/favourited or any such things relating to my own gallery <3

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/22988960/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/22988960/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 17:26:40 PST i turned eighteen
got a tattoo.
not what i wanted but i have room for it still.
got a bong.
and been doing other such things

been taking art classes now that semesters have switched, art isnt my thing, but hoppefully it turns out

i went and got my grad gift with my dad since circuit city is closing

and i ended up with a nikon d60 <33333333333333333333333333333

beats this beat up olympussss.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/22271977/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/22271977/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 01:36:05 PST probably my last post til the new year
just the update.
anyhoot.
i got xbox live for christmas, well a subscription so ive been playing mad halo and i just got left 4 dead <3

and just chillin with mister and lace.
getting some new stuff to update.

so how has everyone else been (to those who actually read these)

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/21899784/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/21899784/ Tue, 09 Dec 2008 14:35:45 PST so how about i figured out that putting periods in between words on da sends you to links to search engines with keywords.

unfortunately i typed in cute as fuck.
and got porn.

ten points fail.

ANYWAYS.
i feel like updating.
and i need a new featured.
or ideas.
anyone want to do art trade?
or even just give me an idea fuck it.

and i have been extremely lazy
staying at home cause the snow sucks to walk in
cause i got to walk home all wet n such.

and for being the independent or defiant individual.
im straight up trippin.

and things are looking spectacular <3

and i was going to type something in here.
but i totally forgot it.
oh well.
ill add it in later <3
luffs.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/21722907/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/21722907/ Fri, 28 Nov 2008 22:47:48 PST im posting and update while im at my heterosexual life partners house and shes sewing up a hoodie before we go out and go sledding through a cemetery!

and im so excited
i was in a real rut
and things are looking up so much
im so happy with my friends
and diggin this one dude
and potential seems pretty awesome

and i got to work some things out so drama doesnt happen
but i seem to get myself into that kind of situation when i decide i finally want to take a risk...cause i dont ever plan it

and im still looking for work
and im going to try more after the holiday season though...
and my birthday is coming up i cant wait.
fucking eighteen bitches.

but atm ive just been sitting back and looking through philosophy notes..
and making my brain work so well...

i do need to update.
especially my other da for writing but i have some stuff from my writing class i could use.

but i have so much creative potential building up its about to fucking burst.

so i hope to get mad things up here.

and im starting to draw too i think...

and p.s. the twilight crazy sucks my dick

omfg. im so excited for everything atm

<3

peace out everyone

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/21666427/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/21666427/ Tue, 25 Nov 2008 15:31:47 PST so how about i found out what im doing for the anime con at state college in jan?

everyone is either going as captains or vice captains of bleach

fail = ise nanao.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/21412054/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/21412054/ Sun, 09 Nov 2008 20:24:20 PST
and someone who was there for me when no one wasnt is leaving for the military in a couple weeks.
and the resitance to see hiim is just growing all the more.
but i guess its with both parties.
and then i figured out.
i cant make connections with any individuals in any ways shape or form because of my huge fear of them
and idk.
things are going well.
while everything just seems to fall apart.

kind of a whole law of diminishing utility/returns kind of deal.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/21066584/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/21066584/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 16:02:48 PDT update timeeeee
nothing really.
working hard with school to keep on top of things.
got a job.
wuit.
and im getting a new one.
finally got my camera working.,
and finally got my laptop working. i found the cord my mom stole and didnt break. and then turn on the lappy. NTLDR missing. great. so i fixed that. planning to dual boot with linux.

been smoking mad trees, living a hippie dream. well not really. cause i shower and work...

but anyways.
things going well i guess.
kind of being a loner cause i have no time.
but the main person i have been with is my best friend lacey.
and rachelle.

no time for anyone else.
alot of my friends have been shady.
alot i have talked to.
so i have reached compromise.

nothing else to really say.
drawing more too.
getting prepared for my class next semester.

<333

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/20173519/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/20173519/ Tue, 26 Aug 2008 19:16:40 PDT im totally not prepared.
no binders.
my pencils are at my dads.
you know the whole not give a shit deal.
but my teachers would be amazed if i walk in prepared anyways.
im a legend <3
and my economics teacher...going to love me. cause i wont be able to keep my trap shut.
i argue too much when it comes to that.


but update.
im not single no mores.
i got my septum pierced.
he did it <3

been out and about.
having a blast.
now that school is starting ill be able to get more shit done cause i wont be paying attention of course.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/19801682/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/19801682/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 02:51:13 PDT im going away for a week in altoona.
with my camera...<3
so i should get a shitload like i did last year.
and then new stuff!
and ill probably be playing bass
and writing alot too.
but i can at least update that.


but i feel like im going to rehab cause i cant have even a cigarette without my dad finding out for a week.
so it will be good for me.
but im partying like a rockstar when i come back

and today was pretty awesome hanging out with kat and code and lacey and andy and a bunch of miscellaneous new people. its kat's birthday today so to all of those that know her...CALL AND SING TO HER DAMMIT

ill probably be online alot though so ill be on da and whatnot. keep contact with me! im going to go nuts within this week with just being with sam and my dad.
itll be a nice get away
but i cant go a day without my homies <3

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/19586570/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/19586570/ Fri, 25 Jul 2008 08:18:27 PDT things have been turning around. its just i have spent too much time socializing and adventuring and taking time away from writing and doing what i love and aspire to do. but i do have more photos to put up its just getting them off a friends computer.

and im working on getting into writing and actually getting back to people here on trusty ole DA.

and im playing bass now. and doing pretty well actually ^.^

and i do have a question.im looking to put up a new featured deviation but i dont know what to really choose. so if you have some comments on which one to put up...PLEASE LET ME KNOW.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/18873214/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/18873214/ Mon, 16 Jun 2008 12:40:22 PDT so the past couple months have been nuts.
not in the good way.
well the partying has been.
dont remember half of whats been going on...
but alot of stress.
alot of cops at one point.
and alot of dealing with two fucking retarded ex boyfriends. you think one is bad enough.
and now establishing a life.
so by the time im 18 im not shot into the world and completely oblivious.
so alot of mental breakdowns.

but summer is here.
and rachelle and i are out to get some mad photos taken.
so updates will be here soon!

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/17723357/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/17723357/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 21:37:31 PDT plus my sister has taken over the internet and i get on using gerads cell phone as a modem...

so not really able to.
so i apologize.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/17375675/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/17375675/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 08:40:04 PDT wow. alot of say. but no way to put it.
i have pretty much disappeared i know.
and i really cant say im doing as lovely as i always have been.
things have been pretty rough.
dealing with alot of stress
helping a friend move in so he can get his life straightened out
aaron and i broke up...

and i have gotten a distaste for the interwebs,
i havent really been home.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/16570195/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/16570195/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 17:34:08 PST sorry i havent really been on or uploading for that matter.
ive just been so sick of the interwebs,
and im having a major inferiority complex with myself.

and i havent really been doing much art.
or photography
or working with gimp
but i think im going to work on my writing sometime soon. <3

i apologize.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/16101130/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/16101130/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 21:11:40 PST this past week has been hectic as fuck.
but as an opening statement MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS! its been amazing.
been a spoiled little brat the entire time.
and been making cookies,
watching my dads gf run around the car drunk as it was a chinese fire drill while wating for the train.

and been hanging out and livin it up!

i hope you all had a merry christmas (to those who do celebrate) and to those who dont, happy holiday that you do celebrate and i have the best interests that its goes great!

but now im just chilling, having a beer and a smoke and relaxing.

tomorrow is full of shopping to spend all the moneys i got! wewt.

though i still want a new camera.
im sick of mine
i want better to do better photography since i cant photoshop worth shit.

im having an inferioritycomplex again by it and very self loathing towards the fact that most of my art sucks and im not proficient at anything.

and im staying out of drama which are doing me good.

and my spelling/grammar sucks i know.

but idk im still head over heels and been extremely happy still.
no real depressing moments.

<3

15.06.07

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/15951652/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/15951652/ Sat, 15 Dec 2007 22:27:28 PST im just getting home.
sorry for the lack of updates. its so hard to maintain three sites. and so many peoople post so many new deviations.
its sorta frustrating since i havent really posted anything recently.
i need to get inspiration again *sigh*

today was epic. it was me and aarons SIX MONTHS! and i plan on many many many many many more to come. (not to be counting the manys its just to show how much i plan on being with him. lawl. over exaggeration if you spose)
but him and i hung out
then we went to aoyama for some sushi and sashimi. his first time going there too. ^.^
then we hung out at his house for awhile.
no crazy anniversary sex though.
for some reasons T.T *angst*
i deff need to go and get the second half of his xmas gift.
even though hes jewish. -.-'

anyways. been out. living it up, having the time of my life.

been with rachelle and brian alot too. i love them to death. went and hung out with richards uncle and grandpa too ^.^

so very excited for xmas. and then i might be able to start and build meh computer! *dance*
and alot of things
im greedy as fuck
but then i can get everyones xmas gifts that i could.
i only really got aarons my moms and maybe my dads..

ohkay im ranting for no reason at the moment
im just excited and hyper.

OO and i got a free pack of smokes!
thanks cameron.

alright i think im off to hit the sheets. T.T

<333333 15.6.07

i luffs mister aaron s. kimmel. ^.^

*poof*

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/15688189/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/15688189/ Tue, 27 Nov 2007 02:29:17 PST not much here recently. more of an update.

lots been going on,
good and bad i spose.

alot of the animosity and hostility in the home with the mother unit.
but i mean you still gotta love her.
and im crazy in love with aaron.

lan on saturday.
super sweet.
but no one lanned cause everyone just got drunk ¬.¬
turkey day was fun too i guess.
more of boring and no feast with mark T.T

but i mean alot of stuff has gone down, but im discovering myself more than anything and who my friends truely are.
thinking alot on my future as well.
but idk.

just chillin and living it up until i wont be able to anymore. heh.

just staying out, living it up, partying, acting like 3 year olds and egging houses.

idk really what to write in this actually.

but hey whatever.

just letting you know im alive
and striving in the name of art.,
but as myself cant portray it,
but attempt.
but attempting is better than nothing at all.
and i love it. ^.^

6.15.07 <3

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/15528929/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/15528929/ Fri, 16 Nov 2007 03:21:41 PST i have been falling behind, i havent really been home lately, ills tart keeping up now, its hard to maintain all three sitees @.@

oh i quit smoking again. lawl. it working 4 days and no smoke, i think im done now too. no desire anymores really.

oh me and aarons 5 months were yesterday too, and he got me to play chess.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/15346658/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/15346658/ Sat, 03 Nov 2007 13:22:09 PDT you know i have two sites already.
for writing
and this one for photography
and i made a new site in which i am putting up all this new digital art on.
to keep things organized

its [link]

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/15174769/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/15174769/ Mon, 22 Oct 2007 14:42:17 PDT thanks to all
sorry i havent really been on
ive been trying to keep updated.
and idk
to rival my last journal/poem
im doing fantastic!
i quit smoking
well me and aaron did.
and aaron ended up with a pack
and im keeping on trying.
so its a start over.


love is a great thing.
<3

been busy.
trying to keep my grades up
and robotics.
its been great
my trig teacher has been out for a week
and im lost as fuck though o.O

umm major feedback on one photo.
thanks to all for that.
shocked me at first.

anyways.
thanks for all the support! its hard to believe since i saw the views and it was at 4008 i wanted a screenshot of the 4000 view.

and!

my deviation views is getting close to 8000!

thanks for the views, comments, favourites, downloads, everything.

and thanks for all those who just added me. *bows*

<3 Mr. Aaron Kimmel

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14861945/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14861945/ Sun, 30 Sep 2007 19:45:11 PDT just staring at the screen
just staring at your responses
and how inconsiderate they seem

because i spill out my guts
when i strive so hard to dampen it
trying to bring closure
and you dont hold it to and reguard

all it is how it doesnt effect you
it just makes me feel even lower
the words dont come except:
what happened to my shoulder to cry on?

theres anger
theres spite
theres tears
but not directed towards you

all attempts are fruitless
how hard do i have to scream for you to listen
and not just hear these words
but i shouldnt hold my breath

it just kills
my head kills
frustration won this time

i care
you dont
and i lie to say youre a waste of time

i sure as hell know
that a lie is a lie
and i know the truth...

FUCK YOU
_{cause i cant hate you.}

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14567191/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14567191/ Sun, 09 Sep 2007 19:46:31 PDT and i may have had a bad day,
but i mean my fears conquer me more than anything.
which causes fear in itself
fear in myself
fear in commitment and love
in loneliness
and fear of the failure
but when you have gone to what you thought was the bottom
or further than that
and when it just gets worse
just sit and take a breath
open your eyes
and see someone who can help you accomplish anything
and when you have that
after awhile
you fear of losing them
because of dependence
an addiction
but then take it lightly to heart
and keep moving forward.
and what you thought had taken you under
is further out of reach
out of desire
and then you can move on,
with keeping it at arms length
and making something of yourself
when everyone says youre worthless
you think youre not
you think youre beautiful
when you always thought you werent
and when theres that doubt
its that persons only opinion that counts
and when you can share the world with someone else
then you dont have to worry about falling away from it.
and when youre rising away from youre ground zero,
youre heart will be lighter than you ever imagined
even when youre inches from standing up.
and then you can make your own person
your own ideals
a combination of the two
and no matter how Imperfect you are
youll always be perfect to yourself
and whoever is there to hold your hand

yeah thats my rant,
sorta an epiphony
so much more to thought,
going to write.
and do my trig and history homework
because you know what.
im not a failure
so FUCK YOU.

<3 love all those by my side,
through everything.
to love and protect.
and keep my hand close.

i think im starting to love him,
more than i could imagine,
even though it is less than he can

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14562664/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14562664/ Sun, 09 Sep 2007 14:20:13 PDT i want to find a deeper meaning to everything
to provide intelligence and more understanding
so im not as mediocre and incopetent as i am now
and the desire for such is so demanding

i want to be the person who never has silence
always something interesting to say
to start and keep any conversation
and doesnt have a need to push someone away

i want to be able to be the best
the most exciting, the most admired
so he can be proud to say im with him
instead of me being such the coward

i want to be the person who doesnt know hate
doesnt have it always sent to in my direction
who always is so incopetent
and all my attempts of resistance, always are prevented

i dont want to be the person whos fueled by all their fears
of failure, of love and commitment, and of loneliness
preventing proper human interaction
and having such a low amount of endurance

i want intelligence,so much it shines from my eyes
to be able to prove everyone wrong
that im not as dumb and silly as i sound
and how that image is so easily drawn

i want to be the person best at something
maybe just one thing, maybe all
i just want to be respected for something
anything
and not be the failure i portray to be

i want to be the person whos perfect
but completely unperfect as well
be myself and be my ideals
so the pride can finally swell

i want to be his everything
better than anything he has had
stand out and make him feel the happiest
and maybe i can be his last

my doubt and confusion dull my dream
and i retreat back in my shell
just dreaming of my phaerie tale perfection
the one i will never be able to tell

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14419847/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14419847/ Fri, 31 Aug 2007 03:09:07 PDT school has started. its been a crazy two days and the third is going to be prolly even crazier. i have gym first block first semester a days so its going to suck, but i have computer apps later wwewt. if i havent been commenting as usual,its been hard to get on here even and when i get home from aarons i just c rash and sleep.so ive been exhausted.

and i just typed that out and was sending it to my buddy justin because aim had to load and he had to have imed me when i wasnt online >.<

but yeah the weekend is going to give me relief and we have off til tuesday so ill have more than enough time to go through and catch back up. ^.^

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14276104/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14276104/ Tue, 21 Aug 2007 17:11:08 PDT so all are free to befriend and whatnot,
ill try to keep updated with friends and watches and whatnot.



]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14266721/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14266721/ Tue, 21 Aug 2007 04:16:21 PDT i have made a new site.
this is to seperate my writing frommy poetry
and since i probably have more photography on here.
this is the photograpy site.
and this is the new one.


so if you enjoy the writing as well.
watch this one also.
i am updating,
so it will be bombarded.
when finished i shall update this yet again.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14214618/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14214618/ Fri, 17 Aug 2007 17:07:20 PDT a1 s1. physical education...¬.¬ a1s2. Java 2
a2 a english 11
a3 computer apps 3 & 4
a4. Trig/Algebra 3 a4s2. Networking Fundamentals



B DAYS
b1s1. health b1s2 javascripting
b2. a us/wld 11
b3. a chemistry
b4s1 trig/ algebra 3 b4s2. web page design 1

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14045406/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/14045406/ Mon, 06 Aug 2007 14:41:55 PDT umm sorry i havent been keeping up. always bad to do so when im at the weekend with my dad anddddddd ive been with aaron alot. hehe its great im sooo extremely happy with that kid its rediculous. <3

soooooooooooo i will get to it.
if not. i will deffinately get to the stuff from now on. (recently posted or will be)

thanks to all,
fel

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13934915/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13934915/ Mon, 30 Jul 2007 00:42:36 PDT im getting near to the 3000 mark.
the person closest to it will get an e-hug.
idont know how else to do it.
any ideas are welcome <3
thanks for the support <3

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13896220/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13896220/ Fri, 27 Jul 2007 05:03:13 PDT
sorry ive been loading up so much stuff.
im playing with my camera.
and still discovering new stuff to do.
so i apologize with loading so many.
its okay to hate me.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13810137/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13810137/ Fri, 20 Jul 2007 14:58:03 PDT but deffinately going to coffee sunday.
whos up for it?
adele ish going
shes in town im so pumped.
and miss rachelle will prolly spend the night on saturday <3

anyways thought id forwarn you because itll prolly take me forever to catch up >.@

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13752583/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13752583/ Mon, 16 Jul 2007 04:28:10 PDT
yesterday was me and aarons one month.
didnt do much
went to the movies and saw 1408.
yeah i jumped more than he did
and hes twitchy.
but i love the rush.
i love being scared
i dont know if thats bad or good.

well anyways.
i got home around ten pm.
then went to kennys.
and then went to perkins with him and richard.
was there all night.
luc showed it was nice to see him again ^.^
then so did some others. sat with them when luc left.
then got gerad to show. yeah he was stoned outta his brains.
and jordan showed too.
sorta nifty
well around 4am gerad was falling asleep in perkins/
and succeeded.
we fucked with him the entire time el oh el.

then now im home.
doingnothing
tired.
but going to play some ddr before my mommy wakes up.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13714732/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13714732/ Thu, 12 Jul 2007 23:59:23 PDT so i havent gotten to the deviations.
i will start as soon as someone starts reposting
ive been sorta busy.
its stinky
im sorry.

{start over}

feeling sorta shitty.


i guess people had wanted me for my figure and not for my intelligence.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13666606/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13666606/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 03:23:35 PDT
no more me blowing up your deviation views or whatnot.

so please sit back and relax.
i wont terrorize any longer
well at least for the moment

thanks for your patience
favourites
comments
views
watches

and just talking to me and viewing in general

and if i didnt get to you i apologize. i think i covered it pretty well

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13649034/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13649034/ Sat, 07 Jul 2007 16:50:19 PDT and i THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR THIS!
it is so greatly appreciated. i reallly do love the feedback
and iwill get to all your galleries
and comments
and watches
and favorites of your own
i just gotta get through all the messages and the deviations i have to view
and still finish posting pictures.
i gotta head out though
ill talk to you all later
MUCH LOVE

i really do love you all <3

~fel

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13638745/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13638745/ Fri, 06 Jul 2007 19:49:25 PDT hey! its friday
and i leave here from altoona tomorrow.
i have loads of new pictures and i might work on some writing later tonight.
but you have to be warned.
i have ALOT of pictures.
it might become a bit overwhelming.
but i do apologize
i had no way to upload them during this past week
and im excited to share.
otherwise ill forget.
thank you all for the watches,
favorites,
and just plain old comments
i do really appreciate it.
i thought i woul djust say that.
and i hope you enjoy it in the future\
and i apologize i will be uploading so many photos on sunday.
ill be at my dads tomorrow night
so i dont have to go to church
but i might do it tomorrow
its uncertain.
anyways.
i think ill head out

~fel

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13585784/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13585784/ Mon, 02 Jul 2007 23:25:18 PDT alright.
this is a warning
because ive been in altoona two days (one full day) and i have a kajillion pictures already

and i plan on getting alot more

so be prepared
for the random explosion of deviations from me
on saturday.
yep i said saturday(sunday)
and i found a new way to take pictures
and its pretty cool
well i think so
dont make fun
mreh

anyways....

you have been warned

over and out.
(end transmission) ]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13553110/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13553110/ Sat, 30 Jun 2007 14:57:46 PDT im leaving tomorrow! for a week! ill probably have interweb access but im not all too sure if i can keep up with deviations so i apologize in advance.

ill be in altoona, tyrone pa for a week with family. its going to be stinky because ill be away from aaron <3, richard, nate, kenny, rachelle, and everyone else...stuck with family and my mind. itll be slightly unsettling.

but i also get to see amazing fireworks, get food from the shrine, and possibly see transformers at a drive in (YES!)

but yes ill try to keep updated and whatnot. if i dont im sorry.

]]> ~finallydestroyed http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13416365/ http://finallydestroyed.deviantart.com/journal/13416365/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 10:59:18 PDT WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL......... the other night was pretty interesting.

the first thing that happens is that mr. nate calls me asking if i can get some trees (name for weed) for him. i never do but i tried and my only good contact was getting drunk at a beach party. great. but i did find a way of getting it so i call my buddy gerad and him and kat ( ) drove out from girard (which is pretty damn far away) to come and pick us up to get this weed so we all could end up smoking it. welllllllllllllll.............when we were halfway there my contact at the time decided to call and ditch out and be a little bitch about it. and ignored all our calls trying to reach some form of agreement or of insight to what had happened. of course all the did was ignore.

then while we were riding around. we stopped at the dock to realize what we were doing...then all of a sudden gerads like "LOOK AT THOSE PEOPLE IN THAT CAR LOL" and guess what they were doing...yes they were doing...the were fucking...it was sorta funny. and no one could look away.

then gerad called some people who knew some people...

he got some weed for us. we picked it up...it was alright. a bit too stemmy but hey it works!

we decided to drive out to girard and go to the bridge/railroad tracks that gerad takes to get drunk and we were cool with it. we went to his moms and stole the whiskey nate had bought previously. and theres me who WISHED to get drunk so bad. we had green tea for a chaser and everything since it was really shitty whiskey (i missed my buddy jack) but hey it works.

well we were literally like a two seconds from the bridge...and gerads car stalled out. in girard...which is really far from my house.... and we tried restarting it. no go. like really badly not starting. so gerad had NATE steer while we all pushed it for a bit. not so fun. not too bad. then we stopped and tried getting someone to jumpstart our car. didnt work. the guy had no clue what was wrong. just it wasnt starting....which we already knew...sorta obvious i say. but then gerad checked his oil since he needed to change it anways and there was like none of it. so we decide to call a few people. (which we were already) to see if they can get some oil for us...but in this case...we were broke as fuck...but miss brittany neville came and saved the day with oil. or so we thought. she put it in and coolant since she knows cars better than gerad, who just says "its broke" or something. and brittany has some clue. well....the car still wouldnt start and stumped miss brittany. so she tried to call darling luke ollie (sp) and he was in bed. plus he would get pissed out and hit someone with a tire iron *cough* gerad *cough* if he had to drive out to girard again. lawl

but during the time we were waiting for brittany to show up with the oil and drive out to girard....we were getting antsy. we wanted to party...and we wanted it now...so nate wanted to light up a blunt. but kat and gerad and me were outside the car. there was a kitty meowing in someones yard. so me and kat were meowing at it and finally i picked it up and put it in the car, since the first attempt, kat dropped it and smacked it against the car...but then we all were in the car and smoked this weed...well hotboxed a broken down car....with a random cat we had found. nate got it stoned and it was tripping out and wouldnt stop meowing and crawling all over people. it was funny.

then brittany shows up (mentioned previously)

after that....just chillin...with gerads broken down car.

some uneasiness in the air but thats for previous reasons....

we wanted to drink the whiskey at least me and gerad did and we wanted to go to the bridge...

good thing we didnt...

then me and kat were falling asleep slightly burnt out.

then decided everyone should go to bed. gerad grabbed the sleeping bag and went outside and slept on the side of the road. we put the whiskey in the trunk though so if the cops showed up it wouldnt be with us.

we were waken up by cops...
they kicked gerad. lol. and he was talking to them....and then they woke us up by tapping on the window. they only asked where we lived and how old and what happened.

pretty much our story...which was true.

gerads car broke down. we are stuck.

the cop was like "alright" and asked to see what was in the trunk. gerad said a bunch of clothes and whatnot. but he opened it and there was wires and the whiskey. he was like "this is not the same" but gerad was like "it was probably from a party we went to a couple weeks ago" t... ]]> ~finallydestroyed