http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:fioweenel&section=today deviantART RSS for by:fioweenel en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 31 Dec 2009 20:01:09 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/28972491/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/28972491/ Wed, 16 Dec 2009 00:04:16 PST since it's my favorite time of the year... and since this year marks my rebirth here at dA i want to give away three watercolored artworks and two sketches!!! yay!!!! JUST COMMENT AND TELL ME WOT YOU WANT...
REMEMBER... the FIRST 3 are watercolors and the FOURTH AND FIFTH are sketches!!!

CHOW~~~

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and are not included!!! because,,,,, hahahaha, i have a gift for the two of you already!!!

YEP, 9999 will be a loooong while at the rate i'm updating but still...


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when i scream the sound i make devour the depths of the earth
and the great oceans rise to devour what is above it
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AMAZING, KIND, GREAT PEOPLE WHO ARE MY FRIENDS!




my fictionpress... i deleted my stories tho... [link]
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~and everyone else who cared, thank you all!~

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/28687240/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/28687240/ Tue, 01 Dec 2009 09:09:04 PST when i scream the sound i make devour the depths of the earth
and the great oceans rise to devour what is above it
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AMAZING, KIND, GREAT PEOPLE WHO ARE MY FRIENDS!








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~and everyone else who cared, thank you all!~

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/28385568/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/28385568/ Sun, 15 Nov 2009 22:05:03 PST I shall live to die and die to be reborn
Like the roses that bloom
I may die soon
Like the phoenix
An infant from the ash
I shall once again
Feel the pain
And from the pain be delivered
To the dawn of cavalry
So I can die soon

i won't be uploading for a while, well, until i have a decent digicam or a scanner, or until after i reformatted my comp. so i can reinstall my ps...

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/28134373/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/28134373/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 21:49:04 PST
I've read about a dozen books or so in a month... my fave so far are the books in the Gemma Doyle Trilogy by LIBBA BRAY. Course they weren't perfect, there were lots of flaws in the construction and the flow of the story but man it took my breath away... i love it!!! the narration was too damn moving!!!!!

i've read the Little White Horse and have seen the movie based on it (Moonacre something, i forgot the titlee) ... the book was great, the movie, not so much...

I've read Grave Sight by Charlaine Harris, too. My comment? Watch Trueblood. Lol, Grave Sight wasn't even one of the Sookie Stackhouse novels but hell... just watch True Blood... you'd be entertained more... it's funny but...

The Shack by William Young... I'm torn between crying and laughing while reading this. Inspirational, moving, mind-boggling... you'll question your existence after reading this.

Wicked Lovely, Ink Exchange and Fragile Eternity by Melissa Mar... well, alright i can be pretty biased on this because i adore fairies. Urban Fantasy Lovers will definitely dig this. I did, but not so much.

The Prophecy of the Stones by Flavia Bujor... colorful world full of cute characters... well, i liked it so...

Nightmares and Dreamscapes by Stephen King... I've been such a fan so... weeeee!

Stardust by Neil Gaiman... another fave author... love it!!!!

others... well, they were a great read but it kinda stops echoing in my mind after the last page... so...

* a great author i used to follow in fictionpress said that the best books are those that resonates in the readers' minds even after you close them... these books up there did... well, except one, but then... yep, i agree with what she said... the books that matter most to me are those whose characters still seem to live in my imagination long after i have finished reading them... i am so much more of a book-lover and an aspiring writer than an artist, that's for sure...

let's all give 'em books some lovin'!!!
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]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/27885331/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/27885331/ Wed, 21 Oct 2009 08:43:54 PDT
but I'm not.

doesn't mean I'm feeling any better.

i hate it when people judge you for being *what* you are. so, yeah, call me a lesbian, or a bi but shoot don't treat me like a pest the world has to rid of. i'm human, i can feel. if you've forgotten that then just keep this one in mind-i am made of the same material like everyone of you-if you can break, so can i.

*i didn't mean *you*... i meant someone *you* you know who you are*

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enough rant. i'm still mourning over my break-up. f*ck.
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]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/27759034/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/27759034/ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 22:18:30 PDT She was dancing that night.
He could hear the gentle sweeping sound of her light gossamer gown on the pavement.
She laughed in a voice barely perceptible even in the silence of the darkness that engulfed the evening. Her hand swayed in the air as if clasped by some invisible string. Her golden brown hair pranced all about, twisting and twirling as she went.
He stared at her from across the pergola, captivated, entwined in the presence of such marvel that he almost forgot to breathe.
She paused at the edge where the softly lit path ended and stretched out her hands to him. The laughter in her lips died as he stood waiting, unable to close the final distance between them. She beckoned to him one last time but he made no move and finally she understood.
She knew there was no other way but back.
And with a heavy heart, she turned and walked away.
Alone, he was left standing there.
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Officially, my girlfriend broke up with me. i SUPER suck!

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]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/27723258/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/27723258/ Tue, 13 Oct 2009 09:42:37 PDT
~RULES~
1. You must choose only ONE of your OCs. Do it again if you wanna use another OC.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OCs Quiz (your OCs name. Example: "Kaiser's Quiz").
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!!!

and this is Kaelan! [link]


1)Hi! What's your real name or nick name?
"Uhm, Kaelan Cuevas. Some call me Kae, others Kiki, others uhm... the betch..."

2)Interesting... What's your current age?
"About 13118 and counting..."

3)Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
"Spaghetti!"

4)And you favorite drink?
"Really? Uhm, how about lemon juice?"

5)Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
"Oh, shoot...like being obsessed with your bestfriend who's destined to be with someone else isn't enough."

6)Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
"Yes! In my wildest dreams! Tee-hee"

7)Classic question! What's your favorite color?
"Purple! It's his eye color!"

8)Who's your favorite author?
"I'm a fairy so... NEIL GAIMAN!"

9)Now, what's your biggest fear?
"I dunno, I have lived long to have any fears at all."

10)Awesome. Who's your hero?
"Okay, I'm modern... IRONMAN!"

11)Okay, who's your worst enemy?
"Look in the mirror girly (that High Queen would have been, too)"

12)What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
"Come on, IRONMAN will bust that betch!"

13)Interesting... What would you do if you met your creator?
"I would totally torture her for torturing ME! *Evil Laugh Rages On and On"

14)Okay, I'll contact her right now. DONE! Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
"I CAN'T grow up dear"

15)What's your worse nightmare?
"Gah."

16)What's your lifelong dream?
"How long is my life again?"

17)What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
"Shet."

18)Okay, where's your favorite place to relax?
"In my room."

19)Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
"I have an eternity to think over the answer, thank you very much!"

20) We're done! Now tag whoever you want!


"Hmmm, I tag"

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]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/27518549/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/27518549/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 09:51:07 PDT
i guess all i can do now is pray that she is...

( i couldn't change the mood, my comp. is acting up, but i sure am not cheerful at the moment )

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/16764775/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/16764775/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 05:00:47 PST


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Tag Rules
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1 - Post the rules
2 - Each tagged must post 8 things about themselves on their journal
3 - At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 friends/people and post their icons on the same journal
4 - Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them

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1. i belong to the medical field
2. i've never really felt like i was ever a teenager
3. i'm hopelessly in love with my medical-surgical class professor
4. i do not talk much
5. i write out-of-this-world stuff in our college paper
6. i love rock music
7. i am not an emo
8. i am a bookworm

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i think i'd have to tag
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seconds into hours, minutes into years.
Don't ask me why
(please don't cry)
I cant tell you lies..

Angels cry
when stars collide
I can't eat
and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way.


My heart, burns through
My chest, to the floor.
Tearing me silently although abruptly words cant hide as I'm taking you home, and I tried to see,
tried to understand your words as I'm taking you home

Angels cry
when stars collide
I can't eat
and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way.



-angels cry- red jumsuit apparatus-
this is solely for you peewee


i could be your knight if you'd want me to ^^

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/16748833/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/16748833/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 03:51:42 PST

i really am not a fan of 'writing-your-own-journal', because i'm totally lazy and my mind works only half of the day and whenever i'm using the computer the other half kicks in and i only have to drool...


so... should i tell you what's on my mind now? my uber beautiful and damn sexy professor of course!!! okay... too mature but i can't help it! thank God he wasn't our thesis adviser because if he had been, i don't think i'd ever want to finish our thesis.


and by the way, is it okay if i ask something?


does anyone here know about the game RULE OF ROSE? it's just that i think it has a rather small following although on my opinion it's pretty good. it's the gameplay that's quicksand though but the story is unique and thrilling...


anyway... bye for now!

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/16085752/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/16085752/ Sat, 29 Dec 2007 23:11:37 PST you see there's some sort of an event at home and there are lots of things to do (like cleaning up which is the worst part of any happenings ever)... and i'm dead tired because i was up early today to help prepare everything...
and now i'm hiding to avoid my mom's errands... coz if she sees me i'd have to get my butt moving doing the dishes... and there is no way i'm washing em!
i'm such a lazy ass!
advance happy new year everyone!!!



"for so long i have been searching for the answers in the mutiny of damned souls. i have braved heaven and earth, and even hell to follow the voice of my fallen beloved. but i have lost her... forever.
but now i am numb. no more pain, no more suffering, only the eternal guilt so sharp... so familiar... so warm that it becomes the house that cradles my sorrow, my love for you.
it's so wrong to love you. the eyes, they say it's a sin to kiss you.
and i gave up. let go so easily... i don't want to see you when i close my eyes. i don't want you in the fragments of my lonely memories.
but you're the only one i've got. "

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/16024884/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/16024884/ Fri, 21 Dec 2007 06:56:17 PST because free will hurts man in many ways possible and yet he never learns.
sheesh...
if He was any good He would not have made man at all...
but that's why i cannot let go... because i am fascinated by Him, because He created something so fickle-minded... so irrational... illogical... He created something who throw curses at Him more often than not... and He still calls them "My children."
i have free will... i curse God sometimes... no... all the time. when i wished i'd die and i didn't, i got so angry at Him i blamed Him all my misery. But free will is all about that... free will is when you try to hurt the ones you love because the decision you're about to make is the *right* one.

it was december 20, i was seventeen, when my grandfather was sent to the Intensive Care Unit. I was practically alone with my old grandmother when he had a cardiac arrest and i was practically there, standing right there inside the room watching them resuscitate my grandfather. my world seemed to have stopped right there... watching how they pump the ambu-bag over him mouth and nose... how they did CPR and how they were all going haywire.
i was bargaining with Him, holding on to my rosary, which i seem to have forgotten where i placed... i was crying myself to sleep asking for His sign... a white dove and my Papa will be fine. but he never got better.
on december 23... at about five am... he was gone.
the sad part is... we could have saved him. the doctors told us that it could get worse... that his heart and lungs may collapse... but we could prevent that if we'd consent sending him to the ICU earlier... but we all hesitated... and the worse part is... i told them it was probably a doctor's bluff to get more money... i was acting like i know the stuff when i was only in second year nursing school... i was acting like a total ass... and what? i practiced my damn free will and my grandfather's gone forever... where he cannot come back...
because i was stupid... i was a know-it-all... because i was wrong... and because of that i am so sorry... i was stupid and i lost the man who raised me... who bought me all the sketchbooks and the pencils and the how-to-books on sketching...
before he died he wrote me a letter and my mom found it in his stuff... it was suppose to go along with the book on painting he was to give me for christmas... the book he ordered from R.D. and i got it by january and he was gone... but he left me a book and a letter telling me to draw to express my feelings... to draw when i'm sad or just plain lazy... and it damn hurts knowing he's gone and i will never see him again. so much for free will--free blundering will...


i don't know if you understand me... or i was plain illogical because i feel like writing this down... but this sunday i'd be at the cemetery remembering my grandpa on his 1st death anniversary...


merry christmas to you...

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15939960/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15939960/ Sat, 15 Dec 2007 04:44:46 PST

i hate this... and...


peewee... you're the best damn girl ever... and i love you... but you don't love me... so... i can't do anything about this... can i?

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15730859/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15730859/ Fri, 30 Nov 2007 05:58:47 PST and ignite your bones
and i will try... to fix you."
-coldplay, fix you-

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15599743/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15599743/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 04:04:33 PST

i was thinking about nothing! no--really... i was thinking about why the hell did i obey my mother on taking up a medical course instead of multimedia arts! now, i'm way beyond the edge, clawing my heart out on self-pity, because i totally despise my majors and the duty hours i was suppose to be completing for the course.


i remember my mom and i fought over the matter three years before. she thinks i like it here now, but i don't. it sucks. i'm depressed. and i cannot move on.

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15458000/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15458000/ Sun, 11 Nov 2007 03:28:06 PST tomorrow i would be at school again... some sort of a module on morals i have to undertake that the college requires. yeah, i'm friggin' 18 and legal and i need some guide on wayward morals... bullshit. i mean, look at my art... look at how they suck and ooze too much sweetness! i am not sweet, people! i'm way too old for fluff... but because i fell in love with some girl... i became one... one boy told me i should love boys instead because, honestly, i am a girl! but gah... boys will be boys and all they will ever want is to grab your "you know what" and get inside your "you know where". so fuck off, leave me alone. i do not need morals nor do i need to be re-directed. shootness.


but, because i am expected to, i need to attend the seminar... because i belong to the robots in the morning... i need to conform or i will be kicked out of the college and my mom would kill me if i will be. no where to run now, no where to hide...


shit... don't let me die.

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]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15327311/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15327311/ Fri, 02 Nov 2007 06:33:03 PDT but now i am numbed. no more pain, no more suffering, only the eternal guilt so sharp... so familiar... so warm that it becomes the house that cradles my sorrow, my love for you.
it's so wrong to love you. the eyes, they say it's a sin to kiss you.
and i gave up. let go so easily... i don't want to see you when i close my eyes. i don't want you in the fragments of my lonely memories.
but you're the only one i've got.


help me move on. please... save me and let me move on.


-karen

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15296690/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15296690/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 04:57:45 PDT hehe




]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15226619/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15226619/ Fri, 26 Oct 2007 08:30:42 PDT
He stood there in a few minutes, his eyes closed as the wind caressed his smooth, pale white skin. The winds were his friends and in every dance is a whisper of the news they had heard from a thousand miles. There was no need to ask again, no need to verify the authenticity of the information they were passing to him. He knew of the truth when it is spoken in outmost candor and sincerity, and the winds never do lie. The pungent smell of the everglades had devoured the sanctity of the forests in a way that seems to be like the grip of fear that had now owned his heart. He knew he must tell, no matter how frightening his master is he knew he must tell. The master will be very disappointed if he keeps any valuable information from him. The bitter resentment is more than welcome than a taste of his hatred over traitors.

Reluctantly, he faced the hall. The guests cared less of a boy barely of coming of age dressed in the simplest of silk tunic and a rather large pair of pants, but the master knew better. The master knew he was not ordinary. The master knew how powerful the poor boy is and how much the boy owed him that even his futile life can never ever be sufficient as payment for what the master had done. The master, too, knew if the boy is hiding something from him. And true enough, that when no one paid the beautiful boy any attention in a room full of the more important people, in a constricted room full of self-valuing ignorant rats who would not dare let the hem of their cloaks or dresses touch the boys feet, the master’s watchful eyes were focused only on the alluring vagrant standing near the window as the darkness rolled overhead.

You are troubled.

The master’s voice whispered dangerously impious in the boy’s mind.

Come sit beside me.

The boy nodded and slowly made his way back to the elegant table where the most important of all the visitors busy themselves with the finest of the cuisines laid down in front of them. His master took his place at the farthest side whispering intently to a woman who eagerly giggles at his unknown queries but with his eyes on the boy walking towards him.

How terribly you clothe yourself, boy.

His master smirked and with a wave of a hand the boy felt soft feathery wings brush past his body and in the instant he looked down he saw himself donned in the luxurious pair of leather pants and an embroidered silk tunic beneath he warmest of the vest he has ever worn. The master smiled at him, seeing how successful he was at making him look more welcoming, more fit to his young slave’s unwavering exquisiteness.

“Ah, my boy, sit down.” The man waved him over to the empty chair next to him that the boy was certain has never been there a few seconds ago. He gave him a small bow of acknowledgment leaning over to whisper something in the master’s ears. The man’s eyes lit up and patted him on the shoulders for a job well done.

“So they are on the move. Finally.” He said as his fingers traced the boy’s jaw line coyly. “Just a few more plans to move and we will be set.”

“Yes, master.” The boy replied in a small voice. He sighed heavily, looking over to the moaning skies framed by the stone walls of the picturesque castle window. “A few more and the word shall eat at the palm of your hands.”

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15068595/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15068595/ Mon, 15 Oct 2007 05:29:31 PDT bitterness it is... when you are kissed, you'd want more.
love it is... when you ache, you pursue.

i want my angel, for she has gone on to heaven without me. my sanctuary had crumbled to the ground, albeit notwithstanding, this pain will destroy the blinker over my eyes, make me see the truth... the reality hidden in a chasm so deep that i've been smitten, drowned... the fact that my angel's love had faded and can never be revived... and that i should move on...

ito ang unang takipsilim...

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15023144/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/15023144/ Fri, 12 Oct 2007 00:06:39 PDT
comprehensive exam na of all the medical students...(or bsn lang) ng De La Salle-Health Sciences Campus!!!!


it's tomorrow, the grand nightmare is about to commence!!!! and i busy mysef doodling...

this is the reason why i can't finish any of my art!!! studies!

well, anyway, the pressure's what makes it worth it, right?

We need to pass this exam so we may be able to move up a notch as junior college students....wish me luck!!!!!!!!

]]> ~fioweenel http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/14696697/ http://fioweenel.deviantart.com/journal/14696697/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 05:03:20 PDT


you're killing me...nakita kita...di mo ko nibati...niyoko na nga...


hay...i DO love you...di mo ba alam...


but i'm sick of you saying you're worthless because no one appreciates you...because i do...ewan ko ba sa mga babae...honestly...to hell with people...to hell with them...what really matters is that i care for you...i don't need anything FROM you...basta masaya ka...


i'd race all the demons of the world from earth to heaven and back just to see you smile...i don't care if no one understands...


i'm not ashamned of being what i am... kasi i've fallen for the greatest woman in the world...

ikaw yun...so stop making yourself miserable...and be happy...


remember...you have me

]]> ~fioweenel