http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:firedupmaven&section=today deviantART RSS for by:firedupmaven en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 03 Dec 2009 02:24:11 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/14990048/ http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/14990048/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 18:34:20 PDT And I won't hold anything in
Feel like I know where this is going
And I know how it ends
But I'm still willing to begin.

--"Most of Me" by Mandy Moore



So the first semester ends. It's been happy. And I miss someone, although I really shouldn't, because in the words of my blockmate Kat, "he's no longer vacant."

Anyway, this must be the end of this account, although I may make a new one. I've been in a rut, since my brain is programmed with laws, the constitution and case readings...which I'll be reading again once in a while.

I learned a lot of things in my new university. I'm still studying Law. I will never give up. I have my reasons for doing so. And another because of what a classmate had said once in our Introduction to Law class.

And that, I must say, was the day I also fell in love with that classmate.

He really is something.

However, I am not here to discuss my lovelorn state. Because apart from that, LIFE IS DEFINITELY PEACHY.

I think I am moving on. I finally accepted that the person I loved for nearly five years isn't going to love me back. And a person who I've shared a mutual passion for isn't thinking of progressing at all. I don't need these large scale productions anymore. I see my friends. I can make plans to have coffee with them. I study hard, and enjoy group review sessions with my blockmates. There are older people who I look up to and talk about things that go round in this world. My biggest lovelife are my friends.

It's pretty simple. If you are my friend, I love you. Really love you.

It's a wild hope. Everything will be all right.

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ADDENDUM.

New account is:

~stellarwordsmith

Please add me. Even if it's still empty.

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I have made a li'l sample. Of my signature.

As if you care.

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But that's okay. I tell myself that there's nothing as wonderful as walking under the softly falling rain with no umbrella to protect me. But I don't like walking under a downpour, mind!

Finally, my professor has let go of Tolentino vs. Secretary of Finance. But I'll still read it. It's pretty interesting, even if it's fucking long.

Oops. Excuse my Latin.

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No, it isn't.

I don't have inspiration left. I know I had too many issues for the past five years of my life; they need to be thrown away, because I could do away without them. I know I could create an imaginary lover, who gives me cheap red wine, thorny roses and stale chocolates. I want him to look like James McAvoy because he's my current crush.


I read mushy romance novels. I am happy for people who are happy in their relationships. Sometimes I feel a twinge of envy, then, an encompassing feeling of cynicism. Like yeah, it can be magic for others, but not for me. There are times when I feel like telling people that all I want is a casual tumble; just a two-hour roll in the hay. But that's not true either.


Underneath it all, I long for something more substantial. I still want something that is done right, in the Biblical sense or no. I believe there is something still pure in no-sex-until-marriage. I don't want to be just a career girl.

Let me tell you this. After five or six years, I don't want to go home to an elegantly decorated apartment. Which is also empty.

No way. I'd prefer a messy one with all signs of life and joy in it.

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It's scary, and exhilarating at the same time. I am going to do what my former schoolmate now new friend asked of me:

MAKE FEU PROUD.

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]]> ~firedupmaven http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/12448286/ http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/12448286/ Tue, 03 Apr 2007 18:47:38 PDT 2. I respond by asking you a couple personal questions so I can get to know you better. If I already know you well, expect the questions may be a little more intimate!
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions

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I'm singing a birthday song not 'cause it's my birthday. It's my first year as a deviant! It will be official on March 31!~

















]]> ~firedupmaven http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/12149347/ http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/12149347/ Sun, 11 Mar 2007 20:50:30 PDT
Just one. Study harder.


Another thing. Summer is...well...something I'm looking forward/not looking forward to. For one thing, I'll be busy preparing for our church youth camp as part of the secretariat committee...the registration forms, design of the name tags, the camp manual layout. You know, the works.

And wait. Poem count, 33! READ THEM HERE!

Also, I might transfer schools. So I have to get busy with applications and stuff. Maybe, even dorm hunting.

The one thing I'm looking forward to is that I'll be drawing stuff again. And I have to make notes/reviewers for the classes I'll be having in school.

I really don't know what life I'll have this summer.

PS. Have you guys seen the "Wait A Minute" vid by the Pussycat Dolls? Sassy, sassy and hot!

]]> ~firedupmaven http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/11345767/ http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/11345767/ Sun, 07 Jan 2007 05:07:19 PST
In the words of my Law and Values professor, “words are binding”. Yes, they do, in many ways you can hardly put your finger on. Some people say things, and later on, they find they’ve been caught in a trap of their own making, always inadvertently. The same thing happened to me. However, I am not going to elaborate on that. So don’t expect me to say anything revealing here…because I wouldn’t. Even if I’m not supposed to, I also believe in the power of karma. What comes around goes around.


Or is it the other way around?
Let’s just say words have a sneaky power.



Lately, I have been reading books by Bob Ong. A cousin let me read one of them—“Stainless Longganisa”. I was laughing…out loud, while reading it, that people in the restaurant thought I have lost my marbles. I haven’t.

But while Bob’s books are laugh-out-loud sensational, I did not fail to see the sense behind it. It would be easy to blame other people for whatever you failed to achieve. But I have to leave this warning, like those you see when people are making stunts or death-defying moves on TV: Don’t try this at home. It won’t end with you being killed—you’ll still be alive—but only half. For me, that would be worse than being entirely dead. You’ll be spending the rest of your life becoming a bitter shell of a person—blaming everyone for every major fuck-up (oh, whoops!) you’ve made in your life. (Been there, done that, I suppose)

So, um, watch your step.

At the moment I’m writing this, the sun has made its appearance. It’s a beginning of a new day, so shall we say “hip, hip hooray!”? I don’t have a camera, but I wish I could capture this moment. And enjoy the day. Think nothing about laws and cases (easier said than done). I am at the middle of a tumultuous period of my life, the cause of which was made by yours truly, who flew too high, thought that just intensive reading (fine, it wasn’t intensive enough…yeah, rub that in, won’t you?) was enough.

At that time, I realised wasn’t that ready to put up a sacrifice. But then, I bounced back (who can refuse the offer of a second chance?). I just had to. It’s hard to chuck out something you’ve wanted so badly. I mean, I thought I could easily do it. While I could indulge in the comfort that even your best wasn’t good enough, there’s this sneaky little voice in your head, saying, “You did your best, but you could have done better than that.” However, let us remember that even though God gives us more than just a second chance, let’s not screw up again.

Hey, it’s a sunny day. Do not flagellate yourself.



Oh, and don’t burn rubber tires. People can be so dumb as to forget that it’s a health plus an environmental hazard. Reason for plug: It’s a lovely sunny day outside, but it smells like someone’s burning rubber.
Yuck.
I am hungry, so I will help with breakfast. I will leave you with food for thought.
What’s your favourite thing to eat for breakfast?


**Congrats to my "baby sis" Ace for passing Ateneo and La Salle.

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]]> ~firedupmaven http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/10221740/ http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/10221740/ Fri, 29 Sep 2006 03:26:56 PDT yo!
L. Medina says:
hey.
[brother//D] [N] says:
that took longer than I thought it would
L. Medina says:
I imagined.
[brother//D] [N] says:
but hot shower is hard to leavvvve
[brother//D] [N] says:
it's nasty, isn't it?
[brother//D] [N] says:
they make it an integral part of getting up for work, but they make them so damn comfortable you don't wont to get out
L. Medina says:
yes.
L. Medina says:
especially warm ones.
[brother//D] [N] says:
but not cold ones, those are vile
L. Medina says:
unless you want to live in Russian bootcamp.
[brother//D] [N] says:
and why are showers so good to sing in anyway?
L. Medina says:
because it entitles you to privacy, and no one will throw rotten tomatoes at you.
L. Medina says:
or anyone for that matter.
[brother//D] [N] says:
hehe, I guess so
L. Medina says:
don't you think?
L. Medina says:

L. Medina says:
(a certain gentleman from Glasgow does not agree.)
[brother//D] [N] says:
[brother//D] [N] says (11:15):
hehe, I guess so
[brother//D] [N] says:

L. Medina says:
idiot.
L. Medina says:
haha
L. Medina says:
my weirdness bothers you a lot.
[brother//D] [N] says:
(a certain lady from Quezon doesn't read sent messages)
L. Medina says:
or pay much attention.
[brother//D] [N] says:
I forgive you
L. Medina says:
aw, you are kind.
[brother//D] [N] says:
I know, I know
L. Medina says:
smug.
[brother//D] [N] says:
wench
L. Medina says:
smug wench?
[brother//D] [N] says:
smug wench purple monkey dishwasher
L. Medina says:
you're the purple monkey dishwasher?
[brother//D] [N] says:
I thought we were playing a game
L. Medina says:
yes. oh damn. I have to go.
L. Medina says:

[brother//D] [N] says:
oh, that's right, love me and leave me
L. Medina says:
so who's winning so far?
[brother//D] [N] says:
ten million to one in my favour
L. Medina says:
er, I'll choose the former next time.
[brother//D] [N] says:
I kid, I kid
L. Medina says:
hehe. I'd forgive you for anything, you know I do.
[brother//D] [N] says:
likewise
L. Medina says:
take care, my dear.
[brother//D] [N] says:
and yourself pet
[brother//D] [N] says:
catch you later
L. Medina says:
yes.

]]> ~firedupmaven http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/10221672/ http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/10221672/ Fri, 29 Sep 2006 03:11:51 PDT If I could sleep with him, I could
But not in the way you think
That I would.

I am now going to put in silly languid stuff. Like the way a person would drop a book after accidentally sleeping.

He calls me dear a lot.
I wonder if he'd remember my birthday?
There's no love in the cards,
But I'm sure we'd drive each other crazy.

I imagine sharing a house with him
Swing a dog for him, and a cat for me.
Share a bedroom, but not a toothbrush.


And a noisy night's tumble on the mattress.

Could it happen?

Bloody not.

But it'll be fun to imagine.

]]> ~firedupmaven http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/8646619/ http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/8646619/ Mon, 01 May 2006 21:24:11 PDT
And while I'll enjoy my new life, I'll miss this place. ]]> ~firedupmaven http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/8507842/ http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/8507842/ Tue, 18 Apr 2006 07:02:49 PDT ~firedupmaven http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/8379705/ http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/8379705/ Thu, 06 Apr 2006 00:42:32 PDT ~firedupmaven http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/8336132/ http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/8336132/ Sat, 01 Apr 2006 16:52:29 PST
Oh heaven. I shall shut my mouth from now on. I don't hate you, but honestly, maybe we're just too good for each other. ]]> ~firedupmaven http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/8327253/ http://firedupmaven.deviantart.com/journal/8327253/ Fri, 31 Mar 2006 20:15:15 PST a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:08:33 AM): hello
Alona (4/1/2006 10:11:21 AM): hello
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:11:31 AM):
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:11:44 AM): not homicidal, I hope.
Alona (4/1/2006 10:11:57 AM): Meh not right now
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:12:06 AM): ah good.
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:15:21 AM): wotcher doin'?
Alona (4/1/2006 10:21:26 AM): Nyaghhhhrrr....maid turned of my internet thingy while I was typing >_>
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:21:36 AM): wha-haaa
Alona (4/1/2006 10:22:11 AM): ung switch para maka on ung wifi.... >_< she shut it down...
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:22:38 AM): oooh
Alona (4/1/2006 10:24:11 AM): nagdadownload pa me ako.../pif now I have to do it all over agaaaain
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:24:38 AM): aw, shucks
Alona (4/1/2006 10:24:41 AM): yeah
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:25:26 AM): whatcha downloadin'?
Alona (4/1/2006 10:25:34 AM): a song called oasis
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:25:42 AM): yeees. may account na ako sa deviant art!
Alona (4/1/2006 10:26:01 AM): japanese rock again
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:26:11 AM): aaaaah
Alona (4/1/2006 10:26:22 AM): thats a goodie
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:26:30 AM): oooh!
Alona (4/1/2006 10:26:42 AM): haven't made one yet tho...^_^
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:26:53 AM): lol
Alona (4/1/2006 10:27:17 AM): ...one that isn't free of anime and other stuff that should not be exposed to children
Alona (4/1/2006 10:27:17 AM): nyahahaha...
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:27:38 AM): I ain't as deviant. I just made it as a storage space, kasi mapupuno na ang photobucket ko.
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:28:06 AM): and besides, it's the best way to meet new people...especially those from...hahaha.
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:28:26 AM): call me Anglophile, an' I shan't mind.
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:30:19 AM):
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:30:21 AM): lol
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:33:52 AM): done with the letter
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 10:56:03 AM): hellooo
Alona (4/1/2006 11:00:47 AM): あああああああ
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:01:04 AM): hehe
Alona (4/1/2006 11:01:13 AM): nyao~
Alona (4/1/2006 11:01:19 AM): Mhiya
Alona (4/1/2006 11:01:53 AM): おいぃぃ....
Alona (4/1/2006 11:02:00 AM):
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:02:08 AM): yeees
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:02:21 AM): [link]
Alona (4/1/2006 11:02:30 AM): nyaoooo..whaychadoin?
Alona (4/1/2006 11:02:35 AM): ooh...k
Alona (4/1/2006 11:03:04 AM): Yay! Tapos downloaddddd
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:04:28 AM): hehehe
Alona (4/1/2006 11:04:57 AM): slow connection...annoying RaWr!
Alona (4/1/2006 11:05:00 AM): ::CHOMPS THE KEYBOARD::
Alona (4/1/2006 11:09:12 AM): nyagagagagagagagagag
Alona (4/1/2006 11:09:12 AM): Meh...I'm going crazy over Gackt
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:09:22 AM): huzzat?
Alona (4/1/2006 11:09:56 AM): Japanese Rocker whose age is unspecified but sure to be around his thirties...he's got a cool voice XD
Alona (4/1/2006 11:18:25 AM): nyagaaaaaaa!
Alona (4/1/2006 11:19:16 AM): I made another account...the more child-friendly one
Alona (4/1/2006 11:19:39 AM): have yet to put anything there tho...
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:19:49 AM): saan?
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:25:22 AM): WHERE?
Alona (4/1/2006 11:28:49 AM): gonna watch ya!
Alona (4/1/2006 11:28:53 AM): mmmoody2000
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:28:57 AM): ooki!
Alona (4/1/2006 11:29:18 AM): meheheheh..still have to create that GMA torture art that I promised myself a couple of seconds back...
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:29:29 AM): lol
Alona (4/1/2006 11:29:45 AM): yeppp!
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:30:46 AM): HEHEHE
Alona (4/1/2006 11:30:52 AM): Nyahooo!
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:31:08 AM): what.
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:31:20 AM): how do you "watch" people, anyway?
Alona (4/1/2006 11:31:51 AM): hn...go to their page and click deviantwatch
Alona (4/1/2006 11:31:53 AM): the watch= add as friend
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:32:46 AM): ooh
Alona (4/1/2006 11:33:36 AM): yum :CHOMPS ON HER KEYBOARD:
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:34:25 AM): haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. found you.
Alona (4/1/2006 11:34:51 AM): which?
Alona (4/1/2006 11:34:52 AM): Oho!
Alona (4/1/2006 11:35:13 AM): :Wags her tail:
Alona (4/1/2006 11:35:16 AM): Woof!
a clockworkorange (4/1/2006 11:35:37... ]]> ~firedupmaven