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Mentally I've been ready for this my whole life, but unfortunately life does not seem to want to jump the bandwagon just yet. I still have no classes, the school refuses to listen to my residency claim, and the closer move-in day becomes, the more I realise just how much I am going to be eating my own optimistic words declared so long ago. I went from being the one ready to move on with life, on the brink of jumping the bandwagon early, to the person that's so disorganized, hope seems like a faint glimmer in the future.

Yet I need to stop complaining. As put by the ever so wise Ms. Frizzle, it's time to take chances, get messy, and make mistakes! After all, life isn't worth living if you don't learn and grow from your experiences. It's all about development

Btw, it's very late here. I'm just messing with my new MacBook, which is very nice so far. Hopefully my Fella plush will come in the mail soon to join me in my coming adventure. Now why does my brain feel so fried?

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/26136674/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/26136674/ Thu, 23 Jul 2009 18:50:02 PDT
Holla.

I think I'll post in the scraps to prove I'm actually up to something XD Does anybody ever look at those?

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/22418433/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/22418433/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 16:20:46 PST
I don't know what to make of this world. I've been brought up with certain expectations of how I should lead my life, and these have become almost instincts in the way I interact with everyone. Sadly this is what gets me distracted from things that are important to me. I started seeing a psychiatrist and she really helps me direct my thoughts. I swear my brain never stops running, which is the main reason I get anxiety so often. The only true relief I can ever get is when I translate these thoughts into images, sketches, doodles. Things that may not make sense or become 'formal' works of art, but really they have depth than any fan art or cartoon I could ever conjure up with today's expectations.

This year I plan to accomplish several things. Graduating high school is one. Getting the IB diploma is the next (though goes together with the previous one). Getting accepted into college would be very nice. Drawing at least one thing everyday, even if it's really simple, in order to relieve stress that I might not even be conscious of at the time. To be a better person and not be so moody around the people that I care about, and instead direct any negative energy towards the doodles mentioned previously, or the people who have caused the upset in the first place.

What do I want this year? Proof that the things that once made me feel like I mattered in this world actually happened, and that I can look back to on a terrible day to make myself better. I will always have the memories, whether hidden or available, but it's different when you can show the world. I've always had horrible self-esteem, and this is all tied to the physical world. If I ever hope to gain sanity, it would be to make my mark. Show the world that I was here, and that I did not let the worst get the best of me.

Thanks to anybody who is reading this out there. I hope everything is going well for you, and that this New Year brings about the best!

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/20067038/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/20067038/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 19:50:28 PDT
My main problem is colouring. I always feel weird about inking a sketch I've done (that looks really good in pencil) so that I can colour it, and I don't want to post something that looks half finished as a deviation. As for digital art, I've tried starting that up again but I can't seem to find the time or patience to ever finish anything on there (yet I still want a tablet? XD). So anyway, I'm making it my mission to have some deviations posted soon, no matter how unfinished/simple/whatever they may look to me. I really think I've improved since I last posted stuff on here, so who knows? Maybe I'll be inspired to do some bigger projects.

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/15261547/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/15261547/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 16:56:06 PDT

The only thing I'm really hesitant about is perhaps having to do these drawings by hand rather than photoshop, because it gets really tedious after a while without a tablet. But not to worry, as I will still do projects on photoshop! They just take a bit of time XD

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The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules:

1.) Make 100 pieces each one having a theme listed below. Only one theme per piece!

2.) No time limit so have fun!

3a.) Pieces should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the DA etiquette policy. Your pieces can be anything from sketches and doodles to great masterpieces. Just have fun with it.

4.) The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that...
A.)You are in the challenge
B.)What you have completed

5.) Make sure to update this list with a link to your deviation.

Now the good part. CHALLENGE YOUR FRIENDS. CHALLENGE ME.

THE LIST

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/13726894/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/13726894/ Fri, 13 Jul 2007 23:06:58 PDT I've come up with some great new characters in my opinion. I may just end up making enough characters to populate a small country by the new year XD Anyway, I'm hoping to stick to these for a while. Maybe I can clear my urges by creating side-characters You know, the ones that you see like for just a bit for the story. Oh what a wonderful idea

Anywho. So I've been kinda down on how the world works today, but I just have to remember to enjoy what I have, rather than spend my time wishing for something that may never come true ^_^

I saw Grease for the first time ever this Tuesday, and it was amazing @___@ How could I have ever lived not seeing that movie? XD It's suprising though how I recognized so many of the songs! I even recall singing (badly) "We Go Together", and never being sure where it came from.

Does anyone read this anymore? XD I remember people used to, but if they do still read, they don't comment

For anyone interested in my characters, I'm going to list them out here and say what their roles are. (Note these are the characters that belong to my little planet [Xentario] and so characters like Mary don't count.)

*Jake: Came about when I wanted some variation in the characters I've seen. Too many humans XD So far he's only in a small story with Emelie.
*Emelie: She's just your average rebellious rich girl that wants something different. She's only in the short story with Jake at the moment. I'm thinking of having the two cameo in my bigger stories though.
*Orahn: My new favorite main character. He just wants to enjoy the life that he has, and does a good job in my newest story where he stars with 4 others.
*Czek: He plays along with Orahn in the same story. The story is about dreamers trying to, well, reach their dreams XD
*Kathy: A fairy that joins all her other buddies in the dreamers story.
*Kit: Robot character that is part of the 5 dreamers.
*Claire: Lamb who is the last of the 5 dreamers. She has the power to travel in dreams, t'is awesome

So yeah, that's them. Gotta make some minor characters! Or maybe I should just use what I have so far? XD It's gonna be great =3

Oh, and for my tea party project, I have a lot of it done. Almost done with everything except the guests But have no fear, this will be done soon ^_^

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/13585959/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/13585959/ Mon, 02 Jul 2007 23:44:27 PDT
Hmmm... game wise I have continued playing Pokemon Diamond and it has yet to get old. There is a lot to do in the game! Right now I'm preparing for contests while filling my pokedex at the same time XD

Other than that, the only other thing worth talking about is the real world =/ Right now it's late though, so maybe I'll post another journal when it's not 2 AM XD ]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/13116577/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/13116577/ Sun, 27 May 2007 19:07:04 PDT
For my b-day my parents bought me a DS, and so I pleaded them to take me to a store so I could buy myself Pokemon Diamond. I've been waiting to get this game, and since I got it, it's been my highest priority next to sleep XD The game is sooooo fun! (And sooo childish! XD) I've been a fan of Pokemon games for a long time (since the days of Blue and Red version ;____; *ah the memories*) and must say this is probably the best! (My old favorite was Gold, but this one kicks its butt).

I dun wanna rant here about it (yet) but what are the odds that I got a shiny Pokemon on my first day playing? @___@ (third Pokemon caught, too!) Now I just need to get the WEP code for my internet so I can go WiFi <____<

Anywho, my family portrait project has been delayed (blame the game ) but hopefully I can start up again.

Other than that, I got to see Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End (or w/e it's called Xd) and. it. was. AWESOME XD I went with a couple of buddies of mine, one of which nearly fainted when she saw the scene with a bunch of Johnny Depps all together =O

Okies, so that's all for now! Toodles! Be gone! Unless you wanna leave a comment! Otherwise please step away from the premises... You don't really have to... It was on the back of one of my b-day cards <_< *Checks watch* *runs off to listen to Wicked and restrain self from playing Diamond for the rest of the day*

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/12943541/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/12943541/ Sun, 13 May 2007 15:41:52 PDT Of course I will ask permission and what not, but it's good practice. Since I can't physically see them in real-life, I will have to draw based on what I have, and I don't think my talent is high enough to come up with my own poses and what-not meaning I'll just eye ball the pics I have.

Over the past couple of years we have sort of formed our own little family, me and Clover being siblings XD Anywho it looks pretty awesome since we're a pretty diverse bunch. Hopefully after all the practice portraits I will be able to sketch a scene with all of us in it =3 That's the big finale I will have for everything. In the mean time I may post some of the portraits as full-fledged deviations (FINALLY XD)

On a more random note, I often hear people saying that you can't measure an artists talents through page-views. To my personally I view the whole 'page-view' concept as an incentive to get better. My page doesn't exactly get the most traffic, but hopefully some day I will be able to really astound my current watchers

So for now I shall start drawing! I will post a new journal as soon as I have posted a few portraits on here

Oh and HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all mommy's out there!

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/12890075/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/12890075/ Tue, 08 May 2007 16:40:37 PDT
Recently I have had a pause from posting art. This is normal for me. Indefinitely I will be on and off this site with my posting art. I have started a new drawing, or rather sketch, and I will make sure to scan it when I am done. For now it's just practice and planning.

I hope to be able to make a present for my grandpa by Thursday. my mom is going to Poland for his birthday party, so she will be able to give it to him (it was her idea anywho Xd). Since mothers day is also coming near (Sunday) and my mom will be in Poland, I will have to think of something to draw for her as well Any ideas?

I need to talk about random stuff before I begin to rant... Hmmm.... In school the drama club is working on a play (we made it ) and it is turning out AWESOMELY COOLIO <3 I am sorta mellow in it... I also get forced to wear a skirt for a couple of lines I don't mind, it's just that I don't want to do an entire scene before the play with a southern audience <___< I dun wanna get killed... Some people on here know what I'm talking about. For those who don't, I am supposed to be in a scene skit thing where the three characters are girls, and I get to play the main one. It was pure chance that my character reveals she is pregnant near the end XD We felt that it would sorta soften the topic because the school has gotten complaints before about more mature themes... IT'S HIGH SCHOOL @_@

Hmmm.... Do my journals ever make sense? I'm not very good at expressing myself through a literary manner o_O (If that made any sense XD) Though I have had one teacher ask me if English is my best subject. Thing was I am pretty good at analyzing art and stuff, and that was an art class where she showed a painting and we told our thoughts. English is my second worst subject in reality. My worst is American History. It's not the fact that I detest the history of the United States, I really don't mind it. What bugs me is how biased everything is here! Anywho, I'm doing pretty good in Economics, which is a good sign since it has little to no mathematic skills required XD

I've noticed people always seem to call me smart, or a genius. They say this because my grades tend to be A's. Not to mention that I want to do the IB program. The thing is, the only thing I do is set minimums for myself that I have to meet. Now these tend to be high for the average idiot. To inspire me to work, I aim to get that A so I can exempt the exam XD I want to do IB because I feel like it's something I have to do. It's a requirement for me, rather. Whether it's worth it or not later on I will find out later. Recently I got a wonderful 67 on a French test. Now that test was a week ago Monday, and I had studied the previous week along with the weekend. The teacher decided to make 3 different versions of the test, and apparently I got the most difficult of the three. I don't know what I did, but one of the pages has red circles on EVERY PROBLEM @____@ Anywho, the teacher is nice enough so that if we correct it, we can get half of the points back! ^_^ This isn't the worst grade I've gotten in there. The best test grade I believe was a 93 for me. It seems that I never study the right stuff, or I don't understand (he only speaks french in that class, unless we do something terrible and he needs to dicipline us). Good thing is I always do my homework, so that is holding my grade up on the edge

Ok enough about that. If you actually read all of that, gee, I owe you something XD Though I didn't force you to read it... Hmm... I'll decide later.

For now I am working on my forum (trying to get it ready to be opened) and drawing o_O On the side I am playing The Sims 2, (which is REALLY fun with the new stuff pack :3 ) and I must correct that French test! @_@

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/12708494/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/12708494/ Mon, 23 Apr 2007 18:03:44 PDT
I have started a new project that I hope to finish before exams start, and I'm planning to do another portrait by the end of this week. That's about all the news I have for that I guess o_O

Computer-life-wise, I got The Sims 2: Celebration! Stuff which is pretty fun so far. I've gotten back into the whole Neopets thing (save me! XD)

If you want to hear some good jokes I recommend Russell Peters (look him up on youtube =d). For some reason I keep smelling sun screen <_< People have been complaining about burning up all day =O

This isn't a very interesting blog, geez what's wrong with me? Usually I can talk for at least 10 sentences on half of a subject, but now everything is all choppy! Funny how I tend to type what's on my mind in here o_O Just incase you are wondering why the subject changes so often XD

So now if you're reading this I need your help! My birthday is coming near and I have no idea what to ask for! I'll be turning 16, and have no use for a car (I doubt I would even get one anyway but all the other kids seem to be asking for one XD) as I won't get my permit till I'm 17 or 18. I was thinking maybe a Nintendo DS with one of the new Pokemon games (I'm thinking Diamond, other option being Pearl fyc). I've been told many times I'm getting to old for games, and my dad has been trying to get me to buy video games that are a bit more mature since I was maybe 9? That was before I got my Game Bay Advanced. Whatever it was, I tend to still steer towards those happy-go-lucky games without too much mature stuff. Hmm... What else could I ask for? is it possible to ask for passing grades? XD I already have those though ;-;

Hmm... Really recently I've finally had that amazing 'click' with French. The 'click' being that great moment when suddenly you don't have to take 10 seconds to come up with one word, when you can say stuff without putting too much thought about it. Basically the click that means you finally have enough knowledge that you could have an internet conversation with someone, and actually know what they are talking about. Now the only problem I need to fix is my mixing up English Polish and French I have had those awkward moments in French class when I used a Polish word Everybody laughed at me, I don't know why, it's an honest mistake. Incase you are wondering it's the word for angel. In Polish it's aniołek. Now I'm not sure if I spelt that right XD Well, the French word is Ange, and for I said 'anio' (that's how you would spell it in polish I guess), and in French that means lamp <_< I WAS CLOSE @_@ lamp, light, angel... they have a theme t_t

OKAY BACK ON TOPIC XD So with the whole language theme, my dream is to learn as many languages as possible. So far next in the line-up are Spanish, German, Russian, and then in second place are Mandarin, Italian, and I can't remember what it was o_O Anywho before I go on to other langauges, I need to perfect the languages I already know XD

Gee I cannot stay on topic T_T Maybe I should ask for some books on languages? Books for fun? Anybody able to recommend some good books? (I like sci fi ) Maybe I could get a CD o_O Or maybe RENT? (the movie ) I hear a new sims game is coming out around that time XD Maybe I can get that :d

Let's see. I want something that I wouldn't normally be able to get. Something that can be used long-term. Something that can entertain me whenever I get bored. Educational is optional. If I got the one thing I really wanted for my birthday, I think that would be the greatest gift I ever got o_O Something to look forward to XD

On a realistic level, if anybody wants to recommend something. Maybe something that could help my artistic needs? Art supplies of some kind o_O Like stated before, a book you could recommend? Anything right now is okay XD Maybe even a video game?

Anyway I think this journal is long enough for now. So until next time, hopefully I will have more in my gallery XD

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/11978092/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/11978092/ Mon, 26 Feb 2007 17:45:37 PST She was nice enoguh to critique it throughout the process and helped me with the clothing fold locations XD (apparently my original plans made no sense :d).

Seeing as my title mentions Jake, I might as well start this journal by talking about him :d Who is Jake? What is this Kher that he is of? And to take this further, what is this Mountain Realm I mentioned?

Well now I realise this is the information I should have put into his image description XD AH WELL. Kher is just a village somewhere in a mountainous region. It's really that simple!

In Xentario (my planet) there are realms which are currently named after their physical description. Though that may barely mention what the element of that realm is or anything, it's just a helpful way for newcomers to get the swing of things.

The Mountain Realms element is physical strength, which is probably not the kind of element you were thinking of (such as water, earth, fire, air (OMG AVATAR >_<;; )). Xentario has around maybe 12 elements in total, (maybe 14... I should really check seeing as that would be good to know) and they are that way cause i said so.

Back to Jake. In the short story he is in, Jake is trapped in a cave hidden by a waterfall during a storm somewhere in a forest nowhere near his home. He left for new opportunities. Moving on, a girl by the name of Emelie stumbles into the cave hiding from scouts on the hunt for her cause she ran away from home and her parent's just happen to be very wealthy and highly respected people from the Water Realm! (element is Water btw *gasp*) So at first, seeing as Emelie is a human raised in a society that looks down on 'differences', and Jake is a part goat-boy that doesn't get the best first impression of Emelie, the two begin to argue and even go onto the brink of a fight to decide who gets to stay in the cave.

Now I could go on further (seeing as I probably won't ever end up posting this story), but if I ever do post this story, I wouldn't want it spoiled for anybody :d

NOW FOR OTHER NEWS YAY!!!

I recently heard part of the soundtrack for Avenue Q, a nasty little broadway show making a parady of Sesame Street. And when I say nasty, I mean the content is just terrible, and should not be mentioned near any kind of youth. XD Well my friend is getting me the CD anyway, so that'll be fun to hear the rest of the show. There are some songs that are serious, but it's flipping puppets making fun of Sesame Street, so that just ruins the moment if you know what is really going on t_t

Next up is The Sims 2 Seasons! I made a personal bet with father time that I would give something up, and for every day I fail to do so, he can add one day to my wait for the game. WELL at first I believed the date was Tuesday (tomorrow), and I wasn't too serious about this whole bet apparently and failed to keep my promise on one day. Guess what I found out the next day? The game is coming out Wednesday! Freaky! @_@ It gets better! Today when I was coming home from school I was thinking of failing to keep my promise today, and as soon as I finished my thoughts my dad mentioned not being in town on Wednesday so he wouldn't be able to take me to Target. But I hadn't done anything! Well here is the catch! My dad said that my MOM might be able to take me if she comes home from work early enough :d SUSPICIOUS....

So now I really don't want to have to wait any longer >_< Is it pure chance that all of this is happening? Or maybe father time takes my wages seriously o_O WHO KNOWS @_@ DUN DUN DUN...

Hmmm.... last but not least we're analyzing poetry in English class (fun cause it's easy for me :d), in French I need to study for a test on Wednesday (also recently ended up with the above mentioned bet <_< ) and I need to get a good grade. An A would give me guarandteed luck. B is just around the safety net depending on what the number is o_o In Economics class, I am having the easiest time because I had practice with the Sims 2 Open For Business! In Computer Applications class I also need to study for a test Wednesday (not part of the bet, but a good idea to study :d) and last... ]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/11926817/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/11926817/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 19:45:22 PST
Anyways I got to see RENT finally, I got the soundtrack for Wicked and RENT (the movie) so that has occupied a lot of my time for the past week.

Speaking of being occupied, it seems that my classes have actually begun to challenge me to work harder. Maybe because they are all academic? Anyway, so far the first quarter seems to have flown by in a snap. Mid terms are March 22-23, less than a month away! This is getting freaky.

On the other side, lately I may be adding a lot of new deviations as I try to make a masterpiece. I have had a lot of inspiration lately and I hope it will last long enough.

Wow, I am tired, so I'm sorry if what I say doesn't make sense XD

~
Ja ksem pisacz po polsku teras ale nie wiem czy ja pisam dobrze. Ja tylko wiem malutko, bo nie mjalem klasy polski dla może 8 lat. Nawet nie wiem czy wszystko jest pisane dobrze. XD Czy rozumiesz co ja piszem? Mów mię i może ty możesz pomóc mnie
Dzień kujem za minute po polsku :3
~

Till next time :3 Check out my gallery if you haven't already!

Buddies:


Make sure to check out their galleries too along with my watchers! ^_^

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/11650204/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/11650204/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 16:36:31 PST got me ;-;

*reads the instructions from her journal*

*clears throat* AHEM

So according to this it says I am supposed to talk about me and my randomness. Actually it says I'm supposed to list six of my oddest habits/likes/dislikes/etc. Then when I am done I simply list 6 people that I tag and the game continues!

1) I usually dance and sing when nobody else is looking o_O Normally when I'm home alone, or taking the dog outside (though I think any neighbours who might have seen me in the act are in hiding XD).

2) I cannot stand depressing movies (usually the ones rated R) which is one reason I am such a fan of pop music and Disney movies :d

3) Everytime I get a poster from a magazine or game or something I put it on my wall next to my bed whether I know what the stuff on it is or not.

4) My bed usually has at least one of my dog's toys on it, and at least 3 bears/stuffed animals o_O

5) I can't fall asleep while holding onto my bear, dunno why, but I can only seem to sleep when he is right next to me

6) I feel the impulse that I "MUST HAVE" every sims 2 game I can get my hands on. (or rather, every ep and stuff pack :d) I even have a shrine for it

Sadly though I do not know six people who have not been tagged yet ;-; So I shall play around with the 'random deviant' button and see who gets it

TAG, YOU'RE IT:
and

Have fun!

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/11484033/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/11484033/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 15:43:26 PST
The bad side is I would just be rushing projects. Not really a bad side but oh well XD Good side is I am getting better! Compared to my last deviation, my most recent scrap [link] looks one hundred times better! I would really like to finish the image, just as line art though. I don't want to colour it for now until I can get a hand on how to draw better so that it is not set in stone. One problem you may notice with it are the hands 8D Oh how I wish I could get the handle on drawing hands! I do practice a lot, but it just doesn't click. Hands are just too complicated :d

But really, although I am very embarrassed by some of my old work and scraps, I won't delete them just for that reason. It just reminds me that practice does make perfect, or at least let's me get better at drawing. I've been drawing doodles everywhere of my new characters (while I should be concentrating to the teacher XD) but anyway.

I wonder if I could take a ts2 snapshot and use it as reference o_O It would be really nice if I could have real references to practice drawing people, but for now I will have to stick with observing the techniques of other artist's. (Also known as watching cartoons with a reason XD)

In other news, my friend is about to kill me because I have had her book for too long (only 50 pages to go!!! XD) and I no longer have Marble Cake. Also, my supplies of pop tarts have been dwindling in recent occasions (we just bought a big box so I should be settled for the weekend). Also since exams are over with I do not have to go to school until Monday! (I had today off as well X3)

OH, and I got volumes 1-3 of Avatar: The Last Airbender. It really is a great show. Though the volumes do tend to end on a sad note And my parents also bought ABBA: The Definitive Collection so I have been listening to 37 ABBA songs for the past few days XD ABBA's story seems to be like a lot of European success stories that I know, although not on such a big note.

So anyway, while ABBA plays their history to me for the third time, I shall end this journal for now. If you like the scrap, make sure to look out for me to post a completed version soon! (not coloured though :d)

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I did get Photoshop at long last and as my first project I edited my Azurill deviation (the first one posted as a full deviation here ) which can be found at the same location as before! [link]

Please check it out and tell me how badly I need to practice before I go and do these kind of things ^_^;

I got a CD Player for xmas, to which I have been listening to an ABBA cd I found downstairs since around the 28th when I got back from Canada to go to Florida. That is also when I finally got to go to the doctor to find out that I have all of these illnesses to which I have begun to run out of the medication for o_O

Happy New Year to everybody! (since I wasn't able to say it when it actually was the new year Xd)

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/11109505/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/11109505/ Mon, 18 Dec 2006 19:33:51 PST
I made a sketch of Jake from my story if anybody is interested [link] though I will probably not colour or ink the image, I will simply finish touching up and then make it a full deviation with his profile and all that jazz @_@

I really am not in one of those moods to rant about random stuff right now...

PFFT, that's a lie. I am always in the mood to rant!

So the story is going well, although I think I need to pick a purpose. Every time I settle on one, I think of another. The current theme is prejudice. I don't want to spoil anything, but if anybody is interested, Emelie is from a rich family (if I haven't mentioned it yet) and has been brought up thinking some people are better than others. Meanwhile Jake is a farm boy who was mistreated as a child and ran away from home as soon as he was felt he was experienced enough to fend for himself.

I shall post another journal as soon as I post some kind of deviation! @_@ So till then!

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So anyway, my little inbox and deviation watch-inbox are slowly piling up. I can't catch up with everything! SO I thought, well let's make sure everything I have started is kept active. Which includes this here journal :3

So what's been going on on this side of the planet? Well, I've started a short story in hopes of helping me improve my weak writing skills. I have to admit, even though I haven't been in an english class for nearly a year, my writing skills have gotten better. So here's a summary of the story. It's not even close to being done, but hopefully it won't take too long to do so Xd

Summary:

It’s raining, and Jake hates water. Whether it’s because he is part feline, or because he nearly drowned when he was younger, is a mystery. Emelie is from a wealthy family, brought up in the best conditions money could buy according to her parents, Emelie has always wanted to escape and be on her own. Now these two are in a cave behind a waterfall, one hiding from his fear, and the other seeking escape from bounty hunters who plan to return her home.

(this is just rough, badly written. the current story is written much better hopefully XD)

Also, it was my name day a few days ago, (I'm not sure how many countries in Europe do that kind of celebration, but in Poland it's called Imieniny or something that sounds like that Xd) and I got a pretty snow globe, and an xmas tree... Although I think the tree was meant just for the holidays XD

So anyway, maybe I can make drawing of Jake and Emelie? Then it could help give a visual reference to those who don't like to read (shame on you, even though you wouldn't be reading this XD).

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Well I've been getting my Christmas list ready for Santa, and so far I realise I am a greedy child deep down inside ;-; Why? Because anything I want that would actually make me happy is something I don't know if santa would even want to give me. OKies that's enough talk about Santa (I'll save the rant for when it's closer to the holidays )

You would not believe how helpful crying can be! I don't know why, but it takes so much effort for me to cry that it makes me forget my worries, and that's just to get teary eyed! @_@

Yes, I know, I am changing the subject a lot. But that's why I am dividing each paragraph into a different subject. I decided it will help the reader.

Speaking of reader, I learned about a cool feature on Word that allows you to create a book form of the paper. So now I can write my book! Would anybody be interested in proof-reading? If I do plan to publish it, I would need to translate it. If you're wondering what the book is about, then I must give you a quick note on my little planet I call Xen.

Ok, so it's full name is Xentario (heck, the name has been a million things but this was chosen from a poll of voters at a forum i used to go to). On this planet are twelve realms each representing some kind of element. Until I can figure out their proper names (and until I start writing book 3 :d) the realms will be named after their physical locations. I would tell you them here, but I don't want my ideas stolen before I ever get to publish this book that I have yet to start typing (have the window ready right now )

Now for the deviantArt news. Will I post some artwork? As soon as I get the chance to make something that looks decent. Everything I draw seems to turn into a scribble. I have a million ideas, the trouble is putting them on paper. I think what I will do though is create character profiles for my book. That way I will have a reference and you will have some of an idea as to what it is really about XD

And Lauren, if you are reading this, then hi!

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Would you like me to explain the title? Well most people here might have already known where I got it from, and if you didn't, look it up on youtube but really, lately my life has centered around the theme of Forbidden Love. I'm still learning what it is exactly, but I believe I have a firm grasp at it's message. I want my life to meet every border I can reach, and it seems life sometimes even let's me cross those borders. Forbidden Love is one of those borders. Actually, I think it's one of the few, if not only, border I've been able to cross so far. And it's not considered a border for no reason. I'm scared to cross it.

This journal seems to be a mix of love and holiday spirit, and yet they are so similar. First off, my whole family is from Poland, where people celebrate all 12 days of Christmas. I don't know much about it, but I know that in Canada, the 2nd day of Christmas is called Boxing Day and that's the day stores put almost everything on sale and people return unwanted gifts @_@ I don't remember which one it is, but another day is the day of the Three Kings. Gah I hate my memory x_O I can't remember what you're supposed to do on that day ;-;

I'm being very random here, huh? Well let's continue the randomness by randomly changing what I was just talking about! Today there was some lady who asked for 6 dollars, and I ignored what it was she wanted to money for because she was asking other people. But here is what I noticed, when she asked my dad he said something along the lines of no, and the next couple she asked, the wife said "I'll give you the money as long as you promise to spend the money on what you say you want it for!". When I asked my dad what she wanted he said she wanted the money for drugs, but when I asked him for what she SAID she wanted the money for, he said it was for a ticket (a travel ticket of some kind). I was wondering, why is it he was so untrusting? I did type something up but I decided not to put it here in case people get mad and stone me Xd

Well what will I do for Christmas? I was thinking of making drawings or sketches for my friends at school o_O That or give them candy. I have gotten a lot of friends actually, and I'm thankful and a bit confused as to how they can tolerate me. I admit I can be very weird at times, if not, always. But here's my favourite comment these people have made about me: "You look different without your glasses."

Yes, I wear glasses, but only in school. Even though I can't see 5 feet ahead of me without them, I haven't been run over yet! I asked a friend to explain this to me (a friend who also said the comment) and she said it made me more attractive when I didn't wear my glasses o_O;; I admit I look a lot better than I did a year ago, but it's scary to hear it from other people that I'm actually attractive in some way.

Well I think I have poured out enough of my random thoughts out for now. If you have bothered to read all of this, post a comment and request a drawing of something! I can't promise I will colour it, but I will definitely try to at least sketch it!

PS: Thanks for what you told me about the whole love thing.

Also thanks to for inspiring me to go on and keep on trying no matter what.

And thanks to all the other artists who have been inspiring me ever since I have come to DeviantArt! I'm sorry for not specifying, but I think the amount of people is a bit excessive XD If you're reading this then thank you!

Wow that's long o_O; I don't really want to read over this so if I put anything I will regret later, I will just have to suffer the bricks :d

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So what shall I do to celebrate? Well today I've been working on keeping karma at neutral for me. You wouldn't believe how hard it was t_T

Nah, I'll do something special. What? I don't know ;-; I would like to possibly finish one of my drawings with colour, but I'm scared to do so! Maybe I can make something new that is meant to be coloured? Maybe I'll be more inspired to do so once my pencil crayons are all nice and sharpened (sharpener broke ). *digs sisters room for her electric pencil sharpener*

Meanwhile, if you are bored, try looking at some drawings I have started which are located in my scraps. here is one that I rather like how it's are turning out: [link]

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Meanwhile over at my forum [link] I've started working on the promised information section for the realms! To make things better I started planning a drawing for the forum (I will probably make one for each realm), and I really want to make a drawing of my dog o_O

If you're wondering about my "Listening to:" songs, allow me to explain. When I get to DeviantArt I am usually listening to my collection of Disney music (Disney's Greatest Volume 1, 2, and 3) and I will put the song I start my blog with in the slot. As I type this I am not still listening to "Heigh-Ho", but "You'll Be In My Heart" (from Disney's Tarzan). Actually I usually hear at least 4-6 songs while I type up my blog...

Well that's it for this journal entry. And if anybody would be interested in reading my Xentario story on DeviantArt, go ahead and reply here asking! XD And I might add a new scrap today of my planning for my new drawings, so check my scraps if you are interested on that.

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/10593590/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/10593590/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 13:25:16 PST [link] This is a scanned version obviously, and it cut-off, and the colours don't exactly show as they are supposed to, but I'm sure nobody will mind :d

Meanwhile I have noticed something about my favorites. if you look closely, I seem to follow quick 'trends' in the art I fav. My most recent one was with Sokka and Anastasia, where the scenes aren't that big a deal, and the characters are the main focis. Then the one before that has a few pieces with bright colours and by the same artist XD I think you get it now...

I'm not sure what to talk about, would anybody be interested if I posted parts of my story here? o_O Or would that count as a deviation? I will have to explore to find out more...

Oh, and Halloween was fun, I dressed up as Dralion!

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/10508697/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/10508697/ Wed, 25 Oct 2006 16:28:15 PDT [link] so hopefully I can finish the background and shading by Saturday. After this I am hoping to work with ~Youwiththeface on some holiday images using her character designs. :3

If I do post anything new other than that it would be old scans. I don't have anything better tha Paint, and don't feel like doing the whole process again for now Xd

]]> ~fireflamer789 http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/10415280/ http://fireflamer789.deviantart.com/journal/10415280/ Mon, 16 Oct 2006 17:26:31 PDT
Currently I'm practicing by drawing Pokemon characters, and hopefully i will make something good enough to post here.

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