deviantART: by:flecs http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:flecs&section=today deviantART RSS for by:flecs en-us Copyright 2010, deviantART.com Fri, 01 Jan 2010 11:27:46 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png New Years Blog http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/22443719/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/22443719/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 22:36:33 PST
but i think 09 is going to be just like america for me... theres is going to be alot of fuckin change

something happened to me on new years that is pretty much just amazing and all im going to say is that it turned my emotions around like 3 hundred and sixty dam degrees and i have been like super happy the past few days. i honestly dont think the year could have started any better then this.

as for 09 i think im going to lay low on modding my car for the year so that i can get my finances back together from the aftermath of being unemployed for 2 weeks. plus me and my buddys did so much work to the interior of my car last fall i may as well have it the way it is for a whole season before we rip it out and do it even more extreme. ill def still hit all the local car shows i can and i few ones that will require road trips (asylum bitches!)

i would also like to appologize to anyone who may read this that i may not have treated very well in the past. i know i can be an asshole and sometimes its on purpose but sometimes i just dont even know. i can be a very confusing person i know but i hope that i can keep rising above my own issues and be a better person and a better friend to everyone

i feel that i have matured alot in the past year. i have realised alot about myself and where i want to be. and how i want to get there. i feel like i am finally ready to step up and be the person i know i can be and find somone who will be there with me along the way.

i would also just like to say thank you to everyone who has helped me along in the last year. people like my family, and my close friends. i can honestly say that without all of the love and support i have recieved from all of you i dont know if i would be here today. i love you all!

thank you

]]> ~flecs ok so i work at target now... http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/21018099/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/21018099/ Thu, 16 Oct 2008 14:39:35 PDT
]]> ~flecs Its Been a While... http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/21014966/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/21014966/ Thu, 16 Oct 2008 10:51:56 PDT
]]> ~flecs things looking up? http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/12934327/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/12934327/ Sat, 12 May 2007 20:33:32 PDT
everything in my life that could go wrong pretty much did. the person who at the time, meant everything to me left me. after that i was left with just my 2nd most important thing, my scion. that was broken into and robbed of my snowboard,boots, bindings, a PSP, and the game inside of it. and then it tried to commit suicide on the freeway... costing $8000 in repairs. i had to use the money i got form the insuranc ecompany for the stolen items to pay for the $500 deductable to get my car repaired. so now im also out all of those items with no money to buy them back... and lots of other random little life issues and shit that all add up onto the stress of fulltime work and school

but the last week or two has really been going well (with one exception ill get too later)

well to start i now have another place that will be using a logo that i have designed. it is a dentist office located in richfield

I became the president of my car club chapter after JP stepped down to settle his own life issues

i also have rims on my car now that i get to use for the summer for free. a member of my car club only uses them for the winter time to this summer i get to have them!

i attended two car shows last saturday with who is now my new girlfriendf brittany and both of htose kicked ass! the first one was at my old HS and me and another club member of mine took home "top twenty" awards. the 2nd show i planned at my work (The DQ G & C) was just for scions and we had about 18 in total come for the day! it was ALOT of fun

like mentioned earlier i now have a new GF an di couldnt be happier. her name is brittany and i have actually known her for a long time... since about the third grade. being with her is defiently not something that i expected... actually i didnt really expect to be with anybody anytime soon but life comes at you fast and sometimes things come up. i am really happy when i am with her. she gets along great with my friends and that is something that really means alot to me bc at this point in my life my friends mean everyhting to me

yesterday me, britt and some of my friends went to myth night club to see paul van dyk and it was KICK ASS!!! he is one of the biggest techno artists in the world and its awesome that i got to be right up in front in the middle of the dance floor for about 2 hours straight... it was like a religious expirience and i just got lost in the music and dancing. it was alot of fun being at the club with brit!

today, i woke up this morning to drive to a all scion car show in iowa and it fuckin rocked! there were a lot of scions there and they were all lookin great! but sadly i did not bring my scion b/c (this is the one shitty thing this week) some asshole decided to open his door w/o looking while i was backing up into a parking space on thursday and he took out my rear bumper, taillight. and quarter panel... so now i have an appt. to bering it BACK to the body shop on monday after only getting it back a few weeks ago form the first accdent... it sucks man

but all in all im feeling really good about where things are going and im looking frward to see where things go with me and britt and just how my life goes in general... well if anyone cares ill keep updating as life happends

adios

]]> ~flecs 2006: The Year of Change http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/11261888/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/11261888/ Sun, 31 Dec 2006 16:57:18 PST

I hate change… I really do. And that is why this year has been so difficult for me. I graduated from high school, and I was happy I made it through. But it sucks that I lost all of those great resources I had in the auto and metals classes. I have barely talked to most of my friends form high school, I feel bad. Having these two weeks off of school has really opened my eyes to how lonely I really am. I realized that if I’m not at work or school I have nothing to do. I don’t have many people’s phone numbers. And those I do usually are already busy. I don’t know how my life got to this point. Another thing that I have realized this last week is that I’ve never in my whole life ever had someone I could call my “best friend,” I’ve always had friends but I’ve never had anyone close. And that brings me to the next thing that made this year so horrible. Sarah. The one person I really ever was close too. The one person I’m my whole life that I have felt I could tell anything. Who would always be there for me. Gone. I have to force myself not to talk to her. Or look at her. I try to force the past out of my mind to keep myself from going insane. I almost wish I never met her. She used to be so sweet. Innocent. I was someone she needed. But then the tables turned and in my time of need I was abandoned. Left for dead. Everything we had tossed aside, like it never meant anything. Like I never meant anything. And now, its like were strangers. I really do hate change… Now that I am in college I have made some new friends and I am very grateful for them. It was something I really needed to get though that new experience, during such a hard time in my life. Though I feel I have learned nothing new in my graphics classes. I am learning many new things about the business side of graphic design. So I guess it isn’t a complete waste of money. I’m also very grateful for the friends I have made with my car club. Scikotics is like a family. We are all very close. I have had many new experiences and have seen many new things because of it. But I feel it’s like a double edged sword. Buying my car has put so much financial pressure on me that it caused me to work so many more hours just to afford it. Thus pushing me even further away from Sarah and my other friends. I would like to think that 2007 will be a better year for me but it is hard to say. There will be even more change in store as I graduate form college and look for my own place to live. I don’t know if I’m ready for it. But it is going to happen weather I like it or not so I just have to take it and run with it. Wish me luck!

Happy new years everyone

-Josh

]]> ~flecs The New Josh http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/10840082/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/10840082/ Fri, 24 Nov 2006 23:03:11 PST
]]> ~flecs In With the New http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/10055514/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/10055514/ Tue, 12 Sep 2006 22:53:14 PDT
you will always have a special place in my heart... ]]> ~flecs i cant take this shit anymore! http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/10003589/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/10003589/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 20:54:33 PDT
i cant fucking understand how going out and getting wasted and making out with chicks is more important than me and everythign we had

and you fucking went around and showed everyone your drunken lesbo make out session at work! and you do it while im even there! DO YOU KNOW HOW HUMILIATED I FELT!?!?!?! i dont even fucking know who you are anymore!
how could you do that shit to me?

it also pisses me off that everyone seems to like me and think im such a nice guy... i dont fucking care bc theres only one person i want to like me
and they treat me like a piece of shit on there shoe

i should have just left you as the little depressed cutter you were when i met you... i turned you form one monster into a completly different monster

the sarah i love is gone and im fucking done! ]]> ~flecs life... http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/9957013/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/9957013/ Sun, 03 Sep 2006 22:33:23 PDT
sarah left me and ive been very depressed. it really cuts you deep when the one you love with all of your heart is gone. me and her had been though so much together. had alot of good times and even some bad times too but we always helped each other through them. and now in this time of change for the both of us she leaves me when i need her the most.

yesterday when i was cleaning out my room i came across so many pictures of her and us together... so many great memories that we have shared these past few years... it just makes it hurt even more... not only that but my god mother also brought me a scrap book of my graduation stuff yesterday... and there was this nice little section of me and sarah in there... its just so hard to believe... i really dont get it... im trying but i cant understand what went wrong

i think it may be my car... before i bought my scion i always had money... i dident have to work as much and in general we had alot more fun... as much as i love my car, the friends ive made in my club, and all of the scion events i go to... i really wish i could go back and change my desicion... i lost what was really important in my life and i regret it everyday

tommorrow is my first day of college... i hope it goes ok and i hope i can pay attention and do well... this is one more thing i dont wanna screw up on... i dont wanna work at fuckin dairy queen for the rest of my life. im pretty sure at that point i would probly kill myself

i dont know... my life is all messed up right now... not too long ago i thought i had everyhting going for me... but in one night everyhting changed... i just dont knw anymore ]]> ~flecs happy bday to me! http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4707124/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4707124/ Tue, 01 Mar 2005 22:42:29 PST

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well im 18 today! it hard to belive i malready 18... where the hell did my childhood go!?!?!?!?! dam childhood... well now i dont have ot go to the internet for good porn... i can go to the gas station! lol... wish me luck yall!



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]]> ~flecs Almost 18 http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4680215/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4680215/ Sat, 26 Feb 2005 18:54:35 PST

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Well im turning 18 this wednesday and you would think i would be excited... i mean dont get me wrong... i am happy... but the thought of being so close to being out on my own is making me feel really wierd... i cant really explain how i have been feeling the last few days its like some strange feeling in between depressed and happy... but i am lucky because i am still in 11th grade so i wont be outa high school till im 19... so that means i have one year to prepare myself for that piece of crap we call the world... wish me luck everyone






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]]> ~flecs last daily journal http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4308393/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4308393/ Thu, 13 Jan 2005 07:09:35 PST
-Flecs ]]> ~flecs boring class period http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4300625/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4300625/ Wed, 12 Jan 2005 07:13:15 PST
-Flecs ]]> ~flecs TEST http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4297465/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4297465/ Tue, 11 Jan 2005 19:02:16 PST
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TESTING!!!

-Flecs ]]> ~flecs DP Final YAY! http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4292350/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4292350/ Tue, 11 Jan 2005 07:08:57 PST Mood: Relaxed SOOO HUNGRY!

well we started doing our finals for desktop publishing... what we are doing is creating a business package for a business of our choice (im doing mine for my parents gas station) and we need to make letterheads, business cards, newsletter, 3 panel brochure, and certificate (i might be missing somthing im too tired too care) < sarcastic> so yeah that is ALOT of fun so far

peace out!

-Flecs ]]> ~flecs mmm... doughnuts http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4260072/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4260072/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 07:11:52 PST Mood: Shit Happens still hungry dammit!

well i just got me a doughnut at the schools cafe they have every friday morning... BUT IM STILL HUNGRY! and i have 2 whole dam classes left until lunch... I HATE HAVING THIRD LUNCH!!!!!! bastards!

-Flecs ]]> ~flecs sleep depriving to get sleep http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4252206/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4252206/ Thu, 06 Jan 2005 07:18:41 PST Mood: Psychotic tired

well my girlfriend ~Gothgymnast went to the doctors the other day for her concussion and her mom mentioned to the doctor that she hasent been able to sleep for the last few weeks to now she has to be woken up every day at 4 am and stay awayke all day until about 10:30 when she take s a relaxing pill... so she can fall asleep at about 11:30ish... souds like fun dosent it! lol... i dident knw what to write about so i wrote about you... sorry sarah

peace out

-Flecs ]]> ~flecs tired http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4244090/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4244090/ Wed, 05 Jan 2005 07:17:20 PST Mood: Tired bored
Listening to: crash and burn
Watching: bad santa (unrated version)

well im just chillin in my desktop publishing class... we just were werking on making a brocure informing people about tsunami's... maby ill post it up on here when its all done... i think im going to try and make it a habbit to post a new journal every day in this class untill the end of the term... so if i make a journal about somthing stupid and pointless thats y... well ima go... peace out everyone

-Flecs ]]> ~flecs Fun Winter Break http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4235526/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4235526/ Tue, 04 Jan 2005 07:07:20 PST Mood: Devious bored

well i had a pretty fun winter break. i gota lots of sweeet presents and giftcards... and i got to spend alot of time with my girlfriend ~bloodygoth sarah so that was a real treat aswell... i went snowboarding alot too... which i also liked... but when i was at wild mountain with sarah and her family she got a cuncussion on her head... when we were gettign off the chair lift her glove string got stuck to the chair and it swung around and hit her in the head :( but shes fellin better now aside from on and off headaches... well i dunno what else to talk about so im out... peace

-Flecs ]]> ~flecs bored http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4227143/ http://flecs.deviantart.com/journal/4227143/ Mon, 03 Jan 2005 07:21:17 PST
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