http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:fluffyappleberry&section=today deviantART RSS for by:fluffyappleberry en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 31 Dec 2009 01:33:34 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://fluffyappleberry.deviantart.com/journal/28977862/ http://fluffyappleberry.deviantart.com/journal/28977862/ Wed, 16 Dec 2009 10:10:52 PST
apparently one of the persons who stole my Black Widow Design for Lucia in Pangya tried to enter that in the design contest of Pangya GOA... i have no idea what he was thinking but NATURALLY people pointed fingers at him so now everyone in Pangya GOA knows that the design was stolen from mine xD. I was finally able to find the thread (by inserting "Berry" in the search engine lol) [link]age=4 though even with google translator i could only read some of it... also apparently all GOA design contestants have to make a youtube video in order to enter the contest ... it wasn't hard to find the idiot's entry too lol [link]

with this recent hype i decided to upload my own video of my current designs to date,.. i quite like the video xD [link] it's simple but fun xD (i havent yet uploaded the ceci design to here i think.. i shuold do that soon xD)

I also got myself a wacom bamboo fun and am really happy about that xD!!! though i got it like a week ago... was going to post about it here the first thing when i got home but lol my internet connection died and i had limited access xD.. though anyway,.. am using the tablet and also testing SAI for the Pangya Fanart Exchange Holiday Special. ... will start using photoshop probably when i get my new computer which was promised to me as a birthday/christmas gift at the end of this month.. don't want to activate photoshop on this now temporary computer lol xD .. i got photoshop elements 6 bundled with the bamboo fun i recently got... will activate that on my new computer,... may or may not buy SAI... still deciding,... going to transfer my registration for photoimpact12 and other programs to the new computer and that too will take some x3

and i still have to contact a certain friend for bible studies,.. still have to box up my clothes, books and everything cos we are getting the carpets replaced,.. still want to collect stockings in Pangya US for the christmas clubset and sweaters,.. still need to doctor for blood test results... so much to do lol xD

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i don't even know what to say... obviously they did it because they really liked my design but the thing is whoever they are they hadn't first asked me whether I'd be ok with it or not o_o

still of course they did not have the skills (or patience) so the copies cannot compare to the original xD


i really dont know what to make of it lol... lots of mixed feelings xD

anyway... side note i guess... I wont be going to pangya GOA and even if i do visit there i probably wouldn't stay. This is mostly because i am already well settled in pangya US,... well... for pangya alone even though i am still a very new player I've accumulated many items and also worked on many designs, with the more recent ones i spend weeks on them, the designs cannot be transferred and i have no intention of starting over either. ... The other reason is I've been with ntreev USA for years, started out at trickster, doesn't matter how good or bad ntreevUSA or GOA are I'm already settled, even with the GMs i have my memories, both in pangya and in trickster... so I'm not going to GOA

I guess it cant be helped that people will make copies of my desings over there but at least one thing..... there wont be any berryfluffy original designs in pangya GOA xD ...

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recently they seem to be strangely frequent, it could be something to do with my recent stomach upsets though i still wonder,. I'm doing well, better than ever before in the past few years, I'm no longer afraid of the past and am confronting them with no hesitation while at the same time i am rebuilding myself, and slowly regaining the me who i once was... the child i thought i lost forever, the child who i once believed i would never ever get back is now slowly waking and i am going to fight everything i can to get back what was robbed from her and she will be back in full

I'm waking from dreams of the past,.. they seem to be frequent now, much more frequent than before,. is it because I'm getting the girl back?, of so it probably is only natural, the more i get in touch with who i once was, more of my past will return too, all these years i've mourned for who i thought i had lost forever,. the memories are just resurfacing.

but i'm different now, i cannot change what has happened in the past, but now i no longer deny what has happened,.. i finally have the courage to accept what has happened did happen, the memories are never going to go away but i'm not afraid of them anymore and nor will i run away from them, I just have to learn to be at peace with these memories, no longer will i deny them, it's finally time i accept them and move on.

though i need to slow down a little, I still do not know what my subconscious memories will throw at me so i need to slow down and build a firm grounding so that i am prepared for what may come at me, and not get thrown off the tract, no doubt i will still fall often and need to climb back up whenever i do but if i can stand strong and firm enough to not fall so easily it will be better in the long run...

so I'm not backing away, still moving foward but going slow, steady, and firm.


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and for the man i love who never gives up hope on me, i wont give up either.

]]> *fluffyappleberry http://fluffyappleberry.deviantart.com/journal/28309352/ http://fluffyappleberry.deviantart.com/journal/28309352/ Thu, 12 Nov 2009 08:57:42 PST , i had a good day though have been really busy , i recently had a lot of photos of myself taken cos it was my birthday lol... I'm not sure if i will upload those here or not

my older sister sms'd me from Hong Kong, Dad came over to take me to a lakeside, mum a few days ago took me to a garden (i made her take me after she made me go fix stuffs on her friend's computer)

we had dinner at local reputable Chinese restaurant where they served mostly foods from northern China, many of the foods from there are hot and spicy because of the cold weather up there. the food was really good.

later went home and had my cake, a choc-mocha torte, and lol they even got me candles that occasionally gave of sparks

i was incredibly tired by night, didn't get much chance to get online at all, i slept a bit more than usual, and today i wanted to catch up online, and since in America it was still my birthday and i'm used to getting birthday greetings rather late because of time zone differences... i decided to celebrate full on... however i was so tired xD, couldn't do much xD

msn buddy sent me a "Dreaming of you" by Selina and lol, I never heard the song before but i now absolutely love it cos i relate to it so well xD ... lol i often tell her about how i think of "him".. what we do, how i feel, etc, etc, etc... she said the song reminded her of me and when i listened to it... i absolutely love it cos it really is so like me xD...

though to me it was gettng to chat with him that made my birthday this year complete xD




my birthday wish, is for his wish to come true, the wish that he has for me , and i will work hard in the year to come for this wish of his to come true

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I've been sick recently, trying very hard to recuperate but since my sleep and digestion is effected, it has been a real exhausting struggle lol, but on the other hand, i've reassumed some drawing and painting... still not as much as i used to many years ago.. but have recently found that i am once able to enjoy doing art, which is a wonderful thing for me... a the moment i do either fan art, pangya SD, and some other arts, and sometimes I play with my camera.

I've been exhausted from this illness however recently in pangya i got many thigns keeping my spirits up


i competed for the pangya halloween self design contest in this thread (my entry posted in page 4). Seems like I finished my design around the same time as my buddy triratna, we both entered the contest and we both won grand prize , winners were announced here. ... This was the first self design contest in pangya ntreev usa, so to both of us this was a very special event

my design is more popular then what i had imagined it would be, i lost track of the names of all the people who has asked me for copy,.. some people have even gave me really good rare items in exchange and i'm really happy about that, i dont have many rares at all because i only started like in the last week of season 3, havent had much chance to collect rares and neither am i able to afford them when people are trading them away. .. I'm so elated that i am recieveing rare items in this way


And yet the joy didn't end there, i met a new buddy mellybunny and we got along very well real quickly. Recently on the hallowen day/night(depending on your timezone), mel was telling me how she was going to cosplay as hana for trick-or-treating. I then asked her if she was entering the halloween masquarade, another competition held by pangya. mel didnt know of this competition so i looked up the thread and sent her the link, that was when i realized she only have few hours to enter before the enties close so i quickly sent her the link, she became interested and started taking photos to enter the contest.

At the same time, i was reading that thread again and i realized that cosplay/halloween dress up photos were not the only entries accepted, I noticed there was also a "best screenshot" category too! that was when i thought, hey i already have three pangya self designs that are cosplay designs.. got few hours to burn, why not take a few screenshots for fun? (i love taking screenshots as much as playing with my camera xD)... it was also an opportunity to reintroduce my old self designs., so, while i took screenshots.. melly took photos.. all the while we both chatted on msn... both of us composed our entry post and shared our pictures via msn... and then we sent out our entries at about the same time. page 5 of this thread... we both continued msn'ing away.. chatting about how we wouldn't win, but the fun we had was worth the time spent.

and what a surprize! both of us won third place in our respective categories! melly third place best photo, I third place best screenshot announced here

and asides from these, Nitehare hosted a FanArt Exchange event, Halloween special, and i got the opportunity to try out another style of art... with exception from when i was at primary school i haven't done any fanarts with paint,...for some reason i felt i wanted to be really serious about this work, though am happy with that now, because i really like the way how it turned out. My entry to the event was a request art made for kyrakuu, and i'm glad he liked my work ... my request art was done by Rensuchan *fluffyappleberry http://fluffyappleberry.deviantart.com/journal/27007780/ http://fluffyappleberry.deviantart.com/journal/27007780/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 01:45:31 PDT
with a few events here and there around the corner i may put up a few new work... though however no major projects until i get a new computer as my current computer is unable to handle them... i borrowed mum's computer for my recent LaTale fan-art though i can only use mum's computer when i visit her place, the 30-day free trial photoshop on there has ended lol... i plan to only get photoshop after i get a new computer, hopefully by the end of this year.

planning too to get myself a tablet.. partly for use in imaging but also to prevent getting carpal tunnel xD (although doc said i could simply change the way i hold my current mouse xD), though i still want to get a tablet as soon as i can afford it. ... for fun and to save time xD

three weeks into a flu now... seem to be recovering... i ... hope .. o_O

How is it? that Nate will love so dearly someone like me?? ... such a wonderful wonderful guy I'm so lucky X3!!

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