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DONT LEAVE ME LIKE THIS!
Do-oon't leave me stranded!
If you walk away now, leave me empty handed...

Don't leave me now
you said that you'd always care,
and I just turn around
and theres nobody there!!!

alternatively...corresponding lyrics form different guys.

and you only only only only when you say
EASY COME, EASY GOOOO-O-O
This won't break my heart, dontcha know!
sometimes HIGH
SOMETIMES low
Easy come, easy go!


Okay...I think I am done now

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/16741738/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/16741738/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 16:09:20 PST But I don't want to drown!

...
I'm damaged, but somehow I've managed.
...

I really...really...really don't know what I am doing.

help.I need somebody...not just anybody. Help....

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/16343332/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/16343332/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 12:40:51 PST your were my light
when others wronged me
you did me right
when I look in your eyes
don't tell me lies
you tell me the truth,
your words they get me through
this is all I got

It's all I got...
so don't you break my heart!

typing lyrics as you hear them is only fun for so long. >.>
anyone who can name the lyrics gets...ummm
a...
pickle. It will be swiftly delivered in a jar with other pickles. so, I guess you get more than. one.....or...something.
PICKLE! dill, sweet, gherkin, or otherwise stated.
pickle of choice and size and variety. Hah.


If this were my last breath
or my last day
or my last chance
this is what I say
thank you for all the laughter,
thank you for the tears
it's time to say good bye
after all these years....
...
...
...

so don't you break my heart...
it's all I've got.
...
...
...
you shouldn't have broke my heart...

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]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/14403651/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/14403651/ Thu, 30 Aug 2007 00:09:53 PDT He made me strong for him...I did so much for him and he kicked me out of his apartment, and threw me back into the put of a home my mother lives in, which my sister moved back into...so now...it's like high school all over again and I hate it. I want to tell myself it's a dream, wake up next to him in our home and tell him what and awful dream I had.

I think I should just disappear for a while. I don't know if it would help, but I think at least I'll forget about him eventually.

I just want this pain to go away.

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/14014373/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/14014373/ Sat, 04 Aug 2007 11:39:35 PDT for those of you who know me know that my boyfriend of five years just ...doesn't wanna be in a relationship anymore. so he says. apparently I was too dependent on him, and wasn't my own person and he wants me to be my own person, and just doesn't love me anymore is what is comes down to. and it hurts sooooooo...fucking bad right now. ...
so. there probably wont be any art for a while, or there will be too much. who knows.
either way, fuckit. I am done trying anymore for a while...

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/12846926/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/12846926/ Sat, 05 May 2007 00:38:30 PDT go there now. if you want to keep your eyeballs.

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/10739706/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/10739706/ Wed, 15 Nov 2006 22:31:56 PST
HAVE A FUCKING CRAYON! ()) CRAYOLA))|>

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/8869087/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/8869087/ Wed, 24 May 2006 23:10:20 PDT and I missed a day of work...THAT 88 BUCKS!! coulda used it. at least comfort dental is open on saturdays....so I can be seen on weekends when I don't work. or before work too.

anyway, just wanted to share my inconvinience.

does anyone have any advice on getting a quick 1000???

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/8852802/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/8852802/ Tue, 23 May 2006 08:56:31 PDT ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/8737944/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/8737944/ Thu, 11 May 2006 08:38:49 PDT New International Version (NIV)

12For some are eunuchs because they were born that way; others were made that way by men; and others have renounced marriage[a]because of the kingdom of heaven. The one who can accept this should accept it."

One of my co workers brought this passage up because I think someone around her might have said something derragatory about being gay...
the version she read me was waaaayyy more powerful.

this is the passage that comes right after it...

13Then little children were brought to Jesus for him to place his hands on them and pray for them. But the disciples rebuked those who brought them.

14Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." 15When he had placed his hands on them, he went on from there.

it was just...moving to me I wanted to share it. ]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/8373903/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/8373903/ Wed, 05 Apr 2006 13:09:07 PDT I know it sounds all whiney but I just need to vent. well....after I get the promotion, my boyfriend totals his car, which I was in, there was no harm of course...but it means that we have no means of transportation. his dad was kind enough to let us borrow his car.
that was bad, but then a week after that, we all walk into work, start working, only to quickly learn our whole department after ten years had been closed and there was no need for us. if that isn't messed up, they only made the decision the night before to eradicate us.
well I had a 500 tuition fee to send to calarts due may first and I had arranged it so that I could actually pay half on may first and half on june first which was parfect. but now, the money I am saving for that is going to keep me going for a while, whilst I find a job.

shortly after, my boyfriend quits his job, thinking he had gotten another one he applied for, and now we are jobless.

SO after all this, my boyfriend goes to talk with his mom about some things, and these things directly involved me in ways they seemed to miss.
Our original plan was to sign a 4-6 month lease for the apartment so that when I left he wouldn't have to worry any longer about rent, or would only worry for a month. so he wanted to keep the apartment we are in now, but then he talks to his mom, and now is convinced the right thing to do would be to move out at the end of may when this lease expires, living on his own in a studio apartment.

Leaving me no where to live and on my own. They expected I would move back in with my family...there is a damn good reason I moved out in the first place. they are crazy. >.<;

so...basically, fucked up week...
just needed to vent. ]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7789810/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7789810/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 11:12:12 PST
so....problem all solved >D ]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7704511/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7704511/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 13:21:26 PST [link] ]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7704008/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7704008/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 12:22:42 PST
when have we seen favorites by someone other than Klar, blackeri, augustc4, ursaluv, queenofdorks, or some other anime god? when It is someone who is not usually ont he favorites, oh, guess what, it's inu-yasha fanart. for the most "diverse" community for art I sure am seeing a lot of the same crap, and a lot of talentless hacks getting praised cause they do the same crap as everyone else.
some would tell me it's jealousy. of course, HAH! i'm so little so one really reads this journal except for my watchers...

anyway, Yes. IT'S JEALOUSY! I am jealous that since I didn't waste my time perfecting anime, I am not appreciated. I am Jealous that I spent three years on this site, and only have one percent the views that an anime artist who has been here a week gets. I am jealous that fanart gets more attention than real art. I am jealous that when good art is appreciated, it gets deleted cause someone complained about music from an artist being used....creationwarrior had a problem with this and a movie she spent a year on. and these dumbass flash animators spend a day...A FUCKING DAY on an animation, that's A fanart, and B, CRAPPY, gets more attention than anything does.

there are a lot of great people here. a lot of great artists. but the craze of popularity makes people ugly. It makes them disgusting excuses for human beings. and I personally do not want to become one of the deviant art slugs that spends their time here, just doing what everyone else does. I have a career in animation to consider, and If I waste my time here it'll all be for naught.

I am disturbed by the lack of creativity in this site. inu yasha is all I see, naruto, anime, BIG EYE JAPANESE WANNABE CRAP! people speakin it cause they have nothing better to do than sit at home and watch their box sets of anime, eat ramen, and copy what they see. I'd like to keep my brain, thanks.

so all in all, here is how it's going to be. I am either going to remake an account here, or I am simply going to move, and those who care can find me at
[link] under miyabita_cheetah, or they can email me about art, which you can reach me at gaharetebodwyn@msn.com
to those who wanted me to stay here, I am sorry. I just have better things to do than get angry at the artists here, which I can;t seem to help doing, anyway. it's like an f'ing disease it is.

so, I will keep this account and link to whereever I will be, but I am deleting everything but the page, and this journal entry.
so long. here's to three years wasted. cheers! ]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7473649/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7473649/ Sun, 01 Jan 2006 00:29:41 PST
One of them is humans placing themselves in intelligence above animals.
It is mostly scientists and christians in my experience that say there are superior to animals; The christian reason is that we have a soul and free will, scientific it merely they are lacking certain nerve clusters int he brain, etc.

well...here is my view of the chrsitian view.
They hold themselves above animals, and say they are intelligent and better able tomake decisions. this is a sin.
Pride in the bible is a sin and placing yourself above any living thing is a sin. so to be a good chrisitan, you should accept that you are not above anything. this is just something I realized.

third...people and sheltering children from the world. this is such an old debate but I'll outline my views. Emma, my sister is very opinionated, smart and intelligent.
she is exposed to many things most parents would poo-poo, but she knows they are wrong. when you hold something back from a kid, they will later splurge, as it were, on these forbidden treasures. they will see them as something to look forward to. alcohol, sex. not to say you should let your kids drink and have sex, but not completely cover them. my little sister knows about all fo this and knows it's wrong because I showed her and she decided for herself. Here is the thing about freewill. we are given a choice to make, and people today want to take away that choice. THE GIFT GOD GAVE US. they want to make us pray in school, make us go to church, etc, and in doing so they ARE PLAYING GOD. this is specifically mentioned NOT to do this and people so totally ignore it.
yes, the bible does also say we need to help people, but this does not mean shelter them, ignore their views, and pretend there is no evil. there is. to know the evil you must avoid you must confront this evil so you better know to prepare yourself. if you hide from it, it will catch you, devour you whole. it happens to everyone. People who cannot see their faults are prideful, people who avoid drugs their whole life and disavow their existence will become addicted. yes the world is evil. he have to face that, not turn away from it.

so here is my angry typical rant.
FUCK ignoring the world
FUCK trying to pretend I am better
FUCK people who try and cover the eyes of others.

get a clue.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE.
thanks a lot,Drkiriko!
oh....and for some reason the actual deviations dun work. maybe that's cause I am not subcribed anymore. well those are the ending bits of the HTML to their prints.


:thumb23065897: :shop 241942:
(if there is a pic in my gallery you'd like to see printed, let me know ^_^)

:shop 126903: :shop 133997: :shop 169447: :shop 143081: :shop 150010:

:shop 178294: :shop 232916: :shop 241067: ]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7391740/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7391740/ Fri, 23 Dec 2005 11:43:49 PST and as such, I bring you prints form that circle.

thanks a lot,Drkiriko!
oh....and for some reason the actual deviations dun work. maybe that's cause I am not subcribed anymore. well those are the ending bits of the HTML to their prints.


:thumb23065897: :shop 241942:
(if there is a pic in my gallery you'd like to see printed, let me know ^_^)

:shop 126903: :shop 133997: :shop 169447: :shop 143081: :shop 150010:

:shop 178294: :shop 232916: :shop 241067: ]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7314904/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7314904/ Thu, 15 Dec 2005 01:29:14 PST

I am going to create an online print community to boost peoples popularity and help some people out. this is only an experiment, so tell me what you all think.

I want to turn this account into an online print community. essentially you would show me your art and I would say, okay, you can post here and make prints. of course, I am not going to let any old person on here; this is something I would like to keep exclusive to talented artists who aren't already popular up the ass. so don't feel bad if you or a piece is rejected. it's nothing personal at all.

I am going to extend a few invitations out to a few of you that I watch or my friends. if this is an awful idea, tell me what you think. My only dillemma is keeping track of how much profit each person makes.

here are my proposals. you keep trakc of your own revenue, and I pay out accordingly. that would be the fair option.
the other option is what we would call communist here in capitolist america. we split all the money evenly, whether or not you have sold a piece. this would help some of us who don't get enough money and would be a smaller share for each person, and not keep everyone too high up or get arrogant and flood the account with their own art.

of course, I would let the person know they shouldn't hog the account. anyway, if you like this option, let me know. I'd like to know everyone's opinion, so tell me!
thanks! ]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7266134/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7266134/ Fri, 09 Dec 2005 15:13:51 PST
I am not particularly depressed persay but there is something I feel like I am missing and I can't place my finger on it. with my college portfolio deadline having passed (my own personal deadline anyway) I feel like I am perpetually in a state of missing something. maybe it's talent in my art....I feel like I haven;t set enough time for just my drawing time aside. I am always working on life drawing or comissions and I haven't had Me time. >>

well...I really have all these ideas in my head that I can't seem to execute...
baah. anyway, thanks for reading, all. ]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7202328/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7202328/ Fri, 02 Dec 2005 10:14:49 PST .< I am so stressed and I barely have enough time to do everyhting. I gotta get on the ball...get...moving!!! uugh. freaking out. so there may be a few delays on art, to any of you who await it with bated breath. *laughs a little* anyway....stressed....

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7180983/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7180983/ Tue, 29 Nov 2005 21:30:59 PST heh, kinda corny I know.
but anyway, this quote from Gangs of new york (yes it is from the bible, just heard it there) "You are neither cold nor hot; you are lukewarm, so I spit you from my mouth,"...
that quote hit me like a ton of bricks and I realized...am I lukewarm? am I one of the ones God has spit from his mouth? well I do feel a little more chrisitan, but I have been building up to those stages. I am coming from almost an entirely non christian past and renewing my vows with God.
Not only has this path been painful, but mournful. I know I have to change so much about myself and so many things I have thought. I believe what I believe and I have always believed in a higher being.

But the reason I feel lukewarm...I feel lukewarm because I feel like I need some sort of sign...I know God is there, but it's almost like he passes me by...like I am a lukewarm bath unfit for bathing in. this path has been harm for me...people say i am only following my friends influence...(hi, razi!)...yes, she showed me a path that had been shrouded, but the rest was on my own. I have my own opinions and own arguments in my head that I have been toiling over
so anyway, if anyone has any advice to offer, feel free. otherwise, I will toil on my own

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7126948/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/7126948/ Wed, 23 Nov 2005 20:28:26 PST so my boyfriend told me that the guys want a night out with just them. not me...just the guys. most people would say "okay, good, I'll go out with my friends," and there inlies the problem. aside from my boyfriend and his friends, I have no friends in colorado. None. The only one who I would call is in California, and she is my only female friend anymore.

so this means I spend all day alone, and then all night alone. alone alone alone to stew in my aloneness. I am alone during the days every weekday. well my boyfriend was very nice and stayed at home with me...
He says it's to talk about things they wouldn't around me...I htink that's a lame excuse to say they don;t want me around and I am annoying. of course my boyfriend says I am so paranoid he thinks I should get my head checked. maybe so...
but still they are my only friends in colorado. It's effectively the same thing as a girlie sleepover and your the only girl in a group of friends not invited. that f'ing sucks. AND IT'S SO STUPID TO PUT A GENDER TO THINGS!! I mean, I am essentially a fucking guy! calvin (bf) says it's to talk about things like porn...which is stupid cause I spent a lot of time drawing and selling it. sooo next excuse? NONE!!! If they don;t have a problem with me being around then why have so many guys nights in the first place? I really just wanna double over and cry and scream, bu that would be immature. this would be the third our fourth time in the last two months of the few times we have tried to get together. I know it's because I annoy patrick and zach. what's worse is that they don't fucking admit it. I don't honestly know about travis or bryce. I would hope they don't care because of all the guys I really only care what they think of me. sometimes patrick and zach are such pricks anyway. It's their way or the highway baby! lets watch a fuckin heist movie and drink booze and smoke! and if no one wants to do that...TOO BAD! They'll do it anyway. that's all they want to ever do which is so stupid anyway. But Travis and zach are okay. (I know some of you reading this have no idea who I am talking about) but for those of you who do, well....yeah I am whining. It feels good to whine and be upset once in a while. I have been holding so much back and now I just wanna scream. I mean, I can;t really imagine what I do to annoy them. ...*sigh* I am going to stop ranting now. >.<

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/6925435/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/6925435/ Tue, 01 Nov 2005 11:50:52 PST of course...disproving. Not that they had overwhelming evidence either. sure, it is easier to say that it was a phenomenon of nature or an earthquake, and that it's not really our fault when we are punished. this woman scientist was going on and on about how ludicrous it was to say that a wrathful god did this to us. yeah it is easier to brush it all off. >.> All they had was speculations. well the pillars of salt could have been, and the collapsed building could indiciate....
it was crazy. (funny how the next documentary was saying that the bible code was true...)

Here is my opinion on the matter. When things happen they happen for a reason. I am not saying it's destiny, or that we can't change it, but nothing happens for no reason. we are all put here to do something with ourselves; why is it that humans have more of an overwhelming urge to take themselves further, to do something? That's what we were put here to do. animals are here to live and survive. we all have a purpose, even if the very essense of it is survival. Some of us will grow up and have wonderful children, some may die in a car accident, some may become the next revolutionaire!
here is a small bit of proof to help my case. A.I.D.S . Now I have done so much reasearch on the virus, the outbreak in the homosexual community, how it works etc. for those of you who don;t know, it's an opportunistic virus, laying dormant as H.I.V until something triggers it to start reproducing A.I.D.S cells in the T-cells, the main immune system in humans. they essentially eat the T-cell, and leave us with no immunity. Anyway, in the outbreak of A.I.D.S homosexual men were contracting it like crazy, dropping like flies left and right. A male stewardess who traveled had mad crazy jungle sex with everyone he met (Gay males) and spread this virus. So this explains why homosexual men had it and why straight people did not. so everyone thought it to be a selective virus towards homosexual men. (A) impossible) But in the eighties and early seventies, we were just sort of slowing down on our crazy sixties jungle sex. (words of the day) heres a fact we all know to be true. sex is cool. as a highschooler if you don't have sex before you are eighteen you are a looser.
I am not saying celibacy is the way, but sex is not either. There is a reason the bible says not to have rampant sex with everyone. Here is A.I.D.S now having murdered countires worth of people, and still going strong, teenage pregnancy calls for abortionsm teenagers lying to their parents and throwing babies in dumpsters, etc. This kills economies because people can't go to school and get good jobs, etc.
First, let me be the first to say that sex IS healthy for the body. you stretch almost every muscle, sweating cleans your pores, and you loose mucho calories. The myth of the loss of semen has long been disproved, in fact, males who masturbate have been found to live longer lives.
basically what I am saying is that; Yes, we can be divinely punished for our actions, and it happens everyday.

I think as humans we do have the power the change our destiny and that is what god wants us to do. saying we can't help the enviroment because it will burn anyway is silly! here we could make a heaven on earth and humans are too damn preoccupied with saying who is wrong and who is right to realize this. remember the old saying "thou shalt not kill?" Ya know I am just positive that slaughtering people of another creed is just what that's talking about. here war is condoned but If I kill somone it's a sin.

Political leaders are Immune of course. I know it sometimes cannot be helped. don;t get me wrong... I just feel like everyone ignores everyone else because of their religion or beliefs...if oyu tell someone they are wrong, will they listen to you? no.

I guess today to whoever reads this I just....challenge you to be happy. It is contagious. if someone makes a mistake, don;t yell at them. we can make changes, even on a small manner.

it'll halp a lot....

ugh. >.> sorry. my rage with the human race it increased since I became a bit more christian. so I ranted to you guys...

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/6892014/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/6892014/ Fri, 28 Oct 2005 14:50:08 PDT [link]
hey everyone. I am kind stressing about money right now. If there are some of you out there who would like to buy my art, now is the chance. this happens to be an adult acution, but if you want clean, go ahead and ask. plus, you'd be hleping me out!!! thanks.

~Fiore~

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/6890785/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/6890785/ Fri, 28 Oct 2005 12:08:31 PDT .<;;; They are racist freaks, control freaks, marijuana smoking losers. he came over saying how they are in debt and in the same sentence saying " I need to pick up a new strain of pot! this one is called lambs breath," first of all....eew. (heh get it? ew?) >.> second, you could be saving that extra 50-200 bucks you may be spending for, oh...YOUR BILLS?! Just a thought. Why can;t I say these things to anyone when the time is just perfect...when they are asking me what's wrong? if anyone has some advice, I would love to hear it. thanks

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/6881255/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/6881255/ Thu, 27 Oct 2005 10:44:29 PDT I guess paths have a really deep symbolism for me. I guess I haven't reached the end of my path, so I am still wandering up mine...and I would like it to be warm, with flecks of sun throught he trees, but it seems more often then not, a cold one. I can't help but feel alone on this path either. I was riding my bike through this long twisting path and It made me realize a few things; I want my path to be more like home, like the home I used to live in. This path reminded very much of my old home in lakewood, and the waether, too. warm autumn days or misty autumn days have always held some sort of nostalgia for me.
ont he other hand, stairways fascinate me as well. I also found this small, stone stairway that came out of nowhere for no purpose leading into the creek. it was too steep and old to hold anyone, so It stood alone. It might have been something else, but it was still there.
something else, too...while on that bike ride, the path kept seeming like it was going to end, and eventually came to a split. I decided I had ridden long enough and turned around, but it was saddening.

I dunno. I had to whimsical my self out in my journal. thankies! ^-^

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/6583164/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/6583164/ Fri, 23 Sep 2005 16:17:40 PDT
aye my friends, another rant about how I simply am annoyed with the users on this website. Now something I am curious about; again with the favorites; so many users who make tutorials get favorited on these. some of the tutorials I have seen are well...not even correct. but anyway, just something I was wondering. My hypothesis is that people favorite them saying "oh thats a good way to do it! I wanna see this later so," click, favorite. I actually have been wanting to make a tutorial on big cats. of some of the animals I draw, they are my favorite, and in my opinion, I have improved on them. sooooo I am not sure.

Oh, If people could, I was wondering if the people who watch me would be kind enough to leave criticism on my life drawings! I actually have a few human life drawings, but a scanner that is much larger and of higher quality would be needed to scan these. so, I'll wait on those. I wanted to put the life drawings in scraps as well...they are not deviations, but just life drawings, so I posted them in my gallery so I oculd get feedback.

anyway thanks yo

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/6467871/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/6467871/ Sat, 10 Sep 2005 12:53:07 PDT
Look kids, I am not the best fucking artist on this site, but the only way I got where i am today was swallowing my pride and taking a little shit. yeah you guys are way better than me, but does that mean the crtiqueing stops there? all these pseudo anime artists are the ones who don;t seem to want to even hear anything other than "oh how kawaaaaaiii" or wow that's so cool! or rock on! this is awesome!? YARG!!! GRRRRR GRRRRRR GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! Just once I wish these artists would swallow their fucking egos and takes a little critism!! WHO KNOWS!!! THEY MIGHT LEARN SOMETHING!!!!!!!!! even from a little shit splat artist like me!!! GOD FOR FUCKING BID I SAY SOMETHING OT THESE ART GODS!!!!!!


...this is why i hate this website, or the people on it. man the last time I told someone, they should study from life, and their art was really good, but it would rock even harder if they did this...I mean, is that praise? that's like...the most sugar coated praise in the fucking world and they still said " did I ask you for help?" you might see his comment on my home page "no wonder I have more page views than you." YEAH. CAUSE OYU DRAW ANIME AND I DON'T AND ANIME IS POPULAR, dipshit.

okay......that felt good

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If anyone wants to look at it please do. I need the cash. badly. *looks around nervously*
I am not BEGGING or anything,b ut really, I could use it. *nods matter of factly* just updating ya'll.

]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/5728400/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/5728400/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 22:44:57 PDT I don't know. Therre is a lack of something, and really the only thing that keeps me going is calvin, and the knowledge that someone up there loves me enough to give me calvin. if it weren;t for him, I owuld still be at home, fighting, crying, or god knows whatelse. Now...all I do is sit all alone.

My cat ran away, too. Bastet, I really hope oyu are okay. maybe you found your old owners. I loved you so much. you were like a gift.

It's odd. I feel like she was closer to me than a cat could feasibly be. she seemed so human to me. She was smart though...she squirmed through the window and the screen and tore her way out. -.- ...anyway, after she ran away this...ireprehensible lonliness caught like a flame and spread.

If there is a god, just please give me a chance. ]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/5714060/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/5714060/ Tue, 21 Jun 2005 12:51:33 PDT and I get to thinking about things that depress me, etc.
I always wondered...my friends, it seems, things come easily...I mean, I know they always have their harships as well, but I mean career and art things. I applied for one college, maybe not the smartest idea...but both of my other friends who apllied to this college got in. I didn't...even getting things like a damned favorite on deviant comes easy tot hem! I am just sitting here in the drk, trying so hard the catch some light, but no matter what, I just sit in obscuirty.

I know...It sounds so whiney. I only wish that I could get one lucky break. ]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/5704275/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/5704275/ Mon, 20 Jun 2005 12:43:58 PDT ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/5704252/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/5704252/ Mon, 20 Jun 2005 12:42:40 PDT I just wanna rant about things.
as usual.

Okay, so I commented on a drawing, a favorite, by an anime artist (who for some reason does not think she draws anime and classes it as everything else) whole different story...and got a whole lotta shit for it...I was being ciritical anyway, I leave a comment on another piece without knowing it was the same person, and I noticed she does NOT welcome critiques. No...only praise, she wants. anyway, Here is my belief on critiques. as it may hurt sometimes, and there are those who are cruel about it, (heh...like me) it is HEALTHY for an artist to be critiqued by peers. If you have too low of self esteem to take it, GET THE FUCK OUT OF HTE KITCHEN!!! All these anime brats want is praise from groupies, and that is why they never advance beyond their level of talent. they may learn new techniques from observing, etc, but to really notice your faults in a particular piece, or any thing, you must be willing to openly take the critisism which is placed on the piece. for years I never advanced because all I wanted was praise. it took Creationwarrior to get me out of this slump. (we went to an art school together) while I do also recognize that most of these kids don;t attend art school, and they do have amazing talent, they must also recognize that not everyone will love them, and they will also be critiqued in some form or another. so someone leaves a comment that you don't like on a piece. SO WHAT!? grow the freak up, and move on beyond the internet.
Critiques are healthy. taking it is healthy. so if you can't take the heat, get out of the kitchen. there is too much sizzly hot paint for you. ]]> ~folkensan69 http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/5601042/ http://folkensan69.deviantart.com/journal/5601042/ Thu, 09 Jun 2005 16:02:44 PDT what makes me even sicker is that everyone who is popular for drawing it is so righteus about it. they think they are really cool and doing something unique, LIKE EVERY OTHER GOD DAMNED ARTIST NOW!!

I used to be into anime and it fucked me up the ass as far as learning while I was young, goes. the only thing you see in the favorites now is anime, emotive portraits, and fantasy. clearly, we can see what the public likes.

but then again, this is only on website.

at any rate, it is depicable. when anyone says anything negative to these uptight anime brats, they have droves of groupies come to their aid to defend them, and they themsleves whine about you saying something bad about it. ( if they're not too bust soaking up praise like a songe)

I guess the same goes for abstract now, too. everyone does it, nobody really like it, except for anime, where everyone in the world likes it. I am soooo sick of it. whatever. ]]> ~folkensan69