http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:forced2Bafangirl&section=today deviantART RSS for by:forced2Bafangirl en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 21:14:00 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/28687958/ http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/28687958/ Tue, 01 Dec 2009 10:04:52 PST )i've been really busy. i want to thank everyone who has read my stories, faithfully followed me, or just favorited something of mine. i will still be on DA, and at some point, when my story starts calling to me, i'll post more chapters. i am deeply and truly sorry for those of you that were interested in Past Meets Future. i have not stopped writing it, just put it on a hiatus for a while. i promise you all that i will finish this story. i will not leave it unfinished. if i trully cannot bring myself to writing the full story, i will cut it short. it will end badly and you can probably tell that the last chapter was written to end it, but i promise you now that i will finish Past Meets Future at some point. and just to reiterate, i am sorry i have not posted anything in such a long time.

]]> ~forced2Bafangirl http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/22854239/ http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/22854239/ Tue, 27 Jan 2009 22:07:46 PST about DA entirely. so, based off the advise of a friend, i'm just going to delete all deviations and journals of everyone on my list and go through them when i care. because it isn't fair to the many people i watch that i have basically 800 deviations that i don't want to go through. when my interest and time increase, i'll go through their pages and read and fav what i want. so don't be surprised when suddenly you see i have like 20 favs/collects on stuff. i'll still add a few more chapters of PMF soon.

i live in Nevada, and for those of you who haven't heard, our Governor suggested a 49% budget cut to higher education. this basically means that most of the colleges have to go away. plus, i failed 2 classes last semester, and now i'm either on academic warning or academic probation. which means i have this semester to bring my GPA (grade point average) above a 2.0 or i'm kicked out of the dorms, and eventually get restricted on which classes i can take and how many classes i can take, plus i have to go to meeting to regain a scholarship that i lost, my father accused me of spending too much money on textbooks, i'm running out of money to pay for college, i'm still waiting to take tests to find out whether or not i'm dyslexic or not (i believe i am, but until i'm documented, i can't get help). plus i have been to just one week of class and already i feel behind in math. i have Math 181, or Calculus for nonNevada college students who are reading this. i recently changed medication to prevent migraines, and one of the side-efffects is tingling, which i have gotten sometimes. not good.

plus someone decided that it would be a good idea for it to be winter now. i like winter. it's the cold i don't like. as long as i'm inside and the cold is outside, i'm happy, but i can't do that. i'm taking 16 credits this semester, with several classes in weird buildings.
i have biology in the knowledge center (library), math in the education building, math lab/discussion in the business building, religion in the Agriculture building, someone i know has geology in the nursing building. Why this happens i have no idea.

in case my life wasn't bad enough, i am like the world's lightest sleeper. my phone, which was one my desk AND set on vibrate, had a text message. i, asleep after being awake all night and having classes, woke up. i thought that i had finally slept through a text message, only to find out, that the phone vibrating on my desk woke me up. my roommate, typed on her keyboard, and woke me up from my deep sleep.
and of course, i am a person who loves being alone. i can only handle being around people for so long before i say "enough, go away, leave me alone." being on a college campus obviously allows for much of this. *note sarcasm* so, like a normal person, i seek refuge from the world in my world. but unlike most people, when the worst of the "attacks" hit, someone even being in the same room bothers me. so you see my problem in that i have a roommate. who never leaves. i cannot ask her to leave without sounding mean, especially since she has a sprained ankle, so i leave. but now i feel like i have been kicked out of my room. but you see, it was originally my room. i did her a favor and offered my room. for like 2 months it was MY room. and i liked it that way. i could dance around in my underwear if i wanted. (i never did, but it was an option) i could come in, close the door, blast my music, and unload, and be good, and be able to be around people and not be a monster, but this option has been taken away from me. and although mentally i know that i have a roommate, and it isn't MY room, it's MY ROOM. i must always be on my best behavior for at any moment she may enter and question and laugh at what i am doing (whether it is helping me de-stress or not, doesn't matter, it looks strange, and therefore is deserving of mockery). plus i must keep my stuff on one half of the room and be somewhat neat. i wouldn't have it a complete mess, but i'm more comfortable with a "lived-in" look. i never seem to get enough "alone time" to satisfy my loner side. i need like a good long weekend by myself, but that isn't going to happen, because whenever i go somewhere, she follows. i think i might be ok with a weekend with friends if she wasn't there. but i've noticed that when i go, she goes. when i stay home, she stays home. it's creepy. it's like the weird relative who never goes home even though he's over-stayed his welcome and everyone knows it, but everyone is too polite to tell him to go away.



so that is what is going on in my screwed-up, messed-up, crazy, mixed-up world. that is nothing compa... ]]> ~forced2Bafangirl http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/22444611/ http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/22444611/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 00:38:42 PST
wow. this has been my first short journal in a long time.

my Christmas was great, and i'm sorry it left so soon.

]]> ~forced2Bafangirl http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/21792386/ http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/21792386/ Tue, 02 Dec 2008 22:51:21 PST about DA. i still love it, but i don't really feel like going through my 145 devs and 338 messages.

Math: have to repeat, cause i don't get Calc. hopefully next semester will be better cause i have tutor all set up already. yay!

NRES: fun. we've watched a few movies, and learned about climate change and the arctic and the stuff that's been going on with the fisheries. two words: vegetarian sushi. that's where we're headed.

Astronomy: mega ec points for watching movies. and i love finding out about the solar system.

Bio: kinda hard cause of all the little stuff that happens, and they all have a name, and i have to remember them all.

Chem: done with lab! finally!

sorry i haven't posted much. i got a roomie and i've been kinda avoiding her, and by extension my room for a while.

i at last got to register for next semester classes. i'm a sophmore in college, which means that i have to wait a loooong time before it will let me register, plus my name is at the end of the alphabet which puts the time later.

Christmas! i can't wait! my last final is Wed. 17, and i've found someone who can take me home, but the sad news is that i might have to stay a few days extra here, oh well. the first monday i'm home, i have a doctor's appointment about when he'll do the surgery for my gall bladder and i'll be all better. sadly, it probably won't be until January, but that's why i'm glad i get a month off for Winter Break.

i will get the next couple of chapters of PMF up before i leave for home, cause until i either get internet on my laptop or i return to college, i won't submit anything. i don't really feel like saving something to a flashdrive, download it onto the family computer, then posting that. it just seems like a lot of work, that i'd really not do.

license isn't going to happen till next semester, which sucks. but the one good point is that the person whose car i've been using will be 21, so we don't need to have anyone else in the car, which will make it easier to get me the practice. i just need to fix a few things, mostly stuff dealing with getting used to a car.

i've gotten my ears pierced for the first time, and now i've passed the 6 wk mark so i can put in other studs. it has to be studs until April, but i'm ok with that.

one sucky thing about this diet, is that nothing i eat requires much chewing, so i think i might be losing muscle in my jaw. cause my jaw gets tired from chewing a lot faster now than it did before.

saw Twilight. found it hysterical. so many lines that when read are thought to be profound or serious or wonderful, but when heard spoken seems like the funniest thing you've heard in your life. my friends and i were laughing throughout basically the entire movie. both of us are Team Jacob; not for Bella, but for us; and there was just so much in that movie that was funny. i highly recommend it to anyone who needs a laugh.


so, yeah. that's basically what's going on in my life right now.

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school has been kinda crappy lately.
Math: i get the right answer and get points taken off because i didn't go the route that the TA wanted. i'm just WTF?! it's like an art teacher saying "draw a tree", so i do the traditional cloudy-thing for branches, with the straight lines for the trunk, add in sky and grass, and turn it in. then i get it back and i have points off because she wanted a pine tree. and i'm just like, what the? you said draw a tree, not draw a pine tree. whatever. i don't listen to the TA anyway. we turn in our homework, then he goes over the lecture that we heard the day before.
Chem: boring. he goes v.e.r.y. slow so that the people who have no idea what's going on get it, and we go over the same point like 5 times because people ask like the exact same question as the person before them.
NRES211: a little depressing, but very awesome. it's depressing cause it's kinda like....here was this wonderful planet, then Humans came and messed it up. but i find it totally cool, cause i'm learning all about different stuff with animals and their habitats and stuff. i really like biology and science and stuff, but when i learn about this kind of thing, i'm just more like "there's no way there's no God." because i'm just, really, all this stuff that's going on with our planet, and all the stuff that goes on that we have no idea about, and it was an accident? no way. got have some kind of plan, some Bigger Being. i chose to believe it's God.
Astronomy: AWESOMENESS!! i LOVE this class. it's just so awesome learning about the planets and all the stuff in space. XD
Bio: eh. i'm learning a bunch, but it's not the funnest, but it's still pretty cool learning about what's going on inside of me even if i don't fully understand everything that's going on in the class.
i don't get to see my friends as much as i'd like to, the weather is getting colder, and school work just keeps on coming.
i've been getting up at 5am to climb stairs for 20 min cause i really need to get into shape, and my friend and i were like "why pay for a gym membership when all the equipment that they have, is part of our campus, that we can do for free?"

there's a blood drive for our school coming next week, but i'm having trouble finding people who would be willing to help me get back to my room afterward. i get kinda loopy after i give blood, and they tell you not to go to the bathroom alone or climb stairs, but in order to get back to my room, i have to climb a bunch of stairs. i really don't trust myself to be able to get from the student union all the way back to my dorm by myself. oh well. i'll hopefully find someone.

my diet sucks! i can eat very little, and i feel bad when people have to go out of their way to find me something. plus i'm just like "I CAN EAT NOTHING!" i mean i can have veggies, but there are some that are on the no-no list, apples (which i can't find), grapes (bad as apples), lemons, and filtered/purified water. i get a really bad stomach ache whenever i eat something i shouldn't, but i've been having trouble finding food that i can eat. it's like the school doesn't put out the good food until i can't have it. only until December, then my gall bladder's coming out, and i'll be able to eat again.

i'm still going to try for my license, but i only have a few friends who are 21 and have a car. i'm practicing with one friend, and when my sis comes back i'll probably practice with her car as well. once one of them deems my driving good enough, i'll sign up for the driving test. i just want to get this permit pbbt over with. once i have a license i'll be ok. i'm going to wait a few years before i try to get a car. i want a little car for two reasons. 1) i'm little. big cars are a problem for me. 2) big cars kinda scare me a little.
so a little car would be better because i would have an easier time driving it, and i wouldn't have to worry as much in a little car.

this long journal was brought to you by the internet and the mental ramblings of yours truly. if you have read all of this, i give you a plate of web brownies. yum.

]]> ~forced2Bafangirl http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/20127628/ http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/20127628/ Sun, 24 Aug 2008 09:56:42 PDT bad news, cause of my gall bladder issues, i'm on a strict diet. pretty much all i can eat are veggies, apples, grapes, and purified/filtered water. talk about a diet plan.
classes start tomorrow, boooo! >( but i think that some of them should be fun; at least astronomy. i got to have Calculus, Biology, Chemistry, and NRES or Natural Resources Environmental Science for my major of Wildlife Ecology and Conservation. astronomy is just for fun.
not much else going on. Oh! i'm an apprentice for InterVarsity Christian Fellowship. one of my leaders was a leader for a bible study i was in last year, and i wanted to stay with her. she's a little crazy, but awesome!

]]> ~forced2Bafangirl http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/19923100/ http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/19923100/ Tue, 12 Aug 2008 20:05:07 PDT and as with any surgery, i'll need recovery time which i wouldn't get if we did it now.

i also went to the neurologist, he suggests getting a CAT scan to see if there has been any damage in my inner ear. turns out if i had an infection from living in the dorms, it could have messed up my inner ear, but i wouldn't have any changes in the tests that i've already taken. i'm on medication to deal with the symptoms, but the doc says that if i get sick at all, the symptoms are libal to come back. well, it may not be the best news, but at least i have some idea as to why i've been getting dizzy spells. they would be so bad that i would have to lie down and not move. my last one was so bad that i couldn't move for a couple hours.

tomorrow i'm going to a pulminologist to see if my asthma as any affect. if i have trouble breathing for a while, or talked too much without pausing for breath, or stuff like that than i get dizzy as well from lack of oxygen. and if it's REALLY humid out, then i have trouble breathing as well. lucky for me that my symptoms are way better in Reno.

i can't wait until i get back, but at the same time i hate change and i don't want to move. i'm weird like that. i want to go out and do new stuff, cause i get bored real easy; but i like routine and i like coming back to the same place every day to call "home".

i'm going over to 's house Fri. yay! XD

that's all the stuff that's new with me.

]]> ~forced2Bafangirl http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/19684357/ http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/19684357/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 16:25:52 PDT for those of you who have read this, thank you. i had my birthday on the 17th and now i'm officially 19. i got "Into the Woods", "Alvin and the Chipmunks", "Wicked" soundtrack, and "Princess Bride", as well as a little Statue of Liberty from my sister when she went to NYC.
i've got about a month before i go back to college and i can't wait! i got stuff to make my 2nd year be even better than my 1st. i'm going to be an apprentice for a bible study with one of my leaders from last year, and i'm getting to get another class for my major. on the down side i have to take calculus, chemistry, and biology. >XP but to give me some fun, i'm also taking astronomy which sounds awesome!

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]]> ~forced2Bafangirl http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/18827012/ http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/18827012/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 19:30:39 PDT see i've been getting dizzy and nauseous when i have my glasses on and i move. so, i went to the eye doctor to see if it was my prescription. that happened once, my eyes had this huge jump. anyway, there wasn't anything wrong with my eyes, and there was only a tiny change so i don't need new glasses. so today, i went to an ears nose throat doctor to see if something's wrong with my ears because that's what the eye doctor thought it might be. he couldn't see anything majorily wrong, and he's worried that i'm having this problem at my age. (I'm only 18!) anyway, i'm scheduled for some tests that will see what exactly is wrong with me. my dizziness has gotten better, as in i don't feel like i'm in an earthquake or just spun around really fast, but i'm dizzy all the time. so i can't drive and try to get my liscense until i have this problem solved. my tests are scheduled for 3 days before my birthday. heck of a present. *sarcasim*
so that's what's going on with me. yippee. and i STILL have no job. this summer just keeps getting better. maybe tommorrow i'll pass out. that'll be fun.
one piece of randomness: I brake for fairies, unicorns, good men, and other fantasy creatures that only I can see.
one more piece of randomness: Don't meddle in the affairs of Dragons, for you are crunchy and good with ketchup.


]]> ~forced2Bafangirl http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/18569164/ http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/18569164/ Thu, 29 May 2008 23:21:52 PDT ~forced2Bafangirl http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/17603585/ http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/17603585/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 10:09:55 PDT random fact for the day: 3 people every year are killed by vending machines falling on them. (think about that the next time you want to shake the machine)

]]> ~forced2Bafangirl http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/17603500/ http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/17603500/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 10:03:29 PDT 1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
The jack was far from finished, however. Braying (Alta by Mercedes Lackey)

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
okay, what now?

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Dirty Jobs

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
9:50

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
9:51

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
silence

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
few minutes ago- walking back from class

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
my deviations

9. What are you wearing?
pants, a blue tank top, and shoes

10. Did you dream last night?
nothing that i remember

11. When did you last laugh?
when i read my friend's tag entry

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?
two paintings, paint, bricks, nothing much else.

13. Seen anything weird lately
a bunch of guys on rocks trying to be mermaids.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
odd

15. What is the last film you saw?
Nancy Drew

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
every single book i have ever wanted

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
hmmm...if i could, i would have a dragon for a pet

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
get rid of all nuclear weapons

19. Do you like to dance?
nope, i am horrible, though i just learned to tango

20. George Bush
is the president of the United States of America until the next election

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Loreli, Alexandra, Ami

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Daniel, Alexander, Christopher

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
i'm not sure

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
what are you waiting for? come in and join the party!

25.Tag people who must also do this in THEIR journal.

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]]> ~forced2Bafangirl http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/14957513/ http://forced2Bafangirl.deviantart.com/journal/14957513/ Sun, 07 Oct 2007 14:43:42 PDT ahhh. i'm just reminded of a part from the first Saved by the Bell episode where Zack tells the audience "i love school, too bad classes get in the way." that's how i feel. sorry about me rambling about nothing. i just noticed that i hadn't done a journal in like a month, and thought 'you know, i should probably update my journal.' so here i am. and here you are. reading this. my ramblings. you must be bored like me. i feel like i should end on a random thought. so here it is. BUNNIES WILL TAKE OVER THE WORLD.
if you are still reading this, wow. you're more bored than i thought. you probably have things you SHOULD be doing right now instead of continuing to read this words, but if you're still reading that means that you're like me. and don't want to. i have so much i SHOULD be doing, but i don't do it. i kind of hope that if i ignore it long enough, it will go away. too bad that doesn't work with homework. that reminds me i have to do homework. but i don't want to. i want to bore you with these random letters that can be put together to make words, and those words can be put together to make sentences, and they can...you get the picture. ahh, Shikamaru, you are my hero. you get to laze about all day and look at clouds. i wish i could. i can't. i can't even see clouds. i don't know why i'm still writing this. probably just to put off writing my paper. hello? is anyone still out there? if you are STILL reading. you have no life. just like me! congratulations. we should make a club. wait. what was i talking about before? don't remember. oh well. maybe i should just stop writing in this journal and do homework. and let you get back to your wonderful life. but i don't want to work on my paper. even though it's due Tues. and i have barely started on it. ohhh. why can't i stop? i'm addicted. run away while you still can. run before it consumes you too. run ahhhhh! (he he he) XD talk to you later peoplez. hopefully next time i will do a short journal. maybe. or maybe its too fun making this pointless long journal. oh no. it's back! must..stop...before it...takes over...the world.
too late. you are a goner. enjoy your freedom while it lasts. he he he. yeeeeaaaaahhhhh....i really need to get a life. so do you. how about some audience participation! (looks blinking into the spotlight to see if anyone is left) hello out there! hope you have enjoyed the show. now how about you in the third row. come on up, don't be shy. (i'll skip ahead. this could last all day.) thank you, and wasn't that spectacular!
i don't think this journal has a point anymore. i think i started to have one, but i lost it after about three sentences. have a cookie if you are still with me. you have some patience. or you just want to see where i go in this confusing, random, rambling journal. maybe i should change the title. naw. it works the way it is. how do you end a journal? i keep going. i can't stop. i feel like the energizer bunney on caffiene with all of the writing i'm doing, and how i keep going and going and going and...........
bye bye. i'm sure your tired of my writing and wondering "when will she stop?" truthfully. i have no idea. i want to stop, but i don't maybe the best thing to do is to just submit this now before

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