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~*~

Gotta love when you care just so much for a person. When they've helped you through so much and they really brought the best out of you. When you've been through thick and thin and combated a lot. Been through a lot of good times, and been there for each other through the good times.

And then find out... just maybe... they didn't have as much invested into it all as you'd thought. You hear through the GRAPE VINE that they are having problems. That for some reason, they refuse to talk about to you.

When did I ever seem like I would be anything but understanding and sympathetic? When did I EVER come across as anything but the BEST friend I could be? When did that change? Because it's now withdrawn and all I am is hurt and in pain. The refusal to talk to me. The refusal to do much of anything with me. Saying you'll hang out with me but then I see neither head nor tail. The affinity for locking yourself away in your room for one reason for another.

All I wanted to do was help. It's all I can do. But you won't even do that. So now I'm hurt, I'm bitter, and I'm angry. Why shouldn't I be? If it weren't for the grape vine, I wouldn't even know you were doing bad in school. That you were dropping classes left and right becuse you were suffering.

Well guess what. I tried reaching out. So much so I stress, I've cried, I've gotten myself sick. 'You don't want to worry anyone'. GUess what? You did. And now we hurt and are bitter. All we wanted was to have the friendship and understanding we offer returned. We tried for probably a whole YEAR.

I could go on. But I'm in class and it hurts and this isn't the place. So yes, treat it like it sucks and it does, but you're brushing it aside. Don't pay attention to the collateral and those you've hurt in efforts to hide yourself from your problems.

I hope the best for you, I truly do. And if you need me, I'm here and you can come to me. But I'm not reaching out anymore.

]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/20831587/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/20831587/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 20:02:54 PDT Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Curry,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but our affair is over. I think I realized it when I threw up in women's clothing and I saw you sit on my best friend. I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand how awful I've felt. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I never openly mocked our friendship .

Go and drown yourself,
Brittany (Jhin)



~*~

That's funny

-> How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-


1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister


2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes


3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife


4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out


5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk


6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed


7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks


8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service


9. The first lette... ]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/20650984/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/20650984/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 12:22:32 PDT Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

A meme ripped from because I really need to let the world I'm still sorta alive.

1. Where is your cell phone?
On my desk not even a foot away from me.
2. Where is your significant other?
In class I think. Not here and that's all I know and stress about. And yes, I HAVE one of those now, a significant other...
3. Your hair?
Boring but clean
4. Your mother?
At home?
5. Your father?
In Holand!
6. Your favorite thing?
Not sure, sleeping is pretty high up there, but I think it's contending heavily with my boyfriend...
7. Your dream last night?
Boyfriend demanded I go out and get Puppy parts. It pissed me off xD
8. Your dream/goal?
To find One Piece and become King of the Pira-- oh wait..
9. The room you're in?
Dorm rooooooom <3
10. Your hobby?
My boyfriend nah, I kid. Video games is it. That and drawing/art.
11. Your fear?
To many to count, we'll just go with abandonment and spiders
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years?
Not dead.
13. Where were you last night?
Watching house and sleeping
14. What you're not?
Cool, cute, and interesting xD
15.One of your wish list items?
Boyfriend to stop getting harassed by his mom D:<
-
16. Where you grew up?
Michigan/California
17. The last thing you did?
answered number 16
18. What are you wearing?
My underwear I do that, you know, because I'm a girl
19. Your TV?
Don't have one beyond the one in the common room where I watch House every Tuesday.
20. Your pet?
My kitty who is not here in the dorm with me, sadly
21. Your computer?
Mac Notebook. It's decent.
22. Your mood?
Content for now
23. Missing someone?
Yea...
24. Your car?
I wish.
25. Something you're not wearing?
Authentic Amur Leopard fur. Or any fur for that matter. And I never will
26. Favorite store?
No idea. Video game store maybe.
27. Your summer?
Best so far
28. Love someone?
Yes, whether or not I'm actually IN love is up in the air because I don't know how you tell.
29. Your favorite color?
Green
30. When is the last time you laughed?
In class when we were talking about the Manchurian Candidate
31. Last time you cried?
not sure really
32. Who will do this?
Anyone who wants to
33. How many sisters?
One, and she's annoying.
34. How many brothers?
Two and one is annoying, the other awesome.
35. How many children?
None thank god, I have pills to prevent that
36. Drink of choice?
Unsweet Ice Tea
37. How many pairs of shoes?
Two/three
38. What is on your TV right now?
noooothing. No tv

]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/17550369/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/17550369/ Thu, 27 Mar 2008 23:44:38 PDT Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Stoled this from Voudka/too many characters/KK/you know who you are ¬.¬

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in italics after the song name.


1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess opening theme - OST
That wouldn't tell anyone anything all things considered...

2. How would you describe yourself?
Forgive Me - Evanesence
Figures I'd get some sappy angsty emo song ¬.¬'

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Mozart/Figaro - Trans-Siberian Orchestra
That they be musically inclined I guess?

4. How do you feel today?
Look At Us Now Baby - Sarina Paris
Who exactly 'Us' is I'd really like to know.

5. What is your life's purpose?
Stay with Me - Libera
To apparently be very deeply in love with someone to the point where they mean everything to me and I follow them every where ._. "You are everything I know, whichever way I go, forever stay with me."

6. What is your motto?
Walter Reed - Michael penn (House MD OST)
Yea... "I'm ranting while I'm raving, there's nothing here worth saving. Tell me now what more do you need, take me to Walter Reed tonight. Baby I've lost the will for fighting over everything."

7. What do your friends think of you?
Siren 01 - Silent Hill
I'm a bipolar world that is psychotic at best and morbidly deranged and out of touch at worst?

8. What do you think of your parents?
Somewhere - Within Temptation
But I know where my parents are... and I love them ;.;

9. What do you think about very often?
Run! Run! Run! - Maki Otsuki
Wow.. One Piece theme.... what does THAT say?

10. What is 2 + 2?
God, Please let me Go back - Josh Rouse (House MD OST)
Math just got a little more interesting....

11. What do you think of your best friend?
They - Jem
Conformists and more I'm sorries....

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Prevent This Tragedy - Alkaline Trio
jeez... what is my itunes FILLED with!? -.- angstangstangst

13. What is your life story?
Gomen Nasai - t.A.T.u
Wow... just wow.... I'm sorry in a flippin' different language -.-

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
The Sailor Song - Toybox
Oh jeez... thar be no words XD Finally something funny

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Next Contestant - Nickelback
Yes... XD a perfect song. Though I really don't like anyone at this point I think.

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
The Legend of MAX - DDR
Yes, thar will be DDR at mah wedding...

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Watashi ga iru Yo - One Piece
Another One Piece song. I win?

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Bittersweet - Within Temptation
Being angsty apparently.

19. What is your biggest fear?
The Scientist - Coldplay

20. What is your biggest secret?
Before The Dawn - Evanescence
I have way to much Evanescence....

21. What do you think of your friends?
I'm a believer - Smash mouth
lawl... no joke

22. What will you post this as?
Deora Ar Mo Chroi - Enya
Figure THAT out >D

]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/17424272/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/17424272/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 10:43:59 PDT Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

So it seems this whole living on campus isn't working real well for me. Or maybe it is and I'm having a shitty way of adapting to it. Weee.

I'd go into details, but I really don't want to and it's kind of personal. But mucho hugs to you all for being there for those who have. Sorry I've been scarce.

]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/16366258/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/16366258/ Sat, 12 Jan 2008 01:44:18 PST Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

I should be sleeping right now, but I can't. I really... really hate being stressed out over nothing. Because I can't sleep because I feel really lonely for no reason and oddly down when I should be happy. When I do fall asleep I don't want to get out of bad and I'm nowhere near motivated to do so. When I think about all of it, I'm fairly certain I'm depressed, which is a load of crap because I have no reason to be.

I don't want to be depressed for no reason other than I have to move out of the house for a semester. It's... dumb. I know I'll be fine, I'll get used to it and I'll probably have some amount of fun. But I can;t stop freaking out about it, it's all I can think about and realizing that I have to grow up makes me sick.

I'm so damn good at giving advice about this crap but I can't even help myself. I don't know how I can tell people they need to realize they're adults but I'm still clinging to my parents and my family like I'm 10. I'm a hypocrite. I want to be as level-headed as I sometimes come across.

I don't want to act this way or feel this way or be this way. I can easily name infinite number of people who have it worse, so I'm just being dumb. Meeeeh.

I want a hug. I want to stop feeling this way. I want a hug so bad right now. Really wish I had someone to talk to.

Edit: Wow.... yea. That is the last time I write something at 5am in the morning when I'm feeling crappy. X___x' Ignore this plzkthx

]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/15878964/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/15878964/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 15:17:39 PST

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Ugh, finals is here. But I finished my only paper!!! YES!! -throws confetti- Tomorrow I have my in class history essay, and then after that it be my simply 50 multiple choice essay for Environmental Science~ then I is DONE.

Can't wait ;.;

~*~

Anyway, here's a tag stolen from
You know you wants to feel it out :3 because you all love me.

WOULD YOU:

1. give me your number?
2. let me hug you anytime I wanted to?
3. let me kiss you?
4. watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
5. let me take you out to dinner?
6. drive me somewhere/anywhere?
7. take a shower with me?
8. have a fling with me?
9. listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
10. buy me a drink if i didn't have money?
11. take me home for the night?
12. let me sleep in your bed?
13. sing karaoke w/ me?
14. sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
15. re-post this for me to answer your questions?
16. come pick me up at 3am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
17. Do you think i'm cute or hot?
18. Do you like my style?
19. Do you think I'm funny?
20. cry if I died?
21. dance with me?
22. sing happy birthday to me?
23. take advantage of me if I was drunk?
24. strip for me?

clubs:

http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/15814071/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 21:00:31 PST

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

(Stole this from Have fun~))

I ___ you. You have a nice ______. You make me _______. You should _______. Someday I will ______. You + me = ________.

If I saw you now I'd __________. I want to ________ you. I would build a _______ just for you. If I could sing you any song it would be _________. We could __________ under the stars. If I could take you anywhere in the world with me I would take you______________.

Life without you would be like________________________. If you died tomorrow my reaction would be____________________. I filled this out most of all because_______________________. So now for my final words,
____________________________.


Love,
_______________

(P.S. ______________.)




Fill that out and post it as a comment. Thanks please, maybe? If you love me you wi

clubs:


Hope to be: http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/15776154/ Mon, 03 Dec 2007 08:26:55 PST

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

In class waiting for English to begin. Words cannot express just how much I want this semester to be OVER. Tired as well. But I had a fun weekend Had the Christmas party, Nikki got to come and is only just going home today! We were up all night while I did(n't) do my essay (I started at around 3 am >O) and yosh. It was good.

~*~

Stolen from

1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.
4. Feel free to go ahead and add some questions yourself!!

So. . . who's doing the quiz?
Jhin: I am I suppose. ((68 Draenei Warrior))
Arianna: As am I. ((Drakgregan rider))
Zoro: I don't know why I am, I'm not YOUR character. ((One Piece [not mine]))

1. What's your favorite food?
Jhin: Mine? I like a good salad. Some bread and fruit is always welcomes too.
Arianna: I like mellow foods, a good soup is nice. Fresh bread is wonderful, especially with soup.
Zoro: Rice. Plain white rice, nothing added. That and pretty much anything that goes with alcohol. Anything.


2. Are you a virgin?
Jhin: I honestly don't see what that has to do with anything, but yes. I have more important things to worry about, like surviving, than "getting it on".
Arianna: I have not found the one for me, that I would hand something that personal too, as of yet. So no.
Zoro: None of YOUR business is it?

3. What kind of movies do you watch?
Jhin: Once again, I really do have better things to do than watch films. But if I must, I do like reality and documentaries and interesting subjects.
Arianna: Movies? I don't... believe we have those where I'm from.
Zoro: Movies? I really have better things to do. Besides, apparently I've been in a couple movies, why WATCH them?

4. Are you married?
Jhin: Not yet, don't think I ever will. To much to tie me down and too many men seem to have the WRONG impression of my attitude.
Arianna: Not yet, still waiting for someone.
Zoro: -snort- Sometimes, with the crew, I almost feel like I am. I'm not though, hell no. I have things I need to do before I even think of "getting married". Most the women I run into are psychotic anyway.

5. Have you ever gotten drunk before?
Jhin: Yes, I have. Brewfest was quite exciting. Though I'm ashamed I spent that much gold on alcohol.
Arianna: I don't drink alcohol. It's unnatural and it is damaging to the brain and the senses.
Zoro: A swordsman who allows his senses to dull because of alcohol should not be wielding a sword. I have never been drunk in my life.

6. Do you have a celebrity crush?
Jhin: Crush? No, I have better things to do with my time.
Arianna: Maybe... -taps chin- Maybe?
Zoro: Celebrity crush? Um, there's the marine girl who likes to chase me and wants to arrest me... but she just freaks me out. Looks to much like her.

7. Your embarrassing moment?
Jhin: The amount of time and money I spent in brew fest. That and the armor I keep buying is pretty... embarrassing.
Arianna: Pretty much when anyone actually happens to see me try and undress. Pulling things over the antlers is rather difficult.
Zoro: When I rushed in a prematurely challenged Mihawk. I was a fool. Either that or when I got suckered into wearing that dumb shirt that said 'mama' and had to babysit. -growl-

8. Your best friends?
Jhin: Thumboriana and Maixx or good friends. Dark and many other guildies as well. My sister of course, going beyond the pest that she is.-fond smile-
Arianna: Kael, my dragon. She's wonderful. Teft is awesome, tall as hell though. His dragon is charming as well.
Zoro: Well, there's Johnny and Yosaku. Saga is close. There is of course everyone in the crew, though sometimes I have to seriously question whether I can count that WITCH or the idiot cook 'friends'. -annoyed snort-

9. Random sayings?
Jhin: Boxen. Or 'makes small children cry'.
Arianna: So what if I'm small? Won't stop me from kicking your ass.
Zoro: -sigh- I'll ne... ]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/15213196/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/15213196/ Thu, 25 Oct 2007 09:02:41 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Kudos if you know where the title of THIS journal came from. Really, I need to become a little more creative with my titles than songs I currently really like. Lawl.

Anyway! At school right now, happy that I got to sleep last night. Hehe, sleep never feels so good until after you've pulled an all nighter. Why did I do that? Because I was interested in seeing if I could do it and determined to test myself. Lawl, this idiot is never doing THAT again. That was the worst for someone who loves nothing MORE than a 10 hour nap.

Yesh, still in a One Piece craze. Doesn't help that this time around I have subbed episodes to watch. All the way to episode 327. Yup. I'm on 241 right now. WOuld be watching it if the connection wasn't crap where I am and it ALLOWED me to download them. Finally reached Water 7 and watched Ussop and now Robin "leave". I already pretty much KNOW what happens, so eh. No surprises. Though I did realize I don't know what Franky's dream was. He does have a dream right? I mean, that's like... the first thing listed on the application for the Straw Hat crew. I mean, damn, it probably comes before the 'Name' line.

I do have more pictures coming, way more. Figured I'd not just dump them all on DA at one time, but spread them out a bit. I also have a LOAD of art to post. Really. But for some reason, my scanner doesn't want to cooperate with me, so I have to figure out what is up with the shitty machine before any art gets posted up. Also need to purchase Photoshop CS or whatever it is at the school computer store. I can get it for about $50-60 because I'm a student. That way I can start coloring my pictures again. Because I really need to do that.

Need to get on WoW too. Jhin is so close to lvl 70. Hn. Then I get to work on my Mage. Guild needs a Mage for transportation purposes. That and I like Mages dammit. Fun as heck to play.

~*~

On a more... Halloween-esque note, I took this from my good friend . She's a nut, and my answers aren't going to be anywhere near as... morbid and interesting as hers were. Hehe. I'm a boring person after all.


WARNING: This quiz is not for the easily disturbed.

{1} do you ever see garbage bags on the side of the highway and wonder if there are body parts inside?

No, whenever I see a bag on the side of the road I think of dead kittens and puppies tossed out because they weren't wanted and I wonder if maybe... maybe I could help. I do often wonder what it would be like to stumble on a body though, if that counts.

{2} if you ever got the chance to practice cannibalism, would you?

Blood makes me sick, can't stand the taste. So probably not. Maybe if it were like a... human hamburger or something... and you didn't tell me it was human.

{3} if forced to overdose on a drug, which one would you choose?

World of Warcraft. Hey, there are people out there who try to literally make a case on whether or not WoW is an addiction and harmful. Don't look at me like that. For me it would either be WoW or One Piece. Either way I'm a happy idiot sitting in front of a computer.

{4} shot or stabbed?

Er... neither really. They don't sound fun and kind of... stop me from doing art.. for a while... if I die... forever. But if I had to choose... erm. Depends on whose doing what. I'd normally say shot. It's quick and sudden.

{5} asphyxiated(gased) or exsanguinated(bleed to death)?

Both would suck. Bleeding to death would be interesting, but when you come right down to it... for both you're pretty much slipping away. Bleeding to death is more colorful though.

{6} drowned or buried alive?

Drowned.

{7} killed by blunt-force trauma to the head or crushed to death?

Blunt-force trauma...

{8} poisoned or overdosed?

... they're kind of the same. Heh. An overdose is a poisonation, just sounds less pretty. "But arsenic is poisoning". "It appears you just overdosed on arsenic."

{9} killed by a flesh-melting virus or by rats or ants slowly pecking at you?

Virus plzkthx. Yuck, getting eaten by an animal slowly. -shudder-

{10} out of all the above choic... ]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/15129455/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/15129455/ Fri, 19 Oct 2007 13:29:31 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Well, last night I found out a good friend of mine that I had met in my Junior year in High School was found dead. Apparently he'd been dead from about Saturday last week. My brother, who told me because he found out in Marching Band, hadn't been told how my friend died, but I think no one knows beyond the people around him in California and his parents.

He was such a sweet guy, I'll really really miss him. He found out on Valentines Day that I didn't have a "valentine" so he stated that he would be mine because he didn't have one either. He graduated that year, my Junior year, and enlisted in the Navy or some other branch that I've forgotten. He moved around a lot, and at this point had been moved to California.

We'll miss you, Kyle! RIP and thanks for making my Valentines Day so much more better.

clubs:


Hope to be: http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/15013727/ Thu, 11 Oct 2007 11:12:11 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Before I start: Wow, two journals back to back in two days. I must be sick. I think I just really want to put off posting in the English blog I have. Bloody 'ell. Need to do that before tomorrow. Ugh.

History midterm was today. Gag me with a spoon. Hope I did ok considering I just found out I had it this morning after I woke up and was stumbling out the door weakly (apparently having eaten only one meal a day saps energy).

Meh. Only a couple more weeks. Need sleep now though, I'm not functioning right and I just want to sleep so bad. Will do that when I get home and then I will post on the damn blog.

~*~

Now, on a more serious note, the last post was commenting about dead bees. Now, I keep seeing them everywhere, but now it just isn't bees, it's birds. Rounded a corner and stumbled to the side as a nearly stepped on a fully grown crow on the ground, dead. Not bloody, just dead... like the bees.

And coming through the trees on the way to campus, a dear in the brush, dead on the ground. I think it was hit by a car, not sure. All I know was that I had to get away and fast or I was going to be sick.

Dreamin' about the bees though. Black and White, in the dark, tripping over them. They're all just gone and I can't get them out of my head. Shouldn't be scary, but they won't let me sleep, dammit.

I want to know what's killing them. I hurt, I don't know. I can't breath when I look at them, I always pause and state. What the hell is going on? What the hell are we doing?

clubs:

~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/14992261/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/14992261/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 21:27:12 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Ignore the title, just curiosity as I walked out of my house and noticed three dead bees and then a couple more at the campus before I caught my bus to the OTHER campus. There I saw many MANY bees. Dead. Among the living and flying around my bloody feet. >O

We moved. Yup. No excuse for my inactivity though, so nyu. There will be pictures coming in the near future (ie within the month. hopefully). No, I haven't stopped drawing. Yes, I am lazy as sin and I haven't scanned them in. ¬.¬ So what? That'll come eventually too. I DID install the scanner equipment into my lappie now so I CAN do it.

Umm... why did I may this journal? Damn. No idea.

But, I do have this to say: I'M BACK TO THE ONE PIECE FANDOM BITCHES!!! KEKEKEEE.

What I miss? 8D

...hsgajflfklkf f**K. Gone for two years and all hell breaks loss, shite guys O: New crew member, Going Merry is gone (May The Going Merry RIP) and The Thousand Sunny is up and rearing, Robin gets kidnapped, Luffy has weird as hell attacks, Zoro can make himself a bloody octopus, and Sanji can light his leg on fire by spinning (and keep his pants intact, midn you). WTF mate?

o_O I need to get my arse in gear and WATCH this damn Water 7/Ennies Lobby arc...

8D
Have fun! And watch this video, dammit!
[link]

clubs:


Hope... ]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/14920166/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/14920166/ Thu, 04 Oct 2007 22:33:15 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

I don't think there has ever been a time in my life where all I've wanted to do is scream. I want to yell at someone. I dunno, just damn.

I need sleep. I'm so sick of people right now. Damn ten hour car ride. Just... damn.

clubs:


Hope to be:


friends (or those i consider friends ^^ distant AND close):

http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/14796082/ Wed, 26 Sep 2007 05:57:57 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

So I have an idea for an interesting Cosplay. Got it on the bus on the way to college. It would be a wicked single cosplay, but it would be sweet if I could get a group in on it. It would suit the source if we got 4 or 5 people. I know Shadow will want in on it and I know the character she'll want.

More later. Class soon.

clubs:


Hope to be:


friends (or those i consider friends ^^ distant AND close):

http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/14762790/ Sun, 23 Sep 2007 18:31:48 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Aren't me titles so funny? I bet you that has been done so many times

Well, I think I may be getting sick from waltzing around in the rain and wearing wet cloths all day in New York. All I know is I feel like shite. Sucks muy mucho too. It was fun though because I had teh Tiffers with me and we RP'd pretty much the entire time. Gotta love our One Piece RP'. I really would like to find more people to RP One Piece with I <3 the OP.

She left this morning though T.T I weep, for I miss her and I really want to wrestle with someone now. It was fun to RP Zoro and Sanji fighting and going at it. We destroyed my room and my mom's room in the process, so I think we did a good job at he mind set of Zoro and Sanji

Moving on, here's a thing my friend made so I need to do it

~*~

The "This or That" Section:

Horde or Alliance: Alliance only because EVERYONE adores the Horde. Plus my favorite race is Alliance side. >D Draenei!

Chocolate or Cheese: Cheese. Chocolate hurts my teeth.

Silver or Gold: Gold. It sells for more. I could care less in wearing it. I don't wear that shite

Day or Night: Night. It's dark and I can sleep easier. Rainy days are nice too.

Beach or Lake: Lake in the middle of a cool green forest.

Halloween or Christmas: Not sure. I'm rather indifferent. I like Halloween, but I like Christmas as well.

Glass or Crystal: No preference again~

Rock or Rap: Pretty much anything but Rap -gag-

Imortality or Die Young: neither. I don't want imortality, but I don't want to die young.

Heartbroken or Never Know Love: -shrugs- I believe everyone loves. No one dies not knowing it, or heartbreak.

Kissing or Hugging: Hugging. Kissing is to intimate.

PS3 or Wii: Wii. PS3 insulted me and Sony was completely idiotic with it.

Concert or Theme Park: Neither! I hat crowds and loud things. Though I'd rather go to a theme park if I HAD to choose.

Books or Movies: Books

King or Koontz: ...nyu~?

Shakespeare or Poe: Charles de Lint.


The "Random Facts" Section:

How do you want to be proposed to? - Worry about it later. I don't care really. A casual question would be nice, I hate corney.

If you could go to any concert, regardless the era or if the band is still together, what would it be? - ...Could I go to a concert were the Straw Hat pirates sing? If not, then I'll take their Voice Actors.

If you could have another skill, like writing or drawing, in addition to what you have now, what would it be? - Flexibility/martial arts/handstands/backflips.

If you had enough money to do anything you wanted, what would you do? - Private Jet that would go where ever I wanted to go. Ireland? No problem. Finland? Why wouldn't you?

If you could end one global pain, like war or hunger, which one would you pick? Religion o.o I'd get rid of religion. Because for however great it is (I really do believe religion is wonderous), it causes most our problems.

Boxers or Briefs: depends on the man/woman

clubs:

http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/14362657/ Mon, 27 Aug 2007 10:03:53 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Well, guess where Jhin is?

In College!!

I know, it's a shock. Who knew I'd go to college? I sure didn't. But yes, I am sitting in the major student congregation area of the school I hope to be attending for a bit, at least till the end of the semester. So far I've had two classes and am waiting around for my third at 3 pm. So I'm bumming it fussing over the net and WoW. The connection here is kinda wonky, it's really bad at times and ok on it's good times. I'm glad I'm not living on campus, I may have blown a gasket had I have to live with this crappy connection.

But oh well. So far so good, English was easy, not much sounding to that, the Environmental Science + Lab attacked to the english class is going to be the doozy frm the sounds of it. Of course it may not be as scary as it sounds (I hope X-x).

But yea, brief ebtry now becuse I sould go get food as I haven't eaten at all today beyond the Orange Creme coffee cake my mom bought for me this morning on the way to the Campus.

So peace out and have fun~
Ja ne!

clubs:


Hope to be: http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/13628511/ Fri, 06 Jul 2007 01:03:07 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Is that even a word? Childness? Eh, whatever.

I've gotten back into One Piece. I've downloaded episodes 21 through 70 and am currently downloading episodes 71 through 80. All in Japanese, high quality with really good English subtitles. I'm happy as theyve got a lot of episodes all the way up nto the 200s! hehehe.

I :<3: Mihawk so much He's mah favorite character! Beyond Sanji that is. Gotta love the idiot chef.

Anyway, sorry for being DEAD. I do have loads of art, I swear. I'm just BEYOND lazy as hell and haven't gotten around to uploading it. I mean, I have like a BAJILLION photos from my Ireland trip back in April I still need to upload. I'm a bad person D:

I mean, I GRADUATED and I didn't say anything. Hehehee. Oh well. I'm learning how to drive and I have a kick-ass lap top now that runs WoW like a dream so now my soul is even more far gone that it was before. Made a lot of cool new friends AND characters. My highest is a level 51 Draenei Warrior on the RP server Sisters of Elune. Her name is Jhin my second al is a Draenei Priest named Aanris on same server. I have a couple others, so if you're interested, hail and I'll help you out or something X3

But yea, that's all for now so I'll leave on a little thing a friend of mine posted in her own journal.

Stolen from

[x] Sleep with a stuffed animal. (Ya ya! Giant kitty named poofy.)
[x] Eat sugary cereal for breakfast. (I don't eat breakfast as I wake up around 3 pm, and when I do get up around Breakfast time, I don't eat because I'm sick in the mornings. I don't handle 12pm and lower very well if I've been woken. But given the choice, I will eat any sugary cereal within a limit. Fuitloops and Cocoa Crispies mostly. But only when I'm out of Honey Bunches of Oats.)
[ ] Watch Saturday Morning cartoons. (I don't get up before 12, by then all the BORING shows are on like Law and Order are on. Because of that, I've morphed into a BORING person who adores those types of shows O: -gasp- )
[x] Am afraid of the dark. (Outside of my room, yes. The zombies and rapists can get me out there. -too much Law and Order-)
[x] Love the color pink. (Nothing is more awesome than Pink! It's hardcore!)
[ ] Never get in fights with your parents.
[x] Think ice cream for lunch is perfectly reasonable.
[ ] Hug often. (I hug my MOM often. Pretty much no one else beyond friends I haven't or won't see for a long time.)
[x] Cry about stupid things. (An Invader Zim fic made me SOB. S-O-B. I was whimpering from trying to keep from making the noises I wanted too)
[ ] Use the "sad eyes" on your parents.
[ ] Have a goldfish as a pet.
[ ] Wear slippers.
[x] Are attracted to shiny objects.
[x] Think happy faces are cute.
[ ] Shower less than three times a week.....
[x] Sometimes take bubble baths.
[x] Think it is fun to catch bugs.
[ ] Know how to take the stinger out of a bee.
[ ] Use a life jacket when you go swimming.
[ ] Make daisy necklaces/bracelets when you go to the park.
[x] Love the game 'Rock, Paper,Scissors".
[ ] Listen to Britney Spears and NSync.
[x] Watch Spongebob Squarepants.
[x] Dream about going to amusement parks.
[x] likes doing crazy things 24/7.

I am 65% childish. O: yay!

clubs:

http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/13190728/ Sat, 02 Jun 2007 14:47:45 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

You know what srinks? Getting yelled at over something you KNOW you're right about. Something that you KNOW the opposite knows is right too, but is too hyped up on anger or whatever to notice that he's causing more damn harm than damn good.

I wanted to asshole to do his job, I didn't need him to fucking get yelled at and get smacked, nevermind that he NEEDS it but DENIES it. Because now he's up in arms, breaking things and making the mess WORSE, a mess that later on WE'RE going to have to clean up because it's "our mess".

Bull shit. Where's the logic in that? It wouldn't have BEEN our mess if ou hadn't gotten him up in arms. At least he isn't bending spoons in spite or taking a knife to anyone. No he's never done that, but I'm just waiting for it to happen. The guy is a suicide or a homicide waiting to happen, I swear.

Nothing I can do either, dammit. He's ten times bigger than me and both scare me. One because he's blasted unstable the other because he would haul off and just -- beh. Whatever.

I'm going back to clean. I just really wish he would get a fucking grip on reality and learn he's only causing his own damn misery and not everyone else.

clubs:


Hope to be: http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/10861709/ Sun, 26 Nov 2006 20:51:12 PST

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Yeah, I stol the idea rom for the title of this journal. Who knows, maybe more people will read it. Also got the meme from her =3 you know the drill >3

The first ten people who reply to this journal get put up here, along with three of my favorite deviations by them.

But you have to put this in your journal as well, so no cheating!

You must also be watching me.

1) ~ [link] [link] and [link]
2) ~ [link] [link] and [link]
3) ~ [link] [link] and [link]
4) ~ [link] [link] and [link]
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clubs:

~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/9953791/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/9953791/ Sun, 03 Sep 2006 17:01:05 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Well crap. School starts Tuesday and I still don't have my scedual. Eh, this'll be fun.

clubs:


Hope to be:


friends (or those i consider friends ^^ distant AND close):

http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/9910511/ Wed, 30 Aug 2006 17:07:18 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

1) Full Name: Brittany Paidge
2) Name Backwards: Ynattirb
3) Were you named after anyone? Not especially
4) Does your name mean anything? No idea. It's a french city though, so it might mean something in french.
5) Nick Name(s): Jin, Britty, B
6) Screen Name(s): kaze_tsukai and forsakenindeath
7) Date Of Birth: July 5th
8) Place of Birth: Ithika NY
9) Nationality: Scotish, irish, Welsh, German.
10) Current Location: Earth > Northern hemisphere > North America > USA > Virginia > Dumfries
11) Sign: Cancer
12) Religion: none in particular
13) Height: 5'6"
15) Shoe Size: No idea. I'm oblivious
16) Hair colour: Brown, soon to be firetruck red.
17) Eye colour: Ocean green,
18) What do you look like? A girl
19) Innie or Outie? innie :3
20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous? Right handed
21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other? Bi I would suppose. I have a girlfriend at the moment. but I still find men attractive and would get into a relationship with one.
22) Best friend(s): Shadow, Rae, CMM, Silv, Kimi, Hiei, Kura.
23) Best friend you trust the most: Shadow
24) Best friends {your sex}: same as above
26) Best Bud(s): ...same?
27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: :3 Shadow
28) Crush: -points to above-
29) Parent(s): I lurvel them
30) Worst Enemy: Rabid yaoi fangirls that make us sane ones look bad.
31) Favorite on-line Guy(s): Isouru, Mar, Sai,
32) Favorite on-line Girl(s): Hiei, Kura, Kimi, Nikki, Auth.
33) Funniest friend: CMM
34) Craziest friend: Rae
35) Advice Friend: Shadow
36) Loudest Friend: Shadow
37) Person you cry with: Shadow i suppose. I don't cry with people. I do it on my own.

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: 1 (7 if you count those blasted freshman)
39) Any brothers: 2
40) Any pets: 4 (2 cats, 1 dog, and 1 snake)
41) A Disease: nope
42) A Pager: nope
43) A Personal phone line: I have a cell phone XD
44) A Cell phone: -waves said cell phone-
45) A Lava lamp: I have a sparkle lamp.
46) A Pool or hot tub: We did -scowl-
47) A Car: Nope, but I want one.

Describe Your...

48) Personality: introverted, quiet, content and sometimes brash
49) Driving: I need to get that done -.-
50) Car or one you want: If it drives, I'll be happy.
51) Room: Fairly spacious, messy but homey.
52) What’s missing? My soul? I dunno, it's missing.
53) School: Boring as fuck.
54) Bed: is <3
55) Relationship with your parent(s): Lurvel them. better than a lot of people's I guess.

Do You...

56) Believe in yourself: Nope, I don't exist.
57) Do you believe in love at first sight?
58) Consider yourself a good listener: depends
60) Get Along with your parents: yea, a lot of the time.
61) Save your e-mail conversations: I used to.
62) Pray: When mi abuelos are around
63) Believe in reincarnation: Of some sort, yes.
64) Like to make fun of people: I do it well >D
65) Like to talk on the phone: Again, I do it well.
66) Like to eat: Food is teh yum
67) Like to drive: I'd like it if I knew how
68) Get motion sickness: In cars
69) Eat the stems of broccoli: yus i do, yus I do
70) Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: not especially
71) Dream in color: I dunno. i might, I don't think so though.
72) Type with your fingers on home row: no
73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: I guess I kinda do. i have a stuffed leopard at the head of my bed.

What Is…

74) Right next to you: A notebook and markers.
75) On the walls of your room: posters and paint
76) On your mouse pad: Graphire Wacom
77) Your dream car: this has been asked
78) Your dream date: Don't have one.
79) Your dream honeymoon spot: I like the Alaska my brother sugested.
80) Your dream husband/wife: -shrugs- we'll se when we get there. if we get there.
81) Your bedtime: School: 11 (between 12 and 1) Summer: 1 (between 3 and 5)
82) Under your bed: carpet
83) The single most important question: Are pants really -that- important?
84) Your bad time of the day: Morning
85) Your worst fear(s): shins, spiders, ovens yatta yatta
86) The weather like: Cloudy and gray
87) The time? 8 pm
88) The date? August 30th
89) The best trick you ever... ]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/9851743/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/9851743/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 14:27:36 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

1. [ ] I have walked into a glass/screen door.

2. [ ] I have tripped on my shoelace and fallen on my face.

3. [x] I have choked on my own spit.

4. [ ] I've seen the Matrix a bunch of times and still don't get it.

5. [X] I type only with my pointer fingers. (What?)

6. [x] I have accidentally caught something on fire. ( )

7. [ ] I've told a cop to freck off and gotten screwed for it.

8. [x] I attempted to sip out of a straw but it accidentally went into my nose, rather than my mouth. (This HURTS.)

9. [x] Sometimes when I think of something funny, I laugh out loud and people look at me weird. (What? it's funny to me...)

10. [x] I've caught myself drooling.

11. [ ] I've accidentally caused an explosion.

12. [X] If someone says the word "fart", I cant help but laugh. (I giggle >D)

13. [ ] I've turned into a "do not enter" one way road plenty of times.

14. [x] Sometimes I just stop thinking & zone out.

15. [x] It is POSSIBLE to lick your elbow. (I still can't )

16. [x] I just tried to lick my elbow. (I wanted to see if anything had been updated )

17. [ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from me.

18. [ ] People often tell me to use my "inside voice".

19. [ ] Gum has fallen out of my mouth while talking.

20. [X] I've used my fingers to do simple math. (Shut up! I'm math retarded )

21. [ ] I've jumped off a moving vehicle.

22. [ ] I ate a bug for $5 or less.

23. [ ] I'm taking this test when I should be doing something more important.

24. [ ] I repost chain letters because I'm scared of what they threaten will happen if I don't.

25. [ ] I've done something really stupid while I was drunk.

26. [ ] I've ran around naked when I was drunk.

27. [ ] I've ran into a golf cart tire when I was drunk.

28. [x] I've searched all over the place for something, and then realized it was in my hand the whole time.

29. [ ] I accidentally break a lot of things.

30. [ ] My friends know not to use big words around me.

31. [x] My friends like me because I'm fun to laugh at. (among other reeasons i suppose)

32. [x] I tilt my head to the side when I'm confused.

33. [x] Sometimes I start telling a story and suddenly forget what I'm talking about.

34. [x] I've fallen out of my chair before.

35. [x] When I'm laying in bed, I sometimes stare at the ceiling and try to find pictures and words in the texture.

(I had to number them to help with adding up my score. -_-)

17/35

17x3=51

I'm 51% retarded I'm borderline retarded! yay!

clubs:

http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/9717577/ Sun, 13 Aug 2006 20:01:25 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

1. Look at your right side. what did you see the most?
A chair, my door and my Invader Zim jacket.

2. Look at your left. So, what did you see this time?
My scanner and a forest of markers.

3. In what mood are you now? Tell me about your feelings.
Eh, I feel blank. I'm not really stressed, not really happy. just... blank.

4. What will you do after making this stupid test?
I'll do more pointless stuff.

5. Describe you in 3 words. Only 3 words.
Artistic, odd, ghost

6. About what was your latest dream you remember?
umm... something about Shadow...

7. What do you think about this test?
it's just like every other test I've wasted my time with.

8. Latest full CD you've listened
All The Right Reasons ~ Nickelback

9. Latest full movie you've watched
Cars

10. Latest person, who makes you smile
Kimi!

11. Latest person who make you cry
Shadow. I miss you you DWEEB >o<

12. Describe your feelings like a color. What color will it be?
Gray

13. Do you remember latest kiss? and who did you kiss?
I miss you!!! TT.TT

14. Do you love someone>
yes, very much so.

15. Do you miss people that are so far away from you?
... yes

16. What's your biggest dream?
I'M GUNNA BE KING OF THE PIRATES!!
not really. I want to actually survive.

17. So this the end. What do you want to say now?
HI LOSERS!!

If you wanna take this, shoot. I'm not tagging anyone cus I'm lazy.

clubs:

http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/8713363/ Mon, 08 May 2006 17:47:52 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Uh god! Was pile-drive-tagged by
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The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "c" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly.
In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names.
Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours
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1.If I touch my hair, I have to take a shower. It's insane, and odd and it freaks my mom out sometimes. It has to be dry though, and a couple of hours after I just washed it. and I hace to actually touch my scalp to get the urge..

2. I can't sleep with a shirt on. Seriously, I sllep in my ra or spart-bra. If I wear anything more I wake up feeling like i'm choking or being attacked.

3. I HATE THE THOUGHT OF BREAKING A BONE!!!!!!!!! @.@ -spazz-

4. I collect Rose Tea animals

5. Lesseeee..... I never finish my soda.

6. no matter what mood I'm in, chem will make my day go bad... not bad as in horrible, I just become Demyx-on-crack retarded when I pass through that blasted door frame... I start counting the tiles of the ceiling, I stare at the walls.... out the wndow... at the colorful chalk... I draw with highlighter on my nails...

tagging:

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http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/8553641/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 18:11:09 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Well, I finally got it. It finally came. I got the Kingdom hearts 2 soundtrack. Oh man it's worth the $24 I spent on it! Guess what I'll be listening to for the next couple of months.

Well, other than that, not much else to say. missing Tiffany, missing home, and school has been hell. The end of my junior year is near and i've got essay's and tests and all that. That is the reason for lack of art work. BUT! I do have some work coming, just need some markers to finish this picture off on the back of my notebook of Axel and a picture of Demyx which i'll crapfully color in PS. So expect those. Along with DI's picture (OMG I NEED TO DIE) and the Clopin picture (again, what the hell is wrong with me D8).

Now that I think about it, expect those sometime later XD now I think i'll go off to start KH on proud mode. If i'm getting the special ending, i'm going to beat it on the hardest level >3

Guh, 14 seconds into the Orchestral version of Passion and I feel like I'm doing to drool! I can't breath! WAAAH~~

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http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/8454372/ Wed, 12 Apr 2006 23:53:11 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Well, I beat Kingdom hearts 2. An hour before Shadow has to leave too. She's pleased and i'm pleased. Both of us? Wishing Axel and Demyx would come back. Oh yea, and I'm contemplating the reprecussions leaping infront of a car or some form of a speeding vehicle. Then Shadow would have the excuse to stay because 'Jin needs me!'. Because, apparently, that excuse doesn't quite work now :/

Le sigh. Oh well. I'll need to hurt HER for being grounded >.< no rping! No one to gush over the game with! I'm going to die.... or maybe i'll con some good RP buddies to RP it with me ¬.¬ kekekekee...

Well, I think.... I need to find Chain of memories and beat that. A lot of the Organization went down in that game, namely guy with a Scythe o.o whose name i'll have to look up in jimminy's journal.

But for a quick synopsis. Sora is cute. Axel is ta SWEETNESS. and Demyx..... well.... Demyx is hilarious. Gotta love the Sitar.

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... ]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/8398411/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/8398411/ Fri, 07 Apr 2006 14:02:45 PDT

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

I've seen some pretty depressing things these past weeks. Kids beat up some others kids, hair pulling, betrayle of friendship, back stabbing. All over that same topic.

it's sad how even the most respectable people turn into assholes when a respected lover is concerned.

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http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/8227851/ Tue, 21 Mar 2006 14:30:31 PST

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

I have some art i'll be uploading later on, so that should be interesting. You'll have to wait for that though.

For now just a quiz, because I don't have anything interesting to update about. Sorry :/

A - Available?: yes
A - Age: 16
A - Annoyance: unjustifiable complaining

B - Best Friends?: Sharim, Shadow, CMM, Rae, Tou, and Silv
B - Bar?: ._. can I hit my brother with said 'bar'?
B - Birthday?: July 5

C - Crush: -snort- I don't do well with crushes, nor do they do well with me
C - Car: if it's to my liking and it drives, I don't care
C - Cat: I gots two -beam- Gin and Ruby

D - Dead Pets Name: Max, Cat, Mouse, Chocolate Chip and Butterscotch, Jiffy, Zack, Snowball and probably a few ohers i'm forgeting
D - Dad's Name: Doug
D - Dog: Keegan

E - Easiest person to talk to: Tou
E - Eggs: only a certain way
E - Email: forsakenindeath@yahoo.com

F - Favorite color?: greem
F - Food: sushi
F - Foreign Slang: : wouldn't know

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: no pref, only if one is sour
G - God: Sure, it's possible. We all need something to believe in. I believe there is a god.
G - Good Times: When I draw in my room with my music particularly loud so I can sning along with it.

H - Hair Color: blonde/brown
H - Height: 5'6"
H - Happy: when i'm drawing and Rping

I - Ice Cream: Cookies n' Creme
I - Instrument: Saxophone!!!
I - Idol: my mom and Horatio

J - Jewelry: not much, maybe a necklace
J - Job: I need one
J - Jokes: when I feel like I can say something funny, I do

K - Kids: are irritating
K - Karate: if I could, yes
K - Kung Fu: sure

L - Love: riiight. I don't touch the subject
L- Longest Car Ride: thirteen hours
L - Lipstick or Chapstick: Chapstick

M - Milk Flavor: Chocolate
M - Mothers Name: Mikki
M - Movie Last Watched: The Hunchback of Notre Dame

N - Number of Sibling: 3
N - Northern or Southern: Western(CA)/northern(NY and MI)
N - Name: Brittany

O - One Wish: to continue becoming a good artist
O - One Phobia?: the breaking of bones, easpecially shins
O - Otter Pop: Green

P - Parents, are they married or divorced: Married
P - Part of your appearence you like best: Eyes
P - Part of your Personality you like best: I'm quite caring and tend to be a person people trust and like

Q - Quick or Slow?: a combination
Q - Queer or Straight?: I honestly don't care
Q - Queen or King?: Queen

R - Reason to smile: Gin is sleeping on my bed
R - Reality TV Show: I hate them all
R - Right or Left: Right

S - Song Last Heard: Swords Crossed ~ Pirates of the Caribbean
S - Season: Winter
S - Series: One Piece

T - Time you woke up: 6 am
T - Time Now: 5:30 pm
T - Time for bed: around 12:30 am to 1:30 am

U - Unknown: where my life is going
U - Unicorns: sure
U - You are?: Odd

V - Vegetable you hate: Peas
V - Vegetable you love: Bell Pepers
V - View on Politics: Honestly don't care. But I am a democrat.

W- Worst Habit: Chewing my nails
W- Where are you going to travel next: Back to CA and place inbetween
W- What's up?: ceiling

X - X-Rays: only once
X - X-Rated: nope :/
X- XYZ: don't think so

Y - Year you were born: 1989
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow?: a nice mellow orange-yellow, sure.

Z - Zoo Animal: Komodo Dragon
Z - Zodiac: Cancer
Z - Zoolander?: never seen it

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http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/8210447/ Sun, 19 Mar 2006 19:06:38 PST

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I figure my now, I have to sound like i'm on crack or something. I keep giggling. But for good reason.

I managed to get my hands on the Japanese versions of some of the Hunchback of Notre Dame songs. Oh dear lord.

Clopin's voice is pretty good. Frollo cracks me up. Oh BOY XD I can't stop laughing, the songs are so weird. Qusi's mom sounds like a harpie :laugh:

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http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/8055813/ Fri, 03 Mar 2006 12:09:45 PST

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Well, my day has gone well. Gave my friend her picture of her cat. It was a memorial picture in memory of her cat (Tiger). Also was utterly amazed at how dumb some people can be. At lunch she was showing it to the group we all sit at and one of the girls blurted out with 'How long has your cat been dead?'.

Yes, well my head hit the table. Have a nastey bruise too.

But apparently I found out today that one of the girls at our table writes for The ROAR (our school newspaper). She told me she hadn't seen talant like mine since a girl who'd graduated a while ago. It was really... flattering. She showed me some of her work of her bus driver who is apparently as much a biotch as mine is. It was amusing to say the least. But the thing that really sent me reeling is when she asked if she could do an article on me for the school newspaper. She got my name but the bell wrung and we had to go to class. So i'm not certain if i'll acctually get to be in the newspaper or not. We'll have to see if she remembers or not.

My day went really well. Someone also said that if I drew them a picture of their cat, they'd pay me. So I may be drawing another cat for someone for cash. Wich is awesome in my oppinion. It gives me an excuse to draw and I get money out of it. Wich is really just an added bonus, and i'd probably do it for free ^^' but my brother wouldn't let me do it for free. He's declared that if he can't draw as well as me, he'll be my art coordinator XD

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http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/8007461/ Sun, 26 Feb 2006 10:34:36 PST

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Hmm, ok. Before the quiz, a few words. Crappy Disney sequals stink o.o especially when they're about love. At least Clopin was in it, the idiot -shakes head-

Lastly, was up all night last night (this morning) doing hmwk. My chem teacher is insane beyond reason spent a good three hours, more than half on chem work. Went to bed at 5 am.

and now teh quiz

--THEATER KID--
[x] Ever been in a play?
[x] Have you ever seen a Broadway show?
[] More than 10 Broadway shows?
[] Have you ever been/Are you in school shows?
[] Does your current job involve theater in some way?
[] Want to end up working in/for theater
[X] Can you recite all of the lyrics to your favorite play/musical?
[X] Do you break out into random songs whenever/wherever!!
[] Do you like the 'Sound of Music'?
[X] Did you like the Broadway show?
Total 5

--REDNECK--
[] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?
[] Do you drive a four-wheeler?
[] Do you ride four-wheelers?
[] Do you like to get dirty?
[X] Do you like country music?
[] Do you have a broken car in your back yard?
[X] Do you own a cowboy hat?
[] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home?
[x] Do you watch Larry the Cable Guy movies?
[] Do you live on more than 1 acres?
Total 2

-GOTH--
[] Do you wear black eyeliner?
[X] Is most of your clothing dark?
[x] Do you think about death often?
[] Do you want to die?
[X] Are you a social outcast?
[X] Are you pale?
[X] Do you like Hot Topic?
[X] Do you enjoy Tim burton movies?
[] Are you mean?
Total 6

--PUNK--
[] Can you skateboard
[] Do you wear Skateboarding shoes?
[X]Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
[] have you gotten in trouble with the Cops
[] Do you watch the x-games?
[] Do/did you have any piercings?
[] Do you like/wear a mohawk?
[] Do you wear Band t-shirts?
[] Have you called someone a poser recently?
Total 1

--PREP--
[X] Do you say the word "like"?
[x] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/AE/Aero?
[] Do the people in Hot topic scare you?
[x] Do u laugh alot when your with your friends?
[]Have/do you watch(ed) LAGUNA BEACH?
[] Do you like pop/rap music?
[] Do you want/have a little dog?
[] Do you laugh a lot!
Total 3

--HIPPIE--
[]Is your hair long?
[x] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?
[x] Do You want to save the animals?
[x] Do you think war is unnecessary?
[] Do you like classic rock and trippy music?
[] Have you ever participated in a protest?
[] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?
Total 3

--GANGSTA--
[] Do you act ghetto sometimes?
[] Do you wear do-rags?
[] Do you like hip-hop?
[] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?
[] Do you believe he's alive?
[]Do you like afros?
[] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?
[] Do you like to dance?
[] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit?
Total 0

--EMO-
[X] Do you cry often?
[] Do you wear hoodies?
[x] Do you like soft music?
[] Do people not understand you?
[] Do you ever write your own poems?
[X] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark?
[X] Do you cut your hair?
[x] Are you lonely?
[] Is "Ohio is for lovers" by Hawthorne Heights a good song?
Total 5

--SURFER--
[] Do you surf?
[] Do you wear flip flops year-round?
[X]Is your hair shaggy/layered?
[] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?
[X] Do you own any pairs of shorts?
[] Do you think the ocean is radical?
[] are you tan?
[x] Do you want to be at the beach right now?
[] Do you hate tourists?
Total 3

--GEEK--
[] Do you wear glasses?
[X] Do you get good grades?
[] Do you use an inhaler?
[] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?
[] Does your mom pick out your clothes?
[X] Are you on the computer often?
[] Do you ever get picked on?
[] Do you look forward to goin to school?
[] Are you shy around the opposite sex?
[X] Do you play video games?
Total 3


apparently i'm a goth :/ I really don't think I am. Runner up is Theater Kid and Emo. woooo

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~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/7984377/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/7984377/ Thu, 23 Feb 2006 19:22:26 PST

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Thank yeh gods i'm feeling better. Words of wisdom for today, never dry shave, no matter how little time you think you have or how strong you think you are to the pain. it still hurts like a bitch

Joined another club -nods-

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~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/7973424/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/7973424/ Wed, 22 Feb 2006 16:20:18 PST

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I feel like crap right now. Words cannot express how crappy I feel. I'd go into details, but they're not something I want to think on and a doubt the lot of you wanna hear. I'm just happy that i'm starting to feel better, I can acctually sit up for more than ten seconds without getting sick.

It stunk, because I woke up every half hour and I was hot and blah. I just wanted to sleep, but my body wouldn't let me. So not cool

In other news, Clopin is the best disney character there is -nods-

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~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/7948578/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/7948578/ Mon, 20 Feb 2006 00:36:25 PST

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Saw a Date Movie today. Don't see it it's really stupid.

Been playing Kingdom Hearts. Am now at Agrabah ._O I really wish I had something to do. Should draw some more -ponders- I should do a comic concerning my characters, Must plan though -frowns-. Ah well, not like I have anything else to do. So I think I shall. Though I do wanna beat Kingdom Hearts before the second comes in the mail sometime at the end of March (hopefully).

Update: am sick and it sucks. Wake up every morning wwith the soar throat to make all other soar throats look bad. It hurts so much, I can't swallow sometimes I start crying in frustration. Woooooo.

News: still cell sitting. Need to get off this damned habbit, it's irritating me knowing little is going to happen with it what with ass detering it. Yup, that made no sense to those but me, and a select few mostly just Di, though evan she might have to sit and go 'huh'. Hopeflly that is :\ hate being obvious.

On mah daddies lappie and in bed. I have to question my sanity that is keeping me up at 3:30 in the morning. Knowing cellie, i'll get contacted in the fucking morning right when my god damn eyes are crusting over and it feels like Croc's taken up habitat behind my lids.

It's below thirties and i'm roasting my ass off. Donald is a pansy and defense chains help squat. Goofy levels to fast. Riku's dumb and whiny. Kairo is too. Poptarts are good and i want a prokchop. Gin is sweet, it needs to snow, zombies suck and my back hurts. Need an Rp plus some ficcage i've not read. Wanna hear Ace's voice, not his name -gag-. My face annoys the crap outa me, oddly sick siblings bring the kid side out of me. I want a kitten and I want to be loved by the one whom I want most. School should cancel due to extreme suck. Periods suck. I hate waking in the morning because my pelvic bone near my crotch hurts like a bitch. The light to my alarm is to bright, but i'm glad it's not blue. Fan needs to be on medium. Still to god damn hot. My backpack is cool. Ian's blanket is soft. I need to wash my hair. Odd, I washed it only 4 hours ago. Feeling dirty.

You know. My journal posts have no coordination and make no sense to anyone but me and those who know the happenings in my life. I think only Ian will know the majority of what is going on. Ah well. This will just go under the file of 'proof Jin shouldn't write journal posts past 1 am'.

Still not tired. Instead feel like a wired chipmunk on steroids about to participate in the longdistance running portion of the olympics. When it's across a desert. It's hot. Really hot.

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http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/7877667/ Sun, 12 Feb 2006 20:10:48 PST

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stolen from . Gunna post a bit of the lyrics to trigger some's memories. Just to make this quiz a little more time consuming.

Put iTunes or Windows Media Player on shuffle and see what you get. (Take the first song as your answer to Question #1, and so forth.)


1. What's my mood like right now?
If You Were Here ~ DDR

The train's gone and i'm standing alone.
I think of you and wonder if you think of me too.
I'm back to the town that I was born in,
To think of my life and to start over with you...
(-snort- I really do wonder)

2. How's tomorrow going to be for me?
Living Dead Girl ~ Rob Zombie
Rage in the cage
And piss upon the stage
There’s only one sure way
To bring the giant down
Defunct the strings
Of cemetary things
With one flat foot
On the devil’s wing.
(tomorrows forcast seems to be thundershowers and rage fits abound...)

3. What kind of person am I?
Choose ~ Stone Sour
Remember all the times you bent our truth and crossed our lines?
All things considered, it was just our normal way of life
But somewhere in the middle, we got caught and dragged away
So my tribunal brings us here so I can fall today
(So I can fall? Great, I'm still picking myself up :/ )

4. Am I loved?
Here Without You ~ 3 Doors Down
A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I've saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face

(That doesn't answer the question but makes me sound like i'm longing... oh wait. I am )

5. How can I achieve my highest potential?
Meet the Creeper - Rob Zombie
Stabbin out the city’s crowd
Like a dagger fallin on your baby
Thrill the kill I know you will
Feed the monster and the lady
(Death? But I was taught that WASN'T the answer...)

6. What should I do with my life?
Halley's Waitress
She's hiding in the kitchen
She's nowhere to be found
I just want some coffee
Is that too much to ask?
Halley's waitress
is not up to the task
(Become a waitress... a terrified one... ok)

7. Is everything really going to be alright in the end?
Far Away ~ Nickelback
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
(My sources say no...)

8. What is my best quality?
Breath (2 AM)
2 Am and she calls me cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don't love him and winter just wasn't my season.
Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason.
(I can't tell. I'm waiting for her to call even at 2 am...)

9. How does my sex life look?
Next Contestant ~ Nickelback
I judge by what she's wearing
Just how many heads I'm tearing
Off of assholes coming on to her
Each night seems like it's getting worse
And I wish she'd take the night off
So I don't have to fight off
Every asshole coming on to her
(Damn i'm needy/longing)

10. What's the meaning of life?
Enlighten Me ~ Masterplan
Be still - I want you to listen - it's all so silly
Our ways have somewhere on the way surrendered
Adjusted to the game and the dream is slightly shattered
Guess the answer was never meant to be found
And when the search is over
Our questions still remain
(There is no meaning, we're still asking questions apparently..)

11. What do people think of me?
Angel ~ Sarah McLachlan
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
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Had my eye appointmant today. Was amusing and slightly sad. My brother came with me so I was mostly cracking up the entire time. Especially when we were trying glasses on. He plans on getting these Harry Potter glasses. I just scoffed when I tried glasses on. I look so dumb in glasses, Ian (brother) and mi madre kept smacking me for being stupid.

Anyway, finally I was called back, madre and Ian came back with me too, so it was fun. Got especially concerned when the lady said 'I'm just gunna shot something into your eye...'. Turns out it was only air, still made me nervous. Jerked real bad both eyes.
Did the coler-blind test. Turns out i've been color-blind all along, who knew? Nah, just kidding. I'm not really, but I had you there for a moment, didn't I?
Finished the coler-blinf test and my brother shot up with 'SWEET! I HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS!!!'. Was really hilarious. lady told him that she'd make him do the baby portion of the test were he'd have to draw circles. He promptly shot back with a uturific 'Crap! I failed...'.

So I finished with that and went to the waiting room for my docter. She came out and said 'Come with me Ian...'. Told her I wasn't ian and she laughed and continued with an 'I was thinking you didn't look like an Ian.'. Long story short, I eventually had my ass parked in that chair with the deceptivly cruel devices around me. Asked a series of questions and I answered than the fun part. Reading that blasted chart wich by now, you'd think you'd have it memorized.

Now let me tell you, my right eye is SO much better than my left. Thus proven by this task. Read off the letters with some frustration with my right. Told we to try with my left. All I saw was a white black were the over-head was projecting the chart! If I squinted all my might, I made out gray smudges that may or may not have been letters...

Thus said, apparently I have some dislexia! I started reading that chart and I read the lines backwards. Confused the heck out of my docter and my mom till she figured out what i was doing. I felt dumb, but she only laughed.

So I got all finished. I was sad because they didn't dilate my pupils because my pupils were big enough as it were. Damn, I love that stuff. it's funny to look at yourself in the mirror with that stuff. Talked to the docter about contacts and we bought some. They come next week, then I get to go in and learn how to use them/ how to store them/ how not to use them and that I shouldn't ingest them orally, nasally and anally damn... there just isn't anything these days you can ingest is there?

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http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/7751637/ Mon, 30 Jan 2006 13:28:05 PST

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Th song i'm listening to, Sail On by Masterplan, is on an AMV. It has to be one of the best One Piece AMV's i've ever seen. it's simply stunning.

[link]

It commands that you download it now ¬.¬ now onto the stolen survey

---{100 Little Things You Didn't Know About Me}---

1. Full Name: Brittany Paige Hudgins
2. Nicknames: B, Britt, and Jin
3. Birthday: July 5th
4. Place of Birth: Ithicka, NY
5. Zodiac Sign: Cancer
6. Male or Female: Last I checked, I was a female not certain if that woulda changed
7. Grade: 11
8. School: Potomac High
9. Occupation: student and whote to quite a few people ._.'
10. Residence: residential box out back -nods-
11. Screen Name: kaze_tsukai and forsakenindeath

__Your Appearance___

12. Hair Color: brown/dirty-blonde
13. Hair Length: about shoulder length. Getting cut soon though
14. Eye color: gray-green
15. Best Feature: my eyes
16. Height: 5' 6''
17. Braces?: nope
18. Glasses?: might be getting glasses soon, that or contacts
19. Piercing: none
20. Tattoos: none
21. Righty or Lefty: righty

___Your 'Firsts'___

22. First best friend: Katie Drake
23. First Award: Church Mouse award in 3rd grade -.-'
24. First Sport You Joined: soccer I'm the goalie -snickers- got the kick to prove it
25. First pet: cat named Max
26. First Real Vacation: Sequoa National park when I was 4
27. First Concert: 6th or 7th grade. Went to Summer Fest for B93.1
28. First Love: kindergarten crush -.-'
___ Favorites___

29. Movie: The Ring
30. TV Show: One Piece
31. Colors: Green
32. Rapper: NONE
33. Band: Front 242 and Masterplan ATM
34. Song Right Now: Skin and Sail Away
35. Friend: all of them
36. Candy: anything sour or Butterfinger Crisp -drool-
37. Sport to Play: Soccer
38. Restaurant: SUSHI!!!
39. Favorite brand to wear: Good Will? XD
40. Store: Barnes and Noble!!!
41. School Subject: Art, Music and Spanish
42. Animal: Red panda and Komodo Dragon
43. Book: Books by Charles de Lint and Edward Rutherfurd
44. Magazine: -shrugs-
45. Shoes: sneakers

___Currently___

46. Feeling: content
47. Single or Taken?: single
48. Have a crush: yes
49. Eating: noooothing
50. Drinking: Chi tea
51. Typing: this survey
52. Online?: nope <--sarcasm-
53. Listening To: Skin by Front 242
54. Thinking About: wanna read ToT
55. Wanting To: see Shadow ._O read...
56. Watching: One Piece AMV's
57. Wearing: Rainbow sports braw and purple satin pj pants ._O i'm exotic XD

__________Future__________

58. Want Kids?: hahaha no
59. Want to be Married?: -shrugs- if I find that special someone
61. Where do you want to live: Michigan or out of country... like Ireland
62. Car: does it drive well? I'll take it XD i'm not picky

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex (only opposite?...)___

63. Hair color: don'... ]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/7631836/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/7631836/ Fri, 27 Jan 2006 14:12:12 PST

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1. What is your character's name?
1) Sisko
2) Bain
3) Layla

2. What kind of character is it? (furry, anime, etc) and any particular race?
1) Sisko: Pirate: just a lackey on morgana's ship and is from the Caribbean. (AU: rancher. owns his own horse named Thor. Same nationality.)
2) Bain: Pirate Age: Gunman on Morgana's crew. From Ireland. (AU: musician and works at a skate park because he can. Is from ireland as well.)
3) Layla: Pirate Age: Docter for Morgana's crew. She's a mix, mostly just european and she holds a fair ammount of gypsie blood. (AU: full time docter and works at a café on her off hours. Work-a-holic.)

3. What is the first thing your character would think of when he/she first wakes up?
Sisko: 'Tori... I lurvel you... -yawn and cling, falling back asleep-'
Bain: 'stupid sun.... go 'way.... what time is it? What did Morgana do to my hair THIS time!?'
Layla: 'Wow, light already? Hmm, rise and shine' (AU: -woken by pager an hour before six and doesn't have time to think because she's scavaging for cloths and to get to the hospital as quick as she can-)

4. Your character's favorite outfit would be?
Sisko: t-shirt and a pair of shorts
Bain: anything ripped or tattered ._.'
layla: a simple skirt and a blouse sufices. Though she'll usually wear low cut pants and a tank-top as well.

5. When your character looks into a mirror, what's the first thing they would notice?
Sisko: -makes faces-
Bain: -stares and smirks- damn i'm hot
Layla: -stares, narrows eyes, licks a finger and pushes a strand of hair in plac and nods-

6. Does your character have the same tastes in food as you?
Sisko: eh, he loves his mexican/spicy food. I'm not one for spicy but I love Mexican.
Bain: sure, he eats just about anything.
Layla: she doesn't care what she eats as long as it isn't spicy

7. How is your character similar to you?
Sisko: easily makes people laugh? XD
Bain: sleeps in and enjoys being lazy
Layla: fear of zombies! She plays a musical instrument (though the Fiddle) and she's rather soft spoken yet devious all the same.

8. How is she/he different?
Sisko: likes his screwing quite a bit
Bain: he has a gun and really long purtty hair XD
Layla: she saves lives! She's got black hair and gray eyes.

9. If your character could speak, would they have the same voice as you?
Sisko: -snort- yes.... Sisko would have my voice XD no
Bain: -cracks up even more- nuff said
Layla: Slightly more soft spoken and casual than I

10. If you were to suddenly become your character, what do you think would be the first thing you would do as them?
Sisko: OH SHIT I'M A GUY!!!!
Bain: Woah.... -gape- I have... O____O wow.... errr.... new way to go to the bathroom much? best remember just in case I walk into the womens b-room O\\\\O
Layla: Yay, I have pretty hair and awesome eyes! Hey, i'm taller too!!! WOOOO

11. Is there something about your character that you don't like how others think of them?
Sisko: MAN-WHORE -.-'
Bain: he's dumb. Cus he's not
Layla: she's a push-over -.-'

12. What advantages does your character have over you?
Sisko: blissfully unaware of the raveges of intellect e.e' decent looking
Bain: he can kick arse! he's decent looking ._.
Layla: she's more agil than I and more street-wise.

13. What disadvantages?
Sisko: he probably has ADD, not literate (and proud), and his mind constatly wanders to one area in the lower regions.
Bain: tends to be egotystical and sarcastic. Oppinionated and blunt as fucking hell
Layla: she tends to work till she drops. is OCD but slowly becoming better about it and hates zombies.

14. Do you have any secrets relating to your character that only you know?
Sisko: he has a few secrets of his own that he'd prefer the world not to know about
Bain: -shrugs- YES ._.' his mom forced him to read the bible when he was little. Played for the church choir with his flute ain't it cute
Layla: her past :cackle:

15. Do you have any secret drawings only you kn... ]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/7538768/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/7538768/ Sat, 07 Jan 2006 19:38:02 PST

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One thing I hate above all else is being on the opposite side of the country. Right now one of my best friends is going through hell and I can't do a god damn thing and it hurts like nothing else. To know my friend is suffering and I'm doing nothing, I feel... disgusting.

It's like that time a good friends dog died. I told her I was coming over and hung up. Dad said I couldn't go and I completely told him off and went anyways. Spent a good long time at her house, consoling and helping her through the time.But I can't do this now. I can't just hop in the car and drive to her house, I can't help mend her wounds and I can't be there for her! It's crap but it's fucking life.

I wish there was something I could do. I don't usually pray to god or anyone for that matter. but whatever god does exist, whatever god damn diety, goddess, over-seer just WHATEVER. Whatever over powering force. Just... do what I can't and make her know I wish I could be there and make her life seem a little less bleek. Please..

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http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/7450061/ Thu, 29 Dec 2005 16:09:52 PST

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Well i'm sick. isn't that just grand? Still went out and saw HP: GOF for the second time good movie.
Since I was tagged by , i'm obligated to fills this out ^^' weee.


10 people/things you like:

1) my animals
2) art
3) friends (Shadow, Dichana, CMM, Rae, Silv ect.)
4) music (menos rap)
5) Rping
6) sleeping
7) reading
8) family
9) slash
10) One piece


5 things that make you happy:

1) un-hindered sleep
2) my animals
3) friends
4) sushi
5) drawing


10 things that you don't like:

1) not sleeping
2) school
3) migranes
4) being sick
5) being dirty
6) my fears
7) closed-minded people
8) ignorance
9) loud
10) being lectured


2 things you expect:

1) To leave Virginia eventually to go back home
2) to progress in my art


4 random thoughts:

1) This lip balm tastes like grapes
2) Enchiladas are good
3) Bain has long hair
4) Migranes suck


I now tag ¬ ¬ :

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Well. this week has been fun. On Monday, we got snow and had a snow day the following day :3 love dem snow days with a passion. And guess what? We're getting more snow tonight >:3 kekekeke

In other news, my research essay is almost finished X_X have to fix a couple things up tonight and then switch some things around and i'll be finished thank god!!! The second (now my first) main stress knot in my back. Thank god it'll be gone by the end of tonight X_X'

The main stress ball is gone. Went and did all county last night. It sucked, it was a long wait and a did really crappy. but that is alright, I didn't want to get into all-county period. But the audition was required (damn band teacher -.-). Hopefully I get over a 20 though or I get a zero as an assignment grade. If I gte over a 20, O get insta 100% just for going and attempting

This survey thing I stole from cus I needed an excuse to update my journal. Course all updates for me come in the form of pissed-off-ness or a quiz/meme/survey.

put a X next to what ever you did.

( ) crashed a friend's party

( ) stolen a car

(x) been in love

( ) been dumped

( ) shoplifted

( ) been fired

(x) been in a fist fight

( ) snuck out of your parent's house

(x) had feelings for someone who did not have them back

( ) been arrested

( ) gone on a blind date

(x) lied to a friend

(x) skipped school

(x) seen someone die (I considered them a someone)

(x) had a crush on one of your internet friends

(x) been to Canada

( ) been to Mexico (I have family there! X3)

(x) been on a plane

(x) purposely set a part of yourself on fire

(x) eaten Sushi (<3 <3 <3)

( ) on a veeery small hill

(x) met someone in person from the internet

(x) taken painkillers

(x) miss someone right now

(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by

(x) made a snow angel

(x) had a tea party (I miss my tea-set TT_TT)

(x) flown a kite

(x) built a sand castle

(x) gone puddle jumping

(x) played dress up

(x) jumped into a pile of leaves

(x) gone sledding

(x) cheated while playing a game

(x) been lonely

(x) fallen asleep at work/school

( ) used a fake id

(x) watched the sun set

(x) felt an earthquake (I lived in CA for quite a while -.-)

(x) touched a snake

(x) slept under the stars

(x) been tickled (damn you shadow >.<

(x) been robbed

(x) been misunderstood

(x) petted a reindeer/goat

(x) won a contest

(x) run a red light (been in the CAR when my mom ran a red light. We got t-boned )

( ) been suspended from school

(x) been in a car

( ) had braces

(x) felt like an outcast

( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night

(x) had deja vu

(x) danced in the moonlight

( ) like the way you look

( ) Witnessed a crime

(x) questioned your heart

(x) been obsessed with post-it notes

(x) squished barefoot through the mud

(x) been lost

(x) been to the opposite side of the country

(x) swam in the ocean

(x) felt like dying

(x) cried yourself to sleep

(x) played cops and robbers

(x) recently colored with crayons

( ) sung karaoke (That'd be really, really scary O_O)

(x) paid for a meal with only coins

(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't

( ) made prank phone calls

(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose

(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue

(x) danced in the rain

(x) written a letter to Santa Claus

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went trick-or-treating as Sanji today XD was hecka fun cus my brother went as Zoro and my friend went a Gaara of the sand. Was awesome. Got losts of candy.

Then some loser tried to steal my brothers candy and I grabbed the bag that my brother didn't let go of. Ended with me kicking the guy and then he let go of the bag of candy.


and hauled off a punched me square in the face, knocking me back into the mailbox >.< now I can't speak and my left side of my face is numb and hurts like a bitch.

Oh yea! My brother still has his candy though ^^ I hope I don' have to go to school tomorrow, my jaw's really gunna hurt and it'll be so embaressing T.T what if the guy recognizes me?

well, yours truely, a 'formerly dressed as Sanji', Jin. Hope your halloween was as exciting as mine was

i'm going to bed >.<

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bleh. We had a thunder storm last night. If you people have paid attention, you'll know I'm frightened to death of them.

Good note? This time I acctually stayed in my room. Granted I was cowering under my blankets wrapped around the light source that was my cell phone. Cringed everytime thunder shook the house. Bleh, didn't get squat sleep last night because of that.

There's my life update. Brittany hates T-storms! Pretty to watch, but they scare the shit outa me not to mention render me into a shaking ball of patheticness.

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Another update. I've been updating like mad lately. Yay for Jin! Anyway, stoled a quiz from I'm so evil~e. Rightie-then...


---{100 Little Things You Didn't Know About Me}---

1. Full Name: Brittany Paige Hudgins
2. Nicknames: Jin, artist chick
3. Birthday: 7/5
4. Place of Birth: New York
5. Zodiac Sign: Cancer
6. Male or Female: could be both :suspicious:
7. Grade: Junior biznatch XD i'm young
8. School: Potomac High School
9. Occupation: Student
11. Screen names : kaze_tsukai and forsakenindeath

__Your Appearance___

12. Hair Color: blonde
13. Hair Length: short. Choppy and long bangs in front and choppier and a bit longer in the back.
15. Best Feature: my eyes
16. Height: 5'6
17. Braces?: nope
18. Glasses?: nope
19. Piercing: none
20. Tattoos: -sigh- no
21. Righty or Lefty: right

___Your 'Firsts'___

22. First best friend: Kadie
23. First Award: Churchmouse award in 3rd grade ._O
24. First Sport You Joined: baseball
25. First pet: a cat named Max
26. First Real Vacation: Sequia National Park
27. First Concert: B93.1 SummerFest 4
28. First Love: a kid in kinder-garden name was Kyle. Was a little mexican kid and I left a 'love' card in his cubby

___ Favorites___

29. Movie: Batman Begins
30. TV Show: One Piece
31. Colors: Green, opaque
32. Rapper: none X_X
33. Band: t.A.T.u at teh moment
34. Song Right Now: Friend or Foe or Gomen Nasai by t.A.T.u
36. Candy: Warheads
37. Sport to Play: Hockey or soccer.
38. Restaurant: any sea-food buffet
39. Favorite brand to were: none ._O
40. Store: Barnes & Noble
41. School Subject: Art and Spanish
42. Animal: Komodo Dragon and Camel
43. Book: Sula
44. Magazine: Shonen Jump
45. Shoes: my gray sneakers

___Currently___

46. Feeling: tired and bored
47. Single or Taken?: single
48. Have a crush: could be ._O
49. Eating: nothing, throat is killing me -dies-
50. Drinking: nothing
51. Typing: my will
52. Online?: nope, i'm sleeping and typing this with my MIND!!! -twilight theme-
53. Listening To: Pavvane for a Dead Princess ~ Ravell (classical)
54. Thinking About: I have homework to do.... need to sew those mole plushies too...
55. Wanting To: something or someone to call
56. Watching: my type up these answers, but mostly the keyboard
57. Wearing: Black Parka, water down green pants with striking embroadary up the left leg and white socks.

__________Future__________

58. Want Kids?: no
59. Want to be Married?: maybe
61. Where do you want to live: don't care
62. Car: one that works and is easy to drive

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___

63. Hair color: any color
64. Hair length: long is cool, but any length will do
65. Eye color: any color
66. Measurements: no idea
67. Cute or Sexy: a combination of the two would please me
68. Lips or Eyes: eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: Khugs or kissing, depends on the mood
70. Short or Tall:whatever height
71. Easygoing or serious: depends on the situation
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: there is a time and place for everything.
73. Fatty or Skinny: fat is ok, just not obese X_X' chunky is also not prefered, but Jin isn't picky like that. Fat people make me wanna hug them ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/6784842/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/6784842/ Sun, 16 Oct 2005 16:22:47 PDT

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This weekend was just as interesting as the last, i'll admit.

Friday
I got out of a lot of math because of pep ralley in the Gym. The gym at potomac is awesome. There is a giant ass mural that takes up the entire east wall of a crouching panther on the ruins of a wall. Very cool.
As all pep ralley's are, there was a lot of noise, but I didn't mind acctually. I was jumping and screaming my head off for the spirit shouts till I was coughing and couldn't talk. Freshman beat the Sophomores at tug-o-war and Juniors lost to the Seniors . Oh well. Got to witness my SS teacher get pied in the face. Was pricless XD but then he and another teacher filled another pie tin with wip-cream and nailed Mr. Bryson on the side of the face. That was amusing.
Yea. Well Juniors won the spirit shout waha!
Went home after that and went to sleep with my cat Gin curled on my chest, woken up by Ian asking if I wantd to go to the game with Calib. So I went. We lost XD We lost our homecoming. how shamful. But I got a giant pixi-stick out of it. Not to mention a heart-attack when my ipon almost fell the 50 some feet to the ground below the bleacheres X_X'

We left 55 seconds before the game ended, got to stand there and wait for my dad while Ian rolled around on the grass. Dad pulled up and Ian jumped up and ran to the car and was like
"I was being all James Bond-like!"
to which my dad responded a very amusing 'yea, James Bond with severe head-trauma....'

Saturday
Got woken up early after going to bed at 2 am. We went out in a 2 hour drive to t national park where we visited the Pumpkin patch. Walked around and found some pumpkins for all of us, I spent a lot of time with the two goats that were penned near the opening. Was funny because whenever someone went up to pet them they would run, but when I sat there, they came over and wanted some attention. Was cute.
After we got our pumpkins we went to an apple orchard and picked us some appls acctual apples! Not the crappy store bought kind! There is just something so damn wonderful about an apple you've picked off the vine yourself.
What was truly funny was that I pulled a Zoro at the orchard. Ended up walking a while, and since I was just bored, I found a picnic bench in the middle of a quite secluded area, shaded yet sunny and parked my ass down, sprawled out and fell asleep. It was quite calming to fall asleep with the hush of wind through trees and the lingering earthly smell of apples.
Woke up about a half hour later and found i'd been left (duh XD) and stood up and walked on farther into the orchard, picked an apple and walked on mucnhing, watching kids run around chasing each other and eating apples as well. Eventually I found them, but before I'd oticed them, I'd seen some horses in the distance. So I made myself known and walked on to the pasture. At first, i'd only seen one horse, so I approached the fence and clicked my tongue a couple times, but the horse ignored me. I turned to leave and saw another horse, only it was propped near the fence only a litle down the way.
So I moved down and clicked my tongue again and the other horse looked up.

I was shocked beyond words. The poor creature was so skinny, so bow backed it hurt to look at it. You could see the cross shape of it's back-bone, it's hips jutted about 3 inches out and it had hardly any muslce or fat on it at all. Fleies were crusted around it's eyes. It was horrible. I immediatly batted the flys away and held my hand out for the horse to sniff. The horse nuzzled my hand, lowered it's head and snuffled at my feet and the green grass on the outside of the pen. Ripped some green grass up and sat down and fed the horse, petting it's skinny neck and just talking to it.
Eventually a guy drove up and I stood and petted the horse on the neck one last time and I walked away. The horse followed me untill the fence was blocking him from going farther. It was limping too because of something wrong with it's hoof. I literally started to cry. I couldn't do squat about it. I had no bloody idea where I was, who owned the horse or how to get there. I couldn't do ANYTHING. Leaving that horse there hurt me so bad, I felt so disgusted with myself.
needless to say, my day was shot.... ]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/6645094/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/6645094/ Fri, 30 Sep 2005 18:44:08 PDT

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But really today wasn't that great of a day, but I won't forget it that is for sure. For one, I thought I was winning against this cld, but turns out i'm not. it kicked me in the rear and i've got a rather bad sore throat, headaches, queasyness, the whole package. Kicked ass in Spanish as per usual and as well in Art. Had an hour of free time because I finished the portfolio and the teacher didn't want to give me the next assignment. So I flipped through a magazine (we were working on collages).

Chem was also relativly easy, still working on metric conversions and all that, only now we're involving american measurments. I know what my teacher says when she said that American units suck. They don't follow any rule of thumb, they're just kind of random. Harder to transfer to different measurments.

Like I said about Math, getting into identities and all that jazz, so it's getting interesting that's for sure.

But what killed my dad came after school, i've never clammed this much up before.

I got to my lcker in the locker bay and was fishing around with the things I needed for homework and was just putting my backpack on when shots rung out down the history hallway, which was about 100 feet behind me. There was like a second of calm before everyone realized what was going on before people started screaming and making a mad rush to get the hell away from whatever the hell was going on.

I ran towards the opposite direction of the commotion, but stopped and ran towards it because my mind was screaming 'Ian, where's Ian... gotta make sure he's alright...' then ian showed up and was grinning.

'did you see the fireworks?'

yea. Most of you now are laughing. But shut the hell up. Seriously, it sounded like gun-fire and I was scared shitless. I had way to much adrenaline pumped through me and I nearly collapsed because I was shaking so bad, and I started crying. yes. I started crying right there I was so relieved and scared. I had seriously thought it had been gunfire.

And one who message back to this and say awesome, i'll just ignore you, maybe chew you out. you weren't there, you didn't see it happen, so you can't say shit about how it would be awesome and cool. When things like that happen, insticts to flee kick in and all other things just die. There isn't anything but the primal need to get away. I felt confined in my locker row because I couldn't get out. I backed up against alocker and looked around frantically. My mind was racing with 'i'm going to die, they guy/girl is going to come this way and i'm gunna die...'

it was way to much for me. I'm not used to that, and if this has ever happend to you, then you know it's serious (unless you know it was fireworks). I'm still faintly shaking from the experience. I can't eat anything because it'll make me sick.

fuck, I just wanna sleep for a good long time.

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snatched from .

Seven things that scare you:
1) bones (breaking, seeing ectect.)
2) spiders
3) ovens
4) being left alone
5) zombies
6) dissapointing people
7) people talking about me behind my back

Seven things you like the most:
1) my cat, Gin
2) sleep
3) Rping
4) reasearching religion and cults.
5) art
6) sitting down and really getting into a good book
7) sushi, the elation I get when I recieve it.

Seven important things in your room:
1) my computer
2) my bed
3) my stuffed caribou
4) my my wallscrolls
5) my menagerie
6) my grandpa's old shirt.
7) my istation and ipod.

Seven random facts about you:
1) I can't finish a soda
2) takes me a while to fall asleep because I freak out because my subconscience produces images of zombies killing my family.
3) i'm only just starting art 1
4) i've been playing a musical instrument for 6 or 7 years now.
5) I used to be literally neurotic and drove my mother to anti-depressant
6) my obsessions change like the wind
7) I can hardly see out of my left eye, but the right is perfectly fine.

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1) get to college
2) learn how to paint
3) learn how to draw better
4) be a better person
5) lose weight
6) make a decent wage in life
7) pass AICE English

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1) eyes
2) smile
3) personality
4) kindness
5) willingness to listen
6) doing things without a care
7) strength of will

Seven things you say the most:
1) nerk
2) well shit
3) XD
4) this sucks
5) Qué?
6) ^-^
7) bleh

celeb crushes (whether local or foreign):
1) Jon Stewart-- seriously. He's not so much as a crush as a guy that I just admire. He's hilarious. He cracks me up no matter what mood i'm in. He's witty and makes brilliant points, plus the Daily Show is just a riot to sit and watch. You never seen the Daily Show? Sit down at comedy central and watch it at 7 or 11 pm. It's well worth it, i'm serious.
2) Alan Rickman-- another man who I don't have a crush on, but who is just an amazing actor. His role as Snape in the Harry Potter movies are outstanding, not to mention the voice of marvin the manically depressed robot just fit him. Galaxy Quest was another good movie he was in. But the best movie would have to be Dogma. If you haven't seen Dogma, you've wasted your life up unto this point. You should really see it, it is a wonderful movie.
3) Christopher Paolini-- a writer yes, but an amazing one at that. You have to admire a guy, who published his first book at the age of 17 and having it be a big hit. And we're not talking a little book, no, it was a full length nevel, the second part (10x bigger then the first) just came out. Eragon is a wonderful and easy read, not to mention enrapturing and it just draws you in. This book got be riled up, furious, elated, cooing in 'awww' and crying. I seriously can't wait till I get the chance to read the second novel he just let out.
4) Johhny Depp-- what's not to love about this guy? He's got a great sense of humor, his acting is stunning, he portrays every roll stunningly well. And I admit, though i'm not a rabid fangirl, he is handsome in his own way. Plus I fell in love with his roll as Jack Sparrow, he was absolutly brilliant as that roll and I doubt any roll he pulls off will be as good in my view as jack, but he impresses me with every movie, he may out do my judgement yet
5) Christian Bale-- many people may not know who this guy is, but he played Batman in the recent Batman Begins. This guy is probably the closest celebrity that I could call a 'crush'. He did fantastic as Batman, and I just... wow... he is amusing, a good actor and handsome to boot I can't wait for the m... ]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/6291796/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/6291796/ Sun, 21 Aug 2005 20:51:05 PDT

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Well, after two or three weeks we're finally here in sweet ole' Virginia.... with no furniture still. But it should be here sometime this week. I hate the feeling I got when we finally got here. It was like waking from my happy dream to wake in a night to realize what I had been fearing is true. Oh well... it's only a year then it'll be over.

Hope this year goes by quick. I want to get out back to Cali, I miss it there. -shakes head- I miss my friends and being in an empty house makes me feel hollow inside. My room is big.... but empty >.< and it's spreading to me. Blah, oh well. hpe the movers come soon so I can post a bunch of posters on the wall and make the room more homely and smaller... can't wait for this house to feel like home though... it's a nice house and it's fucking HUGE.

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everything in our house is cyran wrapped. Yes, cyran wrapped. Movers came today and packed our stuff up and got it ready to be loaded for tomorrow when a HUGE truck will be here to pick it all up and take it to our house in VA. We leave early tuesday for Michigan and a vacation of sorts before we move in to the house ourselves.

Our house is so bare right now, i'd rather not be here... it's to big and the impending weight of the matter that i'm leaving kinda hurts. I don' wanna leave my friends. I feel like i'm causing them a lot of pain bleh. Oh well,

My computer is packed up and i've been lazing around the house all day, mostly been talking with Shadow on my cell and lazing in a recliner out front o.o sweating and all XD I bet I looked like a red-neck. But it was fun and the breeze was comfortable, so I just basked and absorbed the atmosphere around me, got a few laughs in with Shadow.

Mom just went to get food for dinner, can hardly wait! I'm hungry, though i'll probably only get in a piece of chiken and a biskit before I get sick >.< I can't eat as much as I'd like too. I couldn't even finish a small fry today when we went to McDonalds, not even having looked at my sandwich. I'm wondering if I should worry or not ._O

oh well

clubs:

http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/5953565/ Sat, 16 Jul 2005 19:05:51 PDT

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stoled a survey from hehehehe

~Full name: Brittany Page Hudgins
~Age: 16
~School: Tracy high (though Junior is in Potomic High in Northern VA)
~City: Tracy (though for a year Dumfries VA)
~State: Cali, though for a year Virginia
~Height: 5'6"
~Eye color: a varying green
~Original hair color: blonde or brown o.o

*FIRSTS...
~First job: school XD
~First screen name: Zim84
~First self-purchased CD: no clue X_X
~First funeral: never been to one
~First "significant other": neh, not sure
~First rival: umm.... don't remember
~First big trip: the move to New York to Michigan at 18 months
~First concert: when I was in 4th grade I played to flute in a concert XD but other then that I went to B93.1's Summer fest the summer before 7th grade,
~First music you remember hearing in your house: umm.... probably something my dad listens too
~First crush: not sure.... long time ago
~First date: Never been on one
~First slow dance: none

*LASTS...
~Last big car ride: last summer, 5 hours to Mt Lassen national Park. But on tuesday morning I leave in the car for Michigan
~Last library book checked out: not sure. Schidlers List I believe
~Last movie seen: Batman begins
~Last beverage drank: Water
~Last food consumed: Pizza
~Last phone call: CMM called to chat about the new HP book ^^
~Last CD played: Batman begins -.-
~Last annoyance: being dirty and sweaty and feeling like bugs were crawling over my face and legs
~Last soda drank: Root Bear
~Last ice cream eaten: some raspberry ice cream.
~Last time scolded: today for aming fun of my mom XD though it wasen't really scholding.
~Last shirt worn: haven't worn a shirt in a while, just a tank. So, tankt-op ^^
~Last website visited: Yahoo and deviantart

*IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU...?
~eaten: Yes
~Helped someone: yes, my mom and dad pack
~Bought something: nope, I did yesterday though
~Gotten sick: yea, i'm coming down with some stupid stomach thing >.<
~Gone to the movies: id yesterday
~Gone out for dinner: nope
~Said "I love you": yea, to my cat gin who's sick T.T
~Written a real letter: no
~Left your house: went to the mall yesterday and today I went in the garage and to the garbage can outfront our house o.o
~Talked to an ex: nope
~Missed an ex: nope
~Written in a journal: yea
~Had a serious talk: could be
~Missed someone: yea
~Hugged someone: No
~Fought with your parents: nope
~Fought with a friend: nope

*FAVORITES...
~Food: sushi
~Drink: root Bear o.o
~Cereal: not really fond of cereal. but grapenuts are good
~Restaurant: most any place.
~Theme park: eh, only been to two, Great America and 6-flags marine world
~Movie(s): The Ring, Batman Begins, and Robots.
~Candy: Sour Sour ropes to be exact -drool-
~Juice: lemonade o.o or orange juice X_X Jamba juice is good
~Cartoon(s): One Piece, Danny Phantom such and such.
~City: don't really like cities. I like towns though
~Book(s): Halo books, vet books, true stories, fantasy. Most anything
~Game: DDR, Kingdom hearts, Sly Cooper and such
~Number: 5
~Show(s): CSI, CSI Miami, Law and order, SVU, CI, Monk blah blah blah.
~Color(s): green, clear and navey.
~Day: Friday.
~Month: December or January
~Song(s): way to many
~Season: winter!

*DO/HAVE YOU...?
~Helped someone big time: yea.
~Pushed someone away:maybe
~Moved away: yea
~Taken someone away from another person: no
~Cried so much you got sick: yea
~Ever had a disease: yup
~Gotten drunk: only slightly, fell down the stairs ¬.¬
~Lost someone: yea
~Left someone: the friends I moved away from would call it leaving them XD
~Been left, emotionally: maybe
~Made someone close to you cry: no
~Fell in love: yea
~Cried over someone: Yea
~Dated someone you didn't care about: nope
~Hated someone so much it hurt: yes,... ]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/5849795/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/5849795/ Tue, 05 Jul 2005 17:56:39 PDT

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yes, today is my birthday. I am now officially 16 years old. I'm excited because it'll be an interesting birthday seeing as the acctuall party will be sometime this weekend, the 9th probably. Have to call people today or tomorrow -ponder-.

Well anyway, I stole a survey from Lazyorca -nods- been a while since i've done one of these.


About you!
1. Hello, how old are you? funny, now i'm 16
2. What's your name? Britt or Jin
3. Are you tall or short? depends who your asking -smirk-
4. What are your hobbies? Sleeping, loitering, Rping, slashing, drawing, and DDR
5. Are you a good listener? I can be if i'm told to shut up
6. Are you a liar? could be ¬.¬
7. Did you kiss somebody on a first date? get me a date and we'll see o.o
8. Did you sleep with someone on a first date? no
9. Do you have a disease? no, I AM the disease...
10. Do you get easily annoyed? yes, I do.

stupid questions, please!
1. How come My Little Poney's are genderless?
2. How does a human being do Max 300 on DDR?
3. (to above question) Is it even possible?
4. Do I HAVE to be a girl?
5. Can teeth really explode?
6. Why is the only good thing that came out of Star wars; Batle Front?
7. Is Coach Z a mother??
8. (if so) who's the father?
9. why are humans to callous?
10. Do you think I could breed a mouse with a spark plug and get Pikachu ¬.¬?

"I am's"!
1. I am: curious
2. I am: amused
3. I am: the amazing breeder of Pikachu
4. I am: Lord of Snowbunnies
5. I am: GOD (inside Joke ppl, don't freak out)
6. I am: sad that I had to put a disclaimer up for the last 'I am...'
7. I am: listening to Mr. Wonderful from DDR
8. I am: desiring the Ace
9. I am: wondering if I can come out of my room ._O
10. I am: Jin

10 "I wish's"!
1. I wish: for DDDR
2. I wish: for a poney
3. I wish: I was a man
4. I wish: MOnKEY'S COULD FLY!
5. I wish: that I could have a bajillion dollers...
6. I wish: I could own Ace/Sanji/ and Luffy ¬.¬
7. I wish: I could fly
8. I wish: everything was made of chocolate gumdrops and marshmello pillers....
9. I wish: Cali's standards of intelligence would go up
10. I wish: that PMS didn't exist

10 Names!
1. Khanum
2. Zalick
3. Jin
4. Ace
5. Sanji
6. Luffy
7. Zoro
8. Rafiel
9. scisko
10. diego

10 things you love to say!
1. yea -name isert here-, -put random act in here-, what are you? An Animal? (ex; Yea Tiffany, put a shirt on, what are you? An animal?)
2. Yosh
3. w00t
4. nerk
5. don't you have something better to do? Like get out of my life!?
6. and then...
7. teh -something-
8. LOSER!
9. your cool...
10. i'm in the mood for dancing.... romancing

clubs:

http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/5737653/ Thu, 23 Jun 2005 19:33:50 PDT

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ok, last week around Tuesday or such, I spent the night at my friends house and before I left, we sat and watched Dawn of the Dead no big deal. It was pretty stupid.

Turns out the movie had an effect on me after all since the night before last I had a dream about Zombies (didn't even have a blasted zombie in it, no hide nor tail of them, only the say so) and I woke up and was scared SHITLESS. I mean, I was terrified and sat awake for an hour in the early morning. I didn't get up, go back to sleep or anything (woke up around 8, didn't go back to sleep till around 9). The only time when I allowed myself to go to sleep was when my sister got up and waddled herself to our mom's room. When I woke up again (3 pm ) I was shocked the dream had effected me so and I was mentally kicking myself bruised.

So I went about my day and put the dream behind me (mind you I was still a bit freaked out and a bit high-strung from the dream). Then that night I went to bed around 1:30 am. Turns out I haden't gotten over the dream because my mind kept freaking out at ever little noise (I thought a screeching car tire was a scream ). I had to get up and go sleep in my mom's room (which was around 4:30 am...)

yes, I am disgusted with myself, hopefully tonight will be different

clubs:

http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/5642430/ Tue, 14 Jun 2005 01:35:30 PDT

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Well, last Friday was the last day of school. In a way, i'm relieved and i'm not. I'm relieved and proud that I can officially say i'm halfway through highschool and I have yet to 'crack' under the pressure. I feel bad because I look around at some of the people I know and feel bad because I can't do anything to help them since i'm moving.

To you guys, sorry, wish I could continue to be here for ya guys.

On the moving note, I guess i've come to peace with it. The prospect of moving doesn't bring a painful panf to my being anymore. That's either because I've come to realize i'm coming back or that I just really don't care what gets yanked around and changed in my life anymore. --' so i'm deciding if it's a good thing or a bad. I think it was school that was making the move so painful, now that i'm out of school and all that, it's settled on me. I guess it was the reminder of all the familiar faces I wouldn't be seeing... -.-

On a more lighter note, my birthday is coming up, i'll be 16 -yay!-. I also get to have to get some cavities filled this thursday, yay. Though I feel bad for my brother cus he has to get teeth yanked ¬.¬

Not going to be here the 27th through the 29th because i'm flying down to Washington DC with my dad so we can look for houses. I guess in a way, that made me really appriciate him and this move more. He's not doing this to totally kill my life, only because it's needed for his work. He could be a total ass in this and just move us. But I take heart to the fact that he's trying to get me more interested, and acctually letting me have a slight say in where we live. For that, i'm thank-ful and I have to respect.

Yea, this moving this has happened way to much in my life if i'm taking heart to that -.- or maybe i'm not as cruel as people may think I am e.e or maybe i'm not as cruel as some people -shrugs-

if you read all this, wow, i'm honored! o.o

clubs:

http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/5431978/ Sun, 22 May 2005 18:07:35 PDT

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~*~ Slight spoilers! ~*~



Saw Star Wars 3 yesterday. I rather liked it. Grievious was the BOMB XD though he dies way to easily in my oppinion. He just rocks, it's also irritating in a way because my friend looked at him and when he started coughing and being sickly she turned to me and exclaimed

'Look! it's you!!'

--' thanks -thumbs up-

but, the movie was really amusing in my oppinion. Why? Well i'll tell you;

It took all the Soap Opera plots that have ever been and ever will be, and rolled it into a movie and threw it out there. I'm serious, it was so dramatic. But I loved it anyway.... it proved to be amusing. Even if the last hour or so was..... not uplifting in any way...

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yea, life's pretty fucked right now is all I have to say.

Happy birthday Ellie, sorry it couldn't be a little more enjoyable.



In other news, I hate listening to people's crap, mine included. I don't want your fucking life story, nor do i really care what goes on at home with you. If it's serious and not you just whining about something, you can talk to me. But if your just pissed off because your grounded or your dad is stupid, grow up. Seriously... it's really irritating to listen too and it gets old really fast. No one wants to hang around you when all you do is bitch and complain, however subtly, about things.

So your life 'sucks'. Maybe you shouldn't be a complete ass to your parents and sas back. Just a thought... be thankful that they gave you life, a life you can live. They didn't bring you into this world so you could be a whiny fucking bitch. Nor did my parents bring me into this world so I could listen to you be a whiny fucking bitch.

Stories are nice. Stories that involve your 'crppy' life and home just make you look like a person looking for attention or a fucking retard. Just don't do it kids. It's really irritating to the general public populace.


I'm probably going to get chewed out for this, but you know what? I don't fucking care how does that make you feel?

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well..... someone just called a few seconds ago. What was really confusing (and interesting) was that he/she didn't talk at all. Yea, your probably thinking 'oh, it's just a prank caller...'.

But the person didn't just hang up.... nope, person stayed on the line. I kept reapeating 'Hello...'. I mean I could hear the tv or whatever on, on the other line, and his shifting and breathing every once in a while.

._. it was from a cell phone too.

strange X_X

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oh man, this reallt sucks. I'm up at 5:17 in the morning to go to school. Not my idea of fun if you know what I mean. But it's for band and I get to miss the first 3 periods of the day and all that, so it's not that bad. I just don't like getting up early..... period.

On other news, i'm not quit sure how well today is going to go because i'm really nervous about things that are coming up.

1) CMEA (today)
2) Concert next Tuesday
3) grades
4) the guy I like's reaction X_X <-- doozy
5) finals
6) end of the school year
7) moving all the way from California to Virginia...

yea, so I suppose being a nervous wreck is ok.... but good news is this weekend I hope to spending time with Silv and painting the rest of her room ^^' plus it will help keep my mind off of other things that may or may not be taking wing that weekend.

]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/5331551/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/5331551/ Wed, 11 May 2005 16:38:52 PDT

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I don't want to move. I don't want to move... it's going to hurt so much. I don't want to leave what I have.... I have so much hear.... I don't want to leave it all.... it's not right. I've established my life here and made a home... i've made friends and opened up alot... I don't want to move and lose all of that. I will if I do.... I don't want to go to a new school. I want to stay here with CMM, Rae, Sharim and Jason.

I should be happy that it's only for a year.... but it hurts even more. I can't remember it ever hurting this bad. Maybe it's because this is the longest i've ever spent in a house.... 6 years... the longest to that was 3....

But I guess it's not just that. I'm scared. I'm so scared.... I don't think i've ever been this afraid in my whole life. I'm so scared i'm going to lose the one person I think I could love... and it scares me so much...

I've never had much good with love on account of things in my child-hood. But i've fallen for someone... but the end of the year dwindles on the horizon and then I won't see him for a long time...

I don't want to lose this one chance.... I don't know what i'd do... the only thing I can think of is telling him before I leave and pray for two things. That

a) his feeling's are mutual and
b) he can be different from a lot of guys and wait and be sustained by long-distance phone-calls....

]]> ~forsakenindeath http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/5250812/ http://forsakenindeath.deviantart.com/journal/5250812/ Mon, 02 May 2005 20:03:15 PDT

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You know what pisses me off more than any annoying person in this world?

Guys.

Ok, that's not really true, seeing as I know a few guys who don't do this and understand, so saying that guys in general piss me off is sort of brash. So let me be specific.

The thing that pisses me off most are guys that complain about girls/woman. It's just so irritating to hear them complain when they could be doing something productive like fixing something or doing a chore around the house --'

I guess that tiny rant was sprung from something that happened today.

In short, I started my period today (oh god, I know I said it --' get over it. I just need to rant). And I missed a bit of school once more. (yes I know, I've missed to much, but really it wasen't intended). So my dad found out, and the first thing he asks is if I did, and I politly said that I had started and was getting horendous cramps to the point of throwing up and passing out (a first for me so it hurt like a mf). So then my dad went on yelling at me on how I miss to much school and how I need to start toughing it out more and being like a 'man'.

That is what pisses me off folks ! The fact that my dad made that comment. I'm sorry dad, why don't you go start your period and have your cramps! Oh wait, you can't... well then in all reality.... you have no room to complain about toughing it out on such subjects.... now if I had been sick, I wouldn't be complaining.

some men --'

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