deviantART: by:freakofnature00

http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28877718/ Mon, 14 Dec 2009 01:10:49 PST Update: I wanna give a huge thank you to

for this awesome zombie journal skin!

It's amazing. Yup yup =]

I got finals tomorrow...so screwed...><

WTF am I doing here, then????

XD

So here's my first feature =]

All descriptions solely reflect my own opinion and is definitely open to objection. But come on, let's show a little love =]

Feature:

I love his work. For me, there's a certain rough edge that goes along his work, no matter how abstractly perfect he puts it together. But far from detracting the quality, it somehow amplifies it, leaving an image that is uniquely street and urban. Sometimes his art makes me chuckle, other times it makes me think. Be it one or the other, this is one artist that truly deserves more recognition =]

... ]]> *freakofnature00 The Sound of Settling http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28722459/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28722459/ Thu, 03 Dec 2009 04:41:10 PST And I'll sit and wonder
Of every love that could've been.
If I'd only thought of something charming to say.

If I'd only thought of something charming to say.

I could have saved everything or started something new or ended it all beautifully.

But no.

]]> *freakofnature00 Well....THAT makes me feel better XD http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28703268/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28703268/ Wed, 02 Dec 2009 03:29:29 PST I WON SECOND PLACE IN THE "BELIEVE" CONTEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [link]

and now that i have a subscription, i can finally have what i've always wanted............ THAT ZOMBIE JOURNAL SKIN!!!!!

i love zombies.

so that is just awesomeness.

yeah, i still got SATs and Mid Terms this month, but hey........i gotta live SOMEHOW.....

XD

and for those of you interested, here's the submission:

]]> *freakofnature00 Life, the Perfect Planner http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28684148/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28684148/ Tue, 01 Dec 2009 03:11:23 PST
as if life couldn't have timed it better.

funny, how life can orchestrate your path into something so perfectly painful you actually have to look back to convince yourself you didn't just dream this out of some hell-awful nightmare. cause well, it is.

ever had one of those moments where you know you've given up, yet you still cling desperately to that small smidget of a strand of a speck of hope?

i hate hope.

may it fuck in hell.

i dont need hope. i need...what i need.

who needs hope? there's so many stories where people have lived for years off of hope. they say hope is all that you need to get through the bad times. bullshit. hope isn't what you need. what you need is what you need.

and right now.....its the last thing that i need.

i mean, i rather go without hope for my dreams than live futilely, waking every morning HOPING that things would be different this time, that maybe this time it would be like i've always dreamed of...and then having it crushed again and again, only to resurface right before i fall asleep....

i know there's not a chance it would happen....

please, somebody talk some sense into me.

-

still working on the Fragments series. yes, i'm planning to finish it (gasps). i have a million short stories goign through my mind, but none of them seems to be working right now...kinda sad, huh?

]]> *freakofnature00 Place your hand in mine....(21 rndm things abt me) http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28597813/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28597813/ Thu, 26 Nov 2009 19:29:32 PST Fate fell short this time
Your smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
IÂll leave when I wanna

Look to the past
And remember and smile.
And maybe tonight
I can breathe for awhile.
I'm not in the scene
I think I'm falling asleep
But then all that it means is
I'll always be dreaming of you.

I think I'm falling asleep, but then all that it means is I'll always be dreaming of you.

So there is no longer escape in sleep.

What has this world come to?

What have you done to it?

Breathe into me, breathe.

Listening to First Date right now. How do they always get the feeling right in the lyrics? It's amazing...

When you smile, I melt inside
I'm not worthy for a minute of your time
I really wish it was only me and you
I'm jealous of everybody in the room
Please don't look at me with those eyes
Please don't hint that you're capable of lies

Who hasn't felt THAT before?

Though it may have been a while...

Cause of lack of doing something better, i've decided to post 21 random things about me. blackmail via notes, but please consider that i'm living in China right now and have no credit card and very little cash.

1. I LOVE Breaking Benjamin, Fall Out Boy, The All-American Rejects, Blink-182, +44, My Chemical Romance, Linkin Park, Fort Minor, Muse, Eminem, AC/DC, Guns n' Roses, The Cranberries, etc. Not in this order, except for Breaking Benjamin...=]

2. I LOVE writing. I cannot live without it. Or with it. You choose. But I love writing.

3. I have OCD. Minor in some cases, but still can drive me shit crazy.

4. I've been living in China for like what, 12 years now?

5. Did I mention that I love music?

6. I'm a Christian, though have been mistaken all too often as otherwise.

7. I make fun of all races, societies, people, cliches, countries, you name it, but i actually am not truly racist or biased. I just believe that the world was made to be made fun of, and thus am living its true goal.

8. I'm not Conservative, I'm not Liberal, I just am.

9. For those of you who noticed I didn't have a number 9: I can't count.

10. I find it hard to sleep at night for different reasons, all very true and scary.

11. I have a secret love of dinosaurs.

12. I have an OPEN love of ZOMBIES.

13. Contrary to extremely popular belief, i am NOT gay. Though I don't blame others for saying likewise XD

14. I do not enjoy falling in love.

15. I love all movies, including random foreign ones and silent films and B-movies.

16. I swear. Excessively. In front of little kids, sometimes too. Hate me.

17. I can get depressed, but no one can guess.

18. For some unfortunate reason, I am unusually trusting to most people...despite all i can do or whatever happens.

19. I love gambling. What a thrill.

20. I wish I could get that hug the little blue emote is getting in the "depressed" icon. *jealous*

21. I am a rather violent, disturbing, person. I have been sent to counseling because of this, and by my school at that. not the school counselor. a real, pay by the hour one. I just don't understand people. it's totally ok to watch or read about people getting blown up or cut in half, but when a then fourteen yrs old kid writes about it, he's a potential threat to the school's security. other than that though, the entire experience was a LMAO. XD

There you go.

Hope your satisfied.

Cheers and smiles.

]]> *freakofnature00 Hell and hurt and angry puppy http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28560474/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28560474/ Wed, 25 Nov 2009 02:17:14 PST
Breathing,

Living,

Existing,

You name it.

Every thing you do amounts to nothing.

All your hopes,

Your dreams,

Your love,

Your life,

Equals zero. No rain checks, no honorary mention, sorry and thank you for playing the game.

I'm just sick of living like this, but its the only living I know.

And I'm too scared to change it or end it.

Hell can't be worse than this.

This is hell.

-

In other less depressing news, my dog randomly barks angry at me. Great. Now even my dog hates me. And its only a puppy, too. What have I done to you, Clarice? ><

I'm working on the second part of A Fool. I was almost finished with it, but when I reread it, I realized how bad it was, so now I have to rewrite the whole thing. Less swearing, less dialogue, more thinking, more thoughts.

I'm still working on the Fragments series, but I'm finding them as I go along, so it can't be rushed

And random, sporadic poems about love, anguish, death, cancer, contest themes, November, raps, and more all along the way.

P.S. bro, do your math hw or I'll hunt you down. Remember, lil sis comes in pack =]

]]> *freakofnature00 Dreams without you. (and apologises to all >&lt http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28481619/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28481619/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 05:18:17 PST
I actually look forward to nights.

But when you're not there, that's 8 hours wasted. And another 16 before I get another chance.

and that's enough of me.

i'm really sorry to everyone who commented or wrote something to me but didn't get a reply immediately. been way too busy lately, and when i'm not busy, i'm just wasting away on flash games and writing.

I've been doing so much writing. I'll probably post them up sometime.......

again, sorry for being such an dick. we all have those days (unless your a girl. then you have "bitch" days, but that's off topic

)

i'll try to be better. promises.

AND I LOVE MY DOG. puppy. whatever. it can poop and pee and bark all it wants. i dont care at all. i love it. It's called Clarice, FYI =]

my mood is unhappy cause nothing else seems to be more descriptive or general. so there it is.

]]> *freakofnature00 S.O.B.W.T.F. http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28284335/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28284335/ Wed, 11 Nov 2009 04:10:45 PST <
i wish i could make the little emote better...maybe give it a flower that has the right number of petals...as it is, i'm also on an even number...

i'm sick of my mom screaming the shit out of me. i have enough shit going on in my life, as it is, thank you...

but does she care? ......naw........

but do i care? ......naw.......

Life's....well, life.

What did i expect???? happiness? there's a reason why most of the world's poetry, stories, films, and novels center around pain, hatred, and sadness, other than the fact that all three sells....

its not excitement anymore. its not hope anymore. its not even temptation or need/want anymore. its just there. this is why i hate it when i fall in...this. yeah...it never seems to go away...

i have this cold, numb hurt that wont leave me alone...

and to rub it in, there's all of life's ironies and how everything seemed to fit perfectly together to create one huge heartache.....

and then on the light side, i'm getting a dog =]
so i cant be TOO depressed...who can be depressed when they're getting a freaking dog?!?!!

and its friggin named Hannibal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M GONNA HAVE A DOG NAMED HANNIBAL!!!!!!!!!! HOLY FREAK.

XD

damn...do i feel bipolar today...

UPDATE

Just got the dogXD

its a girl, so unfortunately it cant be named Hannibal........><

fortunately, i convinced them to name it Clarice and/or Starling. look it upXD

life is good.

]]> *freakofnature00 snow day!!!!!!!!!!!! http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28248306/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28248306/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 16:30:33 PST
We've all needed this. i'v need this...

the world looks so much peaceful covered in white. i could die in snow. it's that peaceful.

love you.

-

should i just fall into my own emotions or keep them in check as i always have done? must i surrender to them and thus truly be set free to the pain i feel? or will i just hurt myself more...

and how do I break free? how do I move on? i don't want to move on...i just want to stay here...forever...and only move when its with you...

-

Fate fell short this time
Your smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I'll leave when I wanna

This place was never the same again
After you came and went
How can you say you meant anything different
To anyone standing alone
On the street with a cigarette
On the first night we met

Look to the past
And remember and smile
And maybe tonight
I can breathe for awhile
I'm not in the scene
I think I'm falling asleep
But then all that it means is
I'll always be dreaming of you

But then all that it means is I'll always be dreaming of you. Always...just did...

-

I love you Ninja Assassin. Now i get to have this awesome zombie journal skinXD

]]> *freakofnature00 (in)Famous... http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28188973/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28188973/ Fri, 06 Nov 2009 22:59:19 PST
I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak

A love that's so demanding
I get weak

Where am I?

Sometimes the grass grows greener on the other side. Most times there's not even grass, only cool, hard cement.

I said my mood was terror, but that's only cause the worm thing sticking out of the dude's head is amazing.

I'm more along the lines of sad, lonely, and "too depressed to go on, you'll be sorry when I'm gone".

The beginning of Anthem of the Angels by Breaking Benjamin is hauntingly beautiful. Go listen to it.

Lately I've been obsessing over Hallelujah. Amazing song.

Your faith was strong but you needed proof,
You saw her bathing on the roof,
Her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you.

She tied you to a kitchen chair,
She broke your throne,
She cut your hair,
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah...

Hallelujah...

Hallelujah...

Hallelujah...

Hallelujah...

Maybe I have been here before,
I know this room; I have walked this floor,
I used to live alone before I knew you.

I've seen your flag on the marble arch,
Love is not a victory march,
It's a cold and its a broken Hallelujah...

Hallelujah...

Hallelujah...

Hallelujah...

Hallelujah...

I need something/someone/anything/nothing at all.

I want to paint/draw so bad right now.

But my parents dont approve.

So I have to do it at night.

Secretly.

Alone.

Kinda brings out the mood.

*Bump*

What was that?

Better get back in bed...

And then the morning comes.

Incomplete.

The painting.

And me.

I'm incomplete...

I need something/someone/anything/nothing to complete me.

Winter is not enough.

Snow is not enough.

I Need.........

Frosted eyelashes and glowing cheeks.

Another soul that one could speak.

To pour out a heart that already leaks.

But like that would ever happen.

Someone's missing. I mean, literally missing. Disappeared. Will probably turn up somewhere.

Damn aliens I bet.

"Extraterrestrials running over pedestrians..."

Hi! My name is...What?

And no, it's not Slim Shady.

Is there really no hope to it at all? Probably so...but it's impossible to know...

This week's Supernatural episode was epic. Go watch it.

Dead Snow is amazing too. Just try to find a version that's English sub, not dub. I hate voiceovers.

]]> *freakofnature00 i wonder.... http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28154593/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28154593/ Thu, 05 Nov 2009 03:54:03 PST
and yeah, that's me.

you know what? i got frosty the snowman stuck singing in my head. amazing what little annoying tunes can get stuck no matter how sad things get.

i need a break. a holiday. but then i'm stuck at home doing nothing.

school is so much better than home...that's a fact kids, write it down....

oranges are amazing. i swear, my blood is right now .69% orange pulp and juice (and everyone shouts "LOOK IT'S 69!!!" =

lonely. seriously lonely.....how did i do it back then....its like, once you step over the line, you can never revert back. you're always hungry for that companionship, always desperate for that connection...i would say it's like a hole in your heart, but would be WAY too cliche....it's more like...an evil little blackhole of a demon sapping the life out of you, and the only way to survive is to have someone else plug it up with a giant metal cork.

the orange peels are staring at me...as if i did something wrong............ok ok, i'll clean you guys up, sometime......

so now it's no longer a question of yes or no, just how long i'll keep this up before i finally give up or burn out....

kinda liked it when it was yes or no. so much easier to cope with, plus there's that added drug called "hope."

you know what the world needs? a zombie apocalypse. no joke. the George Romero kind. it would be so fun just hunting down the zombies with a freaking baseball bat. sitting ducks.....and it'll definitely put things into perspective. zombie killing first, broken heart second, grades third, oranges fourth, and so on...

what would i give to have another moment like the one before........

cryptic, isn't it?

155 + No, It Isn't.

i need an ipod.

my mind is telling me to work, my body is telling me to stop, my heart is telling me to breathe, my lungs are telling me to smoke. stupid lungs....

irony is pure gold, and wisdom is silver. the cheap, 50% kind. no skim fat. UV treated and oxidized. keep away from children under 3 years of age.

Sirens.

i wanna be somewhere else with someone else dreaming of something else....

according to my clock, 3 hours and 21 minutes before the next 11:11. make a wish, a^holes...

love the hypocrisy, love the whispers, love the sneaked glances....just don't love the love. ain't none here, anyway.

Where is the love?

look that up too.

tmr is gonna be the same as today which was the same as yesterday which wasn't as bad as the day before yesterday. that day was...well, unmentionable in the terms of men and angels, but not God....

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever...

sad........real sad............need someone to talk to, but usually get pissed off and annoyed when someone does...what's up with that?? stupid me....

maybe i just need one certain person to talk to...maybe i don't need to talk...maybe i just need to write....

will be writing, fellows. if you lasted this long reading this, you deserve a medal. unfortunately, i'm plum out of medals, so yeah....how does it feel to be cheated out of a medal (aka cheap alloy mixed with different metals and painted gold)?

miss u......

cya.

]]> *freakofnature00 hurt.and some more. and tired. etc. meh. http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28136320/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28136320/ Wed, 04 Nov 2009 02:46:26 PST Exhausted.
Of all the games, all the words, all the plans, all the dreams. And for what? In the end it amounted to nil. As always.
It's not like I didn't expect it. I mean, I was hopeful, but to hell with hope. THAT definitely doesn't amount to ANYTHING.
At first I did....but who cares about "at first."

I've rethought my life....ok, that was a lie.

my computer needs a life. and a voice. and a name...not sure if its a boy or a girl...would be weird either way....

hurt.

and i'm friggin hungry...damn it....

my shoes suck. and yeah....

I'm too depressed to go on,
You'll be sorry when I'm gone.

There's your quote of the day, from Adam's Song again...

I need red bull.

And a zombie movie. zombie movies always bring my cheerfulness up. =]

Stay away from the blade........

heard that Zombieland was good...need to check that out..........

]]> *freakofnature00 dude, sometimes i scare myself.....(given up) http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28118922/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28118922/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 04:41:06 PST
You can't get more honest and painful than them.

unless, of course, you decided to get in the way of a running buzz saw. feet first. slowly. that MIGHT just take the cake.

I took my time, I hurried up,
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough.
I'm too depressed to go on,
You'll be sorry when I'm gone.

I'm sick of always hearing
All the sad songs on the radio.
All day, it is there to remind an over sensitive guy
That he's lost and alone, yeah

You know what this world needs? more gumballs. I miss freakin gumballs. anytime life starts to become shit in the States, i would just go to a mall, find one of those amazing 25 cents gumball machines, and buy one. they even have to go around this twirly thing, and you dont even know which flavor you're gonna get...if i had an infinite source of 25 cents, i know just where to spend it...

i'm ready to give up and call it quits, but man, it's like every time i say that, hope just keeps popping up. that's gonna be the second thing the world needs: a button that could literally turn hope on and off....and while we're at it, how about a freakin dinosaur? i love dinosaurs....

I just wish i could fast forward these next few weeks.

I just wish i could answer all the questions i've ever faced.

I just wish there were freaking DINOSAURS in the dinoforsaken world...(damn you, why did you have to go extinct????)

I just wish i could say what i want without having to say it in rhymes and lies...

I just wish...well, to hell with that wish...(like IT'S ever gonna come true...)

and by the way, 11:11 is amazing and hopeless. can't stop waiting for it though....

And when it's all stripped away, there's nothing left but pathetic hope.

]]> *freakofnature00 One of the best feelings in the world... http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28078084/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28078084/ Sun, 01 Nov 2009 02:39:31 PST
This is why I love winter.

First snow here.

]]> *freakofnature00 FML and other updates http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28040569/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/28040569/ Fri, 30 Oct 2009 05:04:06 PDT
Today my mom yelled at me for an hour because she thought I lost the spare house keys. Afterward she found out that I used different keys to get in and that the keys that were missing were her fault. And yeah, the keys I used were right where they were supposed to be. FML.

Now that THAT'S over...um, lol. kinda funny if it didn't happened to me XD

my mom assumed I lost the keys, and if you assume..... (if you dont get what i just said, look it up =

got my report cards. um...shit. yeah.

pulled up the three Bs i told myself i would pull up, but somehow my math fell to a C. talk about making my bad day worse.

The song I'm listening to is amazing. check it out. just to let you know.

So nothing much in life happening...damn it, my school needs more people...

some days are bittersweet. other days are just bitter.

I'll take the latter.

man, why doesn't things never work out the way you wanted them too???

and all the wrong choices i made are catching me and slitting my throat...come on...

Got nothing but words to back me up.

"To hell with this."

"I'll try harder next time."

"Shut the f*ck up."

"So what?"

"Where's my pizza????" (when i find spaghetti in my lunchbox...i hate spaghetti...lol)

"She'll never say yes."

"It won't work."

"Who knows?"

If only life had a remote. hate this long weekend....want to go back to school now...yeah, all you people out there are like "weirdo." well, guess what? right now, school is better than home to me. go figure.

I'm ripe with things to say,
The words rot and fall away.
If a stupid poem could fix this home
I'd read it every day."

But words and poems never work. they only breathe.

--out.

]]> *freakofnature00 This is me highlighting a Domestic Abuse Contest http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/27775536/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/27775536/ Thu, 15 Oct 2009 06:45:25 PDT
I need you to click this link: [link]

and don't worry, it's not spam or a virus or anything.

There's this person who's holding a domestic abuse awareness contest. Now, I'm not asking you to

fix the whole world or anything, but it would seriously be decent if you could at least submit

something for it. Sure, the prizes may not seem big, but for once let's ignore the prize and focus

on the subject. There are people out there who are being abused in ways that you can't even begin

to imagine. Yes, I know, you probably think that a single deviation won't change any of this,

and to tell you the truth, it might not. But who knows, it still might. You'll never know until you do it.

And even if it doesn't majorly impact the whole world and cause a revolution, it's the heart that

matters. You did it. You care. And in the end, it's that kind of attitude that will change things

for the better.

And I also know that many of you are bored out of your skulls into thinking of something to do.

So do it. If only to show your support.

Here's the link again, and a *pat* on the back for reading through the entire thing: [link]

Thanks.

]]> *freakofnature00 Another random update on me =0 http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/27591122/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/27591122/ Mon, 05 Oct 2009 04:47:42 PDT
-

Another void, another heart.

But I can take it again.

-

So I got PSATs in a week. I'm aiming for like, a high score, but only time will tell how it'll turn out...

School is ok. I mean, i got a crapload of work to do, but it's ok. great friends, great jokes...

I need more time to work on my literature and drawings.

I need a tablet too ><

but it's soo hard to find one in china...meh...

But tv shows are helping me =]

Supernatural is awesome, as always. And I've been watching Dexter. For those of you who don't know what that show is, um, your either scared or deprived of one great show. And no, not the cartoon == (why does everyone think I'm watching the cartoon one??? ...even though i loved it haha)

People talk shit about me, but who cares. The way I see it, it takes shit to know shit.

My writing has been taking me everywhere. I've been kinda going crazy with the contest entries, but that's cause i love a challenge. The contests make me try to write a subject in a new light, but in my own signature way. i'll probably slow down a bit with the contests =]

Thanks for everyone who's been encouraging me with my writing. I know it's not the best, but your words seriously motivate me to be better. Seriously. You people all deserve a medal for giving a poor soul some joy and hope. Love you all =]

And now back to Dexter and Supernatural...*ignores Chinese test tmr*

I'm screwed in Chinese class. Like, i've been livin in China for what, twelve years and i can't even speak that well...==
but oh well...

P.S.

ok, i got some instructions for all of you. go to your nearest music store/go on itunes and by/download Breaking Benjamin's new album Dear Agony. For those of you that need a reason...pure awesomeness doesn't NEED a reason. so just do it

XDDDDD

]]> *freakofnature00 Against the Risen and the Fallen http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/27497431/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/27497431/ Wed, 30 Sep 2009 02:07:47 PDT
Against the Risen and the Fallen.

I'm picking a side by not picking either.

I'm choosing by not being chosen, not being the chooser.

I'm conforming by shunning the conformed.

I'm a rebel without a cause, a cause of its own.

I'm a hater of a hater of a lover of a hater of a lover.

And all there is between...

My mission and statement.

We're all going to die anyway.

]]> *freakofnature00 I Will Not Bow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/27126776/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/27126776/ Thu, 10 Sep 2009 04:17:05 PDT
here's a link, sorry that it's not youtube, but youtube's blocked right now in china ><: [link]

I Will Not Bow will also be featured in Bruce Willis's film Surrogates. which is just freakin awesome!!!!!

And on Spetember 29, their new album Dear Agony is coming out. dude, i just can't wait...XD

]]> *freakofnature00 Featured!!! XD http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26989608/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26989608/ Thu, 03 Sep 2009 03:31:58 PDT [link] !!!

though you guys probably have read them, you should really go check out the other poets!. there's some truly talented people on it!

XD and peace out!

]]> *freakofnature00 yeah!! http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26969689/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26969689/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 01:47:24 PDT

ones gonna be this weird machine thingy...when i get it posted you'll see =]

the other is gonna be a limited serial cartoon thingy...already got like five ideas, so hopefully i'll submit five cartoons =]

yup, life is lookin up XD

]]> *freakofnature00 hate this... http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26930341/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26930341/ Mon, 31 Aug 2009 06:33:35 PDT
so this year i decide to try. cause well, i'm sick of being screamed at by her.

and my parents just came back from a parent teacher conference. my dad says that there was nothing wrong i did, and in fact the teachers only had compliments for me. i was happy, naturally.

then my mom comes, and tells me that i have to start sitting in the front of the class (which i already am usually, what the hell) and that i have to stop day dreaming in class. though no teachers says i have so far. what the hell. so then i ask her if the teacher says anything good about me, and she says that the teachers all see that I've improved, and then goes on a tangent about how she was right that teachers would notice that I've improved. as if she had any damn thing to do with this. she always has to prove she's right, as if she's some immature kid. she cant let a thing go.

so, naturally, i get kinda pissed, cause here I am, almost perfect flying colors, and she's STILL blaming me for shit. WHAT THE HELL. and when i have done something bad, she grounds me for a month and then yells the shit out of me, then blames me for her sore throat. holy hell.

so i go up to her and ask her if she was going to "praise" me and stuff, since all the times i messed up she'd scream at me and such. she looked at me right in the eye and told me that my behavior RIGHT NOW was JUST average, and went from way belong average to average. and I'm standing there thinking, "oh yeah, so the huge f*cking improvement dont amount to shit, huh????" So i tell her that i improved alot, and she says it doesn't count/not good enough to get a compliment from her. so i get f*cking pissed at her, and then she gets pissed at me for being pissed at her for getting an 'attitude', and so here i am, ranting against this hell life i'm living in right now...i can't wait to go to college, and apparently, neither cant she. she's told me that herself...

and on top of all that, i'm not doing shit well in school, drama-wise. i have a bad feeling that something's gonna blow up before the month's end.

if only you were here...then again, you're the cause of most my pain...

]]> *freakofnature00 Rain http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26871271/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26871271/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 07:32:10 PDT
And I love them all. Cause they all mean something to me. A moment in time to be lost forever...

Beautiful Storms: I'm chasing everything... "You were beautiful storms and rains in my life..." [link]

Color Rain: Painting Rain With Each Other: [link]

Rain Rain Rain: Move on without me. Learn to love without me. I'll learn too. [link]

You're Standing in the Rain: One of the most romantic pieces I've written... [link]

Music and Rain: They're together, you didn't know that? [link]

Each Raindrop That Falls: [link]

Enjoy. And love rain.

]]> *freakofnature00 updating and adding some old stuff http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26767183/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26767183/ Sun, 23 Aug 2009 03:00:43 PDT
it's good just reading through what i've wrote, some good, some bad, some weird.

here's some links to the works:

This is the Song: [link]

More Than Friends: [link]

X's and O's: [link]

Fingerplay: [link]

A Piece of a Pie and a Drop of Cherry Rolling Down the Side of a Glass of Sherry: [link]

will probably be adding more stuff as the day goes on =]

]]> *freakofnature00 first day of school http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26706984/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26706984/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 06:04:59 PDT
...sh*t. that's it.

well, it was awesome meeting some of my friends,
but well, yeah.

it was bull.

first, ton of work. figures, me being in junior high and missing first week of school, but i still hate it.

second...ok, i know my school is freaking small, but there's NO NEW KIDS IN JUNIOR HIGH!!! and everyone like, left...SOB this sux.

third...well, you get the picture.

please, let there be more people. that's all I ask for. more of the right people in my school.

AND TO TOP IT OFF...i can't even submit art and stuff as easily now that it's school year. so now i have to sneak around and stuff. meh.

i hate september.

Wake me up when september ends...ok?

><

]]> *freakofnature00 so i'm back http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26637132/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26637132/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 20:16:40 PDT
i've been sick with this intestine eating watchamacallit for five days.

so for five days i haven't been even able to leave the hotel room. kind of.

been feeling better, thank God.

i love antibiotics. think thats what they're called, anyway =]

]]> *freakofnature00 geckos!! http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26458491/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26458491/ Sat, 08 Aug 2009 05:22:37 PDT
I have forgotten how many geckos there were. Counted up to twenty, then gave up.

XD

---

Sum 41 is awesome...

I don't want this moment, to ever end,
where everything is nothing, without you

I am nothing, without you

but I'm improving.

]]> *freakofnature00 happy birthday deviantART!!! http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26436886/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26436886/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 03:35:25 PDT
me in thailand having fun, yup yup.

lost 389712634 games of poker, yup yup.

watching movies, hanging out, great weather.

and oh yeah, swimming!!!

and me so happy cause me can finally submit deviation!!!XD

ahh, life is finally looking good =]

]]> *freakofnature00 in thailand http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26396019/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26396019/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 06:28:37 PDT kicking back in thailand
will go very slack on any deviations, unfortunately

mixed feelings

]]> *freakofnature00 gone to thailand http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26342260/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26342260/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 17:00:53 PDT im gonna miss you deviantART XD

just pray that i have a safe trip =]
thanks people lol.

]]> *freakofnature00 SO! Just when you think that you're alright... http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26309648/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26309648/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 00:28:43 PDT
and very interestingly, listening to alternrock/emo/post grudge music is actually kind of uplifting...this is a side effect i must investigateXD

two more days till thailand...packing up, packed up, getting ready...

rock on BB.

peace.

...naw, no peaceXD only crazy adrenaline hyper caffeine craziness.

]]> *freakofnature00 CRAWLING...and yet smiling http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26267801/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26267801/ Thu, 30 Jul 2009 01:55:21 PDT CRAWLING IN MY SKIN
THESE WOUNDS THEY WILL NOT HEAL

sometimes i just want to forget,
sometimes i want to heal.
but then i'd have to regret
each time that i feel

THERE'S SOMETHING INSIDE ME
THAT PULLS BENEATH THE SURFACE
CONSUMING, CONFUSING

there's these times when i see you
times when i just want to hold you
but then i remember that it's all over,
that you're gone.

HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME????

--->>>>>>>>>>>>>>CRAWLING

Have you ever wanted to disappear...

miss you.

]]> *freakofnature00 music seems to be flowing through me http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26246079/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26246079/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 01:39:36 PDT <

well, at least i got my music.

And when the sky is falling,
Don't look outside the window

listening to some old AAR music. I've gone through good times and bad times and hell listening to them, and there's some songs from them that can make me cry and others that get me hyped up more than 50 packs of red bull. Some of these songs just bring me back to a time i remember so well, yet so far away.

i miss you, but i gotta move on.

change your mind

]]> *freakofnature00 summer=drawings, writings, contest http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26072513/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/26072513/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 18:31:09 PDT
i got to leave for thailand in august, so i'm like, trying to rush as much as i can into this two week time span. rawr.

]]> *freakofnature00 meh http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/25831735/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/25831735/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 05:02:44 PDT something

]]> *freakofnature00 ummm http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/25730729/ http://freakofnature00.deviantart.com/journal/25730729/ Sat, 04 Jul 2009 08:14:46 PDT ...though they are not at all good haha
just need something to do

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