First, to all the dickheads who ran my high school: I HAVE CONQUERED YOU. YES I HAVE.

And, having gotten that off my chest, I'd like to say that this time of my life is as wonderful as ninth grade percussion. If you know me, you know what a big deal that is. I've never said that about anything before. It keeps hitting me in pieces that Miho is gone but I guess I just have to wait for the big wave that's going to murder me with missing her. Everything else is so wonderful. I have made friends here who I feel like I've known forever and who I intend to know forever. Hopefully my two best friends (who don't really know each other) will accompany me to the Tim Burton opening on November 22! That's exciting as crap.

Last night I did my school's open mic night and it went really well such that people were commending me all day. I like commendation. I was also appointed Assistant Layout Editor of the school newspaper, The MounTimes. People are still talking about my article. It came out yesterday and it is about the mutant roach infestation in the dorm buildings. I'm going to post it. It is called "Legos of Satan." And yes I've been called out for that since publication! This is a Catholic school after all.

I'm also on a diet. My goal is to lose weight while nearly everyone else gains.

I made some hardcore paper chains for my dorm. The RAs said I just need to take them down when the room inspection people come in.

I'm also really mad that married Catholics (AND EPISCOPALIANS––WHAT THE FLYING HELLFUCK) can become ROMAN CATHOLIC PRIESTS. I can't. But I'm ready to give up my whole life for this. THEY'RE NOT APPROPRIATE, BENEDICT. THIS DEFIES ALL FOR WHICH WE THEOLOGICALLY STAND.

I just buried Miho. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. It really was. Most of you guys know that Miho is my favorite chicken I ever had.

Miho liked eating plastic and sunflower seeds. She ate Band-Aids off people's feet. When I buried her, I put a bandage around her foot that said "OATSY+MIHO+CHARLOTTE I LOVE YOU MIHO" in Sharpie and around her other foot I put a gold bracelet. There are three. One I am wearing and the other one I'm saving for Oatsy. I buried her wrapped up in the clothes I was wearing when I met Katie––my skirt and my jeans jacket.

I don't know how I buried her. She saved my life. She raised me. She made me good. She got me through Katie. She got me through so much. She got me through my family. All I wanted was another winter where I could rescue her in the blizzard. Carry her back to the warm coop. Or be sad and wish I could sleep there all night because my chickens were my family. She taught me to be the best I could.

I just held her. And then it was time. My sweet girl, my best girl is going to be my guide to the next thing, just like always. I'll always love Miho. She'll change the world by the things I do. She'll live forever.

I knew her time had come to a close but I know I'll see her again. My girl. My best girl.

I'm going home today, leaving all my friends at school: Alice, Piñata, Unicorn, Victor and Corpse Bride, my mermaids, Togepi, Julian, and Window Bunneh––not to mention the unfinished dolls. Actually I'm leaving real people, and some already left here, but that's beside the point. Things are amazing here at school. I've made some truly wonderful friends, none of them male. The air conditioner is freezing my arse off and times are SO GOOD. (I love to freeze, not because I like being cold but because I overheat in normal temperatures and a happy medium has hardly surfaced thus far.)

I need Bristol paper, socks, and new jeans and hopefully I can accomplish at least one of these over the three-day weekend.

My dog Genevieve has 2 brain tumors. She can live with one of them but the other needs to be cut out, and that's a toss-up because it's dangerous. The one that needs to go is cutting off her spinal cord which caused the seizure-like spasms she went through. Most likely they were not seizures but contortions in response to incredible pain. We are praying that she will be alright.

I'll probably write another Journal entry sometime over the weekend. So everyone, have fun celebrating the dickhead who came here thinking it was India just to enslave, torture, rape, and make terribly ill the people who were here first! Happy birthday to my friends and anniversary to my parents.

<sup>Today we celebrate the feast day of what JP2 called "the greatest Saint of modern times," Thérèse of Lisieux, a Carmelite nun who died at the age of 24, who lived in monastic enclosure for nearly half of her short life and whose death was noticed by few. We know Thérèse through her autobiography The Story of a Soul, which she wrote in response to the Prioress of her community, who happened to be her elder biological sister Pauline. Thérèse's story is a story of great love and great sorrow. She is a model of perfect self-mastery and offered all of her sufferings to Jesus, in the extreme. She is a beautiful reminder of the love of Jesus. Before her death, Saint Thérèse promised, "I will let fall from Heaven a shower of roses…I will spend my Heaven doing good on Earth."

Saint Thérèse is very responsible for saving my own life and possibly the lives of some of the people closest to me. We share a lot in common and to repay her for all she has done for me, I will attempt to answer her petition to bring souls to Jesus through her glorious intercession. She is the Patron Saint of my website, She May Be a Nun.</sup>

Saint Thérese, please pray for us.

On another note, I have started going to daily Mass and praying the rosary between three and five times a day, and I love it. Thank you to the Archangels, Padre Pio and St. Thérèse for all of the unremarkable miracles that have taken place in my life in the past week.

Today is the feast day of the Archangels, Michael, Gabriel, and Raphael! Everyone should love these guys for all that they do for us. In fact today is a day of celebration of all of God's angels, though there is a separate feast day for our Guardian Angels. Today is named after Michael, the Prince of God's angels.

The angels, and in particular the three (main) Archangels, have great tasks that are continuously in progress. Michael is the help of soldiers, civil servants, and police officers, but also of those tormented by the devil and of course is a huge help to exorcists. Gabriel is the most commonly referenced messenger of God, and he brought messages to and from and among humans and God during Mary's pregnancy and the childhood of Jesus. Raphael is our companion and guide in travels and in sickness. These angels are very important, but they are also very kind.

Some of you may know the role that the angels and in particular the Archangels along with my BFF Guardian Angel play in my life. I have become very close with them. We can also pray to the guardian angels of people we care about. Angels are always with us. Please, please don’t forget that they are there, especially since some of the angels who surround us are not of God. Always remember all of the angels and ask the good ones to protect, keep, and guide you. In the words of Saint Padre Pio, whose feast we celebrated just six days ago, “Have continual fear lest you offend the purity of his [your guardian angel’s] gaze.”

I hope that we love them as much as they love us. Happy feast day, guys!! I love you.

THE LEONINE PRAYER TO SAINT MICHAEL THE ARCHANGEL
Archangel Saint Michael, defend us in the day of battle. Be our safeguard against the wickedness and snares of the devil. May God rebuke him, we humbly pray, and do thou, O Prince of the heavenly host, by the almighty power of the Most High God, cast into hell Satan and all other evil spirits who prowl the world seeking the ruin of souls. Amen

THE PRAYER TO SAINT GABRIEL THE ARCHANGEL
O Blessed Archangel Gabriel, we beseech thee, do thou intercede for us at the throne of the Divine Mercy in our present necessities, that as thou didst announce to Mary the mystery of the Incarnation, so through thy prayers and patronage in Heaven we may obtain the benefits of the same, and sing the praise of God forever in the Land of the Living. Amen

THE PRAYER TO SAINT RAPHAEL THE ARCHANGEL
Glorious ARchangel Saint Raphael, great prince of the heavenly court, you are illustrious for your gifts of wisdom and grace. You are a guide for those who journey by land or sea or air, consoler of the afflicted, and refuge of sinners. I beg you, assist me in all my needs and in all the sufferings of this life, as once you helped the young Tobias on his travels. Because you are the “medicine of God,” I humbly pray you to heal the many infirmities of my soul and the ills that afflict my body. I especially ask of you the favor (name it) and the great grace of purity to prepare me to be the temple of the Holy Spirit. Amen

A PRAYER TO THE GUARDIAN ANGELS OF OTHERS
Guardian Angel,
watch over those whose names you can read in my heart.
Guard over them with every care
and make their way easy and their labours fruitful.
Dry their tears if they weep;
sanctify their joys;
raise their courage if they weaken;
restore their hope if they lose heart,
their health if they be ill,
truth if they err,
repentance if they fail.

A PRAYER TO YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL
Angel of God, my guardian dear,
To whom God’s love commits me here,
Ever this day be at my side
To light and guard, to rule and guide. Amen

A PRAYER TO ONE’S GUARDIAN ANGEL
Dear Angel at my side, my good and loyal friend, you have been with me since the moment I was born. You are my own personal guardian, given me by God as my guide and protector, and you will stay with me till I die. He who created you and me gave me to you as your particular charge. You assisted in great joy at my baptism, when I became part of the Mystical Body of Christ, and was made a member of the household of God and an heir of heaven. You saw the dangers that beset my path, and, if I sinned, it was in spite of you. You envied me when Christ came to me in Holy Communion. Even though you probably were there among the angels that adored Him the night that He was born, you have not been able to receive Him as I can. O, help me to appreciate... ]]> =frederickh http://frederickh.deviantart.com/journal/27418340/ http://frederickh.deviantart.com/journal/27418340/ Fri, 25 Sep 2009 21:26:18 PDT

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