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Oh... how i missed moments like this! Sitting on my chair, in front of my dear desktop, drinking some milk with a plate full of non-fat cookies. I`m a simple girl, i`ve always been like that, i always enjoyed simple pleasures of life, like this. Today, i spent the whole afternoon reading a book that i loved! Reading a book? You might think how lame i am but yeah, this kind of " pain " to the majority of people, actualy brings me pleasure. Call me crazy if you want but i love it. Having time for myself, putting myself into characters of the story that i`m reading, making little pauses to think about life and how simple stories can teach us so much about our selfish feelings towards the world, oh well, that`s me!
I had a wonderfull day yesterday with my lovely fiancé and god, how i miss him. I`m such a sucker for him. By the time he`s gone in the evening, those moments right after i always feel so complete and overwhelmed by the whole day but 5 minutes after, i get the strange feeling that something´s missing?! Him... he`s missing! Bah!!! I`m such a child when it comes to him, i don`t know how he puts up with me lol, believe me, i can be a real pain in the ass sometimes.

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I found out that probably i will go to Lisbon for college ( still have to avaluate my grades before that, still waiting for those ). But well, i had a serious conversation with my dad and he was actualy very compreensive about that and he knows that all my friends and fiancé live there and special the major that i wanna get it`s easier to get in than over here in my town. So well, i have a beautiful light at the end of the tunnel, i have to save the fireworks though, cuz well, yeah my grades are still on pause mode. But i`m keeping my fingers crossed. If i go, i will live in my best friend`s house ( ~gImMe-ThE-sIxTy ) which is nothing but an utopian dream that i still can`t believe it`s actuly coming true sooner than i expected, but let`s wait and see like Alexander Popov used to say before his olympic challenges.

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Vacations!!! They are already planned! Gonna spend one week in Algarve, in some fancy apartment with my fiancé, just practicing lust all over the place. And then ( or before, still waiting to be decided ) we`re gonna go to Lisbon to meet our dear friends: ~Rizzo- ~gImMe-ThE-sIxTy and Metal ( our bigggg bigg brother lol ). It`s gonna be just like last year, same people, same feeling, same fun ... perfect!

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I`m having thoughts about making some kind of portfolio with my favorite photos, so i can keep it to myself and who knows, try some exposition ( i don`t think it´s that good lol, i don`t think it`s good at all but... oh well ) my psychology teacher did some and maybe she can help me with that, she`s cool.
I`m also writting some personal stuff and maybe i can turn it into some mini book or something, and if my mind allows it, maybe i`ll copy something, so you guys can see it. It`s a great feeling having plans for all the free time that i have, i love having personal projects, my own little achivements in 1 month or 2.

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I can`t keep my mind off of you! Call me childish, i admit it, i am, i am to fucking anoying for a 20 yeard old girl. But the thing is, you are just too much, and you are all that! No regrets, no remorse, of all the steps i took and still take towards you. Far beyong the world, through diamonds and pearls, you`re a trully perfect solo in my head, the perfect bass tap in my life. That`s why i keep playing you over and over in my bed and even after hearing the song for one year, i can`t get tired of it, cuz everytime i hear it, i find out new accords that gets me off my lovely pale feet. You are trully the perfect death metal song! And i love you so...

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@ Lili