http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:greenfreak07&section=today deviantART RSS for by:greenfreak07 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 01:59:26 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/23326399/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/23326399/ Sat, 21 Feb 2009 14:51:35 PST Its been way to long!
Im sorry for my neglect, I just havent had the heart to get on.

somethings wrong with me but i dont know what it is
I just dont feel like myself anymore...
I need your help please...

]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/20256207/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/20256207/ Sun, 31 Aug 2008 16:20:30 PDT ok so im like getting tired of seeing the same journal
so i guess ill try and think of a memory like i use too...

weeeell the only one i can think of at the moment is the one that has to do with the boys...its a nice memory though. Might make you laugh...hopefully

*Code Names are in use*

ok... so its friday, the day before my quincea. I wake up all excited and what not. My friend Bella is staying with me. ^^ so cool. anyway, i get up early cuz we gotta decorate and stuff and i get a phone call from Bibi. She needed a ride cuz her dad was going to work and her cuzins werent answering their phones. Nana had told me about their grandpa so i alrealdy knew and then she told me about it. I was all secretly concerned and worried anyway! so i was like cool cool we can take you. So i was all happy. We went and i was happy to see Kai, Purple, Ding Dong, Sambola, and anybody else who went bright and early to help.

So it was a long morning. and to make it worse, Flomar, Shadow, Jerk and Shortie werent anywhere to be seen and still wouldnt answer their phones. And though I had amazing people with me, i was still bored and to make it even worse, Kris showed up. He got on everyones nerves :: Oh let me explain, kris is my cuzin and no body likes him. he is a jerk and overdramatic and a lot of other stuff, dont know why i even stick around. Guess im just to nice to be mean

I thought it was funny. Kris was whistling and my mommy gave me a glare cuz he was annoying her and i was thinking the same thing, and Kai evily said "stop...whistling!" I thought it was so funny. She got him to shut up. *round of applause* my hero kai
so then hes gotta leave (Yessssssss) i guess his mommy got pissed or sumthing but like i care.

Ok so we're like all sitting in a circle, talking and waiting. We were done with most of the decorations for that day. Then its an ackward silence and my phone rings :um hi dede this is youre friend calling. Say hello...hi...whatch you doing" a retard voice. which made it even more funny. It was shortie calling to tell me about her grandpa and how the boys were busy working on the farm and that they would be a lil late but they would get here soon enough. sooooo i was all excited and waiting for them.

Then they came, after a long wait. We had practice and it was all good. then my idiot of a cuzin went up to Shadow and told him that i really like him and that he should ask me out. practically bribing him. pissed me off. really bad. and i remember everyone got mad at him. Its kinda sad cuz from that day on, I never looked at him the same way. I trusted him enough to tell him who i liked and he goes and does that! >.<

anyway...to be continued...

]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/19972056/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/19972056/ Fri, 15 Aug 2008 14:26:49 PDT well i just thought i should let you know that...my last journal was a false alarm...
:dances: IM SO HAPPY BUT I SHOULDNT BE
Well later


so boring...
ill fix it
dont worry

]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/19736497/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/19736497/ Sat, 02 Aug 2008 13:41:18 PDT
I feel very stupid about it.
Why did i expect anything else?
What did i expect anyway?
Did i expect him to talk to me like in october?
Did i expect him to run up to me and hug me?
Did i expect him to remember what went on between us?
Did i expect him to stay the way i remembered him?
Always moving, full of color, smiling, laughing, joking, warm...

No...
But then i remember how shy he was...
it took forever to break those walls that pulled him away from me...the distance and time have built those damn walls agian and im not sure if i can break them again. I used all my mental strenght to keep him mentally close to me. I dont think im strong enough this time. I feel so helpless and small...I dont know what to do...

what scares me the most is, i cant look him in the eyes...
I felt nothing when i saw him...no jolts of energy...invasion of butterflies...no sparks when we dance...my hand in his...
I didnt even talk to him...he didnt talk to me...it was just ackward silence...but i was so comfortable Bob...i joked with him...but i have gotten to know him better, he's been in town longer...

but why are things differnt now? Why do i feel this way? Im just running around in a confusing circle...(lol how funny) thinking about him and me...
I dont know how to exlain it, i dont know what to do.

Flomar is probably happy. Kilowat is trying to help me out as much as possible...thats all i need. Just kilowat...who is always taking care of me...

I dont wanna let go of Lil Billy so soon
But i have a feeling that i'll have too...
maybe i should just hold on to the last memory that i have of him. How do i fight this? How do i go on with half of me still with him...

if im sounded really over dramatic slap me PLEASE!
be expecting some new poems
i feel it coming (lol how weird)

bye bye
love you all
me!!!!

ps.
my apologies for whinning

]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/19640967/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/19640967/ Mon, 28 Jul 2008 11:51:30 PDT
Ill try to get on like i use to do...
My apologizes for not getting on for like ever...
But im not gonnna let that happen again no sir!

SO...where do i go from here....
i dont remember anything...
ill post another journal later...
when i think of something...

bye...

]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/18245047/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/18245047/ Fri, 09 May 2008 16:30:07 PDT Oh no!! I suck at cooking. I burn the toast, overheat the weenies, over cook the ramon noodles, the mac and cheese is under cooked...man! Im gonna die!!! Which is why i plan to live with my mommie until i get a good job that pays well so i can hire a maid to do all my chores and cook for me so i wont die of starvation and poor housing. Lol not really. Im not that lazy!! and i need to have some space. I cant live in this little house forever! If i did, Id go crazy. Well...*thinks* i dont see what good that would do. Im already going crazy if you knew who i eat lunch with. With Flomar burning all my arm hair off, and Ding Dong tricking me to do all this stuff, Its a wonder why i havent cracked yet. But its ok. I kinda like it. It makes me feel more connected to my group. Since i dont cuss much or dress like them or listen to their kind of music. But im getting there. The music is going great and Im proud to say that I bought my 1st clothes from Hot Topic. I got 2 shirts. Boys Like Girls( I love this band!!!!!!) and Panic At the Disco. I love that band too!!! Their new album is not what i expected but its all good.
Anyway~
So since im turning 15 i get a party. A very big party. Its my quinceanera!! Im so excited!!! It will be in August...its so far away but yets so close. I wish it could be on my birthday like its suppose to but sadly my birthday falls on a monday and nobody likes to party on a monday...there most likey have a job to got to. So it will be 5 days later.
As tradition, im suppose ask 14 of my closest friends to stand up in my quincea and they are to find an escort. Im suppose to pick who i want them to stand up with but i didnt feel like doing that. Its too much work and I wouldnt know who to put who with. And if i didnt match them up right, they would start complaining and whinning and i dont wanna hear that. It would give me a headache. So to make things easier for me...Lol ok and them to, Ima just let them choose who they want to be their escort. So i did and i guess everyone is happy with who they have...I choose flomar...i had asked him last year cause i knew that my mommie and grandma didnt like my 2nd choice, Ding Dong. And it wasnt because i was madly in love with him, but it was because I grew up with him and i was comfortalbe with him...well im not really comfortable with him now...knowing him and his love for burning things...He found a new hobby...Burning my arm hair!!!!!!! I have all these little hairless spots on my arm as evidence of his amusment. I would mind if it hurt me but he doesnt let it touch me...just my hair!!! I dont mind that much but i dont like it when he gets me good. other than that its funny. But Stupid (AKA Flomar) seems to forget that arm hair ISNT SUPPOSE TO BE BURNED AND IT STINKS WHEN IT IS!!!!! Im seriously thinking about shaving my arm hair so he will stop burning it. Lol but its all good. We laugh it off
Anyway~
So I really want the boys to be at my sweet 15. Its not cause Im madly in love with Lil billy, but i do like him and want him here, its because I think it would be fun to have them here on that day. Ding Dong, Flomar, Shortie, and I (and sometimes Gabi) had so much fun with them at the youth rally, at church, at my house and at their grandpas house, i thought that it would be nice to invite them so Flomar and Shorite could spend time with them. I know how much they love them and how they wanna see them and how much they miss them. I wanted to do something nice for them and i might just get something out of it...*wink wink* *nudge nudge*
So i did it. I got Flomars mother in it. I asked her to call and ask if the boys could be Shortie and Sweetie (gabis new nickname) escorts. I had already called and asked Lil Billly about it. He said he didnt mind dancing, he just didnt think that his parents would let him. Then he wanted to know who i was "dancing with" I told him that i was standing up with his cousin...broke my heart to say so...dont get me wrong, I love Flomar and all but i know who he really wants to stand up with and he knows who i really stand up with. But oh... ]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/17770788/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/17770788/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 20:13:15 PDT BOO YA!!!!! WE GOT STRAIGHT ONES!!!! 1ST DIVISON ALL THE WAY AROUND!!!!!!
:dances: our director was so pleased with us. we worked so hard for this, lived through all the yelling and nagging and pressure he put us through. So now that its finally over with, after we earned what we got, we can finally lean back and put our feet on the table. Now all we have to do is wait for May to come. Then we can really have our fun. Not in Snyder. Not in Texas. But in Colorado!!! Its gonna be real swell. Ive never really been out of state before so i cant wait. The best part is...i get to spend about 12 hours on the road, in a charter bus with some of my buddies!!!! Going on a road trip!!!!!! YAY road trips!!!!!!!! I love road trips if you cant tell.
So the day started out as any other. Got up, got ready for school and all that good stuff. Went to 1st period and then reported to the band hall. practiced one last time and then loaded up! Just like all the football games. It felt like it...i miss the football games so much...got on the bus and took off!!!!! yay another road trip. So we travel made it to abilene in one piece and stopped at golden coral.
Poor Ding Dong wasnt feeling well. He was sick and stuff with a sore thoart. Grace was feeling just fine. crazy as ever ^^

]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/17376607/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/17376607/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 09:53:30 PDT Hope all of you are wearing green so you dont get pinched. One time in the 3rd grade, i really wanted to pinch someone. So the 1st person i saw (who i thought didnt have green on) i was like "hehe im going to pinch him! MOohaHA!"
So i did...and it turns out...he did have on green...i felt so stupid!!! LOl i laugh at it now. the boy freaked out and told me that he had a right to pinch me. I didnt complain at all. I knew i had it coming. I hope none of you make that mistake i did~!!!

I have some bad news...i took the Field Guide out of the Cirlce and now the Goblins are after me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! SOMEBODY HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Shorry... i just thought id let you know that im about to die...lol not really just stealing that from a movie i went to go see. It was actullay a really good movie. I enjoyed it so much, i went to go see it again.

I dont know what to do anymore...i never knew what to do in the first place but this is getting out of hand. I should focus on more important things, like study for the math TAKS test or my other classes. Our band trip is in may and i want to go to this. I dont want to miss out on this oppurtunity to finally go out of the State of Texas. I must pass all my classes. I already missed out on Solo and Ensemble UIL contest. I had to hurt my pride and and over my part to nikki...*glares* she didnt even want to be there!! She knows we are a small band and need everyone (who can) to particitape and help out in every little thing they can. Her lolalty is NOT with the band. I understand that she has other things going on but to even think about leaving the clarintes hanging without giving them a second glance is blood boiling. I know that if i had other things going on, and they needed me to fill in, I would have jumped to thier side in a heart beat. I already have done that...and im glad that i did. I was introduce to what marching contest would be like so i knew how to handle it. Even though the weather was and still is unpredictable, i knew what to expect. So when my foot touched the artificiale grass, it felt like i had already done it before. I played my music and marched my sets, proud of our band, not caring how small we were.
I remember that day. It was after the football game in canyon...I think the fight was just beginnging to blossem cause on the way home on the charter bus! (Woot Woot!!)
maru was getting on Ding Dongs ever with every little thing she did. I know she wasnt trying to, but the way he saw it, she was just doing it for...*not going to say* I think that was the first ride home that i feel asleep. I couldnt help it...I know i talk in my sleep...and i know i can say embarrasing things that run through my head that i dont want other people to hear...thats why there are in my head!!! I remember getting lost. The bus driver took a wrong time and instead of heading back towards snyder, we were heading towards Amarillo...Lol i thought it was funny.
So we finally got home and i went straight to bed. then at like 6 in the morning i got was awaken to the sound of lil boys voice screaming at me to pick up the phone...He told me the surprise after making me wait a whole week! I would have been more enthusiastic if i wasnt dead from tiredness.
but that whole day was taken up by the band pre uil contest in lubbock.I wanted to cry. here the day i had been dreaming of, wishing for, waiting for had finally happened, but i was to spend my day with the band over an hour away from the place i really wanted to be. Maru had asked me what was more important, the band or my friends...I could have told her a lie and said that i really wanted to be there but instead i just told her "Im here, arent i?" But like i said, im glad i went. I have no regrets...well maybe i do but i will redeem myself the next time our paths cross. i know that i cant wait til then...but i will be waiting to see them again!
so i can yell at bob for calling me a loser!!!
Ill finish this next time
Im hungry and i need to eat
oh yeah i wont be home until wednesday
See you! Im getting out of this town!!
I feel like this journal has no point...you tell me!!!
Bye...

]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/17236723/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/17236723/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 08:31:58 PST My friends, I'd like to make an announcement,
DING DONG AND MARU ARE FRIENDS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!
NO MORE CHOOSING BETWEEN ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!
NO MORE HAVING TO WATCH THEM GLARE AT EACH OTHER!!!!
NO MORE WATCHING TEARS FALL FROM MARUS EYES OVER THE BOY WHO CAUSED THEM!!!!
NO MORE HEARING THEM COMPLAIN ABOUT EACH OTHER!!!!!!!!!!
NO MORE FEELING BAD FOR HANGING OUT WITH DING DONG AND NOT MARU!!!!
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!! *throws a party* WOOT WOOT!!! It feels good now, looking at them, watching them. They smile at each other, they talk to each other without going for each others throat. It feels just like old times again...well i think it will take some time for their friendship to build again...it suffer through many battles and im afraid that there will be some scars that will never go away. They may be forgottened over time, but the wound will neve heal. She will always remeber those 6 months that he walked out of her life. She will always remember the pain of not being able to call him a friend. She will always remember the tears she spilt for him day after day when he refused to even look at her. She will always remember the insults inflicted upon her. She will always remember the empty feeling of watching him laugh, joke around with their friends, knowing that he was having a great time while she was the one suffering.
So their friendship not might be as strong as it once was but im sure that if everything works out and no mistakes are made, it will reach that potential once more and shine bright for the whole world to see. When that happens, I will be watching...waiting to catch them if they fall again. This time I did a horrible job of being there for Maru. She deserved so much better. I didnt try to understand her point of veiw. I didnt try to comfort her, cushion her fall. She reached out for me for comforting. She was calling out to me but i turned the other way. She was falling and i didnt even try to pick her up. She asked me "Well what would you do if it was you and Lil Boy who were fighting?"
I told her that i wouldnt have let it get that far. I tried to picture it.
I tried to picture Lil Boy in a fight to the point where he hated to hear the sound of my name. One night i did....(I have never told anyone this)...the pain was excrutiation. I had that same feeling i did over the summer. It hurt to breath and when i thought of any memories where we were just the best of friends, i felt like hugging him and never let go.
Then i remembered that it was all in my head. Lil boy and i werent fighting. All the pain went away but i remember it, how it almost made me cry.
So now im waiting...i have braced mself to be the 3rd wheel again. Ding Dong and Maru disagree with me but we all know its true. Before the fight, I was the one who was always trailing behind them. I remember when i invited them both over for the 1st time together (i think, excuss me if im wrong) but it was a thing that i will never forget...

ANYWAY~
Back to what i was gonna write about. Shorry i got off topic. please forgive me, I have some sorta kinda whinning to do. If i dont do it soon, I might explode.

Have you ever had this feeling where you want something so bad, that you would do anything to get it? You hear it calling out to you. Its calling your name. You wanna tell it "Im coming! Wait! Hold on!" but you have no idea whats calling you. You dont know what you want but you know that you want it.
The feeling is annoying me a great deal. I wanna be able to know what it is so I can go get it. But there are no clues just the feeling.
Its driving me crazy!!!!!! Im losing sleep over it...I think i might know what is causing it but im not so sure. I really thought i would be over it already. Seriously, i thought i did. Its been 9 months since it started. Its been about 4 or 5 months since it was rekindled once more (but the flame had never died, i was just that convince i had lost my chances *coughs* shortie!!!!) I want to be over it but i dont. The distance is like 3 or 4 hours away. He has his life there and i have mine here (if you consider it a life)
I just cant stop thinking about him...thinking about the things we did...That night in October, I was overhelmed by his presence. I really like him and I hadnt seen him since June. I was just really happy and trying to soak in reality. I was soaking in the fact that I could reach out and touch him, knowing that it wasnt another il... ]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/16740675/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/16740675/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 15:02:15 PST It was a dark and stormy night......lol just kidding.
It wasnt a dark and stormy night...it was actually warm and sunny. It was a sunday...i think....oh darn...i dont remember what day it was....................oh ok!!! My little cousin just informed me that it was indeed a sunday.ANYWAY~ It was the day after maru's birthday party and Lil boy had to go to work...again and didnt get off til 4:00...so i was surprised when i recieved his text. It was asking if the deal was still on...of course i had no idea what he was talking about because we made this deal in June during a Youth Rally and if you know me in real life...then you know that i HORRIBLE MEMORY!!!!! And its all thanks to my dear older loving cousin Ding Dong!!! but thats another story and im sure I'll get to that one not to long from now SO if you wanna know how Ding Dong gave me memory loss tune in next time...CHANGING SUBJECT...
So i thought he was talking about the conversation we had with Shortie about a movie they went to go see. "One Missed Call" was the movie and Lil Boy and Shortie both said that i would have jumped in my seat, screamed out loud, in fright and have nightmares cause it was that scary...but i told them that that was a lie and movies dont give me nightmares......my hair in the morning does.....so i told them that if i still made bets....there is also a reason why i dont make bets anymore........ill be sure include that some other time cause if you ask me...i think its hi larry us and so is the story.....ANYWAY...so if i still made bets, i would bet them that i wouldnt have done any of those things that they said i would have. But of course...shortie didnt call the bet but its ok.
What was i talking about...oh yeah!!!
So Lil Boy was asking me all these questions and i could only laugh at him. It's so funny cause he's older than me and in some ways he is more mature at some things. But hearing him demand that i tell him everything i know cause he had on idea what he was doing and was devastated that he did it. It's his one weakness and he cant control it. I had so much fun today in 2nd period teasing him...and he deserves it for all the teasing he did to me.
So i told him that id rather not tell him over texting, i wanted to tell it to his face. He wouldnt leave it be. He HAD to know what i knew. He was acting like it would kill him if he didnt. He wanted to call me after a while but i told him not to cause he was still at work and i didnt want him to get in trouble cause his mom can be a very mean person.
So he asked me to please tell him now cause he was still at work and couldnt text for very long. I told him that i would tell him, just not over texting.
Then after a while Shortie texted me and i invited her to hang out after she and her brother got off of work. SHe agreed and then stopped replying.
So i waited til 4...it was a long wait but it finally came. I was at some guys house with my cousin and some family. DingDong was there but he was as boring as ever. All he did was stay on the computer bashing me and how i have no good websites to visit. Well i was just sitting there and i got a text from Lil boy. He texted me "im off of work now." "and you promised to tell me." and my personal favorite "LITTLE GIRL TELL ME NOW"
It was so funny i laughed at him so hard. Then after a while he asked me where i was and i told him. Right then and there, i wanted to leave that strange house and go home but my little cousin didnt want to go home. he wanted to stay and do nothing! i got frustrated at him but i didnt say anything. Finally i convinced him to forget about DingDong and go home. We left the house and i texted Lil Boy and shortie and told them that we were on our way home and they both told me "yeah so are we" I thought they were serious and i got a little mad at my cousin cause he caused me to miss an oppurtunity to hang out with Lil Boy, Shortie and Gabi.
So we got home and the idiots were waiting for me out on the road.
I glared at them and i hated them for a few seconds...but all of my emotions melted away and loved all of them like my own family again...so we went for a bike ride and visited "haunted" houses. I had fun and i told Lil Boy everthing I knew...he was a little upset that i had forgotten the deal we made and i told him that i was shorry.
So then we rode around and Lil Boy and Shortie made fun of me...nothing new there and I laughed with them until tears came to my eyes.
They are so mean to me sometimes but thats how they show that they love me...well at least thats how Shortie does
Well i guess thats all i can remember...oh yeah we laughed at Gabi cause she fell on her bike and they i got freaked out cause BJ knew my name and he was like... ]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/16569008/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/16569008/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 16:06:23 PST yesterday, during lunch lil boy, ding dong and i made up a kicking game. Well we really didnt make it up but we played it like we have played it all the time, and in a way its true. We are always causing each other pain. Im usually the target...but im ok with that. Causing me pain is how they show their compassion. I'd rather have that then what Si Si (Lil Boy's cousin) did to him while he was visiting them in Amarillo. Si Si licked Lil Boy's cheek! I mean with the slimey spit and all. He was like "What the crap!! What are you doing???" and Si Si says "Im showing my compasion!!!" *makes a face* i just couldnt get over it when he told that. It was new years day and i had called eric up to see if he and Shortie could come over. I called but as i suspected, he was either at work or asleep. Since he didnt answer, i went on with my business, disappointed. So i went for a walk with my uncle and little cousin. We went to the creek through the pasture in my backyard. Ding Dong was gonna come over too so i was texting him for a while. Before we headed home, Lil boy called me back. He said sorry for not answering my phone call, he was asleep. I told him the situation and he had to ask his mommie Lynn if he and Shortie could come to my house. She said "we'll see." and wished me a happy new year. Anyway i stayed on the phone with him til we got back home and even when we were home i still talked to him. Finally it was time for us to say goodbye. We had talked to each other for about an hour. During all that time, I didnt answer Ding Dongs text and he was getting impatient. He wanted to know what was going on. I remembered him and informed him that Lil Boy and Shortie might be coming over.
An hour later, lil boy sent me a text and asked if it was still ok if he and Shortie could come. i told him "yup are you coming?" and he said "may b"
By that time Ding Dong was already with me.
About 30 minutes later i got another text that said "were on our way as soon as they get in the car" I had to laugh at this. I could picture him sittin in the car waiting for his mom and sister. he does it now!!!
So he and Shortie finally got her. Shortie gave me a chirstmas present and I love it!! I was afraid to open the box cause i thought something would jump out and attack me...Dont be fooled the innocent look on Shorties face...she would do something like that...especially to me!!!! but its ok...she cant get annoying with her pranks
I never know what to expect from her and Lil boy!!!! Last year for my birthday, they wanted to give me their cousin, Lil Billy...I'll tell you that story another time...
So we played my new video game Dance Dance Revelution. we were idiots with that.
Shortie was ok at the game but she could only play it on basic.
Ding Dong could play the game fairly well. He messed up sometimes but other than that, he's really well balanced.
Lil Boy...lets just say dance mats arent his stongest point in the world of video games... he was horrible!! But it was so funny to watch his feet struggle to find and hit the right button thingy. He looked very vey very ackward and out of place.LOL
We all laughed at each other and the person dancing-if thats what you want to call it- until our faces were red and our stomachs hurt from laughing so hard.
Then things turned ugly...Lil boy and Ding Dong decided to be mean to the youngest of the group (thank god it wasnt me that time). It was shorties turn and the boys switched her mode to expert. Poor little shortie!!! She pouted and told us that we had to help her...so we did. We each took an arrow and pounded on it. We looked so Stupid doing that and we knew it but we did it anyway. No body was watching...except for my mom grandma sister cousin and brother in law. We didnt care.
After we got tired of playing that game we invaded my sorta room and played the wii.
We played baseball and tennis
Then they all had to go home...and i was sad...
Well thats all for now
hope you enjoyed my little story
later losers!!!

]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/16423464/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/16423464/ Tue, 15 Jan 2008 19:56:02 PST True, there are still some flaws to the situation but i can handle it. He still referes to himself as It. He did it while we were texting today...but its better than what it was so im not complaining. I'd rather have that then all that other crap he did. I'll take it!!!!!!!
The only thing im worried about is...this might be another mask of his many faces...He could just be doing this to keep a smile on my face and Ding Dongs too! (maru i dont know if you told him anything but this all happened the day after Ding Dong made you cry...again but whatever you told him (if you told him anything) must have made him have a change of heart) I have no idea if he's just doing this to spare me the pain he put me through...and if im sounding self centered someone please slap me...anyway...i can finally look in his eyes again. I still see what i did the first time but some of his carefreeness has come back and his eyes glow again. Its light is dim but its getting some where.
There is a difference between carefree and not caring...
And for those of you who have thoughts of running far away, taking your life and so on
please take this into serious thought...
Your actions not only affect you, but those around you who happen to love you and care about you and what you do. Im not telling you what to do or anything, im just making a suggestion...
thank you ChocoEmerald So much!!!!! hey guys this chick is awesome!!!!
thank you iharvey i will glomp you at school when semester exams are done with. always there for me
thank you little_one1312...you were always there...and you always will be...i just have to remember to look, open my eyes once in a while...
and with that i say good bye!!

]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/16346685/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/16346685/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 16:34:29 PST He's not the same guy that use to be laid back and cool, not caring about what other people thought about him. He was hi larry us and fun to be around. I never liked to be seperated from him for long, cause not seeing him killed me. Not being around me made me feel empty.He could always make me feel good about myself when no one else stood a chance. He could always make me laugh even when times were bad. He was just always there. He didnt care that people hated him, just as long as he had friends who cared about him. Thats really all that mattered to him...but something changed the way he looked at things...now he's not lil boy anymore...he's It...but I dont want It as one of my best friends...I want Lil Boy!!! It is NOT the boy i met in kindergarden 10 years ago...he's just someone who looks a lot like him. I've grown to love him and care for him through those years and I dont intend on giving up on him. I've watched him grown and I understand some things about him that other people dont. Me and Ding Dong both. I love him to death but I have no idea what im going to do with him! He's fallen into a pit of dispair and it looks like he needs my assistance on getting out of there. He's fallen and it seems like he needs help picking himself up. I'm calling out to him, pleading, but he doesnt listen. I'm reaching out for him, offering my hand, but he turns the other way...I dont want to see him suffer like this. It's hard enough that he's shutting me out...I dont want to lose him to a thought that he had. And his eyes...Omg! They've changed so much...When I use to look into them, I saw a carefree, happy but not overjoyed, radient glow shine through them. It made me drasticly happy to see that because the light would invade my body and make me even more bubbly than i already am. His eyes made the world seem like a better place even though I was having a horrible day, one of those days that made me want to go hide under a rock. His eyes stopped that, and i was glad. When I looked in Lil Boy's eyes, I saw my best friend...Now when I look in the eyes I dont like what i see like looking back at me. I dont see my best friend anymore. I see a suffering soul, lost and confused, unsure of what it wants, not caring one way or another, even though it wants to. Seeing him this is way is to overwhelming. I'm on the edge of losing it...I might just break...I know he doesnt want me to cry but he's pushing it. He says he doesnt care but (if i still made bets) i bet you he really does care about every thing he's doing to me and Ding Dong and all his other really really really really close friends. I just dont know what to do...A side of me says to give him space and let him deal with this situation on his own while the other side says to hold on to him and dont let him fall anymore than he already has...i just want to be the best friend i can be to him...*tears* i dont want to lose him. I watched Maru and Ding Dongs friendship become what it is today...i dont want that to happen to me and Lil boy. I've watch Maru cry oceans for a jacka** it was painful to see her submit to him, down on her knees begging for him to reconsider...to take her friendship back, and give her a second chance...I dont want to do that...but he's being so...difficult. No matter what i try to do he turns the other way...here come the tears...adieu my bubbly self...

]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/16268933/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/16268933/ Sat, 05 Jan 2008 11:04:39 PST ok i know im just a wee bit late, but i hey its better late than never right? right.
Well i hope you all had a safe and fun new year.
I plan to do better in school this year.
Im a freshman in high school and i dont need to fail....
Thats my new years resolution...
and i plan to keep in touch with my friends that dont live in snyder and the ones that i dont get to see often as i should...
well thats all i have to say for now
later

]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/16081486/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/16081486/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 17:24:45 PST
]]> ~greenfreak07 http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/14318628/ http://greenfreak07.deviantart.com/journal/14318628/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 12:04:01 PDT 1. post these rules
2. each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves
3. tags should write a journal of these facts
4. at the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named
5. go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

I'll do the eight facts and tag a few people.

1. I talk in my sleep.
2. I wont touch a coke can. (i hate coke)
3. I am VERRY OVERDRAMIC
4. I sleep with my birth-day present
5. I named a frog Luke
6. Black is an okay color...just not all black
7. I am a slow texter
8. I cant type quickly
9. I'm new so i dont know 5 more people


The pple i tagg

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