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                <title>it's been a while...</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 03 May 2007 10:13:22 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ so here's on update:<br />
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- almost got locked up<br />
- got engaged<br />
- new deviations<br />
- got in a wreck<br />
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n*ething else?<br />
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M00NSHiNE08 - aim<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>errg</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 02 Aug 2006 15:20:55 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ blah. this has been 1 of the worst summers ever... 1- i wrecked my truck & broke my wrist, 2- i've been off & on & gettin hurt by sum1 that i love..., 3- work fuckin SUX...<br />
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sorry, didnt mean 2 bitch... had 2 say it tho... well i've been gone 4 a while, a lot of shit's been goin on but i'm back now only 2 leave the country 2morrow till sunday. ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>my birthday ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 16 Mar 2006 06:14:29 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ yea. it's 2morrow. woohoo. not really but hey ... i'm heading down 2 st.augustine that night ... thats 'bout it ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>taste of chaos. the aftermath</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 01 Mar 2006 05:30:34 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ so yea. i ended up w/ a ton of pulled & strained muscles, an almost broken nose, knee brace & lots of pretty not-so-little bruises. & a ER bill 4 the 4 hours i spent in there saturday.<br />
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i managed 2 accomplish all of those while moshing. & i <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> it. i'll never stop moshing.<br />
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about my nose- i was moshing 2 atreyu (!!) & it was getting dark. well sum dumbass jumps in the pit & starts hardcore dancing. well he ended up punching me in the nose so hard that i <b>flew</b> across the pit, hit the ground & slid. no lie. after a couple people picked me up, 2 guys jumped the guy that punched me. my nose was pouring blood & i have yet 2 get all the stains out of my shirt & my wifer beater. but i got 2 meet atreyu w/ my buddy ben! i was so happy. they gave me a poster & signed my wife beater. it was awrsum. (yes i put awrsum). they asked me about my nose 2. <br />
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right b4 we left we (me, ben & brandon, w/ the assistance of aaron) stole 3 planet radio banners. heheh. now mine in up on my wall. these things are huge.<br />
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but we got 2 see alot a kickass bands, my favorites being:<br />
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1. as i lay dying<br />
2. atreyu<br />
3. thrice<br />
4. deftones<br />
5. story of the year<br />
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                <title>taste of chaos</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 24 Feb 2006 05:41:01 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ concert 2day. cookie booth in the morning. this will be interesting. <br />
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                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>north carolina</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 16 Feb 2006 19:25:58 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ yea. i'm stuck there 4 about 4 days. 2 of which i'll be driving thru a shit load of snow & sleet, according 2 the weather report. this <u><b>SUX</b></u><br />
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                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>... pain ... (not the emo kind)</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 06 Feb 2006 05:53:15 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i hurt so bad right now. i got the shit beat out of me yesterday & saturday. on <b>saturday</b> i jumped aaron's fence & sliced my hand open, jammed about 6 fingers playing basketball, skrewed my knee up again, got the crap scared out of me. <b>sunday</b> i was hanging out w/ aaron & played basketball, then ben & brandon found us & beat me up. i have a lump the size of a baseball on my shin from brandon's skateboard, a bruise on my left thigh from being slapped, a bruise on my ass from being kicked by ben, bruises on my back from being tackled, bruises on my cheeks from where they <b>kissed</b> me & <b>licked</b> me! they drenched me in coke <i>&</i> they stole my shoe 4 an hour so i ended up chasing them around 4ever (tearing my foot up in the process) b4 biscuit finally gave it back. <i>then</i> brandon decides 2 be a smart ass & sit on me & ended up w/ his knees in my rip cage, tickling me & then ben joins in & they try 2 take a picture of it! i left 4 a while b/c they pissed me off. then they called & told me they still <strike>loved</strike> me & that they wanted me 2 come back. then we went 2 ben's & then i went home. & now i have a wrapped-up-hand, bruises & ben & brandon disease on my cheeks. i need more chick friends. this is what i get b/c i hang out w/ guys 99% of the time. i luv them like brothers. that's why they treat me like that. b/c i'm an easy target & they feel justified b/c i' their "sister" ... blah<br />
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                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>sorry</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 31 Jan 2006 05:37:00 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ yea i know i've been gone a while. i've been a bit distracted. i should have sum more writing coming soon. <br />
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                <title>i'm over</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 24 Jan 2006 09:24:12 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[  ok. i realize now that i'm not the effort 2 fix all this shit. i've fucked everything up so dont bother 2 waste ur breath trying. like u would n*eways ... i've fucked this up so bad that i think i've lost 3 of my best friends. i cant take this n*emore. not w/ everything else. i'm DONE. i'm thru w/ this shit. obviously i cant seem 2 see that people dont care what i have 2 say b/c it obviously isnt right. everything that i thot i knew. i'm THRU. dont bother wasting ur time trying 2 fix. i'm not worth it <br />
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x a worthless piece of shit ]]></description>
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                <title>i give up ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 19 Jan 2006 06:23:43 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i'm thru. i'm done. he doesnt care & it's never gunna happen. he doesnt give a rat's ass about me. i was nuthing 2 him. i sound so stupid. oh well. fuck relationships & fuck love. ]]></description>
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                <title>surgery ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 07 Dec 2005 05:50:49 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ oowch ... i had surgery on my foot yesterday & now i'm hurting like hell ... 1st i had 2 wait about an hour & 1/2 b/c they overbooked the doctor, then i almost knocked the doctor out b/c i saw that damn needle coming at my toe & they had 2 threaten me w/ tranquilizers & have 2 nurses lay across my stomach & chest 2 hold me down b/c i learned that they werent using anestesia (sp?), but cutting n2 me while i was awake ... yea <i>that</i> part was interesting ... they had 2 cut out scar tissue, a teeny tiny piece of bone & half my nail ... & the hyperventilating didnt help matters ... well afterwards i went 2 my grandparents' place 2 recover, & at about 2:40, i was still numb so they took me 2 ben's house, where i FINALLY got my bracelet back & he gave me another ICP shirt (yay i <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> ben 4ever, hahaha) ... then his friend daniel came over & bought me & ben sum sticks, but i had 4gotten my purse at home so they had 2 help me hide them, we tried my hiding them in my bra, in my belt, & in my shoes, then ben got the brilliant idea that he'd take <u>my</u> shoes & make me wear a pair of his so i could sneak them home, yea, that was interesting ... after a while, they left 4 a west nassau soccer game, but my bitchy ass mom wouldnt let me go so i walked 2 the inez park & talked 2 cody 4 a while, then walked 2 the renne park & then down baisden & by the time i had 2 go back 2 st. pats, i was hurting so bad that i could barely get n2 my truck, then at st. pat's, sum little kid stepped on it & i was going 2 throw him over the side of the bleachers, but my mom caught me & said she didnt want n*e law suits & 2 chill the fuck out ... yea yesterday <b><i><u>SUCKED</u></i></b> ...<br />
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                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>this is getting old</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 04 Dec 2005 17:13:31 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ erm BLAH ... i went back 2 san mateo this weekend ... <br />
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<b>saturday</b>-no1 was out . NO1 . i think i walked about 7 laps around the whole neighborhood . i saw aaron, but didnt talk 2 him . went 2 trevor's, he didnt answer . went 2 dot's, she wasnt home . called ben, he wasnt home . called squeaky & she met me at the renne park & we hung out 4 about 45 minutes, then she went home . called <a href="http://deathbyembers.deviantart.com">kaylub</a> & 4got that she was w/ <a href="http://akourah.deviantart.com">ashes</a> so i felt purty damn dumb . wandered around till it got dark, then went down a road i usually never go down & who do i see? will & jordan . i talked 2 will 4 a little while, jordan barely said 4 words 2 me . then i left & was coming around inez & i hear my name, i turn around & trevor's calling me over . so i go talk 2 him till my dad calls then i go home . <br />
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<b>sunday</b>-met v-mo, trevor & brandon at trevor's house . hung out there till they finished working . then went 2 dot's . her mom came home & kicked us out . ben called me . we went back 2 the renne park . trevor asked me out . again . hung out there . trevor wanted me 2 walk him home . he asked me out . AGAIN . came back 2 renne park . ben left 2 go get my shirt from his house . he got back . he 4got it & he 4got my bracelet . DAMN .<br />
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new deviation coming soon, i promise, its written, but it sux so please be patient<br />
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                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>weekends ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 29 Nov 2005 05:53:03 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ erm blah ... i havnt put up a new 1 in a while so i guess i'll do it now:<br />
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friday: hung out in san mateo, me & trevor found a plastic sheep ... devin took it home ... trevor took retarded pictures <br />
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saturday: lit a plastic bag on fire which dripped on my finger & dried so i had 2 use cody's knife 2 dig dried plastic out of my finger ... it hurt ... i was about a block from ban's house so i called him & pathetically asked 4 a band-aid ... ben & trevor came back 2 the park w/ me ... ben stole my bracelet & then left ... v-mo came ... we found a mr. peanut costume ... i put it on & ran down the street & no, i wasnt drunk or stoned, i was completely sober ... we tried 2 show dot but she wasnt home, we tried 2 show jordan but he wasnt home ... so we went back 2 the park ... & the whole time trevor took retarded pictures & eventually killed my battery <br />
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sunday: went back 2 san mateo ... kaylub came out ... played basketball ... listened 2 ac/dc ... trevor took more retarded pictures ... came back 2 bumfuck nowhere (nassauville)<br />
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blah ... i cant write n*emore, every time i do it turns out like shit ... i apologize ... hopefully there'll be sum new shit soon <br />
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                <title>w00t planet fest!</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 21 Nov 2005 05:49:58 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ planet fest was fucking AWESUM, i moshed like hell & got called crazy by a shit load of guys, it was funny, i got hurt pretty bad during the nonpoint set tho, i had about 6 or 7 guys fall on me & my knee locked up, sum guy picked me up & had 2 hold me up b/c i couldnt even stand, then ben found me at the end & had 2 practically carry me over 2 the cops so they could call the medics, they told me that if iwanted medical attention i would have 2 go home, which i wasnt doing so ben helped me walk sumwhere 2 sit & i popped my knee back & limped around 4 the rest of the day ... i owe ben, he was my crutch ... i moshed in every set except 4 shinedown b/c i was hurting 2 bad & i couldnt stay 4 the whole set, i only got 2 see 3 songs b/c i had 2 take v-mo home & i didnt want her 2 get n2 trouble ... it was an interesting day ... ahaha, i also got 2 meet the band slowly taking lives, they came up 2 me in line & asked me 2 listen 2 their set & gave me a little pass & everything, it was pretty cool & their band is <u>really</u> good ... <br />
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the bands i saw (in order):<br />
+ tempest rain<br />
+ red jumpsuit apparatus<br />
+ slowly taking lives<br />
+ burn season<br />
+ twenty weight<br />
+ allele<br />
+ bound<br />
+ silver tide<br />
+ feedback<br />
+ nonpoint***<br />
+ syntenic<br />
+ cold*** (they came back!!)<br />
+ P.O.D.***<br />
+ shinedown*** ]]></description>
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                <title>planet fest 6</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 18 Nov 2005 05:24:09 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ yay! planet fest is this weekend, sunday! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/w00t.gif" width="23" height="23" alt=":w00t:" title="w00t!" /> cant wait, brandon has 2 call me this afternoon so we can figure out details about whether or not he's gunna meet me there or take me, v-mo is meeting us later & so is ben ... i dunno when kevin's gunna be there, or if n*e1 else is going ... cant wait tho! but it's not going 2 be as good b/c cold dropped out *tear*<br />
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bands that are playing:<br />
+ shinedown (hometown heros!!)<br />
+ P.O.D.<br />
+ allele <br />
+ red jumpsuit apparatus (local)<br />
+ burn season (local)<br />
+ nonpoint (local)<br />
+ silvertide (local)<br />
+ slowly taking lives (local)<br />
+ syntenic (local)<br />
+ bound (local)<br />
+ tempest rain (local)<br />
+ twenty weight (local)<br />
+ feedback (local)<br />
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                <title>erm blah</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 14 Nov 2005 05:40:37 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ my weekend:<br />
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<b><u>friday</u></b>-went n2 san mateo w/ <a href="http://www.myspace.com/basketcase91988">v-mo</a>, she claimed a tree stump & thot a street sign that said "emuness" said "emoness", it was funny, we saw devin & cody, then they left 4 daytona & then we went down inez & saw brandon & trevor, they destroyed what was left of my old cell phone, the biggest piece i have is the battery back, then trevor went home & me, <a href="http://www.myspace.com/basketcase91988">v-mo</a> & brandon wandered around 4 a few hours, we wrote on the park roof thing, then i took her home, got my new cds (i <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> u v-mo!! atreyu "suicide notes & butterfly kisses" & finch "say hello to sunshine") & she let me borrow her killswitch jacket, which fits like 2nd skin so i look like v-mo the emo, lol<br />
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<b><u>saturday</u></b>-went back 2 san mateo, called my <a href="http://deathbyembers.deviantart.com">kaylub</a> & she came 2 wander w/ me all day, we saw brandon & he busted his ass, i gave him <a href="http://www.myspace.com/basketcase91988">v-mo's</a> number b/c he 4got 2 get it yesterday, we lit a plastic bag on fire & i got a picture of it, i rolled across the basketball court at the renne park & <a href="http://deathbyembers.deviantart.com">kaylub</a> got it ALL on film, i have about 3 lovely little bruises on my hip from where my belt hit me, i wish she could upload her videos, they were pretty funny, (i completely disappeared in 1 of them) & then we went back 2 her house & she came & stayed at my house, my stomach started hurting me really bad, i have no clue why, then at about 1:30-2am we were messing w/ my sister, we picked her up while she was still sleeping & put her in the bathtub, it was hysterical <br />
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<b><u>sunday</u></b>-<a href="http://deathbyembers.deviantart.com">kaylub's</a> mom took me & my sister back 2 san mateo when she picked her up & we wandered around by ourselves b/c no1 was out, after a few hours & about 2 laps around the neighborhood, i saw trevor's van so i went 2 his house 2 get my bracelet back & his autistic little brother attacked me & aimee ... then we went home <br />
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check out my scraps, i have a picture of <a href="http://www.myspace.com/basketcase91988">v-mo</a> & brandon, it's so cute!<br />
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                <title>i'm gunna KILL him ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 07 Nov 2005 05:29:27 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ my dumbass ex boyfriend, nate, has started calling <a href="http://DeathByEmbers.deviantart.com">kaylub</a> from prison & leaving her messages ... i have no idea what he wants or why he's all-of-a sudden calling again, i havnt heard from him since we broke up back in april, but i pulled his records & he has trial 2day, he's been in prison since may 20th ... when i found out i was so scared, i dont know what he wants or why he's calling, but i do know that i'm trying 2 figure out a way 2 go see him, but i am NOT bailing his ass out<br />
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well in lighter news, i went back 2 san mateo this weekend b/c i had 2 take lori w/ me, we went 2 ben's house & saw him, jessica & trevor, me & lori taught each other how 2 skateboard the day b4 so we were showing off our non-existant skills, we ended up masacuring (sp?) my phone so now i have no cell phone & no wasy 2 call people b/c my house phone is a piece of shit ... haha, its so cute, trevor likes lori! its so adorable b/c he's so embarrassed, poor thing<br />
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                <title>"savin' me"</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 04 Nov 2005 05:46:52 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <b>"Prison gates wont open up for me<br />
On these hands and knees Im crawlin<br />
Oh, I reach for you<br />
Well Im terrified of these four walls<br />
These iron bars cant hold my soul in<br />
All I need is you<br />
Come please Im callin<br />
And oh I scream for you<br />
Hurry Im fallin<br />
 <br />
Show me what its like<br />
To be the last one standing<br />
And teach me wrong from right<br />
And Ill show you what I can be<br />
Say it for me<br />
Say it to me<br />
And Ill leave this life behind me<br />
Say it if its worth saving me<br />
 <br />
Heavens gates wont open up for me<br />
With these broken wings Im fallin<br />
And all I see is you<br />
These city walls aint got no love for me<br />
Im on the ledge of the eighteenth story<br />
And oh I scream for you<br />
Come please Im callin<br />
And all I need from you<br />
Hurry Im fallin<br />
 <br />
Show me what its like<br />
To be the last one standing<br />
And teach me wrong from right<br />
And Ill show you what I can be<br />
Say it for me<br />
Say it to me<br />
And Ill leave this life behind me<br />
Say it if its worth saving me<br />
 <br />
Hurry Im fallin"<br />
-Nickelback <i>"Savin' Me"</i></b><br />
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i luv that song! well whats new w/ me ... i'm probably gunna get n2 a fight by next thursday if this stupid little slut doesnt stop talking shit behind my back, she's 2 much of a chicken shit 2 say it 2 my face b/c she knows i'll kick her ass ... the sad thing is that this kid that hated me at the beginning of the year (& he took my ICP shirt *tear* ahaha but i took his!) is siding w/ me on this, he has 2nd period w/ me & i asked him what she had been saying & he goes "i cant remember exactly, but she called u a bitch ..." & i went off about how she's such a fucking chicken & he goes "yea, she's not woman enuff 2 say it 2 ur face" & this kid had the <u>biggest</u> crush on her, i thot that was kind of ironic. i havnt ridden that bus home in 2 days so when i get on 2day, all hell is gunna break loose & if she starts pushing me i'm going 2 kick her STD ridden ass right there on the bus, fucking HATE THAT WHORE!<br />
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                <title>all hallows eve activities ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 01 Nov 2005 05:15:54 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[  well san mateo was almost a waste ... 1 of my best friends decided he was gunna be an ass, i guess 2 try 2 impress the chick he had w/ him, it hurt & was a rael slap in the face, i dont know what the fuck his problem is ... i didnt get 2 see all my friends that i wanted 2 see & me & my <a href="http://DeathByEmbers.deviantart.com">kaylub</a> who was the only person who wandered w/ me, had 2 bum 3 cigs off a total stranger, our knees were hurting, we got honked & whistled at by i dont know how many weirdos ... we also attacked each other w/ silly string, which got stuck in my hair & on my glasses (awrg, i hate those things!), we drank bacardi & didnt get drunk, i didnt even get tipsy ... but all in all, it was an alright night, atleast i got 2 see a few friends:<br />
<br />
+people who i got 2 see: <br />
 1. my <a href="http://DeathByEmbers.deviantart.com">kaylub</a> <br />
 2. ben (the friend thats being an ass) <br />
 3. brandon <br />
 4. dot <br />
 5. erika <br />
 6. aaron <br />
 7. paige <br />
 8. sonora <br />
 9. teia<br />
10.kayla<br />
<br />
+people who i didnt get 2 see *tear*: <br />
 1. v-mo <br />
 2. trevor <br />
 3. jordan <br />
 4. jess <br />
 5. john<br />
<br />
yea, well i'm done bitching now ... <br />
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                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>all hallows ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 31 Oct 2005 05:16:17 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ gotta go n2 san mateo 2night ... i'm going 2 go see my <a href="http://DeathByEmbers.deviantart.com">kayblub</a>, ben, trevor, hopefully v-mo & hopefully not jordan, dot & kayleigh ... i kinda want 2 see my ex just so i can ask him whether the whole "on hold" thing actually meant that we were still together & he <u>was</u> cheating on me or if he just didnt have the balls 2 just tell me he wanted 2 break up ... i swear i hate myself 4 falling 4 another 1 ... OH! & the day b4 yesterday i scratched my eye & lost a contact so yesterday i had 2 be led around the mall b/c i am so near-sighted that i couldnt see a damn thing, every1 that saw me thot i was blind, so now i have sum nifty new frames, but it's taking me a while 2 re-adjust 2 glasses, i havnt worn them in 2 years ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>further down the hill</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 27 Oct 2005 19:02:38 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i'm so pissed off/hurt, whatever u wanna call it, all i know is that i didnt need this 2 happen 2 me again, it hurts 2 bad, i need 2 just let go but i dont know how, i'm trying 2 figure it out, getting stoned, drunk, tripping on pills, all that shit doesnt do n*ething n*emore, it doesnt help the pain like it used 2, i cant get away from it, i just cant ... fuck it, i'm over, a burnt out fat ugly white girl w/ no life & no hope<br />
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                <title>its all downhill</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 27 Oct 2005 05:13:02 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ blaah ... i have way 2 much shit going on right now, i can barely stay awake, i'm trying 2 help a few friends thru sum shit, i found out that my body is in starvation mode b/c i havnt had time 2 eat much of n*ething & my knee is swollen & stiff b/c of the cold weather ... i have no time 2 take a break & recover so i'll be ragged 4 a while ...<br />
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                <title>*cough* interesting days cont'd</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 24 Oct 2005 05:28:37 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ well, now 2 make matters even weirder:<br />
<br />
10-23: went 2 a party in san mateo at dot's house ... out of all the people that were, i knew ben, dot, myla, kayleigh, kryn, jordan, john, erika, raymond, aaron, & thats about it ... well when i got w/in sight of her house, ben goes "leah's here!" & throws a grapefruit at my head ... i walked n2 dot's garage gave her a hug 4 her b-day & me, ben, john & viper head down the street w/ sum wiffle ... we come back & i sit down ... i sat 4 about 30 minutes, then told erika 2 tell dot that i was going up 2 the store ... i come back from the store, its about 6:45 or so, & i sat back down ... about 10 minutes later, jordan comes up & sits on me, again, asks me whats wrong, i tell him i'm bored, so he sits there 4 a second ... then grabs my hand & pulls me up & takes off running, i start telling him that i cant run & that he needs 2 slow down, so he does, holds my hand & we start walking 2ward the end of the street ... we start talking & he says that he's sorry that i'm bored & i was joking w/ him  & say "u didnt even notice i was gone", he just stops & looks at me ... then i keep going & he hides in the bushes & jumps out at me randomly until we hit the end of the street ... then he blocks the sidewalk & wont let me thru ... i end up having 2 give him a hug & he lets me go ... i get around the block & he's waiting, he says so i got back alright b/c it was getting dark ... i sit <u>back down</u> & watch them act like idiots on the hill w/ the wheelchair ... me & erika start heading 4 the hill 2 watch them & i end up going down the hill in the wheelchair, get sat on <i>again</i>, & sat on sum1 & now have an ugly mark on the back of my neck ... put it this way, "<i>he</i>" is going down!<br />
<br />
yea ... halloween w/ them should be interesting ...<br />
<br />
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                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>the *cough* interesting past 2 days</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 22 Oct 2005 07:03:31 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[  wow ... yesterday & the day b4 were *cough* interesting ... i went 2 BK 2 see all my friends who havnt escaped yet, lol, umm i ran across 8 kines of traffic 4 times (32 lanes of traffic!) ...went back n2 san mateo, tried 2 call kaylub, waited 4 ben & all them at the bus stop, but only trevor & jessica got off so i talked 2 them ... me & jessica waited in ben's garage 4 him 2 show up, as we went 2 leave him & squeak came up ... we went n2 the house so ben could find the battery 4 jessica's camcorder ... ben gave me a shirt 2 wear since mine was skrewed up & he sprayed me down w/ collogne so i ended up smelling like a guy & wearing a guy's t-shirt, which was only 1 size smaller than josh's, which i had been wearing (2x = size) ... we went back outside, jordan showed up ... we watched the skate video, which also had when ben & brandon shaved their legs ... jessica went home ... ben went inside 2 take a shower & me, squeak & jordan waited outside ... jordan fucking sat on me, & had his hands on places he shouldnt have since we aint going out n*emore (he kissed me on the forehead 2) ... then ben came back out & we headed over 2 john's, who wasnt home, so from there we went 2 the store up there by dominoes ... all 3 of them pinned me in a corner & started tickling me & ended up ripping off 2 of my fingernails & bruising me on the side b/c they wouldnt quit fucking poking me ... then we went up 2 the park on renne, ben & jordan knew sum of the dudes up there so they talked & me & squeak sat on the slide, we were having a nice little heart 2 heart when jordan thinks he's gunna be funny & scare the living shit out of me, which wasnt cool ... then jordan, me & squeak went up 2 the ball park 2 see jordan's friend, who we didnt end up seeing ... then we were heading back up 2 ben's house so i could get my purse & go back 2 squeak's (where i ended up spending the night b/c i wanted 2 stay out later) ... we get 1/2 way down pipitone & jordan decides he doesnt wanna go, so we go back alone, get my stuff & head back 2 squeak's ... i get up the nest day & take a shower, then we go down 2 the shop 2 work 4 a while ... i end up getting ben's shirt all greasy & squeak gets her ass eaten alive by ants ... at around 1:45 i go back down 2 the house 2 take yet another shower so i could back n2 san mateo 2 every1 again ... i get back up 2 the park, drop my purse & ben's bike at the tables & go up 2 the store 4 a drink, come back & waited 4 the bus, at about 2:50 or so i see sum1 run across the yard & then the bus pulls up & sum kid asked if i was looking 4 ben b/c he was the dude that just ran across the yard ... i go back 2 ben's, return his bike & me & him head up 2 trevor's ... we talk 2 trevor 4 about 5 minutes then head back 2 the park ... we stand there 4 a while & talk ... then we head over 2 jordan's ... we sit there 4 a while then me & ben head back 2 his so he can change ... then we head up 2 the store where i was attacked the day b4 ... on the way past the renne park, we see kellum & 2 other kids so stop up there 2 talk & find out that he got the taser back ... ben ends up getting tased & i have 2 give 1 of the other guys a cig so he wouldnt taser me ... we then leave & head up 2 the store ... we start walking back & stop in the leather store & poke around 4 a while ... then we head down renne & see john, then we go down emuness & ben sees a bunch of dudes that he knows so we stop there ...then i have 2 go back up 2 nassuaville where i'm alone & have no1 2 hang out w/ ... <br />
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                <title>its always my fault</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 19 Oct 2005 05:30:43 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ of course, as usual in my house, i'm the 1 2 blame 4 everything, here is how my yesterday went:<br />
<br />
1. went 2 bus stop after taking a shower<br />
2. got on bus (327)<br />
3. went 2 school<br />
4. finished drafting project<br />
5. fell asleep in 3rd (chemistry)<br />
6. had 2 draw on a poster 4 5th<br />
7. sleep in 6th (world history Honors)<br />
8. go on afternoon bus (285)<br />
9. watched a fight on the bus<br />
10.got off bus w/ justin in flora parke<br />
11.found out that i was locked out of my friend's house<br />
12.called 4 a ride<br />
13.dad picked me up<br />
14.dad almost runs off the rode b/c he's bitching about my black fingernails<br />
15.get home<br />
16.try 2 do homework<br />
17.more bitch fighting w/ my dad<br />
18.he threatens 2 bash my head n2 the wall<br />
19.get grounded, <i>again</i><br />
20.mom comes home<br />
21.finally get 2 finish homework<br />
22.mom gets drunk<br />
23.another fight<br />
24.door slamming from my bedroom<br />
25.listen 2 the radio <br />
26. trying 2 sleep<br />
<br />
yea thats the usual in my house, always my fault 4 everything that goes wrong, i'm never good enuff 4 them , i bring home a B, "why the fuck didnt u get an A?!" or i clean my room, "why didnt u vacuum ur sister's room?!" ... when we still lived in san mateo i would just leave when things got like this, i would go 2 a friend's house, usually call kaylub, ben or jordan, hang w/ them until things cool off at my house, but then it never does, now i'm living away from all my friends, & i have no refuge from everything that goes on, i could go n2 my room but they come in & scream, i could sneak out my window, but its a 25 ft drop ... theres no escape & i'm sick of it ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>weekend ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 17 Oct 2005 05:37:29 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ well i finally got back 2 san mateo, went 2 dot's where i got grief from a girl i've never even met about the last guy i dated, then i went 2 ben's house where me, him, brandon & my little sister acted like retards, ben & brandon each shaved a leg w/ ben's mohawk razor & we got it on film, priceless, lol, then we all went up 2 the park, saw devin & cody, then my ex (jordan) came by, skated right next 2 me, grabbed my hand & kept going, he almost took my ass 2 the ground, then he left 4 the store & i had 2 go back 2 bum fuck no where, aka nassauville, where i have no friends, except 4 the kid who rides the middle bus, that arent hicks or wiggers (no offense) ... yea my weekend was interesting ... ]]></description>
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                <title>. forget . me .</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 03 Oct 2005 19:00:07 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <b>i feel it on the inside (inside)<br />
twisting & contorting<br />
memory has shaped me once again<br />
still feel you on the inside (inside)<br />
biting through and stinging<br />
will i ever forget to remember?</b><br />
<b>-Mudvayne<i> Forget to Remember</i></b><br />
<br />
. please . forget . me .<br />
<br />
. everyone . else . has . ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>a new 1 ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 29 Sep 2005 05:03:08 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ummm ... i have a new boyfriend ... who would've thot ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>R.I.P.</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 28 Sep 2005 05:21:11 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ a kid at my school named michael odom died this morning from cancer, he was 15 years old, every1 is taking it really badly, we almost lost him about 4 times over the weekend, he has been battling the cancer 4 a long time now ... <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/c/cry.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":'(" title="Crying" /> we all miss him<br />
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                <title>*tear* UPDATE</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 24 Sep 2005 16:12:19 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ we arent fighting n*emore, he's acting normal again, which isnt always a good thing ... a friend pulled sum dirty work 4 me, i didnt really want her 2, but she did, he's liking sum other chick, but yet he IMed 2day & started asking his usual questions ... i so confused <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /> ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>*tear*</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 22 Sep 2005 05:27:30 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ 4 those of u who knew: do u remember a certain guy that i was trying 2 go out w/? well he & i are probably completely over ... we got n2 a HUGE fight yesterday & i'll put up the conversation when i find it in my YM archives ... but it pretty much consisted of us fighting about whether or not he was serious enuff 4 us 2 go out, ... i said he wasnt, he said he was & well things just went down hill from there ... it was extremely ugly ... <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/c/cry.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":'(" title="Crying" /><br />
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x d ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>blah ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 15 Sep 2005 05:09:30 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i'm getting sick ... again ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>fuck this</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 12 Sep 2005 06:31:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ fuck this, fuck every1 & everything ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>damn it!</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 31 Aug 2005 05:32:54 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ damn i'm <i>pissed</i> rob zombie's coming 2 j-ville this wkend & i cant go now bcuz of my dumbass mother, god fucking damn i hate her!!!!!!<br />
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                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>plz stop this: update</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 26 Aug 2005 05:29:35 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ my friend that was beaten up is recovering, he fell back n2 a coma but came back out of it, he is now consicous & can breathe on his own, they took him off of the morphine drip so he's pretty mouthy, which is a good thing, his language has gotten so colorful, its like watching a episode of the Osbournes ... he may get 2 come home in a few days, depending on his x-rays & breathing capabilities, u'd think if he can cuss out the doctors, he could breathe ok, but the doctors dont think its good enuff<br />
<br />
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                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>plz stop this:</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 22 Aug 2005 05:42:58 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i dont know how many of u live in fernandina or watch the news, but this past weekend, a friend of mine was beaten almost 2 death, he & his brother were ganged up on by a group of drunk black (i am not racist) people, they beat him w/ a crowbar & since friday he has been in ICU on life support, last night he came out of a coma & is now breathing on his own, but he has a broken back, neck & ribs, & he may not make it still, his brother has a broken neck & cheek bone from where his face was stomped ... he came out better than quintin, plz this was a racist act so plz help stop this horrible thing, treat people fairly, dont judge by skin alone<br />
<br />
x d<br />
<br />
<br />
PS - 666 pageviews, a record 4 me ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>update ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 16 Aug 2005 05:35:12 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ hey i havnt put a journal in a while, its been a <i>long</i> time, i have a couple new deviations, plz read them, i dont think n*e1 has ... well an update:<br />
<br />
1. my writing got worse<br />
2. i changed schools<br />
3. i'm moving<br />
4. my ex is in prison<br />
5. got my ass kicked at warped tour (i drank m.shadows's [from a7x] water bcuz he threw at us while moshing!!! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":D" title=":D (Big Grin)" />)<br />
6. i'm being harrassed by sum1<br />
<br />
thats pretty much it, sorry 2 bore u ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>wow ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 19 May 2005 11:26:04 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ geez, i just noticed i hadnt put up a  new journal in over a month & even  longer since deviating, but look ya'll  i put sum new 1s up finally ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 12 Apr 2005 07:28:29 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <b><i>if i needed someone to control me<br />
if i needed someone to hold me down <br />
i would change my direction and save  myself before i-<br />
if i needed someone to control me<br />
if i needed someone to push me around<br />
i would change my direction, and save  myself before i-<br />
drown (rolling faster then i'm  breathing) <br />
drown (rolling faster then i'm  breathing) <br />
drown (rolling faster then im breathing)</i></b>  <br />
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2 the parents who beat me & make my life  a living hell ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>damn!</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 05 Apr 2005 07:25:16 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ yesterday was the worst day i think i  have ever had, at about 9:45, my  boyfriend called me, we talked 4 a  while, then he asked me why i was  acting weird (long story) so i  explained 2 him & he felt bad i guess &  we kinda mutually agreed 2 break up, he  still says he luvs me but i dont know  ... n*eways, we talked till about 11:35  then we hung up & i pretty much cried  myself 2 sleep, not sobbing, but the  tears were silently running stlill ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>shit ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 04 Apr 2005 06:38:05 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i just got back from spring break so i  figured i'd update ya'll <br />
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it was really boring 4 most of the  time, i went walking, went 2 <a href="http://www.deathyembers.deviantart.com">mabuba's</a>  house, went 2 busch gardens w/ my  friend's ROTC group (that was  miserable), finally talked 2 my  soon-2-be-ex boyfriend & didnt get 2 go  see 1 of my favorite bands bcuz of my  damn bio H grade ... i'll have 2 write  more later ... gotta go finish nate's  letter ... i'll add more later ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>my b-day</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 17 Mar 2005 10:42:02 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ 2day is my b-day, whahoo (not really)  it sux! the only good thing is that its  a major booze day!! lmao, my friend has  attacked my locker & i broke sum dumbass  leprechaun statue bcuz sum kid dared me  2 ... n*eways, nuthing else new, <i>sum1</i>  had better call 2day ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>new shit</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 03 Mar 2005 11:07:17 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ havnt put a new journal up in a while  so everything that's new:<br />
1. saw my friends <a href="http://www.DeathByEmbers.deviantart.com">kaylub</a> & <a href="http://www.akourah.deviantart.com">ashes</a><br />
2. got torn up at a concert w/ sum  friends<br />
3. got emotionally torn up by an ass<br />
4. got extremly sick w/ a "viral  infection"<br />
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thats pretty much it ... what can i  say? my life is boring ... ]]></description>
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                <title>blah ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 14 Feb 2005 12:15:32 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ u know what? there is a reason i dont  like this day very much ... all my  friend's b/fs get them sumthin or they  atleast get 2 see them, but me with <i>my</i>  luck, ha! yea right! of course, i dont  get 2 see him & of course i probably  wont get a call or n*ething, i'm  royally fucking sick of it ... blah ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>erggg ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 11 Feb 2005 12:04:45 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ today has sucked major ass, i've had a  massive headache all damn day, i need 2  talk 2 a certain <a href="http://www.deathbyembers.deviantart.com">friend</a> & i need 2 <i>sleep</i>  ... oh sleep would be so nice ... i  think i might just <i>try</i> 2 take a nap,  try being the key word there ... ]]></description>
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                <title>ouch!</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 03 Feb 2005 11:16:48 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ow!! i tried 2 re-pierce my lip 2day &  its swollen & it hurts & it's already  re-closed, this is the 5th time i've  pierced it so i thot it'd be fine, but  OUCH!! ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>EWWW!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 25 Jan 2005 12:05:24 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ today sucked major ass, some creepy guy  came up behind me & told me i had a  "nice ass" & he asked me out eewwwww!!  he was <i>soooo</i> ugly!!! i think he needs  his eyes checked bcuz i <i>DONT</i> have a  nice ass ... uhh *shudders in horror*  ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>arwgh</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 14 Jan 2005 12:18:22 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ my day has been an infinate black hell  hole, my hands are bruised & swollen  bcuz i had a boxing match w/ the wall  (my & mom fought so i was whailing on  the wall) & i think i broke my left  knuckle on my hand bcuz itz twice the  size its supposed 2 be, it hurts like  hell 2 type so i am gunna go now<br />
<br />
 XXX diaoni XXX <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/skullbones.gif" width="20" height="20" alt=":skullbones:" title="Skull and Crossbones" /><br />
<br />
PS <a href="http://www.deathbyembers.deviantart.com">[link]</a> - the only person who has  ever been there 4 me w/out prejudice ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>... grrr ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 07 Jan 2005 12:01:24 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ not as bad ... havnt had 2 play oprah 4  a whole day almost ...same old problems  w/ nate, havnt heard 4rm him sooo ... i  dunno, <br />
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                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title> ... ... ... ... ... ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 05 Jan 2005 13:05:22 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ why cant people just leave me alone?! i  am SOO sick of people questioning me  about nate & people who still use my as  their own personal oprah! just leave me  alone about nate! i've been trying not  2 think about nate bcuz i miss him &  when i tried 2 call him 2day he didnt  answer! leave me alone, i am not oprah!  do i look like a black lady w/ huge  hair?! no! do i sit on my ass all day &  listen 2 people bitch about why they  are so confused about guys or why their  boyfriend dumped them cuz they just  dont understand why, deal w/ it!!! i  have my own boyfriend problems & i dont  need 2 deal w/ theirs! my really close  friend  (www.deathbyembers.deviantart.com) i  can understand & i will listen 2 n*ebody  who needs 2 vent, but when u call me @  10:45 in tears cuz sum guy wont talk 2  u online?! deal w/ it, its NOT MY  FUCKING PROBLEM! yes as i said b4, i  will isten 2 n*e1 who needs 2 vent but  dont expect me 2 fix ur problem & then  get mad @ me when i dont! i'm sorry 4  bieng all bitchy but i'm fucking  miserable, in tears & i cant find the  damn pickle jar & i NEED a pickle, they  are my salvation, not really but close  enuff ...<br />
<br />
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                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>why?</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 17 Dec 2004 08:39:40 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ why am i miserable? why do i feel  isolated from all who are close to my  heart? why do if i dont belong here?  the streets even seem to turn against  me, i used to feel at home on the  streets, but no more, i feel like a  stranger, like an unwanted pest, why  does everything seem hostile towards  me? why am i ugly?! why am i fat?! why  am i addicted?! why cant i talk to  anyone? why am i so imperfect?! why  does my heartache? why cant i be  beautiful?! why do i have so many  health problems? why do i feel so  unloved? why do i feel as if no one  cares? i never used to cry, so why now  do i cry every night? why do i sense  betrayal? why am i cursed? why am i so  afraid? why am i here? what is my  purpose? do i even have a purpose? why  do i ache? why must i remain here? ...  i beg for an answer, WHY?! ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title> ... hmmm ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 13 Dec 2004 12:02:03 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ dont ask about the title cuz i dunnot  know where that came from, i finally  got an avator, my friend kaylub made it  4 me, check out her site <a href="http://DeathByEmbers.deviantart.com">[link]</a> ... my  other friend candice made 1 2 but i  dunnot think she put n*ething on it yet  but look at it n*ewayz <a href="http://brainwashed_angel.deviantart.com">[link]</a> <br />
... there is nothing more ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title>my life is turmoil</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 07 Dec 2004 07:05:04 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i am on the edge of another breakdown,  if i do break down this will be the 3rd  time bcuz i hav wa 2 much going on, i  know i'm being really bitchy but this  is killing me, literally, ... sorry  kaylub, i tried 2 OD 2day but all that  happened was that i passed out & slept  thru 2 periods, i feel so stupid but i  didnt know what 2 do, i'm almost in  tears ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title> ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 06 Dec 2004 06:33:23 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ again my life is my hell, my cat died  yesterday & i have way 2 much shit 2  deal w/ on top of that & there a lot of  people at my school giving me shit bcuz  of what kind of music i listen 2 & what  i look like & a lot of other shit & i  dont need this right now & i mite add  that i am SO fucking sick of these  preppy little girls who used 2 go 2  school w/ me spilling their guts about  why their boyfriend dumped them I AM  NOT OPRAH!! leave me the fuck alone!!!  ... damn i really needed 2 get that off  my chest ... ]]></description>
                <author>~harvestXmoon</author>
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                <title> ...</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 01 Dec 2004 08:27:54 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ nothing much has changed in my life ...  sorry 4 all the bitching ...<br />
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                <title>...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 29 Nov 2004 12:15:14 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i hate my life, i have had such a bad  time with everything, so far everything  has gone wrong, nothing has gone right,  no one understands me where i go 2  school, my "family" doesnt give a rar's  ass about my happiness, which has been  non-existent, i havnt heard from my  "boyfriend" in 4 weeks & i dont know how  much longer i'm gunna last w/ all the  shit going on in this temperary land of  pergatory ... oly goddess, i need ur  guidance now <br />
~so mote it be<br />
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