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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/18694375/ Tue, 10 Jun 2008 08:10:28 PDT

Stressed but damn happy

I got a new laptop!! Look: [link]

I came home today and there is was! YAY! Now to finish projects I still have left on school; go to JapanTag; pass this schoolyear and GO VACATION! ^^







Hey; I have a few things to say.

All my photos have been deleted from this account and shall be re-uploaded on my other account ~pastpresentandfuture. I hope that those of you who like my photos will watch that account as well and (re-)fave/comment my photos.

School is only 2-3 more weeks for me and after that I think I will re-upload my drawings and upload the new ones. Expect to be spammed.

This vacation I shall work more on my cosplay. I will be going to Japan Tag in Germany;Dusseldorf and I will be going to a cosplay-meeting Juli 26th. I will upload photos of both days on my photobucket account and pass on the link in a journal.


xx
Love Neko.


PS; My subscription has almost ended. Does anyone around here have too much money? xD I'll gladly use it >:3

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~hontokawaiinekochan http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/18619932/ http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/18619932/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 11:42:25 PDT

Come to the dark side..

Well; I made another plushie. Took me 2-3 hours. (Many small breaks due to things happening)

Here's the link! [link]



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Well; it’s finally finished. I have my own Beezlenef. You can see it in my latest ID, or just click here >> [link] <<

I still need to add the pupils, but don’t feel like it right now xD; I think it’s a very good first try, you? Will post pictures in the future..when I maybe made a few other expressions or something. Don’t know yet.


I’m thinking about maybe making my own plushie-thingiejs. But I have no idea what to actually make. I don’t have much fabrics..(not planning on buying extra when not needing it for anything else).

So yeah…any cute plushies I might know? XD
<333
Love to hear; byebye
Neko

PS: Subscription is nearing its end; I got pretty attached to it. A shame it’s done with soon –sigh-



A few current projects:

x Vexen's Shield
x HBRC-Card (KH2)
x Neko tail
x Nekozawa Beezlenef (A hand-voodoo-doll-cat)
- Neko ears
- Nekozawa cape
- Axel Streetstyle
- Axel Chakrams – 2 new ones

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~hontokawaiinekochan http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/18574474/ http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/18574474/ Fri, 30 May 2008 10:08:07 PDT

and he’s back...

Ok; so my dad is just home for about 15 minutes now. After 5 months of sailing/marine. Before he’s even really inside I get several things pushed in my arms:

- Manga Studio Debut 3.0
- 2 turbans
- a small pyramid
- lucky blue stone
- PS2 controller
- PS2 remote control
- his camera that’s now mine!


Like: WOW! That’s..just..lucky! Right? I’m stunned. Totally stunned. I have several questions for him in return...now waiting for him to sit down so I can ask them.

- minutes later -

ok...I didn’t get a clear answer on the transport to Japan Day...but I have hope..just hope. However he’s almost certain to bring me and a friend to a friend for a week! YAY!

So anyway; expect photos and stuff coming up!!!
And my final Project CKV1 is gonna be fun ^^

Xxx Neko

PS: Subscription is nearing its end; I got pretty attached to it. A shame it’s done with soon –sigh-



A few current projects:

x Vexen's Shield
x HBRC-Card (KH2)
x Neko tail
- Neko ears
- Nekozawa Beezlenef (A hand-voodoo-doll-cat)
- Nekozawa cape
- Axel Streetstyle
- Axel Chakrams – 2 new ones

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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/18428270/ Thu, 22 May 2008 10:58:09 PDT

7,700 views!

I got the permission from my mum to go with two of my friends. The only question left is...does my dad allow me..and is he maybe willing to drive us so we don't have to pay for the traintickets?

In any way - I'm going to try everything I got to go!! Now I was wondering who else maybe goes? (hehe; never before could I ask such a thing)

For those of you interested: [link]

So yeah; just let me know...I'll update when I got the final answer. Next week friday my dad will return home >3<






For my 'art'class (CKV1) I have to do a final-project. I've decided to take photos of things, because I love doing that and it's nice practice at the same time!

The thing is; I don't really know what to take photos of. The idea is that I bike around town, looking for things that are there; people KNOW they are there...but...they never catch your attention.

Example:
Nearby my home, we have a small little church. People never think about it or even mention it. If I ask someone 'Do you know that church?'... many will say 'huh...what church?' But as soon as I tell directions, they all go like 'Oh yeah; that!'

Now I'm trying to come up with anything that I could possibly make photos of. I already have lots of nature-spots, but I'm kinda searching for a spot which could be found in a city as well.

Main question:
Can you come up with a place that you will find in a city, which people will unconsiously know that are there....but not know at the same time? (Like how I tried to describe in my example)

I know you may not know my city, but I am just hoping some of you have a thing that can be found in every city. If anything - it could help me with thinking up new things.

Thanks in advance;
Xxx Neko

PS; June 14th there's a Japan Day in Germany, a place nearby. I'm so hoping I'm able to go there!! *hopes dad is willing to drive* Me and 2 of my friends...we're sooooo looking forward to that. Eventhough nothing is certain yet xD




A few current projects:

x Vexen's Shield
x HBRC-Card (KH2)
- Neko ears
- Nekozawa Beezlenef (A hand-voodoo-doll-cat)
- Nekozawa cape
- Axel Streetstyle
- Axel Chakrams – 2 new ones

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~hontokawaiinekochan http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/18213397/ http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/18213397/ Wed, 07 May 2008 14:54:27 PDT

Random Facts

I got tagged by and because I was bored I decided to do this. Like said; BORED>...so instead of just facts they have some elaboration as well.

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The rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person should post 8 facts of themselves.
3. Tagged people should write a Journal\Blog about these facts.
4. In the end, tag and name 8 more people.
5. Go to their DA pages and comment saying that they are tagged.
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1:
When I’m in an anime mood; I watch at least about 100 episodes in 4 days. (Did 101 in 4 days this past week)

2:
I’m a very uncertain person.
I need to know what people think about the things I do. Comments and Faves on my art really help out a lot. That I couldn’t upload any of my drawings by lack of camera really put a stop to my inspiration.

3:
I am good at hiding my emotions.
I seem to be very easy to read and people often think I keep nothing to myself; but by pretending I talk a lot about myself, people don’t notice how much I’m holding back. It takes my closest friends months to find out what’s really bothering me.

4:
I am doubting if I’m straight/bi.
I do have a nice, loving BF...but I can’t help wonder if maybe I’m not into girls as well. My family say I’m not. But honestly...they can’t just know .. right? They’re acceptive about it though, so I don’t fear if the outcome is that I’m indeed into girls. (No offense to my BF at all; I love him a lot! Wouldn’t want to change it.)

5:
I see myself very negatively.
My view about myself is very different than what others think about me. I find myself too much of an perfectionist, selfish, too impulsive, impatienced, blind to obvious facts, childish. But friends describe me as fun, sweet, down to earth, friendly, lively. I –am- slowly changing my views. And that’s mostly what this fact is about: I’m trying hard to change my views. (I’m not an emo-kid after all xD)

6:
I’m never really have an opinion of my own.
I’m always pro and against something at the same time. I also tend to change my opinion a lot. I am trying to get better at formulation my own opinion. I can’t continously pick other people’s opinions as my own after all.

7:
I care about friends and family a lot. (
Aside from my father...) It hurts me a lot to see any of them get hurt. However; I enjoy helping everyone, eventhough I don’t always show it.

8:
I sleep little because I have too many hobbies.
I only sleep about 5 hours a night, just so I have enough time to spend on my hobbies. I don’t have any troubles, but people often comment about how I should sleep more. I just don’t need a lot of sleep...and people find me very strange for that. (I find it rather normal.)


I don’t really know who to tag, but I hope that whoever reads this will at least comment...and maybe do this tag as well.




A few current projects:

x Vexen's Shield
x HBRC-Card (KH2)
- Neko ears
- Nekozawa Beezlenef (A hand-voodoo-doll-cat)
- Nekozawa cape
- Axel Streetstyle
- Axel Chakrams – 2 new ones

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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/18070588/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 01:32:38 PDT

Past 3 days

I finished Vexen's Shield. Only costed me €4,- for white and blue paint. Cardboard we still had. Took me about 12 hours to make. Started yesterday after noon; finished today before noon. Minus sleep and random boucning around = Less than 12 hours xD

I'm very proud on it. I will make a photo whenever I can. And I will most likely put on white/blue clothes to fit the mood >:3 (Female Vexen oh boy..)

Can't wait to show you guys. I love it to death! :hugs shield:



Hey everyone! I’m so very happy at this moment. ^-^

Ever since my friend and I started watching Demyx Time, we’ve been obsessed with cosplay all over again. She’s going to do a Demyx while I’m going to do Axel. Because she’s currently in the middle of trying to get slim, she won’t buy things..untill she’s reached what she wants. I can already search clothes. This is also nice, because we can do each in our own paces this way.

Today we went to the centrum to go look for what’s around to use for cosplay. We found nice things and I bought a lot. But all for the purpose of cosplay for once!

I have a few projects right now; listed here:

x Vexen's Shield
- HBRC-Card (KH2)
- Neko ears
- Nekozawa Beezlenef (A hand-voodoo-doll-cat)
- Nekozawa cape
- Axel Streetstyle


What I bought today:

- Headband for Neko ears
- Red/black with a skull - armwarmers
- Black cool gloves
- White/Blue paint for Vexen’s shield

Shar bought me a candle of a red eight, while I bought her a blue nine xD!

After spending 3 hours in the centrum buying things, we went to my place and discussed possibilities. We –might- buy a real organisation coat. Depends on a lot of things...but it will take a looong while. (Very expensive).

Shar came up with a cool pattern for some pants. I will make a drawing and such and show after May or something. In short: Streetstyle Axel will be okay!
Though the wig is a biiiiig problem so far =/.

We’ll see how it’ll end. So far things are going great! And wednesday we shall make sea salt ice-cream! YAY!

Also – linked to the cosplay – each day I’m going to try do something new or different. I have troubles accepting changes...so even brushing my hair in a different way feels very akward for me. That’s exactly what I did today. I never change my hair! I only got positive comments. Confidence +6 xD

That’s all for now; ask if you have any questions!! I hope my Axel cosplay will look decent. I think it will be my first finished one. Though I want to do a Nekozawa as well.


xxx Neko

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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/17953685/ Tue, 22 Apr 2008 09:02:23 PDT

Small update

Alright. I've been working on my gallery today seeing I was sick at home again. I deleted photo's that weren't that good or loved. However; if you want you can still watch them. I've made my own website on freewebs and I will upload the stuff that didn't make it to my gallery.

It's not quite done but you could take a look at it occasionally. I'll upload other photo's as well.

Freewebs - Photos

Let me know what you think by commenting this journal or leaving a message in my guestbook.

Also; what do you guys think about me uploading my wallpapers to that site? DeviantArt continues to delete them..so it could be a solution. Let me know!



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I adjusted my journal, which you might have noticed when you opened this page. I sorted out all my friends and people who I watch and currently I'm re-organizing my gallery as well.

Just one week left before I have 2 weeks vacation. I’m going to make sea salt ice-cream again, go to a show(Cabaret) and have several sleepovers.

End May, my dad will be back from his trip, so expect more updates from me in June. If you’re curious to what kind of stuff I’ve drawn, check the descriptions here: [link]

Thank you all for not leaving me eventhough I upload near nothing.
Hopefully I won’t dissapoint you when I can upload again.

Oh, btw – I will re-upload my older drawings. Make new photo’s etc. But first the new stuff And delete the stuff that's just nonsense.

Love you lots!
Neko

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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/17893170/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 09:08:10 PDT

When you think it can't get worse.....

Forum is okay, school is okay – everything taken care off. Now if only my laptop and I were..

My laptop’s plug ain’t functioning right, so I can’t go on it anymore. No more days in the couch lounging ;_;

On another happier note – I got naruto Keychains! Here you can see them: [link]

I totally love them! And because Sasuke misses and arm, the woman I got them from send me Zabuza for free! (It will be shipped today/tomorrow!) Yay for me!

Xx Neko

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When you think it can't get worse.....

The forum is back up and my laptop suddenly was normal again. Aka: GOT MY DOCUMENTS! I still don't know what happened.

Cried more today at school, but one classmate said to me what I needed to hear the most. Unlike last schoolyear - I'm not alone. This year, I have support. This is so much better..


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The same guy I mentioned earlier? Well, he hacked a member's account and used it to delete about 90% of the forum. Thankfully I spoke to one of our moderators who quickly deactivated him. Hope we still have a back up of the forum. It's destroyed T_T

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When you think things can’t get worse, they do.

My laptop…I think it crashed. All my documents are GONE! I miss so much now. Also, the forum which I’m member of, has been hacked by a furious member who totally ruined it. Thank god the moderators cleared it up in a day. However, said person hated me…apparently. So he erased mine and my BF’s posts. So topics made by me…only the reactions are still there. Just lovely. NOT.

School…teachers “understand” my situation. As if. But they are considerate. Glad they are, because last schoolyear they weren’t!

I feel down, tired, upset, pissed and all kinds of things right now. I just want to be left alone, but people don’t seem to understand that. Many also think I’m not sick. Well DUH! You can’t SEE tiredness. You can FEEL it though!! WANNA HAVE IT?! of course, can’t possibly yell that. -_-

I’ll end this frustrated rant. I just want this shit to stop..
On a happier note, I ordered Naruto Keychains and today I bought Vol 4,5,6 from Godchild.

Xx Neko

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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/17760808/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 09:12:26 PDT

SO extremely tired

I guess I haven't been updating my journal that much as of late. I'm sorry for those who actually liked reading them (I doubt it though).

I have reasons for this. 2 Weeks ago I had a sleepover at a friend'splace with other friends. It was real fun and we made lots of films and photo's as blackmail. But as I left there on Sunday, I started to feel sick. I had cold fever when I came home and was beyond tired. Yet I had to do my job.

The monday after I got up and could barely manage to open my eyes. So I called in sick from school and stayed home. The days after I continued to be tired and have a constant fever. But what worried me the most was the tiredness. Today is my 10th day feeling this way. My second week away from school.

I know this is exactly the same as what I had end last schoolyear. I'm too tired to do a lot and everything I do is just sit/lie on the couch all day. Time seems to fly yet it crawls ahead as I have little to do. I miss my friends, I miss hanging with them at school, I miss outside. I'm so scared that I will have to face the same thing as end last schoolyear. So, so scared.

I failed that year because I had missed too much classes and my grades dropped down drastically. This year I had to do a lower level, and up untill now my grades are...Ok. But I'm missing things again now. My mum called school to see the best thing I could do.

I need to study at home. Made a friend bring books that were still in my locker. Next week I can see if I'm able to go to school at certain hours of the day, so I can at least catch my most important ones. But the ride to and from school is so tiring alone, not to mention having to focus in the classes, have many people around me.

Normally I do 5 things at once, now I have troubles doing just one. I'm so glad when a friend stops by to check up, but when they leave I feel drained. It's just not fun.

I'm non-stop online, just to have some distraction as I lay here. Catching up with friends that way. Sometimes a friend stays here for a sleepover. Now a dear friend of mine told me that people on school were asking about me. My friend also told me some remarks that have been made.

Thing like, the fact I have people sleepover. I'm so glad for the distraction but some see them the wrong way. They think that if I'm able to have a sleepover, I might just as well go to school.

It hurts so much to know people don't understand, eventhough you tried explaining so much. I ignore the best I can, but it's just hard. Right now I just wish I could get back to school, wish to see all of my friends, wish that I wouldn't feel tired.

thank you, if you read it all.

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My other online friends, whom I also love dearly!<... ]]> ~hontokawaiinekochan http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/17509694/ http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/17509694/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 13:24:44 PDT

Birthday and Eastern

Late happy eastern btw!

My birthday party kicked ass. My friends and I had fun, photo’s have been made and lots lots more!! I’m so soryr I didn’t update before but I had too much to do.

Today I bought more manga. Shaman king Vol 9-13 and 20th Century Boys Vol 7. I also helped my friend Sharonna clean up her room. We started with no empty space…we ended with plenty. >:3 I’m good!

She is planning on starting a manga/anime colection. Muwhahahaa!

I’m so tired right now. Almost got hit by a car today -_-; Nice …

Anyway, that much for the update now. I’m too tired to give a decent one. Want to see the photo’s? Ask on msn or send me a comment and I’ll give you a few links xD!

LOVE~
Neko

PS: in march the spring starts right? WRONG. We have snow. SNOW!! It's just...weird..... normally even in winter we barely have this much snow.

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~hontokawaiinekochan http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/17410644/ http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/17410644/ Wed, 19 Mar 2008 13:23:38 PDT

Happy birthday to me xD

Today rocked. As simple as that.

It started with realising I had forgotten to put my alarm on. I woke only 10 minutes later than usual though. At school, time flew. People wished me a happy birthday and it was fun. Finally I was able to go home. Sharonna, DK and Joes were going to spend the day at my place. Seeing today was my official birthday.

When DK and Joes arrived, me and Sharonna were just about to start our lunch. (DK and Joes were out earlier) While having lunch I opened some cards I had received. One from my grandma, one from some person I really don’t know and a printed email from my dad. And the most shocking: In that email my dad told that I’d get his old camera as soon as he is back!

I WILL HAVE A CAMERA! In 2.5 months.

I cried to be honest. But anyways, after dinner we played a silly game. To lose meant to win. It kept us busy for 1 to 2 hours. Up next we went to the city. I wanted to spend the money I had xD. I seriously have a hole in my wallet. But I’ll start saving as soon as I’ve bought a few things that are on my list for a while now.

I bought KH2-Vol1, English version. I gave sharonna the dutch version I already had. As an ‘early’ birthday present for her. I hate dutch manga

And I bought Karas: The Prophecy DVD Vol 1 (Ep 1-3) It’s a really cool anime so far o_o can’t wait to someday watch ep 5-6.

And that’s today in a nutshell. Friday I will have an anime-marathon with Sharonna and on saturday I’ll celebrate my birthday xD. Today was more like a gathering with friends. Though the same will be here saturday...and a few others

Seventeen. Great way to start it!

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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/17392830/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 10:14:38 PDT

Happy birthday to me xD

Heylo!

Lots to tell but little energy xD. It’s been a busy time lately but so much fun.

Today I went to a museum with school. It’s was really fun. It was modern art, but a lot was outside. So cool! This one for example, was very very cool! Jardin d’email

But I won’t stick to this subject too long. Ask me in a comment if you want to know more xD.

Another thing: TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!

I’ll turn 17 ^^. I’ll hang out with friends and then Friday, sharonna shall be here to have an anime-marathon. And Saturday I shall celebrate it with friends+family ^^.

Can’t wait! I will most likely buy a few copic markers (greytones most likely) from the money ^^

Lovelove, Neko


PS: I'm almost at 7,000 pageviews! Thank you all very, very much

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~hontokawaiinekochan http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/17222408/ http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/17222408/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 10:04:32 PST

Happy yet yuck

Ok, so I got Loveless the manga complete. And yay – I even have both the Wolf’s Rain manga’s. And let’s not forget the new wristband. But does this stop my buying spree? No waii!

The past 4 days I’ve been to the Stripfanaat (comic shop) 3 times. Two days ago I bought an old ‘Aniway’ (Magazine about anime, manga, Jpop, games etc.) ...As birthday present sharonna bought me Strawberry Panic! Volume 1 ....and I bought myself something cool.

Death Note – Another Note, The Los Angeles BB murder cases.

A novel adaption of the series has been written by Ishin Nishio, called Death Note: Another Note. It serves as a prequel to the manga series, with Mello narrating the story of L's first encounter with Naomi Misora during the Los Angeles "BB Serial Murder Case" mentioned in volume 2 of the manga. Beside Naomi's character, the novel focuses on how L works. Insight was given into Watari's orphanage and how the whole system of geniuses such as L, Mello and Near were put to work.

So I’m pretty happy right now! I also bought myself a bell, for my neko cosplay. (Though how I will end up looking is still a bit unknown). Sharonna is going to be my opposite. Am I black – she will be white. But as said – still unsure.

Sharonna also showed me a cool shop today. And guess what? THEY HAD COPIC MARKERS!!!!!

€6,25 a piece. Dang expensive. I might buy a black and several grey ones someday. Really depends.

Xxx, lovelove
Neko

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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/17175773/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 06:44:56 PST

Happy yet yuck

Let’s start with the yuck stuff.

My testweek started and so far it goes.. ‘ok’. Not good, not bad. But things change as they go. My bloodresults – they found nothing. So I’m a big exception on things. I do have a high iron level(?) in my blood, but that causes no harm. Can only do good.

Well, on to the happy stuff!

Musie-nee-chan had send me a Fella, but it arrived on my friend’s (Milou) adress. Because I’m not allowed to use my own adress for it. Anywayz, she finally gave it to me. (she had received it weeks ago =_=;; )

Also, my friend DK gave me a headset for my birthday already. And from my uncle/mum I received an extern memory 500GB. (Which already has been stuffed with 200GB anime)
From Sharonna I’d get Loveless Volume 5, if we could find a good one over the internet. It just wasn’t available around here!

Today I went to the city and I saw volume 5! Now I have it. Joes bought it for me, instead of Sharonna.
Earlier today Loveless Vol 4 + Wolf’s Rain vol1+2 arrived. I’m so happy!!

My birthday is March 19th, but already got half of it xD.

And for those who wan’t – I have the complete Loveless manga. (Up to Volume 9, Chapter 5) Fan-translated. I heard Volume 10 soon will be out in Japan. I could upload the manga+artbook for those wanted.

I also bought a Anti-leaf Naruto wristband. See here: [link]

That’s all for now. Love you all!
Neko


I HAVE LOVELESS COMPLETE YAY![/happyscream]

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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/17127955/ Sat, 01 Mar 2008 04:44:12 PST

Work? Urgh

I'm trying to put all my favourites in different collections. But now the most problematic thing: I have 26 pages with favourites. And each page display 120 deviations. (yay for subscription xD)

I'm not one to have patience....and dang..this is such boring work! But I guess in the end it makes it easier to re-find things I love the most! -coughyaoicough-

My manga still hasn't arrived. Dangit. I want my loveless and wolf's rain!!

Oh, and I rewatched the whole anime loveless yesterday. The past 2 days I have made 2 new loveless drawings. And I'm rather proud on it. I made a special file for my loveless drawings and looking back at the ones I already made - I've improved!

Made me so happy ^^. I'm also spreading the love. loveless the anime stops right where the fun begins. READ THE MANGA PEOPLE! (I can give you a link to download everything if wanted!)

And upcoming monday I will most likely get to know the results from the hospital about my blood etc.. urgh..

Lovelove!
Neko

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What next?

Yesterday I went to the doctor again, because I keep having this tired feeling. It isn't in periods, it's just constant by now. So my mum wanted my blood tested AGAIN.

I'm getting tired of it. I am so afraid for needles. (They once had to do it over and over again when I was 14. Stupid doctors on the childs-department. Thankfully my mum takes me to another wing in the hospital to let it be done now.)
I will get the result end this week. My mum thinks I may have 'Amenia' (bloedarmoede) or 'Diabetes' (suikerziekte).

How much "fun" it will be to have that ON TOP of my PCOS. Can't wait [/sarcasm]

And I got my period again. This is the second time now. On one side it's nice to know it fuctions properly again, on the otherside - not getting it saved me lots of trouble. I have major cramps, this is my second day home. -sigh-

On a happier note, I ordered some manga and can't wait for it to arrive. Wolf's Rain 1+2 and loveless 4. Now I can only wait for it to arrive.

Lovelove!
Neko

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<... ]]> ~hontokawaiinekochan http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16960069/ http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16960069/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 10:44:56 PST

Have had enough

Dear diary,
yours truly is really fed up with school.
It has been quite the bother recently and
it does nothing but frustrate yours truly.
Yours truly is having frequent anger-issues, because of it.

I feel so fed up with school, it's just not normal anymore. The assignment we have to do? WHAT IS THE POINT?! No really, what is the point! A familytree....wtf? As if that matters for our carreer!

And let's not talk about those assignment that have totally nothing to do with anything and don't even deliver us a nice grade!

There's nothing that challenges me anymore and really, it's boring if half of your class thinks that england is a FLOATHING ISLAND! How blond can they get?! Of course it's not floathing on the frigging water!!

My mentor said he'd try motivate me..well..I wish him luck. Doing a lower level than you CAN really makes one demotivated. I have an anger-rant everyday by now and I just can't help but feel frustrated, irritated and loads more.

More of my friends say the same: We still have the feeling this schoolyear has to start, while it is almost done for! We have a feeling we haven't learned a fucking thing yet this year.

It sucks.

On another note - I've picked up my keyboard again. Learning myself 3 songs atm:
Dango Daikazoku - Clannad, You're not Alone! - FinalFantasy9, My will - Inuyasha (this one I knew once, but I completely forgot it )

Also, I have the L-theme. But it proves to be difficult to play it at the correct speed. And I will soon try and start play Alumina by Nightmare (death note)

Enough of my ranting I guess

Lovelove!
Neko

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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16879313/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 10:40:49 PST

So funny!!

Ok, so last week was lots of fun. I had many friends stay over. (Some my mum didn’t know would sleepover. But it wasn’t a trouble ^^) And we had lots of fun and hang out. I even had a meeting with a guy from the forum with my other friends. We all have an account on said forum XD lol. It was really fun and as I have mentioned once .. stepmania is fun! XD Sorry this update ain’t much but…I don’t feel like typing the whole week down.

Today’s valentines day so: HAPPY VALENTINE!

The forum has 4 couples from now on. So fun! I found my own valentine some days ago. And I love him lotsa~! He’s sweet, cute, funny everything ^_^Teehee~ And I’m glad my friend also has found her someone ^^. On school they do thise rose-action..but I received none. But there’s a funny story attached!

Kairi4e gave me a paper with an image of a rose on it. From Lenn! That was so cute! He wasn’t on time to make kairi buy a real rose (the roseaction thing), but that matters not! This rose won’t die ^^.

Some guy from the forum asked me to get some chocolate and give it to kairi with a card attached. But he lives in another city (And lenn lives in another country T_T), so I had to do it. He was too late for the roseaction as well.

So to sum it up: Kairi gave me my valentine from my bf…and I gave kairi her valentine from her bf. (though the fact they became bf came later XD)

And I stole a rose from Rik. He was about to trow it away. (He received it from another guy as a joke). So I pretend it’s from lenn. I love this whole day!

I don’t think….Valentine finally got a meaning to me. Though I still don’t like the day THAT much

Love you all!

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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16796172/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 07:14:01 PST

Do you know me?

Hey! This week has been just wow. So much has happened. Right now I feel tired and I don’t feel like typing every little thing down. But I will soon I guess.

On my profile page I found 2 messages from =SecretAdmirerPlz and I wonder whom they are from. It’s sweet though ^^

Today I bought some stuff and I’m proud that I now own the Naruto Artbook! Yay! And I got some dragonballZ manga from my friend lol. Oh well

Oh, and I have stepmania from now on. I wonder if I will ever get good. My coördination has sucked ever since I was a child. It’s fun though. X3

Bye bye for now! And till the next update lol!

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~hontokawaiinekochan http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16726547/ http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16726547/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 16:25:06 PST

Do you know me?

Do you think you know me? Go check it out here and let me know your results.
[link]

I will give an update around the end of this week about how this whole week went. Thus far I already had a sleepover/lots of anime etc

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~hontokawaiinekochan http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16674320/ http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16674320/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 12:47:01 PST

My day in short

Yesterday:
I found a pattern for my nekozawa cape and I made a paper Beezlenef. So that’s going to be fine!

School:
Today at school was lots of fun. I was happy and kairi4e was constantly attacked by poking friends! In our English class Joost used a bloodpil and made the teacher go like “Is this real or fake?!” I was the only girl of the class to know about the joke. Only the guys knew
My teacher ART gave me more tips for my cosplay I feel like I will manage!

After school:
Birthday grandpa, went away pretty quickly for I was death-tired and not feeling well. Better now though. Went onto internet and WHOAH! I made an account on a forum and suddenly many replies+msn-adds and shit. It was fun but.. a 4 hour msn convo with 3-5 people is tiring o.o.
And I didn’t understand half of what was said. But it will be fine as soon as I get to know them better.
Half of the forum is dutch lol! XD

And my reno wallpaper has been removed. Stupid copyright violation-thing >=[

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~hontokawaiinekochan http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16639789/ http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16639789/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 07:13:20 PST

Nekozawa

I’m going to cosplay. It’s finally decided! At first I thought…if I wait till I’m grown up, have money – than I can go to a big convention. However almost half of my friends are already cosplaying and I feel a bit…left behind..ya know? They’re always talking about things I have yet to experience

But I finally found a character I’d love to do! From ouran high school host club I’m going to do Nekozawa+Beelzenef.[link] I will have so much fun XD I think. Emo-like lol. Well, don’t know how long it will take me to get the costume done. But I’m going to try do it as real as I can without having to do too much for it. It’s still going to be my 1st cosplay ever so don’t expect too much out of it lol.

Aside from that – yesterday i trew out frustrations by making fake-blood (paint), and make bloody handprints and shit. Turned out so realistic!

Another thing - With my birthday (march 19th) I will get an external memory 500GB! Cool huh? Lots of anime to put on THAT ^_^

I have so many drawings to upload o_o; It seems that camera away means inspiration all the more

Well, I just hope I won't be bothering you whenever I have a camera. I could spam XD lol.

BTW! Here is the list of everything you can be expecting: [link]

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~hontokawaiinekochan http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16608120/ http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16608120/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 06:34:07 PST

It hurts so much

And every time I think I've finally made it,
I learn I'm farther away than I've ever been before.
I see the clock and it's ticking away,
and the hourglass' empty,
What the fuck do I have to say!

I'm afraid I'm falling farther away,
I'm falling farther away,
I'm falling farther from where I want to be.
I'm afraid I'm falling farther away,
I'm falling farther away,
I'm falling farther away!


Trapt - Still Frame

Anywayz, that's kinda how I feel. Today I got very pissed and angry for no reason. Normally I cry when not happy..but today I went crazy. After P.E. (Nothing bad happened)..I sat down in the corner where we spend breaktime and started sketching. My lines were rough, quick...all anger directed into the drawing. This weekend has been inspirational, but anger helps a lot as well.

Yesterday for example, I made a very cool cat-eye with waterpaint. In my anger I sketched one today with pencil. After I calmed a bit i made another drawing of something.

However - I feel a bit fucked up again. It may be because I don't know what to do with myself, concerning my illness stuff and unhappy moments. Maybe it's just my end of my period that makes me like this. Nothing to worry about, just felt like ranting.

Another thing - With my birthday (march 19th) I will get an external memory 500GB! Cool huh? Lots of anime to put on THAT ^_^

I have so many drawings to upload o_o; It seems that camera away means inspiration all the more

Well, I just hope I won't be bothering you whenever I have a camera. I could spam XD lol.

BTW! Here is the list of everything you can be expecting: [link]

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~hontokawaiinekochan http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16562758/ http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16562758/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 08:00:36 PST

It hurts so much

So yesterday I went to the doctor. My mother wanted to know at least 5 things from him.
- Is it bad if I don’t sleep a lot. (I only sleep 7-5 hours a night. Most of the time just 5 XD)
- I have a pressure on my head frequently.
- I ate nothing and suddenly no matter how much I ate I kept being hungry
- I was tired again lately
- My period – is it normal to have that painful cramps if you never had them before

I was like: Ok, I have cramps. Who cares. Sure I have a slight pressure on my head..but seriously..who cares. Eating? It is annoying but..not harmful. And sleep…I do fine without so why sleep more if it makes me slow?

The doctor confirmed all that. The eating was just a side-effect of PMS-ing. My sleep habits can do no harm. In fact.. a lot of sleep isn’t that good for people >=3 TAKE THAT MUM! 5 hours of sleep a night. Meaning I can go to bed 2 am at a normal school-day without worries

And my neck muscles are tense and stressed. Causing the head pressure. Nothing too bad!

Putting this aside, I started cleaning my room today. I have given away many plushies () and small stuff. I threw away lots of junk I really never look at anymore and slowly but steadily my room got less stuffed. I had been having problems with my room before, because it’s a small room. Yesterday my mum spoiled me by buying me a light blue 5-drawer-waist-tall plastic thing. It fit in nicely and it saved me room! She also bought me a kitty bedcover

However, now I have thrown/given away so much..I have way more space left! I only filled 1 drawer and my closet is still a bit empty. And before I used my closet for all anime stuff and paper + painting things.

I’m very happy, even though I’ve been home for 3 days again, just because of those persistent cramps I’m having.

Oh! And I selected more of my photo’s that I am willing to put up as print. So keep an eye out!

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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16531516/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 04:18:23 PST

It hurts so much

Today started like any other. I went to school, was a bit bored and was sooo (not) looking forward to my free period. One hour of sitting and waiting for it to pass. I was having light stomach aches yesterday evening. This morning I had none until I arrived at school. They slowly turned into cramps and hurt. I sat through my first class; History and was glad that the first break started. I stood with my friends but I got really distracted by the cramps I was having.

Soon the break ended and I sat down for my hour of waiting for the next class to start, not having anything to do. Two friends, Laura & Joes, were there as well thankfully..but I was groaning from pain by then. Went to the toilet finally only to find out my period had started. Now is this nothing weird for girls, but I haven’t had one since 1/1,5 year ago. PCOS is a thing I have, which makes it less frequent or rare for me to have PMS. So I cried from happiness because it was good news for me.

However, a few minutes later I cried from the pain. I was feeling feverish as well, but that wasn’t because of a fever. Just a side-effect due to PMS. I kept walking circles in the corner we’re always sitting. Joes and Laura were kinda helpless as I was still groaning from pain. Ten minutes before the free periode would end, I called home..telling my mother about it. By then Joost had sat down in the corner as well. All three saw how I flipped as I talked to my mother. I was crying and shaking..

My mum told me I could come home and that I could stay home tomorrow as well. She also mentioned going to the doctor and let them take some blood to check it out. I don’t want to stay home! I want to go to school! I have been calling sick a lot lately, mostly the last hours for I was too tired. But fine, now I have my period..constant stomach ache and cramps. And it sucks. Eventhough I am happy that I can still have children of my own.

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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16518694/ Tue, 22 Jan 2008 09:58:29 PST

Announcements

Well, I found it time for a new journal. I have reached my 6,000 pageviews. Thanks to all of you who made it possible! I’d give you all a thank you gift, if I had a camera. But seeing I have none I find it pointless to make something that will be near forgotten 5 months from now.

I have so much more new stuff to upload. I decided to give it a small journal where I keep posting whenever I drew something new. You can check it out whenever for I won’t let it alert you guys.

I am working on chapter two from Evolution of the soul – bittersweet-prod as well. I hope I’ll be able to finish it soon, have it beta-read and upload. And I hope we can soon give you the joy of more stories!

Started cleaning my room. Gawd what a mess. Though I did manage to put more things away on places where it’s easier for me to reach them. Now I only need to get rid of all the junk –still- left from my childhood days

I went to bed 2am last night. I had school today which meant 7am, getting out. However, I was wide-awake when I finally got myself to leave. I was about to enter my own room when my mom appeared. She woke up. Oops… She only said one thing: It’s 2am lady, you have school tomorrow. I replied that I was wide awake.

This morning I woke up wide-awake immediately. I’ve never been this awake for a few weeks now. It was a nice change of pace!

Neko out, for now.

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http://hontokawaiinekochan.deviantart.com/journal/16518687/ Tue, 22 Jan 2008 09:57:39 PST

Drawings that need to be uploaded

This journal page is to keep track of all the art I created in these five months my dad is away with the camera. I will update it whenever I have anything new. So if you are interested, you can always check it out

Januray

Lying around
· 3 Drawings from Christmas ‘07
· Fanfictions
· Prints/photo’s that need to be re-uploaded

Jan
· Small painting of Zexion
(Unfinished)

· Rinoa Heartilly
(Sketch A3)

· Black/white Aoi/Dai
(painting for *BitterSweet-Prod)

· Love Aoi/Dai 4
(colours A3 painting for *BitterSweet-Prod)

· Reaching out 4
(colours A3 painting)

· Bunny
(4 colours A3 painting)

· Bored doodle with Iruka
(scrap)

· Music inside my soul
(new style, A4)

· Loveless - in progress
(On canvas, painting – see sketch: [link])

· Concrete angel

· Doodles at school/practise
Will be scrapped

· Cat - ppainting by numbers
Will be scrapped

· Hunny Bunny
Rough sketch with watercolours

· Get out alive
Watercolours - eye of a cat

· 2Girls
East indian Ink + watercolour

· Rage
pencil - eye of a cat

· Emotion
Pencil A4

· This feeling inside..
waterpaint A4

· Bloody handprints I
waterpaint A4, trying out

· Bloody handprints II - No escape
waterpaint A4

· Akito
Sketch A4

· Agito
Sketch A4

· Kanashimi Desu
Pen A4

· And the wind blows..
Pen A4

· And yet...
Will be scrapped

· Chibi expressions
Will be scrapped

· Wings I have/poem
pencil A4, poem

· Animal sketch
Sketch A4, for watercolour practise

· Beloved..?
Sketch A3, loveless

· Suki da yo
Sketch A3, loveless

· Scrapped love
Will be scrapped A3

· Akuma
Sketch A3, evil guy

· Eyes loveless
Sketch A3, loveless

· ...
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