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]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/14219342/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/14219342/ Fri, 17 Aug 2007 23:51:48 PDT
Well, one of my friends ran into a spot of trouble tonight, which sparked a comment from me to them, then while in the shower, I decided that it was now time to do this. Expanding on that comment, oftentimes engineers (thats my major in Uni) do not let others know of their beliefs and tenants, this is very true for me. In writing this, I am letting my mind wander where it may, rambling of what I have synthesized through my life, be it school, games, anime, or work. I leave this now to my mind, which currently rests, if you will, on the border between light and dark, teetering ever closer into the abyss (I really need sleep) Sparked on by the events of the evening, we shall now begin.

ON THE NATURE OF HIGHER POWERS
Mankind has always wondered, whether or not he is truly in control of his own destiny. This being said, I believe that through life there is indeed a higher power out there. Whether one believes though an organization, or as an individual, I feel that this power is the same for all. I shall prefer to call it FATE, but other my go by GOD, ALLAH, BUDDHA, ZEN, GAIA, or any other, it makes no difference. This power, is not here to directly intervene, merely, it has created the blueprint, and given us the tools we need to create, modify, or destroy it as we see fit. Humanity has free will over their actions. This can then be scaled down to an individual level, with each person having these powers themselves. This is key. HUMANITY AND THE INDIVIDUAL HAVE THE POWER OF FREE WILL. The higher power may from time to time offer their advice, through what we call OPPORTUNITY, and also let us know of our mistakes, called HINDSIGHT. Everybody know the saying "Opportunity only knocks once" however, this can be misleading. Though the precise event where one can choose a certain path to follow only happens once, this event is often preceded by many other smaller events, each leading to this common point. In order for any particular path to be chosen, certain choices and actions must have been taken for us to realize this. These smaller opportunities each combine to create a greater whole, which when finally realized, is often attributed to an higher power, when in actuality, it was the choices that individuals, and then groups, and maybe even humanity as a whole had decided. Nothing but the self, not even the higher powers, can control the decisions that an individual makes. When an individual forgets this, they become merely a pawn in a game, ignorant of the choices around them. It is up to the other individuals to help the pawn to be freed from the masters bidding, to once again realize they're potential, and the myriad of opportunity around them. Unfortunately, opportunity is often missed, found only with hindsight, which is said to be "20/20". It is only later that many choices reveal that which could have turned out differently. Fortunately, there is one power that guides us unerringly, and that is TIME. While mistakes of the past cannot be undone, those of the future can be identified, and avoided, with the result being that the other path was chosen. Given enough time, any choice can be undone, and any dream can be realized. This will become complicated when one individual desires that actions on the part of another be taken, and these dreams must be mutual in order to come to full fruition. That which we call GOD, or any other name, is the manifestation of the will of the human spirit.

ON LIGHT AND DARKNESS
In the world, there is light (purity, etc) and darkness (sin, immorality, etc). Light cannot exist without darkness, and so in man, there is always the potential for sin. Despair, envy, jealousy, and all the others will forever hold sway over the hearts of man. Conversely, darkness cannot exist without light, bringing forth hope, joy, and happiness. These too will be with us always. Now then, the question is, which shall each individual choose. This actions that one takes, along with the belief in their will, will tip the balance towards the light, as long as their cause is true. Why then does there exist evil in the world, as each individual could choose to be in the light? Evil often is disguised as good, with the individual believing their cause to be for the greater good. This is the first step towards conflict, as no one can force their will upon another. This act tips the balance towards darkness, and the calamities that it brings. In order to return to the light, other individuals must recognize this, and act, not letting opportunity slip by. The individual must realize that there is ALWAYS hope, and the better future that it brings. Chance, is apparently random because it relies on the infinite different action that an infinite number of individuals could have taken, with each choice focusing an event to a certain conclusion... ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/13967255/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/13967255/ Wed, 01 Aug 2007 07:17:13 PDT
At my dad's plant, things got fux0rd, so I get a free trip to FL at the end of the summer to help fix it, though I still don't know whats wrong, other than that it has to do with computers.

Gaming is good, we just started a campaign with by friend Sam, it will be good times. Dan and I just did some H2 on LIVE, it was good time. I proved that PB & J beats "I am invincible" as a war cry any day.

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Well, once again, its time to rock out

ps. I get to drive 3 1/2 hrs home from albany at 10:30 at night on roads I don't know very well. balls ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/7573237/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/7573237/ Wed, 11 Jan 2006 11:44:23 PST
Time to rock out ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/7199253/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/7199253/ Thu, 01 Dec 2005 22:12:32 PST Also, eat more pie, its good for you. ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/5981030/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/5981030/ Wed, 20 Jul 2005 05:30:42 PDT
7:30 AM: head off to work, and realize that I have a giant paper cut on my right hand, so even driving is annoying.

7:45 AM: Get stuck in traffic during contruction on interstate.

8:00 AM-3:00 PM: Work-not too bad, but very very slow. During work, I have to run outside to close the windows on my beat to crap car cause its raining outide, not like it matters though, cause it leaks through the roof anyway.

3:30 PM: Get to peoples house that I am house sitting for, dog isn't around, so I figure he is out in the woods.

4:00 PM: Arrive at home, get an hour of me time

4:30 PM: MASSIVE charlie horse in right calf, takes half an hour for me to stand up again.

5:30 PM: Go back to house to see if dog is back yet, isn't, so I leave food out for him.

6:30 PM: Get back home, realize that I have to cook dinner because my mom is still in a wheelchair from trying to kill herself, and my grandmother, who is here to try to help out is, as my dad puts it "As useful as tits on a frog"

7:15 PM: Dinner finally done, and I get to eat, yay

7:45 PM: Mom and grandmother have fight because mom wants help organizing her room, because she can't do it herself, and my grandma wants to help, but is not putting stuff where my mom wants it, even though its my MOM's room. Grandma decides that she will leave tomorrow to not be a bother anymore, wants to blame tiff on my mom. This leaves me alone to help my mom over the next few days, as my dad is going on a business trip.

8:30 PM: after mom calms down, I sew a curtain so that she can keep the door open when she goes to the bathroom but can still have some privacy.

9:15 PM: A bit more me time which I use to call Jenn

9:45 PM: Shower, cause I needed one.

10:15 PM: have to take my dad to the airport so he can get a rental car for his business trip.

11:00 PM: Arrive back a place I am house sitting for, dog still not back yet, starting to get worried, cause food not touched. People get back tomorrow.

11:15 PM: writing this in hopes that it will alleviate some stress. Why am I not in bed yet?
I could really use a hug.

[edit] 7:00 AM: Dog still isn't back yet, and I have to pack up all my stuff from the place I was house sitting at. Paper Cut still hurts, charlie horse is still there. ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/5975251/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/5975251/ Tue, 19 Jul 2005 07:52:01 PDT I just got this 3-D program called MAYA, and I am going to be playing around with it. ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/4625144/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/4625144/ Sat, 19 Feb 2005 21:12:54 PST
Currently
-Waiting for DDR Pads to arrive
-Playing Grandia 2
-Listening to Kenny Loggins - Even though we aint got money

Recent Tests
-ECE 171...97
-Physics.....84
-Diff Eq......92 ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/4525621/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/4525621/ Mon, 07 Feb 2005 23:43:53 PST
Note to self 4(x+1) does not equal 4x +1

In other news, Im starting to program in PYTHON, a high level language like C++ or JAVA. WOOHOO
However, I want to use GUI's, and the only way I can easily do that is to install linux, but my comp is set on me not doing that.

Oh well, I will just ask the real computer geeks in my physics lab Wed.

I also found this great add-on called numarray, so I can use matrixes in PYTHON. I can do my diff-eq on the computer.

Well, I will leave you with one last byte of ultimate geekdom.

I wrote a program using the D20 Mecha Compendium in C++ that lets you make a mech using the rules in it, now I want to add GUIs to it using PYTHON, I need to install LINUX to do so.

Wow, well, Im off to contemplate the mysteries of the universe...

PYTHON + LINUX = GUI = ... 42!!! ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/4475580/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/4475580/ Tue, 01 Feb 2005 21:55:09 PST ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/4418722/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/4418722/ Wed, 26 Jan 2005 09:41:19 PST ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/4398796/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/4398796/ Sun, 23 Jan 2005 23:46:30 PST

[In Other News]
Its 5:00 in the morning, Im watching Time Squad, and I have class at 9. Goodie Goodie. This is the part where I don't bother to sleep cause its not worth it now. ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/4364296/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/4364296/ Wed, 19 Jan 2005 20:57:32 PST [link]

Later all ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3813832/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3813832/ Thu, 11 Nov 2004 22:08:12 PST
If I could redo it, a lot of things would be different.

A part of me has died inside,
A part of me has been reborn,
There's a scar upon my soul and heart,
A patch over the the side thats torn.

I am very sorry to those I hurt.

I hope that hope is still alive. ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3677429/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3677429/ Tue, 26 Oct 2004 08:16:03 PDT
Listening to: Linkin Park, Crawling

c:\System.Abort()
Bad Command or File Name
c:\System.Reset()
Bad Command or File Name
c:\System.Anything()
Activating Madness
c:\ARG

All I though was true is wrong
Now my body cannot feel
Somethings wrong inside my head
Oh why can I not make this heal ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3612655/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3612655/ Sun, 17 Oct 2004 16:53:50 PDT ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3430125/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3430125/ Thu, 23 Sep 2004 15:58:42 PDT
Class: Almost missed my Physics Test, had to give an english presentation today

Romance: Shit barely missed the fan

Hardware: My mouse broke, my printer broke, my phone card ran out, my front reflector fell of my bike...

General Consensus: I need a hug ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3420366/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3420366/ Wed, 22 Sep 2004 12:36:40 PDT
In Sports:
Frisbee rules. Somerset beat Arustic 15-3 YAY!
In other news:
Tribes Vengeance comes out in a little over a week. [link]
I get to see Haley soon too
Ok, I have to go to class.

"Remember, keep your stick on the ice, we're all pulling for you" ~Red ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3329897/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3329897/ Fri, 10 Sep 2004 08:25:16 PDT Now its all better

Sun hasn't been out for 3 days
Nope, its still raining

Physics Blows
Not going to workshop

After school fun
Now thats what I'm talking about ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3257679/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/3257679/ Tue, 31 Aug 2004 18:59:03 PDT
Thursday is... BITCH DAY

8:00-9:50 Physics Lab
12:10-1:00 Honors Session
1:00-1:50 Physics Lecture
2:10-5:00 ECE Lab

Don't forget, I need to get accross campus in 0 minutes for Physics at 1
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AIM: Cski042
E-Mail: christopher_houle@umit.maine.edu
Phone: 207-581-6310
Snail: 228 Balentine
Orono, Maine 04469

good times, good internet, no good girls cause haley's in VT ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/2084618/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/2084618/ Thu, 25 Mar 2004 18:28:55 PST Later ]]> ~houligan http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/1872308/ http://houligan.deviantart.com/journal/1872308/ Thu, 19 Feb 2004 13:32:17 PST More than I can heal,
Please God if your out there,
Show me how to feel.

I have no excuses,
No empty words of sorrow,
All that I can say is that,
I will still love you tomorrow.

I realized it today,
That words are not enough,
I shall speak through my actions,
And try not to be so rough.

Sorry for being such an ass,
I will take what ever's coming.
The reprimands and everything,
I will not flinch or go running.

This poem's to the one I love,
Love more than life itself,
I do send to you this message,
Please don't put it on the shelf

~Alton ]]> ~houligan