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Oh the horror of it all.

Byebye <3

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/19894154/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/19894154/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 09:44:19 PDT
...huh.

I've just been noticing things lately.

My teachers at my school had a conference with my parents last year. That I didn't know about. And my teachers all used five or so words to describe me. Always the same words, never synonyms, never anything else.

The word most used was 'erceptive'.

Picking up on things without knowing how to go about them beforehand, understanding what others can't or won't say, seeing things from different points of view.

I found that interesting.

I suppose I should apologize right now. I'm really sorry I haven't been talking to a lot of people this break. That I haven't gotten together with anyone. Please don't feel I don't love you, it's not a reflection on how I think of you, it was me. I'm really truly sorry, and I don't know the consequences yet but I'll face them.

I took time out for myself this summer. I just took two months to learn my limits, test my abilities, that kind of self discovery crap.

I learned a lot yes, but I'm left with....more questions than answers.

I kind of...faced everything around me, rather than worry about them. There were things I didn't even know was /there/, and some things that I thought would be really serious...weren't anymore. And I just tried to understand everything, sort it out and stuff. I'm fairly happy with the result. I feel more comfortable.

I still have a lot of questions about my beliefs that I can't answer yet.

And a lot of things have changed.

...but that's okay XD.

I learned a lot this summer. There were a few things I didn't want to learn, a few things I don't fully understand, and a few things that I don't think about at all. But overall...it was good fun. Learning my limits was actually really cool. As it stands I haven't even found my limit on a few things, it seems I can go until I have no time left XD.

But so I'm sorry.

I'm wrapping up summer now because in two weeks, school starts.

No one seems to want school to start but me XD

I so want to go back. That place is home to me. I know it sounds completely nerdish, but I feel like I can do my best at school. I can express myself and be myself there, really put myself into the work I'm doing...shit I am SO ready.

My house has really changed this summer. It's kind of scary but...reassuring too. I have the answers to some major issues (is my family moving? is my Dad leaving? is he going to die soon? what happened to our family? are we going broke?) and that makes me feel better. But now...we've changed a lot, so there are several new issues coming up. But now I know what to do about them XD

If you're still reading this, I love you <3 (but really, you don't have to)

So...life is going good now.

...I'm getting a boat. A sail boat.

It's going to seriously be mine.

All mine.

And I get to name it and paint it and take care of it and drive it.

And

I shall drag all my friends on it for vacations.

Go to Mexico or something.

But I won't get it for a while. I have to learn how to drive it first.

ALL MINE <3333333

Summary of above: I learned a lot this summer about myself and the things happening around me, and life is good. I'm really sorry I haven't gotten back to you people, I love you anyway, feel free to smack me for not returning calls. I want to go back to school. I'm getting a shiny new boat.

Annnnnnnnnd...that would be all XD


I MISS YOU ALL <3333333

(Another highlight of summer: I GOT A HAT!!!!! <3333 HAT LOVE)

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/19799318/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/19799318/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 22:14:15 PDT
I'm at camp. Fancy shmancy camp. Didn't know I was signed up for camp, let alone the one Imma at.

Music camp. Hard fucking core.

Seriously.

You play your instrument (string camp so either viola violin or cello) for six hours straight. No breaks, except for a one hour lunch (not included in those six hours. So seven hours total.). Yes, six straight hours. I have bruises on my hands and cuts on my fingers everywhere. Been playing so much my bow broke. Im screwed, have no money for new one, so I just have to pretend it's fine. Argh.

Have to wake up at 6 every day, get ready, drive there (it a day camp, but lasts long time), and practice in the morning. Yes, I have to practice before and after every day of camp. By the time I'm there, it's 9am. I have 3 three hour classes, lunch, then 3 more three hour classes. By the time I'm home it's 7pm. I practice another hour, and fall asleep sometime at 8:30.

The food sucks. Can't bring my own though, no time to make it. Have to eat there. Nasty cafeteria food. Blech. Not enough nutrition or protein to keep me alive there. Some of the classmates started having seizures today.

I'm the third best in my group of twelve. So the pressure is ON for me. I swear to God, my hands are black and blue, and I have to many cuts to count. We're all a mess. Some guy hasn't even had time to shower. God.

It's fucking boot camp. I swear. I come home starved, sweating, sore, and with a pounding headache.

For anyone who says playing viola (a big violin n00b) can't make you feel like that, it's just an istrument...

You obviously don't know the first thing about serious playing.

We're doing fiddle for one thing. Hardcore fiddle. Fingers moving like lightening. Hairs flying off the bow. That's where most of the cuts come from. And my bow broke there.

Since I'm one of the best, I'm in a quartet. We're doing the original score of one of Mozart's Quartets. MOZART. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD THAT SHIT IS? ESPECIALLY ON MY POOR VIOLA? I DIDN'T THINK SO. IT''S GOTTEN BLOODY. FOR SERIOUS.

And jazz class, which is just a bunch of impossible rhythms that you more 'feel' than 'know'. Make things up as you go, only way to live.

It'll be over soon, that's the only thin I'm hanging on to. It'll be over soon, my friends are coming back, everythings gonna be okay...

I nearly lost it in class. I wouldn't be the first.

I need to wrap this up. My finger (I'm typing with one finger. It has no bruises) is beginning to hurt. One of the scratches is bleeding, and it's fucking throbbing.

So if you want to know why I'm not commenting on your marvelous deviations, there's your answer.

Will be back sometime late Monday. I hope.

This is fucking insanity. My teachers are insane. They don't give a DAMN about the kids. We get called 'Hey you', 'red shirt', 'blue hair', 'short kid', and 'glasses' and those sorts of things. To dismiss us, they say 'Go away'. I haven't been complimented in eons. I'm never doing anything good, everything I do is wrong. Always. And because I play terribly, I am a very dumb person apparently.

No one to make friends with either. There are five sixteen year olds and six eleven year olds. Plus me.

God. WHY THE HELL AM I DOING THIS AGAIN?

I'm seriously losing sanity. For serious.

Better stop. Finger hurts.

See you soon if I don't keel.

~Matthew <--My name at camp. How the hell people translated Natalie to Matthew, I do not know. But all the kids call me Matthew. Better than the teachers, they call me 'You there', 'Broken shoe girl', 'Braces', or 'Hair girl'. Hair girl and Braces. I feel so fucking good about myself. Whoop dee fucking doo.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/19690135/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/19690135/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 22:27:13 PDT
Well, once again, I am leaving dA for a bit. There are...circumstances...that have turned up that make it unable for me to be here for the time being. And when I say 'circumstances' I mean things are so bad around here I'm counting down until I can get out of this house and back in school. Which starts in 25 days. I don't like school, don't get me wrong. Circumstances as in...well, I won't go in to it, you get the picture, and I'm sure you're sick of my rambling.

God. So many ideas, so many adults who say you can't dream of them

SO: QUESTION TIME

Everyone post their answer to the question in their reply! If you bother replying! XD

If a genie could give you three wishes, what would you wish for? (No cheating XD (Aka asking for more wishes, reviving people, messing with time travel or love. Those are no-nos)

My answer:
The dedication to follow my projects start to finish
The opportunities to use my gifts to the greatest extent possible.
I wish for the seven people closest to me to live the most amazing and love-filled life, living it how they want. I want all their dreams to come true, and I hope all their wishes are fulfilled except for one for them to earn for themselves, so they never feel incomplete or unchallenged. And the selfish part of me wishes that they will keep me in their thoughts while fulfilling their dreams. Maybe even by their side.

Aren't I a complete bore?

1] Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2] For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3] YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4] Tag people.

The taggies: Sandra (do it again ), Cloudeh, WonTawn, Shikamari, Avric do it when your back and email me your answers if you still come on this website

All answers are set up like this~
Song - Artist
comment

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Do You Know What I'm Seeing?-Panic At The Disco
...that's nice >>

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This)-Marilyn Manson
Oh wow XDDDDDDDD LOL

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Listen To Your Heart-DHT
I would say that works fairly well.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Bye Bye Beautiful
...I miss people? Yes, yes I do.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
You Know My Name-Chris Cornell
...OH IRONY

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
I'll Be-Edwin McCain
<3333333

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Inside The Fire-Distrurbed
Someone turn on a fire hydrant RIGHT FUCKING NOW

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Now You're Gone-Basshunter
...DADDY WHAAAAA TT^TT

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
Fairytale-Saturday Night At The Apollo
...yeah, maybes >>

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Something-Lasgo
Why, yes. Yes it is <333

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND(S)?
Neverending Dream-Cascada
<33333

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Never Let You Go-Jakaranda
...I don't remember being a stalker.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Moondance-Nightwish
Because I dance outside at eleven at night when you are all asleep >>

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
St. Jimmy-Green Day
...Sure, why not.

WHAT REMINDS YOU OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Phantom Of The Opera-Andrew Loyd Webber
THAT IS SERIOUSLY WHAT CAME UP, I SWEAR TO GOD O_O OMFGLOL

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
This Is Halloween
Oh HELLS YES

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)
...you guys sure do wanna get rid of me O.o

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Loves Me Not-tAtU
O-O OH SHIT N-

20. What is your biggest secret?
Sexyback-Justin Timberlake
...
...
XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDLOL

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Leaving Song Pt 2-AFI
...close enough

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/19631799/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/19631799/ Sun, 27 Jul 2008 22:05:02 PDT
I bet you missed deleting all those journals I make! XD Don't worry, your status quo of deleting both deviations (yeah, don't deny you saw my latest one in your messages. Don't deny you deleted it. I know you did) and journals will be completed! Because I'm...

BACK

...sorta.

So, in news:

1. I FUCKING QUIT VIOLIN. I've been sick of it for MONTHS. AND I QUIT. I QUIT. I've been doing it SIX YEARS AND I FINALLY QUIT.

...don't get me wrong, I'm still playing viola.

BUT I QUIT VIOLIN.

2. My parents are still together, as anyone who knows me in real life is aware of. So, I usually see my Dad every day. At seven thirty.

...I have gone spent the last two months seeing my Dad once every...three to four days. He's on a seven day a week workweek from 7:30 in the morning to 9:30 at night. I see him when he gets back and he passes out on the bed from exhaustion. Our last conversation was...in June? I don't remember. Something about the new James Bond movie coming out (<33333333333). And it doesn't help that he's fucking dying. Stupid WORK.

3. ...I haven't had a fucking hug since I last saw Avric. That was...a week ago. I've gone an entire WEEK without a hug. What is this world coming to? TT^TT (Yes, Imma hugslut. Stfu)

4. I MISS YOU. Especially Cloudeh and Avric TT^TT. I LOVE YOU TWO. Cloudeh better be enjoying camp though, yes? I miss you too Sandra TT^TT but I know I can just walk to your house sometime soon, yes? :3

5. My Mom's being a bitch. My sisters and their friends are being annoying little fucktards. And they yell at me for hiding in my room.

6. I'm not allowed out of the house, because apprently if I take two steps through the front door in the middle of broad daylight, some guy is going to push me in his car and brutally rape me. Yeah. Mhhmmm. I'm going insane.

I just saw the Dark Knight. All I have to say is...it redefines Avric's saying of 'BAT-SHIT INSANE.'. Heath Ledger has my FULL forgiveness for being a gay cowboy, and I now fully mourn his loss. Amen <3

And I bought my third real CD <3333. Pretty. Odd. by Panic at the Disco. Usually I'm not so fond of the band, but this CD sounds so different. I love it. Don't give me shit about my music though, you don't even /want/ to know the rest of my iPod.

I want school to start. Right. Fucking. Now.

I have the feeling I've forgotten something, but...hmm...

I may not be quite as active as usual. I'm busy. So if I don't respond to everything, don't take it personally, mkay?

I QUIT VIOLIN.

AND I MISS YOU PEOPLE.

I CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP JUST WISHING SOMEONE WOULD GIVE ME A FUCKING HUG WITHOUT ME ASKING THEM.

I'm okay now XD I just want some love <333. Only human.

Alright, I'll stfu now.

Bye <3

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18955719/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18955719/ Fri, 20 Jun 2008 19:07:43 PDT
I'm a water child. If my mom had been in the shower just a few moments longer, than I would have been born in the shower. It was close enough to me being born in water though.

I've never let someone see me swim. See me actually swim. I can't describe how being in the water is for me. Bliss is the closest word. I'm the happiest in the water, and it's almost an other-worldly happy. But I never let anyone see that if I go swimming with friends. It's a bit like being with friends in that your surrounding yourself with something indescribably beautiful. But it's more than that to me. I've never let anyone see me that blissfully happy, and it would take a lot of strength for me to ever do that.

So the first swim of summer means a lot to me.

I wasn't quite as happy though. This was an amazing year. I have met so many amazing and beautiful people, and some of them I have become very close to. Needless to say, when they left today, I felt like some part of me physically died. A few people in particular.

Yes, I'm very sad right now. God, I am going to miss them...

I think I'll be okay now though. I came home and was searching for some 'uplifting' music from when I was little that might make me happy. Wafting through one hundred and twenty or so classical music CD's.

And as I was digging, I found a really, really dusty set. I couldn't even see the writing from all the dust. I wiped it on my shirt and took a look.

It turned out to be the 'hantom Of The Opera' soundtrack. One of the people I'm really going to miss listens to it a lot and really likes it. So it reminds me of him. I kind of stole it and put a few songs on my iPod. I then proceeded to put all of my friend's favorite songs on my iPod. Pathetically lame, I know. Really I do. But it helps.

Of course then my mom made me sit down and listen to the entire thing. XD

I have a long list of things I'm doing this summer. Only one of them involves a computer. The basic gist of the list is:

-Learn to ice skate really well
-Learn to surf
-Swim faster
-Learn every song on DDR game on Heavy mode
-Experiment with photography/different kinds of poetry
-Write story about an extremely cliched fantasy adventure
-Major strides on violin/learn new repertoire
-Job at violin repair store
-Save money for sport I want to do

I also have a long summer reading list, movie list, and adventure list

As you can see, I'll be fairly busy. So no more journals until school starts or so. Deviations and comments will be checked/added from time to time.

I love you all, see you in a bit.

~Natalie

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18925608/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18925608/ Thu, 19 Jun 2008 07:56:18 PDT
Anyways.

Goodbye to an amazing year, hello to one that wont be able to be as amazing.

As a reflection on this year, I have stolen a quiz from

All of my friends on dA and in RL, TALK TO ME PLEASE BAAAAAW TT^TT


How much of your teenage life have you messed up?

[x] gotten detention

[x] gotten a phone taken away in class

[x] gotten suspended

[x] gotten caught chewing gum

[x] gotten caught cheating on a test

Total so far: 5


[x] arrived late to class more than 5 times.... (Try 50 times)

[x] didn't do homework over 5 times (38 missing assignments in Science XD)

[x] turned at least 3 projects in late (Umm...8...)

[x] missed school just because you felt like it (Who hasn't?)

[x] laughed so loud you got kicked out of class


Total So Far : 10

[x] got your mom,dad,etc to get you out of school

[x] text people during class

[x] passed notes

[x] threw stuff across the room (Pencil Catapult Of Doom!)

[x] laughed at the teacher (Every day)

Total So Far : 15

[x] been in a fight/argument at school.

[x] took pictures during school hours

[x] called someone during school hours

[x] listened to ipod,cd,etc during school hours

Total So Far : 19

[x] threw something at the teacher

[x] went outside the classroom without permission (every single day)

[x] broke the dress code (I was in the first roundup of dresscoding)

[x] failed a class (Three)

[x] ate food during class (And chucked it at people)

Total So Far : 24

[x] gotten a call from school

[ ] couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly (What, me? I'm an angel!)

[x] didn't take your stuff to school (Hardly ever do)

[x] stuck up finger when the teacher was not looking (Oh, so many times)

[x] cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear you (He said 'Don't use that language' and didn't care XD)

Total So Far : 28

[x] faked your parents signature

[x] slept in class

[x] cursed at your teacher (That was fun)

[x] copied homework

[x] got in trouble with the principal

Total: 33

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18811700/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18811700/ Thu, 12 Jun 2008 23:07:36 PDT
Right, it's one poem for every theme, so....I have a long way to go 0-0

This journal entry will keep getting updated whenever I have a new one written, but it will be minor, so check this if you want to know how many I have down.

1. Introduction (Done)
2. Love (Done)
3. Light (Done)
4. Dark (Done)
5. Seeking Solace (Done)
6. Break Away (Done)
7. Heaven (Done)
8. Innocence (Done)
9. Drive (Done)
10. Breathe Again (Done)
11. Memory (Done)
12. Insanity (Done)
13. Misfortune (Done)
14. Smile (Done)
15. Silence (Done)
16. Questioning (Done)
17. Blood (Done)
18. Rainbow (Done)
19. Gray (Done)
20. Fortitude (Done)
21. Vacation (Done)
22. Mother Nature (Done)
23. Cat (Done)
24. No Time (Done)
25. Trouble Lurking (Done)
26. Tears (Done)
27. Foreign (Done)
28. Sorrow (Done)
29. Happiness (Done)
30. Under the Rain (Done)
31. Flowers (Done)
32. Night (Done)
33. Expectations (Done)
34. Stars (Done)
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated (Done)
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting (Done)
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18752987/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18752987/ Mon, 09 Jun 2008 17:04:43 PDT
It went okay I do think. I played viola and violin, and I conducted. So it was fairly stressful but I pulled it off.

I can't believe school gets out next week! I'm actually kind of sad, most of my friends are all leaving for camps.

I got a JOB FOR THE SUMMER!!!!! XD I am SO excited! I'm going to be working in a violin repair store as...whatever Jayde wants me to do. Jayde works alone, so it'll be him, me, and the dog. I'm really excited. It's an amazing shop. I'll see if I can take pictures and Photoshop them for artwork. It will be amazing. He's also basically said yes to letting me work in his shop for my internship.

...I've been getting a lot of....basically yeses...from a lot of people.....it gets really frustrating after a while. When all you have is assumptions to go off of. And patience. Well, I understand being patient for some things but for others....no.

Ah well, it will all be over soon.

I may or may not be on less than usual. Last week of school, I have to love on my friends before they all go off to their camps. And finals. And projects of mine.

See ya later!

Nat.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18718554/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18718554/ Sat, 07 Jun 2008 17:56:07 PDT
I've been hearing some GREAT stories around dA, thats for sure.

But I found one that is true.



If you haven't heard of him:

This guy is a full-blown pedophile. Self-admitted too. He is a sixteen year old who's online girlfriend (*cough*LAME*cough*) is twelve. TWELVE. Does anyone else see the problems in this?

He role-plays sex on deviantart too. How great is that? NOT. I don't want that kind of crap on dA, do you?

Fortunatly, he was banned.

But he's made another account:



People of dA, you think you could help me? I'm sorry, but he's going too far. This is a place for art, not a place for role-playing sex with twelve year old girls and posting my-space pictures and crappy suns.

Here's one of the people he's fooled: . You can find her wonderful arguement with me here: [link] Scroll down.

Please, I am begging you, help me get this guy off dA. Please.

Thanks for the help.

Nat

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18535684/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18535684/ Tue, 27 May 2008 22:23:00 PDT I am back



...right.


SO ANYWAY

I'm bringing this quiz back from the dead. Mwahahaha There's some things I have to know.

And expect new deviations soon!








::WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF I...::

I died:

I kissed you:

I fell:

I lived next door to you:

I showed up at your house unexpectedly:

I stole something:

I was murdered:

I cried:

I asked you to marry me:

I was hospitalized:

::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::

Personality:

Eyes:

Hair:

Family:

Smile:

::WOULD YOU::

Trust me enough to sleep in the same bed as me?

Keep a secret if i told you one?

Hold my hand?

Study with me?

Cook for me?

Love me?

Date me?

Have sex with me?

::HAVE YOU EVER::

Lied to make me feel better?

Wanted to kiss me?

Wanted to kill me?

Broke my heart?

Thought I was unbearably annoying?

Hated me?

Wanted to tell me someting but didn't?

Wondered about my sanity?

Wanted to do something to me?

::More::

When and how did we meet?

Describe me in three words.

What was your first impression of me?

What do you think of me now?

What reminds you of me?

Could you see us together forever?

When's the last time you saw me?

Are you gonna repost this to see what I say about you?

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18374152/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18374152/ Sat, 17 May 2008 21:58:28 PDT
A real one.

It's shiny <3.


See you kids later, I won't be on devi for a while.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18282269/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/18282269/ Sun, 11 May 2008 23:50:24 PDT
On Saturday, we (my ensemble) went to Disneyland for a music competition. Its the most attended competition in AMERICA (Music in the Parks to be exact)

Our ensemble

Got


FIRST PLACE


HELL


YES

All thanks to , who did the impossible and learned a new instrument in ten days. He got one of his pieces the day before we played. He is amazing IYou

I got a flamboyantly gay-looking purple glittery violin bow. That makes me oddly happy. Imma going to name it Easton.

AND

I'M GOING TO LEARN ELECTRIC VIOLIN

Oh the fun I shall have...

On another note:

I had a....what's the word, epiphany? A huge realization of a kind.

I'm not a tool. I'm allowed a say, I'm allowed a life. I'm allowed friends. I will NOT be seen not heard, will NOT speak when spoken to, will NOT stay to the side because I'm a girl or because some one told me to. No more.

I would say I have nothing to lose, but I do. There are three to four people in my life (I am not sharing their names here) that I would die for in an instant. Some people mean that figuratively, but I don't. There are people I WILL give my life for, because I love them too much to let them die.


But for you people that read this who know the name of the tyrannic monster...

Fuck that person up the ass with a pipe bomb.

I'm done, I'm worth more that that person lets on.

So if you read this (you know who you are, bitch)

You have absolutely no worth whatsoever. Your a fat bitch with no brains, and a sexist one at that. I'm not going to be your bitch, or anyone else's. You have more Chins than a Hong Kong phone book, and you no longer have power over me. Those three people have stood me back on my feet, and you can't do anything to me. You're not pretty (you're ugly as a naked mole rat), and you can't sing, dance, be graceful, be funny, be sexy, or be cute. That's being nice. You literally have no attributes unless you count your fat ass, though I wouldn't, it makes people sick. I no longer have reason to think one way or another about you, your just that hopeless.

You hurt my friends in any way though.

I will not hesitate to dismember your body parts.

^
l
l
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That wasn't directed at any of you. Well...you'd know if you were.



Imma done

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17998248/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17998248/ Mon, 05 May 2008 22:10:06 PDT
When I said "This will be my last journal for a while, unless something huge happens."

Yup.

Guess what? One of my friends died. Suicide according to the parents, drunk driving according to the police. I can't say what I thought it was...I already got slapped for it.

Can't say I didn't see it coming a long time ago if it was suicide.

......

ON A HAPPIER NOTE! XD

I will have new deviations soooooooooon. Aren't you all excited?

XP

I have a concert coming up, so again, don't expect me to be online very much. IF I get anything posted XP. Sorreh peoples, I have a life that doesn't revolve at looking at electronic devices.

.......

80+85+75+48=289/4=

72.25%!!!!!! Yays!!!!!

I love you all
~Nat

xXPersonal recordXx:

Number of Tolkien books read (and reread, and rereread): 27
Times locked in garage during the middle of the night: 7
Times slept in garage from above reason: 2
Superiors in violin concerts: 5
Number of buttons: 2,349
Incorrect fortune cookie fortunes: 54

xXQuote of the DayXx: "You must fail your way to success" ~Mark Miller
xXLyricsXx: "We are the angry and the desperate, the hungry, and the cold. We are the ones who kept quiet and always did what we were told." Rise Against

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17967786/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17967786/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 21:29:17 PDT
Just a few things, I'll keep it nice and quick, I'm on a time limit on the computer .

Firstly.

I no longer have any hope for the opposite gender. None. They are a pack of idiots. Except , because he is awesome. Maybe . MAYBE (I dunno). The rest of the male gender are rude, uncaring, unsympathetic, sex-crazed, stupid, sexist, obnoxious, annoying, pontificating, often disgusting, swearing, stupid-joke-loving, loud, douchy ranting hypocritical NOT-funny potty-mouthing assholes. If you are a male and want to plead your case, or female and want to stick up for a certain male, then by all means have at it. I am well aware that there are probably more exceptions to the above criticisms of males. If you can say you aren't any of these things (and be telling the truth), I shall add your name to the list of guys that have enough brain cells to run more than one organ at a time.

I am perfectly aware that it isn't guy's faults that they're like that. I'm still going to get pissed at them.

And I'm not saying girls are any better. I lost hope for them years ago.

I still love all my guyfriends <3

If that came off too mean, I apologize. But Men are the group of humans that invented thongs, bakinis, and all of those stupid feminine things that no female wants to wear that really make me want to regurgitate my inner organs.

And shut up about my hormones.

*phew*


Secondty,

Indiana Jones 4? Seriously. No. He's SIXTY. YEARS. OLD. He has NO right to be running around in a leather jacket and a whip. That's just.....NO. I'm a HUGE Indy fan (oh shut up) and even I have to say...NO.

THIRDITLY.

This goes back to number one. What is with FURRIE SEX DOLLS?! SERIOUSLY (I learned about them today). THAT'S. DISGUSTING. Just the THOUGHT of it makes me want to puke. EW. You don't see girls doing that, do you? No. Please men, get a hold on your hormones so innocent twelve years don't find their Uncle Billy in the middle of the night....well, you get the picture.

FOURTH.

Whoever made the SAT tests, please go burn in hell.





I was tagged.

What are your six strangest fears?

(*note* You don't have to say your deepest fears (death, rape, kidnapping etc.), just something that you agree is just weird and unexplainable. Take this as seriously as you want to)

NOT IN ORDER.

1.) Mimes (FRENCH. CLOWNS. That's as scary as you get )
2.) Elevators (...[link] Argue with that.)
3.) I get homesick A LOT. (I'm not sure if it's 'fear', but...)
4.) Well...yeah fine, rape (or anything even remotely close)
5.) Anyone I love dying
6.) Asylums << >>

Tag five people.

<< >> I tag &


Alright.

Iluu all.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17840698/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17840698/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 22:32:27 PDT

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments
5.Put this on your journal.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
"Stand My Ground," Within Temptation
I'll take that for a noooooo, its not okay

2. How would you describe yourself?
"Miss Murder" AFI
What? Wait hold on just a min-

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
"Frontline," Pillar
Eh? 8D

4. How do you feel today?
"Last Resort," Papa Roach
I wouldn't think so.

5. What is your life's purpose?
"Kryptonite" 3 Doors Down
Oh yes, that's reassuring

6. What is your motto?
"She Will Be Loved" Maroon 5
iTunes? What are you telling me? D=

7. What do your friends think of you?
"Somewhere I Belong" Linkin Park
I doubt anyone thinks that, but if you do, well then

8. What do you think of your parents?
"Shut Up" Simple Plan
Oh dear...

9. What do you think about very often?
"Die Another Day" Madonna (The only reason it's on my iPod is because it's a James Bond theme song!)
… iTunes, are you trying to tell me something?

10. What is 2 + 2?
"Listen To Your Heart"
Clearly I was destined for the world of math.

11. What do you think of your best friends?
"Sexyback" Justin Timberlake
HELLS YES Lol

12. What do you think of the person you like?
"Bye Bye Beautiful" Nightwish
Whoa. WHOA. NOT COOL. iTunes, let's shaddup while we're ahead?

13. What is your life story?
"Get Out Alive" Three Days Grace
Okay, that's just mean. Seriosly. iTunes,there are some things you don't say...

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
"Make This Go On Forever," Snow Patrol
YOU KNOW WHAT, iTUNES? SHUT UP. JUST SHUT UP.

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
"Goodbye" SR-71
SCREW YOU iTUNES. SCREW YOUUUUUUUUU

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
"Extraordinary Girl" Green Day
Yeah. Right. Mhmm

17. What will they play at your funeral?
"In Too Deep," Sum 41
iTUNES I HATE YOU SO MUCH YOUR GONNA DIE

18. What is your hobby/interest?
"Unwell," Matchbox 21
OH GOOD GOD.

19. What is your biggest fear?
"Stupid Girls" Pink (I thought I deleted this song)
Lol, probably true

20. What is your biggest secret?
"After Dark" All American Kung-Fu Generation
iTUNES I WILL BEAT YOU TO A BLOODY PULP, STRANGLE YOU, AND THROW YOU OFF THE LONDON BRIDGE SO HELP ME.

21. What do you think of your friends?
"We Like To Party" Vengeboy
Yes, yes we do

22. What will you post this as?
"Parody Medley" Adam and Andrew
HELL YEAH.

TEST YOUR MIGHT. TAKE THIS MEME.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17836791/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17836791/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 17:40:17 PDT
Not that hard.

If you know me fairly well, you might know that I have...a role model. A person I look up to each and every day, someone I try to imitate, someone I want to be just like.

He's my Cousin Stuart. He's in his middle twenties I believe.

He's one of the only family members I have that has any hope for me. He loves me as far as I know.

He's in the Coast Gaurd, and I used to brag about that every day.

When I was in fourth grade or so, he got married to a gorgeous, nice, but naive girl named Beth. It was a beautiful wedding. I was the acolyte. I was also the last person to talk to my cousin before he walked down the isle. I reassured him, and gave him a hug. He was twenty or so at the time.

I no longer can think about him without severe anger.

My cousin, the man I have always looked up to.

He had two kids with Beth. That I'm okay with. They're in the middle of a divorce now, which I can understand.

He's having another kid. With another women, named Amanda. Due in two weeks.

And he's not done divorcing Beth.

I don't think I've ever been this disappointed or frustrated or angry. No, that's a lie. I have been. And Stuart was there for me when that happened.

And on top of it all:

He quit Coast Guard and now he's gone.

...

Yeah, I feel like shit.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17816722/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17816722/ Sat, 12 Apr 2008 15:48:52 PDT
The question: What color is my hair?

If you can answer that, please respond to this journal so I know everyone is okay. Please. Thanks.

...

I apologize that I haven't been at school/online/in a good mood lately. I'll be back next week, things got superultrahectic at our house.

I have no life, so I stole this.

The rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts.
4. At the end post,84 more bloggers are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged.


1. I do cold showers. Warm makes me sick
2. If you're reading this, there's a 80% chance I worry about you at night before I fall asleep
3. I LOVE being wet . Pool, ocean, doesn't matter
4. I usually have a rose-colored lens view of the world
5. I hoard jewel-like stuff
6. I can play violin, viola, piano, I'm teaching myself flute and cello and guitar
7. I can make myself high without the aid of drugs, caffiene, or sugar
8. I don't usually get along with members of my own gender

Do it if you want ^_^

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17755778/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17755778/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 21:23:48 PDT



And Mr. Bradford, if you continue your with your obsession with leaving things in my room, you might as well move in. Seriously, you're ridiculous

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17559865/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17559865/ Fri, 28 Mar 2008 15:42:50 PDT
Yes.

It turns out: for college, my dad wants me to go to Indiana, because there's a major music school there.

It turns out: I can't stop watching Fatal Frame III.

It turns out: I get paid NOTHING for watching a destructive kid for 48-hours. I don't even get a 'thank-you'

It turns out: I had a major breakthrough with my book

It turns out: IN AMERICA (that's what she said)

It turns out: Byakuya is a messenger of Jesus (wtf?)

And best of all:

It turns out

My next door neighbor


IS FREAKIN FAMOUS (he plays guitar in a really popular band)

AND

HE LIKES LISTENING...

>>


<<

TO me play my violin 0-0

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17459036/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17459036/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 13:30:25 PDT
I WATCHED MY FIRST SCARY MOVIE. XP

It twas 'The Hitcher'. Rated R. Yeah. About some psychopathic, homicidal, and suicidal hitchhiker who goes around...killing idiotic people

At first I was terrified. I was watching it with two of my friends, and I was clinging onto both of them. We were all kind of clinging to each other. By the middle I was too worried about making sure my other friend was okay to be scared. I was just hugging her, and my other friend was hugging me and her, and yeah.

I can see how that makes a good date though. All the clinging~

After three months, my room is nearly done being remodeled. Yay! . My sister says it's like a dragon's hoard, but I just kind of put stuff I liked up, so...ah who knows.

I'm reading a classic piece of literature. It's such an in-depth story with lots of morales and things. It is very nice.

It's called 'the Bible'

I've been reading it because, hopefully, it has the answer to the question I'm looking for.

The question: what is an angel?

Because

I think I've met one.

There is a girl I know, and I am sure she's an angel. Ordinarily, I never see her, but whenever I need her she always appears. ALWAYS. It's impossible to explain. I sincerely think that she is probably an angel, but there are many who think she's mean (where did they get that from!?).

So does anyone on here know the definition of an angel?

I love all of you people

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17433645/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17433645/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 20:57:41 PDT
I bet I don't even want to know what people think of me...whatever. This was stolen from , , and in that order.

If you do it, I'll do one for you.




::WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF I...::

I died:

I kissed you:

I fell:

I lived next door to you:

I showed up at your house unexpectedly:

I stole something:

I was murdered:

I cried:

I asked you to marry me:

I was hospitalized:

::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::

Personality:

Eyes:

Hair:

Family:

Smile:

::WOULD YOU::

Trust me enough to sleep in the same bed as me?

Keep a secret if i told you one?

Hold my hand?

Study with me?

Cook for me?

Love me?

Date me?

Have sex with me?

::HAVE YOU EVER::

Lied to make me feel better?

Wanted to kiss me?

Wanted to kill me?

Broke my heart?

Thought I was unbearably annoying?

Hated me?

Wanted to tell me someting but didn't?

Wondered about my sanity?

Wanted to do something to me?

::More::

When and how did we meet?

Describe me in three words.

What was your first impression of me?

What do you think of me now?

What reminds you of me?

Could you see us together forever?

When's the last time you saw me?

Are you gonna repost this to see what I say about you?

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17377785/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17377785/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 11:17:58 PDT
HERE'S SOMETHING TO BRIGHTEN YOUR DAY! XD

1. Put your music player on "random." Skip songs with not-very interesting titles (such as "Concerto #4 in E minor")
2. List the titles of the first 25 songs to come up.
3. Put "in my pants" after each title.
4. Bold or surround with smiley faces the ones that actually made you laugh




1. Scarf: Odysee in my pants (That sounds just freaking hilarious)
2. Groove Coverage: Poison in my pants (0-0)
3. Cascada: One More Night in my pants ()
4. Gorrilaz: Feel Good Inc. in my pants (...wow)
5. Switchfoot: I Dare You To Move in my pants (wow that's just weird)
6. Kanye West: Stronger in my pants (I believe that to be true?)
7. The Used (I think): The Bird and the Worm in my pants
8. Usher: Yeah! In my pants (lol)
9. Papa Roach: Getting Away With Murder in my pants (............)
10. Sum 41: In Too Deep in my pants (...)
11. Korn: Coming undone in my pants
12. Assemblage 23: Awake in my pants (XD)
13. S&G: Sound Of Silence in my pants
14. Asian Kung-Fu Generation: After Dark in my pants ()
15. Linkin Park: In The End in my pants ()
15. A&A: Emo Kid in my pants (AW HELL NO! )
16. Three Days Grace: Pain in my pants (????)
17. Within Temptation: Forsaken in my pants (wow nice)
18. Foamy The Squirrel: F*** Everyone in my pants (DOUBLE MEANING )
19. Pitbull: the Anthem in my pants (why do I even still have that song?)
20. blink-182: Aliens Exist in my pants (That's a scary thought)
21. Linkin Park: Bleed it out in my pans (THAT'S JUST FREAKING WRONG)
22. Eifel 65 (or something like that): Blue in my pants (..my pants are blue, da ba de da ba di)
23. S&G: Scarborough Fair in my pants (...........)
24. Justin Timberlake: Sexyback in my pants (it makes no sense! XD)
25. Green Day: Holiday in my pants (you wish )

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17352388/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17352388/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 18:58:26 PDT
I was listening to these two people, they said a lot of disturbing things, so I looked them up on Wikipedia cuz I didn't know what they were.

I. WAS. F-ING. SCARED. FOR. LIFE.

REALLY. DISTURBING.


So you would think I would have learned, right?

Wrong. I was talking with some people at orchestra, and everyone was laughing because a guy said that yesterday his older sister fell asleep with a banana (i still don't get it...please explain it to me someone). I thought they were talking about falling asleep with stuff (which I still think). So, I said what I usually fall asleep with.

Most nights, I fall asleep with a pencil still in my hands cuz I'll be writing something, so I usually sleep with a pencil. Of course, I just said "I sleep with pencils sometimes" to them.

They choked. Then they roared laughing.

I didn't understand what they were laughing at. I really didn't get it.

So...well, I figured I might find something in Wikipedia, right? I thought I'd look in Uncyclopedia first, cuz it might have some kind of clue.

I sped through the lump of baloney, and found a word I hadn't ever seen.

I Wiki'd it.

...


...

...ew

Yes, I get it now THANK YOU. I UNDERSTAND A HELL OF A LOT MORE THAN I WANTED TO.

I don't KNOW any of this crap, okay? No one has exactly TOLD me any of this. I have no older brother, no older sister, my mother won't say a word unless she's trying to disturb me, my dad freaks out, and frankly I don't have anyone to tell me what the HELL people DO in their spare time.

The only people who have ever told me anything are (not naming names) two of my best friends, and I guy I would rather not mention, as what he told me disturbs me still...

Yeah, I got the "When the mommy and the daddy lurv each other" thing from a guy my age.

So if I act 'romiscuous', 'slutty', or anything like that, it's because I don't know any better.

Glad we're clear on that. KTHXBYZ

P.S. Yes, I know the basics, THANK YOU. The DETAILS are still scaring me.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17279229/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17279229/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 21:55:32 PDT
For those of you who know me in real life and have known me for a long time (or those of you who are very observant (or those of you I've told flat out)), you might know a peculiar fact about me.

When I'm feeling a very strong emotion, my hair changes. If I'm really sad, it straightens out. If I'm stressed, it frizzes uncontrolably. If I'm happy, it...doesn't look...as...tangly? I don't know, it just...I don't know.

My hair is so frizzed right now.

Let's see. I have paint ALL OVER my arms, face, and jeans. For an art project about an inspirational person. Technically it was due, but I got extra time. I did three people. One of them (in reality a beautiful girl that always makes me smile) looks like she wants to eat your face. Well, okay she doesn't anymore. Now she just wants your soul...one of them is just...bland...and the other guy is...decent? I don't know. I think he wants to eat a certain someone at my school...

Guess what? Apparently Afghanistan is in Africa. (This information brought to you by an outside source)

My Africa project is an...EPIC FAIL. MY HOLY GOD IT SUCKITH.

My poetry is going downhill too (is that humanely possible? I thought it got to the point where it was bad beyond belief...)

><

Everyone keeps telling me my work is good at school. The problem is, I just don't believe them. I won't ever believe them. I will only believe something is good unless...someone...says it is. And he has NEVER given me a complement on any of my work, so naturally, I think everything I do sucks. I take it back: he once gave me a complement for violin.

SHOUTOUT: I CARE ABOUT OTHER THINGS BESIDES MY VIOLIN. REALLY.

Although the piece I picked to play for contest is WAY to hard for me. I don't know why I chose it...

I'm missing everyone right now.

Did anyone actually read this?

If so, please have an imaginary cupcake. Because I love you.

I believe that to be it.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17232131/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17232131/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 22:08:20 PST
Sorry I haven't been online lately folks. The pressure is ON at school...on Thursday we have the biggest project night EVAH. And my team is behind. So I have no time for internet

On top of that, I'm trying to, you know...have a life. Of some sorts. Not just my life being the internet and other various screens, but...other things too. Like writing. I need to get that book done. And music. And other loverly things.

I have a poll, but no subscription. Ah well, let's see how this goes:

I've been trying to get in touch with my feminine side. CORRECTION: I'm sick of acting so much like a guy (pick and throw on clothes off floor, not take care of hair, etc.) Unfortunatly, *Long list of guyfriends* prefers I stay the same...guyish...tomboyish...girl.

What do you think? Embrace femininity, or screw it and act like I'm going through a sex change?

Does anyone even read these?

>>

<<

I YOU!!!!! 8D


But yeah, so I'm under lots of PRESHAH

But I got to go dance with my friends tonight, get work off my mind and dance it out...

My God, I dance like a slut.

Love all of you

~Nat-something

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17116513/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17116513/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 12:00:45 PST
My sisters gang of screaming eleven year olds are coming to drag me out of the house and make me watch a marathon of HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL, and THEN some stupid FASHION TV SHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

And if that's not bad enough...

They're going to STRAIGHTEN MY HAIR

And if that's not the ultimate torture...they're going to make me wear makeup (I'm going to kill them before that happens)

AND IF THAT ISN'T BAD ENOUGH


I HAVE TO WEAR A DRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Crap! Here they come!

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17086787/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17086787/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 10:11:22 PST
I. Am. SICK!!!! Very, very, very, very sick...

I have an AWFUL sore throat...I literally haven't eaten anything since a piece of toast Tuesday morning. It hurts to swallow, so I'm also really dehydrated. And it REALLY hurts when I cough...which is every five minutes

And my nose is congested. Great. So I can't breather through my nose.

But the worst part is the FEVER!!!!! I was freezing all yesterday, so I'm huddling in my covers, right?

My little sister comes to check on me.

She feels my forehead.

According to her, it felt like putting her hand on the stove. I was burning up.

We take my temp:

101.7

Two hours later:

102.6

Yeah...no fun. So I have an obnoxious fever, a cough, and a sore throat. AND I can't sleep.

Well...hope to see everyone soon!

(Check out my mood at the bottom, it explains how I feel exactly)




*****************

Copied from >insert-random-devi-user-here<

Hello there: Hello!

SO...what be your name?: Natalie *censored* Davis SIR!

Do you like your name?: Aww...too many people are called Natalie...

What do you wish you were called instead?: Aveline

Hmm...that's nice: Yes. Yes it is

What are your opinions on:

WoW? Oh, OH NO! I have lost many friends and family members to that...

Runescape? Meh....I don't like it

High School Musical? Get the guns. We're taking it down

Excercise? DDR! or swimming, or biking, or hiking, or tag...that's all I actually like to do

Final Fantasy? I haven't ever played it...

Disney Movies? You know, I watch them now, and they're a lot more...perverted. :scared:

Virginity? Virginity till you're twenty two to five, bitches

Your face? Well, it doesn't have acne...that's the only good thing about it really.

Your mom? We get along...

My mom? Does she make COOKIES?

Indiana Jones? TEH AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They're kind of overdoing it with teh 4th though...whatever, he's my second favorite character in movies, the first being James Bond

Uncyclopedia? Perverted at times, funny at others. Usually perverted

ch475p33k? ><

Neopets? Darn! Why can't my Elephante turn Pirate? And I saved all those Neopoints too...*sees you* o-OH CRAP! N-No! I-I d-don't l-like N-Neopets! It's for k-kids! heheheheheheh

***

Favorite....

Quote: "What do you want me to do? Dress in drag and do the hula?"

Disney Song: Um...I think it's called 'One', it's in Lion King 2. I also like practically everything in Tarzan and Brother Bear.

Laundry Soap: Ivory Snow...what kind of question is that?

Fortune Cookie Prediction: Your life is like an airplane ride. Buckle your seat belt, there's some heavy turbulance coming soon

Teacher: Ms Danielson. and Mr. Georgopoulos. Not that I learned anything from him...but he was freaking hilarious. Sorry Lucas...

Outfit: Jeans, loose-fitting shirt...and an Akatsuki cloak as well as the Atake medallion

***
What's the worst nightmare you ever had? not telling...never ever ever ever ever

What's your strangest dream? Oh God...I can't say here (it would take to long) but ALL my friends were involved as well as a ghost town, space aliens, car chases, shooting, and cheese sticks

Second strangest: Atake meets Shotgun and Splee (http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17033830/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 23:14:04 PST

1. What's your name: Natalie Davis

2. What do you wish your name was, instead: Aveline.

3. How are you: I'm fine, how are you?

4. Would you ever eat sushi? Yum! Sushi! *takes the one with imitation crab*

5. Would you ever eat sushi off a naked body? ...and when would this situation ever come up?

6. Have you considered homosexuality? Everyone's a little gay!

7. What's your sexual preference? Guys. Definitly.

8. What were you in a past life? I was probably someone like Benedict Arnold.

9. I punch you. Quick, what do you do?

10. When confronted with Britney Spears, you...? Punch her in her hairless face.

11. What's your favorite coffee? Starbucks Coffee Frap

12. What's your political perspective? Stephen Colbert for president!

13. Are you my Angel? Yes. Now just go into that dark room...don't mind the gun...I'll be with you in a moment.

14. Do you consider yourself a poet? Aw HELL NO

15. What do you wanna be when you grow up? No, the question is IF I grow up.

16. There's a naked man in your living room. What do you do? "Um, excuse me sir? Are you okay?"

17. How stupid do you think you are? Fairly

18. How stupid do other people think you are? Everyone seems to have this strange idea that I'm smart...

19. Who the hell do you think you are? SUPERMAN!

20. Is the Wonderbra good or bad? ...I don't know.

21. If you could levitate, who would you scare first? Lucas...

22. What's your favorite fruit? Plums

23. Can you feel the love tonight? Yes~. Okay...not really, no. I lied.

24. On a nude beach, you would...? EEP! *covers up*

25. Make up a story with yourself: Once upon a time, there was a girl who sacred everyone she met. She lived happily ever after...untill the end of the world in 2012

26. What do you think about contemporary art? Art! Art=Good

27. Do you like being naked? Uh, not really.

28. If we had proof God didn't exist, what would happen? A lot of people would commit suicide...Hehehe, I'd like to see what the KKK does...

30. What's your position on virginity? Virginity till your at least twenty one, bitches

31. On civil unions: Um...?

32. On RuPaul: ?

33. On mosquito bites: T_T Ow...

34. On bad sitcoms: Hahahhahah NO

35. On Fran Drescher: Who?

36. Are you left handed or right handed? Right.

37. Are you smart? I'm not sure...sometimes

38. What's your middle name? NOT ARIEL.

39. How many personalities do you have? Three or four

40. How many piercings do you have? Just my ears, and I'm keeping it that way.

41. What was your first word? Dada

42. Are you superstitious? OH, yes

43. Do you read your horoscope? When I'm bored

44. Do you believe in that stuff? Not really.

45. Can you do a cartwheel? No

46. Do you have contact lenses? No.

47. Do you have a retainer or braces? Braces.

48. Can you drive? :scared:

49. Do you snore? Used to, but I don't anymores

50. Do you drool in your sleep? sometimes...

51. Do you lick your envelopes or use a sponge? I usually lick them.

52. Do you keep a journal? Sort of.

53. Do you like onions? A bit.

54. Do you like cotton candy? No.

55. What instruments can you play? Violin, viola, cello, piano...

56. Do you like to dance? When I'm alone...

57. Do you like to sing? Yes! ^_^

58. Are you any good at it? Probably not.

59. Do you like to talk on the phone? No.

60. Do you like where you live? >.< It doesn't rain enough here...

61. Are you organized? NO

62. Do you sleep with socks on? One sock on, one sock off. It's supposed to be good karma or something...

63. Are you shy? YES.

64. Do you talk to yourself? When I'm pissed

65. Are... ]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17016959/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/17016959/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 21:49:09 PST
I. NEED. SERIOUS. ADVICE. About a situation I'm in as of now.

For the last year, I have had the same nightmare. Well, not the same nightmare. But it has the same evil character.

That character...is a man who turns into a copy of me.

It's there...to replace me. Because I'm not good enough.

I have to watch as it takes over my life, living it perfectly, and tortures me. I FEEL IT'S TOUCH IN MY DREAMS.

The dreams stopped four months ago, and I smiled easily for a long time.

They're back.

But now they're real.

That thing has come into my room four times now. I AM NOT DREAMING. I can't be seeing things, because I can touch him.

I'm scared to sleep, but more afraid to be awake.

There are times I want to die.

I HAVEN'T EVER TOLD ANYONE THIS PLEASE NEVER TELL.

Don't worry about me though, I just want to know if anyone has advice.

What do I do?

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16983633/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16983633/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 19:29:46 PST
I placed the drawing back on the table, and headed upstairs to grab some pajamas. I glanced at the clock: 10:45 it flashed. Great, I thought, I'm never going to get up in the morning, I'll be so tired.

I had just started getting dressed, when I realized my pajama pants weren't on my bed. I looked around, but they were nowhere to be seen.

Huh, I thought, maybe Dad picked them up and washed them. I headed back downstairs with one sock, and a turtleneck, nothing else.

I got downstairs and went into the garage. The door closed behind me, and I went to the dryer. Nope...I wonder where they were?

I headed back to the door.

It wouldn't budge.

I tried again.

Aw shit...it was locked.

I tried jiggling the handle for a few minutes, then tried to pick my way out. Nothing worked.

I tried screaming. That didn't work either. The rest of the house was fast asleep.

I couldn't sneak out of the garage because, I was pant-less. And high-school guys COAT my street.

So, desperate times came to desperate measures.

I grabbed a hammer off the work-bench, and bange it as loud as I could on the concrete floor.

Ten minutes later, I was lying down on the ground, my iPOd on loud, using the hammer to drum the beat. I was banging it so hard, I hurt my arms.

No one heard.

For TWO AND A HALF HOURS I sat there freezing, curled in a ball, listening to music and rain.

Dad finally came and got me...at 1:20 in the morning.

And guess what?

My pajama pants were in my room all along...

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16933561/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16933561/ Sun, 17 Feb 2008 17:32:37 PST
*Symphony #5 by Beethoven plays in background, substituting a cheesy jingle*

Roosevelt: Hello world, and welcome to channel 134885 news, this just in.

Liddie: Natalie's FAVORITE aunt, Aunt Sue, is coming to visit for the weekend six days from today. Natalie hasn't seen her since she got married in 2006, so she is very excited.

Roosevelt: Rightly so.

Liddie: As well, Natalie's hate of the viola has finally hit breaking point. Just when she was about to quit quartet for good, she was switched to first violin! Good luck Natalie...you'll need it (what with playing in sixth position and all)

Roosevelt: Natalie took a vow in blood on Friday, swearing she will never, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever-

Liddie: Oh shut up Roosevelt. Anyways, she's decided to be single for life. She's kind of fed up with guys right now...

Roosevelt: Now on to the weather with Stoov the Mannequin

Stoov: cloudy with a chance of sunny, rainy, stormy, snowy, and wind. And cupcakes. Back to you Liddie

Liddie: On to sports with Ralphie the Dog

Ralphie: Natalie's younger sisters lost their softball game...again. Which resulted in Dad getting annoyed. Which resulted in Natalie going to bed at six. The violin contest is going downhill, but we don't think it will crash. Back to you.

Liddie: Overall, Natalie is stressed. As well-

Roosevelt: Look Liddie! Natalie's brain fell out!

Liddie: O.o

Roosevelt: Oh never mind, it's just the cat. Get out of here you!

Liddie: Idiot. Anyway, Natalie has a TON of work, and on top of it all she's getting sick. She took a three hour resting period where she curled up under the covers in her pajamas and listened to music.


>>
<<

Roosevelt: Natalie feels pretty today...

Liddie: Oh, shut up. How do you know?

Roosevelt: Before she felt sick, she was dancing and singing in her roo-

Me: WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON IN THERE!?!??!

Liddie: Umm, that'sithaveaniceday


]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16889167/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16889167/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 19:36:04 PST
It turns out I have two cousins slightly older than me I never met that are both so autistic they can't talk or anything, adding on to my other cousin that I already knew had serious autism. That's three people in my family, only one of which i knew about.

My grandfather cheated on my grandmama, and that's why they divorced

My ENTIRE family on Dad's side went to UCLA

My great aunt has a really sad Holocaust story

And other crap like that.


Anyways, I am ticked at the brief moment. Nathaniel pushed it WAAAAAAAAAAAAY too far today. HE decided to lecture ME about classical music (getting every fact wrong) The rest of the coversation went like this:

N (Me): So who are you doing for your art project?
N2 (him): Albert Einstien. He had autism.
N: So...you're doing him just because he has autism? That's not very fair...
N2: Shut up. You don't know anything about autism.
N: ?????????
N2: What? You don't.
N: Four friends, one best friend, three cousins, and I don't know about autism?
*the rest of this part is censored becuase it went into a certain person on deviantart, and I don't want that person o know what was said*

Okay, I'm done

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16728321/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16728321/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 18:11:04 PST
Well, first of all, my scanner is too small for it. Second, when I tried scanning it anyway, all the colors I had tried so hard to make perfect were completly ruined.

Does anyone know what I should do, cuz I want to show people (it's the best thing I've ever made (though that's not saying much)), but my scanner hates me.



]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16687008/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16687008/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 08:24:49 PST
You see things during school hours that you don't usually see when you go to a store.

REALITY people. REALITY has a lot of things in it. A lot of things people push away and try to forget about.

Such things include:
Starvation
Handicaps
Mental Handicaps
Birth Defects
Fatal Diseases
Natural Disasters
Drugs
Alcohal

All of these things lead to death.

Death I am okay with. Death is natural. But the way those people die is painful to look at. So we turn away.

For about three years, I've taken pride in understanding 'reality'. The reality was: everyone is going to die no matter what they do in life.

Idiot. That's not reality.

Reality is: life isn't fair. But I've got the fair side. So I'm going to pray everyday for what I have. Thank you.

Reality is how you die.

I just saw a GLIMPSE of reality. Just the BAREST of a glimpse. And for the first time in three years, I'm crying. Really truly crying.

If I get permission to post the link to the site, I will. You don't have to look. Heck if you can get through the first six pictures, you'll have done better than me.

Don't look at it and say "Oh Ewww, GROSS!"

Look at it and remember:

That was someone's child. A mother gave birth to that child.

Just like your mother gave birth to you.

EDIT: I got permission. made the deviation. It has the link to the website. (The link on her sig leads to the deviation). PLEASE go look at it. Reality might change a bit.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16683104/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16683104/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 23:19:00 PST I'm going to attempt real art. I suggest you don't look.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16666163/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16666163/ Thu, 31 Jan 2008 21:21:55 PST
There are a lot of reasons for my depression. I don't feel like discussing them with anyone (that includes my therapist), but I am fully aware that I have them.

There are a grand total of four things keeping me from completely snapping. I am not going to list them. If I lose those things...God, I don't know what would happen.

It is NOT an act. I don't WANT to be sad, I want to be happy and enjoy my life. I AM TRYING.

Yes. For those of you who were wondering, Nathaniel finally snapped. I was trying to explain to him that by him putting me down (Lucas's Slave), he was being just like the other bullies that tease other people. I was doing a very good job on being nice and polite considering how mad I was.

He told me quite literally to shut my mouth, I'm not his mother. I have a problem, so I'm not supposed to talk like that to him. He didn't say I was Lucas's slave to 'hurt me', but because no one would write an essay for their brother. If I'm mad, it's my issue, and don't talk to him. Have a nice day.


Laughing. Out. Freaking. Loud. My gut hurts.

I'm not going to shut my mouth, sorry. No one tells me what to do, especially a GUY. Just for that, i'm going to keep my mouth open ALL DAY. No, I'm not your mother (thank God, I don't need kids). YES!!! Dingdingding give him a prize! I DO have a problem! By you saying that, you have proved that you don't know the first thing about me. Yes, I'm aware you didn't say that to hurt me, you said it to make Jasmine laugh. Which you didn't (she's on my side). It was rude. And whatever, I did what I did it's not your problem if I lost sleep over it. Lucas happens to be my friend, and I'm fine helping him with things like that. Go get a friend like that of your own. No, I wasn't mad just hurt, but now I'm mad. Okay, not talking to you then, go watch your froggie anime all day. I'm a Narutard and proud of it. I also like Bleach, Ful Metal Alchemist, and Fruits Basket. There's a REASON it's popular: it's cool. Unlike little frogs that ribbit while trying to take over the world (?????). Just because something becomes popular doesn't mean I'm going to stop liking it. Get over it.

And I'm sorry if any of that sounded like I was being mean towards him. I'm not that pissed...(screw it yes I am) but at least I'm still polite.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16639998/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16639998/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 07:36:57 PST
Jeez, I mean, if people would just open their eyes, it's right in front of their noses!

And seriously, when I was getting picked on, I didn't WANT anyone to stand up for me (not like anyone did mind you). I wanted to be strong enough to deal with it myself. (Of course, I tried to, and got a referral)

I have tried to go to Ms Nikki (is that how you spell Nikki?) twice now about Autumn's sexual harrasment. Both times I got blown off. Sorry Tim, I tried there.

Anyways, everyone teased me back in middle school, but nobody cared then.

People, it's one of the worst feelings in the world when your classmates tease you,

and your teachers join in with them.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16618715/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16618715/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 19:12:02 PST
Good. God. I have too many websites. Seriously.

My Digital Portfolio: [link] . I dare you to look at it.

My Blog: [link] .

Both of them I got for my school O.o

Darn. Only Monday and I'm exhausted. Sure didn't feel like a weekend...well, Sunday was alright, but I spent all Saturday sick. And when I get sick, I always do the same thing (get into pajamas, curl up in a ball under my covers, listen to iPod really loud, fall asleep). So...that didn't feel like a weekend at all. Just a sick day.

Okay, I'm supposed to be doing my math homework. Let's see here...

Kira + John + Tawni = AnnoyingTriplets (k+j+t=at)

Alex + Noam = Awesome Advisory (a+n=aa)

Glasses + Me = Cute But Pissed (equation written by Alex Kiwan, Jasmine, Jessica, and others) (g+n=cbp)

Me + Alex = Scare All The Guys (n+a=satg)

Me + Lucas = God Only Knows (n+l=gok)

Lucas + Allie = ?

Me + Nathaniel = >.< (n1+n2=angerface)

Me + Crack = Fanfiction (n+c=f)

Sandra + Pencil/Pen = AWESOME (S+P/P=A)

Dayna + Bleach in Advisory = Alex and me watching it too from the other classroom (d+bia=aanwitftoc)

Coke + Pepsi = Dr. Pepper (c+p=d)

If I forgot you tell me, I shall add you...

Oh! One more:

Tim + My Neji Gangsta = Crack Up (t+mng=cu)


Last thing:

Did you know six of the seven sins I have?

Greed: yes, I'm greedy
Pride: very overconfident on violin
Wrath: yes
Gluttony: i can be a bit of a pig sometimes, but ive gotten better about that...
Sloth: i am such a procrastinator
Envy: yesh, jelousy issues

The only one that cannot be applied is Lust (uh, duh?)

But that's just sad. I am seriously going to hell

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16581442/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16581442/ Sat, 26 Jan 2008 12:58:12 PST
AKA decided to make a crappy fanfic of my own. Hehehe.

Yes, it's crappy. Yes, the jokes are bad. Yes, the couples are screwy. Yes, I am MURDERING your favorite characters.

It's called No Amount Of Therapy...(Will Ever Make This Okay). Or NOAT for sure.

There will be NO OCs, I can promise that. But actual deviantART users might, or might not pop up randomly in them. Not to mention George W. Bush, James Bond, Jackie Chan, Bruce Lee, L, Ichigo, other random characters from different animes, Linkin Park, Your Mom, My Mom, the Easter Bunny, Jack Skellington, etc, etc.

It's all about how, one morning when the Konoha 11 are on a chat board, a jutsu is cast that makes everyone who reads it go absolutly insane. Sort of. You just have to read it.

Yes, I am evil.

It's not for little kids.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16568065/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16568065/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 21:14:51 PST
It took me long enough....

The extent of my evil:

As leocellist should know, I have a bit of a hobby.

*someone in the distance* Hobby my foot! It's a f*cking obsession!

Me: shoots with machine gun

Anyways, I have a bit of a hobby when it comes to animes. I make these character bashing videos of them. Really, really character bashing. I might have let one or two escape my wrath...

Anyways, when I'm finally out of animes, I'm going to show them to my friends. Problem: I'm kind of out of animes. I did Naruto, Bleach, Fruits Basket, and am in the process of making Full Metal Alchemist.

Anyone got any ideas?

Oh and guess what? I'm sick. Dammit.

***EDIT***

W-Wow. Just wow. I am in total shock. It should be ILLEGAL to kill great characters like that.

Okay, who here reads the Naruto manga? Well...I'll try not to ruin to much. Let's just say...I am hoping, PRAYING for the first time ever that Sasuke will beat Itachi. Please. Let Itachi die with the small bit of dignity he has left...please, if God has any mercy...

Seriously. Look at this and tremble in alughter sadness and fear: [link]

RIP The Cool Sophisticated Itachi We Knew And Loved
My Favorite Character In Anime
Gone Too Soon

Seriously, WHAT THE CRAP!??!?!?!?!?!?!?! "SASUKEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, YOU WILL BE MY LIGHT!!!!!!!!" That was INSANE. I was laughing. Then it just started to depress me. Dammit, they ruined him.

"Skyler. SKYLER!" *he comes over* "Promise me you will NEVER let me ruin you like this! This is pathetic!"

Skyler now owns Itachi's butt.

I Hate Kishimoto.

I'm never reading Naruto again.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16529856/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16529856/ Tue, 22 Jan 2008 22:34:22 PST
Up until 10 doing someone elses project. God, I've turned into quite the gullible pushover...

Anyhows, there's this really people ([link]) and they merge Narunto characters/make them something else. Like, they've got Sasugay, and Emo Ino which are just hilarious. And random children people. So, if you want to check them out, request a few things (WonTawn wants Sakura and Deidara) you just have to ask. Cool, yes?

Speak like Yoda, I can. My idol, Yoda is. Want to be just like him, I do. Excepting the shrivelly green part. Using a retarded widget thing to talk like this, I am

My friend comes up to me, 'James, I am your father.'
Me. "What the hell?
Friend: 'You know it's true James. Look into your soul.'
Me. 'Okay...let's see....not there....nope, not there...hey look! Jellybeans!'

Alex, write your book. NOWS.

Guess what? James (the ASB president) taught me a new trick today. He taught me how to get high on coffee. Seriosuly, we were sniffing coffee beans ALL math. It was amusing...

And I creeped everyone out with my scary finger trick.

And the anime meeting was today.

And the world blew up. THE END.

Wait, it can't blow up yet, Lucas still owes me...

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16497821/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16497821/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 22:15:41 PST
Da Ex didn't come as he planned *applause*

I now have bruises on my 'ressure points'. Dammit Lucas...It hurts! If only they had an icon like.....unchingcrapoutofyou:

Sure is nice weather...speaking of which, have you ever eaten an emu?

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16465249/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16465249/ Fri, 18 Jan 2008 19:45:39 PST
My week:
1. The one woman I have looked up to as a grandparent (besides my real one) has cancer
2. Made a club
3. My Dad hates my guts T_T (well no, not really...don't ask, it's a huge problem I have.)
4. We had a play, and I was hostess/media girl (and at the school for 12 HOURS!)
5. My cousin is having his third child on his second wife, and we don't know if he's even divorced or not
6. I have a concert on Sunday
7. Lucas AND Nathaniel are coming. (Recipe. For. DISASTER! (thank God your coming Dayna ^_^))
8. Conducting in 12 hours
9. Spanish Project was due
10. 3 letters: P.O.L
11. Badly bruised wrist (Thanks Lucas)
12. Broke up with boyfriend
13. Told a huge lie. Again. For the 4,885th time
14. Bagged my religion
15. Watched Tim, the nerdiest Asian guy EVER, play a gay gangster
16. Prayed for the first time in my life
17. Wrote something *slightly* decent
18. I HAVE THIS AMAZING BOOK DEA OMG I'LL TELL YOU NEXT JOURNAL!
19. Picked an impossible violin piece to play for concert

Heheheheheheheheh*wheeze*

AND allergies!

Whoever posts, I will tell you what book character you remind me of, and you can ask me one question and I will answer it 100% truthfully (It can be something like "Do you think I'm cool" or something like that). Please post so I can be forgiven by God, as it's part of my religion. Gotta atone for lying...

Hope to hear from ya soon!

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16424169/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16424169/ Tue, 15 Jan 2008 20:59:36 PST
So I hear a lot of these...um...disturbing-sounding terms in their conversations.

I made a mistake.

I wanted to see what the crap they were talking about, so...I Wiki'd it.

0-0 omg

So...scarred....

WHY THE HELL DO PEOPLE DO THAT AND WHO CAME UP WITH THOSE DISTURBING THINGS?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!!??!!? SCCCCAAAAARRRRRRREEEEDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(yesterday, I knew literally nothing about all of this, um, well you know, stuff.)

So now, I look at even the most innocent of things badly T^T

CRUEL WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously though, never do that. (Expect Wiki to have DIAGRAMS) Unless your name is John Robert Jefferson. In that case, you probably already have, and you are using the concepts on there

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16409570/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16409570/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 20:34:02 PST
It may have beat me in being a jerk, but I sure beat it in drop-kicking

I'll live, it's just seriously annoying. Luckily I hadn't edited those chapters too many times. If it had deleted the chapter I am working on now, then I seriously would have flung it out the window.

So yeah. Darn it.



I finally finished my New Years Resolutions. They include wonderful things like:

Conquer fear of elevators
Cheer up emo kid
It's the end of the world! We're all going to die!
We are men! OMG I broke a nail!

...and wonderful bits of wisdom like that



I am so freaking drunk right now. Drunk on something...don't know what.

I've been fighting invisible monsters for an hour now.

-LovesJB

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16394401/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16394401/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 20:14:02 PST

RIP my friend. See you in the next life. May you be happy in heaven. And if you're not in heaven, I'm marching down to hell to drag you back up where you belong.

Missing you


***

T_T

Yeah, still haven't gotten over that one...poor Matt. TTTTT_TTTT *sobs*



Guess what people? I found a song that SHOULD HAVE BEEN FRIKING WRITTEN FOR ME. It was scary...I don't even like the band, but I was looking at them, and I listened to it...it's my theme song. SCARY.

A moment of slience please

...


...


...


...

Okay, that's good.

See you all soon

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16348561/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16348561/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 18:40:40 PST
Anyway...

Umm...

Goddammit, someone, I need a hug over here.

Emo moment over

If you are a suck-up, you deserve to go to hell. Seriously, follow what you want, and stop being such a STUPID SUCK-UP!!!!!!!!!! I can deal with all sorts of people, but suck-ups desereve to be run over by a TRAIN.

Send me an air hug and I will tell you your theme song/song that really describes or reminds me of you.

Oh, and guys: when a girl says she's 'fine', then she's probably either depressed at the world, or mad at you. Don't push it, but comfort the poor girl. If she WANTS to be comforted. (aka, Nathaniel, PERSONAL SPACE, STOP HUGGING ME WHEN I TELL YOU TO STOP, I DON'T WANT YOU TO HUG ME!!!!!! *rants*)

One word to describe my boyfriend: pontification. Look it up.

May your music be with you

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16336093/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16336093/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 20:21:30 PST
Anyone?

*shakes head* Wow, we're all going to hell for illegal downloading.

Not that I can blame you...

I have some great anime theme songs right now.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16322516/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16322516/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 21:18:41 PST
Natalie
Na-TA (As in ta-ta)-lie
Natalia
Nadile
Natile
Nat
NatNat
NatNatNat
Natters
Nattles
Nathan
Davis
Ariel
Anne
My Girl
Sissy
Mom
James
JB
Baroque
Brook
Bob The Washerwoman
Loser
Thatonechick
OneOfTheGuys
Hannah Hobo
Hermione
#13
Young Lady
NATALIE*censoring middle name* DAVISGETDOWNHERE!!!!!!!
626
That kid

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16308773/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16308773/ Mon, 07 Jan 2008 22:10:54 PST No matter how crazy, inappropriate, or random they are. (Within reason! I'm not going to tell you my address or anything.)
I will answer 100% truthfully. (or as close to the truth as I can)
I may note you with my answer if it's TOO personal, but I I will answer.

Now here's the dare.
You must put this in your journal.
See what other people will ask you.
You MUST answer their questions. No matter what you get.

so ask questons in your comments

***

Copied from Shikamari405

Just ask me whatever you want, *not afraid of online pedophiles*

Not that anyone is going to read this or post <.< >.>

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16215253/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16215253/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 22:02:52 PST
HA!

1000000% HONEST today...

IF...you post on this journal.

So post, I will tell you.....what anime character you remind me of

...


POST!

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16214335/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16214335/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 20:50:19 PST
Best movie seen in theater: The Bourne Ultimatum/ Casino Royale

Worst: Harry Potter 5/Shrek 3
Scariest Celebrity: Britney Spears

Best anime characters (no order): Ed Elric, Roy Mustang, Riza Hawkeye, Neji Hyuga, Shikamaru Nara, Shigure Sohma, Rin Sohma, Kisa Sohma, Haru Sohma, Henrietta, Itachi, Deidara, Sasori, Urahara, that one girl, Yuki Nagato, um, Hitsugaya Toushiro, Haku, Kabuto, Gin, Yachiru, Ulquiorra, Fuery, Envy, um, yeah.

Best Anime: Full Metal Alchemist

Best Manga: Fruits Basket

Best book: Eh, The Tough Guide To Fantasyland, by Diana Wynne Jones

Most played song: Prelude 12/21, Clocks, Breaking the Habit, Dragostea Din Tei. All tied.

Best movie character: James Bond. Sparrow gets credit, but the third movie killed him.

Coolest people at school (no order): Umm...okay. Emo-Neko, Dayna, AvenueCloudeh, Tim, Rein, Matt W, Matt G. (who has won an award for staying on this list for four years straight now), Keeley, Ian, maaaaaaybe Nathaniel

Most times visiting my house: Lucas

BFFLAD: Tawni. The one who thought that up, thus no one else can take that spot.

AwEsOmE OlD FrIeNdS: Kiki, John.

Most phone calls: Lucas

Strangest relationship timeline: Lucas (seriously...aquaintence-friend-enemies-friend-adoptedtwinbrotheralwaysoveratmyhouseGUY. O.o)

Cutest Kids EVA!: Morgie, William, Sabrina, Davis, Kyra, Catherine,
Caroline, JP, Miranda

Strange, but fun: Lesbiun/Jewish wedding

Worst insult: (done at guy I don't know/haven't even met, he's one of WonTawn's friends. He was threatening her, and this is what happens if he continues to) I will stalk him for two days all the while screwing with his mind and emotions, then wait untill midnight and chop off all of his hair, slit his throat, use his eyeballs for playing pool, chop off his head and feed it to my cat. Pull out his intestines and use them for a rope, get my cat to hurl up his head and give his head a girly makeover.

Person most scarred for life by me: John. THAT BET IS STILL ON! Lol, I bet he doesn't even make it till his junior year...

Adopted Siblings: Lucas, Jillian, Catherine, Caroline, Morgie, Miranda, Caitlin.

Most evil thing done: Cannot yet say. Not yet in motion

Best Store: Borders

Websites I'm most on: DeviantART, Yahoo, Uncyclopedia, Watch-FMA, IDKWTF? (it has a ton of anime...)

The characters people say I remind them of: Sheska, Rukia Kuchiki,

You know anime quizes? They'll have an anime/manga.game, and you can see who you are? These are the people I ALWAYS get, NO EXCEPTIONS! Well, A few...:Sakura Haruno, Rukia Kuchiki, Yuki Sohma, Kyoya, L (who I don't even know who he is, he's from DeathNote), Riza Hawkeye/Al Elric, Yuki Nagato, Haku

Anime characters I wish I was like: Urahara, Shigure, Haku, and many, many others, for different qualities

Umm...thaaaaaaaat's it. Bye Byes!

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16122597/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16122597/ Thu, 27 Dec 2007 11:16:16 PST
It doesn't matter what you tell me, it doesn't matter what you say. The only thing that matters are what is in your EYES.

You can say you hate me, and if your eyes say otherwise, then I will not judge you (you have your reasons). You can say you love me, but if your eyes say otherwise, you've made an enemy of me.

So why? Why do people have false hate and false love for others?

Especially me?

And haven't they noticed?

By giving me false hate and false love, emotions that mean less than nothing:

I might come to hate them more.

So SHUT UP. I don't WANT you to say you love me, GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEAD. SHUT UP.
I DON'T CARE IF YOU HATE ME, BUT I WILL HATE YOU IF YOU KEEP SAYING THAT.

I am no one's fucking love. And stop calling yourself my fucking darling. I DIDN'T GIVE YOU ANY FUCKING PERMISSION DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STOP ACTING LIKE A REALLY SAPPY CHICKFLICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just shut up, and leave me alone.

Unless you mean it with your eyes when you say that I am your friend.

I can't trust him

but that's nothing new

***

I
AM
SO
FUCKING
PISSED
RIGHT
NOW

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16098663/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16098663/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 18:25:18 PST
So, I'm going to be spoiled and post what I got:

A new moniter! YES! We've had my old when ever since I was FIVE< and it wasn't new even then!!!
Jewlery Box. Maybe I won't lose all of it anymore...
Borders Gift Card. (For Manga!)
Recipe Book
Coexist bumper sticker XD
Bottles for my dragon hoard. I mean, room >.> <.< (For those of you who havent seen it, I'm redesigning it to look dragony.)
And...(last but not least) An AWESOME hand drawn picture of my fourth fave anime character of all time...NEJI! (Done by leocellist. He posted it on deviantart first, so everyone can see it. It's on my wall...)

Thanks for the presents Kira and Tawni! They was appreicated ^_^

Oh! Also, I got to see the Full Metal Alchemist movie!!! YES IT WAS SO FREAKING AWESOME!!!!!!! I didn't know WWII and anime mixed so nicely...

So yeah, merry christmas to all!

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16017546/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/16017546/ Thu, 20 Dec 2007 16:39:56 PST You've never known me, you never will
Only two things can change that
My smiles at your philosophies and your jokes are fake. A lie.
Yes, that is something I do.
I lie
I am a LIAR
Why? I lie to protect the ones I care about. Does that make sense?
Do you care?
I would suppose not.

Yes, I lie. Only when I sleep am I finally telling the truth

I live in my own world. Things happen as I make them. I can't explain it very well, but in my own way, I've created my universe. I met you because I willed it.

I visit my world in my dreams.

You mean nothing to me if I haven't seen you in my world.

There are several people who live there, but most visit my world. It is a hard place to live: on my subconscience mine, with it's black holes and winding paths.

But some manage.

Have I seen you in my dreams? Do you realize I am a truthful liar?

If you do...

Maybe you know me a little


***

Shoutout to all my new friends, ask anyone, I have lying issues. Haven't lied at school yet though, so I'm happy about that ^_^

I'm actually getting better, but lying is unfortunatly a part of who I am sometimes. REALLY bad habit TT_TT

You can usually trust me. I think. I don't trust myself sometimes...

And yeah, if you haven't appeared in my dreams at least once, you have no impact on my life.

I just wanted to say that to get it off my conscience. I feel like I'm lying to my new friends by not telling them that I lie sometimes (does that make any sense?)

Anyway, whatever.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/15906147/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/15906147/ Wed, 12 Dec 2007 16:18:21 PST

Wait...what?


It's...Christmas?



.....Goddammit

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/15884414/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/15884414/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 22:14:41 PST
So Mr. Leader (one of the teachers at school, bot mine though) had this life-sized kid doll named Emily. Came up to my waist. She had on a really short skirt and her shirt was ripped, exposing a lot of skin that shouldn't have been 0-0

He kept leaving it in my advisory teachers classroom apparently. Mrs. P. She's awesome.

So we're thinking, how do we get back at them?

We took the doll. We gave her black lipstick, eyeliner, a mole, a black wig, and band-aids for her wrist.

We then riggedthe door so that she would fly out at Mr. Leader when he opened it.

We put a sign on her chest that said:

Hi Mr. Leader!
I'm Emily Emo!
P.S: Mrs. P and her advisory are awesome!

It flew out at him perfectly! XDXD ROTFLOL.

Ah, priceless

Our advisories are at war now I think...

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/15634445/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/15634445/ Fri, 23 Nov 2007 11:32:48 PST
I made all three pies and the stuffing.

So anyhow, Lucas and his family came over for Thanksgiving.

HIS SIBLINGS ARE SOOOO CUUUUUTE!!!!!! OMG!!!!

Okay, so he's got a twenty-month sister named Sabrina who gives kisses and has the cutest smile. She has this little lamby thing that she loves too. We put in a movie and I was sitting on the couch (Lucas was on the floor in front of me) and she climbed over Lucas and fell asleep in my lap for an hour!!! XD


And then there's five year old William (Not Will, William) You'd think he'd be really loud cuz he's five, right? Wrong! He was so quiet! He barely said anything. But whenever I asked him something he gave the CUTEST smile and said "Yeah!" even if it was against what he justr said. We put in a movie, and he sat next to me.

This is what he did every two minutes

William: "Natalie?"
Me: "Yes?"
William: Big smile

Two minutes later:

William: "Natalie?"
Me: "Yes?"
William: Big smile


SOOOOOOOOOO CUUUTE!!!!

So yeah, pretty good turkey day.

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/15409500/ http://iSlightlyCuckoo.deviantart.com/journal/15409500/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 16:41:18 PST Weeks, Months, Years, Decades, Generations
Centuries
Civilizations fall and are born from the ashes
A pheonix
And they fly
Freedom

And we worry about
Clothes
Shoes
Dates
Even a person's sexual preferences
Are Questioned

What we say
And do
Our deeds
Don't even leave a ripple on this planet

Hopeless fools
Think different
And strive
To be remembered

Is Wisdom really Time's fool?
Or do we truly gain knowledge
In time

Am I a fool?
Maybe so.
But I refuse to die
And be not remembered

When I die, I shall not be some faceless body
Without a name or purpose
'Here lies #9,496,153,123,720'
An unknown woman
Not remembered
Therefore, not ever living

No. I will be remembered, even if to do so
I bear the title Fool
I bear it with a Fool's hope
Of being remembered






Now tell me this.







Are you a fool?

]]> ~iSlightlyCuckoo