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Have managed to (somewhat) resurrect two dying communities thanks to dA's very own Groups platform.

If you're reading this, and if you happen to know me (heck, it doesn't matter if you don't!), please do visit the two groups:

   
#indians  #mumbai

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]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/20807340/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/20807340/ Fri, 03 Oct 2008 11:24:19 PDT
~indians, ~mumbai and everything else has been put on indefinite hold (and has obviously gone for a toss). No, I'm not holding it to ransom. I'm a little short on inspiration that's all.

Am looking to connect with some deviants who can ignite the spark again.

Contact me at:

bang bang die at gmail dot com

Drop me an email, ping me. Whatever.


Am a bit surprised honestly to still find quite a few of my friends active in here. Thing's aren't as good as they were back in 2001.

]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/13924420/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/13924420/ Sun, 29 Jul 2007 08:17:18 PDT
I just have roughly a year and half to graduate now, and the work just keeps on piling. I do not possess the abundance of time I used to have before, nor do I posses that fervour and enthusiasm that I used to up until a couple of months ago. One of the reasons behind this has been the fact that I have not received adequate support from my peers and so called friends who had pledged to help me through the thick and the thin. Unfortunately, nothing materialized, and a lot is left to be desired.

I still am on a lookout for enthusiastic, happy and talented bunch of people who possess an undying love for art and want to do their bit for the Indian art community. I need people who have a vision, can write and freely express themselves. I need someone to help me out with the monthly/fortnightly art feature that I had been planning on for a couple of months. If you are interested, drop me a line or two at: bangbangdie at gmail dot com.

I have nothing more to say. I am growing up a tad too quickly it seems and am losing interest in dA little by little every day. Currently I am trying to find a way to stop that.

]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/11969317/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/11969317/ Mon, 26 Feb 2007 02:37:35 PST
Anyway, the main reason for this update is that I will be coming back to b'bay in about two week's time, and we're having a little dA meet (since the Delhi/NCR guys don't seem to exist/enthusiastic about this whole thing) back where it all started.

The meet will be on either Saturday or Sunday, and it will be in town. Interested? Head to ~mumbai for more details.









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]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/11048675/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/11048675/ Wed, 13 Dec 2006 08:10:14 PST CSC, although I'm a bit bummed about leaving a lot of things behind.
So what does this mean? That I won't be able to devote a lot of my time to dA (just like right now). I will be needing someone to take over ~indians while I'm gone, perhaps revamp it, and give it a new direction. The place has been a bit dead for too long now. So if anyone is interested, send me a word at bangbangdie (at) gmail (dot) com.

Well, so this is goodbye, for now. Maybe I'll make my next update when my balls are freezing in the icy winters of Noida. Ta!









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]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/10450969/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/10450969/ Thu, 19 Oct 2006 23:23:06 PDT
Anyway, I won't be around for too long, I think. I have my Industrial training coming up in January. I will be going to some IT company for a period of four to six months and in that time I will be probably undertaking a technical project of some kind. If I am lucky, I will mostly be in Bombay, else I will either be heading off to Gurgaon/Noida, Bangalore (or shall I say Bengaluru?), Hyderabad or Pune. Getting out of here wouldn't be such a bad thing. I just hope I have some good company.

Soooo, if anyone knows anyone or someone in a nice IT company, please get in touch with me


Oh, and a very happy Diwali to everyone




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]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/9228529/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/9228529/ Fri, 30 Jun 2006 05:43:22 PDT And how! What a brilliant movie! I didn't expect it to be this good. In fact, I didn't expect it to be good at all! But Superman Returns is awesome. Really, it is. I wasn't a big fan of the old Superman movies but this movie has made me a big, big fan. Besides, isn't it a great feeling to see your favorite superhero in action (I mean come on, all of us have wanted to be Superman atleast a few times in our lives).

It felt really great to watch it first day, first show (1000 hours at INOX). When people clap, whistle and cheer for a movie, it has got to be something special. And special it was.

This movie has a lot of soul. Bryan Singer has gone a brilliant job and has given excellent treatment to this movie. He did a good thing ditching X3 for Superman Returns.

Having said that, I urge you all to go watch it. NOW!

Well that's it for now. I just had to share my excitement with you guys








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Indians on DeviantART
Mumbai on DeviantART} ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/9133862/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/9133862/ Wed, 21 Jun 2006 05:59:09 PDT
The birthday was a blast. I didn't expect it to be so much fun. I guess some things are better that way. And it doesn't feel all that bad really. Two decades is a long time and damn, I feel good about it. Thanks to all for the birthday wishes

Went to lonavala with family in the morning. It was an unusually sunny day, with the rains playing a bit of hide and seek (and winning in the end) and playing the spoilsport. Anyway the drive was fun, and spending time there with family was totally worth it. I wasn't too disappointed about the rains, because a friend did message and tell me it rained where she was. So all wasn't lost, after all.

Took friends out dinner in the evening. Was a sort of last-minute thing as I hadn't really planned on celebrating the birthday but decided to go ahead with it. It felt really great to finally catch up with friends, reminisce the old times and enjoy some good food. It did get a bit chaotic somewhere in the middle, but it was all good .

Oh, and I got a lot of spiffy stuff as gifts.

My school friends gifted me a really trippy plasma lamp. It looks brilliant in the dark. You can see it here: [link]

My college friends gifted me a copy of Hellboy: Seed of Destruction. Very, very awesome in my opinion. You can see it here: [link]

Apart from that, one of my other friends gifted me a copy of Gabriel Garcia Marquez's One Hundred Years Of Solitude. My folks gave me some much needed dough and my bro bought me a spankin' new Nokia 3220.


It was probably one of the best birthdays I've had in a long time and a perfect way to kick start the new decade. I feel rather lucky to have a great family and a great bunch of friends. I'm definitely doing to remember this birthday for a long, long time.



And something to think about: Bombay is the rudest city in the world: Survey








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Indians on DeviantART
Mumbai on DeviantART} ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/9096512/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/9096512/ Sat, 17 Jun 2006 13:22:58 PDT
And its my third dA birthday on this account today

















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Indians on DeviantART
Mumbai on DeviantART} ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/9062579/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/9062579/ Wed, 14 Jun 2006 02:46:24 PDT
The thread ceremony and the wedding went off well. Cousin is a retard, but thats another story. Had a kickass trip. An all night conversation with a stranger. Authentic marwari food. Lame bus rides. Loads of pampering. Ahh. Bliss.

I've successfully cleared the second year.. which feels pretty damn great. Just three more years to go.

Dad just started his second innings. I'm very happy for him.

And and, I'm back. Feels great to be back home.

College should be starting in a couple of weeks and honestly I'm not looking forward to that. Sigh. I wish this vacation would never end.



Wishful thinking.









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Indians on DeviantART
Mumbai on DeviantART} ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/9004700/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/9004700/ Thu, 08 Jun 2006 00:36:41 PDT
Going out of town for four days. The dreaded family gathering. Cousin's thread ceremony. Somewhere in Madhya Pradesh. Internetless and cellphoneless.

Will update when I'm back. Maybe a story or two, even.

See ya'll next week.









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Indians on DeviantART
Mumbai on DeviantART} ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/8718968/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/8718968/ Tue, 09 May 2006 09:38:43 PDT
Well, this time around thankfully ~indians and ~mumbai will be more active, or so I'm hoping. Lessee how that goes. How has everyone been? Does anyone even bother to come in here?









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Indians on DeviantART
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Haven't done any new art in a really long time. Haven't had the time, what can I say? Been spotting some really great art around here though.

In other news, I will be working on two new websites, or maybe even more. Will put up previews and such, as and when I get time.

So whats new with everyone?

Here's a little weird facts list I compiled about myself:

I practice acupuncture on myself. I've been doing it for a while now, and I must say poking tiny needles into one's body is a lot of fun. Really.

My anatomy is a bit weird to say the least. I have four ears (two of which are rather tiny, but are noticable). Also, I can put a thousand bucks on it that you won't ever find hands like mine anywhere in this world. Just to clarify, they seem pretty normal, but the lines on my palms, well.. they are quite fascinating to say the least.
Soo yes, you could say I'm a mutant. Heh.

I am a total music junkie. I have a huuuge collection, which is organized rather well, neatly into folders and such. Sometimes I let the music dictate the choice of the movie or the television show I watch. I have a knack for collecting compilation, tribute and soundtrack albums, and I *must* have the theme song to every movie/television show I like.

I love spending time alone, rather than spending it with company. And I absolutely love solitary bus rides, especially those in early mornings.

I can easily type blindfolded without making any errors and I can easily recall the sequence of keys without even looking at the keyboard.





Currently playing: Matchbook Romance - Voices


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Indians on DeviantART
Mumbai on DeviantART} ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/7400053/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/7400053/ Sat, 24 Dec 2005 07:18:23 PST Mood: Relaxed but sick
Watching: Corpse Bride

Here's wishing you all Merry Christmas.

Be jolly, spread the joy. Blessed be everyone.







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]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/7032835/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/7032835/ Sun, 13 Nov 2005 08:22:03 PST This entry is mirrored.

This past week has been quite interesting. Especially the weekend was quite brilliant to say the least. Trips to the college during the vacation. Frantic preparations for the presentation, verbal volleys with colleagues, inhumane work conditions, the fact that the vacation is almost over finally hitting me, it has been quite eventful.

Oh yes, I finally got my official visiting cards of my own. I feel privileged, a bit elite, even. I am probably one of the very few (five people to be exact) undergrads in my course to have one of these. Usually only the seniors (a few select MBA guys) get these in their final year, so I am very pleased with myself.

Wednesday evening was played host to one of the most bizzare incidents that have occured in my not so long life, so far. I was catching up on sleep (which was much needed considering the way I had been staying up till wee hours in the morning working like a zombie) when my phone rang. I could not recognize the number, but I answered it anyway. "Are you happy?" said a beautiful voice at the other end. I was still trying to come to terms with reality while trying to place this voice in my head. I could barely manage a "Huh?" when she repeated her question. I asked her who she was. "A random stranger. It does not matter." she quipped. I was a bit surprised, puzzled but decided to play along. She asked me things about the city, whether do I like it here, what is the best/worst thing about the city, what would I want to change about this city, whether does it inspire me, do I consider it my home etc. Her voice sounded familiar. A bit too familiar, but I couldnt place it. What she said made me stop and think. It made sense. At least at that moment it did make sense.
"Is it not ironic how conversations with a stranger seem more interesting sometimes than the ones with whom you know?"
"So very true. But I guess it lies in taking a risk. It surely makes it worthwhile, does it not?" I said.
We exchanged goodbyes and hung up. We spoke for well over five minutes. I really wanted to know who she was. She seemed quite interesting. But she insisted she was just another random stranger so I decided not to call back or look her up in the directory.
It was probably one of the strangest yet interesting conversations I must have ever had. It certainly is amazing how a complete stranger can make you think about things you usually take for granted.

Thursday came and went. Was quite uneventful. First day of the new trimester, in a way. Primarily went in preparations for the presentation. It was the worst possible start to the new trimester. I just wanted to quit. All of this.

Friday was nervous. The presentation surprisingly went well. I spoke for a good twenty five minutes on Information Security, and my colleagues were quite surprised and a bit annoyed that I just would not stop. But then that is how I am, I reckon. My professor asked me to repeat it again next week, as most of my batchmates were missing (I gave the presentation to a grand total of fourteen out of a possible forty nine people in my class) which got me a bit annoyed. Not my fault, is it? Ah well, this is probably as good as life can get.

Saturday came, and the weekend was finally here. Spent the day at home relaxing, something I felt I had missed for aeons, it seemed. Went out in the evening to give a little interview where I ran into an old friend of mine. I must have met him after a good one and a half years or so. Jesus, it felt good. We spoke for a long time. It felt just like the old times. Sadly only change is constant.

Today was pretty great. We had a little deviantART meet. We (grafficjam, nikhil and me) checked out Jehangir Art Gallery, National Gallery of Modern Art and National Center for the Performing Arts. Had a rather delicious lunch comprising of butter chicken and huuuuuuuge tandoori rotis at Baghdadi's somewhere in between. Later on we spent a couple of hours by the Marine Lines. It was a lot of fun. Nikhil was experimenting with photography, and we had a lot of fun by the tetrapods and watching people do crazy things with the pigeons (which included kids acting like little godzillas, people running through them, feeding them and a lot more) and just sitting on the pavement soaking up the sun and watching the world go by. A perfect way to spend the Sunday. Whoever said three is a crowd definitely did not see this coming! I will be posting the pictures from the meet soon.

It seemed like a perfect weekend. Except for the whole new... ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/6942447/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/6942447/ Thu, 03 Nov 2005 07:39:42 PST A Crash Course In Polite Conversation

The past couple days have been quite interesting. Breakfast at a friend's place, calling up sailorboy on his birthday and wishing him Happy Diwali instead of the obvious, connecting with the Big Brother, a noisy night out followed by mid-night hell raising. Jesus, it was a great night. Had some friends over today (or should I say yesterday?) for dinner. A good evening spent with old friends. Reliving the good old days. We acted like a bunch of school boys that we were a few years ago. It did not feel all that long, though. I feel happy, content. Its been so very long. A good three months. The irony is, very little separates all of us. And we cant even spend those five minutes of our puny, somewhat insignificant lives to reach out to the ones that actually matter. For those with whom we have spent countless hours, days, weeks, months and even years together sharing those moments of pure bliss, sadness, rejection, anger and a whole lot more. Euphoria surrounds us. We are embraced by the warmth. The cold air greets us yet again. These roads feel all too familiar. Yet again. Its been so long. So very long.

Currently playing: Gavin DeGraw - Chariot Stripped





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Indians on DeviantART
Mumbai on DeviantART} ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/6854271/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/6854271/ Mon, 24 Oct 2005 11:36:42 PDT indians back on track and get things going. Really.


Just relaunched: A Crash Course In Polite Conversation










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Indians on DeviantART
Mumbai on DeviantART} ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/6614808/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/6614808/ Tue, 27 Sep 2005 08:11:54 PDT Now Watching: Girl Next Door
Now Playing: Ok Go - Oh No


Okay so academics are still plaguing me. Exams are just around the corner. Life with art is.. almost non-existent. I've been rather latent as many of you might have noticed. Lack of time is the only answer that I can give, to defend myself. Hopefully I should be back soon. Until then.

Cheerio.




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Indians on DeviantART
Mumbai on DeviantART} ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/6456680/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/6456680/ Fri, 09 Sep 2005 06:20:15 PDT
Things I'm loving right now:
Crystal Method, Frou Frou, Yeah Yeahs Yeahs, caffine, working overtime, hanging out with friends, sleep, introspection.






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Indians on DeviantART
Mumbai on DeviantART} ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/6075520/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/6075520/ Thu, 04 Aug 2005 06:31:56 PDT jark is no longer the Core Admin. Its a shame that he was booted off the staff.

I support you, °jark. All these years I've been here, since late December of 2000, its been wonderful. And we as deviants will back you all the way.

In protest, I have moved all my deviations to storage.

This one's for you, Scott.

Support °jark
Sign vurtunetech's petition
Deleting comments is hypocrisy
bookdiva's deviantART page (additional links)
onestar's project on taking back our community
killjoy's resources on the current situation at dA










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Indians on DeviantART
Mumbai on DeviantART} ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/5676441/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/5676441/ Fri, 17 Jun 2005 19:33:22 PDT iamlame (over four years in all ).

Yay i'm officially nineteen now, as of 00:00 hours, June 18th, IST
Happy Birthday to me!


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Mumbai on DeviantART ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/5661859/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/5661859/ Thu, 16 Jun 2005 02:03:29 PDT
Almost brought a tear to my eye. Those good ole days, hanging out at #devart on IRC, messing aroung with jenni, hanging out at #photoshop, having a brilliant time with `paroxysm, `samus, `tiko, `idlejam, $jark and everyone else. God, how I miss those days. Things have changed so much since then.

Of being an idiotic fifteen year old. Of discovering digital art, this wonderful community, all these great people, most of whom arent active in here anymore. To see it grow right here in front of my eyes, all these times. Things have changed. I'm still here, but the warmth, those dear friends, those great times we had are gone, forever.

I miss the old school.

Will be celebrating my nineteenth birthday, and two years on DA as ~iamlame in two days time.

Things have changed.



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Mumbai on DeviantART ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/5558103/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/5558103/ Sun, 05 Jun 2005 07:10:45 PDT xanga:


Oh, I had a rather brilliant day. Last night I slept real late, much thanks to a rather drunk tiny messaging me till wee hours in the morning. Got up, took a shower, ate and headed out for town.

10am: Bus Ride
Finally get into a bus, anticipating an exciting day ahead of me. Spend most of the time looking outside the window, admiring the traffic and the pissy conditions in the city. God I LOVE bus rides.

11am: Jehangir Art Gallery
Nikhil greets me with a smile and is sort of annoyed because he'd been waiting for the past ten mintues. Its just the two of us. Poonam shows up after a while, and we sit outside chatting for a good thirty minutes waiting for the gallery to open its doors. Finally, when it does we move in to check out the exhibits. A lot of interesting pen art, and some great watercolor artistry, but nothing really catches my eye. I like the gallery though, its nice, rather minimalistic. It looks quite a bit different since the last time I'd been here.

Soon Hasnain joins us. We take another round of the gallery, and leave in between since we're terriby bored. We wait outside for Rajiv to show up, while looking around and listening to the Heritage Walk people. I wish there were more takers for this kind of stuff.

Finally when Rajiv arives everyone exchanges pleasantries, we chat for a bit and head out for the Mumbai Museum. Its been ages since I last went there. On our way we stop and admire the artworks put up on the sides of the pavement by the street artists. One particular abstract painting catches my eye.

12pm: Mumbai Museum
We get there, and the place is buzzing with activity. Seems to be there's certain festival going on at the museum. Interesting, I think. All of us are rather dismayed to read the entry charges. A common man has to shell out a mere ten bucks while a firang, poor firang has to shell out three hundred. Justice by the system. Swines.

We get our tickets and head indoors. The place still looks the same. No drastic changes, from what I recall. It is a lot of fun to go though the various exhibits and artifacts. The woodworks from 8th century and the ivory works from the Mughal era are simply outstanding. Very exquisite, and such intricate work. It was a treat. Simply astrounding. Also the miniature paintings from early 1900s were brilliant. I also enjoyed browsing through the natural history section, it was a treat to study the animals and the birds. Brought back several happy memories. Those beautiful Discovery times.

I was mighty pooped at the end of the ordeal, and we decided to call it a day and headed out to grab some grub at the Baghdadi. The place was like a boiler, and was full of people, but the food was smashing and value for money. After a hearty meal consisting of Butter Chicken, Fried Chicken, Masala Chicken, Chicken Biryani and a whole lot of extra large tandoori rotis, we head out to do something else. We decide to relax a bit and talk.

3pm: Cafe Coffee Day
We're back here again. Its barely been a few days since I last came in here. A couple of snotty schoolgirls have occupied the lovely couches. We're all very annoyed. In the end, we settle for seats in a quiet corner. It was a ball conversing with everyone and relaxing in the cool atomosphere. Air conditioner, FINALLY! Although I and Hasnain were a bit annoyed about the whole Q Jam thing where we were ripped off ten bucks, it we all had a great time clicking pictures (courtesy: Rajiv's S700i) and sharing stories and stuff.

It was a great meet, and we all headed out promising to have another one soon enough. Perhaps to Manori, or even Goa for that matter. They're all just plans for now, though.

5pm: Bus Stop
I think back about the entire day. Its been an awesome day. Cant wait to get home and watch the cds Nikhil got me. Nikhil, much thanks for Ghost In The Shell and Ghost In The Shell: Innocence man. I truly appreciate it. Will burn you Star Wars: Clone Wars and pass it on when we meet next.

Will upload pictures and movie clip soon. As soon as I get it.

I'm happy


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]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/5538184/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/5538184/ Fri, 03 Jun 2005 00:30:03 PDT MaxGuru

Total Volume
80 GB


Last CD Bought
Hook by Zero (rarrrrrr I'm a pirate )


Song Playing Right Now
Romeo and Juliet by Dire Straits (I'm on the laptop)


Five Songs I Listen to A Lot, Or That Mean A Lot to Me. *And why?
(One song per artist)

Violins by Yellowcard (Lagwagon cover)
Beautiful lyrics, amazing vocals and great voilin backups make this a great listen. Makes my heart melt everytime I listen to it.

I Still Love You, Julie by Against Me!
I'm a sucker for hardcore punk vocals. And this song, is just mesmerizing.

Creep (acoustic) by Radiohead
Thom Yorke is a God.

Go With The Flow by Queens Of The Stone Age
There's something about this song, the lyrics, the music, its pretty great. I simply cant get enough of this song.

Zephyr Song by Red Hot Chili Peppers
I dont think this song needs a reason.

Five of the Best Losers

Dont get me started on this!

Five People I'm Passing The Baton To:


What can I say? I'm bored. Mumbai DeviantART meet THIS Sunday!


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Indians on DeviantART
Mumbai on DeviantART ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/5453559/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/5453559/ Fri, 27 May 2005 12:02:20 PDT
Been managing ~indians and *mumbai. And trying to have a decent 'real' life. Its all going haywire, for now. Argh! I should have taken the blue pill.

Things I intend to do this summer include learn HTML and CSS, recode my website, do some serious networking, read up a few books and study a bit for the next year.

Hmm, so well, thats it for now. Cheerio.



edit: Slashed prices of my sole print. Please do check it out. And buy it, if you like.


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Indians on DeviantART
Mumbai on DeviantART ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/5164924/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/5164924/ Sat, 23 Apr 2005 07:09:52 PDT Mood: Worried
Listening to: Smashing Pumpkins - Never Let Me Down
Watching: Sin City

Its been a while since I came in here. Life is alright. Rather hectic, or I choose to live it that way. Been rather busy with college. Tests, assignments, projects seem to be the order of the day. Hopefully I shall be done with all of this by May third week or so. Things should be good, then. Six weeks of vacation. Lots of time to ponder, lots of time to experiment. Lots of time to relax, lots of time to sleep, lots of time to do as I please. I'm so looking forward to it.

On the art front, well, nothing yet. College has been taking up a lot of time, as some might have noticed. But I promise to be back soon. Real soon. With something interesting, perhaps.

So how has everyone been? What have you been upto? How are you? Hows life treating you? I'd love to know.

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laemo's Xanga page ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4340004/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4340004/ Mon, 17 Jan 2005 03:49:15 PST ONLY half dozen undergraduates from the entire country to be participating in there. God, how I love my college for that. Wont be updating or deviation all too much. Exams coming up next month, and this trimester is giving me a hard time. Will keep everyone posted though. Peace.





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laemo's Xanga page ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4276300/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4276300/ Sun, 09 Jan 2005 09:00:55 PST Guns N Roses Tribute: Bring You to Your Knees
By Various Artists
Track: Time In Malta - November Rain




I had a perfect sunday. Well, almost.

Woke up late, at about 10:30ish. Slept for almost ten odd hours, yes. Got rid of the sleep backlog. Felt wonderful. Spent nearly six to seven odd hours in front of the computer, television and the newspaper. What a perfect way to spend the sunday! Was home alone for a bit, so it was pretty good, silent, calm. Went out with friends for some pizza and ate loads. Cheese crust pizzas are.. heavy to say the least. Had a pretty good time with friends, came home, still home alone, even as I'm typing this. Re-organized my music collection. Found out that the first lecture tomorrow is cancelled. Watched my favorite shows. Relaxed even more. Played quite a bit of scrabble in between of all this. Going to end the day quietly, gonna catch up on some good sleep so that I dont feel all tired and groggy tomorrow. And.. I just noticed, no hatred involved in this post, whoopee.

Yes, its been a good day indeed. Mission accomplished



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laemo's Xanga page ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4226855/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4226855/ Mon, 03 Jan 2005 06:19:33 PST st.

Also, wont be too active for a while. too much crap. Have a great new year everyone.








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laemo's Xanga page ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4200071/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4200071/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 10:36:40 PST





2004 was a great year. It had the usual ups and down, but it was pretty good overall, for me.

I just thought I'd make a list of my favorite songs and albums for this year...

Favorite albums of 2004:

The Killers - Hot Fuss
Kings Of Leon - Aha Shake Heartbreak
Switchfoot - The Beautiful Letdown
My Chemical Romance - Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge
Kanye West - College Dropout
Bowling For Soup - A Hangover You Dont Deserve
Nightwish - Once
Gwen Stefani - Love Angel Music Baby
A Perfect Circle - Emotive
The Punisher - OST
Breaking Benjamin - We Are Not Alone
Within Temptation - The Silent Force
Hopesfall - A Types


Favorite songs of 2004:

Lostprophets - Last Train Home
Courtney Love - Mono
Noizgate - Soundcheck (yeah, I actually liked it )
Greenday - Boulevard Of Broken Dreams and Boulevard Of Broken Songs Remix
Dilated Peoples - This Way
Jimmy Eat World - Pain
Cradle Of Filth - Nymphetamine
Eminem - Mosh
Rammstein - Los
Slipknot - Vermillion pt. 1 and 2
The Ataris - Heaven Is Falling
Keane - Somewhere Only We Know
SR-71 - All American
Korn - Word Up
Killswitch Engage - Rose Of Sharyn


Albums to watch out for in 2005:

Tool's yet unnamed album
System Of A Down's Mesmerize and Hypnotize
Feeder's Pushing The Senses (Already heard it. One of my favorite albums)
American Head Charge's The Feeding (Preview hear sounds AMAZING)

Thats it for this year. Have a great new year's everyone. See you all next year! Ya'll have been a great bunch. Props to everyone

- Aditya

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laemo's Xanga page ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4166629/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4166629/ Mon, 27 Dec 2004 05:44:35 PST
Just a gist of things we did:
Waited for people to show up..
Went to a rather stinky coffee place while waiting for the movie
Saw The Incredibles (and it sure did rock )
Spent a lot of time at the Bandstand, talking about all sorts of things, music, plane crashes and what not.
Went home

Oh, and I *might* be going to Delhi for a week in January, which means the Mumbai Devmeet for January might be off. Reason? Industrial visit. I dont think there are any IT industries out there, but ah well, my college seems to think there are, sadly. I shall be visiting Delhi for a week, so there's scope for a deviantMEET there, if anyone's up for it. that is.



On a side note, yesterday was kinda sad, South East Asia was rocked by an Earthquake measuring 8.9 on the ritcher scale. The losses were great. Light a candle for those who perished. ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4150341/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4150341/ Fri, 24 Dec 2004 23:46:35 PST
Um, Happy Holidays everyone. Have fun and everything.

Mumbai 'End Of The Year' devMEET tomorrow. 7 confirmed, 4 might come. Interested? go here. Life's pretty busy. Wont be deviating for a time now. Have a piece in progress, but its pretty huge (30 odd mb to be precise) so I dont really know when will it be done.

I shall be updating this place once in a while, as and when i get time.
Anyway, have fun everyone. Peace out.

If you need any help regarding the meet, call me on: 9892536890

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My Xanga ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4101460/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4101460/ Sun, 19 Dec 2004 09:29:27 PST




On a side note, I'm working on a new piece. If you're lucky you might get to see it by January. New style and more.

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My Xanga ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4079686/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/4079686/ Thu, 16 Dec 2004 10:04:23 PST Space:



Catastrophe. Thats how today can be summed up in a word. We were all geared up. Anxious, tensed, yet somehow prepared for the big moment. It was big. The masses were expecting a lot from us. I could sense it. They were completely lost, drowned, drowzy, sleepless, a bit hyperactive for almost entire lecture. And when it was our turn, their eyes lit up, they seemed all enthusiastic, animated and such. We stood up, prepared to give an awe-inspiring performance. I plugged in the projector cable to my laptop, fired it up.

"No Signal"
*Reboot*
"No Signal"

"Shit"
*Wiggle the cable, twist it turn it*
"No Signal"
"Fuck"

After 15 minutes:
"No FUCKING Signal"
*Throttle the cable, kick the laptop, cry a little*
"No Signal"

They were anxious, speculating, having the time of their lives. The professor was kind, patient. He waited while we got back to the game. Unfortunately we never did. He seemed to understand, and told us "Next week". I reckon he did.

*Anguish. Pain. Cries*

We fucking wasted a whole week on this. Hours of worms sessions, hours of brainstorming, hours of blood boiling, an we stumble at the last hurdle. We're reduced to nothing. Nothing.

It sucked. And how. People came upto us, some provided warmth, some were plain stupid.
(After getting to the quad)
"Dude, do you have the Mid-Day?"
*Cold stare*
"No."
"Stupid fuck", I murmur to myself.

"You look like those jobless japanese men sitting at the pavement.."
"Go fuck yourself", I think.

"You dont have to be the best, you know.."
"What the fuck was that, really? Is it a challenge or you're being a plain bitch? Burn..", I think.

What a great day. Everyone has to be a cold fuck. Everyone.

Now playing:
The Silence - Nature (Its not a song, for all the retarded fucks out there..)



What a lovely week its been.

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I've been trying out MSN Spaces. Must say I'm not too disappointed. Here it is if anyone wants to visit my page:
[link]

Thats it for now, until my next post. Cheerio.

now playing: A Perfect Circle - Peace Love and Understanding (05:03) ; Album: eMOTIVe

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]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3936952/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3936952/ Sun, 28 Nov 2004 05:43:05 PST Shreya , ~skinnyfatso, ~hyperteenb and her non-deviant friend Arjun. We started out pretty early at 11am, with just two deviants (Me and Shreya), and in a few hours Kaushal (~skinnyfatso) joined us and Ananya (~hyperteenb) and Arujun followed in later. We decided to drop the cake since there were only five of us, and decided to go in for some really delicious pastries. Later I, Shreya and Kaushal decided to head to Oxford book store. We looked around for books and generally hung around there for a couple of hours before heading home.

In all it was a great meet, despite of a very small turnout. We had a lot of fun, discussed a lot of topics and also decided the agenda for the future meets.

Props and thanks fly out to:
and Arjun. ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3929389/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3929389/ Sat, 27 Nov 2004 04:50:33 PST Venue: Gaylord's, Churchgate, near Asiatic
Time: 11AM

If you'd like to register or have any questions, feel free to call me on +919892536890

More details at:

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^aditya ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3888098/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3888098/ Sun, 21 Nov 2004 19:45:33 PST ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3862166/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3862166/ Thu, 18 Nov 2004 08:18:27 PST
"Hello?"
"Son, please come home asap. Your dad cant make it to b'lore with me. And i'm hoping you could, in his place."
"But what the hell?! I dont want to come..."
"I guess I'll go alone then."
"Gah, fine. We'll talk when I get home."

And there I was, sucker punched on my best day. Obviously I couldnt say no to the emotional blackmailing my mum was putting me through. And so I guess I'll be heading off to b'lore, missing good ole mumbai, missing out on college and everything. That doesnt sound like much, but trust me, it IS. When I'm there I'll have to put up with pesky cousins and not so warm relatives. I so HATE mingling with them. But then I'll get to shop and everything. Buy new stuff, cause I'm going there for the first time. Looks like maybe it isnt a bad idea at all. But then on the other hand, I'll be missing out on DA, fine projector movie nights, good food and lots of fun when I'm home alone. Gah, my mind's on a balance. Its a no-win situation, for now.
But then there might be hope. If the ticket cant be transferred to my name, I might not go at all. So plan #1 it shall be, then.

edit: I'm not going. Dunno how to feel bout it. ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3854379/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3854379/ Wed, 17 Nov 2004 02:14:40 PST
So i found my geek code lying someone in the realms of my hdd. Anyway here it is:

-----BEGIN GEEK CODE BLOCK-----
Version: 3.1
GMU/O d-(---) s: !a C++++ U--- P-- L- !E W+++ N- !o !K w+ O--- M-- !V PS-
PE Y+ PGP t- !5 X- R++ tv++ b DI D+++ G++++ e h! r z?
------END GEEK CODE BLOCK------

To decode: [link]
More info: [link]

Now Playing: Queens Of The Stone Age - Song For The Deaf
Mood: Bored as hell

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btflDSTR ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3846737/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3846737/ Tue, 16 Nov 2004 03:57:04 PST Taken from: btflDSTR

Now Playing: I'm not okay (I promise) - My Chemical Romance
Current Mood: Okayish

So its been pretty swell since the 'big fight'. Things are pretty cool now. Been reading a lot lately. And been seeing a lot of movies on the television. Must say they're surely having an impact on me. Cant say for the better or for the worst, for sure. What I can say is, things are changing. They always do. The joy of isolation.

Anyhow, last night my mind was racing through a lot of thoughts. I had a talk with one of my good friends. Good friend to me, atleast. We starting talking, and we went on for almost four good hours. I'd gone off the hook, much thanks to the lonliness that'd been creeping me out. It starts hurting a bit, if you're numb for a really long time. And then everything came out. Few things were exchanged, and I was a bit amused at the end of it.

Another thing that bothered me was, the issue of virginity. How'd you feel if you came to know your friend wasnt a virgin. Would it impact your life in any way? Would you still feel the same about him/her? It'd happened to me before. But recently i experienced it again. Deja Vu. Only this time, the person was merely a good friend, nothing more. But still, it had some sort of an effect on me. Cant really describe it. Its like all of a sudden there's this sort of gap. To be frank I lose a bit of respect for the person in the question. I do. Not exactly respect. But things arent the same anymore. I just dont feel right about someone of my age losing his/her virginity in his/her teenage years. Its just not right, atleast to me. But then its the rule of the day. Kids do stupid things. They leave everything to their hormones, and the moment they experience endorphine they think its love, and go about doing things they may regret later in life. My question to them is, do they feel any guilt, or remorse for what they did? Do they experience any change in their lives after the incident? How does it feel to be different? How...

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btflDSTR (My Site/Blog.. sort of) ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3800400/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3800400/ Sat, 13 Nov 2004 07:56:25 PST indians and learning and observing things on the art scene.
Mumbai Devmeet on Sunday, November 28th. Watch this space for more details.
Shout outs to all my friends, especially ~sugarcub, *madhs, * disinformatique, ~abe-x and all others whom I've forgotten to mention in here.

Oh, and a very happy and a safe Diwali to ya'll. Peace.

<sup>Now playing: Encore - Eminem
Now reading: Vernon God Little - DBC Pierre

edit:</sup> My old blog is back up: [link]
Finally got Greymatter up and running. Was a breeze, come to think of it.
Will be formatting it and putting the whole site up in the course of this week.

Happy New Year everyone! ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3609593/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3609593/ Sun, 17 Oct 2004 09:35:25 PDT [link] is officially dead. Will be hoping for a relaunch or something pretty soon. Stay tuned. Thats it for now. Enjoy.

^{Now playing: Rammstein - Los} ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3154542/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/3154542/ Wed, 18 Aug 2004 10:00:44 PDT On the art scene, not much happening at the moment. Will see if I can squeeze in time for art in days to come. My sincere apologies to everyone.

Will post more soon. Peace out. ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2901302/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2901302/ Sun, 25 Jul 2004 10:51:17 PDT edit: just secured my admission yesterday. was one of the few lucky ones to secure a seat.. since there were only 76 open seats.. and over 1000 applicants from all over India. damn, i feel GOOD

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I made it. FUCK yeah!

Much thanks to all the lovely deviants, especially:
~rdx86, ~Shreya, *madhs, ~rulinian, * disinformatique and everyone else who supported me

<sup>for those who dont know, i made it to NMIMS and DJ Sanghvi's MBA-Tech course, which is a five year graduation and a post graduation course. Its an integrated engineering and a MBA course. thanks to everyone who supported me and believed i could make it.

ps: my blog/site, beautifuldisaster is no longer active. i've virtually given up creating art, for now and i'm too lazy to do anything about it. my apologies to everyone!</sup> ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2846984/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2846984/ Sat, 10 Jul 2004 06:30:56 PDT indians however, I will still be lingering around, posting occassional hi's and comments all around and in general irritating the masses as much as I can. I'm really sorry I havent been able to keep up with things happening around in here. My heartfelt apologies. Will post more on this soon, or so I think. Until then, have a great day everyone.

aditya ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2686332/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2686332/ Thu, 17 Jun 2004 22:36:30 PDT VOTE. Awesome, innit?
Anyhow I shall be busy with exam preparations still June end. Will mostly be back in July.

Thanks for all the love everyone

aditya aka ~iamlame aka ~zoq ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2564005/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2564005/ Fri, 11 Jun 2004 22:44:26 PDT indians i cant help you out anymore. and sorry to the other people with whom i'd been in contact. i guess i suck majorly. i've given my papers for reval.. but i doubt if it will make a difference considering how fucked up the board really is. i hate my college more than anything else. this just cant me happening to me. i've never in my entire life fared this crappily. anyhow, have a good day everyone, no use of whining now. peace out.

update:
Well, nothing new as of now. I still do feel like a loser. Will be mostly busy throughout June much thanks to CET and other exams. Will perhaps be back in July, dont know for sure. 18th birthday celebrations have gone down the drain, much thanks to all of this. Just so you know, I'm celebrating my 1^st Deviant birthday as ~iamlame (over three years as ~zoq) and also my 18^th birthday in real life. Btw, got a new cable, which is probably one of the speediest in my area.. mwhaha.. be jealous everyone.. 700 mb in 7 mins..
Anyhow, heres my wishlist (yes, i am very greedy, bite me, its my eighteenth)

iRiver Slimx 400
A DA subscription, perhaps?
An acoustic guitar
A new cellphone, please?
New clothes, yes please!
A new watch
A slingbag by UniStyle maybe
Something special, yeah

Expensive gifts, large donations and imported cars are very much welcome as well, mwhahaha

Anyhow, enough of stupid banter. If anyone needs to contact me in real life, visit ~mumbai. Browse around and you shall find my contact number in one of the journal entries there. Thats all for now.
God bless you all. Peace out.

aditya
(Still gone, yet addicted) ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2555757/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2555757/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 05:53:04 PDT mood: take a guess
music: the deafening silence (how retarded is that, really?)
reading: Five Point Someone by Chetan Bhagat (this book OWNS, read it!)

Tomorrow is the D-Day. Tomorrow is the day they announce the results of 12th grade board examinations. Scared? Tensed? You bet. Its the biggest day of my life, so far. Or atleast thats what they say. Anyhow, I've paid a little visit to a couple of temples, just in case. I do hope I do well. I dunno whether I'll do as good as my parents expect of me though. Which sort of bothers me. I mean, its like your best is never good enough for them. I'm not really bothered about how I've performed actually, its just the thing that I've always been one of the smartest in my group, and I hope I do pretty well this time around as well. Pray; Thats what I'm going to do, and I hope thats what my friends do. This is the time when I'm going to need all the support and help (monetary too, hah!)
Life isnt very good ATM. Many reasons. The one thing I'm happy about though HAS to be June. Its my month! I'm due to turn 18 on 18th of this month, which incidentally happens to be the day i joined DA (again; previous pseudonym being ~zoq). For my friends, supporters and lovers, heres the wishlist

iRiver Slimx 400
A DA subscription, perhaps?
An acoustic guitar
A new cellphone, please?
New clothes, yes please!
A new watch
A slingbag by UniStyle maybe
Something special, yeah

Thats it for now. Guys and gals, PRAY that i do well. Have a great day everyone.

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]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2512437/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2512437/ Wed, 26 May 2004 10:15:56 PDT now playing: seven wiser - sick
mood: isolated

Things havent been going really great as I'd thought they would be. As a matter of fact, things just got worse yesterday, when they announced they're going to have a Common Entrance Test (CET) for engineering admissions in here. Which is just splendid if you ask me. For one whole fucking year I've been (or tried atleast) to study for what is acknowledged to be the keystone, the very foundation of my career, the twelfth grade board examinations. But after that I had to deal with two other entrance examinations for getting into a good college, with one already being done away with. BUT, now the freaking education department has to introduce YET another fucking entrance exam for getting into an engineering college, which has quite visibly pissed me off. I hardly have time to study for the other entrance exam for which I was trying to study hard, and now I have to deal with this, since if I dont get through the former, only the latter will decide my academic future. This just pisses me off. And all this HAS to happen just about the time I'm going to turn 18. So much for my 18th birthday.
Life besides that is AOK. Weekend was pretty great, just like the start of the week, monday night being the highlight having going to one of the best parties of my teenage life . It was pretty great, catching up with old friends, getting reconnected. I pretty much failed at getting wasted despite of trying a number of spirits and experimenting with an array of conoctions. Slept at 6am. Was pretty much well worth it.
Anyhow, having said the whole sick thing about my academic future, it is obvious that I wont even be spending some time that I thought I would be about a week back or so. I'm going to have to cut back on everything I guess, no more devART for me, sadly =\
It doesnt really matter though, I've been losing my touch, and I feel hated. I might do the interview for artist spotlight at *indians but i guess thats it. No more doodling or such, for sure though.
I guess thats it. I'll cya guys around. Have fun ._.

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SurfUnion ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2412480/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2412480/ Wed, 12 May 2004 09:10:06 PDT +beautifulDISASTER\_____

^{now playing: Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out
mood: Not so great}

This week has been quite a rollercoaster emotionally. I've been feeling quite down for the past few days, no specific reasons as such. Perhaps its one of those self-discovery phases. I'm just trying to find out who am I, how should I really be? So far it hasnt been really great. I'm feeling quite depressed, low, unwelcomed. At such times one expects your friends to stand by you, but unfortunately that hasnt been the case. Which makes me feel rather sad. Its almost as good as having no friends. We used to be a great bunch of friends about two years ago, but its all gone down since then. Its just sad to see the state of the things now. I'm giving up on friendship, love and all the other other things I used to hold dear to me.
On the academic front, life is pretty great. I found out about this great programme through which I get to skip a year on graduation and post-graduation, provided I get in. Its offered by one of the best colleges in the city, and I'm really, really hoping to get in. Having said that, I'd like to say that I wont be hanging around here anymore. Why? Well... for starters i'm not really passionate about art anymore. I thought I was moderately good at art, but a few weeks of self-discovery has led me to conclude that I'm nowhere close to being good at it. Secondly, nobody really gives a crap about my work as such. Third, i'm not loved enough, be it online or in real life for that matter. I'm feeling rather lonely and its getting me. I'd much rather stay away from all this, rather than be with some fake friends in real life, who're really good for nothing. As for being online, well, it isnt much of a difference, the only difference being that you dont really know the person, so its easy to hold up a mask to one's face and convey as one wishes to. I guess that sums it up. I wont be really all that active (as if i ever used to be). I'll be here once in a while. I really have to concentrate hard if I really want to get into that college, which I very much would like to. For the first time in my life I'm really excited and pumped up about something related to academics. Surely I'll miss the great art and some lovely people(read: those who dont find me bugging and hateful), but I'm pretty sure I wont miss some things I'd rather not talk about. If you're smart you'll know how to contact me, or heck.. drop me a note. I might check it in my spare time.

Anyhow, quick summary of things about me:
17, junior college senior, 5'10", 130lbs, spiked hair, inclined towards punk culture, not much of a family person.
passionate about: music, deep talks, movies, football (thats soccer if you're living in U.S.A.), art (not all that much anymore, though), friends (if I really had any), photography, good life.
not passionate about: fake people, fake emotions, hateful people, snobs, my family (not much of a family person, I am), wannabes, pure losers.

I guess that is all. Dont expect me to see me here all that much anymore. My apologies to everyone. Have a good life everyone. God loves you all. Peace.

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Surf Union ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2376284/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2376284/ Fri, 07 May 2004 02:16:17 PDT +beautifulDISASTER\_____

^{now playing: Phoenix - Too Young
mood: Alright}

Okay, i know its been really long since i last posted an entry. My apologies. A lot of people have been telling me that my blog more or less looks like a review blog. Um, guess what, it isnt
Well, I started off beautifulDISASTER as my personal site, to host my portfolio. But in the bargain i havent done much on it, so decided to use it for my own blogging purposes. But as you can see, i'm not much of a worker, i fall into the category of shameless lazy bums. I really have no qualms about it. I dont have a job, its my vacation, and nobody really gives a crap.
I havent really been upto much lately. Been sort of doing some soul searching. Had a fight with Chris about a week back. Things are okay now. Wasnt really all that active online. Probably one of those 'i'm too lazy to do anything' phases.
Caught up with a sort of old friend. That person has been upto utter crap, much to my disgust. I sometimes wonder how people get so easily influenced by television and their friends. Perhaps it is rightly said, one is known by the company he/she keeps.
I sort of hate people who want all the attention for themselves. I know a few of those types. They crave for one's attention when they want it, but when THAT person wants their attention, they simply wont give any. It just hows how shallow and mean people really are.
I'm thinking of doing some serious comic art work. The art supplies cost a bit too much though I'll still give it a shot. Shout out goes to Dullgirl (heya, how're you doing, bum? *giggles* ).
Family ties are alright. Like i really care! Life's going on.. I'm not bothered by the world around me as such, although I do crave a little bit of attention. Anyone game for it? Cheerio.

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Surf Union ]]> ~iamlame http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2354760/ http://iamlame.deviantart.com/journal/2354760/ Mon, 03 May 2004 21:28:57 PDT mood: bored, feeling the heat
music: Squarepusher - Tommib

Life is boring. The DASU Meet Pics are out. Preview here: [link]
For those who want to know who is who, wait for a few hours, pics with captions and names will be put up soon either at ~mumbai or SU.
The summer heat is taking its toll. I cant believe how much the temperatures are soaring. At this very moment, i think the temperatures should be about 35. Its very hot and humid, much thanks to Global Warming
Preview of portrait of Alyson Hannigan i am (or atleast was) working on: [link]

Well, thats it for now. Cheerio.

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