http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:iiyamuzai&section=today deviantART RSS for by:iiyamuzai en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 16 Dec 2009 04:05:13 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12760296/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12760296/ Fri, 27 Apr 2007 21:52:34 PDT I REALLY LOVE RAW ANAL TILL MY POOPER BLEEDS AND I WILL ALSO SUCK DICK FOR GAIAONLINE/SUBETA ITEMS SEND ME PM!

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I hope you're here in the morning
So I can tell you I was right
I hope you don't feel obligated
To stay another night

We're made of silence, you and I
A listlessness, so loud
We're made of all these unsaid things
In every little sound

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12672387/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12672387/ Fri, 20 Apr 2007 19:59:09 PDT
I know I told you about seven million times, but I'M SO PROUD OF YOU, NEIKO!

[And all of you, go congratulate her. ]

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12646219/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12646219/ Wed, 18 Apr 2007 18:19:14 PDT never done anything that even resembled journalism. There's a first time for everything.

I'm currently working on an editorial about the Virginia Tech shooting. When I'm finished, I'm going to submit it to the Capitol Journal [our local newspaper].

I just feel like I have to say something about it. I've been talking about it endlessly. I will write it in memory of:

Ross Alameddine
Jamie Bishop
Brian Bluhm
Ryan Clark
Austin Cloyd
Jocelyne Couture-Nowak
Daniel Perez Cueva
Kevin Granata
Matthew Gwaltney
Caitlin Hammaren
Jeremy Herbstritt
Rachael Hill
Emily Jane Hilscher
Jarrett Lee Lane
Matthew La Porte
Henry Lee
Liviu Librescu
G.V. Loganathan
Partahi Lombantoruan
Lauren McCain
Daniel O'Neil - 22
Juan Ramon Ortiz
Minal Panchal
Erin Peterson
Michael Pohle
Julia Pryde
Mary Karen Read
Reema Samaha
Waleed Shaalan
Leslie Sherman
Maxine Turner
and
Nicole Regina White...

...And even to the memory of Cho Seung-Hui. I know he's the proverbial protagonist in this scenario, but he died. He killed thirty-two people, but he also killed himself. I have a feeling that not a lot of people will focus on his memory; I'll take that initiative. No one deserves to die young, no matter their transgressions or desires.

I'll post the editorial when I'm finished with it.

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12571449/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12571449/ Thu, 12 Apr 2007 18:38:02 PDT
Aeria Gloris - April Artists

If you were featured, you should post this link around so everyone can see! Or, if you weren't featured but like the art and / or the idea of a feature site, you could post it around, too! I have to get my site out there!

I'm going to make some stamps soon.
"I'VE BEEN FEATURED!"

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12469033/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12469033/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 10:50:55 PDT
This week-end is karaoke week-end, and working on my protest thing for US History 3. Next week-end, I'm working at Camp Hammond with some friends, for the Raider Competition. I'm working Friday from 0900 to 1800, and Saturday from 0530 to 1730. Crazy. The week-end after that is, Friday, the JROTC Awards Ceremony, and Saturday is Prom, which is gonna drag into Sunday, definitely.

AND EIRI STILL DOESN'T HAVE A DATE! Waah.

And the Tuesday [?] after that is Jennifer's birthday, and she'll probably have her party the following week-end. Psycho!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12422055/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12422055/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 19:51:13 PDT cmann10.

Thanks, Neiko.

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12381082/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12381082/ Thu, 29 Mar 2007 20:03:48 PDT
Anyone wanna make me one? -flutters eyelashes-

Its storming outside; I love it.

I got to touch dead bodies today, and pull out a guy's liver. It was filled with cancer and a tumor. Tumor's are strange.

"White Chicks" is hilarious. I want to star in, "Black Men."

I'm going to see "The Lookout" this week-end, I think. It looks badazz.

I'm random; you love it.

Quieres tener tu bebe?

WE NEED MUSIC!

--

Home

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, it makes true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12327466/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12327466/ Sun, 25 Mar 2007 18:53:31 PDT Happily Ever After [Please Join]

Especially for all those writers out there!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12277476/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12277476/ Wed, 21 Mar 2007 21:19:29 PDT Monday, during the day, I karaoke'd like mad, and then, that night, Neiko and I went to Police Cadets and had a blast jokin' around with Daniel.
Tuesday, during the day, I cleaned a little bit and listened to music. That night, from 1730 to 2300, I hung out with my friends Jennifer, Carrie, Garrett, Reyes, Mark, and Sean. Reyes and I watched the others jump on the trampoline, and then we all sat there for a while and played Truth or Dare. Then we all went back inside and ate cookies and goldfish and talked for a long time.
Today, I watched some movies and downloaded a lot of Latino music. I really like this guy Alex Ubago. He's got a great voice. Then, around 2015, I went over to Jennifer's again and hung out with her, Carrie, Mark, Sean, and Clay. Again, I watched them on the trampoline, then we did Truth or Dare for a while, after Clay left. Then we all just sort of laid around. I just got back. It was so much fun.

Mark says we all get 20s on our next uniform inspection. I'm stoked.

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]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12157655/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12157655/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 14:38:01 PDT


He didn't talk to me today. Once again, I took a perfectly fine relationship and completely botched it. He and I were friends. We were comfortable with each other, goofing off and everything; it was great. But no, I had to go and start feeling things, like the little dumbass I am. I had to get attracted to him, and want more from him than friendship. Okay, that's fine, we could have dealt with that. I could have surpressed it, I could have eventually willed it away. But no. It was a good night, I was feeling confident with myself, so I made the dumbest mistake of my life. I asked him how he felt about me. "Just friends," is what he said. Just friends. Is there anything more condemning than those two words? At the time, it was all okay; I told him that was fine, gave him a hug, and we were cool. But, low-and-behold, come classtime today, he doesn't say two words to me. Everytime I tried to talk to him, he pretty much flatout ignored me. Just friends doesn't exist. You can't be friends after something like that. And I liked being his friend--I could have done that for the rest of my life--but no, I had to take a chance. I had to fool myself into thinking that I would ever be good enough for anybody. What a fucking retard move that was; I'm never going to be ideal. I'm never even going to be adequate. I'll never be good enough.

Its not so much that I can't live without him. I can. It was just one of those high school crushed that you have, and you get over. The thing that gets me is that it wasn't shocking that he didn't feel anything for me. Isn't it bad, when you're used to something like that? I am getting so tired of being everyone's "just friend." Goddess, I don't ask for much, but I do think I'd like to have at least ONE boyfriend before I die. I'd like to have at least my first date, and my first kiss, and my first breakup, even. How much is that to ask?

Apparently a lot.

I don't want consolement from anyone. I'm not interested in people telling me how stupid I am, or that I'm great, or that its his loss. Because its bullshit, and I've heard it all before. Hearing it again won't do me any good. I just needed to vent, and get it out. I don't care about solace.



PS. Neiko, if you're reading this, I think I'm going to skip the meeting tonight. You can go without me, if you want. I used up all my energy today trying to act okay around people, like it wasn't bothering me, but I'm zapped now. I don't even know if I'm going to go to school tomorra.

But if it weren't for you and Lena, I'd probably feel a whole lot worse. So thanks. Sorry about the meeting.

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12003524/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/12003524/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 16:49:24 PST
Also, Newbery told a bunch of people today that I'm great at writing poems and that I'm one of the best writers he ever had in class. I wanted to cry!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11899589/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11899589/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 18:49:36 PST
1. Do you like animals?
Yes, all except my mother's fatazz housecat

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
Yesh

3. Are you athletic?
Nooo way

4. Are you: thin, fat, athletically built etc:
Fat...like a house...stuffed with cabbage

5. How much do you weigh?
152 pounds...or so

6. What's your height?
5'8"

7. Shoe size?
9 1/2 - 10

8. Girls - are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
Fairly tomboyish, but I also like to look a little nice...
EVEN THOUGH ITS POINTLESS AND I'LL NEVER GET LAID!

10. How old are you?
16, I think

11. When is your birthday?
June 30th...same as Mike Tyson! -bites off your ear-

12. Do you like to receive giftart?
Hellz YES

13. Are you sociable?
Depends on who you ask; most people would say no, cuz I'm a bitch

14. Do you have many friends?
Not really

15. What's your race?
NASCAR? ...um...Full-on-Irish-whitey powers...ACTIVATE!
In the form of...something ultra-WHITE!

16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
I despise it

17. Are you single or taken?
Single, always

18. Do you eat meat?
Sometimes, but I try to avoid it at all costs

19. Are you paranoid?
Why? Are you watching me? Who else is there? Who's askin'? Who are you telling?
Maybe just a little

20. Do you read a lot?
Oh, yeah! I just read a full book today, cuz it was great. Things Change, by Patrick Jones. GO READ IT!

21. Do you listen to music, what kind?
All but that rap-crap

22. Do you play any instruments?
Harmonica! And my singy voice1

23. How long have you been drawing?
Not long at all...two or three years

24. What's the meaning of life?
What's the point in knowing the meaning of life, as long as you're living it?

25. Now tag five of your friends! They MUST take this quiz and post it in their journal:
NEVER!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11735135/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11735135/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 16:55:29 PST UPDATE I stole this from Neiko ; so do it, because I never get anything for this stupid holiday.

Gimme?!

I am going to write a song for every imaginary track listing on my imaginary band's imaginary first album! I'm the crappiest songwriter ever, but I have three done already! Will update as they come:

Track 1 - BLiSS
Track 2 - Breeding Death
Track 3 - I Can't Keep Apologizing
Track 4 - Sono Touji?
Track 5 - Time&Nothing
Track 6 - WatCH, LiSTen, LearN
Track 7 - Kiku Jikan
Track 8 - Primal Eyes
Track 9 - This Is Fear
Track 10 - When You Choose To Return
Track 11 - Takes A Backseat
Track 12 - Let Go
Track 13 - Chrysanthemums

I'll work on some others tonight when I'm with Jennifer and Carrie. Speaking of which, I have to go pack. So, please critique on the songs, and I'll update later! Ta-ta!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11712647/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11712647/ Tue, 06 Feb 2007 16:29:19 PST
ART RELATED STUFF...NESS

The stuff I've been doing lately is just kind of fun, simple stuff that one might paint or put up as computer wallpaper or something. I don't have the energy to do all my anime stuff. Plus, this style is so much more enjoyable for me! I love it; it is so much fun.

Not that anyone cares ANYWAY; with me and my grand total of approximately 15 watchers.

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THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Ariel
2. Eiri
3. Alexia

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. iiyamuzai
2. Purple Raven
3. equilibriumQ

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my uniqueness
2. my eyes
3. my writing...ness?

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my skin [lots of burn tissue and whatnot]
2. my medical problems
3. the fact that i worry so much

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. balloons
2. spiders
3. being alone >.<

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. my MP3 player
2. syndicate 9
3. a book

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. a slutty sequins shirt
2. a red sweat-jacket
3. green pajama pants

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists):
1. Gackt
2. L'Arc~en~Ciel [or HYDE solo]
3. Ani DiFranco

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. "Tsuki no Uta" by Gackt
2. "Hoshizora" by L'Arc~en~Ciel
3. "Seven" by Gackt, featuring HYDE


THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. O.O dating
2. doing homework
3. writing more than five chapters for a story

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. silence
2. understanding
3. security

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. i'm a natural blonde
2. nobody knows who i really have a crush on
3. gackt is the father of my child

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. apathy
2. dark, wild hair
3. strong eyes

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. impress people
2. tolerate my genetic family
3. get asked out

THREE THINGS YOU CAN DO:
1. write
2. sing
3. give advice

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. writing
2. drawing
3. singing, or anything else to do with music

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. find the energy to finish my entrepreneurship vocabulary
2. download more L'Arc~en~Ciel and Gackt and other J-music videos
3. stop being distracted from my movie

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. teacher [english or japanese]
2. writer
3. singer

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Japan
2. Ireland
3. Massachussetts

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Ciaran-Michael James
2. Sylvia Rose
3. Kadence [Kade] Justina

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. live in Japan
2. publish a book
3. have a family

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW( !!! ) OR DIE PAINFULLY ( VERY PAINFULLY!!!)

No, I refuse to tag anyone. If you want to do it, do it. I don't care.

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11672919/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11672919/ Sat, 03 Feb 2007 15:00:56 PST
UPDATE: Sayra has been added!
...So has Jacey-Jace!
...So has Brother Marcel!
...So has Keitaro-baby!
...And last but not least, so have Umeko and Yori!

CHARACTER SURVEY OF AMAYA SAYOSHIMI

Background

Fill in the details.

*Who are your parents? (Name, race, occupation, current location)

Tsurukawa Sayoshimi and Mai Sayoshimi [maiden name: Mai Motoko]--
Both Japanese citizens. Tsurukawa was a history teacher; Mai was a waitress.
Both are deceased.

*Do you have any siblings or children? (Name, age, current location)

One little sister named Mina--
She is nine years old and lives in Rosen Rail, New York.

*Are any of your parents, siblings or children dead? (If yes, how did they die/who killed them?)

Mother and father are both dead.

*Do you have any education? (Institution, country, skills learned)

Amaya is currently a student at Saint Gabriel's Academy, which is a private, Catholic high school.

*What are your goals? (If any)

To get out of Rosen Rail.
To make it as a writer.
To learn to accept and control and use for good this gift.

*What do you fear most?

Losing people.
Being unambitious.
Not being anyone.

*Do you have any dangerous and/or hideous secrets?

Seeing the souls of the departed.

Personality

For each section, bold only one choice.

*Basic personality

Shy and secretive
Rebellious, antisocial, violent
Arrogant, proud and aloof
Moody, rash and headstrong
Friendly and outgoing
Stable and serious
Silly and fluff-headed
Sneaky and deceptive
Intellectual and detached
Picky, fussy and nervous

*Who do you value most?

Child
Brother or Sister
Friend
Lover
Yourself
Pet
Teacher or Mentor
Public figure
Personal Hero
Ancestor

*What do you value most?

Friendship
Honor, personal code
Knowledge, enlightenment
Piety
Loyalty
Your Word
Possession, heirloom
Power
Having a good time
Vengeance

*Your worldview

Every person is a valuable individual
I like almost everyone
No one understands me
People are sheep who need to be led
I'm neutral to most people
People must earn my respect. No one rides here
People are untrustworthy. Be careful who you depend on
No one’s going to hurt me again
People are wonderful
People are scum and should be wiped out

~*~

CHARACTER SURVEY OF KIYOSHI TAK

Background

Fill in the details.

*Who are your parents? (Name, race, occupation, current location)

Ebisu Tak and Leiko Tak [maiden name: Leiko San].
Both were Japanese, but American citizens.
Ebisu was a chef and Leiko was a writer.
Both are deceased.

*Do you have any siblings or children? (Name, age, current location)

One older brother, Shino, and one little sister, Sada.
Shino is 23 and Sada is 5.
Both live in Rosen Rail, New York.

*Are any of your parents, siblings or children dead? (If yes, how did they die/who killed them?)

Mother and father are both dead.

*Do you have any education? (Institution, country, skills learned)

Kiyoshi is currently a student at Saint Gabriel's Academy, which is a private, Catholic high school.

*What are your goals? (If any)

To be self-sufficient.
To keep himself from being weak.
To understand his gift and use it effectively.

*What do you fear most?

Being weak and vulnerable.
Letting people get too close.
Getting to hopeful.

*Do you have any dangerous and/or hideous secrets?

Seeing the souls of those to die.

Personality

For each section, bold only one choice.

*Basic personality

Shy and secretive
Rebellious, antisocial, violent
Arrogant, proud and aloof
Moody, rash and headstrong
Friendly and outgoing
Stable and serious
Silly and fluff-headed
Sneaky and deceptive
Intellectual and detached
Picky, fussy and nervous

*Who do you value most?

Child
B... ]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11464158/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11464158/ Tue, 16 Jan 2007 18:19:40 PST
Okay, I just had to share that.

AND YOU SHOULD ALL DOWNLOAD "MEMORIAL ADDRESS" BY AYUMI HAMASAKI. It will make you cry.

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11427344/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11427344/ Sat, 13 Jan 2007 20:41:25 PST cmann10) in the face!

At the end of the JROTC Annual Chili Feed, they have this part where you get to pie all the superior cadets. So Neiko's brother and I pied her right in the face and all in her hair. Then I got to do John Houston and Sergeant Romero.

But that wasn't the only fun part; I got to play basketball for a few hours with some people. Mainly James.

NEW TOPIC!

James. I don't know what to do with myself. Honestly, and this is the first time I've ever openly admitted this, he drives me crazy. None of you have ever met him, so it would be very hard to make you understand, but I go mad whenever he's around. He's really attractive, with the frame and structure that only a football player could have. He's got this gorgeous, bright eyes that match his smile perfectly. He's the perfect height, the perfect build. He's also got this really charming laugh and speaking voice. He's laid back and funny and intelligent and understanding. He's like the guy that no one can hate, because there's nothing wrong with him. You can't help but want to be with him, or around him.

All of these factors lead me to one conclusion:
I'm never going to have him.

------------------------------------------------------------------

On to less depressing topics:

I have a new account on DeviantArt for a story I'm currently working on. But I won't tell you what it is; you have to find it yourselves!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11324593/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11324593/ Fri, 05 Jan 2007 12:48:19 PST
These prices are acfording to how much they're selling for on Amazon, because I have no clue. If you'd like to buy one, please note me with which one you'd like and your mailing address. I'll note you back with the shipping & handling charge for your area and the total cost. If everything is honky-dory, I'll give you my PayPal email and after the money is in my account, I'll mail the Beanie Baby off!

Unless you see an asterisk[*] next to a name, all of these are in their original packaging, mint condition.

DA BABIES!
The Four Collectable Bears - The Entire Collection!
Maple the Canadian Bear $25.95
Erin the Irish Bear $25.95
Britannia the British Bear* $19.99
Glory the American Bear* $19.99
BUY COLLECTION FOR $85.50!

The Legends - The Entire Collection!
Humphrey the Camel $12.50
Chilly the Polar Bear $12.50
Peanut the Royal Blue Elephant $12.50
BUY COLLECTION FOR $33.50!

The Dinosaur Trio
Rex the Tyrannosaurus Rex $12.00

International Bears II - The Entire Collection!
Spangle the American Bear $29.50
Germania the German Bear $29.50
Osito the Mexican Bear* $25.50
BUY COLLECTION FOR $73.50!!

RMHC - The One and Only of This Collection!
Millenium the Bear $35.00

The End - The One and Only of This Collection!
The End the Bear $35.00

Britannia the British Bear & Glory the American Bear - both are in their original packaging and have never been opened. HOWEVER, some years back, my dog got at them while I was sleeping and they both have been chewed in the corners, so a chunk of the cardboard is gone. But the plastic wasn't touched and the bears are unharmed! If this makes you nervous, note me and I'll send you a picture.

Osito the Mexican Bear - he is still in the plastic and the cardboard is unharmed, as is the bear...but they sort of came apart from one another. The plastic that holds the bear is no longer connected to the cardboard backing. Again, if nervous, ask for a pic.

Please buy! Prices are negotiable!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11276704/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11276704/ Mon, 01 Jan 2007 15:02:51 PST
Note me for character descriptions! ^_^

Sayoshimi Household
Grandmother Sayoshimi
Amaya Sayoshimi
Mina Sayoshimi
Uncle Matsu Sayoshimi
Miss Michiko Tanaka
Mister Yo Tanaka

Tak Household
Shino Tak
Kiyoshi Tak
Sada Tak

Yamamura Household
Megumi Yamamura
Nami Yamamura
Natsu Yamamura
Sayra Ryans-Yamamura
Taro Yamamura
Yuriko Yamamura

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11224577/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11224577/ Thu, 28 Dec 2006 15:48:49 PST
In New York's Japanese District, Amaya Sayoshimi feels like just another girl. That is, until she begins spending time with five-year-old Kohana Danno, a young girl who passed away days before, in a local noodle shoppe. After discovering her new friend is a trapped soul, Amaya recognizes her gift to see the departed and begins to unravel the mystery of the little girl's death. When Amaya has exposed Aneko Danno--Kohana's big sister--as the culprit in this brutal murder, Kohana's soul is at rest at last.
Not far away, Kiyoshi Tak is having a hard enough time trying to cope with the loss of his father when he experiences something that can only be described as "unnatural." While picking up a snack in Danno's Noodles, he sees a young girl surrounded by a thick black smoke that no one else seems to notice. Three days later, he is shocked to hear that this little girl has been killed.
Brought together by an odd twist of fate, Amaya and Kiyoshi team up to prevent the deaths of innocent people, and bring justice for those who have already passed.

Wouldja read it? Huh? Wouldja, wouldja, wouldja?!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11199798/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11199798/ Tue, 26 Dec 2006 11:24:12 PST
Miura: And "last quarter?"
Tomoki: "Last quarter." -pause- Ehehe, of course I know. I'm in college, after all. Still, I think it may be a bit early for the two of you; I'll tell you some other time.
Miura: ...Its the waning moon.
Tomoki: Eh?

OMG, you should all see "Last Quarter," co-starring HYDE of L'Arc~en~Ciel. If Tim Burton was Japanese, this is the movie he would have made. Its so amazing. I love it!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11186519/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11186519/ Mon, 25 Dec 2006 09:33:48 PST
Pat - 40$
Dad&Stepmom - frozen daquiri scented body wash, body spray, and body lotion
"The One" starring Jet Li (i'm a HUGE Jet Li fan)
Grandma&Grandpa C - pewter hummingbird brooch
a summer sausage (i kid you not. YUM!)
lip gloss
candles
teddy-bear
toe-socks
sketch book (not canvased paper, but i still love it)
lotion
a pony
memory card for computer
Momma - 2 pairs of pajama pants
necklace & earring set
blank cds
blank cd labels
a jumprope (LOL)
a puncher balloon
wooly willy Simpsons head - Marge
silly string
Justin(Momma's boyfriend) - Evanescences, "The Open Door" album
"Queen of the Damned" cuz my copy died
Japanese conversation learning disk set
battery charger kit
Jennifer G - Spring Snow by Yukio Mishima
Duckie - Runaway Horses by Yukio Mishima
Neiko - fersona drawing (so awesome)
Kinu - anime drawing (also so awesome)
Bradley Dee - popcorn
chocolates
lots of movies...
FOREIGN
Moon Child
Shutter
House of Flying Daggers
2LDK
Ong-Bak the Thai Warrior
Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon
Dumplings
Hero
Suicide Club
Shaolin Soccer
Ghost of Mae Nak
Last Quarter
The Eye
The Eye 2
Iron Monkey
Ringu
Ringu 2
Ringu 0
Oldboy
Lady Vengeance
A Tale of Two Sisters
Battle Royale
Dark Water
One Missed Call
Lady Snowblood
Doppelganger
The Red Shoes
Whispering Corridors
The Booth

OTHER
Memoirs of a Geisha
The Ghost and the Darkness
Batman Begins
11:14
Over the Hedge
Four Brothers
X-Men
X2: X-Men United
X3: The Last Stand
Clerks II
Finding Forrester
Blazing Saddles
Wedding Crashers
Girl, Interrupted
Coach Carter
Jersey Girl
Great Expectations
Little Black Book
The Break Up
Monty Python: The Holy Grail
Team America: World Police
An American Haunting
Romeo Must Die
Proof
Office Space
National Treasure
Domino
Single White Female
One Fine Day
The Italian Job
The Warriors
The Abyss
Rumor Has It
Shawn of the Dead
Narnia
Corpse Bride
The Man
Highlander
Pirates of the Carribean
Madagascar
The Sixth Sense
Swordfish
The Firm
Stir of Echoes
Misery
The Game
Pirates of the Carribean 2
Superman Returns
Ice Age 2
Miami Vice
Accepted
Da Vinci Code
You, Me, and Dupree
Mission Impossible III
Mallrats
Chasing Amy
Cars
Don't Say A Word
Flatliners
High Crimes

I may have forgotten some gifts, but I'll update later, if I did. And I still have quite a few other family and friends to exchange with, so...cha. This is so much fun.

To all my friends...Happy, um, whatever holiday you celebrate during the Winter season!

[so funny that I'm Wiccan and celebrate Yule, but still get tons of Christmas presents. YAY!]

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11110142/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11110142/ Mon, 18 Dec 2006 20:39:24 PST
I'm sick, also, with a headcold.

Its finals week.

Yeah, I'm pretty much in hell right now.

OW, OW, OW! You are such a bastard!

Whoever "you" are.

I am in so much freaking pain right now.

And I think that I like this guy more than any other guy.

Which was really random, I know, but...yeah.

I NEED TO DRAW AND RIGHT MORE!

Knuckle down, bizzXnight.

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11044360/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/11044360/ Tue, 12 Dec 2006 19:36:42 PST
I just can't fight the addiction.

UPDATES

Some people are getting too full of themselves and losing sight of what makes them great.

I am trying to improve my prose skills.

There are people that I care for, and people that I love, but sometimes, they don't overlap.

I got beat up by a psycho-midget. Now, I can barely move, and I definitely can't lift my school bag.

Jisuk is the best artist on DA, so I entered his contest.

I'm a horrible prose writer.

I haven't written a decent poem in sixteen weeks; I counted.

I'm interested in a boy [damn teenage hormones], that I have no chance with [as usual].

I'm not very pretty.

Diet Coke is my main staple.

Kinu has a sexy ass, especially in her flapper dress.

I'm really not a very good artist.

Sergeant Romara laughed at me today for being in pain.

James hit me in the nose when I said it was the only part of my body that didn't hurt. Now I ache all over.

Maury is better than Oprah.

Eiri like cookies!

I want to live in New York, Massachussetts, Rhode Island, Maine, and New Hampshire for at least six months each before I die.

Sachimi Mimora is the best philosophical poet ever. I'll elaborate in a minute.

Aiko Mimora is the scariest looking woman I've ever seen, and she doesn't have her sister's writing skills.

SACHIMI MIMORA'S, "ROCKET SCIENCE"

I love this poem...

Brothers and Sisters

"Preach to me, brothers and sisters
Here in the cold
Because you have nowhere else to go
Was this your intent from birth?
There is so much pain in your silly faces
And still you search for a gate to paradise
Bless you, brothers and sisters
For letting every adversity be a sign
And bowing under the pressure of the natural world
Bless your heart, brothers and sisters
You just let 'god' make excuses for you
And it all works out in the end
Amen, my brothers and sisters
I hope he makes a fine enough excuse
So you can sleep peacefully under your newspaper and cardboard boxes
Preach to me, brothers and sisters
But do not claim to know the choir"

Okay, so Rocket Science is by far her best book of poems. What she did was, when she would travel, she would study people that were native to wherever she was. Then she would write about it. "Brothers and Sisters" was one that she wrote in New York City in 2001. I love it. She wrote a lot of good ones in America, and a lot of good ones in Italy. I'll probably put more of her stuff up sometime. But now, I take my leave!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10998965/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10998965/ Fri, 08 Dec 2006 19:24:54 PST
I am also thinking of taking a little hiatus of sorts from DeviantArt, for a few reasons. The first being that I really am uninspired lately. If I write something or draw something good, I'll upload it, but other than that, there's no point in me dawdling around here. The second reason is that I'm not a known artist. All of my writings and all of my drawings are very mediocre, especially compared to that of others on this site. And the third and final reason is that I just don't have the energy for it anymore. Its been a very long year so far, and I'm very tired.

There's some other stuff I need to focus on for a bit. I'll still get on every once and a while and check in on my favourite artists, just not so much as usual, 'kay? So, I'll catch you all on the flip side, all right?

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10987750/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10987750/ Thu, 07 Dec 2006 18:56:38 PST
Okay, down to business...

I have been pretty uninspired lately. Whether its drawing, poetry, prose, clothing designs, even jewelry designs...I just don't have any clue about anything these days. I have no inspiration. Why?! Somebody tell me that!

I think maybe I know. I think its because I'm happy. When I'm depressed, I find that I do some of my best work. When I'm happy, there's nothing amazing to write about.

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10953256/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10953256/ Mon, 04 Dec 2006 19:46:13 PST
WHOO!

More later. I'm hungry.

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10860874/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10860874/ Sun, 26 Nov 2006 19:26:56 PST nonsense songs, like "Rudolph, the Rednosed Reindeer" and "Frosty the Snowman." Oldtime songs like "Silent Night" and "Joy to the World," I don't have a problem with. In fact, "Silent Night," is one of my favourite songs; it has been since I was little. Every year, I try to go carolling just so I can sing that song. I dunno; I just like it.

But other Christmas songs...!

Osakini<3Eiri

Silent night, Holy night
All is calm, all is bright
Round yon Virgin Mother and Child
Holy Infant so tender and mild
Sleep in Heavenly peace
Sleep in Heavenly peace

Silent night, Holy night
Shepherds quake at the sight
Glories stream from Heaven afar
Heavenly hosts sing Hallelujah
Christ, the Savior is born
Christ, the Savior is born

Silent night, Holy night
Son of God, love’s pure light
Radiant beams from thy Holy face
With the dawn of redeeming grace
Jesus, Lord, at thy birth
Jesus, Lord, at thy birth

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10812529/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10812529/ Wed, 22 Nov 2006 14:41:15 PST I think I just fell six degrees more in love with Gackt. Read this, its one of his songs:

This blue world
People searching for truth all say the same thing

Unwavering world
Like snow covering the street, it's extending inside of me

The world tinged with dim colors
Believe in loneliness

In this world,
I have seen many demons coming
Yet haven't once met a god...

If you don't throw away all your relationships when you must
That's a horoscope

Both kindness and cruelty
What is this moving thing?

Both in cowardice and rage
What in the world am I doing this for...

Inside of my memories, who do I faintly see...

I don't know. I just find it very beautiful.

Anyways, I have not begun working on Part Three of Memori yet. I'll probably wait until very late this evening, or possibly tomorrow morning.

I hope you all have a happy Thanksgiving.

Osakini<3Eiri

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10716089/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10716089/ Mon, 13 Nov 2006 19:15:20 PST
Memori

Its a fictional biography from a non-fictional autobiographical standpoint.

Its written by my nom de plume, which I affectionately call my alternate personality. My better personality, mind you. Her name is Eiri Maizuru. She is from Kurashiki, a sort of smaller city close to Okayama City.
It tells of her family. Her mother that abandoned their family, her father that does his best and loves his children, her brother and sister--twins named Jiro and Chiyo--her Nana, and a man their family adopted as an uncle, Kayane.
It also tells of her friends: the reserved Rai, the proudly weird Yoshiko, the on-and-off Kiriya and her hard-to-figure-out brother, Yukyu.
Her bands: Coda, which was her siblings band that she wiggled into. Here she met the keyboardist, Sakura, and the violinist, Neiko. Then they broke away to start their band, Namamekashii RAIN.

NO MORE SPOILERS!

I just wanted to tell you guys about my new project. So, for now, I am discontinuing my list. If I need a break from my story, I might sketch out something or other, but other than that...naah, just Memori.

[By the by, Memori means, you guess it, MEMORY. And the Kanji image on every chapter? Yeap, it means MEMORY, too.]

STILL IN LOVE WITH GA*KU*TO!!!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10687589/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10687589/ Sat, 11 Nov 2006 07:57:30 PST your songs today!" -hangs head- I like my obsessions, though. They keep me warm at night.

~*~

I've been trying to focus on my list, but my brain keeps bouncing around. After Sakura leaves tonight, I promise to do at least ONE thing on my list.

~*~

Still trying to find a good book publisher. Leave a whisper if you know of one? ARIGATOU!

~*~

Okay, last thing...Even if you don't listen to or like Japanese music, I highly recommend that everyone download "Orenji no Taiyou." Its nine(9) minutes and ten(10) seconds long, but so worth it. Its got a little bit of everything in it, and you HAVE to love it. If you can't find it, sometimes it is titled, "Orange no Taiyou," or, "Oranji no Taiyou." Download it, if you love me!

~*~

The List:

1 The Blower's Daughter
2 Lover Boy
3 With or Without You
4 Gravel
5 Only You
6 Coming Closer
7 Blurry
8 Be My Last
9 Frontline
10 Your Eyes
11 Black Crows
12 Fall Away
13 A Song for XX
14 Deep River
15 Heaven Forbid
16 Last Time
17 Life Is A Highway
18 Daybreak
19 Hear Me Cry
20 Living Inside the Shell
21 Perfect Moment
22 Anticipate
23 Feathers
24 Forsaken
25 No One
26 Layers
27 Mond Tanz
28 Hands Open
29 Rain
30 Duty
31 Self-Evident
32 Going Once
33 Reckless Fire
34 Friend
35 In the Moonlight
36 Put Your Records On
37 Ave Maria
38 Today For You, Tomorrow For Me
39 Green Bird
40 Someday We'll Know
41 Boston
42 Cruel Angel's Thesis
43 Broken
44 Paint It Black
45 Ask DNA
46 Wish You Were Here
47 How To Save A Life
48 Scars
49 Lies
50 Half-Pain

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10662176/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10662176/ Wed, 08 Nov 2006 18:11:40 PST
[link]
I STILL LOVE GACKT MORE, THOUGH! HE IS MY GOD AND I WORSHIP THE GROUND HE DOES KARATE ON!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10624591/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10624591/ Sun, 05 Nov 2006 11:54:39 PST Jihaku. I like the whole book, because he is a very deep thinker and extremely intelligent, though a tad inconsistent in his thoughts. Still, I love this book. Section 3, Chapter 6 is called "Boku no Family no Tanjou," or "The Birth of My Family." This chapter really stood out to me because I can relate to it more than I've ever really related to any piece of written work in the entirety of my life. These are a few of my favourite bits:

I would die for my family.
The thing I call "family" is not my actual family. It consists of friends who I have a mutual understanding with.
At present, my family consists of, at most, around 10 to 15 people. They have various jobs, and there are both men and women. The circumstances of our meetings were also varied.

Then later, he goes on to say:

Now, however, I don't do that anymore. Because I don't fight my battles just alone anymore. Now I have a family. I have people at my back supporting me.
Though there were times that I thought that I was supporting them, truthfully, I began to feel like I was being supported by them. They are the people who watch my back. So, if they hold me firmly, I will never fall.

And finally:

Though there are misunderstandings, we're not a family because we each succeed on our own. That's not a requirement for a family. The important thing is that whenever something comes up, we can have a truthful [lit: without getting lost] mutual understanding with each other, and that we can have fun together. However, if we don't believe in one another, we can't act.
In my family, whenever someone is hurting, I don't sit by that person and say to them, "Oh, that's too bad that you're hurting," but rather, I take the position of saying, "you can do it!" In order to do this, I should become stronger.

I can relate to this because my family truly is composed of my friends, who I have come to love more than myself and all my ambitions. I would die for them and, consenquently, they seem to be the only reason I'm still alive. I've never doubted them and I have never wanted anything less than the best for them. That's why I love this chapter. In fact, you guys should read the whole chapter, so you know exactly how I feel about my family!

[link]

The List:

1 The Blower's Daughter
2 Lover Boy
3 With or Without You
4 Gravel
5 Only You
6 Coming Closer
7 Blurry
8 Be My Last
9 Frontline
10 Your Eyes
11 Black Crows
12 Fall Away
13 A Song for XX
14 Deep River
15 Heaven Forbid
16 Last Time
17 Life Is A Highway
18 Daybreak
19 Hear Me Cry
20 Living Inside the Shell
21 Perfect Moment
22 Anticipate
23 Feathers
24 Forsaken
25 No One
26 Layers
27 Mond Tanz
28 Hands Open
29 Rain
30 Duty
31 Self-Evident
32 Going Once
33 Reckless Fire
34 Friend
35 In the Moonlight
36 Put Your Records On
37 Ave Maria
38 Today For You, Tomorrow For Me
39 Green Bird
40 Someday We'll Know
41 Boston
42 Cruel Angel's Thesis
43 Broken
44 Paint It Black
45 Ask DNA
46 Wish You Were Here
47 How To Save A Life
48 Scars
49 Lies
50 Half-Pain

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10570546/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10570546/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 12:16:17 PST
And to all you non-Wiccans...Happy Halloween!

~*~

The List:

1 The Blower's Daughter
2 Lover Boy
3 With or Without You
4 Gravel
5 Only You
6 Coming Closer
7 Blurry
8 Be My Last
9 Frontline
10 Your Eyes
11 Black Crows
12 Fall Away
13 A Song for XX
14 Deep River
15 Heaven Forbid
16 Last Time
17 Life Is A Highway
18 Daybreak
19 Hear Me Cry
20 Living Inside the Shell
21 Perfect Moment
22 Anticipate
23 Feathers
24 Forsaken
25 No One
26 Layers
27 Mond Tanz
28 Hands Open
29 Rain
30 Duty
31 Self-Evident
32 Going Once
33 Reckless Fire
34 Friend
35 In the Moonlight
36 Put Your Records On
37 Ave Maria
38 Today For You, Tomorrow For Me
39 Green Bird
40 Someday We'll Know
41 Boston
42 Cruel Angel's Thesis
43 Broken
44 Paint It Black
45 Ask DNA
46 Wish You Were Here
47 How To Save A Life
48 Scars
49 Lies
50 Half-Pain

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10551059/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10551059/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 17:01:54 PST UPDATE: I make it my official law that handsome men with great bodies, aka Gackt, shall no longer be allowed to wear shirts at anytime, and will only wear pants on Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Sundays!

Working, working...
I am working on my list, but I have a severe case of artist's block right now. Especially when it comes to writing. And I flat out don't have the will to draw lately.

MOON CHILD!

Okay, anyways...
The List:

1 The Blower's Daughter
2 Lover Boy
3 With or Without You
4 Gravel
5 Only You
6 Coming Closer
7 Blurry
8 Be My Last
9 Frontline
10 Your Eyes
11 Black Crows
12 Fall Away
13 A Song for XX
14 Deep River
15 Heaven Forbid
16 Last Time
17 Life Is A Highway
18 Daybreak
19 Hear Me Cry
20 Living Inside the Shell
21 Perfect Moment
22 Anticipate
23 Feathers
24 Forsaken
25 No One
26 Layers
27 Mond Tanz
28 Hands Open
29 Rain
30 Duty
31 Self-Evident
32 Going Once
33 Reckless Fire
34 Friend
35 In the Moonlight
36 Put Your Records On
37 Ave Maria
38 Today For You, Tomorrow For Me
39 Green Bird
40 Someday We'll Know
41 Boston
42 Cruel Angel's Thesis
43 Broken
44 Paint It Black
45 Ask DNA
46 Wish You Were Here
47 How To Save A Life
48 Scars
49 Lies
50 Half-Pain

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10426222/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10426222/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 17:29:42 PDT >> Open your media player
> Select all of your songs / your favourite playlist
>> Put the player on shuffle
> Number to 50
>> Whatever song comes up, write it down for #1
> Push skip-forward; the next song is #2
>> Draw / photograph / write something with the theme of the song or the title of the song

Here is mine [I'm doing drawings, photographs, computer creations, and poems]...

1 The Blower's Daughter
2 Lover Boy
3 With or Without You
4 Gravel
5 Only You
6 Coming Closer
7 Blurry
8 Be My Last
9 Frontline
10 Your Eyes
11 Black Crows
12 Fall Away
13 A Song for XX
14 Deep River
15 Heaven Forbid
16 Last Time
17 Life Is A Highway
18 Daybreak
19 Hear Me Cry
20 Living Inside the Shell
21 Perfect Moment
22 Anticipate
23 Feathers
24 Forsaken
25 No One
26 Layers
27 Mond Tanz
28 Hands Open
29 Rain
30 Duty
31 Self-Evident
32 Going Once
33 Reckless Fire
34 Friend
35 In the Moonlight
36 Put Your Records On
37 Ave Maria
38 Today For You, Tomorrow For Me
39 Green Bird
40 Someday We'll Know
41 Boston
42 Cruel Angel's Thesis
43 Broken
44 Paint It Black
45 Ask DNA
46 Wish You Were Here
47 How To Save A Life
48 Scars
49 Lies
50 Half-Pain

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10410088/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10410088/ Mon, 16 Oct 2006 08:45:12 PDT ], and to Jordan.

~*~

I'm still selling books.

~*~

here's a really good song

Broken Lindsey Haun

wake up to a sunny day
not a cloud up in the sky
and then it starts to rain
my defenses hit the ground
and they shatter all around
so open and exposed

but i found strength in the struggle
face to face with all my trouble

when you're broken in a million little pieces
and you're tryin', but you can't hold on anymore
every tear falls down for a reason
don't you stop believin' in yourself
when you're broken

little girl, don't be so blue
i know what you're goin' through
don't let it beat you up
hittin' walls and getting scars*
only makes you who you are
only makes you who you are

no matter how much your heart is aching
there is beauty in the breaking

when you're broken in a million little pieces
and you're tryin', but you can't hold on anymore
every tear falls down for a reason
don't you stop believin' in yourself
when you're broken

better days
are gonna find you once again
every piece will find its place

when you're broken
when you're broken

when you're broken in a million little pieces
and you're tryin', but you can't hold on anymore
every tear falls down for a reason
don't you stop believin' in yourself
when you're broken

when you're broken

*in the booklet, it says "heaven knows that gettin' scars..." but i think its wrong. if you listen, she distinctly says "hittin' walls and getting scars..."

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10371274/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10371274/ Thu, 12 Oct 2006 16:17:30 PDT
If one act of kindness can change a person's life, how much could be destroyed in a single act of cruelty? I'm taking the challenge, and I hope to learn from it. I might even post my journal up here.

I recommend that everybody look at this site: [link]

~*~
Now, all this extra stuff.

EDIT: Dur, okay, so you have to be a PoetryPlease member to enter to contest. I forgot to mention that. SO GO JOIN! Its a great club to be a part of!

Okay, as all my watchers know, I am an avid writer of poetry. I am also part of the clubs =PoetryPlease and *Poem-of-the-week. The only problem is [dun dun DUN] they have exactly the same icon! POTW has been using PoetryPlease's icon since it got started, and its right time we got a new one. And while we're at it, we'd love to have some nifty li'l stampies! So, if you're interested in designing either, go to [link] and check out the details. We'd love you!

~*~

UPDATE: Okay, I just realized that I didn't say why I'm selling all these books. The thing is, I've got some doctor's appointments going on this month and I don't have a large family income to start with, so we're kind of stretched for cash right now. We'll barely be able to pay my medical bills, let alone have leisure money. So I decided to sell all my books [which I do love reading] to get some spending money. This isn't a guilt trip. I just want everyone to know that I'm not spending the money on drugs or prostitutes. Just miscellanious stuff that a sixteen year old girl likes to do.

All right, these are the books SO FAR that I am selling. If you wish to buy more than two, I'll come up with some averaged discount for you. I do realize that these aren't popular books, but they are really good reading.

So, if you send me a note with the subject INFORMATION and then write the name of the book[s] you're interested in, in the body, I will send you a full description. That includes the plot, how long it is, if its hardcover or paperback, and the condition its in as of now.

Should you wish to buy a book, note me with the subject PURCHASE and write the book title[s] in the body and include your mailing address and I will calculate the price of shipping and handling and send it to you.

PAYPAL ONLY.

Thanks for your time! [e-smoochies]~Eiri

The Magic of Xanth novels by Piers Anthony 5$ each
Crewel Eye: A Caustic Yarn
Centaur Aisle
A Spell for Chameleon
Golem in the Gears
Yon Ill Wind
Castle Roogna
The Source of Magic
Dragon on a Pedestal
Ogre, Ogre
Demons Don't Dream

The Mode Series series by Piers Anthony 5$ each
Book 2: Fractual Mode
Book 3: Chaos Mode

The Apprentice Adept Series series by Piers Anthony 5$ each [inquire about bulk]
Book 2: Blue Adept
Book 3: Juxtaposition
Book 4: Out of Phaze
Book 5: Robot Adept
Book 6: Unicorn Point
Book 7: Phaze Doubt

Riftwar Saga series by Raymond E. Feist 5$ each
Book 4: A Darkness at Sethanon

Magician series by Raymond E. Feist 7$ each or 15$ for all
Book 1: Apprentice
Book 2: Master
Book 3: Silverthorn

Memory, Sorrow, and Thorn series by Tad Williams 7$ each
Book 1: The Dragonbone Chair
Book 2: Stone of Farewell

Fantasy other fantasy novels seperately priced
The Eye of the World - Robert Jordan - 10$
Circle of Magic: Sandry's Book - Tamara Pierce - 5$
Reaper Man - Terry Prachett - 5$
A Man Rides Through - Stephen R. Donaldson - 7$

Children / Young Adult books for ages 1-5 or 5-13 seperately priced
The Librarian from the Black Lagoon - Mike Thaler - 3$
The Cartoonist - Betsy Byars - 5$
Little Blue and Little Yellow - Leo Lionni - 3$
The Phantom Tollbooth - Norton Juster - 7$
The Nightmare Room: Locker 13 - R.L. Stine - 3$
A Job for Jenny Archer - Ellen Conford - 3$
Heartland: Coming Home - Lauren Brooke - 3$
Sweet Valley Twins: Keeping Secrets - Francine Pascal - 3$
Wishbone's Romeo and Juliet - William Shakespeare - 3$

Novels other great novels
The Nature of the Beast - Janni Howker - 10$
The Grapes of Wrath - John Steinback - 10$
A Bend in the Road - Nicholas Sparks - 13$
The She... ]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10249103/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10249103/ Mon, 09 Oct 2006 16:34:55 PDT EDIT: Dur, okay, so you have to be a PoetryPlease member to enter to contest. I forgot to mention that. SO GO JOIN! Its a great club to be a part of!

Okay, as all my watchers know, I am an avid writer of poetry. I am also part of the clubs =PoetryPlease and *Poem-of-the-week. The only problem is [dun dun DUN] they have exactly the same icon! POTW has been using PoetryPlease's icon since it got started, and its right time we got a new one. And while we're at it, we'd love to have some nifty li'l stampies! So, if you're interested in designing either, go to [link] and check out the details. We'd love you!

~*~

UPDATE: Okay, I just realized that I didn't say why I'm selling all these books. The thing is, I've got some doctor's appointments going on this month and I don't have a large family income to start with, so we're kind of stretched for cash right now. We'll barely be able to pay my medical bills, let alone have leisure money. So I decided to sell all my books [which I do love reading] to get some spending money. This isn't a guilt trip. I just want everyone to know that I'm not spending the money on drugs or prostitutes. Just miscellanious stuff that a sixteen year old girl likes to do.

All right, these are the books SO FAR that I am selling. If you wish to buy more than two, I'll come up with some averaged discount for you. I do realize that these aren't popular books, but they are really good reading.

So, if you send me a note with the subject INFORMATION and then write the name of the book[s] you're interested in, in the body, I will send you a full description. That includes the plot, how long it is, if its hardcover or paperback, and the condition its in as of now.

Should you wish to buy a book, note me with the subject PURCHASE and write the book title[s] in the body and include your mailing address and I will calculate the price of shipping and handling and send it to you.

PAYPAL ONLY.

Thanks for your time! [e-smoochies]~Eiri

The Magic of Xanth novels by Piers Anthony 5$ each
Crewel Eye: A Caustic Yarn
Centaur Aisle
A Spell for Chameleon
Golem in the Gears
Yon Ill Wind
Castle Roogna
The Source of Magic
Dragon on a Pedestal
Ogre, Ogre
Demons Don't Dream

The Mode Series series by Piers Anthony 5$ each
Book 2: Fractual Mode
Book 3: Chaos Mode

The Apprentice Adept Series series by Piers Anthony 5$ each [inquire about bulk]
Book 2: Blue Adept
Book 3: Juxtaposition
Book 4: Out of Phaze
Book 5: Robot Adept
Book 6: Unicorn Point
Book 7: Phaze Doubt

Riftwar Saga series by Raymond E. Feist 5$ each
Book 4: A Darkness at Sethanon

Magician series by Raymond E. Feist 7$ each or 15$ for all
Book 1: Apprentice
Book 2: Master
Book 3: Silverthorn

Memory, Sorrow, and Thorn series by Tad Williams 7$ each
Book 1: The Dragonbone Chair
Book 2: Stone of Farewell

Fantasy other fantasy novels seperately priced
The Eye of the World - Robert Jordan - 10$
Circle of Magic: Sandry's Book - Tamara Pierce - 5$
Reaper Man - Terry Prachett - 5$
A Man Rides Through - Stephen R. Donaldson - 7$

Children / Young Adult books for ages 1-5 or 5-13 seperately priced
The Librarian from the Black Lagoon - Mike Thaler - 3$
The Cartoonist - Betsy Byars - 5$
Little Blue and Little Yellow - Leo Lionni - 3$
The Phantom Tollbooth - Norton Juster - 7$
The Nightmare Room: Locker 13 - R.L. Stine - 3$
A Job for Jenny Archer - Ellen Conford - 3$
Heartland: Coming Home - Lauren Brooke - 3$
Sweet Valley Twins: Keeping Secrets - Francine Pascal - 3$
Wishbone's Romeo and Juliet - William Shakespeare - 3$

Novels other great novels
The Nature of the Beast - Janni Howker - 10$
The Grapes of Wrath - John Steinback - 10$
A Bend in the Road - Nicholas Sparks - 13$
The Shepherd of the Hills - Harold Bell Wright - 8$

Collaborations various authors
Poems That Touch the Heart - 25$
The Cat Who Loved Christmas - 3$

EDIT P.S. Divvie, girl, I am going to stab you in your testicles! LOL, sorry, randomnessssss

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10241251/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10241251/ Sat, 30 Sep 2006 20:50:01 PDT
I'm going to start selling books that I have but never read.

No, not manga--I'd never sell those--but novels. I'm going to catalog them all today and put down some prices, and then I'll post them here and on my website. Cheap prices, most likely. Hope somebody buys them!

Would any of my watchers buy them?

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10240482/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10240482/ Sat, 30 Sep 2006 19:23:56 PDT
It was so cool. I have to write it all down and save it for when I get there. It will be a long time, but it will be so cool.

What I need to do is find someone to illustrate my book, free of charge. That would be great.

If you know of anyone, let me know!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10182331/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10182331/ Mon, 25 Sep 2006 12:40:44 PDT feel burning through your forehead. Plus my whole body is aching from working Saturday--all of my back, neck, and shoulders, and the muscles in my arms and legs--and I have blisters on my feet and one of them popped during class. So after the bell rang, I went to the nurse and said, "look, I don't have a fever, but I need to call my momma and go home." She let me and Momma came and picked me up without a fuss, which was good. She usually throws a fit about me making her leave work.
So I came home and took about an hour-long nap, then got up and made some hot tea. Momma came home for lunch and actually made me some soup and toast. After she left, I started drawing and watching CMT; lots of country music videos. That makes me happy. Now I'm feeling better, except I still have that sporadic, really painful headache.
I've been working on this drawing for the LONGEST time and I'm almost finished!

~*~

don't forget to check out my wallpapers
Wallpaper #1 - [link]
Stock Image - [link]
From episode two of Gravitation
Quote is all mine, though!
Wallpaper #2 - [link]
Stock Image - [link]
"Boy on Mount Fuji" - Painted by Ando Hiroshige
Quote still all mine!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10174822/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10174822/ Sun, 24 Sep 2006 16:58:34 PDT nyaah about stock-imaged wallpapers, I'll just link y'all to my photobucket account.

[link]
Stock Image - [link]
From episode two of Gravitation
Quote is all mine, though!

[link]
Stock Image - [link]
"Boy on Mount Fuji" - Painted by Ando Hiroshige
Quote still all mine!

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10155647/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10155647/ Fri, 22 Sep 2006 19:35:13 PDT
Download "Perfect Moment" by Hyde!

I finished all the drawings I was doing for Neiko. Plus, I finished Chapter One of Frontline and some poems. Now, I'm working on more drawings, my second chapter, and some other poems. Also, I'm trying to get around to writing that old FMA fanfic. But I'm not overwhelmed; just taking it all in stride.
So...
To Do List
Chapter Two - Kikomana
Drawings - Kikomana, Nii-san, Blue
Poems
FMA Fanfic - The Desert Rain Alchemist

Now its time for more music!

Download "Perfect Moment" by Hyde...AGAIN!

Perfect Moment Hyde

Ah, the sun is born of night, it sets again
Though no one’s here to see - it’s endless

Sad, but everybody knows
A trip to heaven’s not really on the cards, no
Yet my “moment” has come
A crying shame, for now my life is over

So perfect, this moment So perfect, this moment
I’m happy to die in this moment

Ah, the sun is born of night, it sets again
Though no one’s here to see, it’s endless

So perfect, this moment So perfect, this moment
I’m happy to die in this moment

I’ve been to Heaven Heaven on Earth

Ah, the sun is born of night
Ah, the sun is born of night It’s endless

]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10088114/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10088114/ Sat, 16 Sep 2006 06:45:36 PDT
To meet nevermore
by Kitty_Rose

To meet never more.
Tears of sorrow overflow deep within my heart.
What good is this potion of life.
Nothing matters now.
All is but dust in the wind.
Posted on May 28th, 2005
Total poems on Poets Corner: 11
E-mail Kitty_Rose

Jeez, if you're going to rip something, at least have the sense to not rip it from a movie that over a million people have seen. Idiot. You shouldn't rip anyway; what kind of talentless imbecile do you have to be to do something like that? I want to punch her.

INUYASHA FOREVER! ]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10021504/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/10021504/ Sat, 09 Sep 2006 17:13:24 PDT Frontline. Its coming along okay; not perfect, but okay.

Besides that, I'm finishing character designs for the story and also doing humanized versions of Neiko [*cmann10]'s fursonas.

1. Neiko - done
2. Mirobi - done
3. Ressukena - done
4. Saz - done
5. Eloquentess - done ]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9831514/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9831514/ Wed, 23 Aug 2006 19:24:42 PDT
He said something along the lines of, "no, they don't need to learn to march until they've got all the stationary movements down." And I told him that they weren't going to get everything perfect in one day and he was expecting too much. But they need to learn to march if they're ever going to come to put up the flags. But no, he had to be a total dickwad about it.

I mean, Mark's my friend, but once he gets mindset on something, even if he's wrong, he's like a frekkin' pitbull. It just pissed me off because he wasn't working with our group, he didn't know how well or unwell they were doing. I wanted to get in his face and just chew his ass out, but that last thing I need is to be thrown into Honour Council in the first week for "disrespecting an officer," which is what they'd call it. Then, I'd get stripped of what little rank I have, and I don't need that.

Was I wrong? I mean, they need to know how to march even a little bit, just as much as they need to know to do their left and right faces, don't they? I'm not talking to myself here. Somebody, please, tell me. Because ever since I joined ROTC, every comment I make seems to be played off as unimportant even when I have a fucking good mind of what's going on.

That was my little rant for the day.
I'm going to sleep.
<3 ~Eiri

"forever's going nowhere tonight"
~Ani DiFranco "Knuckle Down" ]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9785714/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9785714/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 19:02:28 PDT When we finally got there, it was like we were home at last. We finally got to meet our people. People just as obsessed with the fine art of anime and japanese sweets as us. It was heaven in a hotel, really. We stuck together for the longest time, shopped, took pictures, watched anime in the screening room, watched AMVs, walked around, worshipped cosplayers, and said "ooh, look!" at least seventy-million times. It was great.
I bought two leather bracelets, Royal tea, strawberry pocky, and this weird strawberry drink that tasted like a winecooler and made my blood sugar go above what its supposed to be. So for about twenty minutes or so, I was having horrible hot flashes and nausea, but that didn't stop me.
Cosplayers are awesome. We're all going to cosplay next year. I'm going as Izumi from Fullmetal Alchemist.
But whose even cooler? My best friends that I am proud to call as close me as sisters. Neiko and Sakura; and now, Kinu. Hell, even Reidou Neiko is like an awesome second mother.
You guys rock. I'll never forget today.

Monday, I'm going to wear both of my bracelets and do my hair like Izumi's, just for the hell of it.

Oh, hey, NEIKO! READ THIS! I left that Royal tea bottle in your car. Please do not throw it away. I really want it back. In fact, if you're out and about tomorra, could you swing it by? If its not too much trouble, of course. I just really want to refill it and take it to school on Monday.

I you all!
Ciaos...
Eiri ]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9750825/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9750825/ Wed, 16 Aug 2006 16:39:18 PDT her fucking input or anything, but it would be nice if she pretended to care. Worse parents to a helluva lot more than that. I don't care what she thinks of me, but its the fact that she doesn't think anything of me that pisses me off.
She's not interested in me or my life. What the fuck kind of parent is that? ]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9728003/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9728003/ Mon, 14 Aug 2006 17:34:43 PDT We also started planning this awesome project for the school year; can't tell you what it is yet. Sorry! And we played some video games, looked through our school's yearbook, and went to the coffee shoppe for a bit. Then Sakura had to go home around 2230, and we were all sad to see her go. Then Neiko and I took turns playing Kingdom Hearts 1 and then, around 0100 or so, we were both tired so we started watching "Howle's Moving Castle." Its a kickass movie, actually, and I just rented it . Then at 0330, when the movie was over, we realized we weren't sleepy anymore. So we took turns playing Kingdom Hearts 2 until 0700 in the morning. Then we both fell asleep and my momma woke us up with bagels and orange juice around...ohsay...1000.
At 1030, Neiko's mom (who's awesome, by the by) picked her up for church. It was such an great week-end. And I didn't get on the computer once the whole time that they were here; I didn't even want to. Its so awesome, having two friends like my Neiko and Sakura.


~*~


Oh, and here's something else that's awesome. (Even if you don't think so because you don't like anime and for that reason you should just shut up and die). Next Saturday, there's a pretty good chance that Neiko's mother will be taking me, Neiko, Sakura, and another friend, Kinu, to Wichita for an anime convention! HUZZAH! Its going to be so awesome. We're all pretty fab singers, so we're going to enter the karaoke contest and be all, "motto ima ijou ni hadaka ni natte ikite yuku jutsu oshiete yo..." It will be ohemfuckinggeesoawesomemyeyesaregonnapop outofthesocketWHEE!


~*~


Now, I think I'm going to go try and beat Kingdom Hearts 1. Neiko lent it to me because she never beat it and I want to try! I love it so far. I'm working on a drawing for it too. Wish me the best of luck in beating the Battle Colluseum level.


~*~


Oh, and here are the full lyrics the ones I put above...


Shinjitsu no Uta (Song of Truth) Do As Infinity

akaku nijimu taiyou wa subete o
terashite kita ima mo mukashi mo
kono yuuyami ni egaiteru souzou wa
hatashite kono te ni oenai mono na no ka?

motto ima ijou ni hadaka ni natte
ikite yuku jutsu oshiete yo
honno sukoshi dake watashi o yogoshite
sou yatte hitori kizutsuitari
mawari o nakushita to shite mo
shinjitsu no uta wa kono mune ni nagare

arasoi wa mada tsuzukun darou
dono michi ima ga taisetsu na no sa
gamushara ni natte miotoshite kita mono
tatoeba dare ka no yasashii hohoemi mo

eien o shireba donna kurayami mo
itami mo itsuka kiete
sou yatte ima wa watashi o yogoshite
zutto mukashi mita tenkuu no shiro ni
itsuka wa tadoritsukeru
shinjitsu no uta o michishirube ni shite

eien o shireba donna kurayami mo
itami mo itsuka kiete
shinjitsu no uta wa kono mune ni nagare

motto ima ijou ni watashi o yogoshite
hon no sukoshi dake watashi o yogoshite

shinjitsu no uta o michishirube ni shite ]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9678635/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9678635/ Thu, 10 Aug 2006 13:43:10 PDT ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9628128/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9628128/ Mon, 07 Aug 2006 11:45:27 PDT
Anyone know where I can download Flash for real cheap? ]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9621124/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9621124/ Sun, 06 Aug 2006 19:30:50 PDT Reading: "Talking to Angels in Bar Bathrooms"

I taught my niece and nephew to swim today. I felt really happy, which is kind of rare for me. I mean, I'm not always unhappy, but when I'm not with my friends, I'm usually a total crabcake. So today was great; I didn't have to snap at them and they didn't get on my nerves at all. We took everything in stride. Went down waterslides, did swim and float lessons, and then they requested to watch me do cannonball after cannonball off of the high dive into the deep end. They cheered, I got waterlogged, we ate pizza and swam before an hour just to see if we'd drown. Katie Rose and I made friends with a very cute lifeguard and Delao strutted his stuff to the girls. My day was so great that when the lifeguard asked me if I wanted to hang out after his shift was up, I said...

"No, thanks. I'd rather be with my family." ]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9580388/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9580388/ Wed, 02 Aug 2006 18:37:25 PDT Pretty much everyone worth talking to in my life is gone.
Neiko is gettin' her army on at camp.
So's Ashley.
Jamie is in New Jersey.
Mikeyboy is in Mexico.

They left me all alone! Even my Aunt Fi is out of range; she went to some remote, electricity-less B&B in Belfast. Durn-it!

-plants herself in the garden- ]]> ~iiyamuzai http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9501965/ http://iiyamuzai.deviantart.com/journal/9501965/ Wed, 26 Jul 2006 14:15:17 PDT own story that you haven't even started writing yet?

This is not rhetorical...Am I that stupid? ]]> ~iiyamuzai