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Wednesday of next week I'm hopping a Greyhound to Texas to see Nick (my boyfriend). Should be fun, but it's broken my bank account. *sigh*
I just turned 19.
My '86 Mustang is almost drivable.
Other than that my life is boring lol.
-K

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/17730812/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/17730812/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 12:10:34 PDT Once upon a time, I was a happy little girl
And the way I lived was seeing joy in all the world
Then one day I realized that there were bad things too
It happened long ago and it happened because of you

You took me by the hand and you told me I was pretty
I should never have trusted you when you gave me no pity
You used me as your plaything for your own twisted desires
The way I see the world now is just a sphere hosting liars

I used to never cry at night and fall asleep in tears
I didn't flinch at all mens' voices because of old fears
You took the smiles that I gave to everyone I trusted
Replacing them with twisted sneers- my face feels like it's rusted.

I look into my mirror now and see the woman's pain
I'm only seventeen, but I'll never be a child again
You might have ruined me forever if God had not intervened
And sent me an angel to polish my tarnished heart to a bright sheen

Beyond the pain I see a strength I've never seen before
You made me into someone that I hated and abhorred
Now that scarred and broken girl is resting peacefully
She has been healed and repaired and transformed into me

My guardian angel protects me now from memories of fear
He stands watch over all my dreams, his strength is always here
His influence over my outlook gives my healed heart wings
My Battlefield Justice giver has made me a new thing.











Dangerous Seas
Siren calling
Sailor falling
A helpless man surrenders
Drawn towards pretty embers
Strumming
Thrumming
Fingers nimble across harp
Ships wrecked, rocks sharp
Treachery and deceit
Wrecking mighty fleet
Lone survivors beg
Reaching towards legs
Hoping to acquire aid
Killed by malicious maid
Shredding
Threading
His teeth onto a chain
Start all over once again
Sailor falling
Siren calling.






Just Not Here
Tonight I'm sitting at a computer screen
Watching you smile on a webcam
It seems just yesterday you said goodbye to me
Now it's just another day alone with my grief
This is my life when you're gone, love
I'm so tired of saying goodbye to you

And I hate that tonight
My pillow is wet with tears
And I'm sleeping in the shirt
That you left over here
I'm cuddling with the bear
That you gave me last year
And no matter what I do
You're just not here

She's standing at a graveside stone
Watching her grandpa through the tears
It seems just last week he taught her to drive a boat
And now he's gone forever
Her grandma is going to be alone
She knows death came too soon
Looks up at the sky, his star always shone
But that star has exploded tonight

I hate that tonight
My pillow is wet with tears
And I'm holding the shirt
That you left for me here
I'm hugging the old bear
You gave me for my first year
And no matter what they say
You are just not here

He's running down a beaten dirt road
And I'm staring with love and bliss
We waited so long for that
Now miles cut me off from your kiss

And I hate that each night
My pillow is wet with tears
And I sleep in that shirt
It still smells like you, dear
I'm hugging tight the bear
You told me could hear
And I tell it that I love you
Cause you're just not here.

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13701878/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13701878/ Wed, 11 Jul 2007 22:58:47 PDT

the tears roll down my cheeks as i think about the past
knowing someone held you before me someone heard you tell them you loved them
knowing you thought you found the one before you found me
the pain of knowing you held someone before you held me
you kissed them before me
the thoughts race through my head and tears flood my face like a broken dam
the jealousy kills me
knowing you were in love before
i try to block it out but it gets stronger every second
i curl up tight wishing to end this knowing you're my only cure but also knowing your heart once lay with another man
knowing you cherished another
the jealousy kills me i wish i wasn't this way but all i can do is cry thinking about the past

==========================================

[ i lay staring into your eyes lost in awe of your beauty ]

i lay staring into your eyes lost in awe of your beauty
i stare into those brown eyes seeing my future unfolding before me
i close my eyes and let out a small cry of joy as i open them and you're still laying there staring with your beautiful smile
we hold each other tight and i whisper "yours forever dearest one" and smile and you put your hand on top of mine and whisper "thank you"
i kiss you softly and feel the sweet rush of love from your lips
we are wrapped up in our plans of our perfect happy ever after
i feel the salty sweet tear of joy roll down my cheek as i'm overwhelmed with happiness
i hold the world in my arms running one hand through your long brown hair
my heart beats your name and beats even faster as you lean forward for a kiss
then i lose my breath as our lips touch
i mumble "my lover"
and you mumble "always" and i smile as your cheeks turn rosy crimson

============================================

your guardian angel

i pick up the phone my heart is racing my palms are sweating and i don't know what to do
you're the perfect girl the perfect angel and i love u so
i hear your voice and freak out with joy letting my love flow out
you give me a high you make me so happy i wanna cry my emotions over flow and i just wanna shout
you're the best thing to ever happen to me you're the only person to give me such glee
you'ry my anael my venus my heart my joy my life my love
you're everything i ever wanted and everything i'll ever need
i'll promise to love and care for you and never do you wrong my baby girl
i'll always protect you and never forsake you
i've never felt this feeling before my whole body is tingling so could this be love
i drop to my knees and thank the Lord each and every day for sending me to you as your guardian angel
i'll wrap my arms around you and will let no harm come to you you're my girl and my love
come to me to always feel safe come to me to always get away
i'll always be here for you my love i'll always be your guardian angel
so baby rest your head on my chest and fall asleep no one will harm you while you're in my arms
i'll kiss your forehead and whisper my love into your ear
i'll stroke your hair and hold you tight
i'll be here in the morning waiting for my beautiful angel to wake up

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13652319/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13652319/ Sat, 07 Jul 2007 22:33:03 PDT I try to explain that you're the one I want to be holding when I take my last breath is it enough
I try to tell you that my love is true and that I'll never leave is it enough
I reach out for you knowing I can't yet hold you so I try to comfort you with my words is it enough
My body aches to hold you my heart screams to love you is it enough
I think of you all day and come home to tell you how dear you are to me is it enough
I come to you with nothing to give but my black torn heart is it enough
You fill my dreams and you are the angel in my nightmares- I wake to look over and see the bed empty where you should lay and wish only to see you there is it enough
I want to wrap you in my arms and never say goodbye is that enough
I'll hold you and watch you fall asleep and kiss you softly whispering my love to you is it enough
I'll fight back my tears and stand strong to show you I can handle anything as long as you're at my side is it enough
I'll give you all I have and work all day to see that one smile is it enough
I'll fight off anything that threatens you and make sure you receive no harm ever again is that enough
I'll give you forever is it enough
Please tell me baby...is it enough


-by Justin Passmore

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13598550/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13598550/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 10:00:28 PDT " />




The jpegs are there.... idk why they willnot work >.< ]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13593768/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13593768/ Tue, 03 Jul 2007 14:50:35 PDT -Kellzorz ]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13523077/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13523077/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 09:07:53 PDT A lot has happened lately.
Mostly good thankfully ^_^
I've been babysitting my niece for the last few weeks.
My boyfriend and I are still going strong :3 He's going to buy a motorcycle soon.
Life's good!!!
Welp I will try to get off my lazy bum and do more art soon, I promise.
Loff you all :3
Kelly

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13351560/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13351560/ Fri, 15 Jun 2007 05:02:18 PDT [link] and click it if you can

Sunday, June Third, Two Thousand Seven
Kelly Boal

Spellbound smile
Phone dial
My sweet agony, so long
Give way to magic's song
Flying,
Crying
Your name so loud-
Your smile so proud!
Arms wrapped tight,
A soulful sight.
Two lovers here
Holding so dear
Their faces are wet
Crying joy, no regret
Kissing,
Blissing,
How our love has grown
From the seed we've sown!
Phone dial...
Spellbound smile.

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13117249/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13117249/ Mon, 03 Dec 2007 18:07:30 PST Teenage mothers and titty bars
Morals forsaken and high crime rate
No prayer in school, children unsafe
Gunmen abound and people will kill
Children are murderers, teens pop pills
This shows the state America is in
Yet it's ignored in the State of the Union

Child abuse and domestic violence
Anger and road rage, none of it makes sense
Churches are burned and people drive drunk
Rapists forgiven since they can slam dunk
Disrespected teachers, havoc in our streets
People bashing soldiers, adultery discreet
America the Beautiful is bleeding on the floor
And we her people kick her and then walk out the door.

Fights in the schools and petty theft
Sex on TV, there's no innocence left
Rioting protesters, intolerant jerks
Perversion and horridness passed off as "quirks"
Porn seen by children, pedophiles free
Millions of murders each year on TV
Still our flag flies in the breeze
Watching, surely, with much unease.

Schools in California fly the Mexican flag
Fred Phelps' hate group, "God Hates Fags"
Nobody cares that the marriage rate's down
It's no shock Lincoln's statue wears a frown
Cars have flag stickers wrong side up
Panhandlers on corners, holding a paper cup
Veterans are disappointed and I'm seeing why
The state I see my nation in makes me want to cry

Date rape, meth, and crack-cocaine
Hope and Faith inch down the drain
Disrespect for our nation as a whole
THE UNITED STATES IS LOSING ITS SOUL!
Our enemies are surely seeing this
They lie in wait, and their nukes will not miss
America, please, I am begging you to see
That we were once so very great. That's how we need to be.

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13108189/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13108189/ Sun, 27 May 2007 01:57:56 PDT ._.
LETS DANCE
*shakes her groove thang*

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13018635/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/13018635/ Sat, 19 May 2007 21:28:11 PDT and my heart feels like somebody is stepping on it
and im crying so hard that my glasses are fogged
and i think
i might die tonight.

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12972679/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12972679/ Wed, 16 May 2007 02:03:06 PDT
Oh my God.

(Yeah, I know, "If you're grounded how are you on the internet?" Luckily for me he's too lazy to get up at the time I do.)

This is insanity.

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12925117/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12925117/ Sat, 12 May 2007 05:36:33 PDT In ()'s is the platoon

*That funky funky boogaloo!*
(That funky funky boogaloo)
*I can do it, so can yo-ou!*
(I can do it so can yo-ou)

Whooo! CADENCES.

Here's my superfantastic favorite one:

*If you like your pussy tight, stomp your left and drag your right!*
(Stomp, drag, stomp, drag)
*If you like their asses round, let me hear that Navy sound!*
(HOOYAH, HOOYAH)
*If you like their titties large, let me know who is in charge!*
(CHIEF BOAL, CHIEF BOAL!!!)


Believe it or not, that IS an actual cadence.

Scary innit?

HOOYAH! NAVY CANES BITCHES!
~*Cadet CPO Boal*~

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12915937/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12915937/ Thu, 10 May 2007 20:30:09 PDT
Three.

Boys.

Asked.

Me.

Out.

In.

The.

Last.

Ten.

Minutes.









AND I TURNED THEM ALL DOWN.








*takes three sleeping pills and stumbles to the couch*

Goodnight.

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12894605/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12894605/ Wed, 09 May 2007 00:47:45 PDT
Cause mine is going off.

I usually keep it set to go off at either 5 am or 5:30 am, but it has taken upon itself to go off two hors early. And since I keep it in my bra at night so I can hear it very clearly on those occasions I'm sleeping like the dead (sorry to those of you saying "TMI!!!" right now) it's guaranteed to wake me up, and then it won't go off again and I miss my bus and get grounded.

I'm very tired right now, so I'm sorry if this doesn't make much sense.... after all, it IS 3:40 in the morning.
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On a (slightly) related note,
*~*~*~*~*~Happy DeviantArt Birthday Devan!~*~*~*~*~*~*
Yay!
Spoon Lass is teh SH!T and you should go give her lots of nice comments and pageviews and things.
She's been my best friend since our freshman year, and we tear it up in our Chorus class, so from one Cutlery Crew-member to the Head Cutlery Crew-member.....
WE LUBZ JOO GIRL

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12856727/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12856727/ Sat, 05 May 2007 20:39:11 PDT
What can I say?

My booty likes to move it move it

<3333333, (now officially) Chief Boal

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12837708/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12837708/ Fri, 04 May 2007 08:46:59 PDT I have a mission
And a fission
In my sight and my heart
I make art
Of my pain
I tried not to regain
My recollections
Imperfections
And the hurt that they bring
You're my king....
It's not right
Not quite nice
But then here comes my knight
Or that's what I had thought
Dreamed he fought
And I sought
For his love and acceptance
And his unrepentance
Broke my heart yet again
In my pain
I can't call his name
Cause there's something about him
That makes me cry in the rain
This is so fucking funny
Days are sunny
Clouds of smoke make me choke
I've not spoke in three days now you know
And it hurts
All his words
They resound in my head
I feel dreads in my hair
Cause lately I don't care
Been wearing the same clothes
Getting sick, runny nose
From the tears all night long
Lack of sleep, lack of songs
Lack of "nothing is wrong"
Here I sit
Like a bitch
Full of shit
Full of bits of his lies
Compromised
And now I'm left outside
Tears I've cried
Useless now
I see how
This goes down
As a frown on my face, out of place
Never knew before you how one word could have altered my pace.

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12835343/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12835343/ Fri, 04 May 2007 02:42:28 PDT
Please God don't make him my second David...

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12831649/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12831649/ Thu, 03 May 2007 18:22:33 PDT
I hate this so much.



I'm gonna go put on my grandpa's flannel shirt and cry while listening to Kids In The Way now.

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12828955/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12828955/ Thu, 03 May 2007 14:33:41 PDT An AIR rifle. -_-"
I was locked up in my ROTC building with a bunch of hyperventilating IDIOTS because some stupid chick decided to try and get away with bringing a Daisy to GHS.
WTF.

And as for the miffed friend I mentioned in the previous journal....
He's mad at me for something so inane I can hardly believe it. Apparently I inadvertently used a word that has negative associations with females for him, which really sucks because I was quoting something he's said to me before. (IDK why but I love to quote people at themselves..... seems to make them get my point better. But not in this case.) So now I'm just kinda sitting here like "WHAT?!" and listening to ironic songs.

This has just been the most ludicrous day I've ever had.

And it's starting to really PISS ME THE FUCK OFF!

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12823395/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12823395/ Thu, 03 May 2007 02:36:00 PDT
......

It made me cry...

There's NOTHING that hurts me worse than making somebody I love mad and not knowing how I can fix it, so if he reads this...

I'm sorry. Please tell me what I did so I can make it right....

-kelly

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12766914/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12766914/ Sat, 28 Apr 2007 13:06:47 PDT Wooooooooooo! Go me!
And I'm pretty damn happy, too.
(Don't yell at me for saying damn. Freedom of speech, motherfuckers!)
Love,
Chief Boal


]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12750163/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12750163/ Fri, 27 Apr 2007 02:34:43 PDT It should be exceedingly nifteh.
Okay..... well...... It's 5:30, so I'm going to go. I'm tired.
<333,
(Soon-to-be-Chief)Kelly(Boal)


"Anchors aweigh, my boys, anchors aweigh
Farewell to college joys, we sail at break of day-ay-ay-ay,
Through our last night onshore, drink to the foam
Until we meet once more, here's wishing you a happy voyage home!"
-Anchors Aweigh

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12745152/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12745152/ Thu, 26 Apr 2007 16:40:18 PDT
Hee hee. ^_^

Oh em gee. I bought two new Sharpies today. If I can lay hands on my dad's digital camera or figure out how to take stillshots with my webcam, I will put up pictures of my luvvly "tattoos" later tonight.

Until then, I sit here and pathetically wait for a guy who probably doesn't even want to talk to me to get on Yahoo IM.

...... grah.

Lovelovelove,
Kelly

PS- THE NEW QUESTIONABLE CONTENT COMIC IS HILARIOUS! But only if you've read all of them and know the backstory.
Here's a link to # 1! Go absorb a subculture!
(Faye is so much like me, except with slightly more issues.)

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12730831/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12730831/ Wed, 25 Apr 2007 13:48:38 PDT I drank a liter of Mountain Dew for breakfast, so for most of today I was hyper and happy, and even though my back hurts I got my friend Jake to give me a massage.
Which was very nice of him. (Yay Jake)
But then whenever I turned on my iPod for the trek to my next class, the damned shuffle would inevitably land on some song that makes me want to maim someone.
Or cry.
Which is what I did on the bus ride home, huddled up in the corner of my seat.
It's been a long couple of days, I can tell you that much.

~kelly~

"Cause I hate the way I feel tonight
And I know I need you in my life
Yeah, I hate the way I feel inside
Though I promised to make a sacrifice...."
-12 Stones, The Way I Feel

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12718322/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12718322/ Tue, 24 Apr 2007 13:47:08 PDT
It is verreh cute. ^_^

<333, Kelly

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12710387/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12710387/ Mon, 23 Apr 2007 20:30:28 PDT SNAP
.... seeing your blood
FLOW
.... staring at you
DEAD
.... feeling my heart
CRUSH.

.... watching your head
FALL
.... hearing myself
SCREAM
.... feeling my feet
RUN
.... holding my head
UP.

.... standing by your
GRAVE
.... singing your favorite
SONG
.... breaking down into
TEARS
.... laying in my
BED
.... wishing I was
DEAD
.... so I could be with
YOU



ALWAYS.




Why
Has
This
Happened...

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12652230/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12652230/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 08:11:17 PDT It proceeds like so:

[Lady on the phone, peering out her window to the street where we see several cars parallel-parked] I was nervous enough about a blind date, but you just not showing up...
[Cut to a man, parked in his shiny new car on the street outside her house, talking on his cell phone] I'm here! I'm in a Toyota Camry.
[Lady] I don't see a Toyota Camry. Is this some kind of game? Cause I don't like games. I *love* the Bingo, but I don't like games.
[Man] It's not a game! Oh- sorry, it's a NEW Toyota Camry.
[Lady, frustrated] For the last time, I don't see a Toyota Camry!
[Man, clearly fed up] It's been fun. [Drives off]
[Lady] Oh, now I see it! Oh, gosh... Nice car!
[Cut to the man driving off and closing his phone]
[Lady] Call me!

The thing that angers me about this commercial is that it portrays the woman as stupid (which I can readily admit that some women ARE) and that it's OK for a man to basically sit out in his car and honk the horn to signal to his date that she can come out and get in the car.
Gentlemen, please, act as gentlemen. Knock on the door. Escort her to the car. (I'm not talking strew rose petals in front of her and throw yourself onto puddles so her shoes don't get wet. Just walk beside her for God's sake!) You don't have to open the car door for her, though you'd get major good-boy points for that. Just PLEASE.... be a gentleman. It ain't hard.

And to all the gentlemen in this world who behave properly, I thank you from the bottom of my romantic's heart and wish I had met you- for, unfortunately, all the males I come in contact with (with the exception of a few of my male teachers) are more like boys than gentlemen. Please, keep up the magnificent work.... we females of the species will inherently appreciate it. If there are no immediate results, keep trucking- when the ladies in your life mature enough to realize what a catch you really and truly are, you will have to find a gentlemanly way to beat them off with a stick.

Many thanks.
~Kelly

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12627486/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12627486/ Tue, 17 Apr 2007 03:15:54 PDT Is it all that you want?
Is it everything you hoped for?
Love,
Is it more than the word
That you use when you look at her?"
-Love, Kids In The Way

What is love? In your opinion, in my opinion, in my experience..... anything.

I think love..... is what I feel for him.

~*Kelly*~

]]> ~in-memorial http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12479931/ http://in-memorial.deviantart.com/journal/12479931/ Fri, 06 Apr 2007 06:43:27 PDT :3
OK.
Byez.
~*Kelly*~

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