http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:insixina&section=today deviantART RSS for by:insixina en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 04 Dec 2009 18:34:03 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/28495334/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/28495334/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 19:12:07 PST
I watched Seven Pounds
this may be an idle threat, but i think it evoked the most emotion out of me since i watched the fountain
and yet it was quite different
and yet it was very similar

So in case it is unclear: i really liked it, but in a very somber way

as for the problem described in the previous entry:
i solved it
you know how?
by asking the person if they were talking about me
and you know what they said?
direct quote, "No"

so there you have it
problems can indeed be solved with the simplest method, sometimes

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/28470988/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/28470988/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 15:19:33 PST
Is it wrong that i let things that i hear certain people say to each other be about me unless proven otherwise?

By that i mean that i heard a conversation (eavesdropping, it's not something i'm willing to give up) and i assumed it was about me, and in it were brought forth certain hurtful facts.
I became upset, but i did something i think is very strange.
I actually and truthfully dealt with it.
Imagine that.
But not in a very positive way. Instead of saying, "I don't even know if they were talking about me, why get worked up about it?"
i said,
"That's retarded. I do what i can and am not appreciated. Screw them."
And for the rest of the day i have been and will be a pouty mess.

I think it's not the best way to handle one's self (oneself?)
But i don't believe it can be helped.

If this person was talking about me, i can only hope they will see a need to say something about it, but at the same time i am scared of what they might have to say, since they are in a very well placed position to utterly destroy me.

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/28020253/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/28020253/ Wed, 28 Oct 2009 20:48:18 PDT the play was fun, though
being in it, anyway... i hear watching it was not so enjoyable

new computer at home, none of my old files
still busy, still poopy
not looking good

yay!

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/27586421/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/27586421/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 19:44:11 PDT but then i realized that we're not in a relationship!




so, um...

unwarranted pain?
wow, that sucks

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/27040480/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/27040480/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 18:03:20 PDT i am progressively falling off the face of the earth

school, work, extra-curriculars are all leaving me zero time for things i enjoy
i.e. art

let the record show that the case is not such that i have a bunch of crap lying around that i will "get around to posting," rather it is such that my latest uploading thinger is my latest thinger period, basically.

life sucks sometimes

YUM YUM BULLET

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/26009819/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/26009819/ Fri, 17 Jul 2009 15:51:36 PDT
shucks

so periodically i sneak onto my brother's laptop
the quality of which he keeps complaining about but i'm like "meh, it's pretty nice"
i mean, it's a toshiba


so i know,
everyone's really sad that i won't be vomiting up a bunch of mediocre (at best) deviations for a while, or commenting on any all that frequently

tear tear

how about i start a paragraph without using the word "so"?
huzzah!

kthanksbye

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25651568/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25651568/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 12:50:30 PDT
]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25593225/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25593225/ Sat, 27 Jun 2009 19:10:29 PDT
it's bed-time for workin' folks

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25592923/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25592923/ Sat, 27 Jun 2009 18:51:10 PDT I've been passing around the story i've written as the foundation of a graphic novel idea i've had

so far all the feedback i've gotten was "that's nice"
or something totally made up

but that's cool, if you have no constructive criticism to give other than "i liked it" or "i didn't like it" that's not your fault
i guess...

i mean
i've been thinking up this story for like three months and it took me three or four weeks to hammer it out on good ol' ms word
so if it isn't worth continuing in my plans
then wow did i waste my time
and i am not a fan of time-wasting or anything that comes close

So i was wondering if i might be able to send the story to interested parties to get some feedback as to:
a. whether it's worth finishing as an independent graphic novel
b. whether it's even good as a written story
c. if there are any serious plotholes

so i guess you can message me your e-mail address?
but i dunno how well you trust my computer for virus-free-ness
i dunno, let me know if you'd be interested please

but beware, it's a 41-pager...

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25498794/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25498794/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 15:23:58 PDT ANGER VOMIT

at least i start work on thursday
ANTICIPATION VOMIT

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25362220/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25362220/ Tue, 16 Jun 2009 21:38:42 PDT but stuff is happening:

JOB INTERVIEW TOMORROW 10:30
that's kindof huge, i need work

I've been making really sucky drawings
with my hands
ugh

i'm excited for a wedding
but
my brother's father-in-law-to-be is kindof an asshole

and uh...
well
that's it i guess

SONG QUOTES COMING ATCHAAA

"(german)" <---- that was peter fox

ok i'm done

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25335919/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25335919/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 18:46:06 PDT
SUMMERFEST PLEAZZZZEEEEE
--We'll see, young'n--
aww....

A SERIES OF MOVIE QUOTES!
try and guess

"Everything is being examined, looked into, or analyzed. When do we get some answers?"

"It's the devil, it shouldn't exist, but it does"

"What are these?"
"They're a pair of 3-D glasses, so you can see life in 3-D"
"But isn't life already in 3-D?"
"Yeah...well..but... come on"

"You can't just invent drugs over night. Why are you here?"
"Why the fuck do you think i'm here?"

"I can't get married, i'm a thirty year-old boy"

that's all i can come up with right now...

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25058965/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/25058965/ Sun, 31 May 2009 20:13:33 PDT
America is dead
(or ruled by brainless Hollister girls)

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/24962156/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/24962156/ Tue, 26 May 2009 14:14:10 PDT

job?
nah...


and now i fill out the "doing right now stuff" box!

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/24656124/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/24656124/ Fri, 08 May 2009 17:49:21 PDT
reading (have read) good stories, makes me feel good in my brain
seeing family is good for my soul
the end of school draws near (ZOMGZ YESSS)
have a lot of good music (thank you, job)+(some of the choices are rather embarassing, however)
still having problems with being evil
wondering what to devote my summer to
parents back from india (silk tie=boss)
new ulm pilgrimage coming up, excited to wear easter suit (and silk tie)
taken an interest in the german language (?random)

I've decided to host a bonfire tonight. Where will i get the wood? I have no food. Conversation must warm our tongues and fill our bellies. I will be a bad host.

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/24137400/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/24137400/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 20:49:02 PDT
bitch
bitch
moan

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/24062084/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/24062084/ Sat, 04 Apr 2009 17:28:41 PDT
way back- bus breaks down
girl has panic attack
asthma attack
attack attack

john walks onto the bus
"Mike, can you say a prayer for amanda?"

this is like a film...

we sing "Jesus loves the little children"
"soft and smooth so we don't disturb the officers outside"we sing "what a friend we have in Jesus"
we pray again

for two hours i am my father

the girl regains composure on her way to the hospital, returns home, and definitely gets more sleep than any of us

we wait for another schoolbus to pick us up
we get back at school at 1:30

i take care not to wake my roommate
7:00 his alarm goes off, i stay in bed
7:30 he's whispering to chris that it would be funny if he sat on me

fucker

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/23923440/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/23923440/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 19:43:12 PDT old Cold War Kids?

loyalty to loyalty
i bought it
it's good

things are good
except for looming 15page report
not cool..

home till monday
doctor's appointment
myehhhk

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/23553840/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/23553840/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 08:52:31 PST
But sometimes it can turn out to be the right thing

Earlier this week i had a dream that i was making fun of my mom over the phone with one of my friends
And then my dad called me to tell me that somehow she had been wired into the conversation and heard everything i said

The emotional theme to that one was emotional disgust on my mom's part and horrified regret
just so you know

Later, two nights ago, I had a dream that i had made plans to commit a gross sin. One of my other friends heard about this and she was disappointed to the point of tears

That was more centered on disappointment on my friend's part
again just so you know

Then, in reality, last night both emotions that i had dreamt were directed at me became my emotions after a conversation with my roommate

He was telling me how one of these days he's going to say nasty things to this other guy's face that lives on my floor
I said something like "If this is how you talk about him when he's not around, while you're nice to his face, then who is safe with you? What if you talk this way about me when i'm not around?"

There was a pause,
then he said
"I think you think you're better than you are."
Surprise
"At what?"
"At life."

Um, ok
emotional disgust? yes
disappointment? yes

If he thought he was answering my questions, he was wrong
I asked "what if you feel" not "what do you feel"
I realize it's a stupid thing to try and pick and choose what people should take literally and what they shouldn't, but I really, reeeeaally did not want to hear him say that

Ignorance is bliss
even if being naive is foolish and unremarkable, I would rather be a happy fool than a depressed intellectual

Oh to find the middleground...

But really, is it because i don't let you copy my homework?
Is it because i don't like it when you lump me in with all the hooligans running around this school?
Is it because i enjoy doing certains things?
Because sometimes it is so obvious that people are misunderstanding enjoyment for arrogance

It seems to me that in these years, and with these people, arrogance, or being "cocky" is such an issue that we're all on personal witch hunts to find and persecute everyone whom we deem so

Come oooon
"Fischer thinks he's good at soccer, when he's not"
NO, he enjoys it, that's why he's smiling when he's out on the field, not because he thinks he's amazing
And so what if he does think so! How are you affeceted by his alleged self-confidence?
Does it really make you that sick?

Or maybe we're all just so hungry for some drama to chew on that we take whatever snibbet of a mistake or a personality flaw and we run with it

hipocracy is a fun little word...

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/23440390/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/23440390/ Fri, 27 Feb 2009 20:15:27 PST "Friday Jam-session"
Cry-laughing
Laugh-crying?
Trying to impress people
Trying to look impressive
Trying to hide what i can be

I feel a haze over my eyes, or rather my mind
In the mornings on my way to the shower i feel so perfectly blunt with life and clear sighted
It resembles being naked, laying on cold stone
My mind is naked in the morning

Throughout the day a fuzz seems to grow
Of daily worries and small victories and the ups and downs of superficial friendships that i look forward to breaking in may of 2010
Fuzz of little anxieties that frighten me that this might actually be my life and who i am
Fuzz of disgust
Fuzz of guilt

And when i lay my head down again at night i am so at exhausted that this world of fuzz becomes my bed and i rest from my thought with intention of coming back to it

But when i wake it is gone and i am naked again
My mind is naked again

I guess this is the way it's going to be for a while

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/23218708/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/23218708/ Sun, 15 Feb 2009 15:18:01 PST or perhaps things similar to the hush sound
or more beirut
or ratatat to make more albums for me to have

forensics is exciting
apart from the prep forensics crowd being such unbelievable losers
i mean
i try not to think that i'm better than anyone else
but being around these people.....it makes it really hard

Jesus loves them too, however

i need to get paid more often...
this whole 'broke teenager' gag was funny for like two months
let's move on now

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/22906882/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/22906882/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 15:18:15 PST
No art class...sadface
Need for money to buy new art supplies...sadface
Don't Hold Back- The Sleeping
Guitar Hero III
Sadie Hawkins
Shitload of papers (does 3 constitute a shitload? Well, one has to be in spanish so it will)
Ran out of finishing gel...sadface again
Was, for some reason, very very moody this week
Eating steak tonight
Gave a speech about pandas and baked beans (A-, thank you)
Could very well have gotten money stolen from
Guys' dorms on (affectionately called) "Love Lockdown"
First forensics tournament tomorrow morning (leaving at 6...sadface once again)

Fun Fact:
Sometimes when i'm deeply troubled and i can find alone time, i pace in my room having an open discussion with myself.
It gets to the point where it would be very awkward and potentially embarrassing if someone were to walk in on me doing this, even though i'd be inclined not to stop.

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/22560924/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/22560924/ Tue, 13 Jan 2009 12:37:22 PST
You know it's good when someone is elected to distract you with the scents of the candle aisle while the rest of the group buys an assortment of (cynically put) useless items associated with a childhood obsession

it's just a natural law

I didn't know these people had that kind of capacity for consideration

or maybe i'm embarassed that i was so easily manipulated


anyways,
it's a good birthday today

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/22492170/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/22492170/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 17:23:52 PST
I dunno where they all came from, but they're welcome to stay

Now that i'm already writing i'll give some news
can you say that?
'giving news'

sounds like a bad translation...

I'll do it in the form of a conversation with myself:

-First week back in the new semester, new elective

-Euro lit? You nerd, that class is chalked full of beastly assignments.

-Yes, but i can only imagine how it compares to any college course...

-Yeah, get pessimistic, that's good.

-Shut up dummy

-Nope

-Brother getting married
the one that had a girl that wasn't already getting married

-oooo that's exciting, you get to be the flower girl this time?

-You're a bastard

-Hm, i know. What's this MLC trip?

-The trip to new ulm next weekend? Not looking like a huge blast. I mean, yeah, friends in new ulm, yeah staying with my brother, but it sounds like they might be roping me into some bullshit touristy things that "will be so much fun for me." Plus i have to sit through things like Hebrew class, i mean, it's a great language and all, but i'm not going to get interested in a mid-year senior's course in it.

-Wow you do whine a lot

-Shut up you antagonist

-Oh, that's what i am? Hold on, now i have to change some reservations for me and your mom.

-That doesn't make any sense

-Your face doesn't make any sense

*stab rip stab stab*

-Happy birthday you son of a bitch

-*gurgle*...that's...on tuesday...

*stab stab*

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/22233092/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/22233092/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 20:28:09 PST
]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/22087990/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/22087990/ Sat, 20 Dec 2008 15:52:09 PST "holiday" time

yay everyone



"You said it, bitch"

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/22076237/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/22076237/ Fri, 19 Dec 2008 22:11:46 PST i keep running through it over and over in my head and thinking of all the things i should and shouldnt have done.
kelly already was being really nice by letting me borrow her car to see you.
i shouldnt have pushed it .

Me:
pushed it by doing what? driving it?

Her:
driving it more than necessary

Me:
necessary? what else were we going to do, sit in a cafe or target for three hours?

Her:
um why not?

Me:
because that's boring

Her:
you can have a good time without being constantly entertained by something.
sometimes, you have to make the most of what you have .
you dont have to be on a mission for fun all the time .
i hate that .
i hate it when im with someone and we have to go DO something or BE with someone else.
its like oh great, im not enough .

Me:
that would be stupid if it was a wednesday night and we were looking for some way to skip chapel.
but i was in new ulm and it's just something weird about me where i like to do things that make distinct memories with the people that are my closest friends when i'm in that place.
so i'm not going to apologize for wanting to do something at least a half a cent more exciting.

Her:
ok.
well im not blaming you what so ever.

Me:
there's no one to blame.

Her:
i just feel like i should have put my foot down and said no this isnt my car, im not going to drive it any more than i have to.
and yes there is someone to blame.
there always is.

Me:
no shut up

Her:
it doesnt matter

Me:
yes it kind of does

Her:
the accident really doesnt effect you that much anyways.
well it does.

Me:
effect me personally?

Her:
well im guessing it effected you by costing money and stitches and such

Me:
oh my god

Her:
but you dont have to deal with the consequences everyday

Me:
that's it i'm done

(leave)

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/21580549/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/21580549/ Thu, 20 Nov 2008 11:50:09 PST
]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/21269313/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/21269313/ Sat, 01 Nov 2008 17:11:59 PDT I have a job! I thought that this would NEVER happen!

...but i need a new sketchbook...

the other one is officially full
of crap, HAAA

i need to parent-mooch....
SHAZOOM

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/21125001/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/21125001/ Thu, 23 Oct 2008 12:30:57 PDT

but why the crap was it scheduled the same weekend as MLC homecoming?
oh yeah
because people are retarded

GRRRR

choral fest in like two weeks though
banananaa

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20926901/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20926901/ Fri, 10 Oct 2008 19:38:15 PDT I am shallow
I am awkward
I am sinful

and everyone seems to notice

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20711833/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20711833/ Sat, 27 Sep 2008 19:48:56 PDT

so go back to it if you want to read a weird msn conversation
and add me on msn or something?
but don't be an old creepy person

k awesome

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20711761/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20711761/ Sat, 27 Sep 2008 19:44:47 PDT (note that i do not know this person at all)
HUZZAH:

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
can i see ur cam please hun

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
pweasse

Michael says:
it's old as fuck and i can't find it

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:


Michael says:
sorry, i'm just too sexy

Michael says:
i'd melt your eyes out

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
so what i want to see u LOL

Michael says:
nope

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
sighs

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
r u single ha ha

Michael says:
jeez aren't you married?

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
no..

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
uhm...

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
dif subject

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
Hey ... talk to me..

Michael says:
yes i am single

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:


Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
So can I at least see a better pic of u jw

Michael says:
ha no

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
and btw a little birdie told me to tell u to ask me to
the dance ha ha

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
oh come on please please please please please

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
ill stop saying im ugly if u do

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
show me a pic that is

Michael says:
i'm already taking someone

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
show me a picture please ha ha

Michael says:
nooo stop creeping me ooooout

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
wtf

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
omg damn

Michael says:
yeah i said it

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
how am i creeping u out honestly bcuz i want to see a pic and the only fucking reason i want to know if ur single is cuz of the fact that kelly asked me to ask u to take me next weekend so we can all go to gether

Michael says:
whoawhoawhoooooa

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
sorry im pist right now and that pist me off even
more..

Michael says:
if all you say is "are you single? show me a picture!" a lot of times, what am i really supposed to think?

Michael says:
nobody explained anything to me, so i draw obvious conclusions

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
w/e

Michael says:
whatever your face

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
shush lol

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
listen honestly i was just hoping to know ppl when i got down there besides the girls since realy i only talk to chev and ali any more

Michael says:
well now you know me

Michael says:
no harm done

Michael says:
i'm just already taking someone to the dance and i don't like randomly distributing pictures of myself to people i am only acquainted with

Bree is finally glad to say that she is happy says:
yea well idk w/e honestly i dont care any more

Michael says:
alright cool


TADAAAA
i don't like this girl...

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20583852/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20583852/ Sat, 20 Sep 2008 11:18:10 PDT highschool is just getting stupider by the day

what is with all these kids thinking they're fucking neuropsychologists
"oh i can read people so well, that kid is arrogant, that kid is awesome, that kid needs to chill out"

especially when the self-righteous kid says
"I can tell that the kid that gets straight A's thinks he's better than everyone else"

you're the one that told me,
"It annoys me how often people tell me i'm such a good person"

verbatim

and you went on tangent after tangent about how well you can see through people and everything
tell me, can you see through me?


i don't know how many times i have to ignore what you say before you understand that i'm sick of hearing it

i don't know how longer i have to roll my eyes at you and walk away and pretend to have to do something important
every time just more afraid that you'll finally understand and react immaturely

POO ON YOUR FACE

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20506014/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20506014/ Mon, 15 Sep 2008 13:28:41 PDT

school drama in general can be rough
this we all know

at least on the receiving end
the creators have a pretty easy time with it
it's just so easy to share opinions
it's just as easy to see what's "wrong and right"

it's easy to believe distorted truth and make judgements

it's easy to say things but not really say them

it's fun when people make demands like "see how they would feel about it" "put yourself in their shoes"
when the situations only indirectly involve them and my feelings and my 'shoes' are the ones that are in the balance

yet i'm the bad person
because i don't make good decisions
because i was bored
because i wanted to be friendly
because i didn't want to be alone

who wrote those laws anyway?

as far as i know, my only sin was a sin of thought, and that still was in an instant long before anything noticeable occured

and when people say "we're not judging you, but..." guess what they opt to do

it's a unimaginable to say "i don't know the circumstances, so i don't have the right to draw conclusions"

but of course i'd only say that because i have a guilty conscience and i want to detract from whatever i did that was wrong...

it's so obvious...

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20271882/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20271882/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 12:45:09 PDT y'know why?
and this actually has something to do with whoever reads my journal

my school's server dude BLOCKED DEVIANTART
ughhhk

i can understand blocking myspace, pedophiles prowl that site day in and out
i understand facebook, same reason but with different methods

hell, i understand blocking hotmail

but deviantart is where i get my inspiration from
what am i supposed to do?
walk three miles to the nearest library so i can stare at children's books for a couple hours and try and convince myself it's the best it can get?

fuck that shit

i could just resort to google images
oh wait, the assmunches blocked that too

i am very depressed

of course my main point in telling you this is that i definitely do not have time to look at work anymore

so it's come down to:
i get home, go on deviantart and spend an hour shoving your pieces into my favorites, only judging them by that thumbnail size and how much i like you as a person

and by the time that's all done i have to go back to school

boarding schools SUCK


so i am very very sorry to the people whom i wish i could have corresponded with over the next however long it'll be before i have some quality time with deviantart

and i'm sorry that i have to half-ass my appreciation for the level of awesome you all possess

GUH ANGST

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20004297/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/20004297/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 12:38:44 PDT

i need to get me some of that
so i can be cool

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/19939605/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/19939605/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 18:01:00 PDT Now it's overhead- Fall back open
Ratatat- LP3

so

pretty happy about that
especially since i only paid ten dollars for the two of them
yay for cd-exchange deals!

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/19760920/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/19760920/ Sun, 03 Aug 2008 22:11:07 PDT HURRAY FOR IRISH IN-LAWS!


but who's the best man?

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/19508010/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/19508010/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 21:35:37 PDT was
aaaaaamazing

i don't think they could have done it better
hmhmhmhhmhmhh


that's my opinion though
i'm not going to force anything on anyone

but batman is worth paying money to be in a crowded theatre with stupid preppy pink polo wearing retards





the shadow puppets from the top aisle was a tiny bit immature...

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/19418368/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/19418368/ Tue, 15 Jul 2008 21:58:09 PDT

just putting something in front of that last announcementrant type deal



so




UBER EXCITEMENT FOR BATMAN
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
heath ledger's last movie
ever

that's just crazy to me....
because it's probably his best


but whatever


K BYE

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/19174156/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/19174156/ Wed, 02 Jul 2008 21:47:31 PDT
alright...

"for two weeks!"

wtf i have stuff to do

"i don't care! ha!"


actually he would care if i didn't want to go
all too much...

but enough of that emoness

i'm going to that place for at most two weeks tomorrow
guuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhh

there's nothing to do there
but whatever


k bye

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/19026004/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/19026004/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 18:30:07 PDT it seems like the healing might go alright
but we'll see

i lost my mp3 chord
again
stupid
stupid
crap
stupid
dumbass
guuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhh

which might not be AS bad if i didn't JUST buy the new Gorillaz album

i'm having trouble sleeping
for some reason
i want to go to college

but a good one


OK BYE

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/18949010/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/18949010/ Fri, 20 Jun 2008 12:10:24 PDT no more solid foods for me, after today

no more wisdom teeth either, but i can do without those


i guess i'm feeling ornery
i couldn't have breakfast
(apparently eating before surgery makes it harder)

parents are bugging me

i just want to sleep for four days


BUT ZOMGZ THANKS FOR 1,000 VIEWZZZ!!

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/18936887/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/18936887/ Thu, 19 Jun 2008 19:30:02 PDT is that a big deal?

do i have to draw something special for that?
i'm so oblivious...

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/18357061/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/18357061/ Fri, 16 May 2008 19:29:57 PDT One week of school left
Driver's test
Sarah visit
Job hunting
Catching up with my private life

this is what happens when you try to pay attention too hard

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/17517183/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/17517183/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 21:06:50 PDT
which means i will very seldom reply to comments unless i am magically granted time from the gods of homework computerlab availability

and will definitely not be posting anything during that time




it sucks

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/17401946/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/17401946/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 20:20:12 PDT
sometimes i buy into these labels so much that i look at clothes and measure my need for them according to what label i'm working towards


it's distressing
i feel like i'm not my own person

but i don't want to say that i haven't "found myself"

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/17227168/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/17227168/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 15:53:29 PST i dunno why
it just makes me feel dirty


and like a loser
especially when i'm refreshing the page thirty times to see if i can get one new message



and then in about two to three weeks i will be robbed of any contact with the outer world for a good solid four months

thank you, hong kong
and prep
you two make a great team

i hear prep weekends are fun, though
i haven't seen any sign of it, but rumors are always true, aren't they?

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/17040197/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/17040197/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 11:01:37 PST



pretty much the coolest thing that has to do with science ever

very educational and artistic

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/17029891/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/17029891/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 17:57:30 PST

i am freaking downloading GIMP


i'm sick of everyone rocking so much more than i do
because they can color things




I WILL BECOME MEDIOCRE
I SWEAR IT
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/16915074/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/16915074/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 13:52:12 PST


sarah, i gave in
i bought that shirt even though everyone else is going to have it
BUT C'MON IT WAS ONLY LIKE 8 BUCKS AND IT JUST LOOKS SO COOL AND FJNBH;SGJN




and apparently i'm really good at making people think i'm a douchebag
COUGHross chartrandCOUGH
what who said that?



i really really want a job
because i really really want things
and money seems the only option

i wouldn't diagnose myself a materialist
morelike a human
lots of people are making things that i want
or have made things that i am only now noticing



and maybe i'm ok with prep now..

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/16507443/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/16507443/ Mon, 21 Jan 2008 14:44:02 PST for a loooong tiiime..




i'm such an angstful kid sometimes...

meh

AND OMG I CAN'T FIND MY MP3 CORD ANYWHEREZ
it's either at sarah's house or in my mom's car

or maybe it disappeared into thin air like a prehistoric animal?


i want to write you a poem...

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/16364263/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/16364263/ Fri, 11 Jan 2008 21:22:26 PST


i apologize to everyone to whom i never said "happy birthday"
or i screwed up the date
or i was too cheap to buy them a present when they deserved it

i cover my bases



XD

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/16135816/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/16135816/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 09:14:18 PST
don't feel obligated to look at it all in one sitting
but please look at it sometime?





i've been playing that shadow of colossus game
now, i'm not much of a gamer
but that game is freaking epic

i mean

epic is the only word i can use to describe it

i love it
a lot

it inspires me not to be a loser, i guess

and it's pretty simple
it takes about a minute to learn how to play


it's just sooooooo epic




so that's pretty much my life right now
yay God

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/16061399/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/16061399/ Sun, 23 Dec 2007 15:57:35 PST





everyone have fun

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/15999258/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/15999258/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 11:18:24 PST
He's a cool guy

but the conversation made my hunger for an acoustic band to call my own come back into center focus



there's just no one willing to participate
even the ones who won't stop saying
"man it would be freaking sweet to be in a band"
they're just not willing to execute

solo acts are for famous people
and techno

even rappers have a frontman




this sucks

]]> ~insixina http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/15904945/ http://insixina.deviantart.com/journal/15904945/ Wed, 12 Dec 2007 14:54:08 PST
questions like:
what do i do about pencil lines that are way to thick?
how do i know what coloring medium is the most awesome?
why do some of my drawings really really suck?
how can i learn to pace myself?


(anyone who can answer them is awesome)

i guess it boils down to my inexperience
and maybe i need an art teacher...


luther prep
way to have a sucky art program
yaaay

]]> ~insixina