http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:invisiblecarousels&section=today deviantART RSS for by:invisiblecarousels en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 07 Dec 2009 18:43:01 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/24563495/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/24563495/ Sun, 03 May 2009 10:20:04 PDT If I am not mistaken.
Seriously, guys.
What a freaking wonderful word.
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Creepin real hard. :]

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/21878056/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/21878056/ Mon, 08 Dec 2008 08:20:13 PST
I hope you are all doing well, if anybody bothers to read this. I'm sorry for not commenting your WONDERFUL work, but I've just been off for so long, I needed a clean slate.

Send me a note if you want to talk, or anything. Miss you kids.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/20940821/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/20940821/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 17:15:45 PDT
I have another one next Friday. ><

Sweet balls! I'm like, Ye Almighty Dancing Queen! I enjoy dancing, and I enjoy my dresses, and I love being close to people. I really hope I have a good time. If I don't, that's okay. But last night was not good.

Oh well. Win some, Lose some.

Something good may still come out of it, actually. Silver lining, I suppose. Anyway, yes. How is everybody? Sorry I haven't said much lately.

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]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/20504637/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/20504637/ Mon, 15 Sep 2008 11:55:15 PDT
Anyway... All is well. Love life? Zilch. Grades? Mediocre. Friends? All but three or four ARE HUGE PAINS. But oh well. Sticking through. Lately it seems like me and one friend are up against the world. I think we are rocking the teen angst right nice.

Gah. I just want to go home and take a nap. I took a nap ALL through last period. I slept right on my arm, and my sleeve made a wrinkle through my forehead. I really enjoy ed everybody laughing at me. Yeah. Cherry on top of a freaking perfect week. Hehe. Anyway, last night was my last day at my Fast Food Hell. Now I'm moving on to a new Fast Food place. No telling whether or not it's Hell.

I'll keep you posted!

XoXo,
Meighan

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/20079136/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/20079136/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 13:55:31 PDT
Yeah.

Just kidding... Anyways, I'm STOKED for school this semester! I have Dani and Ander with me first period, Sunshine with me second and third periods, no friends fourth or fifth [which is fine. math and painting], and then Austin with me for sixth, and Connor with me for seventh. I also got some shitty teachers, unfortunately, but some REALLY GREAT ones, too. So I'm hopeful. I want to make new friends, and get closer to my old ones. I know, sounds cheesy, but friends are important.

Dating is not. First two months of school: NO DATING FOR ME. Because it's what I want to do. And If I'm single all year? Thats awesome. I'm not interested in anybody, anyways. I had a crush, but it subsided. I'm just hoping to find some worthwhile people, and get /decent/ grades.

HOW WAS YOUR FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL, PARTY PEOPLE?

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/20009078/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/20009078/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 17:43:21 PDT
I went to Silver Dollar City amusement park, which was kind of rad, I gotta admit. The lake was even better. Branson was a lot of fun. But then the Great Wolf Lodge sucked. It was a waste of money in most ways. I didn't really enjoy it. I got a sunburn. *shakes fist at sky*

Oh!

I read a lot. I started and finished Someone Like You, That Summer [both by Sarah Dessen], The Notebook [Nicholas Sparks], The Witches of Eastwick [Jon Updike], and The Princess Diaries 2 [Meg Cabot]. I'm at home now.

I'm sorry if I couldn't reply to everybody's stuff. I tried to comment on what I could but there Were fifty comments and seventy deviations to look at.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19891358/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19891358/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 06:00:03 PDT
Last night I had quite the unfamiliarity: TWO DREAMS. I remember them both, also. In the first, I was watching a family. There was a woman pregnant with twins, and everybody was watching over her to make sure the babies came out okay. They wanted so badly to make sure this time, she kept it. But instead, she intentionally overdosed, and wound up in an asylum. The babies were dead. In the dream, I think I was the girl, although I only watched from above. But in the asylum, her beautiful features [she looked nothing like me. She was Chinese, I believe] were writhed in torture and she screamed in pain. It was unbearable to watch. I woke up a bit terrified.

In my second dream, I was involved in a marriage with somebody I had never met. I was wearing this white frilly gown, and a black zipup hoodie along with my black chucks. I felt completely out of place along all these beautiful people waiting for me to declare my matrimony before God. Not a single one of my friends had showed up, and I felt completely alone. At the last minute, I refused, and ran from the church screaming and dancing, running through the front playgrounds and trees. It was very strange.

I think these show me that I"m afraid of commitment [running from marriage? running from God?] and that I am too rebellious. Also I think the lack of friends there means I feel unsupported in my life, which is strange, because my friends have been there for me a lot lately. The first dream left me quite a bit confused, unfortunately. I don't know if the baby symbolizes my spirit or my past that I have destroyed before, or if the girl symbolizes my ability to destroy myself. But maybe I am like a Phoenix, just created to rise again.

Its been a really reflective morning. Yes morning. I was woken up at seven forty five. It's been great. Caffeinated.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19860537/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19860537/ Sat, 09 Aug 2008 10:39:47 PDT
also, for those out there who know me, know i take my dreams very seriously. i only remember them like, twice a month, and when i do they are almost always telling me something. well, two nights ago i had a dream that my mother died. and then last night i had a dream that my stepmothers family was taking turns beating me, and then telling me what a piece of shit i was and my dad just watched. they kept calling me a whore, and a slut. i woke up completely shook up but i couldn't remember my dream! so when i could i decided to put it on here.

my hypothesis of the dreams means that my subconscious feels that my relationship with my mother is desintigrating [probably due to my stepfather, who i have NOT been getting along with. i woke him up, and he tried to kick me out of the house], and that if i don't fix it soon, the damage will be irreversable. my hypothesis for the second dream is that i feel ignored by my father and that her family takes place before i do. [which i've always felt.] and that all these names i've been afraid were true, are being thought by those closest to me. but i dont know how to fix my relationship with my dad. my world is kind of falling apart.

but i'm okay. i actually am. i'm getting back into religion [dylan, do you remember when i was in elementary school and i thought i was a witch? me and my friend samantha made a religion? remember?] and leaving where i left off as a child. i remember my beliefs on god, and jesus [irrelevant if he was the messiah. he was a good man, who did his best to make everybody's lives a little better. if we all tried to be a bit more like him, the world would be a better place.] and how i feel about magic. i dont believe a spell can change a person, but i do believe that channeling your inner strength can bring you courage, bravery, and a sense of self. so i'm trying to dig up my own journals to start up where i left off.

go ahead, call me crazy. a naturally empathetic person, i probably already know. :]

point: my nipple hurts, my nights have sucked, and i'm probably not an athiest. i prayed when i thought i was going to get kicked out, which made me realize that i couldn't NOT believe in god if i was going to pray to him/her when my life got rough. but yes.

my nipple hath been bit.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19832146/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19832146/ Thu, 07 Aug 2008 17:40:04 PDT 1. I was right next to you
2. I kissed you
3. I lived next door to you
4. I started smoking
5. I was hospitalized
6. I was drunk
7. I hugged you
8. I asked you to leave
9. I asked you out?
10.What do you think about my personality
11. Eyes
12. Hair
13. Body?
14.Be my friend??
15. Keep a secret if i told you one??
16. Kiss me??
17. Go on a date with me??
18. Keep in touch??
19. Date me????
20. Have you ever lied to make me feel better??
21. Hated me?
22. Wanted to kiss me??
23. Kept something important from me??
24. Wanted to cuddle with me???
26. Who are you???
27. Are we friends???
28. When and how did we meet???
29. Describe me in one word?
30. What was your first impression???
31. What reminds you of me???
32. If you could give me anything what would it be???
33. How well do you know me???
34. When is the last time you saw me???
35. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't???
36. Are you gonna post this so you can see what I say about you???

You must answer all these questions and send them back to me, please don't hold back, be completely honest...?Y= Yes?N = No?M= Maybe??
Would/will you??[]
Come to my house to do nothing at all but chill??[]
Fight me??[]
kiss me??[]
Let me kiss you??[]
Watch a movie with me??[]
Go out to dinner with me??[]
Sing car karaoke with me??[]
Re-post this for me to answer your questions??[]
Hold my hand??[]
Let me make you breakfast??[]
Help me with homework??[]
Tickle me??[]
Let me tickle you??[]
Instant message me??[]
Greet me in public??[] Hang out with me??[]
Bring me around your friends??[]
Be down with me no matter what[]
Do you Think I'm cute??[]
Think I'm serious??[]
Think I'm a good person?[]
Think I'm conceded??[]
Want to kiss me??[]
Want to cuddle with me??[]
Want to hook up with me??[]
Love me???
Am I??[] Smart??[]
Cute??[]
Funny??[]
Cool??[]
Romantic??[]
A freak??[]
Gangsta??[]
lovable??[]
Adorable??[]
Trustworthy?[]
Compassionate??[]
Great to be with??[]
Attractive??[]
Mean??[]
Well known???
Have you ever??[]
Wished I were there??[]
Had a crush on me??[]
Wanted my number??[]
Had a dream about me??[]
Been distracted by me??[]
Looked at my page more than ten times???
Are you happy you know me??[]
Thinking about me??[]

1. Give me your number??
2. Let me hug you anytime I wanted to??
3. let me kiss you??
4. watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one??
5. let me take you out to dinner??
6. drive me somewhere/anywhere??
7. take a shower with me??
8. have a fling with me??
9. listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends??
10. buy me a drink if i didn't have money??
11. take me home for the night??
12. let me sleep in your bed??
13. sing karaoke w/ me??
14. sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone??
15. re-post this for me to answer your questions??
16. come pick me up at 3am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere??
17. Do you think I'm cute or hot??
18. Do you like my style??
19. Do you think I'm funny??
20. cry if I died??
21. dance with me??
22. sing happy birthday to me??
23. take advantage of me if I was drunk??
24. strip for me?

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19742982/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19742982/ Sat, 02 Aug 2008 21:15:26 PDT sarah or christina, probably. only because i see them every day. but dylan and wesley are still so close to me.

- What sport did you play?
*hysteric laughter*

- Did you buy your lunch?
i was anorexic. just kidding! but i did buy apple juice nearly daily. sometimes wild berry poptarts.

- Guy friends or girl friends?
both. although guy friends are much easier to maintain.

- Did you get suspended/expelled?
no but i did get a referral for making out in the hallways.

- What was your favorite class ?
english or art

- What was your school's name?
haha, nice try.

- Would you go back in time if you could?
i'd like to think i could say no but its a tempting offer.

-Who was your science teacher?
oh, shlag

- Who was your English teacher?
the spaugh

- On student council?
yeah, okay. are you stoned?

- Who did you like?
which week?

- Was it your favorite year?
um, that would be a negative. big time.

-Did you hang out with the same people you did at school?
yeah, i'm not sure that i'm answering here.

- Did you go to your 9th grade dance?
fuck. no. i bought tickets for homecoming, which my "date" agreed to go, and then ended up refusing to go to the mall to flirt with an ex instead. that was not a good night for meighan at all.

- How many kids were in your class?
more than one less than a million.

- What was your label?
Crazy Lesbian or Bisexual Slut.

-Explain your 9th grade year in one word:
Painful.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19724389/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19724389/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 19:06:47 PDT
]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19662224/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19662224/ Tue, 29 Jul 2008 13:37:55 PDT
~~~WRATH~~~
1) Who did you last get angry with?
darian.

2) What is your weapon of choice?
words and intelligence.

3) Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
sure.

4) How about the same sex?
sure.

5) Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
probably darian.

6) What is your pet peeve?
ignorance

7) Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
depends on the situation. stepmom: keep. mother: let go.

~~~SLOTH~~~
8) What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't?
cleaning the fucking litterbox.

9) What is the latest you've ever woken up?
five in the evening.

10) Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?
holly.

11) What is the last lame excuse that you made?
having car trouble, not being able to get to work. the funny part was that it was true.

12) Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through?
absolutely. them girls gone wild really capture my attention.

13) How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock this morning?
humans don't have snooze buttons unfortunately.

~~~GLUTTONY~~~
14) What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
smoothies :]

15) Are you a meat eater?
no.

16) What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?
one sip of my mothers drink, or my grandpas wine or something like that. i've never actually drank, simply tasted.

17) Do you enjoy candy and sweets?
oh my christ, yes.

18) Which do you prefer: sweets, salty foods or spicy foods?
sweets!!!
ice cream, pie, cake, candies!!! i'm crazy. sugar = good.

19) Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "lunch"?
not yet. but one day, perhaps.

~~~GREED~~~
20) How many credit cards do you own?
not a one.

21) If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?
save all but 10 thousand on it. use the 10 thousand on new clothes, a very large, very deep pool in my backyard, and a high tech vibrator.

22) Would you rather be rich or famous?
neither.
i don't want to get currupted.

23) Would you accept a boring job if it meant that you would make megabucks?
for awhile, sure. but not as a permanent fixture in my life.

~~~PRIDE~~~
24) What's one thing that you have done that you're most proud of?
get my first paycheck.

25) What's one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of?
my drug and alcoholfree lifestyle

26) What thing would you like to accomplish late in your life?
witness a miracle.

27) Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?
if its something i care about, then absolutely.

28) Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?
yes. drawing contests with my siblings. :]

29) Have you ever cheated to get a better score?
oh dear god yes.

30) What did you do today that you're proud of?
took a SHOWER.

~~~LUST~~~
31) How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies, family, strippers, locker rooms)?
two that i was dating, and most of my friends.

32) How many people have seen you naked (not counting physicians, doctors, family, locker rooms, or when you were a young child)?
two and most of my friends. [we change in front of each other, its not sexual at all]

33) Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a person of your chosen sex during a normal conversation?
ABSOLUTELY.

34) What is your favorite body part of a person of your gender choice?
hands.

35) Have you ever had sexual encounters (including kissing/making out) with multiple persons?
if you mean over the course of a week, the answer is yes.

36) Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?
no, not yet.

~~~ENVY~~~
37) What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
dani's kittens. :]

38) Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?
i'm not sure.

39) If you could be anyone who existed in the world, who would you be?
ugh, no.

40) Have you ever been cheated on?
yes.

41) Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
yes, but at the end of the day i like how i look.

42) What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
undying faith.

~~~WHAT DEADLY SIN...~~~
~Do you do the mo... ]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19604200/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19604200/ Sat, 26 Jul 2008 09:29:19 PDT ander.


Who is the first girl you go to?
ash, christina or sunshine.



Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it?
it depends on how hard you try.



Are you thinking of anything right now?
how much i dread going to work from 12:30 until 7:30.





If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
... depends...
i like somebody from my school but she is very much taken. she told me she likes me more than him, but she won't break up with him.
its really quite complicated.





Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
i really hope so.
and a positive difference, at that.
i know, i'm picky.




Do you remember the name of your first school you ever went to?
yes!!! conway elementary in california. that was a truly great school.




Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone?
yes, actually.



Break someones heart or have your heart broken?
break somebody else's heart.
at least i'm honest.







Do you like to spend time with people?
some people more than others, but yes of course.




Are you hungry?
yeah but i'll be at work for so long, so i'm just not going to eat. that way, i'll come home ravishing, eat a meal, and go to sleep within a few hours.




Are you talking to anyone while doing this? Who?
yeah, over the instant messager.




Three feelings at the moment?
dread, excitement, hope
dread for work.
excitement at the possibility of staying the night at a friends house again.
hope for finding something worthwhile.



Got anything you regret so far in life?
no regrets. i learned from my mistakes. and if i had never made them, i would probably end up doing them sometime in the near future anyway. i'm sure thats very confusing.
it makes sense to me!




Are you listening to anything?
just the fan, unfortunately




Where are you right now?
my basement. i kind of have to pee.





What are you scared of?
losing the things important to me in life, needing somebody, loving somebody more than i love myself [i have this with very few people. its an exclusive group.], and becoming something i'm not.



Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?
yeah, thats quite the turnoff.



In the past week have you felt sad?
yes.




Does the last person who put their arms around you mean anything to you?
the last person was sunshine, and yes she means quite a lot to me.



Last person you texted?
hm. i think it was either sunshine on kathlenes phone or my mother.



Do you wear the hood on your sweatshirt?
NEGATIVE.




When was the last time you cried?
its been awhile.




Do you like the smell of gasoline?
yes, but for long periods of time. it starts to smell like fart.




Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
yes. ><



Do you have any obsessions right now?
hair ribbons [NEW DEVELOPMENT! PINK RIBBON, ITS ADORABLE!],


Do you like who you are, as a person?
usually.
i'm in the process of rebuilding my self esteem.
its harder than i'd have thought.



Is there one thing/anyone that is on your mind constantly?
one person. a little emo kid w blue eyes who draws me mermaids.



Have you talked to a complete meany today?
not yet, but the day is young.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19580997/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19580997/ Thu, 24 Jul 2008 21:43:52 PDT
great people. i was a little silly, and a lot sexual, but all lighthearted. i feel like myself, and i feel happy. i dont care about any of the crap that is going on in the background. all i need is this. i love you dylan, and i love you wesley.

sunshine, i cannot wait to see you tomorrow. do not think you have been forgotten in ANY way. :]

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19564339/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19564339/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 23:10:49 PDT liked your lack of words to say
the mystery that came
from knowing nothing about you
i loved your unintentional sex appeal
and your lack of experience
i wanted to hold you and never let go
but instead i became afraid
so i pretended we were wrong
because i couldn't get close to you
what i didn't realize
was that in our way, we were close
we didn't need words to fill the silence
we just needed to be
and i convinced myself
that liking you was wrong
that i'd hurt myself, be vulnerable
so instead i settled
i let myself be taken, and took second best
great people, but never who i wanted
i want you, i still do
but now you have my heart
and he has yours it seems
i'm too late, its too little
i messed up and i know
that i missed my chance
all i want to do now
is have you tell me i was wrong
but you won't, you can't
you just tell me you love me more than him
beg me to see you soon
i try to keep quiet
but i tell you my heart
and i'm feeling wistful now
a twinge of regret of aftertaste
but i wish i could see your face
i wish your blue eyes could look into me
and see something good in me
tell me you love me, say that you need me
please, baby
leave him for me.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19526656/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19526656/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 21:08:57 PDT this empty gray haze
your lips your smile
lets talk awhile
i miss your skin
but i won't begin
to miss your touch
it hurts too much
you're gone my friend
our wounds can't mend
please take my hand
can't understand
my thoughts taunt
know that i want
you to forgive
me and i'll live
again, again
again, again
love me, love me
so i can be
with you again
with you again

this isn't about messing up or about getting into a fight. the "friend" is a metaphorical projection of my past. because i feel that i've lost too much of it to regain. i'm saying goodbye, and trying to move on.

seeking true love, seeking beauty. seeking self respect.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19301574/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19301574/ Wed, 09 Jul 2008 22:48:33 PDT low and depressed
miserable and alone
i can't fix myself
i dont want to change
i just want to adapt
i never get hurt
i only do the hurting
i break and i damage
i devastate
here is my warning
run the other way
this is a bad idea
i recognize pain
my heart hurts
i feel quite pathetic
as if i have a goal
perhaps its bravery
or cowardice
proving i'll take a chance
but here i am
alone again
torn between what i should do
and what i desire
i'll let it go and run away
just tell me what i should do

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19207033/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19207033/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 17:53:11 PDT
2. my only wish in life is to find love, and hold on to it

3. i believe in enchanted place, and enchanted moments

4. i love my friends more than they love me, because i love them more than ANYTHING.

5. i could survive soley on fruit and be completely happy with that.

6. i have quite a bit of lust coursing through my veins on an average day

7. i love myths like mermaids, pixies, and happily ever afters. :}

8. i believe that love is the greatest and most potent magic. i belve that people do crazy things beneath the moonlight.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19203055/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19203055/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 13:17:02 PDT
those of you not planning on going to college: get a job in fast food. you will be bound to reconsider.

those of you who are in a relationship: consider yourself lucky if you are happy. if you are single, seriously, good for you. if you are in a "complicated" relationship, i feel you.

love,
meighan

ps: my laptop still will not let me change my mood. ><

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19136411/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/19136411/ Mon, 30 Jun 2008 21:44:47 PDT
not really. close, movies and whatnot, somewhat. but antiques? no.

2. Does it bother you when people start sentences with, "There are two types of people in this world..." ?

i could care less either way.

3. If you could live your life over again, from the beginning, would you?

absolutely not.

4. If you had an otherwise free weekend, which would you rather do: something new that you've always been interested in, or something you really enjoy but haven't done in a while?

i'll do them both.

5. Would you consider dating a deaf person?

if they can read lips, yes. and if they are very patient with me learning sign language and or they can speak.

6.Would you want to be the leader of your country?

no. too much pressure, too many ways to hurt others.

7. Do you like going to the movies alone?

never have. dont plan on it.

8. Would you prefer to climb three floors of stairs, or wait five minutes for the elevator?

stairs. i could use the excerice, probably.

9. If you were walking down the street and came across a tennis ball, what would you do?

kick it as hard as i could, and then randomly disco dance.

10. Would you consider dating someone owns their own business but is struggling to avoid bankruptcy?

i wouldn't go out of my way to date them, but if they meant something to me or seemed like something special, maybe.

11. Do you get along well with shy and socially awkward people?

no. they tend to annoy me.

12. Have you ever skinny-dipped?

not yet.

13.How often do you walk around barefoot?

as often as i can. the bottoms of my feet are completely callused and disgusting. but i painted my toenails hot pink so my feet look pretty. :]

14. If you had children, would you buy scientific 'toys' for them to stimulate learning?

FUCK NO. what a cruel thing to do to a child.

15. Does your mother let you live your own life or has she not cut the cord?

somewhere in between. my mom wants me to live my life, but shes so stressed out about me being safe, that she tends to overbear me sometimes.

16. Are you more or less romantic than most of the people you know?

less. far less.

17. Are carbohydrates something you think about?

ha. no.

18. Imagine that one week prior to your birthday, you receive a package from a friend. It is clearly labeled, "DO NOT OPEN UNTIL YOUR BIRTHDAY!" Do you wait as instructed before opening it?

no. patience is actually not one of my personality traits.

19. When telling stories, do you like to exaggerate?

yes. i tend to stretch the truth when i'm nervous. ><

20. Are you physically strong?

my legs really are, but my arms are REALLY not.

21. As a kid, who did you like more, Burt or Ernie?

my mom hated sesame street, so i loved disney characters. ariel, pocahontas, and simba were my favorites.

22.Would you ever ask your parent(s) for love advice?

my moms really good for that kind of crap, but i prefer asking my friends.

23. If someone asked you, "What's the worst thing you've ever done?", would you know the answer right away?

worst as in "meanest" or worst as in "sluttiest" ?
meanest: i got in a huge fight with my mother over something stupid, and kept insulting her until she cried.
sluttiest: made out with somebody i had met once.

24. If a poor 20 year-old woman marries a wealthy 40 year-old man, do you assume it's for the money?

yes, i would. how many twenty year olds fall in love with somebody twice their age that are obscenely rich without caring? really, people. call me cynical. but its the truth.

25. If while visiting a friend's house, you notice a painting hanging slightly off kilter. Do you adjust it?

no. not my house, not my problem.

26. Would you be able to tell a Manet painting from a Monet painting?

depends on the painting.

27. Would a partner with big hands and feet (bigger than average) turn you off?

big hands? no. that wouldn't turn me off at all. long fingers = good. *shifty eyes*
big feet? if it was a guy, and proportionate to their height, i wouldn't care. if it were a girl, it might gross me out a little bit.

28. Are you very close to your family?

somewhat.

29. If you had to guess, do you think humans will go extinct in the next 1000 years?

well, considering i'll be dead, it really doesn't matter.

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with any luck, i will be a working woman. i am a happy elf. :] but seriously, man.

work = job experience.

job = money.

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Beverage (non-alc)? coffee

Beverage (alc)? no thank you.

Color? yellow

Food? pasta, lasagna, mashed potatoes, macaroni and cheese...

Item of clothing? my chucks, my green skinny jeans, and my one planet one love tee shirt.

Meal of the day? breakfast coffee at 3 am is nice.

Feature on yourself? my lips, eyes, and hands

Quality in a guy/girl? honesty, sense of humor, sincerity

Phrase? "whoa, man. too far."

Song? going down in flames by three doors down, or true frend by laure mcclain. or hold my hand by hootie and the blowfish.

Musical Artist/Band? i'm really into all three musical entities mentioned above.

Sport? *vomits* no thank you.

Movie? crazy/beautiful, under the tuscan sun, white oleander, st elmos fire, the breakfast club.

TV Show? law and order svu, that 70s show, friends

Radio Station? 104.1

Type of Chocolate? peanut butter m and ms. no question.

Eye Color? favorite eye color: dark blue. my eye color: dark brown

Do you/Have you ever...

Have any pets? yes. 4 dogs, 3 birds [evil], 2 horses, and my kitty.

Smoke? NO THANKS.

Have any piercings? ears, and thats plenty.

Have any tatoos? no.

Gone streaking? not yet.

Gone skinny dipping? not really. i went topless in a neighbors pool, but nothing happened. i'd go skinny dipping with my friends in a heartbeat, though.

Been to Europe? not yet.

Been to an island? negative.

Had stitches? no.

Broken any bones? no.

Been stabbed/shot? yes! wait... no.

Slept until after 12:00? daily.

Stayed up all night? nightly.

Danced like a whore? ah, middle school.

Hooked up with 2 people in one weekend? no. i've made out with three people in one week, though.

Turned down a dare? yes. some dares aren't worth it. ie: licking a toilet seat. NO THANK YOU.

Would you ever....

Eat pizza with chocolate chips? no, i'd abstain.

Kiss someone of the same sex? i have. will do it again, with any luck.

Cheat on someone you love? no.

Run away from home? yes but i came back within a couple of hours.

Lie to your parents? of course i have.

Lie to your boyfriend/girlfriend? i try not to.

Lie to your best friend? i try not to.

Give a homeless person money? no, i'm against that. i have, however, given a homeless person food.

Run from the police? not yet. but i'm sure it will happen within my lifespan.

Bungee jump? not yes. but i want to!

Sky Dive? WANT TO!

Cross dress? not yet. perhaps one day.

Be an exotic dancer? only if i absolutely had to

Walk out of a restaurant without paying? no. there isn't an excuse for stealing, unless you have no other option.

Scuba dive? i'd love that, but i haven't gotten a chance to yet.

Go rock climbing? i climbed a rock wall. was really fun, actually. but rock climbing? idk. i like the security of being supported by another person, and cushy mats to fall on.

Go spulunking (caving)? caving? what the fuck? no thanks.

What do you think of when you hear...

Eminem? my ex.

Bologna? dead animal carcass.

Hott? my best friends sister. ><

Orange? my mom.

Real world? cheap excuse of zero entertainment value. mtv should consider better shows.

Fuck? ME. [self love is a healthy excercise to relieve stress]

Jack? Dawson. of Titanic.

Cucumber? Vibrator.

Hip-Hop? dancing bunnies

Uniform? okay?

Unicorn? magic. :] i believe in magic.

Rainbow? peace, love, gay pride.

Clown? Bo-Bo

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18990221/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18990221/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 20:22:38 PDT being called weak minded. *narrows eyes*

2- How do you feel about being the age you are?
well 15 is a truly groundbreaking age. *rolls eyes*

3 - Kiss with your eyes open or closed?
closed. more... passionate that way.

4 - If you had to choose between a million pounds or to be able to change a mistake?
mistake.
at least then, i'll learn from it.

5- Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to 24/7?
no. people have trouble picking up their goddamn phones.

6 - Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?
no.
ill live.

7- What were you doing at 7:00 AM?
walking home. i was very sweaty and very agitated.

8 - What were you doing 1 hour ago?
taking a shower.

9 - Do you currently have feelings for someone?
yes. someones. plural. its a disease.

10 - What was the last thing you said aloud?
a profanity. :]

11 - How many different things did you drink today?
coffee, soda and juice. :]

12 - Are you ticklish?
yes. unless you are an idiot tickler and you tickle too damn hard. then i just get frusterated.

13 - Is success in your future?
it depends on how you define success. if you define it as getting a strong career with a hefty salary, probably not. if you define it as supporting myself and being happy with where i am and what i do, then i really hope so.

14 - Are you a heavy sleeper?
YES.

15 - Was today a good day?
um... no.

16 - What are you listening to?
nothing.

17 - Does someone like you right now?
yes.

18 - Where is the last place you went?
i walked to some nearby stores, actually

19 - What does your last sent text say?
"txt u in a day or two. dont want to talk."

20 - Who is the last person you had a deep meaningful conversation with?
christina

21 - Can you keep a secret?
yes

22 - Your favorite romantic movie?
the notebook, a walk to remember or crazy/beautiful

23 - Have you ever played naked twister?
not yet

24 - Is there something you will never forget?
more than a few.

25 - How do you feel about Valentine's day?
if i'm single i usually think its bullshit. :]

26 - How is your hair?
clean. :]

27- First thing you notice of the opposite sex?
whether or not i find them attractive.

28 - Who was the last person you took a picture with?
my dear commerade christina.

29 - What were you doing at midnight last? i was drinking coffee with my dear commarade christina.

30 - Do you wish on 11:11?
YES!!! and at 12:34!!!

31 - What's on your mind?
i'm thinking of the song "tangled up in me" by skye sweetnam. the verse that fits me PERFECTLY this very second is:
"you can see i want you by the way i push you away
yeah
dont judge me tomorrow by the way i'm actin today
yeah"

32 - Which shoe do you put on first?
i genuinely have no idea x]

33 - Favorite color(s)?
yellow :]

34 - Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a C?
yes.

35 - Last thing received in the mail?
an email from my boyfriend.

36 - Do you have trust issues?
a little bit.

37 - Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?
no. i try to avoid hatred in general.

38 - Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
i'm not sure. i'm fighting with him right now, and part of me just really wants to be single again.

39 - Have you ever hurt anyone when you were mad?
yes.
i get very mean sometimes.

40 - Is it easier to forgive or forget?
if you forget something, it will happen again in some way. history has this funny way of repeating itself. but i think forgiveness is a quality of the strong, and few people are truelly emotionally strong.

41 - Are you random?
ooooh!!! a birdie! and a bunny!!!
wait...
what was the question?

42 - Do you laugh a lot?
YES.

43- Are you happy with that?
yes. god yes.

44- Do you believe in love at first sight?
no. i think love at first sight is too shallow. i think you have to get to know somebody to love them.

45- Do you want kids?
i dont think so.

46 - If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?
yes. honesty = good.

47- What's the last thing you said out loud now?
i muttered "fuck" because i dropped my cellphone.

49- Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
sure. why not?

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2. What's your full Name? Meighan T. M. because if there are rapists out there, i'd prefer it if they didn't know my full name.

3. what are you most afraid of? losing.

4. what is the last movie you saw in a theater? you don't mess with the zohan

5. Place of birth: nebraska

6. Favorite foods: lasagna, pasta, bread, mashed potatoes, mango, strawberries, and macaroni and cheese

7. What's your natural hair color? brown

8. Ever been to Alaska? not yet

9. Ever been toilet paper rolling? what the HELL is that?

10.Love someone so much it made you cry? so many times

11.Been in a car accident? yes.

12.Croutons or bacon bits? croutons. i dont eat bacon.

13. Favorite day of the week? saturday

14. Favorite restaurant? the parthenon. i love their eggplant musaka, and their eggplant feta pasta.

15. Favorite Flower? orchids, daffodils, and daisies

16.Favorite sports to watch? none. i loathe sports.

17. Favorite drink? coffee.

19.Disney or Warner Brothers? disney.

20.Ever been on a ship? many a' boats. but a ship? i am unsure.

21.What color is your bedroom? at my dads house, its blue. and at my moms house, its white.

22. Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail? allison

23.What do you do when you have free time? free time? ha. well, i write, draw, paint, read, watch tv, get on le computer, and occassionally polish my nails an obnoxious color to tickle me happy. :]

24. What is your bedtime? lets put it this way. i went to bed at 4 am last night.

25. Who will respond to this e-mail the quickest? maybe holly?

26. Who is the person you sent this to that least likely to respond ? probably my mom. because i didn't send it to her.

27. Who is the person that you are most curious to see their responses? EVERY one of them.

28. Favorite TV show(s? friends, that 70s show, instant star, degrassi, house

29. Last person you went out to dinner with? Actually OUT to dinner? my family.

30. What is your favorite vacation spot? california. no question.

31. What are your favorite colors for clothes? either yellow or black. because black matches everything and yellow is just a cheery color.

32. How many tattoos do you have? none. i dont want any, i dont think. i love the way they look but i fear i'd get sick of them.

33. How many pets do you have? *inhale* 4 dogs, 3 birds, 2 horses, 1 cat *exhales*

34. Which came first, the chicken or the egg? the amoeba.


35.. What do you want to do before you die? have sex, recieve the perfect kiss, see the world, own my own horse, learn how to drive, and become a better artist.

36. Have you ever been to Hawaii? not yet.

37. Have you been to countries outside the US? no, but i really want to.

38. How many people are you sending this e-mail to? t'is a public journal.

39. Type the first word that comes to mind to describe yourseslf. opinionated.

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2. Name someone with the same birthday as you:
My grandpa

3. when was your last kiss?
my last kiss-kiss? from my boyfriend last night in my basement. [yeah thats right] and just any old kiss? from my mom on the cheek about 20 minutes ago. :]

4. For or against same sex marriage?
for! all the way.

6. are you bisexual?
that i am.

7. do you believe in God?
not even a little bit. i respect the concept, but i just do not believe.

8. how many US states have you been to?
quite a few.

9. how many of the US states have you lived in?
two for long periods of time, maybe five for a few days?

10. have you ever lived outside the US?
not yet, but i definately plan to.

11. name something you like physically about yourself:
my face. i think its nice. :]

12. name something non physical you like about yourself:
my flirtatiousness. its obnoxious, but i love it. i think its part of the wonderous mix of personality traits i have acquired over the years and grown to accept as Me.

13. what is the current rumor traveling around about someone?
that i'm a whore. thanks, guys. no really. thanks.

14. what is your dream car?
a beat-up little purple slugbug. the old fashioned kind. :]

15. if you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
costa rica, spain, or greece

16. have you ever had someone of the opposite sex over at your house while your parents were gone?
yeah.

17. how many concerts have you gone to?
three or four

18. do you download music?
gah. no. my parents block the sites to do so.

19. how many illegal things have you done?
very few.

20. where would you want to go on a first date?
somewhere casual, like a park or a lake. that way we could bring soda and candy and just talk or kiss or something. or maybe just in a friends basement [or my own] that way, you get to know a bit more about their personality.

21. Would you date the person who posted this:
i just met her today, and i have a boyfriend. so its hard to say.

22. has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
not yet. but hopefully!

23. ever been kissed under fireworks?
no, but maybe someday.

24. Do you like president Bush?
no, but i'm a bit disappointed in the financial ruin he has put us in.

25. have you ever bungee jumped?
not yet! but i would do it in heartbeat!

27. have you ever crashed a car?
i have not.

28. has anyone more than 10 years older than you hit on you?
god, yes. it was humiliating. it was at a church work camp [my mom made me do it.] and while i was leaning over a ladder to paint the wall, a man next door called me a very beautiful young lady. the rest of the work crew immediately relocated me, and i felt very exposed. flattered, but exposed.

29. have you met a real redneck?
oh yeah. they travel in herds down here.

30. What are you thinking about?
you want a list? okay. love, hate, sex, sleep, ben, kissing, nudity, art, words, meaning and hope.

31. what song are you listening to right now?
ticket to heaven - three doors down

32. what is your current favorite song?
going down in flames - three doors down

33. what was the last movie you watched?
the last movie i watched? juno. :] it was incredible.

34. who was the last person that told you they loved you?
my rae of sunshine, dear sarah.

35. where was the last place you went besides your house?
the pool. god i love summer.

36. have you ever seriously vandalized someone elses property?
no. absolutely not.

37. ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
yes, but it was foreplay. like a lead in to a kiss sort of thing.

39. whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
truthfully? i notice the part of them i find most attractive. eyes, smile, bone structure. shallow? maybe. but it gives me something about them to focus on as i get to know them.

40. do you fall in love easily?
god no. i actually try to avoid it at all costs. i have avoided relationships, and now that i'm trying to actually make one work... its both harder and easier than i ever would have imagined. its so hard to explain.

41. what do you usually order from starbucks?
double skim carmel macchiatto with no whip

42. would you date someone ofthe same sex?
i would and i have.

44. tell something(s) totally weird about yourself:
i draw mermaids all the time
i keep a very thorough journal that i would never let somebody read
i'm a size ten [people tell me... ]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18667457/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18667457/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 18:06:01 PDT
Date of Birth: 10-12

Eye Color: dark brown

Hair Color: brown

Heritage: european

Piercings: two on each ear. but i never wear earrings, so it was kind of wasteful.

Tattoos: not yet *wink*

Favourite:

Band/Singer: laurie mcclain is amazing

Song: christina aguilera: the voice within, beautiful, three doors down: going down in flames, feel you, ticket to heaven, road i'm on, laurie mcclain: true friend, only four, sunrise, when you forgot to hide

Movie: the breakfast club, white oleander, under the tuscan sun, crazy/beautiful

Disney Movie: pocohontas, beauty and the beast, cinderella, and the little mermaid.

TV show: degrassi, house, friends, sex and the city

Color: purple = love

Food: all things italian. pizza, lasagna, pasta... its all good. delicious.

Soda: strawberry :]

Store: kohls and target

Season: winter, and fall

Month: october.

Flower: orchids for romance, daffodils for joy, and daisies for friends.

This or That

Sunny or rainy: yes. :]

Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate.

Fruit or veggie: fruit.

Night or day: i am a child of the dusk, of the twilight.

Love or money: money can't kiss you goodnight. i'm all for love.

Phone or in person: in person.

Looks or personality: personality. although there must be an at least slight physical attraction. i want to have some chemistry there, ideally.

Coffee or tea: coffee! no contest.

Hot or cold: hot, ALWAYS hot. ^.^

Your: heart. :]

Goal for this year: fall in love, read 100 pages a day, always be myself.

Most missed memory: california. baby, i miss you.

Best physical feature: i get complimented most on my boobs. although my favorite physical feature is my eyes. they are big, and brown, and fairly generic. but they define me in the sense that they always tell how i'm feeling. they betray my words with their sincerity.

Hypothetical personality disorder: hard to say. i've been called bipolar, although i think i could make a better case for multi-personality disorder.

Sesame street alter ego: cookie monster. no contest.

Fairytale alter ego: either ariel from the little mermaid [because i am curious and very love obessed] or anastasia from the movie [because i get restless and i never met my biological father, i feel we relate on some level]

Most stupid remark: too many. but i whever somebody says something even moderately provacative, you just say "whoa! whoa! too far, man. too far! too racy, my virgin ears!" and start freaking out until the other party just backs off the topic or starts laughing. its great fun. i assure you.

Worst crime: jealousy and rage.

Favorite subject: art, music

Do You:

Smoke: no. no thanks.

Drink: nope

Like thunderstorms: adore them!

Dance in the rain: yes

Get along with your parents: occasionally.

Can You:

Drive: no.

Sew: no.

Cook: no.

Speak another language: spanish. poorly.

Touch your nose with your tongue: i wish!!

Whistle: not really

Curl your tongue: of course

Have You Ever:

Eaten Sushi: gah. no.

Skipped school: yes

Made prank calls: a few

Other Questions:

What annoys you most in a person? Narrow-minded-ness. Or lack of a mind.

Are you right or left handed? rightie

What is your bedtime? i have none

What is the color of your room's walls? white

Do you have any siblings? 5 of them :]

Do you have any pets? quite a few, actually... i have 2 horses and 5 dogs, 3 birds and a cat

What is you middle name? teighlor

Are you for or against gay marriage? for. im bisexual, so definately FOR.

Are you afraid of the dark? no i adore the dark

How do you want to die? either in my sleep or drowning in the ocean

Would you take a bullet for the one you love? i would

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HOLY MOTHER OF CHRIST.

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1.) what is your view on fashion related labels? i wish they were less decisive. because what you wear should not in any way dictate the way that people see you or view you. but it does, because thats the way the world works sometimes. people want to figure you out, and unfortunately, its easier to just judge than take the time to get to know somebody.

2.) do you think the people at your school think for themselves? i think a lot of people i know closely do, but i also know that the way you think is a reflection of the way you were raised, and the people who have influenced you.

3.) how do you think? i make judgements, and trusts my instincts, but i am always willing to consider the other side of a spectrum of any topic.

4.) what are your problem solving techniques? either face it head on, or do not face it at all. denial can truly be a beautiful thing.

5.) have you even been in love? i thought i was, but i was very wrong. i haven't been in love yet. but very soon, i hope.

6.) do you think you will get married in the future? no, but i have a feeling i will be forced to make that choice.

7.) is that what you want? to not get married? at the moment, yes. but if i fell in love, i imagine i'd want to spend every moment i could with them.

8.) what is your view on abortion? i think it is an awful, horrible situation. being pregnant with an unwanted baby. i think its terrible to allow a baby to be terminated, but i also think that women should have the right to make that choice themselves. because it is a choice, and one that nobody else can make.

9.) are you sexually active? no, not yet. holding out for Love.

10.) what would you do if you got pregnant? i'd love to say that i'd give it up for adoption, but part of me knows that i'd want to keep it. i'd grow attatched to the little being growing within my womb. although i dont want kids, i cant imagine getting an abortion.

11.) what would you do if you got an STD? i would tell everybody i had had sex with, and make sure that they got tested, too.

12.) how do you feel about HIV/AIDS? i feel it is a horrible thing that could definately be avoided if we increased education, testing, and awareness on the topic. but i also feel that getting HIV isn't a death sentence if you are responsible about it.

13.) what is your stance on gay marriage/gay rights? i think people are people and love is love. why should somebody get to decide what forms of love are acceptable and which aren't?

14.) what are your religious views? i dont believe in god, or heaven, or hell. but i do believe in karma. i believe that if i do something amazing for somebody, somebody will do something amazing for me. i believe that if i do something horrible, something horrible will happen to me. i believe that for every positive personality trait i have, there is a negative counterpart. kind of a yin and yang sort of situation.

15.) who is the most trusted person in your life? dylan, sarah, darian, ashley and my mother.

16.) are there any people you love more than yourself? very few. a quiet and select couple.

17.) what is your biggest fear? i'm afraid of needing. because the second i need a person, i give up part of myself, and i put myself in a position to be hurt.

18.) what is your main goal in life? i want to see the world, and find a new part of myself in every single continent.

19.) do you want to go to college/have children? college: maybe. kids: probably not.

20.) how much does money affect your life? i'd like to think it affects me a fairly normal amount. i mean, i worry about money, having enough of it. one day making it. one day needing it. i never seem to have enough, because i [like everybody] have found that nothing truly satisfies.

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agree or disagree? ellaborate on opinions.

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2. What color are your socks right now? white. and grey. not very cute, truthfully.

3. What are you listening to right now? telivision. i'm lazy.

4. What was the last thing that you ate? vegi-hot dogs. sooo yummy.

5. Can you drive a stick shift? no. i have no desire to drive.

6. What color would you be, if you were a color? purple animal print of some kind.

7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? lee :]

8. Do you like the person who sent this to you? dylan? nope. hate her. thats why we've been friends since the third grade.

9. How old are you today? fifteen.

10. Favorite drink? either soda or chocolate soy milk.

11. What is your favorite sport(s) to watch? ew.

12. Have you ever dyed your hair? that i have. blonde highlights, temp red, temp burgandy, and that gross spray paint hair dye once on halloween.

13. Pets? tigger [my kitty], four dogs, three birds, and two horses *swoon*

14. Favorite food? usually lasagna, or chocolate, or ice cream

15. Last movie you watched? fast times at ridgemont high

16. Favorite Day of the Year? HALLOWEEN!!!

17. What do you do to vent anger? i have incredibly bad methods. but my good ones include yelling, writing, reading, singing, and talking.

18. What was your favorite toy as a child? TOO MANY. TOO MANY.

19. What is your favorite, fall or spring? fall. :]

20. Cherry or Blueberry? no fair! too delicious!

.22. Who is most likely to respond? nobody. i have no friends. lol

23. Who is least likely to respond? hm... probably sarah. shes got better stuff to do! :]

24. Living arrangements? complicated.

.25. When was the last time you cried? a few weeks ago. i dont remember why.

26. Who is the friend you had the longest that you are sending this to? i am unsure.

27. Who is the friend you have had the shortest that you are sending this to? i am unsure.

28. Favorite smell: hm... too many. i love the way fresh fruit smells, anything from bath and body works, laundry detergent, soap, shampoo, candy, COFFEE, boys [i'm sorry. boy smell is incredible], girls [also incredible. but very different from boy smell], grass, and rain

29. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? if its vegetarian, all is well. except spicy. spicy gives me tummy ache XXX[

30. Favorite car? the little eenie ones. like mini coopers, or slugbugs. :]

31. Favorite cat breed? mutts!

32. Number of keys on your key ring? two! one for my house, one for grandpas.

33. How many years at your current job? none. absolutely zero.

34. Favorite day of the week? thursday through saturday :]

35. How many states have you lived in? too many.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18293785/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18293785/ Mon, 12 May 2008 17:29:15 PDT yep. :]

2. Are you a lover or a fighter?
both, but mostly a lover i think

3. What’s your worst fear?
love, vulnerability, abandonment, commitment...

4. As a kid, were you a Lego maniac?
no, but my little sister mikalah kind of was

5. What do you think of “reality” TV?
occassionally funny, but usually just utter bullshit. :]

6. Do you chew on your straws?
occassionally

7. Were you a cute baby?
that i was

8. Is the single life for you?
it can be. but not right now. i am actually committed to a relationship right now, and i am really happy.

9. What color is your keyboard?
black and silver

10. Do your sing in the shower?
depends on my mood. if i'm in a tired mood, no. but if i'm ecstatically happy or dramatically sad, then yes.

11. Have you ever sky-dived before?
not yet. but i'd do it. one day. :]

12. Any secret talents?
i can stick my fist in my mouth, curl my tongue in a clover, and i sing okay

13. What’s your ideal vacation spot?
europe, mostly. i want to go through greece, italy, france, and spain...

14. Can you swim?
yes i can swim

16. Have you seen the movie "Donnie Darko?”
no...?

17. Do you give a damn about the ozone?
yeah, everybody should.

18. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?
three. :]

19. Can you sing the alphabet backwards?
no i cannot.

20. Have you ever been on an airplane?
yeah, i've been on an airplane

21. Are you a single child?
no, i'm the oldest of five. three sisters and two brothers.

22. Do you prefer electronic or manual pencil sharpeners?
neither. because i hate pencils. i use pen. always pen.

23. What’s your stand on hunting?
personal choice. i'm against it for myself, but i have no problem with other people doing it. especially if they eat the animals.

24. Is marriage in your future?
i really don't think so.

25. Do you like your handwriting?
i adore my handwriting.

26. What are you allergic to?
seriously, i'm allergic to myself. i have urticaria, which is an autoimmune disorder.

27. When was the last time you said "I love you"?
about four hours ago. it was a friend at school. i say i love you at least twenty times every day.

28. Is Tupac still alive?
tupac?

29. Do you cry at weddings?
no. um, how sad... two people have promised to love each other forever... until divorce...?

30. How do you like your eggs?
scrambled!

31. Are blondes dumb?
yes. haircolor is in direct correlation to intelligence. obviously.

32. Where does the other sock end up?
probably somewhere under my bed.

33. What time is it?
7:20 pm

34. Do you have a nickname?
MANY.

35. Is McDonald's disgusting?
most of the crap there is.

36. When was the last time you were in a car?
about twenty mintues ago.

37. Do you prefer baths or showers?
long, hot baths.

38. Is Santa Claus real?
ha. my boyfriend says he's the real santa claus.

39. Do you like having you neck kissed?
OH MY GOD YES. but it makes me really really horny, so i prefer it if people only do it on special occassions.

40. Are you afraid of the dark?
nah, but i am afraid of dark closed, confined places.

41. What are you addicted to?
kissing, coffee, caffeinne in general, chocolate, ice cream, candy...

42. Crunchy or creamy peanut butter?
creamy all the way.

43. Can you crack your neck?
yes. i can crack my neck.

44. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
no, thank god.

45. How many times have you brushed your teeth today?
only once. this morning. :]

46. Is drug free the way to be?
drug free is a way to be, yes. but i never believe that there is only one way. but for me... drug free = the best way to be.

47. Are you a heavy sleeper?
extremely. [dylan, remember that time i fell asleep at your house under my sleeping bag and you said you were poking me for twenty minutes until i woke up?] lol

48. What color are your eyes?
nearly black

50. Do you like your life?
i do. i think i'm doing the best i can for myself, and i'm not stressed about anything right now.

51. Who’s better: Stone Cold or The Rock?
what...?

52. Are you psychic?
a little bit. :]

53. Have you read "Catcher in the Rye"?
yes!!! its amazing.

54. Do you play any instruments?
singing.

55. Have you ever stolen... ]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18203520/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18203520/ Tue, 06 May 2008 20:30:32 PDT
i'm sick of telling people that i'm not a lesbian. i'm tired of explaining that i just like who i like, and that i refuse to commit to a label on sexual orientation and limit myself to please another person's standards. and then i feel like a hypocrite, because of all the contradictions i've made to myself this year. i hate that.

friends are jealous. i'm tired of being seen as a threat for being single. [happily single] i like to flirt. i do so, and i keep my hands to myself for the most part. i do not kiss boys or girls that do not wish to be kissed, and i do not kiss people that are going out with my friends. i just don't. being accused of so... it hurts my feelings. thats why i have chosen to abstain from a former friend, and completely stop talking to her. i did not kiss her boyfriend while they were going out. ironically, she got a hickey from the girl who dumped me when she got drunk the night after dumping her boyfriend. she still thinks i kissed him before they had broken up. at school, no less. because if i'm gonna do something so low, of course i'd do it in public. idiots.

school. i'm through. i cannot wait for the infinate time and boredom that is summertime, and i am stoked beyond comparitable measure to hang out with everybody whilst i can. i will be busy this summer, i vow it. i am done with homework, and i already have a reading list [self created] for summer starting in my mind. i'm excited. i cant wait to be up all night, and sleep in every day. ahhhh. :]

religion is a choice. i choose to not believe in anything, and i choose to allow you to think what you want about that, because we do not live in a dictatorship [thankfully] and i am most grateful for my first ammendment right of free speech. i use it often, and speak of it often. being outspoken, i am. but i do not host a talk show, waiting to be interviewed by people who believe that i will be immortally condemned to hell. no thank you, and have a nice day in your judgement filled world that revolves around what you've been taught.

to all that are sick of me not talking, or talking too much... or being out of it, or whatever it is that i'm sure i've been doing wrong... i'm sorry. i'm sorry that i'm doing it wrong, and i'm sorry that i will probably continue to do so until i've proven to myself that i know how to make accurate decisions. which may never happen. point? i'm afraid of everything. its like life is collapsing in on me, but i cant feel it. i'm so scared of mortality, for my friends, and slightly for myself i assume... that i seem oblivious to the idea of death. i accept death. death is good. but i dont want to come to terms with it. i just want to keep going on LIVING MY LIFE until i am forced to stop, and brush deaths lips with my own. until then, i refuse to embrace death. i will not.

for those i've forsaken, i wish you love and happiness. :]

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18170092/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18170092/ Sun, 04 May 2008 18:31:01 PDT
]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18094077/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18094077/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 21:51:46 PDT
i'm just glad i've gotten past whatever was in my head.

now i'm just focusing on school, which i'm doing a bit better in, and my friends, and romance [which at present is nonexistant but i am hopeful] and who i am.

i realized something. i need to apologize to somebody who wont take my calls and blocked me on deviantart. i need to tell that somebody that i have tasted my medicine and it is bitter. i have realized how badly it feels to be broken up with when you actually like somebody, and i have found that my first instinct is not in any way to be friends. i can't believe that i put this said somebody through all that i did, and i dont blame them for blocking me. i do blame myself for being so fucking stupid, and for thinking i could make everything okay without even putting some effort into it. if this somebody happens to stumble across my page through means of randomosity or possibly by dylan nudging them to do so... i'd like a phone call. apologies are more dramatic in person/via telephone rather than just in blatant text.

hopefully this person can forgive me and try to consider making friends with me again.

i dont think i've ever been so... aware... of myself.

oh well. karmas a bitch, and i'm trying to make nice with it again. it will happen.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18058530/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18058530/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 16:42:45 PDT
i want some hot tea, and somebody to cuddle with. i'm not sure that i've ever felt so unrealistically alone.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18036975/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/18036975/ Sat, 26 Apr 2008 10:53:28 PDT
feel free not to read it. this isn't really for your benifit anyway.

50. death

49. birth

48. aging

47. youth

46. wisdom

45. massages

44. unicorns

43. mermaids

42. fairies

41. pixies

40. knitting

39. fairy tales

38. stories

37. the one

36. true love

35. soulmates

34. love at first sight

33. jones soda [cherry/fufu berry/melon]

32. intelligence

31. he

30. the ocean

29. home

28. individuality

27. sarcasm

26. irony

25. poetry

24. hygeine

23.needing

22. wanting

21. hugging

20. kissing

19. beauty

18. ice cream

17. chocolate

16. senselessness

15. kindness

14. creativity

13. speech

12. freedom

11. art

10. music

9. coffee

8. coffeemakers

7. animals

6. notebooks/pens

5. my ipod

4. books

3. family

2. friends

1. love

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17983687/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17983687/ Tue, 22 Apr 2008 21:11:28 PDT
for starters, i have stopped taking my medication for bipolar disorder. i am happy with my choice, and i will continue to not takeit until i feel otherwise is necessary.

i am off the market! i have a beautiful, amazing girlfriend who i really like. we've only been going out since monday, but i'm really happy. i hope she is too. :] her name is tiana, and shes a year older than me. ahhh!!! i'm excited. i'm a nerd, i admit it. x]

my lowest grade is a c plus. how cool is that? i'm proud. :] for awhile i was getting a d in a class or two <.< >.> thank god i got them up! i'm actually really happy about it, because grades aren't number one in my book, but they matter. they do.

i hope all is well. for all them phone call contacts i mentioned [see above] call me when you get a chance. believe it or not, i am very okay with occassional conversation. i almost like it. almost. *seductive wink* just kidding, i need some caffeinne!!!

happy eleven eleven. make a wish!

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17966423/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17966423/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 19:48:29 PDT
maybe thats the entire idea of faith.

i really want to crawl into somebodys arms, and not talk. not think. not doubt. because i need to sort myself out these days... because commitment + me = worrysome... i've never committed in a serious way, and saw it going somewhere, and thought it might be worth getting a bit dented in the possibility. but now, it seems like "hey, maybe it could be good to settle down... and i really like her..." ugh...

i'm exhausted... god. meighan is stressed out a bit.

sorry for all this, i get this way sometimes.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17903357/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17903357/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 20:45:34 PDT i'm sick of responsibility.
i'm angry with time.
i'm completely estranged from who i want to be right now.
i'm craving release.
i dont know what to say.
i dont know what to do.
i dont know who to be.
i need somebody to hold me, and promise that i'm not wasting my time.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17855382/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17855382/ Mon, 14 Apr 2008 19:40:52 PDT
What color shirt are you wearing? green tank, funky pattern zip up hoodie.

Name three things that are physically close to you: my ipod, lasagna, and my favorite blue nail polish.

What is the last book you read? vampire diaries.

Are you or were you a good student? better than i was, although i've been slacking off on homework lately. ><

What's your favorite sport? *cringe* i hate sports!.

Do you enjoy sleeping late? do you enjoy oxygen?

What's the weather like right now? a bit blustery.

Who tells the best jokes? ari used to. its been four months since ive seen him though.

What was the last thing you dreamed about? i never remember my dreams.

Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? i dont have a permit. i do not want to drive.

Do you believe in karma? almost as much as i believe in love.

Do you believe in luck? not at all.

Do you like your eggs scrambled or sunny side up? SCRAMBLED!!!

Do you collect anything? uh... no?

Are you proud of yourself? i'm proud of who i'm becoming.

Are you reliable? usually. with secrets, and listening, yes. with being on time? not so much.

Have you ever given money to a bum? no, i dont do that. then they can buy alcohol or drugs. but i've bought some food for a homeless person before. :]

What's your favorite food? lasagna.

Have you ever had a secret admirer? no.

Do you like the smell of gasoline? yes i do.

Do like to draw? every waking moment.

What's your favorite invention? the coffeemaker.

Is your room messy? it doesn't look messy, but my closet houses an alternate reality.

What do you like better: depends, actually.

Do you give in easily? NO.

Are you a good guesser? i guess not.

Can you read other people's expressions? usually i can do so quite well.

Are you a bully? i am sarcastic. if you think i am a bully, you are too sensitive. suck it up!

Do you have a job? not quite yet.

What time did you wake up this morning? 6:18

What did you eat for breakfast this morning? cereal. :]

When was the last time you showered? around 6:30

What do you plan on doing tomorrow? hopefully hang out with brandon or somebody. i need to make out so badly. its been a month or two. must. make. out!!!

What's your favorite day of the week and why? saturday, cuz i can sleep in and stay up late.

Do you have any nicknames? YEAH. angel, baby, leftie, meiggy-poo...

Have you ever been scuba diving? not yet.

What's your least favorite color? i have a strong distaste for the color poop.

Is there someone you have been constantly thinking about? If yes, who? ugh. more than one someone. SO MUCH LUST.

Do you enjoy challenges? some of them.

What's the worst injury you have had? i pierced my tongue. ew.

What's the last movie you saw? waterhorse legend of the deep

What do you want to know about the future? is it worth it? to live?

What does your last text message say? i'll call you later.

Who was the last person you spoke over the phone to? ash. <3

What's your favorite school subject? english/art

What's your least favorite school subject? spanish 2. its evil.

Would you rather have money or love? LOVE.

What is your dream vacation? i'd want to slowly make my way through europe, with a lover. just exploring, making love on the beaches, shopping at local boutiques...

What is your favorite animal? elephants or giraffes.

Do you miss anyone right now? too many.

What's the last sporting event you watched? i repeat: i hate sports.

Do you need to do laundry? nope. last night.

Do you listen to the radio? yeah.

Where were you when 9/11 happened? at home, terrified that my dad would get drafted.

What do you do when vending machines steal your money? yell "damnit!"

Have you ever caught a butterfly? i have.

What color are your bed sheets? white with polka dots.

What's your ringtone? i hate it.

Who was the last person to make you laugh? hard to say.

Do you have any obsessions right now? yeah: MAKING OUT. need it. want it. ughhhh.

Do you like things that glow in the dark? not particularly.

What's your favorite fruity scent? i like the way that strawberries smell.

Do you watch cartoons? yeah!

Have you ever sat on a roof? i think so.

Have you ever been to a different country? not yet.... ]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17755822/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17755822/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 21:27:27 PDT 2) consumed alcohol? no
3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex? nope.
4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex? Yes
5) made out with someone of the opposite sex? yes
6) made out with someone of the same sex? yes
7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex? Yes
8) watched porn? Yes
9) bought porn? No
10) done drugs? No

TOTAL: 5


11) taken pain killer? Yes
12) taken someone elses prescription medicine? yes
13) lied to your parents? Yes
14) lied to a friend? Yes
15) snuck out of the house? When I was little?
16) done something illegal? yes illegally pierced my tongue. that was... gross.
17) cut yourself? Yes
18) hurt someone? Yes
19) wished someone to die? Yes
20) seen someone die? No

TOTAL: 13


21) missed curfew? Yes
22) stayed out all night? No
23) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself? Yes
24) been to a therapist? Yes
25) been to rehab? No
26) dyed your hair? Yes
27) recieved a ticket? No
28) been in a wreck? yes
29) been to a club? No
30) been to a bar? Yesss but not likeyou think lol

TOTAL: 19


31) been to a wild party? no
32) seen the Mardi Gras? No
34) had a spring break in Florida? No
35) sniffed anything? No
36) wore black nail polish? Yes
37) wore arm bands? no
38) wore t-shirts with band names? No
39) listened to rap? Yes
40) own a 50 cent cd? No

TOTAL: 21


41) dressed gothic? no
42) dressed prep? no
43) dressed punk? No
44) dressed grunge? yes. sweat pants and old tees grungy enough?
45) stole something? No
46) been too drunk to remember anything? No
47) blacked out? No
48) fainted? yes
49) had a crush on your neighbor? Yes
50) had someone sneak into your room? yes

TOTAL: 25


51) snuck into someone else's room? no
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex? Yes
53) been to a concert? yes
54) dry humped someone? yes
55) been called a slut? yes
56) called someone a slut? Yes
57) installed speakers in your car? No
58) broke a mirror? Yes
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house? No
60) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush? yes
TOTAL: 32


61) consider ludacris your favorite rapper? no
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters? no
63) cruised the mall? Yes
64) skipped school? yes
65) had an eating disorder? No
66) had an injury? Yes
67) gone to court? no
68) walked out of a resteraunt without paying? No
69) caught something on fire? Yes
70) lied about your age? Yes

TOTAL: 37


71) owned an apartment? No
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend? yes
73) been cheated on? yes
74) got in trouble with the police? no
75) talked to a stranger? Yes
76) hugged a stranger? Yes
77) kissed a stranger? yes- on the cheek.
78) rode in the car with a stranger? Yes
79) been sexually harrassed? yes
80) been verbally harrassed? Yes

TOTAL: 45


81) met face to face with someone you met online? No
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight? Yes
83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight? No
84) watched tv for 12 hours straight? Yes
85) been to a fair? Yes
86) been called a bad influence? Yes
87) cursed? yes
88) prank called someone? yes
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex? yes
90) cheated on a test? yes

TOTAL: 52

91) cheated on homework? yes
92) recieved/given a handjob? no
93) been pushed into a pool? yea
94) played pool?yes
95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight? yes
96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you? yes
97) had a crush on someone younger than you? yes
98) wear eyeliner? yes
99) skinny dipped? yes
100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt? yes

TOTAL: 61



10-20= goodie good
21-30= a little rebelious
31-40= getting hot baby
41-50= rebel
51-60= total bad girl/boy
61-70= bitch/asshole
71-80= cant believe you made it this far
81-90= fucking bad ass
91-100= see u in hell

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17596144/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17596144/ Sun, 30 Mar 2008 19:35:41 PDT
]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17568009/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17568009/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 05:05:23 PDT
assume that i am speaking metaphorically, even though it is pretty much completely fact. some opinions, zero exaggerations here. okay? are you ready to deal with that? well, less than two feet away from me lies somebody who loves me in the friend-way, in the sister-way and even in the lust-way. but you know what? what i want is the head-over-heels, romantic, sacrificial, full-blown kind of love. and you know what else? that same person has given that sort of love to her boyfriend. and i feel horrible, absolutely terrible... that i keep praying and hoping that they break up. because, honestly... thats what i want. it is. i won't lie. not here. maybe someplace else, maybe later. but i was in her arms, laying beside her, about to fall asleep as i had many nights before... when i realized that i am setting myself up here. i'm fucking myself over. why? good question. probably because i am reckless. single minded. i know what i'm doing and i do it anyway.

i keep trying to tell myself; turn back! go away! find somebody else! go with that girl who you think likes you who probably wont break your heart! and then the other part of my screams to just take a chance, take this risk. it could be worth it... and i try to talk myself out of it. i mean, this girl isn't attractive. she doesn't want to dump her boyfriend. she is all wrong for me. she thinks shes straight, and then she's bi... i just... don't know exactly what to think. i'm just small and insignificant for a little while. i need that, in my way.

i just want the same thing that everybody wants. i want to love somebody with everything i have, and have them love me back. how stupid, how naive, how completely... traditional... for me to be exactly the same as every other 15 year old girl. how entirely heartbreaking. how completely sad. who wants to be just like everybody else? how could i allow myself to utter those words, the ones that everybody single despises? how could i be so stripped and raw with strangers, when sometimes, i can't even be this honest to myself? it is hypocrisy at its best, folks. and i am the ringleader of this freakshow circus. lucky me.

take me

in my solstice
give me rest
in recklessness
give me hope
let me go
away from this
i want to feel
like i'm okay
i want to try
another day
simple love
even a friend
make me real
just for this end
i'm not deep
nor shallow
i'm just me
a bit hollow
take me through
this empty place
give me hope
please, one day
take my heart
make me believe
in something else
i can't see
the future nor
the past i left
take me here
i'm so unkept
uncouth and raw
far from me
i'm inside out
just let me be

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17567230/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17567230/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 02:48:18 PDT 1. What is your fav color? purple.
2. What is your fav food? ice cream, chocolate, and coffee... i'm a chub. :]
3. What is your fav animal? giraffes, horses, kualah bears [no i can't spell. i accept it.]
4. Who is your best friend? Yes.
5. What do you like to do on weekends? Masturbate. haha, jk. i like to hang out.
6. What is the best passing time activity? singing [although people around me beg me to stop], writing, reading, watching telivision, eating [i wanna be a chub!!!]
7. What is your middle name? teighlor
8. What is your fav band/singer/song? too much. too many.
9. What is your fav subject? english, art, and choir.
10. What is your least fav subject? algebra, spanish 2, and geoscience.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17567197/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17567197/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 02:42:26 PDT 2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first four letters of real name plus "izzle") Meigizzle [tacky...?]

3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color and favorite animal) Purple Giraffe

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name and current street) Taylor Nonofyourfuckingbusiness :]

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, and first 3 letters of your mom's maiden name) MeMeBre

6. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color and favorite drink) Yellow Grape Juice [...ew]

7. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (Men: father's middle name and mother's middle name- Women: mother's middle and father's middle name) Karma Quinn

8. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black and the name of one of your pets) Black Tigger

COPY, PASTE AND CHANGE YOUR "YOUR" NAMES.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17500082/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17500082/ Mon, 24 Mar 2008 20:34:30 PDT
as in real, true, over my head love? i'm not sure if i'll find it. i just keep looking. even though i'm young, even though i'm stupid. even though i want what i want and i keep searching, even though i won't do what i won't do... i want to find love. problem? love doesn't seem to want to find me. maybe someday. maybe someday.

today, i went to the mall, and bought a new pair of...

BLACK LOW TOP CHUCKS!!! I'VE WANTED ME SOME CONVERSE ALL STAR CHUCK TAYLORS FOREVER!!! I'VE BEEN WANTING FOR MONTHS!!! I WAS FINALLY AT THE MALL WITH ENOUGH HARD EARNED BABYSITTING MONEY, AND I BOUGHT THEM! THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! I AM MOST DEFINATELY IN LOVE WITH THEM!!! I CANT WAIT TO WEAR THEM WITH MY FAVORITE YELLOW DRESS!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay. i'm back to earth.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17332722/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17332722/ Fri, 14 Mar 2008 14:45:49 PDT
i am wearing this yellow dress with polka dots and flowers on the bottom [trust me, its cute] and its got a square neck, with a cinched waist and it comes about down to my knees. i'm so excited to go there, turn on some crazy music and dance like i'm about to fuck. haha.

my friends are gonna try to go... but i only know of a few who will definately be there.

all straight.

i have no date. i will be a single lesbian tearing up the dance floor.

and the adrenaline is already pulsating through my body.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17140522/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17140522/ Sat, 01 Mar 2008 22:19:53 PST
2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress? big and poofy as long as its flattering

3. What would you do if you received a long love letter? if i loved them back, i'd kiss them very passionately. if i didn't love them back, i would either kiss them passionately or awkwardly thank them...

4. Group dates or single dates? both.

5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends? no, i think its just one of those thins.

6. Are diamonds a girl’s best friend? absolutely not.

7. Is your hair up or down today? down.

8. Do you straighten your hair? no.

9. Favorite mascara? i don't wear makeup.

10. Do you get your nails done? nope.

11. Small or large purses? medium.

12. In your purse, what are your must haves? cell phone, ipod, wallet, burts bees, notebook, pen.

13. Jeans or sweats? for looks? jeans. for comfort? sweats.

14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that’s uncomfortable? no.

15. Do you text message a lot? sometimes.

16. What would you do if you got pregnant? keep the baby, and give it the best possible life i could.

17. What’s your favorite color? purple.

18. Heels or flats? flats.

19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie? i always do. :]

20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on? i like to call it every day.

21. Walmart or Target? target!!!

22. Do you wear collared shirts? occassionally.

23. Do you like preppy boys? i like preppy girls.

24. Do you think lip gloss is the best!? no.

25. Do you own any big sunglasses? no.

26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? about 10 minutes.

27. Do you like to wear band-aids? if i have a boo-boo???

28. Do you like skater boys? i like girls.

29. Do you often wish there was something you could change? not really. besides location.

30. Gold or silver? silver.

31. Do you like to receive flowers? i haven't yet.

32. Do you like surfer boys? i like girls.

33. Do you dress up for the holidays? sometimes.

34. Do you like to wear dresseses? i do.

35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you? 1.

36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy? yup.

37. Would you date a guy shorter than you? i date girls.

38. Do you like to hold hands? i prefer more physical interactions, such as cuddling, or kissing.

39. What is the youngest you would date? a year and a half younger.

40. What is the oldest you would date? two years older.

41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy? if he is funny.

42. Is it hott when guys sweat? no.

43. What is the best feature in a guy? sense of humor.

44. Do you like making eye contact? do you like breathing?

46. Would you kill for chocolate? hm... year in prison for hersheys... tough call...

47. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy? no. absolutely not.

48. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping? 6.

49. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show? nope. i got cablebox.

50. Do you yell a lot? depends.

51. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work? yes.

52. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy? no.

53. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems? occassionally.

54. What makeup could you not live w/ out? burts bees lipbalm.

55. Do you fall in love easily? not even close.

56. Do you have cramps? no.

57. Do you think you have the bestest friend ever? bestest? and no. i don't believe in perfection.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17106963/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17106963/ Thu, 28 Feb 2008 17:40:42 PST
2. Diamonds or Pearls? diamonds, as long as they are small and not tacky.
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3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? I am Legend

4. What is your favorite TV show? Degrassi

5. What do you usually have for breakfast? is that a joke? black coffee.

6. What is your middle name? Taylor

7. What food do you like the least? cabbage.

8. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Stripped, by Christina Aguilera.

9. What kind of car do you drive? Not Yet.

10. Favorite Sandwich? Peanut butter and banana.

11. What kind of people do you dislike? Obnoxious Religious people who just want you to join their religion with no regard to your personal feelings.

12. Favorite item of clothing? my old, holey boxer shorts that i wear to sleep

13. If you could go anywhere in the world for vacation, where would you go? Greece

14. What color is your bathroom? ... some awkward shade of beige.

15. What is your favorite brand of clothing? I don't care. as long as it fits.

16. Where would you retire? i don't know. maybe california? so i could jump in to the ocean to drown myself when my boobs hang so low that i can no longer see my vagina.

17. What was your most recent memorable birthday? my fifteenth.

18. Favorite sport to watch? *laughs*

19. Furthest place you are sending this? Erm...

20. Who do you least expect to send this forward? Erm...

21. Who do you expect to send it back first? maybe holly. maybe.

22. Favorite saying? "growing old is manditory, but growing up is optional" -random signature

23. When is your birthday? oct 12

24. Are you a morning person or night person? Night.

25. What is your shoe size? 8 1/2 in womens.

26. Do you have any pets? 4 dogs, 1 cat, 3 birds, 2 horses

27. Any new and exciting news you would like to share with us? i have a forty foot penis

28. What did you want to be when you were little? a country singer. :] and i had a backup plan, which was a mermaid.

29. What is your favorite candy? pixie sticks.

30. What is your favorite flower? daffodil!

31. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? hm... tomorrow. every day. because life is short.

32. What is your full name? meighan t. none of your damn business.

33. What are you listening to right now? my ipod. christina aguilera "fighter"

34. What was the last thing you ate? a burrito

35. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? giraffe print

36. How is the weather right now? brisk

37. What is your favorite soft drink? PEPSI

38. What is your favorite restaurant? parthenon

39. What is your natural hair color? medium brown

40. Siblings? yes. five of em.

41. Favorite day of the year? my birthday, usually

42. What was your favorite toy as a child? TOO MANY.

43. Summer or Winter? yes.

44. Hugs or Kisses? KISSES.

45. Coffee or tea? COFFEE.

46. Chocolate or Vanilla? CHOCOLATE!

47. Do you want your friends to email back? yesm

48. When was the last time you cried? last night.

49. What is under your bed? Depends. at my moms my bed is directly on the floor. and at my dads, i've got all sorts of shit!

50. Who is the friend you have had the longest? dylan.

51. What did you do last night? ugh.

53. What are you afraid of? time.

54. Salty or sweet? sweet. always sweet.

55. How many keys are on your key ring? a monster.

56. How many years at your current job? er, i have no job.
57. Favorite day of the week? saturday.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17079878/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17079878/ Tue, 26 Feb 2008 19:40:55 PST 2. Each tagged person should post 8 aleatory facts of themselves.
3. Tagged people should write a Journal\Blog about these facts.
4. In the end, tag and name 2 more people.
5. Go to their DA pages and comment saying that they are tagged and hugged.

1.) i love it when i make out with somebody and they bite my neck/bottom lip
2.) back massages make me sleepy
3.) i can't seem to make a definate choice on sexual orientation. its been really pissing me off lately. i just want to be gay or straight. i really don't want to be bisexual, because i'd rather have a definate preference
4.) although i think sex a lot, i'm not ready to experience it
5.) i suck at relationships, although theres always at least one special somebody on my mind
6.) i would give anything to have somebody to cuddle with at night. not sexual or anything, just a cuddle buddy. thats why i love my little siblings so much. they are just so snuggly
7.) even though my grades kind of suck, i know i'm smart. english art and music are my biggest talents, and my grades rock in those classes. i'm okay with doing poorly in math and science
8.) i'm really self-conscious about smelling bad, so i keep lotion/perfume in my bag and shower at least once a day. i stress out like crazy if i forget deodorant, or something. it makes me all awkward

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17043734/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/17043734/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 14:37:12 PST
i wore my favorite flip flops on a walk yesterday and lo and behold have 3 blisters on each foot. satan's dogs are now feasting on those Hellforsaken shoes. *curses sky* i went to best buy to get a cd, and then to a dollar store for a coloring book, colored pencils, candy and stickers. i love dollar stores, but i always feel sad when i go.

today, my dad took me to a swap meet. it smelled like pee and death, and everything there was dirty and essentially crap. i walked around for 3 hours praying for lightening to strike me down.

my weekend has been nice, but kind of... boring. then again, its my own fault. sabrina and emma wanted me to hang out, and leah and anna wanted me to go the mall. sarah wanted to kidnap me too, but i was asleep... so all of this boredom is blamed on me. no one else. because my friends tried to rescue me but i wanted to wallow.

i love you people.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16900708/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16900708/ Fri, 15 Feb 2008 15:06:27 PST
happy late valentines day, by the way! i can't believe i forgot to mention this.

by the way, i hope everybody is doing okay school-wise. i am doing... better in some classes than others, in all honesty. eh. i just really want to get it under control so i can focus on more important things. like myself, like my friends, like my friends who i never call, like XYLMNOZ, because i've got a serious crush... and... um... that one thing. i think they call it READING. i haven't been doing much of that lately. at least, not nearly as much as i'd like to.

on another [extremely different] note, in an hour, i'm going to babysit my neighbors. the kids are wildly well behaved, and last time, i got paid 35 bucks for watching tv for four hours with them. because thats what they wanted to do. i know! awesome! i'm excited.

i love you people.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16839878/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16839878/ Mon, 11 Feb 2008 20:31:09 PST
but now, i am trying to get the hell back to sleep and my mouth is too sore for me to do so. i haven't started my homework and i can't seem to close my eyes, but i really am hurting. my jaw is sore, because i had my mouth open as wide as it goes for about 45 minutes, and i had jaw issues to begin with. so now it keeps locking up in these awkward spots, and i refuse to eat dinner because it hurts just to talk. i have no desire to attempt chewing. no desire at all.

well, hope all is well. love you.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16558442/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16558442/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 20:58:24 PST i'd wish for straight a's, a time machine, and enough money to get me through life without debt or dependancy on another person.

2.) IF YOU COULD MEET ANY FICTIONAL CHARACTER, WHICH ONE WOULD YOU CHOOSE?
i would choose to meet Nicole from Crazy/Beautiful

3.) IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD, WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
i'd really like to go to greece

4.) IF YOU COULD CHANGE ANYTHING ABOUT YOUR APPEARANCE, WHAT WOUDLD YOU CHANGE?
i'd either have perfect skin, longer hair, or maybe lose my scars

5.) FAVORITE MYTHICAL CREATURE?
mermaid

6.) BEST QUALITIES IN A FRIEND?
either loyalty, trust, a sense of humor, or a good conversationalist

7.) BEST QUALITY IN A BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND?
all the qualities of a friend, but also its good to have a physical attraction

8.) FAVORITE ANIMAL, AND WHY?
an elephant, because it reminds me of my dad. either that or horses, because they remind me of peace

9.) FAVORITE TELEVISION SHOW?
friends, what i like about you, degrassi, fosters home for imaginary friends

10.) IF YOU COULD BE ANY TV CHARACTER, WHICH ONE WOULD YOU BE?
bloo, from fosters home for imaginary friends

11.) TOP 10 SONGS ON YOUR IPOD?
caress me down-sublime
one way ticket-leann rimes
i wanna be like you-laurie mcclain
friend of the devil-jorma kaukonen
queen of the 88s-kelly hunt
hold my hand-hootie and the blowfish
when you say nothing at all-alison krauss
you were meant for me-jewel
part of your world-jodi benson
cold as you-taylor swift

12.) WHAT SONG DESCRIBES YOU RIGHT THIS SECOND?
anything but ordinary by avril levigne

13.) DID YOU CHECK YOUR IPOD TO MAKE THAT LIST, THERE?
yes, i did. :]

14.) DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? IF SO, WHICH ONE?
her name is holly, and she is a sweet little ragdoll with a blue dress

15.) FAVORITE PIECE OF JEWELERY?
i think mine is my st. christopher necklace. i almost always wear it. my mom's best friend linda gave it to me for christmas. when we lived in california, linda was like a second mother to me.

16.) FAVORITE BOOK/MOVIE?
book: either gingerbread of the sisterhood of the traveling pants
movie: the breakfast club

17.) FAVORITE CHARACTER FROM BOOK/MOVIE?
book: cyd charisse from gingerbread or tibby from the sisterhood of the traveling pants
movie: jon bender

18.) HUGS OR KISSES?
yes.

19.) FROM WHO?
yes.

20.) FAVORITE FOOD?
lasagna!!! and ice cream. i love junk food. and italian. so yummy.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16463291/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16463291/ Fri, 18 Jan 2008 17:16:13 PST
Baby: One of my absolute favorite things to be called. Its so sexy and demure when used appropriately. A major turn-on. [was that too much information?]

Cut: A problem I can't shake. I've been starting and stopping since 5th grade. Such a huge part of who I am.

Dependent: Something I really, really don't want to be.

Elephant: One of my favorite animals. Because they remind me of my dad. Elephants are his favorite too. :] I have like a million favorite animals... but right now, its all about the elephants.

Feminist: Who I am, what I stand for, and what everybody should believe in. This isn't like pushing a religion, its like opressing an entire portion of the population based only on their gender. My guyfriend Ander isn't a feminist, and his reasoning is completely ridiculous. He says that some jobs-like being a firefighter-women shouldn't be allowed to do. Well, jackass, next time you are caught in a burning building... don't expect any woman to rush to save you based on your freaking personality.

Gay: What I am, and who I support. It also means joy. I bet people forget to consider that.

Holly: The name of my ragdoll, that I've had since I was 3, and the name of one of my favorite people.

Infinate: The number of options and opportunities I have in this world to do whatever I want, whenever I want... And The amount of places I could go, and the ways that I could get there.

Jealous: The worst feeling in the world.

Knit: My new favorite hobby!!! I'm making a purse, and its really time consuming. I got bored with it, so my teddy bear Bean is wearing it. Its eeny. :] It's really nice to have something to do with your fingers when you are stressed. And I've been writing SO MUCH lately, that I decided to pick up something new.

Love: The only thing I have unwavering faith in.

Mermaids: Who I am at the heart, I swear. I haven't lost the little girl who colors herself as one, and with other mermaids. She lives behind my eyes, and within my soul.

Nature: Not only what earth provides, your purest essense of self. The place in your soul that remains unchanged no matter what happens, and the place you go when nobody can hear you.

Ocean: Thats my soul. The only place where I am complete. My heart, and everything I care about is symbolized by the azure sky, and the sapphire water. I love to be on the beach, swim in the water, and breathe the salty air. No matter what happens, I will always find a way back.

Patience: I don't have any of it. Wish I did.

Quiet: Another personality trait I am without...

Riot: Two Words: My. Personality.

Saddle: I LOVE horses, and riding, so a saddle is symbolic of everything.

Together: Sometimes, I hate being alone. So its nice to have a bunch of people you can summon in a moments notice and KNOW will just be there. because they love you, or because they care. Together means the world to me, because I love company.

Utopia: Another word for heaven, or a euphoric emotion, like... bliss.

Vortex: Okay, well... anybody who knows me at all will tell you that I live in outer space.

Wistful: It means hope.

X: Well, I can't think of anything other than xylaphone [nor can i spell it] so I'm going to go with X. Such as mysterioiusness, which I wish I possessed a bit more of. Oh, well. Life happens.

Yesterday: I'm afraid of the past, so I try really hard to live in the future, and in the present.

Zealous: This word means overexcited or enthusiastic. I think that can pretty much sum me up on some days.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16440102/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16440102/ Wed, 16 Jan 2008 23:54:08 PST
I just don't know what to do. I mean, I'm surrounded by people, my friends are right there if I need them... But its not even that. I'm not sure what I need, or what I need to say. I just have this little voice in the back of my mind that makes me think I have something within me, that needs attention. But I'm not sure how to do it, or where to start. I've tried journaling, writing, drawing, knitting... I just don't know how to focus. I'm even so desperate that I'm trying excercising. I hate physical activities involving stationary objects in the basement. If I want to excercise, I'd rather walk outside to someplace and hang out for a bit, before walking to destination two. But it's too damned cold, and I'm not sure where to go. At dads house, the places are endless. But at my mom's, I just have a spindly group of suberban plots that I have zero desire to explore.

There has gotta be someplace to go. Anywhere. Greece, Italy, Costa Rica, my freaking BACKYARD, anywhere. Seriously, I just need to go someplace. I am restless and unsure, and I am not aware of a plan to fix it.

When I got to high school, I had spent the entire summer trying to figure out who I was and where I was going. You could have asked me anything at the beginning of the year and I'd have given you an immediate, honest answer. But now? High School has challenged my beliefs, my intelligence, my everything. I don't know who I am for sure, and I'm not sure where I'm going. I'm desperately searching for something I can't find. I won't find it, not here, and not now. I need to get out of MidAmerica, and I need to travel the world. Waiting tables, going to college, learning an instrument and singing at coffee shops... I really don't know. I dont care. I don't have the details worked out, or anything like that. My mind is just this space, and its not as it's supposed to be.

Something is wrong, and I'm not sure what. I need somebody to talk to, but I don't know what I need to talk about. I need somebody to hear me when I'm silent, and I need somebody to put up with my random mood alterations. I know I change all the time, and I know I can't stay the same or stay still. If I stop moving, I'm afraid I'll go to the past. That is the one place I do not want to go.

I can't word this right, and I might delete it later. I'm just awkward, and unsure, and scared, but excited. I'm tired, yet somehow I can't sleep. I am everywhere, yet only one place. I need to see my horses, and I need to swim in the ocean. Euphoria is waiting for me there, intertwined with the person I was, the person I am, and the person I want to be.

I just need to get there.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16363661/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16363661/ Fri, 11 Jan 2008 20:34:38 PST
i babysat my 2 year old little sister, and my 3 year old cousin. they completely ignored everything i said, my cousin wouldn't eat dinner and kept telling me that she was hungry. she got out the chips, without my permission, and then got into the fridge and got out my grapes and then the string cheese. every time she did something she knew she shouldn't, she looked over to me and said "i love you."

we played with a puzzle [that adorable little demon refused to help me clean and little sister was too young to really understand why i was frusterated] we watched a thousand cartoons [all at cousin's request, and then when we watched it shed tell me we needed to watch something else] and ugh...

my mother got home and yelled at me because i forgot to change my little sisters diaper, and she was pissed off that the living room was a mess. well, when you are playing with two kids, a mess is bound to be made. grahhh.

irritating.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16262955/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16262955/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 22:37:53 PST
there was a little girl. i can't remember her name, but i lived with her in the hospital. she had lieukemia, and she was dying. i remember the doctors kept telling her that she would be getting better, but she wasn't. she was dying. she didn't look like a cancer child. she had long, curly, blonde hair that was always tied back with a few ringlets in her face. she was lively, and happy. yet calm in a way that i can't describe. he was seriously the most beautiful child in the world.

i lived with her in the hospital, for some reason. i slept with her at night, holding her close, and i tried to help her with eerything i could. but the hospital room was like a room in any other house. but i knew it was a hospital, somehow. the room was a mess. total disarray, and complete anarchy. clothes everywhere. mine and hers. we had two pets. a pet donkey and a pet duck. i can't say where or why the animals came to be, but the donkey was my favorite. he acted like a dog, and always stayed with the little girl, like a parent.

the little girl didn't seem to have parents.

i can't say how i met her, or where i met her. i don't know how i pictured her so vividly, because i close my eyes and the little girl is sitting on a plaid chair [we have one exactly like it in our living room] just crying. clutching herself, containing herself. i want to go back and help her. she feels like a part of me. i can't figure out if i knew her at one point, or if she is me. but i feel like i lost her. i feel like i went with her to the hospital, and then i was all she had. i failed her.

i woke up clutching my blankets at my neck, and completely confused. now, i feel sad. beyond sad. i wish somebody was here to hold me.

]]> ~invisiblecarousels http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16211577/ http://invisiblecarousels.deviantart.com/journal/16211577/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 17:47:43 PST
AGE YOU TURNED?
15

BEST MEMORY?
probably my new years eve. i don't know, it was just the exact way i think i wanted to remamber the new year.

WORST MEMORY?
testing out my sexuality. i wish i wouldn't have done that.

DID YOU STAY IN A RELATIONSHIP?
i usually fuck up relationships after a few months. working on it.

GREAT PEOPLE YOU MET?
my zoo school friends that i will probably eventually lose, and my east friends that i hope to grow a bit closer to

[sarah and holly]

LONGEST ROAD TRIP?
new mexico

BEST PLACE VISITED?
kansas city

WORST PLACE VISITED?
kansas city

EARNED ANY NEW NAMES?
lefty, ducky, boobs [thanks sarah]

BIGGEST CHALLENGE THIS YEAR?
Holding it all together

HOW MANY MOVING VIOLATIONS?
negative.

HOW MANY PARKING TICKETS DID YOU GET?
Negative.

HOW MANY SUBJECTS DID YOU TAKE?
7

WHAT WERE YOUR GRADES?
algebra: b plus
spanish: b
choir: a
pe: c plus [i jacked up a journal for health which held it down for a long time]
english: b plus
physical science: c
civics: d

DID YOU MOON A COP?
i like to moon my siblings sometimes. good fun.

NEW BEST FRIEND?
sarah, and everybody at zoo. because i never really have one best friend.

PERSON YOU WISH YOU'D BECOME CLOSER TO?
holly, darian, ashley

ANY AWARDS?
negative.

DID YOU SLEEP THROUGH YOUR ALARM?
a million times.

DID YOU LOSE OR GAIN WEIGHT?
my weight yoyos all the time

BREAK ANY BONES?
negative.

SPORTS PLAYED?
ha!

WHAT DO YOU HOPE FOR 2008?
work on intrapersonal relationships.

NEW LOVE FOR FOOD?
string cheese, muffins, french fries

KISS ANYONE?
a few people. but only one that counts.

DANCE IN THE RAIN?
lots!

HAVE YOU CHANGED?
i always do.

HOW WAS YOUR BIRTHDAY?
one of the best i've ever had.

ANY SNOW THIS YEAR?
yes. i was thrilled.

LOSE ANY FAMILY MEMBERS?
did not

DID YOU DISAPPOINT ANYONE CLOSE?
i always seem to

DID YOU SLEEP UNDER THE STARS?
yes!!! my family goes camping.

PRETEND TO BE HAPPY?
all the time.

DID YOU KEEP YOUR NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION?
i'm afraid i'm not going to share that.

DID YOU LEAVE THE COUNTRY?
not yet!

ARE YOU MOVING IN THE NEW YEAR?
what?

DID YOU LOSE ANYTHING EXPENSIVE?
no, but i got 18 dollars taken from my pocket at the mall. xD

LEARN ANYTHING NEW ABOUT YOURSELF?
my friends see me as a boy-tease.
that one hurt.

FOUND OUT WHO YOUR TRUE FRIENDS WERE?
a few, yes. a few i don't think i'll ever know.

MADE A CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE?
lots of them.

DID YOU STAY UP TIL SUNRISE?
at least once a week.

DO ANYTHING YOU REGRET?
quite a few things.

GO TO ANY PARTIES?
YES

MAKE MUCH MONEY?
yes. unfortunately i spent it all.

DID YOU KEEP YOUR JOB?
babysitting. so yes.

DID YOU ATTEND A FUNERAL?
negative. thank god.

GAIN ANY NEW FAMILY MEMBERS?
i like to call them friends. and yes. gained lots.

GET A NEW CAR?
i have zero interest in driving.

DEVELOP ANY HEALTH PROBLEMS?
yes. mental health.

END UP IN A HOSPITAL?
when i pierced my tongue. it got infected. most disgusting few days of my life.

ATTEND A CONCERT?
yes. rascal flatts with my mother. country music.

TRAVEL OUT OF STATE?
yeah!!

READ ANY BOOKS?
i try to read but with school its hard! but yes. lots of books.

SIGN UP TO FACEBOOK?
negative.

EAT ANYTHING YOU NEVER HAD BEFORE?
yes.

DID ANYONE DEVELOP FEELINGS FOR YOU?
i think it might be possible.

ATTEND CHURCH?
once in awhile.

WAS 2007 A GREAT, AVERAGE, OR BAD YEAR?
socially it was amazing. romantically, it got better towards the end. academically, my year was a challenge.

love you, everybody who made my year great, and who will make this year amazing. please don't leave me people! hehe

ps: thanks kayla and sarah for letting me steal from your journal.

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