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2. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Wan /chucks things at him

3. THE LAST THING YOU DOWNLOADED ON TO YOUR COMPUTER?
My excel worksheet i need to do ;.; (that i'm supposed to be doing at this moment... ha...)

4. HAVE YOU EVER LICKED A 9 VOLT BATTERY?
o_O i do not have a habit of licking batteries, by and large.

5. LAST TIME YOU SWAM IN A POOL?
Bout half a year ago, eventhough i had gone swim suit shopping with the intention of swimming more. Ah well, c'est lavie?

6. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY?
Lol um well no actually, i suck at acting XD

7. THERE IS NO QUESTION.
Like spoons?

8. TYPE OF MUSIC YOU DISLIKE MOST?
Well, i kinda have dislikes in all genres, though if i had to choose based on quantity of dislikes, it'd be techno.

10. DO YOU HAVE CABLE?
Yes.

11. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN ON A MOPED?
Oooh no i haven't ;.; Just a motorbike - which was mildly erotic.

12. EVER MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL?
Yes lol - i used to use public phones, dial a number and laugh then the phone auto cut off the call XD

13. BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?
Both. At the same time would be awesome kinky.

14. WOULD YOU GO BUNGEE JUMPING OR SKY DIVING?
BUNGEEEEEEE!!!

15. THERE IS NO QUESTION.
Fillers are fun.

16. DO YOU HAVE A GARDEN?
my whole country is a garden u_u

17. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE COMIC STRIP?
DILBERT. If you've ever worked in IT, you'll love this.

18. DO YOU KNOW ALL THE WORDS TO THE NATIONAL ANTHEM?
Yep.

19. BATH OR SHOWER, MORNING OR NIGHT?
Shower at night. Dirty bodies in bed = bad.

20. BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE LAST MONTH?
Family Stone

21. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPINGS?
The stuff on the Super Supreme w/e they are.

22. CHIPS OR POPCORN?
neither? Noodles ftw!!

23. WHAT TYPE OF DEODERANT DO YOU USE?
This salt crystal thing creatively named 'Smelly-no-more'

24. THERE IS NO QUESTION.
Chickens have a suggestive way of moving their heads then they walk.

25. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A BEAUTY PAGENT?
No lol, embarassment isn't all it's cracked up to be.

26. ORANGE OR APPLE JUICE?
Orange.

27. WHO WERE THE LAST PEOPLE YOU WENT OUT TO LUNCH WITH?
My buddy Nadia ^_^

28. FAVORITE TYPE OF CHOCOLATE BAR?
Kit Kat. God I can eat those all day.

30. LAST TIME YOU ATE A HOMEGROWN TOMATO?
Ew tomato... /hates

31. HAVE YOU EVER WON A TROPHY?
Yeah, Interschool Debates Championship 2003

32. IF YOU COULD BE A CARTOON CHARACTER, WHO WOULD YOU BE?
Mandy from Grim Adventures

33. EVER PUNCHED SOMEONE IN THE FACE?
Yes, my bro o_o feel the love!

34. EVER ORDERED FROM AN INFOMERCIAL?
YES lolol... god day time tv = bad

35. FAVORITE VIDEO GAME?
FFXI, SIMs

36. HAVE YOU EVER HAD TO WEAR A UNIFORM TO SCHOOL/WORK?
Yeah duh - anyone from singapore has work a uniform to school. Not to work tho, that's just weird.

37. LAST THING YOU BOUGHT AT WALGREENS?
Where? Stop being so american.

38. EVER THROWN UP IN PUBLIC?
yes o_o; drunken stupor is also fun.

39. WOULD YOU PREFER BEING A MILLIONAIRE OR FINDING TRUE LOVE?
Millionaire XD "My darling, I love you so much, but we're starving so will you please let me eat your leg?" "Oh yes my dear, anything for you~ "

40. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
I believe in lust at first sight. Love is a choice that takes time to make.

41. CAN EX'S JUST BE FRIENDS?
Sure why not?

42. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU VISITED IN THE HOSPITAL?
Dad, who had gone for an op.

43. DID YOU HAVE LONG HAIR AS A KID?
Yep, altho i was bald as a baby o.o;

44. WHAT MESSAGE IS ON YOUR VOICEMAIL MACHINE?
I have no idea.

45. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO GO RIGHT NOW?
To take a nap, sadly there's not enough time.

46. WHAT WAS THE NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?
Birds named romeo and juliette

47. WHAT KIND OF BACKPACK DO YOU HAVE, & WHAT'S IN IT?
Leather, out of fashion thing. Has my laptop, cable and other junk in it.

48. LAST INCOMING CALL ON YOUR PHONE?
Project member asking for a file.

49. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU ARE GRATEFUL FOR TODAY?
~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/7504472/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/7504472/ Wed, 04 Jan 2006 01:04:18 PST
Well thing is I need some advice from my fellow arty friends. I'm working on a sig, and this picture has 2 elements in it. In the background against a dark sky is behemoth, who is huge. In the foreground is the character, who is tiny in comparison to Behemoth. Unfortunately I'm not sure how to create a sense of depth and make it seem like behemoth is far away while the character is near due to the difference in size. Usually the farther away things are the smaller, right? but that doesn't apply here for obvious reasons.

How can I use color and lighting to make it seem like behemoth is far back while the character is up close to the camera? Please advise! ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/6868572/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/6868572/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 21:18:52 PDT ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/2039696/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/2039696/ Thu, 18 Mar 2004 20:48:03 PST
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Webby. New. Be Wanjuro and irei's blog of doom u_u. ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/1848325/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/1848325/ Sun, 15 Feb 2004 06:54:36 PST
I get online soon enough, after dateless self-esteem low induces me to clean my room, and I start to catch up on all those lectures I skipped that are coming back to haunt me. Karma is bitchy sometimes. It's a lonely afternoon I burn, chatting inbetween note taking, playing a chat rpg, talking to Wanjuro, being hungry in general. I found out rice noodles are so not filling and thus bad as a breakfast dish.

At about lunch I am so damn hungry I go out and steal some of my brother's carrot cake. And the next thing I know my nibbles actually finished off half of his food. So I leave it in the microwave and pretend to be innocent, only to have dad scold me for leaving such a small amount of food in the microwave and I might aswell finish it and wash the plate. So I ate all of dear brother's lunch in the end. But that was far from filling. I go back to try to study and suddenly I'm craving for Fish and Co's Sambal Fish. Why am I so hungry today?

Must be the dateless induced need for comfort in food, perhaps. So I shanghai Wanjuro to dinner (since he is just as dateless and sad as I am) and we meet earlier to try and avoid the happy masses of couples who will swarm the restaurants. So we dig some money from our parents and assorted hiding places (and tactfully not telling eachother how much we actually have, since we know eachother well) and we meet for dinner at 5pm.

Thus begins the QUEST.

We end up at this cool branch of Fish and Co called the GlassHouse. And the line waiting outside is bloody unbelievable!

There was no way we were waiting, so we decided to walk around Orchard Road to find some restaurant to eat at (No foodcourt, no fastfood of any kind).

We stopped at the Istana Park and the food was stupidly expensive.

We walk to Centrepoint's branch of Fish and Co and they try to cheat up with overpriced 'Valentines day meals'. Since there was no Sambal Fish, I wasn't going to blow all my money on mussles and prawns, we walked away.

[Side Note: I found a fun balloon and it was floating on the floor like it was walking and I was kicking it and enjoying my inner child when Wan finds his inner brat and takes the baloon and throws it over the veranda. It died. All we found of it was a sad shred. Wan murdered a balloon.]

We stopped at Sanur, only to leave since we ate there last time. We lingered at Times Bookstore to read and laugh at our horoscopes in this silly book we found, then headed off to Ngee Ann City to see if we could get into Seoul Garden.

They said we could get a seat at 9pm. It's 7.15pm. We leave our names for fun anyway and walk away to line up at Breeks opposite Seoul to spite them.

The line at Breeks is long too, but it isn't so bad. We wait there for a bit and I run through restaurants I've seen in my mind. I know Suntec City mall has lots of restaurants. So we decide to head there.

We catch a train and go to Suntec. There, we stop at Marche but the line there was even worse at the Glass House.

Sad and starving and thirsty and complaining with every step we took, we searched on. We went down to the Fountain Court. We checked the Sanur outlet there and we were disappointed once more. More lines. By now we're too hungry to really care, we just want to eat something - Anything. We walk around looking for the House of Sundanese, hoping and praying it was empty.

Lo and Behold!! We got a seat within 2 mins at the House of Sundanese! Praise the Lord!! We enter and order the first thing on the menu. We chow on the appetizer crackers and sambal like it's manna from heaven (the sambal was though. It was good sambal) Then the food comes and suddenly we feel we've died and gone to heaven. We ate the whole little basket of rice they gave us and got weird looks from waiters for it, I think. We lingered over our lime juices, renamed Love Juice in honor of the special day (which goes to show the author of the menu does not watch porn to know how wrong that sounded).

With full stomach and happy faces, we payed the bill, with poor Wan looking like such the cheapskate date, making the girl pay for half the bill (mwaha). We walk off and we get some ice cream for dessert and head up to the fountain to have a sit, confusing some tourists who asked for directions from us on the way over. We watched as the Chin... ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/1779355/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/1779355/ Sun, 01 Feb 2004 18:52:46 PST
Okay, all begins with project group members who keep on DELAYING the submission eventhough the supervisor gave us a leeway. They handed in AFTER the leeway. Yeah. u_u bastards.

Next was the great weekend - saturday spending the evening at Fish n Co with nadia, mary ann, jeremy, nick and saodah. GOOD food. I can't get over how good the sambal fish is ;_; I want more
!!! Then went to pacific cafe and boozed a bit playing 'never ever' at the riverside by the esplanade theater.

Saturday was spent at church in the morning, then eating breakfast. I came home and slept the whole afternoon away, woke up, did chores, ate dinner and fell right back asleep. I slept way too much and now I feel so energized Going to blow some money in town later! Woohoo!

Today's good too! Wonder why everything is so good lately ^o^ Must be because for one of the few times in my life so far I am actually having a crush on someone @_@ Woe is me and this emotional roller-coaster ride!

Arts wise... I'm so sorry x_x All I could hack out was the Baekel piccy which is bleh. I wish i had a better comp to color on ;_; Alas! I'll get back to my tolkein then...

The Hobbit was surprisingly good btw o_O ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/1698108/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/1698108/ Sat, 17 Jan 2004 22:48:01 PST
No matter what you do, of course, no matter how much poise and dignity you have, the world will always remind you that it views you as the dregs of society. You'll read articles about prostitutes being "cleaned up" out of nice neighbourhoods in the newspaper. You'll wince your way through films like "Pretty Woman", which imply that any lady who chooses such a life is cheap, sleazy, barely literate, and entirely without table manners. You'll see people on the Internet referring to anyone who sells their body as "the scum of the earth". People will tell you that anyone who does what you're doing can't have any dignity. The only way to keep from believing in such popular wisdom is through conviction--conviction that you are doing what's right under the circumstances--and self-respect. If, by working in a brothel, you are building your children's college funds or keeping your grandmother out of a nursing home, or simply buying your own education; if you've never known any other way of life, if you're keeping your head above water without going on the government's dollar; if you're honestly trying your best, if you haven't given up hope, you've got as much right to stick your head up straight as any square type. You will not be able to convince everyone of this, but, by living well in every other way, and treating others as you'd like to be treated yourself, you can make it harder for anyone to look you in the eye and denounce you. ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/1683295/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/1683295/ Thu, 15 Jan 2004 05:54:09 PST
Otherwise today was interesting. School was a bore with Mr Lecturer (who is very very... irritating) rattling on for an hour: "Oh I'm so smart, ah. I work everywhere, ah. So let me waste time by telling stupid stories and pissing on students, ah." -_- it was a hard hour to live through. That followed by a break where I went 'shopping' at the school bookshop, which is a sad passtime. And I wonder why I'm not cool ;_; With that aside, my break was over and I proceeded to put up with the "Bitch Squad", which is my group for a project. Meet Bitch Mistress, her Bitch Man-slave, her Bitch Puppet A and Bitch Puppet B. As she subtly tried to get me to do her work for her (the lazy fucker), I got pissed off and told her off and we didn't speak to eachother for the rest of the lesson ._. (mature).

Argh, school today was stupid -.-;

I wish I were out with Mary Ann. One of my best girl friends. We have this pass time see? We call it the "girl's night out". We go to Suntec city, have dinner somewhere, grab some ice cream from carrefour (the Dark Chocolate is just so... soooo... mmmmm.... *has chocolate fetish*) and go up to the fountain to sit and enjoy the laser show. It's really enjoyable to be there just talking as we indulge in comfort food, listen to chic music, wish we had a boy to cuddle at that moment and generally moan and contemplate our lack of a lovelife.

I guess that brings a sort of balance to me. I dress, act, drink, eat, curse and stare at chic's asses as good as any man. So much so that I don't get much female companionship and I kinda miss the comfort food.

Whee rice is cooked! ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/1212608/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/1212608/ Sun, 28 Sep 2003 09:28:02 PDT Wanjuro: omg..
Wanjuro: singaporean kids funny!
Irei84: ?
Wanjuro: what sharing mp3s is a criminal offence? wah liew..
Wanjuro: hehe ~~
Wanjuro: i can imagine a bunch of nerdy primary school kids.. talking like this
Irei84: ;
Irei84: you are mean
Irei84: is like us actioning smart
Wanjuro:
Irei84: except we know fnkier words
Wanjuro: yeah
Wanjuro: like bleh o_o; ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/1060238/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/1060238/ Tue, 12 Aug 2003 00:38:07 PDT ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/925698/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/925698/ Wed, 09 Jul 2003 08:01:02 PDT
It all begins with my buddy Neil calling me at 1am. Here's a note to all: Never set your handphone ringing volume to level 5. I was jerked out of bed and knocked my handphone down o.o; Well, he was the first to give me my present (Harry Potter! *hugs book*) and the first to wish me a happy birthday too~!

After that I had a seriously restful sleep, waking up at 12 noon. Had food, chatted online, had a slight bot of stomach ache o.o; I completed Harry Potter The Chamber Of Secrets game today and started playing FFX again as I wait for FFX2 the english version to be released. Then mum came home and complimented me on the cleanliness of the house for the first time in a long while @_@; That surprised me untill Ian kindly informed me she just said that because it's my birthday.

Then Bonnie discovered a new found talent - singing along to my handphone ringtones. She's so cute ^o^! Later, at abot 1715, we left home and went to meet my dad at Takashimaya. He went to get his glasses done and Ian and I really had fun in eachother's company.

This was followed by *drum roll* MARCHE!!! I Love That Place! @o@!! The Rosti is just too too yummy and the mushroom soup made the Campbells' version taste like liquid crap. I ate the best meal there. Then got a nice little buzz from a half litre mug of dark beer. I spent a wonderful evening with my family there, which is the best present I could ever get (but won't tell them that, since I'm looking forward to getting Nightwatch by Terry Pratchet from dad o.o) We walked around for a bit after Marche then took a cab home.

Not only that, I was surprised by how many of my friends remembered my birthday. I feel wonderful ^-^!! Present wise, I got Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix from Neil, Nightwatch by terry Pratchet from dad, and some money from mom and ian.

Well, now I'm tired and a bit sleepy from the dark beer I drank at Marche, I think I'll go to bed. ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/896887/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/896887/ Tue, 01 Jul 2003 11:50:56 PDT
I have no crushes because I believe they're futile, i get hurt for no reason, and I often do stupid things when I'm infatuated. So I'm just sort of responding to the boys I guess have a thing for me. It's easier.

Now my parents have given me that "find someone with a good heart, preferably Male, blabla" talk. I know what is important - good heart, kindness, devotion, etc. But as of now, what is important is not what I want. I'm ashamed to admit it, but I still so go for the chiseled looks, hot pecs - shallow virtues. I know time will change my outlook, but for now...

Not to mention I get terrified of having a relationship now, all the potential for pain, heartache, insecurity... Goes to show I'm just not ready for it, and I'm afraid to jump into something just for the 'fun' of giving it a go. I don't want to hurt and be hurt. I'm worried this will continue in the future - when I'm 20+ with someone I know I can really love only to have him pass by because I am afraid...

*sighs* a lil help, guys. I'm so confused ;_;

PS to my friends who know me: YES this is a girl problem - eventhough I may be one of the guys, I'm still very much a woman. Remember that, yes? *pats shoulder* ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/842546/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/842546/ Mon, 16 Jun 2003 20:46:38 PDT
Well I have to say I really enjoyed going out with friends and having drinks with them. I player two shots of the worst game of pool ever, danced a great deal, scared a few people and slapped a couple of others... of course the payment for all this is giddiness, nausea, thirst and this damn weird fluttering sort of feeling in my chest. But I have to say it was worth it.

Sometimes I get this seriously negative reactions from people when I tell them I get sloshed. And I don't understand why. I don't engage in casual sex, I remember everything that I do, I know my limits (even when I'm drunk), I don't do it everyday, I'm NOT addicted to alcohol... What's wrong with it? And what is it with girls and their "You feel like crap and it's all your fault HAHA" thingy? I'm a girl and I still don't understand. Yeah it was my fault but have a bit of sympathy to the poor people!!

BTW, of course, thank you david for taking care of all us drunkards! Thank you Anu for the lovely news of Australs beer prices! Thank you Aji for not letting Anu drown!

It was one helluva time, guys! I had loads of fun! ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/801311/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/801311/ Fri, 06 Jun 2003 06:04:46 PDT
Anyway, just thought I'd pimp my art (if you wanna call it that) on my dev page, in case anyone wants to hire me, should the unlikely situation arise. Basically, I'll draw or design just about any damn thing you want for prices $50 and above. These are desperate times and I really need money u_u;

Otherwise bleh... Nothing is going on in my life other than the painfull same ol' crap. It sucks. Ah well... ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/744838/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/744838/ Wed, 21 May 2003 10:01:14 PDT
And here they are in random order::

My parents: for their unconditional love and support
Ian: for being everything I could ever ask for in a brother

Angela: for showing me how important honesty is
CJ: for his wonderful kindness that always touches my heart
Aji: for his wisdom and support through all of my shortcomings
Wan: for giving me the courage to be who I am
Neil: for being a good listener and a dear friend
Grace: for reminding me that God is always there for me
Luwin: for being the funniest DYB I know
Kirby: for teaching me the true meaning of friendship
Nick: for showing me that being yourself is the only truth

And every one else I know who makes my life so fulfilled. I always bitch about my life foolishly, and I want to remember that I always have people like you guys with me and it makes me so happy! This is a small thanks for everything guys, I hope to know you guys all my life. ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/714072/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/714072/ Mon, 12 May 2003 09:36:29 PDT I was a 'heathen' for a while, eating the beef rice with a spoon in a japanese restaurant till i picked up the eat rice with chopsticks thingy. It was fun ^^ Then of course all three of my friends and I had to battle with a miso bowl with the cover jammed on. It was quite an interesting episode o.o Till the cynic/genius dood came up with a solution. Press the sides of the bowl together and pull off the lid. So there's me and Wan trying to get the bowl open.

Irei: *squeezing bowl with both hands*
Wan: *demonstrating amazing skill of verbally hurting himself with his innuendo vocabulary* "I squeeze and you pull."

*sighs* wan wan *pats wan*. Anyway that was fun, had a few laughs, owe people more money. Yesh. ._. Then we went to play pool ^^ Once again our lack of skill amazed us. We were doing some amazing golf shots. I learned how to balance a cue on my shoe ^o^ Untill it hit me on the head. I decided to stop after that o.o;

Well it's been a fun day ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/677417/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/677417/ Thu, 01 May 2003 06:01:01 PDT Sweet freedom!!!

Exams are over and I celebrated by treating myself to a movie - X2 baby!! It was so awesome!! But we were half an hour late for the movie tho~ ;_; dang. Nevermind Will watch the movie again. It was a fun outing. Went with Wan, Nicholas (my two friends) and my bro. After the movie went to play some pool followed by walking around aimlessly trying to get a cab home o.o It was still a very enjoyable evening Then came home and fell asleep before 12am, which is a first in the past few months.

Well other than that, am addicted to the music played on class 95 fm, a local radio station. It playes 80s hits and stuff.. love it an trying to get wan addicted to 80s o.O am succeeding slightly, he seems to like the sappy stuff by richard marx.

Not to mention now with sweet freedom, i can color to my heart's content (i.e. without feeling guilty), eat, build rpgs, nurture worlds and speckle the forest with stars @o@ yes.. sweet freedom~~ ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/656699/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/656699/ Thu, 24 Apr 2003 22:18:19 PDT
[wait untill wednesday for a more intelligent entry] ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/597702/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/597702/ Sun, 06 Apr 2003 08:29:22 PDT
*fast forward through more anime fangirl Fruit Basket Gushing*

|3 ah, now i am satisfied.

WELL xD Just spent the day with the whole family, which is very unusual since mom is always working. It's dad's birthday yesterday so we went to Sanur, an indonesian restaurant and had a birthday treat for dad. And while we were there, the conversation went like this::

Me: Enjoyed your birthday treat.
Dad: Yeah-
Me: Birthday treat which you paid for *gringrinlaugh*
Dad: Yeah! Later have to pay for more birthday treats, right? Ian's model, your cd, your mother's makeup - I love my birthday, whopeedooo~

Followed by this quote from my dad:: "Ian will throw away a portion of peanut butter on his bread because it's too thick and put five centimeters of pimple cream on his face"

Hehe.. Of course I ate too much at the restaurant, then went and had some ice blended pure chocholate (mmm~ closest thing to sex...) and a scone and went shopping ^^ It was an excellent day really, not even my dad's nagging when we got home could really dampen it. Otherwise, I'm teetering on the brink of utter panic over my exams and my library book I haven't returned yet. So I guess life isn't so bad these days. ^.~ ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/524658/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/524658/ Tue, 04 Mar 2003 03:12:40 PST
I find it sad that people these days, for some unknown reason, seem to neglect the friends who were there with them when they were single. Now that they're attached, it's always only the boyfriend, always forgetting that there's someone else who (sometimes through great hassle) is waiting to partake of their company. I dunno. I guess it's human nature, and I (the one who'll die alone, unwanted, forgotten in some flat somewhere who will only be remembered when the other old ladies gossip "See that Kristen died in her flat, no wonder so smelly everytime i walk past..") am so stupid to be so unable to emotionally distance myself from her. I'm just there, being the stupid tagalong untill she deems me worthy to her esteemed company.

She doesn't know or doesn't care about how i feel. And I'm getting tired of her apologies. All she says is sorry. If she's so sorry why doesn't she change things? I'm pissed off and I feel like crying but no one in the world cares, do they?me all ;_; ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/496794/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/496794/ Sun, 16 Feb 2003 05:52:49 PST Our team won the Interschool Debating Championships!! *hugs trophy* X3

I'm really surprised we won o_o I was sure we were trashed by the other team. You should have seen my team mate's expression He was jumping for joy, literally. Hehehe...

On another note... I dunno how I'm gonna cope these days... I have term tests coming up, training three times a week, work... god it's hectic x_x; pray for me all ;_; ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/480640/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/480640/ Thu, 06 Feb 2003 07:38:41 PST I had muchmuch fun with my little tution group. My students are fun kids And they're all being sucked into the artsy anime thing coz of me (BWAHAHA~!!) Bribery works well o.o Now if they get all As I have to buy them a faber castell pencil set ;_; Ah well i don't mind ^^ *hugs kiddies* Aww~ Soi Cute!!! ^o^

I hate teaching them maths though. Because I suck at maths -.- And I hate maths. And I'm supposed to help them LOVE MATHS 8D BECAUSE IT STIMULATES LOGICAL AND ANALYTICAL THINKING~!! 8DDDD *bangs head* please -.-;;;

Ahem, well on to my personal life...

I'm messed up =___=;; So messed up it isn't funny. I say things I often never mean, I mean things I often never say. Sometimes I'm just mean o.o

But really...

Why am I so afraid? I fear risking my comfortable security, I don't dare voicing how I feel. I was once scared so badly into overcoming my fear. But now, back in comfortable seciruty, I'm scared once again -.- I said things I never meant. I still feel the same way. I just... can't bring myself to voice them.

I have very strong feelings fos this one guy... ;_; we're so similar, yet different. I know my parents would never agree, I don't want to cross them. I know our religions are different, I can't want to convert (if it ever gets that far). But I still feel the way I did before. And I still want what I asked for then.

All those petty crushes are nothing more than a futile attempt to escape my fears. But it's not working in the least. But I don't know if he feels the same way for me now... I dunno...

*whines* ;-;

*hides* >_ ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/474063/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/474063/ Sun, 02 Feb 2003 09:24:08 PST
Yeahyeahyeah

It's really amazing sometimes. Love is such a bugger. So I'm going to just chuck it and God's hands and go "Yep, all yours, have fun." and sit back and relax with my hands behind my head. It's easier this way. Besides, I find I have other things to worry about: my studies (which aren't doin too good x_x), my friends, my family (most important).

Speaking of which, I just had this heart to heart thing which ended really well. I dunno. It's been a very very very long while since I've even TALKED to them for more than two minutes without us starting to fight. And I even spoke to my mom, which is also a rare occurance.

If they wanna nag at us I don't mind doing it like that, with a 'Kristen, Ian, come sit here' thing that takes two hours. If the outcome is always as friendly as this one, I'd do it any day. I wish we went out together more often though. My mom is always working so... we NEVER go out as a family now.

Well, I'm guessing things are looking up.

I have several goals now:

1) Grow in my faith
2) Improve my grades to Bs across the board
3) Be more responsible and reliable at home
4) Keep my room clean (yes wan. It is my goal. No more scary room )

So whoever's reading this, remember me in your prayers. Pray I have strength to change for the better. ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/468786/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/468786/ Thu, 30 Jan 2003 11:12:38 PST
Well moving on, I'm here, in my horribly messy room, with my radio on, still dressed in my jeans and tee, for some reason unable to bring myself to get up and take a bath. Strangely, i'm too tired but i can't sleep. I just don't feel like moving too much o_O Oh and did i mention tom-yam-stupidly-hot-shitty-cup-noodles i'm forcing myself to finish? Don't think i will tho, it's upsetting my stomach.

Once again, school sucks. Kirbii has gone off somewhere. Wan isn't answering my numerous inane messages. Met new funny boy Nick in school today. Might be going out with another Nick (then again, he's so flighty it isn't funny -___-; but he's my race... and eurasians are a surprisingly rare species in Singapore) The state of my lovelife sucks big time. And I'm having loads of fun bitching about a certain girl at school. She's such a bitch. It's fun ^^

Well I'll stop now, i'm ranting again. ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/374541/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/374541/ Tue, 03 Dec 2002 19:05:55 PST
[link] ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/334828/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/334828/ Thu, 07 Nov 2002 03:51:21 PST
*paints face blue and dnaces around in a kilt* Exams are over!! Wahooo X9 ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/306473/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/306473/ Wed, 16 Oct 2002 07:35:26 PDT ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/289554/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/289554/ Tue, 01 Oct 2002 19:15:42 PDT ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/285242/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/285242/ Sat, 28 Sep 2002 03:45:37 PDT it's sooooii purdy ^o^ His wallpapers rock O_O Honestly i feel soi honored!! The wallpaper makes my piccy look nicer that it actually is

Otherwise *kicks scanner* i hate mira-scan =.= evil piece o' crap is out to gimme a heart attack I tell ya... *grr* ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/282777/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/282777/ Wed, 25 Sep 2002 18:52:14 PDT ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/280821/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/280821/ Tue, 24 Sep 2002 04:03:28 PDT
I'm kinda hopint things will pick up tomorrow ^^ Since I'll be going to the Vanessa Mae concert WAIIIII ^o^ ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/279389/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/279389/ Sun, 22 Sep 2002 19:32:21 PDT D gothic lemons are fuuunnn >DDD

*gets glomped by a certain singaporean girl screaming at the top of her lungs "HENTAI!!"*

x.x m-moving on...

It's been sich an /interesting/ weekend *sarcasm*... |3 I spent 12 hours on the computer STRAIGHT... That was on saturday. On sunday I spent 6 hrs and was friggin bored the rest of the day |3... *sigh* this sucks...

Well i was so bored... I actually got alot of drawing done ^^; Enjoy ne!! Comment! Comment please! ^o^
]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/275298/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/275298/ Thu, 19 Sep 2002 01:17:10 PDT
1) Friggin period cramps
2) Forgot my classes started at 3 instead of 4 and arrived just as the class ended
3) This damn pc has no Adobe PS so I can't color my drawing
4) See number 1 =.=

Geeez... I feel like trash... i hate periods... I hate school... wish i could just stay home and drawwww the whooollleee daaayy... =.=;

Eugh. Right, trash, I'm signin off now. ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/275251/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/275251/ Wed, 18 Sep 2002 23:10:04 PDT ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/267388/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/267388/ Wed, 11 Sep 2002 18:55:58 PDT
and thus my boring journal entry comles to a boring close ;_; ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/238584/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/238584/ Mon, 19 Aug 2002 22:07:49 PDT .O ]]> ~irei http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/227721/ http://irei.deviantart.com/journal/227721/ Sun, 11 Aug 2002 19:11:33 PDT
*Ahem* Moving on -.-

Well me juz uploaded me first deviant art... and am lapsing into boredom yet again. Hmmm... >.O what to write about now? Blegh XP nothing to say about me borin life... So I'll shut up now... ]]> ~irei