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I've recently became in love with making vector abstracts using C4D renders. So yup, do look out for more of my vector abstracts. ^_^ I'm learning as I go along.

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/20904154/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/20904154/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 11:08:50 PDT
Yes my dear, I am ACTUALLY capable of studying. This statement would otherwise seem appalling for a 24/7 anime freak who spends her waking hours staring at her dysfunctional soon-to-be cracked Windows 98. (Though I'd really like to quip in that Kanda Yuu looks awfully gorgeous on my desktop, no matter so carry on...)

So yes where was I? Ah yes, I remotely (because half my sanity refused to believe that I actually studied for 3 weeks) remembered the furious scribbling/annotation/memorizing (0h it was awful!) on my part of the studying process, my brain melted.

I was on the brink of giving up everything I've worked on for the past few months.

Loads of things happened recently, bad ones supercedes the good unfortunately, though I'm highly thankful that it's all over and I can happily resume my process of achieving greater enlightenment through my beautiful anime shows....

WHICH brings me to my next point: D GRAY MAN HAS BEEN DISCONTINUED!! OH THE INSANITY OF IT ALL!

I swear the world has turned topsy-turvy this time round - I'm not going to forgive anyone. EVER.

I cried (like what any obsessed DGM fan would do) a.k.a my version of mourning over the loss of my dearly departed a.k.a D Gray Man. And my mom was one hella lot of help...

Mom: I thought you didn't like the show?
Me: How is that even humanly possible?
Mom (scruntinizing brows): The first time it aired on arts central you said 'what on earth is this? how can they just discontinue Inuyasha for this @!%^(*?!'
Me: That was before I saw Kanda.
Mom (disapproving look): So now you like the show? Aiya...tch tch...
Me (yelling): Hey, watching the show before and after Kanda's appearance made a hella lot of difference ok?!

So there you have it. A short reenactment of yesterday's dinner.

THANKFULLY... it has been said that D Gray Man is merely taking a short 5 months break, so whew! Cheers for the 2nd season next year!

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/20247938/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/20247938/ Sun, 31 Aug 2008 06:52:09 PDT
*WARNING* Yaoi (boy on boy). Don't hate me for reading on.

Ai No Kusabi: The plot revolves around a High Class Blondie, under caste system and a relatively totalitarian society, goes against class social norms by keeping a pet (his lover, in other words) for more than 3 years. A pet was supposedly a slave to their master (yes, a Seme and a Uke thingy), and yet Isson loved Riki beyond comprehension. He even lost both his legs to an explosion in order to save Riki.

I actually cried twice.

For Yaoi fans, go watch it if you haven't. I highly recommend it. xD Not for the faint hearted though. You might need a tissue box by your side.

So yes where was I? Ah yes, after much tears for that tragic couple, I safely pronounce that I'm back to writing my yaoi fanfiction again. So kudos for my returning muse! And thank you Ai No Kusabi!

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/20195408/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/20195408/ Thu, 28 Aug 2008 03:32:22 PDT
THIS is not my usual rambles (get that straight please), THIS is merely another form of...outwardly and explicit personal expression in a desperate attempt to sound ridiculously sane and rational. So forgive me if this ridiculous entry of mine bores you.

I was watching Jigoku Shoujo (Hell Girl) on Arts Central last night and the plot really forced me to reassess my current situation. For one, the protagonist and the 2nd main character (for that episode) were tired of putting up a veneer of enthusiasm and content with life.

I am somewhat similar or remotely (whichever you choose) to that nerves of weary. I've been going on and on about how tired I am with life...when the source of frustration is actually thyself. Ridiculous no?

Somehow, in this Dog-Eat-Dog world, there's little point in playing a good person or being one for that matter, it just doesn't pay to be nice. Do I sound like another one of those Primary 5 kids? I bet I do. But I feel the need to reinforce and reiterate those statements now that I have a clearer picture of this blatantly dystopian context of OUR everyday life. (I'm not being pessimistic or sadistic, but I suggest you keep an open ear to your 'friends'.) It's not surprising one or two might just be the hypocrites I'm mentioning.

Oh well, the joys of having friends.

It's quite sad actually.

But kudos to having a true and utmost reliable good buddies aka my pen, paper, computer and Microsoft Word. I love you guys.

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/19636686/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/19636686/ Mon, 28 Jul 2008 07:14:29 PDT
And since, this proverb has set the stage of expulsion in affairs of the heart, I would like to simply narrow down the insurmountable definition to the ambiguous line between choosing not to/to care and simply not caring/care.

I have chosen, as my sub-conscience puts it rather simply, not to care. Not to be too emotionally and physically, for any matter, involved in the tangled mess of emotions I call friendship. It’s anything but pessimistic in my definition, and yet, it rings certain truth in it no? 9 people, 9 different emotions that swirls, twists and distorts into another 9 different emotions during a change of event or simply during the entire course of surging temperamental.

There came a point in time, when this surging rage of metaphoric chaos wears out time and I became simply too tired, too lethargic to lift a finger.

Perhaps I do not wish to care? No. Saying that has an ultimate reversal in meaning to the former. It is not, I can’t stress this enough, which I do not care. Reality makes it rather, if I could incongruously put it in myself, improbable not to care. It is your choice. Your decision.

And saying that, I have chosen not to care.

I’m tired.

And that’s all I can say.

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/19100878/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/19100878/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 22:28:14 PDT
Although I simply can’t imagine how on earth I’m going to cope with the next semester, writing is and always will be there as my de-stress caffeine! Haha.

Okay, so my rambling starts here...

I watched 'Don't Mess with the Zohan' with my friends yesterday. 5 people, ironically supposed to be a clique outing but anyhow...

The story as a whole was hilarious! The plot was...well, I've no capacity as a 17 year old to critique. I did enjoy it, though!

The rest of my June holidays are pretty boring (we had exams! ridiculous no?) and soon, our clearly-deprived of time-off JC1 will be receiving their Mid-year examination results. *wishes for straight passes*

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]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/18603661/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/18603661/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 03:24:53 PDT
Okay, since this entry is long overdue – a forewarn that this would be my longest rambling.

I took the later flight at 11 plus, the air journey took approximately 6 hours, and alas by the time we arrived at Tokyo, Narita airport, the sun was already casting long shadows into the evening. Nonetheless, I was all bubbling with excitement and couldn’t stop snapping photos with my dysfunctional phone. Thank god, the taxi driver claimed, that it wasn’t raining. My aunt chirped in that it due to our arrival. xD

Anyhow, the journey to our hotel took only 30 minutes and we had dinner soon after.
The following day, I went shopping with my aunt at a place called Asaksa(?). (we went to many shopping places so I can’t quite recall their otherwise similar sounding name.) You can see a snapshot from my deviantart. I bought souvenirs for my family and a beautiful pink, embroidered with flowers, Yukata. I would post a photo journal of myself in that beautiful traditional costume but alas, I’m neither photogenic nor confident. It costs roughly 7500 yen, and the shoes cost 4000 yen. The shopkeeper went into great lengths to teach us the various ways on wearing the Obi and putting on the delicate material. The Yukata is, apparently, not those drape-on bathroom robe. The one we bought was for Summer. Singapore suffers from 26 to 30 degree Celsius of burning hot pan, so I don’t think I’ll be wearing it for Summer anytime soon. I will however wear the Yukata for Racial Harmony Day. (when is it by the way?)

That the biggest catch. Other than the minuscule key chains and phone strap I bought at the local shops. The DVDS are insanely expensive! They have however various stalls that rent a ENTIRE, ENDLESS anime collection, DVDS and CDs..

The only tourist sightseeing place I visited was the Imperial Garden. Walls of rocks shrouded all fours, adorned with flowers (which you don’t see every day in Singapore) and historical buildings. The gate was four times my size! You can view pictures of those sites in my deviantart folder.

NEXT! The hotel was nonetheless breathtaking! It was fit for a princess. No, I don’t think uploading snapshots of my hotel room would portray a sane image of yours truly. So just imagine. Big, spacious, king sized bed, floor length windows with sceneries of the busy streets of Tokyo. The tv channel was much MUCH more entertaining and alluring compared to our conventional, downright conservative and boring long television productions and advertisements. For once the spokesperson and endorsers aren’t international celebrities but local, gorgeous Japanese.

One of the prominent features of their Youth Culture are the trendy, fashion sense the youngsters carry. Sure, 90% of the women have brownish-golden dyed hair, coupled with their light makeup and chic dress up. I couldn’t help but ogle at their beauty.

Another thing to note is their utmost, deep respect and polite attitude for each other. Unlike Singaporeans (sorry, but this is the only country due for comparison), they are tons TONS courteous and treat one another with such grace and respect. I am now rather disgusted by Singapore’s service industry. The Japanese would smile, bow and plaster their face with a never-ending gleam of friendly emotion. I was thrown into an almost surreal, place for well-bred and civilized Garden of Eden.

Now, as a Singaporean myself, I should be rebuked for my non-patriotic nature towards my own country, however I can’t help but do a distinctive comparison between heaven and a hot pan.

Tokyo, you would instantly capture, has the speed and evanescence of the fastest and most sophisticated laptops invented. You would feel as if you’re lost inside a futuristic world whose foreign language furthers the complex labyrinth of perpetual motion.

If you’re planning for a next holiday, I would highly recommend visiting Tokyo, Roppongi Hills.

PS: No, this is NOT a payed advertisement. xDD I simply love Japan and that's all to it!

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HAHA, special links to my dearly beloved friends!

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/17936788/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/17936788/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 01:13:29 PDT
I've been really, REALLY busy coupled with constant, neverending, school assignments, Project Work PI to worry, continuous FA and tests (at least twice every week), and the upcoming CAs and Mid Year examinations (after June Holidays). I barely have time to complete my assignments on schedule or in advance to prepare/revise/mug for my tests and so forth. Needless to say, I've been stalked by depression and I actually (how absurd!) broke down during lessons for 2 times! (and counting... )

Life isn't easy OR CAREFREE when your humanities subject combination are the MOST demanding of all. History, a downright time consumer and joy-killer, fueled by essay writing Literature. BOTH requires content, content and MORE MORE MORE ESSAYS! Which thereby eradicates all possibilities of a free and happy JC life in which I have spent the past few months burying and revising on my subjects in this lonely room of mine.

I honestly died halfway - what you're reading now is a manifestation of my stressed/pressurized/depressed self.

I worked on my literature analysis from yesterday 10 pm to 6 am! Time consuming! But it was fun...eh...I enjoy mugging for literature. But of course, I have history test barking behind, chinese spelling to groan over, economic tutorial reprimanding in its silly tone and MATH CA1 SCREAMING MURDERER!

Well, I'm sorry that I'm wasting my youth and leisure time which I could have been happily indulging in. I'm also sorry that I'm unable to ogle over my anime/shounen ai/yaoi fetish.

I think I'm losing myself.

On a happier note, I'm going to Tokyo, Japan in May 26! I've already written a whole damn list of anime mechandise! MUAHAHAHA!

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/17466439/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/17466439/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 22:38:23 PDT
I've been watching Ogane Ga Nai (the uke and seme thing is just too cute! I was screaming the whole show through.) Gravitation is another uber awesome anime to be recognized as BEST SHOUNEN AI MANGA. (PS: I didn't read the manga, only watched the anime on veoh.com) Princess Princess is another Shoujo, NOT shounen ai though. So that was a tad disappointing.

Well, I'm watching Tactics now, Haruka is so....GORGEOUS. Crap, I'm getting obsessed with every male character in the Yaoi world. Say, Kanda (from D.Gray Man) and Haruka have the same voice actor! Oh, the ought to be exiled gorgeous, silky voice... (drools)

PS: Does anyone know of other good Shounen-ai or Yaoi shows?

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]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/17309575/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/17309575/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 23:01:56 PDT
Is it, therefore, wise for me to exhibit my support for Yaoi? (boy's love) Conventional people (like my family) might start sending me for professional therapy. But I can assure you I'm still (I think) perfectly sane. Can't reinforce those statements in the few days time though. Haha.

I think Yaoi is love! And Love is Yaoi! I'm just another crazy fangirl who has more time than normally required. (Irony: I have yet to complete my holiday assignments.)

Speaking of Yaoi, go read my D.Gray-Man fanfics! Featuring the lovely couple, Kanda Yuu and Allen Walker!!!

PS: EIRI YUKI IS SO GORGEOUS!!! Go watch Gravitation if you haven't. Good heavens, I sound like one of those uber-obsessed shonen-ai fangirl. Oh wait, I am! xDDD

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]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/17159946/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/17159946/ Mon, 03 Mar 2008 06:18:04 PST
I’m updating because THIS is perhaps the ONLY day I’m capable of touching the computer (actually sweeping my fingers across the keyboard feels rather nostalgic) I’m seriously Internet deprived and my life has therefore plunged into a state of uncertainty. But my school hours have kept my daydreams at bay.

I MISS WRITING FANFICTIONS!!! Didn’t I mention how writing is emotionally equivalent to my life? I am stuck with writing historical essays, literature analysis, General Paper (nuclear family, blah blah blah) and…basically, lifeless concepts. Alas, Cambridge markers expect a higher level of literacy on our part and therefore decided to purge ‘Narrative’ skills in A Levels.

I, for one, am against that notion. ‘Narrative’ or ' Personal Accounts’ are, to a degree depending on the individual’s talent, of equal importance to firms and industries. I’m not going to ramble on with an emotionally-ridden, tearful debate on ‘why we should include Narrative concepts in A Level essays’. Put ‘J.K Rowling’ ‘Dan Brown’ and ‘C.S Lewis.’ with ‘Bestseller author/poet.’ You get my drift.

Anyhow, hectic assignments have effaced my inspiration (ability?) to write and update my sequels. Sorry my dear readers! L I’m trying my best to produce a piece without stress nagging at the back of my head.

Oh, TOMORROW’S MY BIRTHDAY!!! (throws confetti) Shit, I'm getting old!!! The horror! The sheer denial!! Not that declaration would help attain my wishes for a) Kanda Yuu figurine b) D.Gray Man episodes c) Get into K1 d) Any D.Gray Man merchandise.

My new class barely knows me and old friends scattered in different JCs/classes. I miss them.

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/16733690/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/16733690/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 04:48:01 PST
I think I’m being rather silly AND ridiculous just waiting, restlessly, for an opportune moment to…. submit my latest piece of work, which is a photo-manipulation. I actually scraped it and thrashed it into the recycle bin. But after, hours and days without my dearly beloved Internet, I decided to re-work and edit it again.

Good heavens, I made the right choice…I suppose. I worked on that 600 x 900 pixels over a span of…2 days…off and on. I’d submit it, perhaps tomorrow morning?

Anyhow, my school is celebrating Chinese New Year and I hope my CNY poster would win that, absurd might I add, competition. I don’t really care about winning; primarily the free publicity involved. Why? I featured my work ‘Captured’ on the front. You get my drift. XD A few more (fine, hundreds!) to 3000 pageviews! WHOOT!

So what have I been busy with? Either than sleeping a lot and simply stressing myself over JC workload, I haven't had the bare probability to write the next few chapters of my fanfictions. Gomenasai, Kanda, Allen and my Yullen readers!

And oh, I just had my Common Assignment (another teacher’s definition for post-exam, honestly.) awesome no? Tch.

My class 1T07 is just…

STOP MAKING FUN OF MY BELOVED KANDA YUU!!! And he’s real! Every part of him comprises of flesh (pixels) and blood (ink)! HE’S REAL, I TELL YOU! REAL!!!!! (engages in a psychotic evil laughter)

They are, forever and I do mean FOREVER, commenting about ‘D.Gray-Man sucks like hell!’, ‘Kanda isn’t real!’, and ‘Spare us, we should have an anti-Kanda day!’. Haha, I suppose my continuous rambling about the anime had traumatized their nerves to the degree where their sanity climbs over the fence.

My class, apparently, do not have a specific preference for that anime which is, undoubtedly, morbid for it is ‘THE HOTTEST ANIME IN JAPAN!!!’

Ahem, sorry, so yes, where was I?

I’m going to Genting Highlands…AGAIN…for Chinese New Year holiday. Yay. How cool. I’m visiting and staying in the same hotel for the 2nd time in 3 months. The excitement of it all. Tch.

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]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/16548374/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/16548374/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 08:55:13 PST
I know it’s really pathetic and all, but hell! I’m damn proud of my English. I scored distinction. Haha. I was really freaking out internally, worried about my composition and such. My grades are, apparently, barely mediocre. My classmates are scoring around 6, 7, 8, 9 for their L1R5.

Oh well, I could regrettably proclaim myself as an unintelligent counterpart of the society. I shall, therefore, proceed to drown myself in emo writing and what not.

I’m NOT satisfied but I have no intention, whatsoever, of crying my eyeballs out of its very sockets. The cohort was grabbing, hugging and practically weeping like a bad reenactment of soap opera drama. A couple of students scored perfect 6 distinctions, which further trots my tormented heart.

Kanda says ‘Whatever.’ and he ‘doesn’t give a damn’ so I shan’t as well.

I’m having a dilemma on ‘should I continue staying in CJC for the 2nd intake?’ I’m not wholly tempted or contented with the subject combinations offered. I, for one, only love Literature and Maths. I absolutely loathe Southeast Asia History. There’s a mountain to study on H2 history!

Good Lord.

In fact, I’d much rather uptake Psychology at a polytechnic. My mother, however, was strongly against my preference. She mentioned something about “More priority is given to JC students.” and "Polytechnic indicates your inclination to work after graduation.”

Oh God, I’m such a fickle-minded person.

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]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/16279501/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/16279501/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 01:19:06 PST
Albeit how weird and nerdy it may sound, I can't wait to really get into those Literature books. My seniors were saying that Literature, History and Economic are tough but I begged to differ. If you have a passion for those subjects, it should be a breeze...no? Oh well, I'm actually anticipating for my A Levels...already. I can't wait to get it over and then with...the same goes for University.

And GOODNESS ME! (starts crazy fangirl squeal) I found a cosplay shop at Far East, Orchard! I didn't even know the small shop existed. The full set of D.Gray-Man exorcist costumes cost 148 bucks which is blatantly cheaper compared to the ones sold at eBay. But the fabric is...different, I suppose. But hell! I'm going to buy that Yuu Kanda costume! Muahahahaha. (Yuu-sama: Please DO NOT mar my good looks, thank you.)

My sister met 2 Kanda and Naruto cosplay fellows lingering at Orchard road, and claimed they looked like a freak show. I scolded her like any self-acclaimed, anime obsessed fangirl would. Good heavens. She didn't even snap a damn picture with them! What on earth was she thinking?! AHHHHHHHH! My beloved Kanda Yuu.....haha, at least you exist on this planet other than ink and pixels. Thank you. I shall go find/stalk you now. BWHAHAHAHA. (shifty eyes) He's mine! (brandishes a fake katana at fan club)

Until then, go read my Yullen fanfics, won’t you? Alas, I've no inspiration to write/update my stories...a new year isn't doing my poor computer any good. It's getting all stubborn like a mule and rusty at the edges. One of these days, I'll just have buy roses for its funeral. Oh, and once again I shall engage in my daily chanting….I must get 8 for L1R5….8….8…8!

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]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/15909645/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/15909645/ Wed, 12 Dec 2007 20:31:22 PST Catholic Junior College, the Arts steam of course! My first stepping stone towards becoming a journalist/writer!

My mom, and relatives, thought I had gone clinically insane. Only my father and sister supported my choice for the Arts steam. They felt that, judging from my Prelim grades, I should opt for the Science steam. It resulted in a very long, very emotional debate. I mean, they're NOT the ones enrolling into the damn school! I should make my own choices and decision.

No matter, Catholic JC isn't my aspiring school anyway. I want to get into Raffles Junior College, and enroll in their Humanities Scholarship Programme. I love humanities! Woot! Go LITERATURE!!! MUAHAHAHAHA! (engages in mad queen evil laughter)

It all depends on my 'O' Level results now. MUST GET 8! 8!!! Eight or lower!

I shall rule the universe with my pwnful writing and what not. (ahem! Yu-sama says that you only write fanfictions.) Gomen! I shall continue writing my, um, stupid fanfictions...featuring KANDA X ALLEN, of course! YAY FOR YULLEN!

READ MY FANFIC HERE --> [link] [WARNING: Yaoi.]

In the meantime, I'm really writing ALOT. (What on earth do you think I'm doing this december holiday?) I spend at least 12 hours a day - reading, researching, and improving my writing skills. I met a 14 year old, UK, aspiring author - like me - and her english comprised of a level much higher than mine. It was, as one would usually feel (I'm 16! for crying out loud!), degrading. Quite demoralizing too, if I might add. But no matter, I must improve!!!

And oh, MY AUNT PROMISED AN AIRTICKET TO JAPAN! if I got into CJC. So yup, yup. I'm one step closer to Kanda Yu! (Yu-sama: sweat drop) Sorry Yu-sama!

Oops, why am I speaking to myself? That's what a journal's for, isn't it? (Yu-sama: NO.) Okay, then - please excuse me while I go stalk/read/write more!

OH, I'm praying hard to get into Raffles Junior College with regards to my 'O' Levels. Damn! A professor said that I needed to get into the Humanities Scholarship Programme to major in English Literature for my university.

Good heavens.

If I, ever, got into RJC, I'd just go barmy.

And woot! I'm going to Genting Highlands (Yu-sama: for many times already? o_0) again! Oh yes, it's boring but...muahahaha...I'm also going to Desaru to catch fireflies! And with my adorable cousins too, they're equally wacky like me! (Yu-sama: ....)

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]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/15487738/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/15487738/ Tue, 13 Nov 2007 01:58:32 PST
I'm not even happy to leave the school. A new start at some Junior College. o_0 I only wish to get into the JC of my choice.

You know, people often regret their actions and would weep over self-inflicted consequences. I try not to fall into the same catergory. And yet...my emotions are traitors! I should have really, buried my nose in those damn books! So who am I to complain about my exams now?

I MUST GET A SINGLE DIGIT FOR MY GRADES! (prays hard and does some physic mental reversal)

THE only good part about after-exams is, you transform from a caged-bird-with-knowlege-input to a free-bird-with-regrets. GAH. x.x

MUST GET SINGLE DIGIT. 8! must get 8...will get 8...
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]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/14836900/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/14836900/ Sat, 29 Sep 2007 06:18:16 PDT
SO, my L1R5 is 12 points. Pathetic, I know. I am aiming for a single digit for my O Levels. 8 would be nice. Lucky number! All I've been doing is maths, maths and MATHS. I seriously need to improve on my Biology and Chemistry.

I can't do science for nuts. It's like teaching my father to sing. -_-; Foreign Language. I noticed that science is like memorising from the textbook! I CAN'T MEMORISE TO SAVE MY LIFE!!! Why? Oh god, why must I be forced to study science? It's horrible. Just dreadful. I'd gladly write infinite english/literature essays. I love writing and something NOT from the textbook. Artsy stuff. Really, the education system should catergorise the students according to their different abilities. You can't be good at both sides. Science or the Arts.

But thank you god for giving me a decent english foundation. I got A2 for English and Literature. I'm happy because...in my school, getting A for english is no easy feat. -_-; Or maybe it's because I'm just stupid. Pfft.

I watched Marchen Awakens Romance and D.N ANGEL on Youtube, it was awesome! DARK and Alviss IS GORGEOUS. HAHA. Kanda has competition! ANIME ROCKS! I don't understand why my friends and classmates DON'T watch Anime. I mean, it's suicide! HOW ON EARTH CAN YOU NOT WATCH D.GRAY MAN??!!! The manga pwns all!

Too bad they're ending it on Episode 52. The second season starts next year March. I'll have to wait for centuries before the VCD FINALLY COMES TO SINGAPORE!!! DAMN IT! I've been searching for the VCD like...ages. o_0 My sister even went to Malaysia to find the anime show. It's hopeless, I tell you! Pfft, maybe Genting Highlands don't sell Anime CDs. o_0 Enlighten me, someone. I WANT THE DAMN VCD!!!

Prior to my O Levels, my mother asked me to take Study Leave from school. I was like, "Sure, go convince the stupid principal first." She's one blockhead. :K Not like I'm doing anything practical studying at home. =/ Oh wells, I'm off to do some A Maths paper....again. I have 7 more and counting...

PS: I SHALL SHIP KANDA/ALLEN & LAVI/ALLEN. woohoo! *coughs* RANDOM COMMENT *coughs*

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]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/14671063/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/14671063/ Mon, 17 Sep 2007 09:19:13 PDT 1 MORE MONTH TO 'O' LEVEL EXAMS!!! No, I ain't studying...yet.

I'm excited and anxious to get it over and done with. But 40% afraid of not getting prepared for the papers. My Prelim exams was like taking a stroll in HELL. I hope that my grades are sufficient to enter the first 3 months of Junior College or I'll just kick the bucket.

I received an A2 (74/100) grade for my A Maths. I lost 7 marks due to pure carelessness and stupidity. Just 1 mark to A1!! DAMN.

30-18=2. Ain't I the smartest prick? (rolls eyes) Moral of the story? NEVER WATCH D.GRAY MAN AND SLEEP AT 3 AM THE DAY BEFORE MATH PAPERS. I ended up thinking and laughing myself silly about the show...couldn't concentrate well on the calculation. But I suppose that I shouldn't make excuses...oh wells...

My mother went on her usual berserk temperament. Chill, mom. o_0 She bought all sorts of herbal tea and vitamins. Apparently, she's convinced that half of my brain cells died. I wonder what's her reaction if my O level grades do not meet her expectations? Pfft.

My math tuition teacher threw her file when I told her. She actually slammed her file on the table and went, "WHAT?!! Careless, again? How many times must I ask you to check your work?! TSK!" Insert more exclamation marks and glares. Is she having high expectations or just embarrassed to produce an A2 student? For the record, my entire tuition class scored A1. (sniffs)

I'm hoping to score an A for my Literature, E Maths and English. That's all. I'll be satisfied. For someone who studied the day before the actual paper. Go me?!

EDITED 18/9/07: I GOT A1 (80.5/100) FOR E MATHS! AND I passed the damn chemistry paper. Woohoo! (does a happy dance)

PS: KANDA YU AND ALLEN WALKER RULES!!! (swoons) *coughs* RANDOM COMMENT *coughs*

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CLUBS I'VE JOINED:


MY [Kanda x Allen] FANFICTIONS: [link]

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/14453317/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/14453317/ Sun, 02 Sep 2007 09:28:09 PDT

Silly old' me is going to learn how to CG on photoshop...to produce that high quality colored Anime drawing. I've been talking for months on coloring my drawings. So now, I'm going to practice my drawing skills, read up more on coloring/screentoning, and just practice, practice, PRACTICE!

My 'O' Level examinations are just a month away...but I suppose a little drawing won't hurt. My sister thinks I'm a hopeless case. I'm always...uh... hobby-hopping. One minute photomanip, next writing, drawing anime, photomanip, planets, avatars, cosplay, photography, sewing, back to drawing and coloring. To put frickle-mindedness in a nice way, I call it the 'growing' stage when I'm trying to search for an identity or passion to indugle in.

OH! I'm currently learning how to sew the D.Gray Man, Exorcist's uniform. My mother is helping me with it. My father grumbled. And my sister thinks I'm crazy. It's going to take a long...long....VERY long time. Oh well, even if it turns out like an 'obasan' dress, I'll still wear it. Haha.

HOPEFULLY, the next time I submit a deviation, it's a fully colored/screentoned Anime drawing. Wish me luck in my quest of tutorials and drawings. o_0

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]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/14416310/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/14416310/ Thu, 30 Aug 2007 19:45:30 PDT
RIGHT NOW, I'm into cosplay, drawing and writing fanfictions. Featuring my future fiancee, Kanda Yu! Muahahaha.

Kanda x Allen fanfics: [link]

It's been years since I last wrote a Spirited Away fanfiction, but my writing hasn't improved a tiny bit. Shudders. Anyways, for all KANDA X ALLEN FANS, take a look yeah?

I scanned a couple of Kanda Yu fanart but the lines were horribly detached. I don't think submitting scratchy art stuff would compliment Kanda. (sniffs)

And guess what? I just have had my Prelim exams and it was fairly okay. My Chemistry paper was one hell of a brain-killer. I honestly died, racking my brains. My Literature was good, A Maths was fine, E Maths was okay. No fingers crossed because I crammed into the last minute studies - as strongly protested by fellow teachers. But I was busy...uh...writing. xD

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]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/14083310/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/14083310/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 00:12:40 PDT
BUTTERFLY DANCE PRINT AVAILABLE [link]

AUDIENCE PRINT: [link]

It's weird, really. I suddenly felt worried about my Prelim examinations. Haha. Three cheers for my returning senses and emotions. I felt like I've been acting like a zombie this past few days. I wore that couldn't-be-bothered attitude and I-don't-care-about-exams.

My O Levels English Oral exam is just 3 days from now. Great.

It's funny... I suddenly feel like studying. x_x I reckon that all my friends and classmates are studying. Oh wells... stress.... stress... STRESS!

AND OH, I've become addicted to D. Gray-Man. YU-KANDA IS SO HOT!!! -pokes webcam- It puzzles me why people think he looks like a girl. Okay... so the guy has a long ponytail. But hey! I love his cool, cold and misunderstood character.

I just realised that all anime guys with long hair are hot! Sesshoumaru-sama has long hair too! -drools-

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My neighbour just passed away. I don't really know her that well. She's an old lady who always walk around the neighbourhood. My mother told me she probably passed away yesterday or tuesday. BUT I JUST SMILED AND TALKED TO HER ON TUESDAY! She looked healthy and well. I suppose life is really fragile and death comes without warning.

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MY LOVELY FRIENDS:
She has lovely drawings and art!
The most friendly person on DA!

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/14057699/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/14057699/ Tue, 07 Aug 2007 10:25:27 PDT BUTTERFLY DANCE PRINT AVAILABLE [link]

AUDIENCE PRINT: [link]

I had my English and Social Studies Prelim exams this week. English was fairly okay... but Social Studies was horrible. If I 'do' fail my Social Studies paper...I'm not going to make excuses. What can I say? I'm a procastinator. Lately, I lacked the motivation to study.

Today, my maths teacher brought her Wacom Tablet to school! I've never felt so envious in my entire life. My friend and I were drooling over the program. It was awesome. Expensive. Impossible to get. Well...unless I decide to rob a bank or something. I don't even dare to dream about getting one.

Anyways, to feed my dying desperation of fanart. I finally uploaded my fanart of Ichimoku Ren. Painted it entirely on Adobe Photoshop. PHOTOSHOP! NOT TABLET. Bleh. It saddens me that I can only produce mediocre drawings. Adobe Photoshop set certain limits and boundaries. I suppose that I really need a WACOM TABLET if I'm going to major in art.

Bleh. I'm so jealous of my Maths teacher!

HOW IRONIC. I wrote an english essay based on being hopeless. I'm REALLY a hopeless case.

Recently, I've lost faith and trust in many people. Stop being a hypocrite, it's really disgusting.

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As I watched my sister break down and scream at my mother. It wasn't the scene that broke my heart but it was almost as if I could feel my sister's pain. I was in her. I was a part of her. Unconsciously, tears started trickling down my cheeks and I quickly wiped it away.

I didn't want to be as weak and emotional like my elder sister. I wanted to be strong and cold so that I could not feel her pain. But it was furtile effort, of course.

I cried with her.

If you've always watched drama scenes of mother and daughter reunion. You'll understand what I mean. But of course, it wasn't ANY mother and daughter happy ending.

My sister has always been my pillar of support. She was someone I could confide and trust in. Someone I looked to for support. Whenever I was down or depressed with my life, she never failed to bring laughter to my lips. There was NO such term as 'depression, sadness and anger." I felt happy and blessed with such a family member.

However, recent events has led me to think twice. I have been SELF-CENTERED and unappreciative. I have always been the one who grumbles about life. But what about my sister? She has a life too. And recently, she has been stressed up with her evil manager and friends who made use of her. I was blind to her pains.

Why didn't I think of HOW she felt?

As I watched my pillar of support breaking down, I couldn't help but cry. What am I do if my stength breaks down? I would be nothing more but a lost and depressed teenager.

I hated my mother. I always knew she was a hypocrite and to think I have been disillusioned by her 'acting skills'. My sister is 21 years old and my mother treats her like a 5 year old. For God's sake, she ALREADY a 50 year old mother and she's practically tearing the family apart.

Honestly, I have no idea what's up her sleeves. I've read a book called, 'The Joy Luck Club' by Amy Tan. Her story revolves around the mother and daughter relationships. How cultural, language, country barriers strain their relationships. The problem began with the daughters misunderstanding their mothers' intentions.

I hate this book. It speaks nothing but surface relationships. IT WAS NO MISUNDERSTANDING. Idiot.

I've seen everything. It WAS all my mother's fault. As of now, I hope that I'll never see my sister cry again.

Jie Jie, you know when you cried...I really felt so lost and cried with you... I'm sorry that I can't help to lighten your burdens and emotional pressure. Thank you for being my sister and staying with me throughout my hard times.

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LATELY, I've seen so many things that made me recollect my past memories. To rethink about the past, really made me feel like an idiot. But right now, I feel like screaming at my journal regarding a few mis-guided souls. (rolls eyes) I really need to release my anger. Dreafully sorry if the below entry seems inchorent and immature. But I really wish to scold these people.

This classmate thinks she's very pretty, trust me she looks like a guy, and feeds her ego by bullying others. She thinks that other(unpopular kids) are ugly and actually said it to their face. YOU STUPID IDIOT, FREAKING UGLY AND GUY-LOOK-ALIKE WOMAN! GO TO HELL! ALTHOUGH YOU ALREADY LOOK LIKE A DISFIGURED ALIEN, I HOPE THAT SOMEONE TEARS OUT YOUR UGLY FACE!!!!

I was doing homework with my friends. THIS so-called friend actually told me "Woah, we do all this already and you haven't finished. So slow." I told her, "If you're so good, then why you try lah!" I can't believe she actually had the nerve! Okay, I know I'm stupid but the math was really difficult. She ended up taking the whole night doing it. See? Not some mathematic genius huh? I really pity myself for having such so-called friends. Gosh, she actually thinks she's some genius. Idiot.

Even my friends. (sighs) What has the world turned into? There's no one I can trust, except my sister. But...I need to be strong so that I protect my sister as well.

I really want to scream at these people because they disregard others. No man is more superior than the other. I seriously hate those hypocrites and people who think they're all high and mightly. To those people: Go eat shit. Thanks. It's people like you who disrupts peace and friendliness. Why do God even create such people?

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13766329/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13766329/ Tue, 17 Jul 2007 06:12:20 PDT
THE LONG, LONG, LONG, BORING, BUT YOU MUST READ, STORY.

My first photomanipulation --> [link]
It was a simple task of extracting the image and toning the colors. It was pretty easy and so I deem that little effort was put into making. My first try with the basic photoshop knowledge I have.

My second attempt --> [link]
Another simple attempt of extracting, blending, and toning.

First-time painting on Photoshop --> [link]
Hell yeah, I spent 12 hours painting this! Alot of effort but it didn't work out.

Second-attempt at Painting---> [link]
I adored the model and background. I worked over a period of 3 days on this. It was made specially for my sister who loves butterflies. Our family relationship has been strained recently. With my heavy school revision and her job, I hardly speak to her these days. I miss my sister.

END OF BORING STORY

Overall, it looks like I have more reading up to do. But first, I need a Painter and Wacom Tablet! Adobe Photoshop IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH ANYMORE. Honestly, I've NEVER worked so patiently before. Hmm? Should I sell Butterfly Dance for print?

I need money to buy those painting programs.

ANYWAYS, I'm painting Ren from Jigoku Shoujo. It's NOT a photomanipulation. I drew him. So yup, I'll upload it....when I'm finished. Currently, I'm too lazy to paint.

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13753345/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13753345/ Mon, 16 Jul 2007 06:27:40 PDT MOST careless person on the entire universe. I suppose I can regard it as an ordinary human flaw but I'm way OVER the line. I LOST MY IC! You can take it literally 1) Identification Card 2) Identity Crisis. If you lose an IC in my country, it's like losing your share in stocks. As of now, I'm not a Singaporean NOR can I proof that I am one. It's ironic, really. Because I'm not a patriotic person and (coughs) I'd love to migrate to Japan!

Why do I say that I've lost my identity? Because sometimes, I just don't UNDERSTAND myself! I know I'm stupid and all, but DAMN! WHO ON EARTH IS SO CARELESS LIKE ME?! I think God is trying to tell me something....(sweat drop)

Even my clumsy old' sister NEVER lost her Identification Card. My god, my mother will just jump over a hill if she finds out. It cost 100 bucks to make a new one. I see my ANGBAO money flying away...

Pardon me for rumbling about my (coughs) human flaw... but gosh, I really can't tolerate myself sometimes. JORAIN! HOW DARE YOU LOSE YOUR IC! (stabs)

It's not the first time, honestly. Today, I had my 'O' Level examination. I was so careless not to read the choices carefully! Some idiot, huh? I feel like killing myself sometimes. I suppose all that time on photoshop has turned me bonkers. My friend told me that since I have been designing for the past few days, only my creative side is working. Which means that my rational one isn't. Wow, thanks RATIONAL BRAIN CELLS! Please return! -_-

Honestly, I've been acting like a zombie today. My eyes and sleepy brain betrayed me! But then again, I've always lived like a zombie. Boo.

Wish me luck. I hope to find my Identification Card tomorrow. Or I can safely assume that I'm DEAD MEAT.

::EDIT:: I FOUND MY IC!!!

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13668571/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13668571/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 08:05:22 PDT
Yesterday, I spent 12 hours on the computer....painting on photoshop. It was a long, dreadful process. But I enjoyed painting the dress...it's pink! Haha. The face was one HELL of a challenge. I actually paint and deleted several times before I finally gave up. Thus my lastest piece, REMINISCE, looks like some poor vectorized image. It looks like how my 3 year old cousin would paint.

All that painting got me tired. 12 HOURS!! I suffered the effects. Honestly, I've never felt so weary before. Oh wells...it'll be my last time.

Lately, I've been really disappointed in someone. I can't say much. But I've lost my trust in her. I can't change one's personality. What's more? I don't even know, myself, if she's really a friend. ARGH.

Anyways, I'm saying good bye to internet for this week. I'll come up with another manipulation this sunday. Next time, I'll in more effort and hard work. NO MORE PROCASTINATION!

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13643501/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13643501/ Sat, 07 Jul 2007 07:12:16 PDT
I've been long amused by tarot cards and decided to feature the mystic deck. Right now, I'm trying to learn painting and airbrushing. (I'm still a novice at photoshop, okay?)

This is my way to confront 'O' Level exam stress. Study less, play more. I reckon it's a fool's method to cope with stress. But then again, who cares? I need photoshop to take my mind off exams.

I'm thinking of making a mermaid manipulation... tails anyone?

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13572615/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13572615/ Mon, 02 Jul 2007 03:02:58 PDT
I browsed through the various photo-manipulations and got really inspired. I went "Oh...wow...awesome!" That's when I started experimenting on photoshop, looking for stock images and brushes. Took me 3 hours!!! Gosh, I think I need glasses now.

AND guess what? I accidentally saved my edited work into the original copy. OH MAN. I lost 3 hours of hard work! But it has been fun. xD Shows the sadistic side of me.

Ghost of Her Past ---> [link]

Okays, I'm REALLY off to study now. (grumbles) ]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13556426/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13556426/ Sat, 30 Jun 2007 20:31:56 PDT Jigoku Shoujo. (For those who don't know the show, tough luck! I don't intend to explain.) The author actually claimed that such a website existed. There were 2 websites. One can be accessed at anytime of the day BUT the other can only be accessed at 12 midnight (Japan time).

I reckon it's part of the director's plan to promote the show. But hey, it got my hopes up pretty high. It'd be nice to....(coughs) take revenge? Don't get me wrong, I'm not a petty person who goes around shouting "REVENGE!"

So...I accessed to the first hell website ([link]). Cool right? Too bad it ain't real, but it's still awesome! I actually viewed the source and codings. I don't think Enma Ai OR any Hell correspondence uses basic html/CSS, low quality graphic and flash. Nope. But damn! It'd be nice if it WAS real.

I couldn't access the 2nd website. I'm trying it at Japan time - 12 AM. MUAHAHAHA. I SHALL HAVE MY REVENGE!

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13401637/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13401637/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 02:19:12 PDT
Yes, I know I'm rumbling again. I honestly need a scaner... guess what my dearest mother said? "If you score well for your O' Levels, I'll buy you one!" Why, thanks Mom, you've been such a great motivater. (sarcasm) It's as good as telling me - Sure, but after the world comes to an end.

So you can imagine me looking like a firecracker about to explode any moment. In detail, I drew the aftermath of Spirited Away. 5 years later when Haku came back to visit Chihiro.

For myself and Spirited Away fans, I shall FIND A SCANER SOON!

And oh, I watched the Spirited Away (English Version) on Youtube, but it was disappointing. I prefer the cantonese version because the feelings were, really, there. HAKU!!!

Okays, it's about time I took my butt off the computer. 2 days of staring at the screen ain't something eye professionals encourage. Ho hum...I shall watch Totoro! Ciao.

::EDIT:: My sister says that my aunt has a scaner...BUT my aunt is not back in Singapore. -.-

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13388130/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13388130/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 01:14:47 PDT
So you can imagine how I would face the television, drawing Chihiro and Haku. I even made a scrapbook to contain all my art pieces (doddles included). BUT one day, I became an idiot and THREW my hard work.

I thought, "Hey, I'm moving on to Jijoku Shoujo, no more Spirited Away!"

Now, I'm back to Spirited Away. BUT I lost my VCD! No more drawings, movie and...(sniffs) .... I'm such a retard!!!

I could have uploaded my drawings here! Okay, so they aren't very fantastic artworks but it WAS my sweat and blood. But no, I had to throw them away! ARGH. Anyways, I drew a few pieces on Ichimoku Ren from Jigoku Shoujo (Girl From Hell). It's my new obsession. I'll upload them soon.... ONCE I find a scaner. (grumbles)

]]> ~justswell http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13380432/ http://justswell.deviantart.com/journal/13380432/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 11:46:21 PDT
BUT I remembered that I HAVE a portfolio, which is apparently collecting dustmites. Unfortunately, I had no mood to sit in front of the computer and upload everything. And volia! Here I am.

Muahaha, I uploaded 5 artworks in 1 day!

Okay, chill... (talks to self)

I've been lacking inspiration lately. I CAN'T DESIGN!!! I lost my creativity weeks ago while cracking my brains for Mock Exams. SO blame those teachers!!! (holds a knife)

I still have 3 more papers and English Oral Exam! Gosh, what am I doing here? xD (clings to devaintart) Hmm... I might consider subscribing...

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