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Edit, like one month later, or so...

Still not fixed. May have to resort to violence soon. Still cannot clean out messages. *dies again*

In other news, I <3'ed the new eps of Avatar. You know, the 2 that have come out so far.

Also, a quick tag, because I'm not much of a spoil-sport (I'm still not doing chain-crap, though, so don't bother).

The rules:
1. 8 random facts about tag-ee.
2. Tags should be in a journal/blog.
3. At the end of the post 8 more people are to be tagged and named.
4. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged.

THE FACTS:

1. Random, huh?... I never had to make a lanyard in elementary school. No, I don't know why I thought of that.

2. Grey DeLisle, Meredith McCoy and Tara Strong are my favorite cartoon voice actresses. Ever.

3. One of my latest DnD characters is a semi-blatant clone of Hansi Kursch (Blind Guardian frontman).

4. I have no idea who my biological paternal grandfather is. Ah well.

5. Er... *thinks* I can eat my weight in potatoes... not literally, of course, but I really, really like potatoes.

6. I'm still looking for a copy of the Kalevala (Finnish National Epic). Anyone have one?

7. I realized recently that I really need to live somewhere that actually has cold winters. NC winters blow chunks like you wouldn't believe (actually, summers here suck, too ).

8. I write an average of 2 single-spaced pages per day... recreationally.

]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/13346949/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/13346949/ Thu, 14 Jun 2007 18:56:02 PDT
^I have an updated version of my Tarik character for yet another RP, but I've been reluctant to post it because it didn't want to scan well. I think I'll just bite the bullet and rip it out of my sketchbook so you can see the darn thing. So... reference sheet on the way, or something.

^I need to get caught up on some journals for school, so I may be scarce for a little bit. But I'm not dead yet.

^I finally broke down and got Limewire, so now I have a crapload of music I can (hopefully) use for inspiration. We shall see.

^I'm trying to teach myself Old English online. Just a random thing I wanted to pick up.

1) Full Name: Stacey Begley. You get no middle name. So there.
2) Male/Female: Female.
3) Were you named after anyone?: No, I’m pretty sure I wasn’t.
4) Does your name mean anything?: ‘Resurrection.’
5) Nick Name(s): Eve, K, Hallows, Hally… etc.
6) What do you think you look like…name wise?: Erm… I dunno.
7) Date Of Birth: 5-21-86.
8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Columbus, OH; Sanford, NC.
9) Nationality: American, though I have a lot of Irish in my background.
10) Astrology Sign: Gemini. Not that I care.
11) Chinese Astrology Sign: Tiger.
12) Religion: Christian. Church of Christ, specifically.
13) What’s your favorite smell?: Not sure… leather and gasoline smell really good.
14) Political Position?: Moderate/Unaffiliated.
15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: Nothing until I fully wake up; I’ll get sick. >.<
16) Hair + Eye color: Brown hair, brown eyes.
17) Do you look like anyone famous?: I doubt it.
18) What do you look like?: Ugly. No one bother arguing with me.
19) Any unusual talents?: I can make the pupils of my eyes shake. ‘Tis cool.
20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: Lefty FTW.
21) Straight, Bi, Gay or Other?: Straight. I know I’ve asked this before, but… what’s ‘other?’ Eh…
22) What do you do for a living?: Full-time student. I mooch for a living.
23) What do you do for fun?: Roleplay, write, read, play games, sleep… not much, basically.
24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?: Mechanical pencils.
25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: I really want a Wacom tablet and PS.
26) Have you met your grandparents?: Yes…
27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Not currently.
28) Crush: Crushes are rather idiotic, as far as I’m concerned.
29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: I would say Jonny Depp, but I dunno, because if he was a jerk in real life, I wouldn’t want the delusion shattered.
30) Current worries?: School, my grip on reality… the usual.
31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s): …and I’ll take auditions for favorite gentleman.
32) Favorite place to be?: In bed, fo’ rizzle. School can bite me.
33) Least favorite place to be?: School, at the moment.
34) Do you burn or tan?: My ability to tan was rescinded when I lived in AK, but has since returned. I tan now.
35) Ever break a bone?: Just ribs. And I didn’t break them. Don’t blame me. >.>
36) What is your favorite cereal?: I hate cereal.
37) Person you cry with: I cry alone, thank ye very much. I don’t like others to see me cry.

Do You Have...
38) Any sisters: No, but m-kunoya’s practically a sister (‘cept we get along better than siblings ).
39) Any brothers: Two younger.
40) Any pets: Labrador retriever.
41) An Illness: Depression, PTSD. I know I’ve answered this before…
42) A Pager: Nuh-uh.
43) A Personal phone line: Nada.
44) A Cell phone: Zilch.
45) A visible birthmark: On my arm.
46) A Pool or hot tub: I wish.
47) A Car: Not yet.

Describe Your...
48) Personality: Contradictory… terminally shy (in person), reserved (in person)—takes me a while to open up to people, but when I do I adore them. Supposedly very intelligent, but... ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/12822031/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/12822031/ Wed, 02 May 2007 22:02:44 PDT AOdinn tagged me so I figured I'd be a sport and do it. Especialy since I threatened to steal his iPod and all. Eh, I think these 'shuffle your player' things are kind of amusing, anyway. I get to compare and see who has similar musical tastes. 'Tis all in good fun. Anywho:

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!

1. How are you feeling today?
Stately Lover – Lacuna Coil (I’m not in love, though…particularly not hopelessly, desperately so.)

2. Will you get far in life?
Main Titles – The Corpse Bride Soundtrack (a pretty song…so I guess I will go far, or whatever.)

3. How do your friends see you?
On L Y One – Slipknot (er…think I need therapy? *twitch*)

4. Will you get married?
Everyone – Adema (doesn’t sound like it, does it? That's kinda depressing.)

5. What is your best friend's theme song?
Sacred Grove – Twilight Princess Soundtrack (aww… Sam, that’s awesome. )

6. What is the story of your life?
No More Tears – Ozzy (I really don’t think I wanna comment on this one, actually… )

7. What was middle school like?
Born as Ghosts – Rage Against The Machine (I don’t remember it being quite that bad…but it sucked pretty hardcore nonetheless.)

8. How can you get ahead in life?
Seven Drunken Nights – Irish Compilation thingie ( Too funny. I'll get far by drinking my half-Irish arse off!)

9. What is the best thing about your friends?
Like You – Evanescence (well, they aren’t dead, but I do miss ‘em…not that that fits the question…yeah, this one doesn’t fit.)

10. What is in store for this weekend?
The Way Out is Through – Nine Inch Nails (staving off insanity yet again, I see. Sounds pretty accurate. )

11. To describe your grandparents?
Where Is Everybody – Nine Inch Nails (same album twice in a row? Whoa. )

12. How is your life going?
Eternal – Evanescence (holy crap, that was all ninja-like and stuff.)

13. What song will they play at your funeral?
Ostegolation – Static-X (that would be so cool! But my family would never go for that. Curses.)

14. How does the world see you?
Nemo – Nightwish (this song rocks my socks like you don’t even know.)

15. Will you have a happy life?
Heaven’s a Lie – Lacuna Coil (whoa, that’s deep. I’ll leave that for you to figure out.)

16. What do your friends really think of you?
Come As You Are – Nirvana (I swear I’m not making these up. They’re way too funny for me to think of. Shuffle rules. )

17. Do people secretly look after you?
My Immortal – Evanescence (that’s creepy… really. Seriously, that’s weird.)

18. How can you make yourself happy?
Whisper (Anywhere But Home Version) – Evanescence (I know what this means! I must go to an Evanescence concert to fulfill my life’s dreams!)

19. What should you do with your life?
The Only Thing – Stabbing Westward (aww, that’s cute. Irrelevant, but cute. :3)

20. Will you ever have children?
Sacrifice Theory – AFI (I think this one and the one above should have been switched, fo’ rizzle.)

(By the way... I kinda went more on the lyrics and moods of the actual songs as far as whether they fit, rather than just the title. Titles just don't cut it, IMNSHO. And I found it interesting that out of 1600+ songs, so many Evanescence ones popped up. Huh.)

I dunno who I'll tag yet. I need to find three people willing to do it... and if you want to go right ahead, don't wait for me. Huzzah for volunteer-basis. I'll read it, honest.

]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/12609541/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/12609541/ Sun, 15 Apr 2007 18:08:37 PDT I don't even own a cat...

I dunno, felt like updating again, blah, blah, blah. You know the drill. It's an ill-attempt at self-discipline.

^Have a new drawing in the works (actually, it's almost done). I'm so proud of myself for doing 3 drawings in 3 months. It'll be in a similar style to the last two I've done; it's a potential PC in the works, but what I end up doing with him is anyone's guess. Spawned by a very long TP marathon, and though he ended up not being Link, you'll be able to see that influence. What can I say? I'll take inspiration wherever I can get it.

^The weather's getting really crazy around here: it goes between windy and rainy to very calm. Sort of like a hurricane, but the wind's not as bad. It rolled in from Texas, and all I can say is they can keep the tornadoes. The way it is right now (rain+wind=coolness) is just fine.

^The RP is going pretty well so far, though it's starting to slow down. I'm ready to get out of the tournaments and into class, fo' rizzle.

^I have a random urge to make a video for YouTube. I doubt anything will ever come of that, but I thought I'd mention it anyway.

^I'm lobbying for contacts again, because I hate my glasses. I just broke them recently is why. Stupid things annoy the crap outta me. And besides, I miss being able to wear sunglasses and see at the same time. Why does this have any real significance? I promised (a few people) an updated ID, since that one there's pretty old. And I've been putting it off because I always look like a troll in my photos. Maybe I'll be able to take one I only-slightly hate, and if that happens (big-ass IF), I'll change my ID. Because that one's starting to bug me. Warning: Eve is not photogenic. Period.

^Statistics is the worst class ever. That's all I have to say about that. And in English, we're reading 'Death of a Salesman', which I hate. Honestly, it reminds me too much of a conglomeration of the most obnoxious members of my extended family, and therefore has no redeeming value whatsoever. I would like to move on to Shakespeare, please! *begs on hands and knees*

Alright, unless something interesting comes up, like my house being destroyed by a tornado, I think I'm done for now.

Cheers, all.

]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/12368847/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/12368847/ Wed, 28 Mar 2007 21:13:42 PDT Rarely as in almost-never.

What useless things can I tell you about, mildly amusing or otherwise... hur...

^Went to my Uncle Dan's wedding this weekend. Considering how long they had to plan it out (2 years), and the fact that they were apparently in no hurry to begin with, one would assume that it would be well-planned and rehearsed. Well, no.

Let me see if I can create a good mental picture for you: You know how you used to do pretend weddings when you were little (yes, Petree, I know you did. )? You'd get all your friends together (or your Barbies/Legos/GI Joes together, if you had no friends), and they'd all stand around and mimic a wedding, without any real clue as to what they were doing...

Got that mental image? Good. Now imagine the bride and groom are in their late 30s, instead of 5. There's a guy standing with the bridesmaids (as in among them). The baby's up there with the bridesmaids screaming and squirming, 'till you think they're gonna drop him on his head. The best man and co. don't escort anyone back and forth. Everyone's hurrying down the aisle so they can get to the reception at some random bar (we didn't go). The only one who knows what he's doing, or seems to take it seriously at all, is the minister, and he doesn't seem to be enjoying himself much (not that you could tell unless you knew him, but my family knows him). 'Twas a circus. And I didn't even get any friggin' food.

^The air conditioner's broken upstairs. Again. For about the third time. Just in time for the temp to start getting into the 80s. I'm gonna murder me an a/c company in a minute. It wouldn't be so bad, except our bedrooms are upstairs, and sleeping in the heat is miserable, and nothing short of impossible.

^We finally managed to find a Wii. And we bought Twilight Princess, and I've been compulsively drooling ever since. Midna is officially the coolest character in LoZ history. Aside from Link, of course. Cooler than Tetra. Yeah, you heard me. Oh, good Lord, the senseless fangirling. Run while you can.

^ I still need new Avatar episodes. Because watching Azula torch small wildlife is fun. And watching the rampant ravings of Zutara shippers is fun, too: "OMG, they were trapped in a cave together and absolutely nothing happened so it must have been a huge Zutara moment!" You guys are so fun to pick on. But I love you, really.

^Grandpa Psycho is coming down for Easter, just in time to ruin most of my Spring Break. I didn't really want to relax, anyway. -_-

Eh, that's all I have for now. 'Til then...

]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/12045126/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/12045126/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 19:48:15 PST
Er... uploaded some pics. Rather I updated one and uploaded a new one (the one from the last journal. Remember? No? Fine, be that way. ).

'Thunderhorse' is the coolest GH2 song ever. That and 'Six'. Six is a butt-kicker unless you spend some time on it, but Thunderhorse is just fun. It's from Metalocalypse (Adult Swim). Cool beans.

Yep, I have nothing life-changing--or even remotely interesting--to say. Wish I did, but alas. I don't. So sorry.

I dunno. Anyone know when the new season of Avatar is supposed to start? I'm freaking sick of reruns.

]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/11475282/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/11475282/ Wed, 17 Jan 2007 20:24:12 PST

Stuff:

^I have a laptop. So now I can show up a bit more often, and be more active here on dA.

^I made a new picture, of a new DnD character. I think he's adorable. I'll post him as soon as he's scanned (and I come up with a name and stats for the lil' bugger).

^So far school hasn't been overly time-consuming... but we'll see how that goes, as I've had no major assignments yet.

^...Knights of the Old Republic killed my social life for about a week.

...Eh, that's all I can think of for now.

As always.

]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/10978467/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/10978467/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 23:15:22 PST
My hard drive is fried and has descended into the 9th circle of Hell for betraying me. It's possitively and irriversibly dead. So I don’t have computer access—I mean, I’m using my dad’s laptop, but I’m not supposed to use it for anything but homework, so this is a one-time deal. I probably won’t be back ‘til after Christmas, so Happy Christmahanzakwanikkah and I’ll reply to any comments and journals I can when I get a functional computer. and perhaps regale you with tales of my crazy extended family when I return from Ohio. That's always fun, right? Right?

By the way, when I say I won't be here, that means pretty much anywhere else I lurk around, too, i.e. Snafu, Myspace, Fanfiction, et cetera, ad nauseum.

I’ll go ahead and do your survey-thing, Ganon, ‘cause it’d be kinda pointless to do later. Here goes, but I’m not the most interesting person out there, so I won’t get very far. Anywho:

Five Things I Love that Most People Don't Know the Existence Of.

1. Kittie – An all-female metal band. Not prissy, either. A couple of you guys know what I’m talking about, but you’d be surprised how many people don’t. At the moment, ‘Spit’ is my favorite album. I listen to it when I need to kill something. go check out their Myspace page or whatever.

2. Matzo – Seriously, you’d think people would know what it is. I love matzo (the best way I can describe it is like a big, salt-less, kosher saltine cracker). They’re just good.

3. Wikipedia's 'random page' function - What can I say, school bores the living crap outta me. I love it when I don't have a particular subject in mind, or I've already checked out the discussion/talk pages for 'beowulf' and 'norse mythology'. the discussion pages are an endless source of entertainment, by the way.

4. Blade of the Immortal – A manga by Hiroaki Samura. A lot of people here at dA know about it, but I can’t seem to have a conversation with anyone in real life—they all get that blank stare. Anyway, best manga style ever. Best characters: Hyaku-rin and Giichi.

5. Soren - *laughs* I know, I’m hopeless. The most obscure video game character I’ve fangirled over in a while. For the most part, Fire Emblem fans are the only ones who get it, though anyone who’s been watching me for a while knows what I’m talking about by now.

Tags: anyone who actually bothered to read this journal.

]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/10593699/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/10593699/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 13:34:13 PST 2) Name Backwards: Yecats...Woah. Never noticed that.
3) Were you named after anyone?: Nope.
4) Does your name mean anything?: It means 'Resurrection', I believe. Couldn't tell you what language, though.
5) Nick Name(s): Eve, k, Bagel, Stace. Not much else.
6) Screen Name(s): kitana hallowseve, or some variation thereof (like Eve on Myspace).
7) Date Of Birth: May 21.
8) Place of Birth: Columbus, Ohio.
9) Nationality: American
10) Current Location: North Carolina. And no, I don't like basketball.
11) Sign: Gemini. but I don't bother with that whole zodiac thing.
12) Religion: Christian. Relax, I don't bite.
13) Height: 5'6"
14) Weight: You know, I really have no clue.
15) Shoe Size: 11 1/2 (women's), 8 1/2 (men's). The better to kick you with, my dear.
16) Hair colour: Dark brown. with slight variation depending on the time of year.
17) Eye colour: Brown.
18) What do you look like?: I hate this sort of question. Really. My hair is short, I have had orthodontic work (so my teeth are straight)...Um... Pfft, I dunno.
19) Innie or Outie?: Innie.
20) Righty, Lefty, ambidextrous: Lefty. Lefties rule.
21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: Straight…And yeah, what, pray tell, is 'other'? Beastiality?
22) Best friend(s): ~M-Kunoya.
23) Best friend you trust the most: See above.
24) Best friends {your sex}: Repetitive...
25) Best friends of the opposite sex: ...And we're not getting anywhere, are we? ~color-grey gets some special recogition.
26) Best Bud(s): How many ways is there to ask the same freaking question?
27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Single. I'm such a social outcast.
28) Crush: I try not to get my hopes up.
29) Parent(s): Yeah... what about them?
30) Worst Enemy: Myself. I am in perpetual struggle with myself.
31) Favorite on-line Guy(s): Er...Check my watch list.
32) Favorite on-line Girl(s): Again, the watch list.
33) Funniest friend: M-kunoya.
34) Craziest friend: Petree, you can field that one.
35) Advice Friend: M-kunoya.
36) Loudest Friend: I... don't know...
37) Person you cry with: I hate crying in front of others. So I don't.

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: No.
39) Any brothers: Two.
40) Any pets: A dumb (but loveable enough) Lab. Her name's Tundra (we've recently moved from Alaska).
41) A Disease: Depression and PTSD.
42) A Pager: No.
43) A Personal phone line: No.
44) A Cell phone: No, I don't care for cell phones.
45) A Lava lamp: No. Alas.
46) A Pool or hot tub: Own neither, love both (depending on the weather, of course).
47) A Car: '99 Monte Carlo. Not mine yet, but soon...

Describe Your...

48) Personality: Somewhat socially awkward--friendly, but terminally shy. Very idealistic: I expect the world to live up to it's potential, though it never does. Gaming junkie, love classic novels (most new stuff sucks). Love deep conversations, so I love to talk with people who indulge me. I hate shallow small talk. Quite the tomboy. I like music with meaning (not hiphop, in other words).
49) Driving: I'm a good driver, but I don't really like to.
50) Car or one you want: Didn't you already ask this? I want a hybrid someday.
51) Room: Papers and folders everywhere, Video games, unmade bed...Dusty like a study. Makes me feel intellectual.
52) What’s missing?: I dunno. I've lost my wallet for weeks and not known until they had me pick it up at Lost and Found.
53) School: *shudder* Sorry, involuntary reaction left over from high school.
54) Bed: I never, ever make it. I have a nest of blankets and lots of pillows. The fan's always on.
55) Relationship with your parent(s): We fight, we make up.

Do You...

56) Believe in yourself: Nope. Not particularly.
57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: Love requires trust, which takes a long time to build. Physical attraction is in no way love.
58) Consider yourself a good listener: Yeah.
60) Get Along with your parents: Yeah, usually.
61) Save your e-mail conversations: Yes.
62) Pray: I'd lose my thin veil of sanity if I didn't.
63) Believe in reincarnation: Not really.
64) Like to make fun of people: No. What a petty, tacky, cruel personality that takes. Not to mention a little sociopathy.
65) Like to talk on the phone: Not really. I like emails and such. I express myself better in... ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/10577022/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/10577022/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 23:32:23 PST
No new deviations to post (nothing new in that department, as always), but this time it's not necessarily because of the semi-permanent hiatus. I actually do want to draw something--anything. But I simply don't have the time. I blame school, and sleep, and eating, and those other obnoxious little things that eat away at precious time.

Mostly school, though. Easily the most writing-intensive semester I have ever suffered through. And the sad part is, I love to write. I really do. But there's just too much. This scares me a little, because writing is one of the few areas my creativity hasn't positively shrivled up and died. It's one of the few areas where I retain some inspiration.

Anyway. Getting off my rant drivels, and getting to the point. I really want to draw something. I don't have any ideas in mind just yet, so I'm turning to you for help. Have any ideas for me? Even writing suggestions would be fine (preferrably something poetry-related; I am beyond tired of prose, editorial and rhetoric for the time being). Anything you'd like to see (like some non-macabre poetry, for instance)?

Keep in mind it could be a while before anything new shows up; because two-three papers a week take time to write (yes, even for yours truly ); time that could go into a multitude of other things.

Ah yes, normalcy. I can't wait for my life to be restored to such, whatever that entails. In the meantime, though, bear with me.

Oh, yeah; and a Happy Halloween to you all--2 1/2 hours into the next day, because I never do anything in a timely fashion. I'm so talented in that department.

]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/10052271/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/10052271/ Tue, 12 Sep 2006 16:49:21 PDT
Other news: I'm a Myspace zombie now. And I actually like it. If any of you guys spend time there, drop me a line here: [link]

~M-Kunoya came and went, and the week was too friggin' short. We spent much time on WoW (hers, I don't have it, unfortunately), and laughing at the emo vader jokes on ytmnd.com. While you're there, check out the 'Bill Cosby is Metal!' video. We thought it was funny, anyway. Went to the mall, acted dumb all week; lots of fun. Too bad it's over. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/9879333/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/9879333/ Sun, 27 Aug 2006 23:52:08 PDT
For those of you who don't know (that would be almost all of you), my extended family's a bunch of certifiable basket cases. My grandpa has the maturity level of a tantrum-throwing two-year-old; he's jealous, paranoid, disagreeable, judgmental, bigotous, ignorant, self-centered, passive-agressive, and just plain mean-spirited. Did I mention he has minor delusions of granduer and he's a hypochondriac (can you tell he annoys me yet )? I'm sure it's a strange combination of his personality and all the medication he thinks he needs.

By the way, my grandmother is a saint. She can do no wrong. I adore her so.

My uncles argue with my grandpa all the time, which makes for constant yelling. Constant. All my teen/preteen cousins bicker and fight, which makes for plenty of door slamming and crying. The younger ones are cute, though.

One of my uncles is a drunk; everyone but me (and mom) seems to find it funny. Personally, I think he's kinda creepy when he's plastered. Maybe it's just me.

I decided that this time around, I was not going to let them drag me into a feud. I was not going to argue, and I was not going to let them get a rise out of me. As you can probably guess, I was rather quiet for most of the trip.

We brought our PS2 and I hid from the crazies and played Battlefront 2 with my 6 year-old cousin. He was so funny; I think I shall mold him into my own image. And I shall call him: Mini-me. I'm his favorite cousin now, because I have the games.

When I couldn't hide I had to listen to my uncles talk about how much better each of their trucks (penis extentions) were. Or my grandpa verbally abusing everyone but me (he won't mess with me...I think I scare the crap outta him). Or both, simultaneously.

And of course there's my drunken uncle, who seems to think I have a sunny personality (like I said, plastered), and shouldn't wear black. I'm 20. I'm not even going to bother with the argument; it's childish. I honestly thought people were done bugging me about that. It's not a big deal, but he wouldn't drop it, and it bugged me.

And he gets way too friendly when he's drunk--he seems to think he's going to take me bar-hopping when I turn 21. Not happening. I've seen enough drunken stupidity to keep me away from alcohol forever. I can't even stand the smell of beer (no offense to any of you drinkers, but I'm not gonna mess with it. Straight edge, baby).

So, for most of the week, I felt like a referee with a strong urge to throw 'bad call bricks' back at idiot fans (but real bricks instead of foam). I love my family, I really do, but I can only handle them in small doses.

Alright, now that that's out of my system...

I did do some art on the trip. I needed something to do, and an excuse to be antisocial, so I did some minor stuff, which I will post as soon as I scan it/resize it/whatever. Nothing spectacular, but it hopefully means I'm on the road to artistic recovery. Yes, Eve needs a 12-step program.

I can think of other things to rant and rave about, but I've wasted enough space for tonight, so I'll see you all later. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/9621445/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/9621445/ Sun, 06 Aug 2006 20:07:09 PDT
Once again, I'm sorry guys. I hate being gone for long periods of time. Even though I'm not updating my artwork, I still wanted to reply to comments, and look at your deviations and such. So, yeah.

Since I've been out of the loop for so long, I was hoping you guys'd tell me what's up with you recently. Any interesting (or otherwise--I'll take anything) news going on where you are, etc. Just whatever crosses your mind. Give me a random little fact or something. Doesn't matter.

Note: I'll be gone for about a week for a family reunion (It'd be seriously more fun if it was the Jenova Reunion, but alas) starting on the 14th or so. But until then I should have free time and computer access.

Can't wait 'til September; ~M-Kunoya's coming to visit and we're gonna have a crazy-fun time (read: we're gonna act like complete retards the whole time and thouroughly enjoy it). I'm keeping my fingers crossed that some artwork will come of it; it may be what I need to kick this hiatus. I hope. So if I can survive until September, all will be right with the world.

Anywho. The other thing: I owe a few of you guys photos. I will get around to it (I hate self-photos; I'm kinda ugly ). I'll have to do it soon anyway, 'cause dad'll take the camera when he gets deployed again. So, if you're still waiting on those, I'll get 'em posted eventually (unless you don't care anymore...that works out just fine ).

Lastly, I'll probably be joining Myspace's legion of the undead soon (I'm selling my soul...), so if any of you guys have Myspace pages you want me to check out when I finally decide to set it up, let me know.

]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/9263830/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/9263830/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 18:30:14 PDT
If I can't get back to you tomorrow, than have a happy 4th anyway, alright? ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/8784181/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/8784181/ Tue, 16 May 2006 00:24:50 PDT
The moon was gorgeous tonight; so solitary and comfortable in the darkness. I’m half like that, I think. I prefer the night; it’s a chivalrous hour. The moon is unimposing and gentle, not harsh and presumptuous like the sun. The sun is there everyday, even when the clouds are heavy. The sun seems to demand attention with its brightness, only to burn you when you attempt to spend time with it. If the sun had a personality, I think it would be a drama queen.

But like I said, I’m only half like the moon. I tend to be more comfortable in the dark, at least until my mind begins to wander. I’m up on this late night/early morning because I am afraid of my dreams. At night, I can’t pretend to be occupied. I have nothing better to do than worry myself to sleep, and then toss and turn ‘til noon. I don’t sleep well. I’ve never slept well. In fact, I sleep better during the day, after I spent the whole night trying to avoid sleep. It’s a strange concept, as I probably spend more time sleeping than doing anything else. Sometimes it worries me that I spend more time in my nightmares than I do in reality. Is it that when I’m awake, I can’t pretend that it’s someone else and I just observe from the moon’s place?

Maybe I should just start taking sleeping pills. I think like this every single night, without relief. I feel the need to ponder my own existence, and analyze everything, and fervently pray for a head trauma to shut out all the noise my mind makes. I grow tired of thinking and dreaming and responding and pretending I’m someone else, somewhere else.

I want to always feel like I do when I hear this song. The complexity of emotion: the despair and peace, terror and romance. Not that goopy love-romance crap; I simply mean the spectrum of emotions, the unrealness that you occasionally stumble across in reality. Like the moon, stars, and rain; clouds and choirs, silver and cold, transcendence and sentience. Not this mess I call a brain.

I better go to bed, before I lose it. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/8636727/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/8636727/ Mon, 01 May 2006 00:58:50 PDT Reading: Nothing
Writing: Not much
Mood: Dead-tired

The main news: finals are this week. The semester is almost over. Yippee. Finally, I can take a breather.

Other News: A friend from church is getting married in June. I'm excited. But that means I'm going to have to find something a little less... funeralesque to wear.

I bought 'Advent Children', and I've watched it about 10 times. Feel the love.

I beat KH2... like a month ago, or somethin'. And Sephiroth is back and just as evil as ever. But I showed him who's in charge.

I can't log on to dA at school anymore, so it's even harder to find time to post. So if I take forever to write you back, I appologize.

Art news: Soren's not finished. I'm just too busy right now to spend the time I feel is required.

I did write some quick, crappy poetry (well, it kinda wrote itself), which I'll post probably tomorrow. Warning: it's just as retarded and depressing as ever (that's about the only time I ever write, so sorry).

Tag from ~shadowmonster: 6 Weird/Random Facts

1. 80% gray is one of my favorite colors (don’t know what that is? Check the font colors on MS-Word).

2. Love to learn, but I hate school. What a limiting institution.

3. I HaTe TyPiNg LiKe A LuNaTiC. I like my English to be as English as possible. And spell-check is so underused these days.

4. I like steak sauce on my sticky rice. I don’t care for soy sauce (I guess I’m weird).

5. I don’t sleep well. I have nightmares, and I’m restless; which is why I’m often online so late. In fact, it's rather embarrasing when I'm at a friend's house.

6. I'm a mediocre cook, but I make some mean fettuccine. And grilled cheese.

I hereby tag ~fripturici and ~DivineRadiance. Unless you already did it or whatnot.

I'll probably add to this later, but it's 4:00am and I need to try and go back to bed. Peace. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/8347217/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/8347217/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 19:40:28 PDT New Game

Bought KH2 today! So far, it's very cool! That opening cutscene=/. I'll give you more info on that after I play it a bit more.

Also, the Online DnD game that's coming out looks frickin' sweet! Nerd-senses...tingling...

Art Status

Got the new av up, as you can see. Nothing spectacular or homemade, but it's Soren, so I won't mind staring at it for a good, long while.

Speaking of Soren, I have fanart in the works. And it actually looks pretty decent. So I will be posting it, but I want to get it finished first.

~shadowmonster, I'll scan in the comic as soon as Dad coughs up the scanner (he's using it for a friend's retirement ceremony).

Raven will take a little longer to get anything done on, as she's being very moody right now.

Random

My mp3 player needs fixed. So I am without a life-support system until further notice (*gasp* This means I may have to...interact...with...other people!).

I really need to find downloadable copies of the Ghost in the Shell (by Yoko Kanno) songs. If you know of any good sites/methods of finding such, lemme know.

Tagged

~fripturici Tagged everyone on her watch-list, and since I did the same thing, I'll be fair and answer it. Here goes:

1. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR KITCHEN PLATES?
*Periwinkle blue.
2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
*My Bible, and “King Arthur and his Knights” by Sir Thomas Mallory.
3. WHAT’S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
*Gateway cow-print.
4. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
*Risk—world domination!
5. FAVORITE MAGAZINE?
*Gothic Beauty.
6. FAVORITE SMELL?
*Gasoline (I’m not kidding).
7. LEAST FAVORITE SMELL?
*My dog’s farts. No joke.
8. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
*I can’t think before noon.
9. LEAST FAVORITE COLOR?
*Pink—I’ve written rants…
10. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?
*I wait for someone else to pick it up; I rarely answer it.
11. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME?
*Jadian (boy), Amy/Anna (girl).
12. WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE?
*Appreciation.
13. WHAT IS LEAST IMPORTANT IN LIFE?
*The things you can’t change (but we can still whine about them)
14. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
*Dark chocolate.
15. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL AT NIGHT?
*No; I toss and turn too much.
16. STORMS?
*Love thunderstorms; hate tornados.
17. WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?
*Someday I’ll get the Monte Carlo. ‘Til then...
18. IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE WHO WOULD IT BE?
*Joan d’Arc, Amy Lee or Charles Dickens.
19. WHAT IS YOUR BIRTHDAY?
*5-21-86
20. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI?
*Yep. They’s tasty.
21. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB WHAT WOULD IT BE?
*Animator, Psychologist, Game designer, or professional bass player/violinist.
22. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY COLOR HAIR, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
*Red. Deep, dark red.
23. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE?
*No. I’m a little afraid of the concept, in fact.
24. IS THE GLASS HALF FULL OR HALF EMPTY?
*I’m a pessimist: the glass is half-full—of cyanide. Guess where the other half went.
25. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE MOVIES?
*A Beautiful Mind, Princess Mononoke, Corpse Bride.
26. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?
*Only by chance. I play my keyboard like a piano.
27. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED?
*Me, if my nightmares get bad enough.
28. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
*16.
29. WHAT IS YOUR SINGLE BIGGEST FEAR?
*This one’s kinda personal.
30. WHAT IS ONE WORD YOU’D USE TO DESCRIBE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
*Comedic.
31. FAVORITE TV SHOWS?
*X-Men: Evolution, Teen Titans, Ghost in the Shell.
32. FAVORITE SOFT DRINK?
*Mountain Dew and Vanilla Coke.
33. THE BEST PLACE YOU HAVE EVER BEEN?
*Kauai, Hawaii
... ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/8222476/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/8222476/ Mon, 20 Mar 2006 22:52:18 PST


School--it's amazing how much I'm NOT learning. All I've got is busy-work. Dear children, college is a scam. Remember that. Why am I shelling out all this money for classes that are practically high-school level? I want to LEARN. I want to be challenged. I want to expand my brain, not waste my time. I feel like my mind is slowly being turned to mush.

For crying out loud; I haven't even cracked open the textbooks they made me to buy! Another waste of money, all for this stupid piece of paper I have to have to work anywhere but McD's.

I don't ask for much in my school career. I just want to go to class, learn something new everyday, and not have to come home to piles of vocabulary sheets and maps. And not have buy textbooks. Thanks to my books, I am broke. And I'll only be able to sell them back for 30 cents on the dollar, most likely.



Anyway, it may be a little while before I can get all that stuff I was planning to do done. And, as you may/may not have noticed, I haven't been online much. I don't know how long that's going to be the case, but hopefully things'll slow down soon. Until then, though, it will be kinda quiet on this page. I will try to get on and reply every now and again, but I don't know how often that'll be. Thanks for being so patient, guys. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/7910791/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/7910791/ Fri, 24 Feb 2006 20:23:01 PST Anniversary

Okay, guys, I need some help/ideas/divine intervention. March 27th is my one-year anniversary at dA, and I'd like to make a few changes and upgrades:

*My avatar. I need ideas for a new one. The current one has served me well, but it's time to move up in the world. Keep in mind, I don't have PS, so it would have to be something I can actually achieve with my somewhat limited technology. But I'd like something a little more professional looking for the next year. Any ideas/tutorials/etc. you could give me would be much appreciated.

*Anything you'd like to see me post within the next year (like finished artwork, maybe)? Anything you think my gallery needs (color, more diverse styles, non-crap art)? Let me know.

*Journals: What kind of info do you want me to post in my journals and updates? More ranting? Less ranting? Clubs/Affiliates/Friends? Art progress? Want me to stop writing these retarded journals altogether?

*New ID... I'm going to do a new ID, too. Should I put stats on it or not? Original piece/photo, or something else?

Any and all of these things will be unveiled (if I get them done) on March 27th. That's all I have on that.

Comic

MK, I think the sock idea is perfect for an opener. I'll try to get it done ASAP. Hey, do we want to have other comics lined up to post, so we don't just have one deviation? Or do you think one's fine for now?

Random

Fire Emblem: PoR. I'm an official Soren fangirl. [link] He's got that angsty backstory, he's completely blunt and tactless, and he's a kick-ass unit: My little mage/tactician sends whole battalions of Daein soldiers to hell! Smart guys are so hot...

Okay, that's enough of that...

Tagged…

ten random things

1) Too bad my fingernails don’t taste like chocolate…
2) My nail polish doesn’t taste like chocolate either…
3) NI! (bring me a shrubbery!)
4) Both my printers are short on ink. -_-
5) You know, I think I use ‘…’ a lil’ too much.
6) Soren!
7) I want a Meatwad beanie.
8) Good Lord, I need a haircut.
9) I wish I had a Southern accent… nah, no I don’t.
10) Why didn’t Cloud and Co. just toss a phoenix down on Aeris when she died?

Anybody who watches me has hereby been tagged. Have fun, kiddies. *'watched-by' list suddenly empties* ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/7765122/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/7765122/ Tue, 31 Jan 2006 19:39:20 PST Playing - Fire Emblem: Path of Radiance, Morrowind (making mods)
Reading - Sociology textbook
Listening to - NIN: Pretty Hate Machine; Jay Gordon, 'Slept so Long', Kidney Thieves, 'Before I'm Dead'
Working on - 'Raven' (found her, finally)
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The important news: ~M-Kunoya and I are finally getting our web-comic hashed out. Most of the preliminary organizational crap is done; now all we need to do is get the intro comic cranked out so we can set up the account. The name is selected, the ID and avatar are finished, and all the other necessities are pretty much worked out. Expect all this in the (relatively) near-future.

Also, my public apologies for my negligence this month. Not a good way to start the new year off, I know. I've just had a lot to do and not a lot of energy left over. Be patient; when things slow down, you will (hopefully) see an increase in activity. Even the statistical crap up top is stuff from sometime this month, but not necessarily regular activities (I haven't watched TV in two weeks).

Less dA-relevant stuff: The girl's devo group me and several other girls (I didn't help that much--too disorganized) set up is successful. Time-consuming, but definitely worth it. I'm just a little worried that I'm going to have to prepare a lesson and that means (gasp) social interaction. Now I'm afraid...

New classes: Biology, Sociology, Western Civ. We'll be having an evolution discussion in biology, and I'll give you the low-down on that when it happens. You should know my position on that debate by now, and if you disagree, that's fine; just be civil about it.

Anyway, to those of you who still drop by: I know I'm unreliable, and thanks for sticking with me. You guys are great.

Later, all. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/7413248/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/7413248/ Thu, 29 Dec 2005 23:35:27 PST
It doesn't feel quite right, 'cause Dad's not home. But he did manage to call, so we got to talk to him. I don't know what they're doing for Christmas over there, but I'm sure it's not the same as being home.

The computer is thrashing randomly, and the cars are both acting up. Figures; everything stops working while Dad's gone. *laughs* Happens every time, without fail.

The turkey's in the oven, the neighbors are coming over later, and it's warm and raining out. It's pretty quiet (the boys are upstairs playing Battlefront II. It's so peaceful when they're busy shooting each other).

So, how'd you all do plunder-wise?

I got my lil' mp3 player; a Zen micro. *purrs* I also got the Corpse Bride soundtrack. *does the happy Frodo chicken dance*

Hopefully I'll sleep tonight--I have a nasty cold that kept me up all last night. But I'm not tired yet, so it's alright.

MK, I still have to mail your package. I forgot the postal service doesn't operate on Christmas.

Eh, that's all for now. Happy Holidays, all.

-update-
If you want to catch the 1000th pageview and get something for it, go ahead. Whatever you want (as long as it's do-able). If not, less work for me. Doesn't matter. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/7348406/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/7348406/ Sun, 18 Dec 2005 18:52:09 PST Reading: Nothin'
Watching: GitS:Stand Alone Complex
Wishing: I were somewhere else
Drawing: Nothing at the moment

Finals are done. Now I just have to tune everyone out until January. I swear, my brothers are systematically driving me crazy with their constant bickering.

I have a bunch of chapters to read for my Bible class; don't let me forget, 'kay?

Dad's in Iraq, and hasn't managed to call us while we're actually home yet. But we're emailing him. Mom's mad at me for not finding the phone on time; not my fault she put it behind the coffee pot.

I think I should just sleep the holidays away--I can't maintain 'Christmas cheer' with everyone at each other's throats. Blech.

I'll come back and write something more important later. Happy Holidays, guys. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/7223563/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/7223563/ Sun, 04 Dec 2005 19:24:41 PST Watching - Ghost in the Shell: S.A.C. 2nd Gig, Food Network()
Reading - Teen Titans fanfics (again)
Drawing - Shading Raven (as soon as I remember where I put her)
Writing - Journals for music class
Playing - SSBM (Roy's my boy!), Star Wars Battlefront

Put the tree up yesterday; It's the first Christmas tree we've had in this house, so it's important. We always get a real tree, no fake ones allowed. So the house smells like fir trees and sugar cookies (Mom's baking! ).

Classes end on the 14th, so I'll be able to devote some more time to you all. Can't wait to see the end of my art class; between the computer problems and my other classes, it's just been a pain. I've decided online classes suck.

Dad leaves for Iraq on the 12th; so we'll have an early Christmas while he's still here, then most likely visit relatives and do it all again.

Don't know what I want for Christmas; I'm deciding between just getting an MP3 player, or getting a few small things, like a CD player and some freakin' AA batteries.

Ethan's kicking my butt with Luigi. Poor Roy. On the upside, I get to murder him back in Battlefront. *snipe*

Sorry I haven't been around much lately; I've just been tired and unable to make myself do anything. Beware; I've been moody. I'll try and get it together soon. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/6921168/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/6921168/ Mon, 31 Oct 2005 22:31:41 PST
If you know me, you know that I never leave any comment halfway, and rant UNCONTROLLABLY. Here's my comment, though I know you don't care. And please, don't flame me for these comments, I'm only quoting scientific studies. And don't go flame him/her, they have a valid point of view and shouldn't be harrassed for it. And I'm proud to say there was no poop-slinging. Onward...
****

"Well, to begin with, let me say I'm not here to argue for creationism, though I certainly believe it. This is more of a plea for a better scientific theory. I will only use scientific arguments, I promise. And you may not even find my arguments valid, because I don't know my sources off hand, other than the writings of Bert Thompson (PhD--give credit where credit is due). This discussion will mostly cover the amount of time required for evolution to 'happen'.

Macroevolution is a very delicate system, at best. It relies very heavily on uniformitarianism, vast amounts of time, and of course, that the most improbable of probabilities occur (because of vast amounts of time). Basically, if an infinite number of monkeys sit at an infinite number of typewriters, eventually they will produce 'Hamlet'.

Many of my beefs with evolution come from an astrophysical perspective, because our ecosystem relies so heavily on cosmic balance and stability. As I mentioned in another comment (It's around here somewhere), the sun is shrinking at a fixed rate (.1% per century, or 5ft per hour). If one subscribes to uniformitarianism, this poses some serious problems to macroevolution. Going backwards at a constant rate, the sun would have been twice it's current size 100,000 years ago (sorry, on my other comment I forgot a very important 0). At 20 million years (and another mix-up. Damn.), the Earth's surface and the Sun's surface would be touching. At just twice its current size, the Sun would give off too much heat and radiation to allow life on Earth-- Which is certainly something to consider, as it takes VAST amounts of time for macroevolution to occur.

Chemical arguments: Hydrogen is being converted into helium (a one-way process) constantly throughout the universe. However, it is not replenished easily or in vast quantities. So, if the universe is billions upon billions of years old, the percentage of hydrogen compared to other elements (especially helium) would be very low--almost depleted. However, the universe is comprised almost entirely of hydrogen at this very moment. This would be impossible if the Earth were the eons of ages old that evolution requires. This also expels the idea of an infinitely old Universe-- it must have had a beginning (for those who subscribe to that idea).

Population statistics: Here's the formula: Pn2/C-1) (C^n-x+1) (C^x-1) (explaining: Pn=world pop after n generations; ^n=number of generations; ^x=life span in terms of generations; 2C=num. of kids per family). Enter in evolutionary figures, and you get a catastrophic number of people within 2-3 million years-- today, we'd have a population of 1x10^5000, or 1 with 5000 zeros after it. the universe, however, is only an estimated 20 billion lightyears in diameter, and could only contain 1x10^100 people. A frightening concept. The funny part (you'll love this)? If you enter in the 'literal' creationist figures (those who believe the Earth is less than 10,000 years old), the Earth's population would be about 4.6 billion as of 1979. I wonder...

The Helium in the atmosphere: Consider the accumulation of radioactively derived gasses in the Earth's atmosphere. Helium is produced from the decay of both uranium and thorium (in the Crust). Radiogenic helium finds its way into Earth's atmosphere. However there isn't enough helium in the atmosphere to account for the supposed age of the Earth (which is crucial to evolutionary theory). Our present air contains 3.5x10^15 grams of helium (the formation rate is, for those who are interested: 3x10^11 grams per year). This indicates a younger Earth than is possible to accomodate current evolutionary theory; about 10,000 years, again. I won't tell you what this indicates about the possibility of a God--I promised I wouldn't get into that.

I have other examples and questions regarding evolution: decay of our magnetic field, lack of empirical (experimented, retestable evidence), the minimal amount of fossil... ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/6716158/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/6716158/ Sat, 08 Oct 2005 21:36:17 PDT
The article was about deviantArt and how degenerate we are, in summary. Below is the comment I left on her page.

Heres the direct link to the article: [link]

"Good Lord... another thing for the media to sensationalize. Is nothing sacred? Now, yes; child pornography and pointless corpse photos (without scientific, criminological, etc. reasons) are wrong, and I would PERSONALLY hunt down child-pornographers, but to suggest that dA is a spawning ground for serial killers is just... uninformed and inflammatory.

So those kids were dA members... there're thousands of people on this site. There are bound to be emotionally disturbed people here. This place is representative of the general population. To blame dA for these atrocities is the same as blaming games and music (which are also reflections of general society). It's a scapegoat, instead of getting to the real problems: Irrisponsible parenting and contradictory social systems.

Whoo, don't even get me started on that whole 'cutting' thing. Maybe kids are just more comfortable getting anonymous help and support here than they are talking to these supposed 'professionals'. It's not that dA breeds cutters and such, it's that we're not afraid of being stigmatized here. Seriously, do YOU know I am? Didn't think so (no offense).

And to denounce violent art as the product of degenerates and 'crazies' (I hate that word), is borderline censorship. 'Guernica' is violent, people. Vietnam war photos are violent. I don't hear anyone calling Picasso and other famous artists hateful and mentally disturbed.

Yes, there's undo violence; yes, there's racism. But maybe the world needs to look in the mirror before it points fingers. Freud would call that projection-- the displacement of one's own undesirable traits onto another entity.

There's millions of rapists, child abusers and murderers out there, don't forget about them while you're pointing fingers at games, art and music.

Getting off the soapbox now."

There you have it-- the media has made it's accusations (ill-informed and ignorant as usual), and here I make my stand against the real evils of the world. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/6532237/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/6532237/ Thu, 06 Oct 2005 16:09:09 PDT Playing: Ratchet and Clank: Up Your Arsenal
Working on: Shading an ancient pic I forgot to finish
Reading: Teen Titans fanfics
Listening to: Rob Zombie, 'Scum of the Earth'

It's almost October! Can't wait; September's such a boring month. Blech. Fall's coming, and the temperature's declining, and I can wear longsleeves now! It's almost time to pull out the beloved trenchcoat... I can't wait; I miss my coat. How dumb is that?

I get a great view of the harvest moon from my house, and hurricane season's almost over, so I can see the stars.

I miss sneaking a costume over to my friends' houses and celebrating Halloween (Hey, MK, think I can pirate a costume to Lackland this year? ), and scaring the trick-or-treaters, and hanging out with far-away friends in this 'witching time of year. Good times...

Eh, enjoy yourselves on this up-coming Hallow's Eve.

Have a lovely October, all.

****Edit: Corpse Bride. Go see it-- beautiful music, the art is fantastic, the storyline is well-executed... I have that nasty romantic feeling. I warn you now. Now, I need to write the synopses (plural) for my art and music classes. I'll probably post them after the movie's not playing, so no spoilers. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/6479660/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/6479660/ Sun, 11 Sep 2005 18:27:49 PDT
Moon's gorgeous tonight; I might go take a walk later. So peaceful. I wish it would rain. Hasn't rained in, I don't know, 10 days. I really, really, really wanna go stand out in the rain. So calming.

But it's not raining. Meh.

Restarted my Morrowind game; it was glitching from all the cheat-codes my brothers used. I was nearly to the end, too. Oh, well. I don't like using cheats on RPGs--there's no point.

I really want to go to bed. I'm just... tired. But I need to expand my dA horzons; so many great artists I haven't even seen yet.

I need to post something new-- I've been slacking terribly. I want to do something really great and worthwhile, but I don't have any ideas. Scream. I have the strong urge to create; I just haven't figured out what yet. Any ideas?

I better stop for now. Tonight's just wierd. I can't focus on anything: too lethargic. Well, I'm done for now. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/6455173/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/6455173/ Thu, 08 Sep 2005 23:13:12 PDT
Now, I just have to clear my message centre out; it's full of yummy deviations and journals for me to inspect. Meep. I'm never going to get caught up.

If it takes me awhile to get to you, realize I have a lot of stuff to slog through and look at. So I apologize in advance for comments on your art and journals that are grotesquely overdue. What more can I say?

Random: I am addicted to Morrowind. I know, old game, but good. $10 at Wal-mart (I do not endorse Wal-mart) and I get my RPG fix. Woot.

Side note: A special thank you to all of those from across the globe who have donated to help the Katrina victims; you may never know how much good you've done for those people, and you deserve more thanks than we could give. We love you all. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/6396578/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/6396578/ Fri, 02 Sep 2005 11:22:38 PDT
Please help in any way you can; the world pulled together for the tsunami relief, and we can do it again. If you can, please donate food, water, medical supplies and blood to any of the charities and organizations in this week's HT, or to a local religious group. Even if you can't donate, simple prayers are possibly the most help that can be offered.

A special thanks to you guys in your support and community spirit. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5864784/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5864784/ Thu, 07 Jul 2005 08:08:10 PDT ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5854452/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5854452/ Wed, 06 Jul 2005 07:19:40 PDT
I'm still not sure it was mania; but I do know I should've been tired long before I was. I wasn't particulary hyper or even happy until Sunday night, when I realized I might actually get some sleep. In fact, I was quite subdued for most of the weekend. I just wasn't tired and couldn't concentrate.

I did get a few hours of sleep (maybe 4), and pretended to be exhausted so I wouldn't have to work (I don't work there as an employee anyway, just as a self-obligated family volunteer).

I slept a little more on Monday morning and night, which wasn't much because I kept feeling like I had something crawling around under my skin. It's the grossest feeling. I'm okay now; my sleep pattern is leveling off. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5831796/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5831796/ Sun, 03 Jul 2005 19:30:37 PDT ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5743945/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5743945/ Fri, 24 Jun 2005 11:30:54 PDT ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5622265/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5622265/ Sat, 11 Jun 2005 21:26:48 PDT
Sadism, hatred, mutilate, evil, animosity, scar, violence, cruelty, brutality, aggression, malice, spite, acrimony, loathing, antipathy, hostility, bloodshed, malevolence, antagonism, enmity, iniquity, blight, immorality, viciousness, welt, injustice, abhorrence, rape, repugnance, forsake, abomination, belligerence, assault, anger, atrocity, forget, disgrace, oppress, outrage, massacre, murder, slaughter, wrong, aversion, opposition, suffering, ignominy, ill-will, humiliation, annihilation, obliteration, beating, agony, frightening, battering, mauling, damage, mar, lacerate, discomfiture, shame, depravity, destruction, degradation, stabbing, ruin, butchery, devastation, torture, break, revulsion, horror, suicide, force, terror, indignity, mortification, maltreatment, abuse, eradication, neglect, exploitation, abandon, ignore, corruption, dishonesty, rage, genocide, torment, fear, hurt, molestation, ordeal, treachery, distress, killing, trepidation, duplicity, homicide, perversion, nightmare, shock, anxiety, sorrow, despair, burn, bruise, malefactor, gash, slash, misery, despondency, dejection, rejection, slit, cut, incision, scratch, affliction, mistreat, disfigure, maim, injure, harm, wound, abrasion, sore, pain, deface, vandalize, betrayal, perfidy, deceit, shred, suppression, purge, restrain, control, misuse, lie, xenocide, persecute, coercion, tyranny, duress, lesion, punish, victimize.

Tired of it yet? I know I am. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5052945/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5052945/ Sun, 10 Apr 2005 16:11:46 PDT
She was 24, had been sexually abused throughout her time in this group home by her "caretakers," and finally just got sick of it. So now, after this, people notice the long-standing corruption of this system that, I'm quite sure, stretches from sea to shining sea.

Why doesn't someone look into these things sooner? Why aren't these people held accountable, and WHY THE HELL DOES A TORTURED YOUNG LADY HAVE TO DIE IN ORDER FOR ANYONE TO CARE?!

WHERE ARE SOCIAL SERVICES?! AND WHERE ARE THE PEOPLE WE VOTED FOR?! ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5044588/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/5044588/ Sat, 09 Apr 2005 16:50:49 PDT
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"Okay, I shall leave my two-cents here under the understanding that my opinions will ultimately offend someone. I'm not going to delve into politics to the extent that most of you have, because I'm not responding to anyone specific. I want to return to the original issue of the artwork.

America is a flawed nation. I can say that; I live there. While our country was founded in the hopes for something better, we have slowly drifted into things we shouldn't have. We dive into military actions when we could put our capitalistic endeavors to MUCH more humanitarian needs, such as assisting famine-ridden countries and expanding educational efforts. I see a great mix of opinions on this; some well thought out and courteously expressed, some... not.

Objectively speaking, I have to say that the attempt must be made to remain polite, since hearts are changed much more by kind words than condemnation. Getting defensive over another's opinion, however much you disagree, will only justify what has been said.

Fellow Americans, I urge you to send a kind message to those around you, because allowing anger and spite to cloud your point is only proving those who hate us right. We need to realize that patriotism should not make us ignore our flaws. To say that we are the best and that there is nothing wrong with our country is not a love of country. If we truly loved our home, then I believe we would do more to change it for the better.

You want what's best for those you love, right? It's the same for our nation. We have to solve our own problems, like the corporate sabotage, the rape and child abuse, the ineffective drug wars, poverty, abortion, biased newspapers, racism and racial quotas... need I go on? The fact of the matter is, while nothing will ever be solved with more violence and terrorism, we need to stop making ourselves targets. We have to mature and learn to live with each other. We, as humans, are not infallible. Our opinions do nothing to change reality until we meet opposition halfway. It all comes down to our ability to lose our hubris and respect our differences.

Ladies, gentlemen... get your acts together. Somewhere in the opinions expressed here is the truth. America is not perfect. We need to change. The rest of the world needs to be forgiving, and we need to pay back hatred with compassion. Two wrongs don't make a right, and we need to take the initiative. The terrorism needs to cease, and we need to stop playing the "world police." Take the 2x4 out of your own eye before you wipe the sawdust out of your brother's eye.

Sometimes I hate what humanity does to itself. I'd slit my wrists if I thought it'd make a difference. God, salvage our world."

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While I don't agree with all the opinions expressed in the piece, I respect it's ability to rile everyone up. So, you don't have to agree with something to appreciate it. That was the 'Badly Presented Moral of the Day.' You may disregard it completely if you wish. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/4937598/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/4937598/ Mon, 28 Mar 2005 19:46:32 PST
I'm having one of those annoying self-inflection moments, and I'm subjecting you all to it.

Here it is: have you ever felt like you're just playing a part? You adapt a role, and when you get tired of it, you move on. I've done it my whole life. A psychologist would say, "Yeah, we all have different roles in life; we're sisters, daughters, grandparents, friends, etc." But I'm not talking about that. Let me explain.

All my life I've worked relentlessly to fit one stereotype or another. After all, there will (unfortunately) always be stereotypes, some more desirable than others.

As a child, I never wanted to be myself. I was low-key and had a morbid streak that my family would have frowned upon. I had a good imagination; because I was always pretending to be someone else. When I played Peter Pan, I HAD to be Peter-- Wendy was too demure and boring. I was always the most rambunctious character, to make myself seem more interesting than I was.

Throughout my life, I've played multiple parts; but never myself. When I became dissatisfied with one lie, I'd make up a new one. I was so afraid of myself. I hid my real self away like a scary doll in a toy chest. I've played so many parts that I had forgotten what was so frightening as to make me hide away in the first place. So naturally, when I couldn't stand the faking anymore, I was stuck bringing out this horrid person that I thought had died.

Now I'm trying to deal with her--me; and I'm tediously trying to weed her out of my illusions. I still feel like a liar, just not quite so much.

Sometimes the only thing that gets me through is the strange fact that my best friends know who I am, even if I never really told them. They never fell for it, but they like me anyway (haven't figured out why, but I'm glad).

You guys have been great, especially through my on-going existential quandry and multipule identity crises.

Hopefully when I come out of my shapeshifting, I'll be what you saw under the theater make-up.

Thanks, guys. ]]> ~k-hallowseve http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/4927014/ http://k-hallowseve.deviantart.com/journal/4927014/ Sun, 27 Mar 2005 17:40:50 PST
Have you ever just wondered why people look foward to holidays? I mean, I remember (I think) when holidays were warm and fuzzy.

Maybe I'm just too tired of the shiny plastic. Spending time with family's good, if too many trips to Wal-mart doesn't leave you feeling drained--like all we're expected to do is fill a corporate CEO's pockets and help pay for his summer house.

It's like: "Easter's here! Buy your dress, empty your pockets and forget what it was about the season that you used to love." It's sad. Easter is for families and celebration, not for a once-wear dress and a bi-annual church visit. Why can't we forget the bunny and the eggs and just feel the genuine joy of the season.

I feel that our over-commercialization of the holidays has extracted something dear from us. It leaves us tired and stressed, 'till we can't even open our eyes in the morning. We gotta take back our holidays, guys, before the super-marts bury them under the plastic crap we don't need.

I know it's been said a thousand times before, and that I haven't said anything new or remarkable, but I want to get it out of my system and out there for all of you. ]]> ~k-hallowseve