http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:kagome1990&section=today deviantART RSS for by:kagome1990 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 07 Dec 2009 07:55:48 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25942178/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25942178/ Tue, 14 Jul 2009 12:32:24 PDT
Anyways, I went to bed around 11:30/midnight and I had set my alarm for 9, 10, and 11am to get up. I had planned on doing laundry mostly, and organizing my room; I got up at noon. So instead I did the dishes from dinner last night and cleaned the kitchen. I mean, that's not a bad thing at all! Don't get me wrong! I still plan on doing my laundry, but I need to ask Kyna about the clothes sitting in the washer, so I might as well wait for her to get home, which isn't long since she gets off work in less than 10 minutes; it wont take her long to get home either since we live rather close to the commissary.

I ended up sleeping almost 12 hours last night, and I felt it when I woke up. I had the world's worst headache... it still hurts a little. But what really bothered me when I woke up was when I cam downstairs and saw that the damn dog got into the bathroom trash! There were half eaten pads strewn across the living room floor! I was like, WTFT??? So I cleaned that mess up and went in the laundry room (cause the light was left on) and found that the dog also pooped on the floor!! I was like WTFT TINK!!!!!!!! *sigh* oh well, I yelled at her and she was staying away from me for a while; she's all good now, sleeping next to me.

*sigh* I feel sick... My stomach feels wonky and my head is pounding... I really don't want to get sick... Kyna's been sick all weekend and it's just now starting to break up in her chest. Oh well, if it happens it means it was meant to happen, so I can't really complain much.

I do find it interesting that I ended up coming here. I feel so comfortable and content here. It is my goal, that by the time next semester starts, that I am a more honest person with myself and others, and I think being here will help me with that. I think that here I can get something of a structured life like I've always been lacking and wanting.

Anywho, I'm gonna make me something to eat for lunch and wait for Kyna to come home; she should be on her way home now.

Peace and well wishes
~Ashley

]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25914343/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25914343/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 07:10:43 PDT
They were planning on leaving while Kyna and I were sleeping. I know it's hard on Linda, leaving her daughter here, but Kyna lives here now and she needs to be okay with it. As for grandma, she cries no matter what I say.

But now I'm sitting in Kyna's living room alone; Kyna's trying to sleep off a cold, Josh is working, and Tinker the chihuahua is most likely sleeping with her Mama.

I plan on, while here this month, taking TONS of pictures, seeing TONS of things, and visiting St. Louis and doing the same thing. lol I'm really excited since I've never been here before, and my photography-itch needs to be scratched... xD If I had had it my way, I would have stopped every few miles on the way here to take pictures; I LOVE to take pictures. I LOVE photography. I like to doodle too, but I suck at it. I actually take some really nice pictures, but I generally do only nature shots or animals; aka, I don't do people. I have taken shots of people before, but for some reason the prints just didn't seen to turn out just as nice as the nature shots taken in the same batch...

*ahem* Anyways, (sorry for the rant) it's weird to watch CNN and have them talk about things going on in the eastern time zone, were I actually live and have me look at the clock here and see I'm an hour behind. I think that, more than anything, makes me think I'm not at home. I mean, there's even a Fox 2 here with people that look like the people from Fox 2 Detroit. *sigh* oh well. I came here of my own will after all, and the only ride I had home for the next three weeks left just about an hour ago now; I'm here until my mother transfers the funds to my bank account. I'm here. I have a full back of cigarettes, $10, and a new Michael Jackson poster acquired from Spencer's in the mall yesterday. I have the clothes I brought with me, the package of Starburst my mother bought me, and myself.

I'm starting to doubt myself and my choice to stay here now. Sitting here alone, as I will while Kyna and Josh work, I feel oddly... alone. I feel sad, but not enough to cry. I feel small, and I don't know why. ... I feel like I need more coffee... xD (It's yummy coffee, it's Black Silk. ^_^)

I'll admit, though only partially willingly, that I miss my mother; it's not only her I miss though. I miss Zsk, Cheri, and Sarah, but I really miss my baby Sammy the most. I love him so much and it's only been four days since I saw him last but I miss him SO much. He's my baby, and I wish I could have brought him down here with me... He's my angel... My baby boy... *sigh*

Well, I'm going to check my Facebook, MySpace, LiveJournal, and Gaia accounts. I wish everyone the best day today and may God bless.

~Ash of the Divinity in Motion

]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25863597/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25863597/ Fri, 10 Jul 2009 15:43:24 PDT
So now I'm sitting here on the sofa watching the Mummy with my cousin's husband Josh. The base is really rather amazing. There's a movie theatre, the commissary, a gym (that's free to use), three pools, and all the military buildings are amazing. If you've ever been to Livonia, Mi then it means something when I say the base is as big as Livonia. It's crazy! There are so many houses and buildings and the roads are like normal ones. I never really knew what to expect when coming here, so this is all really cool to me.

I'll be here for a month, and in that time my cousin Kyna said that she'd like to take me to St.Louis sometime to see the arch, cause that would be WAY awesome. And as it turns out, the Amtrak track goes right through the base so I can catch the train here and take it to St. Louis and then board my train to Chicago.

Tonight we're having hamburgers for dinner, and I can't wait; I'm so hungry after all, I barely ate at all yesterday and last night. ...

Last night I slept on the sofa, since all the spare rooms were taken. Kyna and Josh have their room, Kyna's parents (my aunt Linda and uncle Brian) took another room, and my grandma and great-aunt Francis took the third room. But when everyone leaves on Monday I'll be taking over Linda and Brian's room, since it's the second biggest room here.

I'm sad to say, but I'm not sure how well I'm gonna be able to take living here for a whole month, though I love staying on the base. It's just that it's so different from what I'm used to that I don't know how to really respond. Everything is military style, of course, and it's nothing I've ever experienced before. I'm nervous and excited at the same time, but I'm looking forward to the weekend; with everyone here until Monday there will be enough humans around the house that I won't really feel lonely... for the time being. After everyone leaves Monday I know I'll feel lonely. I hadn't seen Kyna for over year before last night, so I'm not sure if we'll still get along like we used to. We seemed okay together at Wal-Mart, so I think we should be fine; but I've never lived under the same roof as Josh before, so that concerns me a little. I'm not very worried about it though, he seems really cool.

Well, I'm gonna enjoy the quiet for a bit before Kyna and Brian come back; they plan on making dinner so things will get noisey.

I'll check back in either later today or tomorrow sometime. I wish everyone well.

~AshKnight of the Divinity in Motion.

(woah, there's a Fox 2 in St. Louis that's just like ours in Detroit!! CRAZY!!)

]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25836083/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25836083/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 10:32:29 PDT
I just want to say that I have my LiveJournal that I'll be updating daily while in Illinois and I'll be posting photos when I am able to. I like photography a lot, so I'm sure I'll have some good photos

I wish everyone has a nice day and please be safe.

I'll update when I reach Illinois later tonight.

~Love and Sweet Dreams

]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25803319/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25803319/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 18:51:55 PDT
This will be the first time I've traveled without immediate family members and the longest time I've spent out of Michigan. I'm kinda nervous.

Tomorrow my grandma will be picking me up and I'll sleep at my aunt's house. Thursday I'll be leaving my aunt's house with my aunt, uncle, grandmother, great aunt, and two dogs. w00t, that'll be fun. ... >_<

Wish me luck and I'll update with pictures from the base. (and the train ride home)

]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25596236/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25596236/ Sat, 27 Jun 2009 22:19:26 PDT
Michael became a very important person in my life around 2003, when I was 13; and when I fell in love with him I fell hard. I was going through some hard times when I was around this age, and when I first heard his voice it seemed like nothing else really mattered; I'd like to say that I lived through those years because of Michael. Things became so bad around then that I thought about death numerous times. But whenever I felt down I turned on his Number Ones CD and just listened to his beautiful voice as he sang his heart out.

There was a time, during my eighth grade year that I became a ward of the state for two weeks; this was when my depression started to become worse. There was one night when I had asked the night-shift guard to use her radio. I was so dead inside at the time that I thought "what does it matter anymore?" I left my door half open that night to listen to the music (since the radio wasn't allowed in my room). It was in the middle of the night, while I laid in bed crying, that I heard his voice again; it was a song by the Jackson 5 playing on the local community station. I heard Michael's voice singing and I just smiled through my tears and fell asleep soon after; it was my happiest moment while in that state-run shelter.

When I heard that Michael was gone I didn't want to believe it. Well, I still don't want to. I fought so hard against crying all that day. I went to bed and just cried. I woke up the next morning and saw the title on the news report and just cried like a baby. I couldn't stop myself; it had all been true. I was devastated.

I give my prayers to the three people in this whole world who need them the most: Prince, Paris, and Blanket. These three wonderful children that were so lucky to know their father like they do, are unimaginably hurt. I cannot even begin to fathom how they could be feeling; Michael was the closest person to them in the world, and now he's gone. I cry myself to sleep every night now thinking of how lonely those children must be.

I give them my love, and would give them anything else they could want to try to ease some of their pain. Please, Prince, Paris, Blanket, remember that your father is a wonderful man and through you three he will live on the most. I can't wait for you to grow up remembering all those precious memories you have with your father. You have to remember that only the three of you know your father like you do, so please try to remember that he loves you and always will no matter where he is. Remember that he loves you, and will do his best to protect you from Heaven. Don't hurt yourselves over his passing, he wouldn't want that.

For now, please make sure you three stick together. There is no one else in the world, other than you three, who knows how you feel. Together I believe you can cope with the loss and come out remembering all the happy times. Just please stick together and do your very best, you know your father would want that.

Peace, and Love Forever More

~ Ashley ~

]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25596224/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/25596224/ Sat, 27 Jun 2009 22:18:07 PDT
My mother turned the news on around 11am, and it was then that I learned of the death of Farrah Faucet, who had passed away earlier in the morning. I was sad at her passing, but not deeply worried about it, everyone was waiting for it to happen and we all knew she was in pain.

Later, in the early afternoon while packing and contacting possible help, I was online and received a twitter update from TMZ that changed my bad day to a terrible one: it had said that Jackson had been rushed to the hospital. After several hours of hoping and waiting, CNN confirmed his death with the LA coroner's office and I felt my heart stop. His death was called at 2:26pm pacific time. Even now, as it is in the early hours of June 26th, seeing Larry King's caption say "Breaking News: Michael Jackson Dead" is unbelievable. I don't want to believe it.

Hearing his sweet voice, whether it be in song or in speech, has always held a power to calm me. Right now, however, hearing his voice now, or even his name spoken on the tv brings tears to my eyes. (Mind you, when my eyes water or tear up I feel the worst pain, so mourning Michael is not only emotionally painful, but also physical.)

Michael Jackson, on this night I wish to tell you while you watch down on your family from Heaven that I, as a member of your large fan base, will love you well into my days.

For some reason, I never thought I'd see the day when Michael Jackson's death would be announced. I just always thought he'd be there. It seems to be that you miss the most precious things when they are taken away at the most unexpected times.

Dear Lord, please take good care of our sweet Michael. Please give him the innocent childhood that he missed out on and make him the happiest boy in all of Heaven. Give him a Neverland in Heaven that will keep him so happy for all eternity. Thank you Lord, Amen.

]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/22021044/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/22021044/ Tue, 16 Dec 2008 18:26:59 PST
Nearly 6 months have passed since i last put pen to paper to work on My Immortal. Photography stole my heart in my last semester of high school, but since my graduation it too has died away into the black abyss that seems to be me. I will work from this day forward to update my Deviant profile until I have done so to my liking.

On a personal level, I am now going to a local college under the major of Criminal Justice. My first semester is now coming to a close at the end of this week, which only reminds me more that Christmas is coming; I've never been one for Christmas. When it comes to my relationship status, I am as usual, single. There are strong feelings that I have for a guy I hang out with at my school, however I have my doubts that he returns my feelings, whatever they may be.

On that note, I shall venture away now to update and upload.

Until another day... *bow*

]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/14776638/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/14776638/ Mon, 24 Sep 2007 17:48:22 PDT
Sorry it's been a year sence I last left a message. I've been away from myself for so long... too long really. The writing is going well. Much better then it was on my last update. I'm now almost 18 and studying to be a police officer. I have a crush on two completly opposite people and don't know what to do about it.
On one side, it's a female that has gripped my heart. She's something else, she is.
On the other side, there's this guy who I've had feelings for for almost a whole year. He says he loves me, and I love him so much too, but he refuses to date me for some reason or another. He never says why.

oh well, i gotta go

]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/9095810/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/9095810/ Sat, 17 Jun 2006 11:52:27 PDT It was yesterday that I realized how strange it is for me to remember him.
I was three when he was murdered... Only three, and i only have memories of my life after age five... except of him.
He must have been someone very speacial to me, but I can't really remember him enough to tell. And I can't ask my dad about him, he is off in who knows where...
But Slap.... I don't even know his real name, I was that young... I was that young when he was murdered... One shot to the back of his head while he was sleeping in a Columbus motel.
I don't know why he was killed. I don't even know by who. The police never caught them.
I have my theories.... But I have little faith in them.
When he was killed, my dad told me he went on a trip to California. I remember that. I was so sad. Crying just as I am now, just thinking about it.
I was three, why was he taken from me? Because he was in a biker club? Just like my dad, whom I always thought was involved someway or another.
But I remember, when I was young, I would sit on Slap's lap in my Dad's work van and my brother would stand between his legs and slap was always so nice to me!! I swear he must have loved me!!! I miss him so much... I wish he never would have left me!!! Why??? Was it my dad who shot him? I know he's done worse. But why the one man who cared the most for me? He was always with me!!
This man was my everything. He was the ring of my life when i was young. Maybe thats why my dad wanted him dead, ya know? Was he jelous? Upset that Slap loved me?
I really don't know...
~Ash ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8987195/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8987195/ Tue, 06 Jun 2006 10:10:48 PDT
Tomarrow, I'm not sure as of now how I will get to school, because our car won't start. It's like, either the altinator, the battery, or the starter. Most likely the altinator.... But still, my mum said it is all my fault!!! I'm not a satanist or nothing so I don't see how it's all my fault!!! Lucifer f*cked me over, and he has absolutly no reason to!!

I just don't understand it anymore.... He can't hate me because I'm christian, because really I'm not. And really, he can't love me bacause I'm not a satanist, but still!! I'm a desendant of his lover and why should I be punished?!?!?!?!!?!?


<3
Ash ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8888669/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8888669/ Sun, 28 May 2006 12:50:56 PDT XD
So yea, it turns out that my long distance boyfriend Scott, is no longer going to be my long distance boyfriend. He's moving in with me in just over a week!!!!!! I;m so excited!!!!! I love him so very much!!!
He makes me feel like i'm flying, and it's the best feeling that I've ever felt...
I'm sooooooooo super happy that my mom is letting him live here too!!! I never thought she would let him!!! But i guess she realizes that he makesme happy....
Yea, he makes me so happy that i talk about him without even meaning to!! Like today, we (me mum and I) were driving down the road and passed a technology store and i thought out loud 'hey, i wonder if he could work there...' and my mum had no idea what the hell i was talking about.... XD I loved it!!

Honestly, I really thinks she knows that I love him, 'cause i haven't told her. Scott wants me to so bad, but i just ain't the type to admit to love, usually... XD But i can't help it right now!!!!!!! I am just soooooooo excited and I can't wait!!!!!!

I must admit though, i will be really depressed if he takes his word back on this.... He's been swearing up and down that he's dead serious and everything, but the fear that he's lying is always there with me.... It's like that with everyone for me though..... And usually most people hold to their words.... So do you think he will too? I really hope so... I love him so much... I really thik i am love sick.... lol, yeah, me, the one who chooses to live a sucluded life to be safe from love, falls for a guy in Texas... how ironic?

But in this case, I love the irony. I met Scott on here, DeviantArt.... Thank you to this website, and thank you to myself the night i met him for drinking the whole pot of coffee!!!

To Scott, the one i hope to love for all time, and then forever more...
~Ashley Elizabeth

PS: The Song That I Feel Soes How Happy I Am:

P.O.D. - "Alive"

Everyday is a new day
I'm thankful for
Every breath I take
I won't take it for granted
So I learn from my mistakes
It's beyond my control
Sometimes it's best to let go
Whatever happens
In this lifetime
So I trust in love
You have given me
Peace of mind
CHORUS:
I feel so alive
For the very first time
I can't deny you
I feel so alive
I feel so alive
For the very first time
And I think I can fly

Sunshine upon my face
A new song for me to sing
Tell the world
How I feel inside
Even though it might
Cost me everything
Now that I know this
So beyond, I can't hold this
I can never
Turn my back away
Now that I've seen you
I can never look away

Repeat chorus

Now that I know you
(I could never
Turn my back away)
Now that I see you
(I could never look away)
Now that I know you
(I could never
Turn my back away)
Now that I see you
(I believe no matter
What they say)

Repeat chorus twice ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8768699/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8768699/ Sun, 14 May 2006 12:57:50 PDT OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8751904/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8751904/ Fri, 12 May 2006 17:16:03 PDT yeah, today's a good day all, and i hope yall go and comment my new entries!!!!!!!!!!


~Ash ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8551921/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8551921/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 14:35:15 PDT XD

Mood: Oh Yeah
Listening to: Killing Lonliness
Reading: Sweetblood
Watching: Phantom of the Opera

I Is HAPPY!!!!!! I GOT A SCANNER!!!!!!! I IS GONNA UPLOAD A BUNCJH OF MY PICS TODAY!!!!!!!!

mine... ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8536435/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8536435/ Thu, 20 Apr 2006 21:36:36 PDT XD

Mood: Oh Yeah
Listening to: Killing Lonliness
Reading: Sweetblood
Watching: Phantom of the Opera

sorry for not being on often!!! I will be posting some of my new awesome drawings because i now have a scaner!!!

mine... ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8304151/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8304151/ Wed, 29 Mar 2006 11:41:58 PST uh, not that i can remember... ;_;

2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
uh, now with a month and a half... sence feb 10, 06

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
my bf gave me his cutest pair of boxers!! ^_^

4. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU DROPPED YOUR CELL?
uh, my cell? never. house phone while talking to scott? millions.

5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
last week

6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
uh... i don't really have any money.... to spend on anything...

7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
uh, half a chiken fired stake for dinner last night.

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
eyes

9. ONE FAVORITE SONG:
Killing Lonliness by H.I.M.

10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
Westland

11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTEND(ED)?
Churchill

12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER?
uh... *blush* pre-paid....

14. LONGEST JOB HELD?
uh, nobody will hire me for the way i dress...

15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?
just a die...

16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?
when i'm with my cuz...

17. LAST WEDDING ATTENDED
i was flower girl at my aunt cheri and uncl nabil's wedding in 1994....

18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY?
uh, either Kelli or phil.... scott don't count b/c he's my b/f and would already know...

19. LAST TIME YOU ATTENDED CHURCH:
this past sunday.... first time in a year and a half...

20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT:
NONE

21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE HEARD:
....

23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?
Hungry Howies, i know like 10 that work there...

24. CAN YOU COOK?
no way... maybe valveta mac and cheese.....???

25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?
not able/allowed to drive...

26. BEST KISSER?
uh, i was told my bf is

27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
friday, when i was freaking out about being accused of having a wepon and threatening to use it on someone....

28. MOST DISLIKED FOOD:
Micky d's

30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
i'm stupid/ugly/fat/a pig.... it all ties...

32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?
no job here......

33. FAVORITE MOVIE?
The Mummy series or Black Dog

34. CAN YOU SING?
uh, hardly...

35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
never, also not alowwed...

36. LAST KISS??
uh.... bad memorey attatched to that one...

37. LAST MOVIE RENTED:
uh, i don't remember, it was too long ago... i do want to rent Rent soon tho!!! ^_^

38. THING YOU NEVER LEAVE HOME WITHOUT?
my phone/wallet/chap stick

39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT?
uh, either bradington, fl or london, ontario

40. DO YOU LIKE CHINESE FOOD?
YESSIR!!

41. HOW BIG IS YOUR BED?
a full

42. IS YOUR ROOM CLEAN?
it's got some clothes on the floor from last night...

43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?
desktop, not allowed to have a laptop...

44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?
uh, chris rock

45. DO YOU SMOKE?
no

46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES ON?
uh, tons of clothes in the winter, durr... and almost nakie in the summer

47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?
i wish scott did... tho technically speaking he does, over the phone... ;_;

48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?
YES!! RIGHT NOW IT IS!!!

49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
3 times... in a week.... i was always a passenger tho... no carro ;_;

50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
pancakes

51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?
cold, yes... frap's rock

52. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
uh, anyway i can eat them

53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?
yes, i live by it.

54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE:
scott, best bf in my world...

55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?
brother kevin...

56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?
Scott: i love you honey!! :-* :-* :-*

57. MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING?
NEITHER

58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?
4, 1's doulbed up tho...

59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?
blue jeans (yuk!!), grey zip up hoodie, black gravitation tank top, pink thong and pink bra.... TMI???

60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC OF A SONG?
With the warmth of your arms, you saved me, Killing Lonliness by H.I.M.

61. WHY ARE ORANGES CALLED ORANGES?
cuz they're orange

62. CAN Y... ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8259022/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8259022/ Fri, 24 Mar 2006 19:59:20 PST read this little bit of a start of a a poem i wrote while stuck in the CIC today during fourth period:
Am I just supposed to sit around and wait,
For the seldom judgement of my fate?

It kinda all started in third period when Simon just had to keep pushing my buttons... he likes to sing opera when i'm tense... he get's a kick outta my responce... i REALLY don't see what's funny in that but what the hell... he's a little fucked up in the brain anyways....
anywho, after enough of my heart concitrated politness, i snapped. I cused him out and then finaly, when he really didn't think i was serious, i grabbed him by the arm and told him to shut the fuck up.... i'm so tense now STILL, and i have no source of ventalation.... I'm going to go to church with Kelli on Sunday and I'm gonna sleep over at her house tomarrow night....
She's been great with understanding me... seeing as she REALLY understands how simon is.... and i really think this little shiraid was the last. I really think there is no chance of resutecting our friendship now. It's over, but that's ok. It only means that my fate has something different for mr in my line. Something good or something bad, i'm here and never leaving so that i'm sure i'll never miss it... not any of it... i'm not ever going to let simon get to me like i did today... to everyone in my history class.... sorry... but i really didn't threaten to kill him with "the still unfound" weapon in my backpack. I happened to have a pen in my hand... i guess everyong thought i could kill him with a ballpoint pen...
I do know that today was by far the most emotion i've ever been in school sence middle school. For those out there who have no idea what happened to me in middle school, there was a drugadict vice principal who liked to fuck with me every damn day in my eighth grade year... he was suspending me every week or so for weeks at a time... finaly, he got me taken away from my mom by the state of michigan. that was it. i wasn't taking his shit no more... but like i say, i really had no choice back then... i was a dumb 14 year old trouble maker who had no say in her fututre and who's conculer(the person at school who handles scedualing), laughed at me when i said i wanted to go into the criminal justice league of life... learning about why criminals do as they do... i got laughed at by all three of them... the vp, the counceler, and the school phsycologist... so she called herself... she told me i was a loose cannon, did you know that? then, when i went to get a phsyc. evaluation, she denied everything, making me look even more crazy than i am!! which to tell you, i am not crazy!!!!
Ya, needless to say, I think you can tell, but the actions of today has totally brought back everything bad that has happened in my life... the divorce, the rapes, the crazy shit in middle school.... i'm not sure how much more i can really handle... life is getting to be too much for me and I'm not even 18 yet!!! I'm just now 16!!! And then there's what happened when i was like 5... when my mom was getting the mail and my dad wanted to get before her... he punched her... making some of her teeth fall out... it still haunts me, only because i was sitting only 6 feet behind them and i saw everything until my brother pulled me upstairs... i was balling my eyes out.... I have nightmares about that you know? That one day he just kills her... and i die, in all ways... mind, body, soul....
... i really wish i could have talked to scott, but Kelli really helped me today... Thank you so much Kelli. I don't know what i would have done if you weren't in the councelor's office when you were... something tells me i would have screamed.... outta mental frustration.... I cried enough tears today to suffice me for the next ten years.... The Past is not something i can really take all over again.... back when i first went through that shit, i was stronger, more assured of myself... but only because i had been in a deep depression at the time... not wanting to leave my boyfriend of the time named Kevin... I still miss him but i'm ok now... I have scott to help me when ever i need help... and when he isn't avalible, i have Kelli.... she helps soooooooooo much...


Sorry for the ranting... And there maybe some spelling errors up there.... sorry.... I just need to vent and I had no where else to really turn to right now.... so... ya, sorry!!

~Kagome



My Loving BoyFriend:

People I Watch:
~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8231191/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8231191/ Tue, 21 Mar 2006 20:22:57 PST nope!!

B - Best Friend?
uh... everyone i trust!! ^_~

C - Crush?
scott

D - Dogs name?
none

E - Easiest Person To Talk To?
uh.... scott...

F - Friday or Saturday?
saturday..

G - Gummy Bears Or Worms?
ummmm, worms dude...

H - Hometown?
L-towne, 'cause i'm gangsta

I - If You Could Move Would you?
to lubbock, texas

J - Jesus?
no, jesus, the spanish way

K - Kids?
2, Xavier and Christian....

L - love of your life?
ummmm, Scott... Prothonotary....

M - Milk Flavor?
white

N - Number Of Siblings?
uh, 1 close, 4 others

O - One Wish?
i wish i could be with scott

P - Phobia(s)
bugs

Q - Favorite Quote?
Bombing for Peace is like Fucking for Virginity...

R - reason to smile?
S.C.O.T.T.

S - Song You Last Heard?
Killing Lonliness

T - Time You Woke Up?
6.30am

U - Unknown Fact About Me?
I'm a Ninja... i really am though....

V - Vegetable You Love?
carrots

W - Worst Habit?
i freak out too much

X -Rays You've Have had?
none

Y - Yummy Foods?
pizza

Z - Zodiac Sign?
aquarious





My Loving BoyFriend:

People I Watch:
http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8179152/ Sun, 19 Mar 2006 15:35:48 PST
~Ash





~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
My Loving BoyFriend:

People I Watch:
http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/8136620/ Thu, 16 Mar 2006 12:41:56 PST
People I Watch:
http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7987280/ Fri, 24 Feb 2006 05:58:27 PST

I love... scott

I don't understand... people

Forever is... my life... T_T

I never want to... be you

When I wake up in the morning... i text message scott

Life is full of... knives

My past is incredibly... unremembered

I get annoyed when... people treat me like i'm three

Parties are for... a reason to leave the dungon

I wish... i lived in texas

My dog is... dead

My cat is... dead

Kisses are the worst when... they're ove the phone

Tomorrow I'm going to... scream...

I really want... to lay next to scott

I have low tolerance for people who... are ghetto

If I had a million dollars... i would live in texas



My Loving BoyFriend:

People I Watch:
http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7960033/ Thu, 23 Feb 2006 08:44:34 PST
People I Watch:
http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7940982/ Sun, 19 Feb 2006 07:56:31 PST
People I Watch:
http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7907551/ Wed, 15 Feb 2006 14:45:37 PST
People I Watch:
http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7897940/ Tue, 14 Feb 2006 16:30:27 PST no, his name is Scott, and I accually really love him.... first time for me in a long time, to be honest... My last love told me to fuck off, so honestly, if she didn't want me, then i give up... atleast that was what i was thinking before my birthday... i brought it up to Scott about a long distance relationship and he thought it would be nice... so did i, that was why i brought it up... ^_^ no, truthfully, it's been so long sence i was accually dating anyone that i'm not too sure what to do... even more implored by the fact that my last love was a girl that told me to fuck off.... it really makes one think that i must have a great choice in lovers... , check out his page...

~luv ya Scott, and I so hope we can be together this summer.....

~ash ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7864054/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7864054/ Sat, 11 Feb 2006 10:53:52 PST
so as it turns out, i got this awesome HIM blanket from my only friend Kelly... by this i mean that she's the only one who showed up out of all of my 'friends'.... it really makes me want to cry... that and i wasn't allowed to call Scott, so i was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bored..... go figure.......


People I Love:

~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7840026/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7840026/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 17:24:34 PST saddly tho, very few people even remembered that it was my birthday and even fewer told me happy birthday....... But i'm okay with that, because only those that matter remember my day, ya know? lol, i mean or even yuppers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~lots of luv for those who love me.... mind you, if you love me, comment on this, though it really don't matter to me if you comment or not, i just checking to see who even reads my journals........ hee hee, i'm crafty!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^






People I Love:

http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7828836/ Tue, 07 Feb 2006 13:38:16 PST
~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7828356/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7828356/ Tue, 07 Feb 2006 12:47:15 PST
Totally have to agree with all of you who say people are getting fake on here. So I gave in and let's see who really reposts this. This is a test to see who's paying attention. It serves to eliminate people who are desperately trying to add "friends" like its a popularity contest in High School. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own journal. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are... Repost this if you are a friend.. if you don't, you get deleted.. Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new journal as "Fake Friends".

~originally posted by - ~Pyro8maniac

(I wont delete anyone ) ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7821733/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7821733/ Mon, 06 Feb 2006 18:08:36 PST
~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7813113/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7813113/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 19:59:47 PST
FRIENDS!


http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7813109/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 19:57:28 PST ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7813093/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7813093/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 19:55:53 PST ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7811578/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7811578/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 19:53:16 PST
FRIENDS!


http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7811351/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 16:45:24 PST

~FRIENDS~













~CLUBS~




~aSH ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7811275/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7811275/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 16:37:15 PST

Check these guys out!!!! ^_^



~Ash ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7799565/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7799565/ Sat, 04 Feb 2006 12:37:44 PST ya right!!!!!!!!


~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7773798/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7773798/ Wed, 01 Feb 2006 17:43:18 PST it makes me want to cry *tear* ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7765633/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7765633/ Tue, 31 Jan 2006 20:34:03 PST
i'm about to go to bed, so i'm gonna wish yall a nighty night, yes you too Scott, if ur reading this.... which i doubt you are, so i don't know why i said that....

<3 much love to all
~ash ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7751862/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7751862/ Mon, 30 Jan 2006 13:48:30 PST
CANCER
Great Kisser. Very high sex appeal.
GREAT in bed. Most horny.

PISCES
Caring. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT.
Very high sex appeal. Has the last word. Extremely weird but in a good way. Super good in bed.

LIBRA
Very gentle. Nice. Love is one of a kind. Silly and fun!
Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet!
GREAT in Bed.

CAPRICORN
Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future.
Irrestible, awesome kisser. Great talker.
Always gets what he or she wants. BY FAR
the BEST in BED. EVERY PERFORMANCE!!!!

AQUARIUS
Trustworthy. Sexy. Rare to find. Loves being
in long relationships. Extremly energetic.
Amazing in bed, the BEST lovers.

ARIES
Outgoing. Spontanious. Not one to fuck with.
Have own unique sexiness. Unpredictable. Erotic.
Funny. Addictive. Take you on trips to the moon in bed.

TAURUS
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners
Very Good in bed. Lover not a Fighter But
Still Punch Your Lights Out .Trustworthy

LEO
Great talker. Sexy. Always Horny.
Laid back. Knows how to have fun.
Is really good at fucking. Great kisser.

VIRGO
Dominant in relationships.Sexy.Always Horny.Freak in bed.
Always wants the last word.Loud.Caring.Smart.Loves being in long relationships.Addictive.Attractive. Loud


SCORPIO
EXTREMELY sexy. Talkative.
Energetic. Predict future.
Most erotic.Freak in bed.GREAT kisser.
not one to mess with. always get what they want.

SAGITTARIUS
Spontanious. Horny.High sex appeal.
Rare to find. Good when found.
Loves being in long relationships.

GEMINI
Aggressive&& yet loveable . freak in bed. rare to find. loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want.Extremly outgoing. Outstanding kisser. sexual as fuck.**HATES ORANGE**

Repost and tell us what your sign is ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7751600/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7751600/ Mon, 30 Jan 2006 13:27:21 PST thought about?
Emma

Looked at?
mum

said I love you to?
miku

hugged?
phil

kissed?
No One

hurt?
phil

Shared a secret with?
... i think miku...

watched a movie with?
myself

couldn't stop thinking about?
phil... btw, he now knows i'm sorry...

In your family...
Who makes you laugh?
no one

Who makes you cry?
... my brother i guess, cause he's a mean ass bastered...

Who is strict?
no one

Who is laid back ?
me

Who makes you think?
no one

Who will do anything for you?
no one

Have you ever?
been skinnydipping?
nope....

Made a friend mad?
ya, allof them last week...

gone to detention?
ya, for telling the teacher that her idea sucked... ^_^

gotten expelled?
in eighth grade.... long story short, the guy was an ass...

threw popcorn in a movie theatre?
no....

been on stage?
ya, for costume judging at camp...

seen a famous person?
... probly, and just never noticed.... oh, he's famous, but i don't like him... Jeff Gordon...

been pantsed by a friend?
no, just de-braed...

lost your voice?
ya, when i went to the tiger's game a few years ago...

You are...
best at?
listening...

worst at?
Being Happy

Random
profession?
crime scene investagator... a lab technition

best friend?
all my friends are my best friends

Favorite movie star?
Bela Lugosi

idol?
Ville Valo

hair color?
redish brown...

favorite movie?
Dracula or Queen of the Damned

have you ever been in LOVE?
sorry, no

favorite color?
BLACK

have you ever done a bad impersonation of Arnold Scshwartsenagger ?
no, he's weird...

best memory?
i have no telling, i have a bad memorey...

worst memory?
Most

favorite singer?
ville valo or micheal jackson...

can you do the worm?
I'm Too Fat

did you like this survey?
it was a little weird, like life, so no, sorry... ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7748012/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7748012/ Mon, 30 Jan 2006 04:27:37 PST [Shoe size] 10
[Parents still together] nope
[Siblings] 1 know of.... i may have a sister
[Pets] none
FAVORITES
[Color] black and red
[Number] 8
[Animal] cat or kitty
[Drinks] captian morgan
[Soda] ....faygo redpop
[Book] Rainbow Boys
[Flower] black rose
DO YOU
[Color your hair?] yes, red
[Twirl your hair?] when i'm bored
[Have tattoos?] i wish
[Have Piercings?] i wish some more
[Cheat on tests/homework?] not usually, but it may help me grades
[Drink/Smoke?] on occasion, with both
[Like roller coasters?] sometimes, in moderation
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] yes, england
[Want more piercings?] YEAH
[Like cleaning?] sometimes, when i've got nothin else better to do, usually at night...
[Write in cursive or print?] cursive, takes less time and effort
[Own a web cam?] i want one
[Know how to drive?] i wish, but i live a shltered life....
[Own a cell phone?] prepaid and old contract(i owe like $500^_^)
[Ever get off the damn computer?] ya, when i sleep and go to school
HAVE U EVER
[Been in a fist fight?] almost every damn day
[Considered a life of crime?] yea, murder
[Considered being a hooker?] nope, not yet anyways
[Lied to someone?] for the last week
[Been in love?] i love all my good friends...
[Made out with JUST a friend?] i guess, but the last time i made out with someone they took it the wrong way and i got raped....
[Been in lust?] not really
[Used someone] i can't remember, i have no long term memorey
[Been used?] probly
[Been cheated on?] never been suriously dating, so no
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] yea, and puched
[Stolen anything?] probly, i can't remember
[Held a gun] 2 barelle shotgun
CURRENTS
[Current clothing] black pants with chain wallet and Gravitation tanktop
[Current taste] in what?? food or clothes?? or music??
[What you currently smell like] white diamonds
[Current hair] short with the top up in a pionty tail, 2 pieces hanging down
[Current thing I ought to be doing] asking to be forgiven by the one person whom i pissed off last week
[Current cd in stereo] H.I.M. mix
[Last book you read] Rainbow Boys, i'm on Rainbow High
[Last movie you saw] .... Castle in the Sky (1986)
[Last thing you ate] a popcicle...
[Last person you talked to on the phone] miku....
[Do drugs?] maybe, but i'll never leave the trace to get it back to me....
[Believe there is life on other planets?] ya, i also believe that there is another planet out there just like ours!!!
Remember your first love?] ya, his name was Paul.... Murphy.... did i just say that???
[Still love him/her?] i haven't seen him sence the first part of 6th grade, before i moved back to livonia...
[Read the newspaper?] ya, when there's something interesting in it...
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] ya, both.... me being a bi/lesbian as it is....
[Believe in miracles?] ya, if they believe in me...
[Do well in school?] ya, fairly...
[Wear hats] as long as they look kinda kewl on me
[Hate yourself?] TOTALLY
[Have an obsession?] maybe...
[Collect anything?] manga and anime
[Have a best friend?] not just one, lots
[Close friends?] i don't know
[Like your handwriting?] no
[Care about looks] not really, i'm fat and ugly
LOVE LIFE
[First crush] paul
[First kiss] lead to rape
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] ya, i guess
[Do you believe in "the one?"] ya, but i don't have a one
[Are you a tease?] no
[Too shy to make the first move?] ya
ARE U A
[Daydreamer] ya
[Bitch/Asshole] bitch
[sarcastic] always
[Angel] 50%
[Devil] 50%
[Shy] 100%
[Talkative] 99.9% ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7740388/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7740388/ Sun, 29 Jan 2006 10:36:17 PST http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7736677/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 22:45:43 PST would never hurt my heart because I know it's true,
you really do just hate me so.

not that it would hurt me none,
i could live my life without you forever,
though in the end, killing lonliness.

i may hope forgivness is in your eyes,
but i supose that the only day you may be happy is the day i die.
i laugh in your shadow as you dominate the world.

from behind the mirrored glass i laugh,
as the police talk as you lie,
i wish now only i would die.

though i say and though i know,
i do love you but just the same,
i love miku just the well.

you tell me you hate me,
and i tell you i hate you,
but this all fueled from me so can i go?

i'm sorry it had to happen,
but forgiveness is not a burden,
fine fuck the free world. (lol, 8mile thingy)

^_^ luv ya phil, luv ya mikachu ^_^

i'm soooooooooo super sorry about the ubber bad poetry, i'm just bored!!!!! ^_^ and btw, if phil is reading this at any time, i'm willing to repend for my brashness!!!! plz?...
i'm accually quiet happy tonight, idk y tho... **note** me if ur bored and need someone to talk to.................... ^_^ or *_* or &_& or #_# or @_@ or!_! or ;_; or -_- or o_o or ) or ~_~ lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7715273/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7715273/ Thu, 26 Jan 2006 16:06:51 PST )

i really woundn't care,
if you really fare,
cause i really don't fuckin care.

i really wish you would drop dead right fuckin here,
cause i told you once be fuckin fore,
that i just don't give a fuckin care...

and that's why i tried to fuckin kill you,
and i know i fuckin failed!!!
and it tair the fuck out of a me on the inside!!!

so i'm telling you right now,
i'm telling you here,
so i know you fuckin hear,

I hate you and i wish youd fuckin die!!
and i mean it when i fuckin yell it!!
cause i really fuckin hate your guts!!!

so i'm telling you right here,
cause i know your right there,
listening to my every fucking word!!

Ya, i know your sitting there listening to every fucking word i yell!!!!

and i maen it when i say,
yes i really fucking mean it,
I FUCKIN WISH YOU WOULD DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CAUSE I REALLY DO HATE YOUR FUCKING GUTS,
AND ALL YOU DESERVE IS A FUCKED UP DEATH.

DEATH IS ALL THATS WORTH A FUCKER WHO TRIES TO FUCK WITH ME.

BITCH. ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7707942/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7707942/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 19:39:33 PST




NIGHTY NIGHT ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7707033/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7707033/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 18:00:08 PST ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7696664/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7696664/ Tue, 24 Jan 2006 15:57:33 PST "Abruptly Jason drew back, gazing behind Kyle. Kyle turned and..."
Rainbow Boys..... awesome book!!!!!

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
i can put my finger tips on the wall infront of me!!! lol, kool!!!!!!!

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
King Of The Hill

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
6:37


5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
6:43

...

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
the buzzing of the refridgerater.... the tv next to me...

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
i was getting out of the truck...after school... coming home from the warehouse... at about 4:56 area...

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
MySpace

9. What are you wearing?
a black long sleve Wisconsin sirt, black wristband, spike bracelet, barbwire bracelet, black pants, white and pink (ewwww, pink) socks, a pentical walet with chain....ribbon belt....glasses, blue ribbon around me neck...

10. Did you dream last night?
no


11. When did you last laugh?
third hour today at school, talking about the two people who made my life hell in middle school...


12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
like wallpaper wise???? nothing, but white paint

14. What do you think of this quiz?
weird.... but what else is there???

15. What is the last film you saw?
i don't remember.... maybe Remember The Titans

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Manga and Anime and Manga and Anime.....

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
if it's really that important to you, and i really don't care if it does, cause i'll tell you anyway, message me..... in a **note**

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
make poeple tollerant of gay, bi, lesbians and trans genderal teens and adults!!!

19. Do you like to dance?
sure

20. George Bush:
a fucking asshole who needs to be impeached!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Christian or Isabela

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Vicious or Xavier

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
have and will, in England

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
FUCK GOD, HE HATES GAYS

25. 4 people who must also do this in THEIR journal:

Willi..... gothic ghetto.... hee hee, u know who u r...
Miku..... hee hee, you have to call me still or I'll keep calling you Miks.... lol (i'm so mean...)
.....
anyone who loves me... ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7687119/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7687119/ Mon, 23 Jan 2006 16:17:42 PST [link]


Ya, so? How is everyone tonight?? Guess what's on tongiht by the way?!?!?!?!?

24!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I so love that show!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


lol, luv always

~Ash ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7680359/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7680359/ Sun, 22 Jan 2006 21:00:13 PST nighty night....

~Ash ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7641975/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7641975/ Wed, 18 Jan 2006 17:50:30 PST i talked on the phone with phil for like almost two hours!!! i used me mum's phone, so me thinks her bill is gonna be a bit high...... ^_^'
so, tomarrow i'm gonna go to pheaten's coffee house at me school for a poetry slam and i'll get in for free for reading me poetry!! ^_^
i'm a little kitty!!! <]^_^[>
i like talking to phil, he says that he likes one of me seperate personalities!!!

Bob= angry, angsty, and a little off the wire...
Kagome= cue, flurty, a little hyper... okay, very hyper!!!
Ashley= semi normal, and a little possesive when it comes to relationships... not really!!! ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7631388/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7631388/ Tue, 17 Jan 2006 15:31:43 PST it's really pathetic, i know... please forgive me, but i like her too, but not the her who i'm with. i want to be with him, and i want to be with her, but i'm with her now, and i know i can't have all three, or even the two i want...
i can't be physical with the her i'm with because she lives so far away... i wish i could, but she's also way too old, like 35... i know, that's a really bad thing and i should get out now... but i want love so bad, i think i would do anything to be loved, as long as i am loved by someone... i'm depressing meself, maybe i should shut up now....

~luv ya all if you could help me, i really do love him and her, I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED

~Kagome ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7621302/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7621302/ Mon, 16 Jan 2006 14:18:09 PST
i just posted some new things and i know Princess Samaria is a little roughly done, i appologize. It's rather old, so please bare with me...

i am new here (obviously), so if you'd like to get to know who iam better, check out me myspace!!!


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thx, but i got to go now!! time for dinner!!!!


MUCH LOVE

~kagome ]]> ~kagome1990 http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7609975/ http://kagome1990.deviantart.com/journal/7609975/ Sun, 15 Jan 2006 11:02:24 PST By: Kagome Itoshime
Chapter One: Introduction
She sat there in her night dress, her knees together and feet apart on the top most step of the back porch of the shabby cottage home in 1692 Salem. She, a teenage angel with long blond hair that ghosted her shoulders and bright green eyes that shown the brightest of emeralds. The waxing moon shown bright on the black canvas of the night sky as the green eyes watched the moon with attentiveness. Her pale skin was aglow as if she herself were the moon glowing up high in the night sky. She thought about the hope, the belief that one day she may be able to escape the life of her grandparents home.
Anita stared high up at the moon, watching as the clouds threatened to devour it. Eventually, they did.
As the grey clouds slowly covered the sliver moon, her grandmother yelled for her company in the kitchen. She walked slowly as the translucent night dress softly caressed her baby-soft skinned body; by looking, it was obvious that her under garments were the least visible through the light weight night dress.
As she entered the kitchen doorway, her grandmother stood at the sink and washed the supper dishes.
"Yes Grandmother?" Anita asked as she slowly walked closer to her mother's mother, the woman who has been her guardian sense she was only eight years of age.
"Dear, why are you so blue? You have been quiet, as if thinking deeply, and loaning out everyone in this house. Why?" the elderly woman asked sympathetically as she halted her efforts of the dishes.
"Grandmother, I'm not sad at all. And when I am alone, I am not thinking, just looking." the young girl whispered, sounding somewhat detached from the moment.
"Please don't tell me this is related to the sudden upbringing of the happenings of your mother and father's deaths. All the words about are lies. They were not witches or vampires taken by the devil for freedom." Tears came to the elder woman's eyes as she spoke of her daughter and son-in-law, who were now seven years dead.
"Grandmother! Please! Don't upset yourself! This mood of mine, it is unrelated to the lies about my mother and father! I want to know the meaning of life! The reason why we are all her and suffer the ways we do!" Tears slowly filled the young girl's eyes as she cried out the very thoughts that she had been having over the last fortnight. "I know my parents were not witches or vampires! They were wonderful! Nice, beautiful and caring people!" the young girl yelled passionately at her grandmother.
"Ann, I know! You really have no need to tell me how my daughter was! I know she was wonderful! I raised her!" the elder woman cried of guilt for yelling at her only grandchild.
"I'm going to bed! Leave me alone!" Anita yelled as she ran down the short hallway to her bed chamber, slamming the hollow wooden door behind her, crying the whole time.
She ran over to her bed, an almost royal looking canopy and frame that held a large, full size cot, large enough for two people to sleep comfortably upon. She threw herself down upon the soft goose feather comforter and cried all her hearts tears onto her pillow.
Then she stopped. Her echoed cries died away from her chamber and she lay still, all her hearts desire still concentrated on her wish to be free. But she knew she could never have it.
But what was this feeling? Could someone really be watching her as she lay upon her bed crying? Yes, but this presence was not that of her grandmothers, a somewhat foreboding stranger that was new to her senses.
Tears began to fill her eyes once more. Her half open window with the black curtains, which lay still, eerily unmoved.
Was there really a foreboding presence lurking about the yard? Or wheat field perhaps? She lay still once more, fearful as to the happenings if she moved.
She lay one her bed crying softly as the wind blew gently through the open window, the curtains swaying. Then, as if she could see the other presence, she sat up on her bed and rose slowly.
As she walked closer to the window, she saw a shadowy figure just sight able by the moonlight. He was like a beckoned figure, almost as if he were drawing her closer, making her want to crawl through the half open window and follow him through the night. But she knew she could not. It would never be allowed by her grandparents.
But the shadowy man suddenly raised his hand to her, as if calling for her company silently.
'Come my dear. Join me...' was the silky, calm, becoming voice that filled the young girl's thoughts. The next she could tell, she was almost to him, standing in the middle of her grandparent's wheat field.
'Thank you for coming to me.' said the man, whom now Anita could tell was a fairly tall, brown haired boy who could be no older then twenty-five. As he spoke, his lips never moved. It was almost like he spo... ]]> ~kagome1990