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]]> ~kaisaris Just to have another update http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/27856970/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/27856970/ Mon, 19 Oct 2009 15:52:02 PDT
Been re-reading :iconshinga:'s Twilight parodies. Starting to re-read Amelia Atwater-Rhodes's books. Rewatching Interview with the Vampire. Wanting to buy Rifftrax's audio MST3king commentary on Twilight and syncing it with the movie from Netflix (this I would really love to do).


So, yeah, it's that time of year when vampires are everywhere. This year seems more offensive than I can ever remember. Walk into a bookstore, immediately confronted by it, walk up to the teens literature section and it looks like every single book is some kind of super bad vampire romance (which is the case when two floor-to-ceiling bookcases contain nothing except Meyer's fire-fodder).
And the only reason I'm looking at the teens section is that I'm looking for Atwater-Rhodes's latest book Persistence of Memory. Looking for the paperback specifically, I'm unwilling to plop down the money for hardcover, but looks like I might have to wait another half-year before the paperback comes out. I hate to say it, but I regret buying her last two books in hardcover, ain't doing it again until she publishes something that restores my faith.


Ever since I learned what sadism and masochism is, I've considered myself a full-hearted sadist. I learned when I was about 9, so that's 10, almost 11 years of confirmed sadistic affinities. My currently short time in the Animation major has revealed something to me: I am also a masochist. The one thing that I have fully denied and thought impossible to be part of my being. And yet it is. That's probably why, while reading :iconshinga:'s Twilight parodies, I'm getting the urge to try reading Twilight, and seriously rewriting it entirely. Or perhaps the urge is part of some mental breakdown that I am unaware I'm under. Possibly. Considering that a long time ago I tried reading and gave up after I started tasting bile after the first 2-3 sentences. Possibly. Considering also that my stomach feels like it wants to turn out and spew all its wonderful acids onto the franchise's merchandise whenever I have to walk by them to get to the art book section or where the bookstore keeps Gaiman's works. Only a mental breakdown could produce the urge to read and rewrite under those circumstances.

I know I'm insane, I just don't know to what degree.

]]> ~kaisaris Laughing Ass Off http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/27689698/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/27689698/ Sat, 10 Oct 2009 14:54:34 PDT
Btw, I'd recommend Mirrormask and City of Lost Children if you're looking for movies to watch. No guarantee that you'll think they're good, I'm just saying that I think they are.

Oh, and Meg, if you haven't seen Zombieland, you should. There's a segment with a banjo that I know is right up your alley.

]]> ~kaisaris Something Else http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/27367892/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/27367892/ Wed, 23 Sep 2009 01:03:52 PDT
At any rate. Should get back to cracking, I can probably get done with the assignment due at 8a.m. by the time the rest of Freeman's Mind plays through. Which is like, an hour or hour and a half. But I am really frickin' fucked when it comes to the essay exam later today. YAY. Awesome.

The thing I absolutely hate about caffeine is that I can feel my mental acuity and IQ temporarily drop as I go under the influence.

]]> ~kaisaris Retardedness Update http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/27016721/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/27016721/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 18:20:01 PDT FIRST ORDER OF BUSINESSIE

[link] BAIDIR LOOK AT IT YOU MUST GAH PLEASE It's under a minute long :< Please?
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Linking here in case you haven't swung by :iconibgraham:'s latest journal.


And

Because I'm so retardedly happy about it.

I now have a red mini vacuum to go with my red blankets, red+black pillow, red towel, red sphere/moon chair, red mini flashlight, red cellphone, red cylindrical container, red+black laptop bag, red flip-flops, Auron (who is red) and some red shirts. I'm starting to get my red on, in between black and touches of white.

Down at the Nelson museum gift store I saw these pretty red+white vases, which I don't know the price of, and these red wire+glass bead decorative flower thingies that go in vases which were $9 a piece. I'm highly, HIGHLY tempted.

RED. Like, REDtarded.

I wants more red.

]]> ~kaisaris Sharpening http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/26826323/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/26826323/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 21:43:39 PDT
Just kidding.

That was yesterday.

So, hell yeah, KCAI. I didn't know the dep head of animation had gone to UArts. How 'bout them apples. (Significant to myself and one other person on this site.)

Currently listening to People In Planes. Wish I'd been introduced to them sooner, I'm seriously falling in love fast here. So far, favorite songs by them are Barracuda, If You Talk Too Much (My Head Will Explode), Light For The Deadvine, Taken Trapped Woman, and Narcoleptic. Barracuda and Light are the tops, but If You Talk Too Much is a serious contender.

I'm excited about my coffee machine that I'll be getting tomorrow. Coffee. Mmm. And a big red sphere/moon chair. RUBY RED chair. Gonna be awesome. Can take up some of this extremely empty space in this single dorm room. And it's RED. It'll go with both my blankets, my flashlight, a pillow, and my Auron figure. RED.

There's so much room in here that I can dance and jump and run. I think I'll do that again tomorrow. After I've some coffee.

]]> ~kaisaris In America http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/26431942/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/26431942/ Thu, 06 Aug 2009 20:32:06 PDT pay for it by the hour. The trip was. . . alright. Had some snags here and there (like unintentionally upsetting my overly-sensitive cousin who left on his own trip soon after without a proper goodbye). But otherwise, alright.

The aim of the trip wasn't fun, so no I didn't visit ancient sites, or go site-seeing, or go to any museums or such. The goal was to clean up the house in Kranidi, fix as much as possible there, see family and visit grandma's grave (she's been dead almost a year already). The goal was accomplished, but there's still a lot that needs to be fixed up.

Hm, I'll post up sketches sooner or later of things I. . . sketched. Some of it will have to wait a couple more weeks, seeing as how my scanner is all the way in a storage facility in Kansas City. ^^;

I have a new favorite song: "Why Does It Always Rain on Me" by Travis.

Now, I've officially been up for over 24 hours, so I'm gonna go pass out. Hope summer's going well for everyone.

]]> ~kaisaris Ever Have a Dream... http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/25743147/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/25743147/ Sat, 04 Jul 2009 21:35:17 PDT
It was weird in that it had a kind of set-up before I got involved. The first part of the nightmare was basically showing an overall-view and some snippets of this large sprawling house that was some sort of combination between a circus Fun House, a Salvador Dali painting and the Winchester House (if you don't know about the Winchester House, Google is your friend). In this mad house lives a very insane person. For whatever reason, random people wander into this house, easily getting completely lost. Only the very insane person (from here on referred to as VIP) knows his/her/its way around. Just to mess with the random people, the VIP wanders around too and pretends to be lost whenever the VIP runs into them. Instead of joining together, they'll walk past each other, and the instant the random person's back is completely to the VIP, the VIP murders them brutally and horrifically from behind.
The setup gets played several times in my nightmare until an avatar of myself shows up. I wander in, run into the VIP in the exact same manner as the many previous random persons the nightmare kicked off with. But when the VIP passes by me, in what might be a Genre Savvy [link] moment, I turn around and follow the VIP. And then the rest of the nightmare is simply me following the VIP with such a clear dread and uneasiness that the VIP may turn around and stab me in the face or something. And it's such clear dread and uneasiness that I still feel it even four days after the dream.

Besides my general dislike of the color pink and it's loud cousins (like fuchsia for instance), I wonder why the mad house's main color scheme was pink, fuchsia, magenta, and white. Also, I wish I could remember where pizza fit in.


I'd readily forget the dream. Except that I re-dream about just the house just as I start slipping into deep sleep. The house may have upset me more than the murderous bastard that dwelled its odd geometry.


Other than that little disturbing hiccup, my summer is going fairly swell if only in complete isolation (I only aid in furthering the isolation). How's yours going, dear friend, should you have come to the end of my journal?

]]> ~kaisaris Where The Sky Is High http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/25001189/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/25001189/ Thu, 28 May 2009 16:33:31 PDT If you look in my scraps, you'll see screenshots of a digital "sketchbook" I have started. Even though I have had my Wacom tablet (a mousepad-sized Graphire 4) for a few years, I couldn't get used to drawing on it. So I'm forcing myself to get used to it while also (hopefully) improving whatever drawing skills I have. There are 3 blank real sketchbooks in my possession that I don't know how they accumulated, but I should be filling, but instead I go ahead and start a digital sketchbook.

  • I'm rewatching Avatar in-between watching Bones, Law & Order, Law & Order:SVU, NCIS, In Plain Sight, House, Burn Notice, and whatever catches my interest on the Science Channel. Hey, it's been a long time since I watched TV.


  • Dad and I just completed booking a roundtrip to Greece for the end of the summer. Two weeks, get to see family again, pay respects at grandmother's grave, clean up and get the house in a decent shape, live the Greek way again. I will find a way to take my laptop to Greece and do some digital paintings. Taking my laptop is an issue because 1. Greece uses different types of plugs and 2. they also use a higher voltage current, which means I need an adapter.


    • ]]>     ~kaisaris     Siberian Doll House http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/23859280/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/23859280/ Tue, 24 Mar 2009 00:28:40 PDT
    ♠♠♠

    Since 9th grade, I have had this one story in mind, featuring the characters I most often draw. A couple months ago I started writing out a kind of outline that I would eventually follow and make a comic from. Looking at what I have written out, I need to take a hacksaw, butcher knife, chainsaw, bulldozer, plunger, napalm, and those little craft pipe-cleaners to it. Perhaps experiment a little with the writing. Get it out of the linear time-form that it's currently in. And kill a character. Maybe take a cue from my writing workshop teacher from last semester and make a "Dead Babies" folder for some things.

    ♠♠♠

    I have firmly decided to sell my soul and sanity by entering the animation program here next year.

    ♠♠♠

    I am going to make that Dead Babies folder now.

    ♠♠♠

    I'm wondering why it took me so long to download the Ghost in The Shell soundtracks, when I love the show, I love the music, and the composer is one of my favorites (Yoko Kanno).

    ♠♠♠

    A friend visited me during spring break. We got to talking, especially about his discontentment with his achievements and over-ambitious nature. It drives him crazy. He said that whenever he visits me and talks to me, I give him perspective, and he really enjoys that because my contented nature helps ground him. We talked more about it, I said something about wants v. needs, and a lightbulb seemed to go on over his head. He said that his problem seems to stem from an inability to distinguish between wants and needs. Wants and needs. Interesting. It's something I have observed in other people besides my friend. Seems like when there's a confusion between wants and needs, misery ensues in some form.

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     Why? http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/23728621/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/23728621/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 12:33:03 PDT
    Also, why is Spring Break seemingly passing so quickly? It only just started, I blinked, and 3 and a half days are gone already. Next time I blink it'll be 5 A.M. March 23 and the end of the break.

    I could complain about my airline et shipping woes, but no point since those problems are fully resolved, killing one day of my Spring Break getting those problems fixed.

    And why do I feel like I need to watch Ghost In the Shell? I mean, it's such a great and awesome anime that there is absolutely no shame in watching it, but, like, I just wanna watch it. So badly.

    And one final note: Why does Bleach suck so bad? The first season was awesome. The episodes that have recently aired (I follow the English dub) just suck. Not just story-wise, but animation, too. In earlier seasons, the animation had a good sense of weight and impact, especially in fight scenes. In the current (English-airing) season, there's none of that visceral feeling. A character will hit another character, sending them flying 50 feet backwards into a wall and leave a crater, but there's none of the satisfying force that's in the earlier animation. Rather, in the current season, the impacts remind me of a 4 year-old playing with action figures/dolls. A 4 year-old who's afraid of breaking the toys. Also, most of the new character designs (the Bount characters in particular), just plain suck. Uninspired, unoriginal, stock, unbalanced, and booooorrriiinnnnggg.

    Real final note: Saturday, I watched a friend play through the entirety of Shadow of the Colossus on hard mode. Took like 7 hours (including mundane fruit and lizard hunting/gathering). It was awesome. Seriously, like awesome. Really. Omg. Epic. Most beautiful thing I've seen in a while. Gah. So gorgeous. I love how the camera loves cinematic shots during the colossus battles. Epic. I wanna try playing it myself someday.

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     :D http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/23426083/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/23426083/ Sat, 28 Feb 2009 07:21:47 PST Some good songs and a movie that was a favorite but hadn't watched in years really helped with the mood.

    Knekker Deg Till Sist is definitely a favorite song of mine now. Thank you, Meg! :heart: :cookie: To think, I probably would never have been introduced to such a good feeling song if it weren't for you. :D

    And Werewolves of London is just cool. A funny little song, I like the beat behind it, the lyrics are random but have a connecting theme (werewolves). "He's the hairy-handed gent who ran amuck in Kent/Lately he's been overheard in Mayfair/Better stay away from him/He'll rip your lungs out, Jim/I'd like to meet his tailor/Werewolves of London."
    It's just lol.

    And just last night, I watched for the first time in what's gotta be a decade one of my absolute favorite movies from childhood. Usually when I start talking about it, I use the short title for it, and people confuse it with a recent immensely popular CG movie. Understandable since the immensely popular movie is called Finding Nemo and the movie I like is called Little Nemo. The full title of the movie is Little Nemo: Adventures in Slumberland. It's based on the Little Nemo comics by Winsor McCay (which I totally need to read, considering how hard I fell in love with the movie). Watching that movie put me in such a state of nostalgic bliss. Also, the backgrounds throughout the movie are so GORGEOUS, so painterly, detailed, and delicious. There were some parts in the movie that reminded me of Hieronymous Bosch's Der Garden Der Luste, interestingly enough. Mostly in color, movement, and amount of figures, certainly not subject matter, although there was a shot of some buildings that struck me as similar to the architectural structures in Der Garden. I love Professor Genius and the Oomps.
    Funnily enough, it was the first Japanese animation I ever watched when I was a kid. :D It's just funny how some things just don't ever really leave you, they're there your entire life.

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     Coraline http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/23048692/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/23048692/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 20:21:40 PST
    I'm about to start reading the book it's based on. I really should be starting my "statement of life philosophy" paper that's due Tuesday, plus by Wednesday(?) I have to have a master copy painting done of one of the paintings in the nearby museum (glad I'm not doing the Caravaggio St. John, at least).

    Coraline. Amazing. The animation is so fluid, with nice active shots in some places. And it's amazing to think that the sweaters and gloves that show up in the movie were hand-knitted and something like 2-4 inches big. The wallpapers were handmade. The cherry blossoms on the trees are all painted popcorn. 3500 tiny flowers were hand-made and rigged so that they'd light up. Gah. The imagination that went into this . . . One of my favorite movies of all time, and I've heard the book is excellente. I'm about to find out for myself (original book written by Neil Gaiman, more than likely I won't be disappointed).

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     Wait, whoa? http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/22693454/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/22693454/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 12:47:42 PST nothing. That's just not right.

    Be warned, text wall full of nonsense and vapid crap.

    Hm. I'm just going to dump thoughts here as they come.

    Whoa. Barack Obama. President. Whoa. Dude. I must say it's pretty awesome to see the first president I've ever voted for get into office. Yeah, yeah, first African-American president history thing blah blah. Usually I'll leave the TV on CNN in the background but I've been avoiding watching all news channels since I got home because they won't shut up about that. Yeah. It's great. We get the idea. And it's pretty awesome that it occurs right after Martin Luther King, Jr. Day. Woulda been MOAR awesome if it was ON MLK Jr. Day. Just, y'know, allow me a little pride in that I helped vote a president into office. And it was my first voting experience blah blah blah. "Voting experience" consisting of mail-in absentee ballot.

    But yeah. There's that.

    Hm, back in November was the first time I had gone to the movie theaters in at least 3 years. The whole time I lived with my dad here, for 5 years, we went to the theaters twice. Twice in 5 years. I mention this because the fact that dad and I went to the theater TWICE WITHIN 3 WEEKS during winter break is EPIC and really really REALLY odd. First time going, we saw Valkyrie. Dude. Awesome movie. <3 Tom Cruise. Beautifully done. The second movie we saw was Marley & Me. Both dad and I cried at the end. ;_; I cried because deep down, I'm not that hard-hearted of a bitch as I'll have everyone believe. Dad cried because of the dog, it kinda reminded him of a couple of the hunting dogs his dad had. And he's a sucker for dogs.

    I wanna see Coraline and Watchmen. I wanna see Watchmen to critique it on how faithful it is to the comic or if it was just turned into a piece of Hollywood shit. Coraline because it looks AWESOME. From what I'm seeing in the previews, well, let's just say it seems like it has been too long since a movie with such creative forces at work appeared. It appeals to me in every way possible. Also, awesome puppetry/stop-motion filming. And, and, the story that the movie is based on is written by one of my favorite authors, Neil Gaiman. Dude, dude. Neil Gaiman is Love.

    I can't decide if I wanna read Smoke & Mirrors or Good Omens on the plane. I've already read Smoke & Mirrors, but it's such a fantastic collection of short stories by one of my aforementioned favorite authors, Neil Gaiman. Seriously, fantastic, with a wide range of stories, and writing styles even. C'mon, how can you beat a story about an old woman finding the Holy Grail in a thrift store and buying it for 30 pence. Well, maybe with a rewrite of the story of Snow White from the perspective of the witch queen and Snow White not being as pure as the freshly driven snow. But, I really wanna read Good Omens, a book I bought just recently. It was written by, hey, Neil Gaiman in corroboration with, hi, Terry Prachett, an author whose works sound really interesting and up my ally and I really wanna get into. The back cover of the book is tempting enough.
    "The world will end on Saturday. Next Saturday. Just before dinner, according to The Nice and Accurate Prophecies of Agnes Nutter, Witch, the world's only completely accurate book of prophecies written in 1655. The armies of Good and Evil are amassing and everything appears to be going according to Divine Plan. Except that a somewhat fussy angel and a fast-living demon are not actually looking forward to the coming Rapture. And someone seems to have misplaced the Antichrist."


    Oh, yeah, I played Kingdom Hearts. Yep. Got to the end. Haven't bothered fighting the final boss, already watched someone fight/beat it/watched the ending sequence. I'm just a little miffed that I've done almost everything before the 50 hour mark. Seriously, there's very little else for me to do in game. I could probably get it ALL done before the 60 hour mark. God, I'm so used to playing Final Fantasy VII/VIII/X where 80-90-100 hours in and there's still a shit-ton-fuck load more to do. Well, except FFVII, max amount of hours I've put into a single file for that is 112? Still, that's almost twice the play time I get from even an old game like that over KH.

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     whoa, nelly nyquil http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/21884157/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/21884157/ Mon, 08 Dec 2008 15:26:32 PST
    Last week. Last week, and then a month and a half off from college. I'm sad to see Art History end, but god damn I hate Sajovic. Good god. I'm so glad that tomorrow's the last time I (hope) will evewr see him, and it's only for half an hour (final critique conference thing). I wasa like this ----><---- close to throttling him today. I had a cold all weekend (couuldn't even speak on Saturday morning til i gargled salt water). Lost two a;dksjf days that I needed to study and do final shit. Pissed off as all fuck. Well, I was talking to someone from class when Sajovic came by and commented "Hey, you should do voices for animation!" f;alksdjgoiahdkjgbv I JU7ST SPENT ALL WEEKEND FEELING LIKE SHIT, STILL FEEL LIKE SHIT, SINUSES STUFFED UP WITH THIS WIERD ASS HALF-HEAD HEADACHE, CAN'T BREATHE THROUGH MY NOSE LIKE NORMAL., hearing that I could do animation voices, plus his imitation of me, while i'm under a cold is no consolation. raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhha'lsdkaf
    i become mean and particularly irrascible when i'm sick. I was really bad on Saturday.

    that's when i took nyquile, roughly 3 hours ago, justy so i can like go through the last few hours dazed and midly amused.

    now i'm just plai n like numb. listeininng to my roomie on her cell with her ma for the past hour now isn't helping numbness. got class in 10 minutes, woo. just art history, just a review and additioinal notes for test on wedenesday. no big deal, i record the lectures anyways~ ahahahaha,,

    yeah byte
    bye
    yeah

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     Oh boy. http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/21579521/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/21579521/ Thu, 20 Nov 2008 10:29:46 PST
    Oh Ratigan! Oh Ratigan! The rest fall behind!
    I keep replaying "World's Greatest Criminal Mind" on YouTube. It's a song from The Great Mouse Detective (Disney movie). One of my FAVORITE ALL TIME MOVIES OMG. What makes it bad freaking ass is that Ratigan (the villain) is voiced by VINCENT PRICE. BAD. ASS. RIP Vincent. :heart: You forever. Plus, Ratigan's animated expressions has to be the most priceless in all of Disney animation history. Double win.

    I am officially a nerd. My art history teacher (the head of the art history department here at KCAI, :heart: Fricke) gave me her graduate college thesis to type up and make a digital copy for her. She doesn't have a digital copy, since it was typed on a typewriter in 1976. o_o So, I get the honor of typing it up for her! Also, I'm her first student who gets to read her graduate thesis. :D What's even BETTER (omg it gets better) it's on Greek pedimental sculpture, and takes a look at the Parthenon. Being a Greek, my bias makes this OH-MY-GOD-SUPER-AWESOME-FANTASTIC!! So I'm geeking out and so excited to read and retype 227 pages.

    Oh, also, on my last art history test, Fricke (my teacher, who as I mentioned before is the HEAD OF THE ART HISTORY DEPARTMENT) commented on my test that she will be pushing me to major or double major in art history. :D I like the idea. I likes it a lot. Funny thing, I keep hearing that she's supposed to be really hard, and everyone else in class is kinda having trouble on their tests, but it's like no challenge at all for me. o_O Shit, I have fun on her tests. (Of course it helps that the first test I got 55/60, and second I got 58/60.)
    Her tests don't seem to require a lot to me, but whenever I describe them to someone in one of the other art history classes, they say it's a lot. Conversely, when someone describes how their teacher gives a test, it sounds like a lot to me. Iunno.

    I am so happy that I can finally play RO again. Took like 5 weeks for my port access request to go through, but at least I can play again, even if it's only from 9pm-3am. So freakin' glad, I'm no longer in withdrawal.

    When I go home for winter break, I wanna play Kingdom Hearts. I played it once, but never finished it. I got through Atlantica and left off right at the beginning of Halloweentown. Atlantica pissed me off so bad that I didn't want to touch the game ever again. That was 2 years ago (yeah, it pissed me off so bad that I remember precisely where I left off and why). Part of it was the camera broke my nerves, part of it was the controls. But, 2 years later (or maybe it's 3?) I wanna try playing it again.

    4 more days of school, Thanksgiving break, and then 2 more weeks of school and then I have a month and a half long winter break. Fck yes.

    I'm pretty excited for next semester, when for studio we do 5-week workshops, and I've signed up for the best available teachers for Western Art II and Western Thought I, as advised by Fricke. :heart: Fricke, I'm sad that I won't have a class with her next semester. :tears:

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     Lu~Lalu~ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/20833259/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/20833259/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 22:16:07 PDT
    And if the cloud bursts thunder in your ear~ You shout and no one seems to hear~ And if the band you're in starts playing different tunes~ I'll see you on the dark side of the moon~

    Whee~ delaydelaydelayprocrastinate~

    Best track to listen to is this instrumental piece called Any Colour You Like. Which is especially appropriate because I'm going into my 22x30 portrait with colored pencil lol. It's not a big deal because it's only a contour drawing, WE'RE BASICALLY SIX WEEKS IN AND WE HAVEN'T EVEN BEGUN TO LEARN SHADING WHILE ALL THE OTHER CLASSES HAVE DONE IT ALREADY FOR 5 FIVE FIVE WEEKS FUCK.

    And just to complain, there's something like 8 or 9 foundations teachers, all, ALL, ALL EXCEPT ONE use "alternative" teaching art methods. This kinda irks me because I'm such a traditionalist, really. Whenever my teacher talks, I mentally bang my head against a mental wall wishing for the traditional teacher. (Especially since the traditional teacher has assigned stuff I consider cool like night drawings, "Dark is deeper", "light is deeper", traditional apple studies [shut up I'm a dork].) I'll bet the traditional teacher doesn't use such abstract phrases like "feel the line". I've heard he's told his students to "be the box", but he explained what he meant. After hearing his explanation, "be the box" is a graspable concept. I could do that. "Feel the line" is such adkkjf;alkjdsa ifjalkjflakjdhaegnd. Yeah. I have issues with "feeling the line". Especially, ESPECIALLY, after my teacher explained how to "feel the line", I do it EXACTLY as he described, and he's like "No, there's something wrong mentally here and it shows". >=\ ;ldkajf;a;dsjhfuoiahwegnmdbngvaubewjbbnkjdbajskdbf Yeah. a;sdkjf Whatever, most of what he says is probably dismissable considering the stories of him being a coke-addict. And I'm not talking Coca-cola.

    Haha, been wanting to rant somewhere.

    Also, I'm totally obsessing over the fact that 1) the Student Assembly fails and 2) the campus tech department fails, both fail because almost a week has passed and a simple, tiny request that would take like 2 al;ldkjf;a minutes to fulfill hasn't. Not even a ad;kjf word back, especially since I was told that SA would get back to me ASAP. "ASAP" apparently meaning a week to "oh my god please don't let a month pass by before ANYTHING is done" (<----I'm getting stupidly pissed enough to start jumping to irrational assumptions/worst fears).

    Of course I'm rambling to delay getting back to work as much as possible. And oooh, one of my favorite Pink Floyd tracks has come on, "Money". Seriously, go listen to it. It's sooo cool~ [link]

    And "Time" is awesome too. I can identify with it already. :tears: [link]

    Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day~

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     Hmm http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/20429509/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/20429509/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 19:42:51 PDT
    Finally have a little time to start the final phase for the reference sheets of my characters. I refuse to upload anything of them until I have all five done.

    Currently studying for my Art History test right now. I have the audio recorded from class playing right now, lol.

    Oh, and, I kicked Windows Vista's ass and got FF7 PC edition to work on it. BWAHAHAHA. But... I want to play Ragnarok.... stupid tech department making me jump through hoops grr... and my subscription might run out before they open the ports. =_=; Well, I could start on the new F2P server Valkyrie, and as fun as that might be, I'm unwilling to give up everything that I have on the main servers.

    Oh, and I dun like blind contours. ;~;

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     Reality setting in and download addiction withdraw http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/20134497/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/20134497/ Sun, 24 Aug 2008 16:51:44 PDT WARNING: Whining about the inability to indulge my :heart:downloading addiction:heart: ahead.

    Not because classes start tomorrow.
    Not because I'm 1,200+ miles away from what I guess I could call home but honestly have no real attachment to other than familiarity. :o

    It's because I can't connect to Ragnarok and utorrent. And it's making me feel suffocated.

    I need to find some sort of tech genius. I'm fairly decent when it comes to computers, but working around a remote server that's throttling my access to the two programs that are my equivalent to crack, nuh-uh. And scouring the internet doesn't seem to be doing me any good.

    So, off into the No Man's Land of the Internet with me, out on an epic search for THE ONE who can restore gaming and downloading good holiness to me.

    And I just realized that Bearshare doesn't work either... And that's my song search and download tool of choice... I. Am. Screwed.

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     So Unreal http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/20065739/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/20065739/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 18:35:17 PDT
    Even right now, it's so unreal that I'm here. The fact that I'm 1,200+ miles away from familiar territory and the place where I spent about 15 years of my short life STILL hasn't set in.

    So, uh, yeah. College. Begins Monday. Damn, time has gone so fast.

    P.S. Mood thing is brokens. I dunno how I managed to change it though.

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     Do A Little Dance~ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/19470443/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/19470443/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 18:42:26 PDT
    1. OMFGAVATAR;ALSKDJF;A (Nothing else need be said.)
    2. Just got my Green Dot prepaid debit card and finally able to use the money I got for graduation. Yay new art supplies and a little splurging on Ragnarok Online's Kafra Shop! The Kafra Shop is okay cause they're having a sale this week. :D SCORE ($20 and that's it, go away)
    3. Got my AP scores back yesterday. Sure, I only got 3s on both the Latin Lit and Portfolio, but considering the work/effort I really put into all of it, the scores are considerably generous and makes me LoL.
    4. Been having considerable fun indulging my nostalgia by downloading Batman: The Animated Series. Before I started rewatching it, I thought it was going to be full of corn and cheese, and after seeing some screencaps, I also thought it was going to be unbearably bright which I didn't remember it being. Well, one, my memory was right, it's pretty dark, awfully violent, everyone has psychological problems, and I keep saying "This is a KIDS' CARTOON?!" And two, it is wonderfully NOT full of corn and cheese. And Two-Face is awesome.

    Y'know, I keep going on these nostalgia binges, watching stuff I used to L-O-V-E from when I was a kid, and I keep getting surprised at how much adult material is in this stuff that is targeted towards children. Like Batman, has a lot of sexual references and innuendos (lol Poison Ivy), plus a TON of guns. And I mean, seriously, a lot of guns. Lots of violence. These same themes keep coming up in a lot of the cartoon stuff that I remember adoring as a child. As well as situations that questions the sanctity of morality and shows that sometimes the right thing to do is the wrong thing. "Family-unfriendly fables" I believe they're called. It's odd to see the crap I watched/accepted as a kid and know that it was targeted towards kids of my age group at the time.

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     Yeah http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/19254623/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/19254623/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 12:54:59 PDT
    I may come back to life sometime in August or September. Maybe sooner. Sooner is possible since I picked up a pencil for the first time in a month and started drawing. Sad. I know.

    My subscription to Ragnarok Online should be ending in a couple of hours, waiting to get disconnected from it. Not that big of a deal but, eh. I'll get back to ~drawing~ soon.

    So far, it looks like that month of not going anywhere near a pencil/pen + paper has actually done good, like it has in the past. My superior hand is all the more happier for it and more willing to cooperate, because my right hand *totally* has a mind of its own. It does.

    There's a lot of crap I still need to do. Like finish applications for loans, and finish my housing application. $Finally$ get my own bank account since the one I did have as a kid was closed up and emptied and never had another one. Actually that's it. That's everything besides psyching up and figuring out what the hell I'm going to take to college with me in August.

    I don't know ^why^ I'm surrounding occasional words I mean to emphasize with !weird! symbols. Look! Two in ONE sentence! Apocalypse.

    Ohs, I'm changing some stuff in my gallery. Really minor, just some name/story details on one of my really tiny obscure characters that I love with all my heart.

    I need a life. Kinda want one. Kinda don't.

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     So http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/18895052/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/18895052/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 14:46:40 PDT
    So, with my video-game-play-catch-up, I haven't done any drawing whatsoever.

    So, I've been neglecting to post a picture of my painted ceiling tile. For those that don't know and might care, senior AP art students at my school have the privilege to paint one of the ceiling tiles in the art room. I'm more than proud of it despite my neglect.

    So, I'll FINALLY be visiting the college I'll be attending. Leaving this Thursday, and I'm pretty excited. First chance to actually go and see the college (kinda hard to go visit considering it's on the far side of Missouri and I'm here in Disney Hell).

    So. I kinda feel like drawing. Kinda, mostly don't. What I really wanna do now is take advantage of the 2x experience event on Ragnarok Online while I still can. +_+


    I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo enjoying not having a life. It's so much fun to sit back and finally do nothing.

    Oh, one more thing. So, last Wednesday a new channel started airing, called Planet Green. This is a channel, like Discovery or Science channel, not a program. Anyways, I like it. A lot. One thing you'd never guess from casually talking to me is that I have a pretty intense interest in the "green" movement and all the new technologies coming with it. Some of the stuff is just plain damn amazing.

    So then, back to wasting my summer and life~ It's what I do best. =)

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     Freaking out inside http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/18292494/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/18292494/ Mon, 12 May 2008 16:13:34 PDT
    Also, there's at least one person that I'm getting the "I hope I never have to see nor speak with you ever again after this" vibes. Actually, it is one person who seems to have just taken on a totally different persona in the past couple weeks, and I tend to reflect whatever is or what I feel is directed towards me so... blegh. Negative energies are abounding.

    Worst part of all of this? I'm keeping all of this emotional crap bottled up. Bottling has messed me up bad in the past, it'll probably do so again should I give it the chance. It just feels like I don't really have anyone to talk this over with... so I'm dumping it here! Yay! DUMPDUMPDUMPDUMPDUMP


    Uwagh, I'm tense to the point where little things are pissing me off and bothering me. Like, I'm trying to make space on my desktop hard drive. Most of that space is taken up by shows and movies. Well, I'm trying to save them all by encoding them to DVDs, BUT episodes 9-20 of season 1 of Avatar ABSOLUTELY REFUSE TO ENCODE AND WRITE RIGHT. I'm not sure why, but when they're compressed into ISOs to be written to DVD, the audio is encoded at 32x play rate, even though the original avi files play completely fine. It can't be a codec issue cause I'm completely up to date on it all. And the first 8 episodes recorded perfectly fine and normal! There's no reason for them to be screwing up so bad! ;afkjewihJIJAKEFA8(*&^$#(arghsfargle! I've already had to toss out 3 screwed up DVDs ;; Little stuff like this has been ticking me the f--- off. >(


    For the most part, I guess it may not seem like I'm freaking out, but I am. Oh, I am, I feel it.

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     I don't like that other journal http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/17781707/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/17781707/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 15:14:16 PDT
    Good news: I may be able to finally get my hands on some copic marker goodness. *_* Yah, not liking the Prisma markers I got my hands on. Which reminds me, I should post some stuff up that I've done with them! And I'm going to this concert at school that's sponsored by the Amnesty Club (they clevererly called it "Jamnesty"). It promises to be cool! (And some of these events that have cool people working on them turn out to be cool.)

    Yesterday is gone~ Today is nearly done~ And all that's left for me is tomorrow and beyond~ So onward onward I go til I reach the final stop on the road~ Only one way to go and that is putting one foot in front of the other~


    ]]>     ~kaisaris     A Tag Journal http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/16647043/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/16647043/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 16:28:54 PST ManicDraconis for this journal thing. Here goes.

    Rules:
    1. post these rules
    2. each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves
    3. tags should write a journal of these facts
    4. at the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named.
    5. go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they're tagged.

    1. On weekends I automatically switch to a nocturnal schedule from a diurnal schedule used throughout the rest of the week. This makes Mondays paaaaaaaiiiiinnfuuuuul and has led me to believe that I am naturally nocturnal.

    2. Another thing that has made me believe I am supposed to be nocturnal is that my thinking power, productivity, and creativity peak between midnight and 3 a.m., and it doesn't matter if I slept all day or not.

    3. I have an 8 1/2 foot long sword. 'Nuff said.

    4. There was only one song that was played for me over and over when I was a child, and that song is "Alone Again (Naturally)".
    In a little while from now/If I'm not feeling any less sad/I promised myself that I'd treat myself and visit a nearby tower/And climbing to the top/Throw myself off/In an effort to make clear to whom/what the world is like when you're shattered/Left standing in a lurch/At a church/Where people saying/"My God, that's tough,/she stood him up./No point in us remaining./We may as well go home."/As I did on my own./Alone again, naturally.
    Strange and depressing song to play on repeat for a BABY all the way through to SIX YEARS OF AGE. I'm convinced that woman with whom I unfortunately share half my genes with tried to fuck me up, and succeeded to an extent sadly.

    5. Hot homosexual men make me cry tears of unbridled sorrow.

    6. I have a Leaning Tower of Manga. Seriously, my bookshelf is about to break. And then there are the two other bookshelves holding fantasy novels.

    7. I have four video game/anime figurines, the first one is Sophie from FFVIII which I inherited from =Majime. :heart: Sophie, she's so much fun in FFVIII. Too bad I could never finish the game since I had this weird ability to get my hands on every single fucked up copy in existence. (Kinda 2 in 1 thing here.)

    8. I don't know 8 people to tag for this! D: /loner
    I blame it on being forced to listen to "Alone Again (Naturally)" over and over for the first 6 years of my life.

    So, unless you've already done this journal already, I tag whomever reads this. :D Leave a comment if ya do plz. :please:

    :brainless:About This Account, My Artwork, and Me:brainless:

    Moved to this account from ~Tsukoto.

    As a brief summary, let me just say that I prefer to work traditionally with pens and colored pencils, dabble with digital on occasions, and am attempting to broaden my work so it's not just anime-styled stuff but real art, too. Also attempting to try out different traditional mediums, such as watercolor and conte.

    I have aspirations of becoming an illustrator; however, I don't have much to show for it for now as it is only with in the past month really that I have grown comfortable enough with my art to really try putting what I see in my mind onto paper.

    Satisfied with how I've progressed in the past 3 years, but still a lot of development ahead of me, and I look forward to it all.

    :job:Commissions and Art Trades:job:

    I'll take art trades and commissions. $4 should be good for commissions.
    I really want stuff to work on, cause it gets kinda boring working on stuff for myself. Right now, I'd probably do something that looks something like Wounded Warsong. If you want something different, just tell me. But give me free reign, and I'll probably do this art noveau type thing I've got going lately.

    ]]>     ~kaisaris     Moving DA Accounts http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/16418172/ http://kaisaris.deviantart.com/journal/16418172/ Tue, 15 Jan 2008 13:56:46 PST Tsukoto. Got sick of the wapanese name "Tsukoto," can't even remember where such a dumbass name came from. So, instead, I want to use the last name of my favorite original character. Hence "kaisaris".

    Should have everything set up as I want sometime in the very near future.

    As a brief summary, let me just say that I prefer to work traditionally with pens and colored pencils, dabble with digital on occasions, and am attempting to broaden my work so it's not just anime-styled stuff but real art, too. Also attempting to try out different traditional mediums, such as watercolor and conte.

    I have aspirations of becoming an illustrator; however, I don't have much to show for it for now as it is only with in the past month really that I have grown comfortable enough with my art to really try putting what I see in my mind onto paper.

    Satisfied with how I've progressed in the past 3 years, but still a lot of development ahead of me, and I look forward to it all.

    ]]>     ~kaisaris