http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:kamiiyu&section=today deviantART RSS for by:kamiiyu en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 13:32:37 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/28710479/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/28710479/ Wed, 02 Dec 2009 13:50:20 PST
for fun, here's some random facts I keep pondering.

1. Depressing music makes me feel better and angry music calms me down

2. I'm a crybaby when it comes to sad movies... Matt had to pause the Green Mile halfway through for about a half hour so I could finish crying! The Boy in the Striped Pajamas, Grave of the Fireflies... those three are movies I don't think I'll watch twice, despite how good they are... The Last Samurai made me cry, but not so bad I can't watch it (as I have seen it at least 3 times)

3. I am for women's rights, but feminists who are against men (feminazis) do more harm to our cause than anything and I wish they would stop. Women are different from men, there can be no real battle of the sexes and have a victor... we are genetically different and our brains are even set up differently. Which means that neither are better, just different.

4. I'm bored... I get bored very easily Go ADD!

5. I'm going to make Celtic Knotwork for the first time!

(listening to Silent Hill 2 song True : [link]

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/28442059/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/28442059/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 21:41:32 PST How much have I affected people here, online? I see comments saying, "You're alive!" and "I missed you!" And it has affected me quite a lot, a lot more than I thought it should. I suppose for a while I gave it no thought that I could affect people online in such a manner, thinking myself nothing but just another random person.
Do you take yourselves for granted as well? I know I look forward to reading comments from each and every one of you, and find it a respite from work and bills ^.^
I think I always thought that only famous or popular people could affect people, despite in my teenage years thinking on this very matter very gravely. Our actions can even dictate the outcome of the day for other people. How many times have you seen people on the road being rude, and how has it made you feel? Or rude people in a store... I've had it happen and sometimes, it ruins my whole day.
Take for instance, this one time my parents and I were getting gas at a gas station and they were having a sale. Buy some cookies, get a hot drink for free. So mom got herself some tea and some cookies, and then the clerk had the audacity to say she was wrong, when the sign was on the door! The people in line behind her were getting upset and the clerk and her were arguing up a storm. Even to this day, the hatred I feel for such... Stupidity! is great, greater than I care to even imagine. If I have that happen again, may God help that clerk. And the thing that irks me the most out of it all is that my Mom did Not get her tea and cookies, and that makes me very mad. huh. See, just a small encounter like that can affect even the sanest of us (oh, don't worry, I'm not saying I'm sane )
It's things like that that drive men to kill. It's the little things more than the big things... Popping gum, clacking fingernails... jealousy when there's nothing there... religion, absolute faith in a false god that fails you...

Do you ever think of the teachers that were mediocre, or do you mostly remember the ones who were awesome or evil? I'm sure they all helped shape your lives. Even the plumbers and electricians, the sewer plant workers or librarians, the gardeners... Even the people you never see can affect your lives. People don't think about how they can affect other people, but they need to.

I don't like the fact that I can affect someone's life so and it irks me that I have without even noticing until it's shoved in my face. "Look what you did! You made baby kittehs cry!"
I do mean what I say, and while this pondering has affected me so, I probably won't be able to change much I've gotten pretty set in my ways over the past few years... I know we can all be pretty stupid (why limit man's intelligence, but not his stupidity?) and so I can't expect everyone to try not to be. I'm sure we all already try our best. And I don't really want people to go around all day trying to figure out how they affected someone adversely, because that could cause guilt trips or god complexes
But just something to think about.

Before I go, I should like to share with you all my childhood hero. A man of great size and worth, I practically worshiped him. I think I may have, at one point. His name (to me) was Terry Two Bears and he was a real Mountain Man. He actually still is, though I've not seen him for years. He affected my life very strongly and probably didn't even realize it. I doubt he even remembers me at all.
He was the size of two bears, and he was the best knife thrower I'd ever met. I think I thought he was the best anything I'd ever met (I was about 5 when I first met him. makes him even bigger ) and one day at the knife throwing competition, Terry Two Bears let a boy in my competition use his knives. I was upset enough at that, but when the boy won, it was because he used Two Bears' knives and... ]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/28240708/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/28240708/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 13:11:29 PST If there are any you want me to see especially, please please please let me know It feels so much better having that number gone...

Right now I'm supposed to be cleaning the house, but I decided to take a lunch break. On the plus side, I think I found over 20 pictures I thought I'd lost, and since they're for my husband's book, I won't have to redo them now!!


Also, my husband wants a Ruger black powder revolver ($375) and he's going to try trading for it. If any of you know of one cheaper that works... heh... They're apparently no longer in production and online prices are around $400, so it doesn't look like he'll be getting a deal on it ^.^

Not much happening right now. I'm still in disbelief I have today off... I feel like the boss is going to call, wondering where I am! But no, I double checked with him and he said yes, I do have the day off today! I'm like one of those dogs where you move their food bowl and they freak.

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27770800/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27770800/ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 20:27:38 PDT
Anyway! Update! I am going to be severely cleaning out my gallery, so that all the good stuff will be there and the garbage will then be thrown into the trash or scrapbook.


Also, I will try to load some of my more recent work I've done, such as the comissioned gothic steampunk wedding choker, the steampunk skull staff, and some drawings that I'm rather proud of. I know some people are wanting me to upload and I've been rather lazy and procrastinating about it, so I'd just better get it done!

Oh and I'm painting little clear glass orbs for decorations! They are Christmas glass orbs, the typical tree balls you see, but I might paint Halloween stuff on them too.

Ok, so judging by history, Adolf Hitler loved slapstick and such, because in Laurel and Hardy, Hardy's got the same 'stache, so does Charlie Chaplin (we do know he was a fan of Chaplin) {currently watching Laurel and Hardy... }
Curse Hitler for liking cool things and making them verboten! The Roman salute, the goose step, the little mustache, cool uniforms... I'm sure some people consider the German language and military as well!

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27566075/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27566075/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 20:15:14 PDT wanted him to die... as well as his daughter, who doesn't. Made me also want to sacrifice the IOA woman to some random pagan deity in a pit of fiery doom. I'm sorry, I just didn't get a connection to any of the characters Sad thing, is that I'm in their target demographic.
They wanted to appeal to the "younger" audience by putting in more drama and crap and they lured some in by saying, "Oh the cast of SG-1 will be in there! We also got Lou Diamond Phillips!!" Yeah, I think the camera panned over him maybe twice, and I think he said maybe 3 words? Daniel Jackson was in a recording you saw for maybe a few seconds, MacGuyver and Sam were the most prominent and even then you were sitting there wondering what the point was.
So what were the good points? It wasn't really stupid. The ship design was great. While their (the writers, really) reasonings for some things were a bit silly or unimaginative, it made sense. To an extent. They could have had a better reasoning for some things, and there was very little reason for the politician to be there, and even less of a reason for his daughter, or assistant, to be there. She did nothing except complain and get in the way. >.<
And the plot? Wait, is there a plot? So far it's just Lost In Space meets Battle Star Galatica, meets... well, it's Stargate 90210! What I don't understand is why did they have a bunch of second rate novices running the base??
So, overall... I'll be nice and give it two seasons before it's cancelled though everyone I've talked to thinks only one. We'll see as more episodes are released, because there's really nothing to speak of currently. It has potential!

Oh, I've just been reading the official forums. I was really nice! I mean, Really really really nice... lol wow. Here, read for yourself the polls at least: [link]


Now, ZOMBIELAND is... wow. I have not laughed so hard beofore, EVER! x10! THEY HAVE BILL MURRAY AS HIMSELF!!! GAAAHHH!
Everyone in the movie theatre was as loud as me, my hubby, and our friends were! and I can't rightly describe the movie. If you love zombie movies, you gotta see this one!!

and now I'm really tired but I have to make myself a choker for tomorrow!! bleh. Oh and there's a fire, again, ravaging our lovely brown and dry hills...

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27508399/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27508399/ Wed, 30 Sep 2009 17:26:09 PDT
On a side note, I was just finishing watching my amazing Stargate marathon with SG-1 season 10 today... You know, they cancelled the show after season 10. They left soooo much unanswered! Like, what happened with the Trust? o_O I won't bore you with any of those details, but instead I was actually wanting to talk about how these writers have the innate ability to write up characters that the actors then portray and then they steal your heart. What is up with that?
Ok, I know that's their job. They are there to make characters that win you over and make you watch the show despite any horrible plot lines, like if they rip off a movie like the Last Samurai. Ok, that episode wasn't amazing and had hardly any character development. But an episode like the last episode of season 10, the last episode ever, they loaded it with character interactions and I wonder if it was so well done because it was the last episode...

So, what's your favorite TV show, and why? What are your favorite aspects to it?
I love the character interactions and developments. Especially certain characters *^.^*
(it's just when they make the actors cry when they cancel the show that really makes you cry!!!) Oh, have you seen the episode in season 5 of SGA called The Shrine? yeah, you can see why that would win awards!! I think those actors are friggin amazing. but then I'm biased ^.^

*oh and on a totally different train of thought, what is up with that overly broad term used to defend certain points of view which I think could cause more arguments than anything... "Everyone has a right to love."
sure...

Oh and my mood can't change for some reason! So my mood is really + +

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27455797/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27455797/ Sun, 27 Sep 2009 18:57:34 PDT and now, I am starving and wondering what's taking food so long! We're supposed to go to a movie and food tonight with some family and friends, hopefully I'll make it, eh? I don't understand how some people can just go with hardly any sleep from work to party to work again without stressing out... D8
I suppose all I can think of right now is food, if 'thinking' is the right term! lol I can't even keep a straight line of thought, my attention span is worse than a may fly's!

oh, drat, looks like we're not going out to dinner or a movie! I know crap happens, but why does it have to affect the food? And why does it have to make my family cry!!

Default to ordering a pizza...

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27391394/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27391394/ Thu, 24 Sep 2009 12:28:26 PDT us for their mistake, it makes me rather upset! I mean, what the crap??

And then I find out I have to go in to work at 2 instead of 3 so I had to cancel lunch with mom who got it switched for 2 just for me and it makes me feel like crap.

Sorry, had to get that out of my system before I have to leave for work... I just wanna crawl into a hole and

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27372946/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27372946/ Wed, 23 Sep 2009 11:03:16 PDT lilacblur

>> The rules are:

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.


So, ten things, eh?

1. I am a total fangirl when it comes to Stargate SG-1 and Atlantis, but am very unhappy with Universe. Especially fangirl of Daniel Jackson and Rodney McKay (even named my kitten McKay, mainly because he likes the computers and is afraid of everything and won't stop mewing)

2. The more I see the system work, the more confused I get and the more I hate it. And I have yet to meet someone who actually like how it works!

3. I love swimming, love water so much I sometimes feel so dehydrated that drinking does nothing, I have to go swimming. However, I am terrified of lake or ocean water, or any water I can't really see in... o_O The fish scare me.

4. Despite the fact that I'm a pack rat and collect things like crazy and some of the items do mean a lot to me, if you took them all away and I still had my friends I'd be fine. I can always get more things. Well, even if you took my friends (good luck with that) as long as there are people around... otherwise I'd go crazy if left by myself.

5. I am unsatisfied with my drawing style and wish I could draw like someone else... perhaps

6. I love food so much, it's one of my major weaknesses. Especially like chocolate cake and meat, and lasagna, and Italian, and Mexican, and.... and .... yeah. mmmm. chocolate cake... *goes and eats*

7. I have intense dreams normally, but when I get sick, they get worse. One that's been bothering me was a couple days ago. America had fallen and the government was corrupt and evil, the kind of government that if you spoke against them or said anything they didn't like, you'd 'disappear.' They got to my brother first and they were after me next. I was walking with a friend in a deserted dirt parking lot. The sky was dark, but with a dirty yellow tinted light, like through smoke or dust. A large lunk of a man spotted us and she took off. He was after me, anyway, so I took off. There was a nearby brick and stone building and I managed to hid in a bathroom, behind a curtain. I was in an army uniform, the fully body kind, and I even had the boots which made it more difficult to hide. Unfortunately, a female cop caught me. I decided I'd cooperate rather than get shot. A large male cop with a german shepherd came in to assist and I told them, "You should put the handcuffs on so it doesn't feel so voluntary, not that the guns aren't enough, it's just they don't scare me. I mean, of course they do..." I just rambled a bit and then the large cop said something that creeped me out and I'd rather not repeat it, but if you really wanna know, I'll tell o_O Then they led me handcuffed to a chair in an otherwise empty room... then I woke up and fell asleep again and it turned out I was a Gou'ald (O_O)

8. I like typing better than talking. I usually put my foot in my mouth when I talk.

9. I like being creative, I just wish that I could be creative and get stuff done...

10. I hate my teeth.


Oh! I forgot to mention, I know some of my watchers don't like being tagged and I can't remember all of them, so tag yourself please ^.^

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27237726/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27237726/ Tue, 15 Sep 2009 23:10:43 PDT Oh the juicy crunch of the apple, the softness of the banana, the juicy pulpiness of the orange... Y'all take them for granted...

Holy crap, I'm practically throwing a tantrum because I am utterly craving fruits and vegetables. Oh carrots, corn, and green beans, and peas! Lettuce, tomato, potato, and more... How dare you wage war upon one who loves you so!! Dipping apples in caramel...
I mean, they make fake meat, fake milk and cheese and other dairy products, fake juice... why can't they make fake fruits and vegetables? Healthy ones, at that... I really honestly want some tonight. There are three beautiful apples next to three beautiful bananas sitting there, taunting me.
Dieting would be soooo much easier if I could. Even if I could just drink their juices... Why does something I love so much have to hate me so? Mother Nature has it out for me. I want so badly to be a naturalist in more than just word, but it would most likely kill me. Stupid nature. At least I'm not allergic to water! (hey, small victory... still counts)
I'm also not allergic to animals, animal by-products, or dairy products, or most products containing wheat or gluten (because the wheat is severely mashed and cooked). Though I am allergic to stress and since work is stressful, heh, I'm allergic to work
Ok, not allergic to stress, just supposed to stay away from it. And coffee. Can't have caffeine, does bad things like make me have strange break downs in the middle of the night about wanting to eat things that'll kill me. And inflames my nerves. wooo

I wish I could tell you all about everything that's been going on, but that'll have to wait... if ever
One thing I can tell you about, they've decided to transfer me to another library. So I won't be working in a high school anymore. The guy they had doing the gaming program decided to leave and so I'm the next best thing they have to a game expert, so they're making me in charge of the gaming group and gaming council. So I get to supervise about 20 sweaty smelly teenage boys! Woooot! oh it's not actually that bad. I'm just incredibly nervous. I mean, I love my little high school library with all my awesome coworkers and my teens and volunteers... One of them keeps asking me, "So who am I going to ask all my questions to? You always have an answer! I'll just have to email you. Do you have a myspace?" Her older sister keeps mentioning something about "writing a letter." o_O
One coworker is upset because she's losing her "partner in crime" I'm going to have to keep visiting a lot. ^.^ My new hours allow me to, at least. There are of course more feelings of being "rather pissed off" than anything at the moment. I know they'll eventually like the new guy, as long as they don't scare him off first thing! XD Everyone likes him.

Another thing I noticed tonight, or at least checked into tonight... When I was 18, I had perfect teeth. Beautiful, straight, nice clean teeth. When I turned 19, I had managed to accrue 8 cavities. Earlier this year I was told the fillings were falling apart and that I would need crowns and/or root canals done, but that the insurance wouldn't cover it because it "wasn't an emergency." Then I was taken off the insurance and for a few months had none at all. Now with Matt back at work, we both have insurance and I think my teeth have taken a turn for the worse They've been really hurting lately. Oh, that's another reason I want fruit so much. Without being able to snack on healthier foods, I've taken to more sugary and bad foods... So that hasn't helped much, despite my efforts in keeping my teeth clean...

Which also brings me to the other problem I have, which I mentioned a little earlier... The dieting thing. Ok, do you know how hard it is to lose weight when you can't have fruits or veggies? It sucks :/ I can't even have a friggin trail mix So, while not havin... ]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27023843/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/27023843/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 20:58:22 PDT So far it's not near us, but the smoke is permeating the air pretty bad and messing up our sinuses and causing respiratory problems.
I can't say exactly what's been going on as of late. I don't think my mind has fully wrapped itself around the whole idea of any of it. It's bad, I can say that. But how bad is yet to be determined. We won't know until it's "over".

I am most confused and I don't know how to deal with it. I've been feeling feelings I've not felt for a long time, feelings I thought were gone. The only difference is that I have more control now. I think that these feelings have started to surface again due to how helpless I am in such a situation. I always daydream about how I can be in control, how if anything similar happens I can just fix it. But doesn't everyone do that? And then when such a situation does arise and there is nothing one can do about it, it is only natural to become severely frustrated by it.
I have managed to calm down quite a bit over the past few days/weeks. Every time I feel like it'll be over, something else pops up and makes it worse. And there are so many things! It's almost like everything that could go wrong is! Well, that's a bit of an exaggeration, but you get the idea. As far as I know, no one's been physically damaged (mentally and emotionally I am positive a few at least have, just hopefully not traumatized for life, ya know?). And there's nothing I can do! I, Me, Myself. All I can do is wait and pray and leave it up to those who can do something and pray for the best. And cuss the crap out of those responsible!!

Bleh. With my family and Matt's combined, I may stress out my life rather quickly! I'm sure multiple peoples have lost many years of life out of all that's going on just from stress alone. I've lost a lot of sleep from it, myself. And no, I won't tell you why or what's going on. At least, not until I know more. Besides, with all that's going on, there's too much for me to go over right now. I'm supposed to be cleaning the house anyway.

... you ever want to just quit reality?

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/26500317/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/26500317/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 20:19:47 PDT
First off, ~g0N3Morganna needs help. She makes really nice cosplay outfits and needs them to sell in order to help pay for school and other payments: [link]

Now, on to the journal!
1. Be one of the first 14 people commenting on this journal entry, and I will add you to the Promotional List.

2. For each of the first 14 people answering this journal I will put his or her avatar and the three deviations I like most from his or her gallery on the list.

3. If you answer, you'll have to do the same on your journal, putting me in the first position. Then rinse and repeat!

From
#1: [link]
A really cool Elemental drawing in black and white
#2: [link]
Another abstract black and white drawing!
#3: [link]
A claw with wings in the snow ^.^
#4: [link]
...an artist is...

And while I am incredibly late on this, only one more person to get featured
And I must say, he is very much a photographer extroidonaire!


#1. [link]
Robosaurus!! I really need to get me one...

#2. [link]
I wanna fly one of these... and then kidnap it and live in it.

#3. [link]
He's a huge military buff, if you couldn't tell ^.^

#4. [link]
His very own VF-25



So first 14 people get featured!

On a side note, here are some artists I want to aspire to be as good as: =uniqueLegend, =D17rulez, *imaginism, `Saimain, and `Wen-M are just a few amazing artists! Granted I don't think they need any help, their work speaks for itself, but these are the artists I wish I could be as good as...

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/26370357/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/26370357/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 23:21:51 PDT
1:You have to post the rules.
2:You have to say eight things about yourself.
3:you have to tag eight other people.
4:Comment on their pages letting them know they've been tagged.
5:You cant tag the person that tagged you!!

Tagged by

1. I'm a weird Christian, compared to all the mainstream ones out there... I like dark things and appreciate death, and I don't like the contemporary/new 'Christian' music they have for the younger folks. Keith Green rocks, his bubblegum song messages are heavier than most 'Christians' like to hear!

2. I'm a bit of an empath, to an extent. I love emotions, and can be rather emotional sometimes. A lot of times I try to feel how other people might be feeling, though sometimes it doesn't work at all. Negative emotions bring me crashing down and only Matt can really cheer me up. And I cry during sad movies, like the Green Mile in which Matt had to pause it for half and hour after the mouse man got fried... Some people can't understand depression, and all I can say is that it's the brain trying to kill you.

3. I have fibromyalgia and while I could use it as an excuse for a lot of things, I tend to never even bring it up. I don't even like to think about the fact that I have it and I also tend to forget I have it. But some days it does kinda hit me in the face and I have to pay attention to it. Like if I don't get enough sleep, I'm rather unbearable. And I can't stand to have anyone touch me, except sometimes Matt.

4. My dreams are very vivid and I pretty much remember them all. One dream in particular I had when I was maybe 5? I had just killed a girl who was dressed all in white. We were in a forest and I dragged her off and went into a restroom to wash up. I remember washing my face, looking up into the mirror and seeing her staring back at me. For the most part, all my dreams are kinda like that. Creepy and weird and usually having death in them.

5. I love depressing music. It puts me in a very artistic mood and certain songs I feel the need to listen to over and over and over again. Including the most recent one, Hybrid Stygmata by Dimmu Borgir. Sleeping Sun by Nightwish and Timelessness by Fear Factory are some others.

6. I love daydreaming and travelling and wish I could more often ^.^ I want to go everywhere.

7. I had something to put here and promptly forgot it. I do that often. I have ADD Oh and despite all the depressing crap I put, I'm still a very positive person. Very sarcastically optimistic

8. I want to create the Library Death Squad, a team of elite librarians who have been heavily trained in the requisition of overdue library materials. This means tracking down those elusive patrons with hundreds of dollars worth of fines they refuse to pay. *Knock knock knock* "Open up! This is the library! We have reason to believe you are holding overdue materials and we demand that you return them at once or prepare to face the consquences!" And what might those consequences be? Well, I hope you never have to find out.


And for tagging people? I tag you, you, you, you, you, you, you, and you.

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/26295115/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/26295115/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 10:28:56 PDT Here, I uploaded the pic: [link]
I mean, it is kinda cool to see her as a zombie... it's just that it's for someone!
If I can't fix it on the paper itself, that is why God invented PHOTOSHOP!

On the other side of the news, I gots me a new car!! See? ---> [link]
It's an awesome (VW GTI)

And the reason for that is because my husband got his job back So right now were hanging at a friend's house, enjoying the pool, jacuzzi, waterfall, massages, gaming, and really good dinners. It's only for two days, but it's still a really welcome mini-vacation. If only I could stop dreaming now! Last night and the night before, my dreams were such that prevented rest. Most fascinating dreams, I might say...

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/25889372/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/25889372/ Sat, 11 Jul 2009 22:33:46 PDT
These are amazing works of art that must be shared!

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/25642149/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/25642149/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 01:06:43 PDT
Ah, but what a wonderful thing. Well, it's awfully weird, being married. I have to change my name, and apparently, it's not as easy as it used to be. Everyone told me I just needed to go to the DMV, but the DMV told me to go to the Social Security office. And once there, we apparently didn't have the right certificate, so we have to go to the Hall of Records so we can get the proper certificate with a seal of approval. It's like a freaking quest on an MMORPG!

And so, we are back and I will be uploading pics soon. We still haven't gotten many pics from the wedding back, that's the main reason you don't see them posted. One friend on DA who was there did post one pic! [link]

So I have been trying to catch up on the journals and deviations (which has reached over 2000), so no worries if I haven't commented yet

Rachel

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/25157473/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/25157473/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 08:05:33 PDT
5 hours left...
5 hours before I become a married woman.
and here I am on DA.
maybe because it's a familiar thing and feels more comfortable and keeps me from seriously thinking that OMG IT"S MY FREAKING WEDDING??!!?? >.<
mine.
oh my poor head can't handle the thought...
everytime I try to wrap my brain around the idea, it short circuits ^.^ wow... maybe it'll hit me as I'm walking down the aisle.
well, I got tons left to do, so ...
I shall see what happens!!!

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24916353/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24916353/ Sat, 23 May 2009 23:49:28 PDT 1 1/2 hours til Matt gets back.
This weekend did not quite go as I expected. So much work to do, so little time. I keep trying to get everything made and finished for the wedding while moving all my stuff to Matt's house, and trying to clean his place, keep it organised and all. But then I got suckered into helping clean my house for company that never showed >.< Busy...
So while we were rushing to get the house clean, we were also getting ready for my bridal shower. This was friday, btw.
So we got to the church at around 6:30. I had already gotten a call from and my coworkers saying they wouldn't be able to make it, completely understandable, tho sad But there were still many people we were expecting. So we got there and helped finish setting up. Kim, Norma, Colette, Connie, Matt's mom, , and Siri were there. (well, beside myself and my mom, of course) Siri is an amazing cake decorator and as soon as I have more time I will post pictures. She made me a Dragon!!!!!
it was/is awesome. I still have the head and claws. We played games, opened presents, ate cake... it was great fun! My mom had gotten me a pajama shirt and pants (which I'm wearing now), and so it was quite funny when I opened Matt's mom's present... She got me the top and robe. Same style, same color, same size. So now I have two, which is great! I love having multiples of clothes.
Last night sucked tho, because I left my door open (stupid girl!). So I had all four cats in my bed and two of them hate eachother, so I had a cat fight in the middle of the night. I got barely any sleep. And then there's the rooster who decided to crow under the windows, and the baby raven flopping around on the roof cawing. And whatever the cats had been rolling in caused my allergies to flare up real bad, so I could barely breathe this morning.
But, mom, dad, and I all went to breakfast So that was real nice. We also went to a yard sale where I got a busted breyer horse for ten cents.
But then I had to pack more stuff and take it to Matt's, where I continued to try to organize the mess. It's still messy. Also managed to depaint the horse. After about two hours, mom came by and took me to a surprise bachelorette party. Matt's mom, aunt, grandma, sister and sister's friend, Mandi, and Michelle were there. Matt's sis and friend had to leave early tho, so they basically missed the party. So with his mom, aunt, and grandma, there were 7 of us (8 if you count Jeremy, who was in the back room playing WOW and sleeping). Somehow, yet again, practically everyone flaked out... some had decent reasons that are understandable, but what about the others?
Mandi made some great cakes, beautfully decorated and amazing in taste as well. The games were fun, and the Matt Trivia test I passed very well I know Matt well enough to marry him ^.^
I ended up with two rice cookers as well ^.^ (half hour now)

Despite how wonderful the parties were, they weren't very long and there was a lot of work inbetween... I'm exhausted and depressed. Why didn't anyone at least call to say they weren't coming? So many people who swore they would be there. They even sounded excited. Not even a word saying they were sorry they couldn't make it. Some even made other plans...
And all this while Matt was kidnapped to Vegas to see Cirque du Soleil, who we've been wanting to see for a while now... He even got to see the Body museum... And tomorrow, he's getting taken to Dave and Busters for a bachelor party, another place Matt's been wanting to take me.
I can't believe how jealous? I am... am I jealous of Matt? Not exactly... I don't even know if I am jealous, per se. I guess I'm a bit more upset at the fact that I've not had a day off in weeks, I'm on my period (tmi, I know), so many people flaked on me, and just watch, when Matt gets back I'll probably rant and try to dump emotions and stress on him, just what he needs before his last week of work.
stupid work... I'm so tired and stressed I need to figure out how to relax. So many things that need to be done and tryng to keep Matt's place... ]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24800032/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24800032/ Sun, 17 May 2009 07:23:22 PDT
So take care, y'all, and I will talk to all later

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24615536/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24615536/ Wed, 06 May 2009 09:42:27 PDT We finally got the church to say yes, just in time to find out that our pastor can't preform the ceremony because he works at the post office and they're a bunch of nazis who won't let him have the day off. So a friend of ours talked to his pastor about doing it and if he does it, we have to go through marriage counseling... ok, I know why and I agree, I'm just an obstinate hothead who has had a bad time with counselors and so the word has a bad vibe to it ^.^
and it will put me in a position I don't want to be in, albeit just for a month... What can I say, I'm super stubborn and actually rather self centered when it comes to stuff like this! I want to do it My way, which is the quick and easy way. The less fuss, the better, right? I just gotta keep telling myself that it's good for me, and it'll be over in a month (literally) and then I can go on vacation to Canada! (which apparently, Canadian is not a nationality. What???? psh )
And I am going through bad withdrawals by not getting to eat any sugary things... chocolate... Let's just say that every woman's favorite Aunt is going to be visiting, and I'm not getting any chocolate, and things are not going my way. heh... Don't worry, I"m not going to be Bridezilla or anything, yet...
need chocolate...

And right now I'm trying to get in contact with the tux shop, because apparently they need the bride and groom to make an appointment so that the groomsmen can get their tuxes. See, the best man went down to take care of it, and they said no.
And we can't afford a professional photographer, but we're going to have a ton of candid photos! (the prof. apparently wants $1200????)

And on top of all that, I'm applying for a full time position that I'm not entirely certain I want, but I definitely need... interview on monday. The main problem is that I'd be working on Sundays, and Mon and Tues I wouldn't get home til like 10:30. I would be making twice the money I am now, however, and I would be getting benefits. yay medical!
so... would the benefits outweigh the cons? Probably, unless you count my desire to stay away from stress... lol

anyway... that's all I can think of for now... on to stolenness

Stolen from
Mentally Ill Test:

[X] You have screamed at an inanimate object for 'hurting you.'
[X] You have run into a glass/screen door.
[X] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[X] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
[X] You have run into a tree/bush.
[X] You have been called a blonde.

Total: 6

[X] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[X]You just tried to lick your elbow. (it is possible, and I can do it!! HAH!)
[ ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star had the same melody.
[ ] You just sang them to make sure.
[X] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.

Total: 10

[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[ ] You type with three fingers or less.
[X] You have accidentally caught something on fire.
[X] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
[X] You have caught yourself drooling

Total: 13

[X] You have fallen asleep in class.
[X] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[X] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you are talking about.
[X] People often shake their heads and walk away from you
[ ] You are often told to use your 'inside voice

Total: 17

[X] You use your fingers to do simple math.
[X] You have eaten a bug accidentally.
[X] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[X] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[X] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time.

Total: 22

[X] You have posted bul... ]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24610429/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24610429/ Tue, 05 May 2009 22:14:47 PDT

for those of you who don't know, Dom DeLuise died Monday, May 4th, after battling a nasty illness. Even if you don't know him by name, you know his voice. I know you know his voice. Every child who has ever watched cartoons... Remember American Tail? Fievel goes West? Dom was Tiger, the cat Or what about the Secret of NIMH? He was Jeremy the crow. He was also in Oliver and Company, and a Troll in Central Park, the Princess and the Dwarf...
Of course, for the older audience, he was in quite a bit as well... Check out his IMDB page! [link]
He was also in Stargate SG-1 I about died when I saw that

He is going to be very sorely missed...

I almost cried at work ^.^
wow...

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24540026/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24540026/ Fri, 01 May 2009 23:15:00 PDT
Still waiting for hearing about a place to get married - why does it take so long?? oh and I joined twitter... lemme know if you wanna follow me (or see if you can find me ) (I need followers!)

If I were a month I would be: March
If I were a day of the week I would be: Tuesday
If I were a time of day I would be: 10 PM
If I were a planet I would be: P3C-117
If I were a animal I would be: Tamaskan
If I were a direction I would be: East
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: a comfy Bed
If I were a historical figure I would be: Artemisia Gentileschi, renaissance painter [link]
If I were a liquid I would be: Napalm (it counts as a liquid, right?)
If I were a tree I would be: Weeping willow
If I were a flower/plant I would be: Belladonna
If I were a kind of weather I would be: Rain storm
If I were a musical instrument I would be: Cello
If I were an emotion I would be: Utter Despair
If I were a color I would be: Blood Red
If I were a vegetable I would be: Strawberry
If I were a sound I would be: the sound you hear behind you in the dead of night
If I were an element I would be: Titanium
If I were a car I would be: 1973 VW bug
If I were a song I would be: Comalies (Lacuna Coil)
If I were a movie I would be directed by: Martin Wood
If I were a book I would be written by: Stephen King
If I were a food I would be: Lasagna
If I were a place I would be: The Black Forest
If I were a material I would be: Silk
If I were a taste I would be: Oregano
If I were a scent I would be: Sweet Pea
If I were a word I would be: Discombobulate
If I were an object I would be: Sword
If I were a body part I would be: Heart
If I were a facial expression I would be: +
If I were a cartoon character I would be: Dolores
If I were a shape I would be a: cyclic quadrilateral
If I were a number I would be: 247

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24357993/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24357993/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 10:12:24 PDT well, not anymore. The powers that be have kill my programming so that I can focus on working with the children. Ok, first off, I get about 6 regular teens every week while the children program gets 0. Sooo.... They're cancelling my successful program for two reasons. One, 6 teens "aren't worth it." Two, circulation is in the children, not the teens, and we need to get circ up. *sigh*
That's all I've been told since I was hired, that my teens aren't worth it. What the Crap? So what am I going to tell them?
Oh I'm sorry, but after the summer reading program you aren't going to have programs anymore because you aren't worth it? They look forward to these programs, even the parents like it! And it's not a matter of money, because we hardly use any money for supplies!

Now I know how SGA feels. Cancelled so that an untried program that is geared towards a younger audience (a program likely to fail) can be focused on because that what TPTB want, not because of budget or anything.

ergh...

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24340437/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24340437/ Mon, 20 Apr 2009 09:46:30 PDT
I only have 47 days left til my wedding!! (O_O)

and still trying to get a job... Harder than it sound, especially when you have no experience and every other fresh-outa college kid is trying to get a job too. Well, it's especially hard because I can't just get a minimum wage part time job due to my student loans and need of insurance and such... and with Matt possibly losing his job... well, it's going to be an interesting future!!
I need a full time job with benefits... :/
this sucks. Otherwise, my library job would be perfect. I get paid over minimum wage and it's not full time, so I get lots of time to take care of other things... but at the moment I have no insurance and I'm really hoping I don't get sick (those of you who know me, know I do this too much! lol)
Trying to make money via ebay isn't exactly easy either. I have a hard time selling myself, but I'm trying to get better. I need to sell my Wacom Cintaq monitor... if anyone's interested!

Anyway, I will try my best to catch up with all of the journals, replies, comments, and deviations... but it may take a while. I've got deviations I need to go through that have been up for months! >.< I am a bad deviant.
also, it is a little more difficult because my laptop is still dead

And so, I must continually bug the church I want to get married in as they still have not called us back >.< I mean, we've sent people to them, called them, and no one has been able to give us an answer
I wish getting married wasn't such a big deal. For the most part, I feel like the wedding is more for everyone else! hehe, it'll be a great day I can't wait to see everyone together... it'll be weird. All the beer drinkin "rough" relatives get to hang with the wine totin rich relatives

aaaaaannnnddd.....


bout all I can think of right now. Have a good day and I will get to it all soon!

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24187993/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24187993/ Sat, 11 Apr 2009 18:51:58 PDT Fain would I fathom thy nature specific.
Loftily poised in the ether capacious,
Strongly resembling a gem carbonaceous.

When torrid Phoebus removeth his presence,
Ceasing to lamp us with fierce incandescense,
Then you illumine the regions supernal.
Scintillate, scintillate semper nocturnal

The traveller on lustreless perigrinations
Gratefully hails your minute coruscations!
He could not determine his journey's direction
Were it not for your scintillitative protection.

Does anyone else know this song? My mom used to sing it to me as a child
*hint* twinkle, twinkle...

Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky.

When the blazing sun is gone,
When he nothing shines upon,
Then you show your little light,
Twinkle, twinkle, all the night.

Then the trav'ller in the dark,
Thanks you for your tiny spark,
He could not see which way to go,
If you did not twinkle so.
..........................(then there are two more verses I don't know in geek speak)

In the dark blue sky you keep,
And often thro' my curtains peep,
For you never shut your eye,
Till the sun is in the sky.

'Tis your bright and tiny spark,
Lights the trav'ller in the dark:
Tho'I know not what you are,
Twinkle, twinkle, little star.


and just for fun:
"Three rodents with defective visual perception,
Observe how they perambulate
They all perambulated after the agriculturist's spouse
Who severed their hind appendages with a kitchen utensil
Did you ever see such a spectacle in your existence as
Three rodents with defective visual perception"

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24127669/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24127669/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 10:53:45 PDT
Anyway, here's an interesting search in google: dreddnott
There is only one guy with that user name and when I last checked, he had 1,350 hits. Amazing. You'd think he'd get a life or something! lol I only got like 116. ^.^

This is just some random journal, not really meant for much. Mainly cuz I need to leave to get my day started >.< Thankfully today is a short day at work

It's insanely windy here and it's not being nice to my allergies >.< But I am glad at least that they aren't as bad as they were in 2004 when they gave me asthma! But then, I met Matt when I had the worst of it, so I guess it was a good thing.

I had a weird dream (normal for me) last night. I don't know how to describe it, but it was really indepth and I almost enjoyed it, if I hadn't been running for my life.

I cut my thumb open trying to open the syrup this morning. Ain't that lame? ^.^ And I should probably go now because otherwise I'll fill this thing full of more mindless garbage.

Cheerio and all that!

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24030872/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/24030872/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 20:14:41 PDT [link]
This person put into words, everything true about Twilight, and such amazing words I had to quote:

"twilight is a slap in the face to all that is vampiric, a merciless ass-rape to the name of vampire by a self-important mormon housewife. stephenie meyer took the well-established, time-honored traditions of vampiric legend and went "ok well fuck that. my thinly veiled grab-for-cash is gonna be about a soccer-playing, sun-friendly SPARKLY vampire with a heart of gold and a tortured past (this kind of drippily brooding and remorseful vamp being a character style which BARELY worked on the buffy/angel series, which had much stronger writing). then when they make the movie, they can pick a toweringly effeminate pretty boy to play said gold-hearted sparkler so that all the 12 to 17-year-old girls become drippingly wet and obsessive lustbunnies who will not only sit through this blindingly obvious marketing ploy ONCE, but will pay to see it an additional 5-20 times, thus lining all involved pockets".
i'm sure every word is falling on libidinously deaf ears, but still i'm saying: twilight is nothing more than an endless river of festering, estrogen-laden vaginal discharge custom-blended to appeal to horny teenage girls. if you hormone slaves weren't so lustily hump-happy over the ACTORS chosen to play the vapidly ill-written characters of meyers literary disaster, you would realize that. but you can't see past the pretty faces and airbrushed-on muscles to the crunchy center of absolute shite.
by the by: if you're one of the twenty individuals of meyers fan base who actually just like the story and aren't defending it solely because they are dying to rape a fictional pixie... well i can't describe how emphatically i disagree with your taste in literature, but in any case, consider yourselves exempt from this rant."

Amen.

(and again, I did not write this, though how I wish I had! [link] page 7, name Alexandra)

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23977064/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23977064/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 21:29:41 PDT [link]

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23966772/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23966772/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 11:24:46 PDT .< so please forgive me)
Social rejects to just those whose tastes differ from the popculture, they have a sense of loyalty that cannot be rivaled. Some are petty little creatures, but there are those who have tried to "fit in" and have failed, only to find their true people at some convention.
Ok, let me explain, or try to explain. You will see loyalty, sure, in fans of popculture icons, but for how long? How long did people worship the Backstreet Boys, or NSync? What about New Kids on the Block? Right... Even now, Harry Potter's fan group dwindles under the power of Twilight, the latest of popculture icons. However, there is something with Twilight I have never seen with other popculture icons. The fans can be riled up more than the Harry Potter fans. Twitards, as they are called on most Anti sites, can cause such havoc as beating people with baseball bats, scratching people's eyes out... There are hundreds of stories, all unbelievable that fans could take it so far when someone just even gives a look that says they don't care for Twilight.
The stories can be found here: [link]
I still can't believe some of them... can't believe the fact that there are people that insane...
But I digress...
While the Twitards are loyal to psychotic levels now, they won't be for long (and if they are, well... mental ward). But if you talk about Startrek, Starwars, and other scifi shows n stuff, those people are fans for life, pretty much. This whole subject was brought up when I was watching a documentary on heavy metal and they were talking about how loyal the fans are. Fans of the Beatles, Pink Floyd, Deep Purple, and other great bands are still loyal and always will be. What can sway it? I myself am a fan of these bands and more, have been my whole life. I've been a fan of Stargate for 15 years, Startrek for as long as I can remember. While I'm not a fanatic and have not gone completely psychotic (ok, there is a story about the Beatles when I was 12, but you'll have to ask) I still find that I will always be a fan. huh... makes me wonder what I'd be like if my family had raised me differently.

Well... everyone is a fan of something, right? How far is too far?

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23908582/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23908582/ Thu, 26 Mar 2009 21:30:17 PDT
ALTERNATIVE:
[x] Weezer
[x] Paramore
[x] Panic! At The Disco
[ ] October Fall
[ ] The Academy Is...
[x] Coheed And Cambria
[ ] Bayside
[ ] Sugarcult
[x] The Dresden Dolls

TOTAL SO FAR: 5

COUNTRY:
[ ] Rascal Flatts
[x] Carrie Underwood
[x] Leanne Rhymes
[x] Garth Brooks
[x] Dixie Chicks
[x] Kenny Chesney
[x] Tim McGraw
[x] Faith Hill
[x] Shania Twain
[x] Johnny Cash
(only Johnny Cash is real country. the rest are just pop singers with a twang)
TOTAL SO FAR: 14

EMO:
[x] Hawthorne Heights
[x] Halifax
[x] Forgive Durden
[ ] Amber Pacific
[ ] The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
[ ] From First to Last
[ ] Senses Fail
[x] Underoath
[ ] Something Corporate
[ ] Hit the lights
[ ] Dear Whoever

TOTAL SO FAR: 18

INDIE:
[ ] The Hush Sound
[ ] Eisley
[x] Death Cab for Cutie best band ever!
[x] Dashboard Confessional
[x] The Killers
[x] Yeah Yeah Yeahs
[ ] Hot Hot Heat
[ ] Gym Class Heroes
[ ] Franz Ferdinand
[x] Modest Mouse

TOTAL SO FAR: 23

METAL:
[x] Slipknot
[x] System of a Down
[x] Disturbed
[x] Metallica
[x] Guns n' Roses
[x] Lamb of God
[x] Slayer
[x] Hatebreed
[x] Killswitch Engage

TOTAL SO FAR: 32

POP:
[ ] Teddy Geiger
[x] Ashlee Simpson
[x] Kelly Clarkson
[x] Jesse McCartney
[x] Pink
[x] The Veronicas
[ ] Daniel Powter
[ ] James Blunt
[x] Natasha Bedingfield
[ ] Ryan Cabrera
[x] Avril Lavigne

TOTAL SO FAR: 39

POWERPOP/POP PUNK/PUNK:
[ ] hellogoodbye
[ ] Cute is What We Aim for
[ ] Cartel
[ ] The Click Five
[x] Fall Out boy
[ ] Lucky Boys Confusion
[x] Good Charlotte
[ ] Bowling for Soup
[x] Relient K
[ ] Less Than Jake
[ ] Simple Plan

TOTAL SO FAR= 42

RAP:
[ ] Ying Yang Twins
[ ] T.I.
[ ] Paul Wall
[x] Tupac
[x] Jamie Foxx
[x] Ludacris
[ ] Lil' Jon
[x] Outkast
[x] 50 Cent
[x] Kanye West
[x] Notorious B.I.G
[ ] Young Jeezy

TOTAL SO FAR: 49

SKA:
[x] Reel Big Fish
[ ] The Specials
[ ] Mad Caddies
[ ] The Aquabats
[x] Sublime
[x] No Doubt (this is ska?)
[ ] Madness
[ ] Operation Ivy
[x] Bob Marley *marleys not ska*

TOTAL SO FAR= 53

ROCK:
[x] Taking Back Sunday
[x] All American Rejects
[ ] Motion City Soundtrack
[x] Avenged Sevenfold
[ ] Angels and Airwaves
[x] Evanescence
[x] My Chemical Romance
[x] Green Day
[x] Blink 182
(this is not "rock")
TOTAL SO FAR: 60

CLASSIC ROCK:
[x] The Beatles
[x] Led Zeppelin
[x] The Rolling Stones
[x] The Who
[x] Pink Floyd
[x] The Doors
[x] Jimmy Hendrix
[x] Queen
[x] Van Halen
[x] Bob Dylan
[x] Simon & Garfunkel

TOTAL SO FAR: 71

Now multiply by two
and put "I Am _% Obsessed With Music”

Ok, So... They did not put Power Metal, Goth/Symphonic Metal, Classical, Opera, whatever Radiohead is, Progressive, Folk, Bluegrass, Traditional, Gospel, Hymns, Choir, Musicals (or show tunes), Jazz, Blues, Black Spirituals, Techno, Irish Rebel Songs... I could go on forever. So who's obsessed with music? hmm??

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23805252/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23805252/ Fri, 20 Mar 2009 22:01:55 PDT Especially since I have to work tomorrow >.<
But I just felt like writing, rambling more like. I'm all antsy and not sure why. I think it has to do with lack of sleep and an overly busy mind. My friend and I got an idea to make altered art chokers out of old watch parts and stuff and so I've been doing that all day today. Went to all the antique stores that were open and one thrift store as well, but for supplies I only got two watches. Other than that, I got one store willing to sell our art, and like three stores willing to look into getting old broken watches for us! yay!

Oh and on the bad side of life... If you live in the high desert in sunny SoCal, DO NOT GO TO WALMART. Apparently they've also included Target into the mix and upped the price. But... well, there's supposed to be a gang initiation and originally it was gonna be at a walmart and they were supposed to kill two men, but I just heard it's been raised to 2 men, 2 women, and 2 children and they've included Target. With stuff like this, it's all hearsay, so I don't know how reliable it is and I don't know when or where it is, but it will happen, that much is certain, unless someone stops them beforehand.

well... I can't think of much else to write about... I'm tired, already starting to dream
you know that feeling when you start daydreaming and reality disappears? yeah... bedtime for me.

on the plus side, I finished one choker and am working on three others!

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23743175/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23743175/ Tue, 17 Mar 2009 08:44:58 PDT
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours.

Remember to fill this out when commenting!
When you comment, all you have to do is copy and paste this on your comment, then fill out the questions in it! If you do, then I will do the same to you, only with my answers! ^^

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23668299/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23668299/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 21:49:35 PDT My will to do social activities has dropped as well. I couldn't really care less. I've become rather apathetic towards a lot of things, while overly emotional on other levels.
I still will blame my schedule change.

You know what else is weird, I woke up this morning from a really intense dream and my pulse was at 200+ a minute (O_O) took me a while to calm down.

I feel trapped. I want my life to progress forward, but it's at a standstill, or so it seems. So far today I've eaten a couple ritz crackers. I feel... well, I don't know how I feel. I feel a lot of different things and I certainly don't feel like doing anything.
And don't worry, I can afford to lose weight anyway.

I feel like I'm at the edge of a cliff, about to fall off, but like I've been there for a while and am getting tired of waiting to fall, wondering if I ever will. I feel like I'm trapped in a box of limitations, with all these dreams and no way to fulfill them.
I almost feel like giving up. Too bad I don't know how ^.^
What do I want? What do I want with life? Why can't I figure this out on my own? Why must I rely on others, when I can't even ask them for help because I don't know what to ask for because I don't know what's wrong?
A couple weeks ago I knew what I wanted. A couple weeks ago feels like forever ago.

I am... yeah...

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23614342/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23614342/ Mon, 09 Mar 2009 17:31:22 PDT Oh and DA is not working properly on this computer, don't know why, so the mood is not sentimental. I'm just hoping this works.

I have a problem. They always say that admitting you have a problem is the first big step in fixing it, right?
But having an addiction isn't easy to fix... you have to be willing. There's nothing you can do if you don't want to stop. And with my problem... I can see it effecting my social attitude, I've been gettin snappy with people a bit more lately, not caring too much about my personal appearance though I've not gone all slovenly like my brother ^.^
Basically, I've just started not caring about reality. Which can cause problems with work, though it hasn't really as of yet. I've just been super distracted, but have somehow managed to continue as if nothing is wrong.

I'm very weird with a very vivid imagination. I have had the ability to completely tune out the real world at a whim, whenever and whereever I want pretty much. Over the past 6? years I've actually had somewhat of a social life that took up my thoughts pretty well. Of course I still would daydream, but the ability to completely lose myself to the dream slowly dwindled and pretty much left me when I started my extensive studies in art. I was just too busy and soon lost the ability to relax altogether, it seemed.
Well, I graduated with a BA in the middle of February and have since went from doing 15 hours a day straight for 4-5 days a week (maybe an hour or two for a break in which I would walk around for excercise) to having at most 8 hours a day for work, 3 days one week, 4 days the next, leaving Thursdays, Fridays, and every other Saturday completely open. I'm going stir crazy.

And well, sad to say, it started with Stargate Atlantis. My coworker let me borrow the series and I had stopped watching it to finish school and all (because I had Friday mornings all to myself). So I think it as last week or maybe two weeks ago already, I was having issues with people, life, decisions, etc. that I was stressing about. Well, remember how I said I can't relax? And having all that free time was/is driving me insane, so I decided to watch Stargate Atlantis. There's this one episode, the Tao of Rodney (my favorite character), where he needs to learn how to meditate, to clear his mind, to relax. And I thought, now that would be a good idea for me to try. I mean, I used to do it all the time, right? Of course, I didn't think about other situational things, which I'll get to in a bit.
So there I was, trying to meditate, trying to clear my mind. Well, I did it. I cleared my head. And then I started daydreaming. (and as I write this I have got a major headache... staying focused is really hard right now) *sigh* I started thinking about how nice it would be if Stargate was real... and started thinking about what the most plausible way for me to get off the planet would be. Well, needless to say I found my happy spot and relaxed quite nicely.

Now how do I stop???

It seems like such a silly thing, but... I mean, I don't want to stop, but it's adversly effecting my ability to function! While it is cool to be able to "go" places that don't exist, my world traveling adventures need to take me back to earth or I'm going to end up like my brother! (O_O)
er, actually it'd be worse than that.
I've been sleeping a lot more, being sleepier. All I want to do is either sleep, daydream, meditate, or... well not really anything. Ok, I do like driving in this mood, but I kinda don't think that's very good, considering!!

well, if anyone actually made it to the end, yay! Can anyone help out? Does anyone else get this problem of disconnecting from the world and being somewhat addicted to daydreaming?
I can feel emotions, and I rather enjoy creating different scenerios and figuring out how other people would feel... I enjoy emotions. Which is also weird.
I'm just weird. And I'm stuck in a boring-yet-stressful world, which my life is not bad, I'm just in a rough spot I guess. Lucky for me I have my fiance... though he has his own "addictions." video games. At least his is something physical that can be taken from him and he's not super bad about it. Mine is all in my head and is everywhere. If I lose focus for even just a second, my mind wanders and it's getting worse. >.<
which is why this is so long I guess... my mind keeps wandering.
oh and then there's that other part... heh. I guess it is kinda cool, but not... If I think about a certain character, or even characters I guess, I start to lose myself and... well, for lack of a better explanation, it's like I "become" the character. I can't p... ]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23496643/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23496643/ Mon, 02 Mar 2009 19:07:27 PST It's just a cyst around her kidneys.
Her back is all messed up from the Parkinsons, Arthritis, and other stuffs and she may have just pinched a nerve when she fell trying to get into her chair. She will be going to a rehab center where they will be working with her to get her to where she can go back on her own again.

On another note...



and then another note altogether: the goverment stinks. While my job is stable, dealing with a change in supervisors sucks because they think you already know their rules and you don't and somehow you even managed to miss the fact that you even have a new supervisor!
well... I am super confused so... yay!

and somehow... I keep dreaming of sweeping Pixar's floor and drooling at the Cat Bus.

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23448566/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23448566/ Sat, 28 Feb 2009 10:06:30 PST Please keep her in mind, but also my dad. He already lost his dad and he's so incredibly sensitive to this situation I feel he needs the prayer more in some ways... ^.^

Thank you much!


On another update, we've picked our day to get married! 06/06/09
D-Day! It's the 65th anniversary this year.

And a word to future brides out there, I don't know if you have any dramatic friends or not, but if you do, don't let them get you down when you do something they don't particularly like!
heh... one of my not so close friends who wants to be closer is jealous because I didn't pick her to be a bridesmaid, instead I chose someone I consider like a sister to me and this girl can't understand why she can't be.
So I just wanted to say, if you know people like that, and they throw a fit, try not to worry about it, the wedding is your day, not theirs!

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23196860/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23196860/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 13:30:37 PST
I'M ENGAGED!!!! He took me up to the mountains with the freshly fallen snow... we went up into the beautiful white forest with little bits of snow falling around from the trees... it was absolutely beautiful. And then he asked me.
Well... I must admit I didn't react the way I thought I would. I thought I would say some snappy comment, like, "Duh?" heheh.... but no, I did not expect to start crying and the tackle him into the snow. it was awesome.
I absolutely love him.
too much
and then he took me to lunch and I got a chocolate malt and ate too much pasta!

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23064142/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23064142/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 15:21:11 PST do not click it!
Actually, if you click it, it just sends you to a fake alternate da login page that steals your soul. h"ttp://da.loginspage.com/users"
I checked it out myself, and it seems as long as you don't log in, you'll be alright. However, I did find something very interesting out. All the links work, they direct straight back to the real DA. This person really wanted to get people. So, do not clicky!

I wonder if the admins can track this sucker down... *ponders*

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23036637/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/23036637/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 08:31:53 PST "Copied/pasted from the News article:

"Warning!
If you recieve a comment saying "Hey. I think i saw your picture on this website/blog here CLICK HERE", don't click on the link
DO NOT click on the link. It will take you to a fake dA login page which will steal your login details if entered.

If you recieve a comment like this, MARK IT AS SPAM using the Mark as spam button on the comment. This will alert moderators to it and will also hide the comment it so others won't be caught out.

Pass on the message if you can.""

So anyway,
I just wanted to say I'm slowly catching up! Fridays are the only days I really can anymore, but last Friday was waaaay too busy! XD

so yeah... and I only have a week of school left before I graduate!!!!!! WOOOOT!

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22926716/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22926716/ Sat, 31 Jan 2009 16:19:02 PST
So anyway, I will get through as much as I can today, but I won't have this computer to use too much longer as my boyfriend loves it as much as I love mine ^.^



and



]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22881040/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22881040/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 14:32:55 PST yay...

Originally this was supposed to be a journal about how much time I didn't have and that I was going to get to all 68 deviations and 18 messages later today (which is now)... or at least I'll get to as many as I can ^.^
can't believe it's almost February,... >.<

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22860650/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22860650/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 09:09:27 PST
"This is a warning, if you see myself or anyone else on deviant art post a comment anywhere on your page or deviations that reads "rofl this may be relevant to your interests" absolutely DO NOT click on it. I did and now my entire computer is fucked up. I repeat, DO NOT click on the link."

MAKE A JOURNAL REPOSTING THIS STATEMENT!!! SPREAD THE WORD!!!


and sooo... I clicked it last night at work... we'll see how the computer runs!

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22781045/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22781045/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 11:59:01 PST
Did you know that the majority of traffic jams and accidents are caused by people tailgating? Mathematically and Scientifically, it is proven. If say we're on a three lane freeway (or highway), and someone is going about 70 in the fast lane, in southern California that person is going to be tailgated.
We do have a 3 second rule here, which on a diagram,
seconds = spaces, would look something like this:

3 seconds[c c] 2 seconds[c c] 1 second[c c] too close to tell[cc]

This 3 second rule is set up because of reaction time. Reaction time is dependant on whether or not the driver is paying attention, which many tailgaters are too focused on getting ahead of people to pay attention to what those people are doing.
So say this person going 70 in the fast lane comes across an obstacle in the road and has to swerve to avoid it. Depending on how close the following person is depends on whether or not this person can also avoid said obstacle. If they leave no room whatsoever, they have no chance and crash into the obstacle.
The same is when the car going 70 slams on the brakes. How fast is the person behind them going to slam on their brakes to avoid hitting the car in front of them?
This is how many accidents happen. I know many many many people who have been rear-ended or who have rear-ended someone else because of tailgating.

And while eliminating accidents is great, why don't I show you how to eliminate traffic by not tailgating.

If everyone is tailgating when they come to an onramp that is heavily used, the cars getting on the freeway have to squeeze their way onto the freeway, which is a very difficult thing when people won't give you the room! But if everyone followed the 3 second rule, there would be plenty of space! People wouldn't have to merge into a wall of cars, they would be able to merge freely. If someone had to swerve all of a sudden, they would have the room to do so.

Tada!

Oh but I must point one major thing out that royally ticks people off and makes them tailgate more... Fast people in the slow lane and slow people in the fast lane. Don't do it, people. If the lane to your right is going faster than you, you're in the wrong lane. (obviously this does not apply to those in countries that drive on the left side of the road )

Be smart, be courteous, don't think the road belongs to you, because you people make commuter's lives miserable! >.< trust me, I am one. I see your stupidity daily, and I see your accidents. For those of you that drive on the windy roads? Yeah, stay on your OWN SIDE! That accident you caused the other day because you were on the wrong side of the road? Remember that! It's BAD and unhealthy.

Oh and while that one road that has a speed limit of 30 when it should be 50, doesn't give you the right to go 80, and the hell it gives you the right to pass on a double yellow line ON A HILL when a School bus is coming! I can't count how many times I have seen this happen. A school bus. And the people passing were going at least 60-70 mph.
I did see the effects of this before... see, this little road has a speed limit of 30 for a reason. It's very hilly and windy and there are a lot of little dirt roads that meet it, so when you're trying to turn onto this main road, you cannot see if there are cars coming.
Imagine if you're a car going 80 (like they usually do) and you come up over a hill just as a car pulls out onto it... there's a hill right after, so you don't know if there's someone else coming and you don't have enough time to put on your brakes and, best part, there is no shoulder. You are screwed.
And I saw the after effects of this... it ain't pretty. I've seen too many accidents on that stupid road. Mom will not drive it because of how dangerous it is.

I should reiterate. The road is not dangerous, the stupid people who drive it are (well, not all of them). Heaven help you if you drive 30 like you're supposed to. Oh and there are no cops. If there are, they drive 80 as well. >.<


And so that is my rant/lesson/whatever for the day. Mainly because I had to drive to work today and these STUPID southern California drivers don't know how to drive! DX
Do not become a commuter. It ruins your life. And mine.



]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22756486/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22756486/ Fri, 23 Jan 2009 09:56:58 PST
For people that hate stereotypes: If you think people should just shut up and stop, put this on your profile. (*---* the ones you are.)

I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.

I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.

I'm a NEGRO so I MUST carry a gun.

*I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a ditz* (only once in a while when I'm tired or sick)

I'm JAMAICAN so I MUST smoke weed.

I'm HAITIAN so I MUST eat cat.

I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be sexy.

I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy. <---- I'm sorta Jewish (by blood) but I'm not greedy

I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.

I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.

I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.

*I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.*

I'm a GAY RIGHTS SUPPORTER, so I WILL go to hell.

*I'm a CHRISTAN, so I MUST think gay people should go to hell.* <-- Which is a total blatant lie

I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.

I'm ATHEIST so I MUST hate the world.

I don't have a RELIGION, so I MUST be evil and have no morals.

I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.

I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.

I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.

I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.

*I TAKE (or used to take) ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.* <-- hmph, not yet

I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.

*I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.* <--- lol!! hahaha... I can't even sip alcohol! too strong

I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.

I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.

I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a whore. (I was a cheerleader for like 2 months(?) but nothing ever happened)

I'm a DANCER, So I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.

I wear SKIRTS a lot, so I MUST be a slut.

I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.

I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.

*I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth or emo.* <-- I'm goth for more than just the black clothing

*I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.*<--- hahahaha! no.

I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.

I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.

I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking whore.

I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.

I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.

I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a "big one".

I'm EGYPTIAN, so I must be a TERRORIST!

*I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.* <-- ^.^ well I am a virgin and I'm going to be 24 soon

*I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.* <-- I have a very social life with my coworkers and classmates!

I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.

I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.

*I'm INTO THEATER & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.* <-- puhleeze.

I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.

*I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.* (O_O) I just don't like females!

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be a player.

*I have Big BOOBS, so I MUST be a hoe.* <--- I blame my boyfriend! (and he's my first and only, and we've been together for 5 years! )

I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.

*I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.* <-- how does that work?

I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool and thats how Russians roll.

*I'm GERMAN, so I must be a Nazi.* <-- psh, far from it!

*I hang out with GAYS, so I must be GAY TOO.* yep. I like guys. Must be gay.

I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.

I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.

I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13.

I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy.

I'm HAWAIIAN so I MUST be lazy.

I'm PERUVIAN, so I MUST like llamas. <--- I like llamas! but I'm not Peruvian

Im a STONER so I MUST be going in the wrong direction.

*Im a VIRGIN so I MUST be prude.* <-- *s... ]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22723489/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22723489/ Wed, 21 Jan 2009 21:43:47 PST just cuz

Copy n' answer in yer comments!!

What would you do if....

I committed suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY...
Personality:
Eyes:
Hair:
Family:

WOULD YOU...
Be my friend?:
Keep a secret if I told you one?:
Hold my hand?:
Take a bullet for me?:
Keep in touch?:
Try and solve my problems?:
Love me?:
Date me?:

HAVE YOU EVER...
Lied to make me feel better?:
Wanted to kiss me?:
Wanted to kill me?:
Broke my heart?:
Kept something important from me?:
Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

AND MORE...
1. Who are you?:
2. Are we friends?:
3. When and how did we meet?:
6. Describe me in one word.:
7. What was your first impression?:
8. Do you still think that way about me now?:
9. What reminds you of me?:
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
11. How well do you know me?:
12. When's the last time you saw me?:
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
14. Are you gonna paste this to your journal see what I say about you?

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22671942/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22671942/ Mon, 19 Jan 2009 11:29:43 PST
is an avid plane lover, who also loves sci-fi He has a lot of really amazing pictures of planes in his gallery, as well as many other cool pictures. He also likes Warhammer, but is selling his Dark Angel army
He's also an amazing friend and you should definitely check his gallery out! This is my favorite of the plane designs, even though I'd never have it on my plane: [link] (i'd be afraid of scratching the paint!! and it's like a giant target... heh, no camoflauge there!)


is a very imaginative artist who also writes. She does some really cool photo manips of herself, the most recent two look like zombies Her writing is really good and she writes on controversial topics and does it well.
One of the cutest pictures she has is the baby polar bear one: [link] which I just realized I never commented or faved it! I have fixed that! You should definitely check her gallery out too! It's well worth it.


is a Self-proclaimed Genius who writes really well and takes really good pictures. Her bed is also poisonous! [link] She's really cool and you should go check her gallery out! This picture [link] is really cool. They had put her brother in a costume and stuck him next to this guy, so people thought her brother was fake too


is cool and really good with the photoshpping: [link] and drawing anime. She is also a vampire [link]
She's going to have a Kiriban at 54,321 pageviews That's only 39,893 pageviews to go! ^^


And for fun:

First 15 entries on music player shuffle!

1. The Silk Dilemma in my pants
2. Nemo in my pants
3. Fitter happier in my pants
4. Dollars and cents in my pants
5. No place like London in my pants
6. Die Macht des Mondes in my pants
7. Infection in my pants
8. Climbing up the walls in my pants
9. Poor thing in my pants
10. Final scene in my pants
11. Packt like sardines in a crushed tin box in my pants
12. Pathfinders in my pants
13. Pulk/Pull revolving doors in my pants
14. Knives out in my pants
15. Johanna in my pants



*on a side note, I am feeling much better, thank you all... ]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22652161/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22652161/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 12:07:43 PST [ ] Brown - $100
[ ] Blonde - $50
[ ] Black - $15
[ ] Bald - $5
[x] Other-$75

Total: $75


Eye Color:
[ ] Brown - $50
[ ] Green - $75
[x] Blue $150
[ ] Hazel $100
[ ] Other - $15

Total so far: $225


Height:
[ ] Over 7' - $200
[ ] 6'8" to 7' - $175
[ ] 6'0" to 6'7" - $150
[ ] 5'5" to 5'11" - $75
[x] 5'4" to 5'10" - $85
[ ] Under 5'4" - $27

Total so far: $310


Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $175
[ ] 46 to 50 - $150
[ ] 41 to 45 - $125
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ] 26 to 30 - $75
[x] 21 to 25 - $50
[ ] 19 to 20 - $25
[ ] 0 to 18 - $100

Total so far: $360


Birth Order:

[ ] Twins or more than twins - $750
[ ] First Born - $320
[ ] Only Child - $250
[x] second born - $150
[ ] Middle child - $100
[ ] Last Born - $100
[ ] third born - $550
[ ] fourth born - $300
[ ] fifth born - $400
[ ] sixth born -$215

Total so far: $510


Drink?
[ ] I did like twice - $400
[ ] Only Holidays - $250
[ ] Sometimes - $215
[ ] YES - $200
[ ] only weekends - $300
[ ] Every other day - $50
[ ] Once a day - $15
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$
[x] No - $600

Total so far: $1110


Vision?
[x] perfect vision $400
[ ]need or have glasses/ contacts but dont wear them $200
[ ] No correction $100
[ ] Glasses $50
[ ] contacts $25
[ ] Surgical correction -$100

Total so far: $1510

Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $300
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $250
[ ] 11 to 12 - $400
[x] 7 to 10 - $500
[ ] Under 7- $450

Total so far: $2010


Favorite Colors (two):
[ ] Green-$750
[x] Red - $600
[ ] Black - $100
[ ] Yellow -$475
[ ] Brown - $300
[ ] Purple - $225
[ ] White - $400
[ ] Aqua - $350
[ ] Orange - $300
[x] Blue - $300
[ ] Pink - $100
[ ] Other - $500 (Grey)

Total: $2910


Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes $0
[x] Nope - $1000
[ ] some- $750

Final Total: $3910
REPOST WITH TITLE:
"I cost $________ a night"

Also, the first three people to comment, I shall feature you and one of your deviations in my journal

just cuz.

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22623925/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22623925/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 22:15:49 PST ) work and school I've been able to get online a lot and have found random, funny, sad, or just weird things that I keep posting. I don't know how long I'll be able to keep that pace up... but for now, I am writing yet another journal.

I'm kind of unsure how to write it, though. I mean, my life is great, what more could I ask for? But I've been so depressed lately... It's an illogical thing, you know? Depression... it's just a chemical imbalance in the brain... but it sucks!!!
There's nothing I can do to fix it and sometimes it gets me so down that I can't hide it, and some people don't like that... but I can't help it, so what do they expect me to do? I can't act the way they want me to, I have to be me and if for some reason I am depressed, they should jus get over it and not get all offended.
and that was a bit of a rant I wasn't expecting...
Doggone it, I hate this feeling! I don't know if my self esteem could get any lower! The only way that really helps is by typing, so I hope if this offends anyone, that you can just ignore it and go on with your life because I need to get it out.

The way my mind works is very emotional, but at the same time very logical, and both those sides fight in situations like this. How logical is it to hate yourself and feel like garbage when there is no reason? To suddenly start having paranoid thoughts, or to feel lonely and neglected when you're around people you love and who you KNOW love you back? It is very illogical, but these feelings will not go away!
Unfortunately it makes me so much more stressed about the next four weeks of my life. After those four weeks are up, or even sooner, who knows where I'm going to be? I have been in the same routine for over 2 whole years! And suddenly my whole entire routine is going to be completely dirupted and for someone who is very routine oriented, this is going to be weird. I can only hope the transition will be nice. I mean, I'm going to be thrust into the world I always dreamt about being a part of, but I've been trained to work for the government which runs rather differently!
No asking questions to telling people their designs suck and that you can do better!
I keep spending more and more time online... I need more people to hang out with or something, I almost feel attention starved! lol...
^.^
living with my mom taught me one thing, and that's people do not want to hang around a depressed person. Through experience, I have found it to be true and have learned to bottle up my emotions and to use excuses like, "I'm not feeling too good" or my favorite, "I'm tired."
Person, "So how are you today?"
Me, "Oh not too bad, just tired." sometimes it's true, sometimes I'm really depressed.
But I don't think anyone really knows me well enough to be able to tell the difference and I don't tell people. I hardly ever tell Matt and he's the closest person to me! I need to communicate better so that I can avoid breakdowns... It's just that when I get in this mood I feel bad about everything! Why should I tell people? Why would they care? What good would it do anyway? I don't want to be a whiner! etc.
I just suck and everything is my fault. That's the answer to everything. And why should I share my suckiness? Let everyone else be happy.
And screw you all who say I'm emo. Big difference, and you'd better learn it. >: (

>.<

sorry, I just seriously needed to get some aggression out. If anyone made it this far, thank you and goodnight.

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22611029/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22611029/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 09:10:52 PST
Did you know that swimming with wild dolphins is illegal? [link] Now I can understand how feeding them can be a problem, but making swimming with them illegal? Of course there's always a danger when playing with wild creatures, that's a duh! But there're dangers playing with tamed animals!
Are we going to make riding horses illegal? More people get killed from that than get injured swimming with dolphins...


slowly but surely they take away my dreams... pretty soon we'll be, as Radiohead says, "Pigs, in a cage, on antibiotics."

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22586785/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22586785/ Wed, 14 Jan 2009 21:04:17 PST these are songs that I have obsessed on, playing them sometimes for as long as I have been awake and then some
(on a small note, they all instil a strong sense of emotion to me)

If you want, you can do this too It's actually fun! ^.^

Title: How to Disappear Completely
Artist: Radiohead
Album: Kid A
Reason: It's relaxing, slow, and one part near the end it builds up all stressful and then it just releases... and instills a strange calming feeling


Title: Sleeping Sun
Artist: Nightwish
Album: Oceanborn
Reason: Full of emotion, beautiful voice, I love to sing along, the words are beautiful... Also a calming song


Title: Skyward
Artist: Elvenking
Album: Heathenreel
Reason: Great tune, excellent use of the fiddle, slow with bits of speed, awesome lyrics and great tune
stirs a longing in my heart, a faint scent of depression and loneliness...


Title: Where I Stand
Artist: Machine Men
Album: Circus of Fools
Reason: An interesting style, great words, also great to sing along with, has a great tune.
Loneliness, a sense of being lost... confusion...


Title: Timelessness
Artist: Fear Factory
Album: Obsolete
Reason: Quiet, very slow, not a lot of instrument, or singing. Has an emotional emphatic speaking part at the beginning and the end...
Reminds me of how my dreams feel, the most depressing song I have ever heard and if I listen to it too long, I will get very depressed, but I love it.
Reminds me also of a ghost town full of loneliness and people trapped, with no hope. Pain and sorrow, and devastation.
and great to sing along with... so much feeling

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22569436/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22569436/ Tue, 13 Jan 2009 22:00:31 PST
The Rules are....
#1. NO TAG BACKS...EVER!!!!
#2. Tell 8 things about yourself and Put it in your journal
#3. Then you have to tag 8 people you know and tell them they been tagged

1. My biggest dream right now is to work at Pixar and I don't care if it's just sweeping the floors.

2. Another dream I have is to build a robotic panther, with an exact replicated skeleton made of titanium, using entirely the most advanced techniques.

3. I want to make the scariest movie in the world, using sounds.

4. I'm scared of what will happen in 5 weeks.

5. When I see deer moving, I get very hungry and, as sad as it is, I get a blood lust.

6. I am very violent in talk and thought, but I could never hurt anyone except in self defense.

7. If I had the power...

8. If I had finished that sentence...

I tag YOU!

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22553062/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22553062/ Mon, 12 Jan 2009 21:57:08 PST
Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.

Post the first definition it gives you.

Tag 3 people.

1. Name- Rachel
The most edible female name
Rachel is sooo edible - especially with cream

2. Age- 23
The greatest number of all time.

Reasons why: It is...

1. a prime number, as are 2 and 3.
2. Michael Jordan's number.
3. the NBA record for most consecutive points scored by a single player in a game, done by none other than Michael Jordan.
4. the number of chromosomes in a human sperm or egg.
5. the angle between the earth's magnetic and rotational axis.
6. the Tropic of Cancer at 23 degrees N Latitude.
7. the Tropic of Capricorn at 23 degrees S Latitude.
8. a .com and the page is very cryptic.
9. the most quoted Psalm in the bible ("The Lord is my shepherd..."
10. the number of people executed in "A Tale of Two Cities"
11. the smallest number of people for which there is at least a 50% chance that two will share the same birthday.
12. the standard TCP/IP port for Telnet.
13. one of the "Lost" numbers on the television show....also the sum of two of the other numbers (8 & 15)and the solution to 42-15-4=23, all of which are also Lost numbers.
14. the number of times Caesar was stabbed in Shakespeare's Julius Caesar.
15. has been prominently featured in the following: Serendipity, Futurama, Star Wars A New Hope, Monty Python The Life of Brian, Seinfeld, The Big Lebowski, The Matrix Reloaded, and Die Hard III among MANY MANY other movies.
16. the number of flavors Dr. Pepper claims to be a blend of.
17. the number of distinct orientations of Tetris pieces.
18. the sum of U2, the greatest band ever. U is the 21st letter of the alphabet.
19. the number of letters in the latin alphabet.
20. the number of the Illuminati.
21. the letter W in the english alphabet, a letter with 2 points down and 3 points up.
22. the smallest number of integer sided boxes that tile a box such that no two boxes share a common length.
23. the only US president to serve between nonconsecutive terms of another president (23rd president Benjamin Harrison serving between Grover Cleveland's terms).
Michael Jordan IS number 23. Be like Mike.

3. One of your friends- Sean
a sexy/hot/awsome person
1.dammmm, whata sean

4. What should you be doing right now?- Sleep
You have been awake for 18 hours and are now viewing this useless definition of sleep. You are very tired and your brain is not functioning at its normal capacity. The bags under your eyes are starting to weigh you down. It's 1:30am and you have to get up at 6:30am for work. Another coffee wont help you now...
Turn off your computer and get some sleep you net junky!!

5.Favorite Color? Blue
The hue of the portion of the visible spectrum lying between green and indigo, evoked in a human observer by radiant energy with wavelengths of approximately 420 to 490 nanometers.
The sky is blue.

6. Birthplace? California

1. State the produces more food than anywhere else, has crazy night life, large schools, hot women, a load of stuff to do, and a the longest beach anybody has ever seen.
2. A place you'll want to stay in once you visit get there.
3. Extremely diverse.
3. Much more entertaining than Texas.

7. Birth Month? March
Month in which creative, layed-back, dreamy, cool people were born.
She was born in march so she is creative, layed-back, dreamy and cool.

8. Last person you talked to? Casey
what you name your kid if you dont know if its a boy or a girl.
The mother didnt know if her child was a girl or a boy so she named it casey.

THEY KNOW ME!!!! (O_O)

You should do this It's fun!

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22548528/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22548528/ Mon, 12 Jan 2009 17:23:30 PST Dead bodies no more, however, because now you can do something with your dead loved ones!
(pardon the morbid and not-so-sensitive humor here)
I have decided what to do with me when I die. Turn my ashes in a diamond. Yes, a diamond. Because you can. Oh, do you not believe that such a thing is possible? Check this out: [link]
Believe.

Or you could send your loved on up in a rocket! Or better, help the planet and use your loved one's remains to help build a new corral reef! Perhaps you're more into the jewelry, but don't want a diamond? They make pendants, too! Any number of different ways...

I find this so weird and disturbing... but I would love to be a blue diamond.... sooooo weird....
(and practical, no more dead body build up... but weird)

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22529408/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22529408/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 16:36:56 PST
another deviant :iconstevenwang: has made a chat room for artists to hang out and chat, perhaps share ideas and what not, so if you feel like coming and hanging out, it's called #Pern
[link]

^.^

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22521891/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22521891/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 09:54:52 PST
the sounds it produces are amazing....
Sure it's not the best harp in the world, good heavens those cost over $100,000!! But this is MY harp! My FIRST harp!!!!!

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22492144/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22492144/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 17:22:24 PST 1) Choose a one of your own character(OC).
2) Make them answer the following questions.
3) Then tag three people.
4) Feel free to add some questions of your own.

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1) What gender are you?
I was created a female

2)What is your age?
Somewhere around a month

3)Do you want a hug?
(O_O) If anyone were to hug me, they would get a spike through the chest ^.^

4)Do you have any bad habits?
Occasionally helping the side of evil
Well, hey, it's what I was created for!

5)What is your favorite food?
Meat pies!

6)What is your favorite ice-cream flavor?
What is this "ice-cream" you speak of?

7)Are you a virgin?
I'm a month old! You figure it out!

8)Have you killed anyone?
yes... and I'd prefer no one spoke of it again.

9)Do you hate anyone?
yes

10)Do you have any secrets?
hehehe... very much so!

11)What is your favorite season?
Spring

12) Who is your best friend(s)?
My horse, Rowan

13)What are your hobbies?
Chasing down halflings and being a double agent

14)What is your favorite drink?
Water... or that really sweet bubbly stuff ^.^

15)When is your birthday?
I have no realization of dates, or time, really.

16)What age did you die?
I died???? (O_O)
Considering that I'm a recreation of an elf, I have no idea what my life span is supposed to be

17)Are you nice or mean?
Well, when I was first born, I was evil, completely! but then I got a consciousness... so I'm fairly nice but I act mean.

18)What do you think of your parents?
(O_O)
(I was created by an evil wizard... so not much)

19)What's your Weakness?
Nothing!

20)How long can you stay under water?
I've never tried...

21.) What do you do on a regular daily basis?
Get up, eat, ride my horse to play double agent in order to secretly save the world.

22.) Do you love someone?
I... I'm not sure I know what love is yet...

23.) When was the last time you wet yourself?
Never!

24.) What's your favorite band?
A gold band, which I wear on my finger

25.) Ever worn a dress.
I've not even really been out of my armor!

26.) Willingly?
I might try it...

27.) What do you consider fun in the day-time?
A day off...

28.) At night?
Watching the halflings party

29.) Ever kissed anyone?
no.

30.) ...Of the same gender?
no.

31.) It's clear you're gay.
Hah, I'm a month old! I haven't even met anyone I might like!

32.) Whats your favorite thing to touch?
... uh... soft fluffy things

33.) Does anyone love you?
I think they all hate me, mainly because I'm posing as the enemy for the good side, and of course the evil side could never love anyone...

34.) Whats your favorite colour?
Red, Blue, Green, Black...

35.) When was the last time you cried.
A week after I was born.

36.) Are you crazy?
I'm sure

37.) Ever made love to the same Gender
psh, read the above comments.

38.) If you love anyone, would you let yourself be tortured in the worst way imaginable for you in order for them to be happy?
Yes, and I have and will....

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22477288/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22477288/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 19:33:09 PST Since our boss doesn't work in our building, we have different types of meetings. And he went over different procedures and talked to us about continuing building a better communication between our two libraries and how well things were going and all...
You know, it was a nice meeting and he talked about future plans and everything was cool!

...


and then I got a phone call today.

...

He left us. Ditched us. Left us in the lurch, wondering what's going to happen... and in his place as regional, they put in a woman who seems out to get my coworker...
and I am in shock.

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22450656/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22450656/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 11:31:36 PST >.<

Last night I dreamt that it was the civil war, men were killing other men... but the trees were attacking too. They were picking up men and killing them, smashing them, and they weren't quick deaths, they were slow and painful... there was a lot of blood and screaming and Why do I have to remember these stupid dreams????
The dream was full of fear, pain, sorrow, agony, anger, all the bad emotions... and a mother was trying to put a hat on her son, but she picked up some alien life form that started choking her son, who was about 4, and no one did anything and the kid died! (O_O)



a couple nights ago, I dreamt I was a 35 year old man with a wife and two children. My wife had long black wavy hair and she was wearing a black lacy evening gown decorated with beads. The dress had no sleeves, it was more of a tank top style, and it zipped up the back. She had a purse and jewelry on as well, as if we were supposed to go somewhere.
I had gone outside with my friends to have a drink. It was s typical suburban neighborhood, we had a lawn, a tall brown fence and a bbq... Some insect bit me and I became possessed with a strange feeling of anger and spite, and I went inside. My children (boy, brown hair and about 5, girl, blond and about 3) were cowering behind the couch. I went upstairs where my wife was and...
well, I was interrupted by giant hornets trying to get in and then it was like I woke up, strapped to a metal table. I was me again, but there was a doctor with two metal rods glowing blue and he was poking me, sending currents of electricity through my body....


I have never been able to not dream... even when I pass out I dream, even when under anesthsia. Once I didn't dream, just once, and it was the worst sleep I have ever had.
But these dreams, they're all the same... so full of emotions, never good, people always dying, always running...

]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22431758/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22431758/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 11:04:15 PST 002. Nickname → Rach, Rachey, Hon
003. Status → Totally in a relationship
004. Zodiac sign → The fishy thing
005. Male or female → female
006. Elementary → home schooled
007. Middle School → Home schooled
008. High School → Home schooled
009. Smart → Sometimes Smarter than many, but it doesn't mean I have common sense! Or the ability to communicate...
010. Hair color → Strawberry Blond
011. Long or short → Medium
012. Loud or Quiet → Depends ^.^ I usually prefer to listen, I learn a lot that way!!
013. Sweats or Jeans → Neither!
014. Phone or Camera → Totally Camera, even tho I have a leash on my phone >.<
015. Health freak → More or less... hehe...
016. Drink or Smoke? → NEVER!! I can't handle liquor and I about die from smoke. Borderline asthma due to allergies ^.^
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → Mein kanadisches Verlobtes
018. Eat or Drink → Feeeeed meh, Seymore!
019. Piercings → Two in each ear
020. Tattoos → NEVER!!! (besides the fact that I have such an extremely low pain tolerance...)

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → I was 6, at the Orange Show ^.^
024. First best friend → I was about 6 in Daisy Girl Scouts
026. First crush → As far as I can remember (other than movie stars), two brothers ^.^'
027. First pet → Morris Miner, an orange kitty. I wasn't born when my parents got him.
028. First big vacation → I think was New York I was 1
030. First big birthday → I remember my 4th birthday as being the BESTEST ever! Or at least that's what I thought at the time.

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Oven Roasted $5 footlong from Subway and a Double Chocolate Chip cookie
050. Drinking → Chocolate milk of DOOOM
052. I'm about to → Finish my homework... it sucks. Trying to get rid of the green from a green screen while the person was wearing WHITE pants!!!!! WTC? So the pants are green.
054. Plans for today → Finish at school, make a late Christmas present for a coworker, work, do a craft with the teens, hope the craft goes well, get ready for the staff meeting for tomorrow, and be VERY thankful I get to sleep in tomorrow!

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → I've always envisioned 3; two boys and a girl...
059. Want to get married? → Very Much So... am rather impatient hehehe... well it has been almost 5 years now! XP am supposed to get married this year I believe, according to the plans
060. Careers in mind → Practically Everything! So I decided to go with a 3D job, cuz they CAN do everything!!!!!!!

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
068. Lips or eyes → eyes eyes eyes oh I love his eyes!!
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller, about 6 inches taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous →Spontaneously Romantic
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Don't think I truly care, perhaps stomach?
074. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive (and communicative)
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship!
077. Trouble maker or hesitant → Trouble-maker? Er, I prefer that they are headstrong, not hesitant. Confident.

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → Never needed them
081. Ran away from home → I've tried, but never made it far.
084. Broken someone's heart → I'm uncertain, but perhaps and I hope not!
085. Been arrested → N... ]]> ~kamiiyu http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22425041/ http://kamiiyu.deviantart.com/journal/22425041/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 22:29:54 PST



oh yeah baby

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